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第8章

  Mr。MilestookCharitybythearm,andsidebysidetheywalkedbehindthemattress。Atlengththeoldwomanwiththelanternstopped,andCharitysawthelightfallonthestoopingshouldersofthebearersandonaridgeofupheavedearthoverwhichtheywerebending。Mr。Milesreleasedherarmandapproachedthehollowontheothersideoftheridge;andwhilethemenstoopeddown,loweringthemattressintothegrave,hebegantospeakagain。
  "Manthatisbornofwomanhathbutashorttimetoliveandisfullofmisery……Hecomethupandiscutdown……hefleethasitwereashadow……Yet,OLordGodmostholy,OLordmostmighty,OholyandmercifulSaviour,deliverusnotintothebitterpainsofeternaldeath……"
  "Easythere……isshedown?"pipedtheclaimanttothestove;andtheyoungmancalledoverhisshoulder:
  "Liftthelightthere,can’tyou?"
  Therewasapause,duringwhichthelightfloateduncertainlyovertheopengrave。SomeonebentoverandpulledoutMr。Miles’scoat————("No,no——
  leavethehandkerchief,"heinterposed)——andthenLiffHyatt,comingforwardwithaspade,begantoshovelintheearth。
  "ForasmuchasithathpleasedAlmightyGodofHisgreatmercytotakeuntoHimselfthesoulofourdearsisterheredeparted,wethereforecommitherbodytotheground;earthtoearth,ashestoashes,dusttodust……"Liff’sgauntshouldersroseandbentinthelanternlightashedashedtheclodsofearthintothegrave。"God——it’sfrozea’ready,"hemuttered,spittingintohispalmandpassinghisraggedshirt—
  sleeveacrosshisperspiringface。
  "ThroughourLordJesusChrist,whoshallchangeourvilebodythatitmaybelikeuntoHisgloriousbody,accordingtothemightyworking,wherebyHeisabletosubdueallthingsuntoHimself……"ThelastspadefulofearthfellonthevilebodyofMaryHyatt,andLiffrestedonhisspade,hisshoulderbladesstillheavingwiththeeffort。
  "Lord,havemercyuponus,Christhavemercyuponus,Lordhavemercyuponus……"
  Mr。Milestookthelanternfromtheoldwoman’shandandsweptitslightacrossthecircleofblearedfaces。"Nowkneeldown,allofyou,"hecommanded,inavoiceofauthoritythatCharityhadneverheard。Shekneltdownattheedgeofthegrave,andtheothers,stifflyandhesitatingly,gottotheirkneesbesideher。Mr。Milesknelt,too。"Andnowpraywithme——youknowthisprayer,"hesaid,andhebegan:
  "OurFatherwhichartinHeaven……"Oneortwoofthewomenfalteringlytookthewordsup,andwhenheended,thelank—hairedmanflunghimselfontheneckofthetallyouth。"Itwasthisway,"hesaid。"Itoleherthenightbefore,Isaystoher……"Thereminiscenceendedinasob。
  Mr。Mileshadbeengettingintohiscoatagain。HecameuptoCharity,whohadremainedpassivelykneelingbytheroughmoundofearth。
  "Mychild,youmustcome。It’sverylate。"
  Sheliftedhereyestohisface:heseemedtospeakoutofanotherworld。
  "Iain’tcoming:I’mgoingtostayhere。"
  "Here?Where?Whatdoyoumean?"
  "Thesearemyfolks。I’mgoingtostaywiththem。"
  Mr。Milesloweredhisvoice。"Butit’snotpossible——youdon’tknowwhatyouaredoing。Youcan’tstayamongthesepeople:youmustcomewithme。"
  Sheshookherheadandrosefromherknees。Thegroupaboutthegravehadscatteredinthedarkness,buttheoldwomanwiththelanternstoodwaiting。Hermournfulwitheredfacewasnotunkind,andCharitywentuptoher。
  "HaveyougotaplacewhereIcanliedownforthenight?"sheasked。Liffcameup,leadingthebuggyoutofthenight。Helookedfromonetotheotherwithhisfeeblesmile。"She’smymother。She’lltakeyouhome,"hesaid;andheadded,raisinghisvoicetospeaktotheoldwoman:"It’sthegirlfromlawyerRoyall’s——Mary’sgirl……youremember……"
  ThewomannoddedandraisedhersadoldeyestoCharity’s。WhenMr。MilesandLiffclamberedintothebuggyshewentaheadwiththelanterntoshowthemthetracktheyweretofollow;thensheturnedback,andinsilencesheandCharitywalkedawaytogetherthroughthenight。
  XVII
  CHARITYlayontheflooronamattress,asherdeadmother’sbodyhadlain。Theroominwhichshelaywascoldanddarkandlow—ceilinged,andevenpoorerandbarerthanthesceneofMaryHyatt’searthlypilgrimage。OntheothersideofthefirelessstoveLiffHyatt’smothersleptonablanket,withtwochildren——hergrandchildren,shesaid——rolledupagainstherlikesleepingpuppies。Theyhadtheirthinclothesspreadoverthem,havinggiventheonlyotherblankettotheirguest。
  ThroughthesmallsquareofglassintheoppositewallCharitysawadeepfunnelofsky,soblack,soremote,sopalpitatingwithfrostystarsthatherverysoulseemedtobesuckedintoit。Uptheresomewhere,shesupposed,theGodwhomMr。MileshadinvokedwaswaitingforMaryHyatttoappear。Whatalongflightitwas!AndwhatwouldshehavetosaywhenshereachedHim?
  Charity’sbewilderedbrainlabouredwiththeattempttopicturehermother’spast,andtorelateitinanywaytothedesignsofajustbutmercifulGod;butitwasimpossibletoimagineanylinkbetweenthem。Sheherselffeltasremotefromthepoorcreatureshehadseenloweredintoherhastilyduggraveasiftheheightoftheheavensdividedthem。Shehadseenpovertyandmisfortuneinherlife;butinacommunitywherepoorthriftyMrs。HawesandtheindustriousAllyrepresentedthenearestapproachtodestitutiontherewasnothingtosuggestthesavagemiseryoftheMountainfarmers。
  Asshelaythere,half—stunnedbyhertragicinitiation,Charityvainlytriedtothinkherselfintothelifeabouther。Butshecouldnotevenmakeoutwhatrelationshipthesepeopleboretoeachother,ortoherdeadmother;theyseemedtobeherdedtogetherinasortofpassivepromiscuityinwhichtheircommonmiserywasthestrongestlink。ShetriedtopicturetoherselfwhatherlifewouldhavebeenifshehadgrownupontheMountain,runningwildinrags,sleepingonthefloorcurledupagainsthermother,likethepale—
  facedchildrenhuddledagainstoldMrs。Hyatt,andturningintoafiercebewilderedcreaturelikethegirlwhohadapostrophizedherinsuchstrangewords。Shewasfrightenedbythesecretaffinityshehadfeltwiththisgirl,andbythelightitthrewonherownbeginnings。ThensherememberedwhatMr。RoyallhadsaidintellingherstorytoLuciusHarney:"Yes,therewasamother;butshewasgladtohavethechildgo。
  She’dhavegivenhertoanybody……"
  Well!afterall,washermothersomuchtoblame?
  Charity,sincethatday,hadalwaysthoughtofherasdestituteofallhumanfeeling;nowsheseemedmerelypitiful。Whatmotherwouldnotwanttosaveherchildfromsuchalife?Charitythoughtofthefutureofherownchild,andtearswelledintoherachingeyes,andrandownoverherface。Ifshehadbeenlessexhausted,lessburdenedwithhisweight,shewouldhavesprungupthenandthereandfledaway……
  Thegrimhoursofthenightdraggedthemselvesslowlyby,andatlasttheskypaledanddawnthrewacoldbluebeamintotheroom。Shelayinhercornerstaringatthedirtyfloor,theclothes—linehungwithdecayingrags,theoldwomanhuddledagainstthecoldstove,andthelightgraduallyspreadingacrossthewintryworld,andbringingwithitanewdayinwhichshewouldhavetolive,tochoose,toact,tomakeherselfaplaceamongthesepeople——ortogobacktothelifeshehadleft。Amortallassitudeweighedonher。Thereweremomentswhenshefeltthatallsheaskedwastogoonlyingthereunnoticed;thenhermindrevoltedatthethoughtofbecomingoneofthemiserableherdfromwhichshesprang,anditseemedasthough,tosaveherchildfromsuchafate,shewouldfindstrengthtotravelanydistance,andbearanyburdenlifemightputonher。
  VaguethoughtsofNettletonflittedthroughhermind。
  Shesaidtoherselfthatshewouldfindsomequietplacewhereshecouldbearherchild,andgiveittodecentpeopletokeep;andthenshewouldgooutlikeJuliaHawesandearnitslivingandhers。Sheknewthatgirlsofthatkindsometimesmadeenoughtohavetheirchildrennicelycaredfor;andeveryotherconsiderationdisappearedinthevisionofherbaby,cleanedandcombedandrosy,andhiddenawaysomewherewhereshecouldruninandkissit,andbringitprettythingstowear。Anything,anythingwasbetterthantoaddanotherlifetothenestofmiseryontheMountain……
  TheoldwomanandthechildrenwerestillsleepingwhenCharityrosefromhermattress。Herbodywasstiffwithcoldandfatigue,andshemovedslowlylestherheavystepsshouldrousethem。Shewasfaintwithhunger,andhadnothingleftinhersatchel;butonthetableshesawthehalfofastaleloaf。NodoubtitwastoserveasthebreakfastofoldMrs。Hyattandthechildren;butCharitydidnotcare;shehadherownbabytothinkof。Shebrokeoffapieceofthebreadandateitgreedily;thenherglancefellonthethinfacesofthesleepingchildren,andfilledwithcompunctionsherummagedinhersatchelforsomethingwithwhichtopayforwhatshehadtaken。ShefoundoneoftheprettychemisesthatAllyhadmadeforher,withablueribbonrunthroughitsedging。Itwasoneofthedaintythingsonwhichshehadsquanderedhersavings,andasshelookedatitthebloodrushedtoherforehead。Shelaidthechemiseonthetable,andstealingacrossthefloorliftedthelatchandwentout……
  ThemorningwasicycoldandapalesunwasjustrisingabovetheeasternshoulderoftheMountain。Thehousesscatteredonthehillsidelaycoldandsmokelessunderthesun—fleckedclouds,andnotahumanbeingwasinsight。Charitypausedonthethresholdandtriedtodiscovertheroadbywhichshehadcomethenightbefore。AcrossthefieldsurroundingMrs。Hyatt’sshantyshesawthetumble—downhouseinwhichshesupposedthefuneralservicehadtakenplace。Thetrailranacrossthegroundbetweenthetwohousesanddisappearedinthepine—woodontheflankoftheMountain;andalittlewaytotheright,underawind—
  beatenthorn,amoundoffreshearthmadeadarkspotonthefawn—colouredstubble。Charitywalkedacrossthefieldtotheground。Assheapproacheditsheheardabird’snoteinthestillair,andlookingupshesawabrownsong—sparrowperchedinanupperbranchofthethornabovethegrave。Shestoodaminutelisteningtohissmallsolitarysong;thensherejoinedthetrailandbegantomountthehilltothepine—wood。
  Thusfarshehadbeenimpelledbytheblindinstinctofflight;buteachstepseemedtobringhernearertotherealitiesofwhichherfeverishvigilhadgivenonlyashadowyimage。Nowthatshewalkedagaininadaylightworld,onthewaybacktofamiliarthings,herimaginationmovedmoresoberly。Ononepointshewasstilldecided:shecouldnotremainatNorthDormer,andthesoonershegotawayfromitthebetter。
  Buteverythingbeyondwasdarkness。
  Asshecontinuedtoclimbtheairgrewkeener,andwhenshepassedfromtheshelterofthepinestotheopengrassyroofoftheMountainthecoldwindofthenightbeforesprangoutonher。Shebenthershouldersandstruggledonagainstitforawhile;butpresentlyherbreathfailed,andshesatdownunderaledgeofrockoverhungbyshiveringbirches。FromwhereshesatshesawthetrailwanderingacrossthebleachedgrassinthedirectionofHamblin,andthegranitewalloftheMountainfallingawaytoinfinitedistances。Onthatsideoftheridgethevalleysstilllayinwintryshadow;butintheplainbeyondthesunwastouchingvillageroofsandsteeples,andgildingthehazeofsmokeoverfar—offinvisibletowns。
  Charityfeltherselfamerespeckinthelonelycircleofthesky。Theeventsofthelasttwodaysseemedtohavedividedherforeverfromhershortdreamofbliss。
  EvenHarney’simagehadbeenblurredbythatcrushingexperience:shethoughtofhimassoremotefromherthatheseemedhardlymorethanamemory。Inherfaggedandfloatingmindonlyonesensationhadtheweightofreality;itwasthebodilyburdenofherchild。Butforitshewouldhavefeltasrootlessasthewhiffsofthistledownthewindblewpasther。Herchildwaslikealoadthatheldherdown,andyetlikeahandthatpulledhertoherfeet。Shesaidtoherselfthatshemustgetupandstruggleon……
  HereyesturnedbacktothetrailacrossthetopoftheMountain,andinthedistanceshesawabuggyagainstthesky。Sheknewitsantiqueoutline,andthegauntbuildoftheoldhorsepressingforwardwithloweredhead;andafteramomentsherecognizedtheheavybulkofthemanwhoheldthereins。Thebuggywasfollowingthetrailandmakingstraightforthepine—woodthroughwhichshehadclimbed;andsheknewatoncethatthedriverwasinsearchofher。Herfirstimpulsewastocrouchdownundertheledgetillhehadpassed;buttheinstinctofconcealmentwasoverruledbythereliefoffeelingthatsomeonewasnearherintheawfulemptiness。Shestoodupandwalkedtowardthebuggy。
  Mr。Royallsawher,andtouchedthehorsewiththewhip。AminuteortwolaterhewasabreastofCharity;
  theireyesmet,andwithoutspeakingheleanedoverandhelpedherupintothebuggy。
  Shetriedtospeak,tostammeroutsomeexplanation,butnowordscametoher;andashedrewthecoveroverherkneeshesimplysaid:"Theministertoldmehe’dleftyouuphere,soIcomeupforyou。"
  Heturnedthehorse’shead,andtheybegantojogbacktowardHamblin。Charitysatspeechless,staringstraightaheadofher,andMr。Royalloccasionallyutteredawordofencouragementtothehorse:"Getalongthere,Dan……IgavehimarestatHamblin;butI
  broughthimalongprettyquick,andit’sastiffpulluphereagainstthewind。"
  AshespokeitoccurredtoherforthefirsttimethattoreachthetopoftheMountainsoearlyhemusthaveleftNorthDormeratthecoldesthourofthenight,andhavetravelledsteadilybutforthehaltatHamblin;
  andshefeltasoftnessatherheartwhichnoactofhishadeverproducedsincehehadbroughthertheCrimsonRamblerbecauseshehadgivenupboarding—
  schooltostaywithhim。
  Afteranintervalhebeganagain:"Itwasadayjustlikethis,onlyspittingsnow,whenIcomeuphereforyouthefirsttime。"Then,asiffearingthatshemighttakehisremarkasareminderofpastbenefits,headdedquickly:"Idunno’syouthinkitwassuchagoodjob,either。"
  "Yes,Ido,"shemurmured,lookingstraightaheadofher。
  "Well,"hesaid,"Itried————"
  Hedidnotfinishthesentence,andshecouldthinkofnothingmoretosay。
  "Ho,there,Dan,stepout,"hemuttered,jerkingthebridle。"Weain’thomeyet。——Youcold?"heaskedabruptly。
  Sheshookherhead,buthedrewthecoverhigherup,andstoopedtotuckitinabouttheankles。Shecontinuedtolookstraightahead。Tearsofwearinessandweaknessweredimminghereyesandbeginningtorunover,butshedarednotwipethemawaylestheshouldobservethegesture。
  Theydroveinsilence,followingthelongloopsofthedescentuponHamblin,andMr。Royalldidnotspeakagaintilltheyreachedtheoutskirtsofthevillage。
  Thenheletthereinsdrooponthedashboardanddrewouthiswatch。
  "Charity,"hesaid,"youlookfairdoneup,andNorthDormer’sagoodishwayoff。I’vefiguredoutthatwe’ddobettertostopherelongenoughforyoutogetamouthfulofbreakfastandthendrivedowntoCrestonandtakethetrain。"
  Sherousedherselffromherapatheticmusing。"Thetrain——whattrain?"
  Mr。Royall,withoutanswering,letthehorsejogontilltheyreachedthedoorofthefirsthouseinthevillage。"ThisisoldMrs。Hobart’splace,"hesaid。
  "She’llgiveussomethinghottodrink。"
  Charity,halfunconsciously,foundherselfgettingoutofthebuggyandfollowinghiminattheopendoor。
  Theyenteredadecentkitchenwithafirecracklinginthestove。Anoldwomanwithakindlyfacewassettingoutcupsandsaucersonthetable。Shelookedupandnoddedastheycamein,andMr。Royalladvancedtothestove,clappinghisnumbhandstogether。
  "Well,Mrs。Hobart,yougotanybreakfastforthisyounglady?Youcanseeshe’scoldandhungry。"
  Mrs。HobartsmiledonCharityandtookatincoffee—potfromthefire。"My,youdolookprettymean,"shesaidcompassionately。
  Charityreddened,andsatdownatthetable。Afeelingofcompletepassivenesshadoncemorecomeoverher,andshewasconsciousonlyofthepleasantanimalsensationsofwarmthandrest。
  Mrs。Hobartputbreadandmilkonthetable,andthenwentoutofthehouse:Charitysawherleadingthehorseawaytothebarnacrosstheyard。Shedidnotcomeback,andMr。RoyallandCharitysataloneatthetablewiththesmokingcoffeebetweenthem。Hepouredoutacupforher,andputapieceofbreadinthesaucer,andshebegantoeat。
  Asthewarmthofthecoffeeflowedthroughherveinsherthoughtsclearedandshebegantofeellikealivingbeingagain;butthereturntolifewassopainfulthatthefoodchokedinherthroatandshesatstaringdownatthetableinsilentanguish。
  AfterawhileMr。Royallpushedbackhischair。"Now,then,"hesaid,"ifyou’reamindtogoalong————"Shedidnotmove,andhecontinued:"WecanpickupthenoontrainforNettletonifyousayso。"
  Thewordssentthebloodrushingtoherface,andsheraisedherstartledeyestohis。Hewasstandingontheothersideofthetablelookingatherkindlyandgravely;andsuddenlysheunderstoodwhathewasgoingtosay。Shecontinuedtositmotionless,aleadenweightuponherlips。
  "Youandmehavespokesomehardthingstoeachotherinourtime,Charity;andthere’snogoodthatIcanseeinanymoretalkingnow。ButI’llneverfeelanywaybutoneaboutyou;andifyousaysowe’lldrivedownintimetocatchthattrain,andgostraighttotheminister’shouse;andwhenyoucomebackhomeyou’llcomeasMrs。Royall。"
  HisvoicehadthegravepersuasiveaccentthathadmovedhishearersattheHomeWeekfestival;shehadasenseofdepthsofmournfultoleranceunderthateasytone。Herwholebodybegantotremblewiththedreadofherownweakness。
  "Oh,Ican’t————"sheburstoutdesperately。
  "Can’twhat?"
  Sheherselfdidnotknow:shewasnotsureifshewasrejectingwhatheoffered,oralreadystrugglingagainstthetemptationoftakingwhatshenolongerhadarightto。Shestoodup,shakingandbewildered,andbegantospeak:
  "IknowIain’tbeenfairtoyoualways;butIwanttobenow……Iwantyoutoknow……Iwant……"Hervoicefailedherandshestopped。
  Mr。Royallleanedagainstthewall。Hewaspalerthanusual,buthisfacewascomposedandkindlyandheragitationdidnotappeartoperturbhim。
  "What’sallthisaboutwanting?"hesaidasshepaused。
  "Doyouknowwhatyoureallywant?I’lltellyou。Youwanttobetookhomeandtookcareof。AndIguessthat’sallthereistosay。"
  "No……it’snotall……"
  "Ain’tit?"Helookedathiswatch。"Well,I’lltellyouanotherthing。AllIwantistoknowifyou’llmarryme。Iftherewasanythingelse,I’dtellyouso;
  butthereain’t。Cometomyage,amanknowsthethingsthatmatterandthethingsthatdon’t;that’sabouttheonlygoodturnlifedoesus。"
  Histonewassostrongandresolutethatitwaslikeasupportingarmabouther。Shefeltherresistancemelting,herstrengthslippingawayfromherashespoke。
  "Don’tcry,Charity,"heexclaimedinashakenvoice。
  Shelookedup,startledathisemotion,andtheireyesmet。
  "Seehere,"hesaidgently,"oldDan’scomealongdistance,andwe’vegottolethimtakeiteasytherestoftheway……"
  Hepickedupthecloakthathadslippedtoherchairandlaiditabouthershoulders。Shefollowedhimoutofthehouse,andthenwalkedacrosstheyardtotheshed,wherethehorsewastied。Mr。
  Royallunblanketedhimandledhimoutintotheroad。
  Charitygotintothebuggyandhedrewthecoveraboutherandshookoutthereinswithacluck。Whentheyreachedtheendofthevillageheturnedthehorse’sheadtowardCreston。
  XVIII
  TheybegantojogdownthewindingroadtothevalleyatoldDan’slanguidpace。Charityfeltherselfsinkingintodeeperdepthsofweariness,andastheydescendedthroughthebarewoodsthereweremomentswhenshelosttheexactsenseofthings,andseemedtobesittingbesideherloverwiththeleafyarchofsummerbendingoverthem。Butthisillusionwasfaintandtransitory。Forthemostpartshehadonlyaconfusedsensationofslippingdownasmoothirresistiblecurrent;andsheabandonedherselftothefeelingasarefugefromthetormentofthought。
  Mr。Royallseldomspoke,buthissilentpresencegaveher,forthefirsttime,asenseofpeaceandsecurity。
  Sheknewthatwherehewastherewouldbewarmth,rest,silence;andforthemomenttheywereallshewanted。
  Sheshuthereyes,andeventhesethingsgrewdimtoher……
  Inthetrain,duringtheshortrunfromCrestontoNettleton,thewarmtharousedher,andtheconsciousnessofbeingunderstrangeeyesgaveheramomentaryenergy。Shesatupright,facingMr。
  Royall,andstaredoutofthewindowatthedenudedcountry。Forty—eighthoursearlier,whenshehadlasttraversedit,manyofthetreesstillheldtheirleaves;butthehighwindofthelasttwonightshadstrippedthem,andthelinesofthelandscape’wereasfinelypencilledasinDecember。AfewdaysofautumncoldhadwipedoutalltraceoftherichfieldsandlanguidgrovesthroughwhichshehadpassedontheFourthofJuly;andwiththefadingofthelandscapethosefervidhourshadfaded,too。Shecouldnolongerbelievethatshewasthebeingwhohadlivedthem;shewassomeonetowhomsomethingirreparableandoverwhelminghadhappened,butthetracesofthestepsleadinguptoithadalmostvanished。
  WhenthetrainreachedNettletonandshewalkedoutintothesquareatMr。Royall’ssidethesenseofunrealitygrewmoreoverpowering。ThephysicalstrainofthenightanddayhadleftnoroominhermindfornewsensationsandshefollowedMr。Royallaspassivelyasatiredchild。Asinaconfuseddreamshepresentlyfoundherselfsittingwithhiminapleasantroom,atatablewitharedandwhitetable—clothonwhichhotfoodandteawereplaced。HefilledhercupandplateandwheneversheliftedhereyesfromthemshefoundhisrestingonherwiththesamesteadytranquilgazethathadreassuredandstrengthenedherwhentheyhadfacedeachotherinoldMrs。Hobart’skitchen。Aseverythingelseinherconsciousnessgrewmoreandmoreconfusedandimmaterial,becamemoreandmoreliketheuniversalshimmerthatdissolvestheworldtofailingeyes,Mr。Royall’spresencebegantodetachitselfwithrockyfirmnessfromthiselusivebackground。Shehadalwaysthoughtofhim——whenshethoughtofhimatall——
  asofsomeonehatefulandobstructive,butwhomshecouldoutwitanddominatewhenshechosetomaketheeffort。Onlyonce,onthedayoftheOldHomeWeekcelebration,whilethestrayfragmentsofhisaddressdriftedacrosshertroubledmind,hadshecaughtaglimpseofanotherbeing,abeingsodifferentfromthedull—wittedenemywithwhomshehadsupposedherselftobelivingthateventhroughtheburningmistofherowndreamshehadstoodoutwithstartlingdistinctness。
  Foramoment,then,whathesaid——andsomethinginhiswayofsayingit——hadmadeherseewhyhehadalwaysstruckherassuchalonelyman。Butthemistofherdreamshadhiddenhimagain,andshehadforgottenthatfugitiveimpression。
  Itcamebacktohernow,astheysatatthetable,andgaveher,throughherownimmeasurabledesolation,asuddensenseoftheirnearnesstoeachother。Butallthesefeelingswereonlybriefstreaksoflightinthegreyblurofherphysicalweakness。ThroughitshewasawarethatMr。Royallpresentlylefthersittingbythetableinthewarmroom,andcamebackafteranintervalwithacarriagefromthestation——aclosed"hack"withsun—burntbluesilkblinds——inwhichtheydrovetogethertoahousecoveredwithcreepersandstandingnexttoachurchwithacarpetofturfbeforeit。Theygotoutatthishouse,andthecarriagewaitedwhiletheywalkedupthepathandenteredawainscotedhallandthenaroomfullofbooks。InthisroomaclergymanwhomCharityhadneverseenreceivedthempleasantly,andaskedthemtobeseatedforafewminuteswhilewitnesseswerebeingsummoned。
  Charitysatdownobediently,andMr。Royall,hishandsbehindhisback,pacedslowlyupanddowntheroom。AsheturnedandfacedCharity,shenoticedthathislipsweretwitchingalittle;butthelookinhiseyeswasgraveandcalm。Oncehepausedbeforeherandsaidtimidly:"Yourhair’sgotkinderloosewiththewind,"
  andsheliftedherhandsandtriedtosmoothbackthelocksthathadescapedfromherbraid。Therewasalooking—glassinacarvedframeonthewall,butshewasashamedtolookatherselfinit,andshesatwithherhandsfoldedonherkneetilltheclergymanreturned。Thentheywentoutagain,alongasortofarcadedpassage,andintoalowvaultedroomwithacrossonanaltar,androwsofbenches。Theclergyman,whohadleftthematthedoor,presentlyreappearedbeforethealtarinasurplice,andaladywhowasprobablyhiswife,andamaninablueshirtwhohadbeenrakingdeadleavesonthelawn,cameinandsatononeofthebenches。
  TheclergymanopenedabookandsignedtoCharityandMr。Royalltoapproach。Mr。Royalladvancedafewsteps,andCharityfollowedhimasshehadfollowedhimtothebuggywhentheywentoutofMrs。Hobart’skitchen;shehadthefeelingthatifsheceasedtokeepclosetohim,anddowhathetoldhertodo,theworldwouldslipawayfrombeneathherfeet。
  Theclergymanbegantoread,andonherdazedmindthererosethememoryofMr。Miles,standingthenightbeforeinthedesolatehouseoftheMountain,andreadingoutofthesamebookwordsthathadthesamedreadsoundoffinality:
  "Irequireandchargeyouboth,asyewillansweratthedreadfuldayofjudgmentwhenthesecretsofallheartsshallbedisclosed,thatifeitherofyouknowanyimpedimentwherebyyemaynotbelawfullyjoinedtogether……"
  CharityraisedhereyesandmetMr。Royall’s。Theywerestilllookingatherkindlyandsteadily。"I
  will!"sheheardhimsayamomentlater,afteranotherintervalofwordsthatshehadfailedtocatch。Shewassobusytryingtounderstandthegesturesthattheclergymanwassignallingtohertomakethatshenolongerheardwhatwasbeingsaid。Afteranotherintervaltheladyonthebenchstoodup,andtakingherhandputitinMr。Royall’s。Itlayenclosedinhisstrongpalmandshefeltaringthatwastoobigforherbeingslippedonherthinfinger。Sheunderstoodthenthatshewasmarried……
  LatethatafternoonCharitysataloneinabedroomofthefashionablehotelwheresheandHarneyhadvainlysoughtatableontheFourthofJuly。Shehadneverbeforebeeninsohandsomelyfurnishedaroom。
  Themirrorabovethedressing—tablereflectedthehighhead—boardandflutedpillow—slipsofthedoublebed,andabedspreadsospotlesslywhitethatshehadhesitatedtolayherhatandjacketonit。Thehummingradiatordiffusedanatmosphereofdrowsywarmth,andthroughahalf—opendoorshesawtheglitterofthenickeltapsabovetwinmarblebasins。
  Forawhilethelongturmoilofthenightanddayhadslippedawayfromherandshesatwithclosedeyes,surrenderingherselftothespellofwarmthandsilence。Butpresentlythismercifulapathywassucceededbythesuddenacutenessofvisionwithwhichsickpeoplesometimeswakeoutofaheavysleep。Assheopenedhereyestheyrestedonthepicturethathungabovethebed。Itwasalargeengravingwithadazzlingwhitemarginenclosedinawideframeofbird’s—eyemaplewithaninnerscrollofgold。Theengravingrepresentedayoungmaninaboatonalakeover—hungwithtrees。Hewasleaningovertogatherwater—liliesforthegirlinalightdresswholayamongthecushionsinthestern。Thescenewasfullofadrowsymidsummerradiance,andCharityavertedhereyesfromitand,risingfromherchair,begantowanderrestlesslyabouttheroom。
  Itwasonthefifthfloor,anditsbroadwindowofplateglasslookedovertheroofsofthetown。Beyondthemstretchedawoodedlandscapeinwhichthelastfiresofsunsetwerepickingoutasteelygleam。
  Charitygazedatthegleamwithstartledeyes。Eventhroughthegatheringtwilightsherecognizedthecontourofthesofthillsencirclingit,andthewaythemeadowsslopedtoitsedge。ItwasNettletonLakethatshewaslookingat。
  Shestoodalongtimeinthewindowstaringoutatthefadingwater。Thesightofithadrousedherforthefirsttimetoarealizationofwhatshehaddone。Eventhefeelingoftheringonherhandhadnotbroughtherthissharpsenseoftheirretrievable。Foraninstanttheoldimpulseofflightsweptthroughher;butitwasonlytheliftofabrokenwing。Sheheardthedooropenbehindher,andMr。Royallcamein。
  Hehadgonetothebarber’stobeshaved,andhisshaggygreyhairhadbeentrimmedandsmoothed。Hemovedstronglyandquickly,squaringhisshouldersandcarryinghisheadhigh,asifhedidnotwanttopassunnoticed。
  "Whatareyoudoinginthedark?"hecalledoutinacheerfulvoice。Charitymadenoanswer。Hewentuptothewindowtodrawtheblind,andputtinghisfingeronthewallfloodedtheroomwithablazeoflightfromthecentralchandelier。Inthisunfamiliarilluminationhusbandandwifefacedeachotherawkwardlyforamoment;thenMr。Royallsaid:"We’llstepdownandhavesomesupper,ifyousayso。"
  Thethoughtoffoodfilledherwithrepugnance;butnotdaringtoconfessitshesmoothedherhairandfollowedhimtothelift。
  Anhourlater,comingoutoftheglareofthedining—
  room,shewaitedinthemarble—panelledhallwhileMr。
  Royall,beforethebrasslatticeofoneofthecornercounters,selectedacigarandboughtaneveningpaper。
  Menwerelounginginrockingchairsundertheblazingchandeliers,travellerscomingandgoing,bellsringing,portersshufflingbywithluggage。OverMr。
  Royall’sshoulder,asheleanedagainstthecounter,agirlwithherhairpuffedhighsmirkedandnoddedatadapperdrummerwhowasgettinghiskeyatthedeskacrossthehall。
  Charitystoodamongthesecross—currentsoflifeasmotionlessandinertasifshehadbeenoneofthetablesscrewedtothemarblefloor。Allhersoulwasgatheredupintoonesicksenseofcomingdoom,andshewatchedMr。Royallinfascinatedterrorwhilehepinchedthecigarsinsuccessiveboxesandunfoldedhiseveningpaperwithasteadyhand。
  Presentlyheturnedandjoinedher。"Yougorightalonguptobed——I’mgoingtositdownhereandhavemysmoke,"hesaid。Hespokeaseasilyandnaturallyasiftheyhadbeenanoldcouple,longusedtoeachother’sways,andhercontractedheartgaveaflutterofrelief。Shefollowedhimtothelift,andheputherinandenjoinedthebuttonedandbraidedboytoshowhertoherroom。
  Shegropedherwayinthroughthedarkness,forgettingwheretheelectricbuttonwas,andnotknowinghowtomanipulateit。Butawhiteautumnmoonhadrisen,andtheilluminatedskyputapalelightintheroom。Byitsheundressed,andafterfoldinguptheruffledpillow—slipscrepttimidlyunderthespotlesscounterpane。Shehadneverfeltsuchsmoothsheetsorsuchlightwarmblankets;butthesoftnessofthebeddidnotsootheher。Shelaytheretremblingwithafearthatranthroughherveinslikeice。"WhathaveI
  done?Oh,whathaveIdone?"shewhispered,shudderingtoherpillow;andpressingherfaceagainstittoshutoutthepalelandscapebeyondthewindowshelayinthedarknessstrainingherears,andshakingateveryfootstepthatapproached……
  Suddenlyshesatupandpressedherhandsagainstherfrightenedheart。Afaintsoundhadtoldherthatsomeonewasintheroom;butshemusthavesleptintheinterval,forshehadheardnooneenter。Themoonwassettingbeyondtheoppositeroofs,andinthedarknessoutlinedagainstthegreysquareofthewindow,shesawafigureseatedintherocking—chair。Thefiguredidnotmove:itwassunkdeepinthechair,withbowedheadandfoldedarms,andshesawthatitwasMr。
  Royallwhosatthere。Hehadnotundressed,buthadtakentheblanketfromthefootofthebedandlaiditacrosshisknees。Tremblingandholdingherbreathshewatchedhim,fearingthathehadbeenrousedbyhermovement;buthedidnotstir,andsheconcludedthathewishedhertothinkhewasasleep。
  Asshecontinuedtowatchhimineffablereliefstoleslowlyoverher,relaxingherstrainednervesandexhaustedbody。Heknew,then……heknew……itwasbecauseheknewthathehadmarriedher,andthathesatthereinthedarknesstoshowhershewassafewithhim。Astirofsomethingdeeperthanshehadeverfeltinthinkingofhimflittedthroughhertiredbrain,andcautiously,noiselessly,sheletherheadsinkonthepillow……
  Whenshewoketheroomwasfullofmorninglight,andherfirstglanceshowedherthatshewasaloneinit。
  Shegotupanddressed,andasshewasfasteningherdressthedooropened,andMr。Royallcamein。Helookedoldandtiredinthebrightdaylight,buthisfaceworethesameexpressionofgravefriendlinessthathadreassuredherontheMountain。Itwasasifallthedarkspiritshadgoneoutofhim。
  Theywentdownstairstothedining—roomforbreakfast,andafterbreakfasthetoldherhehadsomeinsurancebusinesstoattendto。"IguesswhileI’mdoingityou’dbetterstepoutandbuyyourselfwhateveryouneed。"Hesmiled,andaddedwithanembarrassedlaugh:"YouknowIalwayswantedyoutobeatalltheothergirls。"Hedrewsomethingfromhispocket,andpusheditacrossthetabletoher;andshesawthathehadgivenhertwotwenty—dollarbills。"Ifitain’tenoughthere’smorewherethatcomefrom——Iwantyoutobeat’emallhollow,"herepeated。
  Sheflushedandtriedtostammeroutherthanks,buthehadpushedbackhischairandwasleadingthewayoutofthedining—room。Inthehallhepausedaminutetosaythatifitsuitedhertheywouldtakethethreeo’clocktrainbacktoNorthDormer;thenhetookhishatandcoatfromtherackandwentout。
  AfewminuteslaterCharitywentout,too。Shehadwatchedtoseeinwhatdirectionhewasgoing,andshetooktheoppositewayandwalkedquicklydownthemainstreettothebrickbuildingonthecornerofLakeAvenue。Thereshepausedtolookcautiouslyupanddownthethoroughfare,andthenclimbedthebrass—boundstairstoDr。Merkle’sdoor。Thesamebushy—headedmulattogirladmittedher,andafterthesameintervalofwaitingintheredplushparlorshewasoncemoresummonedtoDr。Merkle’soffice。Thedoctorreceivedherwithoutsurprise,andledherintotheinnerplushsanctuary。
  "Ithoughtyou’dbeback,butyou’vecomeamitetoosoon:Itoldyoutobepatientandnotfret,"sheobserved,afterapauseofpenetratingscrutiny。
  Charitydrewthemoneyfromherbreast。"I’vecometogetmybluebrooch,"shesaid,flushing。
  "Yourbrooch?"Dr。Merkleappearednottoremember。
  "My,yes——Igetsomanythingsofthatkind。Well,mydear,you’llhavetowaitwhileIgetitoutofthesafe。Idon’tleavevaluableslikethatlayingroundlikethenoospaper。"
  Shedisappearedforamoment,andreturnedwithabitoftwisted—uptissuepaperfromwhichsheunwrappedthebrooch。
  Charity,asshelookedatit,feltastirofwarmthatherheart。Sheheldoutaneagerhand。
  "Haveyougotthechange?"sheaskedalittlebreathlessly,layingoneofthetwenty—dollarbillsonthetable。
  "Change?What’dIwanttohavechangefor?Ionlyseetwotwentiesthere,"Dr。Merkleansweredbrightly。
  Charitypaused,disconcerted。"Ithought……yousaiditwasfivedollarsavisit……"
  "ForYOU,asafavour——Idid。Buthowabouttheresponsibilityandtheinsurance?Idon’ts’poseyoueverthoughtofthat?Thispin’sworthahundreddollarseasy。Ifithadgotlostorstole,where’dI
  beenwhenyoucometoclaimit?"
  Charityremainedsilent,puzzledandhalf—convincedbytheargument,andDr。Merklepromptlyfollowedupheradvantage。"Ididn’taskyouforyourbrooch,mydear。
  I’dagooddealrutherfolkspaidmemyregularchargethanhave’emputmetoallthistrouble。"
  Shepaused,andCharity,seizedwithadesperatelongingtoescape,rosetoherfeetandheldoutoneofthebills。
  "Willyoutakethat?"sheasked。
  "No,Iwon’ttakethat,mydear;butI’lltakeitwithitsmate,andhandyouoverasignedreceiptifyoudon’ttrustme。"
  "Oh,butIcan’t——it’sallI’vegot,"Charityexclaimed。
  Dr。Merklelookedupatherpleasantlyfromtheplushsofa。"Itseemsyougotmarriedyesterday,uptothe’Piscopalchurch;Iheardallabouttheweddingfromtheminister’schore—man。Itwouldbeapity,wouldn’tit,toletMr。Royallknowyouhadanaccountrunninghere?Ijustputittoyouasyourownmothermight。"
  AngerflamedupinCharity,andforaninstantshethoughtofabandoningthebroochandlettingDr。Merkledoherworst。Buthowcouldsheleaveheronlytreasurewiththatevilwoman?Shewanteditforherbaby:shemeantit,insomemysteriousway,tobealinkbetweenHarney’schildanditsunknownfather。
  Tremblingandhatingherselfwhileshedidit,shelaidMr。Royall’smoneyonthetable,andcatchingupthebroochfledoutoftheroomandthehouse……
  Inthestreetshestoodstill,dazedbythislastadventure。Butthebroochlayinherbosomlikeatalisman,andshefeltasecretlightnessofheart。Itgaveherstrength,afteramoment,towalkonslowlyinthedirectionofthepostoffice,andgointhroughtheswingingdoors。Atoneofthewindowssheboughtasheetofletter—paper,anenvelopeandastamp;thenshesatdownatatableanddippedtherustypostofficepeninink。ShehadcometherepossessedwithafearwhichhadhauntedhereversinceshehadfeltMr。
  Royall’sringonherfinger:thefearthatHarneymight,afterall,freehimselfandcomebacktoher。Itwasapossibilitywhichhadneveroccurredtoherduringthedreadfulhoursaftershehadreceivedhisletter;onlywhenthedecisivestepshehadtakenmadelongingturntoapprehensiondidsuchacontingencyseemconceivable。Sheaddressedtheenvelope,andonthesheetofpapershewrote:
  I’mmarriedtoMr。Royall。I’llalwaysrememberyou。
  CHARITY。
  Thelastwordswerenotintheleastwhatshehadmeanttowrite;theyhadflowedfromherpenirresistibly。
  Shehadnothadthestrengthtocompletehersacrifice;
  but,afterall,whatdiditmatter?NowthattherewasnochanceofeverseeingHarneyagain,whyshouldshenottellhimthetruth?
  Whenshehadputtheletterintheboxshewentoutintothebusysunlitstreetandbegantowalktothehotel。Behindtheplateglasswindowsofthedepartmentstoresshenoticedthetemptingdisplayofdressesanddress—materialsthathadfiredherimaginationonthedaywhensheandHarneyhadlookedinatthemtogether。
  TheyremindedherofMr。Royall’sinjunctiontogooutandbuyallsheneeded。Shelookeddownathershabbydress,andwonderedwhatsheshouldsaywhenhesawhercomingbackempty—handed。Asshedrewnearthehotelshesawhimwaitingonthedoorstep,andherheartbegantobeatwithapprehension。
  Henoddedandwavedhishandatherapproach,andtheywalkedthroughthehallandwentupstairstocollecttheirpossessions,sothatMr。Royallmightgiveupthekeyoftheroomwhentheywentdownagainfortheirmiddaydinner。Inthebedroom,whileshewasthrustingbackintothesatchelthefewthingsshehadbroughtawaywithher,shesuddenlyfeltthathiseyeswereonherandthathewasgoingtospeak。Shestoodstill,herhalf—foldednight—gowninherhand,whilethebloodrusheduptoherdrawncheeks。
  "Well,didyourigyourselfouthandsomely?Ihaven’tseenanybundlesround,"hesaidjocosely。
  "Oh,I’dratherletAllyHawesmakethefewthingsI
  want,"sheanswered。
  "Thatso?"Helookedatherthoughtfullyforamomentandhiseye—browsprojectedinascowl。Thenhisfacegrewfriendlyagain。"Well,Iwantedyoutogobacklookingstylisherthananyofthem;butIguessyou’reright。You’reagoodgirl,Charity。"
  Theireyesmet,andsomethingroseinhisthatshehadneverseenthere:alookthatmadeherfeelashamedandyetsecure。
  "Iguessyou’regood,too,"shesaid,shylyandquickly。Hesmiledwithoutanswering,andtheywentoutoftheroomtogetheranddroppeddowntothehallintheglitteringlift。
  Latethatevening,inthecoldautumnmoonlight,theydroveuptothedooroftheredhouse。