Hesatdownandtookupthesculls。Wasubheldontothegunwaleastoalasthopeofafurtherconfidence。Hehadservedinthebrigfiveyears。Lingardrememberedthatverywell。Thisagedfigurehadbeenintimatelyassociatedwiththebrig’slifeandwithhisown,appearingsilentlyreadyforeveryincidentandemergencyinanunquestioningexpectationoforders;symbolicofblindtrustinhisstrength,ofanunlimitedobediencetohiswill。Wasitunlimited?
"Weshallrequirecourageandfidelity,"addedLingard,inatentativetone。
"Therearethosewhoknowme,"snappedtheoldman,readily,asifthewordshadbeenwaitingforalongtime。"Observe,Tuan。I
havefilledwithfreshwaterthelittlebreakerinthebows。"
"Iknowyou,too,"saidLingard。
"Andthewind——andthesea,"ejaculatedtheserang,jerkily。
"Thesealsoarefaithfultothestrong。ByAllah!Iwhoamapilgrimandhavelistenedtowordsofwisdominmanyplaces,I
tellyou,Tuan,thereisstrengthintheknowledgeofwhatishiddeninthingswithoutlife,aswellasinthelivingmen。
WillTuanbegonelong?"
"Icomebackinashorttime——togetherwiththerestofthewhitesfromoverthere。Thisisthebeginningofmanystratagems。
Wasub!Daman,thesonofadog,hassuddenlymadeprisonerstwoofmyownpeople。Myfaceismadeblack。"
"Tse!Tse!Whatferocityisthat!Oneshouldnotoffershametoafriendortoafriend’sbrotherlestrevengecomesweepinglikeaflood。YetcananIllanunchiefbeotherthantyrannical?Myoldeyeshaveseenmuchbuttheyneversawatigerchangeitsstripes。Ya—wa!Thetigercannot。ThisisthewisdomofusignorantMalaymen。ThewisdomofwhiteTuansisgreat。Theythinkthatbythepowerofmanyspeechesthetigermay——"Hebrokeoffandinacrisp,busytonesaid:"TherudderdwellssafelyundertheaftermostseatshouldTuanbepleasedtosailtheboat。Thisbreezewillnotdieawaybeforesunrise。"Againhisvoicechangedasiftwodifferentsoulshadbeenflittinginandoutofhisbody。"No,no,killthetigerandthenthestripesmaybecountedwithoutfear——onebyone,thus。"
Hepointedafrailbrownfingerand,abruptly,madeamirthlessdrysoundasifarattlehadbeensprunginhisthroat。
"Thewretchesaremany,"saidLingard。
"Nay,Tuan。Theyfollowtheirgreatmenevenasweinthebrigfollowyou。Thatisright。"
Lingardreflectedforamoment。
"Mymenwillfollowmethen,"hesaid。
"Theyarepoorcalasheswithoutsense,"commentedWasubwithpityingsuperiority。"Somewithnomorecomprehensionthanmenofthebushfreshlycaught。ThereisSali,thefoolishsonofmysisterandbyyourgreatfavourappointedtomindthetillerofthisship。Hisstupidityisextreme,buthiseyesaregood——nearlyasgoodasminethatbyprayingandmuchexercisecanseefarintothenight。"
Lingardlaughedlowandthenlookedearnestlyattheserang。
Abovetheirheadsamanshookaflareoverthesideandathinshowerofsparksfloateddownwardandexpiredbeforetouchingthewater。
"Soyoucanseeinthenight,Oserang!Well,then,lookandspeak。Speak!Fight——ornofight?Weaponsorwords?Whichfolly?
Well,whatdoyousee?"
"Adarkness,adarkness,"whisperedWasubatlastinafrightenedtone。"Therearenights——"Heshookhisheadandmuttered。"Look。
Thetidehasturned。Ya,Tuan。Thetidehasturned。"
Lingardlookeddownwardwherethewatercouldbeseen,glidingpasttheship’sside,movingsmoothly,streakedwithlinesoffroth,acrosstheilluminedcirclethrownroundthebrigbythelightsonherpoop。Airbubblessparkled,linesofdarkness,ripplesofglitterappeared,glided,wentasternwithoutasplash,withoutatrickle,withoutaplaint,withoutabreak。Theuncheckedgentlenessoftheflowcapturedtheeyebyasubtlespell,fastenedinsidiouslyuponthemindadisturbingsenseoftheirretrievable。Theebbingoftheseaathwartthelonelysheenofflamesresembledtheeternalebb—tideoftime;andwhenatlastLingardlookedup,theknowledgeofthatnoiselesspassageofthewatersproducedonhismindabewilderingeffect。Foramomentthespeckoflightlostinvastobscuritythebrig,theboat,thehiddencoast,theShallows,theverywallsandroofofdarkness——theseenandtheunseenalikeseemedtobeglidingsmoothlyonwardthroughtheenormousgloomofspace。Then,withagreatmentaleffort,hebroughteverythingtoasuddenstandstill;andonlythefrothandbubbleswentonstreamingpastceaselessly,uncheckedbythepowerofhiswill。
"Thetidehasturned——yousay,serang?Hasit——?Well,perhapsithas,perhapsithas,"hefinished,mutteringtohimself。
"Trulyithas。CannotTuanseeitrununderhisowneyes?"saidWasubwithanalarmedearnestness。"Look。Nowitisinmymindthatapraucomingfromamongstthesouthernislands,ifsteeredcunninglyinthefreesetofthecurrent,wouldapproachthebowsofthis,ourbrig,driftingsilentlyasashapewithoutasubstance。"
"Andboardsuddenly——isthatit?"saidLingard。
"DamaniscraftyandtheIllanunsareverybloodthirsty。Nightisnothingtothem。Theyarecertainlyvalorous。Aretheynotborninthemidstoffightingandaretheynotinspiredbytheeviloftheirheartsevenbeforetheycanspeak?Andtheirchiefswouldbeleadingthemwhileyou,Tuan,aregoingfromusevennow——"
"Youdon’twantmetogo?"askedLingard。
ForatimeWasublistenedattentivelytotheprofoundsilence。
"Canwefightwithoutaleader?"hebeganagain。"Itisthebeliefinvictorythatgivescourage。Andwhatwouldpoorcalashesdo,sonsofpeasantsandfishermen,freshlycaught——withoutknowledge?Theybelieveinyourstrength——andinyourpower——orelse——Willthosewhitesthatcamesosuddenlyavengeyou?Theyareherelikefishwithinthestakes。Ya—wa!Whowillbringthenewsandwhowillcometofindthetruthandperchancetocarryoffyourbody?Yougoalone,Tuan!"
"Theremustbenofighting。Itwouldbeacalamity,"insistedLingard。"Thereisbloodthatmustnotbespilt。"
"Hear,Tuan!"exclaimedWasubwithheat。"Thewatersarerunningoutnow。"Hepunctuatedhisspeechbyslightjerksatthedinghy。
"Thewatersgoandattheappointedtimetheyshallreturn。Andifbetweentheirgoingandcomingthebloodofallthemenintheworldwerepouredintoit,theseawouldnotrisehigheratthefullbythebreadthofmyfingernail。"
"Buttheworldwouldnotbethesame。Youdonotseethat,serang。Givetheboatagoodshove。"
"Directly,"saidtheoldMalayandhisfacebecameimpassive。
"Tuanknowswhenitisbesttogo,anddeathsometimesretreatsbeforeafirmtreadlikeastartledsnake。Tuanshouldtakeafollowerwithhim,notasillyyouth,butonewhohaslived——whohasasteadyheart——whowouldwalkclosebehindwatchfully——andquietly。Yes。Quietlyandwithquickeyes——likemine——perhapswithaweapon——Iknowhowtostrike。"
Lingardlookedatthewrinkledvisageverynearhisownandintothepeeringoldeyes。Theyshonestrangely。Atenseeagernesswasexpressedinthesquattingfigureleaningouttowardhim。Ontheotherside,withinreachofhisarm,thenightstoodlikeawall—discouraging——opaque——impenetrable。Nohelpwouldavail。Thedarknesshehadtocombatwastooimpalpabletobecleftbyablow——toodensetobepiercedbytheeye;yetasifbysomeenchantmentinthewordsthatmadethisvainofferoffidelity,itbecamelessoverpoweringtohissight,lesscrushingtohisthought。Hehadamomentofpridewhichsoothedhisheartforthespaceoftwobeats。Hisunreasonableandmisjudgedheart,shrinkingbeforethemenaceoffailure,expandedfreelywithasenseofgenerousgratitude。Inthethreateningdimnessofhisemotionsthisman’soffermadeapointofclearness,theglimmerofatorchheldaloftinthenight。Itwaspriceless,nodoubt,butineffectual;toosmall,toofar,toosolitary。Itdidnotdispelthemysteriousobscuritythathaddescendeduponhisfortunessothathiseyescouldnolongerseetheworkofhishands。Thesadnessofdefeatpervadedtheworld。
"Andwhatcouldyoudo,OWasub?"hesaid。
"Icouldalwayscallout——’Takecare,Tuan。’"
"Andthenforthesecharm—wordsofmine。Hey?Turndangeraside?
What?Butperchanceyouwoulddieallthesame。Treacheryisastrongmagic,too——asyousaid。"
"Yes,indeed!Theordermightcometoyourservant。ButI——Wasub—
—thesonofafreeman,afollowerofRajahs,afugitive,aslave,apilgrim——diverforpearls,serangofwhitemen’sships,Ihavehadtoomanymasters。Toomany。Youarethelast。"Afterasilencehesaidinanalmostindifferentvoice:"Ifyougo,Tuan,letusgotogether。"
ForatimeLingardmadenosound。
"Nouse,"hesaidatlast。"Nouse,serang。Onelifeisenoughtopayforaman’sfolly——andyouhaveahousehold。"
"Ihavetwo——Tuan;butitisalongtimesinceIsatontheladderofahousetotalkateasewithneighbours。Yes。Twohouseholds;onein——"Lingardsmiledfaintly。"Tuan,letmefollowyou。"
"No。Youhavesaidit,serang——Iamalone。Thatistrue,andaloneIshallgoonthisverynight。ButfirstImustbringallthewhitepeoplehere。Push。"
"Ready,Tuan?Lookout!"
Wasub’sbodyswungovertheseawithextendedarms。Lingardcaughtupthesculls,andasthedinghydartedawayfromthebrig’ssidehehadacompleteviewofthelightedpoop——Shawleaningmassivelyoverthetaffrailinsulkydejection,theflarebearerserectandrigid,theheadsalongtherail,theeyesstaringafterhimabovethebulwarks。Thefore—endofthebrigwaswrappedinaluridandsombremistiness;thesullenminglingofdarknessandoflight;hermastspointingstraightupcouldbetrackedbytorngleamsandvanishedaboveasifthetruckshadbeentallenoughtopiercetheheavymassofvapoursmotionlessoverhead。Shewasbeautifullyprecious。Hislovingeyessawherfloatingatrestinawaveringhalo,betweenaninvisibleskyandaninvisiblesea,likeamiraculouscraftsuspendedintheair。
Heturnedhisheadawayasifthesighthadbeentoomuchforhimatthemomentofseparation,and,assoonashislittleboathadpassedbeyondthelimitofthelightthrownuponthewater,heperceivedverylowintheblackvoidofthewestthesternlanternoftheyachtshiningfeeblylikeastarabouttoset,unattainable,infinitelyremote——belongingtoanotheruniverse。
PARTIV。THEGIFTOFTHESHALLOWS
I
LingardbroughtMrs。Traversawayfromtheyacht,goingalonewithherinthelittleboat。Duringthebustleoftheembarkment,andtillthelastofthecrewhadlefttheschooner,hehadremainedtoweringandsilentbyherside。Itwasonlywhenthemurmuringanduneasyvoicesofthesailorsgoingawayintheboatshadbeencompletelylostinthedistancethathisvoicewasheard,graveinthesilence,pronouncingthewords——"Followme。"
Shefollowedhim;theirfootstepsranghollowandloudontheemptydeck。Atthebottomofthestepsheturnedroundandsaidverylow:
"Takecare。"
Hegotintotheboatandheldon。Itseemedtohimthatshewasintimidatedbythedarkness。Shefeltherarmgrippedfirmly——"I’vegotyou,"hesaid。Shesteppedin,headlong,trustingherselfblindlytohisgrip,andsankonthesternseatcatchingherbreathalittle。Sheheardaslightsplash,andtheindistinctsideofthedesertedyachtmeltedsuddenlyintothebodyofthenight。
Rowing,hefacedher,ahoodedandcloakedshape,andaboveherheadhehadbeforehiseyesthegleamofthesternlanternexpiringslowlyontheabandonedvessel。Whenitwentoutwithoutawarningflickerhecouldseenothingofthestrandedyacht’soutline。Shehadvanishedutterlylikeadream;andtheoccurrencesofthelasttwenty—fourhoursseemedalsotobeapartofavanisheddream。Thehoodedandcloakedfigurewaspartofit,too。Itspokenot;itmovednot;itwouldvanishpresently。LingardtriedtorememberMrs。Travers’features,evenasshesatwithintwofeetofhimintheboat。Heseemedtohavetakenfromthatvanishedschoonernotawomanbutamemory——thetormentingrecollectionofahumanbeinghewouldseenomore。
AteverystrokeoftheshortscullsMrs。Traversfelttheboatleapforwardwithher。Lingard,tokeephisdirection,hadtolookoverhisshoulderfrequently——"Youwillbesafeinthebrig,"hesaid。Shewassilent。Adream!Adream!Helaybackvigorously;thewaterslappedloudlyagainstthebluntbows。Theruddyglowthrownafarbytheflareswasreflecteddeepwithinthehood。Thedreamhadapalevisage,thememoryhadlivingeyes。
"Ihadtocomeforyoumyself,"hesaid。
"Iexpecteditofyou。"Thesewerethefirstwordshehadheardhersaysincetheyhadmetforthethirdtime。
"AndIswore——beforeyou,too——thatIwouldneverputmyfootonboardyourcraft。"
"Itwasgoodofyouto——"shebegan。
"Iforgotsomehow,"hesaid,simply。
"Iexpecteditofyou,"sherepeated。Hegavethreequickstrokesbeforeheaskedverygently:
"Whatmoredoyouexpect?"
"Everything,"shesaid。Hewasroundingthenthesternofthebrigandhadtolookaway。Thenheturnedtoher。
"Andyoutrustmeto——"heexclaimed。
"Iwouldliketotrustyou,"sheinterrupted,"because——"
AbovethemastartledvoicecriedinMalay,"Captaincoming。"Thestrangesoundsilencedher。Lingardlaidinhisscullsandshesawherselfglidingunderthehighsideofthebrig。Adark,staringfaceappearedverynearhereyes,blackfingerscaughtthegunwaleoftheboat。Shestoodupswaying。"Takecare,"saidLingardagain,butthistime,inthelight,didnotoffertohelpher。Shewentupaloneandhefollowedherovertherail。
Thequarter—deckwasthrongedbymenoftworaces。LingardandMrs。Traverscrosseditrapidlybetweenthegroupsthatmovedoutofthewayontheirpassage。Lingardthrewopenthecabindoorforher,butremainedondecktoinquireabouthisboats。Theyhadreturnedwhilehewasonboardtheyacht,andthetwomeninchargeofthemcameafttomaketheirreports。Theboatsentnorthhadseennothing。TheboatwhichhadbeendirectedtoexplorethebanksandisletstothesouthhadactuallybeeninsightofDaman’spraus。Themaninchargereportedthatseveralfireswereburningontheshore,thecrewsofthetwoprausbeingencampedonasandbank。Cookingwasgoingon。Theyhadbeennearenoughtohearthevoices。Therewasamankeepingwatchontheridge;theyknewthisbecausetheyheardhimshoutingtothepeoplebelow,bythefires。Lingardwantedtoknowhowtheyhadmanagedtoremainunseen。"Thenightwasourhidingplace,"
answeredthemaninhisdeepgrowlingvoice。HeknewnothingofanywhitemenbeinginDaman’scamp。Whyshouldtherebe?RajahHassimandtheLady,hissister,appearedunexpectedlynearhisboatintheircanoe。RajahHassimhadorderedhimtheninwhisperstogobacktothebrigatonce,andtellTuanwhathehadobserved。RajahHassimsaidalsothathewouldreturntothebrigwithmorenewsverysoon。HeobeyedbecausetheRajahwastohimapersonofauthority,"havingtheperfectknowledgeofTuan’smindasweallknow。"——"Enough,"criedLingard,suddenly。
Themanlookedupheavilyforamoment,andretreatedforwardwithoutanotherword。Lingardfollowedhimwithirritatedeyes。A
newpowerhadcomeintotheworld,hadpossesseditselfofhumanspeech,hadimpartedtoitasinisterironyofallusion。Tobetoldthatsomeonehad"aperfectknowledgeofhismind"startledhimandmadehimwince。Itmadehimawarethatnowhedidnotknowhismindhimself——thatitseemedimpossibleforhimevertoregainthatknowledge。Andthenewpowernotonlyhadcastitsspelluponthewordshehadtohear,butalsouponthefactsthatassailedhim,uponthepeoplehesaw,uponthethoughtshehadtoguide,uponthefeelingshehadtobear。Theyremainedwhattheyhadeverbeen——thevisiblesurfaceoflifeopeninthesuntotheconqueringtreadofanunfetteredwill。Yesterdaytheycouldhavebeendiscernedclearly,masteredanddespised;butnowanotherpowerhadcomeintotheworld,andhadcastoverthemallthewaveringgloomofadarkandinscrutablepurpose。
II
RecoveringhimselfwithaslightstartLingardgavetheordertoextinguishallthelightsinthebrig。Nowthetransferofthecrewfromtheyachthadbeeneffectedtherewaseveryadvantageinthedarkness。Hegavetheorderfrominstinct,itbeingtherightthingtodointhecircumstances。Histhoughtswereinthecabinofhisbrig,wheretherewasawomanwaiting。Heputhishandoverhiseyes,collectinghimselfasifbeforeagreatmentaleffort。Hecouldhearabouthimtheexcitedmurmursofthewhitemenwhominthemorninghehadsoardentlydesiredtohavesafeinhiskeeping。Hehadthemtherenow;butaccident,ill—luck,acursedfolly,hadtrickedhimoutofthesuccessofhisplan。HewouldhavetogoinandtalktoMrs。Travers。Theideadismayedhim。Ofnecessityhewasnotoneofthosemenwhohavethemasteryofexpression。Toliberatehissoulwasforhimagiganticundertaking,amatterofdesperateeffort,ofdoubtfulsuccess。"Imusthaveitoutwithher,"hemurmuredtohimselfasthoughattheprospectofastruggle。Hewasuncertainofhimself,ofher;hewasuncertainofeverythingandeverybody;
buthewasverycertainhewantedtolookather。
Atthemomentheturnedtothedoorofthecabinbothflareswentouttogetherandtheblackvaultofthenightupheldabovethebrigbythefierceflamesfellbehindhimandburiedthedeckinsuddendarkness。Thebuzzofstrangevoicesinstantlyhummedlouderwithastartlednote。"Hallo!"——"Can’tseeamortalthing"——"Well,whatnext?"——insistedavoice——"Iwanttoknowwhatnext?"
Lingardcheckedhimselfreadytoopenthedoorandwaitedabsurdlyfortheanswerasthoughinthehopeofsomesuggestion。
"What’supwithyou?Thinkyourselflucky,"saidsomebody。——"It’sallverywell——forto—night,"beganthevoice。——"Whatareyoufashingyourselffor?"remonstratedtheother,reasonably,"we’llgethomerightenough。"——"Iamnotsosure;thesecondmatehesays——""Nevermindwhathesays;that’eremanwhohasgotthisbrigwillseeusthrough。Theowner’swifewilltalktohim——shewill。Moneycandoalot。"Thetwovoicescamenearer,andspokemoredistinctly,closebehindLingard。"Supposethembloomingsavagessetfiretotheyacht。What’stopreventthem?"——"Andsupposetheydo。This’erebrig’sgoodenoughtogetawayin。
Ain’tshe?Gunsandall。We’llgethomeyetallright。Whatdoyousay,John?"
"Isaynothingandcareless,"saidathirdvoice,peacefulandfaint。
"D’youmeantosay,John,youwouldgotothebottomassoonasyouwouldgohome?Comenow!"——"Tothebottom,"repeatedthewanvoice,composedly。"Aye!That’swhereweallaregoingto,inonewayoranother。Thewaydon’tmatter。"
"Ough!Youwouldgivethebluestothefunnymanofabloomingcircus。WhatwouldmymissussayifIwasn’ttoturnupneveratall?"——"Shewouldgetanotherman;there’salwaysplentyoffoolsabout。"Aquietandmirthlesschucklewasheardinthepauseofshockedsilence。Lingard,withhishandonthedoor,remainedstill。Furtheroffagrowlburstout:"Idohatetobechuckedinthedarkaboardastrangeship。Iwonderwheretheykeeptheirfreshwater。Can’tgetanysenseoutofthemsillyniggers。Wedon’tseemtobemoreaccountherethanalotofcattle。Likelyasnotwe’llhavetoberthonthisbloomingquarter—deckforGodknowshowlong。"ThenagainverynearLingardthefirstvoicesaid,deadeneddiscreetly——"There’ssomethingcuriousaboutthisherebrigturningupsudden—like,ain’tthere?Andthatskipperofher——now?Whatkindofamanishe——anyhow?"
"Oh,he’soneofthemskippersgoingaboutloose。Thebrig’shisown,Iamthinking。Hejustgoesaboutinherlookingforwhathemaypickuphonestordishonest。Mybrother—in—lawhasservedtwocommissionsintheseseas,andwastellingmeawfulyarnsaboutwhat’sgoingoninthemGod—forsakenparts。Likelyhelied,though。Themman—of—war’smenareaholyterrorforyarns。Blessyou,whatdoIcarewhothisskipperis?Lethimdohisbestanddon’ttroubleyourhead。Youwon’tseehimagaininyourlifeoncewegetclear。"
"Andcanhedoanythingfortheowner?"askedthefirstvoiceagain。——"Canhe!Wecandonothing——that’sonethingcertain。Theownermaybelyingclubbedtodeaththisveryminuteforallweknow。Byallaccountsthesesavageshereareacroolmurderinglot。Mindyou,Iamsorryforhimasmuchasanybody。"——"Aye,aye,"mutteredtheother,approvingly。——"Hemaynothavebeenready,poorman,"beganagainthereasonablevoice。Lingardheardadeepsigh。——"Ifthere’sanythingascanbedoneforhim,theowner’swifeshe’sgottofixitupwiththis’ereskipper。UnderProvidencehemayserveherturn。"
Lingardflungopenthecabindoor,entered,and,withaslam,shutthedarknessout。
"Iam,underProvidence,toserveyourturn,"hesaidafterstandingverystillforawhile,withhiseyesuponMrs。Travers。
Thebrig’sswing—lamplightedthecabinwithanextraordinarybrilliance。Mrs。Travershadthrownbackherhood。Theradiantbrightnessofthelittleplaceenfoldedhersoclose,clungtoherwithsuchforcethatitmighthavebeenpartofherveryessence。Therewerenoshadowsonherface;itwasfiercelylighted,hermeticallyclosed,ofimpenetrablefairness。
Lingardlookedinunconsciousecstasyatthisvision,soamazingthatitseemedtohavestrayedintohisexistencefrombeyondthelimitsoftheconceivable。Itwasimpossibletoguessherthoughts,toknowherfeelings,tounderstandhergrieforherjoy。Butsheknewallthatwasatthebottomofhisheart。Hehadtoldherhimself,impelledbyasuddenthought,goingtoherindarkness,indesperation,inabsurdhope,inincredibletrust。Hehadtoldherwhathehadtoldnooneonearth,exceptperhaps,attimes,himself,butwithoutwords——lessclearly。Hehadtoldherandshehadlistenedinsilence。Shehadlistenedleaningovertherailtillatlastherbreathwasonhisforehead。Herememberedthisandhadamomentofsoaringprideandofunutterabledismay。Hespoke,withaneffort。
"You’veheardwhatIsaidjustnow?HereIam。"
"Doyouexpectmetosaysomething?"sheasked。"Isitnecessary?
Isitpossible?"
"No,"heanswered。"Itissaidalready。Iknowwhatyouexpectfromme。Everything。"
"Everything,"sherepeated,paused,andaddedmuchlower,"Itistheveryleast。"Heseemedtolosehimselfinthought。
"Itisextraordinary,"hereflectedhalfaloud,"howIdislikethatman。"Sheleanedforwardalittle。
"Rememberthosetwomenareinnocent,"shebegan。
"SoamI——innocent。Soiseverybodyintheworld。Haveyouevermetamanorawomanthatwasnot?They’vegottotaketheirchancesallthesame。"
"Iexpectyoutobegenerous,"shesaid。
"Toyou?"
"Well——tome。Yes——ifyouliketomealone。"
"Toyoualone!Andyouknoweverything!"Hisvoicedropped。"Youwantyourhappiness。"
Shemadeanimpatientmovementandhesawherclenchthehandthatwaslyingonthetable。
"Iwantmyhusbandback,"shesaid,sharply。
"Yes。Yes。It’swhatIwassaying。Samething,"hemutteredwithstrangeplacidity。Shelookedathimsearchingly。Hehadalargesimplicitythatfilledone’svision。Shefoundherselfslowlyinvadedbythismasterfulfigure。Hewasnotmediocre。Whateverhemighthavebeenhewasnotmediocre。Theglamourofalawlesslifestretchedoverhimliketheskyovertheseadownonallsidestoanunbrokenhorizon。Within,hemovedverylonely,dangerousandromantic。Therewasinhimcrime,sacrifice,tenderness,devotion,andthemadnessofafixedidea。Shethoughtwithwonderthatofallthemenintheworldhewasindeedtheonesheknewthebestandyetshecouldnotforeseethespeechortheactofthenextminute。Shesaiddistinctly:
"You’vegivenmeyourconfidence。NowIwantyoutogivemethelifeofthesetwomen。Thelifeoftwomenwhomyoudonotknow,whomto—morrowyouwillforget。Itcanbedone。Itmustbedone。
Youcannotrefusethemtome。"Shewaited。
"Whycan’tIrefuse?"hewhispered,gloomily,withoutlookingup。
"Youask!"sheexclaimed。Hemadenosign。Heseemedatalossforwords。
"Youask……Ah!"shecried。"Don’tyouseethatIhavenokingdomstoconquer?"
III
AslightchangeofexpressionwhichpassedawayalmostdirectlyshowedthatLingardheardthepassionatecrywrungfromherbythedistressofhermind。Hemadenosign。Sheperceivedclearlytheextremedifficultyofherposition。Thesituationwasdangerous;notsomuchthefactsofitasthefeelingofit。Attimesitappearednomoreactualthanatradition;andshethoughtofherselfasofsomewomaninaballad,whohastobegforthelivesofinnocentcaptives。TosavethelivesofMr。
TraversandMr。d’Alcacerwasmorethanaduty。Itwasanecessity,itwasanimperativeneed,itwasanirresistiblemission。Yetshehadtoreflectuponthehorrorsofacruelandobscuredeathbeforeshecouldfeelforthemthepitytheydeserved。ItwaswhenshelookedatLingardthatherheartwaswrungbyanextremityofcompassion。Theotherswerepitiful,buthe,thevictimofhisownextravagantimpulses,appearedtragic,fascinating,andculpable。Lingardliftedhishead。WhisperswereheardatthedoorandHassimfollowedbyImmadaenteredthecabin。
Mrs。TraverslookedatLingard,becauseofallthefacesinthecabinhiswastheonlyonethatwasintelligibletoher。Hassimbegantospeakatonce,andwhenheceasedImmada’sdeepsighwasheardinthesuddensilence。ThenLingardlookedatMrs。Traversandsaid:
"Thegentlemenarealive。RajahHassimherehasseenthemlessthantwohoursago,andsohasthegirl。Theyarealiveandunharmed,sofar。Andnow……"
Hepaused。Mrs。Travers,leaningonherelbow,shadedhereyesundertheglintofsuspendedthunderbolts。
"Youmusthateus,"shemurmured。
"Hateyou,"herepeatedwith,asshefancied,atingeofdisdaininhistone。"No。Ihatemyself。"
"Whyyourself?"sheasked,verylow。
"Fornotknowingmymind,"heanswered。"Fornotknowingmymind。
Fornotknowingwhatitisthat’sgotholdofmesince——sincethismorning。Iwasangrythen……Nothingbutveryangry……"
"Andnow?"shemurmured。
"Iam……unhappy,"hesaid。AfteramomentofsilencewhichgavetoMrs。Traversthetimetowonderhowitwasthatthismanhadsucceededinpenetratingintotheverydepthsofhercompassion,hehitthetablesuchablowthatalltheheavymusketsseemedtojumpalittle。
Mrs。TraversheardHassimpronounceafewwordsearnestly,andamoanofdistressfromImmada。
"Ibelievedinyoubeforeyou……beforeyougavemeyourconfidence,"shebegan。"Youcouldseethat。Couldyounot?"
Helookedatherfixedly。"Youarenotthefirstthatbelievedinme,"hesaid。
Hassim,loungingwithhisbackagainstthecloseddoor,kepthiseyeonhimwatchfullyandImmada’sdarkandsorrowfuleyesrestedonthefaceofthewhitewoman。Mrs。Traversfeltasthoughshewereengagedinacontestwiththem;inastruggleforthepossessionofthatman’sstrengthandofthatman’sdevotion。
WhenshelookedupatLingardshesawonhisface——whichshouldhavebeenimpassiveorexalted,thefaceofasternleaderorthefaceofapitilessdreamer——anexpressionofutterforgetfulness。
Heseemedtobetastingthedelightofsomeprofoundandamazingsensation。Andsuddenlyinthemidstofherappealtohisgenerosity,inthemiddleofaphrase,Mrs。Traversfaltered,becomingawarethatshewastheobjectofhiscontemplation。
"Donot!Donotlookatthatwoman!"criedImmada。"O!
Master——lookaway……"Hassimthrewonearmroundthegirl’sneck。Hervoicesank。"O!Master——lookatus。"Hassim,drawinghertohimself,coveredherlipswithhishand。Shestruggledalittlelikeasnaredbirdandsubmitted,hidingherfaceonhisshoulder,veryquiet,sobbingwithoutnoise。
"Whatdotheysaytoyou?"askedMrs。Traverswithafaintandpainedsmile。"Whatcantheysay?Itisintolerabletothinkthattheirwordswhichhavenomeaningformemaygostraighttoyourheart……"
"Lookaway,"whisperedLingardwithoutmakingtheslightestmovement。
Mrs。Traverssighed。
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