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第11章

  "Oh,Betty,Betty!"shecried,"youtalkasif——youareso————!"
  Thefact,sosimpletothemembersoftheabnormalclasstowhichsheofatruthbelonged,theclasswhichheapedupitsmillions,theabsoluteknowledgethattherewasagreatdealofmoneyintheworldandthatshewasofthosewhowereamongitschiefowners,hadceasedtoseemafact,andhadvanishedintotheregionoffairystories。
  ThatshecouldnotbelieveitarealityrevealeditselftoBettina,asbyaflash,whichwasalsoarevelationofmanythings。Therewouldbeunpleasingtruthstobelearned,andshehadnotmadeherpilgrimagefornothing。But——inanyevent——therewereadvantageswithoutdoubtinthecircumstancewhichsubjectedonetobeingperpetuallypointedoutasadaughterofamulti—millionaire。Asthisargueditselfoutforherwithrapidlucidity,shebentandkissedRosyoncemore。Sheeventriedtodoitlightly,andnottoallowtherushofloveandpityinhersoultobetrayher。
  "Italkasif——asifIwereBetty,"shesaid。"Youhaveforgotten。Ihavenot。Ihavebeenlookingforwardtothisforyears。IhavebeenplanningtocometoyousinceIwaselevenyearsold。Andherewesit。"
  "Youdidn’tforget?Youdidn’t?"falteredthepoorwreckofRosy。"Oh!Oh!Ithoughtyouhadallforgottenme——quite——quite!"
  Andherfacewentdowninherspare,smallhands,andshebegantocryagain。
  CHAPTERXII
  UGHTRED
  Bettinastoodaloneinherbedroomacoupleofhourslater。
  LadyAnstruthershadtakenhertoit,preparingherforitslimitationsbyexplainingthatshewouldfinditquitedifferentfromherroominNewYork。Shehadbeenpatheticallynervousandflushedaboutit,andBettinahadalsobeenawarethattheapartmentitselfhadbeenhastily,andwithmuchmovingofobjectsfromonechambertoanother,madereadyforher。
  Theroomwaslargeandsquareandlow。Itwaspanelledinsmallsquaresofwhitewood。Thepanelswereoldenoughtobecrackedhereandthere,andthepaintwasstainedandyellowwithtime,whereitwasnotknockedorwornoff。
  Therewasasmallpaned,leadedwindowwhichfilledalargepartofonesideoftheroom,anditsdeepseatwasanagreeablefeature。Sittinginit,onelookedoutoverseveralred—
  walledgardens,andthroughbreaksinthetreesoftheparktoafairbeyond。Bettinastoodbeforethiswindowforafewmoments,andthentookaseatintheembrasure,thatshemightgazeoutandreflectatleisure。
  Hergenius,ashasbeforebeenmentioned,wasthegeniusforliving,forbeingvital。Manypeoplemerelyexist,arekeptalivebyothers,orcontinuetovegetatebecausethepersistentactionofnormalfunctionswillallowoftheirdoingnoless。BettinaVanderpoelhadlivedvividly,andinthemidstofaself—createdatmosphereofactionfromherfirsthour。Itwasnotpossibleforhertobeoneofthehordeofmerespectators。Wheresoevershemovedtherewassomeoccultstirringofthemental,andevenphysical,air。Herpulsesbeattoostrongly,herbloodrantoofasttoallowofinactionofmindorbody。When,inpassingthroughthevillage,shehadseenthebrokenwindowsandthehangingpalingsofthecottages,ithadbeeninevitablethat,atonce,sheshould,inthought,repairthem,setthemstraight。Disorderfilledherwithasortofimpatiencewhichwasakintophysicaldistress。Ifshehadbeenbornapoorwomanshewouldhaveworkedhardforherliving,andfoundaninterest,almostanexhilaration,inherlabour。Suchgiftsasshehadwouldhavebeenappliedtothetaskssheundertook。Ithadfrequentlygivenherpleasuretoimagineherselfearningherlivelihoodasaseamstress,ahousemaid,anurse。Sheknewwhatshecouldhaveputintoherservice,andhowshecouldhavefounditabsorbing。Imaginationandinitiativecouldmakeanyserviceabsorbing。Theactualtruthwasthatifshehadbeenahousemaid,theroomshesetinorderwouldhavetakenacharacterunderhertouch;ifshehadbeenaseamstress,herworkwouldhavebeenswiftlydone,herimaginationwouldhaveinventedforhercombinationsofformandcolour;ifshehadbeenanursemaid,thechildrenunderhercarewouldneverhavebeensufficientlyboredtobecometiresomeorintractable,andtheyalsowouldhavegainedcharactertowhichwouldhavebeenaddedanundeniablevividnessofoutlook。
  Shecouldnothaveleftthemalone,sotospeak。Inobeyingthemerelawsofherbeing,shewouldhavestimulatedthem。
  Unconsciouslyshehadstimulatedherfellowpupilsatschool;
  whenshewashiscompanion,herfatherhadalwaysfelthimselfstirredtointerestandenterprise。
  "Yououghttohavebeenaman,Betty,"heusedtosaytohersometimes。
  ButBettyhadnotagreedwithhim。
  "Yousaythat,"sheoncerepliedtohim,"becauseyouseeIaminclinedtodothings,tochangethem,iftheyneedchanging。Well,oneiseitherbornlikethat,oroneisnot。
  SometimesIthinkthatperhapsthepeoplewhomustACTareofadistinctrace。Akindofvigorousrestlessnessdrivesthem。
  IrememberthatwhenIwasachildIcouldnotseeapinlyinguponthegroundwithoutpickingitup,orpassadrawerwhichneededclosing,withoutgivingitapush。Buttherehasalwaysbeenasmuchforwomentodoasformen。"
  Therewasmuchtobedonehereofonesortofthingandanother。Thatwascertain。Asshegazedthroughthesmallpanesofherlargewindows,shefoundherselfoverlookingpartofawildernessofgarden,whichrevealeditselfthroughanarchinanovergrownlaurelhedge。Shehadglimpsesofunkemptgrasspathsandunclippedtopiaryworkwhichhadlostitsoriginalform。Amongatangleofweedsrosetheheadsofclumpsofdaffodils,stirredbyapassingwindofspring。Intheparkbeyondacuckoowascalling。
  Shewasconsciousbothoftheforlornbeautyandsignificanceoftheneglectedgarden,andoftheclearquaintnessofthecuckoocall,asshethoughtofotherthings。
  "Herspiritandherhealtharebroken,"washersummingup。"Herprettinesshasfadedtoarag。Sheisasnervousasanill—treatedchild。Shehaslostherwits。Idonotknowwheretobeginwithher。Imustlethertellmethingsasgraduallyasshechooses。UntilIseeNigelIshallnotknowwhathismethodwithherhasbeen。Shelooksasifshehadceasedtocareforthings,evenforherself。WhatshallIwritetomother?"
  Sheknewwhatsheshouldwritetoherfather。Withhimshecouldbeexplicit。Shecouldrecordwhatshehadfoundandwhatitsuggestedtoher。Shecouldalsomakeclearherreasonforhesitanceanddeliberation。Hisdiscretionandaffectionwouldcomprehendthethingwhichsheherselffeltandwhichaffectionnotcombinedwithdiscretionmightnottakein。Hewouldunderstand,whenshetoldhimthatoneofthefirstthingswhichhadstruckher,hadbeenthatRosyherself,herhelplessnessandtimidity,might,foraperiodatleast,formobstaclesintheirpathofaction。HenotonlylovedRosy,butrealisedhowslightasweetthingshehadalwaysbeen,andhewouldknowhowfaraslightcreature’sgentlenessmightbeoverpoweredandbeatendown。
  Therewassomuchthathermothermustbespared,therewasindeedsolittlethatitwouldbewisetotellher,thatBettinasatgentlyrubbingherforeheadasshethoughtofit。
  Thetruthwasthatshemusttellhernothing,untilallwasover,accomplished,decided。Whatsoevertherewastobe"over,"whatsoevertheactionfinallytaken,mustbeamatterlyingasfaraspossiblebetweenherfatherandherself。
  Mrs。Vanderpoel’stroublewouldbetookeen,heranxietytoogreattokeeptoherself,evenifshewerenotoverwhelmedbythem。ShemustbetoldofthebeautiesanddimensionsofStornham,allrelatabledetailsofRosy’slifemustbegenerouslydwelton。AboveallRosymustbemadetowriteletters,andwithanairoffreedomhoweverspecious。
  Aknockonthedoorbrokethethreadofherreflection。Itwasalow—soundingknock,andsheansweredthesummonsherself,becauseshethoughtitmightbeRosy’s。
  ItwasnotLadyAnstrutherswhostoodoutside,butUghtred,whobalancedhimselfonhiscrutches,andliftedhissmall,toomature,face。
  "MayIcomein?"heasked。
  Herewastheunexpectedagain,butshedidnotallowhimtoseehersurprise。
  "Yes,"shesaid。"Certainlyyoumay。"
  Heswunginandthenturnedtospeaktoher。
  "Pleaseshutthedoorandlockit,"hesaid。
  Therewassuddenilluminationinthis,butofanorderalmostwhimsical。Thatmodernpeopleinmoderndaysshouldfeelboltsandbarsanecessityofordinaryintercoursewassuggestive。Shewasplainlyabouttoreceiveenlightenment。Sheturnedthekeyandfollowedthehaltingfigureacrosstheroom。
  "Whatareyouafraidof?"sheasked。
  "WhenmotherandItalkthingsover,"hesaid,"wealwaysdoitwherenoonecanseeorhear。It’stheonlywaytobesafe。"
  "Safefromwhat?"
  Hiseyesfixedthemselvesonherasheansweredheralmostsullenly。
  "Safefrompeoplewhomightlistenandgoandtellthatwehadbeentalking。"
  Inhisthwarted—looking,oddchild—facetherewasashadeofappealnotwhollyhiddenbyhisevidentwishnottobeboylike。Bettyfeltadesiretokneeldownsuddenlyandembracehim,butsheknewhewasnotpreparedforsuchademonstration。Helookedlikeacreaturewhohadlivedcontinuallyatbay,andhadlearnedtoadjusthimselftoanysituationwithcautionandrestraint。
  "Sitdown,Ughtred,"shesaid,andwhenhedidsosheherselfsatdown,butnottoonearhim。
  Restinghischinonthehandleofacrutch,hegazedatheralmostprotestingly。
  "Ialwayshavetodothesethings,"hesaid,"andIamnotcleverenough,oroldenough。Iamonlyeleven。"
  Thementionofthenumberofhisyearswasplainlynotapologetic,butwasamerestatementofhislimitations。Therethefactwas,andhemustmakethebestofithecould。
  "Whatthingsdoyoumean?"
  "Tryingtomakethingseasier——explainingthingswhenshecannotthinkofexcuses。To—dayitistellingyouwhatsheistoofrightenedtotellyouherself。Isaidtoherthatyoumustbetold。Itmadehernervousandmiserable,butIknewyoumust。"
  "Yes,Imust,"Bettyanswered。"Iamgladshehasyoutodependon,Ughtred。"
  Hiscrutchgratedonthefloorandhisboyeyesforbadehertobelievethattheirsuddenlustrewasinanywayconnectedwithrestrainedemotion。
  "IknowIseemqueerandlikealittleoldman,"hesaid。
  "Mothercriesaboutitsometimes。Butitcan’tbehelped。
  Itisbecauseshehasneverhadanyonebutmetohelpher。
  WhenIwasverylittle,Ifoundouthowfrightenedandmiserableshewas。Afterhisrages,"heusednoname,"sheusedtorunintomynurseryandsnatchmeupinherarmsandhideherfaceinmypinafore。Sometimesshestuffeditintohermouthandbitittokeepherselffromscreaming。Once——
  beforeIwasseven——Iranintotheirroomandshoutedout,andtriedtofightforher。Hewasgoingout,andhadhisridingwhipinhishand,andhecaughtholdofmeandstruckmewithit——untilhewastired。"
  Bettystoodupright。
  "What!What!What!"shecriedout。
  Hemerelynoddedhisheadshortly。Shesawwhatthethinghadbeenbythewayhisfacelostcolour。
  "OfcoursehesaiditwasbecauseIwasimpudent,andneededpunishment,"hesaid。"HesaidshehadencouragedmeinAmericanimpudence。Itwasworseforherthanforme。Shekneeleddownandscreamedoutasifshewascrazy,thatshewouldgivehimwhathewantedifhewouldstop。"
  "Wait,"saidBetty,drawinginherbreathsharply。"`He,’
  isSirNigel?Andhewantedsomething。"
  Henoddedagain"Tellme,"shedemanded,"hasheeverstruckher?"
  "Once,"heansweredslowly,"beforeIwasborn——hestruckherandshefellagainstsomething。ThatiswhyIamlikethis。"Andhetouchedhisshoulder。
  ThefeelingwhichsurgedthroughBettyVanderpoel’sbeingforcedhertogoandstandwithherfaceturnedtowardsthewindows,herhandsholdingeachothertightlybehindherback。
  "Imustkeepstill,"shesaid。"Imustmakemyselfkeepstill。"
  Shespokeunconsciouslyhalfaloud,andUghtredheardherandrepliedhurriedly。
  "Yes,"hesaid,"youmustmakeyourselfkeepstill。Thatiswhatwehavetodowhateverhappens。Thatisoneofthethingsmotherwantedyoutoknow。Sheisafraid。Shedaren’tletyou————"
  Sheturnedfromthewindow,standingatherfullheightandlookingverytallforagirl。
  "Sheisafraid?Shedaren’t?See——thatwillcometoanendnow。Therearethingswhichcanbedone。"
  Heflushednervously。
  "Thatiswhatshewasafraidyouwouldsay,"hespokefastandhishandstrembled。"Sheisnearlywildaboutit,becausesheknowshewilltrytodosomethingthatwillmakeyoufeelasifshedoesnotwantyou。"
  "Sheisafraidofthat?"Bettyexclaimed。
  "He’ddoit!He’ddoit——ifyoudidnotknowbeforehand。"
  "Oh!"saidBetty,withunflinchingclearness。"Heisaliar,ishe?"
  Thehelplessrageintheunchildisheyes,theshakingvoice,ashecriedoutinanswer,wereashock。Itwasasifhewildlyrejoicedthatshehadspokentheword。
  "Yes,he’saliar——aliar!"heshrilled。"He’saliarandabullyandacoward。He’d——he’dbeamurdererifhedared——buthedaren’t。"Andhisfacedroppedonhisarmsfoldedonhiscrutch,andhebrokeintoapassionofcrying。ThenBettyknewshemightgotohim。Shewentandkneltdownandputherarmroundhim。
  "Ughtred,"shesaid,"cry,ifyoulike,Ishoulddoit,ifIwereyou。ButItellyouitcanallbealtered——anditshallbe。"
  Heseemedquitelikealittleboywhenheputouthishandtohersandspokesobbingly:
  "She——shesays——thatbecauseyouhaveonlyjustcomefromAmerica——andinAmericapeople——candothings——youwillthinkyoucandothingshere——andyoudon’tknow。Hewilltellliesaboutyouliesyoucan’tbear。Shesatwringingherhandswhenshethoughtofit。Shewon’tletyoubehurtbecauseyouwanttohelpher。"Hestoppedabruptlyandclutchedhershoulder。
  "AuntBetty!AuntBetty——whateverhappens——whateverhemakesherseemlike——youaretoknowthatitisnottrue。
  Nowyouhavecome——nowshehasseenyouitwouldKILLherifyouweredrivenawayandthoughtshewantedyoutogo。"
  "Ishallnotthinkthat,"sheanswered,slowly,becausesherealisedthatitwaswellthatshehadbeenwarnedintime。
  "Ughtred,areyoutryingtotellmethataboveallthingsI
  mustnotlethimthinkthatIcameheretohelpyou,becauseifheisangryhewillmakeusallsuffer——andyourmothermostofall?"
  "He’llfindaway。Wealwaysknowhewill。Hewouldeitherbesorudethatyouwouldnotstayhere——orhewouldmakemotherseemrude——orhewouldwriteliestograndfather。
  AuntBetty,shescarcelybelievesyouarerealyet。Ifshewon’ttellyouthingsatfirst,pleasedon’tmind。"Helookedquitelikeachildagaininhisappealtoher,totrytounderstandastateofaffairssocomplicated。"Couldyou——
  couldyouwaituntilyouhaveletherget——getusedtoyou?"
  "Usedtothinkingthattheremaybesomeoneintheworldtohelpher?"slowly。"Yes,Iwill。Hasanyoneevertriedtohelpher?"
  "Onceortwicepeoplefoundoutandweresorryatfirst,butitonlymadeitworse,becausehemadethembelievethings。"
  "IshallnotTRY,Ughtred,"saidBetty,aremotesparkkindlinginthedeepsofthepupilsofhersteel—blueeyes。"I
  shallnotTRY。NowIamgoingtoaskyousomequestions。"
  Beforehelefthershehadaskedmanyquestionswhichwerepertinentandsearching,andshehadlearnedthingssherealisedshecouldhavelearnedinnootherwayandfromnootherperson。Butforhisuncannysenseoftheresponsibilityheclearlyhadassumedinthedayswhenheworepinafores,andwhichhadbroughthimtoherroomtopreparehermindforwhatshewouldfindherselfconfrontedwithinthewayofapparentlyunexplainableobstacles,therewasastronglikelihoodthatattheoutsetshemighthavefoundherselfmorethanoncedangerouslyataloss。Yes,shewouldhavebeenataloss,puzzled,perhapsgreatlydiscouraged。Shewasfacetofacewithacomplicationsoextraordinary。
  Thatoneman,throughmerepersistentsteadinessineviltemperanddomestictyranny,shouldhavesobrokenthecreaturesofhishouseholdintoabjectsubmissionandhopelessness,seemedtooincredible。SuchapowerappearedasremotefromcivilisedexistenceinLondonandNewYorkasdidthatwhichhadinflictedtorturesinthedungeonsofcastlesofold。
  Prisonersinsuchdungeonscouldutternocrywhichcouldreachtheoutsideworld;theprisonersatStornhamCourt,notfourhoursfromHydeParkCorner,couldutternonetheworldcouldhear,orcomprehendifitheardit。Sheerlackofpowertoresistboundthemhandandfoot。Andshe,BettyVanderpoel,washereuponthespot,and,asfarasshecouldunderstand,wasbeingimploredtotakenosteps,todonothing。
  Theatmosphereinwhichshehadspentherlife,theworldshehadbeenborninto,hadnotmadeforfearfulnessthatonewouldbeatanytimedefencelessagainstcircumstancesandbeobligedtosubmittooutrage。TobeaVanderpoelwas,itwastrue,tobeashiningmarkforenvyasforadmiration,butthefactremovedobstaclesasarule,andtofindone’sselfstandingbeforeasituationwithone’shands,figurativelyspeaking,tied,wasnewenoughtoarouseunusualsensations。Sherecalled,withanironicsenseofbewilderment,asasortofmaterialevidenceofherownreality,thefactthatnotaweekagoshehadsteppedontoEnglishsoilfromthegangwayofasolidAtlanticliner。ItaidedhertoresistthefeelingthatshehadbeensweptbackintotheMiddleAges。
  "Whenheisangry,"wasoneofthefirstquestionssheputtoUghtred,"whatdoeshegiveashisreason?Hemustprofesstohaveareason。"
  "Whenhegetsinaragehesaysitisbecausemotherissillyandcommon,andIambadlybroughtup。Butwealwaysknowhewantsmoney,anditmakeshimfurious。Hecouldkilluswithrage。"
  "Oh!"saidBetty。"Isee。"
  "Itbeganthattimewhenhestruckher。Hesaidthenthatitwasnotdecentthatawomanwhowasmarriedshouldkeepherownmoney。Hemadehergivehimalmosteverythingshehad,butshewantstokeepsomeforme。Hetriestomakehergetmorefromgrandfather,butshewillnotwritebeggingletters,andshewon’tgivehimwhatsheissavingforme。"
  Itwasasimpleandsordidenoughexplanationinonesense,anditwasoneofwhichBettinahadknown,notoneparallel,butseveral。Havingmarriedtoensurehimselfpoweroverunquestionedresources,themanhadfelthimselfdisgustinglytakenin,andavengedhimselfaccordingly。Inhimhadbeenbornthemakingsofadomestictyrantwho,evenhadhebeenfavouredbyfortune,wouldhavewreakedhishumoursuponthedefencelessthingsmadehispropertybytiesofbloodandmarriage,andwho,beingunfavoured,woulddoworse。BettycouldseewhattheyearshadheldforRosy,andhowherweaknessandtimidityhadbeenconsideredaspositiveassets。A
  womanwhowillcrywhensheisbullied,maybecountedupontosubmitaftershehascried。Rosyhadsubmitteduptoacertainpointandthen,withthestubbornnessofaweakcreature,hadstoodattimidbayforheryoung。
  WhatBettygatheredwasthat,afterthelongandterribleillnesswhichhadfollowedUghtred’sbirth,shehadrisenfromwhathadbeensonearlyherdeathbed,prostratedinbothmindandbody。Ughtreddidnotknowallthatherevealedwhenhetoucheduponthetimewhichhesaidhismothercouldnotquiteremember——whenshehadsatformonthsstaringvacantlyoutofherwindow,tryingtorecallsomethingterriblewhichhadhappened,andwhichshewantedtotellhermother,ifthedayevercamewhenshecouldwritetoheragain。Shehadneverrememberedclearlythedetailsofthethingshehadwantedtotell,andNigelhadinsistedthatherfancywaspartofherpastdelirium。Hehadsaidthatatthebeginningofherdeliriumshehadattackedandinsultedhismotherandhimselfbuttheyhadexcusedherbecausetheyrealisedafterwardswhatthecauseofherexcitementhadbeen。Foralongtimeshehadbeentoobrokenlyweaktoquestionordisbelieve,but,latershehadvaguelyknownthathehadbeenlyingtoher,thoughshecouldnotrefutewhathesaid。Sherecalled,incourseoftime,ahorriblesceneinwhichallthreeofthemhadravedateachother,andsheherselfhadshriekedandlaughedandhurledwildwordsatNigel,andhehadstruckher。Thatsheknewandneverforgot。Shehadbeenillayear,herhairhadfallenout,herskinhadfadedandshehadbeguntofeellikeanervous,tiredoldwomaninsteadofagirl。Girlhood,withallthepast,hadbecomeunrealandtoofarawaytobemorethanadream。NothinghadremainedrealbutStornhamandNigelandthelittlehunchbackedbaby。ShewasgladwhentheDowagerdiedandwhenNigelspenthistimeinLondonorontheContinentandleftherwithUghtred。Whenhesaidthathemustspendhermoneyontheestate,shehadacquiescedwithoutcomment,becausethatinsuredhisgoingaway。Shesawthatnoimprovementorrepairsweremade,butshecoulddonothingandwastoolistlesstomaketheattempt。SheonlywantedtobeleftalonewithUghtred,andsheexhibitedwill—
  poweronlyindefenceofherchildandinherobstinacywithregardtoaskingmoneyofherfather。
  "Shethought,somehow,thatgrandfatherandgrandmotherdidnotcareforheranymore——thattheyhadforgottenherandonlycaredforyou,"Ughtredexplained。"Sheusedtotalktomeaboutyou。Shesaidyoumustbesocleverandsohandsomethatnoonecouldrememberher。Sometimesshecriedandsaidshedidnotwantanyofyoutoseeheragain,becauseshewasonlyahideous,little,thin,yellowoldwoman。
  WhenIwasverylittleshetoldmestoriesaboutNewYorkandFifthAvenue。Ithoughttheywerenotrealplaces——I
  thoughtheywereplacesinfairyland。"
  Bettypattedhisshoulderandlookedawayforamomentwhenhesaidthis。Inherremoteandhelplessloneliness,toRosy’shomesick,yearningsoul,noisy,rattlingNewYork,FifthAvenuewithitstrafficandpeople,itsbrown—stonehousesandrickettystages,hadseemedlikeTHAT——sosplendidandbrightandheart—filling,thatshehadpaintedthemincolourswhichcouldbelongonlytofairyland。Itsaidsomuch。
  Thethingshehadsuspectedasshehadtalkedtohersisterwas,beforetheinterviewended,madecuriouslyclear。Thefirstobstacleinherpathwaywouldbetheshrinkingofacreaturewhohadbeensolongunderdominionthatthemerethoughtofseeinganystepstakentowardsherrescuefilledherwithalarm。Onemightbepreparedforheralmostprayingtobeletalone,becauseshefeltthattheprocessofhersalvationwouldbringaboutsuchshocksandtormentsasshecouldnotendurethefacingof。
  "Shewillhavetogetusedtoyou,"Ughtredkeptsaying。
  "Shewillhavetogetusedtothinkingthings。"
  "Iwillbecareful,"Bettinaanswered。"Sheshallnotbetroubled。Ididnotcometotroubleher,"
  CHAPTERXIII
  ONEOFTHENEWYORKDRESSES
  Asshewentdownthestaircaselater,onherwaytodinner,MissVanderpoelsawonallsidessignsoftheextentofthenakednessoftheland。Shewasinafineoldhouse,strippedofmostofitssaleablebelongings,uncaredfor,deterioratingyearbyyear,graduallygoingtoruin。Oneneednotpossessparticularkeennessofsighttoobservethis,andshehadchancedtoseeoldhousesinlikeconditioninothercountriesthanEngland。Aman—servant,inashabbylivery,openedthedrawing—
  roomdoorforher。Hewasnotapicturesqueservitoroffallenfortunes,butanawkwardpersonwhowasnotaccustomedtohisduties。Bettywonderedifhehadbeencalledinfromthegardenstomeetthenecessitiesofthemoment。Hisfurtiveglanceatthetallyoungwomanwhopassedhim,tookinwithsuddenembarrassmentthefactthatsheplainlydidnotbelongtothedispiritedworldboundedbyStornhamCourt。Withoutsparklinggemsortrailingrichnessinherwake,shewassuggestivelysplendid。Hedidnotknowwhetheritwasherhairorthebuildofherneckandshouldersthatdidit,butitwasrevealedtohimthattiarasandcollarsofstoneswhichblazedbelongedwithoutdoubttoherequipment。HerecalledthattherewasalegendtotheeffectthatthepresentLadyAnstruthers,wholookedlikearagdoll,hadbeenthedaughterofarichAmerican,andthatbetterthingsmighthavebeenexpectedofherifshehadnotbeensuchapoor—spiritedcreature。
  Ifthiswashersister,sheperhapswasayoungwomanoffortune,andthatshewasnotofpoorspiritwasplain。
  Thelargedrawing—roompresentedbutanotheraspectofthebarenessoftherestofthehouse。Intimesprobablylongpast,possiblyintheDowagerLadyAnstruthers’earlyyearsofmarriage,thewallshadbeenhungwithwhiteandgoldpaperofapatternwhichdominatedthescene,andhadbeenfurnishedwithgildedchairs,tables,andottomans。Someoftheselasthadevidentlybeenremovedastheybecametoomuchoutofrepairforuseorornament。Suchasremained,tarnishedastogildingandworninthematterofupholstery,stoodsparselyscatteredonadesertofcarpet,whosehuge,floweredmedallionshadfadedalmostfromview。
  LadyAnstruthers,lookingshyandawkwardasshefingeredanornamentonasmalltable,seemedsingularlyapartofherbackground。Hereveningdress,slippingoffherthinshoulders,wasasfadedandoutofdateashercarpet。Ithadoncebeendelicatelyblueandgauzy,butitsgauzinesshungincrushedfoldsanditsbluewasalmostgrey。Itwasalsothedressofagirl,notthatofacolourless,wornwoman,andherconsciousnessofitsunfitnessshowedinhersmall—featuredfaceasshecameforward。
  "Doyou——recogniseit,Betty?"sheaskedhesitatingly。"ItwasoneofmyNewYorkdresses。Iputitonbecause——
  because————"andherstammeringendedhelplessly。
  "Becauseyouwantedtoremindme,"Bettysaid。Ifshefeltiteasiertobeginwithanexcusesheshouldbeprovidedwithone。
  PerhapsbutforthisreadinesstofallintoanytoneshechosetoadoptRosymighthaveendeavouredtocarryherpoorfarceon,butasitwasshesuddenlygaveitup。
  "IputitonbecauseIhavenoother,"shesaid。"WeneverhavevisitorsandIhaven’tdressedfordinnerforsolongthatIseemtohavenothingleftthatisfittowear。Idraggedthisoutbecauseitwasbetterthananythingelse。Itwasprettyonce————"shegavealittlelaugh,"twelveyearsago。Howlongyearsseem!WasI——wasIpretty,Betty——twelveyearsago?"
  "Twelveyearsisnotsuchalongtime。"Bettytookherhandanddrewhertoasofa。"Letussitdownandtalkaboutit。"
  "Thereisnothingmuchtotalkabout。Thisisit————"
  takingintheroomwithawaveofherhand。"Iamit。
  Ughtredisit。"