Semproniushadtoomuchpenetrationnottoseetherealandtruedifferenceinthebehaviourofthesetwowomen,andcouldnothelpcryingout,’OCaelia!yourhonesttruthandgoodnessineverywordandlookaretoovisibletoleavemeonedoubtoftheirreality。But,couldyoubelieveit?thisfriendofyoursisfalse。Ihavealreadyputhertothetrial,bydeclaringtohermysincereandunalterablepassionforyou。When,onmyinsisting,asIdidtoyou,uponherspeakingthetruth,sheaccusedyouofwhatnothingshouldnowconvincemeyouareguiltyof。Iown,thathithertomyregard,esteem,andlove,havebeenequaltoboth;butnowIoffertothesincere,artless,andcharmingCaelia,mywholeheart,love,andaffection,andtheserviceofeveryminuteofmyfuturelife;andfromthismomentI
banishfrommymindthefalseandungratefulChloe。’
Caelia’sfriendshipforChloewassodeeplyrootedinherbreast,thatevenadeclarationoflovefromSemproniuscouldnotblotitonemomentfromherheart;andonhisspeakingthewords’falseChloe,’sheburstintotears,andsaid,’IsitpossiblethatChloeshouldactsuchaparttowardsherCaelia!Youmustforgiveher,Sempronius:itwasherviolentpassionforyou,andfearoflosingyou,whichmadeherdowhathithertohernaturehaseverappearedaverseto。’
Semproniusanswered,’thathecouldnotenoughadmirehergoodnesstoherfriendChloe;butsuchproofsofpassion,hesaid,weretohimatthesametimeproofsofitsbeingsuchapassionashehadnoregardfor;sinceitwasimpossibleforanyonetogainorincreasehislovebyanactionwhichatthesametimelessenedhisesteem。’ThiswassoexactlyCaelia’sownwayofthinking,thatshecouldnotbutassenttowhathesaid。
Butjustastheywerecomingoutofthearbour,Chloe,unseenbythem,passedby;andfromseeinghimkissherhand,andthecomplacencyofCaelia’slook,itwaseasyforhertoguesswhathadbeentheresultoftheirprivateconference。Shecouldnothoweverhelpindulginghercuriosity,sofarastowalkontheothersideofathickyewhedge,tolistentotheirdiscourse;andastheywalkedon,sheheardSemproniusentreatCaeliatobecheerful,andthinknomoreofhertreacherousfriend,whosewickednesshedoubtednotwouldsufficientlypunishitself。ShethenheardCaeliasay,’Icannotbear,Sempronius,tohearyouspeaksohardlyofmyChloe。Saythatyouforgiveher,andIwillindeedbecheerful。’
NothinguponearthcanbeconceivedsowretchedaspoorChloe,foronthefirstmomentthatshesufferedherselftoreflectonwhatshehaddone,shethoroughlyrepented,andheartilydetestedherselfforsuchbaseness。ShewentdirectlyintothegardeninhopesofmeetingSempronius,tohavethrownherselfathisfeet,confessedhertreachery,andtohavebeggedhimnevertohavementionedittoCaelia;butnowshewasconsciousherrepentancewouldcometoolate;andhewoulddespiseher,ifpossiblestillmore,forsucharecantation,afterherknowledgeofwhathadpassedbetweenhimandCaelia。
Shecouldindeedhavegonetohim,andnothaveownedwhatshehadseenorheard;butnowherabhorrenceofeventheappearanceoftreacheryorcunningwassogreat,thatshecouldnotbeartoaddthesmallestgrainoffalsehoodordeceittotheweightofherguilt,whichwasalreadyalmostinsupportable:andshouldshetellhimofherrepentance,withaconfessionofherknowledgeofhisengagementwithCaelia,itwould(ashasbeenbeforeobserved)
appearbothservileandinsincere。
Nothingcouldnowappearsoalteredasthewholefaceofthisoncehappyfamily。SemproniusasmuchaspossibleshunnedthesightofChloe;forasshewasthecauseofalltheconfusionamongstthem,hehadalmostanaversiontoher。Thoughhewasnotofanimplacabletemper,yet,astheinjurywasintendedtoonehesincerelyloved,hefounditmuchhardertoforgiveit,thanifithadevensucceededagainsthimself;andashestilllookeduponChloeasthecauseofmelancholyinhisdearCaelia,hecouldhardlyhaveanypatiencewithher。
NowordscandescribethevariouspassionswhichwereexpressedinthesadcountenanceofChloe,whenfirstshemetherfriend。Theywerebothafraidofspeaking。Shame,andthefearofbeing(andwithtoogoodreason)suspectedofinsincerity,withheldChloe;
andanunwillingnesstoaccuseorhurtherfriendwithheldthegentleCaelia。ShesometimesindeedthoughtshesawrepentanceinChloe’sface,andwishedfornothingmorethantosealherpardon。
Buttillitwasasked,shewasindoubt(fromwhathadpassed)
whethersuchpardonandprofferedreconciliationmightnotberejected。Sheknewthatherfriend’spassionswerenaturallystrongerthanhers;andshethereforetrembledattheconsequencesofcomingtoanexplanation。
ButtherewashardlyagreatersuffererinthissceneofconfusionthanthepooroldLadyAmanda。ShesawasortofhorrorandwildnessinthefaceofChloe;andinCaelia’sasettledmelancholy,andsuchanunusualreserveinbothtowardseachother,aswellastoherself,asquiteastonishedher。
Semproniuscameindeedtothehouseasoftenasusual;butinhiscountenanceshecouldperceiveasortofangerandconcernwhichperfectlyfrightenedher。Butastheydidnotspeaktoher,shecouldnotbringherselftoaskthecauseofthiswoefulchange,forfearofhearingsomethingtoobadtobear。
CaeliahadabsolutelyrefusedgrantingtoSemproniusleavetoaskheraunt’sconsent,tillsheshouldcometosomeexplanationwithChloe,whichseemedeverydayfartheroffthanever。
ThegreatperturbationofChloe’smindthrewherintoadisordernotmanydegreesshortofmadness;andatlastshewasseizedwithaviolentfeversoastokeepherbed。ShesaidshecouldnotbeartolookonAmanda;butbeggedCaeliatobewithherasmuchaspossible;whichshedid,inhopesofbringingherselftoeasehermind,byspeakingtoherofwhathadgiventhemallthistorment。
Caeliawatchedwithhernightanddayforthreedays,whenthephysicianwhoattendedherpronouncedthattherewasnohopeofherlife。Caeliacouldnotanylongerbeartostayintheroom,andwentdownstairs,expectingeverymomenttohearshewasexpired。
ChloesoonperceivedbyCaelia’sabruptleavingtheroom,andthelooksofthosewhowereleftinit,thatherfatewaspronounced;
which,insteadofsinkingherspirits,andmakingherdejected,gaveatranquillitytohermind;forshethoughtwithinherself,’Ishallnowmakemydearcousinhappy,byremovingoutofherwayanobjectthatmustembitterallherjoy;andnowlikewise,assheisconvincedIamonmydeath—bed,shewilloncemorebelievemecapableofspeakingtruth;andwill,inthemannerIcouldwish,receivemysincererepentance。’ThensendingforCaeliauptoherbedside,sheinaweakvoice,withhardlystrengthforutterance,spokeinthismanner:’MydearCaelia,thoughyouknowmetobeaworthlessbasewretch,yetdonotthinksohardlyofme,astoimagineIwoulddeceiveyouwithmylastbreath。BelievemethenwhenItellyou,thatIsincerelyrepentofmytreacherytowardsyou;andassincerelyrejoicethatithasinrealitybeenthecauseofyourhappinesswithSempronius。Tellhimthis;andthen,perhaps,hewillnothatemymemory。’Hereshefaintedaway,andtheyforcedCaeliaoutoftheroom,thinkingherbreathwasforeverflown。Butinsometimeshecameagaintoherself,andcriedout,’What!wouldnotmydearCaeliasaythatsheforgaveme?
MethinksIwouldnotdie,tillIhadobtainedherpardon。Sheistoogoodtorefuseherfriendthislastrequest。’Herattendantsthentoldher,thatseeingherfaintaway,theyhadforcedCaeliaoutoftheroom;andtheybeggedhertotrytocomposeherself,fortheyweresurethatseeingherfriendagain,atthistime,wouldonlydisturbhermind,anddoheraninjury。
Chloe,fromtheventshehadgivenhergriefinspeakingtoCaelia,foundherselfsomethingmoreeasyandcomposed;anddesiringtheroomtobemadeperfectlyquiet,shefellintoagentlesleep,whichlastedtwohours;andwhensheawakedshefoundherselfsomuchbetter,thatthoseaboutherwereconvinced,fromhercomposedmannerofspeaking,thatshewasnowabletobearanotherinterview。
TheyagaincalledforCaelia,andtoldherofhercousin’samendment。Sheflewwithallspeedtoherchamber;andthemomentsheentered,Chloecriedout,’Canyouforgiveme,Caelia?’
’Yes,withthegreatestjoyandsincerityimaginable,mydearestChloe,’answeredCaelia,’andneverletitbeagainmentionedorremembered。’
ThesuddenrecoveryofChloewasalmostincredible;forinlessthanaweekshewasabletoquitbothherbedandroom,andgointoheraunt’schamber。Thegoodoldladyshedtearsofjoy,toseesuchareturnofChloe’shealth,andofcheerfulnessinthefamily;andwasperfectlycontented,nowshesawtheirmelancholyremoved,nottoinquireintothelatecauseofit,forfearofrenewingtheirtroubleevenonemomentbytheremembranceofit。
Sempronius,inthemeantime,uponsomeaffairsofhisdutyinthearmy,hadbeencalledaway,andwasabsentthewholetimeofChloe’sillness,andwasnotyetreturned。CaeliaspentalmostherwholetimewithChloe;butthreeweekspassedon,andtheywereoftenalone;yettheyhadneveroncementionedthenameofSempronius,whichlaidCaeliastillunderthegreatestdifficultyhowtoact,soastoavoidgivingherfriendanyuneasiness,andyetnotdisobligeSempronius;forshehadpromisedhimathisdeparture,thatshewouldgivehimleavetoaskheraunt’sconsentimmediatelyuponhisreturn。Buttheverydayhewasexpected,shewasmadequiteeasybywhatpassedbetweenherandherfriend。
Chloe,inthistime,byproperreflections,andaduesenseofCaelia’sgreatgoodnessandaffectiontoher,hadsoentirelygotthebetterofherselfinthisaffair,thatshefoundshecouldnow,withoutanyuneasiness,seethemmarried;andcallingCaeliatoher,shesaidwithasmile,’Ihave,mydearfriend,beensolongaccustomedtoreadinthatintelligibleindex,yourcountenance,allyourmostinmostthoughts,thatIhavenotbeenunobservingofthosekindfearsyouhavehadonmyaccount;andthereasonIhavesolongdelayedspeakingwas,myresolution,ifpossible,neveragaintodeceiveyou。Icanwithpleasurenowassureyou,thatnothingcangivemesomuchjoyastoseeyourweddingwithSempronius。Imakenodoubt,butifyouaskit,youwillhavemyaunt’sconsent;and,ifanyintercessionshouldbewantingtowardsobtainingit,Iwill(ifyoucantrustme)useallmyinfluenceinyourbehalf。Beassured,mydearCaelia,IhavenownofartherregardleftforSempronius,thanasyourhusband;
andthatregardwillincreaseinproportionasheisthecauseofyourhappiness。’
TheywereinterruptedintheirdiscoursebynewsbeingbroughtofthearrivalofSempronius,andChloereceivedhimwiththateaseandcheerfulnessasconvincedCaeliaherprofessionswereunfeigned。
CaeliarelatedtoSemproniusallthathadpassedbetweenherandChloe;andbyhercontinuedcheerfulnessofbehaviour,thepeaceandtranquillityofthefamilywasperfectlyrestored,andtheirjoygreatlyincreasedbyAmanda’sreadyconsenttothemarriageofSemproniusandCaelia,havingfirstsettledallherfortunetobedividedatherdeathequallybetweenhernieces;andinherlifetimetherewasnooccasionofsettlements,ordeedsofgift,fortheylivedalltogether,andseparatepropertywasnotsomuchasmentionedorthoughtoninthisfamilyofharmonyandpeace。
HereMissDollyceasedreading;andallherhearerssatsomelittletimesilent,andthenexpressedtheirgreatjoythatCaeliaandChloewereatlasthappy;fornoneofthemhadbeenabletorefrainfromtearswhilsttheywereotherwise。OnwhichMissJennyPeacebeggedthemtoobservefromthisstory,themiserableeffectsthatattenddeceitandtreachery:’For,’continuedshe,’youseeyoucouldnotrefrainfromtears,onlybyimaginingwhatChloemustfeelafterherwickedness(bywhichindeedshelosttheveryhappinesssheintendedtreacherouslytogain);norcouldsheenjoyonemoment’speace,tillbyconfessingherfault,andheartilyrepentingofit,hermindwasrestoredtoitsformercalmandtranquility。’MissDollythankedMissJennyforherremarks;
butMissLucySlywasmostsensiblytouchedwiththisstory,ascunninghadformerlyentirelypossessedHERmind;andsaid,thatifhercompanionswerenotwearyatpresentoftheirarbour,shewouldnowrecounttothemthehistoryofherlife,asthisstorywasaproperintroductiontoit。
THEDESCRIPTIONOFMISSLUCYSLY。
MissLucySlywasofthesameageasMissDollyFriendly;butshorter,atleast,byhalfthehead。Shewasgenerallycalledaprettygirl,fromhavingapairofexceedingfineblackeyes,onlywiththeallayofsomethingcunningintheirlook。Shehadahighforehead,andverygoodcurlingblackhair。Shehadasharphighnose,andaverysmallmouth。Hercomplexionwasbutindifferent,andthelowerpartofherfaceill—turned,forherchinwastoolongfordueproportion。
THELIFEOFMISSLUCYSLY。
FromthetimeIwastwoyearsold,(saidMissLucy)mymammawassosickly,thatshewasunabletotakeanygreatcareofmeherself,andIwaslefttothecareofagoverness,whomadeitherstudytobringmetodowhatshehadamindtohavedone,withouttroublingherheadwhatinducedmesotodo。AndwheneverIdidanythingwrong,sheusedtosayitwasthefoot—boy,andnotmiss,thatwasnaughty。Nay,shewouldsay,itwasthedog,orthecat,oranythingshecouldlaytheblameupon,soonerthanownitwasme。Ithoughtthispure,thatIwasneverinfault;andsoongotintoawayoftellinganylies,andoflayingmyownfaultsonothers,sinceIfoundIshouldbebelieved。Irememberonce,whenIhadbrokenafinechina—cup,thatIartfullygotoutofthescrape,andhidthebrokencupinthefoot—boy’sroom。Hewaswhippedforbreakingit;andthenextdaywhilstIwasatplayabouttheroom,Iheardmygovernesssaytoafriendwhowaswithher,"YesterdayMissLucybrokeachina—cup;buttheartfullittlehussywentandhiditinthefoot—boy’sroom,andthepoorboywaswhippedforit。Idon’tbelievetherewaseveragirlofheragethathadhalfhercunningandcontrivance。"Iknewbyhertoneofvoice,andhermannerofspeaking,thatshedidnotblamemeinherheart,butrathercommendedmyingenuity。AndIthoughtmyselfsowise,thatIcouldthusgetofftheblamefrommyself,thatIeverydayimprovedinnewinventionstosavemyself,andhaveotherspunishedinmyplace。
’ThislifeofendeavouringtodeceiveIledtillIcametoschool。
ButhereIfoundthatIcouldnotsowellcarryonmylittleschemes;forIwasfoundoutandpunishedformyownfaults;andthiscreatedinmeahatredtomycompanions。ForwhateverMissI
hadamindtoserveasIusedtoserveourfoot—boy,inlayingtheblamefalselyuponher,ifshecouldjustifyherself,andprovemeinthewrong,Iwasveryangrywithher,fordaringtocontradictme,andnotsubmittingasquietlytobepunishedwrongfully,asthefoot—boywasforcedtodo。
’ThisisallIknowofmylifehitherto。’
ThusendedMissLucySly:andMissJennyPeacecommendedMissLucyforherfreeconfessionofherfaults,andsaid,’Shedoubtednotbutshewouldfindtheadvantageofamending,andendeavouringtochangeadispositionsoverypernicioustoherownpeaceandquiet,aswellastothatofallherfriends;’buttheynowobeyedthesummonsofthesupper—bell,andsoonafterretiredtorest。
THURSDAY。
THEFOURTHDAY。
Ourlittlecompany,assoonasthemorningschool—hourswereover,hastenedtotheirarbour,andwereattentivetowhatMissJennyPeaceshouldproposetothemfortheiramusementtilldinner—time;
whenMissJenny,lookingrounduponthem,said,’thatshehadnotatpresentanystorytoread;butthatshehoped,fromMissDollyFriendly’sexampleyesterday,someoftherestmightendeavoursometimestofurnishouttheentertainmentoftheday。’UponwhichMissSukeyJennettsaid,’thatthoughshecouldnotpromisethemsuchanagreeablestoryasMissDolly’s;yetshewouldreadthemalettershehadreceivedtheeveningbeforefromherCousinPeggySmith,wholivedatYork;inwhichtherewasastorythatshethoughtverystrangeandremarkable。Theywereallverydesirousofit,whenMissSukeyreadasfollows:
’Dearcousin,——Ipromised,youknow,towritetoyouwhenIhadanythingtotellyou;andasIthinkthefollowingstoryveryextraordinary,Iwaswillingtokeepmyword。
’Sometimeagotherecametosettleinthiscity,alady,whosenamewasDison。Weallvisitedher:butshehadsodeepamelancholy,arising,asitappeared,fromasettledstateofillhealth,thatnothingwecoulddocouldaffordhertheleastrelief,ormakehercheerful。Inthisconditionshelanguishedamongstusfiveyears,stillcontinuingtogrowworseandworse。
’Weallgrievedatherfate。Herfleshwaswitheredaway;herappetitedecayedbydegrees,tillallfoodbecamenauseoustohersight;herstrengthfailedher;herfeetcouldnotsupporthertotteringbody,leanandwornawayasitwas;andwehourlyexpectedherdeath。When,atlast,sheonedaycalledhermostintimatefriendstoherbedside,and,aswellasshecould,spoketothefollowingpurpose:’Iknowyouallpityme;but,alas!I
amnotsomuchtheobjectofyourpity,asyourcontempt;forallmymiseryisofmyownseeking,andowingtothewickednessofmyownmind。Ihadtwosisters,withwhomIwasbredup;andIhaveallmylifetimebeenunhappy,fornoothercausebutfortheirsuccessintheworld。Whenwewereyoung,Icouldneithereatnorsleepinpeace,whentheyhadeitherpraiseorpleasure。Whenwegrewuptobewomen,theywerebothsoonmarriedmuchtotheiradvantageandsatisfaction。Thisgalledmetotheheart;and,thoughIhadseveralgoodoffers,yetasIdidnotthinktheminallrespectsequaltomysisters,Iwouldnotacceptthem;andyetwasinwardlyvexedtorefusethem,forfearIwouldgetnobetter。
IgenerallydeliberatedsolongthatIlostmylovers,andthenI
pinedforthatloss。Ineverwantedforanything;andwasinasituationinwhichImighthavebeenhappy,ifIpleased。Mysisterslovedmeverywell,forIconcealedasmuchaspossiblefromthemmyodiousenvy;andyetneverdidanypoorwretchleadsomiserablealifeasIhavedone;foreveryblessingtheyenjoyedwasassomanydaggerstomyheart。’Tisthisenvythathascausedallmyillhealth,haspreyeduponmyveryvitals,andwillnowbringmetomyGrave。"
’Inafewdaysafterthisconfessionshedied;andherwordsanddeathmadesuchastrongimpressiononmymind,thatIcouldnothelpsendingyouthisrelation;andbeggingyou,mydearSukey,torememberhowcarefulweoughttobetocurbinourmindstheveryfirstrisingsofapassionsodetestable,andsofatal,asthisprovedtopoorMrs。Dison。IknowIhavenoparticularreasonforgivingyouthiscaution;forIneversawanythinginyou,butwhatdeservedtheloveandesteemof’Yourveryaffectionatecousin,’M。SMITH。’
AssoonasMissSukeyhadfinishedherletter,MissPattyLockitroseup,and,flyingtoMissJennyPeace,embracedher,andsaid,’WhatthankscanIgiveyou,mydearfriend,forhavingputmeintoawayofexaminingmyheart,andreflectingonmyownactions;bywhichyouhavesavedme,perhaps,fromalifeasmiserableasthatofthepoorwomaninMissSukey’sletter!’MissJennydidnotthoroughlyunderstandhermeaning;butimaginingitmightbesomethingrelatingtoherpastlife,desiredhertoexplainherself;whichshesaidshewoulddo,tellingnow,inherturn,allthathadhithertohappenedtoher。
THEDESCRIPTIONOFMISSPATTYLOCKIT。
MissPattyLockitwasbuttenyearsold;tall,inclinedtofat。
Herneckwasshort;andshewasnotintheleastgenteel。Herfacewasveryhandsome;forallherfeatureswereextremelygood。
Shehadlargeblueeyes;wasexceedingfair;andhadagreatbloomonhercheeks。Herhairwastheveryfirstdegreeoflightbrown;
wasbrightandshining;andhunginringletshalfwaydownherback。Hermouthwasrathertoolarge;butshehadsuchfineteeth,andlookedsoagreeablywhenshesmiled,thatyouwasnotsensibleofanyfaultinit。
ThiswasthepersonofMissPattyLockit,whowasslowtorelateherpastlife;whichshedid,inthefollowingmanner:
THELIFEOFMISSPATTYLOCKIT。
Ilived,tillIwassixyearsold,inaverylargefamily;forI
hadfoursisters,allolderthanmyself,andthreebrothers。Weplayedtogether,andpassedourtimemuchinthecommonway:
sometimeswequarrelled,andsometimesagreed,justasaccidentwouldhaveit。Ourparentshadnopartialitytoanyofus;sowehadnocausetoenvyoneanotheronthataccount;andwelivedtolerablywelltogether。
’WhenIwassixyearsold,mygrandmotherbymyfather’sside(andwhowasalsomygodmother)offeringtotakemetolivewithher,andpromisingtolookuponmeasherownchild,andentirelytoprovideforme,myfatherandmother,astheyhadalargefamily,veryreadilyacceptedheroffer,andsentmedirectlytoherhouse。
’Abouthalfayearbeforethis,shehadtakenanothergoddaughter,theonlychildofmyAuntBradly,whowaslatelydead,andwhosehusbandwasgonetotheWestIndies。Mycousin,MollyBradly,wasfouryearsolderthanI;andhermotherhadtakensuchpainsinhereducation,thattheunderstoodmorethanmostgirlsofherage;andhadsomuchliveliness,goodhumour,andingenuity,thateverybodywasfondofher;andwhereverwewenttogether,allthenoticewastakenofmycousin,andIwasverylittleregarded。
’ThoughIhadallmylifebeforelivedinafamilywhereeveryoneinitwasolder,andknewmorethanmyself,yetIwasveryeasy;
forweweregenerallytogetherinthenursery;andnobodytookmuchnoticeofus,whetherweknewanything,orwhetherwedidnot。Butnow,asIlivedinthehousewithonlyonecompanion,whowassomuchmoreadmiredthanmyself,thecomparisonbegantovexme,andIfoundastronghatredandaversionformycousinarisinginmymind;andyet,IverilybelieveIshouldhavegotthebetterofit,andbeenwillingtohavelearntofmycousin,andshouldhavelovedherforteachingme,ifanyonehadtoldmeitwasright;andifithadnotbeenthatBetty,themaidwhotookcareofus,usedtobeforeverteasingmeaboutthepreferencethatwasshowntomycousin,andtheneglectIalwaysmetwith。
Sheusedtotellme,thatshewonderedhowIcouldbeartoseeMissMollysocaressed;andthatitwaswantofspiritnottothinkmyselfasgoodasshewas;and,ifshewasinmyplace,shewouldnotsubmittobetaughtbyachild;formyCousinMollyfrequentlyofferedtoinstructmeinanythingsheknew;butIusedtosay(asBettyhadtaughtme)thatIwouldnotlearnofher;forshewasbutachild,thoughshewasalittleolder;andthatIwasnotputunderhercare,butthatofmygrandmamma。Butshe,poorwoman,wassooldandunhealthy,thatshenevertroubledherheadmuchaboutus,butonlytotakecarethatwewantedfornothing。
Ilivedinthismannerthreeyears,frettingandvexingmyselfthatIdidnotknowsomuch,norwasnotsomuchliked,asmyCousinMolly,andyetresolvingnottolearnanythingshecouldteachme;whenmygrandmammawasadvisedtosendmetoschool;
but,assoonasIcamehere,thecasewasmuchworse;for,insteadofonepersontoenvy,Ifoundmany;forallmyschoolfellowshadlearnedmorethanI;and,insteadofendeavouringtogetknowledge,Ibegantohateallthosewhoknewmorethanmyself;
andthis,Iamnowconvinced,wasowingtothatodiousenvy,which,ifnotcured,wouldalwayshavemademeasmiserableasMrs。Disonwasandwhichconstantlytormentedme,tillwecametoliveinthatgeneralpeaceandgood—humourwehavelatelyenjoyed:
andasIhopethiswickedspiritwasnotnaturaltome,butonlyblownupbythatvileBetty’sinstigations,Idon’tdoubtbutI
shallnowgrowveryhappy,andlearnsomethingeveryday,andbepleasedwithbeinginstructed,andthatIshallalwayslovethosewhoaresogoodastoinstructme。’
HereMissPattyLockitceased;andthedinner—bellcalledthemfromtheirarbour。
Mrs。Teachum,assoonastheyhaddined,toldthem,thatshethoughtitpropertheywouldusesomebodilyexercise,thattheymightnot,bysittingconstantlystill,impairtheirhealth。Notbutthatshewasgreatlypleasedwiththeirinnocentandinstructivemannerofemployingtheirleisurehours;butthiswisewomanknewthatthefacultiesofthemindgrowlanguidanduseless,whenthehealthofthebodyislost。
Assoonastheyunderstoodtheirgoverness’spleasure,theyreadilyresolvedtoobeyhercommands,anddesiredthat,afterschool,theymighttakeawalkasfarasthedairyhouse,toeatsomecurdsandcream。Mrs。Teachumnotonlygrantedtheirrequest,butsaidshewoulddispensewiththeirschool—attendancethatafternoon,inordertogivethemmoretimefortheirwalk,whichwasbetweentwoandthreemiles;andshelikewiseadded,thatsheherselfwouldgowiththem。Theyallflewlikelightningtogettheirhats,andtoequipthemselvesfortheirwalk;and,withcheerfulcountenances,attendedMrs。Teachumintheschoolroom。Thisgoodgentlewoman,sofarfromlayingthemunderarestraintbyherpresence,encouragedthemtoruninthefields,andtogatherflowers;whichtheydid,eachmisstryingtogetthebesttopresenttohergoverness。Inthisagreeablemanner,withlaughing,talking,andsinging,theyarrivedatthedairy—house,beforetheyimaginedtheyhadwalkedamile。
Therelivedatthisdairy—houseanoldwoman,nearseventyyearsofage。Shehadafreshcolourinherface;butwastroubledwiththepalsy,thatmadeherheadshakealittle。Shewasbentforwardwithage,andherhairwasquitegrey:butsheretainedmuchgood—humour,andreceivedthislittlepartywithheartywelcome。
Ourlittlegentryflockedaboutthisgoodwoman,askingherathousandquestions。MissPollySucklingaskedher,’Whysheshookherheadso?’andMissPattyLockitsaid,’Shehopedherhairwouldneverbeofsuchacolour。’
MissJennyPeacewasafraidtheywouldsaysomethingthatwouldoffendtheoldwoman,andadvisedthemtoturntheirdiscourse。
’Oh!letthedearroguesalone,’saystheoldwoman;’Iliketheirprattle;’and,takingMissPollybythehand,said,’Come,mydear,wewillgointothedairy,andskimthemilkpans。’Atwhichwordstheyallrunintothedairy,andsomeofthemdippedtheirfingersinthecream;whichwhenMrs。Nellyperceived(whowastheeldestdaughteroftheoldwoman,andwhomanagedalltheaffairs)shedesiredtheywouldwalkoutofthedairy,andshewouldbringthemwhatwasfitforthem:uponwhichMissDollyFriendlysaid,’shehadratherbeasoldandgood—naturedasthemother,thanasyoungandill—naturedasthedaughter。’
Theoldwomandesiredhercompanytositdownatalongtable,whichshesoonsuppliedwithplentyofcream,strawberries,brownbread,andsugar。Mrs。Teachumtookherplaceattheupperend,andtherestsatdownintheirusualorder,andeatplentifullyofthesegoodthings。Afterwhich,Mrs。Teachumtoldthemtheymightwalkoutandseethegardenandorchard,andbythattimeitwouldbepropertoreturnhome。
Thegoodoldwomanshowedthemthewayintothegarden;andgatheredthefinestrosesandpinksshecouldpick,andgavethemtoMissPolly,towhomshehadtakenagreatFancy。
Attheirtakingleave,Mrs。Teachumrewardedthegoodoldwomanforhertrouble;who,onherpart,expressedmuchpleasureinfeeingsomanywell—behavedyoungladies;andsaid,shehopedtheywouldcomeoften。
Theselittlefriendshadnotwalkedfarintheirwayhome,beforetheymetamiserableraggedfellow,whobeggedtheircharity。Ouryoungfolksimmediatelygatheredtogetheraboutthispoorcreature,andwerehearkeningveryearnestlytohisstory,whichhesetforthinaterriblemanner,ofhavingbeenburntoutofhishouse,and,fromonedistresstoanother,reducedtothatmiserablestatetheysawhimin,whenMrs。Teachumcameuptothem。Shewasnotalittlepleasedtoseeallthemisses’handsintheirpockets,pullingouthalf—pence,andsomesixpences。Shetoldthem,sheapprovedoftheirreadinesstoassistthepoorfellow,asheappearedtothem;butoftentimesthosefellowsmadeupdismalstorieswithoutmuchfoundation,andbecausetheywerelazy,andwouldnotwork。MissDollysaid,indeedshebelievedthepoormanspoketruth;forhelookedhonest;and,besides,heseemedalmoststarved。
Mrs。Teachumtoldthemitwouldbelatebeforetheycouldgethome;so,aftereachofthemhadgivenwhattheythoughtproper,theypursuedtheirwalk,prattlingalltheway。
Theygothomeaboutnineo’clock;and,astheydidnotchooseanysupper,thebellrangforprayers;afterwhichouryoungtravellersretiredtotheirrest,wherewedoubtnotbuttheyhadagoodrepose。
FRIDAY
THEFIFTHDAY。
Mrs。Teachum,inthemorning,inquiredhowherscholarsdidaftertheirwalk,andwaspleasedtoheartheywereallverywell。Theythenperformedtheirseveraltaskswithmuchcheerfulness;and,aftertheschool—hours,theywerehastening,asusual,totheirarbour,whenMissJennydesiredthemalltogothitherwithouther,andshewouldsoonfollowthem;whichtheyreadilyconsentedto;butbeggedhernottodeprivethemlongofthepleasureofhersweetcompany。
MissJennythenwentdirectlyintohergoverness’sparlour,andtoldherthatshehadsomethoughtsofreadingtohercompanionsafairytale,whichwasalsogivenherbyhermamma;andthoughitwasnotinsuchapompousstyle,norsofullofwonderfulimages,asthegiant—story;yetshewouldnotventuretoreadanythingofthatkindwithoutherpermission;but,asshehadnotabsolutelycondemnedallthatsortofwriting,shehopedshewasnotguiltyofafaultinaskingthatpermission。Mrs。Teachum,withagracioussmile,toldher,thatsheseemedsothoroughlywelltounderstandthewholeforceofherMondaynight’sdiscoursetoher,thatshemightbetrustedalmostinanything;anddesiredhertogoandfollowherownjudgmentandinclinationsintheamusementofherhappyfriends。MissJenny,overjoyedwiththiskindcondescensioninhergoverness,thankedher,with,alowcourtesy,andsaid,shehopedsheshouldneverdoanythingunworthyoftheconfidencereposedonher;and,hasteningtothearbour,shetherefoundallherlittlecompanionsquiteimpatientofthisshortabsence。
MissJennytoldthem,thatshehadbyherafairy—tale,which,iftheylikedit,shewouldread;and,asithadpleasedher,shedidnotdoubtbutitwouldgivethemequalpleasure。
ItwasthecustomnowsomuchamongstthemtoassenttoanyproposalthatcamefromMissJenny,thattheyallwithonevoicedesiredhertoreadit;tillMissPollySucklingsaid,’thatalthoughshewasveryunwillingtocontradictanythingMissJennyliked,yetshecouldnothelpsaying,shethoughtitwouldbebetteriftheyweretoreadsometruehistory,fromwhichtheymightlearnsomething;forshethoughtfairy—taleswerefitonlyforlittlechildren。
MissJennycouldnothelpsmilingatsuchanobjection’scomingfromthelittledumpling,whowasnotmuchabovesevenyearsofage;andthensaid,’Iwilltellyouastory,mylittlePolly,ofwhathappenedtomewhilstIwasathome。
’Therecameintoourvillage,whenIwassixyearsold,amanwhocarriedaboutararee—show,whichallthechildrenoftheparishwerefondofseeing;butIhadtakenitintomyhead,thatitwasbeneathmywisdomtoseeraree—shows;andthereforewouldnotbepersuadedtojoinmycompanionstoseethissight;andalthoughI
hadasgreataninclinationasanyofthemtoseeit,yetI
avoidedit,inordertoboastofmyowngreatsense,inthatIwasabovesuchtrifles。
’Whenmymammaaskedme,"WhyIwouldnotseetheshow,whenshehadgivenmeleave?Idrewupmyhead,andsaid,"IndeedIdidnotlikeraree—shows。ThatIhadbeenreading;andIthoughtthatmuchmoreworthmywhile,thantolosemytimeatsuchfoolishentertainments。"Mymamma,whosawthecauseofmyrefusingthisamusementwasonlyapretenceofbeingwise,laughed,andsaid,"Sheherselfhadseenit,anditwasreallyverycomicalanddiverting。"Onhearingthis,IwasheartilyvexedtothinkIhaddeniedmyselfapleasure,whichIfanciedwasbeneathme,whenI
foundevenmymammawasnotaboveseeingit。Thisinagreatmeasurecuredmeofthefollyofthinkingmyselfaboveanyinnocentamusement。AndwhenIgrewolder,andmorecapableofhearingreason,mymammatoldme,"Shehadtakenthismethodoflaughingatme,aslaughingisthepropermanneroftreatingaffectation;whichofallthings,shesaid,shewouldhavemecarefullyavoid;otherwise,wheneverIwasfoundout,Ishouldbecomecontemptible。"’
HereMissJennyceasedspeaking;andMissPollySuckling,blushingthatshehadmadeanyobjectiontowhatMissJennyhadproposed,beggedhertobeginthefairytale;whenjustatthatinstant,Mrs。Teachum,whohadbeentakingawalkinthegarden,turnedintothearbourtodelightherselfwithaviewofherlittleschoolunitedinharmonyandlove,andMissJenny,withgreatgoodhumour,toldhermistressthesmallcontestshehadjusthadwithMissPollyaboutreadingafairytale,andtheoccasionofit。
Mrs。Teachumkindlychuckingthelittledumplingunderthechin,said,shehadsogoodanopinionofMissJenny,astoanswerforher,thatshewouldreadnothingtothembutwhatwasproper;andadded,thatsheherselfwouldstayandhearthisfairytalewhichMissJenny,onhercommands,immediatelybegan。
THEPRINCESSHEBE。
AFAIRYTALE。
Abovetwothousandyearsago,therereignedoverthekingdomofTonga,aking,whosenamewasAbdallah。Hewasmarriedtoayoungprincess,thedaughterofakingofaneighbouringcountry,whosenamewasRousignon。Herbeautyandprudenceengagedhimsofarinaffectiontoher,thateveryhourhecouldpossiblysparefromattendingtheaffairsofhiskingdomhespentinherapartment。
Theyhadalittledaughter,towhomtheygavethenameofHebe,whowasthedarlingandmutualcareofboth。
Thekingwasquietinhisdominion,belovedbyhissubjects,happyinhisfamily,andallhisdaysrolledonincalmcontentandjoy。
Theking’sbrotherAbdulhamwasalsomarriedtoayoungprincess,namedTropo,whoinsevenyearshadbroughthimnochildren;andsheconceivedsomortalahatredagainstthequeen(forsheenviedherthehappinessofthelittlePrincessHebe)thatsheresolvedtodohersomemischief。Itwasimpossibleforher,duringtheking’slifetime,toventhermalicewithoutbeingdiscovered,andthereforeshepretendedthegreatestrespectandfriendshipimaginablefortheunsuspectingqueen。
Whilstthingswereinthissituation,thekingfellintoaviolentfever,ofwhichhedied;andduringthetimethatthequeenwasintheheightofherafflictionforhim,andcouldthinkofnothingbuthisloss,thePrincessTropotooktheopportunityofputtinginexecutionhermaliciousintentions。Sheinflamedherhusband’spassions,bysettingforththemeannessofhisspirit,inlettingacrownberavishedfromhisheadbyafemaleinfant,tillambitionseizedhismind,andheresolvedtowieldtheTongiansceptrehimself。Itwasveryeasytobringthisabout,for,byhisbrother’sappointment,hewasprotectoroftherealm,andguardiantotheyoungprincesshisniece;andthequeentakinghimandtheprincesshiswifeforherbestfriends,suspectednothingoftheirdesigns,butinamannergaveherselfuptotheirpower。
TheprotectorAbdulham,havingthewholetreasureofthekingdomathiscommand,wasinpossessionofthemeanstomakeallhisschemessuccessful;andthePrincessTropo,bylavishlyrewardingtheinstrumentsofhertreachery,contrivedtomakeitgenerallybelieved,thatthequeenhadpoisonedherhusband,whowassomuchbelovedbyhissubjects,thattheveryhorroroftheaction,withoutanyproofofherguilt,raisedagainstthepoorunhappyQueenauniversalclamour,andageneralaversionthroughoutthewholekingdom。Theprincesshadsowelllaidherscheme,thattheguardsweretoseizethequeen,andconveyhertoaplaceofconfinement,tillshecouldproveherinnocence;which,thatshemightneverbeabletodo,propercarewastakenbyprocuringsufficientevidencetoaccuseheronoath;andthePrincessHebe,herdaughter,wastobetakenfromher,andeducatedunderthecareofheruncle。Butthenightbeforethiscrueldesignwastohavebeenputinexecution,afaithfulattendantofthequeen’s,namedLoretta,bytheassistanceofoneofthePrincessTropo’sconfidants(whohadlongprofessedhimselfherlover)discoveredthewholesecret,ofwhichsheimmediatelyinformedherroyalmistress。
Thehorrorswhichfilledthequeen’smindattherelationofthePrincessTropo’smaliciousintentions,wereinexpressible,andherperturbationsogreat,thatshecouldnotformanyschemethatappearedprobabletoexecuteforherownpreservation。Lorettatoldherthatthepersonwhohadgivenherthistimelynotice,hadalsoprovidedapeasantwhoknewthecountry,andwouldmeetheratthewesterngateofthecity,and,carryingtheyoungPrincessHebeinhisarms,wouldconducthertosomeplaceofsafety;butshemustconsenttoputonadisguise,andescapethatverynightfromthepalace,orshewouldbelostforever。Horsesormules,shesaid,itwouldbeimpossibletocomeatwithoutsuspicion;
thereforeshemustendeavour(thoughunusedtosuchfatigue)totravelafoottillshegotherselfconcealedinsomecottagefromherpursuers,ifherenemiesshouldthinkofendeavouringtofindherout。Lorettaofferedtoattendhermistress,butsheabsolutelyforbadhergoinganyfartherthantothewesterngate;
wheredeliveringthelittlePrincessHebeintothearmsofthepeasant,whowastherewaitingforthem,shereluctantlywithdrew。
Thegoodqueen,whosawnoremedytothisherterribledisgrace,couldhavebornethisbarbaroususagewithoutmuchrepining,hadsheherselfbeentheonlysuffererbyit;forthelossofthegoodkingherhusbandsofarexceededallherothermisfortunes,thateveryeverythingelsewastriflingincomparisonofsodreadfulanaffliction。ButtheyoungPrincessHebe,whomshewasaccustomedtolookonashergreatestblessing,nowbecametoheranobjectofpityandconcern;for,frombeingheiresstoathrone,thepoorinfant,notyetfiveyearsold,was,withherwretchedmother,becomeavagabond,andknewnotwhithertoflyforprotection。
Lorettahadprevailedonherroyalmistresstotakewithherafewlittlenecessaries,besidesasmallpictureoftheking,andsomeofherjewels,whichthequeencontrivedtoconcealunderhernight—clothes,inthemidstofthathairtheywereusedtoadorn,whenherlovedhusbanddelightedtoseeitdisplayedinflowingringletsroundhersnowyneck。Thislady,duringthelifeofherfondhusband,wasbyhistendercarekeptfromeveryinclemencyoftheair,andpreservedfromeveryinconveniencethatitwaspossibleforhumannaturetosuffer。Whatthenmustbeherconditionnow,whenthroughbypathsandthornyways,shewasobligedtoflywithallpossiblespeed,toescapethefuryofhercruelpursuers:forshetoowellknewthemercilesstemperofherenemies,tohopethattheywouldnotpursueherwiththeutmostdiligence,especiallyasshewasaccompaniedbytheyoungPrincessHebe;whoselifewastheprincipalcauseoftheirdisquiet,andwhosedestructiontheychieflyaimedat。
Thehonestpeasant,whocarriedthePrincessHebeinhisarms,followedthequeen’spainfulsteps;andseeingthedaybegintobreak,hebeggedher,ifpossible,tohastenontoawoodwhichwasnotfaroff,whereitwaslikelyshemightfindaplaceofsafety。Buttheafflictedqueen,atthesightoftheopeningmorn(whichonceusedtofillhermindwithrisingjoy)burstintoafloodoftears,and,quiteovercomewithgriefandfatigue,castherselfontheground,cryingoutinthemostaffectingmanner,’Theendofmymisfortunesisathand。Mywearylimbswillnolongersupportme。Myspiritsfailme。InthegravealonemustI
seekforshelter。’Thepoorprincess,seeinghermotherintears,castherlittlearmsaboutherneck,andweptalso,thoughsheknewnotwhy。
Whilstshewasinthisdeplorablecondition,turningroundherhead,shesawbehindheralittlegirl,noolderinappearancethanthePrincessHebe;who,withanamiableandtranquilcountenance,beggedhertoriseandfollowher,andshewouldleadherwhereshemightrefreshandreposeherself。
Thequeenwassurprisedatthemannerofspeakingofthislittlechild,asshetookhertobe;butsoonthoughtitwassomekindfairysenttoprotecther,andwasveryreadytosubmitherselftoherguidanceandprotection。
Thelittlefairy(forsuchindeedwastheseemingchildwhohadthusaccostedthem)orderedthepeasanttoreturnback,andsaidthatshewouldtakecareofthequeen,andheryoungdaughter;andhe,knowinghertobethegoodfairySybella,veryreadilyobeyed。
Sybellathenstrikingthegroundthreetimeswithalittlewand,theresuddenlyroseupbeforethemaneatplaincar,andapairofmilk—whitehorses;andplacingthequeenwiththePrincessHebeinherlapbyherside,shedrovewithexcessiveswiftnessfullwestwardforeighthours;when(justasthesunbegantohavepowerenoughtomakethequeenalmostfaintwiththeheatandherformerfatigue)theyarrivedatthesideofashadywood;uponenteringofwhich,thefairymadeherhorsesslackenintheirspeed,andhavingtravelledaboutamileandahalf,throughrowsofelmsandbeechtrees,theycametoathickgroveoffirs,intowhichthereseemedtobenoentrance。Fortherewasnotanyopeningtoapath,andtheunderwoodconsistingchieflyofrose—bushes,white—thorn,eglantine,andotherfloweringshrubs,wassothick,thatitappearedimpossibletoattemptforcingthroughthem。Butalightingoutofthecar(whichimmediatelydisappeared)thefairy(biddingthequeenfollowher)pushedherwaythroughalargebushofjessamine,whosetenderbranchesgavewayfortheirpassageandthenclosedagain,soastoleavenotracesofanentranceintothischarminggrove。
Havinggonealittlewaythroughanextremenarrowpath,theycameintoanopening(quitesurroundedbythesefirsandsweetunderwood)notverylarge,butinwhichwascontainedeverythingthatisnecessarytowardsmakinglifecomfortable。Attheendofagreenmeadowwasaplainneathouse,builtmoreforconveniencethanbeauty,frontingtherisingsun;andbehinditwasasmallgarden,storedonlywithfruitsandusefulherbs。Sybellaconductedherguestsintothishersimplelodging;andasreposewasthechiefthingnecessaryforthepoorfatiguedqueen,sheprevailedwithhertoliedownonacouch。Somehours’soundsleep,whichherwearinessinduced,gaveherafreshsupplyofspirits;theeaseandsafetyfromherpursuers,inwhichshethenfoundherself,madeherforashorttimetolerablycomposed;andshebeggedthefavourofknowingtowhomshewassogreatlyobligedforthisherhappydeliverance;butthefairyseeinghermindtoounsettledtogiveanydueattentiontowhatsheshouldsay,toldherthatshewoulddefertherelationofherownlife(whichwasworthherobservation)tillshehadobtainedarespitefromherownsorrows;andinthemeantime,byallmannerofobligingways,sheendeavouredtodivertandamuseher。
Thequeen,afterashortintervalofcalmnessofmind,occasionedonlybyhersosuddenescapefromtheterrorsofpursuit,returnedtoherformerdejection,andforsometimeincessantlyweptatthedismalthought,thattheprincessseemednow,bythisreverseoffate,tobeforeverexcludedallhopesofbeingseatedonherfather’sthrone;and,byastrangeperversewayofaddingtoherowngrief,sheafflictedherselfthemore,becausethelittleprincesswasignorantofhermisfortune;andwhenevershesawherdivertingherselfwithlittlechildishplays,insteadofbeingpleasedwithsuchherinnocentamusement,itaddedtohersorrow,andmadehertearsgushforthinalargerstreamthanusual。Shecouldnotdivertherthoughtsfromthepalacefromwhichshehadbeendriven,tofixthemonanyotherobject;norwouldhergriefsufferhertoreflect,thatitwaspossiblefortheprincesstobehappywithoutacrown。
Atlengthtime,thegreatcureofallills,insomemeasureabatedherSorrows;hergriefbegantosubside;inspiteofherself,thereflectionthathermiserywasonlyinherownfancy,wouldsometimesforceitselfonhermind。Shecouldnotavoidseeing,thatherlittlehostessenjoyedasperfectastateofhappinessasispossibletoattaininthisworld;thatshewasfreefromanxiouscares,undisturbedbyrestlesspassions,andmistressofallthingsthatcouldbeofanyusetomakelifeeasyoragreeable。Theoftenerthisreflectionpresenteditselftoherthoughts,themorestrengthitgained;and,atlast,shecouldevenbeartothink,thatherbelovedchildmightbeashappyinsuchasituation,aswasheramiablehostess。Hercountenancenowgrewmorecheerful;shecouldtakethePrincessHebeinherarms,andthinkingthejewelsshehadpreservedwouldsecureherfromanyfearofwant,lookonherwithdelight;andbeganeventoimagine,thatherfuturelifemightbespentincalmcontentandpleasure。
Assoonasthevoiceofreasonhadgainedthispoweroverthequeen,Sybellatoldher,thatnowherbosomwassofreefrompassion,shewouldrelatethehistoryofherlife。Thequeen,overjoyedthathercuriositymightnowbegratified,beggedhernottodelaygivingherthatpleasureonemoment;onwhichourlittlefairybeganinthefollowingmanner。
ButthereMrs。TeachumtoldMissJennythatthebellrungfordinner;onwhichshewasobligedtobreakoff。Butmeetingagaininthesamearbourintheevening,whentheirgoodmistresscontinuedtothemthefavourofherpresence,MissJennypursuedherstory。
THEFAIRYTALECONTINUED。
’Myfather,’saidthefairy,’wasamagician:hemarriedaladyforlove,whosebeautyfaroutshonethatofallherneighbours;
andbymeansofthatbeauty,shehadsogreataninfluenceoverherhusband,thatshecouldcommandtheutmostpowerofhisart。
Butbetterhaditbeenforher,hadthatbeautybeenwanting;forherpoweronlyservedtomakeherwishformore,andthegratificationofeverydesirebegotanewone,whichoftenitwasimpossibleforhertogratify。Myfather,thoughhesawhiserrorinthusindulgingher,couldnotattainsteadinessofmindenoughtomendit,noracquireresolutionenoughtosufferhisbelovedwifeoncetogrieveorshedateartonopurpose,thoughinordertocureherofthatfollywhichmadehermiserable。
’Mygrandfathersoplainlysawthetemperanddispositionofhissontowardswomen,thathedidnotleavehimatlibertytodisposeofhismagicarttoanybuthisposterity,thatitmightnotbeinthepowerofawifetoteasehimoutofit。Buthiscautionwastoverylittlepurpose;foralthoughmymothercouldnotfromherselfexertanymagicpower,yetsuchwasherunboundedinfluenceoverherhusband,thatshewassureofsuccessineveryattempttopersuadehimtogratifyherdesires。Forifeveryargumentshecouldinventhappenedtofail,yetthesheddingbutonetearwasacertainmethodtoprevailwithhimtogiveuphisreason,whatevermightbetheconsequence。
’Whenmyfatherandmotherhadbeenmarriedaboutayear,shewasbroughttobedofadaughter,towhomshegavethenameofBrunetta。Herfirstrequesttomyfatherwas,thathewouldendowthisinfantwithasmuchbeautyassheherselfwaspossessedof,andbestowonherasmuchofhisartasshouldenablehertosucceedinallherdesigns。Myfatherforesawthedreadfultendencyofgrantingthisrequest,butsaidhewouldgiveitwiththisrestriction,thatsheshouldsucceedinallherdesignsthatwerenotwicked;for,saidhe,thesuccessofwickeddesignsalwaysturnsoutasapunishmenttothepersonsosucceeding。Inthisresolutionheheldforthreedays,tillmymother(beingweakinbodyafterherlying—in)workedherselfwithherviolentpassionstosuchadegree,thatthephysicianstoldmyfather,theydespairedofherlife,unlesssomemethodcouldbefoundtomakehermindmorecalmandeasy。Hisfondnessforhiswifewouldnotsufferhimtobearthethoughtsoflosingher,andthehorrorwithwhichthatapprehensionhadbutforamomentpossessedhismind,prevailedwithhimtobestowonthelittleBrunetta(thoughforeseeingitwouldmakehermiserable)thefatalgiftinitsfullextent。Butonerestrictionitwasoutofhispowertotakeoff,namely,thatallwickeddesignsevercouldandshouldberenderedineffectualbythevirtueandperseveranceofthoseagainstwhomtheywereintended,iftheyinapropermannerexertedthatvirtue。
’IwasbornintwoyearsafterBrunetta,andwascalledSybella:
butmymotherwassotakenupwithherdarlingBrunetta,thatshegaveherselfnuttheleastconcernaboutme;andIwasleftwhollytothecareofmyfather。Inordertomakethegiftshehadextortedfromherfondhusbandasfatalaspossibletoherfavouritechild,shetookcareinhereducation(byendeavouringtocultivateinherthespiritofrevengeandmaliceagainstthosewhohadintheleastdegreeoffendedher)toturnhermindtoallmannerofmischief;bywhichmeansshelivedinacontinualpassion。
’Myfather,assoonasIwasoldenoughtohearkentoreason,toldmeofthegifthehadconferredonmysister;saidhecouldnotretractit;andtherefore,ifshehadanymischievousdesignsagainstme,theymustinsomemeasuresucceed;butshewouldendowmewithapowersuperiortothisgiftofmysister’s,andlikewisesuperiortoanythingelsethathewasabletobestow,whichwasstrengthandconstancyofmindenoughtobearpatientlyanyinjuriesImightreceive;andthiswasastrength,hesaid,whichwouldnotdecay,butratherincrease,byeverynewexerciseofit;
and,tosecuremeinthepossessionofthisgift,helikewisegavemeaperfectknowledgeofthetruevalueofeverythingaroundme,bywhichmeansImightlearn,whateveroutwardaccidentsbefellme,nottolosethegreatestblessinginthisworld,namely,acalmandcontentedmind。Hetaughtmesowellmyduty,thatI
cheerfullyobeyedmymotherinallthings,thoughsheseldomgavemeakindword,orevenakindlook;formyspitefulsisterwasalwaystellingsomeliestomakeherangrywithme。Butmyheartoverflowedwithgratitudetomyfather,thathewouldgivemeleavetolovehim,whilstheinstructedmethatitwasmydutytopayhimthemoststrictobedience。
’Brunettawasdailyencouragedbyhermothertousemeill,andchieflybecausemyfatherlovedme;andalthoughshesucceededinallherdesignsofrevengeonme,yetwassheveryuneasy,becauseshecouldnottakeawaythecheerfulnessofmymind;forIborewithpatiencewhateverhappenedtome:andshewouldoftensay,"mustIwithallmybeauty,power,andwisdom(forsoshecalledherlowcunning)besufferingperpetualuneasiness?andshallyou,whohaveneitherbeauty,power,norwisdom,pretendtobehappyandcheerful?"Thenwouldshecryandstamp,andravelikeamadcreature,andsetherinventionatworktomakemymotherbeatme,orlockmeup,ortakefrommesomeofmybestclothestogivetoher;yetstillcouldnotherpowerextendtovexmymind:andthisusedtothrowheragainintosuchpassions,asweakenedherhealth,andgreatlyimpairedhersomuchboastedbeauty。
’Inthismannerwelived,tillonacertainday,afterBrunettahadbeeninoneofherrageswithmefornothing,myfathercameinandchidherforit;which,whenmymotherheard,shethrewherselfintosuchaviolentpassion,thatherhusbandcouldnotpacifyher。And,beingbigwithchild,theconvulsions,causedbyherpassions,broughthertohergrave。Thusmyfatherlosther,bythesameuncontrollableexcesses,thefataleffectsofwhichhehadbeforeruinedhisdaughtertopreserveherfrom。Hedidnotlongsurviveher;but,beforehedied,gavemealittlewand,which,bystrikingthreetimesontheground,hesaid,wouldatanytimeproducemeanynecessaryorconvenienceoflife,whichI
reallywanted,eitherformyself,ortheassistanceofothers;andthishegaveme,becausehewasverysensible,hesaid,thatassoonashewasdead,mysisterwouldneverresttillshehadgotfrommebothhiscastle,andeverythingthatIhadbelongingtome,init。"But,"continuedhe,"wheneveryouaredrivenfromthence,bendyourcoursedirectlyintothepleasantwoodArdella;
therestrikewithyourwand,andeverythingyouwant,willbeprovidedforyou。Butkeepthiswandaprofoundsecret,orBrunettawillgetitfromyou;andthen(thoughyoucannever,whileyoupreserveyourpatience,beunhappy)youwillnothaveitinyourpowertobeofsomuchuseasyouwouldwishtobe,tothosewhoshallstandinneedofyourassistance。"Sayingthesewords,heexpired,asIkneeledbyhisbedside,attendinghislastcommands,andbewailingthelossofsogoodafather。
’Inthemidstofthisourdistress,wesenttomyUncleSochus,myfather’sbrother,tocometous,andtoassistusinanequaldivisionofmydeceasedfather’seffects;butmysistersooncontrivedtomakehimbelieve,thatIwasthewickedestgirlalive,andhadalwayssetmyfatheragainstherbymyart,whichshesaidIpretendedtocallmywisdom;andbyseveralhandsomepresentsshesoonpersuadedhim(forhedidnotcareafarthingforeitherofus)tojoinwithherinsaying,that,asshewastheeldestsister,shehadafullrighttothecastle,andeverythinginit;butshetoldmeIwasverywelcometostaythere,andlivewithher,ifIpleased;andwhileIbehavedmyselfwell,sheshouldbeverygladofmycompany。
’Asitwasnaturalformetoloveeveryonethatwouldgivemeleavetolovethem,Iwasquiteoverjoyedatthiskindofferofmysister’s,andneveroncethoughtonthetreacheryshehadsolatelybeenguiltyof;andIhavesincereflected,thathappywasitforme,thatpassionwassomuchuppermostwithher,thatshecouldnotexecuteanyplot,thatrequiredadissimulationofanylongcontinuance;forhadhergoodhumourlastedbutonefour—and—twentyhours,itisveryprobablethatIshouldhaveopenedmywholehearttoher;shouldhaveendeavouredtohavebegunafriendshipwithher,andperhapshavebetrayedthesecretofmywand;butjustasitwassunset,shecameintotheroomwhereIwas,inthemostviolentpassionintheworld,accusingmetomyuncleofingratitudetohergreatgenerosity,insufferingmetoliveinhercastle。Shesaid,"thatshehadfoundmeout,andthatmycrimeswereoftheblackestdye,"althoughshewouldnottellmeeitherwhattheywere,orwhoweremyaccusers。Shewouldnotgivemeleavetospeak,eithertoaskwhatmyoffencewas,ortojustifymyinnocence;andIplainlyperceived,thatherpretendedkindnesswasonlydesignedtomakemydisappointmentthegreater;andthatshewasnowdeterminedtofindmeguilty,whetherIpleaded,ornot。Andaftershehadravedonforsometime,shesaidtomewithasneer,"Sinceyouhavealwaysboastedofyourcalmandcontentedmind,youmaynowtrytobecontentedthisnightwiththesoftnessofthegrassforyourbed;forhereinmycastleyoushallnotstayonemomentlonger。"Andsosaying,sheandmyuncleledmetotheoutercourt,andthrustingmewithalltheirforcefromthem,theyshutupthegates,boltingandbarringthemascloseasiftokeepoutagiant;andleftme,atthattimeofnight,friendless,and,astheythought,destituteofanykindofsupport。
’Ithenrememberedmydearfather’slastwords,andmadewhathasteIcouldtothiswood,whichisnotaboveamiledistantfromthecastle;andbeing,asIthought,aboutthemiddleofit,I
struckthreetimeswithmywand,andimmediatelyuprosethisgroveoftrees,whichyousee,thishouse,andalltheotherconveniences,whichInowenjoy;andgettingthatverynightintothismyplainandeasybed,IenjoyedassweetareposeaseverI
didinmylife,onlydelayed,indeed,ashorttime,byafewsighs,forthelossofsogoodaparent,andtheunhappystateofaself—tormentedsister,whoseslumbers(Ifear)onabedofdown,weremorerestlessandinterruptedthatnightthanminewouldhavebeen,evenhadnotmyfather’spresentofthewandpreventedmefromthenecessityofusingthebedofgrass,whichshe,inherwrath,allottedme。Inthisgrove,whichIcallPlacidGrove,iscontainedallthatIwant;anditissowellsecuredfromanyinvaders,bythethickbriarsandthornswhichsurroundit,havingnoentrancebutthroughthattenderjessamine,thatIliveinnoapprehensionsofanydisturbance,thoughsonearmysister’scastle。Butonce,indeed,shecamewithalargetrain,and,whilstIwasasleep,setfiretothetreesallaroundme;andwaking,Ifoundmyselfalmostsuffocatedwithsmoke,andtheflameshadreachedonepartofmyHouse。Istartedfrommybed,andstrikingonthegroundthreetimeswithmywand,therecamesuchaquantityofwaterfromtheheavens,assoonextinguishedthefire;andthenextmorning,byagainhavingrecoursetomywand,allthingsgrewupintotheirconvenientandproperorder。
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