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  Hisfaceflushedalloverinaninstant。"Ithinkitaninspiration!"hecried。"Notadayistobelostincarryingoutourplan。Thepolicearenottobetrustedwithit。Imuststartmyselfto—morrowmorning;andyou——"
  Hestopped;hisfacegrewsuddenlypale;hesighedheavily;hiseyeswanderedoncemoreintothefixedlookatvacancy;andtherigid,deathlyexpressionfastenedagainuponallhisfeatures。
  "ImusttellyoumysecretbeforeItalkofto—morrow,"heproceeded,faintly。"IfIhesitatedanylongeratconfessingeverything,Ishouldbeunworthyofyourpastkindness,unworthyofthehelpwhichitismylasthopethatyouwillgladlygivemewhenyouhaveheardall。"
  Ibeggedhimtowaituntilhewasmorecomposed,untilhewasbetterabletospeak;buthedidnotappeartonoticewhatI
  said。Slowly,andstrugglingasitseemedagainsthimself,heturnedalittleawayfromme,and,bendinghisheadoverthetable,supporteditonhishand。ThepacketofletterswithwhichIhadseenhimoccupiedwhenIcameinlayjustbeneathhiseyes。
  Helookeddownonitsteadfastlywhenhenextspoketome。
  CHAPTERIV。
  "Youwereborn,Ibelieve,inourcounty,"hesaid;"perhaps,therefore,youmayhaveheardatsometimeofacuriousoldprophecyaboutourfamily,whichisstillpreservedamongthetraditionsofWincotAbbey?"
  "Ihaveheardofsuchaprophecy,"Ianswered,"butIneverknewinwhattermsitwasexpressed。Itprofessedtopredicttheextinctionofyourfamily,orsomethingofthatsort,diditnot?"
  "Noinquiries,"hewenton,"havetracedbackthatprophecytothetimewhenitwasfirstmade;noneofourfamilyrecordstellusanythingofitsorigin。Oldservantsandoldtenantsofoursremembertohavehearditfromtheirfathersandgrandfathers。
  Themonks,whomwesucceededintheAbbeyinHenrytheEighth’stime,gotknowledgeofitinsomeway,forImyselfdiscoveredtherhymes,inwhichweknowtheprophecytohavebeenpreservedfromaveryremoteperiod,writtenonablankleafofoneoftheAbbeymanuscripts。Thesearetheverses,ifversestheydeservetobecalled:
  WheninWincotvaultaplaceWaitsforoneofMonkton’srace——
  WhenthatoneforlornshalllieGravelessunderopensky,Beggaredofsixfeetofearth,Thoughlordofacresfromhisbirth——ThatshallbeacertainsignOftheendofMonkton’sline。Dwindlingeverfaster,faster,Dwindlingtothelast—leftmaster;Frommortalken,fromlightofday,Monkton’sraceshallpassaway。"
  "Thepredictionseemsalmostvagueenoughtohavebeenutteredbyanancientoracle,"saidI,observingthathewaited,afterrepeatingtheverses,asifexpectingmetosaysomething。
  "Vagueornot,itisbeingaccomplished,"hereturned。"Iamnowthe’last—leftmaster’——thelastofthatelderlineofourfamilyatwhichthepredictionpoints;andthecorpseofStephenMonktonisnotinthevaultsofWincotAbbey。Waitbeforeyouexclaimagainstme。Ihavemoretosayaboutthis。LongbeforetheAbbeywasours,whenwelivedintheancientmanor—housenearit(theveryruinsofwhichhavelongsincedisappeared),thefamilyburying—placewasinthevaultundertheAbbeychapel。Whetherinthoseremotetimesthepredictionagainstuswasknownanddreadedornot,thismuchiscertain:everyoneoftheMonktons(whetherlivingattheAbbeyoronthesmallerestateinScotland)wasburiedinWincotvault,nomatteratwhatriskorwhatsacrifice。Inthefiercefightingdaysoftheoldentime,thebodiesofmyancestorswhofellinforeignplaceswererecoveredandbroughtbacktoWincot,thoughitoftencostnotheavyransomonly,butdesperatebloodshedaswell,toobtainthem。Thissuperstition,ifyoupleasetocallitso,hasneverdiedoutofthefamilyfromthattimetothepresentday;forcenturiesthesuccessionofthedeadinthevaultattheAbbeyhasbeenunbroken——absolutelyunbroken——untilnow。TheplacementionedinthepredictionaswaitingtobefilledisStephenMonkton’splace;thevoicethatcriesvainlytotheearthforshelteristhespirit—voiceofthedead。AssurelyasifIsawit,Iknowthattheyhavelefthimunburiedonthegroundwherehefell!"
  HestoppedmebeforeIcouldutterawordinremonstrancebyslowlyrisingtohisfeet,andpointinginthesamedirectiontowardwhichhiseyeshadwanderedashorttimesince。
  "Icanguesswhatyouwanttoaskme,"heexclaimed,sternlyandloudly;"youwanttoaskmehowIcanbemadenoughtobelieveinadoggerelprophecyutteredinanageofsuperstitiontoawethemostignoranthearers。Ianswer"(atthosewordshisvoicesanksuddenlytoawhisper),"Ianswer,because_StephenMonktonhimselfstandsthereatthismomentconfirmingmeinmybelief_。"
  Whetheritwastheaweandhorrorthatlookedoutghastlyfromhisfaceasheconfrontedme,whetheritwasthatIhadneverhithertofairlybelievedinthereportsabouthismadness,andthattheconvictionoftheirtruthnowforceditselfuponmeonasudden,Iknownot,butIfeltmybloodcurdlingashespoke,andIknewinmyownheart,asIsattherespeechless,thatIdarenotturnroundandlookwherehewasstillpointingcloseatmyside。
  "Iseethere,"hewenton,inthesamewhisperingvoice,"thefigureofadark—complexionedmanstandingupwithhisheaduncovered。Oneofhishands,stillclutchingapistol,hasfallentohisside;theotherpressesabloodyhandkerchiefoverhismouth。Thespasmofmortalagonyconvulseshisfeatures;butI
  knowthemforthefeaturesofaswarthymanwhotwicefrightenedmebytakingmeupinhisarmswhenIwasachildatWincotAbbey。Iaskedthenursesatthetimewhothatmanwas,andtheytoldmeitwasmyuncle,StephenMonkton。Plainly,asifhestoodthereliving,Iseehimnowatyourside,withthedeath—glareinhisgreatblackeyes;andsohaveIeverseenhim,sincethemomentwhenhewasshot;athomeandabroad,wakingorsleeping,dayandnight,wearealwaystogether,whereverIgo!"
  Hiswhisperingtonessankintoalmostinaudiblemurmuringashepronouncedtheselastwords。Fromthedirectionandexpressionofhiseyes,Isuspectedthathewasspeakingtotheapparition。IfIhadbehelditmyselfatthatmoment,itwouldhavebeen,I
  think,alesshorriblesighttowitnessthantoseehim,asIsawhimnow,mutteringinarticulatelyatvacancy。MyownnervesweremoreshakenthanIcouldhavethoughtpossiblebywhathadpassed。Avaguedreadofbeingnearhiminhispresentmoodcameoverme,andImovedbackasteportwo。
  Henoticedtheactioninstantly。
  "Don’tgo!pray——praydon’tgo!HaveIalarmedyou?Don’tyoubelieveme?Dothelightsmakeyoureyesache?IonlyaskedyoutositintheglareofthecandlesbecauseIcouldnotbeartoseethelightthatalwaysshinesfromthephantomthereatduskshiningoveryouasyousatintheshadow。Don’tgo——don’tleavemeyet!"
  Therewasanutterforlornness,anunspeakablemiseryinhisfaceashespokethesewords,whichgavemebackmyself—possessionbythesimpleprocessoffirstmovingmetopity。Iresumedmychair,andsaidthatIwouldstaywithhimaslongashewished。
  "Thankyouathousandtimes。Youarepatienceandkindnessitself,"hesaid,goingbacktohisformerplaceandresuminghisformergentlenessofmanner。"NowthatIhavegotovermyfirstconfessionofthemiserythatfollowsmeinsecretwhereverIgo,IthinkIcantellyoucalmlyallthatremainstobetold。Yousee,asIsaid,myUncleStephen"heturnedawayhisheadquickly,andlookeddownatthetableasthenamepassedhislips——"myUncleStephencametwicetoWincotwhileIwasachild,andonbothoccasionsfrightenedmedreadfully。Heonlytookmeupinhisarmsandspoketome——verykindly,asIafterwardheard,for_him_——butheterrifiedme,nevertheless。PerhapsIwasfrightenedathisgreatstature,hisswarthycomplexion,andhisthickblackhairandmustache,asotherchildrenmighthavebeen;perhapsthemeresightofhimhadsomestrangeinfluenceonmewhichIcouldnotthenunderstandandcannotnowexplain。Howeveritwas,Iusedtodreamofhimlongafterhehadgoneaway,andtofancythathewasstealingonmetocatchmeupinhisarmswheneverIwasleftinthedark。
  Theservantswhotookcareofmefoundthisout,andusedtothreatenmewithmyUncleStephenwheneverIwasperverseanddifficulttomanage。AsIgrewup,Istillretainedmyvaguedreadandabhorrenceofourabsentrelative。Ialwayslistenedintently,yetwithoutknowingwhy,wheneverhisnamewasmentionedbymyfatherormymother——listenedwithanunaccountablepresentimentthatsomethingterriblehadhappenedtohim,orwasabouttohappentome。ThisfeelingonlychangedwhenIwasleftaloneintheAbbey;andthenitseemedtomergeintotheeagercuriositywhichhadbeguntogrowonme,ratherbeforethattime,abouttheoriginoftheancientprophecypredictingtheextinctionofourrace。Areyoufollowingme?"
  "Ifolloweverywordwiththeclosestattention。"
  "Youmustknow,then,thatIhadfirstfoundoutsomefragmentsoftheoldrhymeinwhichtheprophecyoccursquotedasacuriosityinanantiquarianbookinthelibrary。Onthepageoppositethisquotationhadbeenpastedarudeoldwood—cut,representingadark—hairedman,whosefacewassostrangelylikewhatIrememberedofmyUncleStephenthattheportraitabsolutelystartledme。WhenIaskedmyfatheraboutthis——itwasthenjustbeforehisdeath——heeitherknew,orpretendedtoknow,nothingofit;andwhenIafterwardmentionedthepredictionhefretfullychangedthesubject。ItwasjustthesamewithourchaplainwhenIspoketohim。Hesaidtheportraithadbeendonecenturiesbeforemyunclewasborn,andcalledtheprophecydoggerelandnonsense。Iusedtoarguewithhimonthelatterpoint,askingwhyweCatholics,whobelievedthatthegiftofworkingmiracleshadneverdepartedfromcertainfavoredpersons,mightnotjustaswellbelievethatthegiftofprophecyhadneverdeparted,either?Hewouldnotdisputewithme;hewouldonlysaythatImustnotwastetimeinthinkingofsuchtrifles;
  thatIhadmoreimaginationthanwasgoodforme,andmustsuppressinsteadofexcitingit。Suchadviceasthisonlyirritatedmycuriosity。IdeterminedsecretlytosearchthroughouttheoldestuninhabitedpartoftheAbbey,andtotryifIcouldnotfindoutfromforgottenfamilyrecordswhattheportraitwas,andwhentheprophecyhadbeenfirstwrittenoruttered。Didyoueverpassadayaloneinthelong—desertedchambersofanancienthouse?"
  "Never!suchsolitudeasthatisnotatalltomytaste。"
  "Ah!whatalifeitwaswhenIbeganmysearch。Ishouldliketoliveitoveragain。Suchtemptingsuspense,suchstrangediscoveries,suchwildfancies,suchinthrallingterrors,allbelongedtothatlife。Onlythinkofbreakingopenthedoorofaroomwhichnolivingsoulhadenteredbeforeyoufornearlyahundredyears;thinkofthefirststepforwardintoaregionofairless,awfulstillness,wherethelightfallsfaintandsicklythroughclosedwindowsandrottingcurtains;thinkoftheghostlycreakingoftheoldfloorthatcriesoutonyoufortreadingonit,stepassoftlyasyouwill;thinkofarms,helmets,weirdtapestriesofby—gonedays,thatseemtobemovingoutonyoufromthewallsasyoufirstwalkuptotheminthedimlight;
  thinkofpryingintogreatcabinetsandiron—claspedchests,notknowingwhathorrorsmayappearwhenyoutearthemopen;ofporingovertheircontentstilltwilightstoleonyouanddarknessgrewterribleinthelonelyplace;oftryingtoleaveit,andnotbeingabletogo,asifsomethingheldyou;ofwindwailingatyououtside;ofshadowsdarkeningroundyou,andclosingyouupinobscuritywithin——onlythinkofthesethings,andyoumayimaginethefascinationofsuspenseandterrorinsuchalifeasminewasinthosepastdays。"
  (Ishrankfromimaginingthatlife:itwasbadenoughtoseeitsresults,asIsawthembeforemenow。)
  "Well,mysearchlastedmonthsandmonths;thenitwassuspendedalittle;thenresumed。InwhateverdirectionIpursueditI
  alwaysfoundsomethingtoluremeon。Terribleconfessionsofpastcrimes,shockingproofsofsecretwickednessthathadbeenhiddensecurelyfromalleyesbutmine,cametolight。SometimesthesediscoverieswereassociatedwithparticularpartsoftheAbbey,whichhavehadahorribleinterestoftheirownformeeversince;sometimeswithcertainoldportraitsinthepicture—gallery,whichIactuallydreadedtolookatafterwhatI
  hadfoundout。TherewereperiodswhentheresultsofthissearchofminesohorrifiedmethatIdeterminedtogiveitupentirely;
  butInevercouldpersevereinmyresolution;thetemptationtogoonseemedatcertainintervalstogettoostrongforme,andthenIyieldedtoitagainandagain。AtlastIfoundthebookthathadbelongedtothemonkswiththewholeoftheprophecywrittenintheblankleaf。Thisfirstsuccessencouragedmetogetbackfurtheryetinthefamilyrecords。Ihaddiscoverednothinghithertooftheidentityofthemysteriousportrait;butthesameintuitiveconvictionwhichhadassuredmeofitsextraordinaryresemblancetomyUncleStephenseemedalsotoassuremethathemustbemorecloselyconnectedwiththeprophecy,andmustknowmoreofitthananyoneelse。Ihadnomeansofholdinganycommunicationwithhim,nomeansofsatisfyingmyselfwhetherthisstrangeideaofminewererightorwrong,untilthedaywhenmydoubtsweresettledforeverbythesameterribleproofwhichisnowpresenttomeinthisveryroom。"
  Hepausedforamoment,andlookedatmeintentlyandsuspiciously;thenaskedifIbelievedallhehadsaidtomesofar。Myinstantreplyintheaffirmativeseemedtosatisfyhisdoubts,andhewenton。
  "OnafineeveninginFebruaryIwasstandingaloneinoneofthedesertedroomsofthewesternturretattheAbbey,lookingatthesunset。JustbeforethesunwentdownIfeltasensationstealingovermewhichitisimpossibletoexplain。Isawnothing,heardnothing,knewnothing。Thisutterself—oblivioncamesuddenly;itwasnotfainting,forIdidnotfalltotheground,didnotmoveaninchfrommyplace。Ifsuchathingcouldbe,Ishouldsayitwasthetemporaryseparationofsoulandbodywithoutdeath;butalldescriptionofmysituationatthattimeisimpossible。Callmystatewhatyouwill,tranceorcatalepsy,IknowthatI
  remainedstandingbythewindowutterlyunconscious——dead,mindandbody——untilthesunhadset。ThenIcametomysensesagain;
  andthen,whenIopenedmyeyes,therewastheapparitionofStephenMonktonstandingoppositetome,faintlyluminous,justasitstandsoppositemeatthisverymomentbyyourside。"
  WasthisbeforethenewsoftheduelreachedEngland?"Iasked。
  "_Twoweeksbefore_thenewsofitreachedusatWincot。Andevenwhenweheardoftheduel,wedidnothearofthedayonwhichitwasfought。IonlyfoundthatoutwhenthedocumentwhichyouhavereadwaspublishedintheFrenchnewspaper。Thedateofthatdocument,youwillremember,isFebruary22d,anditisstatedthattheduelwasfoughttwodaysafterward。Iwrotedowninmypocketbook,ontheeveningwhenIsawthephantom,thedayofthemonthonwhichitfirstappearedtome。Thatdaywasthe24thofFebruary。
  Hepausedagain,asifexpectingmetosaysomething。Afterthewordshehadjustspoken,whatcouldIsay?whatcouldIthink?
  "Eveninthefirsthorroroffirstseeingtheapparition,"hewenton,"theprophecyagainstourhousecametomymind,andwithittheconvictionthatIbeheldbeforeme,inthatspectralpresence,thewarningofmyowndoom。AssoonasIrecoveredalittle,Idetermined,nevertheless,totesttherealityofwhatI
  saw;tofindoutwhetherIwasthedupeofmyowndiseasedfancyornot。Ilefttheturret;thephantomleftitwithme。Imadeanexcusetohavethedrawing—roomattheAbbeybrilliantlylightedup;thefigurewasstilloppositeme。Iwalkedoutintothepark;
  itwasthereintheclearstarlight。Iwentawayfromhome,andtraveledmanymilestothesea—side;stillthetalldarkmaninhisdeathagonywaswithme。AfterthisIstroveagainstthefatalitynomore。IreturnedtotheAbbey,andtriedtoresignmyselftomymisery。Butthiswasnottobe。Ihadahopethatwasdearertomethanmyownlife;IhadonetreasurebelongingtomethatIshudderedattheprospectoflosing;andwhenthephantompresencestoodawarningobstaclebetweenmeandthisonetreasure,thisdearesthope,thenmymiserygrewheavierthanI
  couldbear。YoumustknowwhatIamalludingto;youmusthaveheardoftenthatIwasengagedtobemarried?"
  "Yes,often。IhavesomeacquaintancemyselfwithMissElmslie。"
  "Younevercanknowallthatshehassacrificedforme——nevercanimaginewhatIhavefeltforyearsandyearspast"——hisvoicetrembled,andthetearscameintohiseyes——"butIdarenottrustmyselftospeakofthat;thethoughtoftheoldhappydaysintheAbbeyalmostbreaksmyheartnow。Letmegetbacktotheothersubject。ImusttellyouthatIkeptthefrightfulvisionwhichpursuedme,atalltimesandinallplaces,asecretfromeverybody,knowingthevilereportsaboutmyhavinginheritedmadnessfrommyfamily,andfearingthatanunfairadvantagewouldbetakenofanyconfessionthatImightmake。Thoughthephantomalwaysstoodoppositetome,andthereforealwaysappearedeitherbeforeorbythesideofanypersontowhomI
  spoke,IsoonschooledmyselftohidefromothersthatIwaslookingatitexceptonrareoccasions,whenIhaveperhapsbetrayedmyselftoyou。Butmyself—possessionavailedmenothingwithAda。Thedayofourmarriagewasapproaching。"
  Hestoppedandshuddered。Iwaitedinsilencetillhehadcontrolledhimself。
  "Think,"hewenton,"thinkofwhatImusthavesufferedatlookingalwaysonthathideousvisionwheneverIlookedonmybetrothedwife!Thinkofmytakingherhand,andseemingtotakeitthroughthefigureoftheapparition!Thinkofthecalmangel—faceandthetorturedspecter—facebeingalwaystogetherwhenevermyeyesmethers!Thinkofthis,andyouwillnotwonderthatIbetrayedmysecrettoher。Sheeagerlyentreatedtoknowtheworst——nay,more,sheinsistedonknowingit。AtherbiddingItoldall,andthenleftherfreetobreakourengagement。ThethoughtofdeathwasinmyheartasIspokethepartingwords——deathbymyownact,iflifestillheldoutafterourseparation。Shesuspectedthatthought;sheknewit,andneverleftmetillhergoodinfluencehaddestroyeditforever。ButforherIshouldnothavebeenalivenow;butforherIshouldneverhaveattemptedtheprojectwhichhasbroughtmehere。"
  "DoyoumeanthatitwasatMissElmslie’ssuggestionthatyoucametoNaples?"Iasked,inamazement。
  "ImeanthatwhatshesaidsuggestedthedesignwhichhasbroughtmetoNaples,"heanswered。"WhileIbelievedthatthephantomhadappearedtomeasthefatalmessengerofdeath,therewasnocomfort——therewasmisery,rather,inhearinghersaythatnopoweronearthshouldmakeherdesertme,andthatshewouldliveforme,andformeonly,througheverytrial。Butitwasfardifferentwhenweafterwardreasonedtogetheraboutthepurposewhichtheapparitionhadcometofulfill——fardifferentwhensheshowedmethatitsmissionmightbeforgoodinsteadofforevil,andthatthewarningitwassenttogivemightbetomyprofitinsteadoftomyloss。Atthosewords,thenewideawhichgavethenewhopeoflifecametomeinaninstant。Ibelievedthen,whatIbelievenow,thatIhaveasupernaturalwarrantformyerrandhere。InthatfaithIlive;withoutitIshoulddie。_She_
  neverridiculedit,neverscorneditasinsanity。MarkwhatI
  say!ThespiritthatappearedtomeintheAbbey——thathasneverleftmesince——thatstandstherenowbyyourside,warnsmetoescapefromthefatalitywhichhangsoverourrace,andcommandsme,ifIwouldavoidit,toburytheunburieddead。Mortallovesandmortalinterestsmustbowtothatawfulbidding。Thespecter—presencewillneverleavemetillIhaveshelteredthecorpsethatcriestotheearthtocoverit!Idarenotreturn——I
  darenotmarrytillIhavefilledtheplacethatisemptyinWincotvault。"
  Hiseyesflashedanddilated——hisvoicedeepened——afanaticecstasyshoneinhisexpressionasheutteredthesewords。
  ShockedandgrievedasIwas,Imadenoattempttoremonstrateortoreasonwithhim。Itwouldhavebeenuselesstohavereferredtoanyoftheusualcommonplacesaboutopticaldelusionsordiseasedimaginations——worsethanuselesstohaveattemptedtoaccountbynaturalcausesforanyoftheextraordinarycoincidencesandeventsofwhichhehadspoken。BrieflyashehadreferredtoMissElmslie,hehadsaidenoughtoshowmethattheonlyhopeofthepoorgirlwholovedhimbestandhadknownhimlongestofanyonewasinhumoringhisdelusionstothelast。Howfaithfullyshestillclungtothebeliefthatshecouldrestorehim!Howresolutelywasshesacrificingherselftohismorbidfancies,inthehopeofahappyfuturethatmightnevercome!
  LittleasIknewofMissElmslie,themerethoughtofhersituation,asInowreflectedonit,mademefeelsickatheart。
  "TheycallmeMadMonkton!"heexclaimed,suddenlybreakingthesilencebetweenusduringthelastfewminutes,"HereandinEnglandeverybodybelievesIamoutofmysensesexceptAdaandyou。Shehasbeenmysalvation,andyouwillbemysalvationtoo。
  SomethingtoldmethatwhenIfirstmetyouwalkingintheVillaPeale。Istruggledagainstthestrongdesirethatwasinmetotrustmysecrettoyou,butIcouldresistitnolongerwhenI
  sawyouto—nightattheball;thephantomseemedtodrawmeontoyouasyoustoodaloneinthequietroom。Tellmemoreofthatideaofyoursaboutfindingtheplacewheretheduelwasfought。
  IfIsetoutto—morrowtoseekforitmyself,wheremustIgotofirst?where?"Hestopped;hisstrengthwasevidentlybecomingexhausted,andhismindwasgrowingconfused。"WhatamItodo?I
  can’tremember。Youknoweverything——willyounothelpme?Mymiseryhasmademeunabletohelpmyself。"
  Hestopped,murmuredsomethingaboutfailingifhewenttothefrontieralone,andspokeconfusedlyofdelaysthatmightbefatal,thentriedtoutterthenameof"Ada";but,inpronouncingthefirstletter,hisvoicefaltered,and,turningabruptlyfromme,heburstintotears。
  Mypityforhimgotthebetterofmyprudenceatthatmoment,andwithoutthinkingofresponsibilities,Ipromisedatoncetodoforhimwhateverheasked。ThewildtriumphinhisexpressionashestartedupandseizedmyhandshowedmethatIhadbetterhavebeenmorecautious;butitwastoolatenowtoretractwhatIhadsaid。ThenextbestthingtodowastotryifIcouldnotinducehimtocomposehimselfalittle,andthentogoawayandthinkcoollyoverthewholeaffairbymyself。