TenminuteslaterG。SeldenwaswalkingdownFifthAvenue,wonderingiftherewasanychanceofhisbeingarrestedbyapolicemanuponthechargethathewasreeling,insteadofwalkingsteadily。Hehopedheshouldgetbacktothehallbedroomsafely。NickBaumgartenandJemBolterboth"roomed"inthehousewithhim。Hecouldtellthemboth。ItwasJemwhohadmadeuptheyarnaboutoneofthemsavingReubenS。Vanderpoel’slife。Therehadbeennolife—saving,butthethinghadcometrue。
"But,ifithadn’tbeenforLordMountDunstan,"hesaid,thinkingitoverexcitedly,"IshouldneverhaveseenMissVanderpoel,and,ifithadn’tbeenforMissVanderpoel,IshouldneverhavegotnexttoReubenS。inmylife。BothsidesoftheAtlanticOceangotbusytodoagoodturntoLittleWillie。Hullygee!"
InhisstudyMr。VanderpoelwasrereadingBetty’sletters。
HefeltthathehadgainedacertainknowledgeofLordMountDunstan。
CHAPTERXXXIX
ONTHEMARSHES
THEmarshesstretchedmellowintheautumnsun,sheepwanderedabout,nibblingcontentedly,orlaydowntorestingroups,theskyreflectingitselfinthenarrowdykesgaveabluecolourtothewater,ascentoftheseawasintheairasonebreathedit,flocksofploverrose,nowandthen,cryingsoftly。Betty,walkingwithherdog,hadpassedaheronstandingattheedgeofapool。
Fromherfirstdiscoveryofthem,shehadbeenattractedbythemarsheswiththeirEnglishsuggestionoftheRomanCampagna,theirbroadexpanseoflevellandspreadouttothesunandwind,thethousandsofwhitesheepdottedorclusteredasfaraseyecouldreach,thehuesofthemarshgrassandtheplantsgrowingthickatthebordersofthestripsofwater。Itsbeautywasallitsownandcuriouslyalooffromthesoftly—
wooded,undulatingworldaboutit。Drivingorwalkingalongthehighroad——theroadtheRomanshadbuilttoLondontownlongcenturiesago——oneithersideofoneweremeadows,farms,scatteredcottages,andhopgardens,butbeyondandbelowstretchedthemarshland,goldenandgrey,andalwaysalluringonebyitssilence。
"Ineverpassitwithoutwantingtogotoit——totakesolitarywalksoverit,tobeoneofthespotsonitasthesheepare。Itseemsasif,lyingthereundertheblueskyorthelowgreycloudswithalltheworldheldatbaybymerespaceandstillness,theymustfeelsomethingweknownothingof。Iwanttogoandfindoutwhatitis。"
ThisshehadoncesaidtoMountDunstan。
Soshehadfallenintothehabitofwalkingtherewithherdogathersideashersolecompanion,forhavingneedfortimeandspaceforthought,shehadfoundtheminthesilenceandaloofness。
Lifehadbeenavividandpleasurablethingtoher,asfarasshecouldlookbackuponit。Shebegantorealisethatshemusthavebeenveryhappy,becauseshehadneverfoundherselfdesiringexistenceotherthansuchashadcometoherdaybyday。ExceptforherpassionatechildishregretatRosy’smarriage,shehadexperiencednopainfulfeeling。Infact,shehadfacednohurtinherlife,andcertainlyhadbeenconfrontedbynolimitations。Arguingthatgirlsintheirteensusuallyfallinlove,herfatherhadoccasionallywonderedthatshepassedthroughnolittleepisodesofsentiment,butthefactwasthatherinterestshadbeenlargerandmorenumerousthantheinterestsofgirlsgenerallyare,andheraffectionateintimacywithhimselfhadleftnosuchsmallvacantspacesasarefrequentlyfilledbyunimportantyoungemotions。Becauseshewasalogicalcreature,andhadwatchedlifeandthoselivingitwithclearandinterestedeyes,shehadnotbeenblindtothepathwhichhadmarkeditselfbeforeherduringthesummer’sgrowthandwaning。Shehadnot,atfirst,perhaps,knownexactlywhenthingsbegantochangeforher——whentheclarityofhermindbegantobedisturbed。Shehadthoughtinthebeginning——aspeoplehaveahabitofdoing——thataninstance——aproblem——asituationhadattractedherattentionbecauseitwasabsorbingenoughtothinkover。Herviewofthematterhadbeenthatasthesamethingwouldhaveinterestedherfather,ithadinterestedherself。ButfromthemorningwhenshehadbeenconsciousofthesuddenfuryrousedinherbyNigelAnstruthers’uglysneeratMountDunstan,shehadbetterunderstoodthethingwhichhadcomeuponher。Daybydayithadincreasedandgatheredpower,andsherealisedwithacertainsenseofimpatiencethatshehadnotinanydegreeunderstooditwhenshehadseenandwonderedatitseffectonotherwomen。Eachdayhadbeenlikeawaveencroachingfartherupontheshoreshestoodupon。Attheoutsetacertainignoblepride——sheknewitignoble——filledherwithrebellion。Shehadseensomuchofthiskindofsituation,andhadheardsomuchofthegeneralcomment。Peoplehadlearnedhowtosneerbecauseexperiencehadtaughtthem。Ifshegavethemcause,whyshouldtheynotsneeratherasatthings?Sherecalledwhatshehadherselfthoughtofsuchthings——thefollyofthem,theobviousness——thealmostdeserveddisaster。Shehadarrogatedtoherselfjudgmentofwomen——andmen——whomight,yes,whomighthavestoodupontheirstripofsand,asshestood,withthewavescreepingin,eachonehigher,stronger,andmoreengulfingthanthelast。Theremighthavebeenthoseamongthemwhoalsohadknowledgeofthatsuddendeadlyjoyatthesightofoneface,atthedropofonevoice。Whenthatwavesubmergedone’spulsingbeing,whathadtheworldtodowithone——howcouldonehearandthinkofwhatitsspeechmightbe?Itsvoiceclamouredtoofaroff。
Asshewalkedacrossthemarshshewasthinkingthisfirstphaseover。Shehadreachedanewone,andatfirstshelookedbackwithafaint,evenratherhard,smile。Shewalkedstraightahead,hermastiff,Roland,paddingalongheavilycloseatherside。Howstillandwideandgoldenitwas;howthecryofploverandliftingtrillofskylarkassuredonethatonewaswhollyencircledbysolitudeandspacewhichweremoreenclosingthananywalls!ShewasgoingtothemoundstowhichMr。PenzancehadtrundledG。Seldenintheponychaise,whenhehadgivenhimthemarvelloushourwhichhadbroughtRomancampandRomanlegionstolifeagain。Uponthelargesthillockonecouldsitenthroned,restingchininhandandlookingoutunderlevellidsattheunstirring,softly—livinglovelinessofthemarsh—landworld。Soshewaspresentlyseated,withherheavy—limbedRolandatherfeet。Shehadcomeheretotrytoputthingsclearlytoherself,toplanwithsuchreasonasshecouldcontrol。Shehadbeguntobeunhappy,shehadbegun——withsomeunfairness——tolookbackupontheBettyVanderpoelofthepastasanunwittinglyself—sufficientyoungwoman,tofindherselfsuddenlyentangledbythings,eventoknowatouchofdesperateness。
"Nottotakearemnantfromtheducalbargaincounter,"
shewassayingmentally。Thatwaswhyhersmilewasalittlehard。Whatiftheremnantfromtheducalbargaincounterhadprejudicesofhisown?
"Ifhewerepassionately——passionatelyinlovewithme,"shesaid,withredstaininghercheeks,"hewouldnotcome——hewouldnotcome——hewouldnotcome。And,becauseofthat,heismoretome——MORE!Andmorehewillbecomeeveryday——andthemorestronglyhewillholdme。Andtherewestand。"
Rolandliftedhisfineheadfromhispaws,and,holdingiterectonastiff,strongneck,staredatherinobviousinquiry。
Sheputoutherhandandtenderlypattedhim。
"Hewillhavenoneofme,"shesaid。"Hewillhavenoneofme。"Andshefaintlysmiled,butthenextinstantshookherheadalittlehaughtily,and,havingdoneso,lookeddownwithanalteredexpressionupontheclothofherskirt,becauseshehadshakenuponit,fromtheextravagantlashes,twocleardrops。
Itwasnottheresultofchancethatshehadseennothingofhimforweeks。Shehadnotattemptedtopersuadeherselfofthat。TwicehehaddeclinedaninvitationtoStornham,andoncehehadriddenpastherontheroadwhenhemighthavestoppedtoexchangegreetings,orhaveriddenonbyherside。
Hedidnotmeantoseemtodesire,eversolightly,tobecountedasinthelists。Whetherhewasdrawnbyanylikingforherornot,itwasplainhehaddeterminedonthis。
Ifsheweretogoawaynow,theywouldnevermeetagain。
Theirwaysinthisworldwouldpartforever。Shewouldnotknowhowlongittooktobreakhimutterly——ifsuchamancouldbebroken。Ifnomagicchangetookplaceinhisfortunes——andwhatchangecouldcome?——thedecayabouthimwouldspreaddaybyday。Stonewallslastalongtime,sothehousewouldstandwhileeverybeautyandstatelinesswithinitfellintoruin。Gardenswouldbecomewildernesses,terracesandfountainscrumbleandbeovergrown,wallsthatwereto—dayleaningwouldfallwithtime。Theyearswouldpass,andhisyouthwiththem;hewouldgraduallychangeintoanoldmanwhilehewatchedthethingshelovedwithpassiondieslowlyandhard。HowstrangeitwasthatlivesshouldtouchandpassontheoceanofTime,andnothingshouldresult——nothingatall!Whenshewentonherway,itwouldbeasifashiploadedwitheveryaidoffoodandtreasurehadpassedaboatinwhichastrongmantossed,starvingtodeath,andhadnotevenrunupaflag。
"Butonecannotrunupaflag,"shesaid,strokingRoland。
"Onecannot。Therewestand。"
ToherrecognitionofthisdeadlockofFate,therehadbeenaddingthegrowingdisturbancecausedbyyetanotherthingwhichwasincreasinglytroubling,increasinglydifficulttoface。
Gradually,andatfirstwithwonderfulnaturalnessofbearing,NigelAnstruthershadmanagedtocreateforhimselfasingularplaceinhereverydaylife。Ithadbegunwithacertainpersonalnessinhisattitude,apersonalnesswhichwasathingtodislike,butalmostimpossibleopenlytoresent。Certainly,asaself—invitedguestinhishouse,shecouldscarcelyprotestagainsttheamiabilityofhisdemeanourandhisexteriorcourtesyandattentivenessofmannerinhisconducttowardsher。Shehadtriedtosweepawaytheobjectionablequalityinhisbearing,byfrankness,byindifference,byentirelackofresponse,butshehadremainedconsciousofitsincreasingasaspider’swebmightincreaseasthespiderspunitquietlyoverone,throwingoutthreadssoimpalpablethatonecouldnotbrushthemawaybecausetheyweretooslighttobeseen。Shewasawarethatinthefirstyearsofhismarriedlifehehadalternatelyresentedthescarcityoftheinvitationssentthemandrudelyrefusedsuchaswerereceived。SincehehadreturnedtofindheratStornham,hehadinsistedthatnoinvitationsshouldbedeclined,andhadescortedhiswifeandherselfwherevertheywent。Whatcouldhavebeenconventionallymoreproper——whatmoreimproperthanthatheshouldhavepersistentlyhaveremainedathome?Andyettherecameatimewhen,astheythreedrovetogetheratnightintheclosedcarriage,Bettywasconsciousthat,ashesatoppositetoherinthedark,whenhespoke,whenhetouchedherinarrangingtherobeoverher,oropeningorshuttingthewindow,hesubtly,butpersistently,conveyedthatthepersonalnessofhisvoice,look,andphysicalnearnesswasasortofhideousconfidencebetweenthemwhichtheywerecleverlyconcealingfromRosalieandtheoutsideworld。
Whensherodeaboutthecountry,hehadawayofappearingatsometurningandmakinghimselfhercompanion,ridingtoocloselyatherside,andassuminganoticeableairofbeingengagedinmeaninglyconfidentialtalk。Once,whenhehadbeenleaningtowardsherwithanaudaciouslytendermanner,theyhadbeenpassedbytheDunholmcarriage,andLadyDunholmandthefrienddrivingwithherhadevidentlytriednottolooksurprised。LadyAlanby,meetingtheminthesamewayatanothertime,hadputupherglassesandstaredinopendisapproval。ShemightadmireastrikinglyhandsomeAmericangirl,butherfavourwouldnotlastthroughanysuchvulgarsillinessasflirtationswithdisgracefulbrothers—in—law。WhenBettystrolledabouttheparkorthelanes,shemuchtoooftenencounteredSirNigelstrollingalso,andknewthathedidnotmeantoallowhertoridherselfofhim。Inpublic,hemadeapointofkeepingobservablyclosetoher,ofhoveringinhervicinityandlookingonatallshedidwitheyessherebelledagainstfindingfixedonhereachtimeshewasobligedtoturninhisdirection。Hehadafashionofcomingtohersideandspeakinginadroppedvoice,whichexcludedothers,asafavouredlovermight。Shehadseenbothmenandwomenglanceatherinhalf—embarrassmentattheirsuddensenseoffindingthemselvesslightlydetrop。Shehadsaidaloudtohimononesuchoccasion——andshehadsaiditwithsmilingcasualnessforthebenefitofLadyAlanby,towhomshehadbeentalking:
"Don’talarmmebydroppingyourvoice,Nigel。Iameasilyfrightened——andLadyAlanbywillthinkweareconspirators。"
Foraninstanthewastakenbysurprise。Hehadbeenpleasedtobelievethattherewasnowayinwhichshecoulddefendherself,unlessshewouldcondescendtosomethingstupidlylikeascene。Heflushedanddrewhimselfup。
"Ibegyourpardon,mydearBetty,"hesaid,andwalkedawaywiththemannerofanoffendedadorer,leavinghertorealiseanodiouslyunpleasanttruth——whichisthatthereareincidentsonlymademoreinexplicablebyanefforttoexplain。
Shesawalsothathewasquiteawareofthis,andthathisoffendeddeparturewasabrilliantinspiration,andhadlefther,asitwere,inthelurch。TohavesaidtoLadyAlanby:"Mybrother—in—law,inwhosehouseIammerelystayingformysister’ssake,istryingtoleadyoutobelievethatIallowhimtomakelovetome,"wouldhavesuggestedeitherfollyorinsanityonherownpart。Asitwas——afteraglanceatSirNigel’sstifflyretreatingback——LadyAlanbymerelylookedawaywithawhollyuninvitingexpression。
WhenBettyspoketohimafterwards,haughtilyandwithdetermination,helaughed。
"Mydearestgirl,"hesaid,"ifIwatchyouwithinterestanddropmyvoicewhenIgetachancetospeaktoyou,Ionlydowhateveryothermandoes,andIdoitbecauseyouareanalluringyoungwoman——whichnooneismoreperfectlyawareofthanyourself。Yourpretencethatyoudonotknowyouarealluringisthemostcaptivatingthingaboutyou。AndwhatdoyouthinkofdoingifIcontinuetooffendyou?Doyouproposetodesertus——toleavepoorRosalietosinkbackagainintothebundleofoldclothesshewaswhenyoucame?ForHeaven’ssake,don’tdothat!"
Allthathiswordssuggestedtookformbeforehervividly。
Howwellheunderstoodwhathewassaying。Butsheansweredhimbravely。
"No。Idonotmeantodothat。"
Hewatchedherforafewseconds。Therewascuriosityinhiseyes。
"Don’tmakethemistakeofimaginingthatIwillletmywifegowithyoutoAmerica,"hesaidnext。"SheisasfarofffromthatasshewaswhenIbroughthertoStornham。I
havetoldherso。Amancannottiehiswifetothebedpostinthesedays,buthecanmakehereffortstoleavehimsodecidedlyunpleasantthatdecentwomenprefertostayathomeandtakewhatiscoming。Ihaveseenthatoftenenough`tobankonit,’
ifImayquoteyourAmericanfriends。"
"Doyouremembermyoncesaying,"Bettyremarked,"thatwhenawomanhasbeenPROPERLYill—treatedthetimecomeswhennothingmatters——nothingbutreleasefromthelifesheloathes?"
"Yes,"heanswered。"Andtoyounothingwouldmatterbut——excusemysayingit——yourowndamnable,headstrongpride。ButRosalieisdifferent。Everythingmatterstoher。
Andyouwillfinditso,mydeargirl。"
AndthatthiswasatleasthalftruewasbroughthometoherbythefactthatlatethesamenightRosycametoherwhitewithcrying。
"Itisnotyourfault,Betty,"shesaid。"Don’tthinkthatI
thinkitisyourfault,buthehasbeeninmyroominoneofthosehumourswhenheseemslikeadevil。HethinksyouwillgobacktoAmericaandtrytotakemewithyou。But,Betty,youmustnotthinkaboutme。Itwillbebetterforyoutogo。
Ihaveseenyouagain。Ihavehadyoufor——foratime。Youwillbesaferathomewithfatherandmother。"
Bettylaidahandonhershoulderandlookedatherfixedly。
"Whatisit,Rosy?"shesaid。"Whatisithedoestoyou——thatmakesyoulikethis?"
"Idon’tknow——butthathemakesmefeelthatthereisnothingbutevilandliesintheworldandnothingcanhelponeagainstthem。Thosethingshesaysabouteveryone——menandwomen——thingsonecan’trepeat——makemesick。AndwhenItrytodenythem,helaughs。"
"Doeshesaythingsaboutme?"Bettyinquired,veryquietly,andsuddenlyRosaliethrewherarmsroundher。
"Betty,darling,"shecried,"gohome——gohome。Youmustnotstayhere。"
"WhenIgo,youwillgowithme,"Bettyanswered。"I
amnotgoingbacktomotherwithoutyou。"
Shemadeacollectionofmanyfactsbeforetheirinterviewwasatanend,andtheypartedforthenight。AmongthefirstwasthatNigelhadpreparedforcertainpossibilitiesaswiseholdersofafortressprepareforsiege。Aratherlongsittingaloneoverwhiskyandsodahad,withoutmakinghimloquacious,heatedhisbloodinsuchamannerasledhimtobelesssubtlethanusual。Drinkdidnotmakehimdrunk,butmalignant,andwhenamanisinthemalignantmood,heforgetshiscleverness。Soherevealedmorethanheabsolutelyintended。
Itwastobegatheredthathedidnotmeantopermithiswifetoleavehim,evenforavisit;hewouldnotallowhimselftobemaderidiculousbysuchathing。Amanwhocouldnotcontrolhiswifewasafoolanddeservedtobealaughing—stock。
AsUghtredandhisfutureinheritanceseemedtohavebecomeofinteresttohisgrandfather,andweretobewellnursedandtakencareof,hisintentionwasthattheboyshouldremainunderhisownsupervision。HecouldamusehimselfwellenoughatStornham,nowthatithadbeenputinorder,ifitwaskeptupproperlyandhefilleditwithpeoplewhodidnotborehim。Therewerepeoplewhodidnotborehim——plentyofthem。Rosaliewouldstaywhereshewasandreceivehisguests。
IfsheimaginedthatthelittleepisodeofFfolliotthadbeenentirelydormant,shewasmistaken。Heknewwherethemanwas,andexactlyhowseriousitwouldbetohimifscandalwasstirredup。Hehadbeenatsometroubletofindout。Thefellowhadrecentlyhadthelucktofallintoaveryfineliving。
IthadbeenbestowedonhimbytheoldDukeofBroadmorlands,whowasthemoststrait—lacedoldboyinEngland。
Hehadbecomesoinhisdisgustatthelightbehaviourofthewifehehaddivorcedinhisearlymanhood。Nigelcackledgentlyashedetailedthat,byanagreeablecoincidence,ithappenedthatherGracehadsuddenlybecomefilledwithpiousfervour——rousedtheretobyagood—lookinglocumtenens——
result,painfuldiscoveries——thepairbeingnowrumouredtobekeepingalodging—housetogethersomewhereinAustralia。A
wordtogoodoldBroadmorlandswouldproducetheeffectofalightedmatchonabarrelofgunpowder。ItwouldbetheendofFfolliott。NeitherwoulditbeagoodintroductiontoBetty’sfirstseasoninLondon,neitherwoulditbeenjoyedbyhermother,whomherememberedasawomanwithprimitiveviewsofdomesticrectitude。HesmiledtheawfulsmileashetookoutofhispockettheenvelopecontainingthewordshiswifehadwrittentoMr。Ffolliott,"Donotcometothehouse。MeetmeatBartyonWood。"Itdidnottakemuchtoconvincepeople,ifonemanagedthingswithdecentforethought。TheBrents,forinstance,werefondneitherofhernorofBetty,andtheyhadneverforgottenthequestionableconductoftheirlocumtenens。Then,suddenly,hehadchangedhismannerandhadsatdown,laughing,anddrawnRosalietohiskneeandkissedher——yes,hehadkissedherandtoldhernottolooklikealittlefooloractlikeone。Nothingunpleasantwouldhappenifshebehavedherself。Bettyhadimprovedhergreatly,andshehadgrownyoungandprettyagain。Shelookedquitelikeachildsometimes,nowthatherboneswerecoveredandshedressedwell。Ifshewantedtopleasehimshecouldputherarmsroundhisneckandkisshim,ashehadkissedher。
"Thatiswhathasmadeyoulookwhite,"saidBetty。
"Yes。Thereissomethingabouthimthatsometimesmakesyoufeelasiftheverybloodinyourveinsturnedwhite,"
answeredRosy——inalowvoice,whichthenextmomentrose。
"Don’tyousee——don’tyousee,"shebrokeout,"thattodispleasehimwouldbelikemurderingMr。Ffolliott——likemurderinghismotherandmine——andlikemurderingUghtred,becausehewouldbekilledbytheshameofthings——andbybeingtakenfromme。Wehavelovedeachothersomuch——somuch。
Don’tyousee?"
"Iseeallthatrisesupbeforeyou,"Bettysaid,"andI
understandyourfeelingthatyoucannotsaveyourselfbybringingruinuponaninnocentmanwhohelpedyou。Irealisethatonemusthavetimetothinkitover。But,Rosy,"asuddenringinhervoice,"Itellyouthereisawayout——thereisawayout!Theendofthemiseryiscoming——anditwillnotbewhathethinks。"
"Youalwaysbelieve————"beganRosy。
"Iknow,"answeredBetty。"Iknowtherearesomethingssobadthattheycannotgoon。Theykillthemselvesthroughtheirownevil。IKNOW!IKNOW!Thatisall。"
CHAPTERLX
"DON’TGOONWITHTHIS"
Ofthesethings,asofothers,shehadcometohersolitudetothink。Shelookedoutoverthemarshesscarcelyseeingthewanderingorrestingsheep,scarcelyhearingthecryingplover,becausesomuchseemedtoconfronther,andshemustlookitallwellintheface。Shehadfulfilledthepromiseshehadmadetoherselfasachild。ShehadcomeinsearchofRosy,shehadfoundherassimpleandlovingofheartasshehadeverbeen。Themostpainfuldiscoveriesshehadmadehadbeenconcealedfromhermotheruntiltheiraspectwasmodified。
Mrs。VanderpoelneednowfeelnoshockatthesightoftherestoredRosy。LadyAnstruthershadbeenstillyoungenoughtorespondbothphysicallyandmentallytolove,companionship,agreeableluxuries,andstimulatinginterests。ButforNigel’santagonismtherewasnownoreasonwhysheshouldnotbetakenhomeforavisittoherfamily,andherlong—yearned—forNewYork,noreasonwhyherfatherandmothershouldnotcometoStornham,andthusestablishthecustomarysocialrelationsbetweentheirdaughter’shomeandtheirown。ThatthisseemedoutofthequestionwasowingtothefactthatattheoutsetofhismarriedlifeSirNigelhadallowedhimselftocommiterrorsintactics。Aperverseegotism,notwhollynormalinitsrancour,hadledhimintodeedswhichhehadbeguntosuspectofhavingcosthimtoomuch,evenbeforeBettyherselfhadpointedouttohimtheirunbusinesslikeindiscretion。Hehaddonethingshecouldnotundo,andnow,tohismind,hisonlyresourcewastotreatthemboldlyashavingbeentheproperresultsofdecisionfoundedonsoundjudgment,whichhehadnodesiretoexcuse。Asufficientlyarrogantloftinessofbearingwould,hehoped,carryhimthroughthematter。ThisBettyherselfhadguessed,butshehadnotrealisedthatthisloftinessofattitudewasindangeroflosingsomeofitseffectivenessthroughhisbeingincreasinglystungandspurredbycircumstancesandfeelingsconnectedwithherself,whichwereatonceexasperatingandattimesalmostoverpowering。When,inhismingleddislikeandadmiration,hehadbeguntostudyhissister—in—law,andthehalf—amusedweavingofthesmallplotswhichwouldmakethingssufficientlyunpleasanttobeusedasfactorsinherremovalfromthescene,ifnecessary,hehadnotcalculated,eversoremotely,onthechanceofthatmadnessbesettinghimwhichusuallybesetsmenonlyintheiryouth。Hehadimaginednootherresultstohimselfthanasubtly—excitingprivateentertainment,suchaswouldgivespicetothedullnessofvirtuouslifeinthecountry。But,despitehimselfandhisintentions,hehadfoundthesituationalter。HisfirstuncertaintyofhimselfhadarisenattheDunholmball,whenhehadsuddenlyrealisedthathewasdetestingmenwho,beingyoungandfree,wereatlibertytopaygallantcourttothenewbeauty。
PerhapsthemostdisturbingthingtohimhadbeenhisconsciousnessofhissuddenleapofantagonismtowardsMountDunstan,who,despitehisobviouslackofchance,somehowespeciallyrousedinhimtherageofwarringmaleinstinct。
Therehadbeenadmissionshehadbeenforced,atlength,tomaketohimself。Youcouldnot,itappeared,liveinthehousewithasplendidcreaturelikethisone——withherbrillianteyes,herbeautyoflineandmovementbeforeyoueveryhour,herbloom,herproudfinenessholdingthemselveswhollyintheirownkeeping——withouttherebeingthedeviltopay。Latelyhehadsometimesgonehotandcoldinrealisingthat,havingoncetoldhimselfthathemightchoosetodecidetogetridofher,henowknewthatthemerethoughtofhersailingawayofherownchoicewasmaddeningtohim。ThereWASthedeviltopay!
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