conytoseewhereitcamefrom。Whatshesawdoubtlesstouchedthemother—heartinher。Shecaughttheeyeofthetatteredurchinclingingtothepillar,andradiantlysmiledonhim。Then,prob—
ablythinkingthattheKingwasabsorbingtheat—
tentionofthegreatassemblage,sheindulgedinalittlediversion。Leaningfarforward,shekissedthetipofherlacehandkerchiefandsweptitcaressinglyacrosstheboy’sbrowncheek,smilingdownathimasunconsciouslyasifsheandtheenrapturedyoung—
sterwerealonetogetherintheworld。Thenextinstantshehadstraightenedupandflushed,forthewatchfulcrowdhadseentheepisodeandwaswildwithenthusiasm。FortenminutesthepeoplecheeredtheQueenwithoutceasing,andforthenextfewdaystheytalkedoflittlebutthespontaneous,girlishactionwhichhaddelightedthemall。
Onemoresentimentalrecord,andIshallhavereachedanothermile—stone。AsIhavesaid,myfriendMrs。AddyleftmeinherwillfifteenhundreddollarsformyvisittoEurope,andbeforeIsailedherfather,whowasoneofthebestfriendsIhaveeverhad,madeacharacteristicallykindpropositioninconnectionwiththelittlefund。Insteadofgivingmethemoney,hegavemetworailroadbonds,oneforonethousanddollars,theotherforfivehundreddollars,andeachdrawingsevenpercent。interest。
HesuggestedthatIdepositthesebondsinthebankofwhichhewaspresident,andborrowfromthebankthemoneytogoabroad。Then,whenIre—
turnedandwentintomynewparish,Icouldusesomeofmysalaryeverymonthtowardrepayingtheloan。Thesemonthlypayments,heexplained,couldbeassmallasIwished,buteachmonththeinterestontheamountIpaidwouldcease。Iglad—
lytookhisadviceandborrowedsevenhundreddollars。AfterIreturnedfromEuropeIrepaidtheloaninmonthlyinstalments,andeventuallygotmybonds,whichIstillown。Theywillmaturein1916。
Ihavehadonehundredandfivedollarsayearfromthem,ininterest,eversinceIreceivedthemin1878
——morethantwiceasmuchinterestastheirfacevalue——andeverytimeIhavegoneabroadIhaveusedthisinteresttowardpayingmypassage。ThusmyfriendhashadashareineachofthemanyvisitsIhavemadetoEurope,andinallofthemhermemoryhasbeenvividlywithme。
WithmyreturnfromEuropemyrealcareerasaministerbegan。TheyearinthepulpitatHing—
hamhadbeenmerelytentative,andthoughIhadsucceededinbuildingupthechurchmembershiptofourtimeswhatithadbeenwhenItookcharge,I
wasnotreappointed。Ihadpaidoffasmallchurchdebt,andhadhadthebuildingrepaired,painted,andcarpeted。Nowthatitwasoutofitsdifficultiesitofferedsomeadvantagestotheoccupantofitspul—
pit,andofthesemysuccessor,aman,receivedthebenefit。I,however,hadsmallgroundforcom—
plaint,forIwasatonceofferedandacceptedthepastorateofachurchatEastDennis,CapeCod。
HereIwentinOctober,1878,andhereIspentsevenofthemostinterestingyearsofmylife。
V
SHEPHERDOFADIVIDEDFLOCK
OnmyreturnfromEurope,asIhavesaid,I
tookupimmediatelyandmostbuoyantlytheworkofmynewparish。Mypreviousoccupationofvariouspulpits,whetherlongorshort,hadalwaysbeenintheroleofasubstitute。Now,forthefirsttime,Ihadachurchofmyown,andwastostandorfallbytherecordmadeinit。TheinkwasbarelydryonmydiplomafromtheBostonTheologicalSchool,and,asithappened,thelittlechurchtowhichIwascalledwasinthehandsoftwowarringfactions,whosebattlesfurnishedthemostfervidinterestoftheCapeCodcommunity。Butmyin—
experiencedisturbedmenotatall,andIwasbliss—
fullyignorantofthedivisioninthecongregation。
SoIenteredmynewfieldastrustfullyasachildentersagarden;andthoughIwasintroublefromthebeginning,andresignedthreetimesinstartlingsuccession,Iendedbyremainingsevenyears。
Myappointmentdidnotcauseevenalullinthewarfareamongmyparishioners。BeforeIhadcrossedthethresholdofmychurchIwasmadetorealizethatIwasshepherdofadividedflock。
ExactlywhathadcausedtheoriginalbreachIneverlearned;butithadwidenedwithtime,untilitseemedthatnopeacemakercouldbuildabridgelargeenoughtospanit。AssoonasIarrivedinEastDenniseachfactiontriedtopourintomyearsitsbittercriticismsoftheother,butImadeandconsistentlyfollowedthesaferuleofrefusingtolistentoeitherside,IannouncedpubliclythatI
wouldhearnoverbalchargeswhatever,butthatifmytwoflockswouldstatetheirtroublesinwritingIwouldcallaboardmeetingtodiscussandpassuponthem。Thistheybothresolutelyrefusedtodo(itwasapparentlythefirsttimetheyhadeveragreedonanypoint);andasIsteadilydeclinedtolistentocomplaints,theydevisedanoriginalmethodofputtingthembeforeme。
DuringtheregularThursday—nightprayer—meet—
ing,heldabouttwoweeksaftermyarrival,andatwhich,ofcourse,Ipresided,theyvoicedtheirdiffi—
cultiesinpublicprayer,loudlyandurgentlycallingupontheLordtopardonsuchandsuchaliar,men—
tioningthegentlemanbyname,andsuchandsuchaslanderer,whosenamewasalsosubmitted。Bythetimetheprayerswereendedtherewerefewun—
tarnishedreputationsinthecongregation,andI
knew,perforce,whatbothsideshadtosay。
ThefollowingThursdaynighttheydidthesamething,fillingtheirprayerswithintimateandsur—
prisingdetailsofoneanother’shistory,andIen—
duredthesituationsolelybecauseIdidnotknowhowtomeetit。Iwasstillyoung,andmytheo—
logicalcoursehadsetnoguide—postsonroadsasnewasthese。Tointerferewithsoulsintheircom—
munionwithGodseemedimpossible;toletthemcontinuetoutterpersonalattacksinchurch,undercoverofprayer,wasequallyimpossible。AnycourseI
couldfollowseemedtoleadawayfrommynewparish,yetbothdutyandpridemadepromptactionneces—
sary。Bythetimewegatheredforthethirdprayer—
meetingIhaddecidedwhattodo,andbeforetheservicesbeganIroseandaddressedmyerringchil—
dren。Iexplainedthatthecharacteroftheprayersatourrecentmeetingswasmakingusthelaughing—
stockofthecommunity,thatunbelieverswereridiculingourreligion,andthatthedisciplineofthechurchwasbeingwrecked;andIendedwiththesewords,eachofwhichIhadcarefullyweighed:
``Nowoneoftwothingsmusthappen。Eitheryouwillstopthiskindofpraying,oryouwillre—
mainawayfromourmeetings。Wewillholdprayer—
meetingsonanothernight,andIshallrefusead—
missiontoanyamongyouwhobringpersonalcriti—
cismsintoyourpublicprayers。’’
AsIhadexpectedittodo,theannouncementcreatedanimmediateuproar。Bothfactionssprangtotheirfeet,tryingtotalkatonce。ThestormrageduntilIdismissedthecongregation,tellingthemembersthattheirconductwasaninsulttotheLord,andthatIwouldnotlistentoeithertheirprotestsortheirprayers。Theywentunwillingly,buttheywent;andtheexcitementthenextdayraisedthesickfromtheirbedstotalkofit,andsweptthelengthandbreadthofCapeCod。ThefollowingSundaythelittlechurchheldthelargestattendanceinitshistory。Seemingly,everymanandwomanintownhadcometohearwhatmoreIwouldsayaboutthetrouble,butIignoredthewholematter。IpreachedthesermonIhadpre—
pared,thesubjectofwhichwasasremotefromchurchquarrelsasouratmospherewasremotefrompeace,andmycongregationdispersedwithexpres—
sionsofsuchartlessdisappointmentthatitwasallIcoulddotopreserveadignifiedgravity。
Thatnight,however,thewarwasbroughtintomycamp。Attheeveningmeetingtheleaderofoneofthefactionsrosetohisfeetwiththeobviouspur—
poseofstartingtrouble。Hewasaretiredsea—cap—
tain,oftheruthlesstypethatknocksamandownwithabelaying—pin,andhemadehisattackonmeinacharacteristically``straightfromtheshoulder’’
fashion。Hebeganwiththepropositionthatmymorningsermonhadbeen``entirelycontrarytotheScriptures,’’andfortenminuteshequotedandmis—
quotedme,hammeringinhispoints。Ilethimgoonwithoutinterruption。Thenheadded:
``Andthisgalcomestothischurchandunder—
takestotellushowweshallpray。That’sahigh—
handedmeasure,andI,forone,ain’tgoin’tostandit。IwanttosayrightherethatIshallprayasI
like,whenIlike,andwhereIlike。Ihaveprayedinthisheavenlywayforfiftyyearsbeforethatgalwasborn,andshecan’tdictatetomenow!’’
Bythistimethewholecongregationwasaroused,andcriesof``Sitdown!’’``Sitdown!’’camefromeverysideofthechurch。Itwasahardmoment,butIwasabletorisewithsomeshowofdignity。
Iwashurtthroughandthrough,butmyfightingbloodwasstirring。
``No,’’Isaid,``CaptainSearshasthefloor。Lethimsaynowallhewishestosay,foritisthelasttimehewilleverspeakatoneofourmeetings。’’
CaptainSears,whoseexertionshadalreadymadehimapoplectic,turnedadarkerpurple。``What’sthat?’’heshouted。``Whatd’yemean?’’
``Imean,’’Ireplied,``thatIdonotintendtoallowyouoranybodyelsetointerferewithmymeetings。Youareasea—captain。WhatwouldyoudotomeifIcameonboardyourshipandstartedamutinyinyourcrew,ortriedtogiveyouorders?’’
CaptainSearsdidnotreply。Hestoodstill,withhislegsfarapartandbraced,ashealwaysstoodwhentalking,buthiseyesshiftedalittle。Iansweredmyownquestion。
``Youwouldputmeashoreorinirons,’’Ire—
mindedhim。``Now,CaptainSears,Iintendtoputyouashore。Iamthemasterofthisship。I
havesetmycourse,andImeantofollowit。Ifyourebel,eitheryouwillgetoutorIwill。Butuntiltheboardasksformyresignation,Iamincommand。’’
Asithappened,Ihadputmyultimatumintheoneformtheoldmancouldunderstand。Hesatdownwithoutawordandstaredatme。WesangtheDoxology,andIdismissedthemeeting。Againwehadomittedprayers。ThenextdayCaptainSearssentmealetterrecallinghissubscriptiontow—
ardthesupportofthechurch;andforweeksheremainedawayfromourservices,returningunderconditionsIwillmentionlater。Evenatthetime,however,hisattackhelpedratherthanhurtme。
AttheregularmeetingthefollowingThursdaynightnopersonalcriticismswereincludedintheprayers,andeventuallywehadpeace。Butmanybattleswerelostandwonbeforethathappydayarrived。
CaptainSears’svacantplaceamonguswaspromptlytakenbyanothercaptaininEastDennis,whosenamewasalsoSears。AfewdaysaftermyencounterwiththefirstcaptainImetthesecondonthestreet。Hehadnevercometochurch,andI
stoppedandinvitedhimtodoso。Herepliedwithsimplecandor。
``Iain’tcomin’,’’hetoldme。``Thereain’tnogalthatcanteachmenothin’。’’
``Perhapsyouarewrong,CaptainSears,’’Ire—
plied。``Imightteachyousomething。’’
``What?’’demandedthecaptain,withchillingdistrust。
``Oh,’’Isaid,cheerfully,``letussaytolerance,foronething。’’
``Humph!’’mutteredtheoldman。``TheLorddon’twantnoneofyourtolerance,andneitherdoI。’’
Ilaughed。``Hedoesn’tobjecttotolerance,’’I
said。``Cometochurch。Youcantalk,too;andtheLordwilllistentousboth。’’
Tomysurprise,thecaptaincamethefollowingSunday,andduringthesevenyearsIremainedinthechurchhewasoneofmystrongestsupportersandfriends。Ineededfriends,formysecondbattlewasnotslowinfollowingmyfirst。Therewas,in—
deed,barelytimebetweeninwhichtocareforthewounded。
WehadinEastDenniswhatwasknownasthe``FreeReligiousGroup,’’andwhensomeofthemembersofmycongregationwerenotwranglingamongthemselves,theywereusuallylockinghornswiththisgroup。Foryears,Iwastold,oneoftheprimediversionsofthe``FreeReligious’’factionwastohaveadanceinourtownhallonthenightwhenwewereusingitforourannualchurchfair。
Therulesofthechurchpositivelyprohibiteddanc—
ing,sotheworldlygrouptookpeculiarpleasureinattendingthefair,andduringtheeveningingettingupadanceandwhirlingaboutamongus,tothehorrorofourmembers。Thentheyspentthere—
mainderoftheyearboastingoftheachievement。
ItcametomyearsthattheyhaddecidedtofollowthispleasingprogrammeatourChristmaschurchcelebration,soIcalledthechurchtrusteestogetherandputthesituationtothem。
``Wemusteitherenforceourdiscipline,’’Isaid,``orgiveitup。PersonallyIdonotobjecttodanc—
ing,but,asthechurchhasruledagainstit,Iintendtoupholdthechurch。Toallowthesepeopletomakeusridiculousyearafteryearisimpossible。
Letuseithertellthemthattheymaydanceorthattheymaynotdance;butwhateverwetellthem,letusmakethemobeyourruling。’’
Thetrusteeswereshockedatthemeresuggestionoflettingthemdance。
``Verywell,’’Iended。``Thentheyshallnotdance。Thatisunderstood。’’
CaptainCrowell,thefatherofmydeadfriendMrs。Addy,andhimselfmybestmanfriend,wasastrongsupporteroftheFreeReligiousGroup。
WhenitsmembersracedtohimwiththenewsthatIhadsaidtheycouldnotdanceatthechurch’sChristmasparty,CaptainCrowelllaughedgood—
humoredlyandtoldthemtodanceasmuchastheypleased,cheerfullyaddingthathewouldgetthemoutofanytroubletheygotinto。Knowingmyfriendshipforhim,andthatIevenowedmychurchappointmenttohim,theFreeReligiouspeoplewerecertainthatIwouldnevertakeissuewithhimondancingoronanyotherpoint。Theymadealltheirpreparationsforthedance,therefore,withentireconfidence,andboastedthattheaffairwouldbethegayesttheyhadeverarranged。Mypeoplebegantolookatmewithsympathy,andforatimeIfeltverysorryformyself。Itseemedsufficientlyclearthat``thegal’’wastohavemoretrouble。
Onthenightofthepartythingswentbadlyfromthefirst。TherewasanevidentintentionamongtheworstoftheFreeReligiousGrouptoembarrassusateveryturn。WeopenedtheexerciseswiththeLord’sPrayer,whichthiselementloudlyapplauded。
AlivekittenwashunghighontheChristmastree,whereitsqualledmournfullybeyondreachofrescue,andtheyoungmenoftheoutsidegroupthrewcakeatoneanotheracrossthehall。Finallytiringoftheseinnocentdiversions,theybegantopreparefortheirdance,andIprotested。Thespokesmanofthegroupwavedmetooneside。
``CaptainCrowellsaidwecould,’’heremarked,airily。
``CaptainCrowell,’’Ireplied,``hasnoauthoritywhateverinthismatter。Thechurchtrusteeshavedecidedthatyoucannotdancehere,andIintendtoenforcetheirruling。’’
Itwasinterestingtoobservehowrapidlythemenofmycongregationdisappearedfromthathall。
Likeshadowstheycreptalongthewallsandvanishedthroughthedoors。Butthepreparationsforthedancewentmerrilyon。Iwalkedtothemiddleoftheroomandraisedmyvoice。Iwasalwayslistenedto,formyhearersalwayshadthehope,usuallyrealized,thatIwasabouttogetintomoretrouble。
``Youaredeterminedtodance,’’Ibegan。``I
cannotkeepyoufromdoingso。ButIcanandwillmakeyouregretthatyouhavedoneso。ThelawoftheStateofMassachusettsisverydefiniteinre—
gardtoreligiousmeetingsandreligiousgatherings。
ThishallwasengagedandpaidforbytheWesleyanMethodistChurch,ofwhichIampastor,andwehavefullcontrolofitto—night。Everymanandwomanwhointerruptsourexercisesbyattemptingtodance,orbycreatingadisturbanceofanykind,willbearrestedto—morrowmorning。’’
Surpriseatfirst,thenconsternation,sweptthroughtheranksoftheFreeReligiousGroup。TheydeniedtheexistenceofsuchalawasIhadmentioned,andIpromptlyreaditaloudtothem。Theleaderswentoffintoacornerandconsulted。Bythistimenotonemaninmyparishwasleftinthehall。Asaresultoftheconsultationinthecorner,acommitteeofthewould—bedancerscametomeandsuggestedacompromise。
``Willyouagreetoarrestthemenonly?’’theywantedtoknow。
``No,’’Ideclared。``Onthecontrary,Ishallhavethewomenarrestedfirst!Forthewomenoughttobestandingwithmenowinthesupportoflawandorder,insteadofsidingwiththehoodlumelementyourepresent。’’
Thatsettledit。Nogirlorwomandaredtogoonthedancing—floor,andnomancaredtorevolvemerrilybyhimself。Awhisperwentround,how—
ever,thatthedancewouldbeginwhenIhadleft。
Whentheclockstrucktwelve,atwhichhour,ac—
cordingtothetownrule,thehallhadtobeclosed,Iwasthelastpersontoleaveit。ThenIlockedthedoormyself,andcarriedthekeyawaywithme。
TherehadbeennoFreeReligiousdancethatnight。
OnthefollowingSundaymorningtheattendanceatmychurchbrokeallpreviousrecords。Everyseatwasoccupiedandeveryaislewasfilled。Menandwomencamefromsurroundingtowns,andstrangehorsesweretiedtoallthefencesinEastDennis。Everypersoninthatchurchwaslookingforexcitement,andthistimemycongregationgotwhatitexpected。BeforeIbeganmysermonI
readmyresignation,totakeeffectatthediscretionofthetrustees。Then,asitwaspresumablymylastchancetotellthepeopleandtheplacewhatI
thoughtofthem,Ispentanhourandahalfinfer—
vidlydoingso。InmystudyofEnglishIhadac—
quiredafairlylargevocabulary。IthinkIuseditallthatmorning——certainlyItriedto。Ifeveranerringcongregationandcommunitysawthemselvesastheyreallywere,minedidonthatoccasion。I
washeartsick,discouraged,andfullofresentmentandindignation,whichuntilthenhadbeenpentup。Underthearraignmentmypeoplewrithedandsquirmed。Iended:
``WhatIamsayinghurtsyou,butinyourheartsyouknowyoudeserveeverywordofit。Itishightimeyousawyourselvesasyouare——adisgracetothereligionyouprofessandtothecommunityyoulivein。’’
Iwasnotsurethecongregationwouldletmefinish,butitdid。Myhearersseemedtornbyconflictingsentiments,inwhichangerandcurios—
ityledopposingsides。Manyofthemleftthechurchinawhitefury,butothers——morethanIhadexpected——remainedtospeaktomeandassuremeoftheirsympathy。Onceonthestreets,differentgroupsformedandmingled,andalldaythelittletownrockedwithargumentsforandagainst``thegal。’’
Nightbroughtanothersurprisinglylargeattend—
ance。Iexpectedmoretrouble,andIfaceditwithdifficulty,forIwasverytired。JustasItookmyplaceinthepulpit,CaptainSearsenteredthechurchandwalkeddowntheaisle——theCaptainSearswhohadleftusatmyinvitationsomeweeksbeforeandhadnotsinceattendedachurchservice。IwassurehewastheretomakeanotherattackonmewhileIwasdown,and,expectingtheworst,I
wearilygavehimhisopportunity。Thebigoldfel—
lowstoodup,bracedhimselfonlegsfarapart,asifhewerestandingonaslipperydeckduringahighsea,andgavethecongregationitsbiggestsurpriseoftheyear。
Hesaidhehadcometomakeaconfession。Hehadbeenangrywith``thegal’’inthepast,astheyallknew。Buthehadheardaboutthesermonshehadpreachedthatmorning,andthistimeshewasright。Itwashightimequarrelingandbackbitingwerestopped。Theyhadbeengoingontoolong,andnogoodcouldcomeofthem。Moreover,inalltheyearshehadbeenamemberofthatcongre—
gationhehadneveruntilnowseenthepulpitoc—
cupiedbyaministerwithenoughbackbonetoup—
holdthedisciplineofthechurch。``I’vecomeheretosayI’mwiththegal,’’heended。``Putmedownformyoriginalsubscriptionandtendollarsextra!’’
Sowehadtheoldmanbackagain。Hewasatowerofstrength,andhestoodbymefaithfullyuntilhedied。Thetrusteeswouldnotacceptmyresignation(indeed,theyrefusedtoconsideritatall),andthecongregation,whenithadthoughtthingsover,apparentlydecidedthattheremightbeworsethingsinthepulpitthan``thegal。’’Itwasevenknowntobragofwhatitcalledmy``spunk,’’andperhapsitwasthisquality,ratherthananyother,whichImostneededinthatparticularparishatthattime。Asforme,whenthefightwasoverI
droppeditfrommymind,andithadnotenteredmythoughtsforyears,untilIbegantosummonthesememories。
AttheendofmyfirstsixmonthsinEastDennisIwasaskedtotakeon,also,thetemporarychargeoftheCongregationalChurchatDennis,twomilesandahalfaway。Iagreedtodothisuntilaper—
manentpastorcouldbefound,onconditionthatI
shouldpreachatDennisonSundayafternoons,usingthesamesermonIpreachedinmyownpulpitinthemorning。Thearrangementworkedsowellthatitlastedforsixandahalfyears——untilIresignedfrommyEastDennischurch。Duringthatperiod,more—
over,Inotonlycarriedthetwochurchesonmyshoulders,holdingthreemeetingseachSunday,butIentereduponandcompletedacourseintheBostonMedicalSchool,winningmyM。D。in1885,andIalsolecturedseveraltimesamonthduringthewinterseasons。Thesewere,therefore,amongthemoststrenuousaswellasthemostinterestingyearsofmyexistence,andImentionthestrainofthemonlytoprovemylife—longcontention,thatcongenialwork,nomatterhowmuchthereisofit,hasneveryetkilledanyone!
AftermybattlewiththeFreeReligiousGroupthingsmovedmuchmoresmoothlyintheparish。
CaptainCrowell,insteadofresentingmydefianceofhisruling,helpedtoreconcilethedividedfactionsinthechurch;andthough,asIhavesaid,twiceafterwardIsubmittedmyresignation,ineachcasethefightIwasmakingwasforacausewhichI
firmlybelievedinandeventuallywon。MysecondresignationwasbroughtaboutbytheunwillingnessofthechurchtohavemeexchangepulpitswiththeoneministeronCapeCodbroad—mindedenoughtoinvitemetopreachinhispulpit。Ihaddoneso,andhadthensenthimareturninvitation。Hewasagentlemanandascholar,buthewasalsoaUni—
tarian;andthoughmypeoplewerewillingtoletmepreachinhischurch,theywereloathtolethimpreachinmine。Afterasurprisingamountofdis—
cussionmyresignationputadifferentaspectonthematter;italsoledtothesatisfactoryrulingthatIcouldexchangepulpitsnotonlywiththisminister,butwithanyotheringoodstandinginhisownchurch。
MythirdresignationwentbeforethetrusteesinconsequenceofmyprotestfromthepulpitagainstasmalldrinkingandgamblingsalooninEastDennis;
whichwasrapidlydemoralizingourboys。Theo—
retically,only``softdrinks’’weresold,butthegamblingwasopen,andtheresortwasconstantlyfilledwithboysofallages。Therewereinfluencesbackofthisplacewhichtriedtoprotectit,anditsownerwasverypopularinthetown。AftermyfirstsermonIwaswaiteduponbyacommittee,thatwarmlyadvisedmeto``letEastDennisalone’’andconfinemycriticisms``tosaloonsinBostonandotherbigtowns。’’AsIhadnothingtodowithBoston,andmuchtodowithEastDennis,IpreachedonthatplacethreeSundaysinsuccession,andfeelingbecamesointensethatIhandedinmyresig—
nationandpreparedtodepart。Thenmyfriendsralliedandtheresortwassuppressed。
Thatwasmylastbigstruggle。Duringthere—
mainingfiveyearsofmypastorateonCapeCodtherelationsbetweenmypeopleandmyselfwerewhollyharmoniousandbeautiful。IfIhaveseemedtodwelltoomuchonthesesmallvictories,itmustberememberedthatIfindinthemsuchcomfortasIcan。Ihavenotyetwonthegreatandvitalfightofmylife,towhichIhavegivenmyself,heartandsoul,forthepastthirtyyears——thecampaignforwomansuffrage。Ihaveseenvictorieshereandthere,andshallseemore。Butwhentheultimatetriumphcomes——whenAmericanwomenineverystatecasttheirballotsasnaturallyastheirhusbandsdo——Imaynotbeinthisworldtorejoiceoverit。
ItisinterestingtorememberthatduringthestrenuousperiodofthefirstfewmonthsinEastDennis,andnotwithstandingthedivisioninthecongregation,wewomenofthechurchgottogetherandrepaintedandrefurnishedthebuilding,raisingallthemoneyanddoingmuchoftheworkourselves,astheexpenseofhavingitdonewasprohibitive。Wepaintedthechurch,andevencutdownandmod—
ernizedthepulpit。Thetotalcostofmaterialandfurniturewasnothalfsogreatastheoriginalesti—
matehadindicated,andwehadlearnedavaluablelesson。Afterthiswespentverylittlemoneyforlabor,butdidourowncleaning,carpet—laying,andthelike;andourlittlechurch,ifImaybeallowedtosayso,wasamodelofneatnessandgoodtaste。
Ihavesaidthatattheendoftwoyearsfromthetimeofmyappointmentthelong—continuedwar—
fareinthechurchwasended。Iwasnotimmediate—
lyallowed,however,tobaskinanatmosphereofharmony,forinOctober,1880,thecelebratedcon—