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  AnEpisodeoftheAmericanCivilWarCHAPTERI。
  THEcoldpassedreluctantlyfromtheearth,andtheretiringfogsrevealedanarmystretchedoutonthehills,resting。Asthelandscapechangedfrombrowntogreen,thearmyawak—
  ened,andbegantotremblewitheagernessatthenoiseofrumors。Itcastitseyesupontheroads,whichweregrowingfromlongtroughsofliquidmudtoproperthoroughfares。Ariver,amber—
  tintedintheshadowofitsbanks,purledatthearmy’sfeet;andatnight,whenthestreamhadbecomeofasorrowfulblackness,onecouldseeacrossitthered,eyelikegleamofhostilecamp—
  firessetinthelowbrowsofdistanthills。
  Onceacertaintallsoldierdevelopedvirtuesandwentresolutelytowashashirt。Hecameflyingbackfromabrookwavinghisgarmentbannerlike。Hewasswelledwithatalehehadheardfromareliablefriend,whohadhearditfromatruthfulcavalryman,whohadhearditfromhistrustworthybrother,oneoftheorder—
  liesatdivisionheadquarters。Headoptedtheimportantairofaheraldinredandgold。
  "We’regoin’t’movet’morrah——sure,"hesaidpompouslytoagroupinthecompanystreet。"We’regoin’’wayuptheriver,cutacross,an’comearoundinbehint’em。"
  Tohisattentiveaudiencehedrewaloudandelaborateplanofaverybrilliantcampaign。
  Whenhehadfinished,theblue—clothedmenscatteredintosmallarguinggroupsbetweentherowsofsquatbrownhuts。Anegroteamsterwhohadbeendancinguponacrackerboxwiththehilariousencouragementoftwoscoresoldierswasdeserted。Hesatmournfullydown。Smokedriftedlazilyfromamultitudeofquaintchim—
  neys。
  "It’salie!that’sallitis——athunderin’lie!"
  saidanotherprivateloudly。Hissmoothfacewasflushed,andhishandswerethrustsulkilyintohistrousers’pockets。Hetookthematterasanaffronttohim。"Idon’tbelievethedernedoldarmy’severgoingtomove。We’reset。I’vegotreadytomoveeighttimesinthelasttwoweeks,andweain’tmovedyet。"
  Thetallsoldierfeltcalledupontodefendthetruthofarumorhehimselfhadintro—
  duced。Heandtheloudonecameneartofight—
  ingoverit。
  Acorporalbegantoswearbeforetheassem—
  blage。Hehadjustputacostlyboardfloorinhishouse,hesaid。Duringtheearlyspringhehadrefrainedfromaddingextensivelytothecomfortofhisenvironmentbecausehehadfeltthatthearmymightstartonthemarchatanymoment。Oflate,however,hehadbeenim—
  pressedthattheywereinasortofeternalcamp。
  Manyofthemenengagedinaspiriteddebate。
  Oneoutlinedinapeculiarlylucidmanneralltheplansofthecommandinggeneral。Hewasop—
  posedbymenwhoadvocatedthattherewereotherplansofcampaign。Theyclamoredateachother,numbersmakingfutilebidsforthepop—
  ularattention。Meanwhile,thesoldierwhohadfetchedtherumorbustledaboutwithmuchimportance。Hewascontinuallyassailedbyquestions。
  "What’sup,Jim?"
  "Th’army’sgoin’t’move。"
  "Ah,whatyehtalkin’about?Howyehknowitis?"
  "Well,yehkinb’lievemeernot,jestasyehlike。Idon’tcareahang。"
  Therewasmuchfoodforthoughtintheman—
  nerinwhichhereplied。Hecameneartocon—
  vincingthembydisdainingtoproduceproofs。
  Theygrewexcitedoverit。
  Therewasayouthfulprivatewholistenedwitheagerearstothewordsofthetallsoldierandtothevariedcommentsofhiscomrades。
  Afterreceivingafillofdiscussionsconcerningmarchesandattacks,hewenttohishutandcrawledthroughanintricateholethatserveditasadoor。Hewishedtobealonewithsomenewthoughtsthathadlatelycometohim。
  Helaydownonawidebankthatstretchedacrosstheendoftheroom。Intheotherend,crackerboxesweremadetoserveasfurniture。
  Theyweregroupedaboutthefireplace。Apic—
  turefromanillustratedweeklywasuponthelogwalls,andthreerifleswereparalleledonpegs。
  Equipmentshuntonhandyprojections,andsometindisheslayuponasmallpileoffirewood。A
  foldedtentwasservingasaroof。Thesunlight,without,beatinguponit,madeitglowalightyellowshade。Asmallwindowshotanobliquesquareofwhiterlightupontheclutteredfloor。
  Thesmokefromthefireattimesneglectedtheclaychimneyandwreathedintotheroom,andthisflimsychimneyofclayandsticksmadeend—
  lessthreatstosetablazethewholeestablishment。
  Theyouthwasinalittletranceofastonish—
  ment。Sotheywereatlastgoingtofight。Onthemorrow,perhaps,therewouldbeabattle,andhewouldbeinit。Foratimehewasobligedtolabortomakehimselfbelieve。Hecouldnotacceptwithassuranceanomenthathewasabouttomingleinoneofthosegreataffairsoftheearth。
  Hehad,ofcourse,dreamedofbattlesallhislife——ofvagueandbloodyconflictsthathadthrilledhimwiththeirsweepandfire。Invisionshehadseenhimselfinmanystruggles。Hehadimaginedpeoplessecureintheshadowofhiseagle—eyedprowess。Butawakehehadregardedbattlesascrimsonblotchesonthepagesofthepast。Hehadputthemasthingsofthebygonewithhisthought—imagesofheavycrownsandhighcastles。Therewasaportionoftheworld’shistorywhichhehadregardedasthetimeofwars,butit,hethought,hadbeenlonggoneoverthehorizonandhaddisappearedforever。
  Fromhishomehisyouthfuleyeshadlookeduponthewarinhisowncountrywithdistrust。
  Itmustbesomesortofaplayaffair。HehadlongdespairedofwitnessingaGreeklikestruggle。
  Suchwouldbenomore,hehadsaid。Menwerebetter,ormoretimid。Secularandreligiouseducationhadeffacedthethroat—grapplingin—
  stinct,orelsefirmfinanceheldincheckthepas—
  sions。
  Hehadburnedseveraltimestoenlist。Talesofgreatmovementsshooktheland。TheymightnotbedistinctlyHomeric,butthereseemedtobemuchgloryinthem。Hehadreadofmarches,sieges,conflicts,andhehadlongedtoseeitall。
  Hisbusymindhaddrawnforhimlargepicturesextravagantincolor,luridwithbreathlessdeeds。
  Buthismotherhaddiscouragedhim。Shehadaffectedtolookwithsomecontemptuponthequalityofhiswarardorandpatriotism。Shecouldcalmlyseatherselfandwithnoapparentdifficultygivehimmanyhundredsofreasonswhyhewasofvastlymoreimportanceonthefarmthanonthefieldofbattle。Shehadhadcertainwaysofexpressionthattoldhimthatherstatementsonthesubjectcamefromadeepcon—
  viction。Moreover,onherside,washisbeliefthatherethicalmotiveintheargumentwasimpregnable。
  Atlast,however,hehadmadefirmrebellionagainstthisyellowlightthrownuponthecolorofhisambitions。Thenewspapers,thegossipofthevillage,hisownpicturingshadarousedhimtoanuncheckabledegree。Theywereintruthfightingfinelydownthere。Almosteverydaythenewspapersprintedaccountsofadecisivevictory。
  Onenight,ashelayinbed,thewindshadcarriedtohimtheclangoringofthechurchbellassomeenthusiastjerkedtheropefranticallytotellthetwistednewsofagreatbattle。Thisvoiceofthepeoplerejoicinginthenighthadmadehimshiverinaprolongedecstasyofex—
  citement。Later,hehadgonedowntohismother’sroomandhadspokenthus:"Ma,I’mgoingtoenlist。"
  "Henry,don’tyoubeafool,"hismotherhadreplied。Shehadthencoveredherfacewiththequilt。Therewasanendtothematterforthatnight。
  Nevertheless,thenextmorninghehadgonetoatownthatwasnearhismother’sfarmandhadenlistedinacompanythatwasformingthere。
  Whenhehadreturnedhomehismotherwasmilkingthebrindlecow。Fourothersstoodwaiting。"Ma,I’veenlisted,"hehadsaidtoherdiffidently。Therewasashortsilence。"TheLord’swillbedone,Henry,"shehadfinallyreplied,andhadthencontinuedtomilkthebrindlecow。
  Whenhehadstoodinthedoorwaywithhissoldier’sclothesonhisback,andwiththelightofexcitementandexpectancyinhiseyesalmostdefeatingtheglowofregretforthehomebonds,hehadseentwotearsleavingtheirtrailsonhismother’sscarredcheeks。
  Still,shehaddisappointedhimbysayingnothingwhateveraboutreturningwithhisshieldoronit。Hehadprivatelyprimedhimselfforabeautifulscene。Hehadpreparedcertainsen—
  tenceswhichhethoughtcouldbeusedwithtouchingeffect。Butherwordsdestroyedhisplans。Shehaddoggedlypeeledpotatoesandaddressedhimasfollows:"Youwatchout,Henry,an’takegoodcareofyerselfinthisherefightingbusiness——youwatchout,an’takegoodcareofyerself。Don’tgoa—thinkin’youcanlickthehullrebelarmyatthestart,becauseyehcan’t。Yerjestonelittlefelleramongstahulllotofothers,andyeh’vegottokeepquietan’dowhattheytellyeh。Iknowhowyouare,Henry。
  "I’veknetyeheightpairofsocks,Henry,andI’veputinallyerbestshirts,becauseIwantmyboytobejestaswarmandcomf’ableasanybodyinthearmy。Whenevertheygetholesin’em,I
  wantyehtosend’emright—awaybacktome,so’sIkindern’em。
  "An’allusbecarefulan’chooseyercomp’ny。
  There’slotsofbadmeninthearmy,Henry。
  Thearmymakes’emwild,andtheylikenothingbetterthanthejobofleadingoffayoungfellerlikeyou,asain’tneverbeenawayfromhomemuchandhasallushadamother,an’a—learning’emtodrinkandswear。Keepclearofthemfolks,Henry。Idon’twantyehtoeverdoany—
  thing,Henry,thatyehwouldbe’shamedtoletmeknowabout。JestthinkasifIwasa—watchin’
  yeh。Ifyehkeepthatinyermindallus,Iguessyeh’llcomeoutaboutright。
  "Yehmustallusrememberyerfather,too,child,an’rememberheneverdrunkadropoflickerinhislife,andseldomsworeacrossoath。
  "Idon’tknowwhatelsetotellyeh,Henry,exceptingthatyehmustneverdonoshirking,child,onmyaccount。Ifsobeatimecomeswhenyehhavetobekiltordoameanthing,why,Henry,don’tthinkofanything’ceptwhat’sright,becausethere’smanyawomanhastobearup’ginstsechthingsthesetimes,andtheLord’lltakekeerofusall。
  "Don’tforgitaboutthesocksandtheshirts,child;andI’veputacupofblackberryjamwithyerbundle,becauseIknowyehlikeitaboveallthings。Good—by,Henry。Watchout,andbeagoodboy。"
  Hehad,ofcourse,beenimpatientundertheordealofthisspeech。Ithadnotbeenquitewhatheexpected,andhehadborneitwithanairofirritation。Hedepartedfeelingvaguerelief。
  Still,whenhehadlookedbackfromthegate,hehadseenhismotherkneelingamongthepo—
  tatoparings。Herbrownface,upraised,wasstainedwithtears,andherspareformwasquiver—
  10REDBADGEOFCOURAGE。
  ing。Hebowedhisheadandwenton,feelingsuddenlyashamedofhispurposes。
  Fromhishomehehadgonetotheseminarytobidadieutomanyschoolmates。Theyhadthrongedabouthimwithwonderandadmiration。
  Hehadfeltthegulfnowbetweenthemandhadswelledwithcalmpride。Heandsomeofhisfellowswhohaddonnedbluewerequiteover—
  whelmedwithprivilegesforallofoneafternoon,andithadbeenaverydeliciousthing。Theyhadstrutted。
  Acertainlight—hairedgirlhadmadevivaciousfunathismartialspirit,buttherewasanotheranddarkergirlwhomhehadgazedatsteadfastly,andhethoughtshegrewdemureandsadatsightofhisblueandbrass。Ashehadwalkeddownthepathbetweentherowsofoaks,hehadturnedhisheadanddetectedheratawindowwatchinghisdeparture。Asheperceivedher,shehadim—
  mediatelybeguntostareupthroughthehightreebranchesatthesky。Hehadseenagooddealofflurryandhasteinhermovementasshechangedherattitude。Heoftenthoughtofit。
  OnthewaytoWashingtonhisspirithadsoared。Theregimentwasfedandcaressedatstationafterstationuntiltheyouthhadbelievedthathemustbeahero。Therewasalavishex—
  penditureofbreadandcoldmeats,coffee,andpicklesandcheese。Ashebaskedinthesmilesofthegirlsandwaspattedandcomplimentedbytheoldmen,hehadfeltgrowingwithinhimthestrengthtodomightydeedsofarms。
  Aftercomplicatedjourneyingswithmanypauses,therehadcomemonthsofmonotonouslifeinacamp。Hehadhadthebeliefthatrealwarwasaseriesofdeathstruggleswithsmalltimeinbetweenforsleepandmeals;butsincehisregimenthadcometothefieldthearmyhaddonelittlebutsitstillandtrytokeepwarm。
  Hewasbroughtthengraduallybacktohisoldideas。Greeklikestruggleswouldbenomore。
  Menwerebetter,ormoretimid。Secularandreligiouseducationhadeffacedthethroat—grap—
  plinginstinct,orelsefirmfinanceheldincheckthepassions。
  Hehadgrowntoregardhimselfmerelyasapartofavastbluedemonstration。Hisprovincewastolookout,asfarashecould,forhisper—
  sonalcomfort。Forrecreationhecouldtwiddlehisthumbsandspeculateonthethoughtswhichmustagitatethemindsofthegenerals。Also,hewasdrilledanddrilledandreviewed,anddrilledanddrilledandreviewed。
  Theonlyfoeshehadseenweresomepicketsalongtheriverbank。Theywereasun—tanned,philosophicallot,whosometimesshotreflectivelyatthebluepickets。Whenreproachedforthisafterward,theyusuallyexpressedsorrow,andsworebytheirgodsthatthegunshadexplodedwithouttheirpermission。Theyouth,onguarddutyonenight,conversedacrossthestreamwithoneofthem。Hewasaslightlyraggedman,whospatskillfullybetweenhisshoesandpossessedagreatfundofblandandinfantileassurance。Theyouthlikedhimpersonally。
  "Yank,"theotherhadinformedhim,"yerarightdumgoodfeller。"Thissentiment,floatingtohimuponthestillair,hadmadehimtempo—
  rarilyregretwar。
  Variousveteranshadtoldhimtales。Sometalkedofgray,bewhiskeredhordeswhowereadvancingwithrelentlesscursesandchewingtobaccowithunspeakablevalor;tremendousbodiesoffiercesoldierywhoweresweepingalongliketheHuns。Othersspokeoftatteredandeternallyhungrymenwhofireddespondentpowders。"They’llchargethroughhell’sfirean’
  brimstonet’gitaholtonahaversack,an’sechstomachsain’ta—lastin’long,"hewastold。Fromthestories,theyouthimaginedthered,livebonesstickingoutthroughslitsinthefadeduniforms。
  Still,hecouldnotputawholefaithinveter—
  ans’tales,forrecruitsweretheirprey。Theytalkedmuchofsmoke,fire,andblood,buthecouldnottellhowmuchmightbelies。Theypersistentlyyelled"Freshfish!"athim,andwereinnowisetobetrusted。
  However,heperceivednowthatitdidnotgreatlymatterwhatkindofsoldiershewasgoingtofight,solongastheyfought,whichfactnoonedisputed。Therewasamoreseriousproblem。Helayinhisbunkponderinguponit。Hetriedtomathematicallyprovetohimselfthathewouldnotrunfromabattle。
  Previouslyhehadneverfeltobligedtowrestletooseriouslywiththisquestion。Inhislifehehadtakencertainthingsforgranted,neverchalleng—
  inghisbeliefinultimatesuccess,andbotheringlittleaboutmeansandroads。Butherehewasconfrontedwithathingofmoment。Ithadsud—
  denlyappearedtohimthatperhapsinabattlehemightrun。Hewasforcedtoadmitthatasfaraswarwasconcernedheknewnothingofhimself。
  Asufficienttimebeforehewouldhaveallowedtheproblemtokickitsheelsattheouterportalsofhismind,butnowhefeltcompelledtogiveseriousattentiontoit。
  Alittlepanic—feargrewinhismind。Ashisimaginationwentforwardtoafight,hesawhide—
  ouspossibilities。Hecontemplatedthelurkingmenacesofthefuture,andfailedinanefforttoseehimselfstandingstoutlyinthemidstofthem。
  Herecalledhisvisionsofbroken—bladedglory,butintheshadowoftheimpendingtumulthesuspectedthemtobeimpossiblepictures。
  Hesprangfromthebunkandbegantopacenervouslytoandfro。"GoodLord,what’sth’
  matterwithme?"hesaidaloud。
  Hefeltthatinthiscrisishislawsoflifewereuseless。Whateverhehadlearnedofhimselfwashereofnoavail。Hewasanunknownquantity。
  Hesawthathewouldagainbeobligedtoexperi—
  mentashehadinearlyyouth。Hemustaccumu—
  lateinformationofhimself,andmeanwhilehere—
  solvedtoremaincloseuponhisguardlestthosequalitiesofwhichheknewnothingshouldever—
  lastinglydisgracehim。"GoodLord!"here—
  peatedindismay。
  Afteratimethetallsoldiersliddexterouslythroughthehole。Theloudprivatefollowed。
  Theywerewrangling。
  "That’sallright,"saidthetallsoldierasheentered。Hewavedhishandexpressively。"Youcanbelievemeornot,jestasyoulike。Allyougottodoistositdownandwaitasquietasyoucan。Thenprettysoonyou’llfindoutIwasright。"
  Hiscomradegruntedstubbornly。Foramo—
  mentheseemedtobesearchingforaformidablereply。Finallyhesaid:"Well,youdon’tknoweverythingintheworld,doyou?"
  "Didn’tsayIkneweverythingintheworld,"
  retortedtheothersharply。Hebegantostowvariousarticlessnuglyintohisknapsack。
  Theyouth,pausinginhisnervouswalk,lookeddownatthebusyfigure。"Goingtobeabattle,sure,isthere,Jim?"heasked。
  "Ofcoursethereis,"repliedthetallsoldier。
  "Ofcoursethereis。Youjestwait’tilto—morrow,andyou’llseeoneofthebiggestbattleseverwas。
  Youjestwait。"
  "Thunder!der!"saidtheyouth。
  "Oh,you’llseefightingthistime,myboy,what’llberegularout—and—outfighting,"addedthetallsoldier,withtheairofamanwhoisabouttoexhibitabattleforthebenefitofhisfriends。
  "Huh!"saidtheloudonefromacorner。
  "Well,"remarkedtheyouth,"likeasnotthisstory’llturnoutjestlikethemothersdid。"
  "Notmuchitwon’t,"repliedthetallsoldier,exasperated。"Notmuchitwon’t。Didn’tthecavalryallstartthismorning?"Heglaredabouthim。Noonedeniedhisstatement。"Thecav—
  alrystartedthismorning,"hecontinued。"Theysaythereain’thardlyanycavalryleftincamp。
  They’regoingtoRichmond,orsomeplace,whilewefightalltheJohnnies。It’ssomedodgelikethat。Theregiment’sgotorders,too。Afellerwhatseen’emgotoheadquarterstoldmealittlewhileago。Andthey’reraisingblazesallovercamp——anybodycanseethat。"
  "Shucks!"saidtheloudone。
  Theyouthremainedsilentforatime。Atlasthespoketothetallsoldier。"Jim!"
  "What?"
  "Howdoyouthinkthereg’ment’lldo?"
  "Oh,they’llfightallright,Iguess,aftertheyoncegetintoit,"saidtheotherwithcoldjudg—
  ment。Hemadeafineuseofthethirdperson。
  "There’sbeenheapsoffunpokedat’embecausethey’renew,ofcourse,andallthat;butthey’llfightallright,Iguess。"
  "Thinkanyoftheboys’llrun?"persistedtheyouth。
  "Oh,theremaybeafewof’emrun,butthere’sthemkindineveryregiment,’speciallywhentheyfirstgoesunderfire,"saidtheotherinatolerantway。"Ofcourseitmighthappenthatthehullkit—and—boodlemightstartandrun,ifsomebigfightingcamefirst—off,andthenagaintheymightstayandfightlikefun。Butyoucan’tbetonnothing。Ofcoursetheyain’tneverbeenunderfireyet,anditain’tlikelythey’lllickthehullrebelarmyall—to—oncetthefirsttime;butI
  thinkthey’llfightbetterthansome,ifworsethanothers。That’sthewayIfigger。Theycallthereg’ment’Freshfish’andeverything;buttheboyscomeofgoodstock,andmostof’em’llfightlikesinaftertheyoncetgitshootin’,"headded,withamightyemphasisonthelastfourwords。
  "Oh,youthinkyouknow——"begantheloudsoldierwithscorn。
  Theotherturnedsavagelyuponhim。Theyhadarapidaltercation,inwhichtheyfasteneduponeachothervariousstrangeepithets。
  Theyouthatlastinterruptedthem。"Didyoueverthinkyoumightrunyourself,Jim?"heasked。Onconcludingthesentencehelaughedasifhehadmeanttoaimajoke。Theloudsol—
  dieralsogiggled。
  Thetallprivatewavedhishand。"Well,"saidheprofoundly,"I’vethoughtitmightgettoohotforJimConklininsomeofthemscrimmages,andifawholelotofboysstartedandrun,why,I
  s’poseI’dstartandrun。AndifIoncestartedtorun,I’drunlikethedevil,andnomistake。Butifeverybodywasa—standinganda—fighting,why,I’dstandandfight。Bejiminey,Iwould。I’llbetonit。"
  "Huh!"saidtheloudone。
  Theyouthofthistalefeltgratitudeforthesewordsofhiscomrade。Hehadfearedthatalloftheuntriedmenpossessedagreatandcorrectconfidence。Henowwasinameasurereassured。
  chapter02
  CHAPTERII。
  THEnextmorningtheyouthdiscoveredthathistallcomradehadbeenthefast—flyingmessen—
  gerofamistake。Therewasmuchscoffingatthelatterbythosewhohadyesterdaybeenfirmadherentsofhisviews,andtherewasevenalit—
  tlesneeringbymenwhohadneverbelievedtherumor。ThetallonefoughtwithamanfromChatfieldCornersandbeathimseverely。
  Theyouthfelt,however,thathisproblemwasinnowiseliftedfromhim。Therewas,onthecontrary,anirritatingprolongation。Thetalehadcreatedinhimagreatconcernforhimself。
  Now,withthenewbornquestioninhismind,hewascompelledtosinkbackintohisoldplaceaspartofabluedemonstration。
  Fordayshemadeceaselesscalculations,buttheywereallwondrouslyunsatisfactory。Hefoundthathecouldestablishnothing。Hefinal—
  lyconcludedthattheonlywaytoprovehimselfwastogointotheblaze,andthenfigurativelyto18
  watchhislegstodiscovertheirmeritsandfaults。
  Hereluctantlyadmittedthathecouldnotsitstillandwithamentalslateandpencilderiveananswer。Togainit,hemusthaveblaze,blood,anddanger,evenasachemistrequiresthis,that,andtheother。Sohefrettedforanopportunity。
  Meanwhilehecontinuallytriedtomeasurehimselfbyhiscomrades。Thetallsoldier,forone,gavehimsomeassurance。Thisman’sse—
  reneunconcerndealthimameasureofcon—
  fidence,forhehadknownhimsincechildhood,andfromhisintimateknowledgehedidnotseehowhecouldbecapableofanythingthatwasbeyondhim,theyouth。Still,hethoughtthathiscomrademightbemistakenabouthimself。
  Or,ontheotherhand,hemightbeamanhere—
  toforedoomedtopeaceandobscurity,but,inreality,madetoshineinwar。
  Theyouthwouldhavelikedtohavediscov—
  eredanotherwhosuspectedhimself。Asympa—
  theticcomparisonofmentalnoteswouldhavebeenajoytohim。
  Heoccasionallytriedtofathomacomradewithseductivesentences。Helookedabouttofindmeninthepropermood。Allattemptsfailedtobringforthanystatementwhichlookedinanywaylikeaconfessiontothosedoubtswhichheprivatelyacknowledgedinhimself。
  Hewasafraidtomakeanopendeclarationofhisconcern,becausehedreadedtoplacesomeunscrupulousconfidantuponthehighplaneoftheunconfessedfromwhichelevationhecouldbederided。
  Inregardtohiscompanionshismindwa—
  veredbetweentwoopinions,accordingtohismood。Sometimesheinclinedtobelievingthemallheroes。Infact,heusuallyadmittedinsecretthesuperiordevelopmentofthehigherqualitiesinothers。Hecouldconceiveofmengoingveryinsignificantlyabouttheworldbearingaloadofcourageunseen,andalthoughhehadknownmanyofhiscomradesthroughboyhood,hebe—
  gantofearthathisjudgmentofthemhadbeenblind。Then,inothermoments,hefloutedthesetheories,andassuredhimselfthathisfellowswereallprivatelywonderingandquaking。
  Hisemotionsmadehimfeelstrangeinthepresenceofmenwhotalkedexcitedlyofapro—
  spectivebattleasofadramatheywereabouttowitness,withnothingbuteagernessandcuriosityapparentintheirfaces。Itwasoftenthathesus—
  pectedthemtobeliars。
  Hedidnotpasssuchthoughtswithoutseverecondemnationofhimself。Hedinnedreproachesattimes。Hewasconvictedbyhimselfofmanyshamefulcrimesagainstthegodsoftraditions。
  Inhisgreatanxietyhisheartwascontinuallyclamoringatwhatheconsideredtheintolerableslownessofthegenerals。Theyseemedcontenttoperchtranquillyontheriverbank,andleavehimboweddownbytheweightofagreatprob—
  lem。Hewanteditsettledforthwith。Hecouldnotlongbearsuchaload,hesaid。Sometimeshisangeratthecommandersreachedanacutestage,andhegrumbledaboutthecamplikeaveteran。
  Onemorning,however,hefoundhimselfintheranksofhispreparedregiment。Themenwerewhisperingspeculationsandrecountingtheoldrumors。Inthegloombeforethebreakofthedaytheiruniformsglowedadeeppurplehue。Fromacrosstherivertheredeyeswerestillpeering。Intheeasternskytherewasayel—
  lowpatchlikearuglaidforthefeetofthecom—
  ingsun;andagainstit,blackandpatternlike,loomedthegiganticfigureofthecolonelonagigantichorse。
  Fromoffinthedarknesscamethetramplingoffeet。Theyouthcouldoccasionallyseedarkshadowsthatmovedlikemonsters。Theregi—
  mentstoodatrestforwhatseemedalongtime。
  Theyouthgrewimpatient。Itwasunendurablethewaytheseaffairsweremanaged。Hewon—
  deredhowlongtheyweretobekeptwaiting。
  Ashelookedallabouthimandpondereduponthemysticgloom,hebegantobelievethatatanymomenttheominousdistancemightbeaflare,andtherollingcrashesofanengagementcometohisears。Staringonceattheredeyesacrosstheriver,heconceivedthemtobegrow—
  inglarger,astheorbsofarowofdragonsad—
  vancing。Heturnedtowardthecolonelandsawhimlifthisgiganticarmandcalmlystrokehismustache。
  Atlastheheardfromalongtheroadatthefootofthehilltheclatterofahorse’sgallopinghoofs。Itmustbethecomingoforders。Hebentforward,scarcebreathing。Theexcitingclickety—click,asitgrewlouderandlouder,seemedtobebeatinguponhissoul。Presentlyahorsemanwithjanglingequipmentdrewreinbe—
  forethecoloneloftheregiment。Thetwoheldashort,sharp—wordedconversation。Themenintheforemostrankscranedtheirnecks。
  Asthehorsemanwheeledhisanimalandgal—
  lopedawayheturnedtoshoutoverhisshoulder,"Don’tforgetthatboxofcigars!"Thecolonelmumbledinreply。Theyouthwonderedwhataboxofcigarshadtodowithwar。
  Amomentlatertheregimentwentswingingoffintothedarkness。Itwasnowlikeoneofthosemovingmonsterswendingwithmanyfeet。
  Theairwasheavy,andcoldwithdew。Amassofwetgrass,marchedupon,rustledlikesilk。
  Therewasanoccasionalflashandglimmerofsteelfromthebacksofallthesehugecrawl—
  ingreptiles。Fromtheroadcamecreakingsandgrumblingsassomesurlygunsweredraggedaway。
  Themenstumbledalongstillmutteringspecu—
  lations。Therewasasubdueddebate。Onceamanfelldown,andashereachedforhisrifleacomrade,unseeing,troduponhishand。Heoftheinjuredfingerssworebitterlyandaloud。A
  low,titteringlaughwentamonghisfellows。
  Presentlytheypassedintoaroadwayandmarchedforwardwitheasystrides。Adarkregimentmovedbeforethem,andfrombehindalsocamethetinkleofequipmentsonthebodiesofmarchingmen。
  Therushingyellowofthedevelopingdaywentonbehindtheirbacks。Whenthesunraysatlaststruckfullandmellowinglyupontheearth,theyouthsawthatthelandscapewasstreakedwithtwolong,thin,blackcolumnswhichdisappearedonthebrowofahillinfrontandrearwardvanishedinawood。Theywereliketwoserpentscrawlingfromthecavernofthenight。
  Theriverwasnotinview。Thetallsoldierburstintopraisesofwhathethoughttobehispowersofperception。
  Someofthetallone’scompanionscriedwithemphasisthatthey,too,hadevolvedthesamething,andtheycongratulatedthemselvesuponit。Buttherewereotherswhosaidthatthetallone’splanwasnotthetrueoneatall。Theyper—
  sistedwithothertheories。Therewasavigorousdiscussion。
  Theyouthtooknopartinthem。Ashewalkedalongincarelesslinehewasengagedwithhisowneternaldebate。Hecouldnothin—
  derhimselffromdwellinguponit。Hewasde—
  spondentandsullen,andthrewshiftingglancesabouthim。Helookedahead,oftenexpectingtohearfromtheadvancetherattleoffiring。
  Butthelongserpentscrawledslowlyfromhilltohillwithoutblusterofsmoke。Adun—col—
  oredcloudofdustfloatedawaytotheright。
  Theskyoverheadwasofafairyblue。
  Theyouthstudiedthefacesofhiscompan—
  ions,everonthewatchtodetectkindredemo—
  tions。Hesuffereddisappointment。Someardoroftheairwhichwascausingtheveterancom—
  mandstomovewithglee——almostwithsong——
  hadinfectedthenewregiment。Themenbegantospeakofvictoryasofathingtheyknew。
  Also,thetallsoldierreceivedhisvindication。
  Theywerecertainlygoingtocomearoundinbehindtheenemy。Theyexpressedcommisera—
  tionforthatpartofthearmywhichhadbeenleftupontheriverbank,felicitatingthemselvesuponbeingapartofablastinghost。
  Theyouth,consideringhimselfasseparatedfromtheothers,wassaddenedbytheblitheandmerryspeechesthatwentfromranktorank。
  Thecompanywagsallmadetheirbestendeav—
  ors。Theregimenttrampedtothetuneoflaughter。
  Theblatantsoldieroftenconvulsedwholefilesbyhisbitingsarcasmsaimedatthetallone。
  Anditwasnotlongbeforeallthemenseemedtoforgettheirmission。Wholebrigadesgrinnedinunison,andregimentslaughed。
  Aratherfatsoldierattemptedtopilferahorsefromadooryard。Heplannedtoloadhisknap—
  sackuponit。Hewasescapingwithhisprizewhenayounggirlrushedfromthehouseandgrabbedtheanimal’smane。Therefollowedawrangle。Theyounggirl,withpinkcheeksandshiningeyes,stoodlikeadauntlessstatue。
  Theobservantregiment,standingatrestintheroadway,whoopedatonce,andenteredwhole—souleduponthesideofthemaiden。Themenbecamesoengrossedinthisaffairthattheyentirelyceasedtoremembertheirownlargewar。
  Theyjeeredthepiraticalprivate,andcalledattentiontovariousdefectsinhispersonalap—
  pearance;andtheywerewildlyenthusiasticinsupportoftheyounggirl。
  Toher,fromsomedistance,cameboldadvice。
  "Hithimwithastick。"
  Therewerecrowsandcatcallsshowereduponhimwhenheretreatedwithoutthehorse。
  Theregimentrejoicedathisdownfall。Loudandvociferouscongratulationswereshowereduponthemaiden,whostoodpantingandregard—
  ingthetroopswithdefiance。
  Atnightfallthecolumnbrokeintoregimentalpieces,andthefragmentswentintothefieldstocamp。Tentsspranguplikestrangeplants。
  Campfires,likered,peculiarblossoms,dottedthenight。
  Theyouthkeptfromintercoursewithhiscompanionsasmuchascircumstanceswouldallowhim。Intheeveninghewanderedafewpacesintothegloom。Fromthislittledistancethemanyfires,withtheblackformsofmenpass—
  ingtoandfrobeforethecrimsonrays,madeweirdandsataniceffects。
  Helaydowninthegrass。Thebladespressedtenderlyagainsthischeek。Themoonhadbeenlightedandwashunginatreetop。
  Theliquidstillnessofthenightenvelopinghimmadehimfeelvastpityforhimself。Therewasacaressinthesoftwinds;andthewholemoodofthedarkness,hethought,wasoneofsympathyforhimselfinhisdistress。
  Hewished,withoutreserve,thathewasathomeagainmakingtheendlessroundsfromthehousetothebarn,fromthebarntothefields,fromthefieldstothebarn,fromthebarntothehouse。Herememberedhehadoftencursedthebrindlecowandhermates,andhadsometimesflungmilkingstools。But,fromhispresentpointofview,therewasahaloofhappinessabouteachoftheirheads,andhewouldhavesacrificedallthebrassbuttonsonthecontinenttohavebeenenabledtoreturntothem。Hetoldhimselfthathewasnotformedforasoldier。Andhemusedseriouslyupontheradicaldifferencesbetweenhimselfandthosemenwhoweredodgingimp—
  likearoundthefires。
  Ashemusedthusheheardtherustleofgrass,and,uponturninghishead,discoveredtheloudsoldier。Hecalledout,"Oh,Wilson!"
  Thelatterapproachedandlookeddown。
  "Why,hello,Henry;isityou?Whatyoudo—
  inghere?"
  "Oh,thinking,"saidtheyouth。
  Theothersatdownandcarefullylightedhispipe。"You’regettingblue,myboy。You’relookingthunderingpeeked。Whatthedickensiswrongwithyou?"
  "Oh,nothing,"saidtheyouth。
  Theloudsoldierlaunchedthenintothesub—
  jectoftheanticipatedfight。"Oh,we’vegot’emnow!"Ashespokehisboyishfacewaswreathedinagleefulsmile,andhisvoicehadanexultantring。"We’vegot’emnow。Atlast,bytheeternalthunders,we’lllick’emgood!"
  "Ifthetruthwasknown,"headded,moresoberly,"THEY’VElickedUSabouteveryclipuptonow;butthistime——thistime——we’lllick’emgood!"
  "Ithoughtyouwasobjectingtothismarchalittlewhileago,"saidtheyouthcoldly。
  "Oh,itwasn’tthat,"explainedtheother。"I
  don’tmindmarching,ifthere’sgoingtobefight—
  ingattheendofit。WhatIhateisthisgettingmovedhereandmovedthere,withnogoodcom—
  ingofit,asfarasIcansee,exceptingsorefeetanddamnedshortrations。"
  "Well,JimConklinsayswe’llgetaplentyoffightingthistime。"
  "He’srightforonce,Iguess,thoughIcan’tseehowitcome。Thistimewe’reinforabigbattle,andwe’vegotthebestendofit,certainsure。Geerod!howwewillthump’em!"
  Hearoseandbegantopacetoandfroexcit—
  edly。Thethrillofhisenthusiasmmadehimwalkwithanelasticstep。Hewassprightly,vigorous,fieryinhisbeliefinsuccess。Helookedintothefuturewithclear,proudeye,andhesworewiththeairofanoldsoldier。
  Theyouthwatchedhimforamomentinsilence。Whenhefinallyspokehisvoicewasasbitterasdregs。"Oh,you’regoingtodogreatthings,Is’pose!"
  Theloudsoldierblewathoughtfulcloudofsmokefromhispipe。"Oh,Idon’tknow,"heremarkedwithdignity;"Idon’tknow。Is’poseI’lldoaswellastherest。I’mgoingtotrylikethunder。"Heevidentlycomplimentedhimselfuponthemodestyofthisstatement。
  "Howdoyouknowyouwon’trunwhenthetimecomes?"askedtheyouth。
  "Run?"saidtheloudone;"run?——ofcoursenot!"Helaughed。
  "Well,"continuedtheyouth,"lotsofgood—
  a—’noughmenhavethoughttheywasgoingtodogreatthingsbeforethefight,butwhenthetimecometheyskedaddled。"
  "Oh,that’salltrue,Is’pose,"repliedtheother;"butI’mnotgoingtoskedaddle。Themanthatbetsonmyrunningwilllosehismoney,that’sall。"Henoddedconfidently。
  "Oh,shucks!"saidtheyouth。"Youain’tthebravestmanintheworld,areyou?"
  "No,Iain’t,"exclaimedtheloudsoldierin—
  dignantly;"andIdidn’tsayIwasthebravestmanintheworld,neither。IsaidIwasgoingtodomyshareoffighting——that’swhatIsaid。AndIam,too。Whoareyou,anyhow。YoutalkasifyouthoughtyouwasNapoleonBonaparte。"
  Heglaredattheyouthforamoment,andthenstrodeaway。
  Theyouthcalledinasavagevoiceafterhiscomrade:"Well,youneedn’tgitmadaboutit!"
  Buttheothercontinuedonhiswayandmadenoreply。
  Hefeltaloneinspacewhenhisinjuredcom—
  radehaddisappeared。Hisfailuretodiscoveranymiteofresemblanceintheirviewpointsmadehimmoremiserablethanbefore。Nooneseemedtobewrestlingwithsuchaterrificper—
  sonalproblem。Hewasamentaloutcast。
  Hewentslowlytohistentandstretchedhim—
  selfonablanketbythesideofthesnoringtallsoldier。Inthedarknesshesawvisionsofathou—
  sand—tonguedfearthatwouldbabbleathisbackandcausehimtoflee,whileothersweregoingcoollyabouttheircountry’sbusiness。Headmit—
  tedthathewouldnotbeabletocopewiththismonster。Hefeltthateverynerveinhisbodywouldbeaneartohearthevoices,whileothermenwouldremainstolidanddeaf。
  Andashesweatedwiththepainofthesethoughts,hecouldhearlow,serenesentences。
  "I’llbidfive。""Makeitsix。""Seven。"
  "Sevengoes。"
  Hestaredatthered,shiveringreflectionofafireonthewhitewallofhistentuntil,ex—
  haustedandillfromthemonotonyofhissuf—
  fering,hefellasleep。
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  CHAPTERIII。
  WHENanothernightcamethecolumns,changedtopurplestreaks,filedacrosstwopon—
  toonbridges。Aglaringfirewine—tintedthewatersoftheriver。Itsrays,shininguponthemovingmassesoftroops,broughtforthhereandtheresuddengleamsofsilverorgold。Upontheothershoreadarkandmysteriousrangeofhillswascurvedagainstthesky。Theinsectvoicesofthenightsangsolemnly。
  Afterthiscrossingtheyouthassuredhimselfthatatanymomenttheymightbesuddenlyandfearfullyassaultedfromthecavesoftheloweringwoods。Hekepthiseyeswatchfullyuponthedarkness。
  Buthisregimentwentunmolestedtoacamp—
  ingplace,anditssoldierssleptthebravesleepofweariedmen。Inthemorningtheywereroutedoutwithearlyenergy,andhustledalonganarrowroadthatleddeepintotheforest。
  Itwasduringthisrapidmarchthattheregimentlostmanyofthemarksofanewcom—
  mand。
  Themenhadbeguntocountthemilesupontheirfingers,andtheygrewtired。"Sorefeetan’damnedshortrations,that’sall,"saidtheloudsoldier。Therewasperspirationandgrum—
  blings。Afteratimetheybegantoshedtheirknapsacks。Sometossedthemunconcernedlydown;othershidthemcarefully,assertingtheirplanstoreturnforthematsomeconvenienttime。Menextricatedthemselvesfromthickshirts。Presentlyfewcarriedanythingbuttheirnecessaryclothing,blankets,haversacks,canteens,andarmsandammunition。"Youcannoweatandshoot,"saidthetallsoldiertotheyouth。
  "That’sallyouwanttodo。"
  Therewassuddenchangefromtheponderousinfantryoftheorytothelightandspeedyinfantryofpractice。Theregiment,relievedofaburden,receivedanewimpetus。Buttherewasmuchlossofvaluableknapsacks,and,onthewhole,verygoodshirts。
  Buttheregimentwasnotyetveteranlikeinappearance。Veteranregimentsinthearmywerelikelytobeverysmallaggregationsofmen。
  Once,whenthecommandhadfirstcometothefield,someperambulatingveterans,notingthelengthoftheircolumn,hadaccostedthemthus:
  "Hey,fellers,whatbrigadeisthat?"Andwhenthemenhadrepliedthattheyformedaregimentandnotabrigade,theoldersoldiershadlaughed,andsaid,"OGawd!"
  Also,therewastoogreatasimilarityinthehats。Thehatsofaregimentshouldproperlyrepresentthehistoryofheadgearforaperiodofyears。And,moreover,therewerenolettersoffadedgoldspeakingfromthecolors。Theywerenewandbeautiful,andthecolorbearerhabitu—
  allyoiledthepole。
  Presentlythearmyagainsatdowntothink。
  Theodorofthepeacefulpineswasinthemen’snostrils。Thesoundofmonotonousaxeblowsrangthroughtheforest,andtheinsects,noddingupontheirperches,croonedlikeoldwomen。
  Theyouthreturnedtohistheoryofabluedem—
  onstration。
  Onegraydawn,however,hewaskickedinthelegbythetallsoldier,andthen,beforehewasentirelyawake,hefoundhimselfrunningdownawoodroadinthemidstofmenwhowerepantingfromthefirsteffectsofspeed。Hiscan—
  teenbangedrhythmicallyuponhisthigh,andhishaversackbobbedsoftly。Hismusketbouncedatriflefromhisshoulderateachstrideandmadehiscapfeeluncertainuponhishead。
  Hecouldhearthemenwhisperjerkysen—
  tences:"Say——what’sallthis——about?""Whatth’thunder——we——skedaddlin’thiswayfer?"
  "Billie——keepoffm’feet。Yehrun——likeacow。"
  Andtheloudsoldier’sshrillvoicecouldbeheard:"Whatth’deviltheyinsichahurryfor?"
  Theyouththoughtthedampfogofearlymorningmovedfromtherushofagreatbodyoftroops。Fromthedistancecameasuddenspatteroffiring。
  Hewasbewildered。Asheranwithhiscom—
  radeshestrenuouslytriedtothink,butallheknewwasthatifhefelldownthosecomingbehindwouldtreaduponhim。Allhisfacultiesseemedtobeneededtoguidehimoverandpastobstruc—
  tions。Hefeltcarriedalongbyamob。
  Thesunspreaddisclosingrays,and,onebyone,regimentsburstintoviewlikearmedmenjustbornoftheearth。Theyouthperceivedthatthetimehadcome。Hewasabouttobemeasured。Foramomenthefeltinthefaceofhisgreattriallikeababe,andthefleshoverhisheartseemedverythin。Heseizedtimetolookabouthimcalculatingly。
  Butheinstantlysawthatitwouldbeimpossi—
  bleforhimtoescapefromtheregiment。Itin—
  closedhim。Andtherewereironlawsoftradi—
  tionandlawonfoursides。Hewasinamovingbox。
  Asheperceivedthisfactitoccurredtohimthathehadneverwishedtocometothewar。
  Hehadnotenlistedofhisfreewill。Hehadbeendraggedbythemercilessgovernment。Andnowtheyweretakinghimouttobeslaughtered。
  Theregimentsliddownabankandwallowedacrossalittlestream。Themournfulcurrentmovedslowlyon,andfromthewater,shadedblack,somewhitebubbleeyeslookedatthemen。
  Astheyclimbedthehillonthefarthersideartillerybegantoboom。Heretheyouthforgotmanythingsashefeltasuddenimpulseofcuri—
  osity。Hescrambledupthebankwithaspeedthatcouldnotbeexceededbyabloodthirstyman。
  Heexpectedabattlescene。
  Thereweresomelittlefieldsgirtedandsqueezedbyaforest。Spreadoverthegrassandinamongthetreetrunks,hecouldseeknotsandwavinglinesofskirmisherswhowererunninghitherandthitherandfiringatthelandscape。
  Adarkbattlelinelayuponasunstruckclearingthatgleamedorangecolor。Aflagfluttered。
  Otherregimentsflounderedupthebank。Thebrigadewasformedinlineofbattle,andafterapausestartedslowlythroughthewoodsintherearoftherecedingskirmishers,whowerecon—
  tinuallymeltingintothescenetoappearagainfartheron。Theywerealwaysbusyasbees,deeplyabsorbedintheirlittlecombats。
  Theyouthtriedtoobserveeverything。Hedidnotusecaretoavoidtreesandbranches,andhisforgottenfeetwereconstantlyknockingagainststonesorgettingentangledinbriers。
  Hewasawarethatthesebattalionswiththeircommotionswerewovenredandstartlingintothegentlefabricofsoftenedgreensandbrowns。
  Itlookedtobeawrongplaceforabattlefield。
  Theskirmishersinadvancefascinatedhim。
  Theirshotsintothicketsandatdistantandprominenttreesspoketohimoftragedies——hid—
  den,mysterious,solemn。
  Oncethelineencounteredthebodyofadeadsoldier。Helayuponhisbackstaringatthesky。
  Hewasdressedinanawkwardsuitofyellowishbrown。Theyouthcouldseethatthesolesofhisshoeshadbeenworntothethinnessofwritingpaper,andfromagreatrentinonethedeadfootprojectedpiteously。Anditwasasiffatehadbetrayedthesoldier。Indeathitexposedtohisenemiesthatpovertywhichinlifehehadperhapsconcealedfromhisfriends。
  Theranksopenedcovertlytoavoidthecorpse。
  Theinvulnerabledeadmanforcedawayforhim—
  self。Theyouthlookedkeenlyattheashenface。
  Thewindraisedthetawnybeard。Itmovedasifahandwerestrokingit。Hevaguelydesiredtowalkaroundandaroundthebodyandstare;
  theimpulseofthelivingtotrytoreadindeadeyestheanswertotheQuestion。
  Duringthemarchtheardorwhichtheyouthhadacquiredwhenoutofviewofthefieldrapidlyfadedtonothing。Hiscuriositywasquiteeasilysatisfied。Ifanintensescenehadcaughthimwithitswildswingashecametothetopofthebank,hemighthavegoneroaringon。ThisadvanceuponNaturewastoocalm。Hehadopportunitytoreflect。Hehadtimeinwhichtowonderabouthimselfandtoattempttoprobehissensa—
  tions。
  Absurdideastookholduponhim。Hethoughtthathedidnotrelishthelandscape。
  Itthreatenedhim。Acoldnesssweptoverhisback,anditistruethathistrousersfelttohimthattheywerenofitforhislegsatall。
  Ahousestandingplacidlyindistantfieldshadtohimanominouslook。Theshadowsofthewoodswereformidable。Hewascertainthatinthisvistatherelurkedfierce—eyedhosts。Theswiftthoughtcametohimthatthegeneralsdidnotknowwhattheywereabout。Itwasallatrap。Suddenlythosecloseforestswouldbristlewithriflebarrels。Ironlikebrigadeswouldap—
  pearintherear。Theywereallgoingtobesacrificed。Thegeneralswerestupids。Theenemywouldpresentlyswallowthewholecom—
  mand。Heglaredabouthim,expectingtoseethestealthyapproachofhisdeath。
  Hethoughtthathemustbreakfromtheranksandharanguehiscomrades。Theymustnotallbekilledlikepigs;andhewassureitwouldcometopassunlesstheywereinformedofthesedangers。Thegeneralswereidiotstosendthemmarchingintoaregularpen。Therewasbutonepairofeyesinthecorps。Hewouldstepforthandmakeaspeech。Shrillandpassionatewordscametohislips。
  Theline,brokenintomovingfragmentsbytheground,wentcalmlyonthroughfieldsandwoods。
  Theyouthlookedatthemennearesthim,andsaw,forthemostpart,expressionsofdeepinter—
  est,asiftheywereinvestigatingsomethingthathadfascinatedthem。Oneortwosteppedwithovervaliantairsasiftheywerealreadyplungedintowar。Otherswalkedasuponthinice。Thegreaterpartoftheuntestedmenappearedquietandabsorbed。Theyweregoingtolookatwar,theredanimal——war,theblood—swollengod。Andtheyweredeeplyengrossedinthismarch。
  Ashelookedtheyouthgrippedhisoutcryathisthroat。Hesawthatevenifthemenweretotteringwithfeartheywouldlaughathiswarn—
  ing。Theywouldjeerhim,and,ifpracticable,pelthimwithmissiles。Admittingthathemightbewrong,afrenzieddeclamationofthekindwouldturnhimintoaworm。
  Heassumed,then,thedemeanorofonewhoknowsthatheisdoomedalonetounwrittenre—
  sponsibilities。Helagged,withtragicglancesatthesky。
  Hewassurprisedpresentlybytheyounglieu—
  tenantofhiscompany,whobeganheartilytobeathimwithasword,callingoutinaloudandinsolentvoice:"Come,youngman,getupintoranksthere。Noskulking’lldohere。"Hemend—
  edhispacewithsuitablehaste。Andhehatedthelieutenant,whohadnoappreciationoffineminds。Hewasamerebrute。
  Afteratimethebrigadewashaltedinthecathedrallightofaforest。Thebusyskirmish—
  erswerestillpopping。Throughtheaislesofthewoodcouldbeseenthefloatingsmokefromtheirrifles。Sometimesitwentupinlittleballs,whiteandcompact。
  Duringthishaltmanymenintheregimentbeganerectingtinyhillsinfrontofthem。Theyusedstones,sticks,earth,andanythingtheythoughtmightturnabullet。Somebuiltcom—
  parativelylargeones,whileothersseemedcon—
  tentwithlittleones。
  Thisprocedurecausedadiscussionamongthemen。Somewishedtofightlikeduelists,believ—
  ingittobecorrecttostanderectandbe,fromtheirfeettotheirforeheads,amark。Theysaidtheyscornedthedevicesofthecautious。Buttheothersscoffedinreply,andpointedtotheveteransontheflankswhowerediggingatthegroundliketerriers。Inashorttimetherewasquiteabarricadealongtheregimentalfronts。
  Directly,however,theywereorderedtowith—
  drawfromthatplace。
  Thisastoundedtheyouth。Heforgothisstewingovertheadvancemovement。"Well,then,whatdidtheymarchusoutherefor?"hedemandedofthetallsoldier。Thelatterwithcalmfaithbeganaheavyexplanation,althoughhehadbeencompelledtoleavealittleprotectionofstonesanddirttowhichhehaddevotedmuchcareandskill。
  Whentheregimentwasalignedinanotherpositioneachman’sregardforhissafetycausedanotherlineofsmallintrenchments。Theyatetheirnoonmealbehindathirdone。Theyweremovedfromthisonealso。Theyweremarchedfromplacetoplacewithapparentaimlessness。
  Theyouthhadbeentaughtthatamanbe—
  cameanotherthinginabattle。Hesawhissal—
  vationinsuchachange。Hencethiswaitingwasanordealtohim。Hewasinafeverofim—
  patience。Heconsideredthattherewasdenotedalackofpurposeonthepartofthegenerals。
  Hebegantocomplaintothetallsoldier。"I
  can’tstandthismuchlonger,"hecried。"I
  don’tseewhatgooditdoestomakeuswearoutourlegsfornothin’。"Hewishedtoreturntocamp,knowingthatthisaffairwasabluedemonstration;orelsetogointoabattleanddiscoverthathehadbeenafoolinhisdoubts,andwas,intruth,amanoftraditionalcourage。
  Thestrainofpresentcircumstanceshefelttobeintolerable。
  Thephilosophicaltallsoldiermeasuredasand—
  wichofcrackerandporkandswalloweditinanonchalantmanner。"Oh,Isupposewemustgoreconnoiteringaroundthecountryjesttokeep’emfromgettingtooclose,ortodevelop’em,orsomething。"
  "Huh!"saidtheloudsoldier。
  "Well,"criedtheyouth,stillfidgeting,"I’dratherdoanything’mostthangotramping’roundthecountryalldaydoingnogoodtonobodyandjesttiringourselvesout。"
  "SowouldI,"saidtheloudsoldier。"Itain’tright。Itellyouifanybodywithanysensewasa—runnin’thisarmyit——"
  "Oh,shutup!"roaredthetallprivate。"Youlittlefool。Youlittledamn’cuss。Youain’thadthattherecoatandthempantsonforsixmonths,andyetyoutalkasif——"
  "Well,Iwantadosomefightinganyway,"
  interruptedtheother。"Ididn’tcomeheretowalk。Icould’avewalkedtohome——’roundan’
  ’roundthebarn,ifIjestwantedtowalk。"
  Thetallone,red—faced,swallowedanothersandwichasiftakingpoisonindespair。
  Butgradually,ashechewed,hisfacebecameagainquietandcontented。Hecouldnotrageinfierceargumentinthepresenceofsuchsand—
  wiches。Duringhismealshealwaysworeanairofblissfulcontemplationofthefoodhehadswal—
  lowed。Hisspiritseemedthentobecommuningwiththeviands。
  Heacceptednewenvironmentandcircum—
  stancewithgreatcoolness,eatingfromhishaver—
  sackateveryopportunity。Onthemarchhewentalongwiththestrideofahunter,object—
  ingtoneithergaitnordistance。Andhehadnotraisedhisvoicewhenhehadbeenorderedawayfromthreelittleprotectivepilesofearthandstone,eachofwhichhadbeenanengineer—
  ingfeatworthyofbeingmadesacredtothenameofhisgrandmother。
  Intheafternoontheregimentwentoutoverthesamegroundithadtakeninthemorn—
  ing。Thelandscapethenceasedtothreatentheyouth。Hehadbeenclosetoitandbecomefamiliarwithit。
  When,however,theybegantopassintoanewregion,hisoldfearsofstupidityandin—
  competencereassailedhim,butthistimehedog—
  gedlyletthembabble。Hewasoccupiedwithhisproblem,andinhisdesperationheconcludedthatthestupiditydidnotgreatlymatter。
  Oncehethoughthehadconcludedthatitwouldbebettertogetkilleddirectlyandendhistroubles。Regardingdeaththusoutofthecornerofhiseye,heconceivedittobenoth—
  ingbutrest,andhewasfilledwithamomen—
  taryastonishmentthatheshouldhavemadeanextraordinarycommotionoverthemerematterofgettingkilled。Hewoulddie;hewouldgotosomeplacewherehewouldbeunderstood。
  Itwasuselesstoexpectappreciationofhispro—
  foundandfinesensesfromsuchmenasthelieu—
  tenant。Hemustlooktothegraveforcompre—
  hension。
  Theskirmishfireincreasedtoalongchatter—
  ingsound。Withitwasmingledfar—awaycheer—
  ing。Abatteryspoke。
  Directlytheyouthwouldseetheskirmishersrunning。Theywerepursuedbythesoundofmusketryfire。Afteratimethehot,dangerousflashesoftherifleswerevisible。Smokecloudswentslowlyandinsolentlyacrossthefieldslikeobservantphantoms。Thedinbecamecrescendo,liketheroarofanoncomingtrain。
  Abrigadeaheadofthemandontherightwentintoactionwitharendingroar。Itwasasifithadexploded。Andthereafteritlaystretchedinthedistancebehindalonggraywall,thatonewasobligedtolooktwiceattomakesurethatitwassmoke。
  Theyouth,forgettinghisneatplanofgettingkilled,gazedspellbound。Hiseyesgrewwideandbusywiththeactionofthescene。Hismouthwasalittlewaysopen。
  Ofasuddenhefeltaheavyandsadhandlaiduponhisshoulder。Awakeningfromhistranceofobservationheturnedandbeheldtheloudsoldier。
  "It’smyfirstandlastbattle,oldboy,"saidthelatter,withintensegloom。Hewasquitepaleandhisgirlishlipwastrembling。
  "Eh?"murmuredtheyouthingreataston—
  ishment。
  "It’smyfirstandlastbattle,oldboy,"
  continuedtheloudsoldier。"Somethingtellsme——"
  "What?"
  "I’magonecoonthisfirsttimeand——andI
  w—wantyoutotaketheseherethings——to——my——
  folks。"Heendedinaquaveringsobofpityforhimself。Hehandedtheyouthalittlepacketdoneupinayellowenvelope。
  "Why,whatthedevil——"begantheyouthagain。
  Buttheothergavehimaglanceasfromthedepthsofatomb,andraisedhislimphandinapropheticmannerandturnedaway。
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  CHAPTERIV。
  THEbrigadewashaltedinthefringeofagrove。Themencrouchedamongthetreesandpointedtheirrestlessgunsoutatthefields。
  Theytriedtolookbeyondthesmoke。
  Outofthishazetheycouldseerunningmen。
  Someshoutedinformationandgesturedastheyhurried。
  Themenofthenewregimentwatchedandlistenedeagerly,whiletheirtonguesranoningossipofthebattle。Theymouthedrumorsthathadflownlikebirdsoutoftheunknown。
  "TheysayPerryhasbeendriveninwithbigloss。"
  "Yes,Carrottwentt’th’hospital。Hesaidhewassick。Thatsmartlieutenantiscommanding’G’Company。Th’boyssaytheywon’tbeunderCarrottnomoreiftheyallhavet’desert。
  Theyallusknewhewasa——"
  "Hannises’batt’ryistook。"
  "Itain’teither。IsawHannises’batt’ryoffonth’leftnotmore’nfifteenminutesago。"
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  "Well——"
  "Th’general,hesesheisgoin’t’taketh’hullcammandofth’304thwhenwegointehaction,an’thenheseswe’lldosechfightin’asneveranotheronereg’mentdone。"
  "Theysaywe’recatchin’itoveronth’left。
  Theysayth’enemydriv’ourlineintehadevilofaswampan’tookHannises’batt’ry。"
  "Nosechthing。Hannises’batt’rywas’longhere’boutaminuteago。"
  "ThatyoungHasbrouck,hemakesagoodoff’cer。Heain’tafraid’anothin’。"
  "Imetoneofth’148thMaineboysan’heseshisbrigadefitth’hullrebelarmyferfourhoursoveronth’turnpikeroadan’killedaboutfivethousandof’em。Hesesonemoresechfightasthatan’th’war’llbeover。"
  "Billwasn’tscaredeither。No,sir!Itwasn’tthat。Billain’ta—gittin’scaredeasy。Hewasjestmad,that’swhathewas。Whenthatfellertrodonhishand,heupan’sedthathewaswillin’
  t’givehishandt’hiscountry,buthebedumbedifhewasgoin’t’haveeverydumbbushwhackerinth’kentrywalkin’’roundonit。Sehewentt’
  th’hospitaldisregardlessofth’fight。Threefingerswascrunched。Th’derndoctorwantedt’amputate’m,an’Bill,heraisedaheluvarow,I
  hear。He’safunnyfeller。"
  Thedininfrontswelledtoatremendouschorus。Theyouthandhisfellowswerefrozentosilence。Theycouldseeaflagthattossedinthesmokeangrily。Nearitweretheblurredandagitatedformsoftroops。Therecameaturbulentstreamofmenacrossthefields。Abatterychang—
  ingpositionatafranticgallopscatteredthestragglersrightandleft。
  Ashellscreaminglikeastormbansheewentoverthehuddledheadsofthereserves。Itlandedinthegrove,andexplodingredlyflungthebrownearth。Therewasalittleshowerofpineneedles。
  Bulletsbegantowhistleamongthebranchesandnipatthetrees。Twigsandleavescamesailingdown。Itwasasifathousandaxes,weeandinvisible,werebeingwielded。Manyofthemenwereconstantlydodgingandduckingtheirheads。
  Thelieutenantoftheyouth’scompanywasshotinthehand。Hebegantoswearsowon—
  drouslythatanervouslaughwentalongtheregi—
  mentalline。Theofficer’sprofanitysoundedconventional。Itrelievedthetightenedsensesofthenewmen。Itwasasifhehadhithisfingerswithatackhammerathome。
  Heheldthewoundedmembercarefullyawayfromhissidesothatthebloodwouldnotdripuponhistrousers。
  Thecaptainofthecompany,tuckinghisswordunderhisarm,producedahandkerchiefandbegantobindwithitthelieutenant’swound。
  Andtheydisputedastohowthebindingshouldbedone。
  Thebattleflaginthedistancejerkedaboutmadly。Itseemedtobestrugglingtofreeitselffromanagony。Thebillowingsmokewasfilledwithhorizontalflashes。
  Menrunningswiftlyemergedfromit。Theygrewinnumbersuntilitwasseenthatthewholecommandwasfleeing。Theflagsuddenlysankdownasifdying。Itsmotionasitfellwasagestureofdespair。
  Wildyellscamefrombehindthewallsofsmoke。Asketchingrayandreddissolvedintoamoblikebodyofmenwhogallopedlikewildhorses。
  Theveteranregimentsontherightandleftofthe304thimmediatelybegantojeer。Withthepassionatesongofthebulletsandthebansheeshrieksofshellsweremingledloudcatcallsandbitsoffacetiousadviceconcerningplacesofsafety。
  Butthenewregimentwasbreathlesswithhor—
  ror。"Gawd!Saunders’sgotcrushed!"whis—
  peredthemanattheyouth’selbow。Theyshrankbackandcrouchedasifcompelledtoawaitaflood。
  Theyouthshotaswiftglancealongtheblueranksoftheregiment。Theprofilesweremotion—
  less,carven;andafterwardherememberedthatthecolorsergeantwasstandingwithhislegsapart,asifheexpectedtobepushedtotheground。
  Thefollowingthrongwentwhirlingaroundtheflank。Hereandtherewereofficerscarriedalongonthestreamlikeexasperatedchips。Theywerestrikingaboutthemwiththeirswordsandwiththeirleftfists,punchingeveryheadtheycouldreach。Theycursedlikehighway—
  men。
  Amountedofficerdisplayedthefuriousangerofaspoiledchild。Heragedwithhishead,hisarms,andhislegs。
  Another,thecommanderofthebrigade,wasgallopingaboutbawling。Hishatwasgoneandhisclotheswereawry。Heresembledamanwhohascomefrombedtogotoafire。Thehoofsofhishorseoftenthreatenedtheheadsoftherunningmen,buttheyscamperedwithsin—
  gularfortune。Inthisrushtheywereapparentlyalldeafandblind。Theyheedednotthelargestandlongestoftheoathsthatwerethrownatthemfromalldirections。
  Frequentlyoverthistumultcouldbeheardthegrimjokesofthecriticalveterans;buttheretreatingmenapparentlywerenotevencon—
  sciousofthepresenceofanaudience。
  Thebattlereflectionthatshoneforaninstantinthefacesonthemadcurrentmadetheyouthfeelthatforcefulhandsfromheavenwouldnothavebeenabletohaveheldhiminplaceifhecouldhavegotintelligentcontrolofhislegs。
  Therewasanappallingimprintuponthesefaces。Thestruggleinthesmokehadpicturedanexaggerationofitselfonthebleachedcheeksandintheeyeswildwithonedesire。
  Thesightofthisstampedeexertedafloodlikeforcethatseemedabletodragsticksandstonesandmenfromtheground。Theyofthereserveshadtoholdon。Theygrewpaleandfirm,andredandquaking。
  Theyouthachievedonelittlethoughtinthemidstofthischaos。Thecompositemonsterwhichhadcausedtheothertroopstofleehadnotthenappeared。Heresolvedtogetaviewofit,andthen,hethoughthemightverylikelyrunbetterthanthebestofthem。
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  CHAPTERV。
  THEREweremomentsofwaiting。Theyouththoughtofthevillagestreetathomebeforethearrivalofthecircusparadeonadayinthespring。Herememberedhowhehadstood,asmall,thrillfulboy,preparedtofollowthedingyladyuponthewhitehorse,orthebandinitsfadedchariot。Hesawtheyellowroad,thelinesofexpectantpeople,andthesoberhouses。
  Heparticularlyrememberedanoldfellowwhousedtosituponacrackerboxinfrontofthestoreandfeigntodespisesuchexhibitions。A
  thousanddetailsofcolorandformsurgedinhismind。Theoldfellowuponthecrackerboxap—
  pearedinmiddleprominence。
  Someonecried,"Heretheycome!"
  Therewasrustlingandmutteringamongthemen。Theydisplayedafeverishdesiretohaveeverypossiblecartridgereadytotheirhands。
  Theboxeswerepulledaroundintovariousposi—
  tions,andadjustedwithgreatcare。Itwasasifsevenhundrednewbonnetswerebeingtriedon。
  Thetallsoldier,havingpreparedhisrifle,pro—
  ducedaredhandkerchiefofsomekind。Hewasengagedinknittingitabouthisthroatwithex—
  quisiteattentiontoitsposition,whenthecrywasrepeatedupanddownthelineinamuffledroarofsound。
  "Heretheycome!Heretheycome!"Gunlocksclicked。
  Acrossthesmoke—infestedfieldscameabrownswarmofrunningmenwhoweregivingshrillyells。Theycameon,stoopingandswingingtheirriflesatallangles。Aflag,tiltedforward,spednearthefront。
  Ashecaughtsightofthemtheyouthwasmomentarilystartledbyathoughtthatperhapshisgunwasnotloaded。Hestoodtryingtorallyhisfalteringintellectsothathemightrec—
  ollectthemomentwhenhehadloaded,buthecouldnot。