hadaletterfrommyLordHollingford—whereisit?’pullingoutagreatblackleathernreceptacleforallmannerofpapers。Andputtingonhisspectacles,hereadaloudtheirheadings。’"Measurementoftimber,newrailings,""drenchforcows,fromFarmerHayes,"
"Dobson’saccounts,"—’um’um—hereitis。Nowreadthatletter,’handingittoMrGibson。Itwasamanly,feeling,sensibleletter,explainingtotheoldfatherinverysimplelanguagetheserviceswhichweredemandedbythetermsofthewilltowhichheandtwoorthreeothersweretrustees;theliberalallowanceforexpenses,thestillmoreliberalrewardforperformance,whichhadtemptedseveralmenofconsiderablerenowntoofferthemselvesascandidatesfortheappointment。LordHollingfordthenwentontosaythat,havingseenagooddealofRogerlately,sincethepublicationofhisarticleinreplytotheFrenchosteologist,hehadhadreasontothinkthatinhimthetrusteeswouldfindunitedthevariousqualitiesrequiredinagreatermeasurethaninanyoftheapplicantswhohadatthattimepresentedthemselves。Rogerhaddeepinterestinthesubject;muchacquiredknowledge,andatthesametime,greatnaturalpowersofcomparison,andclassificationoffacts;hehadshown’himselftobeanobserverofafineandaccuratekind,hewasoftherightage,intheveryprimeofhealthandstrength,andunshackledbyanyfamilyties。HereMrGibsonpausedforconsideration。Hehardlycaredtoascertainbywhatstepstheresulthadbeenarrivedat—healreadyknewwhatthatresultwas;buthismindwasagainarrestedashiseyecaughtontheremunerationoffered,whichwasindeedmostliberal;andthenhereadwithattentionthehighpraisebestowedonthesoninthislettertothefather。ThesquirehadbeenwatchingMrGibson—waitingtillhecametothispart—andherubbedhishandstogetherashesaid,—’Ay!you’vecometoitatlast。It’sthebestpartofthewhole,isitnot?Godblesstheboy!andfromaWhig,mindyou,whichmakesitthemorehandsome。Andthere’smoretocomestill。Isay,Gibson,Ithinkmyluckisturningatlast,’passinghimonyetanotherlettertoread。’Thatonlycamethismorning;butI’veactedonitalready,Isentfortheforemanofthedrainageworksatonce,Idid;andto—morrow,pleaseGod,they’llbeatworkagain。’MrGibsonreadthesecondletter,fromRoger。ToacertaindegreeitwasamodestrepetitionofwhatLordHollingfordhadsaid,withanexplanationofhowhehadcometotakesodecidedastepinlifewithoutconsultinghisfather。Hedidnotwishhimtobeinsuspenseforonereason。Anotherwasthathefelt,asnooneelsecouldfeelforhim,thatbyacceptingthisoffer,heentereduponthekindoflifeforwhichheknewhimselftobethemostfitted。Andthenhemergedthewholeintobusiness。Hesaidthatheknewwellthesufferinghisfatherhadgonethroughwhenhehadhadtogiveuphisdrainageworksforwantofmoney;thathe,Roger,hadbeenenabledatoncetoraisemoneyupontheremunerationhewastoreceiveontheaccomplishmentofhistwoyears’work;andthathehadinsuredhislifeatonce,inordertoprovidefortherepaymentofthemoneyhehadraised,incasehedidnotlivetoreturntoEngland。Hesaidthatthesumhehadborrowedonthissecuritywouldatoncebeforwardedtohisfather。MrGibsonlaiddowntheletterwithoutspeakingawordforsometime;thenhesaid,—’He’llhavetopayaprettysumforinsuringhislifebeyondseas。’’HehasgothisFellowshipmoney,’saidthesquire,alittledepressedatMrGibson’sremark。’Yes;that’strue。Andhe’sastrongyoungfellow,asIknow。’’IwishIcouldtellhismother,’saidthesquireinanunder—tone。’Itseemsallsettlednow,’saidMrGibson,moreinreplytohisownthoughtsthantothesquire’sremark。’Yes!’saidthesquire;’andthey’renotgoingtoletthegrassgrowunderhisfeet。He’stobeoffassoonashecangethisscientifictrapsready。
Ialmostwishhewasn’ttogo。Youdon’tseemquitetolikeit,doctor?’’YesIdo,’saidMrGibsoninamorecheerfultonethanbefore。’Itcan’tbehelpednowwithoutdoingamischief,’thoughthetohimself。’Why,squire,Ithinkit’sagreathonourtohavesuchason。Ienvyyou,that’swhatIdo。Here’saladofthreeorfourandtwentydistinguishinghimselfinmorewaysthanone,andassimpleandaffectionateathomeasanyfellowneedtobe—notabitsetup。’’Ay,ay;he’stwiceasmuchasontomeasOsborne,whohasbeenallhislifesetuponnothingatall,asonemaysay。’Come,squire,ImustnothearanythingagainstOsborne;wemaypraiseone,withouthittingattheother。OsbornehasnothadthestronghealthwhichhasenabledRogertoworkashehasdone。ImetamanwhoknewhistutoratTrinitytheotherday,andofcoursewebegancrackingaboutRoger—it’snoteverydaythatonecanreckonaseniorwrangleramongstone’sfriends,andI’mnearlyasproudoftheladasyouare。ThisMrMasontoldmethetutorsaidthatonlyhalfofRoger’ssuccesswasowingtohismentalpowers;theotherhalfwasowingtohisperfecthealth,whichenabledhimtoworkharderandmorecontinuouslythanmostmenwithoutsuffering。Hesaidthatinallhisexperiencehehadneverknownanyonewithanequalcapacityformentallabour;andthathecouldcomeagainwithafreshappetitetohisstudiesaftershorterintervalsofrestthanmost。NowI,beingadoctor,traceagooddealofhissuperioritytothematerialcauseofathoroughlygoodconstitution,whichOsbornehasnotgot。’’Osbornemighthaveifhegotouto’doorsmore,’saidthesquire,moodily;
’butexceptwhenhecanloafintoHollingfordhedoesnotcaretogooutatall。Ihope,’hecontinued,withaglanceofsuddensuspicionatMrGibson,’he’snotafteroneofyourgirls?Idon’tmeananyoffence,youknow;buthe’llhavetheestate,anditwon’tbefree,andhemustmarrymoney。Idon’tthinkIcouldallowitinRoger;butOsborneistheeldestson,youknow。’MrGibsonreddened;hewasoffendedforamoment。Thenthepartialtruthofwhatthesquiresaidwaspresentedtohismind,andherememberedtheiroldfriendship,sohespokequietly,ifshortly。’Idon’tbelievethere’sanythingofthekindgoingon。I’mnotmuchathome,youknow;butI’veneverheardorseenanythingthatshouldmakemesupposethatthereis。WhenIdo,I’llletyouknow。’’Now,Gibson,don’tgoandbeoffended。Iamgladfortheboystohaveapleasanthousetogoto,andIthankyouandMrsGibsonformakingitpleasant。Onlykeepofflove;itcancometonogood。That’sall。Idon’tbelieveOsbornewilleverearnafarthingtokeepawifeduringmylife,andifIweretodieto—morrow,shewouldhavetobringsomemoneytocleartheestate。AndifIdospeakasIshouldnothavedoneformerly—alittlesharporso—why,it’sbecauseI’vebeenworriedbymanyacarenooneknowsanythingof。’’I’mnotgoingtotakeoffence,’saidMrGibson,’butletusunderstandeachotherclearly。Ifyoudon’twantyoursonstocomeasmuchtomyhouseastheydo,tellthemsoyourself。Ilikethelads,andamgladtoseethem;butiftheydocome,youmusttaketheconsequences,whatevertheyare,andnotblameme,orthemeither,forwhatmayhappenfromthefrequentintercoursebetweentwoyoungmenandtwoyoungwomen;andwhatismore,though,asIsaid,Iseenothingwhateverofthekindyoufearatpresent,andhavepromisedtotellyouofthefirstsymptomsIdosee,yetfartherthanthatIwon’tgo。Ifthereisanattachmentatanyfuturetime,Iwon’tinterfere。’’IshouldnotsomuchmindifRogerfellinlovewithyourMolly。Hecanfightforhimself,yousee,andshe’sanuncommonnicegirl。Mypoorwifewassofondofher,’answeredthesquire。’It’sOsborneandtheestateI’mthinkingof!’’Well,then,tellhimnottocomenearus。Ishallbesorry,butyouwillbesafe。’’I’llthinkaboutit;buthe’sdifficulttomanage。I’vealwaystogetmybloodwellupbeforeIcanspeakmymindtohim。’MrGibsonwasleavingtheroom,butatthesewordsheturnedandlaidhishandonthesquire’sarm。’Takemyadvice,squire。AsIsaid,thereisnoharmdoneasyet,asfarasIknow。Preventionisbetterthancure。Speakout,butspeakgentlytoOsborne,anddoitatonce。Ishallunderstandhowitisifhedoesnotshowhisfaceforsomemonthsinmyhouse。Ifyouspeakgentlytohim,he’lltaketheadviceasfromafriend。Ifhecanassureyouthere’snodanger,ofcoursehe’llcomejustasusual,whenhelikes。’Itwasallveryfinegivingthesquirethisgoodadvice;butasOsbornehadalreadyformedtheverykindofmarriagehisfathermostdeprecated,itdidnotactquiteaswellasMrGibsonhadhoped。Thesquirebegantheconversationwithunusualself—control;buthegrewirritatedwhenOsbornedeniedhisfather’srighttointerfereinanymarriagehemightcontemplate;
denieditwithacertaindegreeofdoggednessandwearinessofthesubjectthatdrovethesquireintooneofhispassions;andalthoughonafterreflectionherememberedthathehadhisson’spromiseandsolemnwordnottothinkofeitherCynthiaorMollyforhiswife,yetthefatherandsonhadpassedthroughoneofthosealtercationswhichhelptoestrangemenforlife。
Eachhadsaidbitterthingstotheother;and,ifthebrotherlyaffectionhadnotbeensotruebetweenOsborneandRoger,theytoomighthavebecomealienated,inconsequenceofthesquire’sexaggeratedandinjudiciouscomparisonoftheircharactersanddeeds。ButasRogerinhisboyhoodhadlovedOsbornetoowelltobejealousofthepraiseandlovetheeldestson,thebeautifulbrilliantlad,hadreceived,tothedisparagementofhisownplainawkwardnessandslowness,sonowOsbornestroveagainstanyfeelingofenvyorjealousywithallhismight;buthiseffortswereconscious,Roger’shadbeenthesimpleconsequenceofaffection,andtheendtopoorOsbornewasthathebecamemoodyanddepressedinmindandbody;butbothfatherandsonconcealedtheirfeelingsinRoger’spresence。Whenhecamehomejustbeforesailing,busyandhappy,thesquirecaughthisinfectiousenergy,andOsbornelookedupandwascheerful。Therewasnotimetobelost。Hewasboundtoahotclimate,andmusttakealladvantagepossibleofthewintermonths。HewastogofirsttoParis,tohaveinterviewswithsomeofthescientificmenthere。Someofhisoutfit,instruments,&;c。,weretofollowhimtoHavre,fromwhichporthewastoembark,aftertransactinghisbusinessinParis。Thesquire,learntallhisarrangementsandplans,andeventriedinafter—dinnerconversationstopenetrateintothequestionsinvolvedintheresearcheshissonwasabouttomake。ButRoger’svisithomecouldnotbeprolongedbeyondtwodays。ThelastdayherodeintoHollingfordearlierthanheneededtohavedonetocatchtheLondoncoach,inordertobidtheGibsonsgood—by。HehadbeentooactivelybusyforsometimetohaveleisuretobestowmuchthoughtonCynthia;buttherewasnoneedforfreshmeditationonthatsubject。
Herimageasaprizetobeworkedfor,tobeservedforsevenyears,andsevenyearsmore,’wassafeandsacredinhisheart。Itwasverybad,thisgoingaway,andwishinghergood—byfortwolongyears;andhewonderedmuchduringhisridehowfarheshouldbejustifiedintellinghermother,perhapsintellingherownsweetself,whathisfeelingswerewithoutexpecting,nay,indeedreprobating,anyansweronherpart。Thenshewouldknowatanyratehowdearlyshewasbelovedbyonewhowasabsent;howinalldifficultiesordangersthethoughtofherwouldbeapolarstar,highupintheheavens,andsoon,andsoon;forwithallalover’squicknessofimaginationandtritenessoffancy,hecalledherastar,aflower,anymph,awitch,anangel,oramermaid,anightingale,asiren,asoneoranotherofherattributesroseupbeforehim。
chapter34CHAPTERXXXIVALOVER’SMISTAKEItwasafternoon。Mollyhadgoneoutforawalk。MrsGibsonhadbeenpayingsomecalls。LazyCynthiahaddeclinedaccompanyingeither。AdailywalkwasnotanecessitytoherasitwastoMolly。Onalovelyday,orwithanagreeableobject,orwhenthefancytookher,shecouldgoasfarasanyone;butthesewereexceptionalcases;ingeneral,shewasnotdisposedtodisturbherselffromherin—dooroccupations。Indeed,notoneoftheladieswouldhaveleftthehouse,hadtheybeenawarethatRogerwasintheneighbourhood;fortheywereawarethathewastocomedownbutoncebeforehisdeparture,andthathisstayathomethenwouldbebutforashorttime,andtheywereallanxioustowishhimgood—bybeforehislongabsence,ButtheyhadunderstoodthathewasnotcomingtotheHalluntilthefollowingweek,andthereforetheyhadfeltthemselvesatfulllibertythisafternoontofollowtheirowndevices。Mollychoseawalkthathadbeenafavouritewithhereversinceshewasachild。Somethingorotherhadhappenedjustbeforeshelefthomethatmadeherbeginwonderinghowfaritwasrightforthesakeofdomesticpeacetopassoverwithoutcommentthelittledeviationsfromrightthatpeopleperceiveinthosewhomtheylivewith。Or,whether,astheyareplacedinfamiliesfordistinctpurposes,notbychancemerely,therearenotdutiesinvolvedinthisaspectoftheirlotinlife,—whetherbycontinuallypassingoverfailings,theirownstandardisnotlowered,—thepracticalapplicationofthesethoughtsbeingadismalsortofperplexityonMolly’spartastowhetherherfatherwasquiteawareofherstepmother’sperpetuallapsesfromtruth;andwhetherhisblindnesswaswilfulornot。Thenshefeltbitterlyenoughthatalthoughshewassureascouldbethattherewasnorealestrangementbetweenherandherfather,yetthattherewereperpetualobstaclesthrowninthewayoftheirintercourse;andshethoughtwithasighthatifhewouldbutcomeinwithauthority,hemightcuthiswaycleartotheoldintimacywithhisdaughter,andthattheymighthavealltheformerwalksandtalks,andquipsandcranks,andglimpsesofrealconfidenceonceagain;thingsthatherstepmotherdidnotvalue,yetwhichshe,likethedoginthemanger,preventedMollyenjoying。ButafterallMollywasagirl,notsofarremovedfromchildhood;andinthemiddleofhergraveregretsandperplexitieshereyewascaughtbythesightofsomefineripeblackberriesflourishingawayhighuponthehedge—bankamongscarlethipsandgreenandrussetleaves。Shedidnotcaremuchforblackberriesherself;butshehadheardCynthiasaythatshelikedthem;
andbesidestherewasthecharmofscramblingandgatheringthem,sosheforgotallabouthertroubles,andwentclimbingupthebanks,andclutchingatheralmostinaccessibleprizes,andslippingdownagaintriumphant,tocarrythembacktothelargeleafwhichwastoserveherasabasket。
Oneortwoofthemshetasted,buttheywereasvapidtoherpalateasever。Theskirtofherprettyprintgownwastornoutofthegathers,andevenwiththefruitshehadeaten’herprettylipswithblackberrieswereallbesmearedanddyed,’when,havinggatheredasmanyandmorethanshecouldpossiblycarry,shesetoffhome,hopingtoescapeintoherroomandmendhergownbeforeithadoffendedMrsGibson’sneateye。Thefrontdoorwaseasilyopenedfromtheoutside,andMollywasoutoftheclearlightoftheopenairandintheshadowofthehall;shesawafacepeepoutofthedining—roombeforeshequiterecognizedwhoitwas;andthenMrsGibsoncamesoftlyout,sufficientlyatleasttobeckonherintotheroom。WhenMollyhadenteredMrsGibsonclosedthedoor。PoorMollyexpectedareprimandforhertorngownanduntidyappearance,butwassoonrelievedbytheexpressionofMrsGibson’sface—mysteriousandradiant。’Ihavebeenwatchingforyou,dear。Don’tgoupstairsintothedrawing—room,love。Itmightbealittleinterruptionjustnow。RogerHamleyistherewithCynthia;andI’vereasontothink,—infactIdidopenthedoorunawares,butIshutitagainsoftly,andIdon’tthinktheyheardme。Isnotitcharming?Younglove,youknow,ah,howsweetitis!’’DoyoumeanthatRogerhasproposedtoCynthia?’askedMolly。’Notexactlythat。ButIdon’tknow;ofcourseIknownothing。OnlyIdidhearhimsaythathehadmeanttoleaveEnglandwithoutspeakingofhislove,butthatthetemptationofseeingheralonehadbeentoogreatforhim。Itwassymptomatic,wasitnot,mydear?AndallIwantedwastoletitcometoacrisiswithoutinterruption。SoI’vebeenwatchingforyoutopreventyourgoinginanddisturbingthem。’’ButImaygotomyroom,mayn’tI,’pleadedMolly。’Ofcourse,’saidMrsGibson,alittletestily。’OnlyIhadexpectedsympathyfromyouatsuchaninterestingmoment。’ButMollydidnotheartheselastwords。Shehadescapedupstairs,andhadshutherdoor。Instinctivelyshehadcarriedherleaffullofblackberries—whatwouldblackberriesbetoCynthianow?Shefeltasifshecouldnotunderstanditall;butasforthatmatter,whatcouldsheunderstand?Nothing。
Forafewminutesherbrainseemedintoogreatawhirltocomprehendanythingbutthatshewasbeingcarriedoninearth’sdiurnalcourse,withrocks,andstones,andtrees,withaslittlevolitiononherpartasifsheweredead。Thentheroomgrewstifling,andinstinctivelyshewenttotheopencasementwindow,andleantout,gaspingforbreath。Graduallytheconsciousnessofthesoftpeacefullandscapestoleintohermind,andstilledthebuzzingconfusion。There,bathedinthealmostlevelraysoftheautumnsunlight,laythelandscapeshehadknownandlovedfromchildhood;asquiet,asfulloflowhumminglifeasithadbeenatthishourformanygenerations。
Theautumnflowersblazedoutinthegardenbelow,thelazycowswereinthemeadowbeyond,chewingtheircudinthegreenaftermath;theeveningfireshadjustbeenmadeupinthecottagesbeyond,inpreparationforthehusband’shomecoming,andweresendingupsoftcurlsofbluesmokeintothestillair;thechildren,letloosefromschool,wereshoutingmerrilyinthedistance,andshe——Justthensheheardnearersounds;
anopeneddoor,stepsonthelowerflightofstairs,Hecouldnothavegonewithoutevenseeingher。Henever,neverwouldhavedonesocruelathing—neverwouldhaveforgottenpoorlittleMolly,howeverhappyhemightbe。No!therewerestepsandvoices,andthedrawing—roomdoorwasopenedandshutoncemore。Shelaiddownherheadonherarmsthatrestedonthewindow—sill,andcried,—shehadbeensodistrustfulastohavelettheideaenterhermindthathecouldgowithoutwishinghergood—by;
her,whomhismotherhadsoloved,andcalledbythenameofhislittledeadsister。AndasshethoughtofthetenderloveMrsHamleyhadbornehershecriedthemore,forthevanishingofsuchloveforheroffthefaceoftheearth。Suddenlythedrawing—roomdooropened,andsomeonewasheardcomingupstairs;itwasCynthia’sstep。Mollyhastilywipedhereyes,andstoodupandtriedtolookunconcerned;itwasallshehadtimetodobeforeCynthia,afteralittlepauseatthecloseddoor,hadknocked;
andonananswerbeinggiven,hadsaid,withoutopeningthedoor,—’Molly!
MrRogerHamleyishere,andwantstowishyougood—bybeforehegoes。’
Thenshewentdownstairsagain,asifanxiousjustatthatmomenttoavoidevensoshortatê;te—à;—tê;tewithMolly。Withagulpandafitofresolution,asachildmakesupitsmindtoswallowanauseousdoseofmedicine,Mollywentinstantlydownstairs。RogerwastalkingearnestlytoMrsGibsoninthebayofthewindowwhenMollyentered;Cynthiawasstandingnear,listening,buttakingnopartintheconversation。Hereyesweredowncast,andshedidnotlookupasMollydrewshylynear。Rogerwassaying,—’IcouldneverforgivemyselfifIhadacceptedapledgefromher。Sheshallbefreeuntilmyreturn;butthehope,thewords,hersweetgoodness,havemademehappybeyonddescription。Oh,Molly!’suddenlybecomingawareofherpresence,andturningtoher,andtakingherhandinbothofhis,—’Ithinkyouhavelongguessedmysecret,haveyounot?
IoncethoughtofspeakingtoyoubeforeIleft,andconfidingitalltoyou。Butthetemptationhasbeentoogreat,IhavetoldCynthiahowfondlyIloveher,asfaraswordscantell;andshesays——’thenhelookedatCynthiawithpassionatedelightandseemedtoforgetinthatgazethathehadlefthissentencetoMollyhalffinished。Cynthiadidnotseeminclinedtorepeathersaying,whateveritwas,buthermotherspokeforher。’Mydearsweetgirlvaluesyourloveasitoughttobevalued,Iamsure。
AndIbelieve,’lookingatCynthiaandRogerwithintelligentarchness,’Icouldtelltalesastothecauseofherindispositioninthespring。’’Mother,’saidCynthiasuddenly,’youknowitwasnosuchthing。Praydon’tinventstoriesaboutme。IhaveengagedmyselftoMrRogerHamley,andthatisenough。’’Enough!morethanenough!’saidRoger。’Iwillnotacceptyourpledge。
Iambound,butyouarefree。Iliketofeelbound,itmakesmehappyandatpeace,butwithallthechancesinvolvedinthenexttwoyears,youmustnotshackleyourselfbypromises。’Cynthiadidnotspeakatonce;shewasevidentlyrevolvingsomethinginherownmind。MrsGibsontookuptheword。’Youareverygenerous,Iamsure。Perhapsitwillbebetternottomentionit。’’Iwouldmuchratherhaveitkeptasecret,’saidCynthia,interrupting。’Certainly,mydearlove。ThatwasjustwhatIwasgoingtosay。IonceknewayoungladywhoheardofthedeathofayoungmaninAmerica,whomshehadknownprettywell;andsheimmediatelysaidshehadbeenengagedtohim,andevenwentsofarastoputonweeds;anditwasafalsereport,forhecamebackwellandmerry,anddeclaredtoeverybodyhehadneversomuchasthoughtabouther。Soitwasveryawkwardforher。Thesethingshadmuchbetterbekeptsecretuntilthepropertimehascomefordivulgingthem。’EventhenandthereCynthiacouldnotresistthetemptationofsaying,—’Mamma,IwillpromiseyouIwon’tputonweeds,whateverreportscomeofMrRogerHamley。’’Roger,please!’heputin,inatenderwhisper。’Andyouwillallbewitnessesthathehasprofessedtothinkofme,ifheistemptedafterwardstodenythefact。ButatthesametimeIwishittobekeptasecretuntilhisreturn—andIamsureyouwillallbesokindastoattendtomywish。Please,Roger!Please,Molly!Mamma!
Imustespeciallybegitofyou!’Rogerwouldhavegrantedanythingwhensheaskedhimbythatname,andinthattone。Hetookherhandinsilentpledgeofhisreply。Mollyfeltasifshecouldneverbringherselftonametheaffairasacommonpieceofnews。SoitwasonlyMrsGibsonansweredaloud,—’Mydearchild!why"especially"topoorme!YouknowI’mthemosttrustworthypersonalive!’Thelittlependuleonthechimney—piecestruckthehalf—hour。’Imustgo!’saidRoger,indismay。’Ihadnoideaitwassolate。IshallwritefromParis。Thecoachwillbeatthe"George"bythistime,andwillonlystayfiveminutes。DearestCynthia——’hetookherhand,andthen,asifthetemptationwasirresistible,hedrewhertohimandkissedher。
’Onlyrememberyouarefree!’saidhe,ashereleasedherandpassedontoMrsGibson。’IfIhadconsideredmyselffree,’saidCynthia,blushingalittle,butreadywithherreparteetothelast,—’ifIhadthoughtmyselffree,doyouthinkIwouldhaveallowedthat?’ThenMolly’sturncame;andtheoldbrotherlytendernesscamebackintohislook,hisvoice,hisbearing。’Molly!youwon’tforgetme,Iknow;Ishallneverforgetyou,noryourgoodnessto—her。’Hisvoicebegantoquiver,anditwasbesttobegone。
MrsGibsonwaspouringout,unheardandunheeded,wordsoffarewell;Cynthiawasrearrangingsomeflowersinavaseonthetable,thedefectsinwhichhadcaughtherartisticeye,withouttheconsciousnesspenetratingtohermind。Mollystood,numbtotheheart;neithergladnorsorry,noranythingbutstunned。Shefelttheslackenedtouchofthewarmgraspinghand;shelookedup—fortillnowhereyeshadbeendowncast,asiftherewereheavyweightstotheirlids—andtheplacewasemptywherehehadbeen;hisquickstepwasheardonthestair,thefrontdoorwasopenedandshut;
andthenasquickaslightningMollyranuptothefrontattic—thelumber—room,whosewindowcommandedthestreetdownwhichhemustpass。Thewindow—claspwasunusedandstiff,Mollytuggedatit—unlessitwasopen,andherheadputout,thatlastchancewouldbegone。’Imustseehimagain;Imust!Imust!’shewailedout,asshewaspulling。
Therehewas,runninghardtocatchtheLondoncoach;hisluggagehadbeenleftatthe’George’beforehecameuptowishtheGibsonsgood—by。Inallhishurry,Mollysawhimturnroundandshadehiseyesfromthelevelraysofthewesteringsun,andrakethehousewithhisglances—inhopes,sheknew,ofcatchingonemoreglimpseofCynthia。Butapparentlyhesawnoone,notevenMollyattheatticcasement。forshehaddrawnbackwhenhehadturned,andkeptherselfinshadow;forshehadnorighttoputherselfforwardastheonetowatchandyearnforfarewellsigns。Nonecame—anothermoment—hewasoutofsightforyears。Sheshutthewindowsoftly,andshiveredallover。Shelefttheatticandwenttoherownroom;butshedidnotbegintotakeoffherout—of—doorthingstillsheheardCynthia’sfootonthestairs。Thenshehastilywenttothetoilet—table,andbegantountieherbonnet—strings;buttheywereinaknot,andtooktimetoundo。Cynthia’sstepstoppedatMolly’sdoor;
sheopeneditalittleandsaid,—’MayIcomein,Molly?’’Certainly,’saidMolly,longingtobeabletosay’No’allthetime。Mollydidnotturntomeether,soCynthiacameupbehindher,andputtinghertwohandsroundMolly’swaist,peepedoverhershoulder,puttingoutherlipstobekissed。Mollycouldnotresisttheaction—themuteentreatyforacaress。Butinthemomentbeforeshehadcaughtthereflectionofthetwofacesintheglass;herown,red—eyed,pale,withlipsdyedwithblackberryjuice,hercurlstangled,herbonnetpulledawry,hergowntorn—andcontrasteditwithCynthia’sbrightnessandbloom,andthetrimeleganceofherdress。’Oh!itisnowonder!’thoughtpoorMolly,assheturnedround,andputherarmsroundCynthia,andlaidherheadforaninstantonhershoulder—theweary,achingheadthatsoughtalovingpillowinthatsuprememoment!Thenextshehadraisedherself,andtakenCynthia’stwohands,andwasholdingheroffalittle,thebettertoreadherface。’Cynthia!youdolovehimdearly,don’tyou?’Cynthiawincedalittleasidefromthepenetratingsteadinessofthoseeyes。’Youspeakwithallthesolemnityofanadjuration,Molly!’saidshe,laughingalittleatfirsttocoverhernervousness,andthenlookingupatMolly。
’Don’tyouthinkIhavegivenaproofofit?ButyouknowI’veoftentoldyouI’venotthegiftofloving;Isaidprettymuchthesamethingtohim。
Icanrespect,andIfancyIcanadmire,andIcanlike,butIneverfeelcarriedoffmyfeetbyloveforanyone,notevenforyou,littleMolly,andIamsureIloveyoumorethan——’’No,don’t!’saidMolly,puttingherhandbeforeCynthia’smouth,inalmostapassionofimpatience。’Don’t,don’t—Iwon’thearyou—Ioughtnottohaveaskedyou—itmakesyoutelllies!’’Why,Molly!’saidCynthia,inherturnseekingtoreadMolly’sface,’what’sthematterwithyou?Onemightthinkyoucaredforhimyourself。’’I?’saidMolly,allthebloodrushingtoherheartsuddenly;thenitreturned,andshehadcouragetospeak,andshespokethetruthasshebelievedit,thoughnottherealactualtruth。’Idocareforhim;Ithinkyouhavewontheloveofaprinceamongstmen。
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