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第1章

  THEOVERTURE
  Dayofthemonthandyear,Novemberthethirtieth,onethousandeighthundredandthirty—five。LondonTimebythegreatclockofSaintPaul’s,tenatnight。AllthelesserLondonchurchesstraintheirmetallicthroats。Some,flippantlybeginbeforetheheavybellofthegreatcathedral;some,tardilybeginthree,four,halfadozen,strokesbehindit;allareinsufficientlynearaccord,toleavearesonanceintheair,asifthewingedfatherwhodevourshischildren,hadmadeasoundingsweepwithhisgiganticscytheinflyingoverthecity。
  Whatisthisclocklowerthanmostoftherest,andnearertotheear,thatlagssofarbehindto—nightastostrikeintothevibrationalone?ThisistheclockoftheHospitalforFoundlingChildren。Timewas,whentheFoundlingswerereceivedwithoutquestioninacradleatthegate。Timeis,wheninquiriesaremaderespectingthem,andtheyaretakenasbyfavourfromthemotherswhorelinquishallnaturalknowledgeofthemandclaimtothemforevermore。
  Themoonisatthefull,andthenightisfairwithlightclouds。
  Thedayhasbeenotherwisethanfair,forslushandmud,thickenedwiththedroppingsofheavyfog,lieblackinthestreets。Theveiledladywhofluttersupanddownnearthepostern—gateoftheHospitalforFoundlingChildrenhasneedtobewellshodto—night。
  Sheflutterstoandfro,avoidingthestandofhackney—coaches,andoftenpausingintheshadowofthewesternendofthegreatquadranglewall,withherfaceturnedtowardsthegate。Asaboveherthereisthepurityofthemoonlitsky,andbelowhertherearethedefilementsofthepavement,somayshe,haply,bedividedinhermindbetweentwovistasofreflectionorexperience。Asherfootprintscrossingandrecrossingoneanotherhavemadealabyrinthinthemire,somayhertrackinlifehaveinvolveditselfinanintricateandunravellabletangle。
  Thepostern—gateoftheHospitalforFoundlingChildrenopens,andayoungwomancomesout。Theladystandsaside,observesclosely,seesthatthegateisquietlyclosedagainfromwithin,andfollowstheyoungwoman。
  Twoorthreestreetshavebeentraversedinsilencebeforeshe,followingclosebehindtheobjectofherattention,stretchesoutherhandandtouchesher。Thentheyoungwomanstopsandlooksround,startled。
  "Youtouchedmelastnight,and,whenIturnedmyhead,youwouldnotspeak。Whydoyoufollowmelikeasilentghost?"
  "Itwasnot,"returnedthelady,inalowvoice,"thatIwouldnotspeak,butthatIcouldnotwhenItried。"
  "Whatdoyouwantofme?Ihaveneverdoneyouanyharm?"
  "Never。"
  "DoIknowyou?"
  "No。"
  "Thenwhatcanyouwantofme?"
  "Herearetwoguineasinthispaper。Takemypoorlittlepresent,andIwilltellyou。"
  Intotheyoungwoman’sface,whichishonestandcomely,comesaflushasshereplies:"ThereisneithergrownpersonnorchildinallthelargeestablishmentthatIbelongto,whohasn’tagoodwordforSally。IamSally。CouldIbesowellthoughtof,ifIwastobebought?"
  "Idonotmeantobuyyou;Imeanonlytorewardyouveryslightly。"
  Sallyfirmly,butnotungently,closesandputsbacktheofferinghand。"IfthereisanythingIcandoforyou,ma’am,thatIwillnotdoforitsownsake,youaremuchmistakeninmeifyouthinkthatIwilldoitformoney。Whatisityouwant?"
  "YouareoneofthenursesorattendantsattheHospital;Isawyouleaveto—nightandlastnight。"
  "Yes,Iam。IamSally。"
  "Thereisapleasantpatienceinyourfacewhichmakesmebelievethatveryyoungchildrenwouldtakereadilytoyou。"
  "Godbless’em!Sotheydo。"
  Theladyliftsherveil,andshowsafacenoolderthanthenurse’s。
  Afacefarmorerefinedandcapablethanhers,butwildandwornwithsorrow。
  "Iamthemiserablemotherofababylatelyreceivedunderyourcare。Ihaveaprayertomaketoyou。"
  Instinctivelyrespectingtheconfidencewhichhasdrawnasidetheveil,Sally——whosewaysareallwaysofsimplicityandspontaneity——
  replacesit,andbeginstocry。
  "Youwilllistentomyprayer?"theladyurges。"YouwillnotbedeaftotheagonisedentreatyofsuchabrokensuppliantasIam?"
  "Odear,dear,dear!"criesSally。"WhatshallIsay,orcansay!
  Don’ttalkofprayers。PrayersaretobeputuptotheGoodFatherofAll,andnottonursesandsuch。Andthere!Iamonlytoholdmyplaceforhalfayearlonger,tillanotheryoungwomancanbetraineduptoit。Iamgoingtobemarried。Ishouldn’thavebeenoutlastnight,andIshouldn’thavebeenoutto—night,butthatmyDick(heistheyoungmanIamgoingtobemarriedto)liesill,andIhelphismotherandsistertowatchhim。Don’ttakeonso,don’ttakeonso!"
  "OgoodSally,dearSally,"moansthelady,catchingatherdressentreatingly。"Asyouarehopeful,andIamhopeless;asafairwayinlifeisbeforeyou,whichcannever,never,bebeforeme;asyoucanaspiretobecomearespectedwife,andasyoucanaspiretobecomeaproudmother,asyouarealivinglovingwoman,andmustdie;forGOD’Ssakehearmydistractedpetition!"
  "Deary,deary,dearyME!"criesSally,herdesperationculminatinginthepronoun,"whatamIevertodo?Andthere!Seehowyouturnmyownwordsbackuponme。ItellyouIamgoingtobemarried,onpurposetomakeitclearertoyouthatIamgoingtoleave,andthereforecouldn’thelpyouifIwould,PoorThing,andyoumakeitseemtomyownselfasifIwascruelingoingtobemarriedandnothelpingyou。Itain’tkind。Now,isitkind,PoorThing?"
  "Sally!Hearme,mydear。Myentreatyisfornohelpinthefuture。Itappliestowhatispast。Itisonlytobetoldintwowords。"
  "There!Thisisworseandworse,"criesSally,"supposingthatI
  understandwhattwowordsyoumean。"
  "Youdounderstand。Whatarethenamestheyhavegivenmypoorbaby?Iasknomorethanthat。Ihavereadofthecustomsoftheplace。Hehasbeenchristenedinthechapel,andregisteredbysomesurnameinthebook。HewasreceivedlastMondayevening。Whathavetheycalledhim?"
  Downuponherkneesinthefoulmudoftheby—wayintowhichtheyhavestrayed——anemptystreetwithoutathoroughfaregivingonthedarkgardensoftheHospital——theladywoulddropinherpassionateentreaty,butthatSallypreventsher。
  "Don’t!Don’t!YoumakemefeelasifIwassettingmyselfuptobegood。Letmelookinyourprettyfaceagain。Putyourtwohandsinmine。Now,promise。Youwillneveraskmeanythingmorethanthetwowords?"
  "Never!Never!"
  "Youwillneverputthemtoabaduse,ifIsaythem?"
  "Never!Never!"
  "WalterWilding。"
  Theladylaysherfaceuponthenurse’sbreast,drawshercloseinherembracewithbotharms,murmursablessingandthewords,"Kisshimforme!"andisgone。
  Dayofthemonthandyear,thefirstSundayinOctober,onethousandeighthundredandforty—seven。LondonTimebythegreatclockofSaintPaul’s,half—pastoneintheafternoon。TheclockoftheHospitalforFoundlingChildreniswellupwiththeCathedralto—
  day。Serviceinthechapelisover,andtheFoundlingchildrenareatdinner。
  Therearenumerouslookers—onatthedinner,asthecustomis。
  Therearetwoorthreegovernors,wholefamiliesfromthecongregation,smallergroupsofbothsexes,individualstragglersofvariousdegrees。Thebrightautumnalsunstrikesfreshlyintothewards;andtheheavy—framedwindowsthroughwhichitshines,andthepanelledwallsonwhichitstrikes,aresuchwindowsandsuchwallsaspervadeHogarth’spictures。Thegirls’refectory(includingthatoftheyoungerchildren)istheprincipalattraction。Neatattendantssilentlyglideabouttheorderlyandsilenttables;thelookers—onmoveorstopasthefancytakesthem;commentsinwhispersonfacesuchanumberfromsuchawindowarenotunfrequent;manyofthefacesareofacharactertofixattention。
  Someofthevisitorsfromtheoutsidepublicareaccustomedvisitors。Theyhaveestablishedaspeakingacquaintancewiththeoccupantsofparticularseatsatthetables,andhaltatthosepointstobenddownandsayawordortwo。Itisnodisparagementtotheirkindnessthatthosepointsaregenerallypointswherepersonalattractionsare。Themonotonyofthelongspaciousroomsandthedoublelinesoffacesisagreeablyrelievedbytheseincidents,althoughsoslight。
  Aveiledlady,whohasnocompanion,goesamongthecompany。Itwouldseemthatcuriosityandopportunityhaveneverbroughthertherebefore。Shehastheairofbeingalittletroubledbythesight,and,asshegoesthelengthofthetables,itiswithahesitatingstepandanuneasymanner。Atlengthshecomestotherefectoryoftheboys。Theyaresomuchlesspopularthanthegirlsthatitisbareofvisitorswhenshelooksinatthedoorway。
  Butjustwithinthedoorway,chancestostand,inspecting,anelderlyfemaleattendant:someorderofmatronorhousekeeper。Towhomtheladyaddressesnaturalquestions:As,howmanyboys?Atwhatagearetheyusuallyputoutinlife?Dotheyoftentakeafancytothesea?So,lowerandlowerintoneuntiltheladyputsthequestion:"WhichisWalterWilding?"
  Attendant’sheadshaken。Againsttherules。
  "YouknowwhichisWalterWilding?"
  Sokeenlydoestheattendantfeeltheclosenesswithwhichthelady’seyesexamineherface,thatshekeepsherowneyesfastuponthefloor,lestbywanderingintherightdirectiontheyshouldbetrayher。
  "IknowwhichisWalterWilding,butitisnotmyplace,ma’am,totellnamestovisitors。"
  "Butyoucanshowmewithouttellingme。"
  Thelady’shandmovesquietlytotheattendant’shand。Pauseandsilence。
  "Iamgoingtopassroundthetables,"saysthelady’sinterlocutor,withoutseemingtoaddressher。"Followmewithyoureyes。TheboythatIstopatandspeakto,willnotmattertoyou。ButtheboythatItouch,willbeWalterWilding。Saynothingmoretome,andmovealittleaway。"
  Quicklyactingonthehint,theladypassesonintotheroom,andlooksabouther。Afterafewmoments,theattendant,inastaidofficialway,walksdownoutsidethelineoftablescommencingonherlefthand。Shegoesthewholelengthoftheline,turns,andcomesbackontheinside。Veryslightlyglancinginthelady’sdirection,shestops,bendsforward,andspeaks。Theboywhomsheaddresses,liftshisheadandreplies。Goodhumouredlyandeasily,asshelistenstowhathesays,shelaysherhandupontheshoulderofthenextboyonhisright。Thattheactionmaybewellnoted,shekeepsherhandontheshoulderwhilespeakinginreturn,andpatsittwiceorthricebeforemovingaway。Shecompleteshertourofthetables,touchingnooneelse,andpassesoutbyadoorattheoppositeendofthelongroom。
  Dinnerisdone,andthelady,too,walksdownoutsidethelineoftablescommencingonherlefthand,goesthewholelengthoftheline,turns,andcomesbackontheinside。Otherpeoplehavestrolledin,fortunatelyforher,andstandsprinkledabout。Sheliftsherveil,and,stoppingatthetouchedboy,askshowoldheis?
  "Iamtwelve,ma’am,"heanswers,withhisbrighteyesfixedonhers。
  "Areyouwellandhappy?"
  "Yes,ma’am。"
  "Mayyoutakethesesweetmeatsfrommyhand?"
  "Ifyoupleasetogivethemtome。"
  Instoopinglowforthepurpose,theladytouchestheboy’sfacewithherforeheadandwithherhair。Then,loweringherveilagain,shepasseson,andpassesoutwithoutlookingback。
  ACTI——THECURTAINRISES
  Inacourt—yardintheCityofLondon,whichwasNoThoroughfareeitherforvehiclesorfoot—passengers;acourt—yarddivergingfromasteep,aslippery,andawindingstreetconnectingTowerStreetwiththeMiddlesexshoreoftheThames;stoodtheplaceofbusinessofWilding&Co。,WineMerchants。Probablyasajocoseacknowledgmentoftheobstructivecharacterofthismainapproach,thepointnearesttoitsbaseatwhichonecouldtaketheriver(ifsoinodorouslyminded)boretheappellationBreak—Neck—Stairs。Thecourt—yarditselfhadlikewisebeendescriptivelyentitledinoldtime,CrippleCorner。
  Yearsbeforetheyearonethousandeighthundredandsixty—one,peoplehadleftofftakingboatatBreak—Neck—Stairs,andwatermenhadceasedtoplythere。Theslimylittlecausewayhaddroppedintotheriverbyaslowprocessofsuicide,andtwoorthreestumpsofpilesandarustyironmooring—ringwereallthatremainedofthedepartedBreak—Neckglories。Sometimes,indeed,aladencoalbargewouldbumpitselfintotheplace,andcertainlaboriousheavers,seeminglymud—engendered,wouldarise,deliverthecargointheneighbourhood,shoveoff,andvanish;butatmosttimestheonlycommerceofBreak—Neck—Stairsaroseoutoftheconveyanceofcasksandbottles,bothfullandempty,bothtoandfromthecellarsofWilding&Co。,WineMerchants。Eventhatcommercewasbutoccasional,andthroughthree—fourthsofitsrisingtidesthedirtyindecorousdrabofariverwouldcomesolitarilyoozingandlappingattherustyring,asifithadheardoftheDogeandtheAdriatic,andwantedtobemarriedtothegreatconserverofitsfilthiness,theRightHonourabletheLordMayor。
  Sometwohundredandfiftyyardsontheright,uptheoppositehill(approachingitfromthelowgroundofBreak—Neck—Stairs)wasCrippleCorner。TherewasapumpinCrippleCorner,therewasatreeinCrippleCorner。AllCrippleCornerbelongedtoWildingandCo。,WineMerchants。Theircellarsburrowedunderit,theirmansiontoweredoverit。ItreallyhadbeenamansioninthedayswhenmerchantsinhabitedtheCity,andhadaceremonioussheltertothedoorwaywithoutvisiblesupport,likethesounding—boardoveranoldpulpit。Ithadalsoanumberoflongnarrowstripsofwindow,sodisposedinitsgravebrickfrontastorenderitsymmetricallyugly。Ithadalso,onitsroof,acupolawithabellinit。
  "Whenamanatfive—and—twentycanputhishaton,andcansay’thishatcoverstheownerofthispropertyandofthebusinesswhichistransactedonthisproperty,’Iconsider,Mr。Bintrey,that,withoutbeingboastful,hemaybeallowedtobedeeplythankful。Idon’tknowhowitmayappeartoyou,butsoitappearstome。"
  ThusMr。WalterWildingtohismanoflaw,inhisowncounting—
  house;takinghishatdownfromitspegtosuittheactiontotheword,andhangingitupagainwhenhehaddoneso,nottooverstepthemodestyofnature。
  Aninnocent,open—speaking,unused—lookingman,Mr。WalterWilding,witharemarkablypinkandwhitecomplexion,andafiguremuchtoobulkyforsoyoungaman,thoughofagoodstature。Withcrispycurlingbrownhair,andamiablebrightblueeyes。Anextremelycommunicativeman:amanwithwhomloquacitywastheirrestrainableoutpouringofcontentmentandgratitude。Mr。Bintrey,ontheotherhand,acautiousman,withtwinklingbeadsofeyesinalargeoverhangingbaldhead,whoinwardlybutintenselyenjoyedthecomicalityofopennessofspeech,orhand,orheart。
  "Yes,"saidMr。Bintrey。"Yes。Ha,ha!"
  Adecanter,twowine—glasses,andaplateofbiscuits,stoodonthedesk。
  "Youlikethisforty—fiveyearoldport—wine?"saidMr。Wilding。
  "Likeit?"repeatedMr。Bintrey。"Rather,sir!"
  "It’sfromthebestcornerofourbestforty—fiveyearoldbin,"
  saidMr。Wilding。
  "Thankyou,sir,"saidMr。Bintrey。"It’smostexcellent。"
  Helaughedagain,ashehelduphisglassandogledit,atthehighlyludicrousideaofgivingawaysuchwine。
  "Andnow,"saidWilding,withachildishenjoymentinthediscussionofaffairs,"Ithinkwehavegoteverythingstraight,Mr。Bintrey。"
  "Everythingstraight,"saidBintrey。
  "Apartnersecured——"
  "Partnersecured,"saidBintrey。
  "Ahousekeeperadvertisedfor——"
  "Housekeeperadvertisedfor,"saidBintrey,"’applypersonallyatCrippleCorner,GreatTowerStreet,fromtentotwelve’——to—morrow,bythebye。"
  "Mylatedearmother’saffairswoundup——"
  "Woundup,"saidBintrey。
  "Andallchargespaid。"
  "Andallchargespaid,"saidBintrey,withachuckle:probablyoccasionedbythedrollcircumstancethattheyhadbeenpaidwithoutahaggle。
  "Thementionofmylatedearmother,"Mr。Wildingcontinued,hiseyesfillingwithtearsandhispocket—handkerchiefdryingthem,"unmansmestill,Mr。Bintrey。YouknowhowIlovedher;you(herlawyer)knowhowshelovedme。Theutmostloveofmotherandchildwascherishedbetweenus,andweneverexperiencedonemoment’sdivisionorunhappinessfromthetimewhenshetookmeunderhercare。Thirteenyearsinall!Thirteenyearsundermylatedearmother’scare,Mr。Bintrey,andeightofthemherconfidentiallyacknowledgedson!Youknowthestory,Mr。Bintrey,whobutyou,sir!"Mr。Wildingsobbedanddriedhiseyes,withoutattemptatconcealment,duringtheseremarks。
  Mr。Bintreyenjoyedhiscomicalport,andsaid,afterrollingitinhismouth:"Iknowthestory。"
  "Mylatedearmother,Mr。Bintrey,"pursuedthewine—merchant,"hadbeendeeplydeceived,andhadcruellysuffered。Butonthatsubjectmylatedearmother’slipswereforeversealed。Bywhomdeceived,orunderwhatcircumstances,Heavenonlyknows。Mylatedearmotherneverbetrayedherbetrayer。"
  "Shehadmadeuphermind,"saidMr。Bintrey,againturninghiswineonhispalate,"andshecouldholdherpeace。"Anamusedtwinkleinhiseyesprettyplainlyadded——"AdevilishdealbetterthanYOUeverwill!"
  "’Honour,’"saidMr。Wilding,sobbingashequotedfromtheCommandments,"’thyfatherandthymother,thatthydaysmaybelongintheland。’WhenIwasintheFoundling,Mr。Bintrey,Iwasatsuchalosshowtodoit,thatIapprehendedmydayswouldbeshortintheland。ButIafterwardscametohonourmymotherdeeply,profoundly。AndIhonourandreverehermemory。Forsevenhappyyears,Mr。Bintrey,"pursuedWilding,stillwiththesameinnocentcatchinginhisbreath,andthesameunabashedtears,"didmyexcellentmotherarticlemetomypredecessorsinthisbusiness,PebblesonNephew。HeraffectionateforethoughtlikewiseapprenticedmetotheVintners’Company,andmademeintimeafreeVintner,and——and——everythingelsethatthebestofmotherscoulddesire。
  WhenIcameofage,shebestowedherinheritedshareinthisbusinessuponme;itwashermoneythatafterwardsboughtoutPebblesonNephew,andpaintedinWildingandCo。;itwasshewholeftmeeverythingshepossessed,butthemourningringyouwear。
  Andyet,Mr。Bintrey,"withafreshburstofhonestaffection,"sheisnomore。ItislittleoverhalfayearsinceshecameintotheCornertoreadonthatdoor—postwithherowneyes,WILDINGANDCO。,WINEMERCHANTS。Andyetsheisnomore!"
  "Sad。Butthecommonlot,Mr。Wilding,"observedBintrey。"Atsometimeorotherwemustallbenomore。"Heplacedtheforty—fiveyearoldport—wineintheuniversalcondition,witharelishingsigh。
  "Sonow,Mr。Bintrey,"pursuedWilding,puttingawayhispocket—
  handkerchief,andsmoothinghiseyelidswithhisfingers,"nowthatIcannolongershowmyloveandhonourforthedearparenttowhommyheartwasmysteriouslyturnedbyNaturewhenshefirstspoketome,astrangelady,IsittingatourSundaydinner—tableintheFoundling,IcanatleastshowthatIamnotashamedofhavingbeenaFoundling,andthatI,whoneverknewafatherofmyown,wishtobeafathertoallinmyemployment。Therefore,"continuedWilding,becomingenthusiasticinhisloquacity,"therefore,Iwantathoroughlygoodhousekeepertoundertakethisdwelling—houseofWildingandCo。,WineMerchants,CrippleCorner,sothatImayrestoreinitsomeoftheoldrelationsbetwixtemployerandemployed!SothatImayliveinitonthespotwheremymoneyismade!SothatImaydailysitattheheadofthetableatwhichthepeopleinmyemploymenteattogether,andmayeatofthesameroastandboiled,anddrinkofthesamebeer!Sothatthepeopleinmyemploymentmaylodgeunderthesameroofwithme!Sothatwemayoneandall——Ibegyourpardon,Mr。Bintrey,butthatoldsinginginmyheadhassuddenlycomeon,andIshallfeelobligedifyouwillleadmetothepump。"
  Alarmedbytheexcessivepinknessofhisclient,Mr。Bintreylostnotamomentinleadinghimforthintothecourt—yard。Itwaseasilydone;forthecounting—houseinwhichtheytalkedtogetheropenedontoit,atonesideofthedwelling—house。Theretheattorneypumpedwithawill,obedienttoasignfromtheclient,andtheclientlavedhisheadandfacewithbothhands,andtookaheartydrink。Aftertheseremedies,hedeclaredhimselfmuchbetter。
  "Don’tletyourgoodfeelingsexciteyou,"saidBintrey,astheyreturnedtothecounting—house,andMr。Wildingdriedhimselfonajack—towelbehindaninnerdoor。
  "No,no。Iwon’t,"hereturned,lookingoutofthetowel。"I
  won’t。Ihavenotbeenconfused,haveI?"
  "Notatall。Perfectlyclear。"
  "WheredidIleaveoff,Mr。Bintrey?"
  "Well,youleftoff——butIwouldn’texcitemyself,ifIwasyou,bytakingitupagainjustyet。"
  "I’lltakecare。I’lltakecare。Thesinginginmyheadcameonatwhere,Mr。Bintrey?"
  "Atroast,andboiled,andbeer,"answeredthelawyer,——"promptinglodgingunderthesameroof——andoneandall——"
  "Ah!Andoneandallsingingintheheadtogether——"
  "Doyouknow,IreallyWOULDNOTletmygoodfeelingsexciteme,ifIwasyou,"hintedthelawyeragain,anxiously。"Trysomemorepump。"
  "Nooccasion,nooccasion。Allright,Mr。Bintrey。Andoneandallformingakindoffamily!Yousee,Mr。Bintrey,Iwasnotusedinmychildhoodtothatsortofindividualexistencewhichmostindividualshaveled,moreorless,intheirchildhood。AfterthattimeIbecameabsorbedinmylatedearmother。Havinglosther,I
  findthatIammorefitforbeingoneofabodythanonebymyselfone。Tobethat,andatthesametimetodomydutytothosedependentonme,andattachthemtome,hasapatriarchalandpleasantairaboutit。Idon’tknowhowitmayappeartoyou,MrBintrey,butsoitappearstome。"
  "ItisnotIwhoamall—importantinthecase,butyou,"returnedBintrey。"Consequently,howitmayappeartomeisofverysmallimportance。"
  "Itappearstome,"saidMr。Wilding,inaglow,"hopeful,useful,delightful!"
  "Doyouknow,"hintedthelawyeragain,"Ireallywouldnotex—"
  "Iamnotgoingto。Thenthere’sHandel。"
  "There’swho?"askedBintrey。
  "Handel,Mozart,Haydn,Kent,Purcell,DoctorArne,Greene,Mendelssohn。Iknowthechorusestothoseanthemsbyheart。
  FoundlingChapelCollection。Whyshouldn’twelearnthemtogether?"
  "Wholearnthemtogether?"askedthelawyer,rathershortly。
  "Employerandemployed。"
  "Ay,ay,"returnedBintrey,mollified;asifhehadhalfexpectedtheanswertobe,Lawyerandclient。"That’sanotherthing。"
  "Notanotherthing,Mr。Bintrey!Thesamething。Apartofthebondamongus。WewillformaChoirinsomequietchurchneartheCornerhere,and,havingsungtogetherofaSundaywitharelish,wewillcomehomeandtakeanearlydinnertogetherwitharelish。TheobjectthatIhaveatheartnowis,togetthissystemwellinactionwithoutdelay,sothatmynewpartnermayfinditfoundedwhenheentersonhispartnership。"
  "Allgoodbewithit!"exclaimedBintrey,rising。"Mayitprosper!
  IsJoeyLadletotakeashareinHandel,Mozart,Haydn,Kent,Purcell,DoctorArne,Greene,andMendelssohn?
  "Ihopeso。"
  "Iwishthemallwelloutofit,"returnedBintrey,withmuchheartiness。"Good—bye,sir。"
  Theyshookhandsandparted。Then(firstknockingwithhisknucklesforleave)enteredtoMr。Wildingfromadoorofcommunicationbetweenhisprivatecounting—houseandthatinwhichhisclerkssat,theHeadCellarmanofthecellarsofWildingandCo。,WineMerchants,anderstHeadCellarmanofthecellarsofPebblesonNephew。TheJoeyLadleinquestion。Aslowandponderousman,ofthedraymanorderofhumanarchitecture,dressedinacorrugatedsuitandbibbedapron,apparentlyacompositeofdoor—matandrhinoceros—hide。
  "Respectingthissameboardingandlodging,YoungMasterWilding,"
  saidhe。
  "Yes,Joey?"
  "Speakingformyself,YoungMasterWilding——andIneverdidspeakandIneverdospeakfornooneelse——Idon’twantnoboardingnoryetnolodging。Butifyouwishtoboardmeandtolodgeme,takeme。Icanpeckaswellasmostmen。WhereIpeckain’tsohighaobjectwithmeasWhatIpeck。NorevensohighaobjectwithmeasHowMuchIpeck。Isalltoliveinthehouse,YoungMasterWilding?
  Thetwoothercellarmen,thethreeporters,thetwo’prentices,andtheoddmen?"
  "Yes。Ihopeweshallallbeanunitedfamily,Joey。"
  "Ah!"saidJoey。"Ihopetheymaybe。"
  "They?Rathersaywe,Joey。"
  JoeyLadleshookhisheld。"Don’tlooktometomakeweonit,YoungMasterWilding,notatmytimeoflifeandunderthecircumstanceswhichhasformedmydisposition。IhavesaidtoPebblesonNephewmanyatime,whentheyhavesaidtome,’Putalivelierfaceuponit,Joey’——Ihavesaidtothem,’Gentlemen,itisallwerywellforyouthathasbeenaccustomedtotakeyourwineintoyoursystemsbytheconwivialchannelofyourthrottles,toputalivelyfaceuponit;but,’Isays,’IhavebeenaccustomedtotakeMYwineinattheporesoftheskin,and,tookthatway,itactsdifferent。Itactsdepressing。It’sonething,gentlemen,’IsaystoPebblesonNephew,’tochargeyourglassesinadining—roomwithaHipHurrahandaJollyCompanionsEveryOne,andit’sanotherthingtobechargedyourself,throughthepores,inalowdarkcellarandamouldyatmosphere。Itmakesallthedifferencebetwixtbubblesandwapours,’ItellsPebblesonNephew。Andsoitdo。I’vebeenacellarmanmylifethrough,withmymindfullygiventothebusiness。
  What’stheconsequence?I’masmuddledamanaslives——youwon’tfindamuddledermanthanme——noryetyouwon’tfindmyequalinmolloncolly。SingofFillingthebumperfair,Everydropyousprinkle,O’erthebrowofcare,Smoothsawayawrinkle?Yes。
  P’rapsso。Buttryfillingyourselfthroughthepores,underground,whenyoudon’twanttoit!"
  "Iamsorrytohearthis,Joey。Ihadeventhoughtthatyoumightjoinasinging—classinthehouse。"
  "Me,sir?No,no,YoungMasterWilding,youwon’tcatchJoeyLadlemuddlingtheArmony。Apecking—machine,sir,isallthatIamcapableofprovingmyself,outofmycellars;butthatyou’rewelcometo,ifyouthinkitisworthyourwhiletokeepsuchathingonyourpremises。"
  "Ido,Joey。"
  "Saynomore,sir。TheBusiness’swordismylaw。Andyou’reagoingtotakeYoungMasterGeorgeVendalepartnerintotheoldBusiness?"
  "Iam,Joey。"
  "Morechanges,yousee!Butdon’tchangethenameoftheFirmagain。Don’tdoit,YoungMasterWilding。ItwasbadluckenoughtomakeitYourselfandCo。BetterbyfarhaveleftitPebblesonNephewthatgoodluckalwaysstuckto。Youshouldneverchangeluckwhenit’sgood,sir。"
  "Atallevents,IhavenointentionofchangingthenameoftheHouseagain,Joey。"
  "Gladtohearit,andwishyougood—day,YoungMasterWilding。Butyouhadbetterbyhalf,"mutteredJoeyLadleinaudibly,asheclosedthedoorandshookhishead,"haveletthenamealonefromthefirst。Youhadbetterbyhalfhavefollowedtheluckinsteadofcrossingit。"
  ENTERTHEHOUSEKEEPER
  Thewinemerchantsatinhisdining—roomnextmorning,toreceivethepersonalapplicantsforthevacantpostinhisestablishment。
  Itwasanold—fashionedwainscotedroom;thepanelsornamentedwithfestoonsofflowerscarvedinwood;withanoakenfloor,awell—wornTurkeycarpet,anddarkmahoganyfurniture,allofwhichhadseenserviceandpolishunderPebblesonNephew。Thegreatsideboardhadassistedatmanybusiness—dinnersgivenbyPebblesonNephewtotheirconnection,ontheprincipleofthrowingspratsoverboardtocatchwhales;andPebblesonNephew’scomprehensivethree—sidedplate—
  warmer,madetofitthewholefrontofthelargefireplace,keptwatchbeneathitoverasarcophagus—shapedcellaretthathadinitstimeheldmanyadozenofPebblesonNephew’swine。Butthelittlerubicundoldbachelorwithapigtail,whoseportraitwasoverthesideboard(andwhocouldeasilybeidentifiedasdecidedlyPebblesonanddecidedlynotNephew),hadretiredintoanothersarcophagus,andtheplate—warmerhadgrownascoldashe。So,thegoldenandblackgriffinsthatsupportedthecandelabra,withblackballsintheirmouthsattheendofgildedchains,lookedasifintheiroldagetheyhadlostallheartforplayingatball,andweredolefullyexhibitingtheirchainsintheMissionarylineofinquiry,whethertheyhadnotearnedemancipationbythistime,andwerenotgriffinsandbrothers。
  SuchaColumbusofamorningwasthesummermorning,thatitdiscoveredCrippleCorner。Thelightandwarmthpiercedinattheopenwindows,andirradiatedthepictureofaladyhangingoverthechimney—piece,theonlyotherdecorationofthewalls。
  "Mymotheratfive—and—twenty,"saidMr。Wildingtohimself,ashiseyesenthusiasticallyfollowedthelighttotheportrait’sface,"I
  hanguphere,inorderthatvisitorsmayadmiremymotherinthebloomofheryouthandbeauty。MymotheratfiftyIhangintheseclusionofmyownchamber,asaremembrancesacredtome。O!
  It’syou,Jarvis!"
  Theselatterwordsheaddressedtoaclerkwhohadtappedatthedoor,andnowlookedin。
  "Yes,sir。Imerelywishedtomentionthatit’sgoneten,sir,andthatthereareseveralfemalesintheCounting—house。"
  "Dearme!"saidthewine—merchant,deepeninginthepinkofhiscomplexionandwhiteninginthewhite,"arethereseveral?Somanyasseveral?Ihadbetterbeginbeforetherearemore。I’llseethemonebyone,Jarvis,intheorderoftheirarrival。"
  Hastilyentrenchinghimselfinhiseasy—chairatthetablebehindagreatinkstand,havingfirstplacedachairontheothersideofthetableoppositehisownseat,Mr。Wildingenteredonhistaskwithconsiderabletrepidation。
  Heranthegauntletthatmustberunonanysuchoccasion。Thereweretheusualspeciesofprofoundlyunsympatheticwomen,andtheusualspeciesofmuchtoosympatheticwomen。Therewerebuccaneeringwidowswhocametoseizehim,andwhogripedumbrellasundertheirarms,asifeachumbrellawerehe,andeachgriperhadgothim。Thereweretoweringmaidenladieswhohadseenbetterdays,andwhocamearmedwithclericaltestimonialstotheirtheology,asifhewereSaintPeterwithhiskeys。Thereweregentlemaidenladieswhocametomarryhim。Therewereprofessionalhousekeepers,likenon—commissionedofficers,whoputhimthroughhisdomesticexercise,insteadofsubmittingthemselvestocatechism。Therewerelanguidinvalids,towhomsalarywasnotsomuchanobjectasthecomfortsofaprivatehospital。Thereweresensitivecreatureswhoburstintotearsonbeingaddressed,andhadtoberestoredwithglassesofcoldwater。Thereweresomerespondentswhocametwotogether,ahighlypromisingoneandawhollyunpromisingone:ofwhomthepromisingoneansweredallquestionscharmingly,untilitwouldatlastappearthatshewasnotacandidateatall,butonlythefriendoftheunpromisingone,whohadgloweredinabsolutesilenceandapparentinjury。
  Atlast,whenthegoodwine—merchant’ssimpleheartwasfailinghim,thereenteredanapplicantquitedifferentfromalltherest。A
  woman,perhapsfifty,butlookingyounger,withafaceremarkableforplacidcheerfulness,andamannernolessremarkableforitsquietexpressionofequabilityoftemper。Nothinginherdresscouldhavebeenchangedtoheradvantage。Nothinginthenoiselessself—possessionofhermannercouldhavebeenchangedtoheradvantage。Nothingcouldhavebeeninbetterunisonwithboth,thanhervoicewhensheansweredthequestion:"WhatnameshallIhavethepleasureofnotingdown?"withthewords,"MynameisSarahGoldstraw。Mrs。Goldstraw。Myhusbandhasbeendeadmanyyears,andwehadnofamily。"
  Half—a—dozenquestionshadscarcelyextractedasmuchtothepurposefromanyoneelse。ThevoicedweltsoagreeablyonMr。Wilding’searashemadehisnote,thathewasratherlongaboutit。Whenhelookedupagain,Mrs。Goldstraw’sglancehadnaturallygoneroundtheroom,andnowreturnedtohimfromthechimney—piece。Itsexpressionwasoneoffrankreadinesstobequestioned,andtoanswerstraight。
  "Youwillexcusemyaskingyouafewquestions?"saidthemodestwine—merchant。
  "O,surely,sir。OrIshouldhavenobusinesshere。"
  "Haveyoufilledthestationofhousekeeperbefore?"
  "Onlyonce。Ihavelivedwiththesamewidowladyfortwelveyears。
  EversinceIlostmyhusband。Shewasaninvalid,andislatelydead:whichistheoccasionofmynowwearingblack。"
  "Idonotdoubtthatshehasleftyouthebestcredentials?"saidMr。Wilding。
  "IhopeImaysay,theverybest。Ithoughtitwouldsavetrouble,sir,ifIwrotedownthenameandaddressofherrepresentatives,andbroughtitwithme。"Layingacardonthetable。
  "Yousingularlyremindme,Mrs。Goldstraw,"saidWilding,takingthecardbesidehim,"ofamannerandtoneofvoicethatIwasonceacquaintedwith。Notofanindividual——Ifeelsureofthat,thoughIcannotrecallwhatitisIhaveinmymind——butofageneralbearing。Ioughttoadd,itwasakindandpleasantone。"
  Shesmiled,assherejoined:"Atleast,Iamverygladofthat,sir。"
  "Yes,"saidthewine—merchant,thoughtfullyrepeatinghislastphrase,withamomentaryglanceathisfuturehousekeeper,"itwasakindandpleasantone。ButthatisthemostIcanmakeofit。
  Memoryissometimeslikeahalf—forgottendream。Idon’tknowhowitmayappeartoyou,Mrs。Goldstraw,butsoitappearstome。"
  ProbablyitappearedtoMrs。Goldstrawinasimilarlight,forshequietlyassentedtotheproposition。Mr。Wildingthenofferedtoputhimselfatonceincommunicationwiththegentlemennameduponthecard:afirmofproctorsinDoctors’Commons。Tothis,Mrs。
  Goldstrawthankfullyassented。Doctors’Commonsnotbeingfaroff,Mr。WildingsuggestedthefeasibilityofMrs。Goldstraw’slookinginagain,sayinthreehours’time。Mrs。Goldstrawreadilyundertooktodoso。Infine,theresultofMr。Wilding’sinquiriesbeingeminentlysatisfactory,Mrs。Goldstrawwasthatafternoonengaged(onherownperfectlyfairterms)tocometo—morrowandsetupherrestashousekeeperinCrippleCorner。
  THEHOUSEKEEPERSPEAKS
  OnthenextdayMrs。Goldstrawarrived,toenteronherdomesticduties。
  Havingsettledherselfinherownroom,withouttroublingtheservants,andwithoutwastingtime,thenewhousekeeperannouncedherselfaswaitingtobefavouredwithanyinstructionswhichhermastermightwishtogiveher。Thewine—merchantreceivedMrs。
  Goldstrawinthedining—room,inwhichhehadseenheronthepreviousday;and,theusualpreliminarycivilitieshavingpassedoneitherside,thetwosatdowntotakecounseltogetherontheaffairsofthehouse。
  "Aboutthemeals,sir?"saidMrs。Goldstraw。"HaveIalarge,orasmall,numbertoprovidefor?"
  "IfIcancarryoutacertainold—fashionedplanofmine,"repliedMr。Wilding,"youwillhavealargenumbertoprovidefor。Iamalonelysingleman,Mrs。Goldstraw;andIhopetolivewithallthepersonsinmyemploymentasiftheyweremembersofmyfamily。
  Untilthattimecomes,youwillonlyhaveme,andthenewpartnerwhomIexpectimmediately,toprovidefor。Whatmypartner’shabitsmaybe,Icannotyetsay。ButImaydescribemyselfasamanofregularhours,withaninvariableappetitethatyoumaydependupontoanounce。"
  "Aboutbreakfast,sir?"askedMrs。Goldstraw。"Isthereanythingparticular——?"
  Shehesitated,andleftthesentenceunfinished。Hereyesturnedslowlyawayfromhermaster,andlookedtowardsthechimney—piece。
  Ifshehadbeenalessexcellentandexperiencedhousekeeper,Mr。
  Wildingmighthavefanciedthatherattentionwasbeginningtowanderattheveryoutsetoftheinterview。
  "Eighto’clockismybreakfast—hour,"heresumed。"Itisoneofmyvirtuestobenevertiredofbroiledbacon,anditisoneofmyvicestobehabituallysuspiciousofthefreshnessofeggs。"Mrs。
  Goldstrawlookedbackathim,stillalittledividedbetweenhermaster’schimney—pieceandhermaster。"Itaketea,"Mr。Wildingwenton;"andIamperhapsrathernervousandfidgetyaboutdrinkingit,withinacertaintimeafteritismade。Ifmyteastandstoolong——"
  Hehesitated,onhisside,andleftthesentenceunfinished。Ifhehadnotbeenengagedindiscussingasubjectofsuchparamountinteresttohimselfashisbreakfast,Mrs。Goldstrawmighthavefanciedthathisattentionwasbeginningtowanderattheveryoutsetoftheinterview。
  "Ifyourteastandstoolong,sir——?"saidthehousekeeper,politelytakinguphermaster’slostthread。
  "Ifmyteastandstoolong,"repeatedthewine—merchantmechanically,hismindgettingfartherandfartherawayfromhisbreakfast,andhiseyesfixingthemselvesmoreandmoreinquiringlyonhishousekeeper’sface。"Ifmytea——Dear,dearme,Mrs。
  Goldstraw!whatISthemannerandtoneofvoicethatyouremindmeof?Itstrikesmeevenmorestronglyto—day,thanitdidwhenIsawyouyesterday。Whatcanitbe?"
  "Whatcanitbe?"repeatedMrs。Goldstraw。
  Shesaidthewords,evidentlythinkingwhileshespokethemofsomethingelse。Thewine—merchant,stilllookingatherinquiringly,observedthathereyeswanderedtowardsthechimney—
  pieceoncemore。Theyfixedontheportraitofhismother,whichhungthere,andlookedatitwiththatslightcontractionofthebrowwhichaccompaniesascarcelyconsciouseffortofmemory。Mr。
  Wildingremarked。
  "Mylatedearmother,whenshewasfive—and—twenty。"
  Mrs。Goldstrawthankedhimwithamovementoftheheadforbeingatthepainstoexplainthepicture,andsaid,withaclearedbrow,thatitwastheportraitofaverybeautifullady。
  Mr。Wilding,fallingbackintohisformerperplexity,triedoncemoretorecoverthatlostrecollection,associatedsoclosely,andyetsoundiscoverably,withhisnewhousekeeper’svoiceandmanner。
  "Excusemyaskingyouaquestionwhichhasnothingtodowithmeormybreakfast,"hesaid。"MayIinquireifyouhaveeveroccupiedanyothersituationthanthesituationofhousekeeper?"
  "Oyes,sir。IbeganlifeasoneofthenursesattheFoundling。"
  "Why,that’sit!"criedthewine—merchant,pushingbackhischair。
  "Byheaven!Theirmanneristhemanneryouremindmeof!"
  Inanastonishedlookathim,Mrs。Goldstrawchangedcolour,checkedherself,turnedhereyesupontheground,andsatstillandsilent。
  "Whatisthematter?"askedMr。Wilding。
  "DoIunderstandthatyouwereintheFoundling,sir?"
  "Certainly。Iamnotashamedtoownit。"
  "Underthenameyounowbear?"
  "UnderthenameofWalterWilding。"
  "Andthelady——?"Mrs。Goldstrawstoppedshortwithalookattheportraitwhichwasnowunmistakablyalookofalarm。
  "Youmeanmymother,"interruptedMr。Wilding。
  "Your——mother,"repeatedthehousekeeper,alittleconstrainedly,"removedyoufromtheFoundling?Atwhatage,sir?"
  "Atbetweenelevenandtwelveyearsold。It’squitearomanticadventure,Mrs。Goldstraw。"
  Hetoldthestoryoftheladyhavingspokentohim,whilehesatatdinnerwiththeotherboysintheFoundling,andofallthathadfollowedinhisinnocentlycommunicativeway。"Mypoormothercouldneverhavediscoveredme,"headded,"ifshehadnotmetwithoneofthematronswhopitiedher。Thematronconsentedtotouchtheboywhosenamewas’WalterWilding’asshewentroundthedinner—tables—
  —andsomymotherdiscoveredmeagain,afterhavingpartedfrommeasaninfantattheFoundlingdoors。"
  AtthosewordsMrs。Goldstraw’shand,restingonthetable,droppedhelplesslyintoherlap。Shesat,lookingathernewmaster,withafacethathadturneddeadlypale,andwitheyesthatexpressedanunutterabledismay。
  "Whatdoesthismean?"askedthewine—merchant。"Stop!"hecried。
  "IstheresomethingelseinthepasttimewhichIoughttoassociatewithyou?IremembermymothertellingmeofanotherpersonattheFoundling,towhosekindnesssheowedadebtofgratitude。Whenshefirstpartedwithme,asaninfant,oneofthenursesinformedherofthenamethathadbeengiventomeintheinstitution。Youwerethatnurse?"
  "Godforgiveme,sir——Iwasthatnurse!"
  "Godforgiveyou?"
  "Wehadbettergetback,sir(ifImaymakesoboldastosayso),tomydutiesinthehouse,"saidMrs。Goldstraw。"Yourbreakfast—
  houriseight。Doyoulunch,ordine,inthemiddleoftheday?"
  TheexcessivepinknesswhichMr。Bintreyhadnoticedinhisclient’sfacebegantoappearthereoncemore。Mr。Wildingputhishandtohishead,andmasteredsomemomentaryconfusioninthatquarter,beforehespokeagain。
  "Mrs。Goldstraw,"hesaid,"youareconcealingsomethingfromme!"
  Thehousekeeperobstinatelyrepeated,"Pleasetofavourme,sir,bysayingwhetheryoulunch,ordine,inthemiddleoftheday?"
  "Idon’tknowwhatIdointhemiddleoftheday。Ican’tenterintomyhouseholdaffairs,Mrs。Goldstraw,tillIknowwhyyouregretanactofkindnesstomymother,whichshealwaysspokeofgratefullytotheendofherlife。Youarenotdoingmeaservicebyyoursilence。Youareagitatingme,youarealarmingme,youarebringingonthesinginginmyhead。"
  Hishandwentuptohisheadagain,andthepinkinhisfacedeepenedbyashadeortwo。
  "It’shard,sir,onjustenteringyourservice,"saidthehousekeeper,"tosaywhatmaycostmethelossofyourgoodwill。
  Pleasetoremember,endhowitmay,thatIonlyspeakbecauseyouhaveinsistedonmyspeaking,andbecauseIseethatIamalarmingyoubymysilence。WhenItoldthepoorlady,whoseportraityouhavegotthere,thenamebywhichherinfantwaschristenedintheFoundling,Iallowedmyselftoforgetmyduty,anddreadfulconsequences,Iamafraid,havefollowedfromit。I’lltellyouthetruth,asplainlyasIcan。AfewmonthsfromthetimewhenIhadinformedtheladyofherbaby’sname,therecametoourinstitutioninthecountryanotherlady(astranger),whoseobjectwastoadoptoneofourchildren。Shebroughttheneedfulpermissionwithher,andafterlookingatagreatmanyofthechildren,withoutbeingabletomakeuphermind,shetookasuddenfancytooneofthebabies——aboy——undermycare。Try,praytry,tocomposeyourself,sir!It’snousedisguisingitanylonger。Thechildthestrangertookawaywasthechildofthatladywhoseportraithangsthere!"
  Mr。Wildingstartedtohisfeet。"Impossible!"hecriedout,vehemently。"Whatareyoutalkingabout?Whatabsurdstoryareyoutellingmenow?There’sherportrait!Haven’tItoldyousoalready?Theportraitofmymother!"
  "WhenthatunhappyladyremovedyoufromtheFoundling,inafteryears,"saidMrs。Goldstraw,gently,"shewasthevictim,andyouwerethevictim,sir,ofadreadfulmistake。"
  Hedroppedbackintohischair。"Theroomgoesroundwithme,"hesaid。"Myhead!myhead!"Thehousekeeperroseinalarm,andopenedthewindows。Beforeshecouldgettothedoortocallforhelp,asuddenburstoftearsrelievedtheoppressionwhichhadatfirstalmostappearedtothreatenhislife。HesignedentreatinglytoMrs。Goldstrawnottoleavehim。Shewaiteduntiltheparoxysmofweepinghadwornitselfout。Heraisedhisheadasherecoveredhimself,andlookedatherwiththeangryunreasoningsuspicionofaweakman。
  "Mistake?"hesaid,wildlyrepeatingherlastword。"HowdoIknowyouarenotmistakenyourself?"
  "ThereisnohopethatIammistaken,sir。Iwilltellyouwhy,whenyouarebetterfittohearit。"
  "Now!now!"
  ThetoneinwhichhespokewarnedMrs。Goldstrawthatitwouldbecruelkindnesstolethimcomforthimselfamomentlongerwiththevainhopethatshemightbewrong。Afewwordsmorewouldendit,andthosefewwordsshedeterminedtospeak。
  "Ihavetoldyou,"shesaid,"thatthechildoftheladywhoseportraithangsthere,wasadoptedinitsinfancy,andtakenawaybyastranger。IamascertainofwhatIsayasthatIamnowsittinghere,obligedtodistressyou,sir,sorelyagainstmywill。Pleasetocarryyourmindon,now,toaboutthreemonthsafterthattime。
  IwasthenattheFoundling,inLondon,waitingtotakesomechildrentoourinstitutioninthecountry。Therewasaquestionthatdayaboutnaminganinfant——aboy——whohadjustbeenreceived。
  WegenerallynamedthemoutoftheDirectory。Onthisoccasion,oneofthegentlemenwhomanagedtheHospitalhappenedtobelookingovertheRegister。Henoticedthatthenameofthebabywhohadbeenadopted(’WalterWilding’)wasscratchedout——forthereason,ofcourse,thatthechildhadbeenremovedforgoodfromourcare。
  ’Here’sanametolet,’hesaid。’Giveittothenewfoundlingwhohasbeenreceivedto—day。’Thenamewasgiven,andthechildwaschristened。You,sir,werethatchild。"
  Thewine—merchant’sheaddroppedonhisbreast。"Iwasthatchild!"
  hesaidtohimself,tryinghelplesslytofixtheideainhismind。
  "Iwasthatchild!"
  "NotverylongafteryouhadbeenreceivedintotheInstitution,sir,"pursuedMrs。Goldstraw,"Ileftmysituationthere,tobemarried。Ifyouwillrememberthat,andifyoucangiveyourmindtoit,youwillseeforyourselfhowthemistakehappened。Betweenelevenandtwelveyearspassedbeforethelady,whomyouhavebelievedtobeyourmother,returnedtotheFoundling,tofindherson,andtoremovehimtoherownhome。Theladyonlyknewthatherinfanthadbeencalled’WalterWilding。’Thematronwhotookpityonher,couldbutpointouttheonly’WalterWilding’knownintheInstitution。I,whomighthavesetthematterright,wasfarawayfromtheFoundlingandallthatbelongedtoit。Therewasnothing——
  therewasreallynothingthatcouldpreventthisterriblemistakefromtakingplace。Ifeelforyou——Idoindeed,sir!Youmustthink——andwithreason——thatitwasinanevilhourthatIcamehere(innocentlyenough,I’msure),toapplyforyourhousekeeper’splace。IfeelasifIwastoblame——IfeelasifIoughttohavehadmoreself—command。IfIhadonlybeenabletokeepmyfacefromshowingyouwhatthatportraitandwhatyourownwordsputintomymind,youneednever,toyourdyingday,haveknownwhatyouknownow。"
  Mr。Wildinglookedupsuddenly。Theinbredhonestyofthemanroseinprotestagainstthehousekeeper’slastwords。Hismindseemedtosteadyitself,forthemoment,undertheshockthathadfallenonit。
  "Doyoumeantosaythatyouwouldhaveconcealedthisfrommeifyoucould?"heexclaimed。
  "IhopeIshouldalwaystellthetruth,sir,ifIwasasked,"saidMrs。Goldstraw。"AndIknowitisbetterforMEthatIshouldnothaveasecretofthissortweighingonmymind。ButisitbetterforYOU?Whatusecanitservenow—?"
  "Whatuse?Why,goodLord!ifyourstoryistrue——"
  "ShouldIhavetoldit,sir,asIamnowsituated,ifithadnotbeentrue?"
  "Ibegyourpardon,"saidthewine—merchant。"Youmustmakeallowanceforme。ThisdreadfuldiscoveryissomethingIcan’trealiseevenyet。Welovedeachothersodearly——IfeltsofondlythatIwasherson。Shedied,Mrs。Goldstraw,inmyarms——shediedblessingmeasonlyamotherCOULDhaveblessedme。Andnow,afteralltheseyears,tobetoldshewasNOTmymother!Ome,Ome!I
  don’tknowwhatIamsaying!"hecried,astheimpulseofself—
  controlunderwhichhehadspokenamomentsince,flickered,anddiedout。"Itwasnotthisdreadfulgrief——itwassomethingelsethatIhaditinmymindtospeakof。Yes,yes。Yousurprisedme——
  youwoundedmejustnow。Youtalkedasifyouwouldhavehiddenthisfromme,ifyoucould。Don’ttalkinthatwayagain。Itwouldhavebeenacrimetohavehiddenit。Youmeanwell,Iknow。I
  don’twanttodistressyou——youareakind—heartedwoman。Butyoudon’trememberwhatmypositionis。SheleftmeallthatIpossess,inthefirmpersuasionthatIwasherson。Iamnotherson。I
  havetakentheplace,Ihaveinnocentlygottheinheritanceofanotherman。Hemustbefound!HowdoIknowheisnotatthismomentinmisery,withoutbreadtoeat?Hemustbefound!Myonlyhopeofbearingupagainsttheshockthathasfallenonme,isthehopeofdoingsomethingwhichSHEwouldhaveapproved。Youmustknowmore,Mrs。Goldstraw,thanyouhavetoldmeyet。Whowasthestrangerwhoadoptedthechild?Youmusthaveheardthelady’sname?"
  "Ineverheardit,sir。Ihaveneverseenher,orheardofher,since。"
  "Didshesaynothingwhenshetookthechildaway?Searchyourmemory。Shemusthavesaidsomething。"
  "Onlyonething,sir,thatIcanremember。Itwasamiserablybadseason,thatyear;andmanyofthechildrenweresufferingfromit。