"Don’tlooklikeIwasmuchatthisgame,doesit?"saidhe。"I
wouldn’tpulldownmanypersimmonsoutofthattree。Yourconfoundedman’stoolively;Icouldn’thithimwithashotgun。"
Ordehadstoodlikearock,hisfeetplantedtothefloor,whileMurphyhadcircledaroundhimhittingatwill。Ordehitback,butwithoutlanding。NeverthelessMurphy,whenquestionedapart,didnotseemsatisfied。
"Theman’spig—iron,"saidhe。"Ipunchedhimplentyhardenough,anditdidn’tseemtojarhdyougetyourtraining,sir?"askedthehandler。
"Mytraining?"repeatedOrde,puzzled。"Oh,Isee!Iwasalwaysprettyheavy,andIsupposetheworkontheriverkeepsamaninprettygoodshape。"
Gerald’slanguorhadvanished,andaglinthadappearedinhiseyethatwouldhaveremindedOrdeofMissBishop’smostmischievousmoodcouldhehaveseenit。
"PutonthegloveswithMurphy,"hesuggested,"willyou?I’dliketoseeyoutwoatit。"
"Surely,"agreedOrdegood—naturedly。"I’mnotmuchgoodatit,butI’djustassoontry。"Hewasevidentlynotintheleastafraidtomeetthehandler,thoughasevidentlywithoutmuchconfidenceinhisownskill。
"Allright;I’llbewithyouinasecond,"saidGerald,disappearing。Intheanteroomherungabell,andtotheboywholeisurelyanswereditssummonshesaidrapidly:
"RunovertotheclubandfindMr。Winslow,Mr。Clark,andwhoeverelseisinthesmokingroom,andtellthemfrommetoconeovertothegymnasium。Tellthemthere’ssomefunon。"
Thenhereturnedtothegymnasiumfloor,whereMurphywasansweringOrde’squestionsastotheapparatus。Whilethetwomenwerepullingonthegloves,Geraldmanagedawordapartwiththetrainer。
"Canyoudohim,Murph?"hewhispered。
"Sure!"saidthehandler。"Themkind’salwaysasslowasdray—
horses。Theygetsmuscle—bound。"
"Giveittohim,"saidGerald,"butdon’tkilim。"
Thegalleryatoneendtherunningtrackhadbyflowhalffilledwithinterestedspectators。
"Time!"calledGeraldforroundtwo。
ThistimeMurphywentinmoreviciously,aimingandmeasuringhisblowsaccurately。Ordestoodasbefore,ahumouroussmileofself—
depreciationonhisface,hittingbackattheelusiveMurphy,butwithoutmucheffect,hisfeetneverstirringintheirtracks。Thehandlerusedhisbesttacticsandlandedalmostatwill,butwithoutapparentdamage。Hegrewugly——finallylosthishead。
"Well,ifyewillhaveit!"hemuttered,andaimedwhatwasintendedasaknockoutblow。
GeraldutteredahalfcryofwarningashispractisedeyecaughtMurphy’sintention。Theblowlanded。Orde’sheadsnappedback,buttothesurpriseofeveryonethepunchhadnoothereffect,andaquickexchangeofinfightingsentMurphystaggeringbackfromtheencounter。ThesmilehaddisappearedfromOrde’sface,andhiseyehadcalmed。
"Lookhere,"hecalledtoGerald,"Idon’tunderstandthisgameverywell。Atschoolweused’taps。’Isamansupposedtohithard?"
Geraldhesitated,thenlookedbeyondOrdetothegallery。Toamanitmadefranticandsilentdemonstration。
"Ofcourseyouhit,"hereplied。"Youcan’thurtanyonewiththosebiggloves。"
Ordeturnedbacktohisantagonist。Thelatteradvancedoncemore,hisbulletheadsunkbetweenhisshoulders,hislittleeyestwinkling。EvidentlyMr。Bishop’sfriendwouldnowtaketheaggressive,andforwardmovementwoulddeliveranextraforcetotheprofessional’sblows。
OrdedidnotwaitforMurphy,however。Likeatigerhesprangforward,hittingoutfiercely,firstwithonehandthenwiththeother。Murphygaveground,blocked,ducked,exertedallaringgeneral’sskilleithertostoporavoidtherush。Ordefollowedhiminsistent。Severaltimeshelanded,butalwayswhenMurphywasontheretreat,sotheblowshadnotmuchweight。SeveraltimesMurphyduckedinandplantedanumberofshort—armjabsatcloserange。
Theroundendedalmostimmediatelytoastormofapplausefromthegalleries。
"Whatdoyouthinkofhisbeingmuscle—bound?"GeraldaskedMurphy,asthelatterflunghimselfpantingonthewrestlingmatforhisrest。
"He’squickaschainedlightning,"acknowledgedtheothergrudgingly。"ButI’llgethim。Hecan’tkeepthatup;he’llbewindedinhalfaminute。"
Ordesatdownonarollofmat。Hissmilehadquitevanished,andheseemedtobeawaitingeagerlythebeginningofthenextround。
"Time!"calledGeraldforthethird。
Ordeimmediatelysprangathisadversary,repeatingtheheadlongrushwithwhichthepreviousroundhadended。Murphyblocked,ducked,andkeptaway,occasionallydeliveringajoltasopportunityoffered,awaitingthetimewhenOrde’swearinesswouldleavehimattheother’smercy。Thatmomentdidnotcome。Theyoungmanhammeredawaytirelessly,insistently,deliveringahurricaneofhistwo—handedblows,pressingrelentlesslyinasMurphyshiftedandgaveground,hisheadup,hiseyessteady,oblivioustothereturnhammeringthenowdesperatehandleropposedtohim。Twominutespassedwithoutperceptibleslackeninginthisterrificpace。Thegallerywasinanuproar,andsomeofthememberswerepilingdownthestairstothefloor。PerspirationstoodoutalloverMurphy’sbody。Hisblowsfailedoftheireffect,andsomeofOrde’swerelanding。Atlength,bewilderedmorebythecontinuancethantheviolenceoftheattack,hedroppedhisringtacticsandclosedintostraightslugging,blowagainstblow,standup,giveandtake。
Ashesawhisopponentstand,Ordeutteredasoundofsatisfaction。
Hedroppedslightlyhisrightshoulderbehindhisnextblow。Theglovecrashedstraightasapile—driverthroughMurphy’supraisedhandstohisface,whichitmetwithasmack。Thetrainer,liftedbodilyfromtheground,washurledthroughtheair,tolanddoubledupagainstthesupportsofaparallelbars。Therehelayquitestill,hispalmsup,hisheadsunkforward。
Ordestaredathimamomentinastonishment,asthoughexpectinghimtoarise。When,however,heperceivedthatMurphywasinrealityunconscious,hetoreofftheglovesandranforwardtokneelbytheprofessional’sside。
"Ididn’tsupposeonepunchlikethatwouldhurthim,"hemutteredtothemencrowdingaround。"Especiallywiththegloves。Doyousupposehe’skilled?"
ButalreadyMurphy’sarmsweremakingaimlessmotions,andadeepbreathraisedhischest。
"He’sjustknockedout,"reassuredoneofthemen,examiningtheprostratehandlerwithaprofessionalattention。"He’llbeasgoodaseverinfiveminutes。Here,"hecommandedoneofthegymnasiumrubberswhohadappeared,"lendahandherewithsomewater。"
Theclubmencrowdedabout,alltalkingatonce。
"You’reawonder,myfriend,"saidone。
"ByJove,he’shardlybreathingfastafterallthatrushing,"saidasecond。
"Soyoudidn’tthinkonepunchlikethatwouldhurthim,"quotedanotherwithgood—naturedsarcasm。
"No,"saidOrde,simply。"I’vehitmenthathardbeforewithmybarefist。"
"Didtheysurvive?"
"Surely。"
"Whatkindofarmour—plateswerethey,inheaven’sname?"
Ordehadrecoveredhisbalanceandhumour。
"Justplainordinaryrivermen,"saidhewithalaugh。
"Gentlemen,"struckinGerald,"Iwanttointroduceyoutomyfriend。"Heperformedtheintroductions。ItwasnecessaryforhimtoexplainapartthatOrdewasinrealityhisfriend,anamateur,achancevisitorinthecity。Allinall,theaffairmadequitealittlestir,andwentfartogiveOrdeastandingwiththesesport—
lovingyouths。
FinallyGeraldandOrdewerepermittedtofinishtheirgymnasiumpractice。Murphyhadrecovered,andcameforward。
"Youhaveastrongpunch,sir,andyou’reabornnaturalfighter,sir,"saidhe。"Ifyouhadafewlessonsinboxing,sir,I’dputyouagainstthebest。"
Butlater,whentheyoungmenwereresting,eachunderhissheetafterarub—down,thetruesignificanceoftheaffairforOrdecameout。Sincethefight,Gerald’scustomarylassitudeofmannerseemedquitetohavelefthim。Hiseyewasbright,acolourmountedbeneaththepaleoliveofhisskin,thealmosteffeminatebeautyofhiscountenancehadanimated。HelookedacrossatOrdeseveraltimes,hesitated,andatlastdecidedtospeak。
"Lookhere,Orde,"saidhe,"Iwanttoconfesssomethingtoyou。
Whenyoufirstcameherethreedaysago,Ihadlotsoffunwithmyselfaboutyou。Youknowyourclothesaren’tquitethething,andIthoughtyourmannerwasqueer,andallthat。Iwasacad。Iwanttoapologise。You’reaman,andIlikeyoubetterthananyfellowI’vemetforalongtime。Andifthere’sanytrouble——inthefuture——thatis——oh,hangit,I’monyourside——youknowwhatI
mean!"
Ordesmiledslowly。
"Bishop,"washisunexpectedreply,"you’renotnearsomuchofadandyasyouthinkyouare。"
XVIII
Affairswentthusforaweek。OrdewasmuchattheBishopresidence,wherehewascordiallyreceivedbythegeneral,wherehegainedanoccasionalhalf—hourwithCarroll,andwherehewasalmostignoredbyMrs。Bishopinhercompleteself—absorption。Indeed,itistobedoubtedwhetherheattainedanyrealindividualitytothatlady,wholookedonalltheworldoutsideherfamilyasusefuloruselesstothechurch。
InthecourseofthehappymomentshehadalonewithCarroll,hearrivedatamoreintimateplaneofconversationwithher。HecametoanunderstandingofherunquestioningacceptanceofMrs。Bishop’sattitude。Carrolltrulybelievedthatnonebutherselfcouldperformforhermotherthevariouspettyofficesthatladydemandedfromhernextofkin,andthatherpracticalslaverywasduebyeveryconsiderationoffilialaffection。ToOrde’soccasionaltentativesuggestionthattheservicewasofasortbettersuitedtoapaidcompanionorevenahousemaid,sheansweredquiteseriouslythatitmademothernervoustohaveothersabouther,andthatitwasbettertodothesethingsthantothrowherintoa"spell。"
Ordechafedatfirstoverseeinghispreciousopportunitiesthusfilchedfromhim;laterhefrettedbecauseheperceivedthatCarrollwasforced,howeverwillingly,tolaboursbeyondherstrength,toirksomeconfinement,andtothatintimateandwearingcloseassociationwiththeabnormalwhichinthelongrunisboundtodeadenthespirit。Helostsightofhisowngrievanceinthematter。Withperhapssomewhatofexaggerationhecamemightilytodesireforhermoreoftheopenair,bothofbodyandspirit。Oftenwhentrampingbacktohishotelhecommunedsavagelywithhimself,turningtheproblemoverandoverinhisminduntil,likeasnowball,ithadgatheredtoitselfcolossalproportions。
Andinhishotelroomhebroodedoverthestateofaffairsuntilhisthoughtstookaverygloomytingeindeed。Tobeginwith,inspiteofhismother’sassurance,hehadnofaithinhisowncause。HisacquaintancewithCarrollwasbutanaffairofmonths,andtheiractualmeetingscomprisedincrediblyfewdays。Ordewasnaturallyhumble—minded。Itdidnotseemconceivabletohimthathecouldwinherwithoutalongcourtship。AndsuperaddedwasthealmostintolerableweightofCarroll’sideasastoherdomesticduties。
AlthoughOrdeheldMrs。Bishop’sexactionsinveryslightesteem,andwasmostscepticalinregardtothedisastersthatwouldfollowtheirthwarting,neverthelesshehadtoconfesstohimselfthatallCarroll’straining,life,theverypurityandsweetnessofherdispositionlentthesituationanironrealityforher。Hebecamemuchdiscouraged。
Nevertheless,attheverymomentwhenhehadmadeuphismindthatitwouldbeutterlyuselesseventoindulgeinhopeforsomeyearstocome,hespoke。Itcameaboutsuddenly,andentirelywithoutpremeditation。
Thetwohadescapedforabreathofairlateintheevening。
Followingtheconventions,theymerelystrolledtotheendoftheblockandback,alwayswithinsightofthehouse。FifthAvenuewasgaywithilluminationandtheprancingofhorsesreturninguptownordowntotheWashingtonSquaredistrict。Incontrastthesidestreet,withitsaustererowsofbrownstonehouses,eachwithitsareaandflightofsteps,itsspacedgaslamps,itsdesertedroadway,seemedverystillandquiet。Carrollwasinatiredandpensivemood。Sheheldherheadback,breathingdeeply。
It’sonlyalittlestrip,butit’sthestars,"saidshe,lookinguptotheskybetweenthehouses。"They’resoquietandcalmandbig。"
SheseemedtoOrdeforthefirsttimelikealittlegirl。Thematurercomplexitieswhichweputonwithyears,withexperience,andwiththeknowledgeoflifehadforthemomentfallenfromher,leavingmerelythesimplesoulofchildhoodgazinginitseternalwonderatthestars。AwaveoftendernessliftedOrdefromhisfeet。Heleanedover,hisbreathcomingquickly。
"Carroll!"hesaid。
Shelookedupathim,andshrankback。
"No,no!Youmustn’t,"shecried。Shedidnotpretendtomisunderstand。Thepreliminariesseemedinsomemysteriousfashiontohavebeensaidlongago。
"It’slifeordeathwithme,"hesaid。
"Imustnot,"shecried,flutteringlikeabird。"IpromisedmyselflongagothatImustalways,ALWAYStakecareofmother。"
"Please,please,dear,"pleadedOrde。Hehadnothingmoretosaythanthis,justthesimpleincoherentsymbolsofpleading;butinsuchcrisesitisratherthesoulthanthetonguethatspeaks。Hishandmethersandclosedaboutit。Itdidnotrespondtohisgrasp,nordiditdrawaway,butlaylimpandwarmandhelplessinhisown。
Sheshookherheadslowly。
"Don’tyoucareforme,dear?"askedOrdeverygently。
"Ihavenorighttotellyouthat,"answeredshe。"Ihavetried,oh,sohard,tokeepyoufromsayingthis,forIknewIhadnorighttohearyou。"
Orde’sheartleapedwithawildexultation。
"Youdocareforme!"hecried。
Theyhadmountedthestepsandstoodjustwithinthevestibule。
Ordedrewhertowardhim,butsherepulsedhimgently。
"No,"sheshookherhead。"Pleasebeverygoodtome。I’mveryweak。"
"Carroll!"criedOrde。"Tellmethatyouloveme!Tellmethatyou’llmarryme!"
"ItwouldkillmotherifIshouldleaveher,"shesaidsadly。
"Butyoumustmarryme,pleadedOrde。"Wearemadeforeachother。
Godmeantusforeachother。"
"Itwouldhavetobeafteragreatmanyyears,"shesaiddoubtfully。
Shepulledthebell,whichjangledfaintlyinthedepthsofthehouse。
"Good—night,"shesaid。"Cometometo—morrow。No,youmustnotcomein。"ShecutshortOrde’sinsistenceandtheeloquencethathadjustfounditslifebyslippinginsidethehalf—opendoorandclosingitafterher。
Ordestoodforamomentuncertain;thenturnedawayandwalkedupthestreet,hiseyessoblindedbythegreaterglorythatheallbutrandownaninoffensivepasser—by。
Atthehotelhewrotealonglettertohismother。Thefirstpartwasfulloftheexultationofhisdiscovery。Hetoldofhisgoodfortunequiteassomethingjustborn,utterlyforgettinghismother’spredictionsbeforehecameEast。Thenasthefirsteffervescencedied,amoregloomyviewofthesituationcameuppermost。Tohisheatedimaginationthedeadlockseemedcomplete。
Carroll’sdevotiontowhatsheconsideredherdutyappearedunbreakable。InthereactionOrdedoubtedwhetherhewouldhaveitotherwise。Andthenhisfightingbloodsurgedbacktohisheart。
Alltheeloquence,thearguments,thepleadingsheshouldhavecommandedearlierintheeveninghurriedbelatedtotheirposts。
Afterthemanneroftheyoungandimaginativewheninthewhitefireofemotion,hebegandramatisingscenesbetweenCarrollandhimself。
Hesawthemplainly。Heheardthesoundofhisownvoiceasherehearsedtheargumentswhichshouldbreakherresolution。A
woman’sdutytoherownsoul;herobligationtowardthemanshecouldmakeormarbyherlove;herself—respect;thenecessityofabreaksometime;theadvantageofhavingthecrisisoverwithnowratherthanlater;abeliefintheultimategoodeventoMrs。Bishopofthrowingthatladymoreonherownresources;andsoforthandsoondownalistofargumentsobviousenoughortrivialenough,butallinspiredbythesouloffervour,allennobledbythespiritoftruththatliesbackofthemajorpremisethatawomanshouldcleavetoaman,forsakingallothers。Ordesatbackinhischair,hiseyesvacant,hispenallbutfallingfromhishand。Hedidnotfinishthelettertohismother。Afterawhilehewentupstairstohisownroom。
Thefeveroftheargumentcoursedthroughhisveinsallthatlongnight。Overandoveragainherehearseditinwearisomerepetitionuntilithadassumedacertainandalmostinvariableform。Andwhenhehadreachedtheendofhispleadinghebeganitoveragain,untilthedaylightfoundhimwearyandfevered。Hearoseanddressedhimself。Hecouldeatnobreakfast。ByatremendouseffortofthewillherestrainedhimselffromgoingovertoNinthStreetuntilthemiddleofthemorning。
Heenteredthedrawing—roomtofindherseatedatthepiano。Hisheartbounded,andforaninstanthestoodstill,summoninghisforcestothestruggleforwhichhehadsopainfullygatheredhisammunition。Shedidnotlookupasheapproacheduntilhestoodalmostathershoulder。Thensheturnedtohimandheldoutbothherhands。
"Itisnouse,Jack,"shesaid。"Icareforyoutoomuch。Iwillmarryyouwheneveryousay。"
XIX
Ordeleftthateveningearly。ThiswasatCarroll’srequest。Shepreferredherselftoinformherfamilyofthenews。
"Idon’tknowyethowmotherisgoingtogetalong,"saidshe。
"Comebackto—morrowafternoonandseethemall。"
ThenextmorningOrde,havingatlastfinishedanddespatchedthelettertohismother,drifteduptheavenueandintotheclub。AshepassedthesmokingroomhecaughtsightofGeraldseatedinanarmchairbythewindow。Heenteredtheroomandtookaseatoppositetheyoungfellow。
Geraldheldouthishandsilently,whichtheothertook。
"I’mgladtohearit,"saidGeraldatlast。"Veryglad。ItoldyouIwasonyourside。"Hehesitated,thenwentongravely:"PoorCarrollishavingahardtime,though。Ithinkit’sworsethansheexpected。It’snoworsethanIexpected。Youaretobeoneofthefamily,soIamgoingtogiveyouapieceofadvice。It’ssomething,naturally,Iwouldn’tspeakofotherwise。ButCarrollismyonlysister,andIwanthertobehappy。Ithinkyouarethemantomakeherso,butIwantyoutoavoidonemistake。Fightitoutrightnow,andnevergivebackthegroundyouwin。"
"Ifeelthat,"repliedOrdequietly。
"Mothermadefatherresignfromthearmy;andwhilehe’sadearoldboy,he’sneverdoneanythingsince。Sheholdsme——althoughIseethroughher——possiblybecauseI’mweakorindifferent,possiblybecauseIhaveasillyideaIcanmakeabadsituationbetterbyhangingaround。SheisrapidlyturningKendrickintoasullenlittleprig,becausehebelievesimplicitlyallthegrievancesagainsttheworldandtheindividualshepoursouttohim。Yousee,Ihavenoillusionsconcerningmyfamily。OnlyCarrollhasheldtoherfreedomofsoul,becausethat’sthejoyous,free,sweetnatureofher,blessher!Forthefirsttimeshe’spittedherwillagainstmother’s,andit’sabadclash。"
"Yourmotherobjected?"askedOrde。
Geraldlaughedalittlebitterly。"Itwasverybad,"saidhe。
"You’vegrownhorns,hoofs,andatailovernight。There’snothingtoocriminaltohaveescapedyournotice。Ihavebeenforbiddentoconsortwithyou。Sohasthegeneral。Thebattleoflastnighthadtodowithyourcomingtothehouseatall。AsitisnotCarroll’shouse,naturallyshehasnorighttoinsist。"
"Ishallnotbepermittedtoseeher?"criedOrde。
"Ididnotsaythat。Carrollannouncedthenquiteopenlythatshewouldseeyououtside。Ifancythatwasthecruxofthematter。
Don’tyousee?Thewholeaffairshiftedground。Carrollhasoffereddirectdisobedience。Oh,she’sabullylittlefighter!"hefinishedinadmiringaccents。"Youcan’tquiterealisewhatshe’sdoingforyoursake;she’snotonlyfightingmother,butherownheart。"
Ordefoundanoteatthehotel,askinghimtobeinWashingtonSquareathalf—pasttwo。
Carrollmethimwithabrightsmile。
"Thingsaren’tquiterightathome,"shesaid。"Itisagreatshocktopoormotheratfirst,andshefeelsverystrongly。Oh,itisn’tyou,dear;it’sthenotionthatIcancareforanybodybuther。Yousee,she’sbeenusedtotheotherideasolongthatIsupposeitseemedapartoftheuniversetoher。She’llgetusedtoitafteralittle,butittakestime。"
Ordeexaminedherfaceanxiously。Twobrightredspotsburnedonhercheeks;hereyesflashedwithanervousanimation,andafaintshadehadsketcheditselfbeneaththem。
"Youhadahardtime,"hemurmured,"youpoordear!"
Shesmiledupathim。
"Wehavetopayforthegoodthingsinlife,don’twe,dear?Andtheyareworthit。Thingswillcomerightafteralittle。Wemustnotbetooimpatient。Now,let’senjoytheday。Theparkisn’tsobad,isit?"
Atfiveo’clockOrdetookherbacktoherdoorstep,wherehelefther。
Thiswentonforseveraldays。
AttheendofthattimeOrdecouldnotconcealfromhimselfthatthestrainwasbeginningtotell。Carroll’sworriedexpressiongrewfromdaytoday,whiletheanimationthatcharacterisedhermannerwhenfreedfromtherestraintbecamemoreandmoreforced。Shewasasthoughdominatedbysomeinnertensity,whichshedarednotrelaxevenforamoment。ToOrde’squestioningssherepliedasevasivelyasshecould,assuringhimalwaysthatmattersweregoingaswellasshehadexpected;thatmotherwasverydifficult;thatOrdemusthavepatience,forthingswouldsurelycomeallright。Shebeggedhimtoremainquiescentuntilshegavehimtheword;andsheimploreditsoearnestlythatOrde,thoughhechafed,wasforcedtoawaittheturnofevents。Everyafternoonshemethim,fromtwotofive。Thesituationgavelittleopportunityforlovers’
demonstrations。Sheseemedentirelyabsorbedbytheinnerstressofthestruggleshewasgoingthrough,sothathardlydidsheseemabletofollowcoherentlyevenplansforthefuture。Sheappeared,however,togainamysteriousrefreshmentfromOrde’smereproximity;sograduallyhe,withthatstreakofalmostfeminineintuitionwhichistheespecialgifttolovers,cametothepointofsittingquitesilentwithher,claspingherhandoutofsightofthechancepasser—by。Whenthetimecametoreturn,theyaroseandwalkedbacktoNinthStreet,stillinsilence。Atthedoortheysaidgood—bye。Hekissedherquitesoberly。
"IwishIcouldhelp,sweetheart,"saidhe。
Sheshookherheadathim。
"Youdohelp,"shereplied。
FromGeraldattheclub,Ordesoughtmoreintimatenewsofwhatwasgoingon。Forseveraldays,however,theyoungmanabsentedhimselffromhisusualhaunts。ItwasonlyattheendoftheweekthatOrdesucceededinfindinghim。
"No,"Geraldansweredhisgreeting,"Ihaven’tbeenaroundmuch。
I’vebeenstickingprettyclosehome。"
Littlebylittle,Orde’seagerquestionsdrewoutthetruthofthesituation。Mrs。Bishophadshutherselfupinablindandincredibleobstinacy,whenceshesalliedwithfloodsofcomplaints,tears,accusations,despairs,reproaches,vows,hysterics——allthebatteryofthewomanmisunderstood,butinwhichsherefusedtolistentoaconsecutiveconversation。IfCarrollundertooktosayanything,thethirdwordwouldstarthermotheroffintooneofherlongandhystericaltirades。Itwasverywearing,andthereseemedtobenothinggainedfromdaytoday。Herchildhaddisobeyedher。
Andasaclimax,shehadassumedtheimpregnablepositionofacompleteprostration,whereinshedemandedtheminutecareofaninvalidinthecrisisofadisorder。Shecouldbearnofaintestrayofillumination,nolightestfootfall。Inahushedtwilightshelay,hereyesswathed,moaningfeeblythatherearlydissolutionatthehandsofingratitudewasimminent。Thussheestablishedadeadlockwhichwaslikelytocontinueindefinitely。ThemerementionofthesubjectnearestCarroll’sheartbroughtthefeeblecomplaint:
"Doyouwanttokillme?"
TheonlyscrapofvictorytobesnatchedfromthisstrickenfieldwasthefactthatCarrollinsistedongoingtomeetherlovereveryafternoon。Theinvaliddemandedeverymomentofhertime,eitherforpersonalattendanceorinfulfilmentofnumerousandexactingchurchduties。Anattempt,however,toencroachthusontheafternoonhoursmetastonewallofresolutiononCarroll’spart。
ThiswasthesituationOrdegatheredfromhistalkwithGerald。
Thoughhefrettedunderthetyrannyexacted,hecouldseenothingwhichcouldrelievethesituationsavehisownwithdrawal。Hehadalreadylongover—stayedhisvisit;importantaffairsconnectedwithhisworkdemandedhisattention,hehadthecomfortofCarroll’sloveassured;andthelapseoftimealonecouldbedependedontochangeMrs。Bishop’sattitude,aconsummationonwhichCarrollseemedset。AlthoughOrdefeltallthelivelydissatisfactionnaturaltoanewlyacceptedloverwhohadgainedslightopportunityforfavours,forconfidences,evenforthemakingofplans,neverthelesshecouldseeforthepresentnothingelsetodo。
ThemorningafterhehadreachedthisconclusionheagainmetGeraldatthegymnasium。Thatyoungman,whileasimperturbableandlanguidinmovementasever,concealedanexcitement。Heexplainednothinguntilthetwo,afterashowerandrub—down,wereclothingthemselvesleisurelyintheemptycouch—room。
"Orde,"saidGeraldsuddenly,"I’mworriedaboutCarroll。"
OrdestraightenedhisbackandlookedsteadilyatGerald,butsaidnothing。
"Motherhascommencedbotheringheragain。Itwasn’tsobadaslongasshestucktodaytime,butnowshe’stakentoprowlinginadozentimesanight。Iheartheirvoicesforanhourorsoatatime。
I’mafraidit’sbeginningtowearonCarrollmorethanyourealise。"
"Thankyou,"saidOrdebriefly。
ThatafternoonwithCarrollhetooktheaffairfirmlyinhand。
"Thisthinghascometothepointwhereitmuststop,"saidhe,"andI’mgoingtostopit。IhavesomerightsinthematterofthehealthandcomfortofthegirlIlove。"
"Whatdoyouintendtodo?"askedCarroll,frightened。
"Ishallhaveitoutwithyourmother,"repliedOrde。
"Youmustn’tdothat,"imploredCarroll。"Itwoulddoabsolutelynogood,andwouldjustresultinaquarrelthatcouldneverbepatchedup。"
"Idon’tknowasIcareparticularly,"saidOrde。
"ButIdo。Think——sheismymother。"
Ordestirreduneasilywithamentalreservationastoselfishness,butsaidnothing。
"Andthinkwhatitmeanstoagirltobemarriedandgoawayfromhomefinallywithoutherparent’sconsent。It’sthemostbeautifulandsacredthinginherlife,andshewantsittobeperfect。It’sworthwaitingandfightingalittlefor。Afterall,wearebothyoung,andwehaveknowneachothersuchaveryshorttime。"
Soshepleadedwithhim,bringingforwardalltheunanswerableargumentsbuiltbythelongaverageexperienceoftheworld——
argumentswhichOrdecouldnotrefute,butwhosefalsitytothesituationhefeltmostkeenly。HecouldnotspecifywithoutbetrayingGerald’sconfidence。Raginginwardly,heconsentedtoafurtherarmistice。
Athishotelhefoundatelegram。Hedidnotopenituntilhehadreachedhisownroom。Itwasfromhome,urginghisimmediatereturnfortheacceptanceofsomecontractedwork。
"Tohellwiththecontractedwork!"hemutteredsavagely,andcallingabell—boy,sentananswerverymuchtothateffect。Thenheplungedhishandsintohispockets,stretchedouthislegs,andfellintoadeepandgloomymeditation。
Hewasinterruptedbyaknockonthedoor。
"Comein!"hecalled,withoutturninghishead。
Heheardthedooropenandshut。Afteramomenthelookedaround。
KendrickBishopstoodwatchinghim。
Ordelitthegas。
"Hello,Kendrick!"saidhe。"Sitdown。"Theboymadenoreply。
Ordelookedathimcuriously,andsawthathewassufferingfromanintenseexcitement。Hisframetrembledconvulsively,hislipswerewhite,hisfacewentredandpalebyturns。Evidentlyhehadsomethingtosay,butcouldnotyettrusthisvoice。Ordesatdownandwaited。
"You’vegottoletmymotheralone,"hemanagedtosayfinally。
"Ihavedonenothingtoyourmother,Kendrick,"saidOrdekindly。
"You’vebroughthertothepointofdeath,"assertedKeudrickviolently。"You’rehoundinghertohergrave。You’returningthoseshelovesbestagainsther。"
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