"Turnthehandsup,"Icriedthroughthedoor。"I’llbeondeckdirectly。"
Iwasgoingouttomaketheacquaintanceofmyship。BeforeIleftthecabinoureyesmet—theeyesoftheonlytwostrangersonboard。Ipointedtotherecessedpartwherethelittlecamp—stoolawaitedhimandlaidmyfingeronmylips。Hemadeagesture—
somewhatvague—alittlemysterious,accompaniedbyafaintsmile,asifofregret。
Thisisnottheplacetoenlargeuponthesensationsofamanwhofeelsforthefirsttimeashipmoveunderhisfeettohisownindependentword。Inmycasetheywerenotunalloyed。Iwasnotwhollyalonewithmycommand;fortherewasthatstrangerinmycabin。Orrather,Iwasnotcompletelyandwhollywithher。Partofmewasabsent。Thatmentalfeelingofbeingintwoplacesatonceaffectedmephysicallyasifthemoodofsecrecyhadpenetratedmyverysoul。Beforeanhourhadelapsedsincetheshiphadbeguntomove,havingoccasiontoaskthemate(hestoodbymyside)totakeacompassbearingofthePagoda,Icaughtmyselfreachinguptohisearinwhispers。IsayIcaughtmyself,butenoughhadescapedtostartletheman。Ican’tdescribeitotherwisethanbysayingthatheshied。Agrave,preoccupiedmanner,asthoughhewereinpossessionofsomeperplexingintelligence,didnotleavehimhenceforth。AlittlelaterImovedawayfromtherailtolookatthecompasswithsuchastealthygaitthatthehelmsmannoticedit—andIcouldnothelpnoticingtheunusualroundnessofhiseyes。Thesearetriflinginstances,thoughit’stonocommander’sadvantagetobesuspectedofludicrouseccentricities。ButIwasalsomoreseriouslyaffected。
Therearetoaseamancertainwords,gestures,thatshouldingivenconditionscomeasnaturally,asinstinctivelyasthewinkingofamenacedeye。Acertainordershouldspringontohislipswithoutthinking;acertainsignshouldgetitselfmade,sotospeak,withoutreflection。Butallunconsciousalertnesshadabandonedme。Ihadtomakeaneffortofwilltorecallmyselfback(fromthecabin)totheconditionsofthemoment。IfeltthatIwasappearinganirresolutecommandertothosepeoplewhowerewatchingmemoreorlesscritically。
And,besides,therewerethescares。Ontheseconddayout,forinstance,comingoffthedeckintheafternoon(Ihadstrawslippersonmybarefeet)Istoppedattheopenpantrydoorandspoketothesteward。Hewasdoingsomethingtherewithhisbacktome。Atthesoundofmyvoicehenearlyjumpedoutofhisskin,asthesayingis,andincidentallybrokeacup。
"Whatonearth’sthematterwithyou?"Iasked,astonished。
Hewasextremelyconfused。"Begyourpardon,sir。Imadesureyouwereinyourcabin。"
"YouseeIwasn’t。"
"No,sir。IcouldhaveswornIhadheardyoumovingintherenotamomentago。It’smostextraordinary……verysorry,sir。"
Ipassedonwithaninwardshudder。IwassoidentifiedwithmysecretdoublethatIdidnotevenmentionthefactinthosescanty,fearfulwhispersweexchanged。Isupposehehadmadesomeslightnoiseofsomekindorother。Itwouldhavebeenmiraculousifhehadn’tatonetimeoranother。Andyet,haggardasheappeared,helookedalwaysperfectlyself—controlled,morethancalm—almostinvulnerable。Onmysuggestionheremainedalmostentirelyinthebathroom,which,uponthewhole,wasthesafestplace。Therecouldbereallynoshadowofanexcuseforanyoneeverwantingtogointhere,oncethestewardhaddonewithit。Itwasaverytinyplace。Sometimeshereclinedonthefloor,hislegsbent,hisheadsustainedononeelbow。AtothersIwouldfindhimonthecamp—
stool,sittinginhisgreysleeping—suitandwithhiscroppeddarkhairlikeapatient,unmovedconvict。AtnightIwouldsmugglehimintomybed—place,andwewouldwhispertogether,withtheregularfootfallsoftheofficerofthewatchpassingandrepassingoverourheads。Itwasaninfinitelymiserabletime。Itwasluckythatsometinsoffinepreserveswerestowedinalockerinmystateroom;hardbreadIcouldalwaysgetholdof;andsohelivedonstewedchicken,patedefoiegras,asparagus,cookedoysters,sardines—onallsortsofabominableshamdelicaciesoutoftins。
Myearlymorningcoffeehealwaysdrank;anditwasallIdareddoforhiminthatrespect。
Everydaytherewasthehorriblemanoeuvringtogothroughsothatmyroomandthenthebath—roomshouldbedoneintheusualway。I
cametohatethesightofthesteward,toabhorthevoiceofthatharmlessman。Ifeltthatitwashewhowouldbringonthedisasterofdiscovery。Ithunglikeaswordoverourheads。
Thefourthdayout,Ithink(wewerethenworkingdowntheeastsideoftheGulfofSiam,tackfortack,inlightwindsandsmoothwater)—thefourthday,Isay,ofthismiserablejugglingwiththeunavoidable,aswesatatoureveningmeal,thatman,whoseslightestmovementIdreaded,afterputtingdownthedishesranupondeckbusily。Thiscouldnotbedangerous。Presentlyhecamedownagain;andthenitappearedthathehadrememberedacoatofminewhichIhadthrownoverarailtodryafterhavingbeenwettedinashowerwhichhadpassedovertheshipintheafternoon。
SittingstolidlyattheheadofthetableIbecameterrifiedatthesightofthegarmentonhisarm。Ofcoursehemadeformydoor。
Therewasnotimetolose。
"Steward,"Ithundered。MynervesweresoshakenthatIcouldnotgovernmyvoiceandconcealmyagitation。Thiswasthesortofthingthatmademyterrificallywhiskeredmatetaphisforeheadwithhisforefinger。Ihaddetectedhimusingthatgesturewhiletalkingondeckwithaconfidentialairtothecarpenter。Itwastoofartohearaword,butIhadnodoubtthatthispantomimecouldonlyrefertothestrangenewcaptain。
"Yes,sir,"thepale—facedstewardturnedresignedlytome。Itwasthismaddeningcourseofbeingshoutedat,checkedwithoutrhymeorreason,arbitrarilychasedoutofmycabin,suddenlycalledintoit,sentflyingoutofhispantryonincomprehensibleerrands,thataccountedforthegrowingwretchednessofhisexpression。
"Whereareyougoingwiththatcoat?"
"Toyourroom,sir。"
"Isthereanothershowercoming?"
"I’msureIdon’tknow,sir。ShallIgoupagainandsee,sir?"
"No!nevermind。"
Myobjectwasattained,asofcoursemyotherselfintherewouldhaveheardeverythingthatpassed。Duringthisinterludemytwoofficersneverraisedtheireyesofftheirrespectiveplates;butthelipofthatconfoundedcub,thesecondmate,quiveredvisibly。
Iexpectedthestewardtohookmycoatonandcomeoutatonce。Hewasveryslowaboutit;butIdominatedmynervousnesssufficientlynottoshoutafterhim。SuddenlyIbecameaware(itcouldbeheardplainlyenough)thatthefellowforsomereasonorotherwasopeningthedoorofthebath—room。Itwastheend。Theplacewasliterallynotbigenoughtoswingacatin。MyvoicediedinmythroatandIwentstonyallover。Iexpectedtohearayellofsurpriseandterror,andmadeamovement,buthadnotthestrengthtogetonmylegs。Everythingremainedstill。Hadmysecondselftakenthepoorwretchbythethroat?Idon’tknowwhatIwouldhavedonenextmomentifIhadnotseenthestewardcomeoutofmyroom,closethedoor,andthenstandquietlybythesideboard。
"Saved,"Ithought。"But,no!Lost!Gone!Hewasgone!"
Ilaidmyknifeandforkdownandleanedbackinmychair。Myheadswam。Afterawhile,whensufficientlyrecoveredtospeakinasteadyvoice,Iinstructedmymatetoputtheshiproundateighto’clockhimself。
"Iwon’tcomeondeck,"Iwenton。"IthinkI’llturnin,andunlessthewindshiftsIdon’twanttobedisturbedbeforemidnight。Ifeelabitseedy。"
"Youdidlookmiddlingbadalittlewhileago,"thechiefmateremarkedwithoutshowinganygreatconcern。
Theybothwentout,andIstaredatthestewardclearingthetable。
Therewasnothingtobereadonthatwretchedman’sface。ButwhydidheavoidmyeyesIaskedmyself。ThenIthoughtIshouldliketohearthesoundofhisvoice。
"Steward!"
"Sir!"Startledasusual。
"Wheredidyouhangupthatcoat?"
"Inthebath—room,sir。"Theusualanxioustone。"It’snotquitedryyet,sir。"
ForsometimelongerIsatinthecuddy。Hadmydoublevanishedashehadcome?Butofhiscomingtherewasanexplanation,whereashisdisappearancewouldbeinexplicable……Iwentslowlyintomydarkroom,shutthedoor,lightedthelamp,andforatimedarednotturnround。WhenatlastIdidIsawhimstandingbolt—uprightinthenarrowrecessedpart。ItwouldnotbetruetosayIhadashock,butanirresistibledoubtofhisbodilyexistenceflittedthroughmymind。Canitbe,Iaskedmyself,thatheisnotvisibletoothereyesthanmine?Itwaslikebeinghaunted。Motionless,withagraveface,heraisedhishandsslightlyatmeinagesturewhichmeantclearly,"Heavens!whatanarrowescape!"Narrowindeed。IthinkIhadcomecreepingquietlyasnearinsanityasanymanwhohasnotactuallygoneovertheborder。Thatgesturerestrainedme,sotospeak。
Thematewiththeterrificwhiskerswasnowputtingtheshipontheothertack。InthemomentofprofoundsilencewhichfollowsuponthehandsgoingtotheirstationsIheardonthepoophisraisedvoice:"Hardalee!"andthedistantshoutoftheorderrepeatedonthemaindeck。Thesails,inthatlightbreeze,madebutafaintflutteringnoise。Itceased。Theshipwascomingroundslowly;I
heldmybreathintherenewedstillnessofexpectation;onewouldn’thavethoughtthattherewasasinglelivingsoulonherdecks。Asuddenbriskshout,"Mainsailhaul!"brokethespell,andinthenoisycriesandrushoverheadofthemenrunningawaywiththemain—bracewetwo,downinmycabin,cametogetherinourusualpositionbythebed—place。
Hedidnotwaitformyquestion。"Iheardhimfumblinghereandjustmanagedtosquatmyselfdowninthebath,"hewhisperedtome。
"Thefellowonlyopenedthedoorandputhisarmintohangthecoatup。Allthesame—"
"Ineverthoughtofthat,"Iwhisperedback,evenmoreappalledthanbeforeattheclosenessoftheshave,andmarvellingatthatsomethingunyieldinginhischaracterwhichwascarryinghimthroughsofinely。Therewasnoagitationinhiswhisper。Whoeverwasbeingdrivendistracted,itwasnothe。Hewassane。Andtheproofofhissanitywascontinuedwhenhetookupthewhisperingagain。
"Itwouldneverdoformetocometolifeagain。"
Itwassomethingthataghostmighthavesaid。Butwhathewasalludingtowashisoldcaptain’sreluctantadmissionofthetheoryofsuicide。Itwouldobviouslyservehisturn—ifIhadunderstoodatalltheviewwhichseemedtogoverntheunalterablepurposeofhisaction。
"YoumustmaroonmeassoonaseveryoucangetamongsttheseislandsofftheCambodjeshore,"hewenton。
"Maroonyou!Wearenotlivinginaboy’sadventuretale,"I
protested。Hisscornfulwhisperingtookmeup。
"Wearen’tindeed!There’snothingofaboy’staleinthis。Butthere’snothingelseforit。Iwantnomore。Youdon’tsupposeI
amafraidofwhatcanbedonetome?Prisonorgallowsorwhatevertheymayplease。Butyoudon’tseemecomingbacktoexplainsuchthingstoanoldfellowinawigandtwelverespectabletradesmen,doyou?WhatcantheyknowwhetherIamguiltyornot—orofWHAT
Iamguilty,either?That’smyaffair。WhatdoestheBiblesay?
’Drivenoffthefaceoftheearth。’Verywell。Iamoffthefaceoftheearthnow。AsIcameatnightsoIshallgo。"
"Impossible!"Imurmured。"Youcan’t。"
"Can’t?……NotnakedlikeasoulontheDayofJudgment。I
shallfreezeontothissleeping—suit。TheLastDayisnotyet—
andyouhaveunderstoodthoroughly。Didn’tyou?"
Ifeltsuddenlyashamedofmyself。ImaysaytrulythatI
understood—andmyhesitationinlettingthatmanswimawayfrommyship’ssidehadbeenamereshamsentiment,asortofcowardice。
"Itcan’tbedonenowtillnextnight,"Ibreathedout。"Theshipisontheoff—shoretackandthewindmayfailus。"
"AslongasIknowthatyouunderstand,"hewhispered。"Butofcourseyoudo。It’sagreatsatisfactiontohavegotsomebodytounderstand。Youseemtohavebeenthereonpurpose。"Andinthesamewhisper,asifwetwowheneverwetalkedhadtosaythingstoeachotherwhichwerenotfitfortheworldtohear,headded,"It’sverywonderful。"Weremainedsidebysidetalkinginoursecretway—butsometimessilentorjustexchangingawhisperedwordortwoatlongintervals。Andasusualhestaredthroughtheport。Abreathofwindcamenowandagainintoourfaces。Theshipmighthavebeenmooredindock,sogentlyandonanevenkeelsheslippedthroughthewater,thatdidnotmurmurevenatourpassage,shadowyandsilentlikeaphantomsea。
AtmidnightIwentondeck,andtomymate’sgreatsurpriseputtheshiproundontheothertack。Histerriblewhiskersflittedroundmeinsilentcriticism。Icertainlyshouldnothavedoneitifithadbeenonlyaquestionofgettingoutofthatsleepygulfasquicklyaspossible。Ibelievehetoldthesecondmate,whorelievedhim,thatitwasagreatwantofjudgment。Theotheronlyyawned。Thatintolerablecubshuffledaboutsosleepilyandlolledagainsttherailsinsuchaslack,improperfashionthatIcamedownonhimsharply。
"Aren’tyouproperlyawakeyet?"
"Yes,sir!Iamawake。"
"Well,then,begoodenoughtoholdyourselfasifyouwere。Andkeepalook—out。Ifthere’sanycurrentwe’llbeclosingwithsomeislandsbeforedaylight。"
Theeastsideofthegulfisfringedwithislands,somesolitary,othersingroups。Onthebluebackgroundofthehighcoasttheyseemtofloatonsilverypatchesofcalmwater,aridandgrey,ordarkgreenandroundedlikeclumpsofevergreenbushes,withthelargerones,amileortwolong,showingtheoutlinesofridges,ribsofgreyrockunderthedankmantleofmattedleafage。Unknowntotrade,totravel,almosttogeography,themanneroflifetheyharbourisanunsolvedsecret。Theremustbevillages—
settlementsoffishermenatleast—onthelargestofthem,andsomecommunicationwiththeworldisprobablykeptupbynativecraft。Butallthatforenoon,asweheadedforthem,fannedalongbythefaintestofbreezes,IsawnosignofmanorcanoeinthefieldofthetelescopeIkeptonpointingatthescatteredgroup。
AtnoonIgavenoordersforachangeofcourse,andthemate’swhiskersbecamemuchconcernedandseemedtobeofferingthemselvesundulytomynotice。AtlastIsaid:
"Iamgoingtostandrightin。Quitein—asfarasIcantakeher。"
Thestareofextremesurpriseimpartedanairofferocityalsotohiseyes,andhelookedtrulyterrificforamoment。
"We’renotdoingwellinthemiddleofthegulf,"Icontinued,casually。"Iamgoingtolookforthelandbreezesto—night。"
"Blessmysoul!Doyoumean,sir,inthedarkamongstthelotofallthemislandsandreefsandshoals?"
"Well—ifthereareanyregularlandbreezesatallonthiscoastonemustgetcloseinshoretofindthem,mustn’tone?"
"Blessmysoul!"heexclaimedagainunderhisbreath。Allthatafternoonheworeadreamy,contemplativeappearancewhichinhimwasamarkofperplexity。AfterdinnerIwentintomystateroomasifImeanttotakesomerest。Therewetwobentourdarkheadsoverahalf—unrolledchartlyingonmybed。
"There,"Isaid。"It’sgottobeKoh—ring。I’vebeenlookingatiteversincesunrise。Ithasgottwohillsandalowpoint。Itmustbeinhabited。Andonthecoastoppositethereiswhatlookslikethemouthofabiggishriver—withsometown,nodoubt,notfarup。It’sthebestchanceforyouthatIcansee。"
"Anything。Koh—ringletitbe。"
Helookedthoughtfullyatthechartasifsurveyingchancesanddistancesfromaloftyheight—andfollowingwithhiseyeshisownfigurewanderingontheblanklandofCochin—China,andthenpassingoffthatpieceofpapercleanoutofsightintounchartedregions。Anditwasasiftheshiphadtwocaptainstoplanhercourseforher。IhadbeensoworriedandrestlessrunningupanddownthatIhadnothadthepatiencetodressthatday。Ihadremainedinmysleeping—suit,withstrawslippersandasoftfloppyhat。Theclosenessoftheheatinthegulfhadbeenmostoppressive,andthecrewwereusedtoseemewanderinginthatairyattire。
"Shewillclearthesouthpointassheheadsnow,"Iwhisperedintohisear。"Goodnessonlyknowswhen,though,butcertainlyafterdark。I’lledgeherintohalfamile,asfarasImaybeabletojudgeinthedark—"
"Becareful,"hemurmured,warningly—andIrealisedsuddenlythatallmyfuture,theonlyfutureforwhichIwasfit,wouldperhapsgoirretrievablytopiecesinanymishaptomyfirstcommand。
Icouldnotstopamomentlongerintheroom。Imotionedhimtogetoutofsightandmademywayonthepoop。Thatunplayfulcubhadthewatch。Iwalkedupanddownforawhilethinkingthingsout,thenbeckonedhimover。
"Sendacoupleofhandstoopenthetwoquarterdeckports,"Isaid,mildly。
Heactuallyhadtheimpudence,orelsesoforgothimselfinhiswonderatsuchanincomprehensibleorder,astorepeat:
"Openthequarter—deckports!Whatfor,sir?"
"TheonlyreasonyouneedconcernyourselfaboutisbecauseItellyoutodoso。Havethemopenwideandfastenedproperly。"
Hereddenedandwentoff,butIbelievemadesomejeeringremarktothecarpenterastothesensiblepracticeofventilatingaship’squarter—deck。Iknowhepoppedintothemate’scabintoimpartthefacttohimbecausethewhiskerscameondeck,asitwerebychance,andstoleglancesatmefrombelow—forsignsoflunacyordrunkenness,Isuppose。
Alittlebeforesupper,feelingmorerestlessthanever,I
rejoined,foramoment,mysecondself。Andtofindhimsittingsoquietlywassurprising,likesomethingagainstnature,inhuman。
Idevelopedmyplaninahurriedwhisper。
"IshallstandinascloseasIdareandthenputherround。I
shallpresentlyfindmeanstosmuggleyououtofhereintothesail—locker,whichcommunicateswiththelobby。Butthereisanopening,asortofsquareforhaulingthesailsout,whichgivesstraightonthequarter—deckandwhichisneverclosedinfineweather,soastogiveairtothesails。’Whentheship’swayisdeadenedinstaysandallthehandsareaftatthemain—bracesyoushallhaveaclearroadtoslipoutandgetoverboardthroughtheopenquarter—deckport。I’vehadthembothfastenedup。Usearope’sendtoloweryourselfintothewatersoastoavoidasplash—youknow。Itcouldbeheardandcausesomebeastlycomplication。"
Hekeptsilentforawhile,thenwhispered,"Iunderstand。"
"Iwon’tbetheretoseeyougo,"Ibeganwithaneffort。"Therest……IonlyhopeIhaveunderstood,too。"
"Youhave。Fromfirsttolast"—andforthefirsttimethereseemedtobeafaltering,somethingstrainedinhiswhisper。Hecaughtholdofmyarm,buttheringingofthesupperbellmademestart。Hedidn’t,though;heonlyreleasedhisgrip。
AftersupperIdidn’tcomebelowagaintillwellpasteighto’clock。Thefaint,steadybreezewasloadedwithdew;andthewet,darkenedsailsheldalltherewasofpropellingpowerinit。
Thenight,clearandstarry,sparkleddarkly,andtheopaque,lightlesspatchesshiftingslowlyagainstthelowstarswerethedriftingislets。Ontheportbowtherewasabigonemoredistantandshadowilyimposingbythegreatspaceofskyiteclipsed。
OnopeningthedoorIhadabackviewofmyveryownselflookingatachart。Hehadcomeoutoftherecessandwasstandingnearthetable。
"Quitedarkenough,"Iwhispered。
Hesteppedbackandleanedagainstmybedwithalevel,quietglance。Isatonthecouch。Wehadnothingtosaytoeachother。
Overourheadstheofficerofthewatchmovedhereandthere。ThenIheardhimmovequickly。Iknewwhatthatmeant。Hewasmakingforthecompanion;andpresentlyhisvoicewasoutsidemydoor。
"Wearedrawinginprettyfast,sir。Landlooksratherclose。"
"Verywell,"Ianswered。"Iamcomingondeckdirectly。"
Iwaitedtillhewasgoneoutofthecuddy,thenrose。Mydoublemovedtoo。Thetimehadcometoexchangeourlastwhispers,forneitherofuswasevertoheareachother’snaturalvoice。
"Lookhere!"Iopenedadrawerandtookoutthreesovereigns。
"Takethis,anyhow。I’vegotsixandI’dgiveyouthelot,onlyI
mustkeepalittlemoneytobuysomefruitandvegetablesforthecrewfromnativeboatsaswegothroughSundaStraits。"
Heshookhishead。
"Takeit,"Iurgedhim,whisperingdesperately。"Noonecantellwhat—"
Hesmiledandslappedmeaninglytheonlypocketofthesleeping—
jacket。Itwasnotsafe,certainly。ButIproducedalargeoldsilkhandkerchiefofmine,andtyingthethreepiecesofgoldinacorner,presseditonhim。Hewastouched,Isuppose,becausehetookitatlastandtieditquicklyroundhiswaistunderthejacket,onhisbareskin。
Oureyesmet;severalsecondselapsed,till,ourglancesstillmingled,Iextendedmyhandandturnedthelampout。ThenIpassedthroughthecuddy,leavingthedoorofmyroomwideopen……
"Steward!"
Hewasstilllingeringinthepantryinthegreatnessofhiszeal,givingarub—uptoaplatedcruetstandthelastthingbeforegoingtobed。Beingcarefulnottowakeupthemate,whoseroomwasopposite,Ispokeinanundertone。
Helookedroundanxiously。"Sir!"
"Canyougetmealittlehotwaterfromthegalley?"
"Iamafraid,sir,thegalleyfire’sbeenoutforsometimenow。"
"Goandsee。"
Hefledupthestairs。
"Now,"Iwhispered,loudly,intothesaloon—tooloudly,perhaps,butIwasafraidIcouldn’tmakeasound。Hewasbymysideinaninstant—thedoublecaptainslippedpastthestairs—throughatinydarkpassage……aslidingdoor。Wewereinthesail—
locker,scramblingonourkneesoverthesails。Asuddenthoughtstruckme。Isawmyselfwanderingbarefooted,bareheaded,thesunbeatingonmydarkpoll。Isnatchedoffmyfloppyhatandtriedhurriedlyinthedarktoramitonmyotherself。Hedodgedandfendedoffsilently。Iwonderwhathethoughthadcometomebeforeheunderstoodandsuddenlydesisted。Ourhandsmetgropingly,lingeredunitedinasteady,motionlessclaspforasecond……Nowordwasbreathedbyeitherofuswhentheyseparated。
Iwasstandingquietlybythepantrydoorwhenthestewardreturned。
"Sorry,sir。Kettlebarelywarm。ShallIlightthespirit—lamp?"
"Nevermind。"
Icameoutondeckslowly。Itwasnowamatterofconsciencetoshavethelandascloseaspossible—fornowhemustgooverboardwhenevertheshipwasputinstays。Must!Therecouldbenogoingbackforhim。AfteramomentIwalkedovertoleewardandmyheartflewintomymouthatthenearnessofthelandonthebow。UnderanyothercircumstancesIwouldnothaveheldonaminutelonger。
Thesecondmatehadfollowedmeanxiously。
IlookedontillIfeltIcouldcommandmyvoice。"Shewillweather,"Isaidtheninaquiettone。"Areyougoingtotrythat,sir?"hestammeredoutincredulously。
Itooknonoticeofhimandraisedmytonejustenoughtobeheardbythehelmsman。
"Keephergoodfull。"
"Goodfull,sir。"
Thewindfannedmycheek,thesailsslept,theworldwassilent。
Thestrainofwatchingthedarkloomofthelandgrowbiggeranddenserwastoomuchforme。Ihadshutmyeyes—becausetheshipmustgocloser。Shemust!Thestillnesswasintolerable。Werewestandingstill?
WhenIopenedmyeyesthesecondviewstartedmyheartwithathump。TheblacksouthernhillofKoh—ringseemedtohangrightovertheshiplikeatoweringfragmentoftheeverlastingnight。
Onthatenormousmassofblacknesstherewasnotagleamtobeseen,notasoundtobeheard。Itwasglidingirresistiblytowardusandyetseemedalreadywithinreachofthehand。Isawthevaguefiguresofthewatchgroupedinthewaist,gazinginawedsilence。
"Areyougoingon,sir,"inquiredanunsteadyvoiceatmyelbow。
Iignoredit。Ihadtogoon。
"Keepherfull。Don’tcheckherway。Thatwon’tdonow,"Isaid,warningly。
"Ican’tseethesailsverywell,"thehelmsmanansweredme,instrange,quaveringtones。
Wasshecloseenough?Alreadyshewas,Iwon’tsayintheshadowoftheland,butintheveryblacknessofit,alreadyswallowedupasitwere,gonetooclosetoberecalled,gonefrommealtogether。
"Givethemateacall,"Isaidtotheyoungmanwhostoodatmyelbowasstillasdeath。"Andturnallhandsup。"
Mytonehadaborrowedloudnessreverberatedfromtheheightoftheland。Severalvoicescriedouttogether:"Weareallondeck,sir。"
Thenstillnessagain,withthegreatshadowglidingcloser,toweringhigher,withoutalight,withoutasound。SuchahushhadfallenontheshipthatshemighthavebeenabarkofthedeadfloatinginslowlyundertheverygateofErebus。
"MyGod!Wherearewe?"
Itwasthematemoaningatmyelbow。Hewasthunderstruck,andasitweredeprivedofthemoralsupportofhiswhiskers。Heclappedhishandsandabsolutelycriedout,"Lost!"
"Bequiet,"Isaid,sternly。
Heloweredhistone,butIsawtheshadowygestureofhisdespair。
"Whatarewedoinghere?"
"Lookingforthelandwind。"
Hemadeasiftotearhishair,andaddressedmerecklessly。
"Shewillnevergetout。Youhavedoneit,sir。Iknewit’dendinsomethinglikethis。Shewillneverweather,andyouaretooclosenowtostay。She’lldriftashorebeforeshe’sround。OmyGod!"
Icaughthisarmashewasraisingittobatterhispoordevotedhead,andshookitviolently。
"She’sashorealready,"hewailed,tryingtotearhimselfaway。
"Isshe?……Keepgoodfullthere!"
"Goodfull,sir,"criedthehelmsmaninafrightened,thin,child—
likevoice。
Ihadn’tletgothemate’sarmandwentonshakingit。"Readyabout,doyouhear?Yougoforward"—shake—"andstopthere"—
shake—"andholdyournoise"—shake—"andseethesehead—sheetsproperlyoverhauled"—shake,shake—shake。
AndallthetimeIdarednotlooktowardthelandlestmyheartshouldfailme。Ireleasedmygripatlastandheranforwardasiffleeingfordearlife。
Iwonderedwhatmydoublethereinthesail—lockerthoughtofthiscommotion。Hewasabletoheareverything—andperhapshewasabletounderstandwhy,onmyconscience,ithadtobethusclose—
noless。Myfirstorder"Hardalee!"re—echoedominouslyunderthetoweringshadowofKoh—ringasifIhadshoutedinamountaingorge。AndthenIwatchedthelandintently。Inthatsmoothwaterandlightwinditwasimpossibletofeeltheshipcoming—to。No!
Icouldnotfeelher。Andmysecondselfwasmakingnowreadytoslipoutandlowerhimselfoverboard。Perhapshewasgonealready……?
Thegreatblackmassbroodingoverourverymastheadsbegantopivotawayfromtheship’ssidesilently。AndnowIforgotthesecretstrangerreadytodepart,andrememberedonlythatIwasatotalstrangertotheship。Ididnotknowher。Wouldshedoit?
Howwasshetobehandled?
Iswungthemainyardandwaitedhelplessly。Shewasperhapsstopped,andherveryfatehunginthebalance,withtheblackmassofKoh—ringlikethegateoftheeverlastingnighttoweringoverhertaffrail。Whatwouldshedonow?Hadshewayonheryet?I
steppedtothesideswiftly,andontheshadowywaterIcouldseenothingexceptafaintphosphorescentflashrevealingtheglassysmoothnessofthesleepingsurface。Itwasimpossibletotell—
andIhadnotlearnedyetthefeelofmyship。Wasshemoving?
WhatIneededwassomethingeasilyseen,apieceofpaper,whichI
couldthrowoverboardandwatch。Ihadnothingonme。TorundownforitIdidn’tdare。Therewasnotime。Allatoncemystrained,yearningstaredistinguishedawhiteobjectfloatingwithinayardoftheship’sside。Whiteontheblackwater。Aphosphorescentflashpassedunderit。Whatwasthatthing?……Irecognisedmyownfloppyhat。Itmusthavefallenoffhishead……andhedidn’tbother。
NowIhadwhatIwanted—thesavingmarkformyeyes。ButI
hardlythoughtofmyotherself,nowgonefromtheship,tobehiddenforeverfromallfriendlyfaces,tobeafugitiveandavagabondontheearth,withnobrandofthecurseonhissaneforeheadtostayaslayinghand……tooproudtoexplain。
AndIwatchedthehat—theexpressionofmysuddenpityforhismereflesh。Ithadbeenmeanttosavehishomelessheadfromthedangersofthesun。Andnow—behold—itwassavingtheship,byservingmeforamarktohelpouttheignoranceofmystrangeness。
Ha!Itwasdriftingforward,warningmejustintimethattheshiphadgatheredsternway。
"Shiftthehelm,"Isaidinalowvoicetotheseamanstandingstilllikeastatue。
Theman’seyesglistenedwildlyinthebinnaclelightashejumpedroundtotheothersideandspunroundthewheel。
Iwalkedtothebreakofthepoop。Ontheovershadoweddeckallhandsstoodbytheforebraceswaitingformyorder。Thestarsaheadseemedtobeglidingfromrighttoleft。AndallwassostillintheworldthatIheardthequietremark"She’sround,"
passedinatoneofintensereliefbetweentwoseamen。
"Letgoandhaul。"
Theforeyardsranroundwithagreatnoise,amidstcheerycries。
Andnowthefrightfulwhisker’smadethemselvesheardgivingvariousorders。Alreadytheshipwasdrawingahead。AndIwasalonewithher。Nothing!nooneintheworldshouldstandnowbetweenus,throwingashadowonthewayofsilentknowledgeandmuteaffection,theperfectcommunionofaseamanwithhisfirstcommand。
Walkingtothetaffrail,Iwasintimetomakeout,ontheveryedgeofadarknessthrownbyatoweringblackmassliketheverygatewayofErebus—yes,Iwasintimetocatchanevanescentglimpseofmywhitehatleftbehindtomarkthespotwherethesecretsharerofmycabinandofmythoughts,asthoughheweremysecondself,hadloweredhimselfintothewatertotakehispunishment:afreeman,aproudswimmerstrikingoutforanewdestiny。
FREYAOFTHESEVENISLES
Oneday—andthatdaywasmanyyearsagonow—Ireceivedalong,chattyletterfromoneofmyoldchumsandfellow—wanderersinEasternwaters。Hewasstilloutthere,butsettleddown,andmiddle—aged;Iimaginedhim—grownportlyinfigureanddomesticinhishabits;inshort,overtakenbythefatecommontoallexcepttothosewho,beingspeciallybelovedbythegods,getknockedontheheadearly。Theletterwasofthereminiscent"doyouremember"kind—awistfulletterofbackwardglances。And,amongstotherthings,"surelyyourememberoldNelson,"hewrote。
RememberoldNelson!Certainly。Andtobeginwith,hisnamewasnotNelson。TheEnglishmenintheArchipelagocalledhimNelsonbecauseitwasmoreconvenient,Isuppose,andheneverprotested。
Itwouldhavebeenmerepedantry。ThetrueformofhisnamewasNielsen。HehadcomeoutEastlongbeforetheadventoftelegraphcables,hadservedEnglishfirms,hadmarriedanEnglishgirl,hadbeenoneofusforyears,tradingandsailinginalldirectionsthroughtheEasternArchipelago,acrossandaround,transversely,diagonally,perpendicularly,insemi—circles,andzigzags,andfiguresofeights,foryearsandyears。
TherewasnonookorcrannyofthesetropicalwatersthattheenterpriseofoldNelson(orNielsen)hadnotpenetratedinaneminentlypacificway。Histracks,ifplottedout,wouldhavecoveredthemapoftheArchipelagolikeacobweb—allofit,withthesoleexceptionofthePhilippines。Hewouldneverapproachthatpart,fromastrangedreadofSpaniards,or,tobeexact,oftheSpanishauthorities。Whatheimaginedtheycoulddotohimitisimpossibletosay。PerhapsatsometimeinhislifehehadreadsomestoriesoftheInquisition。
Buthewasingeneralafraidofwhathecalled"authorities";nottheEnglishauthorities,whichhetrustedandrespected,buttheothertwoofthatpartoftheworld。HewasnotsohorrifiedattheDutchashewasattheSpaniards,buthewasevenmoremistrustfulofthem。Verymistrustfulindeed。TheDutch,inhisview,werecapableof"playinganyuglytrickonaman"whohadthemisfortunetodispleasethem。Thereweretheirlawsandregulations,buttheyhadnonotionoffairplayinapplyingthem。
Itwasreallypitiabletoseetheanxiouscircumspectionofhisdealingswithsomeofficialorother,andrememberthatthismanhadbeenknowntostrolluptoavillageofcannibalsinNewGuineainaquiet,fearlessmanner(andnotethathewasalwaysfleshyallhislife,and,ifImaysayso,anappetisingmorsel)onsomematterofbarterthatdidnotamountperhapstofiftypoundsintheend。
RememberoldNelson!Rather!Truly,noneofusinmygenerationhadknownhiminhisactivedays。Hewas"retired"inourtime。
Hehadbought,orelseleased,partofasmallislandfromtheSultanofalittlegroupcalledtheSevenIsles,notfarnorthfromBanka。Itwas,Isuppose,alegitimatetransaction,butIhavenodoubtthathadhebeenanEnglishmantheDutchwouldhavediscoveredareasontofirehimoutwithoutceremony。Inthisconnectiontherealformofhisnamestoodhimingoodstead。InthecharacterofanunassumingDanewhoseconductwasmostcorrect,theylethimbe。Withallhismoneyengagedincultivationhewasnaturallycarefulnottogiveeventheshadowofoffence,anditwasmostlyforprudentialreasonsofthatsortthathedidnotlookwithafavourableeyeonJasperAllen。Butofthatlater。Yes!
OnerememberedwellenougholdNelson’sbig,hospitablebungalowerectedonashelvingpointofland,hisportlyform,costumedgenerallyinawhiteshirtandtrousers(hehadaconfirmedhabitoftakingoffhisalpacajacketontheslightestprovocation),hisroundblueeyes,hisstraggly,sandy—whitemoustachestickingoutallwayslikethequillsofthefretfulporcupine,hispropensitytositdownsuddenlyandfanhimselfwithhishat。Butthere’snouseconcealingthefactthatwhatonerememberedreallywashisdaughter,whoatthattimecameouttolivewithhim—andbeasortofLadyoftheIsles。
FreyaNelson(orNielsen)wasthekindofgirloneremembers。Theovalofherfacewasperfect;andwithinthatfascinatingframethemosthappydispositionoflineandfeature,withanadmirablecomplexion,gaveanimpressionofhealth,strength,andwhatI
mightcallunconsciousself—confidence—amostpleasantand,asitwere,whimsicaldetermination。Iwillnotcomparehereyestoviolets,becausetherealshadeoftheircolourwaspeculiar,notsodarkandmorelustrous。Theywereofthewide—openkind,andlookedatonefranklyineverymood。Ineverdidseethelong,darkeyelasheslowered—IdaresayJasperAllendid,beingaprivilegedperson—butIhavenodoubtthattheexpressionmusthavebeencharminginacomplexway。Shecould—Jaspertoldmeoncewithatouchinglyimbecileexultation—sitonherhair。I
daresay,Idaresay。Itwasnotformetobeholdthesewonders;I
wascontenttoadmiretheneatandbecomingwaysheusedtodoitupsoasnottoconcealthegoodshapeofherhead。Andthiswealthofhairwassoglossythatwhenthescreensofthewestverandahweredown,makingapleasanttwilightthere,orintheshadeofthegroveoffruit—treesnearthehouse,itseemedtogiveoutagoldenlightofitsown。
Shedressedgenerallyinawhitefrock,withaskirtofwalkinglength,showingherneat,laced,brownboots。Iftherewasanycolourabouthercostumeitwasjustabitofblueperhaps。Noexertionseemedtodistressher。Ihaveseenherlandfromthedinghyafteralongpullinthesun(sherowedherselfaboutagooddeal)withnoquickenedbreathandnotasinglehairoutofitsplace。Inthemorningwhenshecameoutontheverandahforthefirstlookwestward,Sumatraway,overthesea,sheseemedasfreshandsparklingasadewdrop。Butadewdropisevanescent,andtherewasnothingevanescentaboutFreya。Irememberherround,solidarmswiththefinewrists,andherbroad,capablehandswithtaperingfingers。
Idon’tknowwhethershewasactuallybornatsea,butIdoknowthatuptotwelveyearsofageshesailedaboutwithherparentsinvariousships。AfteroldNelsonlosthiswifeitbecameamatterofseriousconcernforhimwhattodowiththegirl。AkindladyinSingapore,touchedbyhisdumbgriefanddeplorableperplexity,offeredtotakechargeofFreya。Thisarrangementlastedsomesixyears,duringwhicholdNelson(orNielsen)"retired"andestablished,himselfonhisisland,andthenitwassettled(thekindladygoingawaytoEurope)thathisdaughtershouldjoinhim。
AsthefirstandmostimportantpreparationforthateventtheoldfelloworderedfromhisSingaporeagentaSteynandEbhart’s"uprightgrand。"Iwasthencommandingalittlesteamerintheislandtrade,anditfelltomylottotakeitouttohim,soI
knowsomethingofFreya’s"uprightgrand。"Welandedtheenormouspacking—casewithdifficultyonaflatpieceofrockamongstsomebushes,nearlyknockingthebottomoutofoneofmyboatsinthecourseofthatnauticaloperation。Then,allmycrewassisting,engineersandfiremenincluded,bytheexerciseofmuchanxiousingenuity,andbymeansofrollers,levers,tackles,andinclinedplanesofsoapedplanks,toilinginthesunlikeancientEgyptiansatthebuildingofapyramid,wegotitasfarasthehouseandupontotheedgeofthewestverandah—whichwastheactualdrawing—
roomofthebungalow。There,thecasebeingrippedoffcautiously,thebeautifulrosewoodmonsterstoodrevealedatlast。Inreverentexcitementwecoaxeditagainstthewallanddrewthefirstfreebreathoftheday。Itwascertainlytheheaviestmovableobjectonthatisletsincethecreationoftheworld。Thevolumeofsounditgaveoutinthatbungalow(whichactedasasounding—board)wasreallyastonishing。Itthunderedsweetlyrightoverthesea。
JasperAllentoldmethatearlyofamorningonthedeckoftheBonito(hiswonderfullyfastandprettybrig)hecouldhearFreyaplayingherscalesquitedistinctly。Butthefellowalwaysanchoredfoolishlyclosetothepoint,asItoldhimmorethanonce。Ofcourse,theseseasarealmostuniformlyserene,andtheSevenIslesisaparticularlycalmandcloudlessspotasarule。
Butstill,nowandagain,anafternoonthunderstormoverBanka,orevenoneoftheseviciousthicksqualls,fromthedistantSumatracoast,wouldmakeasuddensallyuponthegroup,envelopingitforacoupleofhoursinwhirlwindsandbluish—blackmurkofaparticularlysinisteraspect。Then,withtheloweredrattan—
screensrattlingdesperatelyinthewindandthebungalowshakingallover,FreyawouldsitdowntothepianoandplayfierceWagnermusicintheflickerofblindingflashes,withthunderboltsfallingallround,enoughtomakeyourhairstandonend;andJasperwouldremainstockstillontheverandah,adoringthebackviewofhersupple,swayingfigure,themiraculoussheenofherfairhead,therapidhandsonthekeys,thewhitenapeofherneck—whilethebrig,downatthepointthere,surgedathercableswithinahundredyardsofnasty,shiny,blackrock—heads。Ugh!
Andthis,ifyouplease,fornoreasonbutthat,whenhewentonboardatnightandlaidhisheadonthepillow,heshouldfeelthathewasasnearashecouldconvenientlygettohisFreyaslumberinginthebungalow。Didyouever!And,mind,thisbrigwasthehometobe—theirhome—thefloatingparadisewhichhewasgraduallyfittingoutlikeayachttosailhislifeblissfullyawayinwithFreya。Imbecile!Butthefellowwasalwaystakingchances。
Oneday,IrememberIwatchedwithFreyaontheverandahthebrigapproachingthepointfromthenorthward。IsupposeJaspermadethegirloutwithhislongglass。Whatdoeshedo?Insteadofstandingonforanothermileandahalfalongtheshoalsandthentackingfortheanchorageinaproperandseamanlikemanner,hespiesagapbetweentwodisgustingoldjaggedreefs,putsthehelmdownsuddenly,andshootsthebrigthrough,withallhersailsshakingandrattling,sothatwecouldheartheracketontheverandah。Idrewmybreaththroughmyteeth,Icantellyou,andFreyaswore。Yes!Sheclenchedhercapablefistsandstampedwithherprettybrownbootandsaid"Damn!"Then,lookingatmewithalittleheightenedcolour—notmuch—sheremarked,"Iforgotyouwerethere,"andlaughed。Tobesure,tobesure。WhenJasperwasinsightshewasnotlikelytorememberthatanybodyelseintheworldwasthere。InmyconcernatthismadtrickIcouldn’thelpappealingtohersympatheticcommonsense。
"Isn’theafool?"Isaidwithfeeling。
"Perfectidiot,"sheagreedwarmly,lookingatmestraightwithherwide—open,earnesteyesandthedimpleofasmileonhercheek。
"Andthat,"Ipointedouttoher,"justtosavetwentyminutesorsoinmeetingyou。"
Weheardtheanchorgodown,andthenshebecameveryresoluteandthreatening。
"Waitabit。I’llteachhim。"
Shewentintoherownroomandshutthedoor,leavingmealoneontheverandahwithmyinstructions。Longbeforethebrig’ssailswerefurled,Jaspercameupthreestepsatatime,forgettingtosayhowd’yedo,andlookingrightandlefteagerly。
"Where’sFreya?Wasn’tsheherejustnow?"
WhenIexplainedtohimthathewastobedeprivedofMissFreya’spresenceforawholehour,"justtoteachhim,"hesaidIhadputheruptoit,nodoubt,andthathefearedhewouldhaveyettoshootmesomeday。SheandIweregettingtoothicktogether。
Thenheflunghimselfintoachair,andtriedtotalktomeabouthistrip。Butthefunnythingwasthatthefellowactuallysuffered。Icouldseeit。Hisvoicefailedhim,andhesattheredumb,lookingatthedoorwiththefaceofamaninpain。Fact……Andthenextstillfunnierthingwasthatthegirlcalmlywalkedoutofherroominlessthantenminutes。AndthenIleft。
ImeantosaythatIwentawaytoseekoldNelson(orNielsen)onthebackverandah,whichwashisownspecialnookinthedistributionofthathouse,withthekindpurposeofengaginghiminconversationlestheshouldstartroamingaboutandintrudeunwittinglywherehewasnotwantedjustthen。
Heknewthatthebrighadarrived,thoughhedidnotknowthatJasperwasalreadywithhisdaughter。Isupposehedidn’tthinkitwaspossibleinthetime。Afathernaturallywouldn’t。HesuspectedthatAllenwassweetonhisgirl;thefowlsoftheairandthefishesofthesea,mostofthetradersintheArchipelago,andallsortsandconditionsofmeninthetownofSingaporewereawareofit。Buthewasnotcapableofappreciatinghowfarthegirlwasgoneonthefellow。HehadanideathatFreyawastoosensibletoeverbegoneonanybody—Imeantoanunmanageableextent。No;itwasnotthatwhichmadehimsitonthebackverandahandworryhimselfinhisunassumingmannerduringJasper’svisits。WhatheworriedaboutweretheDutch"authorities。"ForitisafactthattheDutchlookedaskanceatthedoingsofJasperAllen,ownerandmasterofthebrigBonito。Theyconsideredhimmuchtooenterprisinginhistrading。Idon’tknowthatheeverdidanythingillegal;butitseemstomethathisimmenseactivitywasrepulsivetotheirstolidcharacterandslow—goingmethods。
Anyway,inoldNelson’sopinion,thecaptainoftheBonitowasasmartsailor,andaniceyoungman,butnotadesirableacquaintanceuponthewhole。Somewhatcompromising,youunderstand。Ontheotherhand,hedidnotliketotellJasperinsomanywordstokeepaway。PooroldNelsonhimselfwasanicefellow。Ibelievehewouldhaveshrunkfromhurtingthefeelingsevenofamop—headedcannibal,unless,perhaps,underverystrongprovocation。Imeanthefeelings,notthebodies。Asagainstspears,knives,hatchets,clubs,orarrows,oldNelsonhadprovedhimselfcapableoftakinghisownpart。Ineveryotherrespecthehadatimoroussoul。Sohesatonthebackverandahwithaconcernedexpression,andwheneverthevoicesofhisdaughterandJasperAllenreachedhim,hewouldblowouthischeeksandlettheairescapewithadismalsound,likeamuchtriedman。
NaturallyIderidedhisfearswhichhe,moreorless,confidedtome。Hehadacertainregardformyjudgment,andacertainrespect,notformymoralqualities,however,butforthegoodtermsIwassupposedtobeonwiththeDutch"authorities。"Iknewforafactthathisgreatestbugbear,theGovernorofBanka—acharming,peppery,hearty,retiredrear—admiral—hadadistinctlikingforhim。ThisconsolingassurancewhichIusedalwaystoputforward,madeoldNelson(orNielsen)brightenupforamoment;
butintheendhewouldshakehisheaddoubtfully,asmuchastosaythatthiswasallverywell,butthatthereweredepthsintheDutchofficialnaturewhichnoonebuthimselfhadeverfathomed。
Perfectlyridiculous。
OnthisoccasionIamspeakingof,oldNelsonwasevenfretty;forwhileIwastryingtoentertainhimwithaveryfunnyandsomewhatscandalousadventurewhichhappenedtoacertainacquaintanceofoursinSaigon,heexclaimedsuddenly:
"Whatthedevilhewantstoturnupherefor!"
Clearlyhehadnotheardawordoftheanecdote。Andthisannoyedme,becausetheanecdotewasreallygood。Istaredathim。
"Come,come!"Icried。"Don’tyouknowwhatJasperAllenisturningupherefor?"
ThiswasthefirstopenallusionIhadevermadetothetruestateofaffairsbetweenJasperandhisdaughter。Hetookitverycalmly。
"Oh,Freyaisasensiblegirl!"hemurmuredabsently,hismind’seyeobviouslyfixedonthe"authorities。"No;Freyawasnofool。
Hewasnotconcernedaboutthat。Hedidn’tminditintheleast。
Thefellowwasjustcompanyforher;heamusedthegirl;nothingmore。
Whentheperspicaciousoldchapleftoffmumbling,allwasstillinthehouse。Theothertwowereamusingthemselvesveryquietly,andnodoubtveryheartily。Whatmoreabsorbingandlessnoisyamusementcouldtheyhavefoundthantoplantheirfuture?Sidebysideontheverandahtheymusthavebeenlookingatthebrig,thethirdpartyinthatfascinatinggame。Withouthertherewouldhavebeennofuture。Shewasthefortuneandthehome,andthegreatfreeworldforthem。Whowasitthatlikenedashiptoaprison?
MayIbeignominiouslyhangedatayardarmifthat’strue。Thewhitesailsofthatcraftwerethewhitewings—pinions,I
believe,wouldbethemorepoeticalstyle—well,thewhitepinions,oftheirsoaringlove。SoaringasregardsJasper。Freya,beingawoman,keptabetterholdofthemundaneconnectionsofthisaffair。
ButJasperwaselevatedinthetruesenseofthewordeversincethedaywhen,aftertheyhadbeengazingatthebriginoneofthosedecisivesilencesthataloneestablishaperfectcommunionbetweencreaturesgiftedwithspeech,heproposedthatsheshouldsharetheownershipofthattreasurewithhim。Indeed,hepresentedthebrigtoheraltogether。ButthenhisheartwasinthebrigsincethedayheboughtherinManillafromacertainmiddle—agedPeruvian,inasobersuitofblackbroadcloth,enigmaticandsententious,who,forallIknow,mighthavestolenherontheSouthAmericancoast,whencehesaidhehadcomeovertothePhilippines"forfamilyreasons。"This"forfamilyreasons"
wasdistinctlygood。NotrueCABALLEROwouldcaretopushoninquiriesaftersuchastatement。
Indeed,JasperwasquitetheCABALLERO。Thebrigherselfwasthenallblackandenigmatical,andverydirty;atarnishedgemofthesea,or,rather,aneglectedworkofart。Forhemusthavebeenanartist,theobscurebuilderwhohadputherbodytogetheronlovelylinesoutofthehardesttropicaltimberfastenedwiththepurestcopper。Goodnessonlyknowsinwhatpartoftheworldshewasbuilt。Jasperhimselfhadnotbeenabletoascertainmuchofherhistoryfromhissententious,saturninePeruvian—ifthefellowwasaPeruvian,andnotthedevilhimselfindisguise,asJasperjocularlypretendedtobelieve。Myopinionisthatshewasoldenoughtohavebeenoneofthelastpirates,aslaverperhaps,orelseanopiumclipperoftheearlydays,ifnotanopiumsmuggler。
Howeverthatmaybe,shewasassoundasonthedayshefirsttookthewater,sailedlikeawitch,steeredlikealittleboat,and,likesomefairwomenofadventurouslifefamousinhistory,seemedtohavethesecretofperpetualyouth;sothattherewasnothingunnaturalinJasperAllentreatingherlikealover。Andthattreatmentrestoredthelustreofherbeauty。Heclothedherinmanycoatsoftheverybestwhitepaintsoskilfully,carefully,artisticallyputonandkeptcleanbyhisbadgeredcrewofpickedMalays,thatnocostlyenamelsuchasjewellersusefortheirworkcouldhavelookedbetterandfeltsmoothertothetouch。Anarrowgiltmouldingdefinedherelegantsheerasshesatonthewater,eclipsingeasilytheprofessionalgoodlooksofanypleasureyachtthatevercametotheEastinthosedays。Formyself,ImustsayI
preferamouldingofdeepcrimsoncolouronawhitehull。Itgivesastrongerreliefbesidesbeinglessexpensive;andItoldJasperso。Butno,nothinglessthanthebestgold—leafwoulddo,becausenodecorationcouldbegorgeousenoughforthefutureabodeofhisFreya。
Hisfeelingsforthebrigandforthegirlwereasindissolublyunitedinhisheartasyoumayfusetwopreciousmetalstogetherinonecrucible。Andtheflamewasprettyhot,Icanassureyou。Itinducedinhimafierceinwardrestlessnessbothofactivityanddesire。Toofineinface,withalateralwaveinhischestnuthair,spare,long—limbed,withaneagerglintinhissteelyeyesandquick,brusquemovements,hemademethinksometimesofaflashingsword—bladeperpetuallyleapingoutofthescabbard。Itwasonlywhenhewasnearthegirl,whenhehadhertheretolookat,thatthispeculiarlytenseattitudewasreplacedbyagravedevoutwatchfulnessofherslightestmovementsandutterances。Hercool,resolute,capable,good—humouredself—possessionseemedtosteadyhisheart。Wasitthemagicofherface,ofhervoice,ofherglanceswhichcalmedhimso?Yettheseweretheverythingsonemustbelievewhichhadsethisimaginationablaze—iflovebeginsinimagination。ButIamnomantodiscusssuchmysteries,anditstrikesmethatwehaveneglectedpooroldNelsoninflatinghischeeksinastateofworryonthebackverandah。
Ipointedouttohimthat,afterall,Jasperwasnotaveryfrequentvisitor。HeandhisbrigworkedhardallovertheArchipelago。ButalloldNelsonsaid,andhesaidituneasily,was:
"IhopeHeemskirkwon’tturnupherewhilethebrig’sabout。"
GettingupascareaboutHeemskirknow!Heemskirk!……Really,onehadn’tthepatience—
CHAPTERII
For,pray,whowasHeemskirk?YoushallseeatoncehowunreasonablethisdreadofHeemskirk……Certainly,hisnaturewasmalevolentenough。Thatwasobvious,directlyyouheardhimlaugh。Nothinggivesawaymoreaman’ssecretdispositionthantheunguardedringofhislaugh。But,blessmysoul!ifweweretostartateveryevilguffawlikeahareateverysound,weshouldn’tbefitforanythingbutthesolitudeofadesert,ortheseclusionofahermitage。Andeventhereweshouldhavetoputupwiththeunavoidablecompanyofthedevil。
However,thedevilisaconsiderablepersonage,whohasknownbetterdaysandhasmovedhighupinthehierarchyofCelestialHost;butinthehierarchyofmereearthlyDutchmen,Heemskirk,whoseearlydayscouldnothavebeenverysplendid,wasmerelyanavalofficerfortyyearsofage,ofnoparticularconnectionsorabilitytoboastof。HewascommandingtheNeptun,alittlegunboatemployedondrearypatroldutyupanddowntheArchipelago,tolookafterthetraders。Notaveryexaltedpositiontruly。I
tellyou,justacommonmiddle—agedlieutenantofsometwenty—fiveyears’serviceandsuretoberetiredbeforelong—that’sall。
HeneverbotheredhisheadverymuchastowhatwasgoingonintheSevenIslesgrouptillhelearnedfromsometalkinMintokorPalembang,Isuppose,thattherewasaprettygirllivingthere。
Curiosity,Ipresume,causedhimtogopokingaroundthatway,andthen,afterhehadonceseenFreya,hemadeapracticeofcallingatthegroupwheneverhefoundhimselfwithinhalfaday’ssteamingfromit。