Therewasbothtruthanderrorintheimpression;thechildandmotherwereestranged,butthroughHester’sfault,notPearl’s。
Sincethelatterrambledfromherside,anotherinmatehadbeenadmittedwithinthecircleofthemother’sfeelings,andsomodifiedtheaspectofthemall,thatPearl,thereturningwanderer,couldnotfindherwontedplace,andhardlyknewwhereshewas。
"Ihaveastrangefancy,"observedthesensitiveminister,"thatthisbrookistheboundarybetweentwoworlds,andthatthoucanstnevermeetthyPearlagain。Orissheanelfishspirit,who,asthelegendsofourchildhoodtaughtus,isforbiddentocrossarunningstream?Prayhastenher;forthisdelayhasalreadyimpartedatremortomynerves。"
"Come,dearestchild!"saidHesterencouragingly,andstretchingoutbothherarms。"Howslowthouart!Whenhastthoubeensosluggishbeforenow?Hereisafriendofmine,whomustbethyfriendalso。
Thouwilthavetwiceasmuchlove,henceforward,asthymotheralonecouldgivethee!Leapacrossthebrook,andcometous。Thoucanstleaplikeayoungdeer!"
Pearl,withoutrespondinginanymannertothesehoney—sweetexpressions,remainedontheothersideofthebrook。Nowshefixedherbright,wildeyesonhermother,nowontheminister,andnowincludedthembothinthesameglance;asiftodetectandexplaintoherselftherelationwhichtheyboretooneanother。Forsomeunaccountablereason,asArthurDimmesdalefeltthechild’seyesuponhimself,hishand—withthatgesturesohabitualastohavebecomeinvoluntary—stoleoverhisheart。Atlength,assumingasingularairofauthority,Pearlstretchedoutherhand,withthesmallforefingerextended,andpointingevidentlytowardshermother’sbreast。Andbeneath,inthemirrorofthebrook,therewastheflower—girdledandsunnyimageoflittlePearl,pointinghersmallforefingertoo。
"Thoustrangechild,whydostthounotcometome?"exclaimedHester。
Pearlstillpointedwithherforefinger;andafrowngatheredonherbrow;themoreimpressivefromthechildish,thealmostbaby—likeaspectofthefeaturesthatconveyedit。Ashermotherstillkeptbeckoningtoher,andarrayingherfaceinaholidaysuitofunaccustomedsmiles,thechildstampedherfootwithayetmoreimperiouslookandgesture。Inthebrook,again,wasthefantasticbeautyoftheimage,withitsreflectedfrown,itspointedfinger,andimperiousgesture,givingemphasistotheaspectoflittlePearl。
"Hasten,Pearl;orIshallbeangrywiththee!"criedHesterPrynne,who,howeverinuredtosuchbehaviourontheelf—child’spartatotherseasons,wasnaturallyanxiousforamoreseemlydeportmentnow。"Leapacrossthebrook,naughtychild,andrunhither!ElseImustcometothee!"
ButPearl,notawhitstartledathermother’sthreats,anymorethanmollifiedbyherentreaties,nowsuddenlyburstintoafitofpassion,gesticulatingviolently,andthrowinghersmallfigureintothemostextravagantcontortions。Sheaccompaniedthiswildoutbreakwithpiercingshrieks,whichthewoodsreverberatedonallsides;sothat,aloneasshewasinherchildishandunreasonablewrath,itseemedasifahiddenmultitudewerelendinghertheirsympathyandencouragement。Seeninthebrook,oncemore,wastheshadowywraithofPearl’simage,crownedandgirdledwithflowers,butstampingitsfoot,wildlygesticulating,and,inthemidstofall,stillpointingitssmallforefingeratHester’sbosom!
"Iseewhatailsthechild,"whisperedHestertotheclergyman,andturningpaleinspiteofastrongefforttoconcealhertroubleandannoyance。"Childrenwillnotabideany,theslightest,changeintheaccustomedaspectofthingsthataredailybeforetheireyes。
Pearlmissessomethingwhichshehasalwaysseenmewear!"
"Iprayyou,"answeredtheminister,"ifthouhastanymeansofpacifyingthechild,doitforthwith!Saveitwerethecankeredwrathofanoldwitch,likeMistressHibbins,"addedhe,attemptingtosmile,"IknownothingthatIwouldnotsoonerencounterthanthispassioninachild。InPearl’syoungbeauty,asinthewrinkledwitch,ithasapreternaturaleffect。Pacifyher,ifthoulovestme!"
HesterturnedagaintowardsPearl,withacrimsonblushuponhercheek,aconsciousglanceasideattheclergyman,andthenaheavysigh;while,evenbeforeshehadtimetospeak,theblushyieldedtoadeadlypallor。
"Pearl,"saidshesadly,"lookdownatthyfeet!There—beforethee!—thehithersideofthebrook!"
Thechildturnedhereyestothepointindicated;andtherelaythescarletletter,socloseuponthemarginofthestream,thatthegoldembroiderywasreflectedinit。
"Bringithither!"saidHester。
"Comethouandtakeitup!"answeredPearl。
"Waseversuchachild!"observedHester,asidetotheminister。
"Oh,Ihavemuchtotelltheeabouther!But,inverytruth,sheisrightasregardsthishatefultoken。Imustbearitstortureyetalittlelonger—onlyafewdayslonger—untilweshallhaveleftthisregion,andlookbackhitherastoalandwhichwehavedreamedof。
Theforestcannothideit!Themid—oceanshalltakeitfrommyhand,andswallowitupforever!"
Withthesewords,sheadvancedtothemarginofthebrook,tookupthescarletletter,andfasteneditagainintoherbosom。Hopefully,butamomentago,asHesterhadspokenofdrowningitinthedeepsea,therewasasenseofinevitabledoomuponher,asshethusreceivedbackthisdeadlysymbolfromthehandoffate。Shehadflungitintoinfinitespace!—shehaddrawnanhour’sfreebreath!—andhereagainwasthescarletmisery,glitteringontheoldspot!Soiteveris,whetherthustypifiedorno,thatanevildeedinvestsitselfwiththecharacterofdoom。Hesternextgathereduptheheavytressesofherhair,andconfinedthembeneathhercap。Asiftherewereawitheringspellinthesadletter,herbeauty,thewarmthandrichnessofherwomanhood,departed,likefadingsunshine;andagreyshadowseemedtofallacrossher。
Whenthedrearychangewaswrought,sheextendedherhandtoPearl。
"Dostthouknowthymothernow,child?"askedshereproachfully,butwithasubduedtone。"Wiltthoucomeacrossthebrook,andownthymother,nowthatshehashershameuponher—nowthatsheissad?"
"Yes;nowIwill!"answeredthechild,boundingacrossthebrook,andclaspingHesterinherarms。"Nowthouartmymotherindeed!AndI
amthylittlePearl!"
Inamoodoftendernessthatwasnotusualwithher,shedrewdownhermother’shead,andkissedherbrowandbothhercheeks。Butthen—byakindofnecessitythatalwaysimpelledthischildtoalloywhatevercomfortshemightchancetogivewithathrobofanguish—Pearlputuphermouth,andkissedthescarletlettertoo!
"Thatwasnotkind!"saidHester。"Whenthouhastshownmealittlelove,thoumockestme!"
"Whydoththeministersityonder?"askedPearl。
"Hewaitstowelcomethee,"repliedhermother。"Comethou,andentreathisblessing!Helovesthee,mylittlePearl,andlovesthymothertoo。Wiltthounotlovehim?Come!helongstogreetthee!"
"Dothheloveus?"saidPearl,lookingup,withacuteintelligence,intohermother’sface。"Willhegobackwithus,handinhand,wethreetogetherintothetown?"
"Notnow,dearchild,"answeredHester。"Butindaystocomehewillwalkhandinhandwithus。Wewillhaveahomeandfiresideofourown;andthoushaltsituponhisknee;andhewillteachtheemanythings,andlovetheedearly。Thouwiltlovehim;wiltthounot?"
"Andwillhealwayskeephishandoverhisheart?"inquiredPearl。
"Foolishchild,whataquestionisthat!"exclaimedhermother。
"Comeandaskhisblessing!"
But,whetherinfluencedbythejealousythatseemsinstinctivewitheverypettedchildtowardsadangerousrival,orfromwhatevercapriceofherfreakishnature,Pearlwouldshownofavourtotheclergyman。Itwasonlybyanexertionofforcethathermotherbroughtheruptohim,hangingback,andmanifestingherreluctancebyoddgrimaces;ofwhich,eversinceherbabyhood,shehadpossessedasingularvariety,andcouldtransformhermobilephysiognomyintoaseriesofdifferentaspects,withanewmischiefinthem,eachandall。Theminister—painfullyembarrassed,buthopingthatakissmightproveatalismantoadmithimintothechild’skindlierregards—
bentforward,andimpressedoneonherbrow。Hereupon,Pearlbrokeawayfromhermother,and,runningtothebrook,stoopedoverit,andbathedherforehead,untiltheunwelcomekisswasquitewashedoff,anddiffusedthroughalonglapseoftheglidingwater。Shethenremainedapart,silentlywatchingHesterandtheclergyman:whiletheytalkedtogether,andmadesucharrangementsasweresuggestedbytheirnewposition,andthepurposessoontobefulfilled。
Andnowthisfatefulinterviewhadcometoaclose。Thedellwastobeleftasolitudeamongitsdark,oldtrees,which,withtheirmultitudinoustongues,wouldwhisperlongofwhathadpassedthere,andnomortalbethewiser。Andthemelancholybrookwouldaddthisothertaletothemysterywithwhichitslittleheartwasalreadyoverburdened,andwhereofitstillkeptupamurmuringbabble,withnotawhitmorecheerfulnessoftonethanforagesheretofore。
XX。
THEMINISTERINAMAZE。
AStheministerdeparted,inadvanceofHesterPrynneandlittlePearl,hethrewabackwardglance;halfexpectingthatheshoulddiscoveronlysomefaintlytracedfeaturesoroutlineofthemotherandthechild,slowlyfadingintothetwilightofthewoods。Sogreatavicissitudeinhislifecouldnotatoncebereceivedasreal。
ButtherewasHester,cladinhergreyrobe,stillstandingbesidethetree—trunk,whichsomeblasthadoverthrownalongantiquityago,andwhichtimehadeversincebeencoveringwithmoss,sothatthesetwofatedones,withearth’sheaviestburdenonthem,mighttheresitdowntogether,andfindasinglehour’srestandsolace。AndtherewasPearl,too,lightlydancingfromthemarginofthebrook—nowthattheintrusivethirdpersonwasgone—andtakingheroldplacebyhermother’sside。Sotheministerhadnotfallenasleep,anddreamed!
Inordertofreehismindfromthisindistinctnessandduplicityofimpression,whichvexeditwithastrangedisquietude,herecalledandmorethoroughlydefinedtheplanswhichHesterandhimselfhadsketchedfortheirdeparture。Ithadbeendeterminedbetweenthem,thattheOldWorld,withitscrowdsandcities,offeredthemamoreeligibleshelterandconcealmentthanthewildsofNewEngland,orallAmerica,withitsalternativesofanIndianwigwam,orthefewsettlementsofEuropeans,scatteredthinlyalongtheseaboard。Nottospeakoftheclergyman’shealth,soinadequatetosustainthehardshipsofaforestlife,hisnativegifts,hisculture,andhisentiredevelopment,wouldsecurehimahomeonlyinthemidstofcivilisationandrefinement;thehigherthestate,themoredelicatelyadaptedtoittheman。Infurtheranceofthischoice,itsohappenedthatashiplayintheharbour;oneofthosequestionablecruisers,frequentatthatday,which,withoutbeingabsolutelyoutlawsofthedeep,yetroamedoveritssurfacewitharemarkableirresponsibilityofcharacter。ThisvesselhadrecentlyarrivedfromtheSpanishMain,and,withinthreedays’time,wouldsailforBristol。HesterPrynne—whosevocation,asaself—enlistedSisterofCharity,hadbroughtheracquaintedwiththecaptainandcrew—couldtakeuponherselftosecurethepassageoftwoindividualsandachild,withallthesecrecywhichcircumstancesrenderedmorethandesirable。
TheministerhadinquiredofHester,withnolittleinterest,theprecisetimeatwhichthevesselmightbeexpectedtodepart。Itwouldprobablybeonthefourthdayfromthepresent。"Thatismostfortunate!"hehadthensaidtohimself。Now,whytheReverendMr。
Dimmesdaleconsidereditsoveryfortunate,wehesitatetoreveal。
Nevertheless—toholdnothingbackfromthereader—itwasbecause,onthethirddayfromthepresent,hewastopreachtheElectionSermon;and,assuchanoccasionformedanhonourableepochinthelifeofaNewEnglandclergyman,hecouldnothavechanceduponamoresuitablemodeandtimeofterminatinghisprofessionalcareer。"Atleast,theyshallsayofme,"thoughtthisexemplaryman,"thatI
leavenopublicdutyunperformed,norillperformed!"Sad,indeed,thatanintrospectionsoprofoundandacuteasthispoorminister’sshouldbesomiserablydeceived!Wehavehad,andmaystillhave,worsethingstotellofhim;butnone,weapprehend,sopitiablyweak;
noevidence,atoncesoslightandirrefragable,ofasubtledisease,thathadlongsincebeguntoeatintotherealsubstanceofhischaracter。Noman,foranyconsiderableperiod,canwearonefacetohimselfandanothertothemultitude,withoutfinallygettingbewilderedastowhichmaybethetrue。
TheexcitementofMr。Dimmesdale’sfeelings,ashereturnedfromhisinterviewwithHester,lenthimunaccustomedphysicalenergy,andhurriedhimtownwardatarapidpace。Thepathwayamongthewoodsseemedwilder,moreuncouthwithitsrudenaturalobstaclesandlesstroddenbythefootofmanthanheremembereditonhisoutwardjourney。Butheleapedacrosstheplashyplaces,thrusthimselfthroughtheclingingunderbrush,climbedtheascent,plungedintothehollow,andovercame,inshort,allthedifficultiesofthetrack,withanunweariableactivitythatastonishedhim。Hecouldnotbutrecallhowfeebly,andwithwhatfrequentpausesforbreath,hehadtoiledoverthesameground,onlytwodaysbefore。Ashedrewnearthetown,hetookanimpressionofchangefromtheseriesoffamiliarobjectsthatpresentedthemselves。Itseemednotyesterday,notone,nortwo,butmanydays,orevenyearsago,sincehehadquittedthem。There,indeed,waseachformertraceofthestreet,asherememberedit,andallthepeculiaritiesofthehouses,withtheduemultitudeofgable—peaks,andaweather—cockateverypointwherehismemorysuggestedone。Nottheless,however,camethisimportunatelyobtrusivesenseofchange。Thesamewastrueasregardedtheacquaintanceswhomhemet,andallthewell—knownshapesofhumanlife,aboutthelittletown。Theylookedneitheroldernoryoungernow;thebeardsoftheagedwerenowhiter,norcouldthecreepingbabeofyesterdaywalkonhisfeetto—day;itwasimpossibletodescribeinwhatrespecttheydifferedfromtheindividualsonwhomhehadsorecentlybestowedapartingglance;
andyettheminister’sdeepestsenseseemedtoinformhimoftheirmutability。Asimilarimpressionstruckhimmostremarkably,ashepassedunderthewallsofhisownchurch。Theedificehadsoverystrange,andyetsofamiliar,anaspect,thatMr。Dimmesdale’smindvibratedbetweentwoideas;eitherthathehadseenitonlyinadreamhitherto,orthathewasmerelydreamingaboutitnow。
Thisphenomenon,inthevariousshapeswhichitassumed,indicatednoexternalchange,butsosuddenandimportantachangeinthespectatorofthefamiliarscene,thattheinterveningspaceofasingledayhadoperatedonhisconsciousnesslikethelapseofyears。Theminister’sownwill,andHester’swill,andthefatethatgrewbetweenthem,hadwroughtthistransformation。Itwasthesametownasheretofore;butthesameministerreturnednotfromtheforest。Hemighthavesaidtothefriendswhogreetedhim,"Iamnotthemanforwhomyoutakeme!Ilefthimyonderintheforest,withdrawnintoasecretdell,byamossytree—trunk,andnearamelancholybrook!Go,seekyourminister,andseeifhisemaciatedfigure,histhincheek,hiswhite,heavy,pain—wrinkledbrow,benotflungdownthere,likeacast—offgarment!"Hisfriends,nodoubt,wouldstillhaveinsistedwithhim—"Thouartthyselftheman!"—buttheerrorwouldhavebeentheirown,nothis。
BeforeMr。Dimmesdalereachedhome,hisinnermangavehimotherevidencesofarevolutioninthesphereofthoughtandfeeling。Intruth,nothingshortofatotalchangeofdynastyandmoralcode,inthatinteriorkingdom,wasadequatetoaccountfortheimpulsesnowcommunicatedtotheunfortunateandstartledminister。Ateverystephewasincitedtodosomestrange,wild,wickedthingorother,withasensethatitwouldbeatonceinvoluntaryandintentional;inspiteofhimself,yetgrowingoutofaprofounderselfthanthatwhichopposedtheimpulse。Forinstance,hemetoneofhisowndeacons。
Thegoodoldmanaddressedhimwiththepaternalaffectionandpatriarchalprivilege,whichhisvenerableage,hisuprightandholycharacter,andhisstationintheChurch,entitledhimtouse;and,conjoinedwiththis,thedeep,almostworshippingrespect,whichtheminister’sprofessionalandprivateclaimsalikedemanded。Neverwasthereamorebeautifulexampleofhowthemajestyofageandwisdommaycomportwiththeobeisanceandrespectenjoineduponit,asfromalowersocialrank,andinferiororderofendowment,towardsahigher。Now,duringaconversationofsometwoorthreemomentsbetweentheReverendMr。Dimmesdaleandthisexcellentandhoary—beardeddeacon,itwasonlybythemostcarefulself—controlthattheformercouldrefrainfromutteringcertainblasphemoussuggestionsthatroseintohismind,respectingthecommunion—supper。Heabsolutelytrembledandturnedpaleasashes,lesthistongueshouldwagitself,inutteranceofthesehorriblematters,andpleadhisownconsentforsodoing,withouthishavingfairlygivenit。And,evenwiththisterrorinhisheart,hecouldhardlyavoidlaughing,toimaginehowthesanctifiedoldpatriarchaldeaconwouldhavebeenpetrifiedbyhisminister’simpiety。
Again,anotherincidentofthesamenature。Hurryingalongthestreet,theReverendMr。Dimmesdaleencounteredtheeldestfemalememberofhischurch;amostpiousandexemplaryolddame;poor,widowed,lonely,andwithaheartasfullofreminiscencesaboutherdeadhusbandandchildren,andherdeadfriendsoflongago,asaburial—groundisfullofstoriedgravestones。Yetallthis,whichwouldelsehavebeensuchheavysorrow,wasmadealmostasolemnjoytoherdevoutoldsoul,byreligiousconsolationsandthetruthsofScripture,wherewithshehadfedherselfcontinuallyformorethanthirtyyears。And,sinceMr。Dimmesdalehadtakenherincharge,thegoodgrandam’schiefearthlycomfort—which,unlessithadbeenlikewiseaheavenlycomfort,couldhavebeennoneatall—wastomeetherpastor,whethercasually,orofsetpurpose,andberefreshedwithawordofwarm,fragrant,heaven—breathingGospeltruth,fromhisbelovedlips,intoherdulled,butrapturouslyattentiveear。But,onthisoccasion,uptothemomentofputtinghislipstotheoldwoman’sear,Mr。Dimmesdale,asthegreatenemyofsoulswouldhaveit,couldrecallnotextofScripture,noraughtelse,exceptabrief,pithy,and,asitthenappearedtohim,unanswerableargumentagainsttheimmortalityofthehumansoul。Theinstilmentthereofintohermindwouldprobablyhavecausedthisagedsistertodropdowndead,atonce,asbytheeffectofanintenselypoisonousinfusion。
Whathereallydidwhisper,theministercouldneverafterwardsrecollect。Therewas,perhaps,afortunatedisorderinhisutterance,whichfailedtoimpartanydistinctideatothegoodwidow’scomprehension,orwhichProvidenceinterpretedafteramethodofitsown。Assuredly,astheministerlookedback,hebeheldanexpressionofdivinegratitudeandecstasythatseemedliketheshineofthecelestialcityonherface,sowrinkledandashypale。
Again,athirdinstance。Afterpartingfromtheoldchurch—member,hemettheyoungestsisterofthemall。Itwasamaidennewlywon—andwonbytheReverendMr。Dimmesdale’sownsermon,ontheSabbathafterhisvigil,tobarterthetransitorypleasuresoftheworldfortheheavenlyhope,thatwastoassumebrightersubstanceaslifegrewdarkaroundher,andwhichwouldgildtheuttergloomwithfinalglory。ShewasfairandpureasalilythathadbloomedinParadise。Theministerknewwellthathewashimselfenshrinedwithinthestainlesssanctityofherheart,whichhungitssnowycurtainsabouthisimage,impartingtoreligionthewarmthoflove,andtoloveareligiouspurity。Satan,thatafternoon,hadsurelyledthepooryounggirlawayfromhermother’sside,andthrownherintothepathwayofthissorelytempted,or—shallwenotrathersay?—
thislostanddesperateman。Asshedrewnigh,thearch—fiendwhisperedhimtocondenseintosmallcompassanddropintohertenderbosomagermofevilthatwouldbesuretoblossomdarklysoon,andbearblackfruitbetimes。Suchwashissenseofpoweroverthisvirginsoul,trustinghimasshedid,thattheministerfeltpotenttoblightallthefieldofinnocencewithbutonewickedlook,anddevelopallitsoppositewithbutaword。So—withamightierstrugglethanhehadyetsustained—heheldhisGenevacloakbeforehisface,andhurriedonward,makingnosignofrecognition,andleavingtheyoungsistertodigesthisrudenessasshemight。Sheransackedherconscience—whichwasfullofharmlesslittlematters,likeherpocket,orherworkbag—andtookherselftotask,poorthing!forathousandimaginaryfaults;andwentaboutherhouseholddutieswithswolleneyelidsthenextmorning。
Beforetheministerhadtimetocelebratehisvictoryoverthislasttemptation,hewasconsciousofanotherimpulse,moreludicrous,andalmostashorrible。Itwas—weblushtotellit—itwastostopshortintheroad,andteachsomeverywickedwordstoaknotoflittlePuritanchildrenwhowereplayingthere,andhadbutjustbeguntotalk。Denyinghimselfthisfreak,asunworthyofhiscloth,hemetadrunkenseaman,oneoftheship’screwfromtheSpanishMain。
Andhere,sincehehadsovaliantlyforborneallotherwickedness,poorMr。Dimmesdalelonged,atleasttoshakehandswiththetarryblackguard,andrecreatehimselfwithafewimproperjests,suchasdissolutesailorssoaboundwith,andavolleyofgood,round,solid,satisfactory,andheaven—defyingoaths!Itwasnotsomuchabetterprinciple,aspartlyhisnaturalgoodtaste,andstillmorehisbuckramedhabitofclericaldecorum,thatcarriedhimsafelythroughthelattercrisis。
"Whatisitthathauntsandtemptsmethus?"criedtheministertohimself,atlength,pausinginthestreet,andstrikinghishandagainsthisforehead。"AmImad?oramIgivenoverutterlytothefiend?DidImakeacontractwithhimintheforest,andsignitwithmyblood?Anddoeshenowsummonmetoitsfulfilment,bysuggestingtheperformanceofeverywickednesswhichhismostfoulimaginationcanconceive?"
AtthemomentwhentheReverendMr。Dimmesdalethuscommunedwithhimself,andstruckhisforeheadwithhishand,oldMistressHibbins,thereputedwitch—lady,issaidtohavebeenpassingby。
Shemadeaverygrandappearance;havingonahighhead—dress,arichgownofvelvet,andaruffdoneupwiththefamousyellowstarch,ofwhichAnnTurner,herespecialfriend,hadtaughtherthesecret,beforethislastgoodladyhadbeenhangedforSirThomasOverbury’smurder。Whetherthewitchhadreadtheminister’sthoughts,orno,shecametoafullstop,lookedshrewdlyintohisface,smiledcraftily,and—thoughlittlegiventoconversewithclergymen—beganaconversation。
"So,reverendsir,youhavemadeavisitintotheforest,"
observedthewitch—lady,noddingherhighhead—dressathim。"Thenexttime,Iprayyoutoallowmeonlyafairwarning,andIshallbeproudtobearyoucompany。Withouttakingovermuchuponmyself,mygoodwordwillgofartowardsgaininganystrangegentlemanafairreceptionfromyonderpotentateyouwotof!"
"Iprofess,madam,"answeredtheclergyman,withagraveobeisance,suchasthelady’srankdemanded,andhisowngood—breedingmadeimperative—"Iprofess,onmyconscienceandcharacter,thatI
amutterlybewilderedastouchingthepurportofyourwords!Iwentnotintotheforesttoseekapotentate;neitherdoI,atanyfuturetime,designavisitthither,withaviewtogainingthefavourofsuchpersonage。Myonesufficientobjectwastogreetthatpiousfriendofmine,theApostleEliot,andrejoicewithhimoverthemanyprecioussoulshehathwonfromheathendom!"
"Ha,ha,ha!"cackledtheoldwitch—lady,stillnoddingherhighhead—dressattheminister。"Well,well,wemustneedstalkthusinthedaytime!Youcarryitofflikeanoldhand!Butatmidnight,andintheforest,weshallhaveothertalktogether!"
Shepassedonwithheragedstateliness,butoftenturningbackherheadandsmilingathim,likeonewillingtorecogniseasecretintimacyofconnection。
"HaveIthensoldmyself,"thoughttheminister,"tothefiendwhom,ifmensaytrue,thisyellow—starchedandvelvetedoldhaghaschosenforherprinceandmaster!"
Thewretchedminister!Hehadmadeabargainverylikeit!Temptedbyadreamofhappiness,hehadyieldedhimself,withdeliberatechoice,ashehadneverdonebefore,towhatheknewwasdeadlysin。
Andtheinfectiouspoisonofthatsinhadbeenthusrapidlydiffusedthroughouthismoralsystem。Ithadstupefiedallblessedimpulses,andawakenedintovividlifethewholebrotherhoodofbadones。Scorn,bitterness,unprovokedmalignity,gratuitousdesireofill,ridiculeofwhateverwasgoodandholy,allawoke,totempt,evenwhiletheyfrightenedhim。AndhisencounterwitholdMistressHibbins,ifitwerearealincident,didbutshowhissympathyandfellowshipwithwickedmortals,andtheworldofpervertedspirits。
Hehad,bythistime,reachedhisdwelling,ontheedgeoftheburial—ground,and,hasteningupthestairs,tookrefugeinhisstudy。
Theministerwasgladtohavereachedthisshelter,withoutfirstbetrayinghimselftotheworldbyanyofthosestrangeandwickedeccentricitiestowhichhehadbeencontinuallyimpelledwhilepassingthroughthestreets。Heenteredtheaccustomedroom,andlookedaroundhimonitsbooks,itswindows,itsfireplace,andthetapestriedcomfortofthewalls,withthesameperceptionofstrangenessthathadhauntedhimthroughouthiswalkfromtheforest—dellintothetown,andthitherward。Herehehadstudiedandwritten;here,gonethroughfastandvigil,andcomeforthhalfalive;herestriventopray;here,borneahundredthousandagonies!TherewastheBible,initsricholdHebrew,withMosesandtheProphetsspeakingtohim,andGod’svoicethroughall!There,onthetable,withtheinkypenbesideit,wasanunfinishedsermon,withasentencebrokeninthemidst,wherehisthoughtshadceasedtogushoutuponthepage,twodaysbefore。Heknewthatitwashimself,thethinandwhite—cheekedminister,whohaddoneandsufferedthesethings,andwrittenthusfarintotheElectionSermon!Butheseemedtostandapart,andeyethisformerselfwithscornful,pitying,buthalf—enviouscuriosity。Thatselfwasgone。
Anothermanhadreturnedoutoftheforest;awiserone;withaknowledgeofhiddenmysterieswhichthesimplicityoftheformernevercouldhavereached。Abitterkindofknowledgethat!
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