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第3章

  Semproniushadtoomuchpenetrationnottoseetherealandtruedifferenceinthebehaviourofthesetwowomen,andcouldnothelpcryingout,’OCaelia!yourhonesttruthandgoodnessineverywordandlookaretoovisibletoleavemeonedoubtoftheirreality。But,couldyoubelieveit?thisfriendofyoursisfalse。Ihavealreadyputhertothetrial,bydeclaringtohermysincereandunalterablepassionforyou。When,onmyinsisting,asIdidtoyou,uponherspeakingthetruth,sheaccusedyouofwhatnothingshouldnowconvincemeyouareguiltyof。Iown,thathithertomyregard,esteem,andlove,havebeenequaltoboth;butnowIoffertothesincere,artless,andcharmingCaelia,mywholeheart,love,andaffection,andtheserviceofeveryminuteofmyfuturelife;andfromthismomentI
  banishfrommymindthefalseandungratefulChloe。’
  Caelia’sfriendshipforChloewassodeeplyrootedinherbreast,thatevenadeclarationoflovefromSemproniuscouldnotblotitonemomentfromherheart;andonhisspeakingthewords’falseChloe,’sheburstintotears,andsaid,’IsitpossiblethatChloeshouldactsuchaparttowardsherCaelia!Youmustforgiveher,Sempronius:itwasherviolentpassionforyou,andfearoflosingyou,whichmadeherdowhathithertohernaturehaseverappearedaverseto。’
  Semproniusanswered,’thathecouldnotenoughadmirehergoodnesstoherfriendChloe;butsuchproofsofpassion,hesaid,weretohimatthesametimeproofsofitsbeingsuchapassionashehadnoregardfor;sinceitwasimpossibleforanyonetogainorincreasehislovebyanactionwhichatthesametimelessenedhisesteem。’ThiswassoexactlyCaelia’sownwayofthinking,thatshecouldnotbutassenttowhathesaid。
  Butjustastheywerecomingoutofthearbour,Chloe,unseenbythem,passedby;andfromseeinghimkissherhand,andthecomplacencyofCaelia’slook,itwaseasyforhertoguesswhathadbeentheresultoftheirprivateconference。Shecouldnothoweverhelpindulginghercuriosity,sofarastowalkontheothersideofathickyewhedge,tolistentotheirdiscourse;andastheywalkedon,sheheardSemproniusentreatCaeliatobecheerful,andthinknomoreofhertreacherousfriend,whosewickednesshedoubtednotwouldsufficientlypunishitself。ShethenheardCaeliasay,’Icannotbear,Sempronius,tohearyouspeaksohardlyofmyChloe。Saythatyouforgiveher,andIwillindeedbecheerful。’
  NothinguponearthcanbeconceivedsowretchedaspoorChloe,foronthefirstmomentthatshesufferedherselftoreflectonwhatshehaddone,shethoroughlyrepented,andheartilydetestedherselfforsuchbaseness。ShewentdirectlyintothegardeninhopesofmeetingSempronius,tohavethrownherselfathisfeet,confessedhertreachery,andtohavebeggedhimnevertohavementionedittoCaelia;butnowshewasconsciousherrepentancewouldcometoolate;andhewoulddespiseher,ifpossiblestillmore,forsucharecantation,afterherknowledgeofwhathadpassedbetweenhimandCaelia。
  Shecouldindeedhavegonetohim,andnothaveownedwhatshehadseenorheard;butnowherabhorrenceofeventheappearanceoftreacheryorcunningwassogreat,thatshecouldnotbeartoaddthesmallestgrainoffalsehoodordeceittotheweightofherguilt,whichwasalreadyalmostinsupportable:andshouldshetellhimofherrepentance,withaconfessionofherknowledgeofhisengagementwithCaelia,itwould(ashasbeenbeforeobserved)
  appearbothservileandinsincere。
  Nothingcouldnowappearsoalteredasthewholefaceofthisoncehappyfamily。SemproniusasmuchaspossibleshunnedthesightofChloe;forasshewasthecauseofalltheconfusionamongstthem,hehadalmostanaversiontoher。Thoughhewasnotofanimplacabletemper,yet,astheinjurywasintendedtoonehesincerelyloved,hefounditmuchhardertoforgiveit,thanifithadevensucceededagainsthimself;andashestilllookeduponChloeasthecauseofmelancholyinhisdearCaelia,hecouldhardlyhaveanypatiencewithher。
  NowordscandescribethevariouspassionswhichwereexpressedinthesadcountenanceofChloe,whenfirstshemetherfriend。Theywerebothafraidofspeaking。Shame,andthefearofbeing(andwithtoogoodreason)suspectedofinsincerity,withheldChloe;
  andanunwillingnesstoaccuseorhurtherfriendwithheldthegentleCaelia。ShesometimesindeedthoughtshesawrepentanceinChloe’sface,andwishedfornothingmorethantosealherpardon。
  Buttillitwasasked,shewasindoubt(fromwhathadpassed)
  whethersuchpardonandprofferedreconciliationmightnotberejected。Sheknewthatherfriend’spassionswerenaturallystrongerthanhers;andshethereforetrembledattheconsequencesofcomingtoanexplanation。
  ButtherewashardlyagreatersuffererinthissceneofconfusionthanthepooroldLadyAmanda。ShesawasortofhorrorandwildnessinthefaceofChloe;andinCaelia’sasettledmelancholy,andsuchanunusualreserveinbothtowardseachother,aswellastoherself,asquiteastonishedher。
  Semproniuscameindeedtothehouseasoftenasusual;butinhiscountenanceshecouldperceiveasortofangerandconcernwhichperfectlyfrightenedher。Butastheydidnotspeaktoher,shecouldnotbringherselftoaskthecauseofthiswoefulchange,forfearofhearingsomethingtoobadtobear。
  CaeliahadabsolutelyrefusedgrantingtoSemproniusleavetoaskheraunt’sconsent,tillsheshouldcometosomeexplanationwithChloe,whichseemedeverydayfartheroffthanever。
  ThegreatperturbationofChloe’smindthrewherintoadisordernotmanydegreesshortofmadness;andatlastshewasseizedwithaviolentfeversoastokeepherbed。ShesaidshecouldnotbeartolookonAmanda;butbeggedCaeliatobewithherasmuchaspossible;whichshedid,inhopesofbringingherselftoeasehermind,byspeakingtoherofwhathadgiventhemallthistorment。
  Caeliawatchedwithhernightanddayforthreedays,whenthephysicianwhoattendedherpronouncedthattherewasnohopeofherlife。Caeliacouldnotanylongerbeartostayintheroom,andwentdownstairs,expectingeverymomenttohearshewasexpired。
  ChloesoonperceivedbyCaelia’sabruptleavingtheroom,andthelooksofthosewhowereleftinit,thatherfatewaspronounced;
  which,insteadofsinkingherspirits,andmakingherdejected,gaveatranquillitytohermind;forshethoughtwithinherself,’Ishallnowmakemydearcousinhappy,byremovingoutofherwayanobjectthatmustembitterallherjoy;andnowlikewise,assheisconvincedIamonmydeath—bed,shewilloncemorebelievemecapableofspeakingtruth;andwill,inthemannerIcouldwish,receivemysincererepentance。’ThensendingforCaeliauptoherbedside,sheinaweakvoice,withhardlystrengthforutterance,spokeinthismanner:’MydearCaelia,thoughyouknowmetobeaworthlessbasewretch,yetdonotthinksohardlyofme,astoimagineIwoulddeceiveyouwithmylastbreath。BelievemethenwhenItellyou,thatIsincerelyrepentofmytreacherytowardsyou;andassincerelyrejoicethatithasinrealitybeenthecauseofyourhappinesswithSempronius。Tellhimthis;andthen,perhaps,hewillnothatemymemory。’Hereshefaintedaway,andtheyforcedCaeliaoutoftheroom,thinkingherbreathwasforeverflown。Butinsometimeshecameagaintoherself,andcriedout,’What!wouldnotmydearCaeliasaythatsheforgaveme?
  MethinksIwouldnotdie,tillIhadobtainedherpardon。Sheistoogoodtorefuseherfriendthislastrequest。’Herattendantsthentoldher,thatseeingherfaintaway,theyhadforcedCaeliaoutoftheroom;andtheybeggedhertotrytocomposeherself,fortheyweresurethatseeingherfriendagain,atthistime,wouldonlydisturbhermind,anddoheraninjury。
  Chloe,fromtheventshehadgivenhergriefinspeakingtoCaelia,foundherselfsomethingmoreeasyandcomposed;anddesiringtheroomtobemadeperfectlyquiet,shefellintoagentlesleep,whichlastedtwohours;andwhensheawakedshefoundherselfsomuchbetter,thatthoseaboutherwereconvinced,fromhercomposedmannerofspeaking,thatshewasnowabletobearanotherinterview。
  TheyagaincalledforCaelia,andtoldherofhercousin’samendment。Sheflewwithallspeedtoherchamber;andthemomentsheentered,Chloecriedout,’Canyouforgiveme,Caelia?’
  ’Yes,withthegreatestjoyandsincerityimaginable,mydearestChloe,’answeredCaelia,’andneverletitbeagainmentionedorremembered。’
  ThesuddenrecoveryofChloewasalmostincredible;forinlessthanaweekshewasabletoquitbothherbedandroom,andgointoheraunt’schamber。Thegoodoldladyshedtearsofjoy,toseesuchareturnofChloe’shealth,andofcheerfulnessinthefamily;andwasperfectlycontented,nowshesawtheirmelancholyremoved,nottoinquireintothelatecauseofit,forfearofrenewingtheirtroubleevenonemomentbytheremembranceofit。
  Sempronius,inthemeantime,uponsomeaffairsofhisdutyinthearmy,hadbeencalledaway,andwasabsentthewholetimeofChloe’sillness,andwasnotyetreturned。CaeliaspentalmostherwholetimewithChloe;butthreeweekspassedon,andtheywereoftenalone;yettheyhadneveroncementionedthenameofSempronius,whichlaidCaeliastillunderthegreatestdifficultyhowtoact,soastoavoidgivingherfriendanyuneasiness,andyetnotdisobligeSempronius;forshehadpromisedhimathisdeparture,thatshewouldgivehimleavetoaskheraunt’sconsentimmediatelyuponhisreturn。Buttheverydayhewasexpected,shewasmadequiteeasybywhatpassedbetweenherandherfriend。
  Chloe,inthistime,byproperreflections,andaduesenseofCaelia’sgreatgoodnessandaffectiontoher,hadsoentirelygotthebetterofherselfinthisaffair,thatshefoundshecouldnow,withoutanyuneasiness,seethemmarried;andcallingCaeliatoher,shesaidwithasmile,’Ihave,mydearfriend,beensolongaccustomedtoreadinthatintelligibleindex,yourcountenance,allyourmostinmostthoughts,thatIhavenotbeenunobservingofthosekindfearsyouhavehadonmyaccount;andthereasonIhavesolongdelayedspeakingwas,myresolution,ifpossible,neveragaintodeceiveyou。Icanwithpleasurenowassureyou,thatnothingcangivemesomuchjoyastoseeyourweddingwithSempronius。Imakenodoubt,butifyouaskit,youwillhavemyaunt’sconsent;and,ifanyintercessionshouldbewantingtowardsobtainingit,Iwill(ifyoucantrustme)useallmyinfluenceinyourbehalf。Beassured,mydearCaelia,IhavenownofartherregardleftforSempronius,thanasyourhusband;
  andthatregardwillincreaseinproportionasheisthecauseofyourhappiness。’
  TheywereinterruptedintheirdiscoursebynewsbeingbroughtofthearrivalofSempronius,andChloereceivedhimwiththateaseandcheerfulnessasconvincedCaeliaherprofessionswereunfeigned。
  CaeliarelatedtoSemproniusallthathadpassedbetweenherandChloe;andbyhercontinuedcheerfulnessofbehaviour,thepeaceandtranquillityofthefamilywasperfectlyrestored,andtheirjoygreatlyincreasedbyAmanda’sreadyconsenttothemarriageofSemproniusandCaelia,havingfirstsettledallherfortunetobedividedatherdeathequallybetweenhernieces;andinherlifetimetherewasnooccasionofsettlements,ordeedsofgift,fortheylivedalltogether,andseparatepropertywasnotsomuchasmentionedorthoughtoninthisfamilyofharmonyandpeace。
  HereMissDollyceasedreading;andallherhearerssatsomelittletimesilent,andthenexpressedtheirgreatjoythatCaeliaandChloewereatlasthappy;fornoneofthemhadbeenabletorefrainfromtearswhilsttheywereotherwise。OnwhichMissJennyPeacebeggedthemtoobservefromthisstory,themiserableeffectsthatattenddeceitandtreachery:’For,’continuedshe,’youseeyoucouldnotrefrainfromtears,onlybyimaginingwhatChloemustfeelafterherwickedness(bywhichindeedshelosttheveryhappinesssheintendedtreacherouslytogain);norcouldsheenjoyonemoment’speace,tillbyconfessingherfault,andheartilyrepentingofit,hermindwasrestoredtoitsformercalmandtranquility。’MissDollythankedMissJennyforherremarks;
  butMissLucySlywasmostsensiblytouchedwiththisstory,ascunninghadformerlyentirelypossessedHERmind;andsaid,thatifhercompanionswerenotwearyatpresentoftheirarbour,shewouldnowrecounttothemthehistoryofherlife,asthisstorywasaproperintroductiontoit。
  THEDESCRIPTIONOFMISSLUCYSLY。
  MissLucySlywasofthesameageasMissDollyFriendly;butshorter,atleast,byhalfthehead。Shewasgenerallycalledaprettygirl,fromhavingapairofexceedingfineblackeyes,onlywiththeallayofsomethingcunningintheirlook。Shehadahighforehead,andverygoodcurlingblackhair。Shehadasharphighnose,andaverysmallmouth。Hercomplexionwasbutindifferent,andthelowerpartofherfaceill—turned,forherchinwastoolongfordueproportion。
  THELIFEOFMISSLUCYSLY。
  FromthetimeIwastwoyearsold,(saidMissLucy)mymammawassosickly,thatshewasunabletotakeanygreatcareofmeherself,andIwaslefttothecareofagoverness,whomadeitherstudytobringmetodowhatshehadamindtohavedone,withouttroublingherheadwhatinducedmesotodo。AndwheneverIdidanythingwrong,sheusedtosayitwasthefoot—boy,andnotmiss,thatwasnaughty。Nay,shewouldsay,itwasthedog,orthecat,oranythingshecouldlaytheblameupon,soonerthanownitwasme。Ithoughtthispure,thatIwasneverinfault;andsoongotintoawayoftellinganylies,andoflayingmyownfaultsonothers,sinceIfoundIshouldbebelieved。Irememberonce,whenIhadbrokenafinechina—cup,thatIartfullygotoutofthescrape,andhidthebrokencupinthefoot—boy’sroom。Hewaswhippedforbreakingit;andthenextdaywhilstIwasatplayabouttheroom,Iheardmygovernesssaytoafriendwhowaswithher,"YesterdayMissLucybrokeachina—cup;buttheartfullittlehussywentandhiditinthefoot—boy’sroom,andthepoorboywaswhippedforit。Idon’tbelievetherewaseveragirlofheragethathadhalfhercunningandcontrivance。"Iknewbyhertoneofvoice,andhermannerofspeaking,thatshedidnotblamemeinherheart,butrathercommendedmyingenuity。AndIthoughtmyselfsowise,thatIcouldthusgetofftheblamefrommyself,thatIeverydayimprovedinnewinventionstosavemyself,andhaveotherspunishedinmyplace。
  ’ThislifeofendeavouringtodeceiveIledtillIcametoschool。
  ButhereIfoundthatIcouldnotsowellcarryonmylittleschemes;forIwasfoundoutandpunishedformyownfaults;andthiscreatedinmeahatredtomycompanions。ForwhateverMissI
  hadamindtoserveasIusedtoserveourfoot—boy,inlayingtheblamefalselyuponher,ifshecouldjustifyherself,andprovemeinthewrong,Iwasveryangrywithher,fordaringtocontradictme,andnotsubmittingasquietlytobepunishedwrongfully,asthefoot—boywasforcedtodo。
  ’ThisisallIknowofmylifehitherto。’
  ThusendedMissLucySly:andMissJennyPeacecommendedMissLucyforherfreeconfessionofherfaults,andsaid,’Shedoubtednotbutshewouldfindtheadvantageofamending,andendeavouringtochangeadispositionsoverypernicioustoherownpeaceandquiet,aswellastothatofallherfriends;’buttheynowobeyedthesummonsofthesupper—bell,andsoonafterretiredtorest。
  THURSDAY。
  THEFOURTHDAY。
  Ourlittlecompany,assoonasthemorningschool—hourswereover,hastenedtotheirarbour,andwereattentivetowhatMissJennyPeaceshouldproposetothemfortheiramusementtilldinner—time;
  whenMissJenny,lookingrounduponthem,said,’thatshehadnotatpresentanystorytoread;butthatshehoped,fromMissDollyFriendly’sexampleyesterday,someoftherestmightendeavoursometimestofurnishouttheentertainmentoftheday。’UponwhichMissSukeyJennettsaid,’thatthoughshecouldnotpromisethemsuchanagreeablestoryasMissDolly’s;yetshewouldreadthemalettershehadreceivedtheeveningbeforefromherCousinPeggySmith,wholivedatYork;inwhichtherewasastorythatshethoughtverystrangeandremarkable。Theywereallverydesirousofit,whenMissSukeyreadasfollows:
  ’Dearcousin,——Ipromised,youknow,towritetoyouwhenIhadanythingtotellyou;andasIthinkthefollowingstoryveryextraordinary,Iwaswillingtokeepmyword。
  ’Sometimeagotherecametosettleinthiscity,alady,whosenamewasDison。Weallvisitedher:butshehadsodeepamelancholy,arising,asitappeared,fromasettledstateofillhealth,thatnothingwecoulddocouldaffordhertheleastrelief,ormakehercheerful。Inthisconditionshelanguishedamongstusfiveyears,stillcontinuingtogrowworseandworse。
  ’Weallgrievedatherfate。Herfleshwaswitheredaway;herappetitedecayedbydegrees,tillallfoodbecamenauseoustohersight;herstrengthfailedher;herfeetcouldnotsupporthertotteringbody,leanandwornawayasitwas;andwehourlyexpectedherdeath。When,atlast,sheonedaycalledhermostintimatefriendstoherbedside,and,aswellasshecould,spoketothefollowingpurpose:’Iknowyouallpityme;but,alas!I
  amnotsomuchtheobjectofyourpity,asyourcontempt;forallmymiseryisofmyownseeking,andowingtothewickednessofmyownmind。Ihadtwosisters,withwhomIwasbredup;andIhaveallmylifetimebeenunhappy,fornoothercausebutfortheirsuccessintheworld。Whenwewereyoung,Icouldneithereatnorsleepinpeace,whentheyhadeitherpraiseorpleasure。Whenwegrewuptobewomen,theywerebothsoonmarriedmuchtotheiradvantageandsatisfaction。Thisgalledmetotheheart;and,thoughIhadseveralgoodoffers,yetasIdidnotthinktheminallrespectsequaltomysisters,Iwouldnotacceptthem;andyetwasinwardlyvexedtorefusethem,forfearIwouldgetnobetter。
  IgenerallydeliberatedsolongthatIlostmylovers,andthenI
  pinedforthatloss。Ineverwantedforanything;andwasinasituationinwhichImighthavebeenhappy,ifIpleased。Mysisterslovedmeverywell,forIconcealedasmuchaspossiblefromthemmyodiousenvy;andyetneverdidanypoorwretchleadsomiserablealifeasIhavedone;foreveryblessingtheyenjoyedwasassomanydaggerstomyheart。’Tisthisenvythathascausedallmyillhealth,haspreyeduponmyveryvitals,andwillnowbringmetomyGrave。"
  ’Inafewdaysafterthisconfessionshedied;andherwordsanddeathmadesuchastrongimpressiononmymind,thatIcouldnothelpsendingyouthisrelation;andbeggingyou,mydearSukey,torememberhowcarefulweoughttobetocurbinourmindstheveryfirstrisingsofapassionsodetestable,andsofatal,asthisprovedtopoorMrs。Dison。IknowIhavenoparticularreasonforgivingyouthiscaution;forIneversawanythinginyou,butwhatdeservedtheloveandesteemof’Yourveryaffectionatecousin,’M。SMITH。’
  AssoonasMissSukeyhadfinishedherletter,MissPattyLockitroseup,and,flyingtoMissJennyPeace,embracedher,andsaid,’WhatthankscanIgiveyou,mydearfriend,forhavingputmeintoawayofexaminingmyheart,andreflectingonmyownactions;bywhichyouhavesavedme,perhaps,fromalifeasmiserableasthatofthepoorwomaninMissSukey’sletter!’MissJennydidnotthoroughlyunderstandhermeaning;butimaginingitmightbesomethingrelatingtoherpastlife,desiredhertoexplainherself;whichshesaidshewoulddo,tellingnow,inherturn,allthathadhithertohappenedtoher。
  THEDESCRIPTIONOFMISSPATTYLOCKIT。
  MissPattyLockitwasbuttenyearsold;tall,inclinedtofat。
  Herneckwasshort;andshewasnotintheleastgenteel。Herfacewasveryhandsome;forallherfeatureswereextremelygood。
  Shehadlargeblueeyes;wasexceedingfair;andhadagreatbloomonhercheeks。Herhairwastheveryfirstdegreeoflightbrown;
  wasbrightandshining;andhunginringletshalfwaydownherback。Hermouthwasrathertoolarge;butshehadsuchfineteeth,andlookedsoagreeablywhenshesmiled,thatyouwasnotsensibleofanyfaultinit。
  ThiswasthepersonofMissPattyLockit,whowasslowtorelateherpastlife;whichshedid,inthefollowingmanner:
  THELIFEOFMISSPATTYLOCKIT。
  Ilived,tillIwassixyearsold,inaverylargefamily;forI
  hadfoursisters,allolderthanmyself,andthreebrothers。Weplayedtogether,andpassedourtimemuchinthecommonway:
  sometimeswequarrelled,andsometimesagreed,justasaccidentwouldhaveit。Ourparentshadnopartialitytoanyofus;sowehadnocausetoenvyoneanotheronthataccount;andwelivedtolerablywelltogether。
  ’WhenIwassixyearsold,mygrandmotherbymyfather’sside(andwhowasalsomygodmother)offeringtotakemetolivewithher,andpromisingtolookuponmeasherownchild,andentirelytoprovideforme,myfatherandmother,astheyhadalargefamily,veryreadilyacceptedheroffer,andsentmedirectlytoherhouse。
  ’Abouthalfayearbeforethis,shehadtakenanothergoddaughter,theonlychildofmyAuntBradly,whowaslatelydead,andwhosehusbandwasgonetotheWestIndies。Mycousin,MollyBradly,wasfouryearsolderthanI;andhermotherhadtakensuchpainsinhereducation,thattheunderstoodmorethanmostgirlsofherage;andhadsomuchliveliness,goodhumour,andingenuity,thateverybodywasfondofher;andwhereverwewenttogether,allthenoticewastakenofmycousin,andIwasverylittleregarded。
  ’ThoughIhadallmylifebeforelivedinafamilywhereeveryoneinitwasolder,andknewmorethanmyself,yetIwasveryeasy;
  forweweregenerallytogetherinthenursery;andnobodytookmuchnoticeofus,whetherweknewanything,orwhetherwedidnot。Butnow,asIlivedinthehousewithonlyonecompanion,whowassomuchmoreadmiredthanmyself,thecomparisonbegantovexme,andIfoundastronghatredandaversionformycousinarisinginmymind;andyet,IverilybelieveIshouldhavegotthebetterofit,andbeenwillingtohavelearntofmycousin,andshouldhavelovedherforteachingme,ifanyonehadtoldmeitwasright;andifithadnotbeenthatBetty,themaidwhotookcareofus,usedtobeforeverteasingmeaboutthepreferencethatwasshowntomycousin,andtheneglectIalwaysmetwith。
  Sheusedtotellme,thatshewonderedhowIcouldbeartoseeMissMollysocaressed;andthatitwaswantofspiritnottothinkmyselfasgoodasshewas;and,ifshewasinmyplace,shewouldnotsubmittobetaughtbyachild;formyCousinMollyfrequentlyofferedtoinstructmeinanythingsheknew;butIusedtosay(asBettyhadtaughtme)thatIwouldnotlearnofher;forshewasbutachild,thoughshewasalittleolder;andthatIwasnotputunderhercare,butthatofmygrandmamma。Butshe,poorwoman,wassooldandunhealthy,thatshenevertroubledherheadmuchaboutus,butonlytotakecarethatwewantedfornothing。
  Ilivedinthismannerthreeyears,frettingandvexingmyselfthatIdidnotknowsomuch,norwasnotsomuchliked,asmyCousinMolly,andyetresolvingnottolearnanythingshecouldteachme;whenmygrandmammawasadvisedtosendmetoschool;
  but,assoonasIcamehere,thecasewasmuchworse;for,insteadofonepersontoenvy,Ifoundmany;forallmyschoolfellowshadlearnedmorethanI;and,insteadofendeavouringtogetknowledge,Ibegantohateallthosewhoknewmorethanmyself;
  andthis,Iamnowconvinced,wasowingtothatodiousenvy,which,ifnotcured,wouldalwayshavemademeasmiserableasMrs。Disonwasandwhichconstantlytormentedme,tillwecametoliveinthatgeneralpeaceandgood—humourwehavelatelyenjoyed:
  andasIhopethiswickedspiritwasnotnaturaltome,butonlyblownupbythatvileBetty’sinstigations,Idon’tdoubtbutI
  shallnowgrowveryhappy,andlearnsomethingeveryday,andbepleasedwithbeinginstructed,andthatIshallalwayslovethosewhoaresogoodastoinstructme。’
  HereMissPattyLockitceased;andthedinner—bellcalledthemfromtheirarbour。
  Mrs。Teachum,assoonastheyhaddined,toldthem,thatshethoughtitpropertheywouldusesomebodilyexercise,thattheymightnot,bysittingconstantlystill,impairtheirhealth。Notbutthatshewasgreatlypleasedwiththeirinnocentandinstructivemannerofemployingtheirleisurehours;butthiswisewomanknewthatthefacultiesofthemindgrowlanguidanduseless,whenthehealthofthebodyislost。
  Assoonastheyunderstoodtheirgoverness’spleasure,theyreadilyresolvedtoobeyhercommands,anddesiredthat,afterschool,theymighttakeawalkasfarasthedairyhouse,toeatsomecurdsandcream。Mrs。Teachumnotonlygrantedtheirrequest,butsaidshewoulddispensewiththeirschool—attendancethatafternoon,inordertogivethemmoretimefortheirwalk,whichwasbetweentwoandthreemiles;andshelikewiseadded,thatsheherselfwouldgowiththem。Theyallflewlikelightningtogettheirhats,andtoequipthemselvesfortheirwalk;and,withcheerfulcountenances,attendedMrs。Teachumintheschoolroom。Thisgoodgentlewoman,sofarfromlayingthemunderarestraintbyherpresence,encouragedthemtoruninthefields,andtogatherflowers;whichtheydid,eachmisstryingtogetthebesttopresenttohergoverness。Inthisagreeablemanner,withlaughing,talking,andsinging,theyarrivedatthedairy—house,beforetheyimaginedtheyhadwalkedamile。
  Therelivedatthisdairy—houseanoldwoman,nearseventyyearsofage。Shehadafreshcolourinherface;butwastroubledwiththepalsy,thatmadeherheadshakealittle。Shewasbentforwardwithage,andherhairwasquitegrey:butsheretainedmuchgood—humour,andreceivedthislittlepartywithheartywelcome。
  Ourlittlegentryflockedaboutthisgoodwoman,askingherathousandquestions。MissPollySucklingaskedher,’Whysheshookherheadso?’andMissPattyLockitsaid,’Shehopedherhairwouldneverbeofsuchacolour。’
  MissJennyPeacewasafraidtheywouldsaysomethingthatwouldoffendtheoldwoman,andadvisedthemtoturntheirdiscourse。
  ’Oh!letthedearroguesalone,’saystheoldwoman;’Iliketheirprattle;’and,takingMissPollybythehand,said,’Come,mydear,wewillgointothedairy,andskimthemilkpans。’Atwhichwordstheyallrunintothedairy,andsomeofthemdippedtheirfingersinthecream;whichwhenMrs。Nellyperceived(whowastheeldestdaughteroftheoldwoman,andwhomanagedalltheaffairs)shedesiredtheywouldwalkoutofthedairy,andshewouldbringthemwhatwasfitforthem:uponwhichMissDollyFriendlysaid,’shehadratherbeasoldandgood—naturedasthemother,thanasyoungandill—naturedasthedaughter。’
  Theoldwomandesiredhercompanytositdownatalongtable,whichshesoonsuppliedwithplentyofcream,strawberries,brownbread,andsugar。Mrs。Teachumtookherplaceattheupperend,andtherestsatdownintheirusualorder,andeatplentifullyofthesegoodthings。Afterwhich,Mrs。Teachumtoldthemtheymightwalkoutandseethegardenandorchard,andbythattimeitwouldbepropertoreturnhome。
  Thegoodoldwomanshowedthemthewayintothegarden;andgatheredthefinestrosesandpinksshecouldpick,andgavethemtoMissPolly,towhomshehadtakenagreatFancy。
  Attheirtakingleave,Mrs。Teachumrewardedthegoodoldwomanforhertrouble;who,onherpart,expressedmuchpleasureinfeeingsomanywell—behavedyoungladies;andsaid,shehopedtheywouldcomeoften。
  Theselittlefriendshadnotwalkedfarintheirwayhome,beforetheymetamiserableraggedfellow,whobeggedtheircharity。Ouryoungfolksimmediatelygatheredtogetheraboutthispoorcreature,andwerehearkeningveryearnestlytohisstory,whichhesetforthinaterriblemanner,ofhavingbeenburntoutofhishouse,and,fromonedistresstoanother,reducedtothatmiserablestatetheysawhimin,whenMrs。Teachumcameuptothem。Shewasnotalittlepleasedtoseeallthemisses’handsintheirpockets,pullingouthalf—pence,andsomesixpences。Shetoldthem,sheapprovedoftheirreadinesstoassistthepoorfellow,asheappearedtothem;butoftentimesthosefellowsmadeupdismalstorieswithoutmuchfoundation,andbecausetheywerelazy,andwouldnotwork。MissDollysaid,indeedshebelievedthepoormanspoketruth;forhelookedhonest;and,besides,heseemedalmoststarved。
  Mrs。Teachumtoldthemitwouldbelatebeforetheycouldgethome;so,aftereachofthemhadgivenwhattheythoughtproper,theypursuedtheirwalk,prattlingalltheway。
  Theygothomeaboutnineo’clock;and,astheydidnotchooseanysupper,thebellrangforprayers;afterwhichouryoungtravellersretiredtotheirrest,wherewedoubtnotbuttheyhadagoodrepose。
  FRIDAY
  THEFIFTHDAY。
  Mrs。Teachum,inthemorning,inquiredhowherscholarsdidaftertheirwalk,andwaspleasedtoheartheywereallverywell。Theythenperformedtheirseveraltaskswithmuchcheerfulness;and,aftertheschool—hours,theywerehastening,asusual,totheirarbour,whenMissJennydesiredthemalltogothitherwithouther,andshewouldsoonfollowthem;whichtheyreadilyconsentedto;butbeggedhernottodeprivethemlongofthepleasureofhersweetcompany。
  MissJennythenwentdirectlyintohergoverness’sparlour,andtoldherthatshehadsomethoughtsofreadingtohercompanionsafairytale,whichwasalsogivenherbyhermamma;andthoughitwasnotinsuchapompousstyle,norsofullofwonderfulimages,asthegiant—story;yetshewouldnotventuretoreadanythingofthatkindwithoutherpermission;but,asshehadnotabsolutelycondemnedallthatsortofwriting,shehopedshewasnotguiltyofafaultinaskingthatpermission。Mrs。Teachum,withagracioussmile,toldher,thatsheseemedsothoroughlywelltounderstandthewholeforceofherMondaynight’sdiscoursetoher,thatshemightbetrustedalmostinanything;anddesiredhertogoandfollowherownjudgmentandinclinationsintheamusementofherhappyfriends。MissJenny,overjoyedwiththiskindcondescensioninhergoverness,thankedher,with,alowcourtesy,andsaid,shehopedsheshouldneverdoanythingunworthyoftheconfidencereposedonher;and,hasteningtothearbour,shetherefoundallherlittlecompanionsquiteimpatientofthisshortabsence。
  MissJennytoldthem,thatshehadbyherafairy—tale,which,iftheylikedit,shewouldread;and,asithadpleasedher,shedidnotdoubtbutitwouldgivethemequalpleasure。
  ItwasthecustomnowsomuchamongstthemtoassenttoanyproposalthatcamefromMissJenny,thattheyallwithonevoicedesiredhertoreadit;tillMissPollySucklingsaid,’thatalthoughshewasveryunwillingtocontradictanythingMissJennyliked,yetshecouldnothelpsaying,shethoughtitwouldbebetteriftheyweretoreadsometruehistory,fromwhichtheymightlearnsomething;forshethoughtfairy—taleswerefitonlyforlittlechildren。
  MissJennycouldnothelpsmilingatsuchanobjection’scomingfromthelittledumpling,whowasnotmuchabovesevenyearsofage;andthensaid,’Iwilltellyouastory,mylittlePolly,ofwhathappenedtomewhilstIwasathome。
  ’Therecameintoourvillage,whenIwassixyearsold,amanwhocarriedaboutararee—show,whichallthechildrenoftheparishwerefondofseeing;butIhadtakenitintomyhead,thatitwasbeneathmywisdomtoseeraree—shows;andthereforewouldnotbepersuadedtojoinmycompanionstoseethissight;andalthoughI
  hadasgreataninclinationasanyofthemtoseeit,yetI
  avoidedit,inordertoboastofmyowngreatsense,inthatIwasabovesuchtrifles。
  ’Whenmymammaaskedme,"WhyIwouldnotseetheshow,whenshehadgivenmeleave?Idrewupmyhead,andsaid,"IndeedIdidnotlikeraree—shows。ThatIhadbeenreading;andIthoughtthatmuchmoreworthmywhile,thantolosemytimeatsuchfoolishentertainments。"Mymamma,whosawthecauseofmyrefusingthisamusementwasonlyapretenceofbeingwise,laughed,andsaid,"Sheherselfhadseenit,anditwasreallyverycomicalanddiverting。"Onhearingthis,IwasheartilyvexedtothinkIhaddeniedmyselfapleasure,whichIfanciedwasbeneathme,whenI
  foundevenmymammawasnotaboveseeingit。Thisinagreatmeasurecuredmeofthefollyofthinkingmyselfaboveanyinnocentamusement。AndwhenIgrewolder,andmorecapableofhearingreason,mymammatoldme,"Shehadtakenthismethodoflaughingatme,aslaughingisthepropermanneroftreatingaffectation;whichofallthings,shesaid,shewouldhavemecarefullyavoid;otherwise,wheneverIwasfoundout,Ishouldbecomecontemptible。"’
  HereMissJennyceasedspeaking;andMissPollySuckling,blushingthatshehadmadeanyobjectiontowhatMissJennyhadproposed,beggedhertobeginthefairytale;whenjustatthatinstant,Mrs。Teachum,whohadbeentakingawalkinthegarden,turnedintothearbourtodelightherselfwithaviewofherlittleschoolunitedinharmonyandlove,andMissJenny,withgreatgoodhumour,toldhermistressthesmallcontestshehadjusthadwithMissPollyaboutreadingafairytale,andtheoccasionofit。
  Mrs。Teachumkindlychuckingthelittledumplingunderthechin,said,shehadsogoodanopinionofMissJenny,astoanswerforher,thatshewouldreadnothingtothembutwhatwasproper;andadded,thatsheherselfwouldstayandhearthisfairytalewhichMissJenny,onhercommands,immediatelybegan。
  THEPRINCESSHEBE。
  AFAIRYTALE。
  Abovetwothousandyearsago,therereignedoverthekingdomofTonga,aking,whosenamewasAbdallah。Hewasmarriedtoayoungprincess,thedaughterofakingofaneighbouringcountry,whosenamewasRousignon。Herbeautyandprudenceengagedhimsofarinaffectiontoher,thateveryhourhecouldpossiblysparefromattendingtheaffairsofhiskingdomhespentinherapartment。
  Theyhadalittledaughter,towhomtheygavethenameofHebe,whowasthedarlingandmutualcareofboth。
  Thekingwasquietinhisdominion,belovedbyhissubjects,happyinhisfamily,andallhisdaysrolledonincalmcontentandjoy。
  Theking’sbrotherAbdulhamwasalsomarriedtoayoungprincess,namedTropo,whoinsevenyearshadbroughthimnochildren;andsheconceivedsomortalahatredagainstthequeen(forsheenviedherthehappinessofthelittlePrincessHebe)thatsheresolvedtodohersomemischief。Itwasimpossibleforher,duringtheking’slifetime,toventhermalicewithoutbeingdiscovered,andthereforeshepretendedthegreatestrespectandfriendshipimaginablefortheunsuspectingqueen。
  Whilstthingswereinthissituation,thekingfellintoaviolentfever,ofwhichhedied;andduringthetimethatthequeenwasintheheightofherafflictionforhim,andcouldthinkofnothingbuthisloss,thePrincessTropotooktheopportunityofputtinginexecutionhermaliciousintentions。Sheinflamedherhusband’spassions,bysettingforththemeannessofhisspirit,inlettingacrownberavishedfromhisheadbyafemaleinfant,tillambitionseizedhismind,andheresolvedtowieldtheTongiansceptrehimself。Itwasveryeasytobringthisabout,for,byhisbrother’sappointment,hewasprotectoroftherealm,andguardiantotheyoungprincesshisniece;andthequeentakinghimandtheprincesshiswifeforherbestfriends,suspectednothingoftheirdesigns,butinamannergaveherselfuptotheirpower。
  TheprotectorAbdulham,havingthewholetreasureofthekingdomathiscommand,wasinpossessionofthemeanstomakeallhisschemessuccessful;andthePrincessTropo,bylavishlyrewardingtheinstrumentsofhertreachery,contrivedtomakeitgenerallybelieved,thatthequeenhadpoisonedherhusband,whowassomuchbelovedbyhissubjects,thattheveryhorroroftheaction,withoutanyproofofherguilt,raisedagainstthepoorunhappyQueenauniversalclamour,andageneralaversionthroughoutthewholekingdom。Theprincesshadsowelllaidherscheme,thattheguardsweretoseizethequeen,andconveyhertoaplaceofconfinement,tillshecouldproveherinnocence;which,thatshemightneverbeabletodo,propercarewastakenbyprocuringsufficientevidencetoaccuseheronoath;andthePrincessHebe,herdaughter,wastobetakenfromher,andeducatedunderthecareofheruncle。Butthenightbeforethiscrueldesignwastohavebeenputinexecution,afaithfulattendantofthequeen’s,namedLoretta,bytheassistanceofoneofthePrincessTropo’sconfidants(whohadlongprofessedhimselfherlover)discoveredthewholesecret,ofwhichsheimmediatelyinformedherroyalmistress。
  Thehorrorswhichfilledthequeen’smindattherelationofthePrincessTropo’smaliciousintentions,wereinexpressible,andherperturbationsogreat,thatshecouldnotformanyschemethatappearedprobabletoexecuteforherownpreservation。Lorettatoldherthatthepersonwhohadgivenherthistimelynotice,hadalsoprovidedapeasantwhoknewthecountry,andwouldmeetheratthewesterngateofthecity,and,carryingtheyoungPrincessHebeinhisarms,wouldconducthertosomeplaceofsafety;butshemustconsenttoputonadisguise,andescapethatverynightfromthepalace,orshewouldbelostforever。Horsesormules,shesaid,itwouldbeimpossibletocomeatwithoutsuspicion;
  thereforeshemustendeavour(thoughunusedtosuchfatigue)totravelafoottillshegotherselfconcealedinsomecottagefromherpursuers,ifherenemiesshouldthinkofendeavouringtofindherout。Lorettaofferedtoattendhermistress,butsheabsolutelyforbadhergoinganyfartherthantothewesterngate;
  wheredeliveringthelittlePrincessHebeintothearmsofthepeasant,whowastherewaitingforthem,shereluctantlywithdrew。
  Thegoodqueen,whosawnoremedytothisherterribledisgrace,couldhavebornethisbarbaroususagewithoutmuchrepining,hadsheherselfbeentheonlysuffererbyit;forthelossofthegoodkingherhusbandsofarexceededallherothermisfortunes,thateveryeverythingelsewastriflingincomparisonofsodreadfulanaffliction。ButtheyoungPrincessHebe,whomshewasaccustomedtolookonashergreatestblessing,nowbecametoheranobjectofpityandconcern;for,frombeingheiresstoathrone,thepoorinfant,notyetfiveyearsold,was,withherwretchedmother,becomeavagabond,andknewnotwhithertoflyforprotection。
  Lorettahadprevailedonherroyalmistresstotakewithherafewlittlenecessaries,besidesasmallpictureoftheking,andsomeofherjewels,whichthequeencontrivedtoconcealunderhernight—clothes,inthemidstofthathairtheywereusedtoadorn,whenherlovedhusbanddelightedtoseeitdisplayedinflowingringletsroundhersnowyneck。Thislady,duringthelifeofherfondhusband,wasbyhistendercarekeptfromeveryinclemencyoftheair,andpreservedfromeveryinconveniencethatitwaspossibleforhumannaturetosuffer。Whatthenmustbeherconditionnow,whenthroughbypathsandthornyways,shewasobligedtoflywithallpossiblespeed,toescapethefuryofhercruelpursuers:forshetoowellknewthemercilesstemperofherenemies,tohopethattheywouldnotpursueherwiththeutmostdiligence,especiallyasshewasaccompaniedbytheyoungPrincessHebe;whoselifewastheprincipalcauseoftheirdisquiet,andwhosedestructiontheychieflyaimedat。
  Thehonestpeasant,whocarriedthePrincessHebeinhisarms,followedthequeen’spainfulsteps;andseeingthedaybegintobreak,hebeggedher,ifpossible,tohastenontoawoodwhichwasnotfaroff,whereitwaslikelyshemightfindaplaceofsafety。Buttheafflictedqueen,atthesightoftheopeningmorn(whichonceusedtofillhermindwithrisingjoy)burstintoafloodoftears,and,quiteovercomewithgriefandfatigue,castherselfontheground,cryingoutinthemostaffectingmanner,’Theendofmymisfortunesisathand。Mywearylimbswillnolongersupportme。Myspiritsfailme。InthegravealonemustI
  seekforshelter。’Thepoorprincess,seeinghermotherintears,castherlittlearmsaboutherneck,andweptalso,thoughsheknewnotwhy。
  Whilstshewasinthisdeplorablecondition,turningroundherhead,shesawbehindheralittlegirl,noolderinappearancethanthePrincessHebe;who,withanamiableandtranquilcountenance,beggedhertoriseandfollowher,andshewouldleadherwhereshemightrefreshandreposeherself。
  Thequeenwassurprisedatthemannerofspeakingofthislittlechild,asshetookhertobe;butsoonthoughtitwassomekindfairysenttoprotecther,andwasveryreadytosubmitherselftoherguidanceandprotection。
  Thelittlefairy(forsuchindeedwastheseemingchildwhohadthusaccostedthem)orderedthepeasanttoreturnback,andsaidthatshewouldtakecareofthequeen,andheryoungdaughter;andhe,knowinghertobethegoodfairySybella,veryreadilyobeyed。
  Sybellathenstrikingthegroundthreetimeswithalittlewand,theresuddenlyroseupbeforethemaneatplaincar,andapairofmilk—whitehorses;andplacingthequeenwiththePrincessHebeinherlapbyherside,shedrovewithexcessiveswiftnessfullwestwardforeighthours;when(justasthesunbegantohavepowerenoughtomakethequeenalmostfaintwiththeheatandherformerfatigue)theyarrivedatthesideofashadywood;uponenteringofwhich,thefairymadeherhorsesslackenintheirspeed,andhavingtravelledaboutamileandahalf,throughrowsofelmsandbeechtrees,theycametoathickgroveoffirs,intowhichthereseemedtobenoentrance。Fortherewasnotanyopeningtoapath,andtheunderwoodconsistingchieflyofrose—bushes,white—thorn,eglantine,andotherfloweringshrubs,wassothick,thatitappearedimpossibletoattemptforcingthroughthem。Butalightingoutofthecar(whichimmediatelydisappeared)thefairy(biddingthequeenfollowher)pushedherwaythroughalargebushofjessamine,whosetenderbranchesgavewayfortheirpassageandthenclosedagain,soastoleavenotracesofanentranceintothischarminggrove。
  Havinggonealittlewaythroughanextremenarrowpath,theycameintoanopening(quitesurroundedbythesefirsandsweetunderwood)notverylarge,butinwhichwascontainedeverythingthatisnecessarytowardsmakinglifecomfortable。Attheendofagreenmeadowwasaplainneathouse,builtmoreforconveniencethanbeauty,frontingtherisingsun;andbehinditwasasmallgarden,storedonlywithfruitsandusefulherbs。Sybellaconductedherguestsintothishersimplelodging;andasreposewasthechiefthingnecessaryforthepoorfatiguedqueen,sheprevailedwithhertoliedownonacouch。Somehours’soundsleep,whichherwearinessinduced,gaveherafreshsupplyofspirits;theeaseandsafetyfromherpursuers,inwhichshethenfoundherself,madeherforashorttimetolerablycomposed;andshebeggedthefavourofknowingtowhomshewassogreatlyobligedforthisherhappydeliverance;butthefairyseeinghermindtoounsettledtogiveanydueattentiontowhatsheshouldsay,toldherthatshewoulddefertherelationofherownlife(whichwasworthherobservation)tillshehadobtainedarespitefromherownsorrows;andinthemeantime,byallmannerofobligingways,sheendeavouredtodivertandamuseher。
  Thequeen,afterashortintervalofcalmnessofmind,occasionedonlybyhersosuddenescapefromtheterrorsofpursuit,returnedtoherformerdejection,andforsometimeincessantlyweptatthedismalthought,thattheprincessseemednow,bythisreverseoffate,tobeforeverexcludedallhopesofbeingseatedonherfather’sthrone;and,byastrangeperversewayofaddingtoherowngrief,sheafflictedherselfthemore,becausethelittleprincesswasignorantofhermisfortune;andwhenevershesawherdivertingherselfwithlittlechildishplays,insteadofbeingpleasedwithsuchherinnocentamusement,itaddedtohersorrow,andmadehertearsgushforthinalargerstreamthanusual。Shecouldnotdivertherthoughtsfromthepalacefromwhichshehadbeendriven,tofixthemonanyotherobject;norwouldhergriefsufferhertoreflect,thatitwaspossiblefortheprincesstobehappywithoutacrown。
  Atlengthtime,thegreatcureofallills,insomemeasureabatedherSorrows;hergriefbegantosubside;inspiteofherself,thereflectionthathermiserywasonlyinherownfancy,wouldsometimesforceitselfonhermind。Shecouldnotavoidseeing,thatherlittlehostessenjoyedasperfectastateofhappinessasispossibletoattaininthisworld;thatshewasfreefromanxiouscares,undisturbedbyrestlesspassions,andmistressofallthingsthatcouldbeofanyusetomakelifeeasyoragreeable。Theoftenerthisreflectionpresenteditselftoherthoughts,themorestrengthitgained;and,atlast,shecouldevenbeartothink,thatherbelovedchildmightbeashappyinsuchasituation,aswasheramiablehostess。Hercountenancenowgrewmorecheerful;shecouldtakethePrincessHebeinherarms,andthinkingthejewelsshehadpreservedwouldsecureherfromanyfearofwant,lookonherwithdelight;andbeganeventoimagine,thatherfuturelifemightbespentincalmcontentandpleasure。
  Assoonasthevoiceofreasonhadgainedthispoweroverthequeen,Sybellatoldher,thatnowherbosomwassofreefrompassion,shewouldrelatethehistoryofherlife。Thequeen,overjoyedthathercuriositymightnowbegratified,beggedhernottodelaygivingherthatpleasureonemoment;onwhichourlittlefairybeganinthefollowingmanner。
  ButthereMrs。TeachumtoldMissJennythatthebellrungfordinner;onwhichshewasobligedtobreakoff。Butmeetingagaininthesamearbourintheevening,whentheirgoodmistresscontinuedtothemthefavourofherpresence,MissJennypursuedherstory。
  THEFAIRYTALECONTINUED。
  ’Myfather,’saidthefairy,’wasamagician:hemarriedaladyforlove,whosebeautyfaroutshonethatofallherneighbours;
  andbymeansofthatbeauty,shehadsogreataninfluenceoverherhusband,thatshecouldcommandtheutmostpowerofhisart。
  Butbetterhaditbeenforher,hadthatbeautybeenwanting;forherpoweronlyservedtomakeherwishformore,andthegratificationofeverydesirebegotanewone,whichoftenitwasimpossibleforhertogratify。Myfather,thoughhesawhiserrorinthusindulgingher,couldnotattainsteadinessofmindenoughtomendit,noracquireresolutionenoughtosufferhisbelovedwifeoncetogrieveorshedateartonopurpose,thoughinordertocureherofthatfollywhichmadehermiserable。
  ’Mygrandfathersoplainlysawthetemperanddispositionofhissontowardswomen,thathedidnotleavehimatlibertytodisposeofhismagicarttoanybuthisposterity,thatitmightnotbeinthepowerofawifetoteasehimoutofit。Buthiscautionwastoverylittlepurpose;foralthoughmymothercouldnotfromherselfexertanymagicpower,yetsuchwasherunboundedinfluenceoverherhusband,thatshewassureofsuccessineveryattempttopersuadehimtogratifyherdesires。Forifeveryargumentshecouldinventhappenedtofail,yetthesheddingbutonetearwasacertainmethodtoprevailwithhimtogiveuphisreason,whatevermightbetheconsequence。
  ’Whenmyfatherandmotherhadbeenmarriedaboutayear,shewasbroughttobedofadaughter,towhomshegavethenameofBrunetta。Herfirstrequesttomyfatherwas,thathewouldendowthisinfantwithasmuchbeautyassheherselfwaspossessedof,andbestowonherasmuchofhisartasshouldenablehertosucceedinallherdesigns。Myfatherforesawthedreadfultendencyofgrantingthisrequest,butsaidhewouldgiveitwiththisrestriction,thatsheshouldsucceedinallherdesignsthatwerenotwicked;for,saidhe,thesuccessofwickeddesignsalwaysturnsoutasapunishmenttothepersonsosucceeding。Inthisresolutionheheldforthreedays,tillmymother(beingweakinbodyafterherlying—in)workedherselfwithherviolentpassionstosuchadegree,thatthephysicianstoldmyfather,theydespairedofherlife,unlesssomemethodcouldbefoundtomakehermindmorecalmandeasy。Hisfondnessforhiswifewouldnotsufferhimtobearthethoughtsoflosingher,andthehorrorwithwhichthatapprehensionhadbutforamomentpossessedhismind,prevailedwithhimtobestowonthelittleBrunetta(thoughforeseeingitwouldmakehermiserable)thefatalgiftinitsfullextent。Butonerestrictionitwasoutofhispowertotakeoff,namely,thatallwickeddesignsevercouldandshouldberenderedineffectualbythevirtueandperseveranceofthoseagainstwhomtheywereintended,iftheyinapropermannerexertedthatvirtue。
  ’IwasbornintwoyearsafterBrunetta,andwascalledSybella:
  butmymotherwassotakenupwithherdarlingBrunetta,thatshegaveherselfnuttheleastconcernaboutme;andIwasleftwhollytothecareofmyfather。Inordertomakethegiftshehadextortedfromherfondhusbandasfatalaspossibletoherfavouritechild,shetookcareinhereducation(byendeavouringtocultivateinherthespiritofrevengeandmaliceagainstthosewhohadintheleastdegreeoffendedher)toturnhermindtoallmannerofmischief;bywhichmeansshelivedinacontinualpassion。
  ’Myfather,assoonasIwasoldenoughtohearkentoreason,toldmeofthegifthehadconferredonmysister;saidhecouldnotretractit;andtherefore,ifshehadanymischievousdesignsagainstme,theymustinsomemeasuresucceed;butshewouldendowmewithapowersuperiortothisgiftofmysister’s,andlikewisesuperiortoanythingelsethathewasabletobestow,whichwasstrengthandconstancyofmindenoughtobearpatientlyanyinjuriesImightreceive;andthiswasastrength,hesaid,whichwouldnotdecay,butratherincrease,byeverynewexerciseofit;
  and,tosecuremeinthepossessionofthisgift,helikewisegavemeaperfectknowledgeofthetruevalueofeverythingaroundme,bywhichmeansImightlearn,whateveroutwardaccidentsbefellme,nottolosethegreatestblessinginthisworld,namely,acalmandcontentedmind。Hetaughtmesowellmyduty,thatI
  cheerfullyobeyedmymotherinallthings,thoughsheseldomgavemeakindword,orevenakindlook;formyspitefulsisterwasalwaystellingsomeliestomakeherangrywithme。Butmyheartoverflowedwithgratitudetomyfather,thathewouldgivemeleavetolovehim,whilstheinstructedmethatitwasmydutytopayhimthemoststrictobedience。
  ’Brunettawasdailyencouragedbyhermothertousemeill,andchieflybecausemyfatherlovedme;andalthoughshesucceededinallherdesignsofrevengeonme,yetwassheveryuneasy,becauseshecouldnottakeawaythecheerfulnessofmymind;forIborewithpatiencewhateverhappenedtome:andshewouldoftensay,"mustIwithallmybeauty,power,andwisdom(forsoshecalledherlowcunning)besufferingperpetualuneasiness?andshallyou,whohaveneitherbeauty,power,norwisdom,pretendtobehappyandcheerful?"Thenwouldshecryandstamp,andravelikeamadcreature,andsetherinventionatworktomakemymotherbeatme,orlockmeup,ortakefrommesomeofmybestclothestogivetoher;yetstillcouldnotherpowerextendtovexmymind:andthisusedtothrowheragainintosuchpassions,asweakenedherhealth,andgreatlyimpairedhersomuchboastedbeauty。
  ’Inthismannerwelived,tillonacertainday,afterBrunettahadbeeninoneofherrageswithmefornothing,myfathercameinandchidherforit;which,whenmymotherheard,shethrewherselfintosuchaviolentpassion,thatherhusbandcouldnotpacifyher。And,beingbigwithchild,theconvulsions,causedbyherpassions,broughthertohergrave。Thusmyfatherlosther,bythesameuncontrollableexcesses,thefataleffectsofwhichhehadbeforeruinedhisdaughtertopreserveherfrom。Hedidnotlongsurviveher;but,beforehedied,gavemealittlewand,which,bystrikingthreetimesontheground,hesaid,wouldatanytimeproducemeanynecessaryorconvenienceoflife,whichI
  reallywanted,eitherformyself,ortheassistanceofothers;andthishegaveme,becausehewasverysensible,hesaid,thatassoonashewasdead,mysisterwouldneverresttillshehadgotfrommebothhiscastle,andeverythingthatIhadbelongingtome,init。"But,"continuedhe,"wheneveryouaredrivenfromthence,bendyourcoursedirectlyintothepleasantwoodArdella;
  therestrikewithyourwand,andeverythingyouwant,willbeprovidedforyou。Butkeepthiswandaprofoundsecret,orBrunettawillgetitfromyou;andthen(thoughyoucannever,whileyoupreserveyourpatience,beunhappy)youwillnothaveitinyourpowertobeofsomuchuseasyouwouldwishtobe,tothosewhoshallstandinneedofyourassistance。"Sayingthesewords,heexpired,asIkneeledbyhisbedside,attendinghislastcommands,andbewailingthelossofsogoodafather。
  ’Inthemidstofthisourdistress,wesenttomyUncleSochus,myfather’sbrother,tocometous,andtoassistusinanequaldivisionofmydeceasedfather’seffects;butmysistersooncontrivedtomakehimbelieve,thatIwasthewickedestgirlalive,andhadalwayssetmyfatheragainstherbymyart,whichshesaidIpretendedtocallmywisdom;andbyseveralhandsomepresentsshesoonpersuadedhim(forhedidnotcareafarthingforeitherofus)tojoinwithherinsaying,that,asshewastheeldestsister,shehadafullrighttothecastle,andeverythinginit;butshetoldmeIwasverywelcometostaythere,andlivewithher,ifIpleased;andwhileIbehavedmyselfwell,sheshouldbeverygladofmycompany。
  ’Asitwasnaturalformetoloveeveryonethatwouldgivemeleavetolovethem,Iwasquiteoverjoyedatthiskindofferofmysister’s,andneveroncethoughtonthetreacheryshehadsolatelybeenguiltyof;andIhavesincereflected,thathappywasitforme,thatpassionwassomuchuppermostwithher,thatshecouldnotexecuteanyplot,thatrequiredadissimulationofanylongcontinuance;forhadhergoodhumourlastedbutonefour—and—twentyhours,itisveryprobablethatIshouldhaveopenedmywholehearttoher;shouldhaveendeavouredtohavebegunafriendshipwithher,andperhapshavebetrayedthesecretofmywand;butjustasitwassunset,shecameintotheroomwhereIwas,inthemostviolentpassionintheworld,accusingmetomyuncleofingratitudetohergreatgenerosity,insufferingmetoliveinhercastle。Shesaid,"thatshehadfoundmeout,andthatmycrimeswereoftheblackestdye,"althoughshewouldnottellmeeitherwhattheywere,orwhoweremyaccusers。Shewouldnotgivemeleavetospeak,eithertoaskwhatmyoffencewas,ortojustifymyinnocence;andIplainlyperceived,thatherpretendedkindnesswasonlydesignedtomakemydisappointmentthegreater;andthatshewasnowdeterminedtofindmeguilty,whetherIpleaded,ornot。Andaftershehadravedonforsometime,shesaidtomewithasneer,"Sinceyouhavealwaysboastedofyourcalmandcontentedmind,youmaynowtrytobecontentedthisnightwiththesoftnessofthegrassforyourbed;forhereinmycastleyoushallnotstayonemomentlonger。"Andsosaying,sheandmyuncleledmetotheoutercourt,andthrustingmewithalltheirforcefromthem,theyshutupthegates,boltingandbarringthemascloseasiftokeepoutagiant;andleftme,atthattimeofnight,friendless,and,astheythought,destituteofanykindofsupport。
  ’Ithenrememberedmydearfather’slastwords,andmadewhathasteIcouldtothiswood,whichisnotaboveamiledistantfromthecastle;andbeing,asIthought,aboutthemiddleofit,I
  struckthreetimeswithmywand,andimmediatelyuprosethisgroveoftrees,whichyousee,thishouse,andalltheotherconveniences,whichInowenjoy;andgettingthatverynightintothismyplainandeasybed,IenjoyedassweetareposeaseverI
  didinmylife,onlydelayed,indeed,ashorttime,byafewsighs,forthelossofsogoodaparent,andtheunhappystateofaself—tormentedsister,whoseslumbers(Ifear)onabedofdown,weremorerestlessandinterruptedthatnightthanminewouldhavebeen,evenhadnotmyfather’spresentofthewandpreventedmefromthenecessityofusingthebedofgrass,whichshe,inherwrath,allottedme。Inthisgrove,whichIcallPlacidGrove,iscontainedallthatIwant;anditissowellsecuredfromanyinvaders,bythethickbriarsandthornswhichsurroundit,havingnoentrancebutthroughthattenderjessamine,thatIliveinnoapprehensionsofanydisturbance,thoughsonearmysister’scastle。Butonce,indeed,shecamewithalargetrain,and,whilstIwasasleep,setfiretothetreesallaroundme;andwaking,Ifoundmyselfalmostsuffocatedwithsmoke,andtheflameshadreachedonepartofmyHouse。Istartedfrommybed,andstrikingonthegroundthreetimeswithmywand,therecamesuchaquantityofwaterfromtheheavens,assoonextinguishedthefire;andthenextmorning,byagainhavingrecoursetomywand,allthingsgrewupintotheirconvenientandproperorder。