首页 >出版文学> WIVES AND DAUGHTERS>第34章
  hecontinued,notknowingwhattosay,andfancyingthathisinconstancywasranklinginMrGibson’smind。’No!Idon’tsupposeyouhave。Don’tgoandfancyitisthatwhichisannoyingme。You’remistakenaboutMissKirkpatrick,however。Idon’tbelieveshecouldeverhavemeanttogiveyouencouragement!’MrCoxe’sfacegrewperceptiblypaler。Hisfeelings,ifevanescent,wereevidentlystrong。’Ithink,sir,ifyoucouldhaveseenher—Idon’tconsidermyselfvain,andmannerissodifficulttodescribe。Atanyrate,youcanhavenoobjectiontomytakingmychance,andspeakingtoher。’’Ofcourse,ifyouwon’tbeconvincedotherwise,Icanhavenoobjection。
  Butifyou’lltakemyadvice,youwillspareyourselfthepainofarefusal。
  Imay,perhaps,betrenchingonconfidence,butIthinkIoughttotellyouthatheraffectionsareotherwiseengaged。’’Itcannotbe!’saidMrCoxe。’MrGibson,theremustbesomemistake。I
  havegoneasfarasIdarediiiexpressingmyfeelings,andhermannerhasbeenmostgracious。Idon’tthinkshecouldhavemisunderstoodmymeaning。
  Perhapsshehaschangedhermind?Itispossiblethat,afterconsideration,shehaslearnttopreferanother,isitnot?’’By"another,"youmeanyourself,Isuppose。Icanbelieveinsuchinconstancy’
  (hecouldnothelp,inhisownmind,givingaslightsneerattheinstancebeforehim),’butIshouldbeverysorrytothinkthatMissKirkpatrickcouldbeguiltyofit。’’Butshemay—itisachance。Willyouallowmetoseeher?’’Certainly,mypoorfellow’—for,intermingledwithalittlecontempt,wasagooddealofrespectforthesimplicity,theunworldliness,thestrengthoffeeling,eventhoughthefeelingwasevanescent—’Iwillsendhertoyoudirectly。’’Thankyou,sir。Godblessyouforakindfriend!’MrGibsonwentupstairstothedrawing—room,wherehewasprettysureheshouldfindCynthia。Thereshewas’asbrightandcarelessasusual,makingupabonnetforhermother,andchatteringtoMollyassheworked。’Cynthia,youwillobligemebygoingdownintomyconsulting—roomatonce。
  MrCoxewantstospeaktoyou!’’MrCoxe?’saidCynthia。’Whatcanhewantwithme?’Evidently,sheansweredherownquestionassoonasitwasasked,forshecoloured,andavoidedmeetingMrGibson’ssevere,uncompromisinglook。
  Assoonasshehadlefttheroom,MrGibsonsatedown,andtookupanewEdinburghlyingonthetable,asanexcuseforconversation。Wasthereanythinginthearticlethatmadehimsay,afteraminuteortwo,toMolly,whosatesilentandwondering,—"Molly,youmustnevertriflewiththeloveofanhonestman。Youdon’tknowwhatpainyoumaygive。"PresentlyCynthiacamebackintothedrawing—room,lookingverymuchconfused。
  MostlikelyshewouldnothavereturnedifshehadknownthatMrGibsonwasstillthere;butitwassuchanunheard—ofthingforhimtobesittinginthatroominthemiddleoftheday,readingormakingpretencetoread,thatshehadneverthoughtofhisremaining。Helookedupatherthemomentshecamein,sotherewasnothingforitbutputtingaboldfaceonit,andgoingbacktoherwork。’IsMrCoxestilldownstairs?’askedMrGibson。’No。Heisgone。Heaskedmetogiveyoubothhiskindregards。Ibelieveheisleavingthisafternoon。’Cynthiatriedtomakehermannerascommonplaceaspossible;butshedidnotlookup,andhervoicetrembledalittle。MrGibsonwentonlookingathisbookforafewminutes;butCynthiafeltthatmorewascoming,andonlywisheditwouldcomequickly,fortheseveresilencewasveryhardtobear。Itcameatlast。’Itrustthiswillneveroccuragain,Cynthia!’saidhe,ingravedispleasure。
  ’Ishouldnotfeelsatisfiedwiththeconductofanygirl,howeverfree,whocouldreceivemarkedattentionsfromayoungmanwithcomplacency,andsoleadhimontomakeanofferwhichshenevermeanttoaccept。ButwhatmustIthinkofayoungwomaninyourposition,engaged—yet"acceptingmostgraciously,"forthatwasthewayCoxeexpressedit—theoverturesofanotherman?Doyouconsiderwhatunnecessarypainyouhavegivenhimbyyourthoughtlessbehaviour?Icallit"thoughtless,"butitisthemildestepithetIcanapplytoit。Ibegthatsuchathingmaynotoccuragain,orIshallbeobligedtocharacterizeitmoreseverely。’Mollycouldnotimaginewhat"moreseverely"couldbe,forherfather’smannerappearedtoheralmostcruelinitssternness。Cynthiacolouredupextremely,thenwentpale,andatlengthraisedherbeautifulappealingeyesfulloftearstoMrGibson。Hewastouchedbythatlook,butheresolvedimmediatelynottobemollifiedbyanyofherphysicalcharmsofexpression,buttokeeptohissoberjudgmentofherconduct。’Please,MrGibson,hearmysideofthestorybeforeyouspeaksohardlytome。Ididnotmeanto—toflirt。Imerelymeanttomakemyselfagreeable,—Ican’thelpdoingthat,—andthatgooseofaMrCoxeseemstohavefanciedImeanttogivehimencouragement。’’Doyoumeanthatyouwerenotawarethathewasfallinginlovewithyou?’
  MrGibsonwasmeltingintoareadinesstobeconvincedbythatsweetvoice,andpleadingface。’Well,IsupposeImustspeaktruly。’Cynthiablushedandsmiled—eversolittle—butitwasasmile,andithardenedMrGibson’sheartagain。
  ’Ididthinkonceortwicethathewasbecomingalittlemorecomplimentarythantheoccasionrequired;butIhatethrowingcoldwateronpeople,andIneverthoughthecouldtakeitintohissillyheadtofancyhimselfseriouslyinlove,andtomakesuchafussatthelast,afteronlyafortnight’sacquaintance。’’Youseemtohavebeenprettywellawareofhissilliness(Ishouldrathercallitsimplicity)。Don’tyouthinkyoushouldhaverememberedthatitmightleadhimtoexaggeratewhatyouweredoingandsayingintoencouragement?’’Perhaps。IdaresayI’mallwrong,andthatheisallright,’saidCynthia,piquedandpouting。’WeusedtosayinFrance,that"lesabsensonttoujourstort,"butreallyitseemsasifhere——’shestopped。Shewasunwillingtobeimpertinenttoamanwhomsherespectedandliked。Shetookupanotherpointofherdefence,andrathermademattersworse。’Besides,Rogerwouldnotallowmetoconsidermyselfasfinallyengagedtohim;Iwouldwillinglyhavedoneit,buthewouldnotletme。’’Nonsense。Don’tletusgoontalkingaboutit,Cynthia!IhavesaidallthatImeantosay。Ibelievethatyouwereonlythoughtless,asItoldyoubefore。Butdon’tletithappenagain。’Helefttheroomatonce,toputastoptotheconversation,thecontinuanceofwhichwouldservenousefulpurpose,andperhapsendbyirritatinghim。’"Notguilty,butwerecommendtheprisonernottodoitagain。"It’sprettymuchthat,isn’tit,Molly?’saidCynthia,lettinghertearsdownfall,’
  even。whileshesmiled。’Idobelieveyourfathermightmakeagoodwomanofmeyet,ifhewouldonlytakethepains,andwasnotquitesosevere。
  AndtothinkofthatstupidlittlefellowmakingallthismischiefHepretendedtotakeittoheart,asifhehadlovedmeforyearsinsteadofonlyfordays。Idaresayonlyforhoursifthetruthweretold。’’Iwasafraidhewasbecomingveryfondofyou,’saidMolly;Catleastitstruckmeonceortwice;butIknewhecouldnotstaylong,andIthoughtitwouldonlymakeyouuncomfortableifIsaidanythingaboutit。ButnowIwishIhad!’’Itwouldnothavemadeabitofdifference,’repliedCynthia。’Iknewhelikedme,andIliketobeliked;it’sborninmetotrytomakeeveryoneIcomenearfondofme;butthentheyshouldnotcarryittoofar,foritbecomesverytroublesomeiftheydo。Ishallhatered—hairedpeoplefortherestofmylife。Tothinkofsuchamanasthatbeingthecauseofyourfather’sdispleasurewithme!’Mollyhadaquestionathertongue’sendthatshelongedtoput;sheknewitwasindiscreet,butatlastoutitcamealmostagainstherwill。’ShallyoutellRogeraboutit?’Cynthiareplied,’Ihavenotthoughtaboutit—no!Idon’tthinkIshall—there’snoneed。Perhaps,ifweareevermarried——’’Evermarried!’saidMolly,underherbreath。ButCynthiatooknonoticeoftheexclamationuntilshehadfinishedthesentencewhichitinterrupted。’——andIcanseehisface,andknowhismood,Imaytellithimthen;
  butnotinwriting,andwhenheisabsent;itmightannoyhim。’’Iamafraiditwouldmakehimuncomfortable,’saidMolly,simply。’Andyetitmustbesopleasanttobeabletotellhimeverything—allyourdifficultiesandtroubles。’’Yes;onlyIdon’tworryhimwiththesethings;itisbettertowritehimmerryletters,andcheerhimupamongtheblackfolk。Yourepeated"Evermarried,"alittlewhileago;doyouknow,Molly,Idon’tthinkIevershallbemarriedtohim?Idon’tknowwhy,butIhaveastrongpresentiment,soit’sjustaswellnottotellhimallmysecrets,foritwouldbeawkwardforhimtoknowthemifitnevercameoff!’Mollydroppedherwork,andsatesilent,lookingintothefuture;atlengthshesaid,’Ithinkitwouldbreakhisheart,Cynthia!’’Nonsense。Why,IamsurethatMrCoxecameherewiththeintentionoffallinginlovewithyou—youneednotblushsoviolently。IamsureyousawitasplainlyasIdid,onlyyoumadeyourselfdisagreeable,andI
  tookpityonhim,andconsoledhiswoundedvanity。’’Canyou—doyoudaretocompareRogerHamleytoMrCoxe?’askedMolly,indignantly。’No,no,Idon’t!’saidCynthiainamoment。’Theyareasdifferentasmencanbe。Don’tbesodreadfullyseriousovereverything,Molly。Youlookasoppressedwithsadreproach,asifIhadbeenpassingontoyouthescoldingyourfathergaveme。’’BecauseIdon’tthinkyouvalueRogerasyouought,Cynthia!’saidMollystoutly,foritrequiredagooddealofcouragetoforceherselftosaythis,althoughshecouldnottellwhysheshranksofromspeaking。’Yes,Ido!It’snotinmynaturetogointoecstasies,andIdon’tsupposeIshalleverbewhatpeoplecall"inlove。"ButIamgladhelovesme,andIliketomakehimhappy,andIthinkhimthebestandmostagreeablemanIknow,alwaysexceptingyourfatherwhenheisnotangrywithme。
  WhatcanIsaymore,Molly?wouldyoulikemetosayIthinkhimhandsome?’’Iknowmostpeoplethinkhimplain,but——’’Well,I’moftheopinionofmostpeoplethen,andsmallblametothem。
  ButIlikehisface—oh,tenthousandtimesbetterthanMrPreston’shandsomeness!’
  ForthefirsttimeduringtheconversationCynthiaseemedthoroughlyinearnest。WhyMrPrestonwasintroducedneithershenorMollyknew;itcameupandoutbyasuddenimpulse;butafiercelookcameintotheeyes,andthesoftlipscontractedthemselvesasCynthianamedhisname。Mollyhadnoticedthislookbefore,alwaysatthementionofthisoneperson。’Cynthia,whatmakesyoudislikeMrPrestonsomuch?’’Don’tyou?Whydoyouaskme?andyet,Molly,’saidshe,suddenlyrelaxingintodepression,notmerelyintoneandlook,butinthedroopofherlimbs—’Molly,whatshouldyouthinkofmeifImarriedhimafterall?’’Marriedhim!Hasheeveraskedyou?’ButCynthia,insteadofreplyingtothisquestion,wenton,utteringherownthoughts,—’Moreunlikelythingshavehappened。Haveyouneverheardofstrongwillsmesmerizingweakeronesintosubmission?OneofthegirlsatMadameLefevre’swentoutasagovernesstoaRussianfamily,wholivednearMoscow。IsometimesthinkI’llwritetohertogetmeasituationinRussia,justtogetoutofthedailychanceofseeingthatman!’’Butsometimesyouseemquiteintimatewithhim,andtalktohim——’’HowcanIhelpit?’saidCynthiaimpatiently。Thenrecoveringherselfsheadded:’WeknewhimsowellatAshcombe,andhe’snotamantobeeasilythrownoff,Icantellyou。Imustbeciviltohim;it’snotfromliking,andheknowsitisnot,forI’vetoldhimso。However,wewon’ttalkabouthim。Idon’tknowhowwecametodoit,I’msure:themerefactofhisexistence,andofhisbeingwithinhalfamileofus,isbadenough。Oh!
  IwishRogerwasathome,andrich,andcouldmarrymeatonce,andcarrymeawayfromthatman!IfI’dthoughtofit,IreallybelieveIwouldhavetakenpoorred—hairedMrCoxe。’’Idon’tunderstanditatall,’saidMolly。’IdislikeMrPreston,butIshouldneverthinkoftakingsuchviolentstepsasyouspeakof,togetawayfromtheneighbourhoodinwhichhelives。’’No,becauseyouareareasonablelittledarling,’saidCynthia,resumingherusualmanner,andcominguptoMolly,andkissingher。’Atleastyou’llacknowledgeI’magoodhater!’’Yes。ButstillIdon’tunderstandit。’’Oh,nevermind!ThereareoldcomplicationswithouraffairsatAshcombe。
  Moneymattersareattherootofitall。Horridpoverty—doletustalkofsomethingelse!Or,betterstill,letmegoandfinishmylettertoRoger,orIshallbetoolatefortheAfricanmail!’’Isitnotgone?Oh,Ioughttohaveremindedyou!Itwillbetoolate。
  Didyounotseethenoticeatthepost—officethatlettersfor——oughttobeinLondononthemorningofthe10thinsteadoftheevening。Oh,Iamsosorry!’’SoamI,butitcan’tbehelped。Itistobehopeditwillbethegreatertreatwhenhedoesgetit。I’veafargreaterweightonmyheart,becauseyourfatherseemssodispleasedwithme。Iwasfondofhim,andnowheismakingmequiteacoward。Yousee,Molly,’continuedshe,alittlepiteously,’I’veneverlivedwithpeoplewithsuchahighstandardofconductbefore;
  andIdon’tquiteknowhowtobehave。’’Youmustlearn,’saidMolly,tenderly。’You’llfindRogerquiteasstrictinhisnotionsofrightandwrong。’’Ah,buthe’sinlovewithme!’saidCynthia,withaprettyconsciousnessofherpower。Mollyturnedawayherhead,andwassilent;itwasofnousecombatingthetruth,andshetriedrathernottofeelit—nottofeel,poorgirl,thatshetoohadagreatweightonherheart,intothecauseofwhichsheshrankfromexamining。Thatwholewinterlongshehadfeltasifhersunwasallshroudedoverwithgreymist,andcouldnolongershinebrightlyforher。Shewakenedupinthemorningwithadullsenseofsomethingbeingwrong—theworldwasoutofjoint,and,ifshewereborntosetitright,shedidnotknowhowtodoit。Blindherselfasshewould,shecouldnothelpperceivingthatherfatherwasnotsatisfiedwiththewifehehadchosen。ForalongtimeMollyhadbeensurprisedathisapparentcontentment;sometimesshehadbeenunselfishenoughtobegladthathewassatisfied;butstillmorefrequentlynaturewouldhaveitsway,andshewasalmostirritatedatwhatsheconsideredhisblindness。
  Something,however,hadchangedhimnow:somethingthathadarisenatthetimeofCynthia’sengagement;hehadbecomenervouslysensitivetohiswife’sfailings,andhiswholemannerhadgrowndryandsarcastic,notmerelytoher,butsometimestoCynthia,—andeven—butthisveryrarely,toMollyherself。Hewasnotamantogointopassions,orebullitionsoffeeling:theywouldhaverelievedhim,evenwhiledegradinghiminhisowneyes;buthebecamehard,andoccasionallybitterinhisspeechesandways。Mollynowlearnttolongafterthevanishedblindnessinwhichherfatherhadpassedthefirstyearofhismarriage;yettherewerenooutrageousinfractionsofdomesticpeace。SomepeoplemightsaythatMrGibson’acceptedtheinevitable;’hetoldhimselfinmorehomelyphrase’thatitwasnousecryingoverspiltmilk;’andhe,fromprinciple,avoidedallactualdissensionswithhiswife,preferringtocutshortadiscussionbyasarcasm,orbyleavingtheroom。Moreover,MrsGibsonhadaverytolerabletemperofherown,andhercat—likenaturepurredanddelightedinsmoothways,andpleasantquietness。Shehadnogreatfacilityforunderstandingsarcasm;
  itistrueitdisturbedher,butasshewasnotquickatdecipheringanydepthofmeaning,andfeltittobeunpleasanttothinkaboutit,sheforgotitassoonaspossible。Yetshesawshewasofteninsomekindofdisfavourwithherhusband,anditmadeheruneasy。SheresembledCynthiainthis;
  shelikedtobeliked;andshewantedtoregaintheesteemwhichshedidnotperceiveshehadlostforever。Mollysometimestookherstepmother’spartinsecret;shefeltasifsheherselfcouldneverhaveborneherfather’shardspeechessopatiently:theywouldhavecuthertotheheart,andshemusteitherhavedemandedanexplanation,andprobedthesoretothebottom,orsatedowndespairingandmiserable。InsteadofwhichMrsGibson,afterherhusbandhadlefttheroomontheseoccasions,wouldsayinamannermorebewilderedthanhurt,—’Ithinkdearpapaseemsalittleputoutto—day;wemustseethathehasadinnerthathelikeswhenhecomeshome。Ihaveoftenperceivedthateverythingdependsonmakingamancomfortableinhisownhouse。’Andthusshewenton,gropingabouttofindthemeansofreinstatingherselfinhisgoodgraces—reallytrying,accordingtoherlights,tillMollywasoftencompelledtopityherinspiteofherself,andalthoughshesawthatherstepmotherwasthecauseofherfather’sincreasedastringencyofdisposition。Forindeedhehadgotintothatkindofexaggeratedsusceptibilitywithregardtohiswife’sfaults,whichmaybebesttypifiedbythestateofbodilyirritationthatisproducedbytheconstantrecurrenceofanyparticularnoise:thosewhoarebroughtwithinhearingofit,areapttobealwaysonthewatchfortherepetition,iftheyareoncemadetonoticeit,andareinanirritablestateofnerves。SothatpoorMollyhadnotpassedacheerfulwinter,independentlyofanyprivatesorrowsthatshemighthaveinherownheart。Shedidnotlookwell,either;shewasgraduallyfallingintolowhealth,ratherthanbadhealth。Herheartbeatmorefeeblyandslower;thevivifyingstimulantofhope—evenunacknowledgedhope—wasgoneoutofherlife。Itseemedasiftherewasnot,andnevercouldbeinthisworld,anyhelpforthedumbdiscordancybetweenherfatherandhiswife。Dayafterday,monthaftermonth,yearafteryear,wouldMollyhavetosympathizewithherfather,andpityherstepmother,feelingacutelyforboth,andcertainlymorethanMrsGibsonfeltforherself。Mollycouldnotimaginehowshehadatonetimewishedforherfather’seyestobeopened,andhowshecouldeverhavefanciedthatiftheywere,hewouldbeabletochangethingsinMrsGibson’scharacter。Itwasallhopeless,andtheonlyattemptataremedywastothinkaboutitaslittleaspossible。ThenCynthia’swaysandmannersaboutRogergaveMollyagreatdealofuneasiness。ShedidnotbelievethatCynthiacaredenoughforhim;atanyrate,notwiththesortoflovethatsheherselfwouldhavebestowed,ifshehadbeensohappy—no,thatwasnotii—ifshehadbeeninCynthia’splace。Shefeltasifsheshouldhavegonetohimbothhandsheldout,fullandbrimmingoverwithtenderness,andbeengratefulforeverywordofpreciousconfidencebestowedonher。
  YetCynthiareceivedhisletterswithakindofcarelessness,andreadthemwithastrangeindifference,whileMollysateatherfeet,sotospeak,lookingupwitheyesaswistfulasadog’swaitingforcrumbs,andsuchchancebeneficences。Shetriedtobepatientontheseoccasions,butatlastshemustask,—
  ’Whereishe,Cynthia?Whatdoeshesay?’BythistimeCynthiahadputdowntheletteronthetablebyher,smilingalittlefromtimetotime,assherememberedthelovingcomplimentsitcontained。’Where?Oh,Ididnotlookexactly—somewhereinAbyssinia—Huon。’I
  can’treadtheword,anditdoesnotmuchsignify,foritwouldgivemenoidea。’’Ishewell?’askedgreedyMolly。’Yes,now。Hehashadaslighttouchoffever,hesays;butit’sallovernow,andhehopesheisgettingacclimatized。’’Offever!—andwhotookcareofhim?hewouldwantnursing—andsofarfromhome。Oh,Cynthia!’’Oh,Idon’tfancyhehadanynursing,poorfellow!Onedoesnotexpectnursing,andhospitals,anddoctorsinAbyssinia;buthehadplentyofquininewithhim,andIsupposethatisthebestspecific。Atanyrate,hesaysheisquitewellnow!’Mollysatesilentforaminuteortwo。’Whatisthedateoftheletter,Cynthia?’’Ididnotlook。Decemberthe—Decemberthe10th。’’That’snearlytwomonthsago,’saidMolly。’Yes;butIdeterminedIwouldnotworrymyselfwithuselessanxiety,whenhewentaway。Ifanythingdid—gowrong,youknow,’saidCynthia,usinganeuphuism’fordeath,asmostpeopledo(itisanuglywordtospeakplainoutinthemidstoflife),’itwouldbealloverbeforeIevenheardofhisillness,andIcouldbeofnousetohim—couldI,Molly?’’No。Idaresayitisallverytrue;onlyIshouldthinkthesquirecouldnottakeitsoeasily。’’IalwayswritehimalittlenotewhenIhearfromRoger,butIdon’tthinkI’llnamethistouchoffever—shallI,Molly?’’Idon’tknow,’saidMolly。’Peoplesayoneought,butIalmostwishI
  hadnotheardit。Please,doeshesayanythingelsethatImayhear?’’Oh,lovers’lettersaresosilly,andIthinkthisissillierthanusual,’
  saidCynthia,lookingoverherletteragain。’Here’sapieceyoumayread,fromthatlinetothat,’indicatingtwoplaces。’Ihavenotreaditmyselfforitlookeddullish—allaboutAristotleandPliny—andIwanttogetthisbonnet—capmadeupbeforewegoouttopayourcalls。’Mollytooktheletter,thethoughtcrossinghermindthathehadtouchedit,hadhadhishandsuponit,inthosefar—distantdesertlands,wherehemightbelosttosightandtoanyhumanknowledgeofhisfate;evennowherprettybrownfingersalmostcaressedtheflimsypaperwiththeirdelicacyoftouchassheread。Shesawreferencesmadetobooks,which,withalittletrouble,wouldbeaccessibletoherhereinHollingford。
  Perhapsthedetailsandthereferenceswouldmaketheletterdullanddrytosomepeople,butnottoher,thankstohisformerteachingandtheinteresthehadexcitedinherforhispursuits。But,ashesaidinapology,whathadhetowriteaboutinthatsavageland,buthislove,andhisresearches,andtravels?Therewasnosociety,nogaiety,nonewbookstowriteabout,nogossipinAbyssinianwilds。Mollywasnotinstronghealth,andperhapsthismadeheralittlefanciful;
  butcertainitisthatherthoughtsbydayandherdreamsbynightwerehauntedbytheideaofRogerlyingillanduntendedinthosesavagelands。
  Herconstantprayer,’OmyLord!giveherthelivingchild,andinnowiseslayit,’camefromaheartastrueasthatoftherealmotherinKingSolomon’sjudgment。’Lethimlive,lethimlive,eventhoughImayneverseteyesuponhimagain。Havepityuponhisfather!Grantthathemaycomehomesafe,andlivehappilywithherwhomhelovessotenderly—sotenderly,OGod。’Andthenshewouldburstintotears,anddropasleepatlast,sobbing。
  chapter38CHAPTERXXXVIIIMRKIRKPATRICK,Q。C。CynthiawasalwaysthesamewithMolly:kind,sweet—tempered,readytohelp,professingagreatdealofloveforher,andprobablyfeelingasmuchasshedidforanyoneintheworld。ButMollyhadreachedtothissuperficialdepthofaffectionandintimacyinthefirstfewweeksofCynthia’sresidenceinherfather’shouse;andifshehadbeenofanaturepronetoanalysethecharacterofonewhomsheloveddearly,shemighthaveperceivedthat,withallCynthia’sapparentfrankness,therewerecertainlimitsbeyondwhichherconfidencedidnotgo;whereherreservebegan,andherrealselfwasshroudedinmystery。Forinstance,herrelationswithMrPrestonwereoftenverypuzzlingtoMolly。ShewassurethattherehadbeenamuchgreaterintimacybetweenthemformerlyatAshcombe,andthattheremembranceofthiswasoftenverygallingandirritatingtoCynthia,whowasasevidentlydesirousofforgettingitashewasanxioustomakeherrememberit。Butwhythisintimacyhadceased,whyCynthiadislikedhimsoextremelynow,andmanyotherunexplainedcircumstancesconnectedwiththesetwofacts,wereCynthia’ssecrets;andsheeffectuallybaffledallMolly’sinnocentattemptsduringthefirstglowofherfriendshipforCynthia,tolearnthegirlishantecedentsofhercompanion’slife。EverynowandthenMollycametoadeadwall,beyondwhichshecouldnotpass—atleastwiththedelicateinstrumentswhichwereallshechosetouse。
  PerhapsCynthiamighthavetoldalltherewastotelltoamoreforciblecuriosity,whichknewhowtoimproveeveryslipofthetongueandeveryfitoftempertoitsowngratification。ButMolly’swastheinterestofaffection,notthecoarserdesireofknowingeverythingforalittleexcitement;
  andassoonasshesawthatCynthiadidnotwishtotellheranythingaboutthatperiodofherlife,Mollyleftoffreferringtoit。ButifCynthiahadpreservedasweettranquillityofmannerandanunvaryingkindnessforMollyduringthewinterofwhichthereisquestion,atpresentshewastheonlypersontowhomthebeauty’swayswereunchanged。MrGibson’sinfluencehadbeengoodforheraslongasshesawthathelikedher;shehadtriedtokeepashighaplaceinhisgoodopinionasshecould,andhadcurbedmanyalittlesarcasmagainsthermother,andmanyatwistingoftheabsolutetruthwhenhewasby。Nowtherewasaconstantuneasinessaboutherwhichmadehermorecowardlythanbefore;andevenherpartisan,Molly,couldnothelpbeingawareofthedistinctequivocationssheoccasionallyusedwhenanythinginMrGibson’swordsorbehaviourpressedhertoohard。
  Herreparteestohermotherwerelessfrequentthantheyhadbeen,buttherewasoftentheunusualphenomenonofpettishnessinherbehaviourtoMrsGibson。Thesechangesinhumouranddisposition,heredescribedallatonce,wereinthemselvesaseriesofdelicatealterationsofrelativeconductspreadovermanymonths—manywintermonthsoflongeveningsandbadweather,whichbringoutdiscordsofcharacter,asadashofcoldwaterbringsoutthefadingcoloursofanoldfresco。DuringmuchofthistimeMrPrestonhadbeenatAshcombe;forLordCumnorhadnotbeenabletofindanagentwhomhelikedtoreplaceMrPreston;
  andwhiletheinferiorsituationremainedvacantMrPrestonhadundertakentodothedutiesofboth。MrsGoodenoughhadhadaseriousillness;andthelittlesocietyatHollingforddidnotcaretomeetwhileoneoftheirhabitualsetwasscarcelyoutofdanger。Sotherehadbeenverylittlevisiting;andthoughMissBrowningsaidthattheabsenceofthetemptationsofsocietywasveryagreeabletocultivatedminds,afterthedissipationsofthepreviousautumn,whentherewerepartieseveryweektowelcomeMrPreston,yetMissPhoebeletoutinconfidencethatsheandhersisterhadfallenintothehabitofgoingtobedatnineo’clock,fortheyfoundcribbagenightafternight,fromfiveo’clocktillten,rathertoomuchofagoodthing。Totellthetruth,thatwinter,ifpeaceful,wasmonotonousinHollingford;andthewholecircleofgentilitytherewasdelightedtobestirredupinMarchbytheintelligencethatMrKirkpatrick,thenewly—madeQ。C。,wascomingonavisitofacoupleofdaystohissister—in—lawMrsGibson。MrsGoodenough’sroomwastheverycentreofgossip;gossiphadbeenherdailybreadthroughherlife,gossipwasmeatandwinetohernow。’Dear—ah—me!’saidtheoldlady,rousingherselfsoastosituprightinhereasychair,andproppingherselfwithherhandsonthearms;’whowouldha’thoughtshe’dsuchgrandrelations!Why,MrAshtontoldmeoncethataQueen’scounselwasasliketobeajudgeasakittenisliketobeacat。Andtothinkofherbeingasgoodasasistertoajudge!Isawoneoncst;andIknowIthoughtasIshouldnotwishforabetterwinter—cloakthanhisoldrobeswouldmakeme,ifIcouldonlyfindoutwhereIcouldgetthemsecond—hand。AndIknowshe’dhersilkgownsturnedanddyedandcleaned,and,foraughtIknow,turnedagain,whileshelivedatAshcombe。
  Keepingaschool,too,andsonearakintothisQueen’scounselallthetime!Well,tobesure,itwasnotmuchofaschool—onlytenyoungladiesatthebesto’times;soperhapsheneverheardofit。’’I’vebeenwonderingwhatthey’llgivehimtodinner,’saidMissBrowning。