Thenthecongregationhadathrill。InthebackseatroseHarryHobbs。
"I’mnearfortyyearsold,"hecried,inahighnasaltonethatindicatedastateofextremenervoustension,"andIneverspokeinmeetin’before。Iain’thadnouseforchurchesandpreachers,andIguesstheyhadn’tnouseforme。Youfolksallknowme。I’vebeeninthisburgforneareightyears,andIwasadrinkin’,swearin’,fightin’cuss。ThispreachercameintothebarnonedaywhenIwasfreezin’todeathafterabigspree。Hetukmehomewithhimandkep’metherefortwoweeks,settin’upnightswithme,too。Letmebe,"hesaidimpatientlytoBarry,whowastryingtopullhimdowntohisseat。"I’magoin’tospeakthistimeifitkillsme。ManyatimeIdonehimdirtsencethen,buthestucktome,andneverquittillhegotmeturned’round。Iwasgoin’
straighttohell;hesaysI’mgoin’toheavennow。"Herehelaughedwithatouchofscorn。"Idunno。But,bygum!ifyoufirehimanddohimdirt,Idon’tknowwhat’llbecomeofme,butIguessI’llgostraighttohellagain。"
"No,Harry,noyouwon’t。You’llkeeprighton,Harry,straighttoheaven。"Itwasthepreacher’svoice,fullofcheeryconfidence。
Mrs。Inneswasaudiblysniffling;Mrs。StewartDuffwipinghereyes。Itwasdoubtlessthissightthatbroughtherhusbandtohisfeet。
"Idon’tquiteknowwhatthetroubleishere,"hesaid。"I
understandtherearearrears。Iheardsomecriticismoftheminister’spreaching。Ican’tsayIcaremuchforitmyself,butI
wanttosayrightherethatthereareotherthingswantedinaminister,andthisyoungfellowhasgotsomeofthem。Ifhestays,hegetsmymoney;ifhedoesn’t,nooneelsedoes。I’llmakeyougentlemenwhoarekickingaboutfinancesasportingproposition。
I’mwillingtodoublemysubscription,ifanyothertenmenwillcovermyante。"
"I’llcallyou,"saidNeilFraser,"andI’llraiseyouone。"
"I’mwillingtomeetMr。DuffandMr。Fraser,"saidMissQuigg,risingfrombehindherorganwithatriumphantsmileonherface。
"Iain’tgotmuchmoney,"saidHarryHobbs,"butI’llgoyoujusthalfwhatIearnifyou’llmeetmeonthatproposition。"
"Ahmaysay,"saidMr。Innes,yieldingtohiswife’svigorousvocalandphysicalincitations,"A’mprepair—r—edtomak’asubstantialincreaseinmysubscreeption——thatis,ifnecessary,"headdedcautiously。
ThenBarrycameforwardfromthebackofthechurchandstoodbeforetheplatform。Afterlookingthemoverforafewmomentsinsilence,hesaid,inavoiceclear,quiet,butwitharinginitthatmadeitechoineveryheart:
"Haditnotbeenfortheselastspeeches,itwouldhavebeenunnecessarytoallowthemotiontogobeforeyou。IcouldnothaveremainedwhereIamnotwanted。ButnowIampuzzled,Iconfess,I
amreallypuzzledtoknowwhattodo。Iamnotagreatpreacher,I
know,butthenthereareworse。Idon’t,atleastIthinkIdon’t,talknonsense。AndIamnotwhatMr。McFettridgecallsa’goodmixer。’Ontheotherhand,IthinkMr。Innesisrightwhenhesaysthebairnslikeme;atleast,itwouldbreak"——hepaused,hislipquivering,thenhewentonquietly——"itwouldbeveryhardtothinktheydidn’t。"
"Theydothat,then,"saidMrs。Innes,emphatically。
"Soyousee,itisreallyverydifficulttoknowwhattodo。I
wouldhatetogoaway,butitmightberighttogoaway。Isuggestyouletmehaveaweektothinkitover。Canyouwaitthatlong?"
Hishandsome,boyishface,alightwithafineglowofearnestnessandsincerity,madeirresistibleappealtoallbutthosewhoforpersonalreasonswereopposedtohim。
"Yousee,"hecontinued,inatoneofvoicedeliberativeandquitedetached,"thereareanumberofthingstothinkabout。Thosearrears,forinstance,arehardlymyfault——atleast,notaltogether。
Iwaslookingoverthetreasurer’sbookstheotherday,andIwassurprisedtofindhowmanyhadapparentlyquiteforgottentopaytheirchurchsubscription。Itisnodoubtjustanoversight。Forinstance,"headded,intheconfidentialtoneofoneimpartinginterestingandvaluableinformation,"youwillbesurprisedtolearn,Mr。Duff,thatyouaretwenty—fivedollarsbehindinyourpayments。"
AtthisNeilFraserthrewbackhisheadwithaloudlaugh。
"Touche!"hesaid,inajoyousundertone。
Theministerlookedathiminsurprise,andwenton,"AndwhileMr。
InnesandMissQuiggarebothpaidupinfull,Mr。Hayeshasapparentlyneglectedtopayhislastquarter。"
"Hithimagain,"murmuredHarryHobbs,whileMr。Hayesroseinvirtuousindignation。
"Iprotest,Mr。Chairman!"hecried,"againstthesepersonalities。"
"Oh,youquitemistakeme,Mr。Hayes,"saidthepreacher,"thesearenotpersonalities。Iamsimplyshowinghoweasyitisforarrearstoarise,andthatitmaynotbemyfaultatall。Ofcourse,itmayberightformetoresign。Idon’tknowaboutthatyet,butIwanttobeverysure。Itwouldbeeasiertoresign,butIdon’twanttobeaquitter。"
"Imoveweadjourn,"saidNeilFraser。
"Isecondthemotion,"saidStewartDuff。Themotionwascarried,andthemeetingadjourned。
Atthedoortheministerstoodshakinghandswithallastheypassedout,makingnodistinctionintheheartinesswithwhichhegreetedallhisparishioners。ToMissQuigg,however,hesaid,"Thankyou。Youweresplendidlyplucky。"
"Nonsense!"criedthelittlelady,thecolourflaminginherfadedcheeks。"But,"sheaddedhastily,"youdidthatbeautifully,andhedeservedit,thelittlebeast!"
"Solarplexus!"saidNeilFraser,whowasimmediatelybehindMissQuigg。
Theministerglancedfromonetotheotherinperplexity,astheypassedoutofthedoor。
"But,youknow,Iwasonly——"
"Oh,yes,weknow,"criedMissQuigg。"Butifthosemenwouldonlytakehold!Oh,thosemen!"SheturneduponNeilFraserandshookherheadathimviolently。
"Iknow,MissQuigg。Weareahopelessandhelplesslot。Butwe’regoingtoreform。"
"Youneedto,badly,"shesaid。"Butyouneedsomeonetoreformyou。LookatMr。Duffthere,howvastlyimprovedheis,"andshewavedherhandtothatgentleman,whowasdrivingawaywithhiswifeintheirbuckboard。
"Heisaperfectdear,"sighedMrs。Duff,asshebowedtotheminister。"Andyou,too,Stewart,"sheadded,givinghisarmalittlesqueeze,"yousaidjusttherightthingwhenthosehorridpeopleweregoingtoturnhimout。"
"Say!Yourpreacherisn’tsobadafterall,"saidherhusband。
"Wasn’tthataneatoneforoldHayes?"
"Herathergotyou,though,Stewart。"
"Yes,hedid,byJove!Notthefirsttime,either,he’sdoneit。
ButImustlookafterthat。Say,he’sthelimitforfreshnessthough。Orisitfreshness?I’mnotquitesure。"
"Willhestaywithus?"saidhiswife。"Ireallydohopehewill。"
"Guesshe’llstayallright。Hewon’tgiveuphisjob,"saidherhusband。
ButnextweekprovedMr。Duffapoorprophet,fortheministeraftertheserviceinformedhispeoplethathehadcometotheconclusionthatanothermanmightgetbetterresultsasministerofthecongregation;hehadthereforehandedinhisresignationtothePresbytery。
Itwasashocktothemall,butheadheredtohisresolutioninspiteoftearfullamentationsfromthewomen,wide—eyedamazementanddismayfromthebairnsofthecongregation,andindignation,loudlyexpressed,fromNeilFraserandStewartDuff,andothersoftheirkind。
"Well,"saidMissQuigg,strugglingwithindignanttears,asshewaspassingoutofthechurch,"youwon’tseeHarryHobbsinthischurchagain,norme,either。"
"Oh,yes,MissQuigg,Harryhaspromisedmethathewillstickbythechurch,andthathewillbethereeverySunday。Andsowillyou,dearMissQuigg。Iknowyou。Youwilldowhatisright。"
Butthatlittlelady,withherheadveryerectandaredspotburningineachfadedcheek,passedoutofthechurchsayingnothing,theplumesonherjauntylittlehatquiveringdefianceandwrathagainst"thosemen,whohadsolittlespunkastoallowalittlebeastlikeHayestorunthem。"
CHAPTERV
THEWARDRUMCALLS
"Well,dad,"saidBarrynexteveningastheyweresittinginthegardenaftertea,"IfeelsomethinglikeMohammed’scoffin,detachedfromearthbutnotyetascendedintoheaven。It’sunpleasanttobeoutofajob。IconfessIshallalwayscherishamoreintelligentsympathyhenceforthforthegreatunemployed。Butcheerup,dad!Youaretakingthisthingmuchtooseriously。Theworldiswide,andthereissomethingwaitingmethatIcandobetterthananyoneelse。"
Butthefatherhadlittletosay。Hefeltbitterlythehumiliationtowhichhissonhadbeensubjected。
Barryrefusedtoseethehumiliation。
"WhyshouldInotresignifIdecideitismydutysotodo?Andwhy,ontheotherhand,shouldnottheyhavetherighttoterminatemyengagementwiththemwhentheysodesire?That’sdemocraticgovernment。"
"ButgoodLord,Barry!"burstouthisfather,withquiteanunusualdisplayoffeeling;"tothinkthatagentlemanshouldholdhispositionatthewhimofsuchwhippersnappersasHayes,Boggsethocgenusomne。Andmorethanthat,thatIshouldhavetoacceptasmyministeramanwhowouldbethechoiceofcattlelikethat。"
"Afterall,dad,weareruledbymajoritiesinthisageandinthiscountry。Thatisatoncethegloryandthedangerofdemocraticgovernment。Thereisnobetterwaydiscoveredasyet。Andbesides,Icouldn’tgoonhere,dad,preachingSundayafterSundaytopeoplewhoIfeltwereallthetimesaying,’He’snogood’;topeople,inshort,whocouldnotprofitbymypreaching。"
"Becauseithadnopep,eh?"saidhisfatherwithbitterscorn。
"Doyouknow,dad,Ibelievethat’swhatiswrongwithmypreaching:ithasn’tgotpep。Whatpepis,onlytheinitiatedknow。Butthelongandtheshortofthisthingis,itisthepeoplethatmustbesatisfied。Itistheywhohavetostandyourpreaching,theywhopaythepiper。Butcheerup,dad,Ihavenofearforthefuture。"
"NorhaveI,myboy,nottheslightest。Ihopeyoudidnotthinkforamoment,myson,"headdedwithsomedignity,"thatIwasindoubtaboutyourfuture。"
"No,no,dad。Webothfeelalittlesorenaturally,butthefutureisallright。"
"True,mydearboy,true。Iwasforgettingmyself。Asyousay,theworldiswideandyourplaceiswaiting。"
"Hello!herecomesmyfriend,Mr。Duff,"saidBarryinalowvoice。
"HewasreadytothrowMr。McFettridgeoutofthemeetingyesterday,bodyandbones。Awfullyfunny,ifithadn’tbeeninchurch。Wonderwhathewants!Seemsinabitofahurry。"
Buthurryornot,itwasafullhourbeforeMr。Duffintroducedhisbusiness。Asheenteredthegardenhestoodgazingabouthiminamazedwonderanddelight,andthathourwasspentincompanywithMr。Dunbar,exploringthegarden,Barryfollowingbehindlostinamazementatthenewphaseofcharacterdisplayedbytheirvisitor。
"Ihavenothadsuchadelightfulevening,Mr。Dunbar,foryears,"
saidDuff,whentheyhadfinishedmakingtheroundofthegarden。
"Ihaveheardaboutyourgarden,butIhadnoideathatitheldsuchawealthandvarietyoftreasures。Ihadsomethingofagardenmyselfintheoldcountry,butherethereisnotimeapparentlyforanythingbutcattleandhorsesandmoney。ButifyouwouldallowmeIshouldgreatlyliketohavethepleasureofbringingMrs。Dufftoseeyourbeautifulgarden。"
Mr。DuffwasassuredthattheDunbarswouldhavethegreatestpleasureinreceivingMrs。Duff。
"Dobringher,"saidBarry,"andwecanhavealittlemusic,too。
Sheismusical,Iknow。Ihearhersinginchurch。"
"Music!Why,shelovesit。Butshedroppedhermusicwhenshecamehere;thereseemedtobenotime,notime,notime。Iwondersometimes——Well,Imustgetatmybusiness。Itisthisletterthatbringsme。ItisfromanAmericanwhomyouknow,atleast,heknowsyou,aMr。OsborneHowlandofPittsburgh。"
Mr。Dunbarnodded。
"HeisplanningabigtripupthePeaceRivercountryprospectingforoilandmines,andlaterhunting。Hesaysyouandyoursonengagedtoaccompanyhim,andheasksmetocompletearrangementswithyou。IamgettingJimKnighttolookaftertheoutfit。YouknowJim,perhaps。HerunstheLonePineranch。Finechapheis。
Knowsallaboutthehuntingbusiness。Takesapartyintothemountainseveryyear。He’lltakeTomFieldingwithhim。Idon’tknowFielding,butKnightdoes。Mr。Howlandsaystherewillbethreeoftheirparty。Fartoomany,butthat’shisbusiness。I
myselfamratheranxioustolookaftersomeoildeposits,andthiswillbeagoodchance。Whatdoyousay?"
Fatherandsonlookedateachother。
"Itwouldbefine,ifwecouldmanageit,"saidMr。Dunbar,"butmyworkissopressingjustnow。Agreatmanyarecomingin,andIamaloneintheofficeatpresent。Whendoesheproposetostart?"
"Insixweeks’time。Ihopeyoucancome,Mr。Dunbar。Icouldn’thavesaidsoyesterday,butIcannow。Anymanwithagardenlikethis,theproductofhisownplanningandworking,isworthknowing。SoIdohopeyoucanbothcome。Bytheway,Knightwantsacamphand,akindofroustabout,whocancook——ahandyman,youknow。"
"Ihavehim,"saidBarry。"HarryHobbs。"
"Hobbs?Boozesabit,doesn’the?"
"Notnow。Hasn’tforsixmonths。He’sanewman。Icanguaranteehim。"
"Youcan,eh?Well,myexperienceisonceaboozeralwaysaboozer。"
"Oh,"saidBarry,"Hobbsisdifferent。Heisamemberofourchurch,youknow。"
"No,Ididn’tknow。ButIdon’tknowthatthatmakesmuchdifferenceanyway,"saidDuffwithalaugh。"Idon’tmeantobeoffensive,"headded。
"ItdoestoHobbs,he’saChristianmannow。ImeanarealChristian,Mr。Duff。"
"Well,Isupposethereissuchathing。Infact,I’veknownoneortwo,but——well,ifyouguaranteehimI’lltakehim。"
"Iwillguaranteehim,"saidBarry。
"Letmehaveyouranswerto—morrow,"saidDuffashebadethemgood—night。
TheDunbarsdiscussedthematterfarintothenight。ItwasclearlyimpossibleforMr。Dunbartoleavehiswork,andtheonlyquestionwaswhetherornotBarryshouldmakeoneoftheparty。
Barrygreatlydislikedtheideaofleavinghisfatherduringthehotsummermonths,ashesaid,"toslaveawayathisdesk,andtoslopawayinhisbachelordiggings。"Heraisedmanyobjections,butoneconsiderationseemedtosettlethingsfortheDunbars。Tothemapromisewasapromise。
"IfIrememberaright,Barry,wepromisedthatweshouldjointheirpartyonthisexpedition。"
"Yes,"addedBarryquickly,"ifourworkpermittedit。"
"Exactly,"saidhisfather。"Myworkpreventsme,yourworkdoesnot。"
HenceitcamethatbytheendofAugustBarryfoundhimselfinthefarnorthernwildsofthePeaceRivercountry,ahundredmilesorsofromEdmonton,attachedtoaprospecting—huntingpartyofwhichMr。OsborneHowlandwasthenominalhead,butofwhichthe"boss"
wasundoubtedlyhishandsome,athleticandimpetuousdaughterPaula。Thepartyhadnotbeenonthetrailformorethanaweekbeforeeverymemberwasmovingathercommand,andapparentlygladtodoso。
Thepartywerecampedbyarushingriveratthefootofafalls。
Belowthefallstherivermadeawideeddy,thensweptdowninaturbulentrapidforsomemiles。Thelandingwasasmoothandshelvingrockthatpitchedsomewhatsteeplyintotheriver。
TheunfortunateHarry,whoaftertheday’smarchhadexchangedhisheavymarchingbootswiththeirclinginghobnailsforshoesmorecomfortablebutwithlessclingingqualities,inmakingpreparationfortheeveningmealmadehiswaydownthisshelvingrockofwater。
Nosoonerhadhefilledhispailthanhisfootslippedfromunderhim,andinaninstantthepailandhimselfwereintheswiftlyflowingriver。
Hiscrystartledthecamp。
"Hello!"shoutedDuff,withagreatlaugh。"Harryisinthedrink!
Ineverknewhewassofondofwaterasallthat。You’vegottoswimforitnow,oldboy。"
"Throwhimsomething,"saidKnight。
PastthemranBarry,throwingoffcoatandvest。
"Hecan’tswim,"hecried,tearingathisboots。"Throwhimaline,someone。"Herandowntothewater’sedge,plungedin,andswamtowardtheunfortunateHarry,who,splashingwildly,wasbeingcarriedrapidlyintotheroughwater。
"Oh,father,hewillbedrowned!"criedPaula,rushingtowardacanoewhichwasdrawnupontheshore。BeforeanyonecouldreachhershehadpusheditoutandwassteeringovertheboilingcurrentinBarry’swake。Butafterafewstrokesofherpaddleshefoundherselfdrivenfaroutintothecurrentandawayfromthestrugglingmen。Paulahadhadsufficientexperiencewithacanoetohandleitwithconsiderableeaseinsmoothwaterandunderordinaryconditions,butintheswirlofthisroughandswiftwaterthecanoetookthemanagementofitscourseoutofherhands,andshehadallshecoulddotokeepafloat。
"ForGod’ssake,men,gether!"criedBrand。"Shewillbedrownedbeforeoureyes。"
"Comeon,Tom,"criedJimKnight,swinginganothercanoeintothewater。Aglancehegaveatthegirl,anotheratthestrugglingmen,forbythistimeBarrycouldbeseenstrugglingwiththedrowningHobbs。
"Getin,Tom,"orderedKnight,takingthestern。"Wewillgetthemenfirst。Thegirlisallrightinthemeantime。"
"Getthegirl!"commandedBrand。"ForGod’ssakegoforthegirl,"
heentreatedinafrenzyofdistress。
"No,"saidKnight,"themenfirst。She’sallright。"
"Here,"saidDufftoBrand,pushingouttheremainingcanoe,"getintothebow,andstophowling。Thosemenareindangerofbeingdrowned,butKnightwillgetthem。We’llgoforthegirl。"
IttookbutafewminutesforKnightandFielding,whoknewtheircraftthoroughlyandhowtogetthebestoutofherinjustsuchanemergency,todrawupuponHarryandhisrescuer。
"Say,theyarefightinghard,"saidFielding。"ThatbloodylittlefoolischokingthelifeoutofDunbar。MyGod!theyareoutofsight!"
"Goon,"roaredKnight。"Keepyoureyesonthespot,andforHeaven’ssake,paddle!"
"Theyareupagain!Oneofthemis。It’sBarry。Theotherisgone。No,byJove!he’sgothim!Holdon,Barry,we’recoming,"
yelledTom。"Sticktoit,oldboy!"
Swiftlythecanoespedtowardthedrowningmen。
"Theyaregonethistimeforsure,"criedTom,asthecanoeshotoverthespotwherethemenhadlastbeenseen。
"Notmuch!"saidKnight,asreachingoutofthesternhegrippedBarrybythehair。"Holdhard,Barry,"hesaidquietly。"Nomonkeyworknoworyou’lldrownusall。"ImmediatelyBarryceasedstruggling。
"Don’ttrytogetin,Barry。We’llhavetotowyouashore。"
"Allright,Jim,"hesaidbetweenhissobbingbreaths。"Only——
hurryup——I’vegothim——here。"
Knightreacheddowncarefully,liftedBarrytillhishandtouchedthegunwaleofthecanoe。
"Nottoohard,Barry,"hesaid。"I’lleaseyouroundtothestern。
Steady,boy,steady。Don’tdumpus。"
"Allright——Jim——but——he’sunderthewater——here。"
"Oh,nevermindhim。We’llgethimallright。Canyouholdonnow?"saidKnight。
"Yes——Ithinkso。"
"Now,forGod’ssake,Tom,edgeherintotheshore。Seethatlittleeddythere?Swingintothat!You’lldoitallright。
Goodman!"
BythistimeKnightwasabletogetHarry’sheadabovewater。
Inafewminutestheyhadreachedtheshore,andwereworkinghardoverHarry’sunconsciousbody,leavingBarrylyingonthesandtorecoverhisstrength。AlongfightwasnecessarytobringthelifebackintoHarry,bywhichtimeBarrywassufficientlyrecoveredtositup。
"Staywhereyouare,Barry,untilwegetthismanbacktocamp,"
orderedKnight。"We’lllightabitofafireforyou。"
"I’mwarmenough,"saidBarry。
"Warmenough?Youmaybe,butyouwillbebetterwithafire,andyouliebesideittillwegetyou。Don’tmovenow。"
"There’stheothercanoescoming,"saidFielding。"They’llmakeshorealittlelowerdown。They’reallright。Say,she’shandlingthatcanoelikeaman!"
"Who?"saidBarry。
"Why,MissHowland,"saidFielding。"Shewasoutafteryoulikeashot。She’sapluckyone!"
Barrywasonhisfeetinaninstant,watchinganxiouslytheprogressofthecanoes,whichwerebeingslowlyedgedacrosstheriverinalonginclinetowardtheshore。
"They’llmakeit,allright,"saidKnight,afterobservingthemforatime。"Don’tyouworry。Justliedownbythefire。We’llbebackinajiffy。"
Inanhourtheywereallsafelybackincamp,andsufficientlyrecoveredtodiscoverthehumorouspointsintheepisode。ButtheywereallfamiliarenoughwiththetreacherouspossibilitiesofroughandrapidwatertoknowthatforHobbsandhisdelivereratleast,therehadbeensomeseriousmomentsduringtheirfiercestruggleintheriver。
"Anotherminutewouldhavedone,"saidFieldingtohisfriend,astheysatoverthefireaftersupper。
"Ahalfaminutewouldhavebeenjustasgood,"saidKnight。"I
gotBarrybythehairunderwater。Hewasathislastkick,youbet!Andthatrat,"headded,smilinggoodnaturedlyatHarry,"wasdragginghimdownforthelasttime。"
"Ididn’tknownothin’aboutit,"saidpoorHarry,whowaslyingstretchedoutbythefire,stillveryweakandmiserable。"I
didn’tknownothin’aboutit,oryoubetIwoudn’tha’doneit。I
didn’tknownothin’afterhegotme。"
"Afteryougothim,youmean,"saidFielding。
"Iguessthat’sright,"saidHarry,"butIwouldn’tha’gothimifhehadn’tha’gotmefirst。"
TheyalljoinedinthediscussionoftheeventexceptPaula,whosatdistraitandsilent,gazingintothefire,andBarry,wholay,drowsyandrelaxed,onablanketnotfarfromherside。
"Yououghttogotobed,"saidPaulaatlengthinalowvoicetohim。"Youneedagoodnight’ssleep。"
"I’mtootiredtosleep,"saidBarry。"Ifeelratherrotten,infact。Ioughttofeelverygrateful,butsomehowIjustfeelrotten。"
"Canonebegratefulandfeelrottenatthesametime?"saidPaula,makingtalk。
"Beholdme,"repliedBarry。"IknowIamgrateful,butIdofeelrotten。Idon’tthinkIhaveeventhankedyouforriskingyourlifeforme,"headded,turningtowardher。
"Riskingmylife?Nonsense!Ipaddled’roundinthecanoeforabit,tilltwostrongmencametotowmein,andwouldhave,ifI
hadallowedthem。Thanktheboys,whogotyouintime。"Sheshudderedasshespoke。
"Idothankthem,andIdofeelgratefultothem,"saidBarry。"Itwasratheranearthing。Yousee,Ilethimgripme。Ichokedhimoffmyarms,buthesliddowntomythigh,andIcouldnotkickhimoff。Hadtopracticallydrownhim。Eventhenhehungon。"
"Oh,don’tspeakaboutit,"shesaidwithashudder,coveringherfacewithherhands。"Itwastooawful,anditmighthavebeentheendofyou。"Hervoicebrokealittle。
"No,notanend,"answeredBarry,inaquietvoice。"Nottheendbyalongway,notbyaverylongway。"
"Whatdoyoumean?Oh,youarethinkingofimmortality,andallthat,"saidPaula。"It’sachilly,ghostlysubject。Itmakesmeshiver。Igetlittlecomfortoutofit。"
"Ghostlyitis,ifyoumeanathingofspirits,"saidBarry,"butchilly!Whychilly?"Thenheaddedtohimselfinanundertone:
"Iwonder!Iwonder!IwishsometimesIknewmore。"
"Sometimes?"criedPaula。"Always!"sheaddedpassionately。"It’sadreadfulbusinesstome。Tobesuddenlysnatchedoutofthelightandthewarmth,awayfromthetouchofwarmfingersandthesightofdearfaces!Ah,Idreadit!Iloathethethoughtofit。
Ihateit!"
"Andyet,"musedBarry,"somehowIcannotforgetthatouttheresomewherethereisOne,kindly,genial,true,——likemydad。Howgoodhehasbeentome——mydad,Imean,andthatOther,too,hasbeengood。SomehowIthinkofthemtogether。Yes,IamgratefultoHim。"
"Oh,God,youmean,"saidPaula,alittleimpatiently。
"Yes,toGod。Hesavedmeto—day。’Saved,’Isay。Itisaqueerwaytospeak,afterall。WhatIreallyoughttosayisthatGodthoughtitbestthatIshouldcamp’roundhereforabitlongerbeforemovinginnearer。"
"Nearer?"
"Yes,intothenearercircle。Lifemoves’roundacentre,inouterandinnercircles。Thisistheoutercircle。Nearerinthere,itiskindlier,withbetterlightandclearervision。’Weshallknowevenasweareknown。’"Barrymusedon,asifcommuningwithhimself。
"Butwhenyoumovein,"saidPaula,andtherewasnomistakingtheearnestnessofhertone,"youbreaktouchwiththoseyoulovehere。"
"Idon’tknowaboutthat,"answeredBarryquickly。
"Oh,yesyoudo。Youareoutofallthis,——allthis,"shesweptherhandattheworldaroundher,"thisgoodoldworld,allyourjoyandhappiness,allyoulove。Oh,that’stheworstofit;yougiveupyourlove。Ihateit!"sheconcludedwithvehemencesuddenandfierce,assheshookherfisttowardsthestars。