BIBLIOGRAPHICAL
Thepaperscollectedhereunderthenameof’MyLiteraryPassions’wereprintedseriallyinaperiodicalofsuchvastcirculationthattheymightwellhavebeensupposedtohavefoundtherealltheacceptancethatcouldbereasonablyhopedforthem。Nevertheless,theywerereissuedinavolumetheyearaftertheyfirstappeared,in1895,andtheyhadapleasingshareofsuchfavorastheirauthor’sbookshaveenjoyed。Butitistobedoubtedwhetheranyonelikedreadingthemsomuchashelikedwritingthem——say,sometimeintheyears1893and1894,inaNewYorkflat,wherehecouldlookfromhisloftywindowsovertwomilesandahalfofwoodlandinCentralPark,andhalloohisfancywhereverhechoseinthatfaeryrealmofbookswhichhere—enteredinreminiscencesperhapstoofondattimes,andperhapsalwaystooeagerforthereader’sfollowing。Thenamewasthoughtbythefriendlyeditorofthepopularpublicationwheretheywereserializedamainpartofsuchinspirationastheymightbeconjecturedtohave,andwas,asseldomhappenswitheditorandauthor,cordiallyagreeduponbeforetheywerebegun。
Thenamesays,indeed,soexactlyandsofullywhattheyarethatlittleremainsfortheirbibliographertoaddbeyondthemeagrehistoricaldetailheregiven。Theirshortandsimpleannalscouldbeekedoutbyconfidenceswhichwouldnotappreciablyenrichthematerialsoftheliteraryhistoryoftheirtime,anditseemsbettertoleavethemtotheimaginationofsuchposterityastheymayreach。Theyareratherhelplesslyfrank,butnot,Ihope,withalltheirratherhelplessfrankness,offensivelyfrank。Theyareatleastnotpartofthepolemicwhichtheirauthorsustainedintheessaysfollowingtheminthisvolume,andwhichmighthavebeencalled,inconformitywith’MyLiteraryPassions’,bythetitleof’MyLiteraryOpinions’betterthanbythevaguenamewhichtheyactuallywear。
Theydeal,tobesure,withtheofficeofCriticismandtheartofFiction,andsofartheirpresentnameisnotamisnomer。Itfollowsthemfromanearlierdateandcouldnoteasilybechanged,anditmayservetorecalltoaneldergenerationthanthisthetimewhentheirauthorwasbreakingsomanylancesinthegreat,forgottenwarbetweenRealismandRomanticismthatthefloorofthe"Editor’sStudy"inHarper’sMagazinewasstrewnwiththeembattledsplinters。The"Editor’sStudy"isnowquiteanotherplace,buthewhooriginallyimagineditin1886,andabodeinituntil1892,madeitatoncethesceneofsuchconstantoffencethathehadnotime,ifhehadthetemper,fordefence。
ThegreatZola,orcallhimtheimmenseZola,wastheprimemoverintheattackuponthemastersoftheRomanticisticschool;buthelivedtoownthathehadfoughtalosingfight,andtherearesomeproofsthathewasright。TheRealists,whowereundoubtedlythemastersoffictionintheirpassinggeneration,andwhoprevailednotonlyinFrance,butinRussia,inScandinavia,inSpain,inPortugal,wereoverborneinallAnglo—SaxoncountriesbytheinnumerablehostsofRomanticism,whotothisdaypossesstheland;thoughstill,wheneverayoungnovelistdoesworkinstantlyrecognizableforitstruthandbeautyamongus,heisseenandfelttohavewroughtinthespiritofRealism。Notevenyet,however,doestheaveragecriticrecognizethis,andsuchlessonasthe"Editor’sStudy"assumedtoteachremainshereinallitsessentialsforhisimprovement。
Monthaftermonthforthesixyearsinwhichthe"Editor’sStudy"
continuedinthekeepingofitsfirstoccupant,itslessonwasmoreorlessstormilydelivered,totheexclusion,forthegreaterpart,ofotherprophecy,butithasnotbeenfoundwelltokeepthetempestuousmanneralongwiththefulminantmatterinthisvolume。Whentheauthorcametorevisethematerial,hefoundsinsagainsttastewhichhiszealforrighteousnesscouldnotsufficetoatonefor。Hedidnothesitatetoomittheproofsofthese,andsofartomakehimselfnotonlyaprecept,butanexampleincriticism。Hehopesthatinotherandslighterthingshehasbetteredhisowninstruction,andthatinformandinfactthebookisaltogetherlesscrudeandlessrudethanthepapersfromwhichithasherebeenasecondtimeevolved。
Thepapers,astheyappearedfrommonthtomonth,werenottheproductofthoseunitiesoftimeandplacewhichwerethehappyconditioningof’MyLiteraryPassions。’Theycouldnothavebeenwritteninquitesomanyplacesastimes,buttheyenjoyedacomparablevarietyoforigin。
BeginninginBoston,theywerecontinuedinaBostonsuburb,ontheshoresofLakeGeorge,inaWesternNewYorkhealthresort,inBuffalo,inNahant;once,twice,andthriceinNewYork,withreversionstoBoston,andsummerexcursionstothehillsandwatersofNewEngland,untilitseemedthattheirauthorhadatlastsaidhissay,andhevoluntarilylapsedintosilencewiththeapplauseoffriendsandenemiesalike。
Thepapershadmadehimmoreofthelastthanofthefirst,butnotasstillappearstohimwithgreaterreason。Atmomentshisdeliverancesseemedtostirpeopleofdifferentmindstofuryintwocontinents,sofarastheywereEnglish—speaking,andonthecoastsofthesevenseas;
andsomeofthesecamebackathimwithsuchviolentpersonalitiesasitishissatisfactiontorememberthatheneverindulgedinhisattacksupontheirtheoriesofcriticismandfiction。Hisopinionswerealwaysimpersonal;andnowastheirmannerratherthantheirmakehasbeenslightlytempered,itmaysurprisethebelatedreadertolearnthatitwasthebeliefofoneEnglishcriticthattheirauthorhad"placedhimselfbeyondthepaleofdecency"bythem。Itoughttobelesssurprisingthat,sincethesedreadfulwordswerewrittenofhim,morethanonemagnanimousEnglishmanhaspenitentlyexpressedtotheauthorthefeelingthathewasnotsofarwronginhisoverboldlyhazardedconvictions。Thepenitenceofhiscountrymenisstillwaitingexpression,butitmaycometothatwhentheyhaverecurredtotheevidencesofhisoffenceintheirpresentshape。
KITTERYPOINT,MAINE,July,1909。
MYLITERARYPASSIONS
I。THEBOOKCASEATHOME
Togiveanaccountofone’sreadingisinsomesorttogiveanaccountofone’slife;andIhopethatIshallnotoffendthosewhofollowmeinthesepapers,ifIcannothelpspeakingofmyselfinspeakingoftheauthorsImustcallmymasters:mymastersnotbecausetheytaughtmethisorthatdirectly,butbecauseIhadsuchdelightinthemthatI
couldnotfailtoteachmyselffromthemwhateverIwascapableoflearning。IdonotknowwhetherIhavebeenwhatpeoplecallagreatreader;Icannotclaimeventohavebeenaverywisereader;butIhavealwaysbeenconsciousofahighpurposetoreadmuchmore,andmorediscreetly,thanIhaveeverreallydone,andprobablyitisfromthevantage—groundofthisgoodintentionthatIshallsometimesbefoundwritinghereratherthanfromthefactsofthecase。
ButIamprettysurethatIbeganright,andthatifIhadalwayskepttheloftylevelwhichIstruckattheoutsetIshouldhavetherighttouseauthorityinthesereminiscenceswithoutabadconscience。Ishalltrynottouseauthority,however,andIdonotexpecttospeakhereofallmyreading,whetherithasbeenmuchorlittle,butonlyofthosebooks,orofthoseauthorsthatIhavefeltagenuinepassionfor。I
haveknownsuchpassionsateveryperiodofmylife,butitismainlyofthelovesofmyyouththatIshallwrite,andIshallwriteallthemorefranklybecausemyownyouthnowseemstomerathermorealienthanthatofanyotherperson。
IthinkthatIcameofareadingrace,whichhasalwayslovedliteratureinaway,andinspiteofvaryingfortunesandmanychanges。Fromaletterofmygreat—grandmother’swrittentoastubborndaughteruponsomeunfilialbehavior,likerunningawaytobemarried,Isuspectthatshewasfondofthehigh—coloredfictionofherday,forshetellsthewilfulchildthatshehas"plantedadaggerinhermother’sheart,"andIshouldnotbesurprisedifitwerefromthisfine—languagedladythatmygrandfatherderivedhistasteforpoetryratherthanfromhisfather,whowasofaworldlywisermind。Tobesure,hebecameaFriendbyConvincementastheQuakerssay,andsoIcannotimaginethathewasaltogetherworldly;buthehadaneyetothemainchance:hefoundedtheindustryofmakingflannelsinthelittleWelshtownwherehelived,andheseemstohavegrownricher,forhisdayandplace,thananyofushavesincegrownforours。Mygrandfather,indeed,wasconcernedchieflyingettingawayfromtheworldanditswickedness。Hecametothiscountryearlyinthenineteenthcenturyandsettledhisfamilyinalog—cabinintheOhiowoods,thattheymightbesafefromthesinisterinfluencesofthevillagewherehewasmanagingsomewoollen—mills。Buthekepthisaffectionforcertainpoetsofthegraver,nottosaygloomiersort,andhemusthavesufferedhischildrentoreadthem,pendingthatgreatquestionoftheirsouls’salvationwhichwasalifelongtroubletohim。
Myfather,atanyrate,hadsuchadecidedbentinthedirectionofliterature,thathewasnotcontentinanyofhisseveraleconomicalexperimentstillhebecametheeditorofanewspaper,whichwasthenthesolemeansofsatisfyingaliterarypassion。Hispaper,atthedatewhenIbegantoknowhim,wasaliving,comfortableanddecent,butwithouttheleastpromiseofwealthinit,orthehopeevenofamuchbettercondition。Ithinknowthathewaswisenottocarefortheadvancementwhichmostofushaveourheartssetupon,andthatitwasoneofhisfinestqualitiesthathewascontentwithalotinlifewherehewasnotexemptfromworkwithhishands,andyetwherehewasnotsopressedbyneedbuthecouldgivehimselfatwillnotonlytothethingsofthespirit,butthethingsofthemindtoo。Afteraseasonofscepticismhehadbecomeareligiousman,liketherestofhisrace,butinhisownfashion,whichwasnotatallthefashionofmygrandfather:aFriendwhohadmarriedoutofMeeting,andhadendedaperfervidMethodist。Myfather,whocouldnevergethimselfconvertedatanyofthecamp—meetingswheremygrandfatheroftenledtheforcesofprayertohissupport,andhadatlasttobegivenupindespair,fellinwiththewritingsofEmanuelSwedenborg,andembracedthedoctrineofthatphilosopherwithacontentthathaslastedhimallthedaysofhismanyyears。EversinceI
canremember,theworksofSwedenborgformedalargepartofhislibrary;
hereadthemmuchhimself,andmuchtomymother,andoccasionallya"MemorableRelation"fromthemtouschildren。Buthedidnotforcethemuponournotice,norurgeustoreadthem,andIthinkthiswasverywell。Isupposehisconscienceandhisreasonkepthimfromdoingso。
Butinregardtootherbooks,hisfondnesswastoomuchforhim,andwhenIbegantoshowalikingforliteraturehewaseagertoguidemychoice。
Hisownchoicewasforpoetry,andthemostofourlibrary,whichwasnotgiventotheology,wasgiventopoetry。Icallitthelibrarynow,butthenwecalleditthebookcase,andthatwaswhatliterallyitwas,becauseIbelievethatwhateverwehadcalledourmodestcollectionofbooks,itwasalargerprivatecollectionthananyotherinthetownwherewelived。Stillitwasallheld,andshutwithglassdoors,inacaseofveryfewshelves。Itwasnotconsiderablyenlargedduringmychildhood,forfewbookscametomyfatheraseditor,andheindulgedhimselfinbuyingthemevenmorerarely。Mygrandfather’sbookstore(itwasalsothevillagedrug—store)hadthentheonlystockofliteratureforsaleintheplace;andonce,whenHarper&Brothers’agentcametoreplenishit,begavemyfatherseveralvolumesforreview。OneofthesewasacopyofThomson’sSeasons,afinelyillustratededition,whosepicturesIknewlongbeforeIknewthepoetry,andthoughtthemthemostbeautifulthingsthateverwere。Myfatherreadpassagesofthebookaloud,andhewantedmetoreaditallmyself。ForthematterofthathewantedmetoreadCowper,fromwhomnoonecouldgetanythingbutgood,andhewantedmetoreadByron,fromwhomIcouldthenhavegotnoharm;wegetharmfromtheevilweunderstand。HelovedBurns,too,andheusedtoreadaloudfromhim,Imustown,tomyinexpressibleweariness。Icouldnotawaywiththatdialect,andIcouldnotthenfeelthecharmofthepoet’swit,northetenderbeautyofhispathos。Moore,Icouldmanagebetter;andwhenmyfatherread"LallaRookh"tomymotherIsatuptolisten,andenteredintoallthewoesofIraninthestoryofthe"FireWorshippers。"Idrewthelineatthe"VeiledProphetofKhorassan,"thoughIhadsomesenseofthehumorofthepoet’sconceptionofthecriticin"Fadladeen。"ButIlikedScott’spoemsfarbetter,andgotfromIspahantoEdinburghwithagladalacrityoffancy。Ifollowedthe"LadyoftheLake"throughout,andwhenIfirstbegantocontriveversesofmyownIfoundthatpoemafitmodelinmoodandmetre。
Amongothervolumesofverseonthetopshelfofthebookcase,ofwhichI
usedtolookattheoutsidewithoutpenetratingdeeplywithin,werePope’stranslationoftheIliadandtheOdyssey,andDryden’sVirgil,prettylittletomesintree—calf,publishedbyJamesCrissyinPhiladelphia,andillustratedwithsmallcopper—plates,whichsomehowseemedtoputthematterhopelesslybeyondme。ItwasasiftheysaidtomeinsomanywordsthatliteraturewhichfurnishedthesubjectsofsuchpicturesIcouldnothopetounderstand,andneednottry。Atanyrate,Iletthemaloneforthetime,andIdidnotmeddlewithavolumeofShakespeare,ingreenclothandcruellyfineprint,whichoverawedmeinlikemannerwithitswood—cuts。IcannotsayjustwhyIconceivedthattherewassomethingunhallowedinthematterofthebook;perhapsthiswasatintfromthereputationoftheratherprofligateyoungmanfromwhommyfatherhadit。IfhewerenotprofligateIaskhispardon。I
havenottheleastnotionwhohewas,butthatwasthenotionIhadofhim,whoeverhewas,orwhereverhenowis。Theremayneverhavebeensuchayoungmanatall;theimpressionIhadmayhavebeenpureinventionofmyown,likemanythingswithchildren,whodonotverydistinctlyknowtheirdreamsfromtheirexperiences,andliveintheworldwherebothprojectthesamequalityofshadow。
Therewere,ofcourse,otherbooksinthebookcase,whichmyconsciousnessmadenoaccountof,andIspeakonlyofthoseIremember。
FictiontherewasnoneatallthatIcanrecall,exceptPoe’s’TalesoftheGrotesqueandtheArabesque’(Ilongafflictedmyselfastowhatthosewordsmeant,whenImighteasilyhaveaskedandfoundout)andBulwer’sLastDaysofPompeii,allinthesamekindofbinding。Historyisknown,tomyyoungremembranceofthatlibrary,byaHistoryoftheUnitedStates,whosedustandashesIhardlymademywaythrough;andbya’ChronicleoftheConquestofGranada’,bytheeverdearandpreciousFrayAntonioAgapida,whomIwaslonginmakingouttobeoneandthesameasWashingtonIrving。
Inschooltherewasaslittleliteraturethenasthereisnow,andI
cannotsayanythingworseofourschoolreading;butIwasnotreallyverymuchinschool,andsoIgotsmallharmfromit。Theprinting—
officewasmyschoolfromaveryearlydate。Myfatherthoroughlybelievedinit,andhehadhisbeliefsastowork,whichheillustratedassoonaswewereoldenoughtolearnthetradehefollowed。Wecouldgotoschoolandstudy,orwecouldgointotheprinting—officeandwork,withanequalchanceoflearning,butwecouldnotbeidle;wemustdosomething,foroursouls’sake,thoughhewaswillingenoughweshouldplay,andhelikedhimselftogointothewoodswithus,andtoenjoythepleasuresthatmanhoodcansharewithchildhood。Isupposethatastheworldgoesnowwewerepoor。Hisincomewasneverabovetwelvehundredayear,andhisfamilywaslarge;butnobodywasrichthereorthen;welivedinthesimpleabundanceofthattimeandplace,andwedidnotknowthatwewerepoor。Asyettheunequalmodernconditionswereundreamedof(whoindeedcouldhavedreamedofthemfortyorfiftyyearsago?)inthelittleSouthernOhiotownwherenearlythewholeofmymosthappyboyhoodwaspassed。
II。GOLDSMITH
WhenIbegantohaveliterarylikingsofmyown,andtolovecertainbooksaboveothers,thefirstauthorsofmyheartwereGoldsmith,Cervantes,andIrving。InthesharplyforeshortenedperspectiveofthepastIseemtohavereadthemallatonce,butIamawareofanorderoftimeinthepleasuretheygaveme,andIknowthatGoldsmithcamefirst。
HecamesoearlythatIcannottellwhenorhowIbegantoreadhim,butitmusthavebeenbeforeIwastenyearsold。Ireadotherbooksaboutthattime,notablyasmallbookonGrecianandRomanmythology,whichI
perusedwithsuchapassionforthosepagangodsandgoddessesthat,ifithadeverbeenaquestionofsacrificingtoDiana,IdonotreallyknowwhetherIshouldhavebeenabletorefuse。Iadoredindiscriminatelyallthetribesofnymphsandnaiads,demigodsandheroes,aswellasthehighonesofOlympus;andIamafraidthatbydayIdweltinaworldpeopledandruledbythem,thoughIfaithfullysaidmyprayersatnight,andfellasleepinsorrowformysins。IdonotknowintheleasthowGoldsmith’sGreececameintomyhands,thoughIfancyitmusthavebeenprocuredformebecauseofatastewhichIshowedforthatkindofreading,andIcanimaginenogreaterluckforasmallboyinasmalltownofSouthwesternOhiowell—nighfiftyyearsago。Ihavethebooksyet;twolittle,stoutvolumesinfineprint,withthemarksofwearonthem,butwithoutthosedishonorableblots,orthoseotherinjurieswhichboysinflictuponbooksinresentmentoftheirdulness,oroutofmerewantonness。Iwasalwayssensitivetothemaltreatmentofbooks;Icouldnotbeartoseeabookfaceddownordogs—earedorbroken—backed。Itwaslikeahurtoraninsulttoathingthatcouldfeel。
Goldsmith’sHistoryofRomecametomemuchlater,butquiteasimmemorably,andafterIhadformedapreferencefortheGreekRepublics,whichIdaresaywasnotmistaken。OfcourseIlikedAthensbest,andyettherewassomethinginthefinebehavioroftheSpartansinbattle,whichwonaheartformedforhero—worship。Imasteredthenotionoftheircommunism,andapprovedoftheirironmoney,withthepovertyitobligedthemto,yetsomehowtheircrueltreatmentoftheHelotsfailedtoshockme;perhapsIforgaveittotheirpatriotism,asIhadtoforgivemanyuglyfactsinthehistoryoftheRomanstotheirs。TherewashardlyanysortofbloodshedwhichIwouldnotpardoninthosedaystotheslayersoftyrants;andtheswaggerformofsuchasdespatchedadespotwithafinespeechwassomuchtomylikingthatIcouldonlygrievethatIwasborntoolatetodoandtosaythosethings。
IdonotthinkIyetfeltthebeautyoftheliteraturewhichmadethemallliveinmyfancy,thatIconceivedofGoldsmithasanartistusingformyrapturethefinestofthearts;andyetIhadbeentaughttoseethelovelinessofpoetry,andwasalreadytryingtomakeitonmyownpooraccount。ItriedtomakeverseslikethoseIlistenedtowhenmyfatherreadMooreandScotttomymother,butIheardthemwithnosuchhappinessasIreadmybelovedhistories,thoughIneverthoughtthenofattemptingtowritelikeGoldsmith。IacceptedhisbeautifulworkasignorantlyasIdidmyotherblessings。IwasconcernedingettingattheGreeksandRomans,andIdidnotknowthroughwhatnimbleairandbywhatlovelywaysIwasledtothem。SomeretrospectiveperceptionofthiscamelongafterwardwhenIreadhisessays,andafterIknewallofhispoetry,andlateryetwhenIreadthe’VicarofWakefield’;butforthepresentmyeyeswereholden,astheeyesofaboymostlyareintheworldofart。WhatIwantedwithmyGreeksandRomansafterIgotatthemwastobelikethem,oratleasttoturnthemtoaccountinverse,andindramaticverseatthat。TheRomanswerelesscivilizedthantheGreeks,andsoweremorelikeboys,andmoretoaboy’spurpose。IdidnotmakeliteratureoftheGreeks,butIgotawholetragedyoutoftheRomans;itwasarhymedtragedy,andinoctosyllabicverse,likethe"LadyoftheLake。"Imeantittobeactedbymyschoolmates,butIamnotsurethatIevermadeitknowntothem。Still,theywerenotignorantofmyreading,andIrememberhowproudIwaswhenacertainboy,whohadalwayswhippedmewhenwefoughttogether,andsooutrankedmeinthatlittleboys’world,oncesenttoaskmethenameoftheRomanemperorwholamentedatnightfall,whenhehaddonenothingworthy,thathehadlostaday。Theboywasgoingtousethestory,inacomposition,aswecalledtheschoolthemesthen,andItoldhimtheemperor’sname;I
couldnottellhimnowwithoutturningtothebook。
Myreadinggavemenostandingamongtheboys,andIdidnotexpectittorankmewithboyswhoweremorevaliantinfightorinplay;andIhavesincefoundthatliteraturegivesonenomorecertainstationintheworldofmen’sactivities,eitheridleoruseful。Weliteraryfolktrytobelievethatitdoes,butthatisallnonsense。Ateveryperiodoflife,amongboysormen,weareacceptedwhentheyareatleisure,andwanttobeamused,andatbestwearetoleratedratherthanaccepted。
ImusthavetoldtheboysstoriesoutofmyGoldsmith’sGreeceandRome,oritwouldnothavebeenknownthatIhadreadthem,butIhavenorecollectionnowofdoingso,whileIdistinctlyrememberrehearsingtheallegoriesandfablesofthe’GestaRomanorum’,abookwhichseemstohavebeeninmyhandsaboutthesametimeoralittlelater。IhadadelightinthatstupidcollectionofmonkishlegendswhichIcannotaccountfornow,andwhichpersistedinspiteofthenightmareconfusionitmadeofmyancientGreeksandRomans。TheywerenotatalltheancientGreeksandRomansofGoldsmith’shistories。
IcannotsayatwhattimesIreadthesebooks,buttheymusthavebeenoddtimes,forlifewasveryfullofplaythen,andwasalreadybeginningtobetroubledwithwork。AsIhavesaid,Iwastoandfrobetweentheschoolhouseandtheprinting—officesomuchthatwhenItiredoftheoneImusthavebeenverypromptlygivenmychoiceoftheother。Thereading,however,somehowwentonprettyconstantly,andnodoubtmyloveforitwonmeachanceforit。Thereweresomefamouscherry—treesinouryard,which,asIlookbackatthem,seemtohavebeeninflowerorfruittheyearround;andinoneofthemtherewasalevelbranchwhereaboycouldsitwithabooktillhisdanglinglegswenttosleep,ortillsomeidlerorbusierboycametothegateandcalledhimdowntoplaymarblesorgoswimming。Whenthishappenedtheancientworldwasrolleduplikeascroll,andputawayuntilthenextday,withallitsoratorsandconspirators,itsnymphsandsatyrs,godsanddemigods;thoughsometimestheyescapedatnightandgotintotheboy’sdreams。
IdonotthinkIcaredasmuchassomeoftheotherboysforthe’ArabianNights’or’RobinsonCrusoe,’butwhenitcametothe’IngeniousGentlemanofLaMancha,’Iwasnotonlyfirst,Iwassole。
BeforeIspeak,however,ofthebeneficenthumoristwhonexthadmyboyishheartafterGoldsmith,letmeacquitmyselfinfullofmydebttothatnotunequalorunkindredspirit。IhavesaiditwaslongafterI
hadreadthosehistories,fullofhisinalienablecharm,merepot—boilersastheywere,andfarbeneathhismorewillingefforts,thatIcametoknowhispoetry。Myfathermusthavereadthe"DesertedVillage"tous,andtoldussomethingoftheauthor’spatheticlife,forIcannotrememberwhenIfirstknewof"sweetAuburn,"orhadthelightofthepoet’sowntroubleddayuponthe"loveliestvillageoftheplain。"
The’VicarofWakefield’musthavecomeintomylifeafterthatpoemandbefore’TheTraveler’。ItwaswhenIwouldhavesaidthatIknewallGoldsmith;weoftengiveourselvescreditforknowledgeinthiswaywithouthavinganytangibleassets;andmyreadinghasalwaysbeenverydesultory。Ishouldliketosayherethatthereadingofanyonewhoreadstomuchpurposeisalwaysverydesultory,thoughperhapsIhadbetternotsayso,butmerelystatethefactinmycase,andownthatI
neverreadanyoneauthorquitethroughwithoutwanderingfromhimtoothers。WhenIfirstreadthe’VicarofWakefield’(forIhavesincereaditseveraltimes,andhopeyettoreaditmanytimes),Ifounditspersonsandincidentsfamiliar,andsoIsupposeImusthavehearditread。Itisstillformeoneofthemostmodernnovels:thatistosay,oneofthebest。Itisunmistakablygooduptoacertainpoint,andthenunmistakablybad,butwithalwaysgoodenoughinittobeforeverimperishable。Kindnessandgentlenessareneveroutoffashion;itistheseinGoldsmithwhichmakehimourcontemporary,anditisworththewhileofanyyoungpersonpresentlyintendingdeathlessrenowntotakealittlethoughtofthem。Theyarethesourceofallrefinement,andIdonotbelievethatthebestartinanykindexistswithoutthem。Thestyleistheman,andhecannothidehimselfinanygarbofwordssothatweshallnotknowsomehowwhatmannerofmanheiswithinit;hisspeechbetrayethhim,notonlyastohiscountryandhisrace,butmoresubtlyyetastohisheart,andthelovesandhatesofhisheart。AstoGoldsmith,Idonotthinkthatamanofharshandarrogantnature,ofworldlyandselfishsoul,couldeverhavewrittenhisstyle,andIdonotthinkthat,infargreatermeasurethancriticismhasrecognized,hisspiritualquality,hisessentialfriendliness,expresseditselfintheliterarybeautythatwinstheheartaswellastakesthefancyinhiswork。
Ishouldhavemyreservationsandmyanimadversionsifitcametoclosecriticismofhiswork,butIamgladthathewasthefirstauthorI
loved,andthatevenbeforeIknewIlovedhimIwashisdevotedreader。
IwasnotconsciouslyhisadmirertillIbegantoread,whenIwasfourteen,alittlevolumeofhisessays,madeup,Idaresay,fromthe’CitizenoftheWorld’andotherunsuccessfulventuresofhis。ItcontainedthepapersonBeauTibbs,amongothers,andItriedtowritesketchesandstudiesoflifeintheirmanner。ButthisattemptatGoldsmith’smannerfollowedalongtimeafterItriedtowriteinthestyleofEdgarA。Poe,asIknewitfromhis’TalesoftheGrotesqueerredArabesque。’Isupposetheverypoorestofthesewasthe"DevilintheBelfry,"butsuchasitwasIfolloweditascloselyasIcouldinthe"DevilintheSmoke—Pipes";Imeanttobacco—pipes。TheresemblancewasnotedbythosetowhomIreadmystory;Ialonecouldnotseeitorwouldnotownit,andIreallyfeltitahardshipthatIshouldbefoundtohaveproducedanimitation。
ItwasthefirsttimeIhadimitatedaprosewriter,thoughIhadimitatedseveralpoetslikeMoore,Campbell,andGoldsmithhimself。
Ihavenevergreatlylovedanauthorwithoutwishingtowritelikehim。
Ihavenownoreluctancetoconfessthat,andIdonotseewhyIshouldnotsaythatitwasalongtimebeforeIfounditbesttobeaslikemyselfasIcould,evenwhenIdidnotthinksowellofmyselfasofsomeothers。IhopeIshallalwaysbeableandwillingtolearnsomethingfromthemastersofliteratureandstillbemyself,butfortheyoungwriterthisseemsimpossible。Hemustformhimselffromtimetotimeuponthedifferentauthorsheisinlovewith,butwhenhehasdonethishemustwishitnottobeknown,forthatisnaturaltoo。Theloveralwaysdesirestoignoretheobjectofhispassion,andtheadorationwhichayoungwriterhasforagreatoneistrulyapassionpassingtheloveofwomen。IthinkithardlylessfortunatethatCervanteswasoneofmyearlypassions,thoughIsatathisfeetwithnomoresenseofhismasterythanIhadofGoldsmith’s。
III。CERVANTES
IrecallveryfullythemomentandtheplacewhenIfirstheardof’DonQuixote,’whileasyetIcouldnotconnectitverydistinctlywithanybody’sauthorship。Iwasstilltooyoungtoconceiveofauthorship,eveninmyowncase,andwrotemymiserableverseswithoutanynotionofliterature,orofanythingbutthepleasureofseeingthemactuallycomeoutrightlyrhymedandmeasured。Themomentwasatthecloseofasummer’sdayjustbeforesupper,which,inourhouse,wehadlawlesslylate,andtheplacewasthekitchenwheremymotherwasgoingaboutherwork,andlisteningasshecouldtowhatmyfatherwastellingmybrotherandmeandanapprenticeofours,whowaslikeabrothertousboth,ofabookthathehadonceread。Weboyswereallshellingpeas,butthestory,asitwenton,raptusfromthepooremploy,andwhateverourfingersweredoing,ourspiritswereawayinthatstrangelandofadventuresandmishaps,wherethefeveredlifeoftheknighttrulywithoutfearandwithoutreproachburneditselfout。Idaresaythatmyfathertriedtomakeusunderstandthesatiricalpurposeofthebook。
Ivaguelyrememberhisspeakingofthebooksofchivalryitwasmeanttoridicule;butaboycouldnotcareforthis,andwhatIlongedtodoatoncewastogetthatbookandplungeintoitsstory。Hetoldusatrandomoftheattackonthewindmillsandtheflocksofsheep,ofthenightinthevalleyofthefulling—millswiththeirtrip—hammers,oftheinnandthemuleteers,ofthetossingofSanchointheblanket,oftheislandthatwasgivenhimtogovern,andofallthemerrypranksattheduke’sandduchess’s,oftheliberationofthegalley—slaves,ofthecaptureofMambrino’shelmet,andofSancho’sinventionoftheenchantedDulcinea,andwhateverelsetherewaswonderfulanddelightfulinthemostwonderfulanddelightfulbookintheworld。Idonotknowwhenorwheremyfathergotitforme,andIamawareofanappreciabletimethatpassedbetweenmyhearingofitandmyhavingit。Theeventmusthavebeenmostimportanttome,anditisstrangeIcannotfixthemomentwhenthepreciousstorycameintomyhands;thoughforthematterofthatthereisnothingmorecapriciousthanachild’smemory,whatitwillholdandwhatitwilllose。
ItiscertainmyDonQuixotewasintwosmall,stoutvolumesnotmuchbiggereachthanmyGoldsmith’s’Greece’,boundinasortoflaw—calf,wellfittedtowithstandtheweartheyweredestinedtoundergo。Thetranslationwas,ofcourse,theold—fashionedversionofJervas,which,whetheritwasacloselyfaithfulversionornot,washonesteighteenth—
centuryEnglish,andreportedfaithfullyenoughthespiritoftheoriginal。Ifithadanyliteraryinfluencewithmetheinfluencemusthavebeengood。ButIcannotmakeoutthatIwassensibleoftheliterature;itwastheforeverenchantingstorythatIenjoyed。
Iexultedintheboundlessfreedomofthedesign;theopenairofthatimmensescene,whereadventurefollowedadventurewiththenaturalsequenceoflife,andthedaysandthenightswerenotlongenoughfortheeventsthatthrongedthem,amidstthefieldsandwoods,thestreamsandhills,thehighwaysandbyways,hostelriesandhovels,prisonsandpalaces,whichwerethesettingofthatmatchlesshistory。ItookitassimplyasItookeverythingelseintheworldaboutme。ItwasfullofmeaningthatIcouldnotgrasp,andthereweresignificancesofthekindthatliteratureunhappilyaboundsin,buttheywerelostuponmyinnocence。Ididnotknowwhetheritwaswellwrittenornot;Ineverthoughtaboutthat;itwassimplythereinitsvastentirety,itsinexhaustibleopulence,andIwasrichinitbeyondthedreamsofavarice。
MyfathermusthavetoldusthatnightaboutCervantesaswellasabouthis’DonQuixote’,forIseemtohaveknownfromthebeginningthathewasonceaslaveinAlgiers,andthathehadlostahandinbattle,andI
lovedhimwithasortofpersonalaffection,asifhewerestilllivingandhecouldsomehowreturnmylove。HisnameandnatureendearedtheSpanishnameandnaturetome,sothattheywerealwaysmyromance,andtothisdayIcannotmeetaSpanishmanwithoutclothinghiminsomethingofthehonorandworshipIlavisheduponCervanteswhenIwasachild。
WhileIwasinthefullflushofthisardortherecametoseeourschool,oneday,aMexicangentlemanwhowasstudyingtheAmericansystemofeducation;amild,fat,saffronman,whomIcouldalmosthavediedtopleaseforCervantes’andDonQuixote’ssake,becauseIknewhespoketheirtongue。Buthesmileduponusall,andIhadnochancetodistinguishmyselffromtherestbyanyactofdevotionbeforetheblessedvisionfaded,thoughforlongafterwards,inimpassionedreveries,Iaccostedhimandclaimedhimkindredbecauseofmyfealty,andbecauseIwouldhavebeenSpanishifIcould。
Iwouldnothavehadtheboy—worldaboutmeknowanythingofthesefonddreams;butitwasmytastesalone,mypassions,whichwerealienthere;
ineverythingelseIwasasmuchacitizenasanyboywhohadneverheardofDonQuixote。ButIbelievethatIcarriedthebookaboutwithmemostofthetime,soasnottoloseanychancemomentofreadingit。Evenintheblankofcertainyears,whenIaddedlittleotherreadingtomystore,Imuststillhavebeenreadingit。Thiswasafterwehadremovedfromthetownwheretheearlieryearsofmyboyhoodwerepassed,andI
hadbarelyadjustedmyselftothestrangeenvironmentwhenoneofmyunclesaskedmetocomewithhimandlearnthedrugbusiness,intheplace,fortymilesaway,wherehepractisedmedicine。Wemadethelongjourney,longerthananyIhavemadesince,inthestage—coachofthosedays,andwearrivedathishouseabouttwilight,hegladtogethome,andIsicktodeathwithyearningforthehomeIhadleft。Idonotknowhowitwasthatinthisstate,whenalltheworldwasonehopelessblacknessaroundme,Ishouldhavegotmy’DonQuixote’outofmybag;
Iseemtohavehaditwithmeasanessentialpartofmyequipmentformynewcareer。PerhapsIhadbeenaskedtoshowit,withthenotionofbeguilingmefrommymisery;perhapsIwasmyselftryingtodrownmysorrowsinit。ButanyhowIhavebeforemenowthevisionofmysweetyoungauntandheryoungsisterlookingoverhershoulder,astheystoodtogetheronthelawninthesummereveninglight。MyauntheldmyDonQuixoteopeninonehand,whilesheclaspedwiththeotherthechildshecarriedonherarm。Shelookedatthebook,andthenfromtimetotimeshelookedatme,verykindlybutverycuriously,withafaintsmile,sothatasIstoodthere,inwardlywrithinginmybashfulness,IhadthesensethatinhereyesIwasaqueerboy。Shereturnedthebookwithoutcomment,aftersomequestions,andItookitofftomyroom,wheretheconfidentialfriendofCervantescriedhimselftosleep。
InthemorningIroseupandtoldthemIcouldnotstandit,andIwasgoinghome。Nothingtheycouldsayavailed,andmyunclewentdowntothestage—officewithmeandtookmypassageback。
Thehorrorofcholerawasthenintheland;andweheardinthestage—
officethatamanlaydeadofitinthehoteloverhead。Butmyuncleledmetohisdrugstore,wherethestagewastocallforme,andmademetastealittlecamphor;withthisprophylactic,CervantesandIsomehowgothometogetheralive。
Thereadingof’DonQuixote’wentonthroughoutmyboyhood,sothatI
cannotrecallanydistinctiveperiodofitwhenIwasnot,moreorless,readingthatbook。Inaboy’swayIknewitwellwhenIwasten,andafewyearsago,whenIwasfifty,ItookitupintheadmirablenewversionofOrmsby,andfounditsofullofmyselfandofmyownirrevocablepastthatIdidnotfinditverygay。ButImadeagreatmanydiscoveriesinit;thingsIhadnotdreamtofwerethere,andmustalwayshavebeenthere,andotherthingsworeanewface,andmadeaneweffectuponme。Ihadmydoubts,myreserves,whereonceIhadgivenitmywholeheartwithoutquestion,andyetinwhatformedthegreatnessofthebookitseemedtomegreaterthanever。Ibelievethatitsfreeandsimpledesign,whereeventfollowseventwithoutthefetteringcontrolofintrigue,butwhereallgrowsnaturallyoutofcharacterandconditions,isthesupremeformoffiction;andIcannothelpthinkingthatifweeverhaveagreatAmericannovelitmustbebuiltuponsomesuchlargeandnoblelines。Asforthecentralfigure,DonQuixotehimself,inhisdignityandgenerosity,hisunselfishideals,andhisfearlessdevotiontothem,heisalwaysheroicandbeautiful;andIwasgladtofindinmylatestlookathishistorythatIhadtrulyconceivedofhimatfirst,andhadfeltthesublimityofhisnature。Ididnotwanttolaughathimsomuch,andIcouldnotlaughatallanymoreatsomeofthethingsdonetohim。Oncetheyseemedfunny,butnowonlycruel,andevenstupid,sothatitwasstrangetorealizehisqualitiesandindignitiesasbothflowingfromthesamemind。Butinmymatureexperience,whichthrewabroaderlightonthefable,Iwashappytokeepmyoldloveofanauthorwhohadbeenalmostpersonally,deartome。
IV
IRVING
IhavetoldhowCervantesmadehisraceprecioustome,andIamsurethatitmusthavebeenhewhofittedmetounderstandandenjoytheAmericanauthorwhonowstayedmeonSpanishgroundandkeptmehappyinSpanishair,thoughIcannottracethetieintimeandcircumstancebetweenIrvingandCervantes。ThemostIcanmakesureofisthatIreadthe’ConquestofGranada’afterIreadDonQuixote,andthatIlovedthehistoriansomuchbecauseIhadlovedthenovelistmuchmore。OfcourseIdidnotperceivethenthatIrving’scharmcamelargelyfromCervantesandtheotherSpanishhumoristsyetunknowntome,andthathehadformedhimselfuponthemalmostasmuchasuponGoldsmith,butIdaresaythatthisfacthadinsensiblyagreatdealtodowithmyliking。AfterwardsI
cametoseeit,andatthesametimetoseewhatwasIrving’sowninIrving;tofeelhisnative,ifsomewhatattenuatedhumor,andhisoriginal,ifsomewhattoostudiedgrace。Butasyettherewasnocriticalquestionwithme。Igavemyheartsimplyandpassionatelytotheauthorwhomadethescenesofthatmostpathetichistoryliveinmysympathy,andcompanionedmewiththestatelyandgraciousactorsinthem。
IreallycannotsaynowwhetherIlovedtheMoorsortheSpaniardsmore。
Ifoughtonbothsides;IwouldnothavehadtheSpaniardsbeaten,andyetwhentheMoorslostIwasvanquishedwiththem;andwhenthepooryoungKingBoabdil(Iwashisdevotedpartisanandatthesametimeafollowerofhisfieryolduncleandrival,HametelZegri)heavedtheLastSighoftheMoor,ashiseyeslefttheroofsofGranadaforever,itwasasmuchmygriefasifithadburstfrommyownbreast。IputboththeseprincesintothefirstandlasthistoricalromanceIeverwrote。
Ihavenownoideawhattheydidinit,butasthestorynevercametoaconclusionitdoesnotgreatlymatter。IhadneveryetreadanhistoricalromancethatIcanmakesureof,andprobablymyattemptmusthavebeenbasedalmostsolelyuponthefactsofIrving’shistory。IamcertainIcouldnothavethoughtofaddinganythingtothem,oratallvaryingthem。
Inreadinghis’Chronicle’IsufferedforatimefromitsattributiontoFrayAntonioAgapida,thepiousmonkwhomhefeignstohavewrittenit,justasinreading’DonQuixote’IsufferedfromCervantesmasqueradingastheMoorishscribe,CidHametBenEngeli。Myfatherexplainedtheliterarycaprice,butitremainedaconfusionandatroubleforme,andI
madeapracticeofskippingthosepassageswhereeitherauthorinsisteduponhisinvention。IwillownthatIamrathergladthatsortofthingseemstobeoutoffashionnow,andIthinkthedirecterandfrankermethodsofmodernfictionwillforbiditsrevival。Thackeraywasfondofsuchopendisguises,andlikedtogreethisreaderfromthemaskofYellowplushandMichaelAngeloTitmarsh,butitseemstomethiswasinhisleastmodernmoments。
My’ConquestofGranada’wasintwooctavovolumes,boundindrabboards,andprintedonpaperverymuchyellowedwithtimeatitsirregularedges。
Idonotknowwhenthebookshappenedinmyhands。Ihavenoremembrancethattheywereinanywiseofferedorcommendedtome,andinasortofwaytheywereasauthenticallymineasifIhadmadethem。Isawthemathome,notmanymonthsago,inmyfather’slibrary(ithaslongoutgrowntheoldbookcase,whichhasgoneIknownotwhere),anduponthewholeI
rathershrankfromtakingthemdown,muchmorefromopeningthem,thoughIcouldnotsaywhy,unlessitwasfromthefearofperhapsfindingtheghostofmyboyishselfwithin,pressedflatlikeawitheredleaf,somewherebetweenthefamiliarpages。
WhenIlearnedSpanishitwaswiththepurpose,neveryetfulfilled,ofwritingthelifeofCervantes,althoughIhavesincehadsomeforty—oddyearstodoitin。Itaughtmyselfthelanguage,orbegantodoso,whenIknewnothingoftheEnglishgrammarbuttheprosodyattheendofthebook。Myfatherhadthecontemptoffamiliaritywithit,havinghimselfwrittenaverybriefsketchofouraccidence,andheseemstohaveletmeplungeintotheseaofSpanishverbsandadverbs,nounsandpronouns,andalltherest,whenasyetIcouldnotconfidentlycallthembyname,withtheserenebeliefthatifIdidnotswimIwouldstillsomehowgetashorewithoutsinking。Theend,perhaps,justifiedhim,andIsupposeIdidnotdoallthatworkwithoutgettingsomestrengthfromit;butIwishI
hadbackthetimethatitcostme;Ishouldliketowasteitinsomeotherway。However,timeseemedinterminablethen,andIthoughttherewouldbeenoughofitformeinwhichtoreadallSpanishliterature;or,atleast,Ididnotproposetodoanythingless。
IfollowedIrving,too,inmylaterreading,butathaphazard,andwithotherauthorsatthesametime。Ididmypoorbesttobeamusedbyhis’KnickerbockerHistoryofNewYork’,becausemyfatherlikeditsomuch,butsecretlyIfounditheavy;andafewyearsagowhenIwentcarefullythroughitagain。Icouldnotlaugh。EvenasaboyIfoundsomeotherthingsofhisuphillwork。Therewasthebeautifulmanner,butthethoughtseemedthin;andIdonotrememberhavingbeenmuchamusedby’BracebridgeHall’,thoughIreaditdevoutly,andwithafullsensethatitwouldbevery’commeilfaut’tolikeit。ButIdidlikethe’LifeofGoldsmith’;Ilikeditagreatdealbetterthanthemoreauthoritative’LifebyForster’,andIthinkthereisadeeperandsweetersenseofGoldsmithinit。Betterthanall,exceptthe’ConquestofGranada’,Ilikedthe’LegendofSleepyHollow’andthestoryofRipVanWinkle,withtheirhumorousandaffectionatecaricaturesoflifethatwasonceofourownsoilandair;andthe’TalesoftheAlhambra’,whichtransportedmeagain,tothescenesofmyyouthbesidetheXenil。ItwaslongaftermyacquaintancewithhisworkthatIcametoaduesenseofIrvingasanartist,andperhapsIhavecometofeelafullsenseofitonlynow,whenIperceivethatheworkedwillinglyonlywhenheworkedinventively。
AtlastIcandojusticetotheexquisiteconceptionofhis’ConquestofGranada’,astudyofhistorywhich,inuniquemeasure,conveysnotonlythepathos,butthehumorofoneofthemostsplendidandimpressivesituationsintheexperienceoftherace。Verypossiblysomethingoftheseverertruthmighthavebeensacrificedtotheeffectofthepleasingandtouchingtale,butIdonotunderstandthatthiswasreallydone。
UponthewholeIamverywellcontentwithmyfirstthreelovesinliterature,andifIweretochooseforanyotherboyIdonotseehowI
couldchoosebetterthanGoldsmithandCervantesandIrving,kindredspirits,andeachnotamasteronly,butasweetandgentlefriend,whosekindnesscouldnotfailtoprofithim。
V。FIRSTFICTIONANDDRAMA
InmyowncasetherefollowedmyacquaintancewiththeseauthorscertainBoeotianyears,whenifIdidnotgobackwardIscarcelywentforwardinthepathsIhadsetoutupon。Theywereyearsofthework,oftheover—
work,indeed,whichfallstothelotofsomanythatIshouldbeashamedtospeakofitexceptinaccountingforthefact。MyfatherhadsoldhispaperinHamiltonandhadboughtaninterestinanotheratDayton,andwewereallstrainingourutmosttohelppayforit。MydailytasksbegansoearlyandendedsolatethatIhadlittletime,evenifIhadthespirit,forreading;anditwasnottillwhatwethoughtruin,butwhatwasreallyrelease,cametousthatIgotbackagaintomybooks。Thenwewenttoliveinthecountryforayear,andthatstressoftoil,withtheshadowoffailuredarkeningall,fellfrommelikethehorrorofanevildream。TheonlynewbookwhichIremembertohavereadinthosetwoorthreeyearsatDayton,whenIhardlyremembertohavereadanyoldones,wasthenovelof’JaneEyre,’whichItookinveryimperfectly,andwhichIassociatewiththefirstrumoroftheRochesterKnockings,thenjustbeginningtoreverberatethroughaworldthattheyhavenotsinceleftwhollyatpeace。ItwasagloomySundayafternoonwhenthebookcameundermyhand;andmixedwithmyinterestinthestorywasananxietylestthepicturesonthewallsshouldleavetheirnailsandcomeandlaythemselvesatmyfeet;thatwaswhatthepictureshadbeendoinginRochesterandotherplaceswherethedisembodiedspiritswerebeginningtomakethemselvesfelt。Thethingdidnotreallyhappeninmycase,butIwasaloneinthehouse,anditmightveryeasilyhavehappened。
Ifverylittlecametomeinthosedaysfrombooks,ontheotherhandmyacquaintancewiththedramavastlyenlargeditself。Therewasahaplesscompanyofplayersinthetownfromtimetotime,andtheycametousfortheirprinting。Ibelievetheyneverpaidforit,oratleastneverwholly,buttheylavishedfreepassesuponus,andasnearlyasIcanmakeout,atthisdistanceoftime,Iprofitedbytheirgenerosity,everynight。Theygavetwoorthreeplaysateveryperformancetohousesungratefullysmall,butofalivelyspiritandimpatienttemperthatwouldnotbrookdelayintherepresentation;andtheychangedthebilleachday。InthiswayIbecamefamiliarwithShakespearebeforeIreadhim,oratleastsuchplaysofhisasweremostgiveninthosedays,andIsaw"Macbeth"and"Hamlet,"andaboveall"RichardIII。,"againandagain。Idonotknowwhymydelightinthosetragediesdidnotsendmetothevolumeofhisplays,whichwasallthetimeinthebookcaseathome,butIseemnottohavethoughtofit,andraptasIwasinthemI
amnotsurethattheygavemegreaterpleasure,orseemedatallfiner,than"Rollo,""TheWife,""TheStranger,""Barbarossa,""TheMiserofMarseilles,"andtherestofthemelodramas,comedies,andfarceswhichI
sawatthattime。Ihaveanotionthatthereweresomecleverpeopleinoneofthesecompanies,andthatthelighterpiecesatleastwerewellplayed,butImaybealtogetherwrong。Thegentlemanwhotookthepartofvillain,withanunfailingloveofevil,inthedifferentdramas,usedtocomeabouttheprinting—officeagooddeal,andIwaspuzzledtofindhimaverymildandgentleperson。Tobesurehehadamustache,whichinthosedaysdevotedamantowickedness,butbydayitwasablondmustache,quiteflaxen,infact,andnotatallthedarkanddeadlythingitwasbehindthefootlightsatnight。Icouldscarcelygaspinhispresence,myheartboundedsoinaweandhonorofhimwhenhepaidavisittous;perhapsheusedtobringthecopyoftheshow—bills。Thecompanyhebelongedtolefttownintheadversityhabitualwiththem。
Ourownadversityhadbeengrowing,andnowitbecameoverwhelming。Wehadtogiveupthepaperwehadstruggledsohardtokeep,butwhentheworstcameitwasnothalfsobadaswhathadgonebefore。Therewasnomorewaitingtillmidnightforthetelegraphicnews,nomorewakingatdawntodeliverthepapers,nomorewearydaysatthecase,heavierforthedoomhangingoverus。Myfatherandhisbrothershadlongdreamedofasortoffamilycolonysomewhereinthecountry,andnowtheunclewhowasmostprosperousboughtamillingpropertyonarivernotfarfromDayton,andmyfatherwentouttotakechargeofituntiltheotherscouldshapetheirbusinesstofollowhim。Theschemecametonothingfinally,butinthemeantimeweescapedfromthelittlecityanditssorrowfulassociationsoffruitlesslabor,andhadayearinthecountry,whichwasblest,atleasttouschildren,bysojourninalog—cabin,whileahousewasbuildingforus。
VI。LONGFELLOW’S"SPANISHSTUDENT"
Thislog—cabinhadaloft,whereweboysslept,andintheloftwerestoredinbarrelsthebooksthathadnowbeguntooverflowthebookcase。
IdonotknowwhyIchosethelofttorenewmylong—neglectedfriendshipwiththem。Thelightcouldnothavebeengood,thoughifIbroughtmybookstothelittlegablewindowthatoverlookedthegroaningandwhistlinggristmillIcouldseewellenough。ButperhapsIlikedtheloftbestbecausethebookswerehandiestthere,andbecauseIcouldbealone。Atanyrate,itwastherethatIreadLongfellow’s"SpanishStudent,"whichIfoundinanoldpapercopyofhispoemsinoneofthebarrels,andIinstantlyconceivedforitthepassionwhichallthingsSpanishinspiredinme。AsIreadInotonlyrenewedmyacquaintancewithliterature,butrenewedmydelightinpeopleandplaceswhereIhadbeenhappybeforethoseheavyyearsinDayton。AtthesametimeIfeltalittlejealousy,alittlegrudge,thatanyoneelseshouldlovethemaswellasI,andifthepoemhadnotbeensobeautifulIshouldhavehatedthepoetfortrespassingonmyground。ButIcouldnotholdoutlongagainstthewitcheryofhisverse。The"SpanishStudent"becameoneofmypassions;aminorpassion,notagrandone,like’DonQuixote’andthe’ConquestofGranada’,butstillapassion,andIshoulddreadalittletoreadthepiecenow,lestIshoulddisturbmyoldidealofitsbeauty。
Thehero’srogueservant,Chispa,seemedtome,thenandlongafterwards,sofineabitofSpanishcharacterthatIchosehisnameformyfirstpseudonymwhenIbegantowriteforthenewspapers,andsignedmylegislativecorrespondenceforaCincinnatipaperwithit。Iwasinlovewiththeheroine,thelovelydancerwhose’cachucha’turnedmyhead,alongwiththatofthecardinal,butwhosenameevenIhaveforgotten,andIwentaboutwiththethoughtofherburninginmyheart,asifshehadbeenarealperson。
VII。SCOTT
AllthewhileIwasbringingupthelongarrearsofplaywhichIhadnotenjoyedinthetoil—yearsatDayton,andwastryingtomakemySpanishreadingserveinthesportsthatwehadinthewoodsandbytheriver。
WewereMoorsandSpaniardsalmostasoftenaswewereBritishandAmericans,orsettlersandIndians。Isuspectthatthelarge,mildboy,thesonofaneighboringfarmer,whomainlysharedourgames,hadbutadimnotionofwhatImeantbymystrangepeople,butIdidmybesttoenlightenhim,andhehelpedmemakeadreamoutofmylife,anddidhisbesttodwellintheregionofunrealitieswhereIpreferablyhadmybeing;hewasfromtimetotimeaMoorwhenIthinkhewouldratherhavebeenaMingo。
IgotholdofScott’spoems,too,inthatcabinloft,andreadmostofthetaleswhichwereyetunknowntomeafterthoseearlierreadingsofmyfather’s。Icouldnotsaywhy"HaroldtheDauntless"mosttookmyfancy;
thefine,stronglyflowingrhythmoftheversehadagooddealtodowithit,Ibelieve。Ilikedthesethings,allofthem,andinafteryearsI
likedthe"LadyoftheLake"moreandmore,andfrommereloveofitgotgreatlengthsofitbyheart;butIcannotsaythatScottwasthenoreveragreatpassionwithme。Itwasasoberedaffectionatbest,whichcamefrommysympathywithhisloveofnature,andthewholekindlyandhumanekeepingofhisgenius。Manyyearslater,duringthemonthwhenI
waswaitingformypassportasConsulforVenice,andhadthetimeonmyhands,Ipasseditchieflyinreadingallhisnovels,oneafteranother,withouttheinterruptionofotherreading。’Ivanhoe’Ihadknownbefore,andthe’BrideofLammermoor’and’Woodstock’,buttheresthadremainedinthatsortofabeyancewhichisoftenthefateofbookspeopleexpecttoreadasamatterofcourse,andcomeverynearnotreadingatall,orreadonlyverylate。Takingtheminthisswiftsequence,littleornothingofthemremainedwithme,andmyexperiencewiththemisagainstthatsortoforderedandregularreading,whichIhavesooftenheardadvisedforyoungpeoplebytheirelders。Ialwayssuspecttheireldersofnothavingdonethatkindofreadingthemselves。