SowasI。
　　Sheslippedonehandfree，andwasstrokingmyhairwithitinagentlemotherlyway。Ibowedmyhotheadonhershoulderandfeltadimsenseofpeace，arestfulnesswhichwasverypleasant。
　　"Youmusttakemetheresomeday，darling，"shewassaying。
　　"ItisnotonlythatIloveyousomuch，Iwanttoseeyourcountry——yourpeople——yourmother——"shepausedreverently。
　　"Oh，howIshallloveyourmother！"
　　Ihadnotbeeninlovemanytimes——myexperiencedidnotcomparewithTerry’s。ButsuchasIhadwassodifferentfromthisthatIwasperplexed，andfullofmixedfeelings：partlyagrowingsenseofcommongroundbetweenus，apleasantrestedcalmfeeling，whichIhadimaginedcouldonlybeattainedinoneway;andpartlyabewilderedresentmentbecausewhatIfoundwasnotwhatIhadlookedfor。
　　Itwastheirconfoundedpsychology！Heretheywerewiththisprofoundhighlydevelopedsystemofeducationsobredintothemthateveniftheywerenotteachersbyprofessiontheyallhadageneralproficiencyinit——itwassecondnaturetothem。
　　Andnochild，stormilydemandingacookie"betweenmeals，"
　　wasevermoresubtlydivertedintoaninterestinhouse—buildingthanwasIwhenIfoundanapparentlyimperativedemandhaddisappearedwithoutmynoticingit。
　　Andallthetimethosetendermothereyes，thosekeenscientificeyes，notingeveryconditionandcircumstance，andlearninghowto"taketimebytheforelock"andavoiddiscussionbeforeoccasionarose。
　　Iwasamazedattheresults。Ifoundthatmuch，verymuch，ofwhatIhadhonestlysupposedtobeaphysiologicalnecessitywasapsychologicalnecessity——orsobelieved。Ifound，aftermyideasofwhatwasessentialhadchanged，thatmyfeelingschangedalso。
　　Andmorethanall，Ifoundthis——afactorofenormousweight——thesewomenwerenotprovocative。Thatmadeanimmensedifference。
　　ThethingthatTerryhadsocomplainedofwhenwefirstcame——thattheyweren’t"feminine，"theylacked"charm，"nowbecameagreatcomfort。Theirvigorousbeautywasanaestheticpleasure，notanirritant。Theirdressandornamentshadnotatouchofthe"come—and—find—me"element。
　　EvenwithmyownEllador，mywife，whohadforatimeunveiledawoman’sheartandfacedthestrangenewhopeandjoyofdualparentage，sheafterwardwithdrewagainintothesamegoodcomradeshehadbeenatfirst。Theywerewomen，PLUS，andsomuchplusthatwhentheydidnotchoosetoletthewomannessappear，youcouldnotfinditanywhere。
　　Idon’tsayitwaseasyforme;itwasn’t。ButwhenImadeappealtohersympathiesIcameupagainstanotherimmovablewall。
　　Shewassorry，honestlysorry，formydistresses，andmadeallmannerofthoughtfulsuggestions，oftenquiteuseful，aswellasthewiseforesightIhavementionedabove，whichoftensavedalldifficultybeforeitarose;buthersympathydidnotalterherconvictions。
　　"IfIthoughtitwasreallyrightandnecessary，Icouldperhapsbringmyselftoit，foryoursake，dear;butIdonotwantto——notatall。Youwouldnothaveameresubmission，wouldyou？
　　Thatisnotthekindofhighromanticloveyouspokeof，surely？
　　Itisapity，ofcourse，thatyoushouldhavetoadjustyourhighlyspecializedfacultiestoourunspecializedones。"
　　Confoundit！Ihadn’tmarriedthenation，andItoldherso。
　　Butsheonlysmiledatherownlimitationsandexplainedthatshehadto"thinkinwe’s。"
　　Confounditagain！HereI’dhaveallmyenergiesfocusedononewish，andbeforeIknewitshe’dhavethemdissipatedinonedirectionoranother，somesubjectofdiscussionthatbeganjustatthepointIwastalkingaboutandendedmilesaway。
　　ItmustnotbeimaginedthatIwasjustrepelled，ignored，lefttocherishagrievance。Notatall。Myhappinesswasinthehandsofalarger，sweeterwomanhoodthanIhadeverimagined。Beforeourmarriagemyownardorhadperhapsblindedmetomuchofthis。
　　IwasmadlyinlovewithnotsomuchwhatwasthereaswithwhatIsupposedtobethere。NowIfoundanendlesslybeautifulundiscoveredcountrytoexplore，andinitthesweetestwisdomandunderstanding。ItwasasifIhadcometosomenewplaceandpeople，withadesiretoeatatallhours，andnootherinterestsinparticular;andasifmyhosts，insteadofmerelysaying，"Youshallnoteat，"hadpresentlyarousedinmealivelydesireformusic，forpictures，forgames，forexercise，forplayinginthewater，forrunningsomeingeniousmachine;and，inthemultitudeofmysatisfactions，Iforgottheonepointwhichwasnotsatisfied，andgotalongverywelluntilmealtime。
　　Oneofthecleverestandmostingeniousofthesetrickswasonlycleartomemanyyearsafter，whenweweresowhollyatoneonthissubjectthatIcouldlaughatmyownpredicamentthen。
　　Itwasthis：Yousee，withus，womenarekeptasdifferentaspossibleandasfeminineaspossible。Wemenhaveourownworld，withonlymeninit;wegettiredofourultra—malenessandturngladlytotheultra—femaleness。Also，inkeepingourwomenasfeminineaspossible，weseetoitthatwhenweturntothemwefindthethingwewantalwaysinevidence。Well，theatmosphereofthisplacewasanythingbutseductive。Theverynumbersofthesehumanwomen，alwaysinhumanrelation，madethemanythingbutalluring。When，inspiteofthis，myhereditaryinstinctsandrace—traditionsmademelongforthefeminineresponseinEllador，insteadofwithdrawingsothatIshouldwanthermore，shedeliberatelygavemealittletoomuchofhersociety。
　　——alwaysde—feminized，asitwere。Itwasawfullyfunny，really。
　　HerewasI，withanIdealinmind，forwhichIhotlylonged，andherewasshe，deliberatelyobtrudingintheforegroundofmyconsciousnessaFact——afactwhichIcoollyenjoyed，butwhichactuallyinterferedwithwhatIwanted。Iseenowclearlyenoughwhyacertainkindofman，likeSirAlmrothWright，resentstheprofessionaldevelopmentofwomen。Itgetsinthewayofthesexideal;ittemporarilycoversandexcludesfemininity。
　　Ofcourse，inthiscase，IwassofondofElladormyfriend，ofElladormyprofessionalcompanion，thatInecessarilyenjoyedhersocietyonanyterms。Only——whenIhadhadherwithmeinherde—femininecapacityforasixteen—hourday，Icouldgotomyownroomandsleepwithoutdreamingabouther。
　　Thewitch！Ifeveranybodyworkedtowooandwinandholdahumansoul，shedid，greatsuperwomanthatshewas。Icouldn’tthenhalfcomprehendtheskillofit，thewonder。ButthisIsoonbegantofind：thatunderallourcultivatedattitudeofmindtowardwomen，thereisanolder，deeper，more"natural"feeling，therestfulreverencewhichlooksuptotheMothersex。
　　Sowegrewtogetherinfriendshipandhappiness，ElladorandI，andsodidJeffandCelis。
　　WhenitcomestoTerry’spartofit，andAlima’s，I’msorry——
　　andI’mashamed。OfcourseIblamehersomewhat。Shewasn’tasfineapsychologistasEllador，andwhat’smore，Ithinkshehadafar—descendedatavistictraceofmoremarkedfemaleness，neverapparenttillTerrycalleditout。Butwhenallissaid，itdoesn’texcusehim。Ihadn’trealizedtothefullTerry’scharacter——Icouldn’t，beingaman。
　　Thepositionwasthesameaswithus，ofcourse，onlywiththesedistinctions。Alima，ashademorealluring，andseveralshadeslessableasapracticalpsychologist;Terry，ahundredfoldmoredemanding——andproportionatelylessreasonable。
　　Thingsgrewstrainedverysoonbetweenthem。Ifancyatfirst，whentheyweretogether，inhergreathopeofparentageandhiskeenjoyofconquest——thatTerrywasinconsiderate。Infact，Iknowit，fromthingshesaid。
　　"Youneedn’ttalktome，"hesnappedatJeffoneday，justbeforeourweddings。"ThereneverwasawomanyetthatdidnotenjoybeingMASTERED。Allyourprettytalkdoesn’tamounttoahillo’beans——IKNOW。"AndTerrywouldhum：
　　I’vetakenmyfunwhereIfoundit。
　　I’veroguedandI’verangedinmytime，andThethingsthatIlearnedfromtheyellowandblack，They’avehelpedmea’eapwiththewhite。
　　Jeffturnedsharplyandlefthimatthetime。Iwasabitdisquietedmyself。
　　PooroldTerry！Thethingshe’dlearneddidn’thelphimaheapinHerland。Hisideawastotake——hethoughtthatwastheway。
　　Hethought，hehonestlybelieved，thatwomenlikeit。NotthewomenofHerland！NotAlima！
　　Icanseehernow——onedayintheveryfirstweekoftheirmarriage，settingforthtoherday’sworkwithlongdeterminedstridesandhard—setmouth，andstickingclosetoEllador。
　　Shedidn’twishtobealonewithTerry——youcouldseethat。
　　Butthemoreshekeptawayfromhim，themorehewantedher——naturally。
　　Hemadeatremendousrowabouttheirseparateestablishments，triedtokeepherinhisrooms，triedtostayinhers。Butthereshedrewthelinesharply。
　　Hecameawayonenight，andstampedupanddownthemoonlitroad，swearingunderhisbreath。Iwastakingawalkthatnighttoo，butIwasn’tinhisstateofmind。Tohearhimrageyou’dnothavebelievedthathelovedAlimaatall——you’dhavethoughtthatshewassomequarryhewaspursuing，somethingtocatchandconquer。
　　Ithinkthat，owingtoallthosedifferencesIspokeof，theysoonlostthecommongroundtheyhadatfirst，andwereunabletomeetsanelyanddispassionately。Ifancytoo——thisispureconjecture——thathehadsucceededindrivingAlimabeyondherbestjudgment，herrealconscience，andthatafterthatherownsenseofshame，thereactionofthething，madeherbitterperhaps。
　　Theyquarreled，reallyquarreled，andaftermakingituponceortwice，theyseemedtocometoarealbreak——shewouldnotbealonewithhimatall。Andperhapsshewasabitnervous，Idon’tknow，butshegotMoadinetocomeandstaynextdoortoher。Also，shehadasturdyassistantdetailedtoaccompanyherinherwork。
　　Terryhadhisownideas，asI’vetriedtoshow。Idaresayhethoughthehadarighttodoashedid。Perhapsheevenconvincedhimselfthatitwouldbebetterforher。Anyhow，hehidhimselfinherbedroomonenight……
　　ThewomenofHerlandhavenofearofmen。Whyshouldtheyhave？Theyarenottimidinanysense。Theyarenotweak;
　　andtheyallhavestrongtrainedathleticbodies。OthellocouldnothaveextinguishedAlimawithapillow，asifshewereamouse。
　　Terryputinpracticehispetconvictionthatawomanlovestobemastered，andbysheerbruteforce，inalltheprideandpassionofhisintensemasculinity，hetriedtomasterthiswoman。
　　Itdidnotwork。IgotaprettyclearaccountofitlaterfromEllador，butwhatweheardatthetimewasthenoiseofatremendousstruggle，andAlimacallingtoMoadine。Moadinewasclosebyandcameatonce;oneortwomorestronggravewomenfollowed。
　　Terrydashedaboutlikeamadman;hewouldcheerfullyhavekilledthem——hetoldmethat，himself——buthecouldn’t。Whenheswungachairoverhisheadonesprangintheairandcaughtit，twothrewthemselvesbodilyuponhimandforcedhimtothefloor;
　　itwasonlytheworkofafewmomentstohavehimtiedhandandfoot，andthen，insheerpityforhisfutilerage，toanesthetizehim。
　　Alimawasinacoldfury。Shewantedhimkilled——actually。
　　TherewasatrialbeforethelocalOverMother，andthiswoman，whodidnotenjoybeingmastered，statedhercase。
　　Inacourtinourcountryhewouldhavebeenheldquite"withinhisrights，"ofcourse。Butthiswasnotourcountry;itwastheirs。Theyseemedtomeasuretheenormityoftheoffensebyitseffectuponapossiblefatherhood，andhescornedeventoreplytothiswayofputtingit。
　　Hedidlethimselfgoonce，andexplainedindefinitetermsthattheywereincapableofunderstandingaman’sneeds，aman’sdesires，aman’spointofview。Hecalledthemneuters，epicenes，bloodless，sexlesscreatures。Hesaidtheycouldofcoursekillhim——assomanyinsectscould——butthathedespisedthemnonetheless。
　　Andallthosesterngravemothersdidnotseemtomindhisdespisingthem，notintheleast。
　　Itwasalongtrial，andmanyinterestingpointswerebroughtoutastotheirviewsofourhabits，andafterawhileTerryhadhissentence。Hewaited，grimanddefiant。Thesentencewas：
　　"Youmustgohome！"
　　CHAPTER12
　　ExpelledWehadallmeanttogohomeagain。IndeedwehadNOTmeant——notbyanymeans——tostayaslongaswehad。Butwhenitcametobeingturnedout，dismissed，sentawayforbadconduct，wenoneofusreallylikedit。
　　Terrysaidhedid。Heprofessedgreatscornofthepenaltyandthetrial，aswellasalltheothercharacteristicsof"thismiserablehalf—country。"Butheknew，andweknew，thatinany"whole"
　　countryweshouldneverhavebeenasforgivinglytreatedaswehadbeenhere。
　　"Ifthepeoplehadcomeafterusaccordingtothedirectionsweleft，there’dhavebeenquiteadifferentstory！"saidTerry。
　　Wefoundoutlaterwhynoreservepartyhadarrived。Allourcarefuldirectionshadbeendestroyedinafire。Wemighthavealldiedthereandnooneathomehaveeverknownourwhereabouts。
　　Terrywasunderguardnow，allthetime，knownasunsafe，convictedofwhatwastothemanunpardonablesin。
　　Helaughedattheirchillhorror。"Parcelofoldmaids！"hecalledthem。"They’realloldmaids——childrenornot。Theydon’tknowthefirstthingaboutSex。"
　　WhenTerrysaidSEX，sexwithaverylarge_S_，hemeantthemalesex，naturally;itsspecialvalues，itsprofoundconvictionofbeing"thelifeforce，"itscheerfulignoringofthetruelifeprocess，anditsinterpretationoftheothersexsolelyfromitsownpointofview。
　　IhadlearnedtoseethesethingsverydifferentlysincelivingwithEllador;andasforJeff，hewassothoroughlyHerlandizedthathewasn’tfairtoTerry，whofrettedsharplyinhisnewrestraint。
　　Moadine，graveandstrong，assadlypatientasamotherwithadegeneratechild，keptsteadywatchonhim，withenoughotherwomencloseathandtopreventanoutbreak。Hehadnoweapons，andwellknewthatallhisstrengthwasofsmallavailagainstthosegrim，quietwomen。
　　Wewereallowedtovisithimfreely，buthehadonlyhisroom，andasmallhigh—walledgardentowalkin，whilethepreparationsforourdeparturewereunderway。
　　Threeofusweretogo：Terry，becausehemust;I，becausetwoweresaferforourflyer，andthelongboattriptothecoast;
　　Ellador，becauseshewouldnotletmegowithouther。
　　IfJeffhadelectedtoreturn，Celiswouldhavegonetoo——theywerethemostabsorbedoflovers;butJeffhadnodesirethatway。
　　"WhyshouldIwanttogobacktoallournoiseanddirt，ourviceandcrime，ourdiseaseanddegeneracy？"hedemandedofmeprivately。Weneverspokelikethatbeforethewomen。
　　"Iwouldn’ttakeCelisthereforanythingonearth！"heprotested。
　　"She’ddie！She’ddieofhorrorandshametoseeourslumsandhospitals。HowcanyouriskitwithEllador？You’dbetterbreakittohergentlybeforeshereallymakesuphermind。"
　　Jeffwasright。IoughttohavetoldhermorefullythanIdid，ofallthethingswehadtobeashamedof。Butitisveryhardtobridgethegulfofasdeepadifferenceasexistedbetweenourlifeandtheirs。Itriedto。
　　"Lookhere，mydear，"Isaidtoher。"Ifyouarereallygoingtomycountrywithme，you’vegottobepreparedforagoodmanyshocks。It’snotasbeautifulasthis——thecities，Imean，thecivilizedparts——ofcoursethewildcountryis。"
　　"Ishallenjoyitall，"shesaid，hereyesstarrywithhope。
　　"Iunderstandit’snotlikeours。Icanseehowmonotonousourquietlifemustseemtoyou，howmuchmorestirringyoursmustbe。
　　Itmustbelikethebiologicalchangeyoutoldmeaboutwhenthesecondsexwasintroduced——afargreatermovement，constantchange，withnewpossibilitiesofgrowth。"
　　Ihadtoldherofthelaterbiologicaltheoriesofsex，andshewasdeeplyconvincedofthesuperioradvantagesofhavingtwo，thesuperiorityofaworldwithmeninit。
　　"Wehavedonewhatwecouldalone;perhapswehavesomethingsbetterinaquietway，butyouhavethewholeworld——allthepeopleofthedifferentnations——allthelongrichhistorybehindyou——allthewonderfulnewknowledge。Oh，Ijustcan’twaittoseeit！"
　　WhatcouldIdo？Itoldherinsomanywordsthatwehadourunsolvedproblems，thatwehaddishonestyandcorruption，viceandcrime，diseaseandinsanity，prisonsandhospitals;anditmadenomoreimpressiononherthanitwouldtotellaSouthSeaIslanderaboutthetemperatureoftheArcticCircle。Shecouldintellectuallyseethatitwasbadtohavethosethings;butshecouldnotFEELit。
　　WehadquiteeasilycometoaccepttheHerlandlifeasnormal，becauseitwasnormal——noneofusmakeanyoutcryovermerehealthandpeaceandhappyindustry。Andtheabnormal，towhichweareallsosadlywellacclimated，shehadneverseen。
　　Thetwothingsshecaredmosttohearabout，andwantedmosttosee，werethese：thebeautifulrelationofmarriageandthelovelywomenwhoweremothersandnothingelse;beyondtheseherkeen，activemindhungeredeagerlyfortheworldlife。
　　"I’malmostasanxioustogoasyouareyourself，"sheinsisted，"andyoumustbedesperatelyhomesick。"
　　Iassuredherthatnoonecouldbehomesickinsuchaparadiseastheirs，butshewouldhavenoneofit。
　　"Oh，yes——Iknow。It’slikethoselittletropicalislandsyou’vetoldmeabout，shininglikejewelsinthebigbluesea——Ican’twaittoseethesea！Thelittleislandmaybeasperfectasagarden，butyoualwayswanttogetbacktoyourownbigcountry，don’tyou？
　　Evenifitisbadinsomeways？"
　　Elladorwasmorethanwilling。Buttheneareritcametoourreallygoing，andtomyhavingtotakeherbacktoour"civilization，"
　　afterthecleanpeaceandbeautyoftheirs，themoreIbegantodreadit，andthemoreItriedtoexplain。
　　OfcourseIhadbeenhomesickatfirst，whilewewereprisoners，beforeIhadEllador。AndofcourseIhad，atfirst，ratheridealizedmycountryanditsways，indescribingit。Also，Ihadalwaysacceptedcertainevilsasintegralpartsofourcivilizationandneverdweltonthematall。EvenwhenItriedtotellhertheworst，Ineverrememberedsomethings——which，whenshecametoseethem，impressedheratonce，astheyhadneverimpressedme。
　　Now，inmyeffortsatexplanation，IbegantoseebothwaysmorekeenlythanIhadbefore;toseethepainfuldefectsofmyownland，themarvelousgainsofthis。
　　Inmissingmenwethreevisitorshadnaturallymissedthelargerpartoflife，andhadunconsciouslyassumedthattheymustmissittoo。Ittookmealongtimetorealize——Terryneverdidrealize——howlittleitmeanttothem。WhenwesayMEN，MAN，MANLY，MANHOOD，andalltheothermasculinederivatives，wehaveinthebackgroundofourmindsahugevaguecrowdedpictureoftheworldandallitsactivities。Togrowupand"beaman，"
　　to"actlikeaman"——themeaningandconnotationiswideindeed。
　　Thatvastbackgroundisfullofmarchingcolumnsofmen，ofchanginglinesofmen，oflongprocessionsofmen;ofmensteeringtheirshipsintonewseas，exploringunknownmountains，breakinghorses，herdingcattle，ploughingandsowingandreaping，toilingattheforgeandfurnace，digginginthemine，buildingroadsandbridgesandhighcathedrals，managinggreatbusinesses，teachinginallthecolleges，preachinginallthechurches;
　　ofmeneverywhere，doingeverything——"theworld。"
　　AndwhenwesayWOMEN，wethinkFEMALE——thesex。
　　Buttothesewomen，intheunbrokensweepofthistwo—
　　thousand—year—oldfemininecivilization，thewordWOMANcalledupallthatbigbackground，sofarastheyhadgoneinsocialdevelopment;andthewordMANmeanttothemonlyMALE——thesex。
　　OfcoursewecouldTELLthemthatinourworldmendideverything;butthatdidnotalterthebackgroundoftheirminds。
　　Thatman，"themale，"didallthesethingswastothemastatement，makingnomorechangeinthepointofviewthanwasmadeinourswhenwefirstfacedtheastoundingfact——tous——thatinHerlandwomenwere"theworld。"
　　Wehadbeenlivingtheremorethanayear。Wehadlearnedtheirlimitedhistory，withitsstraight，smooth，upreachinglines，reachinghigherandgoingfasteruptothesmoothcomfortoftheirpresentlife。Wehadlearnedalittleoftheirpsychology，amuchwiderfieldthanthehistory，butherewecouldnotfollowsoreadily。Wewerenowwellusedtoseeingwomennotasfemalesbutaspeople;peopleofallsorts，doingeverykindofwork。
　　ThisoutbreakofTerry’s，andthestrongreactionagainstit，gaveusanewlightontheirgenuinefemininity。ThiswasgivenmewithgreatclearnessbybothElladorandSomel。Thefeelingwasthesame——sickrevulsionandhorror，suchaswouldbefeltatsomeclimacticblasphemy。
　　Theyhadnofaintestapproachtosuchathingintheirminds，knowingnothingofthecustomofmaritalindulgenceamongus。
　　Tothemtheonehighpurposeofmotherhoodhadbeenforsolongthegoverninglawoflife，andthecontributionofthefather，thoughknowntothem，sodistinctlyanothermethodtothesameend，thattheycouldnot，withalltheireffort，getthepointofviewofthemalecreaturewhosedesiresquiteignoreparentageandseekonlyforwhatweeuphoniouslyterm"thejoysoflove。"
　　WhenItriedtotellElladorthatwomentoofeltso，withus，shedrewawayfromme，andtriedhardtograspintellectuallywhatshecouldinnowaysympathizewith。
　　"Youmean——thatwithyou——lovebetweenmanandwomanexpressesitselfinthatway——withoutregardtomotherhood？
　　Toparentage，Imean，"sheaddedcarefully。
　　"Yes，surely。Itislovewethinkof——thedeepsweetlovebetweentwo。Ofcoursewewantchildren，andchildrencome——
　　butthatisnotwhatwethinkabout。"
　　"But——but——itseemssoagainstnature！"shesaid。"Noneofthecreaturesweknowdothat。Dootheranimals——inyourcountry？"
　　"Wearenotanimals！"Irepliedwithsomesharpness。
　　"Atleastwearesomethingmore——somethinghigher。Thisisafarnoblerandmorebeautifulrelation，asIhaveexplainedbefore。
　　Yourviewseemstousrather——shallIsay，practical？Prosaic？
　　Merelyameanstoanend！Withus——oh，mydeargirl——cannotyousee？Cannotyoufeel？Itisthelast，sweetest，highestconsummationofmutuallove。"
　　Shewasimpressedvisibly。Shetrembledinmyarms，asIheldherclose，kissingherhungrily。ButthereroseinhereyesthatlookIknewsowell，thatremoteclearlookasifshehadgonefarawayeventhoughIheldherbeautifulbodysoclose，andwasnowonsomesnowymountainregardingmefromadistance。
　　"Ifeelitquiteclearly，"shesaidtome。"Itgivesmeadeepsympathywithwhatyoufeel，nodoubtmorestronglystill。ButwhatIfeel，evenwhatyoufeel，dearest，doesnotconvincemethatitisright。UntilIamsureofthat，ofcourseIcannotdoasyouwish。"
　　Ellador，attimeslikethis，alwaysremindedmeofEpictetus。
　　"Iwillputyouinprison！"saidhismaster。"Mybody，youmean，"
　　repliedEpictetuscalmly。"Iwillcutyourheadoff，"saidhismaster。"HaveIsaidthatmyheadcouldnotbecutoff？"A
　　difficultperson，Epictetus。
　　Whatisthismiraclebywhichawoman，eveninyourarms，maywithdrawherself，utterlydisappeartillwhatyouholdisasinaccessibleasthefaceofacliff？
　　"Bepatientwithme，dear，"sheurgedsweetly。"Iknowitishardforyou。AndIbegintosee——alittle——howTerrywassodriventocrime。"
　　"Oh，come，that’saprettyhardwordforit。Afterall，Alimawashiswife，youknow，"Iurged，feelingatthemomentasuddenburstofsympathyforpoorTerry。Foramanofhistemperament——andhabits——itmusthavebeenanunbearablesituation。
　　ButEllador，forallherwideintellectualgrasp，andthebroadsympathyinwhichtheirreligiontrainedthem，couldnotmakeallowanceforsuch——toher——sacrilegiousbrutality。
　　Itwasthemoredifficulttoexplaintoher，becausewethree，inourconstanttalksandlecturesabouttherestoftheworld，hadnaturallyavoidedtheseamyside;notsomuchfromadesiretodeceive，butfromwishingtoputthebestfootforemostforourcivilization，inthefaceofthebeautyandcomfortoftheirs。Also，wereallythoughtsomethingswereright，oratleastunavoidable，whichwecouldreadilyseewouldberepugnanttothem，andthereforedidnotdiscuss。Againtherewasmuchofourworld’slifewhichwe，beingusedtoit，hadnotnoticedasanythingworthdescribing。Andstillfurther，therewasaboutthesewomenacolossalinnocenceuponwhichmanyofthethingswedidsayhadmadenoimpressionwhatever。
　　IamthusexplicitaboutitbecauseitshowshowunexpectedlystrongwastheimpressionmadeuponElladorwhensheatlastenteredourcivilization。
　　Sheurgedmetobepatient，andIwaspatient。Yousee，Ilovedhersomuchthateventherestrictionsshesofirmlyestablishedleftmemuchhappiness。Wewerelovers，andthereissurelydelightenoughinthat。
　　Donotimaginethattheseyoungwomenutterlyrefused"theGreatNewHope，"astheycalledit，thatofdualparentage。Forthattheyhadagreedtomarryus，thoughthemarryingpartofitwasaconcessiontoourprejudicesratherthantheirs。Tothemtheprocesswastheholything——andtheymeanttokeepitholy。
　　ButsofaronlyCelis，herblueeyesswimminginhappytears，herheartliftedwiththattideofrace—motherhoodwhichwastheirsupremepassion，couldwithineffablejoyandprideannouncethatshewastobeamother。"TheNewMotherhood"theycalledit，andthewholecountryknew。Therewasnopleasure，noservice，nohonorinallthelandthatCelismightnothavehad。Almostlikethebreathlessreverencewithwhich，twothousandyearsago，thatdwindlingbandofwomenhadwatchedthemiracleofvirginbirth，wasthedeepaweandwarmexpectancywithwhichtheygreetedthisnewmiracleofunion。
　　Allmothersinthatlandwereholy。Tothem，forlongages，theapproachtomotherhoodhasbeenbythemostintenseandexquisiteloveandlonging，bytheSupremeDesire，theovermasteringdemandforachild。Everythoughttheyheldinconnectionwiththeprocessesofmaternitywasopentotheday，simpleyetsacred。Everywomanofthemplacedmotherhoodnotonlyhigherthanotherduties，butsofarhigherthattherewerenootherduties，onemightalmostsay。
　　Alltheirwidemutuallove，allthesubtleinterplayofmutualfriendshipandservice，theurgeofprogressivethoughtandinvention，thedeepestreligiousemotion，everyfeelingandeveryactwasrelatedtothisgreatcentralPower，totheRiverofLifepouringthroughthem，whichmadethemthebearersoftheverySpiritofGod。
　　OfallthisIlearnedmoreandmore——fromtheirbooks，fromtalk，especiallyfromEllador。Shewasatfirst，forabriefmoment，enviousofherfriend——athoughtsheputawayfromheratonceandforever。
　　"Itisbetter，"shesaidtome。"Itismuchbetterthatithasnotcometomeyet——tous，thatis。ForifIamtogowithyoutoyourcountry，wemayhave`adventuresbyseaandland，’asyousay[andasintruthwedid]，anditmightnotbeatallsafeforababy。
　　Sowewon’ttryagain，dear，tillitissafe——willwe？"
　　Thiswasahardsayingforaverylovinghusband。
　　"Unless，"shewenton，"ifoneiscoming，youwillleavemebehind。
　　Youcancomeback，youknow——andIshallhavethechild。"
　　Thenthatdeepancientchillofmalejealousyofevenhisownprogenytouchedmyheart。
　　"I’dratherhaveyou，Ellador，thanallthechildrenintheworld。
　　I’dratherhaveyouwithme——onyourownterms——thannottohaveyou。"
　　Thiswasaverystupidsaying。OfcourseIwould！Forifshewasn’tthereIshouldwantallofherandhavenoneofher。Butifshewentalongasasortofsublimatedsister——onlymuchcloserandwarmerthanthat，really——whyIshouldhaveallofherbutthatonething。AndIwasbeginningtofindthatEllador’sfriendship，Ellador’scomradeship，Ellador’ssisterlyaffection，Ellador’sperfectlysincerelove——nonethelessdeepthatshehelditbackonadefinitelineofreserve——wereenoughtoliveonveryhappily。
　　Ifinditquitebeyondmetodescribewhatthiswomanwastome。Wetalkfinethingsaboutwomen，butinourheartsweknowthattheyareverylimitedbeings——mostofthem。
　　Wehonorthemfortheirfunctionalpowers，evenwhilewedishonorthembyouruseofit;wehonorthemfortheircarefullyenforcedvirtue，evenwhileweshowbyourownconducthowlittlewethinkofthatvirtue;wevaluethem，sincerely，forthepervertedmaternalactivitieswhichmakeourwivesthemostcomfortableofservants，boundtousforlifewiththewageswhollyatourowndecision，theirwholebusiness，outsideofthetemporarydutiesofsuchmotherhoodastheymayachieve，tomeetourneedsineveryway。Oh，wevaluethem，allright，"intheirplace，"
　　whichplaceisthehome，wheretheyperformthatmixtureofdutiessoablydescribedbyMrs。JosephineDodgeDaskamBacon，inwhichtheservicesof"amistress"arecarefullyspecified。
　　Sheisaveryclearwriter，Mrs。J。D。D。Bacon，andunderstandshersubject——fromherownpointofview。But——thatcombinationofindustries，whileconvenient，andinawayeconomical，doesnotarousethekindofemotioncommandedbythewomenofHerland。
　　Thesewerewomenonehadtolove"up，"veryhighup，insteadofdown。
　　Theywerenotpets。Theywerenotservants。Theywerenottimid，inexperienced，weak。
　　AfterIgotoverthejartomypride（whichJeff，Itrulythink，neverfelt——hewasabornworshipper，andwhichTerrynevergotover——hewasquiteclearinhisideasof"thepositionofwomen"），Ifoundthatloving"up"wasaverygoodsensationafterall。
　　Itgavemeaqueerfeeling，waydowndeep，asofthestirringofsomeancientdimprehistoricconsciousness，afeelingthattheywererightsomehow——thatthiswasthewaytofeel。Itwaslike——cominghometomother。Idon’tmeantheunderflannels—
　　and—doughnutsmother，thefussypersonthatwaitsonyouandspoilsyouanddoesn’treallyknowyou。Imeanthefeelingthataverylittlechildwouldhave，whohadbeenlost——foreversolong。Itwasasenseofgettinghome;ofbeingcleanandrested;
　　ofsafetyandyetfreedom;oflovethatwasalwaysthere，warmlikesunshineinMay，nothotlikeastoveorafeatherbed——alovethatdidn’tirritateanddidn’tsmother。
　　IlookedatElladorasifIhadn’tseenherbefore。"Ifyouwon’tgo，"Isaid，"I’llgetTerrytothecoastandcomebackalone。
　　Youcanletmedownarope。Andifyouwillgo——whyyoublessedwonder—woman——Iwouldratherlivewithyouallmylife——likethis——thantohaveanyotherwomanIeversaw，oranynumberofthem，todoasIlikewith。Willyoucome？"
　　Shewaskeenforcoming。Sotheplanswenton。She’dhavelikedtowaitforthatMarvelofCelis’s，butTerryhadnosuchdesire。
　　Hewascrazytobeoutofitall。Itmadehimsick，hesaid，SICK;
　　thiseverlastingmother—mother—mothering。Idon’tthinkTerryhadwhatthephrenologistscall"thelumpofphiloprogenitiveness"
　　atallwelldeveloped。
　　"Morbidone—sidedcripples，"hecalledthem，evenwhenfromhiswindowhecouldseetheirsplendidvigorandbeauty;
　　evenwhileMoadine，aspatientandfriendlyasifshehadneverhelpedAlimatoholdandbindhim，satthereintheroom，thepictureofwisdomandserenestrength。"Sexless，epicene，undevelopedneuters！"hewentonbitterly。HesoundedlikeSirAlmwrothWright。
　　Well——itwashard。HewasmadlyinlovewithAlima，really;
　　moresothanhehadeverbeenbefore，andtheirtempestuouscourtship，quarrels，andreconciliationshadfannedtheflame。
　　Andthenwhenhesoughtbythatsupremeconquestwhichseemssonaturalathingtothattypeofman，toforcehertolovehimashermaster——tohavethesturdyathleticfuriouswomanriseupandmasterhim——sheandherfriends——itwasnowonderheraged。
　　Cometothinkofit，Idonotrecallasimilarcaseinallhistoryorfiction。Womenhavekilledthemselvesratherthansubmittooutrage;theyhavekilledtheoutrager;theyhaveescaped;ortheyhavesubmitted——sometimesseemingtogetonverywellwiththevictorafterward。Therewasthatadventureof"falseSextus，"forinstance，who"foundLucresecombingthefleece，underthemidnightlamp。"Hethreatened，asIremember，thatifshedidnotsubmithewouldslayher，slayaslaveandplacehimbesideherandsayhefoundhimthere。Apoordevice，italwaysseemedtome。
　　IfMr。Lucretiushadaskedhimhowhecametobeinhiswife’sbedroomoverlookinghermorals，whatcouldhehavesaid？
　　ButthepointisLucresesubmitted，andAlimadidn’t。
　　"Shekickedme，"confidedtheembitteredprisoner——hehadtotalktosomeone。"Iwasdoubledupwiththepain，ofcourse，andshejumpedonmeandyelledforthisoldharpy[Moadinecouldn’thearhim]andtheyhadmetrussedupinnotime。
　　IbelieveAlimacouldhavedoneitalone，"headdedwithreluctantadmiration。"She’sasstrongasahorse。Andofcourseaman’shelplesswhenyouhithimlikethat。Nowomanwithashadeofdecency——"
　　Ihadtogrinatthat，andevenTerrydid，sourly。Hewasn’tgiventoreasoning，butitdidstrikehimthatanassaultlikehisratherwaivedconsiderationsofdecency。
　　"I’dgiveayearofmylifetohaveheraloneagain，"hesaidslowly，hishandsclenchedtilltheknuckleswerewhite。
　　Butheneverdid。Sheleftourendofthecountryentirely，wentupintothefir—forestonthehighestslopes，andstayedthere。
　　Beforewelefthequitedesperatelylongedtoseeher，butshewouldnotcomeandhecouldnotgo。Theywatchedhimlikelynxes。
　　（Dolynxeswatchanybetterthanmousingcats，Iwonder！）
　　Well——wehadtogettheflyerinorder，andbesuretherewasenoughfuelleft，thoughTerrysaidwecouldglideallright，downtothatlake，oncewegotstarted。We’dhavegonegladlyinaweek’stime，ofcourse，buttherewasagreatto—doalloverthecountryaboutEllador’sleavingthem。Shehadinterviewswithsomeoftheleadingethicists——wisewomenwithstilleyes，andwiththebestoftheteachers。Therewasastir，athrill，adeepexcitementeverywhere。
　　Ourteachingabouttherestoftheworldhasgiventhemallasenseofisolation，ofremoteness，ofbeingalittleoutlyingsampleofacountry，overlookedandforgottenamongthefamilyofnations。Wehadcalledit"thefamilyofnations，"andtheylikedthephraseimmensely。
　　Theyweredeeplyarousedonthesubjectofevolution;indeed，thewholefieldofnaturalsciencedrewthemirresistibly。
　　Anynumberofthemwouldhaveriskedeverythingtogotothestrangeunknownlandsandstudy;butwecouldtakeonlyone，andithadtobeEllador，naturally。
　　Weplannedgreatlyaboutcomingback，aboutestablishingaconnectingroutebywater;aboutpenetratingthosevastforestsandcivilizing——orexterminating——thedangeroussavages。
　　Thatis，wementalkedofthatlast——notwiththewomen。
　　Theyhadadefiniteaversiontokillingthings。
　　Butmeanwhiletherewashighcouncilbeingheldamongthewisestofthemall。Thestudentsandthinkerswhohadbeengatheringfactsfromusallthistime，collatingandrelatingthem，andmakinginferences，laidtheresultoftheirlaborsbeforethecouncil。
　　Littlehadwethoughtthatourcarefuleffortsatconcealmenthadbeensoeasilyseenthrough，withneverawordtoshowusthattheysaw。Theyhadfollowedupwordsofoursonthescienceofoptics，askedinnocentquestionsaboutglassesandthelike，andwereawareofthedefectiveeyesightsocommonamongus。
　　Withthelightesttouch，differentwomenaskingdifferentquestionsatdifferenttimes，andputtingallouranswerstogetherlikeapicturepuzzle，theyhadfiguredoutasortofskeletonchartastotheprevalenceofdiseaseamongus。Evenmoresubtlywithnoshowofhorrororcondemnation，theyhadgatheredsomething——farfromthetruth，butsomethingprettyclear——aboutpoverty，vice，andcrime。Theyevenhadagoodlynumberofourdangersallitemized，fromaskingusaboutinsuranceandinnocentthingslikethat。
　　Theywerewellpostedastothedifferentraces，beginningwiththeirpoison—arrownativesdownbelowandwideningouttothebroadracialdivisionswehadtoldthemabout。Neverashockedexpressionofthefaceorexclamationofrevolthadwarnedus;theyhadbeenextractingtheevidencewithoutourknowingitallthistime，andnowwerestudyingwiththemostdevoutearnestnessthemattertheyhadprepared。
　　Theresultwasratherdistressingtous。TheyfirstexplainedthematterfullytoEllador，asshewastheonewhopurposedvisitingtheRestoftheWorld。ToCelistheysaidnothing。Shemustnotbeinanywaydistressed，whilethewholenationwaitedonherGreatWork。
　　FinallyJeffandIwerecalledin。SomelandZavawerethere，andEllador，withmanyothersthatweknew。
　　Theyhadagreatglobe，quitefairlymappedoutfromthesmallsectionmapsinthatcompendiumofours。Theyhadthedifferentpeoplesoftheearthroughlyoutlined，andtheirstatusincivilizationindicated。Theyhadchartsandfiguresandestimates，basedonthefactsinthattraitorouslittlebookandwhattheyhadlearnedfromus。
　　Somelexplained："Wefindthatinallyourhistoricperiod，somuchlongerthanours，thatwithalltheinterplayofservices，theexchangeofinventionsanddiscoveries，andthewonderfulprogresswesoadmire，thatinthiswidespreadOtherWorldofyours，thereisstillmuchdisease，oftencontagious。"
　　Weadmittedthisatonce。
　　"Alsothereisstill，invaryingdegree，ignorance，withprejudiceandunbridledemotion。"
　　Thistoowasadmitted。
　　"Wefindalsothatinspiteoftheadvanceofdemocracyandtheincreaseofwealth，thatthereisstillunrestandsometimescombat。"
　　Yes，yes，weadmitteditall。Wewereusedtothesethingsandsawnoreasonforsomuchseriousness。
　　"Allthingsconsidered，"theysaid，andtheydidnotsayahundredthpartofthethingstheywereconsidering，"weareunwillingtoexposeourcountrytofreecommunicationwiththerestoftheworld——asyet。IfElladorcomesback，andweapproveherreport，itmaybedonelater——butnotyet。
　　"Sowehavethistoaskofyougentlemen[theyknewthatwordwasheldatitleofhonorwithus]，thatyoupromisenotinanywaytobetraythelocationofthiscountryuntilpermission——afterEllador’sreturn。"
　　Jeffwasperfectlysatisfied。Hethoughttheywerequiteright。
　　Healwaysdid。IneversawanalienbecomenaturalizedmorequicklythanthatmaninHerland。
　　Istudieditawhile，thinkingofthetimethey’dhaveifsomeofourcontagionsgotloosethere，andconcludedtheywereright。
　　SoIagreed。
　　Terrywastheobstacle。"IndeedIwon’t！"heprotested。"ThefirstthingI’lldoistogetanexpeditionfixeduptoforceanentranceintoMa—land。"
　　"Then，"theysaidquitecalmly，"hemustremainanabsoluteprisoner，always。"
　　"Anesthesiawouldbekinder，"urgedMoadine。
　　"Andsafer，"addedZava。
　　"Hewillpromise，Ithink，"saidEllador。
　　Andhedid。WithwhichagreementweatlastleftHerland。