ElizabethEndorfieldhadareputeamongwomenwhichwasinitsnaturesomethingbetweendistinctionandnotoriety。Itwasfoundedonthefollowingitemsofcharacter。Shewasshrewdandpenetrating;herhousestoodinalonelyplace;sheneverwenttochurch;sheworearedcloak;shealwaysretainedherbonnetindoorsandshehadapointedchin。ThusfarherattributesweredistinctlySatanic;andthosewholookednofurthercalledher,inplaintermsawitch。Butshewasnotgaunt,noruglyintheupperpartofherface,norparticularlystrangeinmanner;sothat,whenhermoreintimateacquaintancesspokeofherthetermwassoftened,andshebecamesimplyaDeepBody,whowasaslong—headedasshewashigh。
ItmaybestatedthatElizabeth,belongedtoaclassofsuspectswhoweregraduallylosingtheirmysteriouscharacteristicsundertheadministrationoftheyoungvicar;though,duringthelongreignofMr。Grinham,theparishofMellstockhadprovedextremelyfavourabletothegrowthofwitches。
WhileFancywasrevolvingallthisinhermind,andputtingittoherselfwhetheritwasworthwhiletotellhertroublestoElizabeth,andaskheradviceingettingoutofthem,thewitchspoke。
"Youbedown——properdown,"shesaidsuddenly,droppinganotherpotatointothebucket。
Fancytooknonotice。
"Aboutyouryoungman。"
Fancyreddened。Elizabethseemedtobewatchingherthoughts。
Really,onewouldalmostthinkshemusthavethepowerspeopleascribedtoher。
"Fathernotinthehumourfor’t,hey?"Anotherpotatowasfinishedandflungin。"Ah,Iknowaboutit。Littlebirdstellmethingsthatpeopledon’tdreamofmyknowing。"
FancywasdesperateaboutDick,andherewasachance——O,suchawickedchance——ofgettinghelp;andwhatwasgoodnessbesidelove!
"Iwishyou’dtellmehowtoputhiminthehumourforit?"shesaid。
"ThatIcouldsoondo,"saidthewitchquietly。
"Really?O,do;anyhow——Idon’tcare——sothatitisdone!HowcouldIdoit,Mrs。Endorfield?"
"Nothingsomightywonderfulinit。"
"Well,buthow?"
"Bywitchery,ofcourse!"saidElizabeth。
"No!"saidFancy。
"’Tis,Iassureye。Didn’tyoueverhearIwasawitch?"
"Well,"hesitatedFancy,"Ihaveheardyoucalledso。"
"Andyoubelievedit?"
"Ican’tsaythatIdidexactlybelieveit,for’tisveryhorribleandwicked;but,O,howIdowishitwaspossibleforyoutobeone!"
"SoIam。AndI’lltellyouhowtobewitchyourfathertoletyoumarryDickDewy。"
"Willithurthim,poorthing?"
"Hurtwho?"
"Father。"
"No;thecharmisworkedbycommonsense,andthespellcanonlybebrokebyyouractingstupidly。"
Fancylookedratherperplexed,andElizabethwenton:
"ThisfearofLizz——whatever’tis—
Bygreatandsmall;
Shemakespretencetocommonsense,Andthat’sall。
"Youmustdoitlikethis。"Thewitchlaiddownherknifeandpotato,andthenpouredintoFancy’searalonganddetailedlistofdirections,glancingupfromthecornerofhereyeintoFancy’sfacewithanexpressionofsinisterhumour。Fancy’sfacebrightened,clouded,roseandsank,asthenarrativeproceeded。"There,"saidElizabethatlength,stoopingfortheknifeandanotherpotato,"dothat,andyou’llhavehimby—longandby—late,mydear。"
"AnddoitIwill!"saidFancy。
Shethenturnedherattentiontotheexternalworldoncemore。Theraincontinuedasusual,butthewindhadabatedconsiderablyduringthediscourse。Judgingthatitwasnowpossibletokeepanumbrellaerect,shepulledherhoodagainoverherbonnet,badethewitchgood—bye,andwentherway。
CHAPTERIV:THESPELL
Mrs。Endorfield’sadvicewasdulyfollowed。
"Ibepropersorrythatyourdaughterisn’tsowellasshemightbe,"saidaMellstockmantoGeoffreyonemorning。
"Butisthereanythinginit?"saidGeoffreyuneasily,asheshiftedhishattotheright。"Ican’tunderstandthereport。Shedidn’tcomplaintomeabitwhenIsawher。"
"Noappetiteatall,theysay。"
GeoffreycrossedtoMellstockandcalledattheschoolthatafternoon。Fancywelcomedhimasusual,andaskedhimtostayandtaketeawithher。
"Ibe’n’tmuchfortea,thistimeo’day,"hesaid,butstayed。
Duringthemealhewatchedhernarrowly。Andtohisgreatconsternationdiscoveredthefollowingunprecedentedchangeinthehealthygirl——thatshecutherselfonlyadiaphanoussliceofbread—
and—butter,and,layingitonherplate,passedthemeal—timeinbreakingitintopieces,buteatingnomorethanaboutone—tenthoftheslice。GeoffreyhopedshewouldsaysomethingaboutDick,andfinishupbyweeping,asshehaddoneafterthedecisionagainsthimafewdayssubsequenttotheinterviewinthegarden。Butnothingwassaid,andinduetimeGeoffreydepartedagainforYalburyWood。
"’TistobehopedpoorMissFancywillbeabletokeeponherschool,"saidGeoffrey’smanEnochtoGeoffreythefollowingweek,astheywereshovellingupant—hillsinthewood。
Geoffreystuckintheshovel,sweptsevenoreightantsfromhissleeve,andkilledanotherthatwasprowlingroundhisear,thenlookedperpendicularlyintotheearthasusual,waitingforEnochtosaymore。"Well,whyshouldn’tshe?"saidthekeeperatlast。
"Thebakertoldmeyesterday,"continuedEnoch,shakingoutanotheremmetthathadrunmerrilyuphisthigh,"thatthebreadhe’veleftatthatthereschool—housethislastmonthwouldstarveanymouseinthethreecreations;that’twouldso!AndafterwardsIhadapinto’smalldownatMorrs’s,andthereIheardmore。"
"Whatmightthatha’been?"
"Thatsheusedtohaveapoundo’thebestrolledbutteraweek,regularasclockwork,fromDairymanViney’sforherself,aswellasjustsomuchsaltedforthehelpinggirl,andthe’oomanshecallsin;butnowthesamequantityd’lastherthreeweeks,andthen’tisthoughtedshethrowsitawaysour。"
"Finishdoingtheemmets,andcarrythebaghome—along。"Thekeeperresumedhisgun,tuckeditunderhisarm,andwentonwithoutwhistlingtothedogs,whohoweverfollowed,withabearingmeanttoimplythattheydidnotexpectanysuchattentionswhentheirmasterwasreflecting。
OnSaturdaymorninganotecamefromFancy。Hewasnottotroubleaboutsendingherthecoupleofrabbits,aswasintended,becauseshefearedsheshouldnotwantthem。LaterinthedayGeoffreywenttoCasterbridgeandcalleduponthebutcherwhoservedFancywithfreshmeat,whichwasputdowntoherfather’saccount。
"I’vecalledtopayupourlittlebill,NeighbourHaylock,andyoucangiemethechiel’saccountatthesametime。"
Mr。Haylockturnedroundthreequartersofacircleinthemidstofaheapofjoints,alteredtheexpressionofhisfacefrommeattomoney,wentintoalittleofficeconsistingonlyofadoorandawindow,lookedveryvigorouslyintoabookwhichpossessedlengthbutnobreadth;andthen,seizingapieceofpaperandscribblingthereupon,handedthebill。
Probablyitwasthefirsttimeinthehistoryofcommercialtransactionsthatthequalityofshortnessinabutcher’sbillwasacauseoftribulationtothedebtor。"Why,thisisn’tallshe’vehadinawholemonth!"saidGeoffrey。
"Everymossel,"saidthebutcher——"(now,Dan,takethatlegandshouldertoMrs。White’s,andthiselevenpoundheretoMr。
Martin’s)——you’vebeentreatinghertosmallerjointslately,tomythinking,Mr。Day?"
"Onlytwoorthreelittlescramrabbitsthislastweek,asIamalive——IwishIhad!"
"Well,mywifesaidtome——(Dan!nottoomuch,nottoomuchonthattrayatatime;bettergotwice)——mywifesaidtomeasshepostedupthebooks:shesays,"MissDaymusthavebeensummerduringthathotmuggyweathermuchforus;fordependupon’t,"shesays,"she’vebeentryingJohnGrimmettunknowntous:seeheraccountelse。"
’Tislittle,ofcourse,atthebestoftimes,beingonlyforone,butnow’tisnextkintonothing。"
"I’llinquire,"saidGeoffreydespondingly。
HereturnedbywayofMellstock,andcalleduponFancy,infulfilmentofapromise。ItbeingSaturday,thechildrenwereenjoyingaholiday,andonenteringtheresidenceFancywasnowheretobeseen。Nan,thecharwoman,wassweepingthekitchen。
"Where’smyda’ter?"saidthekeeper。
"Well,youseeshewastiredwiththeweek’steaching,andthismorningshesaid,"Nan,Isha’n’tgetuptilltheevening。"Yousee,Mr。Day,ifpeopledon’teat,theycan’twork;andasshe’vegie’dupeating,shemustgieupworking。"
"Haveyecarriedupanydinnertoher?"
"No;shedon’twantany。There,weallknowthatsuchthingsdon’tcomewithoutgoodreason——notthatIwishtosayanythingaboutabrokenheart,oranythingofthekind。"
Geoffrey’sownheartfeltinconvenientlylargejustthen。Hewenttothestaircaseandascendedtohisdaughter’sdoor。
"Fancy!"
"Comein,father。"
Toseeapersoninbedfromanycausewhatever,onafineafternoon,isdepressingenough;andherewashisonlychildFancy,notonlyinbed,butlookingverypale。Geoffreywasvisiblydisturbed。
"Fancy,Ididn’texpecttoseetheehere,chiel,"hesaid。"What’sthematter?"
"I’mnotwell,father。"
"How’sthat?"
"BecauseIthinkofthings。"
"Whatthingscanyouhavetothinko’somortalmuch?"
"Youknow,father。"
"YouthinkI’vebeencrueltotheeinsayingthatthatpennilessDicko’thinesha’n’tmarrythee,Isuppose?"
Noanswer。
"Well,youknow,Fancy,Idoitforthebest,andheisn’tgoodenoughforthee。Youknowthatwellenough。"Hereheagainlookedatherasshelay。"Well,Fancy,Ican’tletmyonlychieldie;andifyoucan’tlivewithouten,youmustha’en,Isuppose。"
"O,Idon’twanthimlikethat;allagainstyourwill,andeverythingsodisobedient!"sighedtheinvalid。
"No,no,’tisn’tagainstmywill。Mywishis,nowId’seehow’tishurtentheetolivewithouten,thatheshallmarrytheeassoonaswe’veconsideredalittle。That’smywishflatandplain,Fancy。
There,nevercry,mylittlemaid!Yououghttoha’criedafore;noneedo’cryingnow’tisallover。Well,howsoever,trytostepoverandseemeandmother—lawto—morrow,andha’abitofdinnerwi’
us。"
"And——Dicktoo?"
"Ay,Dicktoo,’far’sIknow。"
"AndWHENdoyouthinkyou’llhaveconsidered,father,andhemaymarryme?"shecoaxed。
"Well,there,saynextMidsummer;that’snotadaytoolongtowait。"
OnleavingtheschoolGeoffreywenttothetranter’s。OldWilliamopenedthedoor。
"IsyourgrandsonDickin’ithin,William?"
"No,notjustnow,Mr。Day。Thoughhe’vebeenathomeagooddeallately。"
"O,how’sthat?"
"Whatwi’onething,andwhatwi’t’other,he’sallinamope,asmightbesaid。Don’tseemthefellerheusedto。Ay,’awillsitstuddingandthinkingasif’aweregoingtoturnchapel—member,andthendonothingbuttraypseandwambleabout。Usedtobesuchachattyboy,too,Dickdid;andnow’adon’tspeakatall。Butwon’tyestepinside?Reubenwillbehomesoon,’ab’lieve。"
"No,thankyou,Ican’tstaynow。WillyejustaskDickifhe’lldomethekindnesstostepovertoYalburyto—morrowwithmyda’terFancy,ifshe’swellenough?Idon’tlikehertocomebyherself,nowshe’snotsoterribletoppinginhealth。"
"SoI’veheard。Ay,sure,I’lltellhimwithoutfail。"
CHAPTERV:AFTERGAININGHERPOINT
ThevisittoGeoffreypassedoffasdelightfullyasavisitmighthavebeenexpectedtopassoffwhenitwasthefirstdayofsmoothexperienceinahithertoobstructedlove—course。Andthencameaseriesofseveralhappydays,ofthesameundisturbedserenity。
Dickcouldcourtherwhenhechose;stayawaywhenhechose,——whichwasnever;walkwithherbywindingstreamsandwaterfallsandautumnscenerytilldewsaridtwilightsentthemhome。AndthustheydrewnearthedayoftheHarvestThanksgiving,whichwasalsothetimechosenforopeningtheorganinMellstockChurch。
ItchancedthatDickonthatverydaywascalledawayfromMellstock。AyoungacquaintancehaddiedofconsumptionatCharmley,aneighbouringvillage,onthepreviousMonday,andDick,infulfilmentofalong—standingpromise,wastoassistincarryinghimtothegrave。WhenonTuesday,DickwenttowardstheschooltoacquaintFancywiththefact,itisdifficulttosaywhetherhisowndisappointmentatbeingdeniedthesightofhertriumphantdebutasorganist,wasgreaterthanhisvexationthathispetshouldonthisgreatoccasionbedeprivedofthepleasureofhispresence。
However,theintelligencewascommunicated。Sheboreitasshebestcould,notwithoutmanyexpressionsofregret,andconvictionsthatherperformancewouldbenothingtohernow。
Justbeforeeleveno’clockonSundayhesetoutuponhissaderrand。
Thefuneralwastobeimmediatelyafterthemorningservice,andastherewerefourgoodmilestowalk,drivingbeinginconvenient,itbecamenecessarytostartcomparativelyearly。Halfanhourlaterwouldcertainlyhaveansweredhispurposequiteaswell,yetatthelastmomentnothingwouldcontenthisardentmindbutthathemustgoamileoutofhiswayinthedirectionoftheschool,inthehopeofgettingaglimpseofhisLoveasshestartedforchurch。
Striking,therefore,intothelanetowardstheschool,insteadofacrosstheeweleasedirecttoCharmley,hearrivedoppositeherdoorashisgoddessemerged。
Ifeverawomanlookedadivinity,FancyDayappearedonethatmorningasshefloateddownthoseschoolsteps,intheformofanebulouscollectionofcoloursincliningtoblue。Withanaudacityunparalleledinthewholehistoryofvillage—school—mistressesatthisdate——partlyowing,nodoubt,topapa’srespectableaccumulationofcash,whichrenderedherprofessionnotaltogetheroneofnecessity——shehadactuallydonnedahatandfeather,andloweredherhithertoplainlylooped—uphair,whichnowfellabouthershouldersinaprofusionofcurls。PoorDickwasastonished:
hehadneverseenherlooksodistractinglybeautifulbefore,saveonChristmas—eve,whenherhairwasinthesameluxuriantconditionoffreedom。Buthisfirstburstofdelightedsurprisewasfollowedbylesscomfortablefeelings,assoonashisbrainrecovereditspowertothink。
Fancyhadblushed;——wasitwithconfusion?Shehadalsoinvoluntarilypressedbackhercurls。Shehadnotexpectedhim。
"Fancy,youdidn’tknowmeforamomentinmyfuneralclothes,didyou?"
"Good—morning,Dick——no,really,Ididn’tknowyouforaninstantinsuchasadsuit。"
Helookedagainatthegaytressesandhat。"You’veneverdressedsocharmingbefore,dearest。"
"Iliketohearyoupraisemeinthatway,Dick,"shesaid,smilingarchly。"Itismeatanddrinktoawoman。DoIlooknicereally?"
"Fie!youknowit。Didyouremember,——Imeandidn’tyourememberaboutmygoingawayto—day?"
"Well,yes,Idid,Dick;but,youknow,Iwantedtolookwell;——
forgiveme。"
"Yes,darling;yes,ofcourse,——there’snothingtoforgive。No,I
wasonlythinkingthatwhenwetalkedonTuesdayandWednesdayandThursdayandFridayaboutmyabsenceto—day,andIwassosorryforit,yousaid,Fancy,sowereyousorry,andalmostcried,andsaiditwouldbenopleasuretoyoutobetheattractionofthechurchto—day,sinceIcouldnotbethere。"
"Mydearone,neitherwillitbesomuchpleasuretome……ButI
dotakealittledelightinmylife,Isuppose,"shepouted。
"Apartfrommine?"
Shelookedathimwithperplexedeyes。"Iknowyouarevexedwithme,Dick,anditisbecausethefirstSundayIhavecurlsandahatandfeathersinceIhavebeenherehappenstobetheverydayyouareawayandwon’tbewithme。Yes,sayitis,forthatisit!AndyouthinkthatallthisweekIoughttohaverememberedyouwouldn’tbehereto—day,andnothavecaredtobebetterdressedthanusual。
Yes,youdo,Dick,anditisratherunkind!"
"No,no,"saidDickearnestlyandsimply,"Ididn’tthinksobadlyofyouasthat。Ionlythoughtthat——ifYOUhadbeengoingaway,I
shouldn’thavetriednewattractionsfortheeyesofotherpeople。
ButthenofcourseyouandIaredifferent,naturally。"
"Well,perhapsweare。"
"Whateverwillthevicarsay,Fancy?"
"Idon’tfearwhathesaysintheleast!"sheansweredproudly。
"Buthewon’tsayanythingofthesortyouthink。No,no。"
"Hecanhardlyhaveconscienceto,indeed。"
"Nowcome,yousay,Dick,thatyouquiteforgiveme,forImustgo,"
shesaidwithsuddengaiety,andskippedbackwardsintotheporch。
"Comehere,sir;——sayyouforgiveme,andthenyoushallkissme;——
youneverhaveyetwhenIhaveworncurls,youknow。Yes,justwhereyouwanttosomuch,——yes,youmay!"
Dickfollowedherintotheinnercorner,wherehewasprobablynotslowinavailinghimselfoftheprivilegeoffered。
"Nowthat’satreatforyou,isn’tit?"shecontinued。"Good—bye,orIshallbelate。Comeandseemeto—morrow:you’llbetiredtonight。"
Thustheyparted,andFancyproceededtothechurch。Theorganstoodononesideofthechancel,closetoandundertheimmediateeyeofthevicarwhenhewasinthepulpit,andalsoinfullviewofthecongregation。Hereshesatdown,forthefirsttimeinsuchaconspicuousposition,herseathavingpreviouslybeeninaremotespotintheaisle。
"Goodheavens——disgraceful!Curlsandahatandfeather!"saidthedaughtersofthesmallgentry,whohadeitheronlycurlyhairwithoutahatandfeather,orahatandfeatherwithoutcurlyhair。
"Abonnetforchurchalways,"saidsobermatrons。
ThatMr。Mayboldwasconsciousofherpresenceclosebesidehimduringthesermon;thathewasnotatallangryatherdevelopmentofcostume;thatheadmiredher,sheperceived。Butshedidnotseethathelovedherduringthatsermon—timeashehadneverlovedawomanbefore;thatherproximitywasastrangedelighttohim;andthathegloriedinhermusicalsuccessthatmorninginaspiritquitebeyondamerecleric’sgloryattheinaugurationofaneworderofthings。
Theoldchoir,withhumbledhearts,nolongertooktheirseatsinthegalleryasheretofore(whichwasnowgivenuptotheschool—
childrenwhowerenotsingers,andapupil—teacher),butwerescatteredaboutwiththeirwivesindifferentpartsofthechurch。
Havingnothingtodowithconductingtheserviceforalmostthefirsttimeintheirlives,theyallfeltawkward,outofplace,abashed,andinconveniencedbytheirhands。Thetranterhadproposedthattheyshouldstayawayto—dayandgonutting,butgrandfatherWilliamwouldnothearofsuchathingforamoment。
"No,"herepliedreproachfully,andquotedaverse"Thoughthishascomeuponus,letnotourheartsbeturnedback,orourstepsgooutoftheway。"
Sotheystoodandwatchedthecurlsofhairtrailingdownthebackofthesuccessfulrival,andthewavingofherfeather,assheswayedherhead。Afterafewtimidnotesanduncertaintouchesherplayingbecamemarkedlycorrect,andtowardstheendfullandfree。
But,whetherfromprejudiceorunbiassedjudgment,thevenerablebodyofmusicianscouldnothelpthinkingthatthesimplernotestheyhadbeenwonttobringforthweremoreinkeepingwiththesimplicityoftheiroldchurchthanthecrowdedchordsandinterludesitwasherpleasuretoproduce。
CHAPTERVI:INTOTEMPTATION
Thedaywasdone,andFancywasagainintheschool—house。Aboutfiveo’clockitbegantorain,andinratheradullframeofmindshewanderedintotheschoolroom,forwantofsomethingbettertodo。Shewasthinking——ofherloverDickDewy?Notprecisely。Ofhowwearyshewasoflivingalone:howunbearableitwouldbetoreturntoYalburyundertheruleofherstrange—temperedstep—
mother;thatitwasfarbettertobemarriedtoanybodythandothat;thateightorninelongmonthshadyettobelivedthrougheretheweddingcouldtakeplace。
AtthesideoftheroomwerehighwindowsofHam—hillstone,uponeithersillofwhichshecouldsitbyfirstmountingadeskandusingitasafootstool。Astheeveningadvancedheresheperchedherself,aswashercustomonsuchwetandgloomyoccasions,putonalightshawlandbonnet,openedthewindow,andlookedoutattherain。
ThewindowoverlookedafieldcalledtheGrove,anditwasthepositionfromwhichsheusedtosurveythecrownofDick’spassinghatintheearlydaysoftheiracquaintanceandmeetings。Notalivingsoulwasnowvisibleanywhere;therainkeptallpeopleindoorswhowerenotforcedabroadbynecessity,andnecessitywaslessimportunateonSundaysthanduringtheweek。
Sittinghereandthinkingagain——ofherlover,orofthesensationshehadcreatedatchurchthatday?——well,itisunknown——thinkingandthinkingshesawadarkmasculinefigurearisingintodistinctnessatthefurtherendoftheGrove——amanwithoutanumbrella。Nearerandnearerhecame,andsheperceivedthathewasindeepmourning,andthenthatitwasDick。Yes,inthefondnessandfoolishnessofhisyoungheart,afterwalkingfourmiles,inadrizzlingrainwithoutovercoatorumbrella,andinfaceofaremarkfromhislovethathewasnottocomebecausehewouldbetired,hehadmadeithisbusinesstowanderthismileoutofhiswayagain,fromsheerwishofspendingtenminutesinherpresence。
"ODick,howwetyouare!"shesaid,ashedrewupunderthewindow。
"Why,yourcoatshinesasifithadbeenvarnished,andyourhat——mygoodness,there’sastreaminghat!"
"O,Idon’tmind,darling!"saidDickcheerfully。"Wetneverhurtsme,thoughIamrathersorryformybestclothes。However,itcouldn’tbehelped;welentalltheumbrellastothewomen。Idon’tknowwhenIshallgetmineback!"
"Andlook,there’sanastypatchofsomethingjustonyourshoulder。"
"Ah,that’sjapanning;itrubbedofftheclampsofpoorJack’scoffinwhenweloweredhimfromourshouldersuponthebier!I
don’tcareaboutthat,for’twasthelastdeedIcoulddoforhim;
and’tishardifyoucan’taffordacoatforanoldfriend。"
Fancyputherhandtohermouthforhalfaminute。Underneaththepalmofthatlittlehandthereexistedforthathalf—minutealittleyawn。
"Dick,Idon’tlikeyoutostandthereinthewet。Andyoumustn’tsitdown。Gohomeandchangeyourthings。Don’tstayanotherminute。"
"Onekissaftercomingsofar,"hepleaded。
"IfIcanreach,then。"
Helookedratherdisappointedatnotbeinginvitedroundtothedoor。Shetwistedfromherseatedpositionandbentherselfdownwards,butnotevenbystandingontheplinthwasitpossibleforDicktogethislipsintocontactwithhersassheheldthem。
Bygreatexertionshemighthavereachedalittlelower;butthenshewouldhaveexposedherheadtotherain。
"Nevermind,Dick;kissmyhand,"shesaid,flingingitdowntohim。
"Now,good—bye。"
"Good—bye。"
Hewalkedslowlyaway,turningandturningagaintolookathertillhewasoutofsight。Duringtheretreatshesaidtoherself,almostinvoluntarily,andstillconsciousofthatmorning’striumph——"I
likeDick,andIlovehim;buthowplainandsorryamanlooksintherain,withnoumbrella,andwetthrough!"
Ashevanished,shemadeasiftodescendfromherseat;butglancingintheotherdirectionshesawanotherformcomingalongthesametrack。Itwasalsothatofaman。He,too,wasinblackfromtoptotoe;buthecarriedanumbrella。
Hedrewnearer,andthedirectionoftheraincausedhimsotoslanthisumbrellathatfromherheightabovethegroundhisheadwasinvisible,asshewasalsotohim。Hepassedinduetimedirectlybeneathher,andinlookingdownupontheexteriorofhisumbrellaherfeminineeyesperceivedittobeofsuperiorsilk——lesscommonatthatdatethansince——andofelegantmake。Hereachedtheentrancetothebuilding,andFancysuddenlylostsightofhim。
InsteadofpursuingtheroadwayasDickhaddonehehadturnedsharplyroundintoherownporch。
Shejumpedtothefloor,hastilyflungoffhershawlandbonnet,smoothedandpattedherhairtillthecurlshunginpassablecondition,andlistened。Noknock。Nearlyaminutepassed,andstilltherewasnoknock。Thentherearoseasoftseriesofraps,nolouderthanthetappingofadistantwoodpecker,andbarelydistinctenoughtoreachherears。Shecomposedherselfandflungopenthedoor。
IntheporchstoodMr。Maybold。
Therewasawarmflushuponhisface,andabrightflashinhiseyes,whichmadehimlookhandsomerthanshehadeverseenhimbefore。
"Good—evening,MissDay。"
"Good—evening,Mr。Maybold,"shesaid,inastrangestateofmind。
Shehadnoticed,beyondtheardenthueofhisface,thathisvoicehadasingulartremorinit,andthathishandshooklikeanaspenleafwhenhelaidhisumbrellainthecorneroftheporch。Withoutanotherwordbeingspokenbyeither,hecameintotheschoolroom,shutthedoor,andmovedclosetoher。Onceinside,theexpressionofhisfacewasnomorediscernible,byreasonoftheincreasingduskofevening。
"Iwanttospeaktoyou,"hethensaid;"seriously——onaperhapsunexpectedsubject,butonewhichisalltheworldtome——Idon’tknowwhatitmaybetoyou,MissDay。"
Noreply。
"Fancy,Ihavecometoaskyouifyouwillbemywife?"
Asapersonwhohasbeenidlyamusinghimselfwithrollingasnowballmightstartatfindinghehadsetinmotionanavalanche,sodidFancystartatthesewordsfromthevicar。Andinthedeadsilencewhichfollowedthem,thebreathingsofthemanandofthewomancouldbedistinctlyandseparatelyheard;andtherewasthisdifferencebetweenthem——hisrespirationsgraduallygrewquieterandlessrapidaftertheenunciationhers,fromhavingbeenlowandregular,increasedinquicknessandforce,tillshealmostpanted。
"Icannot,Icannot,Mr。Maybold——Icannot!Don’taskme!"shesaid。
"Don’tanswerinahurry!"heentreated。"Anddolistentome。
Thisisnosuddenfeelingonmypart。Ihavelovedyouformorethansixmonths!Perhapsmylateinterestinteachingthechildrenherehasnotbeensosingle—mindedasitseemed。Youwillunderstandmymotive——likemebetter,perhaps,forhonestlytellingyouthatIhavestruggledagainstmyemotioncontinually,becauseI
havethoughtthatitwasnotwellformetoloveyou!ButI
resolvedtostrugglenolonger;Ihaveexaminedthefeeling;andtheloveIbearyouisasgenuineasthatIcouldbearanywoman!Iseeyourgreatcharm;Irespectyournaturaltalents,andtherefinementtheyhavebroughtintoyournature——theyarequiteenough,andmorethanenoughforme!Theyareequaltoanythingeverrequiredofthemistressofaquietparsonage—house——theplaceinwhichIshallpassmydays,whereveritmaybesituated。OFancy,Ihavewatchedyou,criticizedyouevenseverely,broughtmyfeelingstothelightofjudgment,andstillhavefoundthemrational,andsuchasanymanmighthaveexpectedtobeinspiredwithbyawomanlikeyou!Sothereisnothinghurried,secret,oruntowardinmydesiretodothis。Fancy,willyoumarryme?"
Noanswerwasreturned。
"Don’trefuse;don’t,"heimplored。"Itwouldbefoolishofyou——I
meancruel!Ofcoursewewouldnotlivehere,Fancy。IhavehadforalongtimetheofferofanexchangeoflivingswithafriendinYorkshire,butIhavehithertorefusedonaccountofmymother。
Therewewouldgo。Yourmusicalpowersshallbestillfurtherdeveloped;youshallhavewhateverpianoforteyoulike;youshallhaveanything,Fancy,anythingtomakeyouhappy——pony—carriage,flowers,birds,pleasantsociety;yes,youhaveenoughinyouforanysociety,afterafewmonthsoftravelwithme!Willyou,Fancy,marryme?"
Anotherpauseensued,variedonlybythesurgingoftherainagainstthewindow——panes,andthenFancyspoke,inafaintandbrokenvoice。
"Yes,Iwill,"shesaid。
"Godblessyou,myown!"Headvancedquickly,andputhisarmouttoembraceher。Shedrewbackhastily。"Nono,notnow!"shesaidinanagitatedwhisper。"Therearethings;——butthetemptationis,O,toostrong,andIcan’tresistitIcan’ttellyounow,butI
musttellyou!Don’t,please,don’tcomenearmenow!Iwanttothink,IcanscarcelygetmyselfusedtotheideaofwhatIhavepromisedyet。"Thenextminutesheturnedtoadesk,buriedherfaceinherhands,andburstintoahystericalfitofweeping。"O,leavemetomyself!"shesobbed;"leaveme!O,leaveme!"
"Don’tbedistressed;don’t,dearest!"Itwaswithvisibledifficultythatherestrainedhimselffromapproachingher。"Youshalltellmeatyourleisurewhatitisthatgrievesyouso;Iamhappy——beyondallmeasurehappy!——athavingyoursimplepromise。"
"Anddogoandleavemenow!"
"ButImustnot,injusticetoyou,leaveforaminute,untilyouareyourselfagain。"
"Therethen,"shesaid,controllingheremotion,andstandingup;"I
amnotdisturbednow。"
Hereluctantlymovedtowardsthedoor。"Good—bye!"hemurmuredtenderly。"I’llcometo—morrowaboutthistime。"
CHAPTERVII:SECONDTHOUGHTS
Thenextmorningthevicarroseearly。ThefirstthinghedidwastowritealongandcarefullettertohisfriendinYorkshire。
Then,eatingalittlebreakfast,hecrossedthemeadowsinthedirectionofCasterbridge,bearinghisletterinhispocket,thathemightpostitatthetownoffice,andobviatethelossofonedayinitstransmissionthatwouldhaveresultedhadheleftitforthefoot—postthroughthevillage。
Itwasafoggymorning,andthetreesshedinnoisywater—dropsthemoisturetheyhadcollectedfromthethickair,anacornoccasionallyfallingfromitscuptotheground,incompanywiththedrippings。Inthemeads,sheetsofspiders’—web,almostopaquewithwet,hunginfoldsoverthefences,andthefallingleavesappearedineveryvarietyofbrown,green,andyellowhue。
Alowandmerrywhistlingwasheardonthehighwayhewasapproaching,thenthelightfootstepsofamangoinginthesamedirectionashimself。Onreachingthejunctionofhispathwiththeroad,thevicarbeheldDickDewy’sopenandcheerfulface。Dickliftedhishat,andthevicarcameoutintothehighwaythatDickwaspursuing。
"Good—morning,Dewy。Howwellyouarelooking!"saidMr。Maybold。
"Yes,sir,Iamwell——quitewell!IamgoingtoCasterbridgenow,togetSmart’scollar;weleftitthereSaturdaytoberepaired。"
"IamgoingtoCasterbridge,sowe’llwalktogether,"thevicarsaid。DickgaveahopwithonefoottoputhimselfinstepwithMr。
Maybold,whoproceeded:"IfancyIdidn’tseeyouatchurchyesterday,Dewy。Orwereyoubehindthepier?"
"No;IwenttoCharmley。PoorJohnDunfordchosemetobeoneofhisbearersalongtimebeforehedied,andyesterdaywasthefuneral。OfcourseIcouldn’trefuse,thoughIshouldhavelikedparticularlytohavebeenathomeas’twasthedayofthenewmusic。"
"Yes,youshouldhavebeen。Themusicalportionoftheservicewassuccessful——verysuccessfulindeed;andwhatismoretothepurpose,noill—feelingwhateverwasevincedbyanyofthemembersoftheoldchoir。Theyjoinedinthesingingwiththegreatestgood—will。"
"’TwasnaturalenoughthatIshouldwanttobethere,Isuppose,"
saidDick,smilingaprivatesmile;"consideringwhotheorgan——
playerwas。"
Atthisthevicarreddenedalittle,andsaid,"Yes,yes,"thoughnotatallcomprehendingDick’struemeaning,who,ashereceivednofurtherreply,continuedhesitatingly,andwithanothersmiledenotinghisprideasalover—
"IsupposeyouknowwhatImean,sir?You’veheardaboutmeand——
MissDay?"
TheredinMaybold’scountenancewentaway:heturnedandlookedDickintheface。
"No,"hesaidconstrainedly,"I’veheardnothingwhateveraboutyouandMissDay。"
"Why,she’smysweetheart,andwearegoingtobemarriednextMidsummer。Wearekeepingitratherclosejustatpresent,because’tisagoodmanymonthstowait;butitisherfather’swishthatwedon’tmarrybefore,andofcoursewemustsubmit。Butthetime’illsoonslipalong。"
"Yes,thetimewillsoonslipalong——Timeglidesawayeveryday——
yes。"
Mayboldsaidthesewords,buthehadnoideaofwhattheywere。Hewasconsciousofacoldandsicklythrillthroughouthim;andallhereasonedwasthisthattheyoungcreaturewhosegraceshadintoxicatedhimintomakingthemostimprudentresolutionofhislife,waslessanangelthanawoman。
"Yousee,sir,"continuedtheingenuousDick,"’twillbebetterinonesense。Ishallbythattimebetheregularmanagerofabrancho’father’sbusiness,whichhasverymuchincreasedlately,andbusiness,whichwethinkofstartingelsewhere。Ithasverymuchincreasedlately,andweexpectnextyeartokeepa’extracoupleofhorses。We’vealreadyoureyeonone——brownasaberry,necklikearainbow,fifteenhands,andnotagrayhairinher——offeredusattwenty—fivewantacrown。AndtokippacewiththetimesIhavehadsomecardsprentedandIbegleavetohandyouone,sir。"
"Certainly,"saidthevicar,mechanicallytakingthecardthatDickofferedhim。
"IturninherebyGrey’sBridge,"saidDick。"Isupposeyougostraightonanduptown?"
"Yes。"
"Good—morning,sir。"
"Good—morning,Dewy。"
Mayboldstoodstilluponthebridge,holdingthecardasithadbeenputintohishand,andDick’sfootstepsdiedawaytowardsDurnoverMill。Thevicar’sfirstvoluntaryactionwastoreadthecardDEWYANDSON,TRANTERSANDHAULIERS,MELLSTOCK。