AnEpisodeoftheAmericanCivilWarCHAPTERI。
THEcoldpassedreluctantlyfromtheearth,andtheretiringfogsrevealedanarmystretchedoutonthehills,resting。Asthelandscapechangedfrombrowntogreen,thearmyawak—
ened,andbegantotremblewitheagernessatthenoiseofrumors。Itcastitseyesupontheroads,whichweregrowingfromlongtroughsofliquidmudtoproperthoroughfares。Ariver,amber—
tintedintheshadowofitsbanks,purledatthearmy’sfeet;andatnight,whenthestreamhadbecomeofasorrowfulblackness,onecouldseeacrossitthered,eyelikegleamofhostilecamp—
firessetinthelowbrowsofdistanthills。
Onceacertaintallsoldierdevelopedvirtuesandwentresolutelytowashashirt。Hecameflyingbackfromabrookwavinghisgarmentbannerlike。Hewasswelledwithatalehehadheardfromareliablefriend,whohadhearditfromatruthfulcavalryman,whohadhearditfromhistrustworthybrother,oneoftheorder—
liesatdivisionheadquarters。Headoptedtheimportantairofaheraldinredandgold。
"We’regoin’t’movet’morrah——sure,"hesaidpompouslytoagroupinthecompanystreet。"We’regoin’’wayuptheriver,cutacross,an’comearoundinbehint’em。"
Tohisattentiveaudiencehedrewaloudandelaborateplanofaverybrilliantcampaign。
Whenhehadfinished,theblue—clothedmenscatteredintosmallarguinggroupsbetweentherowsofsquatbrownhuts。Anegroteamsterwhohadbeendancinguponacrackerboxwiththehilariousencouragementoftwoscoresoldierswasdeserted。Hesatmournfullydown。Smokedriftedlazilyfromamultitudeofquaintchim—
neys。
"It’salie!that’sallitis——athunderin’lie!"
saidanotherprivateloudly。Hissmoothfacewasflushed,andhishandswerethrustsulkilyintohistrousers’pockets。Hetookthematterasanaffronttohim。"Idon’tbelievethedernedoldarmy’severgoingtomove。We’reset。I’vegotreadytomoveeighttimesinthelasttwoweeks,andweain’tmovedyet。"
Thetallsoldierfeltcalledupontodefendthetruthofarumorhehimselfhadintro—
duced。Heandtheloudonecameneartofight—
ingoverit。
Acorporalbegantoswearbeforetheassem—
blage。Hehadjustputacostlyboardfloorinhishouse,hesaid。Duringtheearlyspringhehadrefrainedfromaddingextensivelytothecomfortofhisenvironmentbecausehehadfeltthatthearmymightstartonthemarchatanymoment。Oflate,however,hehadbeenim—
pressedthattheywereinasortofeternalcamp。
Manyofthemenengagedinaspiriteddebate。
Oneoutlinedinapeculiarlylucidmanneralltheplansofthecommandinggeneral。Hewasop—
posedbymenwhoadvocatedthattherewereotherplansofcampaign。Theyclamoredateachother,numbersmakingfutilebidsforthepop—
ularattention。Meanwhile,thesoldierwhohadfetchedtherumorbustledaboutwithmuchimportance。Hewascontinuallyassailedbyquestions。
"What’sup,Jim?"
"Th’army’sgoin’t’move。"
"Ah,whatyehtalkin’about?Howyehknowitis?"
"Well,yehkinb’lievemeernot,jestasyehlike。Idon’tcareahang。"
Therewasmuchfoodforthoughtintheman—
nerinwhichhereplied。Hecameneartocon—
vincingthembydisdainingtoproduceproofs。
Theygrewexcitedoverit。
Therewasayouthfulprivatewholistenedwitheagerearstothewordsofthetallsoldierandtothevariedcommentsofhiscomrades。
Afterreceivingafillofdiscussionsconcerningmarchesandattacks,hewenttohishutandcrawledthroughanintricateholethatserveditasadoor。Hewishedtobealonewithsomenewthoughtsthathadlatelycometohim。
Helaydownonawidebankthatstretchedacrosstheendoftheroom。Intheotherend,crackerboxesweremadetoserveasfurniture。
Theyweregroupedaboutthefireplace。Apic—
turefromanillustratedweeklywasuponthelogwalls,andthreerifleswereparalleledonpegs。
Equipmentshuntonhandyprojections,andsometindisheslayuponasmallpileoffirewood。A
foldedtentwasservingasaroof。Thesunlight,without,beatinguponit,madeitglowalightyellowshade。Asmallwindowshotanobliquesquareofwhiterlightupontheclutteredfloor。
Thesmokefromthefireattimesneglectedtheclaychimneyandwreathedintotheroom,andthisflimsychimneyofclayandsticksmadeend—
lessthreatstosetablazethewholeestablishment。
Theyouthwasinalittletranceofastonish—
ment。Sotheywereatlastgoingtofight。Onthemorrow,perhaps,therewouldbeabattle,andhewouldbeinit。Foratimehewasobligedtolabortomakehimselfbelieve。Hecouldnotacceptwithassuranceanomenthathewasabouttomingleinoneofthosegreataffairsoftheearth。
Hehad,ofcourse,dreamedofbattlesallhislife——ofvagueandbloodyconflictsthathadthrilledhimwiththeirsweepandfire。Invisionshehadseenhimselfinmanystruggles。Hehadimaginedpeoplessecureintheshadowofhiseagle—eyedprowess。Butawakehehadregardedbattlesascrimsonblotchesonthepagesofthepast。Hehadputthemasthingsofthebygonewithhisthought—imagesofheavycrownsandhighcastles。Therewasaportionoftheworld’shistorywhichhehadregardedasthetimeofwars,butit,hethought,hadbeenlonggoneoverthehorizonandhaddisappearedforever。
Fromhishomehisyouthfuleyeshadlookeduponthewarinhisowncountrywithdistrust。
Itmustbesomesortofaplayaffair。HehadlongdespairedofwitnessingaGreeklikestruggle。
Suchwouldbenomore,hehadsaid。Menwerebetter,ormoretimid。Secularandreligiouseducationhadeffacedthethroat—grapplingin—
stinct,orelsefirmfinanceheldincheckthepas—
sions。
Hehadburnedseveraltimestoenlist。Talesofgreatmovementsshooktheland。TheymightnotbedistinctlyHomeric,butthereseemedtobemuchgloryinthem。Hehadreadofmarches,sieges,conflicts,andhehadlongedtoseeitall。
Hisbusymindhaddrawnforhimlargepicturesextravagantincolor,luridwithbreathlessdeeds。
Buthismotherhaddiscouragedhim。Shehadaffectedtolookwithsomecontemptuponthequalityofhiswarardorandpatriotism。Shecouldcalmlyseatherselfandwithnoapparentdifficultygivehimmanyhundredsofreasonswhyhewasofvastlymoreimportanceonthefarmthanonthefieldofbattle。Shehadhadcertainwaysofexpressionthattoldhimthatherstatementsonthesubjectcamefromadeepcon—
viction。Moreover,onherside,washisbeliefthatherethicalmotiveintheargumentwasimpregnable。
Atlast,however,hehadmadefirmrebellionagainstthisyellowlightthrownuponthecolorofhisambitions。Thenewspapers,thegossipofthevillage,hisownpicturingshadarousedhimtoanuncheckabledegree。Theywereintruthfightingfinelydownthere。Almosteverydaythenewspapersprintedaccountsofadecisivevictory。
Onenight,ashelayinbed,thewindshadcarriedtohimtheclangoringofthechurchbellassomeenthusiastjerkedtheropefranticallytotellthetwistednewsofagreatbattle。Thisvoiceofthepeoplerejoicinginthenighthadmadehimshiverinaprolongedecstasyofex—
citement。Later,hehadgonedowntohismother’sroomandhadspokenthus:"Ma,I’mgoingtoenlist。"
"Henry,don’tyoubeafool,"hismotherhadreplied。Shehadthencoveredherfacewiththequilt。Therewasanendtothematterforthatnight。
Nevertheless,thenextmorninghehadgonetoatownthatwasnearhismother’sfarmandhadenlistedinacompanythatwasformingthere。
Whenhehadreturnedhomehismotherwasmilkingthebrindlecow。Fourothersstoodwaiting。"Ma,I’veenlisted,"hehadsaidtoherdiffidently。Therewasashortsilence。"TheLord’swillbedone,Henry,"shehadfinallyreplied,andhadthencontinuedtomilkthebrindlecow。
Whenhehadstoodinthedoorwaywithhissoldier’sclothesonhisback,andwiththelightofexcitementandexpectancyinhiseyesalmostdefeatingtheglowofregretforthehomebonds,hehadseentwotearsleavingtheirtrailsonhismother’sscarredcheeks。
Still,shehaddisappointedhimbysayingnothingwhateveraboutreturningwithhisshieldoronit。Hehadprivatelyprimedhimselfforabeautifulscene。Hehadpreparedcertainsen—
tenceswhichhethoughtcouldbeusedwithtouchingeffect。Butherwordsdestroyedhisplans。Shehaddoggedlypeeledpotatoesandaddressedhimasfollows:"Youwatchout,Henry,an’takegoodcareofyerselfinthisherefightingbusiness——youwatchout,an’takegoodcareofyerself。Don’tgoa—thinkin’youcanlickthehullrebelarmyatthestart,becauseyehcan’t。Yerjestonelittlefelleramongstahulllotofothers,andyeh’vegottokeepquietan’dowhattheytellyeh。Iknowhowyouare,Henry。
"I’veknetyeheightpairofsocks,Henry,andI’veputinallyerbestshirts,becauseIwantmyboytobejestaswarmandcomf’ableasanybodyinthearmy。Whenevertheygetholesin’em,I
wantyehtosend’emright—awaybacktome,so’sIkindern’em。
"An’allusbecarefulan’chooseyercomp’ny。
There’slotsofbadmeninthearmy,Henry。
Thearmymakes’emwild,andtheylikenothingbetterthanthejobofleadingoffayoungfellerlikeyou,asain’tneverbeenawayfromhomemuchandhasallushadamother,an’a—learning’emtodrinkandswear。Keepclearofthemfolks,Henry。Idon’twantyehtoeverdoany—
thing,Henry,thatyehwouldbe’shamedtoletmeknowabout。JestthinkasifIwasa—watchin’
yeh。Ifyehkeepthatinyermindallus,Iguessyeh’llcomeoutaboutright。
"Yehmustallusrememberyerfather,too,child,an’rememberheneverdrunkadropoflickerinhislife,andseldomsworeacrossoath。
"Idon’tknowwhatelsetotellyeh,Henry,exceptingthatyehmustneverdonoshirking,child,onmyaccount。Ifsobeatimecomeswhenyehhavetobekiltordoameanthing,why,Henry,don’tthinkofanything’ceptwhat’sright,becausethere’smanyawomanhastobearup’ginstsechthingsthesetimes,andtheLord’lltakekeerofusall。
"Don’tforgitaboutthesocksandtheshirts,child;andI’veputacupofblackberryjamwithyerbundle,becauseIknowyehlikeitaboveallthings。Good—by,Henry。Watchout,andbeagoodboy。"
Hehad,ofcourse,beenimpatientundertheordealofthisspeech。Ithadnotbeenquitewhatheexpected,andhehadborneitwithanairofirritation。Hedepartedfeelingvaguerelief。
Still,whenhehadlookedbackfromthegate,hehadseenhismotherkneelingamongthepo—
tatoparings。Herbrownface,upraised,wasstainedwithtears,andherspareformwasquiver—
10REDBADGEOFCOURAGE。
ing。Hebowedhisheadandwenton,feelingsuddenlyashamedofhispurposes。
Fromhishomehehadgonetotheseminarytobidadieutomanyschoolmates。Theyhadthrongedabouthimwithwonderandadmiration。
Hehadfeltthegulfnowbetweenthemandhadswelledwithcalmpride。Heandsomeofhisfellowswhohaddonnedbluewerequiteover—
whelmedwithprivilegesforallofoneafternoon,andithadbeenaverydeliciousthing。Theyhadstrutted。
Acertainlight—hairedgirlhadmadevivaciousfunathismartialspirit,buttherewasanotheranddarkergirlwhomhehadgazedatsteadfastly,andhethoughtshegrewdemureandsadatsightofhisblueandbrass。Ashehadwalkeddownthepathbetweentherowsofoaks,hehadturnedhisheadanddetectedheratawindowwatchinghisdeparture。Asheperceivedher,shehadim—
mediatelybeguntostareupthroughthehightreebranchesatthesky。Hehadseenagooddealofflurryandhasteinhermovementasshechangedherattitude。Heoftenthoughtofit。
OnthewaytoWashingtonhisspirithadsoared。Theregimentwasfedandcaressedatstationafterstationuntiltheyouthhadbelievedthathemustbeahero。Therewasalavishex—
penditureofbreadandcoldmeats,coffee,andpicklesandcheese。Ashebaskedinthesmilesofthegirlsandwaspattedandcomplimentedbytheoldmen,hehadfeltgrowingwithinhimthestrengthtodomightydeedsofarms。
Aftercomplicatedjourneyingswithmanypauses,therehadcomemonthsofmonotonouslifeinacamp。Hehadhadthebeliefthatrealwarwasaseriesofdeathstruggleswithsmalltimeinbetweenforsleepandmeals;butsincehisregimenthadcometothefieldthearmyhaddonelittlebutsitstillandtrytokeepwarm。
Hewasbroughtthengraduallybacktohisoldideas。Greeklikestruggleswouldbenomore。
Menwerebetter,ormoretimid。Secularandreligiouseducationhadeffacedthethroat—grap—
plinginstinct,orelsefirmfinanceheldincheckthepassions。
Hehadgrowntoregardhimselfmerelyasapartofavastbluedemonstration。Hisprovincewastolookout,asfarashecould,forhisper—
sonalcomfort。Forrecreationhecouldtwiddlehisthumbsandspeculateonthethoughtswhichmustagitatethemindsofthegenerals。Also,hewasdrilledanddrilledandreviewed,anddrilledanddrilledandreviewed。
Theonlyfoeshehadseenweresomepicketsalongtheriverbank。Theywereasun—tanned,philosophicallot,whosometimesshotreflectivelyatthebluepickets。Whenreproachedforthisafterward,theyusuallyexpressedsorrow,andsworebytheirgodsthatthegunshadexplodedwithouttheirpermission。Theyouth,onguarddutyonenight,conversedacrossthestreamwithoneofthem。Hewasaslightlyraggedman,whospatskillfullybetweenhisshoesandpossessedagreatfundofblandandinfantileassurance。Theyouthlikedhimpersonally。
"Yank,"theotherhadinformedhim,"yerarightdumgoodfeller。"Thissentiment,floatingtohimuponthestillair,hadmadehimtempo—
rarilyregretwar。
Variousveteranshadtoldhimtales。Sometalkedofgray,bewhiskeredhordeswhowereadvancingwithrelentlesscursesandchewingtobaccowithunspeakablevalor;tremendousbodiesoffiercesoldierywhoweresweepingalongliketheHuns。Othersspokeoftatteredandeternallyhungrymenwhofireddespondentpowders。"They’llchargethroughhell’sfirean’
brimstonet’gitaholtonahaversack,an’sechstomachsain’ta—lastin’long,"hewastold。Fromthestories,theyouthimaginedthered,livebonesstickingoutthroughslitsinthefadeduniforms。
Still,hecouldnotputawholefaithinveter—
ans’tales,forrecruitsweretheirprey。Theytalkedmuchofsmoke,fire,andblood,buthecouldnottellhowmuchmightbelies。Theypersistentlyyelled"Freshfish!"athim,andwereinnowisetobetrusted。
However,heperceivednowthatitdidnotgreatlymatterwhatkindofsoldiershewasgoingtofight,solongastheyfought,whichfactnoonedisputed。Therewasamoreseriousproblem。Helayinhisbunkponderinguponit。Hetriedtomathematicallyprovetohimselfthathewouldnotrunfromabattle。
Previouslyhehadneverfeltobligedtowrestletooseriouslywiththisquestion。Inhislifehehadtakencertainthingsforgranted,neverchalleng—
inghisbeliefinultimatesuccess,andbotheringlittleaboutmeansandroads。Butherehewasconfrontedwithathingofmoment。Ithadsud—
denlyappearedtohimthatperhapsinabattlehemightrun。Hewasforcedtoadmitthatasfaraswarwasconcernedheknewnothingofhimself。
Asufficienttimebeforehewouldhaveallowedtheproblemtokickitsheelsattheouterportalsofhismind,butnowhefeltcompelledtogiveseriousattentiontoit。
Alittlepanic—feargrewinhismind。Ashisimaginationwentforwardtoafight,hesawhide—
ouspossibilities。Hecontemplatedthelurkingmenacesofthefuture,andfailedinanefforttoseehimselfstandingstoutlyinthemidstofthem。
Herecalledhisvisionsofbroken—bladedglory,butintheshadowoftheimpendingtumulthesuspectedthemtobeimpossiblepictures。
Hesprangfromthebunkandbegantopacenervouslytoandfro。"GoodLord,what’sth’
matterwithme?"hesaidaloud。
Hefeltthatinthiscrisishislawsoflifewereuseless。Whateverhehadlearnedofhimselfwashereofnoavail。Hewasanunknownquantity。
Hesawthathewouldagainbeobligedtoexperi—
mentashehadinearlyyouth。Hemustaccumu—
lateinformationofhimself,andmeanwhilehere—
solvedtoremaincloseuponhisguardlestthosequalitiesofwhichheknewnothingshouldever—
lastinglydisgracehim。"GoodLord!"here—
peatedindismay。
Afteratimethetallsoldiersliddexterouslythroughthehole。Theloudprivatefollowed。
Theywerewrangling。
"That’sallright,"saidthetallsoldierasheentered。Hewavedhishandexpressively。"Youcanbelievemeornot,jestasyoulike。Allyougottodoistositdownandwaitasquietasyoucan。Thenprettysoonyou’llfindoutIwasright。"
Hiscomradegruntedstubbornly。Foramo—
mentheseemedtobesearchingforaformidablereply。Finallyhesaid:"Well,youdon’tknoweverythingintheworld,doyou?"
"Didn’tsayIkneweverythingintheworld,"
retortedtheothersharply。Hebegantostowvariousarticlessnuglyintohisknapsack。
Theyouth,pausinginhisnervouswalk,lookeddownatthebusyfigure。"Goingtobeabattle,sure,isthere,Jim?"heasked。
"Ofcoursethereis,"repliedthetallsoldier。
"Ofcoursethereis。Youjestwait’tilto—morrow,andyou’llseeoneofthebiggestbattleseverwas。
Youjestwait。"
"Thunder!der!"saidtheyouth。
"Oh,you’llseefightingthistime,myboy,what’llberegularout—and—outfighting,"addedthetallsoldier,withtheairofamanwhoisabouttoexhibitabattleforthebenefitofhisfriends。
"Huh!"saidtheloudonefromacorner。
"Well,"remarkedtheyouth,"likeasnotthisstory’llturnoutjestlikethemothersdid。"
"Notmuchitwon’t,"repliedthetallsoldier,exasperated。"Notmuchitwon’t。Didn’tthecavalryallstartthismorning?"Heglaredabouthim。Noonedeniedhisstatement。"Thecav—
alrystartedthismorning,"hecontinued。"Theysaythereain’thardlyanycavalryleftincamp。
They’regoingtoRichmond,orsomeplace,whilewefightalltheJohnnies。It’ssomedodgelikethat。Theregiment’sgotorders,too。Afellerwhatseen’emgotoheadquarterstoldmealittlewhileago。Andthey’reraisingblazesallovercamp——anybodycanseethat。"
"Shucks!"saidtheloudone。
Theyouthremainedsilentforatime。Atlasthespoketothetallsoldier。"Jim!"
"What?"
"Howdoyouthinkthereg’ment’lldo?"
"Oh,they’llfightallright,Iguess,aftertheyoncegetintoit,"saidtheotherwithcoldjudg—
ment。Hemadeafineuseofthethirdperson。
"There’sbeenheapsoffunpokedat’embecausethey’renew,ofcourse,andallthat;butthey’llfightallright,Iguess。"
"Thinkanyoftheboys’llrun?"persistedtheyouth。
"Oh,theremaybeafewof’emrun,butthere’sthemkindineveryregiment,’speciallywhentheyfirstgoesunderfire,"saidtheotherinatolerantway。"Ofcourseitmighthappenthatthehullkit—and—boodlemightstartandrun,ifsomebigfightingcamefirst—off,andthenagaintheymightstayandfightlikefun。Butyoucan’tbetonnothing。Ofcoursetheyain’tneverbeenunderfireyet,anditain’tlikelythey’lllickthehullrebelarmyall—to—oncetthefirsttime;butI
thinkthey’llfightbetterthansome,ifworsethanothers。That’sthewayIfigger。Theycallthereg’ment’Freshfish’andeverything;buttheboyscomeofgoodstock,andmostof’em’llfightlikesinaftertheyoncetgitshootin’,"headded,withamightyemphasisonthelastfourwords。
"Oh,youthinkyouknow——"begantheloudsoldierwithscorn。
Theotherturnedsavagelyuponhim。Theyhadarapidaltercation,inwhichtheyfasteneduponeachothervariousstrangeepithets。
Theyouthatlastinterruptedthem。"Didyoueverthinkyoumightrunyourself,Jim?"heasked。Onconcludingthesentencehelaughedasifhehadmeanttoaimajoke。Theloudsol—
dieralsogiggled。
Thetallprivatewavedhishand。"Well,"saidheprofoundly,"I’vethoughtitmightgettoohotforJimConklininsomeofthemscrimmages,andifawholelotofboysstartedandrun,why,I
s’poseI’dstartandrun。AndifIoncestartedtorun,I’drunlikethedevil,andnomistake。Butifeverybodywasa—standinganda—fighting,why,I’dstandandfight。Bejiminey,Iwould。I’llbetonit。"
"Huh!"saidtheloudone。
Theyouthofthistalefeltgratitudeforthesewordsofhiscomrade。Hehadfearedthatalloftheuntriedmenpossessedagreatandcorrectconfidence。Henowwasinameasurereassured。
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CHAPTERII。
THEnextmorningtheyouthdiscoveredthathistallcomradehadbeenthefast—flyingmessen—
gerofamistake。Therewasmuchscoffingatthelatterbythosewhohadyesterdaybeenfirmadherentsofhisviews,andtherewasevenalit—
tlesneeringbymenwhohadneverbelievedtherumor。ThetallonefoughtwithamanfromChatfieldCornersandbeathimseverely。
Theyouthfelt,however,thathisproblemwasinnowiseliftedfromhim。Therewas,onthecontrary,anirritatingprolongation。Thetalehadcreatedinhimagreatconcernforhimself。
Now,withthenewbornquestioninhismind,hewascompelledtosinkbackintohisoldplaceaspartofabluedemonstration。
Fordayshemadeceaselesscalculations,buttheywereallwondrouslyunsatisfactory。Hefoundthathecouldestablishnothing。Hefinal—
lyconcludedthattheonlywaytoprovehimselfwastogointotheblaze,andthenfigurativelyto18
watchhislegstodiscovertheirmeritsandfaults。
Hereluctantlyadmittedthathecouldnotsitstillandwithamentalslateandpencilderiveananswer。Togainit,hemusthaveblaze,blood,anddanger,evenasachemistrequiresthis,that,andtheother。Sohefrettedforanopportunity。
Meanwhilehecontinuallytriedtomeasurehimselfbyhiscomrades。Thetallsoldier,forone,gavehimsomeassurance。Thisman’sse—
reneunconcerndealthimameasureofcon—
fidence,forhehadknownhimsincechildhood,andfromhisintimateknowledgehedidnotseehowhecouldbecapableofanythingthatwasbeyondhim,theyouth。Still,hethoughtthathiscomrademightbemistakenabouthimself。
Or,ontheotherhand,hemightbeamanhere—
toforedoomedtopeaceandobscurity,but,inreality,madetoshineinwar。
Theyouthwouldhavelikedtohavediscov—
eredanotherwhosuspectedhimself。Asympa—
theticcomparisonofmentalnoteswouldhavebeenajoytohim。
Heoccasionallytriedtofathomacomradewithseductivesentences。Helookedabouttofindmeninthepropermood。Allattemptsfailedtobringforthanystatementwhichlookedinanywaylikeaconfessiontothosedoubtswhichheprivatelyacknowledgedinhimself。
Hewasafraidtomakeanopendeclarationofhisconcern,becausehedreadedtoplacesomeunscrupulousconfidantuponthehighplaneoftheunconfessedfromwhichelevationhecouldbederided。
Inregardtohiscompanionshismindwa—
veredbetweentwoopinions,accordingtohismood。Sometimesheinclinedtobelievingthemallheroes。Infact,heusuallyadmittedinsecretthesuperiordevelopmentofthehigherqualitiesinothers。Hecouldconceiveofmengoingveryinsignificantlyabouttheworldbearingaloadofcourageunseen,andalthoughhehadknownmanyofhiscomradesthroughboyhood,hebe—
gantofearthathisjudgmentofthemhadbeenblind。Then,inothermoments,hefloutedthesetheories,andassuredhimselfthathisfellowswereallprivatelywonderingandquaking。
Hisemotionsmadehimfeelstrangeinthepresenceofmenwhotalkedexcitedlyofapro—
spectivebattleasofadramatheywereabouttowitness,withnothingbuteagernessandcuriosityapparentintheirfaces。Itwasoftenthathesus—
pectedthemtobeliars。
Hedidnotpasssuchthoughtswithoutseverecondemnationofhimself。Hedinnedreproachesattimes。Hewasconvictedbyhimselfofmanyshamefulcrimesagainstthegodsoftraditions。
Inhisgreatanxietyhisheartwascontinuallyclamoringatwhatheconsideredtheintolerableslownessofthegenerals。Theyseemedcontenttoperchtranquillyontheriverbank,andleavehimboweddownbytheweightofagreatprob—
lem。Hewanteditsettledforthwith。Hecouldnotlongbearsuchaload,hesaid。Sometimeshisangeratthecommandersreachedanacutestage,andhegrumbledaboutthecamplikeaveteran。
Onemorning,however,hefoundhimselfintheranksofhispreparedregiment。Themenwerewhisperingspeculationsandrecountingtheoldrumors。Inthegloombeforethebreakofthedaytheiruniformsglowedadeeppurplehue。Fromacrosstherivertheredeyeswerestillpeering。Intheeasternskytherewasayel—
lowpatchlikearuglaidforthefeetofthecom—
ingsun;andagainstit,blackandpatternlike,loomedthegiganticfigureofthecolonelonagigantichorse。
Fromoffinthedarknesscamethetramplingoffeet。Theyouthcouldoccasionallyseedarkshadowsthatmovedlikemonsters。Theregi—
mentstoodatrestforwhatseemedalongtime。
Theyouthgrewimpatient。Itwasunendurablethewaytheseaffairsweremanaged。Hewon—
deredhowlongtheyweretobekeptwaiting。
Ashelookedallabouthimandpondereduponthemysticgloom,hebegantobelievethatatanymomenttheominousdistancemightbeaflare,andtherollingcrashesofanengagementcometohisears。Staringonceattheredeyesacrosstheriver,heconceivedthemtobegrow—
inglarger,astheorbsofarowofdragonsad—
vancing。Heturnedtowardthecolonelandsawhimlifthisgiganticarmandcalmlystrokehismustache。
Atlastheheardfromalongtheroadatthefootofthehilltheclatterofahorse’sgallopinghoofs。Itmustbethecomingoforders。Hebentforward,scarcebreathing。Theexcitingclickety—click,asitgrewlouderandlouder,seemedtobebeatinguponhissoul。Presentlyahorsemanwithjanglingequipmentdrewreinbe—
forethecoloneloftheregiment。Thetwoheldashort,sharp—wordedconversation。Themenintheforemostrankscranedtheirnecks。
Asthehorsemanwheeledhisanimalandgal—
lopedawayheturnedtoshoutoverhisshoulder,"Don’tforgetthatboxofcigars!"Thecolonelmumbledinreply。Theyouthwonderedwhataboxofcigarshadtodowithwar。
Amomentlatertheregimentwentswingingoffintothedarkness。Itwasnowlikeoneofthosemovingmonsterswendingwithmanyfeet。
Theairwasheavy,andcoldwithdew。Amassofwetgrass,marchedupon,rustledlikesilk。
Therewasanoccasionalflashandglimmerofsteelfromthebacksofallthesehugecrawl—
ingreptiles。Fromtheroadcamecreakingsandgrumblingsassomesurlygunsweredraggedaway。
Themenstumbledalongstillmutteringspecu—
lations。Therewasasubdueddebate。Onceamanfelldown,andashereachedforhisrifleacomrade,unseeing,troduponhishand。Heoftheinjuredfingerssworebitterlyandaloud。A
low,titteringlaughwentamonghisfellows。
Presentlytheypassedintoaroadwayandmarchedforwardwitheasystrides。Adarkregimentmovedbeforethem,andfrombehindalsocamethetinkleofequipmentsonthebodiesofmarchingmen。
Therushingyellowofthedevelopingdaywentonbehindtheirbacks。Whenthesunraysatlaststruckfullandmellowinglyupontheearth,theyouthsawthatthelandscapewasstreakedwithtwolong,thin,blackcolumnswhichdisappearedonthebrowofahillinfrontandrearwardvanishedinawood。Theywereliketwoserpentscrawlingfromthecavernofthenight。
Theriverwasnotinview。Thetallsoldierburstintopraisesofwhathethoughttobehispowersofperception。
Someofthetallone’scompanionscriedwithemphasisthatthey,too,hadevolvedthesamething,andtheycongratulatedthemselvesuponit。Buttherewereotherswhosaidthatthetallone’splanwasnotthetrueoneatall。Theyper—
sistedwithothertheories。Therewasavigorousdiscussion。
Theyouthtooknopartinthem。Ashewalkedalongincarelesslinehewasengagedwithhisowneternaldebate。Hecouldnothin—
derhimselffromdwellinguponit。Hewasde—
spondentandsullen,andthrewshiftingglancesabouthim。Helookedahead,oftenexpectingtohearfromtheadvancetherattleoffiring。
Butthelongserpentscrawledslowlyfromhilltohillwithoutblusterofsmoke。Adun—col—
oredcloudofdustfloatedawaytotheright。
Theskyoverheadwasofafairyblue。
Theyouthstudiedthefacesofhiscompan—
ions,everonthewatchtodetectkindredemo—
tions。Hesuffereddisappointment。Someardoroftheairwhichwascausingtheveterancom—
mandstomovewithglee——almostwithsong——
hadinfectedthenewregiment。Themenbegantospeakofvictoryasofathingtheyknew。
Also,thetallsoldierreceivedhisvindication。
Theywerecertainlygoingtocomearoundinbehindtheenemy。Theyexpressedcommisera—
tionforthatpartofthearmywhichhadbeenleftupontheriverbank,felicitatingthemselvesuponbeingapartofablastinghost。
Theyouth,consideringhimselfasseparatedfromtheothers,wassaddenedbytheblitheandmerryspeechesthatwentfromranktorank。
Thecompanywagsallmadetheirbestendeav—
ors。Theregimenttrampedtothetuneoflaughter。
Theblatantsoldieroftenconvulsedwholefilesbyhisbitingsarcasmsaimedatthetallone。
Anditwasnotlongbeforeallthemenseemedtoforgettheirmission。Wholebrigadesgrinnedinunison,andregimentslaughed。
Aratherfatsoldierattemptedtopilferahorsefromadooryard。Heplannedtoloadhisknap—
sackuponit。Hewasescapingwithhisprizewhenayounggirlrushedfromthehouseandgrabbedtheanimal’smane。Therefollowedawrangle。Theyounggirl,withpinkcheeksandshiningeyes,stoodlikeadauntlessstatue。
Theobservantregiment,standingatrestintheroadway,whoopedatonce,andenteredwhole—souleduponthesideofthemaiden。Themenbecamesoengrossedinthisaffairthattheyentirelyceasedtoremembertheirownlargewar。
Theyjeeredthepiraticalprivate,andcalledattentiontovariousdefectsinhispersonalap—
pearance;andtheywerewildlyenthusiasticinsupportoftheyounggirl。
Toher,fromsomedistance,cameboldadvice。
"Hithimwithastick。"
Therewerecrowsandcatcallsshowereduponhimwhenheretreatedwithoutthehorse。
Theregimentrejoicedathisdownfall。Loudandvociferouscongratulationswereshowereduponthemaiden,whostoodpantingandregard—
ingthetroopswithdefiance。
Atnightfallthecolumnbrokeintoregimentalpieces,andthefragmentswentintothefieldstocamp。Tentsspranguplikestrangeplants。
Campfires,likered,peculiarblossoms,dottedthenight。
Theyouthkeptfromintercoursewithhiscompanionsasmuchascircumstanceswouldallowhim。Intheeveninghewanderedafewpacesintothegloom。Fromthislittledistancethemanyfires,withtheblackformsofmenpass—
ingtoandfrobeforethecrimsonrays,madeweirdandsataniceffects。
Helaydowninthegrass。Thebladespressedtenderlyagainsthischeek。Themoonhadbeenlightedandwashunginatreetop。
Theliquidstillnessofthenightenvelopinghimmadehimfeelvastpityforhimself。Therewasacaressinthesoftwinds;andthewholemoodofthedarkness,hethought,wasoneofsympathyforhimselfinhisdistress。
Hewished,withoutreserve,thathewasathomeagainmakingtheendlessroundsfromthehousetothebarn,fromthebarntothefields,fromthefieldstothebarn,fromthebarntothehouse。Herememberedhehadoftencursedthebrindlecowandhermates,andhadsometimesflungmilkingstools。But,fromhispresentpointofview,therewasahaloofhappinessabouteachoftheirheads,andhewouldhavesacrificedallthebrassbuttonsonthecontinenttohavebeenenabledtoreturntothem。Hetoldhimselfthathewasnotformedforasoldier。Andhemusedseriouslyupontheradicaldifferencesbetweenhimselfandthosemenwhoweredodgingimp—
likearoundthefires。
Ashemusedthusheheardtherustleofgrass,and,uponturninghishead,discoveredtheloudsoldier。Hecalledout,"Oh,Wilson!"
Thelatterapproachedandlookeddown。
"Why,hello,Henry;isityou?Whatyoudo—
inghere?"
"Oh,thinking,"saidtheyouth。
Theothersatdownandcarefullylightedhispipe。"You’regettingblue,myboy。You’relookingthunderingpeeked。Whatthedickensiswrongwithyou?"
"Oh,nothing,"saidtheyouth。
Theloudsoldierlaunchedthenintothesub—
jectoftheanticipatedfight。"Oh,we’vegot’emnow!"Ashespokehisboyishfacewaswreathedinagleefulsmile,andhisvoicehadanexultantring。"We’vegot’emnow。Atlast,bytheeternalthunders,we’lllick’emgood!"
"Ifthetruthwasknown,"headded,moresoberly,"THEY’VElickedUSabouteveryclipuptonow;butthistime——thistime——we’lllick’emgood!"
"Ithoughtyouwasobjectingtothismarchalittlewhileago,"saidtheyouthcoldly。
"Oh,itwasn’tthat,"explainedtheother。"I
don’tmindmarching,ifthere’sgoingtobefight—
ingattheendofit。WhatIhateisthisgettingmovedhereandmovedthere,withnogoodcom—
ingofit,asfarasIcansee,exceptingsorefeetanddamnedshortrations。"
"Well,JimConklinsayswe’llgetaplentyoffightingthistime。"
"He’srightforonce,Iguess,thoughIcan’tseehowitcome。Thistimewe’reinforabigbattle,andwe’vegotthebestendofit,certainsure。Geerod!howwewillthump’em!"
Hearoseandbegantopacetoandfroexcit—
edly。Thethrillofhisenthusiasmmadehimwalkwithanelasticstep。Hewassprightly,vigorous,fieryinhisbeliefinsuccess。Helookedintothefuturewithclear,proudeye,andhesworewiththeairofanoldsoldier。
Theyouthwatchedhimforamomentinsilence。Whenhefinallyspokehisvoicewasasbitterasdregs。"Oh,you’regoingtodogreatthings,Is’pose!"
Theloudsoldierblewathoughtfulcloudofsmokefromhispipe。"Oh,Idon’tknow,"heremarkedwithdignity;"Idon’tknow。Is’poseI’lldoaswellastherest。I’mgoingtotrylikethunder。"Heevidentlycomplimentedhimselfuponthemodestyofthisstatement。
"Howdoyouknowyouwon’trunwhenthetimecomes?"askedtheyouth。
"Run?"saidtheloudone;"run?——ofcoursenot!"Helaughed。
"Well,"continuedtheyouth,"lotsofgood—
a—’noughmenhavethoughttheywasgoingtodogreatthingsbeforethefight,butwhenthetimecometheyskedaddled。"
"Oh,that’salltrue,Is’pose,"repliedtheother;"butI’mnotgoingtoskedaddle。Themanthatbetsonmyrunningwilllosehismoney,that’sall。"Henoddedconfidently。
"Oh,shucks!"saidtheyouth。"Youain’tthebravestmanintheworld,areyou?"
"No,Iain’t,"exclaimedtheloudsoldierin—
dignantly;"andIdidn’tsayIwasthebravestmanintheworld,neither。IsaidIwasgoingtodomyshareoffighting——that’swhatIsaid。AndIam,too。Whoareyou,anyhow。YoutalkasifyouthoughtyouwasNapoleonBonaparte。"
Heglaredattheyouthforamoment,andthenstrodeaway。
Theyouthcalledinasavagevoiceafterhiscomrade:"Well,youneedn’tgitmadaboutit!"
Buttheothercontinuedonhiswayandmadenoreply。
Hefeltaloneinspacewhenhisinjuredcom—
radehaddisappeared。Hisfailuretodiscoveranymiteofresemblanceintheirviewpointsmadehimmoremiserablethanbefore。Nooneseemedtobewrestlingwithsuchaterrificper—
sonalproblem。Hewasamentaloutcast。
Hewentslowlytohistentandstretchedhim—
selfonablanketbythesideofthesnoringtallsoldier。Inthedarknesshesawvisionsofathou—
sand—tonguedfearthatwouldbabbleathisbackandcausehimtoflee,whileothersweregoingcoollyabouttheircountry’sbusiness。Headmit—
tedthathewouldnotbeabletocopewiththismonster。Hefeltthateverynerveinhisbodywouldbeaneartohearthevoices,whileothermenwouldremainstolidanddeaf。
Andashesweatedwiththepainofthesethoughts,hecouldhearlow,serenesentences。
"I’llbidfive。""Makeitsix。""Seven。"
"Sevengoes。"
Hestaredatthered,shiveringreflectionofafireonthewhitewallofhistentuntil,ex—
haustedandillfromthemonotonyofhissuf—
fering,hefellasleep。
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CHAPTERIII。
WHENanothernightcamethecolumns,changedtopurplestreaks,filedacrosstwopon—
toonbridges。Aglaringfirewine—tintedthewatersoftheriver。Itsrays,shininguponthemovingmassesoftroops,broughtforthhereandtheresuddengleamsofsilverorgold。Upontheothershoreadarkandmysteriousrangeofhillswascurvedagainstthesky。Theinsectvoicesofthenightsangsolemnly。
Afterthiscrossingtheyouthassuredhimselfthatatanymomenttheymightbesuddenlyandfearfullyassaultedfromthecavesoftheloweringwoods。Hekepthiseyeswatchfullyuponthedarkness。
Buthisregimentwentunmolestedtoacamp—
ingplace,anditssoldierssleptthebravesleepofweariedmen。Inthemorningtheywereroutedoutwithearlyenergy,andhustledalonganarrowroadthatleddeepintotheforest。
Itwasduringthisrapidmarchthattheregimentlostmanyofthemarksofanewcom—
mand。
Themenhadbeguntocountthemilesupontheirfingers,andtheygrewtired。"Sorefeetan’damnedshortrations,that’sall,"saidtheloudsoldier。Therewasperspirationandgrum—
blings。Afteratimetheybegantoshedtheirknapsacks。Sometossedthemunconcernedlydown;othershidthemcarefully,assertingtheirplanstoreturnforthematsomeconvenienttime。Menextricatedthemselvesfromthickshirts。Presentlyfewcarriedanythingbuttheirnecessaryclothing,blankets,haversacks,canteens,andarmsandammunition。"Youcannoweatandshoot,"saidthetallsoldiertotheyouth。
"That’sallyouwanttodo。"
Therewassuddenchangefromtheponderousinfantryoftheorytothelightandspeedyinfantryofpractice。Theregiment,relievedofaburden,receivedanewimpetus。Buttherewasmuchlossofvaluableknapsacks,and,onthewhole,verygoodshirts。
Buttheregimentwasnotyetveteranlikeinappearance。Veteranregimentsinthearmywerelikelytobeverysmallaggregationsofmen。
Once,whenthecommandhadfirstcometothefield,someperambulatingveterans,notingthelengthoftheircolumn,hadaccostedthemthus:
"Hey,fellers,whatbrigadeisthat?"Andwhenthemenhadrepliedthattheyformedaregimentandnotabrigade,theoldersoldiershadlaughed,andsaid,"OGawd!"
Also,therewastoogreatasimilarityinthehats。Thehatsofaregimentshouldproperlyrepresentthehistoryofheadgearforaperiodofyears。And,moreover,therewerenolettersoffadedgoldspeakingfromthecolors。Theywerenewandbeautiful,andthecolorbearerhabitu—
allyoiledthepole。
Presentlythearmyagainsatdowntothink。
Theodorofthepeacefulpineswasinthemen’snostrils。Thesoundofmonotonousaxeblowsrangthroughtheforest,andtheinsects,noddingupontheirperches,croonedlikeoldwomen。
Theyouthreturnedtohistheoryofabluedem—
onstration。
Onegraydawn,however,hewaskickedinthelegbythetallsoldier,andthen,beforehewasentirelyawake,hefoundhimselfrunningdownawoodroadinthemidstofmenwhowerepantingfromthefirsteffectsofspeed。Hiscan—
teenbangedrhythmicallyuponhisthigh,andhishaversackbobbedsoftly。Hismusketbouncedatriflefromhisshoulderateachstrideandmadehiscapfeeluncertainuponhishead。
Hecouldhearthemenwhisperjerkysen—
tences:"Say——what’sallthis——about?""Whatth’thunder——we——skedaddlin’thiswayfer?"
"Billie——keepoffm’feet。Yehrun——likeacow。"
Andtheloudsoldier’sshrillvoicecouldbeheard:"Whatth’deviltheyinsichahurryfor?"
Theyouththoughtthedampfogofearlymorningmovedfromtherushofagreatbodyoftroops。Fromthedistancecameasuddenspatteroffiring。
Hewasbewildered。Asheranwithhiscom—
radeshestrenuouslytriedtothink,butallheknewwasthatifhefelldownthosecomingbehindwouldtreaduponhim。Allhisfacultiesseemedtobeneededtoguidehimoverandpastobstruc—
tions。Hefeltcarriedalongbyamob。
Thesunspreaddisclosingrays,and,onebyone,regimentsburstintoviewlikearmedmenjustbornoftheearth。Theyouthperceivedthatthetimehadcome。Hewasabouttobemeasured。Foramomenthefeltinthefaceofhisgreattriallikeababe,andthefleshoverhisheartseemedverythin。Heseizedtimetolookabouthimcalculatingly。
Butheinstantlysawthatitwouldbeimpossi—
bleforhimtoescapefromtheregiment。Itin—
closedhim。Andtherewereironlawsoftradi—
tionandlawonfoursides。Hewasinamovingbox。
Asheperceivedthisfactitoccurredtohimthathehadneverwishedtocometothewar。
Hehadnotenlistedofhisfreewill。Hehadbeendraggedbythemercilessgovernment。Andnowtheyweretakinghimouttobeslaughtered。
Theregimentsliddownabankandwallowedacrossalittlestream。Themournfulcurrentmovedslowlyon,andfromthewater,shadedblack,somewhitebubbleeyeslookedatthemen。
Astheyclimbedthehillonthefarthersideartillerybegantoboom。Heretheyouthforgotmanythingsashefeltasuddenimpulseofcuri—
osity。Hescrambledupthebankwithaspeedthatcouldnotbeexceededbyabloodthirstyman。
Heexpectedabattlescene。
Thereweresomelittlefieldsgirtedandsqueezedbyaforest。Spreadoverthegrassandinamongthetreetrunks,hecouldseeknotsandwavinglinesofskirmisherswhowererunninghitherandthitherandfiringatthelandscape。
Adarkbattlelinelayuponasunstruckclearingthatgleamedorangecolor。Aflagfluttered。
Otherregimentsflounderedupthebank。Thebrigadewasformedinlineofbattle,andafterapausestartedslowlythroughthewoodsintherearoftherecedingskirmishers,whowerecon—
tinuallymeltingintothescenetoappearagainfartheron。Theywerealwaysbusyasbees,deeplyabsorbedintheirlittlecombats。
Theyouthtriedtoobserveeverything。Hedidnotusecaretoavoidtreesandbranches,andhisforgottenfeetwereconstantlyknockingagainststonesorgettingentangledinbriers。
Hewasawarethatthesebattalionswiththeircommotionswerewovenredandstartlingintothegentlefabricofsoftenedgreensandbrowns。
Itlookedtobeawrongplaceforabattlefield。
Theskirmishersinadvancefascinatedhim。
Theirshotsintothicketsandatdistantandprominenttreesspoketohimoftragedies——hid—
den,mysterious,solemn。
Oncethelineencounteredthebodyofadeadsoldier。Helayuponhisbackstaringatthesky。
Hewasdressedinanawkwardsuitofyellowishbrown。Theyouthcouldseethatthesolesofhisshoeshadbeenworntothethinnessofwritingpaper,andfromagreatrentinonethedeadfootprojectedpiteously。Anditwasasiffatehadbetrayedthesoldier。Indeathitexposedtohisenemiesthatpovertywhichinlifehehadperhapsconcealedfromhisfriends。
Theranksopenedcovertlytoavoidthecorpse。
Theinvulnerabledeadmanforcedawayforhim—
self。Theyouthlookedkeenlyattheashenface。
Thewindraisedthetawnybeard。Itmovedasifahandwerestrokingit。Hevaguelydesiredtowalkaroundandaroundthebodyandstare;
theimpulseofthelivingtotrytoreadindeadeyestheanswertotheQuestion。
Duringthemarchtheardorwhichtheyouthhadacquiredwhenoutofviewofthefieldrapidlyfadedtonothing。Hiscuriositywasquiteeasilysatisfied。Ifanintensescenehadcaughthimwithitswildswingashecametothetopofthebank,hemighthavegoneroaringon。ThisadvanceuponNaturewastoocalm。Hehadopportunitytoreflect。Hehadtimeinwhichtowonderabouthimselfandtoattempttoprobehissensa—
tions。
Absurdideastookholduponhim。Hethoughtthathedidnotrelishthelandscape。
Itthreatenedhim。Acoldnesssweptoverhisback,anditistruethathistrousersfelttohimthattheywerenofitforhislegsatall。
Ahousestandingplacidlyindistantfieldshadtohimanominouslook。Theshadowsofthewoodswereformidable。Hewascertainthatinthisvistatherelurkedfierce—eyedhosts。Theswiftthoughtcametohimthatthegeneralsdidnotknowwhattheywereabout。Itwasallatrap。Suddenlythosecloseforestswouldbristlewithriflebarrels。Ironlikebrigadeswouldap—
pearintherear。Theywereallgoingtobesacrificed。Thegeneralswerestupids。Theenemywouldpresentlyswallowthewholecom—
mand。Heglaredabouthim,expectingtoseethestealthyapproachofhisdeath。
Hethoughtthathemustbreakfromtheranksandharanguehiscomrades。Theymustnotallbekilledlikepigs;andhewassureitwouldcometopassunlesstheywereinformedofthesedangers。Thegeneralswereidiotstosendthemmarchingintoaregularpen。Therewasbutonepairofeyesinthecorps。Hewouldstepforthandmakeaspeech。Shrillandpassionatewordscametohislips。
Theline,brokenintomovingfragmentsbytheground,wentcalmlyonthroughfieldsandwoods。
Theyouthlookedatthemennearesthim,andsaw,forthemostpart,expressionsofdeepinter—
est,asiftheywereinvestigatingsomethingthathadfascinatedthem。Oneortwosteppedwithovervaliantairsasiftheywerealreadyplungedintowar。Otherswalkedasuponthinice。Thegreaterpartoftheuntestedmenappearedquietandabsorbed。Theyweregoingtolookatwar,theredanimal——war,theblood—swollengod。Andtheyweredeeplyengrossedinthismarch。
Ashelookedtheyouthgrippedhisoutcryathisthroat。Hesawthatevenifthemenweretotteringwithfeartheywouldlaughathiswarn—
ing。Theywouldjeerhim,and,ifpracticable,pelthimwithmissiles。Admittingthathemightbewrong,afrenzieddeclamationofthekindwouldturnhimintoaworm。
Heassumed,then,thedemeanorofonewhoknowsthatheisdoomedalonetounwrittenre—
sponsibilities。Helagged,withtragicglancesatthesky。
Hewassurprisedpresentlybytheyounglieu—
tenantofhiscompany,whobeganheartilytobeathimwithasword,callingoutinaloudandinsolentvoice:"Come,youngman,getupintoranksthere。Noskulking’lldohere。"Hemend—
edhispacewithsuitablehaste。Andhehatedthelieutenant,whohadnoappreciationoffineminds。Hewasamerebrute。
Afteratimethebrigadewashaltedinthecathedrallightofaforest。Thebusyskirmish—
erswerestillpopping。Throughtheaislesofthewoodcouldbeseenthefloatingsmokefromtheirrifles。Sometimesitwentupinlittleballs,whiteandcompact。
Duringthishaltmanymenintheregimentbeganerectingtinyhillsinfrontofthem。Theyusedstones,sticks,earth,andanythingtheythoughtmightturnabullet。Somebuiltcom—
parativelylargeones,whileothersseemedcon—
tentwithlittleones。
Thisprocedurecausedadiscussionamongthemen。Somewishedtofightlikeduelists,believ—
ingittobecorrecttostanderectandbe,fromtheirfeettotheirforeheads,amark。Theysaidtheyscornedthedevicesofthecautious。Buttheothersscoffedinreply,andpointedtotheveteransontheflankswhowerediggingatthegroundliketerriers。Inashorttimetherewasquiteabarricadealongtheregimentalfronts。
Directly,however,theywereorderedtowith—
drawfromthatplace。
Thisastoundedtheyouth。Heforgothisstewingovertheadvancemovement。"Well,then,whatdidtheymarchusoutherefor?"hedemandedofthetallsoldier。Thelatterwithcalmfaithbeganaheavyexplanation,althoughhehadbeencompelledtoleavealittleprotectionofstonesanddirttowhichhehaddevotedmuchcareandskill。
Whentheregimentwasalignedinanotherpositioneachman’sregardforhissafetycausedanotherlineofsmallintrenchments。Theyatetheirnoonmealbehindathirdone。Theyweremovedfromthisonealso。Theyweremarchedfromplacetoplacewithapparentaimlessness。
Theyouthhadbeentaughtthatamanbe—
cameanotherthinginabattle。Hesawhissal—
vationinsuchachange。Hencethiswaitingwasanordealtohim。Hewasinafeverofim—
patience。Heconsideredthattherewasdenotedalackofpurposeonthepartofthegenerals。
Hebegantocomplaintothetallsoldier。"I
can’tstandthismuchlonger,"hecried。"I
don’tseewhatgooditdoestomakeuswearoutourlegsfornothin’。"Hewishedtoreturntocamp,knowingthatthisaffairwasabluedemonstration;orelsetogointoabattleanddiscoverthathehadbeenafoolinhisdoubts,andwas,intruth,amanoftraditionalcourage。
Thestrainofpresentcircumstanceshefelttobeintolerable。
Thephilosophicaltallsoldiermeasuredasand—
wichofcrackerandporkandswalloweditinanonchalantmanner。"Oh,Isupposewemustgoreconnoiteringaroundthecountryjesttokeep’emfromgettingtooclose,ortodevelop’em,orsomething。"
"Huh!"saidtheloudsoldier。
"Well,"criedtheyouth,stillfidgeting,"I’dratherdoanything’mostthangotramping’roundthecountryalldaydoingnogoodtonobodyandjesttiringourselvesout。"
"SowouldI,"saidtheloudsoldier。"Itain’tright。Itellyouifanybodywithanysensewasa—runnin’thisarmyit——"
"Oh,shutup!"roaredthetallprivate。"Youlittlefool。Youlittledamn’cuss。Youain’thadthattherecoatandthempantsonforsixmonths,andyetyoutalkasif——"
"Well,Iwantadosomefightinganyway,"
interruptedtheother。"Ididn’tcomeheretowalk。Icould’avewalkedtohome——’roundan’
’roundthebarn,ifIjestwantedtowalk。"
Thetallone,red—faced,swallowedanothersandwichasiftakingpoisonindespair。
Butgradually,ashechewed,hisfacebecameagainquietandcontented。Hecouldnotrageinfierceargumentinthepresenceofsuchsand—
wiches。Duringhismealshealwaysworeanairofblissfulcontemplationofthefoodhehadswal—
lowed。Hisspiritseemedthentobecommuningwiththeviands。
Heacceptednewenvironmentandcircum—
stancewithgreatcoolness,eatingfromhishaver—
sackateveryopportunity。Onthemarchhewentalongwiththestrideofahunter,object—
ingtoneithergaitnordistance。Andhehadnotraisedhisvoicewhenhehadbeenorderedawayfromthreelittleprotectivepilesofearthandstone,eachofwhichhadbeenanengineer—
ingfeatworthyofbeingmadesacredtothenameofhisgrandmother。
Intheafternoontheregimentwentoutoverthesamegroundithadtakeninthemorn—
ing。Thelandscapethenceasedtothreatentheyouth。Hehadbeenclosetoitandbecomefamiliarwithit。
When,however,theybegantopassintoanewregion,hisoldfearsofstupidityandin—
competencereassailedhim,butthistimehedog—
gedlyletthembabble。Hewasoccupiedwithhisproblem,andinhisdesperationheconcludedthatthestupiditydidnotgreatlymatter。
Oncehethoughthehadconcludedthatitwouldbebettertogetkilleddirectlyandendhistroubles。Regardingdeaththusoutofthecornerofhiseye,heconceivedittobenoth—
ingbutrest,andhewasfilledwithamomen—
taryastonishmentthatheshouldhavemadeanextraordinarycommotionoverthemerematterofgettingkilled。Hewoulddie;hewouldgotosomeplacewherehewouldbeunderstood。
Itwasuselesstoexpectappreciationofhispro—
foundandfinesensesfromsuchmenasthelieu—
tenant。Hemustlooktothegraveforcompre—
hension。
Theskirmishfireincreasedtoalongchatter—
ingsound。Withitwasmingledfar—awaycheer—
ing。Abatteryspoke。
Directlytheyouthwouldseetheskirmishersrunning。Theywerepursuedbythesoundofmusketryfire。Afteratimethehot,dangerousflashesoftherifleswerevisible。Smokecloudswentslowlyandinsolentlyacrossthefieldslikeobservantphantoms。Thedinbecamecrescendo,liketheroarofanoncomingtrain。
Abrigadeaheadofthemandontherightwentintoactionwitharendingroar。Itwasasifithadexploded。Andthereafteritlaystretchedinthedistancebehindalonggraywall,thatonewasobligedtolooktwiceattomakesurethatitwassmoke。
Theyouth,forgettinghisneatplanofgettingkilled,gazedspellbound。Hiseyesgrewwideandbusywiththeactionofthescene。Hismouthwasalittlewaysopen。
Ofasuddenhefeltaheavyandsadhandlaiduponhisshoulder。Awakeningfromhistranceofobservationheturnedandbeheldtheloudsoldier。
"It’smyfirstandlastbattle,oldboy,"saidthelatter,withintensegloom。Hewasquitepaleandhisgirlishlipwastrembling。
"Eh?"murmuredtheyouthingreataston—
ishment。
"It’smyfirstandlastbattle,oldboy,"
continuedtheloudsoldier。"Somethingtellsme——"
"What?"
"I’magonecoonthisfirsttimeand——andI
w—wantyoutotaketheseherethings——to——my——
folks。"Heendedinaquaveringsobofpityforhimself。Hehandedtheyouthalittlepacketdoneupinayellowenvelope。
"Why,whatthedevil——"begantheyouthagain。
Buttheothergavehimaglanceasfromthedepthsofatomb,andraisedhislimphandinapropheticmannerandturnedaway。
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CHAPTERIV。
THEbrigadewashaltedinthefringeofagrove。Themencrouchedamongthetreesandpointedtheirrestlessgunsoutatthefields。
Theytriedtolookbeyondthesmoke。
Outofthishazetheycouldseerunningmen。
Someshoutedinformationandgesturedastheyhurried。
Themenofthenewregimentwatchedandlistenedeagerly,whiletheirtonguesranoningossipofthebattle。Theymouthedrumorsthathadflownlikebirdsoutoftheunknown。
"TheysayPerryhasbeendriveninwithbigloss。"
"Yes,Carrottwentt’th’hospital。Hesaidhewassick。Thatsmartlieutenantiscommanding’G’Company。Th’boyssaytheywon’tbeunderCarrottnomoreiftheyallhavet’desert。
Theyallusknewhewasa——"
"Hannises’batt’ryistook。"
"Itain’teither。IsawHannises’batt’ryoffonth’leftnotmore’nfifteenminutesago。"
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"Well——"
"Th’general,hesesheisgoin’t’taketh’hullcammandofth’304thwhenwegointehaction,an’thenheseswe’lldosechfightin’asneveranotheronereg’mentdone。"
"Theysaywe’recatchin’itoveronth’left。
Theysayth’enemydriv’ourlineintehadevilofaswampan’tookHannises’batt’ry。"
"Nosechthing。Hannises’batt’rywas’longhere’boutaminuteago。"
"ThatyoungHasbrouck,hemakesagoodoff’cer。Heain’tafraid’anothin’。"
"Imetoneofth’148thMaineboysan’heseshisbrigadefitth’hullrebelarmyferfourhoursoveronth’turnpikeroadan’killedaboutfivethousandof’em。Hesesonemoresechfightasthatan’th’war’llbeover。"
"Billwasn’tscaredeither。No,sir!Itwasn’tthat。Billain’ta—gittin’scaredeasy。Hewasjestmad,that’swhathewas。Whenthatfellertrodonhishand,heupan’sedthathewaswillin’
t’givehishandt’hiscountry,buthebedumbedifhewasgoin’t’haveeverydumbbushwhackerinth’kentrywalkin’’roundonit。Sehewentt’
th’hospitaldisregardlessofth’fight。Threefingerswascrunched。Th’derndoctorwantedt’amputate’m,an’Bill,heraisedaheluvarow,I
hear。He’safunnyfeller。"
Thedininfrontswelledtoatremendouschorus。Theyouthandhisfellowswerefrozentosilence。Theycouldseeaflagthattossedinthesmokeangrily。Nearitweretheblurredandagitatedformsoftroops。Therecameaturbulentstreamofmenacrossthefields。Abatterychang—
ingpositionatafranticgallopscatteredthestragglersrightandleft。
Ashellscreaminglikeastormbansheewentoverthehuddledheadsofthereserves。Itlandedinthegrove,andexplodingredlyflungthebrownearth。Therewasalittleshowerofpineneedles。
Bulletsbegantowhistleamongthebranchesandnipatthetrees。Twigsandleavescamesailingdown。Itwasasifathousandaxes,weeandinvisible,werebeingwielded。Manyofthemenwereconstantlydodgingandduckingtheirheads。
Thelieutenantoftheyouth’scompanywasshotinthehand。Hebegantoswearsowon—
drouslythatanervouslaughwentalongtheregi—
mentalline。Theofficer’sprofanitysoundedconventional。Itrelievedthetightenedsensesofthenewmen。Itwasasifhehadhithisfingerswithatackhammerathome。
Heheldthewoundedmembercarefullyawayfromhissidesothatthebloodwouldnotdripuponhistrousers。
Thecaptainofthecompany,tuckinghisswordunderhisarm,producedahandkerchiefandbegantobindwithitthelieutenant’swound。
Andtheydisputedastohowthebindingshouldbedone。
Thebattleflaginthedistancejerkedaboutmadly。Itseemedtobestrugglingtofreeitselffromanagony。Thebillowingsmokewasfilledwithhorizontalflashes。
Menrunningswiftlyemergedfromit。Theygrewinnumbersuntilitwasseenthatthewholecommandwasfleeing。Theflagsuddenlysankdownasifdying。Itsmotionasitfellwasagestureofdespair。
Wildyellscamefrombehindthewallsofsmoke。Asketchingrayandreddissolvedintoamoblikebodyofmenwhogallopedlikewildhorses。
Theveteranregimentsontherightandleftofthe304thimmediatelybegantojeer。Withthepassionatesongofthebulletsandthebansheeshrieksofshellsweremingledloudcatcallsandbitsoffacetiousadviceconcerningplacesofsafety。
Butthenewregimentwasbreathlesswithhor—
ror。"Gawd!Saunders’sgotcrushed!"whis—
peredthemanattheyouth’selbow。Theyshrankbackandcrouchedasifcompelledtoawaitaflood。
Theyouthshotaswiftglancealongtheblueranksoftheregiment。Theprofilesweremotion—
less,carven;andafterwardherememberedthatthecolorsergeantwasstandingwithhislegsapart,asifheexpectedtobepushedtotheground。
Thefollowingthrongwentwhirlingaroundtheflank。Hereandtherewereofficerscarriedalongonthestreamlikeexasperatedchips。Theywerestrikingaboutthemwiththeirswordsandwiththeirleftfists,punchingeveryheadtheycouldreach。Theycursedlikehighway—
men。
Amountedofficerdisplayedthefuriousangerofaspoiledchild。Heragedwithhishead,hisarms,andhislegs。
Another,thecommanderofthebrigade,wasgallopingaboutbawling。Hishatwasgoneandhisclotheswereawry。Heresembledamanwhohascomefrombedtogotoafire。Thehoofsofhishorseoftenthreatenedtheheadsoftherunningmen,buttheyscamperedwithsin—
gularfortune。Inthisrushtheywereapparentlyalldeafandblind。Theyheedednotthelargestandlongestoftheoathsthatwerethrownatthemfromalldirections。
Frequentlyoverthistumultcouldbeheardthegrimjokesofthecriticalveterans;buttheretreatingmenapparentlywerenotevencon—
sciousofthepresenceofanaudience。
Thebattlereflectionthatshoneforaninstantinthefacesonthemadcurrentmadetheyouthfeelthatforcefulhandsfromheavenwouldnothavebeenabletohaveheldhiminplaceifhecouldhavegotintelligentcontrolofhislegs。
Therewasanappallingimprintuponthesefaces。Thestruggleinthesmokehadpicturedanexaggerationofitselfonthebleachedcheeksandintheeyeswildwithonedesire。
Thesightofthisstampedeexertedafloodlikeforcethatseemedabletodragsticksandstonesandmenfromtheground。Theyofthereserveshadtoholdon。Theygrewpaleandfirm,andredandquaking。
Theyouthachievedonelittlethoughtinthemidstofthischaos。Thecompositemonsterwhichhadcausedtheothertroopstofleehadnotthenappeared。Heresolvedtogetaviewofit,andthen,hethoughthemightverylikelyrunbetterthanthebestofthem。
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CHAPTERV。
THEREweremomentsofwaiting。Theyouththoughtofthevillagestreetathomebeforethearrivalofthecircusparadeonadayinthespring。Herememberedhowhehadstood,asmall,thrillfulboy,preparedtofollowthedingyladyuponthewhitehorse,orthebandinitsfadedchariot。Hesawtheyellowroad,thelinesofexpectantpeople,andthesoberhouses。
Heparticularlyrememberedanoldfellowwhousedtosituponacrackerboxinfrontofthestoreandfeigntodespisesuchexhibitions。A
thousanddetailsofcolorandformsurgedinhismind。Theoldfellowuponthecrackerboxap—
pearedinmiddleprominence。
Someonecried,"Heretheycome!"
Therewasrustlingandmutteringamongthemen。Theydisplayedafeverishdesiretohaveeverypossiblecartridgereadytotheirhands。
Theboxeswerepulledaroundintovariousposi—
tions,andadjustedwithgreatcare。Itwasasifsevenhundrednewbonnetswerebeingtriedon。
Thetallsoldier,havingpreparedhisrifle,pro—
ducedaredhandkerchiefofsomekind。Hewasengagedinknittingitabouthisthroatwithex—
quisiteattentiontoitsposition,whenthecrywasrepeatedupanddownthelineinamuffledroarofsound。
"Heretheycome!Heretheycome!"Gunlocksclicked。
Acrossthesmoke—infestedfieldscameabrownswarmofrunningmenwhoweregivingshrillyells。Theycameon,stoopingandswingingtheirriflesatallangles。Aflag,tiltedforward,spednearthefront。
Ashecaughtsightofthemtheyouthwasmomentarilystartledbyathoughtthatperhapshisgunwasnotloaded。Hestoodtryingtorallyhisfalteringintellectsothathemightrec—
ollectthemomentwhenhehadloaded,buthecouldnot。