"GodinHeaven!"washerinwardcry。"Godofalltheworlds!Donotlethimdie。`IfyeaskanythinginmynamethatIwilldo。’Christsaidit。InthenameofJesusofNazareth——donotlethimdie!Alltheworldsareyours——allthepower——listentous——listentous。Lord,Ibelieve——helpthoumyunbelief。Ifthisterrorrobsmeoffaith,andIpraymadly——forgive,forgiveme。Donotcountitagainstmeassin。Youmadehim。Hehassufferedandbeenalone。Itisnottime——itisnottimeyetforhimtogo。Hehasknownnojoyandnobrightthing。Donotlethimgooutofthewarmworldlikeablindman。Donotlethimdie。Perhapsthisisnotprayer,butraging。Forgive——forgive!Allpowerisgonefromme。Godoftheworlds,andthegreatwinds,andthemyriadstars——donotlethimdie!"
Sheknewherthoughtswerewild,buttheirtorrentboreherwiththemintoastrange,greatsilence。Shedidnothearthevicar’swords,ortheresponsesofthepeople。Shewasnotwithinthegreystonewalls。Shehadbeendrawnawayasintothedarknessandstillnessofthenight,andnosoulbutherownseemednear。Throughthestillnessandthedarkherprayingseemedtocallandecho,clamouringagainandagain。
ItmustreachSomething——itmustbeheard,becauseshecriedsoloud,thoughtothehumanbeingsabouthersheseemedkneelinginsilence。Shewentonandon,repeatingherwords,changingthem,endingandbeginningagain,pouringforthafloodofappeal。Shethoughtlaterthatthefloodmusthavebeenatitshighesttidewhen,singularly,itwasstemmed。
Withoutwarning,awaveofawepassedoverherwhichstrangelysilencedher——andleftherbowedandkneeling,butcryingoutnomore。Thedarknesshadbecomestill,evenasithadnotbeenstillbefore。Suddenlyshecoweredasshekneltandheldherbreath。Somethinghaddrawnalittlenear。
Nothoughts——nowords——nocrieswereneededasthegreatstillnessgrewandspread,andfoldedherbeingwithinit。
Shewaited——onlywaited。Shedidnotknowhowlongatimepassedbeforeshefeltherselfdrawnbackfromthesilentandshadowyplaces——awakening,asitwere,tothesoundsinthechurch。
"OurFather,"shebegantosay,assimplyasachild。
"OurFatherwhoartinHeaven——hallowedbethyname。"
Therewasastirringamongthecongregation,andsoundsoffeet,asthepeoplebegantomovedowntheaisleinreverentslowness。Shecaughtagaintheoccasionalsoundofasubduedsob。Rosaliegentlytouchedher,andsherose,followingheroutofthebigpewandpassingdowntheaisleafterthevillagers。
Outsidetheentrancethepeoplewaitedasiftheywantedtoseeheragain。Foreheadsweretouchedasbefore,andeyesfollowedher。Shewastothegeneralmindthecentreofthedrama,and"theA’mighty"woulddowelltohearher。Shehadbeendoinghisworkforhim"sameashislordship。"
Theydidnotexpecthertosmileatsuchatime,whenshereturnedtheirgreetings,andshedidnot,buttheysaidafterwards,intheircottages,that"troubleornotshewasawonderforlooks,thatshewas——MissVanderpoel。"
Rosalieslippedahandthroughherarm,andtheywalkedhometogether,veryclosetoeachother。NowandthentherewasaquestioninginRosy’slook。Butneitherofthemspokeonce。
OnanoaktableinthehallaletterfromMr。Penzancewaslying。Itwasbrief,hurried,andanxious。TherumourthatMountDunstanhadbeenailingwastrue,andthattheyhadfelttheymustconcealthematterfromthevillagerswastruealso。Forsomebafflingreasonthefeverhadnotabsolutelydeclareditself,buttheyoungdoctorswerebesetbygraveforebodings。Insuchcasesthemostserioussymptomsmightsuddenlydevelop。Oneneverknew。Mr。Penzancewasevidentlytornbyfearswhichhedesperatelystrovetosuppress。ButBettycouldseetheanguishonhisfineoldface,andbetweenthelinesshereaddreadandwarningnotputintowords。Shebelievedthat,fearingtheworst,hefelthemustpreparehermind。
"Hehaslivedunderagreatstrainformonths,"heended。
"Itbeganlongbeforetheoutbreakofthefever。Iamnotstrongundermysenseofthecrueltyofthings——andIhaveneverlovedhimasIlovehimto—day。"
Bettytookthelettertoherroom,andreadittwoorthreetimes。BecauseshehadaskedintelligentquestionsofthemedicalauthorityshehadconsultedonhervisittoLondon,sheknewsomethingofthefeveranditshabits。Evenherunclericalknowledgewassuchasitwasnotwelltoreflectupon。Sherefoldedtheletterandlaiditaside。
"Imustnotthink。Imustdosomething。Itmaypreventmylistening,"shesaidaloudtothesilenceofherroom。
Shecasthereyesaboutherasifinsearch。Uponherdesklayanotebook。Shetookitupandopenedit。Itcontainedlistsofplants,offlowerseeds,ofbulbs,andshrubs。
Eachlistwasheadedwithanexplanatorynote。
"Yes,thiswilldo,"shesaid。"IwillgoandtalktoKedgers。"
Kedgersandeverymanunderhimhadbeenattheservice,buttheyhadreturnedtotheirrespectiveduties。Kedgers,givingdirectionstosomeundergardenerswhowereclearingflowerbedsandpreparingthemfortheirwinterrest,turnedtomeetherassheapproached。ToKedgersthesightofhercomingtowardshimonagardenpathwasajoyfulthing。
Hehaddonewonders,itistrue,butifshehadnotstoodbyhissidewithinspirationaswellasconfidence,heknewthatthingsmighthave"comeoutdifferent。"
"Youwasbornagardener,miss——bornone,"hehadsaidmonthsago。
Itwasthetimewhenflowerbedsmustbeplannedforthecomingyear。Hernotebookwasfilledwithmemorandaofthethingstheymusttalkabout。
Itwasgood,normal,healthyworktodo。Thescentoftherich,damp,upturnedmouldwasagoodthingtoinhale。Theywalkedfromoneendtoanother,stoodbeforeclumpsofshrubs,andstudiedbitsofwall。Hereamassofbluemightgrow,herelowthingsofwhiteandpaleyellow。Aquickly—climbingrosewouldhangsheetsofbloomoverthisdeadtree。ThisshelteredwallwouldholdwarmthforaMarechalNiel。
"Youmusttakecareofitall——evenifIamnotherenextyear,"MissVanderpoelsaid。
Kedgers’absorbedfacechanged。
"Nothere,miss,"heexclaimed。"Younothere!Thingswouldn’tgrow,miss。"Hecheckedhimself,hisweather—
toughenedskinreddeningbecausehewasafraidhehadperhapstakenaliberty。Andthenmovinghishatuneasilyonhishead,hetookanother。"Butit’strueenough,"lookingdownonthegravelwalk,"we——wecouldn’texpecttokeepyou。"
Shedidnotlookasifshehadnoticedtheliberty,butshedidnotlookquitelikeherself,Kedgersthought。Ifshehadbeenanotheryounglady,andbutforhisestablishedfeelingthatshewassomehowimmunefromallills,hewouldhavethoughtshehadaheadache,orwaslowinhermind。
Shespentanhourortwowithhim,andtogethertheyplannedforthechangingseasonsoftheyeartocome。Howshecouldkeephermindonathing,andwhataheadshehadforplanning,andwhataneyeforcolour!Butyes——therewassomethingabitwrongsomehow。Nowandthenshewouldstopandstandstillforamoment,andsuddenlyitstruckKedgersthatshelookedasifshewerelistening。
"Didyouthinkyouheardsomething,miss?"heaskedheroncewhenshepausedandworethislook。
"No,"sheanswered,"no。"Anddrewhimonquickly——
almostasifshedidnotwanthimtohearwhatshehadseemedlisteningfor。
Whenshelefthimandwentbacktothehouse,allthelovelinessofspring,summerandautumnhadbeenthoughtoutandprovidedfor。Kedgersstoodonthepathandlookedafterheruntilshepassedthroughtheterracedoor。Hechewedhislipuneasily。Thenherememberedsomethingandfeltabitrelieved。Itwastheserviceheremembered。
"Ah!it’sthatthat’supsether——andit’snatural,seeinghowshe’shelpedhimandDunstanvillage。It’sonlynatural。"
Hechewedhislipagain,andnoddedhisheadinoddreflection。
"Ay!Ay!"hesummedherup。"She’sagreatladythat——she’sagreatlady——sameasifshe’dbeenborninacivilisedland。"
DuringtherestofthedaythelookofquestioninRosalie’seyeschangedinitsnature。Whenhersisterwasnearhershefoundherselfglancingatherwithanewfeeling。Itwasagrowingfeeling,whichgraduallybecame——anxiousness。
Bettypresentedtohertheaspectofonewithdrawnintosomeremotespace。Shewasnotlivingthisdayasherdayswereusuallylived。Shedidnotsitstillorstrollaboutthegardensquietly。Theconsecutivenessofheractionseemedbroken。Shedidonethingafteranother,asifshemustfilleachmoment。ThiswasnotherBetty。LadyAnstrutherswatchedandthoughtuntil,intheend,anewpainedfearbegantocreepslowlyintohermind,andmakeherfeelasifshewereslightlytremblingthoughherhandsdidnotshake。
Shedidnotdaretoallowherselftothinkthethingsheknewshewasonthebrinkofthinking。Shethrustitawayfromher,andtriednottothinkatall。HerBetty——hersplendidBetty,whomnothingcouldhurt——whocouldnotbetouchedbyanyawfulthing——herdearBetty!
Intheafternoonshesawherwritenotessteadilyforanhour,thenshewentoutintothestablesandvisitedthehorses,talkedtothecoachmanandtoherowngroom。Shewasverykindtoavillageboywhohadbeenrecentlytakenonasanadditionalassistantinthestable,andwhowasratherfrightenedandshy。Sheknewhismother,whohadalargefamily,andshehad,indeed,giventheboyhisplacethathemightbetrainedunderthegreatMr。Buckham,whowascoachmanandheadofthestables。Shesaidencouragingthingswhichquitecheeredhim,andshespokeprivatelytoMr。Buckhamabouthim。Thenshewalkedintheparkalittle,butnotforlong。WhenshecamebackRosaliewaswaitingforher。
"Iwanttotakealongdrive,"shesaid。"Ifeelrestless。
Willyoucomewithme,Betty?"Yes,shewouldgowithher,soBuckhambroughtthelandauwithitspairofbighorses,andtheyrolleddowntheavenue,andintothesmooth,whitehighroad。Hetookthemfar——pastthegreatmarshes,betweenmilesofbaredhedges,pastfarmsandscatteredcottages。Sometimesheturnedintolanes,wherethehedgeswereclosertoeachother,andwhere,hereandthere,theycaughtsightofnewpointsofviewbetweentrees。BettywasgladtofeelRosy’sslimbodynearherside,andshewasconsciousthatitgraduallyseemedtodrawcloserandcloser。ThenRosy’shandslippedintohersandhelditsoftlyonherlap。
Whentheydrovetogetherinthiswaytheywereusuallybothofthemrathersilentandquiet,butnowRosaliespokeofmanythings——ofUghtred,ofNigel,oftheDunholms,ofNewYork,andtheirfatherandmother。
"IwanttotalkbecauseI’mnervous,Ithink,"shesaidhalfapologetically。"Idonotwanttositstillandthinktoomuch——offather’scoming。Youdon’tmindmytalking,doyou,Betty?"
"No,"Bettyanswered。"Itisgoodforyouandforme。"
AndshemetthepressureofRosy’shandhalfway。
ButRosywastalking,notbecauseshedidnotwanttositstillandthink,butbecauseshedidnotwantBettytodoso。
Andallthetimeshewastryingtothrustawaythethoughtgrowinginhermind。
Theyspenttheeveningtogetherinthelibrary,andBettyreadaloud。Shereadalongtime——untilquitelate。Shewishedtotireherselfaswellastoforceherselftostoplistening。
Whentheysaidgood—nighttoeachotherRosyclungtoherasdesperatelyasshehadclungonthenightafterherarrival。
Shekissedheragainandagain,andthenhungherheadandexcusedherself。
"Forgivemeforbeing——nervous。I’mashamedofmyself,"
shesaid。"PerhapsintimeIshallgetoverbeingacoward。"
Butshesaidnothingofthefactthatshewasnotacowardforherself,butthroughaslowlyformulatingandstruggled——
againstfear,whichchilledherveryheart,andwhichshecouldbestcoverbyapretenceofbeingapoltroon。
Shecouldnotsleepwhenshewenttobed。Thenightseemedcrowdedwithstrange,terrifiedthoughts。TheywereallofBetty,thoughsometimesshethoughtofherfather’scoming,ofhermotherinNewYork,andofBetty’ssteadyworkingthroughouttheday。Sometimesshecried,twistingherhandstogether,andsometimesshedroppedintoafeverishsleep,anddreamedthatshewaswatchingBetty’sface,yetwasafraidtolookatit。
Sheawakenedsuddenlyfromoneofthesedreams,andsatuprightinbedtofindthedawnbreaking。Sheroseandthrewonadressing—gown,andwenttohersister’sroombecauseshecouldnotbeartostayaway。
Thedoorwasnotlocked,andshepusheditopengently。
Oneofthewindowshaditsblinddrawnup,andlookedlikeapatchofdullgrey。Bettywasstandinguprightnearit。
Shewasinhernight—gown,andalongblackplaitofhairhungoveroneshoulderheavily。Shelookedallblackandwhiteinstrongcontrast。Thegreylightsetherforthasatallghost。
LadyAnstruthersslidforward,feelingatightnessinherchest。
"Thedawnwakenedmetoo,"shesaid。
"Ihavebeenwaitingtoseeitcome,"answeredBetty。"Itisgoingtobeadull,drearyday。"
CHAPTERXLVII
"IHAVENOWORDORLOOKTOREMEMBER"
Itwasadullanddrearyday,asBettyhadforeseenitwouldbe。Heavyraincloudshungandthreatened,andtheatmospherewasdampandchill。ItwasoneofthosedaysoftheEnglishautumnwhichspeakonlyoftheendofthings,bereavingoneofthepowertoremembernextyear’sspringandsummer,which,afterall,mustsurelycome。Skyisgrey,treesaregrey,deadleavesliedampbeneaththefeet,sunlightandbirdsseemforgottenthings。Allthathasbeensadandtoberegrettedorfearedhangsheavyintheairandswaysallthought。Inthepassingofthesehoursthereisnohopeanywhere。Bettyappearedatbreakfastinshortdressandclosehat。Sheworethicklittleboots,asifforwalking。
"Iamgoingtomakevisitsinthevillage,"shesaid。"I
wantabasketofgoodthingstotakewithme。Stourton’schildrenneedfeedingaftertheirmeasles。TheylookedverythinwhenIsawthemplayingintheroadyesterday。"
"Yes,dear,"Rosalieanswered。"Mrs。Noakesshallpreparethebasket。Goodchickenbroth,andjelly,andnourishingthings。Jennings,"tothebutler,"youknowthekindofbasketMissVanderpoelwants。SpeaktoMrs。Noakes,please。"
"Yes,mylady,"JenningsknewthekindofbasketandsodidMrs。Noakes。BelowstairsastrongsympathywithMissVanderpoel’smovementshaddeveloped。Nooneresentedthepreparationofbaskets。Somehowtheywerealwaysmanaged,evenifaskedforatuntimelyhours。
Bettywassittingsilent,lookingoutintothegreynessoftheautumn—smittenpark。
"Are——areyoulisteningforanything,Betty?"LadyAnstruthersaskedratherfalteringly。"Youhaveasortoflisteninglookinyoureyes。"
Bettycamebacktotheroom,asitwere。
"HaveI,"shesaid。"Yes,IthinkIwaslisteningfor——
something。"
AndRosaliedidnotaskherwhatshelistenedfor。Shewasafraidsheknew。
ItwasnotonlytheStourtonsBettyvisitedthismorning。
Shepassedfromonecottagetoanother——toseeoldwomen,andoldmen,aswellasyoungones,whoforonereasonoranotherneededhelpandencouragement。Byonebedsideshereadaloud;byanothershesatandtoldcheerfulstories;
shelistenedtotalkinlittlekitchens,andinonehousewelcomedanewbornthing。Asshewalkedsteadilyovergreyroadanddowngreylanesdampmistroseandhungabouther。Andshedidnotwalkalone。Fearwalkedwithher,andanguish,agreyghostbyherside。Onceshefoundherselfstandingquitestillonasidepath,coveringherfacewithherhands。Shefilledeverymomentofthemorning,andwalkeduntilshewastired。Beforeshewenthomeshecalledatthepostoffice,andMr。Tewsongreetedherwithasolemnface。Hedidnotwaittobequestioned。
"There’sbeennonewsto—day,miss,sofar,"hesaid。"Andthatseemsasiftheymightbesogivenuptohardworkatadreadfultimethatthere’sbeennochanceforanythingtogetout。Whenpeople’shangingoveraman’sbedattheend,it’sasifeverythingstoppedbutthat——that’sstoppingforalltime。"
Afterluncheontherainbegantofallsoftly,slowly,andwithasuggestionofendlessness。Itwasasortofmistitself,andbecameadampshadowamongthebarebranchesoftreeswhichsoonbegantodrip。
"Youhavebeenwalkingaboutallmorning,andyouaretired,dear,"LadyAnstrutherssaidtoher。"Won’tyougotoyourroomandrest,Betty?"
Yes,shewouldgotoherroom,shesaid。SomenewbookshadarrivedfromLondonthismorning,andshewouldlookoverthem。Shetalkedalittleabouthervisitsbeforeshewent,andwhen,asshetalked,Ughtredcameovertoherandstoodclosetohersideholdingherhandandstrokingit,shesmiledathimsweetly——thesmileheadored。Hestrokedthehandandsoftlypattedit,watchingherwistfully。Suddenlyheliftedittohislips,andkisseditagainandagainwithasortofpassion。
"Iloveyousomuch,AuntBetty,"hecried。"Webothloveyousomuch。Somethingmakesmeloveyouto—daymorethaneverIdidbefore。Italmostmakesmecry。Iloveyouso。"
Shestoopedswiftlyanddrewhimintoherarmsandkissedhimcloseandhard。Heheldhisheadbackalittleandlookedintotheblueunderherlashes。
"Iloveyoureyes,"hesaid。"Anyonewouldloveyoureyes,AuntBetty。Butwhatisthematterwiththem?Youarenotcryingatall,but——oh!whatisthematter?"
"No,Iamnotcryingatall,"shesaid,andsmiled——almostlaughed。
Butaftershehadkissedhimagainshetookherbooksandwentupstairs。
Shedidnotliedown,andshedidnotreadwhenshewasaloneinherroom。Shedrewalongchairbeforethewindowandwatchedtheslowfallingoftherain。Thereisnothinglikeit——thatslowweepingoftherainonanEnglishautumnday。
Softandlightthoughitwas,theparkbegantolooksodden。
Thebaretreesheldouttheirbrancheslikeimploringarms,thebrowngardenbedswereneatandbare。Thesamerainwasdrip—drippingatMountDunstan——uponthedesolategreathouse——uponthevillage——uponthemoundsandancientstonetombsinthechurchyard,sinkingintotheearth——sinkingdeep,suckedinbytheclaybeneath——thecolddampclay。
Sheshookherselfshudderingly。Whyshouldthethoughtcometoher——thecolddampclay?Shewouldnotlistentoit,shewouldthinkofNewYork,ofitsroaringstreetsandcrashofsound,oftherushoffiercelifethere——ofherfatherandmother。ShetriedtoforceherselftocalluppicturesofBroadway,swarmingwithcrowdsofblackthings,which,seenfromthewindowsofitsmonstrousbuildings,seemedlikeswarmsofants,burstoutofant—hills,outofathousandant—
hills。Shetriedtoremembershopwindows,thethingsinthem,thethrongsgoingby,andthethrongspassinginandoutofgreat,swingingglassdoors。ShedraggedupbeforeheravisionofRosalie,drivingwithhermotherandherself,lookingaboutheratthenewbuildingsandchangedstreets,flushedandmaderadiantbytheacceleratedpaceandexcitementofherbelovedNewYork。But,oh,theslow,penetratingrainfall,and——thecolddampclay!
Sherose,makinganinvoluntarysoundwhichwashalfamoan。Thelongmirrorsetbetweentwowindowsshowedhermomentarilyanawfulyoungfigure,throwingupitsarms。
WasthatBettyVanderpoel——that?
"Whatdoesonedo,"shesaid,"whentheworldcomestoanend?Whatdoesonedo?"
Allherdaysshehaddonethings——therehadalwaysbeensomethingtodo。Nowtherewasnothing。Shewentsuddenlytoherbellandrangforhermaid。Thewomanansweredthesummonsatonce。
"SendwordtothestablethatIwantChildeHarold。I
donotwantMason。Ishallridealone。"
"Yes,miss,"Amblestonanswered,withoutanyexteriorsignofemotion。Shewastoowell—trainedapersontoexpressanyshadeofherinternalamazement。Aftershehadtransmittedtheordertothepropermanagershereturnedandchangedhermistress’scostume。
Shehadcontemplatedhertask,andwasstandingbehindMissVanderpoel’schair,puttingthelasttouchtoherveil,whenshebecameconsciousofaslightstiffeningoftheneckwhichheldsowellthehandsomehead,thentheheadslowlyturnedtowardsthewindowgivinguponthefrontpark。MissVanderpoelwaslisteningtosomething,listeningsointentlythatAmblestonfeltthat,forafewmoments,shedidnotseemtobreathe。Themaid’shandsfellfromtheveil,andshebegantolistenalso。Shehadbeenattheservicethedaybefore。
MissVanderpoelrosefromherchairslowly——veryslowly,andtookastepforward。Thenshestoodstillandlistenedagain。
"Openthatwindow,ifyouplease,"shecommanded——"asifastoneimagewasspeaking"——Amblestonsaidlater。Thewindowwasthrownopen,andforafewsecondstheybothstoodstillagain。WhenMissVanderpoelspoke,itwasasifshehadforgottenwhereshewas,orasifshewereinadream。
"Itistheringers,"shesaid。"Theyaretollingthepassingbell。"
Theservingwomanwassoftofheart,andhadherfeminineemotions。Therehadbeenmuchtalkofthisthingintheservant’shall。SheturneduponBetty,andforgotallrulesandtraining。
"Oh,miss!"shecried。"He’sgone——he’sgone!Thatgoodman——outofthishardworld。Oh,miss,excuseme——
do!"Andassheburstintowildtears,sheranoutoftheroom……
Rosaliehadbeensittinginthemorningroom。Shealsohadstriventooccupyherselfwithwork。Shehadwrittentohermother,shehadread,shehadembroidered,andthenreadagain。WhatwasBettydoing——whatwasshethinkingnow?
Shelaidherbookdowninherlap,andcoveringherfacewithherhands,breathedadesperatelittleprayer。Thatlifeshouldbepainandemptinesstoherself,seemedsomehownaturalsinceshehadmarriedNigel——butpainandemptinessforBetty——No!No!No!NotforBetty!Piteoussorrowpoureduponherlikeaflood。Shedidnotknowhowthetimepassed。Shesat,huddledtogetherinherchair,withhiddenface。Shecouldnotbeartolookattherainandghostmistoutofdoors。Oh,ifhermotherwereonlyhere,andshemightspeaktoher!Andasherlovingtearsbrokeforthafresh,sheheardthedooropen。
"Ifyouplease,mylady——Ibegyourpardon,mylady,"asshestartedanduncoveredherface。
"Whatisit,Jennings?"
Thefigureatthedoorwasthatoftheserious,elderlybutler,andheworearespectfullygraveair。
"Asyourladyshipissittinginthisroom,wethoughtitlikelyyouwouldnothear,thewindowsbeingclosed,andwefeltsure,mylady,thatyouwouldwishtoknow————"
LadyAnstruthers’handsshookastheyclungtothearmsofherchair。
"Toknow————"shefaltered。"Hearwhat?"
"Thepassingbellistolling,mylady。Ithasjustbegun。
ItisforLordMountDunstan。There’snotadryeyedownstairs,yourladyship,notone。"
Heopenedthewindows,andshestoodup。Jenningsquietlylefttheroom。Theslow,heavyknellstruckponderouslyonthedampair,andshestoodandshivered。
Amomentortwolatersheturned,becauseitseemedasifshemust。
Betty,inherridinghabit,wasstandingmotionlessagainstthedoor,herwonderfuleyesstillasdeath,gazingather,gazinginanawful,simplesilence。
Oh,whatwastheuseofbeingafraidtospeakatsuchatimeasthis?InonemomentRosywaskneelingatherfeet,clingingaboutherknees,kissingherhands,theveryclothofherhabit,andsobbingaloud。
"Oh,mydarling——mylove——myownBetty!Idon’tknow——andIwon’task——butspeaktome——speakjustaword——mydearestdear!"
Bettyraisedherupanddrewherwithintheroom,closingthedoorbehindthem。
"KindlittleRosy,"shesaid。"Icametospeak——becausewetwoloveeachother。Youneednotask,Iwilltellyou。
Thatbellistollingforthemanwhotaughtme——toKNOW。
Heneverspoketomeoflove。Ihavenotonewordorlooktoremember。Andnow————Oh,listen——listen!Ihavebeenlisteningsincethemorningofyesterday。"Itwasanawfulthing——herwhiteface,withalltheflameoflifesweptoutofit。
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