Whenwemetoncemoreattheendoftheexamination,Roberttoldmethattheprisonerneverspokeandneverchangedhisposition。
Hewaseitherfortifiedbythecruelcomposureofasavage,orhisfacultieshadnotyetthoroughlyrecoveredfromthediseasethathadsolatelyshakenthem。Themagistrateseemedtodoubtifhewasinhisrightmind;buttheevidenceofthemedicalmanrelievedthisuncertainty,andtheprisonerwascommittedfortrialonachargeofmanslaughter。
Whynotonachargeofmurder?RobertexplainedthelawtomewhenIaskedthatquestion。Iacceptedtheexplanation,butitdidnotsatisfyme。MaryMallinsonwaskilledbyablowfromthehandofNoahTruscott。ThatismurderinthesightofGod。Whynotmurderinthesightofthelawalso?
June18th。To—morrowisthedayappointedforthetrialattheOldBailey。
BeforesunsetthiseveningIwenttolookatMary’sgrave。TheturfhasgrownsogreensinceIsawitlast,andtheflowersarespringingupsoprettily。Abirdwaspercheddressinghisfeathersonthelowwhiteheadstonethatbearstheinscriptionofhernameandage。Ididnotgonearenoughtodisturbthelittlecreature。Helookedinnocentandprettyonthegrave,asMaryherselfwasinherlifetime。WhenheflewawayIwentandsatforalittlebytheheadstone,andreadthemournfullinesonit。Oh,mylove!mylove!whatharmorwronghadyoueverdoneinthisworld,thatyoushoulddieateighteenbyablowfromadrunkard’shand?
June19th。Thetrial。Myexperienceofwhathappenedatitislimited,likemyexperienceoftheexaminationatthepolice—office,tothetimeoccupiedingivingmyownevidence。
TheymademesaymuchmorethanIsaidbeforethemagistrate。
Betweenexaminationandcross—examination,IhadtogointoalmostalltheparticularsaboutpoorMaryandherfuneralthatI
havewritteninthisjournal;thejurylisteningtoeverywordI
spokewiththemostanxiousattention。Attheend,thejudgesaidafewwordstomeapprovingofmyconduct,andthentherewasaclappingofhandsamongthepeopleincourt。IwassoagitatedandexcitedthatItrembledalloverwhentheyletmegooutintotheairagain。
IlookedattheprisonerbothwhenIenteredthewitness—boxandwhenIleftit。Theloweringbrutalityofhisfacewasunchanged,buthisfacultiesseemedtobemorealiveandobservantthantheywereatthepolice—office。Afrightfulbluechangepassedoverhisface,andhedrewhisbreathsoheavilythatthegaspsweredistinctlyaudiblewhileImentionedMarybynameanddescribedthemarkortheblowonhertemple。WhentheyaskedmeifIknewanythingoftheprisoner,andIansweredthatIonlyknewwhatMaryherselfhadtoldmeabouthishavingbeenherfather’sruin,hegaveakindofgroan,andstruckbothhishandsheavilyonthedock。AndwhenIpassedbeneathhimonmywayoutofcourt,heleanedoversuddenly,whethertospeaktomeortostrikemeI
can’tsay,forhewasimmediatelymadetostanduprightagainbytheturnkeysoneithersideofhim。Whiletheevidenceproceeded(asRobertdescribedittome),thesignsthathewassufferingundersuperstitiousterrorbecamemoreandmoreapparent;until,atlast,justasthelawyerappointedtodefendhimwasrisingtospeak,hesuddenlycriedout,inavoicethatstartledeveryone,uptotheveryjudgeonthebench:"Stop!"
Therewasapause,andalleyeslookedathim。Theperspirationwaspouringoverhisfacelikewater,andhemadestrange,uncouthsignswithhishandstothejudgeopposite。"Stopallthis!"hecriedagain;"I’vebeentheruinofthefatherandthedeathofthechild。HangmebeforeIdomoreharm!Hangme,forGod’ssake,outoftheway!"Assoonastheshockproducedbythisextraordinaryinterruptionhadsubsided,hewasremoved,andtherefollowedalongdiscussionaboutwhetherhewasofsoundmindornot。Thematterwaslefttothejurytodecidebytheirverdict。Theyfoundhimguiltyofthechargeofmanslaughter,withouttheexcuseofinsanity。Hewasbroughtupagain,andcondemnedtotransportationforlife。Allhedid,onhearingthedreadfulsentence,wastoreiteratehisdesperatewords:"HangmebeforeIdomoreharm!Hangme,forGod’ssake,outoftheway!"
June20th。Imadeyesterday’sentryinsadnessofheart,andI
havenotbeenbetterinmyspiritsto—day。Itissomethingtohavebroughtthemurderertothepunishmentthathedeserves。Buttheknowledgethatthismostrighteousactofretributionisaccomplishedbringsnoconsolationwithit。ThelawdoesindeedpunishNoahTruscottforhiscrime,butcanitraiseupMaryMallinsonfromherlastresting—placeinthechurchyard?
Whilewritingofthelaw,IoughttorecordthattheheartlesswretchwhoallowedMarytobestruckdowninhispresencewithoutmakinganattempttodefendherisnotlikelytoescapewithperfectimpunity。Thepolicemanwholookedafterhimtoinsurehisattendanceatthetrialdiscoveredthathehadcommittedpastoffenses,forwhichthelawcanmakehimanswer。Asummonswasexecuteduponhim,andhewastakenbeforethemagistratethemomentheleftthecourtaftergivinghisevidence。
Ihadjustwrittenthesefewlines,andwasclosingmyjournal,whentherecameaknockatthedoor。Iansweredit,thinkingthatRoberthadcalledonhiswayhometosaygood—night,andfoundmyselffacetofacewithastrangegentleman,whoimmediatelyaskedforAnneRodway。OnhearingthatIwasthepersoninquiredfor,herequestedfiveminutes’conversationwithme。Ishowedhimintothelittleemptyroomatthebackofthehouse,andwaited,rathersurprisedandfluttered,tohearwhathehadtosay。
Hewasadarkman,withaseriousmanner,andashort,sternwayofspeakingIwascertainthathewasastranger,andyetthereseemedsomethinginhisfacenotunfamiliartome。Hebeganbytakinganewspaperfromhispocket,andaskingmeifIwasthepersonwhohadgivenevidenceatthetrialofNoahTruscottonachargeofmanslaughter。IansweredimmediatelythatIwas。
"IhavebeenfornearlytwoyearsinLondonseekingMaryMallinson,andalwaysseekingherinvain,"hesaid。"ThefirstandonlynewsIhavehadofherIfoundinthenewspaperreportofthetrialyesterday。"
Hestillspokecalmly,buttherewassomethinginthelookofhiseyeswhichshowedmethathewassufferinginspirit。Asuddennervousnessovercameme,andIwasobligedtositdown。
"YouknewMaryMallinson,sir?"Iasked,asquietlyasIcould。
"Iamherbrother。"
Iclaspedmyhandsandhidmyfaceindespair。Oh,thebitternessofheartwithwhichIheardhimsaythosesimplewords!
"Youwereverykindtoher,"saidthecalm,tearlessman。"Inhernameandforhersake,Ithankyou。"
"Oh,sir,"Isaid,"whydidyouneverwritetoherwhenyouwereinforeignparts?"
"Iwroteoften,"heanswered;"buteachofmyletterscontainedaremittanceofmoney。DidMarytellyoushehadastepmother?Ifshedid,youmayguesswhynoneofmyletterswereallowedtoreachher。Inowknowthatthiswomanrobbedmysister。HassheliedintellingmethatshewasneverinformedofMary’splaceofabode?"
IrememberedthatMaryhadnevercommunicatedwithherstepmotheraftertheseparation,andcouldthereforeassurehimthatthewomanhadspokenthetruth。
Hepausedforamomentafterthat,andsighed。Thenhetookoutapocket—book,andsaid:
"Ihavealreadyarrangedforthepaymentofanylegalexpensesthatmayhavebeenincurredbythetrial,butIhavestilltoreimburseyouforthefuneralchargeswhichyousogenerouslydefrayed。Excusemyspeakingbluntlyonthissubject;Iamaccustomedtolookonallmatterswheremoneyisconcernedpurelyasmattersofbusiness。"
Isawthathewastakingseveralbank—notesoutofthepocket—book,andstoppedhim。
"IwillgratefullyreceivebackthelittlemoneyIactuallypaid,sir,becauseIamnotwelloff,anditwouldbeanungraciousactofprideinmetorefuseitfromyou,"Isaid;"butIseeyouhandlingbank—notes,anyoneofwhichisfarbeyondtheamountyouhavetorepayme。Prayputthemback,sir。WhatIdidforyourpoorlostsisterIdidfrommyloveandfondnessforher。
Youhavethankedmeforthat,andyourthanksareallIcanreceive。"
Hehadhithertoconcealedhisfeelings,butIsawthemnowbegintogetthebetterofhim。Hiseyessoftened,andhetookmyhandandsqueezedithard。
"Ibegyourpardon,"hesaid;"Ibegyourpardon,withallmyheart。"
Therewassilencebetweenus,forIwascrying,andIbelieve,atheart,hewascryingtoo。Atlasthedroppedmyhand,andseemedtochangeback,byaneffort,tohisformercalmness。
"IstherenoonebelongingtoyoutowhomIcanbeofservice?"
heasked。"Iseeamongthewitnessesonthetrialthenameofayoungmanwhoappearstohaveassistedyouintheinquirieswhichledtotheprisoner’sconviction。Ishearelation?"
"No,sir——atleast,notnow——butIhope——"
"What?"
"Ihopethathemay,oneday,bethenearestanddearestrelationtomethatawomancanhave。"Isaidthosewordsboldly,becauseIwasafraidofhisotherwisetakingsomewrongviewoftheconnectionbetweenRobertandme"Oneday?"herepeated。"Onedaymaybealongtimehence。"
"Weareneitherofuswelloff,sir,"Isaid。"Onedaymeansthedaywhenwearealittlericherthanwearenow。"
"Istheyoungmaneducated?Canheproducetestimonialstohischaracter?Obligemebywritinghisnameandaddressdownonthebackofthatcard。"
WhenIhadobeyed,inahandwritingwhichIamafraiddidmenocredit,hetookoutanothercardandgaveittome。
"IshallleaveEnglandto—morrow,"hesaid。"Thereisnothingnowtokeepmeinmyowncountry。Ifyouareeverinanydifficultyordistress(whichIprayGodyoumayneverbe),applytomyLondonagent,whoseaddressyouhavethere。"
Hestopped,andlookedatmeattentively,thentookmyhandagain。
"Whereissheburied?"hesaid,suddenly,inaquickwhisper,turninghisheadaway。
Itoldhim,andaddedthatwehadmadethegraveasbeautifulaswecouldwithgrassandflowers。Isawhislipswhitenandtremble。
"Godblessandrewardyou!"hesaid,anddrewmetowardhimquicklyandkissedmyforehead。Iwasquiteovercome,andsankdownandhidmyfaceonthetable。WhenIlookedupagainhewasgone。
June25th,1841。Iwritetheselinesonmyweddingmorning,whenlittlemorethanayearhaspassedsinceRobertreturnedtoEngland。
Hissalarywasincreasedyesterdaytoonehundredandfiftypoundsayear。IfIonlyknewwhereMr。Mallinsonwas,Iwouldwriteandtellhimofourpresenthappiness。ButforthesituationwhichhiskindnessprocuredforRobert,wemightstillhavebeenwaitingvainlyforthedaythathasnowcome。
Iamtoworkathomeforthefuture,andSallyistohelpusinournewabode。IfMarycouldhavelivedtoseethisday!Iamnotungratefulformyblessings;butoh,howImissthatsweetfaceonthismorningofallothers!
Igotupto—dayearlyenoughtogoalonetothegrave,andtogatherthenosegaythatnowliesbeforemefromtheflowersthatgrowroundit。IshallputitinmybosomwhenRobertcomestofetchmetothechurch。Marywouldhavebeenmybridesmaidifshehadlived;andIcan’tforgetMary,evenonmywedding—day。
THENIGHT。
THElastwordsofthelaststoryfelllowandtremblingfromOwen’slips。HewaitedforamomentwhileJessiedriedthetearswhichAnneRodway’ssimplediaryhaddrawnfromherwarmyoungheart,thenclosedthemanuscript,andtakingherhandpatteditinhisgentle,fatherlyway。
"Youwillbegladtohear,mylove,"hesaid,"thatIcanspeakfrompersonalexperienceofAnneRodway’shappiness。Shecametoliveinmyparishsoonafterthetrialatwhichsheappearedaschiefwitness,andIwastheclergymanwhomarriedher。MonthsbeforethatIknewherstory,andhadreadthoseportionsofherdiarywhichyouhavejustheard。WhenImadehermylittlepresentonherweddingday,andwhenshegratefullyentreatedmetotellherwhatshecoulddoformeinreturn,IaskedforacopyofherdiarytokeepamongthepapersthatItreasuredmost。
’Thereadingofitnowandthen,’Isaid,’willencouragethatfaithinthebrighterandbetterpartofhumannaturewhichI
hope,byGod’shelp,topreservepuretomydyingday。’InthatwayIbecamepossessedofthemanuscript:itwasAnne’shusbandwhomadethecopyforme。Youhavenoticedafewwitheredleavesscatteredhereandtherebetweenthepages。Theywereputthere,yearssince,bythebride’sownhand:theyareallthatnowremainoftheflowersthatAnneRodwaygatheredonhermarriagemorningfromMaryMallinson’sgrave。"
Jessietriedtoanswer,butthewordsfailedonherlips。Betweentheeffectofthestory,andtheanticipationofthepartingnowsonearathand,thegood,impulsive,affectionatecreaturewasfairlyovercome。ShelaidherheadonOwen’sshoulder,andkepttightholdofhishand,andletherheartspeaksimplyforitself,withoutattemptingtohelpitbyasingleword。
Thesilencethatfollowedwasbrokenharshlybythetowerclock。
Theheavyhammerslowlyrangouttenstrokesthroughthegloomynight—timeandthedyingstorm。
Iwaitedtillthelasthummingechooftheclockfaintedintodeadstillness。Ilistenedoncemoreattentively,andagainlistenedinvain。ThenIrose,andproposedtomybrothersthatweshouldleaveourguesttocomposeherselfforthenight。
WhenOwenandMorganwerereadytoquittheroom,Itookherbythehand,anddrewheralittleaside。
"Youleaveusearly,mydear,"Isaid;"but,beforeyougoto—morrowmorning——"
Istoppedtolistenforthelasttime,beforethewordswerespokenwhichcommittedmetothedesperateexperimentofpleadingGeorge’scauseindefianceofhisownrequest。Nothingcaughtmyearbutthesweepofthewearyweakenedwindandthemelancholysurgingoftheshakentrees。
"But,beforeyougoto—morrowmorning,"Iresumed,"Iwanttospeaktoyouinprivate。Weshallbreakfastateighto’clock。Isitaskingtoomuchtobegyoutocomeandseemealoneinmystudyathalfpastseven?"
JustasherlipsopenedtoanswermeIsawachangepassoverherface。IhadkeptherhandinminewhileIwasspeaking,andI
musthavepresseditunconsciouslysohardasalmosttohurther。
Shemayevenhaveutteredafewwordsofremonstrance;buttheyneverreachedme:mywholehearingsensewasseized,absorbed,petrified。AttheveryinstantwhenIhadceasedspeaking,I,andIalone,heardafaintsound——asoundthatwasnewtome——flypasttheGlenToweronthewingsofthewind。
"Openthewindow,forGod’ssake!"Icried。
Myhandmechanicallyheldherstighterandtighter。Shestruggledtofreeit,lookinghardatmewithpalecheeksandfrightenedeyes。Owenhastenedupandreleasedher,andputhisarmsroundme。
"Griffith,Griffith!"hewhispered,"controlyourself,forGeorge’ssake。"
Morganhurriedtothewindowandthrewitwideopen。
Thewindandrainrushedinfiercely。Welcome,welcomewind!Theyallhearditnow。"Oh,Fatherinheaven,somercifultofathersonearth——myson,myson!"
Itcamein,louderandlouderwitheverygustofwind——thejoyous,rapidgatheringrollofwheels。Myeyesfastenedonherasiftheycouldseetoherheart,whileshestoodtherewithhersweetfaceturnedonmeallpaleandstartled。Itriedtospeaktoher;ItriedtobreakawayfromOwen’sarms,tothrowmyownarmsroundher,tokeepheronmybosom,till_he_cametotakeherfromme。Butallmystrengthhadgoneinthelongwaitingandthelongsuspense。MyheadsankonOwen’sbreast——butIstillheardthewheels。Morganloosenedmycravat,andsprinkledwaterovermyface——Istillheardthewheels。Thepoorterrifiedgirlranintoherroom,andcamebackwithhersmelling—salts——Iheardthecarriagestopatthehouse。Theroomwhirledroundandroundwithme;butIheardtheeagerhurryoffootstepsinthehall,andtheopeningofthedoor。Inanothermomentmyson’svoiceroseclearandcheerfulfrombelow,greetingtheoldservantswholovedhim。Thedear,familiartonesjustpouredintomyear,andthen,themomenttheyfilledit,hushedmesuddenlytorest。
WhenIcametomyselfagainmyeyesopeneduponGeorge。Iwaslyingonthesofa,stillinthesameroom;thelightswehadreadbyintheeveningwereburningonthetable;mysonwaskneelingatmypillow,andwetwowerealone。
THEMORNING。
THEwindisfainter,butthereisstillnocalm。Therainisceasing,butthereisstillnosunshine。Theviewfrommywindowshowsmethemistheavyontheearth,andadimgrayveildrawndarklyoverthesky。Lessthantwelvehourssince,suchaprospectwouldhavesaddenedmefortheday。Ilookoutatitthismorning,throughthebrightmediumofmyownhappiness,andnottheshadowofashadefallsacrossthesteadyinnersunshinethatisporingovermyheart。
Thepenlingersfondlyinmyhand,andyetitislittle,verylittle,thatIhavelefttosay。ThePurpleVolumeliesopenbymyside,withthestoriesrangedtogetherinitintheorderinwhichtheywereread。Mysonhaslearnedtoprizethemalreadyasthefaithfulfriendswhoservedhimathisutmostneed。Ihaveonlytowindoffthelittlethreadofnarrativeonwhichtheyareallstrungtogetherbeforethevolumeisclosedandouranxiousliteraryexperimentfairlyended。
MysonandIhadaquiethourtogetheronthathappynightbeforeweretiredtorest。Thelittlelove—plotinventedinGeorge’sinterestsnowrequiredonelaststrokeofdiplomacytocompleteitbeforeweallthrewoffourmasksandassumedourtruecharactersforthefuture。WhenmysonandIpartedforthenight,wehadplannedthenecessarystratagemfortakingourlovelyguestbysurpriseassoonasshewasoutofherbedinthemorning。
Shortlyafterseveno’clockIsentamessagetoJessiebyhermaid,informingherthatagoodnight’sresthaddonewondersforme,andthatIexpectedtoseeherinmystudyathalfpastseven,aswehadarrangedtheeveningbefore。Assoonasheranswer,promisingtobepunctualtotheappointment,hadreachedme,ItookGeorgeintomystudy——lefthiminmyplacetopleadhisowncause——andstoleaway,fiveminutesbeforethehalfhour,tojoinmybrothersinthebreakfast—room。
Althoughthesenseofmyownhappinessdisposedmetotakethebrightestviewofmyson’schances,Imustneverthelessacknowledgethatsomenervousanxietiesstillflutteredaboutmyheartwhiletheslowminutesofsuspensewerecountingthemselvesoutinthebreakfast—room。IhadaslittleattentiontospareforOwen’squietprognosticationsofsuccessasforMorgan’spitilesssarcasmsonlove,courtship,andmatrimony。Aquarterofanhourelapsed——thentwentyminutes。Thehandmovedon,andtheclockpointedtofiveminutestoeight,beforeIheardthestudydooropen,andbeforethesoundofrapidly—advancingfootstepswarnedmethatGeorgewascomingintotheroom。
Hisbeamingfacetoldthegoodnewsbeforeawordcouldbespokenoneitherside。Theexcessofhishappinessliterallyandtrulydeprivedhimofspeech。Hestoodeagerlylookingatusallthree,withoutstretchedhandsandglisteningeyes。
"HaveIfoldedupmysurpliceforever,"askedOwen,"oramItowearitonceagain,George,inyourservice?"
"Answerthisquestionfirst,"interposedMorgan,withalookofgrimanxiety。"Haveyouactuallytakenyouryoungwomanoffmyhands,orhaveyounot?"
Nodirectanswerfollowedeitherquestion。George’sfeelingshadbeentoodeeplystirredtoallowhimtoreturnjestforjestatamoment’snotice。
"Oh,father,howcanIthankyou!"hesaid。"Andyou!andyou!"
headded,lookingatOwenandMorgangratefully。
"YoumustthankChanceaswellasthankus,"Ireplied,speakingaslightlyasmyheartwouldletme,toencouragehim。"Theadvantageofnumbersinourlittlelove—plotwasallonourside。
Remember,George,wewerethreetoone。"
WhileIwasspeakingthebreakfast—roomdooropenednoiselessly,andshowedusJessiestandingonthethreshold,uncertainwhethertojoinusortorunbacktoherownroom。Herbrightcomplexionheightenedtoadeepglow;thetearsjustrisinginhereyes,andnotyetfallingfromthem;herdelicatelipstremblingalittle,asiftheywerestillshylyconsciousofotherlipsthathadpressedthembutafewminutessince;herattitudeirresolutelygraceful;herhairjustdisturbedenoughoverherforeheadandhercheekstoaddtothecharmofthem——shestoodbeforeus,theloveliestlivingpictureofyouth,andtenderness,andvirginlovethateyeseverlookedon。GeorgeandIbothadvancedtogethertomeetheratthedoor。Butthegood,gratefulgirlhadheardfrommysonthetruestoryofallthatIhaddone,andhoped,andsufferedforthelasttendays,andshowedcharminglyhowshefeltitbyturningatonceto_me_。
"MayIstopattheGlenToweralittlelonger?"sheasked,simply。
"Ifyouthinkyoucangetthroughyourevenings,mylove,"I
answered。"’ButsurelyyouforgetthatthePurpleVolumeisclosed,andthatthestorieshaveallcometoanend?"
Sheclaspedherarmsroundmyneck,andlaidhercheekfondlyagainstmine。
"Howyoumusthavesufferedyesterday!"shewhispered,softly。
"AndhowhappyIamto—day!"
ThetearsgatheredinhereyesanddroppedoverhercheeksassheraisedherheadtolookatmeaffectionatelywhenIsaidthosewords。IgentlyunclaspedherarmsandledhertoGeorge。
"Soyoureallydidlovehim,then,afterall,"Iwhispered,"thoughyouweretooslytoletmediscoverit?"
Asmilebrokeoutamongthetearsashereyeswanderedawayfrommineandstolealookatmyson。Theclockstruckthehour,andtheservantcameinwithbreakfast。Alittledomesticinterruptionofthiskindwasallthatwaswantedtoputusatourease。Wedrewroundthetablecheerfully,andsettheQueenofHeartsattheheadofit,inthecharacterofmistressofthehousealready。
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