首页 >出版文学> The Rise of Silas Lapham>第18章
  Hesentoutwordbyhisoffice—boythathewouldliketoseeMr。Coreyforafewminutesafterclosing。
  Thetype—writergirlhadlingeredtoo,asifshewishedtospeakwithhim,andCoreystoodinabeyanceasshewenttowardLapham’sdoor。
  "Can’tseeyouto—night,Zerrilla,"hesaidbluffly,butnotunkindly。"PerhapsI’llcallatthehouse,ifit’simportant。"
  "Itis,"saidthegirl,withaspoiledairofinsistence。
  "Well,"saidLapham,and,noddingtoCoreytoenter,heclosedthedooruponher。Thenheturnedtotheyoung,mananddemanded:"WasIdrunklastnight?"
  XV。
  LAPHAM’Sstrenuousfacewasbrokenupwiththeemotionsthathadforcedhimtothisquestion:shame,fearofthethingsthatmusthavebeenthoughtofhim,mixedwithafainthopethathemightbemistaken,whichdiedoutattheshockedandpityinglookinCorey’seyes。
  "WasIdrunk?"herepeated。"Iaskyou,becauseIwasnevertouchedbydrinkinmylifebefore,andIdon’tknow。"
  Hestoodwithhishugehandstremblingonthebackofhischair,andhisdrylipsapart,ashestaredatCorey。
  "Thatiswhateveryoneunderstood,ColonelLapham,"
  saidtheyoungman。"Everyonesawhowitwas。
  Don’t————"
  "DidtheytalkitoverafterIleft?"askedLaphamvulgarly。
  "Excuseme,"saidCorey,blushing,"myfatherdoesn’ttalkhisguestsoverwithoneanother。"Headded,withyouthfulsuperfluity,"Youwereamonggentlemen。"
  "Iwastheonlyonethatwasn’tagentlemanthere!"
  lamentedLapham。"Idisgracedyou!Idisgracedmyfamily!I
  mortifiedyourfatherbeforehisfriends!"Hisheaddropped。
  "IshowedthatIwasn’tfittogowithyou。I’mnotfitforanydecentplace。WhatdidIsay?WhatdidIdo?"
  heasked,suddenlyliftinghisheadandconfrontingCorey。
  "Outwithit!Ifyoucouldbeartoseeitandhearit,Ihadoughttobeartoknowit!"
  "Therewasnothing——reallynothing,"saidCorey。
  "Beyondthefactthatyouwerenotquiteyourself,therewasnothingwhatever。MyfatherDIDspeakofittome,"heconfessed,"whenwewerealone。Hesaidthathewasafraidwehadnotbeenthoughtfulofyou,ifyouwereinthehabitoftakingonlywater;ItoldhimIhadnotseenwineatyourtable。Theotherssaidnothingaboutyou。"
  "Ah,butwhatdidtheythink?"
  "Probablywhatwedid:thatitwaspurelyamisfortune——
  anaccident。"
  "Iwasn’tfittobethere,"persistedLapham。"Doyouwanttoleave?"heasked,withsavageabruptness。
  "Leave?"falteredtheyoungman。
  "Yes;quitthebusiness?Cutthewholeconnection?"
  "Ihaven’ttheremotestideaofit!"criedCoreyinamazement。
  "WhyintheworldshouldI?""Becauseyou’reagentleman,andI’mnot,anditain’trightIshouldbeoveryou。
  Ifyouwanttogo,Iknowsomepartiesthatwouldbegladtogetyou。Iwillgiveyouupifyouwanttogobeforeanythingworsehappens,andIshan’tblameyou。
  IcanhelpyoutosomethingbetterthanIcanofferyouhere,andIwill。"
  "There’snoquestionofmygoing,unlessyouwishit,"
  saidCorey。"Ifyoudo————"
  "Willyoutellyourfather,"interruptedLapham,"thatIhadanotionallthetimethatIwasactingthedrunkenblackguard,andthatI’vesufferedforitallday?WillyoutellhimIdon’twanthimtonoticemeifweevermeet,andthatIknowI’mnotfittoassociatewithgentlemeninanythingbutabusinessway,ifIamthat?"
  "CertainlyIshalldonothingofthekind,"retortedCorey。
  "Ican’tlistentoyouanylonger。Whatyousayisshockingtome——shockinginawayyoucan’tthink。"
  "Why,man!"exclaimedLapham,withastonishment;"ifI
  canstandit,YOUcan!"
  "No,"saidCorey,withasicklook,"thatdoesn’tfollow。
  Youmaydenounceyourself,ifyouwill;butIhavemyreasonsforrefusingtohearyou——myreasonswhyICAN’Thearyou。
  IfyousayanotherwordImustgoaway。"
  "Idon’tunderstandyou,"falteredLapham,inbewilderment,whichabsorbedevenhisshame。
  "Youexaggeratetheeffectofwhathashappened,"
  saidtheyoungman。"It’senough,morethanenough,foryoutohavementionedthemattertome,andIthinkit’sunbecominginmetohearyou。"
  Hemadeamovementtowardthedoor,butLaphamstoppedhimwiththetragichumilityofhisappeal。"Don’tgoyet!Ican’tletyou。I’vedisgustedyou,——Iseethat;
  butIdidn’tmeanto。I——Itakeitback。"
  "Oh,there’snothingtotakeback,"saidCorey,witharepressedshudderfortheabasementwhichhehadseen。
  "Butletussaynomoreaboutit——thinknomore。
  Therewasn’toneofthegentlemenpresentlastnightwhodidn’tunderstandthematterpreciselyasmyfatherandIdid,andthatfactmustenditbetweenustwo。"
  Hewentoutintothelargerofficebeyond,leavingLaphamhelplesstopreventhisgoing。IthadbecomeavitalnecessitywithhimtothinkthebestofLapham,buthismindwasinawhirlofwhateverthoughtsweremostinjurious。
  Hethoughtofhimthenightbeforeinthecompanyofthoseladiesandgentlemen,andhequiveredinresentmentofhisvulgar,braggart,uncouthnature。Herecognisedhisownallegiancetotheexclusivenesstowhichhewasbornandbred,asamanperceiveshisdutytohiscountrywhenherrightsareinvaded。Hiseyefellontheportergoingaboutinhisshirt—sleevestomaketheplacefastforthenight,andhesaidtohimselfthatDenniswasnotmoreplebeianthanhismaster;thatthegrossappetites,thebluntsense,thepurblindambition,thestupidarrogancewerethesameinboth,andthedifferencewasinabrutewillthatprobablylefttheporterthegentlermanofthetwo。
  TheveryinnocenceofLapham’slifeinthedirectioninwhichhehaderredwroughtagainsthimintheyoungman’smood:itcontainedtheinsultofclownishinexperience。
  Amidstthestingsandflashesofhiswoundedpride,allthesocialtraditions,allthehabitsoffeeling,whichhehadsilencedmoreandmorebyforceofwillduringthepastmonths,assertedtheirnaturalsway,andheriotedinhiscontemptoftheoffensiveboor,whowasevenmoreoffensiveinhisshamethaninhistrespass。
  HesaidtohimselfthathewasaCorey,asifthatweresomewhat;yetheknewthatatthebottomofhisheartallthetimewasthatwhichmustcontrolhimatlast,andwhichseemedsweetlytobesufferinghisrebellion,secureofhissubmissionintheend。Itwasalmostwiththegirl’svoicethatitseemedtopleadwithhim,toundoinhim,effectbyeffect,theworkofhisindignantresentment,tosetallthingsinanotherandfairerlight,togivehimhopes,tosuggestpalliations,toprotestagainstinjustices。ItWASinLapham’sfavourthathewassoguiltlessinthepast,andnowCoreyaskedhimselfifitwerethefirsttimehecouldhavewishedaguestathisfather’stabletohavetakenlesswine;
  whetherLaphamwasnotrathertobehonouredfornotknowinghowtocontainhisfollywhereaveterantransgressormighthaveheldhistongue。Heaskedhimself,withathrillofsuddenremorse,whether,whenLaphamhumbledhimselfinthedustsoshockingly,hehadshownhimthesympathytowhichsuchABANDONhadtheright;andhehadtoownthathehadmethimonthegentlemanlyground,sparinghimselfandassertingthesuperiorityofhissort,andnotrecognisingthatLapham’shumiliationcamefromthesenseofwrong,whichhehadhelpedtoaccumulateuponhimbysuperfinelystandingaloofandrefusingtotouchhim。
  Heshuthisdeskandhurriedoutintotheearlynight,nottogoanywhere,buttowalkupanddown,totrytofindhiswayoutofthechaos,whichnowseemedruin,andnowthematerialsoutofwhichfineactionsandahappylifemightbeshaped。ThreehourslaterhestoodatLapham’sdoor。
  Attimeswhathenowwishedtodohadseemedforeverimpossible,andagainithadseemedasifhecouldnotwaitamomentlonger。
  Hehadnotbeencareless,butverymindfulofwhatheknewmustbethefeelingsofhisownfamilyinregardtotheLaphams,andhehadnotconcealedfromhimselfthathisfamilyhadgreatreasonandjusticeontheirsideinnotwishinghimtoalienatehimselffromtheircommonlifeandassociations。Themostthathecouldurgetohimselfwasthattheyhadnotallthereasonandjustice;
  buthehadhesitatedanddelayedbecausetheyhadsomuch。
  Oftenhecouldnotmakeitappearrightthatheshouldmerelypleasehimselfinwhatchieflyconcernedhimself。
  HeperceivedhowfarapartinalltheirexperiencesandidealstheLaphamgirlsandhissisterswere;howdifferentMrs。Laphamwasfromhismother;howgrotesquelyunlikewerehisfatherandLapham;andthedisparityhadnotalwaysamusedhim。
  Hehadoftentakenitveryseriously,andsometimeshesaidthathemustforegothehopeonwhichhisheartwasset。
  Therehadbeenmanytimesinthepastmonthswhenhehadsaidthathemustgonofurther,andasoftenashehadtakenthisstandhehadyieldedit,uponthisorthatexcuse,whichhewasawareoftrumpingup。Itwaspartofthecomplicationthatheshouldheunconsciousoftheinjuryhemightbedoingtosomeonebesideshisfamilyandhimself;
  thiswasthedefectofhisdiffidence;andithadcometohiminapangforthefirsttimewhenhismothersaidthatshewouldnothavetheLaphamsthinkshewishedtomakemoreoftheacquaintancethanhedid;andthenithadcometoolate。Sincethathehadsufferedquiteasmuchfromthefearthatitmightnotbeasthatitmightbeso;andnow,inthemood,romanticandexalted,inwhichhefoundhimselfconcerningLapham,hewasasfarasmightbefromvainconfidence。Heendedthequestioninhisownmindbyaffirmingtohimselfthathewasthere,firstofall,toseeLaphamandgivehimanultimateproofofhisownperfectfaithandunabatedrespect,andtoofferhimwhatreparationthisinvolvedforthatwantofsympathy——ofhumanity——whichhehadshown。
  XVI。
  THENovaScotiasecond—girlwhoansweredCorey’sringsaidthatLaphamhadnotcomehomeyet。
  "Oh,"saidtheyoungman,hesitatingontheouterstep。
  "Iguessyoubettercomein,"saidthegirl,"I’llgoandseewhenthey’reexpectinghim。"
  Coreywasinthemoodtobeswayedbyanychance。
  Heobeyedthesuggestionofthesecond—girl’spatronisingfriendliness,andlethershuthimintothedrawing—room,whileshewentupstairstoannouncehimtoPenelope。
  "Didyoutellhimfatherwasn’tathome?"
  "Yes。Heseemedsokindofdisappointed,Itoldhimtocomein,andI’dseewhenheWOULDbein,"saidthegirl,withthehumaninterestwhichsometimesreplacesintheAmericandomestictheserviledeferenceofothercountries。
  AgleamofamusementpassedoverPenelope’sface,assheglancedatherselfintheglass。"Well,"shecriedfinally,droppingfromhershouldersthelightshawlinwhichshehadbeenhuddledoverabookwhenCoreyrang,"Iwillgodown。"
  "Allright,"saidthegirl,andPenelopebeganhastilytoamendthedisarrayofherhair,whichshetumbledintoamassonthetopofherlittlehead,settingoffthepaledarkofhercomplexionwithaflashofcrimsonribbonatherthroat。Shemovedacrossthecarpetonceortwicewiththequaintgracethatbelongedtohersmallfigure,madeadissatisfiedgrimaceatitintheglass,caughtahandkerchiefoutofadrawerandsliditintoherpocket,andthendescendedtoCorey。
  TheLaphamdrawing—roominNankeenSquarewasintheparti—colouredpaintwhichtheColonelhadhopedtorepeatinhisnewhouse:thetrimofthedoorsandwindowswasinlightgreenandthepanelsinsalmon;thewallswereaplaintintofFrenchgreypaper,dividedbygiltmouldingsintobroadpanelswithawidestripeofredvelvetpaperrunningupthecorners;thechandelierwasofmassiveimitationbronze;themirroroverthemantelrestedonafringedmantel—coverofgreenreps,andheavycurtainsofthatstuffhungfromgiltlambrequinframesatthewindow;thecarpetwasofasmallpatternincrudegreen,which,atthetimeMrs。Laphamboughtit,coveredhalfthenewfloorsinBoston。Inthepanelledspacesonthewallsweresomestone—colouredlandscapes,representingthemountainsandcanyonsoftheWest,whichtheColonelandhiswifehadvisitedononeoftheearlyofficialrailroadexcursions。InfrontofthelongwindowslookingintotheSquarewerestatues,kneelingfigureswhichturnedtheirbacksuponthecompanywithin—doors,andrepresentedallegoriesofFaithandPrayertopeoplewithout。Awhitemarblegroupofseveralfigures,expressinganItalianconceptionofLincolnFreeingtheSlaves,——aLatinnegroandhiswife,——withourEagleflappinghiswingsinapproval,atLincoln’sfeet,occupiedonecorner,andbalancedthewhat—notofanearlierperiodinanother。Thesephantasmsaddedtheirchilltothatimpartedbythetoneofthewalls,thelandscapes,andthecarpets,andcontributedtotheviolenceofthecontrastwhenthechandelierwaslightedupfullglare,andtheheatofthewholefurnacewelledupfromtheregistersintothequiveringatmosphereononeoftherareoccasionswhentheLaphamsinvitedcompany。
  Coreyhadnotbeeninthisroombefore;thefamilyhadalwaysreceivedhiminwhattheycalledthesitting—room。
  Penelopelookedintothisfirst,andthenshelookedintotheparlour,withasmilethatbrokeintoalaughasshediscoveredhimstandingunderthesingleburnerwhichthesecond—girlhadlightedforhiminthechandelier。
  "Idon’tunderstandhowyoucametobeputinthere,"
  shesaid,assheledthewaytothecozierplace,"unlessitwasbecauseAlicethoughtyouwereonlyhereonprobation,anyway。Fatherhasn’tgothomeyet,butI’mexpectinghimeverymoment;Idon’tknowwhat’skeepinghim。DidthegirltellyouthatmotherandIrenewereout?"
  "No,shedidn’tsay。It’sverygoodofyoutoseeme。"
  Shehadnotseentheexaltationwhichhehadbeenfeeling,heperceivedwithhalfasigh;itmustallbeuponthislowerlevel;perhapsitwasbestso。"TherewassomethingIwishedtosaytoyourfather————Ihope,"hebrokeoff,"you’rebetterto—night。"
  "Ohyes,thankyou,"saidPenelope,rememberingthatshehadnotbeenwellenoughtogotodinnerthenightbefore。
  "Weallmissedyouverymuch。"
  "Oh,thankyou!I’mafraidyouwouldn’thavemissedmeifIhadbeenthere。"
  "Ohyes,weshould,"saidCorey,"Iassureyou。"
  Theylookedateachother。
  "IreallythinkIbelievedIwassayingsomething,"
  saidthegirl。
  "AndsodidI,"repliedtheyoungman。Theylaughedratherwildly,andthentheybothbecamerathergrave。
  Hetookthechairshegavehim,andlookedacrossather,whereshesatontheothersideofthehearth,inachairlowerthanhis,withherhandsdroppedinherlap,andthebackofherheadonhershouldersasshelookedupathim。
  Thesoft—coalfireinthegratepurredandflickered;
  thedrop—lightcastamellowradianceonherface。
  Shelethereyesfall,andthenliftedthemforanirrelevantglanceattheclockonthemantel。
  "MotherandIrenehavegonetotheSpanishStudents’concert。"
  "Oh,havethey?"askedCorey;andheputhishat,whichhehadbeenholdinginhishand,onthefloorbesidehischair。
  Shelookeddownatitfornoreason,andthenlookedupathisfacefornoother,andturnedalittlered。
  Coreyturnedalittleredhimself。Shewhohadalwaysbeensoeasywithhimnowbecamealittleconstrained。
  "Doyouknowhowwarmitisout—of—doors?"heasked。
  "No,isitwarm?Ihaven’tbeenoutallday。"
  "It’slikeasummernight。"
  Sheturnedherfacetowardsthefire,andthenstartedabruptly。"Perhapsit’stoowarmforyouhere?"
  "Ohno,it’sverycomfortable。"
  "Isupposeit’sthecoldofthelastfewdaysthat’sstillinthehouse。Iwasreadingwithashawlonwhenyoucame。"
  "Iinterruptedyou。"
  "Ohno。Ihadfinishedthebook。Iwasjustlookingoveritagain。"
  "Doyouliketoreadbooksover?"
  "Yes;booksthatIlikeatall。"
  "Thatwasit?"askedCorey。
  Thegirlhesitated。"Ithasratherasentimentalname。
  Didyoueverreadit?——Tears,IdleTears。"
  "Ohyes;theyweretalkingofthatlastnight;it’safamousbookwithladies。Theybreaktheirheartsoverit。
  Diditmakeyoucry?"
  "Oh,it’sprettyeasytocryoverabook,"saidPenelope,laughing;"andthatoneisverynaturaltillyoucometothemainpoint。Thenthenaturalnessofalltherestmakesthatseemnaturaltoo;butIguessit’sratherforced。"
  "Hergivinghimuptotheotherone?"
  "Yes;simplybecauseshehappenedtoknowthattheotheronehadcaredforhimfirst。Whyshouldshehavedoneit?Whatrighthadshe?"
  "Idon’tknow。Isupposethattheself—sacrifice————"
  "ButitWASN’Tself—sacrifice——ornotself—sacrificealone。
  Shewassacrificinghimtoo;andforsomeonewhocouldn’tappreciatehimhalfasmuchasshecould。
  I’mprovokedwithmyselfwhenIthinkhowIcriedoverthatbook——forIdidcry。It’ssilly——it’swickedforanyonetodowhatthatgirldid。Whycan’ttheyletpeoplehaveachancetobehavereasonablyinstories?"
  "Perhapstheycouldn’tmakeitsoattractive,"
  suggestedCorey,withasmile。
  "Itwouldbenovel,atanyrate,"saidthegirl。
  "Butsoitwouldinreallife,Isuppose,"sheadded。
  "Idon’tknow。Whyshouldn’tpeopleinlovebehavesensibly?"
  "That’saveryseriousquestion,"saidPenelopegravely。
  "Icouldn’tanswerit,"andshelefthimtheembarrassmentofsupportinganinquirywhichshehadcertainlyinstigatedherself。Sheseemedtohavefinallyrecoveredherowneaseindoingthis。"Doyouadmireourautumnaldisplay,Mr。Corey?"
  "Yourdisplay?"
  "ThetreesintheSquare。WEthinkit’squiteequaltoanopeningatJordan&Marsh’s。"
  "Ah,I’mafraidyouwouldn’tletmebeseriousevenaboutyourmaples。"
  "Ohyes,Ishould——ifyouliketobeserious。"
  "Don’tyou?"
  "Wellnotaboutseriousmatters。That’sthereasonthatbookmademecry。"
  "Youmakefunofeverything。MissIrenewastellingmelastnightaboutyou。"
  "Thenit’snouseformetodenyitsosoon。ImustgiveIreneatalkingto。"
  "Ihopeyouwon’tforbidhertotalkaboutyou!"
  Shehadtakenupafanfromthetable,andheldit,nowbetweenherfaceandthefire,andnowbetweenherfaceandhim。Herlittlevisage,withthatarch,lazylookinit,toppedbyitsmassofduskyhair,anddwindlingfromthefullcheekstothesmallchin,hadaJapaneseeffectinthesubduedlight,andithadthecharmwhichcomestoanywomanwithhappiness。
  Itwouldbehardtosayhowmuchofthissheperceivedthathefelt。Theytalkedaboutotherthingsawhile,andthenshecamebacktowhathehadsaid。Sheglancedathimobliquelyroundherfan,andstoppedmovingit。
  "DoesIrenetalkaboutme?"sheasked。"Ithinkso——yes。
  Perhapsit’sonlyIwhotalkaboutyou。Youmustblamemeifit’swrong,"hereturned。
  "Oh,Ididn’tsayitwaswrong,"shereplied。"ButI
  hopeifyousaidanythingverybadofmeyou’llletmeknowwhatitwas,sothatIcanreform————"
  "No,don’tchange,please!"criedtheyoungman。
  Penelopecaughtherbreath,butwentonresolutely,——
  "orrebukeyouforspeakingevilofdignities。"
  Shelookeddownatthefan,nowflatinherlap,andtriedtogovernherhead,butittrembled,andsheremainedlookingdown。Againtheyletthetalkstray,andthenitwashewhobroughtitbacktothemselves,asifithadnotleftthem。
  "IhavetotalkOFyou,"saidCorey,"becauseIgettotalkTOyousoseldom。"
  "YoumeanthatIdoallthetalkingwhenwe’re——together?"
  Sheglancedsidewiseathim;butshereddenedafterspeakingthelastword。
  "We’resoseldomtogether,"hepursued。
  "Idon’tknowwhatyoumean————"
  "SometimesI’vethought——I’vebeenafraidthatyouavoidedme。"
  "Avoidedyou?"
  "Yes!Triednottobealonewithme。"
  Shemighthavetoldhimthattherewasnoreasonwhysheshouldbealonewithhim,andthatitwasverystrangeheshouldmakethiscomplaintofher。Butshedidnot。
  Shekeptlookingdownatthefan,andthensheliftedherburningfaceandlookedattheclockagain。
  "MotherandIrenewillbesorrytomissyou,"shegasped。
  Heinstantlyroseandcametowardsher。Sherosetoo,andmechanicallyputoutherhand。Hetookitasiftosaygood—night。"Ididn’tmeantosendyouaway,"
  shebesoughthim。
  "Oh,I’mnotgoing,"heansweredsimply。"Iwantedtosay——tosaythatit’sIwhomakehertalkaboutyou。
  TosayI————ThereissomethingIwanttosaytoyou;
  I’vesaiditsooftentomyselfthatIfeelasifyoumustknowit。"Shestoodquitestill,lettinghimkeepherhand,andquestioninghisfacewithabewilderedgaze。"YouMUST
  know——shemusthavetoldyou——shemusthaveguessed————"
  Penelopeturnedwhite,butoutwardlyquelledthepanicthatsentthebloodtoherheart。"I——Ididn’texpect——I
  hopedtohaveseenyourfather——butImustspeaknow,whatever————Iloveyou!"
  Shefreedherhandfrombothofthosehehadcloseduponit,andwentbackfromhimacrosstheroomwithasinuousspring。
  "ME!"Whateverpotentialcomplicityhadlurkedinherheart,hiswordsbroughtheronlyimmeasurabledismay。
  Hecametowardsheragain。"Yes,you。Whoelse?"
  Shefendedhimoffwithanimploringgesture。
  "Ithought——I——itwas————"
  Sheshutherlipstight,andstoodlookingathimwhereheremainedinsilentamaze。Thenherwordscameagain,shudderingly。"Oh,whathaveyoudone?"
  "Uponmysoul,"hesaid,withavaguesmile,"Idon’tknow。
  Ihopenoharm?"
  "Oh,don’tlaugh!"shecried,laughinghystericallyherself。
  "Unlessyouwantmetothinkyouthegreatestwretchintheworld!"
  "I?"heresponded。"Forheaven’ssaketellmewhatyoumean!"
  "YouknowIcan’ttellyou。Canyousay——canyouputyourhandonyourheartandsaythat——you——sayyounevermeant——thatyoumeantme——allalong?"
  "Yes!——yes!Whoelse?Icameheretoseeyourfather,andtotellhimthatIwishedtotellyouthis——toaskhim————Butwhatdoesitmatter?Youmusthaveknownit——youmusthaveseen——andit’sforyoutoanswerme。
  I’vebeenabrupt,Iknow,andI’vestartledyou;butifyouloveme,youcanforgivethattomylovingyousolongbeforeIspoke。"
  Shegazedathimwithpartedlips。
  "Oh,mercy!WhatshallIdo?Ifit’strue——whatyousay——youmustgo!"shesaid。"Andyoumustnevercomeanymore。
  Doyoupromisethat?"
  "Certainlynot,"saidtheyoungman。"WhyshouldI
  promisesuchathing——soabominablywrong?Icouldobeyifyoudidn’tloveme————"
  "Oh,Idon’t!IndeedIdon’t!Nowwillyouobey。"
  "No。Idon’tbelieveyou。""Oh!"
  Hepossessedhimselfofherhandagain。
  "Mylove——mydearest!Whatisthistrouble,thatyoucan’ttellit?Itcan’tbeanythingaboutyourself。
  Ifitisanythingaboutanyoneelse,itwouldn’tmaketheleastdifferenceintheworld,nomatterwhatitwas。
  IwouldbeonlytoogladtoshowbyanyactordeedIcouldthatnothingcouldchangemetowardsyou。"
  "Oh,youdon’tunderstand!"
  "No,Idon’t。Youmusttellme。"
  "Iwillneverdothat。"