首页 >出版文学> The Rescue>第26章

第26章

  Lingard,leaningback,claspedhishandsroundhisknees。Heseemednottobelisteningandd’Alcacer,pullingacigarettecaseoutofhispocket,lookedforalongtimeatthethreecigarettesitcontained。Itwasthelastoftheprovisionhehadonhimwhencaptured。D’Alcacerhadputhimselfonthestrictestallowance。Acigarettewasonlytobelightedonspecialoccasions;andnowtherewereonlythreeleftandtheyhadtobemadetolasttilltheendoflife。Theycalmed,theysoothed,theygaveanattitude。Andonlythreeleft!Onehadtobekeptforthemorning,tobelightedbeforegoingthroughthegateofdoom——thegateofBelarab’sstockade。Acigarettesoothed,itgaveanattitude。Wasthisthefittingoccasionforoneoftheremainingtwo?D’Alcacer,atrueLatin,wasnotafraidofalittleintrospection。Inthepausehedescendedintotheinnermostdepthsofhisbeing,thenglancedupatthenightsky。
  Sportsman,traveller,hehadoftenlookedupatthestarsbeforetoseehowtimewent。Itwasgoingveryslowly。Hetookoutacigarette,snapped—tothecase,bentdowntotheembers。Thenhesatupandblewoutathincloudofsmoke。Themanbyhissidelookedwithhisbowedheadandclaspedkneelikeamasculinerenderingofmournfulmeditation。Suchattitudesaremetwithsometimesonthesculpturesofancienttombs。D’Alcacerbegantospeak:
  "Sheisarepresentativewomanandyetoneofthoseofwhomtherearebutveryfewatanytimeintheworld。Notthattheyareveryrarebutthatthereisbutlittleroomontop。Theyaretheiridescentgleamsonahardanddarksurface。Fortheworldishard,CaptainLingard,itishard,bothinwhatitwillrememberandinwhatitwillforget。Itisforsuchwomenthatpeopletoilonthegroundandundergroundandartistsofallsortsinvoketheirinspiration。"
  Lingardseemednottohaveheardaword。Hischinrestedonhisbreast。D’Alcacerappraisedtheremaininglengthofhiscigaretteandwentoninanequabletonethroughwhichpiercedacertainsadness:
  "No,therearenotmanyofthem。Andyettheyareall。Theydecorateourlifeforus。Theyarethegraciousfiguresonthedrabwallwhichliesonthissideofourcommongrave。Theyleadasortofritualdance,thatmostofushaveagreedtotakeseriously。Itisaverybindingagreementwithwhichsincerityandgoodfaithandhonourhavenothingtodo。Verybinding。Woetohimorherwhobreaksit。Directlytheyleavethepageanttheygetlost。"
  Lingardturnedhisheadsharplyanddiscoveredd’Alcacerlookingathimwithprofoundattention。
  "Theygetlostinamaze,"continuedd’Alcacer,quietly。"Theywanderinitlamentingoverthemselves。IwouldshudderatthatfateforanythingIloved。Doyouknow,CaptainLingard,howpeoplelostinamazeend?"hewentonholdingLingardbyasteadfaststare。"No?……Iwilltellyouthen。Theyendbyhatingtheirveryselves,andtheydieindisillusionanddespair。"
  Asifafraidoftheforceofhiswordsd’AlcacerlaidasoothinghandlightlyonLingard’sshoulder。ButLingardcontinuedtolookintotheembersathisfeetandremainedinsensibletothefriendlytouch。Yetd’Alcacercouldnotimaginethathehadnotbeenheard。Hefoldedhisarmsonhisbreast。
  "Idon’tknowwhyIhavebeentellingyouallthis,"hesaid,apologetically。"IhopeIhavenotbeenintrudingonyourthoughts。"
  "Icanthinkofnothing,"Lingarddeclared,unexpectedly。"Ionlyknowthatyourvoicewasfriendly;andfortherest——"
  "Onemustgetthroughanightlikethissomehow,"saidd’Alcacer。
  "Theverystarsseemtolagontheirway。It’sacommonbeliefthatadrowningmanisirresistiblycompelledtoreviewhispastexperience。JustnowIfeelquiteoutofmydepth,andwhateverI
  havesaidhascomefrommyexperience。Iamsureyouwillforgiveme。Allthatitamountstoisthis:thatitisnaturalforustocryforthemoonbutitwouldbeveryfataltohaveourcriesheard。Forwhatcouldanyoneofusdowiththemoonifitweregiventohim?Iamspeakingnowofus——commonmortals。"
  Itwasnotimmediatelyafterd’AlcacerhadceasedspeakingbutonlyafteramomentthatLingardunclaspedhisfingers,gotup,andwalkedaway。D’Alcacerfollowedwithaglanceofquietinterestthebig,shadowyformtillitvanishedinthedirectionofanenormousforesttreeleftinthemiddleofthestockade。
  ThedeepestshadeofthenightwasspreadoverthegroundofBelarab’sfortifiedcourtyard。Theveryembersofthefireshadturnedblack,showingonlyhereandthereamerespark;andtheformsofthepronesleeperscouldhardlybedistinguishedfromthehardgroundonwhichtheyrested,withtheirarmslyingbesidethemonthemats。PresentlyMrs。Traversappearedquiteclosetod’Alcacer,whoroseinstantly。
  "Martinisasleep,"saidMrs。Traversinatonethatseemedtohaveborrowedsomethingofthemysteryandquietnessofthenight。
  "Alltheworld’sasleep,"observedd’Alcacer,solowthatMrs。
  Traversbarelycaughtthewords,"Exceptyouandme,andoneotherwhohasleftmetowanderaboutinthenight。"
  "Washewithyou?Wherehashegone?"
  "Whereit’sdarkestIshouldthink,"answeredd’Alcacer,secretly。"It’snousegoingtolookforhim;butifyoukeepperfectlystillandholdyourbreathyoumaypresentlyhearhisfootsteps。"
  "Whatdidhetellyou?"breathedoutMrs。Travers。
  "Ididn’taskhimanything。Ionlyknowthatsomethinghashappenedwhichhasrobbedhimofhispowerofthinking……
  Hadn’tIbettergotothehut?DonMartinoughttohavesomeonewithhimwhenhewakesup。"Mrs。Traversremainedperfectlystillandevennowandthenheldherbreathwithavaguefearofhearingthosefootstepswanderinginthedark。D’Alcacerhaddisappeared。AgainMrs。Traversheldherbreath。No。Nothing。Notasound。Onlythenighttohereyesseemedtohavegrowndarker。
  Wasthatafootstep?"WherecouldIhidemyself?"shethought。
  Butshedidn’tmove。
  Afterleavingd’Alcacer,Lingardthreadinghiswaybetweenthefiresfoundhimselfunderthebigtree,thesametreeagainstwhichDamanhadbeenleaningonthedayofthegreattalkwhenthewhiteprisonershadbeensurrenderedtoLingard’skeepingondefiniteconditions。LingardpassedthroughthedeepobscuritymadebytheoutspreadboughsoftheonlywitnessleftthereofapastthatforendlessageshadseennomankindonthisshoredefendedbytheShallows,aroundthislagoonovershadowedbythejungle。Inthecalmnighttheoldgiant,withoutshuddersormurmursinitsenormouslimbs,sawtherestlessmandriftthroughtheblackshadeintothestarlight。
  Inthatdistantpartofthecourtyardtherewereonlyafewsentrieswho,themselvesinvisible,sawLingard’swhitefigurepacetoandfroendlessly。Theyknewwellwhothatwas。Itwasthegreatwhiteman。Averygreatman。Averyrichman。A
  possessoroffire—arms,whocoulddispensevaluablegiftsanddealdeadlyblows,thefriendoftheirRuler,theenemyofhisenemies,knowntothemforyearsandalwaysmysterious。Attheirposts,flattenedagainstthestakesnearconvenientloopholes,theycastbackwardglancesandexchangedfaintwhispersfromtimetotime。
  Lingardmighthavethoughthimselfalone。Hehadlosttouchwiththeworld。Whathehadsaidtod’Alcacerwasperfectlytrue。Hehadnothought。Hewasinthestateofamanwho,havingcasthiseyesthroughtheopengatesofParadise,isrenderedinsensiblebythatmoment’svisiontoalltheformsandmattersoftheearth;andintheextremityofhisemotionceaseseventolookuponhimselfbutasthesubjectofasublimeexperiencewhichexaltsorunfits,sanctifiesordamns——hedidn’tknowwhich。
  Everyshadowythought,everypassingsensationwaslikeabaseintrusiononthatsupremememory。Hecouldn’tbearit。
  WhenhehadtriedtoresumehisconversationwithBelarabafterMrs。Travers’arrivalhehaddiscoveredhimselfunabletogoon。
  Hehadjustenoughself—controltobreakofftheinterviewinmeasuredterms。Hepointedoutthelatenessofthehour,amostastonishingexcusetopeopletowhomtimeisnothingandwhoselifeandactivitiesarenotruledbytheclock。IndeedLingardhardlyknewwhathewassayingordoingwhenhewentoutagainleavingeverybodydumbwithastonishmentatthechangeinhisaspectandinhisbehaviour。AsuspicioussilencereignedforalongtimeinBelarab’sgreataudienceroomtilltheChiefdismissedeverybodybytwoquietwordsandaslightgesture。
  Withherchininherhandintheposeofasybiltryingtoreadthefutureintheglowofdyingembers,Mrs。Travers,withoutholdingherbreath,heardquiteclosetoherthefootstepswhichshehadbeenlisteningforwithmingledalarm,remorse,andhope。
  Shedidn’tchangeherattitude。Thedeepredglowlightedherupdimly,herface,thewhitehandhangingbyherside,herfeetintheirsandals。Thedisturbingfootstepsstoppedclosetoher。
  "Wherehaveyoubeenallthistime?"sheasked,withoutlookinground。
  "Idon’tknow,"answeredLingard。Hewasspeakingtheexacttruth。Hedidn’tknow。Eversincehehadreleasedthatwomanfromhisarmseverythingbutthevaguestnotionshaddepartedfromhim。Events,necessities,things——hehadlosthisgriponthemall。Andhedidn’tcare。Theywerefutileandimpotent;hehadnopatiencewiththem。TheoffendedandastonishedBelarab,d’Alcacerwithhiskindlytouchandfriendlyvoice,thesleepingmen,themenawake,theSettlementfullofunrestfullifeandtherestlessShallowsofthecoast,wereremovedfromhimintoanimmensityofpityingcontempt。Perhapstheyexisted。Perhapsallthiswaitedforhim。Well,letallthiswait;leteverythingwait,tillto—morrowortotheendoftime,whichcouldnowcomeatanymomentforallhecared——butcertainlytillto—morrow。
  "Ionlyknow,"hewentonwithanemphasisthatmadeMrs。Traversraiseherhead,"thatwhereverIgoIshallcarryyouwithme——againstmybreast。"
  Mrs。Travers’fineearcaughtthemingledtonesofsuppressedexultationanddawningfear,theardourandthefalteringofthosewords。Shewasfeelingstillthephysicaltruthattherootofthemsostronglythatshecouldn’thelpsayinginadreamywhisper:
  "Didyoumeantocrushthelifeoutofme?"
  Heansweredinthesametone:
  "Icouldnothavedoneit。Youaretoostrong。WasIrough?I
  didn’tmeantobe。IhavebeenoftentoldIdidn’tknowmyownstrength。YoudidnotseemabletogetthroughthatopeningandsoIcaughtholdofyou。Youcameawayinmyhandsquiteeasily。
  SuddenlyIthoughttomyself,’nowIwillmakesure。’"
  Hepausedasifhisbreathhadfailedhim。Mrs。Traversdarednotmaketheslightestmovement。Stillintheposeofoneinquestofhiddentruthshemurmured,"Makesure?"
  "Yes。AndnowIamsure。Youarehere——here!BeforeIcouldn’ttell。"
  "Oh,youcouldn’ttellbefore,"shesaid。
  "No。"
  "Soitwasrealitythatyouwereseeking。"
  Herepeatedasifspeakingtohimself:"AndnowIamsure。"
  Hersandalledfoot,allrosyintheglow,feltthewarmthoftheembers。Thetepidnighthadenvelopedherbody;andstillundertheimpressionofhisstrengthshegaveherselfuptoamomentaryfeelingofquietudethatcameaboutherheartassoftasthenightairpenetratedbythefeebleclearnessofthestars。"Thisisalimpidsoul,"shethought。
  "YouknowIalwaysbelievedinyou,"hebeganagain。"YouknowI
  did。Well。IneverbelievedinyousomuchasIdonow,asyousitthere,justasyouare,andwithhardlyenoughlighttomakeyououtby。"
  Itoccurredtoherthatshehadneverheardavoiceshelikedsowell——exceptone。Butthathadbeenagreatactor’svoice;
  whereasthismanwasnothingintheworldbuthisveryownself。
  Hepersuaded,hemoved,hedisturbed,hesoothedbyhisinherenttruth。Hehadwantedtomakesureandhehadmadesureapparently;andtoowearytoresistthewaywardnessofherthoughtsMrs。Traversreflectedwithasortofamusementthatapparentlyhehadnotbeendisappointed。Shethought,"Hebelievesinme。Whatamazingwords。OfallthepeoplethatmighthavebelievedinmeIhadtofindthisonehere。Hebelievesinmemorethaninhimself。"Agustofsuddenremorsetoreheroutfromherquietness,madehercryouttohim:
  "CaptainLingard,weforgethowwehavemet,weforgetwhatisgoingon。Wemustn’t。Iwon’tsaythatyouplacedyourbeliefwronglybutIhavetoconfesssomethingtoyou。ImusttellyouhowIcamehereto—night。Jorgenson……"
  Heinterruptedherforciblybutwithoutraisinghisvoice。
  "Jorgenson。Who’sJorgenson?Youcametomebecauseyoucouldn’thelpyourself。"
  Thistookherbreathaway。"ButImusttellyou。Thereissomethinginmycomingwhichisnotcleartome。"
  "YoucantellmenothingthatIdon’tknowalready,"hesaidinapleadingtone。"Saynothing。Sitstill。Timeenoughto—morrow。
  To—morrow!ThenightisdrawingtoanendandIcarefornothingintheworldbutyou。Letmebe。Givemetherestthatisinyou。"
  Shehadneverheardsuchaccentsonhislipsandshefeltforhimagreatandtenderpity。Whynothumourthismoodinwhichhewantedtopreservethemomentsthatwouldnevercometohimagainonthisearth?Shehesitatedinsilence。Shesawhimstirinthedarknessasifhecouldnotmakeuphismindtositdownonthebench。Butsuddenlyhescatteredtheemberswithhisfootandsankonthegroundagainstherfeet,andshewasnotstartledintheleasttofeeltheweightofhisheadonherknee。Mrs。
  Traverswasnotstartledbutshefeltprofoundlymoved。Whyshouldshetormenthimwithallthosequestionsoffreedomandcaptivity,ofviolenceandintrigue,oflifeanddeath?Hewasnotinastatetobetoldanythinganditseemedtoherthatshedidnotwanttospeak,thatinthegreatnessofhercompassionshesimplycouldnotspeak。Allshecoulddoforhimwastorestherhandlightlyonhisheadandrespondsilentlytotheslightmovementshefelt,sighorsob,butamovementwhichsuddenlyimmobilizedherinananxiousemotion。
  AboutthesametimeontheothersideofthelagoonJorgenson,raisinghiseyes,notedthestarsandsaidtohimselfthatthenightwouldnotlastlongnow。Hewishedfordaylight。HehopedthatLingardhadalreadydonesomething。TheblazeinTengga’scompoundhadbeenre—lighted。Tom’spowerwasunbounded,practicallyunbounded。Andhewasinvulnerable。
  Jorgensonlethisoldeyeswanderamongstthegleamsandshadowsofthegreatsheetofwaterbetweenhimandthathostileshoreandfanciedhecoulddetectafloatingshadowhavingthecharacteristicshapeofamaninasmallcanoe。
  "O!Ya!Man!"hehailed。"Whatdoyouwant?"Othereyes,too,haddetectedthatshadow。LowmurmursaroseonthedeckoftheEmma。
  "Ifyoudon’tspeakatonceIshallfire,"shoutedJorgenson,fiercely。
  "No,whiteman,"returnedthefloatingshapeinasolemndrawl。
  "Iamthebeareroffriendlywords。Achief’swords。IcomefromTengga。"
  "Therewasabulletthatcameonboardnotalongtimeago——alsofromTengga,"saidJorgenson。
  "Thatwasanaccident,"protestedthevoicefromthelagoon。
  "Whatelsecoulditbe?IstherewarbetweenyouandTengga?No,no,Owhiteman!AllTenggadesiresisalongtalk。Hehassentmetoaskyoutocomeashore。"
  AtthesewordsJorgenson’sheartsankalittle。ThisinvitationmeantthatLingardhadmadenomove。WasTomasleeporaltogethermad?
  "Thetalkwouldbeofpeace,"declaredimpressivelytheshadowwhichhaddriftedmuchclosertothehulknow。
  "Itisn’tformetotalkwithgreatchiefs,"Jorgensonreturned,cautiously。
  "ButTenggaisafriend,"arguedthenocturnalmessenger。"Andbythatfirethereareotherfriends——yourfriends,theRajahHassimandtheladyImmada,whosendyoutheirgreetingsandwhoexpecttheireyestorestonyoubeforesunrise。"
  "That’salie,"remarkedJorgenson,perfunctorily,andfellintothought,whiletheshadowybearerofwordspreservedascandalizedsilence,though,ofcourse,hehadnotexpectedtobebelievedforamoment。Butonecouldnevertellwhatawhitemanwouldbelieve。HehadwantedtoproducetheimpressionthatHassimandImmadawerethehonouredguestsofTengga。ItoccurredtohimsuddenlythatperhapsJorgensondidn’tknowanythingofthecapture。Andhepersisted。
  "Mywordsarealltrue,Tuan。TheRajahofWajoandhissisterarewithmymaster。IleftthemsittingbythefireonTengga’srighthand。Willyoucomeashoretobewelcomedamongstfriends?"
  Jorgensonhadbeenreflectingprofoundly。HisobjectwastogainasmuchtimeaspossibleforLingard’sinterferencewhichindeedcouldnotfailtobeeffective。ButhehadnottheslightestwishtoentrusthimselftoTengga’sfriendliness。Notthathemindedtherisk;buthedidnotseetheuseoftakingit。
  "No!"hesaid,"Ican’tgoashore。WewhitemenhavewaysofourownandIamchiefofthishulk。AndmychiefistheRajahLaut,awhitemanlikemyself。
  AllthewordsthatmatterareinhimandifTenggaissuchagreatchieflethimasktheRajahLautforatalk。Yes,that’stheproperthingforTenggatodoifheissuchagreatchiefashesays。"
  "TheRajahLauthasmadehischoice。HedwellswithBelarab,andwiththewhitepeoplewhoarehuddledtogetherliketrappeddeerinBelarab’sstockade。Whyshouldn’tyoumeantimegooverwhereeverythingislightedupandopenandtalkinfriendshipwithTengga’sfriends,whoseheartshavebeenmadesickbymanydoubts;RajahHassimandtheladyImmadaandDaman,thechiefofthemenofthesea,whodonotknownowwhomtheycantrustunlessitbeyou,Tuan,thekeeperofmuchwealth?"
  Thediplomatistinthesmalldugoutpausedforamomenttogivespecialweighttothefinalargument:
  "Whichyouhavenomeanstodefend。Weknowhowmanyarmedmentherearewithyou。"
  "Theyaregreatfighters,"Jorgensonobserved,unconcernedly,spreadinghiselbowsontherailandlookingoveratthefloatingblackpatchofcharacteristicshapewhenceproceededthevoiceofthewilyenvoyofTengga。"EachmanofthemisworthtenofsuchasyoucanfindintheSettlement。"
  "Yes,byAllah。Evenworthtwentyofthesecommonpeople。Indeed,youhaveenoughwithyoutomakeagreatfightbutnotenoughforvictory。"
  "Godalonegivesvictory,"saidsuddenlythevoiceofJaffir,who,verystillatJorgenson’selbow,hadbeenlisteningtotheconversation。
  "Verytrue,"wastheanswerinanextremelyconventionaltone。
  "Willyoucomeashore,Owhiteman;andbetheleaderofchiefs?"
  "Ihavebeenthatbefore,"saidJorgenson,withgreatdignity,"andnowallIwantispeace。ButIwon’tcomeashoreamongstpeoplewhosemindsaresomuchtroubled,tillRajahHassimandhissisterreturnonboardthisshipandtellmethetaleoftheirnewfriendshipwithTengga。"
  Hisheartwassinkingwitheveryminute,theveryairwasgrowingheavierwiththesenseofoncomingdisaster,onthatnightthatwasneitherwarnorpeaceandwhoseonlyvoicewasthevoiceofTengga’senvoy,insinuatingintonethoughmenacinginwords。
  "No,thatcannotbe,"saidthatvoice。"But,Tuan,verilyTenggahimselfisreadytocomeonboardheretotalkwithyou。Heisveryreadytocomeandindeed,Tuan,hemeanstocomeonboardherebeforeverylong。"
  "Yes,withfiftywar—canoesfilledwiththeferociousrabbleoftheShoreofRefuge,"Jaffirwasheardcommenting,sarcastically,overtherail;andasinistermuttered"Itmaybeso,"ascendedalongsidefromtheblackwater。
  Jorgensonkeptsilentasifwaitingforasupremeinspirationandsuddenlyhespokeinhisother—worldvoice:"TellTenggafrommethataslongashebringswithhimRajahHassimandtheRajah’ssister,heandhischiefmenwillbewelcomeondeckhere,nomatterhowmanyboatscomealongwiththem。ForthatIdonotcare。Youmaygonow。"
  Aprofoundsilencesucceeded。Itwasclearthattheenvoywasgone,keepingintheshadowoftheshore。JorgensonturnedtoJaffir。
  "Deathamongstfriendsisbutafestival,"hequoted,mumblinginhismoustache。
  "Itis,byAllah,"assentedJaffirwithsombrefervour。
  VI
  Thirty—sixhourslaterCarter,alonewithLingardinthecabinofthebrig,couldalmostfeelduringapauseinhistalktheoppressive,thebreathlesspeaceoftheShallowsawaitinganothersunset。
  "Ineverexpectedtoseeanyofyoualive,"Carterbeganinhiseasytone,butwithmuchlesscarelessnessinhisbearingasthoughhisdaysofresponsibilityamongsttheShoalsoftheShoreofRefugehadmaturedhisviewoftheexternalworldandofhisownplacetherein。
  "Ofcoursenot,"mutteredLingard。
  ThelistlessnessofthatmanwhomhehadalwaysseenactingunderthestressofasecretpassionseemedperfectlyappallingtoCarter’syouthfulanddeliberateenergy。EversincehehadfoundhimselfagainfacetofacewithLingardhehadtriedtoconcealtheshockingimpressionwithadelicacywhichowednothingtotrainingbutwasasintuitiveasachild’s。
  WhilejustifyingtoLingardhismannerofdealingwiththesituationontheShoreofRefuge,hecouldnotforthelifeofhimhelpaskinghimselfwhatwasthisnewmystery。Hewasalsoyoungenoughtolongforawordofcommendation。
  "Come,Captain,"heargued;"howwouldyouhavelikedtocomeoutandfindnothingbuttwohalf—burntwrecksstuckonthesands——perhaps?"
  Hewaitedforamoment,theninsheercompassionturnedawayhiseyesfromthatfixedgaze,fromthatharassedfacewithsunkcheeks,fromthatfigureofindomitablestrengthrobbedofitsfire。Hesaidtohimself:"Hedoesn’thearme,"andraisedhisvoicewithoutalteringitsself—containedtone:
  "Iwasbelowyesterdaymorningwhenwefelttheshock,butthenoisecametousonlyasadeeprumble。ImadeonejumpforthecompanionbutthatpreciousShawwasbeforemeyelling,’Earthquake!Earthquake!’andIamhangedifhedidn’tmisshisfootingandlanddownonhisheadatthebottomofthestairs。I
  hadtostoptopickhimupbutIgotondeckintimetoseeamightyblackcloudthatseemedalmostsolidpopupfrombehindtheforestlikeaballoon。Itstayedthereforquitealongtime。
  SomeofourCalashesondecksworetomethattheyhadseenaredflashabovethetree—tops。Butthat’shardtobelieve。Iguessedatoncethatsomethinghadblownuponshore。MyfirstthoughtwasthatIwouldneverseeyouanymoreandImadeupmymindatoncetofindoutallthetruthyouhavebeenkeepingawayfromme。No,sir!Don’tyoumakeamistake!Iwasn’tgoingtogiveyouup,deadoralive。"
  HelookedhardatLingardwhilesayingthesewordsandsawthefirstsignofanimationpassoverthatravagedface。Hesawevenitslipsmoveslightly;buttherewasnosound,andCarterlookedawayagain。
  "Perhapsyouwouldhavedonebetterbytellingmeeverything;butyouleftmebehindonmyowntobeyourmanhere。IputmyhandtotheworkIcouldseebeforeme。Iamasailor。Thereweretwoshipstolookafter。Andheretheyarebothforyou,fittogoortostay,tofightortorun,asyouchoose。"HewatchedwithbatedbreaththeeffortLingardhadtomaketoutterthetwowordsofthedesiredcommendation:
  "Welldone!"
  "AndIamyourmanstill,"Carteradded,impulsively,andhastenedtolookawayfromLingard,whohadtriedtosmileathimandhadfailed。Carterdidn’tknowwhattodonext,remaininthecabinorleavethatunsupportedstrongmantohimself。Withashynesscompletelyforeigntohischaracterandwhichhecouldnotunderstandhimself,hesuggestedinanengagingmurmurandwithanembarrassedassumptionofhisrighttogiveadvice:
  "Whynotliedownforabit,sir?Icanattendtoanythingthatmayturnup。Youseemdoneup,sir。"
  HewasfacingLingard,whostoodontheothersideofthetableinaleaningforwardattitudeproppeduponrigidarmsandstaredfixedlyathim——perhaps?Carterfeltonthevergeofdespair。
  Thiscouldn’tlast。HewasrelievedtoseeLingardshakehisheadslightly。
  "No,Mr。Carter。IthinkIwillgoondeck,"saidtheCaptainofthefamousbrigLightning,whilehiseyesroamedalloverthecabin。Carterstoodasideatonce,butitwassomelittletimebeforeLingardmadeamove。
  Thesunhadsunkalready,leavingthateveningnotraceofitsgloryonaskyclearascrystalandonthewaterswithoutaripple。Allcolourseemedtohavegoneoutoftheworld。Theoncomingshadowroseassubtleasaperfumefromtheblackcoastlyingathwarttheeasternsemicircle;andsuchwasthesilencewithinthehorizonthatonemighthavefanciedoneselfcometotheendoftime。Blackandtoylikeinthecleardepthsandthefinalstillnessoftheeveningthebrigandtheschoonerlayanchoredinthemiddleofthemainchannelwiththeirheadsswungthesameway。Lingard,withhischinonhisbreastandhisarmsfolded,movedslowlyhereandthereaboutthepoop。Closeandmutelikehisshadow,Carter,athiselbow,followedhismovements。Hefeltananxioussolicitude