"SurelyIwill。You’llbeallright,oldboy,Godblessyou!Goodluck,Ewen!"
Thenleaningovertheboy,headdedinalowvoice,"Rememberyouarenotallalone。Godiswithyou。Youwon’tforgetthat!"
"Iwon’t,sir。Iknowitwell,"saidEwenearnestly。
Mostofthestretchercaseshadbeenhurriedaway。Onlyafewofthemoreseriouslywoundedremained。AsBarryturnedawayfromthecar,hesawthemedicalofficerandsergeantmajorapproachinghim。
"Aterriblebusiness,"saidBarry,inahorror—strickenvoice。
"Splendidchaps。Howpluckytheyare!"
TheM。O。madenoreply,butcomingclosetoBarry,heputhisarmthroughhis,thesergeantmajortakinghimbytheotherarm。
"Isay,Barry,oldchap,"saidtheM。O。inagravevoice,callinghimforthefirsttimebyhisfirstname。"Thereissomeoneherethatyouknowwell。"
"SomeoneIknow,"saidBarry,standingstillandlookingfromonetotheother。
"Ay,sir。Someoneweallknowandgreatlyrespect,"repliedthesergeantmajor。
"Not——not——oh,notmyfather!"
TheM。O。nodded。
"Bad,doctor?Notdying,doctor?"Hisfacewaswhiteeveninspiteofhistan。Hishandsclosedaboutthedoctor’sarminagripthatreachedtothebone。
"No,notdying,Barry,butinabadway,Ifear。"
"Takeme,"mutteredBarry,inadazedway,andtheymovedtogetherrapidlyacrosstheplatform。
"Waitamoment,doctor,"saidBarry,breathinghard。
Theystoodstill,asilentandsympatheticgroupofsoldiersaboutthem。Barryturnedfromthem,walkedafewsteps,hisclaspedhandswrithingbeforehim,thenstoodwithhisfaceupliftedtotheskyforafewmoments。
"Allright,doctor,I’llfollow,"hesaid,comingquietlyback。
"Willheknowme?"
"Surething,sir,"saidthesergeantmajorcheerily。"Hewasaskingforyou。"
Onastretcher,waitingtobeliftedintotheambulance,hefoundhisfather,lyingwhiteandstill。
"Dad!"criedBarry,droppingtohiskneesbesidehim。Heputhisarmsaroundhimonthestretcher,andkissedhimonbothcheeksandonthelips。Theyalldrewbackfromthestretcherandturnedtheirbacksuponthetwo。
"Barry,myboy。ThankthegoodGod!IfearedIwouldnotseeyou。
It’sallrightnow。Everythingisallrightnow。Ican’tputmyarmsaroundyou,boy。Ihaven’tanyleft。"
Barry’sshuddershookthestretcher。
"Dad,dad,oh,dad!"hewhispered,overandoveragain。
"It’sallright,"whisperedhisfather。"Wemustnotforgetwe’resoldiers。Helpmetokeepup,boy。I’mnotverystrong。"
ThatpitifulworddidforBarrywhatnothingelsecoulddo。Heliftedhishead,stoodupanddrewadeepbreath。
"Surething,dad,"hesaid,inaclear,steadyvoice。"Imustn’tkeepyou。"
Hemotionedtothebearers。Thensuddenlyrecollectingthathisdutywouldcallhimawayfromhisfather,heturnedtotheM。O。,anagonyofsupplicationinhisvoice。
"Oh,doctor,mustIleavehimhere?"heaskedinalowtone。
Justthenanorderlycamerunninguptohim,and,saluting,said:
"Sir,theCommandingOfficersaysyouaretoremainbehindwithyourfather——till——till——"
"Untilyouaresentfor,"saidtheM。O。"Iwillseetothat。"
"Where’stheCommandingOfficer?"criedBarry,startingforward。
"Hehasgoneoffsomewheres,sir。Hewassorryhecouldn’tcomehimself,buthewascalledaway。Hesentthatmessagetoyou。"
"Doctor,willyouremembertothanktheCommandingOfficerforme?"hesaidbriefly,andturnedtofollowhisfatherintotheambulance,whichhediscoveredtobeinchargeofhisfriend,thesergeantoftheR。A。M。C。
Atthehospitalhewasreceivedwitheverymarkofsolicitouscare。
Hewasmadetofeelthathewasamongfriends。
"Howlong,doctor?"heasked,afterthedoctorhadfinishedhisexamination。
"Notlong,I’mafraid。Afewhours,perhapsaday。Hewillnotsufferthough,"saidthedoctor。"But,"headded,takingBarrybythearm,"heisveryweak,remember,andmustnotbeexcited。"
"Iknow,doctor,"saidBarry,quietly。"Iwon’tworryhim。"
ThroughthemorningBarrysatbyhisfather’scot,givinghim,underthedirectionsofthenurse,suchstimulantsasheneeded,nowandthenspeakingaquiet,cheeryword。
Oftenhisfatheropenedhiseyesandsmiledathim。
"Goodtoseeyouthere,myboy。Thatwasmyonlygrief。IfearedImightnotseeyouagain。ThankthegoodGodthatheallowedmetoseeyou。"
"Heisgood,dad,isn’tHe?Goodtome;goodtousboth。"
"Yes,Heisgood,"saidhisfather,andfellasleep。Foralmosttwohoursheslept,asleepofexhaustion,duetotheterrificstrainofthepastforty—eighthours,andwokerefreshed,calmandstrong。
"Youarealotbetter,dad,"saidBarry。"Ibelieveyouaregoingtopullthrough,eh!"
"Alotbetter,Barry,"saidhisfather,"but,myboy,wearesoldiers,youandI。Ishallnotbelong,butremember,wearesoldiers。"
"Allright,dad。I’lltrytoplaythegame。"
"That’stheword,Barry。Wemustplaythegame,andbyGod’sgracewewill,youandI——ourlastgametogether。"
Throughtheafternoontheytalked,betweenintervalsofsleep,resolvedeachtohelptheotherinplayingtotheend,inthemannerofBritishsoldiers,thatlast,greatgame。
Theytalked,ofcourse,ofhomeandtheirhappydaystogether,goingfarbackintotheearlieryearsofstruggleontheranch。
"Harddays,Barry,theywere,butyourmotherneverfailedme。
Wonderfulcourageshehad,andifwewereallright,youandI,Barry,shewasalwayshappy。Doyourememberher?"
"Yes,dad,quitewell。Irememberhersmilingalways。"
"Smiling,myGod!Smilingthroughthosedays。Yes,that’sthewaysheplayedthegame,andthat’stheonlyway,boy。"
"Yes,dad,"saidBarry,andhissmilewasbrighterthanever,buthisknucklesshowedwhitewherehegrippedthechair。
Thenursecameandwent,wonderingattheirbrightfacesandtheircheeryvoices。Theykepttheirmindsupontheoldhappydays。
Theyrecalledtheircanoetrips,theirhuntingexperiences,dwellingmostlyuponthehumorousincidents,playingthegame。Ofthewartheyspokelittle;notatallofwhatwastobeafter——thepast,thegolden,happypast,richinloveandincomradeship,thatwastheironetheme。
Asnightfell,thefathergrewweary,andhisperiodsofsleepgrewlonger,buteverashewokehefoundhisson’sfacesmilingdownuponhim。
"Goodboy,Barry,"hesaidonce,withanunderstandinglookandanansweringsmile。"Don’ttrytoohard,myboy。"
"It’sallright,dad。Iassureyouit’sallright。Youknowitis。"
"Iknow,Iknow,myboy,"hesaid,andfellasleepagain。
Asthemidnighthourdrewon,Barry’shead,fromsheerweariness,sunkuponhisbreast。Inhissleephebecameawareofsomeonenearhim。Hesatup,dazedandstupidfromhisexhaustionandhisgrief,andfoundanurseathisside。
"Takethis,"shesaidsoftly。"Youwillneedit。"Shesetatrayathisside。
"Oh,thankyou,no!"hesaid。"Ican’teat。Ican’ttouchanything。"
"Youneedit,"saidthenurse。"Youmusttakeit,forhissake,youknow。Hewillneedyou。"
Hervoicearousedhim。Heglancedatherface。
"Oh,it’syou!"hecried。
ItwasthelittleV。A。D。
"Don’trise,"shesaid,puttingherhandonhisshoulder,andpointingtohisfather。"Drinkthisfirst。"Shehandedhimaneggnog。"Nowtakeyourtea。"Therewasaquietauthorityaboutherthatcompelledobedience。Heateinsilencewhileshestoodbesidehim。Hewastoowearyandtoosickathearttotalk,buthegraduallybecameawarethattheoverpoweringsenseoflonelinessthathadbeenwithhimalldaywasgone。
Whenhehadfinishedhisslightmeal,hewhisperedtoher:
"IwishIcouldthankyou,butIcan’t。Ididneedit。Youhavehelpedmegreatly。"
"Youarebetternow,"shesaidsoftly。"It’svery,veryhardforyou,sofarfromhome,andfromallyourfriends。"
"Thereisnooneelse,"saidBarrysimply。"Wehavenoonebutjustourselves。"
Atthispointhisfatheropenedhiseyesbrightandverywide—
awake。
TheV。A。D。begantogatheruptheteathings。Barryputouthishandandtouchedherarm。
"Dad,thisisyournightnurse。Shewasverykindtomelastnight,andagainto—night。ThisisMissVincent。"
ThebrightnessoftheV。A。D。’ssmileoutshonehisown。
"I’mnotarealnurse,"shesaid。"I’monlyaV。A。D。,youknow。
Theyusemetowashthefloorsanddishes,andforallsortsofoddjobs。To—nighttheyareshorthanded,andhaveputmeonthisduty。"
Whileshewasspeaking,shecontinuedtosmile,asmileofradiantcheerandcourage。
Thewoundedmanlistenedgravelytoher,hiseyessearchingherface,hereyes,herverysoul,itseemedtoher。Inspiteofherexperienceandherself—control,shefeltherfaceflushingunderhissearchinggaze。
"Mydear,"hesaidatlength,"Iamgladtomeetyou。Youareagoodandbravegirl,Iknow。"Hiseyesfellupontheblackbanduponherarm。"Iseeyouarewearingthebadgeofheroism。Mydear,pardonme,youhavethesamelook——Barry,shehasyourdearmother’slook,notsobeautiful——youwillforgiveme,mydear——butthesamelook。Shethinksofothersandshehascouragetosuffer。
Mydear,Icannottakeyourhandsinmine,"——heglancedwithapatheticsmileathisbandagedarms,butwithaswiftmovementofindescribablegracethegirlstoopedandkissedhimontheforehead。
"Barry,"hesaid,turningtohisson,"thatwasafinecourtesy。I
countitanhonourtohaveknownyou,MissVincent。"
Hepausedamomentortwo,hissearchingeyesstilluponherface。
"Youwillbefriendmyboy,after——after——"
"Iwilltrymybest,sir,"saidthegirl,thecolourdeepeninginhercheeksthewhile。"Goodnight,sir,"shesaid。"IshallbenearathandifIamwanted。"
"Barry,"saidhisfather,afterthegirlhadgone,"thatisaverycharmingandaverysuperioryounglady,oneyouwillbegladtoknow。"
"Yes,dad,Iamsuresheis,"saidBarry,andthenhetoldhisfatheroftheeventsofthepreviousnight。
Forsomemomentsafterhehadfinishedhisfatherlaywithhiseyesshut,andquitestill,andBarry,thinkingheslept,satwatching,hiseyesintentuponthefacehelovedbestinalltheworld。
Buthisfatherwasnotasleep。
"Yes,Barry,"hesaid,"sheislikeyourdearmother,andnow,"headdedhurriedly,"IhopeyouwillnotthinkIamtakingaliberty——"
"Oh,dad,Iimploreyou!"saidBarry。
"Barry,Iwouldliketospeaktoyouaboutyourwork。"
Barryshookhisheadsadly。
"I’mnotmuchgood,dad,"hesaid,"butI’mnotgoingtoquit,"headdedquickly,notingashadowonhisfather’sface。
"Barry,I’mgoingtosaysomethingtoyouwhichIdohopewillnothurtyou。Iknowthecommonsoldierbetterthanyoudo,boy。OurCanadiansoldiersdonotliketoberebuked,criticisedorevenwatchedtooclosely。Forgivemethis,myboy。"
"Oh,dad,pleasetellmeallthatisinyourheart!"
"Thankyou,Barry。Theydon’tlikethechaplaintobeacensorovertheirwords。"
"Iloatheit,"saidBarrypassionately。
"Believeme,theyaregoodchapsintheirhearts。Theyswearandallthat,butthatismerelyahabitoramereexpressionofhighemotion。Yououghttohearthemasthey’goover。’Barry,letallthatpassandrememberthattheseboysaregivingtheirlives——
theirlives,Barry,forright,forconscience,andultimately,thoughitmaybeunconsciously,forGod。Barry,amanthatisgivinghislifeforGodmaysaywhathelikes。Don’tbetoohardonthem,butrecalltomind,Barry,thatwhentheygoupthelinetheyfeelterriblylonelyandterriblyafraid,andthatisatrulyawfulexperience。"
Hepausedamomentortwo,andthenloweredhisvoiceandcontinued:
"Barry,youwon’tbeashamedofme。Iwasterriblyafraid,myself。"
Barrychokedbackaconvulsivesob。
"You,dad,you!"Helaughedscornfully。
"Ididn’trun,Barry,thankGod!Buttheboys——myboys——theyareonlylads,manyofthem——lonelyandafraid——andtheymustgoon。
Theymustgoon。Oh,Barry,inthathourtheyneedsomeonetogowiththem。TheyneedGod。"
Hissonwaslisteningwithhisheartinhiseyes。Hewasgettinganewviewofthesoldierandofthesoldier’sneeds。
"Unhappily,"continuedhisfather,"Godisatbestashadowybeing,tomanyofthemastranger,tosomeaterror。Barry,"hesaid,"theyneedsomeonetotellthemthetruthaboutGod。It’snotfairtoGod,youknow。"Hereagainhisfatherpausedandthensaidveryhumbly:"IthinkImaysay,Barry,IknowGodnow,asIdidnotbefore。Andyouhelpedme,boy,toknowhim。"
"Oh,dad,"criedBarry,passionately。"NotI!Idon’tknowHimatall!"
"Letmetellyouhowyouhelpedme,Barry。BeforeIwentupthelasttime,Iwanted——"
Hepausedabruptly,hisfaceworkingandhislipquivering。
"Forgiveme,myboy。I’malittleweak。"
Afewmomentsofsilenceandthenhecontinuedquietly:
"Iwantedyou,Barry。"
Theboy’shandswerewrithingunderhisknees,buthisfaceandeyeswerequitesteady。
"Iwasterriblylonely。Ithoughtofthatstrange,dearbondthatheldustogether,andthenlikeaflashoutoftheskycamethosegreatwords:’Likeasafatherpitiethhischildren,’andoh,boy,boy!ItcametomethenthatasIfeeltowardmyboyGodfeelstowardme。Barry,listen——"Hisvoicefelltoawhisper。"IamGod’sson,asyouaremine。Therewasnomorefear,andIwasnotnearlysolonely。Telltheboys——telltheboysthetruthaboutGod。"
Helayalongtimesilent,withhiseyesclosed,andasBarrywatchedhesawtwotearsfalldownthewhitecheeks。Itwastohimaterriblesight。Never,notevenathismother’sgrave,hadheseenhisfather’stears。Itwasmorethanhecouldendure。Heputhisfacedownbesidehisfather’sonthepillow。
"Dad,Iunderstand,"hewhispered。"IknownowwhatGodislike。
Heislikeyou,dad。Hegavehimselfforus,asyou,dad,havegivenyourselfalltheseyearsforme。"
Hewassobbing,butveryquietly。
"Forgiveme,dad;I’mnotcrying。I’mjustthinkingaboutGodandyou。Oh,dad,youarebothwonderful!Wonderful!"
"Barry,myboy,tellthem。Don’tworryyourselfaboutthem。JusttellthemaboutGod。Heisresponsibleforthem,notyou。"
"Oh,Iwill,dad;IpromiseyouIwill。I’vebeenallwrong,butI’lltellthem。I’lltellthem。"
"ThankGod,myboy,"saidhisfather,withadeepsigh。"NowI’mtired。Say’OurFather。’"
Togethertheywhisperedthosegreatestofwordsinhumanspeech,thosewordsthathaveboundheaventoearthinyearningandinhopeforthesetwothousandyears。
"Don’tmove,Barry,"whisperedhisfather。"Ilikeyouthere。"
Withtheirfacesthustogethertheyfellasleep。
Barrywasawakenedbyhisfather’svoice,clearandstrong。
"Areyouthere,Barry?"itsaid。
"Here,dad,righthere!"
"Goodboy。Goodboy。Youwon’tleaveme,Barry。Imeanyoudon’tneedtogo?"
"No,dad,I’llneverleaveyou。"
"Goodboy,"againmurmuredhisfathersoftly。"Alwaysagoodboy,always,always——"
Hewasbreathingheavily,longdeepbreaths。
"Liftmeup,Barry,"hesaid。
Barrysatonthebed,puthisarmaroundhisfather’sshoulders,andliftedhimup。
"That’sbetter——holdmecloser,Barry——Youwon’thurtme——Oh,it’sgood——tofeel——yourarms——strongarms——Barry。"
"Youmadethemstrong,dad,"saidBarry,inaclear,steadyvoice。
Thefathernestledhisheaduponhisson’sshoulder。
"Barry,"hesaidinthelowtoneofonegivingaconfidence,"don’teverforget——tothankGod——fortheseeighteenyears——together——
Yousavedme——fromdespair——eighteenyearsago——whenshewentaway——
youknow——andyouhavebeen——alltheworldtome——myson——"
"Andyoutome,dad,"saidhissoninthesamesteadytone。
"I’vetriedallmylife——tomakeyouknow——howIloveyou——butsomehowIcouldn’t——"
"ButIknew,dad,"saidBarry。"AllmylifeIhaveknown。"
"Really?"askedhisfather。"I——wonder——Idon’tthink——youquiteknow——Ah——myboy——myboy——Youdon’t——know——you——can’t。Barry,"
hesaid,"Ithink——I’mgoingout——I’mgoing——out——no,in——yourword——myboy——in——eh——Barry?"
"Yes,dad,"saidhisson。"Goingin。Theinnercircle,youknow。"
"The——inner——circle——"echoedhisfather。"Warmth——light——love——
Now——Ithink——I’llsleep——Goodnight——Barry——Oh——myboy,——you——
don’tquite——know——Kissme——Barry——"
Barrykissedhimonthelips。
"So——Good——night——"
Adeepbreathhetook;another——Barrywaitedforthenext,buttherewasnotanother。
Helaidhisfatherdownandlookedintohisquietface,touchedevennowwiththenoblestatelinessofdeath。Heputhisarmsabouttheunresponsiveform,andhisfacetothecheekstillwarm。
"Dad,oh,dad,"hewhispered。"Doyouknow——doyouknow——Oh,God,tellhimhowIlovehim。Tellhim!Tellhim!Inevercould。"
ThelittleV。A。D。camesoftlyandstoodlookingfromadistance。
Thencomingtothebedside,shelaidherhandupontheheadandthentheheartofthedeadman。Thenshedrewback,andbeckoningtoanorderly,theyplacedascreenaboutthecot。Shelethereyesrestforamomentortwouponthekneelingboy,thenwentsoftlyaway。
Deathwastoheranalltoofamiliarthing。Shehadoftenseenitunmoved,butto—night,asshewalkedaway,thebrowneyescouldnotholdtheirtears。
CHAPTERXII
AMANOFGOD
Barrywasstandingbesidehisfather’sgrave,inalittleplotintheBoulognecemeterysetapartforBritishofficers。Theyhad,onebyone,goneawayandlefthimuntil,alone,hestoodlookingdownonthesimplewoodencrossonwhichwererecordedthename,age,andunitofthesoldierwiththedateofhisdeath,andunderneaththesimplelegend,eloquentofheroicsacrifice,"Diedofwoundsreceivedinaction。"
Throughoutthesimple,beautifulburialservicehehadnotbeenacutelyconsciousofgrief。Evennowhewonderedthathecouldshednotears。RatherdidanexultantemotionfillhissoulashelookedarounduponthelittleBritishplot,withitsrowsofcrosses,andhewaschieflyconsciousofasolemn,tenderpridethathewaspermittedtosharethatgloriousofferingwhichhisEmpirewasmakingforthesavingoftheworld。But,inthismoment,ashestoodtherealoneclosetohisfather’sgrave,andsurroundedbythoseexamplesofhighcourageanddevotion,hebecameawareofamightychangewroughtinhimduringtheselastthreedays。Hehadexperiencedaveritableemancipationofsoul。
Hewasasifhehadbeenbornanew。
Theoldsenseoffailureinhiswork,thefeelingofunfitnessforit,andtheolddreadofit,hadbeenliftedoutofhissoul,andnotonlywasheanewman,buthefelthimselftobechargedwithanewmission,becausehehadanewmessageforhismen。Nolongerdidheconceivehimselfasamoralpolicemanorreligiouscensor,whosemaindutyitwastostandinjudgmentoverthefaultsandsinsofthemenofhisbattalion。Nomorewouldtheburdenofhismessagebeasterndenunciationofthesefaultsandsins。Standingthereto—day,hecouldonlywonderathisformerblindnessandstupidityandpride。
"WhoamI,"hesaidinbitterself—humiliation,"thatIshouldjudgemycomrades?HowlittleIknewmyself。"
"AmanofGod,"hissuperintendenthadsaidinhislastlettertohim。Yes,trulyamanofGod!AMANnotGod!AMANnottositinGod’splaceinjudgmentuponhisfellowsinners,buttoshowthemGod,theirFather。
Barrythoughtofthefrequentrebukeshehadadministeredtotheofficersandmenforwhatheconsideredtobetheirsins。Hegroanedaloud。
"Godwillforgiveme,Iknow,"hesaid。"Butwillthey?"
Hetriedtorecallwhattheburdenofhismessagetohisbattalionhadbeenduringthesepastmonths,buttohimtherecamenoclearanddistinctmemoryofaughtbutwarningsanddenunciations,withreferencetowhathejudgedtobefaultyintheirconduct。To—dayitseemedtohimbothsadandterrible。
HowhadhesofailedandsomisconceivedtheMaster’splainteaching?HemovedamongsinnersallHisdays,notwithdenunciationsinHisheartorvoice,butonlywithpityandlove。
"Benotanxious,"Hehadsaid。"Considerthebirdsoftheair。
NotoneofthemfallethtothegroundwithoutyourFather。Howmuchmorepreciousareyouthanthebirds。"
Whatamessageformengoinguptofacetheterrorsandperilsofthefrontline。"Benotanxious!"
"Iwasafraid,"hisfatherhadsaidtohim。Thattohimwasinconceivable。Thatthatgallantspiritshouldknowterrorseemedtohimimpossible。Yetevenhehadsaid,"Iwasafraid。"Andfortheloneliness,whatamessagehenowhad。Intheirlonelinessmencriedoutforthepresenceofafriend,andtheMasterhadsaid:
"Whenyepray,praytoyourFather。YourFatherknoweth。Whenyepray,say,’OurFather’!"Andhehadmissedallthis。Whatamesshehadmadeofhiswork!HowsadlymisreadhisMaster’steachingandmisinterpretedhisMaster’sspirit!
Barrylookeddownuponthegraveathisfeet。
"Butyouknew,dad,youknew!"hewhispered。
Forthefirsttimesincehehadbecomeachaplain,hethoughtofhisworkwithgratitudeandeagerness。Helongedtoseehismenagain。Hehadsomethingtotellthem。Itwasthis:thatGodtothemwasliketheirfathers,theirmothers,theirbrothers,theirfriends;onlyinfinitelymoreloving,andwithouttheirfaults。
Withhisheadhighandhisfeetlightupontheearth,hereturnedtotheR。A。M。C。Hospital,wherehefoundHarryHobbs,withhishandbagandaletterfromhisO。C。
"Takeafewdaysoff,"saidtheO。C。"Weallsympathisewithyou。
Wemissyouandshallbegladtoseeyou,buttakeafewdaysnowforyourself。"
Barrywasgreatlytouched,buthehadonlyonedesirenow,andthatwastoreturntohisunit。HisbatmanbroughthimalsoanorderfromtheAssistantDirectorofChaplainServicebiddinghimreportattheearliestmoment。
AtHeadquartershelearnedthattheA。D。C。S。hadbeeninBoulogne,buthadgonetoEtaples,somethirtyorfortymilesdistant,tovisitthelargehospitalsthere。Hedeterminedthatto—morrowhewouldgotoEtaplesandreport,afterwhichhewouldproceedtohisbattalion。
Thatevening,hevisitedthemeninthehospital,cominguponmanyCanadianswhosejoyinseeingachaplainfromtheirowncountrytouchedBarrytotheheart。Hetooktheirmessageswhichhepromisedtotransmittotheirfolksathome,andleftwiththemsomethingofthesereneandexultantpeacethatfilledhisownsoul。
FromEwenInnesandothersoftheWapitidraft,helearnedsomethingofhisfather’sworkandplaceintheirbattalion。
Soldiersarenoteloquentinspeech,butmostlyinsilence。Theirwordshaltedwhentheycametospeakoftheirsergeantmajor’ssoldierlyqualities,——forhisfatherhadbecomethesergeantmajorofthebattalion——hispatience,hisskill,hiscourage。
"Heknewhisjob,sir,"saidoneofthem。"Hewasalwaysontoit。"
"Itwashiscareofhismenthatwethoughtmostof,"saidEwen,whocontinuedtorelateincidentsthathadcomeunderhisownobservationofthischaracteristic,tearsthewhileflowingdownhischeeks。
"Heneverthoughtofhimself,sir。Itwasourcomfortfirst。Hewasfarmorethanoursergeantmajor。Hewatcheduslikeafather;
that’swhathedid。"
AsBarrylistenedtothesoldierstellingofhisfatherinbrokenwords,andwithflowingtears,healmostwonderedatthemfortheirtearsandwonderedathimselfthathehadnone。Tearsseemedtobesomuchoutofplaceintellingsuchataleasthat。
ThetrainforEtaplesleavingatanunearthlyhourinthemorning,BarrywenttotakefarewelloftheV。A。D。thenightbefore。
"Thatisanawfullyearlyhour,"shesaid,"and,oh,suchawretchedtrain。"Therewasinhervoiceanalmostmaternalsolicitudeforhiscomfort。
"That’snothing,"saidBarry。"WhenIseeyouhereatyourunendingwork,itmakesmefeelmoreandmorelikeaslacker。"
"Waitformehereamoment,"shesaid,andhurriedawaytoreturnshortlyinsuchaglowofexcitementasevenherwontedcalmandself—restraintcouldnotquitehide。