Thetoneofhisvoicewasevidentlyenough。LadyAnstruthersturnedwithanunmistakablestart。Theroseliningofherparasolceasedtowarmhercolour。Infact,theparasolitselfsteppedaside,andshestoodwithablank,stiff,whiteface。
"MydearRosalie,"saidSirNigel,goingtowardsher。
"Youdon’tlookverygladtoseeme。"
Hebentandkissedherquitewiththeairofadevotedhusband。Knowingwhatthecaressmeant,andseeingRosy’sfaceasshesubmittedtoit,Bettyfeltrathercold。AftertheconjugalgreetingheturnedtoUghtred。
"Youlookremarkablywell,"hesaid。
Bettycameforward。
"Wemetinthepark,Rosy,"sheexplained。"Wehavebeentalkingtoeachotherforhalfanhour。"
TheatmospherewhichhadsurroundedherduringthelastthreemonthshaddonemuchforLadyAnstruthers’nerves。
Shehadthepowertorecoverherself。SirNigelhimselfsawthiswhenshespoke。
"IwasstartledbecauseIwasnotexpectingtoseeyou,"shesaid。"IthoughtyouwerestillontheRiviera。Ihopeyouhadapleasantjourneyhome。"
"Ihadanextraordinarilypleasantsurpriseinfindingyoursisterhere,"heanswered。Andtheywentintothehouse。
Indescendingthestaircaseonhiswaytothedrawing—roombeforedinner,SirNigelglancedabouthimwithinterestedcuriosity。Ifthevillagehadbeenputinorder,somethingmorehadbeendonehere。Rememberingthewornrugsandthebald—
headedtiger,heliftedhisbrows。Toleaveone’shouseinastateofresigneddilapidationandreturntofinditfilledwithallsuchthingsascomfortcombinedwithexcellenttastemightdemand,wasanenliveningexperience——orwouldhavebeensoundersomecircumstances。Asmattersstood,perhaps,hemighthavefeltbetterpleasedifthingshadbeenlesswelldone。Buttheywereverywelldone。Theyhadmanagedtoputthemselvesintherightinthisalso。Therichsobrietyofcolourandformleftnoopeningforsuperciliouscomment——whichwasaneatweaponitwasannoyingtoberobbedof。
Thedrawing—roomwasfresh,brightlycharming,andfullofflowers。Bettywasstandingbeforeanopenwindowwithhersister。Hiswife’sshoulders,heobservedatonce,hadabsolutelybeguntosuggestcontours。Atallevents,herbonesnolongerstuckout。Butonedidnotlookatone’swife’sshoulderswhenonecouldturnfromthemtoafairnessofvelvetandivory。"Youknow,"hesaid,approachingthem,"Ifindallthisveryamazing。Ihavebeenlookingoutofmywindowontothegardens。"
"ItisBettywhohasdoneitall,"saidRosy。
"Ididnotsuspectyouofdoingit,mydearRosalie,"smiling。
"WhenIsawBettystandingintheavenue,Iknewatoncethatitwasshewhohadmendedthechimney—potsinthevillageandrehungthegates。"
Forthepresent,atleast,itwasevidentthathemeanttobesufficientlyamiable。Atthedinnertablehewasconversationalandaskedmanyquestions,professinganaturalinterestinwhathadbeendone。Itwasnotdifficulttotalktoagirlwhoseeyesandshoulderscombinedthemselveswithaquickwitandapowertoattractwhichhereluctantlyownedhehadneverseenequalled。Hisreluctancearosefromthefactthatsuchapowercomplicatedmatters。Hemustbeonthedefensiveuntilheknewwhatshewasgoingtodo,whathemustdohimself,andwhatresultswereprobableorpossible。Hehadspenthislifeinintrigueofoneorderoranother。Heenjoyedoutwittingpeopleandratherpreferredtoattainanendbydeviouspaths。Hebeganeveryacquaintanceonthedefensive。
Hisargumentwasthatyouneverknewhowthingswouldturnout,consequently,itwasaswelltoconductone’sselfattheoutsetwiththediscreetforethoughtofamaninthepresenceofanenemy。HedidnotknowhowthingswouldturnoutinBetty’scase,anditwasalittleconfusingtofindone’sselfwatchingherwithasenseofexcitement。Hewouldhavepreferredtobecool——tobecold——andherealisedthathecouldnotkeephiseyesoffher。
"Iremember,withregret,"hesaidtoherlaterintheevening,"thatwhenyouwereachildwewereenemies。"
"Iamafraidwewere,"wasBetty’simpartialanswer。
"Iamsureitwasmyfault,"hesaid。"Prayforgetit。
Sinceyouhaveaccomplishedsuchwonders,willyounot,inthemorning,takemeabouttheplaceandexplaintomehowithasbeendone?"
WhenBettywenttoherroomshedismissedhermaidassoonaspossible,andsatforsometimealoneandwaiting。ShehadhadnoopportunitytospeaktoRosyinprivate,andshewassureshewouldcometoher。Inthecourseofhalfanhoursheheardaknockatthedoor。
Yes,itwasRosy,andhernewly—borncolourhadfledandleftherlookingdraggedagain。ShecameforwardanddroppedintoalowchairnearBetty,lettingherfacefallintoherhands。
"I’mverysorry,Betty,"shehalfwhispered,"butitisnouse。"
"Whatisnouse?"Bettyasked。
"Nothingisanyuse。Alltheseyearshavemademesuchacoward。IsupposeIalwayswasacoward,butintheolddaysthereneverwasanythingtobeafraidof。"
"Whatareyoumostafraidofnow?"
"Idon’tknow。Thatistheworst。IamafraidofHIM——
justofhimself——ofthelookinhiseyes——ofwhathemaybeplanningquietly。Mystrengthdiesawaywhenhecomesnearme。"
"Whathashesaidtoyou?"sheasked。
"Hecameintomydressing—roomandsatandtalked。Helookedaboutfromonethingtoanotherandpretendedtoadmireitallandcongratulatedme。Butthoughhedidnotsneeratwhathesaw,hiseyesweresneeringatme。Hetalkedaboutyou。Hesaidthatyouwereaverycleverwoman。Idon’tknowhowhemanagestoimplythataverycleverwomanissomethingcunninganddebased——butitmeansthatwhenhesaysit。
Itseemstoinsinuatethingswhichmakeonegrowhotallover。"
SheputoutahandandcaughtoneofBetty’s。
"Betty,Betty,"sheimplored。"Don’tmakehimangry。Don’t。"
"Iamnotgoingtobeginbymakinghimangry,"Bettysaid。"AndIdonotthinkhewilltrytomakemeangry——atfirst。"
"No,hewillnot,"criedRosalie。"And——andyourememberwhatItoldyouwhenfirstwetalkedabouthim?"
"Anddoyouremember,"wasBetty’sanswer,"whatIsaidtoyouwhenIfirstmetyouinthepark?IfweweretocabletoNewYorkthismoment,wecouldreceiveananswerinafewhours。"
"Hewouldnotletusdoit,"saidRosy。"Hewouldstopusinsomeway——ashestoppedmyletterstomother——ashestoppedmewhenItriedtorunaway。Oh,Betty,Iknowhimandyoudonot。"
"Ishallknowhimbettereveryday。ThatiswhatImustdo。Imustlearntoknowhim。Hesaidsomethingmoretoyouthanyouhavetoldme,Rosy。Whatwasit?"
"HewaiteduntilDetchamleftme,"LadyAnstruthersconfessed,morethanhalfreluctantly。"Andthenhegotuptogoaway,andstoodwithhishandsrestingonthechairback,andspoketomeinalow,queervoice。Hesaid,`Don’ttrytoplayanytricksonme,mygoodgirl——anddon’tletyoursistertrytoplayany。Youwouldbothhavereasontoregretit。’"
Shewasahalf—hypnotisedthing,andBetty,watchingherwithcuriousbuttendereyes,recognisedtheabnormality。
"Ah,ifIamacleverwoman,"shesaid,"heisacleverman。Heisbeginningtoseethathispowerisslippingaway。
ThatwaswhatG。Seldenwouldcall`bluff。’"
CHAPTERXXXI
NO,SHEWOULDNOT
SirNigeldidnotinviteRosalietoaccompanythem,whenthenextmorning,afterbreakfast,heremindedBettyofhissuggestionofthenightbefore,thatsheshouldwalkovertheplacewithhim,andshowhimwhathadbeendone。Hepreferredtomakehisstudyofhissister—in—lawundisturbed。
Therewasnodetailwhosesignificancehemissedastheywentabouttogether。Hehadkeeneyesandwasaquitesufficientlypracticalpersononsuchmattersasconcernedhisowninterests。Inthiscaseitwastohisinteresttomakeuphismindastowhathemightgainorlosebytheappearanceofhiswife’sfamily。Hedidnotmeantolose——ifitcouldbehelped——
anythingeitherofpersonalimportanceormaterialbenefit。Anditcouldonlybehelpedbyhiscomprehendingclearlywhathehadtodealwith。Bettywas,atpresent,thechieffactorinthesituation,andhewassufficientlyastutetoseethatshemightnotbeeasytoread。Hispersonaltheoriesconcerningwomenpresentedtohimtwoorthreeeffectivewaysofmanagingthem。
Youmadelovetothem,youflatteredthemeithersubtlyorgrossly,youroughlyorsmoothlybulliedthem,oryouharrowedthemwithhaughtyindifference——ifyourlove—makinghadproduceditspropereffect——whenitwasnecessarytolureordriveortrickthemintosubmission。Womenshouldbemadeusefulinonewayoranother。Littlefoolasshewas,Rosaliehadbeenuseful。Hehad,afterallwassaidanddone,hadsomecomparativelyeasyyearsastheresultofherexistence。Butshehadnotbeenusefulenough,andtherehadevenbeenmomentswhenhehadwonderedifhehadmadeamistakeinseparatingherentirelyfromherfamily。Theremighthavebeenmoretobegainedifhehadallowedthemtovisitherandhadplayedthepartofadevotedhusbandintheirpresence。Agreatbore,ofcourse,buttheycouldnothavespenttheirentirelivesatStornham。Twelveyearsago,however,hehadknownverylittleofAmericans,andhehadlosthistemper。Hewasreallyveryfondofhistemper,andratherenjoyedreferringtoitwithtolerantregretasbeingabadoneandbeyondhiscontrol——withamannerwhichsuggestedthattheattributewastheinevitableresultofstrengthofcharacterandmasculinespirit。Theluxuryofgivingwaytoitwasagreatone,anditwasexasperatingashewalkedaboutwiththishandsomegirltofindhimselfbeginningtosuspectthat,whereshewasconcerned,someself—
controlmightbenecessary。Hewasledtothisthoughtbecausethethingshetookinonallsidescouldonlyhavebeenachievedbyapersonwhosemindwasasteadily—balancedthing。Inone’streatmentofsuchacreature,methodsmustbewellchosen。
ThecrudesthadsufficedtooverwhelmRosalie。Hetriedtwoorthreelittlethingsasexperimentsduringtheirwalk。
ThefirstwastotouchwithdignifiedpathosonthesubjectofUghtred。Betty,heintimatedgently,couldimaginewhataman’sgriefanddisappointmentmightbeonfindinghissonandheirdeformedinsuchamanner。ThedelicatereservewithwhichhemanagedtoconveyhisfearthatRosalie’sownuncontrolledhystericattackshadbeenthecauseofthemisfortunewasverywelldone。Shehad,ofcourse,beenveryyoungandmuchspoiled,andhadnotlearnedself—restraint,poorgirl。
ItwasatthispointthatBettyfirstrealisedacertainhideousthing。Shemustactuallyremainsilent——therewouldbeattheoutsetmanytimeswhenshecouldonlyprotecthersisterbyrefrainingfromeitherdenialorargument。Ifsheturneduponhimnowwithrefutation,itwasRosywhowouldbecalledupontobeartheconsequences。HewouldgoatoncetoRosy,andsheherselfwouldhavedonewhatshehadsaidshewouldnotdo——shewouldhavebroughttroubleuponthepoorgirlbeforeshewasstrongenoughtobearit。Shesuspectedalsothathisintentionwastodiscoverhowmuchshehadheard,andifshemightbegoadedintobetrayingherattitudeinthematter。
Butshewasnottobesogoaded。Hewatchedhercloselyandherverycolouritselfseemedtobeunderherowncontrol。
Hehadexpected——ifshehadheardhysteric,garbledstoriesfromhiswife——toseeaflameofscarletleapuponthecheekhewasadmiring。Therewasnosuchleap,whichwasbafflinginitself。CoulditbethatexperiencehadtaughtRosaliethediscretionofkeepinghermouthshut?
"IamveryfondofUghtred,"wasthesolecommenthewasgranted。"Wemadefriendsfromthefirst。Ashegrowsolderandstronger,hismisfortunemaybelessapparent。Hewillbeaverycleverman。"
"Hewillbeaveryclevermanifheisatalllike————"Hecheckedhimselfwithaslightmovementofhisshoulders。"I
wasgoingtosayathingutterlybanal。Ibegyourpardon。I
forgotforthemomentthatIwasnottalkingtoanEnglishgirl。"
Itwassostupidthatsheturnedandlookedathim,smilingfaintly。Butheranswerwasquitemildandsoft。
"DonotdeprivemeofcomplimentsbecauseIamamereAmerican,"
shesaid。"Iamveryfondofthem,andrespondatonce。"
"Youareverydaring,"hesaid,lookingstraightintohereyes——"deliciouslyso。Americanwomenalwaysare,Ithink。"
"Theyoungdevil,"hewassayinginternally。"Thebeautifulyoungdevil!Shethrowsoneoffthetrack。"
Hefoundhimselfmoreandmoreattractedandexasperatedastheymadetheirrounds。Itwashissenseofbeingattractedwhichwasthecauseofhisexasperation。Agirlwhocouldstironelikethiswouldbeadangerousenemy。Evenasafriendshewouldnotbesafe,becauseonefacedtheabsurdperiloflosingone’sheadalittleandforgettingtheprecautionsoneshouldneverlosesightofwhereawomanwasconcerned——theprecautionswhichprovidedforone’sholdingagoodtautreininone’sownhands。
Theywentfromgardenstogreenhouses,fromgreenhousestostables,andhewasonthewatchforthemomentwhenshewouldrevealsomelittlefeminineposeorvanity,but,thismorning,atleast,shelaidnonebare。Shedidnotstrikehimasabeingofangelicperfections,butshewasverymodernandnotlikelytoshoweasilyanyopeningsinherarmour。
"Ofcourse,Icontinuetobeamazed,"hecommented,"thoughoneoughtnottobeamazedatanythingwhichevolvesfromyourextraordinarycountry。Inspiteofyourimpersonalair,Ishallpersistinregardingyouasmybenefactor。But,tobefrank,IalwaystoldRosaliethatifshewouldwritetoyourfatherhewouldcertainlyputthingsinorder。"
"Shedidwriteonce,youwillremember,"answeredBetty。
"Didshe?"withcourteousvagueness。"Really,IamafraidIdidnothearofit。Mypoorwifehasherownlittleideasaboutthedisposalofherincome。"
AndBettyknewthatshewasexpectedtobelievethatRosyhadhoardedthemoneysenttorestoretheplace,andfromsheerweakmiserlinesshadallowedherson’sheritagetofalltoruin。AndbutforRosy’ssake,shemighthavestoppeduponthepathand,lookingathimsquarely,havesaid,"Youarelyingtome。AndIknowthetruth。"
Hecontinuedtoconverseamiably。
"Ofcourse,itisyouonemustthank,notonlyforrousinginthepoorgirlsomeinterestinherpersonalappearance,butalsosomeinterestinherneighbours。Somewomen,aftertheymarryandpassgirlhood,seemtoreleasetheirholdonalldesiretoattractorretainfriends。ForyearsRosaliehasgivenherselfuptoachronicsemi—invalidism。Whenthemistressofahouseisalwaysdepressedandlanguidanddoesnotreturnvisits,neighboursbecomediscouragedanddropoff,asitwere。"
Ifhiswifehadtoldstoriestogainhersympathyhiscompanionwouldbesuretolosehertemperandshowherhand。Ifhecouldmakeheropenlylosehertemper,hewouldhavemadeanadvance。
"Onecanquiteunderstandthat,"shesaid。"ItisagreathappinesstometoseeRosygaininggroundeveryday。Shehastakenmeoutwithheragoodmanytimes,andpeoplearebeginningtorealisethatshelikestoseethematStornham。"
"Youareverydelightful,"hesaid,"withyour`Shehastakenmeout。’WhenIglancedatthemagnificentarrayofcardsonthesalverinthehall,Irealisedanumberofthings,andquitevulgarlylostmybreath。TheDunholmshavebeenveryamiableinrecallingourexistence。ButcharmingAmericans——ofyourorder——arouseamiableemotions。"
"Iamveryamiablemyself,"saidBetty。
Itwashewhoflushednow。Hewaslosingpatienceatfeelinghimselfheldwithsuchlightnessatarm’slength,andatbeing,inspiteofhimself,somehowcompelledtocontinuetoassumeajocularcourtesy。
"No,youarenot,"heanswered。
"Not?"repeatedBetty,withanincredulousliftingofherbrows。
"Youarecharmingandclever,butIrathersuspectyouofbeingavixen。Atalleventsyouareaspiritedyoungwomanandquick—wittedenoughtounderstandtheattractionyoumusthaveforthesordidherd。"
Andthenhebecameaware——ifnotofanopeninginherarmour——atleastofajointinit。Forhesaw,nearherear,adeepeningwarmth。Thatwasit。Shewasquick—witted,andshehidsomewhereahotpride。
"Iconfess,however,"heproceededcheerfully,"thatnotwithstandingmyownexperienceofthehabitsofthesordidherd,IsawonecardIwassurprisedtofind,thoughreally"
——shrugginghisshoulders——"Ioughttohavebeenlesssurprisedtofinditthantofindanyother。Butitwasbold。I
supposethefellowisdesperate。"
"Youarespeakingof————?"suggestedBetty。
"OfMountDunstan。Hangitall,itWASbold!"Asifinhalf—amuseddisgust。
Asshehadwalkedthroughthegardenpaths,Bettyhadatintervalsbentandgatheredaflower,untilsheheldinonehandaloose,fairsheaf。Atthismomentshestoopedtobreakoffaspireofpalebluecampanula。Andshewas——aswithashock——struckwithaconsciousnessthatshebentbecauseshemust——
becausetodosowasarefuge——aconcealmentofsomethingshemusthide。Ithadcomeuponherwithoutasecond’swarning。
SirNigelwasright。Shewasavixen——avirago。Shewasinsucharagethatherheartsprangupanddownandhercheekandeyeswereonfire。Herlong—trainedcontrolofherselfwasgone。Andhershockwasalightning—swiftawakeningtothefactthatshefeltallthis——shemusthideherface——becauseitwasthisoneman——justthisoneandnoother——whowasbeingdraggedintothisthingwithinsult。
Itwasanawakening,andshebrokeoff,ratherslowly,one——
two——three——evenfourcampanulastemsbeforeshestooduprightagain。
AsforNigelAnstruthers——hewentontalkinginhislow—
pitched,disgustedvoice。
"Surelyhemightcounthimselfoutoftherunning。Therewillbeagooddealofrunning,mydearBetty。YoufairAmericanshavelearnedthatbythistime。Butthatamanwhohasnotevenadecentnametooffer——whoisblackballedbyhiscounty——shouldcoollypresenthimselfasapretendantisaninsolenceheshouldbekickedfor。"
Bettyarrangedhercampanulascarefully。TherewasnoexteriorreasonwhysheshoulddrawswordinLordMountDunstan’sdefence。Hehadcertainlynotseemedtoexpectanythingintimatelyinterestedfromher。Hismannershehadgenerallyfelttoberatherrestrained。Butonecould,inameasure,expressone’sself。
"Whatsoeverthe`running,’"sheremarked,"nopretendanthascomplimentedmebypresentinghimself,sofar——andLordMountDunstanisphysicallyanunusuallystrongman。"
"Youmeanitwouldbedifficulttokickhim?Isthispartisanship?Ihopenot。AmItounderstand,"headdedwithdeliberation,"thatRosaliehasreceivedhimhere?"
"Yes。"
"Andthatyouhavereceivedhim,also——asyouhavereceivedLordWestholt?"
"Quite。"
"ThenImustdiscussthematterwithRosalie。Itisnottobediscussedwithyou。"
"Youmeanthatyouwillexerciseyourauthorityinthematter?"
"InEngland,mydeargirl,themasterofahouseisstillsometimesguiltyofexercisingauthorityinmatterswhichconcernthereputationofhisfemalerelatives。Intheabsenceofyourfather,Ishallnotallowyou,whileyouareundermyroof,toendangeryournameinanydegree。Iam,atleast,yourbrotherbymarriage。Iintendtoprotectyou。"
"Thankyou,"saidBetty。
"Youareyoungandextremelyhandsome,youwillhaveanenormousfortune,andyouhaveevidentlyhadyourownwayallyourlife。Agirl,suchasyouare,mayeithermakeamagnificentmarriageoraridiculousandhumiliatingone。
NeitherAmericanyoungwomen,norEnglishyoungmen,areasdisinterestedastheyweresomeyearsago。Eachhasbeguntolearnwhattheotherhastogive。"
"Ithinkthatistrue,"commentedBetty。
"Insomecasesthereisagooddealtobeexchangedonbothsides。Youhaveagreatdealtogive,andshouldgetexchangeworthaccepting。Abeggaredestateandataintedtitlearenotgoodenough。"
"Thatisbusinesslike,"Bettymadecommentagain。
SirNigellaughedquietly。
"Thefactis——Ihopeyouwon’tmisunderstandmysayingit——youdonotstrikemeasbeingUN—businesslike,yourself。"
"Iamnot,"answeredBetty。
"Ithoughtnot,"rathernarrowinghiseyesashewatchedher,becausehebelievedthatshemustinvoluntarilyshowherhandifheirritatedhersufficiently。"Youdonotimpressmeasbeingoneofthegirlswhomakeunsuccessfulmarriages。
YouareamodernNewYorkbeauty——notanearlyVictoriansentimentalist。"Hedidnotdespairofresultsfromhisprocessofirritation。Togentlybutsteadilyconveytoabeautifulandspiritedyoungcreaturethatnomancouldapproachherwithoutulteriormotivewasratheragoodidea。Ifonecouldmakeitclear——withacasualairofsensiblytakingitforgranted——
thatthenaturalpowerofyouth,wit,andbeautywererenderedimpotentbyagreatnessoffortunewhoseproportionsobliteratedallelse;ifonesimplyarguedfromthepremisethatyounglovewasnoaffairofhers,sinceshemustalwaysberegardedasagildedchattel,whosecostwaswritlargeinplainfigures,whatgirl,withbloodinherveins,couldendureitlongwithoutwincing?Thisgirlhadundue,and,asheregardedsuchmatters,unseemlycontroloverhertemperandhernerves,butshehadbloodenoughinherveins,andpresentlyshewouldsayordosomethingwhichwouldgivehimalead。
"Whenyoumarry————"hebegan。
Sheliftedherheaddelicately,butendedthesentenceforhimwitheyeswhichwereactuallynotunsmiling。
"WhenImarry,IshallasksomethinginexchangeforwhatIhavetogive。"
"Iftheexchangeistobeequal,youmustaskagreatdeal,"
heanswered。"ThatiswhyyoumustbeprotectedfromsuchfellowsasMountDunstan。"
"Ifitbecomesnecessary,perhapsIshallbeabletoprotectmyself,"shesaid。
"Ah!"regretfully,"IamafraidIhaveannoyedyou——
andthatyouneedprotectionmorethanyoususpect。"Ifshewerefleshandblood,shecouldscarcelyresistresentingtheimplicationcontainedinthis。Butresistitshedid,andwithacoollittlesmilewhichstirredhimtosudden,ifirritated,admiration。
Shepausedasecond,andusedthetouchofgentleregretherself。
"Youhavewoundedmyvanitybyintimatingthatmyadmirersdonotlovemeformyselfalone。"
Hepaused,also,and,narrowinghiseyesagain,lookedstraightbetweenherlashes。
"Theyoughttoloveyouforyourselfalone,"hesaid,inalowvoice。"Youareadeucedlyattractivegirl。"
"Oh,Betty,"Rosyhadpleaded,"don’tmakehimangry——don’tmakehimangry。"
SoBettyliftedhershouldersslightlywithoutcomment。
"Shallwegobacktothehousenow?"shesaid。"Rosaliewillnaturallybeanxioustohearthatwhathasbeendoneinyourabsencehasmetwithyourapproval。"
InwhatmannerhisapprovalwasexpressedtoRosalie,Bettydidnothearthismorning,atleast。Externallycoolthoughshehadappeared,theprocesshadnotbeenwithoutitsresults,andshefeltthatshewouldprefertobealone。
"Imustwritesomeletterstocatchthenextsteamer,"
shesaid,asshewentupstairs。
Whensheenteredherroom,shewenttoherwritingtableandsatdown,withpenandpaperbeforeher。Shedrewthepapertowardsherandtookupthepen,butthenextmomentshelaiditdownandgaveaslightpushtothepaper。Asshedidsosherealisedthatherhandtrembled。
"Imustnotletmyselfformthehabitoffallingintorages——orIshallnotbeabletokeepstillsomeday,whenIoughttodoit,"shewhispered。"Iaminafury——afury。"
Andforamomentshecoveredherface。
Shewasastronggirl,butagirl,notwithstandingherpowers。Whatshesuddenlysawwasthat,asifbyonemovementofsomepowerfulunseenhand,Rosy,whohadbeenthecentreofallthings,hadbeensweptoutofherthought。HerangerattheinjusticedonetoRosyhadbeenasnothingbeforethefirewhichhadflamedinherattheinsultflungattheother。Andallthatwasundueandunbalanced。Onemightaswelllookthethingstraightlyintheface。HeroldchildhatredofNigelAnstruthershadsprungupagaininten—foldstrength。Therewas,itwastrue,somethingabominableabouthim,somethingwhichmadehiswordsmoreabominablethantheywouldhavebeenifanothermanhadutteredthem——but,thoughitwasinevitablethathismethodshouldrouseone,wherethoseofone’sownbloodwereconcerned,itwasnotenoughtofillonewithragingflamewhenhismalignitywasdealingwiththosewhowerealmoststrangers。MountDunstanwasalmostastranger——shehadmetLordWestholtoftener。Wouldshehavefeltthesamehotbeatoftheblood,ifLordWestholthadbeenconcerned?
No,sheansweredherselffrankly,shewouldnot。
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