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第46章

  "Youwon’twantyourhorseto—night,becauseyoucan’tusehim,"hesaid。"IshallputMissVanderpoel’ssaddleuponhimandridewithherbacktoStornham。Youthinkyouarecuttopieces,butyouarenot,andyou’llgetoverit。I’llaskyoutomark,however,thatifyouopenyourfoulmouthtoinsinuateliesconcerningeitherLadyAnstruthersorhersisterIwilldothisthingagaininpublicsomeday——onthestepsofyourclub——anddoitmorethoroughly。"
  Hewalkedintothecottagesoonafterwardslooking,toBettyVanderpoel’seyes,paleandexceptionallybig,andalsomoreamanthanitisoftengiveneventothemostvirilemalecreaturetolook——andhewalkedtothesideofherrestingplaceandstoodtherelookingdown。
  "IthoughtIheardadoghowl,"shesaid。
  "Youdidhearadoghowl,"heanswered。Hesaidnootherword,andsheaskednofurtherquestion。Sheknewwhathehaddone,andhewaswellawarethatsheknewit。
  Therewasalong,strangelytensesilence。Thelightofthemoonwasgrowing。Shemadeatfirstnoefforttorise,butlaystillandlookedupathimfromundersplendidliftedlashes,whilehisowngazefellintothedepthofherslikeaplummetintoadeeppool。Thiscontinuedforalmostafullminute,whenheturnedquicklyawayandwalkedtothehearth,indrawingaheavybreath。
  Hecouldnotendurethatwhichbesethim;itwasunbearable,becausehereyeshadmaddeninglyseemedtoaskhimsomewistfulquestion。Whydidsheletherlovelinesssocalltohim。Shewasnotatriflerwhocouldplaywithmeanings。
  Perhapsshedidnotknowwhatherpowerwas。Sometimeshecouldbelievethatbeautifulwomendidnot。
  Inafewmoments,almostbeforehecouldreachher,shewasrising,andwhenshegotupshesupportedherselfagainsttheopendoor,standinginthemoonlight。Ifhewaspale,shewaspalealso,andherlargeeyeswouldnotmovefromhisface,sodrawinghimthathecouldnotkeepawayfromher。
  "Listen,"hebrokeoutsuddenly。"Penzancetoldme——
  warnedme——thatsometimeamomentwouldcomewhichwouldbestrongerthanallelseinaman——thanallelseintheworld。Ithascomenow。Letmetakeyouhome。"
  "Thanwhatelse?"shesaidslowly,andbecameevenpalerthanbefore。
  Hestrovetoreleasehimselffromthepossessionofthemoment,andinhisstruggleansweredwithasortofsavagery。
  "Thanscruple——thanpower——eventhanaman’sdeterminationanddecentpride。"
  "Areyouproud?"shehalfwhisperedquitebrokenly。"I
  amnot——sinceIwaitedfortheringingofthechurchbell——
  sinceIheardittoll。Afterthattheworldwasempty——anditwasasemptyofdecentprideasofeverythingelse。Therewasnothingleft。Iwasthehumblestbrokenthingonearth。"
  "You!"hegasped。"DoyouknowIthinkIshallgomaddirectlyperhapsitishappeningnow。YOUwerehumbleandbroken——yourworldwasempty!Because————?"
  "Lookatme,LordMountDunstan,"andthesweetestvoiceintheworldwasatender,wildlittlecrytohim。"OhLOOKatme!"
  Hecaughtherout—thrownhandsandlookeddownintothebeautifulpassionatesoulofher。Themomenthadcome,andthetidalwaverisingtoitsheightsweptallthecommonearthawaywhen,withasavagesob,hecaughtandheldhercloseandhardagainstthatwhichthuddedracinginhisbreast。
  Andtheystoodandswayedtogether,foldedineachother’sarms,whilethewindfromthemarsheslifteditsvoicelikeanexultinghumanthingasitsweptaboutthem。
  CHAPTERXLIX
  ATSTORNHAMANDATBROADMORLANDS
  Theexultingwindhadsweptthecloudsaway,andthemoonrodeinadarkblueseaofsky,makingthenightlightpurelyclear,whentheydrewalittleapart,thattheymightbetterseethewonderfulnessineachother’sfaces。Itwassomysteriouslygreatathingthattheyfeltneartoawe。
  "Ifoughttoolong。Iworeoutmybody’sendurance,andnowIamquakinglikeaboy。RedGodwyndidnotbeginhiswooinglikethis。Forgiveme,"MountDunstansaidatlast。
  "Doyouknow,"withlovelytremblinglipsandvoice,"thatforlong——long——youhavebeenunkindtome?"
  Itwasmerelyhumanthatheshouldswiftlyenfoldheragain,andanswerwithhislipsagainsthercheek。
  "Unkind!Unkind!Oh,theheavenlywoman’ssweetnessofyourtellingmeso——theheavenlysweetnessofit!"heexclaimedpassionatelyandlow。"AndIwasoneofthosewhoare`bytheroadsideeverywhere,’anunkempt,ragingbeggar,whomightnotdecentlyaskyouforacrust。"
  "Itwasallwrong——wrong!"shewhisperedbacktohim,andhepouredforththetenderest,fiercewordsofconfessionandprayer,andshelistened,drinkingthemin,withnowandthenasoftsobpressedagainsttheroughnessoftheenrapturingtweed。Foraspacetheyhadbothforgottenherhurt,becausethereareotherthingsthanterrorwhichhypnotisepain。MountDunstanwastobepraisedforrememberingitfirst。HemusttakeherbacktoStornhamandhersisterwithoutfurtherdelay。
  "IwillputyoursaddleonAnstruthers’horse,ormine,andliftyoutoyourseat。Thereisafarmhouseabouttwomilesaway,whereIwilltakeyoufirstforfoodandwarmth。Perhapsitwouldbewellforyoutostaytheretorestforanhourorso,andIwillsendamessagetoLadyAnstruthers。"
  "Iwillgototheplace,andeatanddrinkwhatyouadvise,"sheanswered。"ButIbegyoutotakemebacktoRosaliewithoutdelay。IfeelthatImustseeher。"
  "IfeelthatImustseeher,too,"hesaid。"Butforher——Godblessher!"headded,afterhissuddenpause。
  Bettyknewthattheexclamationmeantstrongfeeling,andthatsomehowinthepasthoursRosaliehadawakenedit。Butitwasonlywhen,aftertheirrefreshmentatthefarm,theyhadtakenhorseagainandwereridinghomewardtogether,thatsheheardfromhimwhathadpassedbetweenthem。
  "Allthathasledtothismayseemthemerestchance,"
  hesaid。"Butsurelyastrangethinghascomeabout。I
  knowthatwithoutunderstandingit。"Heleanedoverandtouchedherhand。"You,whoareLife——withoutunderstandingIrideherebesideyou,believingthatyoubroughtmeback。"
  "Itried——Itried!Withallmystrength,Itried。"
  "AfterIhadseenyoursisterto—day,Iguessed——Iknew。
  Butnotatfirst。Iwasnotillofthefever,asexcitedrumourhadit;butIwasill,andthedoctorsandthevicarwerealarmed。Ihadfoughttoolong,andIwasgivingup,asI
  haveseenthepoorfellowsintheballroomgiveup。Iftheywerenotdraggedbacktheyslippedoutofone’shands。Ifthefeverhaddeveloped,allwouldhavebeenoverquickly。
  Iknewthedoctorsfearedthat,andIamashamedtosayI
  wasgladofit。But,yesterday,inthemorning,whenIwaslettingmyselfgowithamorbidpleasureintheluxuriousreliefofit——somethingreachedme——someslowrisingcalltoeffortandlife。"
  Sheturnedtowardshiminhersaddle,listening,herlipsparted。
  "Ididnotevenaskmyselfwhatwashappening,butI
  begantobeconsciousofbeingdrawnback,andtolongintenselytoseeyouagain。Iwasgraduallyfilledwitharestlessfeelingthatyouwerenearme,andthat,thoughIcouldnotphysicallyhearyourvoice,youweresurelyCALLINGtome。Itwasthethingwhichcouldnotbe——butitwas——andbecauseofitIcouldnotletmyselfdrift。"
  "Ididcallyou!IwasonmykneesinthechurchaskingtobeforgivenifIprayedmadprayers——butprayingthesamethingoverandover。Thevillagerswerekneelingthere,too。
  Theycrowdedin,leavingeverythingelse。Youaretheirhero,andtheywereindeepearnest。"
  Hislookwasgravelypondering。Hislifehadnotmadeamysticofhim——itwasPenzancewhowasthemystic——buthefelthimselfperplexedbymysteriouslysuggestivethought。
  "Iwasbroughtback——Iwasbroughtback,"hesaid。"IntheafternoonIfellasleepandsleptprofoundlyuntilthemorning。WhenIawoke,IrealisedthatIwasaremademan。
  ThedoctorswerealmostawedwhenIfirstspoketothem。
  OldDr。Fenwickdiedlater,and,afterIhadheardaboutit,thechurchbellwastolled。ItwasheardatWeaver’sfarm—
  house,and,aseverybodyhadbeenexcitedlywaitingforthesound,itconveyedbutoneideatothem——andtheboywassentracingacrossthefieldstoStornhamvillage。Dearest!
  Dearest!"heexclaimed。
  Shehadbowedherheadandburstintopassionatesobbing。
  Becauseshewasnotofthewomenwhowept,hermoment’spassionwasstrongandbitter。
  "Itneednothavebeen!"sheshuddered。"Onecannotbearit——becauseitneednothavebeen!"
  "Stopyourhorseamoment,"hesaid,reininginhisown,while,withburningeyesandswellingthroat,heheldandsteadiedher。Buthedidnotknowthatneitherhersisternorherfatherhadeverseenherinsuchmood,andthatshehadneversoseenherself。
  "Youshallnotrememberit,"hesaidtoher。
  "Iwillnot,"sheanswered,recoveringherself。"Butforonemomentalltheawfulhoursrushedback。Tellmetherest。"
  "WedidnotknowthattheblunderhadbeenmadeuntilamessengerfromDolerodeovertoinquireandbringmessagesofcondolence。ThenweunderstoodwhathadoccurredandIownasortoffrenzyseizedme。IknewImustseeyou,and,thoughthedoctorswerehorriblynervous,theydarenotholdmeback。ThedaybeforeitwouldnothavebeenbelievedthatIcouldleavemyroom。Youwerecryingouttome,andthoughIdidnotknow,Iwasanswering,bodyandsoul。PenzanceknewImusthavemywaywhenIspoketohim——madasitseemed。WhenIrodethroughStornhamvillage,morethanonewomanscreamedatsightofme。Ishallnotbeabletoblotoutofmymindyoursister’sface。Shewilltellyouwhatwesaidtoeachother。IrodeawayfromtheCourtquitehalfmad————"hisvoicebecameverygentle,"becauseofsomethingshehadtoldmeinthefirstwildmoments。"
  LadyAnstruthershadspentthenightmovingrestlesslyfromoneroomtoanother,andhadnotbeentobedwhentheyrodesidebysideuptheavenueintheearlymorningsunlight。Anunderkeeper,crossingtheparkafewhundredyardsabovethem,afteroneglance,dashedacrosstheswardtothecourtyardandtheservants’hall。Thenewsflashedelectricallythroughthehouse,andRosalie,likeasmallghost,cameoutuponthestepsastheyreinedin。Thoughherlipsmoved,shecouldnotspeakaloud,asshewatchedMountDunstanlifthersisterfromherhorse。
  "ChildeHaroldstumbledandIhurtmyfoot,"saidBetty,tryingtobecalm。
  "Iknewhewouldfindyou!"Rosalieansweredquitefaintly。"Iknewyouwould!"turningtoMountDunstan,adoringhimwithallthemeaningofhersmallpaledface。
  Shewouldhavebeenafraidofhermemoryofwhatshehadsaidinthestrangescenewhichhadtakenplacebeforethemafewhoursago,butalmostbeforeeitherofthetwospokesheknewthatagreatgulfhadbeencrossedinsomeoneinevitable,thoughunforeseen,leap。Howithadbeentaken,whenorwhere,didnotintheleastmatter,whensheclungtoBettyandBettyclungtoher。
  Afterafewmomentsofmovedandreverentwaiting,theadmirableJenningssteppedforwardandaddressedherinloweredvoice。
  "There’sbeenlittlesleepinthevillagethisnight,mylady,"
  hemurmuredearnestly。"Ipromisedtheyshouldhaveasign,withyourpermission。Iftheflagwasrunup——they’realllookingout,andthey’dknow。"
  "Runitup,Jennings,"LadyAnstruthersanswered,"atonce。"
  Whenitranupthestaffonthetowerandflutteredoutingayansweringtothemorningbreeze,childreninthevillagebegantorunaboutshouting,menandwomenappearedatcottagedoors,andmorethanonecapwasthrownupintheair。ButoldDobyandMrs。Welden,whohadbeenwaitingforhours,standingbyMrs。Welden’sgate,caughteachother’sdry,tremblingoldhandsandbegantocry。
  TheBroadmorlandsdivorcescandal,havingmadeconversationduringaseasonquitefortyyearsbeforeMissVanderpoelappearedatStornhamCourt,hadbeenlaiduponalowershelfandburiedbeneathotherstorieslongenoughtobeforgotten。Onlyoneindividualhadnotforgottenit,andhewastheDukeofBroadmorlandshimself,inwhoseminditremainedhideouslyclear。Hehadbeenayoungman,honestlyandmuchinlovewhenitfirstrevealeditselftohim,andforafewmonthshehadeventhoughtitmightendbybeinghisdeath,notwithstandingthathewasstrongandinfirst—ratephysicalcondition。Hehadbeenafine,heartyyoungmanofcleanandratherdignifiedlife,thoughhewasnotunderstoodtobebrilliantofmind。Privatelyhehadidealsconnectedwithhisrankandnamewhichhewasnotfluentenoughclearlytoexpress。Afterhehadrealisedthatheshouldnotdieofthepublichumiliationanddisgrace,whichseemedtopointhimoutashavingbeenthekindofgulliblefoolitisscarcelypossibletoavoidlaughingat——or,soitseemedtohiminhisheart—searedfrenzy——hethoughtitnotimprobablethatheshouldgomad。HewasharriedsobymemoriesoflovelylittlesoftwaysofEdith’s(hiswife’snamewasEdith),oftheprettysoundofherlaugh,andofherinnocent,girlishhabitofkneelingdownbyherbedsideeverynightandmorningtosayherprayers。Thishadsotouchedhimthathehadsometimeskneltdowntosayhis,too,sayingtoher,withslightawkwardboyishness,thatafellowwhohadasortofangelforhiswifeoughttodohisbesttobelieveinthethingsshebelievedin。
  "Andallthetime————!"adevilwholaughedusedtosniggerinhisearoverandoveragain,untilitwasalmostlikethetickingofaclockduringtheworstmonths,whenitdidnotseemprobablethatamancouldfeelhisbrainwhirlinglikeaCatherinewheelnightandday,andstillmanagetoholdonandnotreachthepointofhowlingandshriekinganddashinghisskullagainstwailsandfurniture。
  Butthatpassedintime,andhetoldhimselfthathepassedwithit。SincethenhehadlivedchieflyatBroadmorlandsCastle,andwasspokenofasamanwhohadbecomereligious,whichwasnottrue,but,havingreachedthedecisionthatreligionwasgoodformostpeople,hepaidagooddealofattentiontohischurchandschools,andwasrigorousinthematterofcurates。
  Hehadpassedseventynow,andwassomewhatdespoticandhaughty,becauseamanwhoisaDukeanddoesnotgooutintotheworldtorubagainstmenofhisownclassandothers,butlivesaltogetheronagreatandsplendidestate,salutedbyeverycreaturehemeets,anduniversallyobeyedandcountedbeforeallelse,isnotunlikelytoforgetthatheisaquiteordinaryhumanbeing,andnotasortofmonarch。
  HehaddonehisbesttoforgetEdith,whohadsoondiedofbeingashadycurate’swifeinAustralia,buthehadnotbeenabletoencompassit。Heused,occasionally,todreamshewaskneelingbythebedinherchildishnightgownsayingherprayersaloud,andwouldwakencrying——ashehadcriedinthoseawfulyoungdays。Againstsocialimmoralityorvillagelight—mindednesshewasrelentlesslysavage。Heallowedfornopalliatingorexoneratingfacts。Hebegantoseeredwhenheheardoforsawlightnessinamarriedwoman,andtheoutsideworldfrequentlysaidthatthischaracteristicborderedonmonomania。
  NigelAnstruthers,havingmethimonceortwice,hadatfirstbeenmuchamusedbyhim,andhadeven,bygivinghimanadroitlycarefullead,managedtoguidehimintoanexpressionofopinion。TheDuke,whohadheardmenofhisclassdiscussed,didnotintheleastlikehim,notwithstandinghissympatheticsuavityofmannerandhisairofbeingintelligentlyimpressedbywhatheheard。Notlongafterwards,however,ittranspiredthattheagedrectorofBroadmorlandshavingdied,thelivinghadbeengiventoFfolliott,and,hearingit,SirNigelwasnotslowtoconjecturethatquitedecentlyutilisabletoolswouldliereadytohishandifcircumstancespressed;thispointofview,itwillbeseen,beingnotillogical。Amanwhohadnotbeenasortofhermitwouldhaveheardenoughofhimtobeputonhisguard,andonewhowasamanoftheworld,lookingnormallyonexistence,wouldhavereasonedcoolly,anddeclinedtoconcernhimselfaboutwhatwasnothisaffair。ButaparallelmightbedrawnbetweenBroadmorlandsandsomeoldlionwoundedsorelyinhisyouthandlefttodraghisunhealedtormentthroughtheyearsofage。Ononesubjecthehadnopointofviewbuthisown,andcouldberousedtofuryalmostsenselessbywhollyinadequatelysupportedfacts。Hepresentedexactlythematerialrequired——andthatinmass。
  AboutthetimetheflagwasrunuponthetoweratStornhamCourtacarter,drivingwhistlingontheroadnearthedesertedcottage,washailedbyamanwhowaswalkingslowlyafewyardsaheadofhim。Thecarterthoughtthathewasatramp,ashisclotheswereplainlyinbadcase,whichseeing,hisanswerwasanunceremoniousgrunt,anditcertainlydidnotoccurtohimtotouchhisforehead。Aminutelater,however,he"gotastart,"asherelatedafterwards。Thetrampwasagentlemanwhoseridingcostumewastornandmuddied,andwholooked"gashly,"thoughhespokewiththemannerandauthoritywhichBinns,thecarter,recognisedasthatofoneofthe"gentry"addressingaday—labourer。
  "HowfarisitfromheretoMedham?"heinquired。
  "Medhambeaboutfourmile,sir,"wastheanswer。"I
  becarryin’these’taterstheretomarket。"
  "Iwanttogetthere。Ihavemetwithanaccident。Myhorsetookfrightatapheasantstartinguprockettingunderhisnose。Hethrewmeintoahedgeandbolted。I’mbadlyenoughbruisedtowanttoreachatownandseeadoctor。Canyougivemealift?"
  "ThatIwill,sir,readyenough,"makingroomontheseatbesidehim。"Youbebruisedbad,sir,"hesaidsympathetically,ashispassengerclimbedtohisplace,withatwistedfaceandutteringblasphemiesunderhisbreath。
  "Damnedbadly,"heanswered。"Nobonesbroken,however。"
  "Thatcutonyourcheekandneck’llneedplasterin’,sir。"
  "That’sascratch。Thornbush,"curtly。
  Sympathywasplainlynotwelcome。InfactBinnswassoonoftheopinionthatherewasanuglycustomer,gentlemanornogentleman。Ajoltingcartwas,however,notthebestplaceforamanwhoseemedsorefromheadtofoot,anddoneforoutandout。Hesatandgroundhisteeth,asheclungtotheroughseatintheattempttosteadyhimself。Hebecamemoreandmore"gashly,"andacertainawfullightinhiseyesalarmedthecarterbyleapingupateveryjolt。BinnswasgladwhenhelefthimatMedhamArms,andfelthehadearnedthehalf—sovereignhandedtohim。
  FourdaysAnstrutherslayinbedinaroomattheInn。Noonesawhimbutthemanwhobroughthimfood。Hedidnotsendforadoctor,becausehedidnotwishtoseeone。Hesentforsuchremediesaswereneededbyamanwhohadbeenbruisedbyafallfromhishorse。Hemadenoremarkwhichcouldbeconsideredexplanatory,afterhehadsaidirritablythatamanwasafooltogoloiteringalongonanervousbrutewhoneededwatching。Whatsoeverhappenedwashisowndamnedfault。
  Throughhoursofdayandnighthelaystaringatthewhite—
  washedbeamsorthebluerosesonthewallpaper。Theywerelonghours,andfilledwiththingsnotpleasantenoughtodwellonindetail。Physicalmiserywhichmadeamanwritheattimeswasnottheworstpartofthem。Therewereathousandthingslessendurable。Morethanoncehefoamedatthemouth,andrecognisedthathegibberedlikeamadman。
  Therewasbutonememorywhichsavedhimfromfeelingthatthiswastheveryendofthings。ThatwasthememoryofBroadmorlands。Whileamanhadaweaponleft,eventhoughitcouldnotsavehim,hemightpayupwithit——getalmosteven。ThewholeVanderpoellotcouldbeplungedneckdeepinamorasswhichwouldleavemudenoughstickingtothem,eveniftheirmoneyhelpedthemtopreventitsentirelyclosingovertheirheads。Hecouldattendtothat,and,afterhehadsetitwellgoing,hecouldgetout。TherewereIndia,SouthAfrica,Australia——adozenplacesthatwoulddo。AndthenhewouldrememberBettyVanderpoel,andcursehorriblyunderthebedclothes。ItwasthememoryofBettywhichoutdidallothersinitspowertotorment。
  OnthemorningofthefifthdaytheDukeofBroadmorlandsreceivedanote,whichhereadwithsomewhatannoyedcuriosity。AcertainSirNigelAnstruthers,whomitappearedheoughttobeabletorecall,wasintheneighbourhood,andwishedtoseehimonaparochialmatterofinterest。"Parochialmatter"wasvague,andsowastheDuke’srecollectionofthemanwhoaddressedhim。Ifhismemoryservedhimrightly,hehadmethiminacountryhouseinSomersetshire,andhadheardthathewastheacquaintanceofthedisreputableeldestson。Whatcouldapersonofthatsorthavetosayofparochialmatters?TheDukeconsidered,andthen,inobediencetoarigorousconscience,decidedthatoneought,perhaps,togivehimhalfanhour。
  Therewasthatintheintruder’saspect,whenhearrivedintheafternoon,whichproducedsomewhattheeffectofshock。Inthefirstplace,amaninhisunconcealablephysicalconditionhadnorighttobeoutofhisbed。Thoughheplainlyrefusedtoadmitthefact,hismannerofbearinghimselferect,andevenwithacertaintouchofcoolswagger,was,itwasevident,achievedonlybydeterminedeffort。Helookedlikeamanwhohadnotyetrecoveredfromsomeevilfever。SincethemeetinginSomersetshirehehadagedmorethantheyearwarranted。Despitehisobstinatefightwithhimselfitwasobviousthathewashorriblyshaky。Adisagreeablescratchorcut,runningfromcheektoneck,didnotimprovehispersonalappearance。
  Hepleasedhishostnomorethanhehadpleasedhimattheirfirstencounter;he,infact,repelledhimstrongly,bysuggestingadegreeofabnormalityofmoodwhichwassmoothedoverbyanattemptatentirenormalityofmanner。
  TheDukedidnotpresentanapproachablefrontas,afterAnstruthershadtakenachair,hesatandexaminedhimwithbrightblueoldeyessetdeeponeithersideofadominantnoseandframedoverbywhiteeyebrows。No,NigelAnstrutherssummedhimup,itwouldnotbeeasytoopenthematterwiththeoldfool。Heheldhimselfmagnificentlyaloof,withthatlackofmodernityinhissenseofplacewhich,evenatthislateday,sometimesexpresseditselfhereandthereinthemannerofthefeudalsurvival。
  "Iamafraidyouhavebeenill,"withrigidcivility。
  "Amanfeelsratheranoutsiderinconfessinghehaslethishorsethrowhimintoahedge。Itwasmyownfaultentirely。IallowedmyselftoforgetthatIwasridingadangerouslynervousbrute。Iwasthinkingofapainfulandabsorbingsubject。Iwasbadlybruisedandscratched,butthatwasall。"
  "Whatdidyourdoctorsay?"