Hisfaceflushedalloverinaninstant。"Ithinkitaninspiration!"hecried。"Notadayistobelostincarryingoutourplan。Thepolicearenottobetrustedwithit。Imuststartmyselfto—morrowmorning;andyou——"
Hestopped;hisfacegrewsuddenlypale;hesighedheavily;hiseyeswanderedoncemoreintothefixedlookatvacancy;andtherigid,deathlyexpressionfastenedagainuponallhisfeatures。
"ImusttellyoumysecretbeforeItalkofto—morrow,"heproceeded,faintly。"IfIhesitatedanylongeratconfessingeverything,Ishouldbeunworthyofyourpastkindness,unworthyofthehelpwhichitismylasthopethatyouwillgladlygivemewhenyouhaveheardall。"
Ibeggedhimtowaituntilhewasmorecomposed,untilhewasbetterabletospeak;buthedidnotappeartonoticewhatI
said。Slowly,andstrugglingasitseemedagainsthimself,heturnedalittleawayfromme,and,bendinghisheadoverthetable,supporteditonhishand。ThepacketofletterswithwhichIhadseenhimoccupiedwhenIcameinlayjustbeneathhiseyes。
Helookeddownonitsteadfastlywhenhenextspoketome。
CHAPTERIV。
"Youwereborn,Ibelieve,inourcounty,"hesaid;"perhaps,therefore,youmayhaveheardatsometimeofacuriousoldprophecyaboutourfamily,whichisstillpreservedamongthetraditionsofWincotAbbey?"
"Ihaveheardofsuchaprophecy,"Ianswered,"butIneverknewinwhattermsitwasexpressed。Itprofessedtopredicttheextinctionofyourfamily,orsomethingofthatsort,diditnot?"
"Noinquiries,"hewenton,"havetracedbackthatprophecytothetimewhenitwasfirstmade;noneofourfamilyrecordstellusanythingofitsorigin。Oldservantsandoldtenantsofoursremembertohavehearditfromtheirfathersandgrandfathers。
Themonks,whomwesucceededintheAbbeyinHenrytheEighth’stime,gotknowledgeofitinsomeway,forImyselfdiscoveredtherhymes,inwhichweknowtheprophecytohavebeenpreservedfromaveryremoteperiod,writtenonablankleafofoneoftheAbbeymanuscripts。Thesearetheverses,ifversestheydeservetobecalled:
WheninWincotvaultaplaceWaitsforoneofMonkton’srace——
WhenthatoneforlornshalllieGravelessunderopensky,Beggaredofsixfeetofearth,Thoughlordofacresfromhisbirth——ThatshallbeacertainsignOftheendofMonkton’sline。Dwindlingeverfaster,faster,Dwindlingtothelast—leftmaster;Frommortalken,fromlightofday,Monkton’sraceshallpassaway。"
"Thepredictionseemsalmostvagueenoughtohavebeenutteredbyanancientoracle,"saidI,observingthathewaited,afterrepeatingtheverses,asifexpectingmetosaysomething。
"Vagueornot,itisbeingaccomplished,"hereturned。"Iamnowthe’last—leftmaster’——thelastofthatelderlineofourfamilyatwhichthepredictionpoints;andthecorpseofStephenMonktonisnotinthevaultsofWincotAbbey。Waitbeforeyouexclaimagainstme。Ihavemoretosayaboutthis。LongbeforetheAbbeywasours,whenwelivedintheancientmanor—housenearit(theveryruinsofwhichhavelongsincedisappeared),thefamilyburying—placewasinthevaultundertheAbbeychapel。Whetherinthoseremotetimesthepredictionagainstuswasknownanddreadedornot,thismuchiscertain:everyoneoftheMonktons(whetherlivingattheAbbeyoronthesmallerestateinScotland)wasburiedinWincotvault,nomatteratwhatriskorwhatsacrifice。Inthefiercefightingdaysoftheoldentime,thebodiesofmyancestorswhofellinforeignplaceswererecoveredandbroughtbacktoWincot,thoughitoftencostnotheavyransomonly,butdesperatebloodshedaswell,toobtainthem。Thissuperstition,ifyoupleasetocallitso,hasneverdiedoutofthefamilyfromthattimetothepresentday;forcenturiesthesuccessionofthedeadinthevaultattheAbbeyhasbeenunbroken——absolutelyunbroken——untilnow。TheplacementionedinthepredictionaswaitingtobefilledisStephenMonkton’splace;thevoicethatcriesvainlytotheearthforshelteristhespirit—voiceofthedead。AssurelyasifIsawit,Iknowthattheyhavelefthimunburiedonthegroundwherehefell!"
HestoppedmebeforeIcouldutterawordinremonstrancebyslowlyrisingtohisfeet,andpointinginthesamedirectiontowardwhichhiseyeshadwanderedashorttimesince。
"Icanguesswhatyouwanttoaskme,"heexclaimed,sternlyandloudly;"youwanttoaskmehowIcanbemadenoughtobelieveinadoggerelprophecyutteredinanageofsuperstitiontoawethemostignoranthearers。Ianswer"(atthosewordshisvoicesanksuddenlytoawhisper),"Ianswer,because_StephenMonktonhimselfstandsthereatthismomentconfirmingmeinmybelief_。"
Whetheritwastheaweandhorrorthatlookedoutghastlyfromhisfaceasheconfrontedme,whetheritwasthatIhadneverhithertofairlybelievedinthereportsabouthismadness,andthattheconvictionoftheirtruthnowforceditselfuponmeonasudden,Iknownot,butIfeltmybloodcurdlingashespoke,andIknewinmyownheart,asIsattherespeechless,thatIdarenotturnroundandlookwherehewasstillpointingcloseatmyside。
"Iseethere,"hewenton,inthesamewhisperingvoice,"thefigureofadark—complexionedmanstandingupwithhisheaduncovered。Oneofhishands,stillclutchingapistol,hasfallentohisside;theotherpressesabloodyhandkerchiefoverhismouth。Thespasmofmortalagonyconvulseshisfeatures;butI
knowthemforthefeaturesofaswarthymanwhotwicefrightenedmebytakingmeupinhisarmswhenIwasachildatWincotAbbey。Iaskedthenursesatthetimewhothatmanwas,andtheytoldmeitwasmyuncle,StephenMonkton。Plainly,asifhestoodthereliving,Iseehimnowatyourside,withthedeath—glareinhisgreatblackeyes;andsohaveIeverseenhim,sincethemomentwhenhewasshot;athomeandabroad,wakingorsleeping,dayandnight,wearealwaystogether,whereverIgo!"
Hiswhisperingtonessankintoalmostinaudiblemurmuringashepronouncedtheselastwords。Fromthedirectionandexpressionofhiseyes,Isuspectedthathewasspeakingtotheapparition。IfIhadbehelditmyselfatthatmoment,itwouldhavebeen,I
think,alesshorriblesighttowitnessthantoseehim,asIsawhimnow,mutteringinarticulatelyatvacancy。MyownnervesweremoreshakenthanIcouldhavethoughtpossiblebywhathadpassed。Avaguedreadofbeingnearhiminhispresentmoodcameoverme,andImovedbackasteportwo。
Henoticedtheactioninstantly。
"Don’tgo!pray——praydon’tgo!HaveIalarmedyou?Don’tyoubelieveme?Dothelightsmakeyoureyesache?IonlyaskedyoutositintheglareofthecandlesbecauseIcouldnotbeartoseethelightthatalwaysshinesfromthephantomthereatduskshiningoveryouasyousatintheshadow。Don’tgo——don’tleavemeyet!"
Therewasanutterforlornness,anunspeakablemiseryinhisfaceashespokethesewords,whichgavemebackmyself—possessionbythesimpleprocessoffirstmovingmetopity。Iresumedmychair,andsaidthatIwouldstaywithhimaslongashewished。
"Thankyouathousandtimes。Youarepatienceandkindnessitself,"hesaid,goingbacktohisformerplaceandresuminghisformergentlenessofmanner。"NowthatIhavegotovermyfirstconfessionofthemiserythatfollowsmeinsecretwhereverIgo,IthinkIcantellyoucalmlyallthatremainstobetold。Yousee,asIsaid,myUncleStephen"heturnedawayhisheadquickly,andlookeddownatthetableasthenamepassedhislips——"myUncleStephencametwicetoWincotwhileIwasachild,andonbothoccasionsfrightenedmedreadfully。Heonlytookmeupinhisarmsandspoketome——verykindly,asIafterwardheard,for_him_——butheterrifiedme,nevertheless。PerhapsIwasfrightenedathisgreatstature,hisswarthycomplexion,andhisthickblackhairandmustache,asotherchildrenmighthavebeen;perhapsthemeresightofhimhadsomestrangeinfluenceonmewhichIcouldnotthenunderstandandcannotnowexplain。Howeveritwas,Iusedtodreamofhimlongafterhehadgoneaway,andtofancythathewasstealingonmetocatchmeupinhisarmswheneverIwasleftinthedark。
Theservantswhotookcareofmefoundthisout,andusedtothreatenmewithmyUncleStephenwheneverIwasperverseanddifficulttomanage。AsIgrewup,Istillretainedmyvaguedreadandabhorrenceofourabsentrelative。Ialwayslistenedintently,yetwithoutknowingwhy,wheneverhisnamewasmentionedbymyfatherormymother——listenedwithanunaccountablepresentimentthatsomethingterriblehadhappenedtohim,orwasabouttohappentome。ThisfeelingonlychangedwhenIwasleftaloneintheAbbey;andthenitseemedtomergeintotheeagercuriositywhichhadbeguntogrowonme,ratherbeforethattime,abouttheoriginoftheancientprophecypredictingtheextinctionofourrace。Areyoufollowingme?"
"Ifolloweverywordwiththeclosestattention。"
"Youmustknow,then,thatIhadfirstfoundoutsomefragmentsoftheoldrhymeinwhichtheprophecyoccursquotedasacuriosityinanantiquarianbookinthelibrary。Onthepageoppositethisquotationhadbeenpastedarudeoldwood—cut,representingadark—hairedman,whosefacewassostrangelylikewhatIrememberedofmyUncleStephenthattheportraitabsolutelystartledme。WhenIaskedmyfatheraboutthis——itwasthenjustbeforehisdeath——heeitherknew,orpretendedtoknow,nothingofit;andwhenIafterwardmentionedthepredictionhefretfullychangedthesubject。ItwasjustthesamewithourchaplainwhenIspoketohim。Hesaidtheportraithadbeendonecenturiesbeforemyunclewasborn,andcalledtheprophecydoggerelandnonsense。Iusedtoarguewithhimonthelatterpoint,askingwhyweCatholics,whobelievedthatthegiftofworkingmiracleshadneverdepartedfromcertainfavoredpersons,mightnotjustaswellbelievethatthegiftofprophecyhadneverdeparted,either?Hewouldnotdisputewithme;hewouldonlysaythatImustnotwastetimeinthinkingofsuchtrifles;
thatIhadmoreimaginationthanwasgoodforme,andmustsuppressinsteadofexcitingit。Suchadviceasthisonlyirritatedmycuriosity。IdeterminedsecretlytosearchthroughouttheoldestuninhabitedpartoftheAbbey,andtotryifIcouldnotfindoutfromforgottenfamilyrecordswhattheportraitwas,andwhentheprophecyhadbeenfirstwrittenoruttered。Didyoueverpassadayaloneinthelong—desertedchambersofanancienthouse?"
"Never!suchsolitudeasthatisnotatalltomytaste。"
"Ah!whatalifeitwaswhenIbeganmysearch。Ishouldliketoliveitoveragain。Suchtemptingsuspense,suchstrangediscoveries,suchwildfancies,suchinthrallingterrors,allbelongedtothatlife。Onlythinkofbreakingopenthedoorofaroomwhichnolivingsoulhadenteredbeforeyoufornearlyahundredyears;thinkofthefirststepforwardintoaregionofairless,awfulstillness,wherethelightfallsfaintandsicklythroughclosedwindowsandrottingcurtains;thinkoftheghostlycreakingoftheoldfloorthatcriesoutonyoufortreadingonit,stepassoftlyasyouwill;thinkofarms,helmets,weirdtapestriesofby—gonedays,thatseemtobemovingoutonyoufromthewallsasyoufirstwalkuptotheminthedimlight;
thinkofpryingintogreatcabinetsandiron—claspedchests,notknowingwhathorrorsmayappearwhenyoutearthemopen;ofporingovertheircontentstilltwilightstoleonyouanddarknessgrewterribleinthelonelyplace;oftryingtoleaveit,andnotbeingabletogo,asifsomethingheldyou;ofwindwailingatyououtside;ofshadowsdarkeningroundyou,andclosingyouupinobscuritywithin——onlythinkofthesethings,andyoumayimaginethefascinationofsuspenseandterrorinsuchalifeasminewasinthosepastdays。"
(Ishrankfromimaginingthatlife:itwasbadenoughtoseeitsresults,asIsawthembeforemenow。)
"Well,mysearchlastedmonthsandmonths;thenitwassuspendedalittle;thenresumed。InwhateverdirectionIpursueditI
alwaysfoundsomethingtoluremeon。Terribleconfessionsofpastcrimes,shockingproofsofsecretwickednessthathadbeenhiddensecurelyfromalleyesbutmine,cametolight。SometimesthesediscoverieswereassociatedwithparticularpartsoftheAbbey,whichhavehadahorribleinterestoftheirownformeeversince;sometimeswithcertainoldportraitsinthepicture—gallery,whichIactuallydreadedtolookatafterwhatI
hadfoundout。TherewereperiodswhentheresultsofthissearchofminesohorrifiedmethatIdeterminedtogiveitupentirely;
butInevercouldpersevereinmyresolution;thetemptationtogoonseemedatcertainintervalstogettoostrongforme,andthenIyieldedtoitagainandagain。AtlastIfoundthebookthathadbelongedtothemonkswiththewholeoftheprophecywrittenintheblankleaf。Thisfirstsuccessencouragedmetogetbackfurtheryetinthefamilyrecords。Ihaddiscoverednothinghithertooftheidentityofthemysteriousportrait;butthesameintuitiveconvictionwhichhadassuredmeofitsextraordinaryresemblancetomyUncleStephenseemedalsotoassuremethathemustbemorecloselyconnectedwiththeprophecy,andmustknowmoreofitthananyoneelse。Ihadnomeansofholdinganycommunicationwithhim,nomeansofsatisfyingmyselfwhetherthisstrangeideaofminewererightorwrong,untilthedaywhenmydoubtsweresettledforeverbythesameterribleproofwhichisnowpresenttomeinthisveryroom。"
Hepausedforamoment,andlookedatmeintentlyandsuspiciously;thenaskedifIbelievedallhehadsaidtomesofar。Myinstantreplyintheaffirmativeseemedtosatisfyhisdoubts,andhewenton。
"OnafineeveninginFebruaryIwasstandingaloneinoneofthedesertedroomsofthewesternturretattheAbbey,lookingatthesunset。JustbeforethesunwentdownIfeltasensationstealingovermewhichitisimpossibletoexplain。Isawnothing,heardnothing,knewnothing。Thisutterself—oblivioncamesuddenly;itwasnotfainting,forIdidnotfalltotheground,didnotmoveaninchfrommyplace。Ifsuchathingcouldbe,Ishouldsayitwasthetemporaryseparationofsoulandbodywithoutdeath;butalldescriptionofmysituationatthattimeisimpossible。Callmystatewhatyouwill,tranceorcatalepsy,IknowthatI
remainedstandingbythewindowutterlyunconscious——dead,mindandbody——untilthesunhadset。ThenIcametomysensesagain;
andthen,whenIopenedmyeyes,therewastheapparitionofStephenMonktonstandingoppositetome,faintlyluminous,justasitstandsoppositemeatthisverymomentbyyourside。"
WasthisbeforethenewsoftheduelreachedEngland?"Iasked。
"_Twoweeksbefore_thenewsofitreachedusatWincot。Andevenwhenweheardoftheduel,wedidnothearofthedayonwhichitwasfought。IonlyfoundthatoutwhenthedocumentwhichyouhavereadwaspublishedintheFrenchnewspaper。Thedateofthatdocument,youwillremember,isFebruary22d,anditisstatedthattheduelwasfoughttwodaysafterward。Iwrotedowninmypocketbook,ontheeveningwhenIsawthephantom,thedayofthemonthonwhichitfirstappearedtome。Thatdaywasthe24thofFebruary。
Hepausedagain,asifexpectingmetosaysomething。Afterthewordshehadjustspoken,whatcouldIsay?whatcouldIthink?
"Eveninthefirsthorroroffirstseeingtheapparition,"hewenton,"theprophecyagainstourhousecametomymind,andwithittheconvictionthatIbeheldbeforeme,inthatspectralpresence,thewarningofmyowndoom。AssoonasIrecoveredalittle,Idetermined,nevertheless,totesttherealityofwhatI
saw;tofindoutwhetherIwasthedupeofmyowndiseasedfancyornot。Ilefttheturret;thephantomleftitwithme。Imadeanexcusetohavethedrawing—roomattheAbbeybrilliantlylightedup;thefigurewasstilloppositeme。Iwalkedoutintothepark;
itwasthereintheclearstarlight。Iwentawayfromhome,andtraveledmanymilestothesea—side;stillthetalldarkmaninhisdeathagonywaswithme。AfterthisIstroveagainstthefatalitynomore。IreturnedtotheAbbey,andtriedtoresignmyselftomymisery。Butthiswasnottobe。Ihadahopethatwasdearertomethanmyownlife;IhadonetreasurebelongingtomethatIshudderedattheprospectoflosing;andwhenthephantompresencestoodawarningobstaclebetweenmeandthisonetreasure,thisdearesthope,thenmymiserygrewheavierthanI
couldbear。YoumustknowwhatIamalludingto;youmusthaveheardoftenthatIwasengagedtobemarried?"
"Yes,often。IhavesomeacquaintancemyselfwithMissElmslie。"
"Younevercanknowallthatshehassacrificedforme——nevercanimaginewhatIhavefeltforyearsandyearspast"——hisvoicetrembled,andthetearscameintohiseyes——"butIdarenottrustmyselftospeakofthat;thethoughtoftheoldhappydaysintheAbbeyalmostbreaksmyheartnow。Letmegetbacktotheothersubject。ImusttellyouthatIkeptthefrightfulvisionwhichpursuedme,atalltimesandinallplaces,asecretfromeverybody,knowingthevilereportsaboutmyhavinginheritedmadnessfrommyfamily,andfearingthatanunfairadvantagewouldbetakenofanyconfessionthatImightmake。Thoughthephantomalwaysstoodoppositetome,andthereforealwaysappearedeitherbeforeorbythesideofanypersontowhomI
spoke,IsoonschooledmyselftohidefromothersthatIwaslookingatitexceptonrareoccasions,whenIhaveperhapsbetrayedmyselftoyou。Butmyself—possessionavailedmenothingwithAda。Thedayofourmarriagewasapproaching。"
Hestoppedandshuddered。Iwaitedinsilencetillhehadcontrolledhimself。
"Think,"hewenton,"thinkofwhatImusthavesufferedatlookingalwaysonthathideousvisionwheneverIlookedonmybetrothedwife!Thinkofmytakingherhand,andseemingtotakeitthroughthefigureoftheapparition!Thinkofthecalmangel—faceandthetorturedspecter—facebeingalwaystogetherwhenevermyeyesmethers!Thinkofthis,andyouwillnotwonderthatIbetrayedmysecrettoher。Sheeagerlyentreatedtoknowtheworst——nay,more,sheinsistedonknowingit。AtherbiddingItoldall,andthenleftherfreetobreakourengagement。ThethoughtofdeathwasinmyheartasIspokethepartingwords——deathbymyownact,iflifestillheldoutafterourseparation。Shesuspectedthatthought;sheknewit,andneverleftmetillhergoodinfluencehaddestroyeditforever。ButforherIshouldnothavebeenalivenow;butforherIshouldneverhaveattemptedtheprojectwhichhasbroughtmehere。"
"DoyoumeanthatitwasatMissElmslie’ssuggestionthatyoucametoNaples?"Iasked,inamazement。
"ImeanthatwhatshesaidsuggestedthedesignwhichhasbroughtmetoNaples,"heanswered。"WhileIbelievedthatthephantomhadappearedtomeasthefatalmessengerofdeath,therewasnocomfort——therewasmisery,rather,inhearinghersaythatnopoweronearthshouldmakeherdesertme,andthatshewouldliveforme,andformeonly,througheverytrial。Butitwasfardifferentwhenweafterwardreasonedtogetheraboutthepurposewhichtheapparitionhadcometofulfill——fardifferentwhensheshowedmethatitsmissionmightbeforgoodinsteadofforevil,andthatthewarningitwassenttogivemightbetomyprofitinsteadoftomyloss。Atthosewords,thenewideawhichgavethenewhopeoflifecametomeinaninstant。Ibelievedthen,whatIbelievenow,thatIhaveasupernaturalwarrantformyerrandhere。InthatfaithIlive;withoutitIshoulddie。_She_
neverridiculedit,neverscorneditasinsanity。MarkwhatI
say!ThespiritthatappearedtomeintheAbbey——thathasneverleftmesince——thatstandstherenowbyyourside,warnsmetoescapefromthefatalitywhichhangsoverourrace,andcommandsme,ifIwouldavoidit,toburytheunburieddead。Mortallovesandmortalinterestsmustbowtothatawfulbidding。Thespecter—presencewillneverleavemetillIhaveshelteredthecorpsethatcriestotheearthtocoverit!Idarenotreturn——I
darenotmarrytillIhavefilledtheplacethatisemptyinWincotvault。"
Hiseyesflashedanddilated——hisvoicedeepened——afanaticecstasyshoneinhisexpressionasheutteredthesewords。
ShockedandgrievedasIwas,Imadenoattempttoremonstrateortoreasonwithhim。Itwouldhavebeenuselesstohavereferredtoanyoftheusualcommonplacesaboutopticaldelusionsordiseasedimaginations——worsethanuselesstohaveattemptedtoaccountbynaturalcausesforanyoftheextraordinarycoincidencesandeventsofwhichhehadspoken。BrieflyashehadreferredtoMissElmslie,hehadsaidenoughtoshowmethattheonlyhopeofthepoorgirlwholovedhimbestandhadknownhimlongestofanyonewasinhumoringhisdelusionstothelast。Howfaithfullyshestillclungtothebeliefthatshecouldrestorehim!Howresolutelywasshesacrificingherselftohismorbidfancies,inthehopeofahappyfuturethatmightnevercome!
LittleasIknewofMissElmslie,themerethoughtofhersituation,asInowreflectedonit,mademefeelsickatheart。
"TheycallmeMadMonkton!"heexclaimed,suddenlybreakingthesilencebetweenusduringthelastfewminutes,"HereandinEnglandeverybodybelievesIamoutofmysensesexceptAdaandyou。Shehasbeenmysalvation,andyouwillbemysalvationtoo。
SomethingtoldmethatwhenIfirstmetyouwalkingintheVillaPeale。Istruggledagainstthestrongdesirethatwasinmetotrustmysecrettoyou,butIcouldresistitnolongerwhenI
sawyouto—nightattheball;thephantomseemedtodrawmeontoyouasyoustoodaloneinthequietroom。Tellmemoreofthatideaofyoursaboutfindingtheplacewheretheduelwasfought。
IfIsetoutto—morrowtoseekforitmyself,wheremustIgotofirst?where?"Hestopped;hisstrengthwasevidentlybecomingexhausted,andhismindwasgrowingconfused。"WhatamItodo?I
can’tremember。Youknoweverything——willyounothelpme?Mymiseryhasmademeunabletohelpmyself。"
Hestopped,murmuredsomethingaboutfailingifhewenttothefrontieralone,andspokeconfusedlyofdelaysthatmightbefatal,thentriedtoutterthenameof"Ada";but,inpronouncingthefirstletter,hisvoicefaltered,and,turningabruptlyfromme,heburstintotears。
Mypityforhimgotthebetterofmyprudenceatthatmoment,andwithoutthinkingofresponsibilities,Ipromisedatoncetodoforhimwhateverheasked。ThewildtriumphinhisexpressionashestartedupandseizedmyhandshowedmethatIhadbetterhavebeenmorecautious;butitwastoolatenowtoretractwhatIhadsaid。ThenextbestthingtodowastotryifIcouldnotinducehimtocomposehimselfalittle,andthentogoawayandthinkcoollyoverthewholeaffairbymyself。
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