首页 >出版文学> THE RETURN OF THE NATIVE>第24章
  HisprogresswhenactuallywalkingwasmorerapidthanMrs。Yeobright’s;butshewasenabledtokeepatanequabledistancefromhimbyhishabitofstoppingwheneverhecametoabrakeofbrambles,wherehepausedawhile。
  Oncominginherturntoeachofthesespotsshefoundhalfadozenlonglimpbrambleswhichhehadcutfromthebushduringhishaltandlaidoutstraightbesidethepath。
  Theywereevidentlyintendedforfurze—faggotbondswhichhemeanttocollectonhisreturn。
  Thesilentbeingwhothusoccupiedhimselfseemedtobeofnomoreaccountinlifethananinsect。
  Heappearedasamereparasiteoftheheath,frettingitssurfaceinhisdailylabourasamothfretsagarment,entirelyengrossedwithitsproducts,havingnoknowledgeofanythingintheworldbutfern,furze,heath,lichens,andmoss。
  Thefurze—cutterwassoabsorbedinthebusinessofhisjourneythatheneverturnedhishead;andhisleather—
  leggedandgauntletedformatlengthbecametoherasnothingmorethanamovinghandposttoshowhertheway。
  Suddenlyshewasattractedtohisindividualitybyobservingpeculiaritiesinhiswalk。Itwasagaitshehadseensomewherebefore;andthegaitrevealedthemantoher,asthegaitofAhimaazinthedistantplainmadehimknowntothewatchmanoftheking。"Hiswalkisexactlyasmyhusband’susedtobe,"shesaid;andthenthethoughtburstuponherthatthefurze—cutterwasherson。
  Shewasscarcelyabletofamiliarizeherselfwiththisstrangereality。ShehadbeentoldthatClymwasinthehabitofcuttingfurze,butshehadsupposedthatheoccupiedhimselfwiththelabouronlyatoddtimes,bywayofusefulpastime;yetshenowbeheldhimasafurze—cutterandnothingmore——wearingtheregulationdressofthecraft,andthinkingtheregulationthoughts,tojudgebyhismotions。PlanningadozenhastyschemesforatoncepreservinghimandEustaciafromthismodeoflife,shethrobbinglyfollowedtheway,andsawhimenterhisowndoor。
  AtonesideofClym’shousewasaknoll,andonthetopoftheknollaclumpoffirtreessohighlythrustupintotheskythattheirfoliagefromadistanceappearedasablackspotintheairabovethecrownofthehill。OnreachingthisplaceMrs。Yeobrightfeltdistressinglyagitated,weary,andunwell。Sheascended,andsatdownundertheirshadetorecoverherself,andtoconsiderhowbesttobreakthegroundwithEustacia,soasnottoirritateawomanunderneathwhoseapparentindolencelurkedpassionsevenstrongerandmoreactivethanherown。
  Thetreesbeneathwhichshesatweresingularlybattered,rude,andwild,andforafewminutesMrs。Yeobrightdismissedthoughtsofherownstorm—brokenandexhaustedstatetocontemplatetheirs。Notaboughintheninetreeswhichcomposedthegroupbutwassplintered,lopped,anddistortedbythefierceweatherthatthereheldthematitsmercywheneveritprevailed。Somewereblastedandsplitasifbylightning,blackstainsasfromfiremarkingtheirsides,whilethegroundattheirfeetwasstrewnwithdeadfir—needlesandheapsofconesblowndowninthegalesofpastyears。TheplacewascalledtheDevil’sBellows,anditwasonlynecessarytocomethereonaMarchorNovembernighttodiscovertheforciblereasonsforthatname。Onthepresentheatedafternoon,whennoperceptiblewindwasblowing,thetreeskeptupaperpetualmoanwhichonecouldhardlybelievetobecausedbytheair。
  Hereshesatfortwentyminutesormoreereshecouldsummonresolutiontogodowntothedoor,hercouragebeingloweredtozerobyherphysicallassitude。
  Toanyotherpersonthanamotheritmighthaveseemedalittlehumiliatingthatshe,theelderofthetwowomen,shouldbethefirsttomakeadvances。ButMrs。Yeobrighthadwellconsideredallthat,andsheonlythoughthowbesttomakehervisitappeartoEustacianotabjectbutwise。
  Fromherelevatedpositiontheexhaustedwomancouldperceivetheroofofthehousebelow,andthegardenandthewholeenclosureofthelittledomicile。Andnow,atthemomentofrising,shesawasecondmanapproachingthegate。Hismannerwaspeculiar,hesitating,andnotthatofapersoncomeonbusinessorbyinvitation。
  Hesurveyedthehousewithinterest,andthenwalkedroundandscannedtheouterboundaryofthegarden,asonemighthavedonehaditbeenthebirthplaceofShakespeare,theprisonofMaryStuart,ortheChateauofHougomont。
  Afterpassingroundandagainreachingthegatehewentin。
  Mrs。Yeobrightwasvexedatthis,havingreckonedonfindinghersonandhiswifebythemselves;butamoment’sthoughtshowedherthatthepresenceofanacquaintancewouldtakeofftheawkwardnessofherfirstappearanceinthehouse,byconfiningthetalktogeneralmattersuntilshehadbeguntofeelcomfortablewiththem。
  Shecamedownthehilltothegate,andlookedintothehotgarden。
  Therelaythecatasleeponthebaregravelofthepath,asifbeds,rugs,andcarpetswereunendurable。Theleavesofthehollyhockshunglikehalf—closedumbrellas,thesapalmostsimmeredinthestems,andfoliagewithasmoothsurfaceglaredlikemetallicmirrors。Asmallappletree,ofthesortcalledRatheripe,grewjustinsidethegate,theonlyonewhichthroveinthegarden,byreasonofthelightnessofthesoil;andamongthefallenapplesonthegroundbeneathwerewaspsrollingdrunkwiththejuice,orcreepingaboutthelittlecavesineachfruitwhichtheyhadeatenoutbeforestupefiedbyitssweetness。
  BythedoorlayClym’sfurze—hookandthelasthandfuloffaggot—bondsshehadseenhimgather;theyhadplainlybeenthrowndownthereasheenteredthehouse。
  6—AConjuncture,andItsResultuponthePedestrianWildeve,ashasbeenstated,wasdeterminedtovisitEustaciaboldly,byday,andontheeasytermsofarelation,sincethereddlemanhadspiedoutandspoilthiswalkstoherbynight。Thespellthatshehadthrownoverhiminthemoonlightdancemadeitimpossibleforamanhavingnostrongpuritanicforcewithinhimtokeepawayaltogether。Hemerelycalculatedonmeetingherandherhusbandinanordinarymanner,chattingalittlewhile,andleavingagain。Everyoutwardsignwastobeconventional;
  buttheonegreatfactwouldbetheretosatisfyhim——hewouldseeher。HedidnotevendesireClym’sabsence,sinceitwasjustpossiblethatEustaciamightresentanysituationwhichcouldcompromiseherdignityasawife,whateverthestateofherhearttowardshim。Womenwereoftenso。
  Hewentaccordingly;andithappenedthatthetimeofhisarrivalcoincidedwiththatofMrs。Yeobright’spauseonthehillnearthehouse。Whenhehadlookedroundthepremisesinthemannershehadnoticedhewentandknockedatthedoor。
  Therewasafewminutes’interval,andthenthekeyturnedinthelock,thedooropened,andEustaciaherselfconfrontedhim。
  Nobodycouldhaveimaginedfromherbearingnowthatherestoodthewomanwhohadjoinedwithhimintheimpassioneddanceoftheweekbefore,unlessindeedhecouldhavepenetratedbelowthesurfaceandgaugedtherealdepthofthatstillstream。
  "Ihopeyoureachedhomesafely?"saidWildeve。
  "Oyes,"shecarelesslyreturned。
  "Andwereyounottiredthenextday?Ifearedyoumightbe。"
  "Iwasrather。Youneednotspeaklow——nobodywillover—hearus。Mysmallservantisgoneonanerrandtothevillage。"
  "ThenClymisnotathome?"
  "Yes,heis。"
  "O!Ithoughtthatperhapsyouhadlockedthedoorbecauseyouwerealoneandwereafraidoftramps。"
  "No——hereismyhusband。"
  Theyhadbeenstandingintheentry。Closingthefrontdoorandturningthekey,asbefore,shethrewopenthedooroftheadjoiningroomandaskedhimtowalkin。
  Wildeveentered,theroomappearingtobeempty;
  butassoonashehadadvancedafewstepshestarted。
  OnthehearthruglayClymasleep。Besidehimweretheleggings,thickboots,leathergloves,andsleeve—
  waistcoatinwhichheworked。
  "Youmaygoin;youwillnotdisturbhim,"shesaid,followingbehind。"Myreasonforfasteningthedooristhathemaynotbeintrudeduponbyanychancecomerwhilelyinghere,ifIshouldbeinthegardenorupstairs。"
  "Whyishesleepingthere?"saidWildeveinlowtones。
  "Heisveryweary。Hewentoutathalf—pastfourthismorning,andhasbeenworkingeversince。Hecutsfurzebecauseitistheonlythinghecandothatdoesnotputanystrainuponhispooreyes。"Thecontrastbetweenthesleeper’sappearanceandWildeve’satthismomentwaspainfullyapparenttoEustacia,Wildevebeingelegantlydressedinanewsummersuitandlighthat;
  andshecontinued:"Ah!youdon’tknowhowdifferentlyheappearedwhenIfirstmethim,thoughitissuchalittlewhileago。Hishandswereaswhiteandsoftasmine;
  andlookatthemnow,howroughandbrowntheyare!
  Hiscomplexionisbynaturefair,andthatrustylookhehasnow,allofacolourwithhisleatherclothes,iscausedbytheburningofthesun。"
  "Whydoeshegooutatall!"Wildevewhispered。
  "Becausehehatestobeidle;thoughwhatheearnsdoesn’taddmuchtoourexchequer。However,hesaysthatwhenpeoplearelivingupontheircapitaltheymustkeepdowncurrentexpensesbyturningapennywheretheycan。"
  "Thefateshavenotbeenkindtoyou,EustaciaYeobright。"
  "Ihavenothingtothankthemfor。"
  "Norhashe——exceptfortheironegreatgifttohim。"
  "What’sthat?"
  Wildevelookedherintheeyes。
  Eustaciablushedforthefirsttimethatday。
  "Well,Iamaquestionablegift,"shesaidquietly。
  "Ithoughtyoumeantthegiftofcontent——whichhehas,andIhavenot。"
  "Icanunderstandcontentinsuchacase——thoughhowtheoutwardsituationcanattracthimpuzzlesme。"
  "That’sbecauseyoudon’tknowhim。He’sanenthusiastaboutideas,andcarelessaboutoutwardthings。
  HeoftenremindsmeoftheApostlePaul。"
  "Iamgladtohearthathe’ssograndincharacterasthat。"
  "Yes;buttheworstofitisthatthoughPaulwasexcellentasamanintheBiblehewouldhardlyhavedoneinreallife。"
  Theirvoiceshadinstinctivelydroppedlower,thoughatfirsttheyhadtakennoparticularcaretoavoidawakeningClym。
  "Well,ifthatmeansthatyourmarriageisamisfortunetoyou,youknowwhoistoblame,"saidWildeve。
  "Themarriageisnomisfortuneinitself,"sheretortedwithsomelittlepetulance。"Itissimplytheaccidentwhichhashappenedsincethathasbeenthecauseofmyruin。
  Ihavecertainlygotthistlesforfigsinaworldlysense,buthowcouldItellwhattimewouldbringforth?"
  "Sometimes,Eustacia,Ithinkitisajudgmentuponyou。
  Yourightlybelongedtome,youknow;andIhadnoideaoflosingyou。"
  "No,itwasnotmyfault!Twocouldnotbelongtoyou;
  andrememberthat,beforeIwasaware,youturnedasidetoanotherwoman。Itwascruellevityinyoutodothat。
  Ineverdreamtofplayingsuchagameonmysidetillyoubeganitonyours。"
  "Imeantnothingbyit,"repliedWildeve。"Itwasamereinterlude。Menaregiventothetrickofhavingapassingfancyforsomebodyelseinthemidstofapermanentlove,whichreassertsitselfafterwardsjustasbefore。
  OnaccountofyourrebelliousmannertomeIwastemptedtogofurtherthanIshouldhavedone;andwhenyoustillwouldkeepplayingthesametantalizingpartIwentfurtherstill,andmarriedher。"TurningandlookingagainattheunconsciousformofClym,hemurmured,"Iamafraidthatyoudon’tvalueyourprize,Clym……HeoughttobehappierthanIinonethingatleast。
  Hemayknowwhatitistocomedownintheworld,andtobeafflictedwithagreatpersonalcalamity;
  butheprobablydoesn’tknowwhatitistolosethewomanheloved。"
  "Heisnotungratefulforwinningher,"whisperedEustacia,"andinthatrespectheisagoodman。Manywomenwouldgofarforsuchahusband。ButdoIdesireunreasonablymuchinwantingwhatiscalledlife——
  music,poetry,passion,war,andallthebeatingandpulsingthataregoingoninthegreatarteriesoftheworld?Thatwastheshapeofmyyouthfuldream;
  butIdidnotgetit。YetIthoughtIsawthewaytoitinmyClym。"
  "Andyouonlymarriedhimonthataccount?"
  "Thereyoumistakeme。ImarriedhimbecauseIlovedhim,butIwon’tsaythatIdidn’tlovehimpartlybecauseI
  thoughtIsawapromiseofthatlifeinhim。"
  "Youhavedroppedintoyouroldmournfulkey。"
  "ButIamnotgoingtobedepressed,"shecriedperversely。
  "Ibegananewsystembygoingtothatdance,andImeantosticktoit。Clymcansingmerrily;whyshouldnotI?"
  Wildevelookedthoughtfullyather。"Itiseasiertosayyouwillsingthantodoit;thoughifIcouldI
  wouldencourageyouinyourattempt。Butaslifemeansnothingtome,withoutonethingwhichisnowimpossible,youwillforgivemefornotbeingabletoencourageyou。"
  "Damon,whatisthematterwithyou,thatyouspeaklikethat?"sheasked,raisingherdeepshadyeyestohis。
  "That’sathingIshallnevertellplainly;andperhapsifI
  trytotellyouinriddlesyouwillnotcaretoguessthem。"
  Eustaciaremainedsilentforaminute,andshesaid,"Weareinastrangerelationshiptoday。Youmincematterstoanuncommonnicety。Youmean,Damon,thatyoustillloveme。Well,thatgivesmesorrow,forIamnotmadesoentirelyhappybymymarriagethatIamwillingtospurnyoufortheinformation,asIoughttodo。
  Butwehavesaidtoomuchaboutthis。Doyoumeantowaituntilmyhusbandisawake?"
  "Ithoughttospeaktohim;butitisunnecessary,Eustacia,ifIoffendyoubynotforgettingyou,youarerighttomentionit;butdonottalkofspurning。"
  Shedidnotreply,andtheystoodlookingmusinglyatClymashesleptoninthatprofoundsleepwhichistheresultofphysicallabourcarriedonincircumstancesthatwakenonervousfear。
  "God,howIenvyhimthatsweetsleep!"saidWildeve。
  "IhavenotsleptlikethatsinceIwasaboy——yearsandyearsago。"
  Whiletheythuswatchedhimaclickatthegatewasaudible,andaknockcametothedoor。Eustaciawenttoawindowandlookedout。
  Hercountenancechanged。Firstshebecamecrimson,andthentheredsubsidedtillitevenpartiallyleftherlips。
  "ShallIgoaway?"saidWildeve,standingup。
  "Ihardlyknow。"
  "Whoisit?"
  "Mrs。Yeobright。O,whatshesaidtomethatday!I
  cannotunderstandthisvisit——whatdoesshemean?Andshesuspectsthatpasttimeofours。"
  "Iaminyourhands。IfyouthinkshehadbetternotseemehereI’llgointothenextroom。"
  "Well,yes——go。"
  Wildeveatoncewithdrew;butbeforehehadbeenhalfaminuteintheadjoiningapartmentEustaciacameafterhim。
  "No,"shesaid,"wewon’thaveanyofthis。Ifshecomesinshemustseeyou——andthinkifshelikesthere’ssomethingwrong!ButhowcanIopenthedoortoher,whenshedislikesme——wishestoseenotme,butherson?
  Iwon’topenthedoor!"
  Mrs。Yeobrightknockedagainmoreloudly。
  "Herknockingwill,inalllikelihood,awakenhim,"
  continuedEustacia,"andthenhewillletherinhimself。
  Ah——listen。"
  TheycouldhearClymmovingintheotherroom,asifdisturbedbytheknocking,andheutteredtheword"Mother。"
  "Yes——heisawake——hewillgotothedoor,"
  shesaid,withabreathofrelief。"Comethisway。
  Ihaveabadnamewithher,andyoumustnotbeseen。
  ThusIamobligedtoactbystealth,notbecauseIdoill,butbecauseothersarepleasedtosayso。"
  Bythistimeshehadtakenhimtothebackdoor,whichwasopen,disclosingapathleadingdownthegarden。
  "Now,oneword,Damon,"sheremarkedashesteppedforth。
  "Thisisyourfirstvisithere;letitbeyourlast。
  Wehavebeenhotloversinourtime,butitwon’tdonow。
  Good—bye。"
  "Good—bye,"saidWildeve。"IhavehadallIcamefor,andIamsatisfied。"
  "Whatwasit?"
  "Asightofyou。UponmyeternalhonourIcamefornomore。"
  Wildevekissedhishandtothebeautifulgirlheaddressed,andpassedintothegarden,whereshewatchedhimdownthepath,overthestileattheend,andintothefernsoutside,whichbrushedhishipsashewentalongtillhebecamelostintheirthickets。Whenhehadquitegonesheslowlyturned,anddirectedherattentiontotheinteriorofthehouse。
  ButitwaspossiblethatherpresencemightnotbedesiredbyClymandhismotheratthismomentoftheirfirstmeeting,orthatitwouldbesuperfluous。
  Atallevents,shewasinnohurrytomeetMrs。Yeobright。
  SheresolvedtowaittillClymcametolookforher,andglidedbackintothegarden。Heresheidlyoccupiedherselfforafewminutes,tillfindingnonoticewastakenofhersheretracedherstepsthroughthehousetothefront,whereshelistenedforvoicesintheparlour。
  Buthearingnonesheopenedthedoorandwentin。
  ToherastonishmentClymlaypreciselyasWildeveandherselfhadlefthim,hissleepapparentlyunbroken。Hehadbeendisturbedandmadetodreamandmurmurbytheknocking,buthehadnotawakened。Eustaciahastenedtothedoor,andinspiteofherreluctancetoopenittoawomanwhohadspokenofhersobitterly,sheunfasteneditandlookedout。
  Nobodywastobeseen。There,bythescraper,layClym’shookandthehandfuloffaggot—bondshehadbroughthome;
  infrontofherweretheemptypath,thegardengatestandingslightlyajar;and,beyond,thegreatvalleyofpurpleheaththrillingsilentlyinthesun。Mrs。Yeobrightwasgone。
  Clym’smotherwasatthistimefollowingapathwhichlayhiddenfromEustaciabyashoulderofthehill。Herwalkthitherfromthegardengatehadbeenhastyanddetermined,asofawomanwhowasnownolessanxioustoescapefromthescenethanshehadpreviouslybeentoenterit。
  Hereyeswerefixedontheground;withinhertwosightsweregraven——thatofClym’shookandbramblesatthedoor,andthatofawoman’sfaceatawindow。Herlipstrembled,becomingunnaturallythinasshemurmured,"’Tistoomuch——Clym,howcanhebeartodoit!Heisathome;
  andyetheletshershutthedooragainstme!"
  Inheranxietytogetoutofthedirectviewofthehouseshehaddivergedfromthestraightestpathhomeward,andwhilelookingabouttoregainitshecameuponalittleboygatheringwhortleberriesinahollow。
  TheboywasJohnnyNunsuch,whohadbeenEustacia’sstokeratthebonfire,and,withthetendencyofaminutebodytogravitatetowardsagreater,hebeganhoveringroundMrs。Yeobrightassoonassheappeared,andtrottedonbesideherwithoutperceptibleconsciousnessofhisact。
  Mrs。Yeobrightspoketohimasoneinamesmericsleep。
  "’Tisalongwayhome,mychild,andweshallnotgettheretillevening。"
  "Ishall,"saidhersmallcompanion。"Iamgoingtoplaymarnelsaforesupper,andwegotosupperatsixo’clock,becauseFathercomeshome。Doesyourfathercomehomeatsixtoo?"
  "No,henevercomes;normysoneither,noranybody。"
  "Whathavemadeyousodown?Haveyouseenaooser?"
  "Ihaveseenwhat’sworse——awoman’sfacelookingatmethroughawindowpane。"
  "Isthatabadsight?"
  "Yes。Itisalwaysabadsighttoseeawomanlookingoutatawearywayfarerandnotlettingherin。"
  "OncewhenIwenttoThroopeGreatPondtocatcheffetsIseedmyselflookingupatmyself,andIwasfrightenedandjumpedbacklikeanything。"……"Iftheyhadonlyshownsignsofmeetingmyadvanceshalfwayhowwellitmighthavebeendone!Butthereisnochance。Shutout!Shemusthavesethimagainstme。
  Cantherebebeautifulbodieswithoutheartsinside?I
  thinkso。Iwouldnothavedoneitagainstaneighbour’scatonsuchafierydayasthis!"
  "Whatisityousay?"
  "Neveragain——never!Noteveniftheysendforme!"
  "Youmustbeaverycuriouswomantotalklikethat。"
  "Ono,notatall,"shesaid,returningtotheboy’sprattle。
  "MostpeoplewhogrowupandhavechildrentalkasIdo。
  WhenyougrowupyourmotherwilltalkasIdotoo。"
  "Ihopeshewon’t;because’tisverybadtotalknonsense。"
  "Yes,child;itisnonsense,Isuppose。Areyounotnearlyspentwiththeheat?"
  "Yes。Butnotsomuchasyoube。"
  "Howdoyouknow?"
  "Yourfaceiswhiteandwet,andyourheadishanging—down—like。"
  "Ah,Iamexhaustedfrominside。"
  "Whydoyou,everytimeyoutakeastep,golikethis?"
  Thechildinspeakinggavetohismotionthejerkandlimpofaninvalid。
  "BecauseIhaveaburdenwhichismorethanIcanbear。"
  Thelittleboyremainedsilentlypondering,andtheytotteredonsidebysideuntilmorethanaquarterofanhourhadelapsed,whenMrs。Yeobright,whoseweaknessplainlyincreased,saidtohim,"Imustsitdownheretorest。"
  Whenshehadseatedherselfhelookedlonginherfaceandsaid,"Howfunnyyoudrawyourbreath——likealambwhenyoudrivehimtillhe’snearlydonefor。
  Doyoualwaysdrawyourbreathlikethat?"
  "Notalways。"Hervoicewasnowsolowastobescarcelyaboveawhisper。
  "Youwillgotosleepthere,Isuppose,won’tyou?Youhaveshutyoureyesalready。"
  "No。Ishallnotsleepmuchtill——anotherday,andthenIhopetohavealong,longone——verylong。NowcanyoutellmeifRimsmoorPondisdrythissummer?"
  "RimsmoorPondis,butOker’sPoolisn’t,becauseheisdeep,andisneverdry——’tisjustoverthere。"
  "Isthewaterclear?"
  "Yes,middling——exceptwheretheheath—cropperswalkintoit。"
  "Then,takethis,andgoasfastasyoucan,anddipmeuptheclearestyoucanfind。Iamveryfaint。"
  Shedrewfromthesmallwillowreticulethatshecarriedinherhandanold—fashionedchinateacupwithoutahandle;itwasoneofhalfadozenofthesamesortlyinginthereticule,whichshehadpreservedeversinceherchildhood,andhadbroughtwithhertodayasasmallpresentforClymandEustacia。
  Theboystartedonhiserrand,andsooncamebackwiththewater,suchasitwas。Mrs。Yeobrightattemptedtodrink,butitwassowarmastogivehernausea,andshethrewitaway。Afterwardsshestillremainedsitting,withhereyesclosed。
  Theboywaited,playednearher,caughtseveralofthelittlebrownbutterflieswhichabounded,andthensaidashewaitedagain,"Ilikegoingonbetterthanbidingstill。
  Willyousoonstartagain?"
  "Idon’tknow。"
  "IwishImightgoonbymyself,"heresumed,fearing,apparently,thathewastobepressedintosomeunpleasantservice。"Doyouwantmeanymore,please?"
  Mrs。Yeobrightmadenoreply。
  "WhatshallItellMother?"theboycontinued。