PARTFIRST
OLOVEWILLVENTUREIN!
THEMANBETWEEN
CHAPTERI
THEthingthatIknowleastaboutismybeginning。ForitispossibletointroduceEthelRawdoninsomanypicturesquewaysthatthechoiceisembarrassing,andforcesmetotheconclusionthattheactualcircumstances,thoughcommonplace,maybethemostsuitable。Certainlytheeventsthatshapeourlivesareseldomusheredinwithpomporceremony;theystealuponusunannounced,andbegintheirworkwithoutgivinganypremonitionoftheirimportance。
ConsequentlyEthelhadnoideawhenshereturnedhomeonenightfromaratherstupidentertainmentthatshewasabouttoopenanewandimportantchapterofherlife。
Hithertothatlifehadbeenoneofthesweetestandsimplestcharacter——thelessonsandsportsofchildhoodandgirlhoodhadclaimedhernineteenyears;andEthelwasjustatthatwonderfulagewhen,thebrookandtheriverhavingmet,shewasfeelingthefirstswellofthoseirresistibletideswhichwouldcarryherdaybydaytothehavenofalldays。
ItwasSaturdaynightintheJanuaryof1900,vergingtowardtwelveo’clock。Whensheenteredherroom,shesawthatoneofthewindowswasopen,andshestoodamomentortwoatit,lookingacrossthestraightmilesofwhitelights,inwhoseilluminedshadowsthousandsofsleeperswereholdingtheirlivesinpause。
"ItisnotNewYorkatall,"shewhispered,"itissomemagicalcitythatIhaveseen,buthavenevertrod。Itwillvanishaboutsixo’clockinthemorning,andtherewillbeonlycommonstreets,fullofcommonpeople。Ofcourse,"andheresheclosedthewindowandleisurelyremovedheroperacloak,"ofcourse,thisisonlydreaming,buttodreamwaking,ortodreamsleeping,isverypleasant。
Indreamswecanhavemenaswelikethem,andwomenaswewantthem,andmakealltheworldhappyandbeautiful。"
Shewasinnohurryoffeelingormovement。
Shehadbeeninacrowdforsomehours,andwasgladtobequitealoneandtalktoherselfalittle。Itwasalsosorestfultograduallyrelinquishalltherestraininggaudsoffashionableattire,andassheleisurelyperformedtheseduties,sheenteredintoconversationwithherownheart——talkedoverwithittheeventsofthepastweek,anddecidedthatitsfretlessdays,fullofgoodthings,hadbeen,fromthebeginningtotheend,sweetasacupofnewmilk。Forawoman’sheartisverytalkative,andrequireslittletomakeiteloquentinitsownway。
Inthemidstofthisintimatecompanionshipsheturnedherhead,andsawtwoletterslyinguponatable。Sheroseandliftedthem。Onewasaninvitationtoastudioreception,andsheletitflutterindeterminatelyfromherhand;theotherwasbothfamiliarandappealing;
noneofhercorrespondentsbutDoraDenningusedthatpeculiarshadeofbluepaper,andsheinstantlybegantowonderwhyDorahadwrittentoher。
"Isawheryesterdayafternoon,"shereflected,"andshetoldmeeverythingshehadtotell——andwhatdoesshe-meanbysuchatantalizingmessageasthis?`DearestEthel:I
havethemostextraordinarynews。Cometomeimmediately。Dora。’HowexactlylikeDora!"shecommented。"Cometomeim-
mediately——whetheryouareinbedorasleep——whetheryouaresickorwell——whetheritismidnightorhighnoon——cometomeimmediately。
Well,Dora,Iamgoingtosleepnow,andto-morrowisSunday,andIneverknowwhatviewfatherisgoingtotakeofSunday。
Hemayaskmetogotochurchwithhim,andhemaynot。Hemaywantmetodriveintheafternoon,andagainhemaynot;butSundayisfather’shomeday,andRuthandImakeapointofobliginghiminregardtoit。Thatisoneofourfamilyprinciples;andagirloughttohaveafewprinciplesofconductinvolvingself-denial。AuntRuthsays,`Lifecannotstanderectwithoutself-denial,’andauntisusuallyright——butIdowonderwhatDorawants!Icannotimaginewhatextraordinarynewshascome。Imusttryandseeherto-morrow——itmaybedifficult——butI
mustmaketheeffort"——andwiththissatisfyingresolutionsheeasilyfellasleep。
Whensheawokethechurchbellswereringingandsheknewthatherfatherandauntwouldhavebreakfasted。Thefeetdidnottroubleher。Itwasanaccidentalsleep-over;
shehadnotplannedit,andcircumstanceswouldtakecareofthemselves。Inanycase,shehadnofearofrebuke。NoonewasevercrosswithEthel。ItwasamatterofprettygeneralbeliefthatwhateverEtheldidwasjustright。Soshedressedherselfbecominglyinaclothsuit,and,withherplumedhatonherhead,wentdowntoseewhatthedayhadtoofferher。
"Thefirstthingiscoffee,andthen,allbeingagreeable,Dora。Ishallnotlookfurtherahead,"shethought。
Assheenteredtheroomshecalled"Goodmorning!"andhervoicewaslikethevoiceofthebirdswhentheycall"Spring!";andherfacewasradiantwithsmiles,andthetouchofherlipsandtheclaspofherhandwarmwithloveandlife;andherfatherandauntforgotthatshewaslate,andthatherbreakfastwasyettoorder。
Shetookupthereproachherself。"Iamsosorry,AuntRuth。Ionlywantacupofcoffeeandaroll。"
"Mydear,youcannotgowithoutaproperbreakfast。Nevermindthehour。Whatwouldyoulikebest?"
"Youaresogood,Ruth。Ishouldlikeanicebreakfast——abreastofchickenandmushrooms,andsomehotmuffinsandmarmaladewoulddo。Howcomfortableyoulookhere!
Father,youareburiedinnewspapers。Isanyonegoingtochurch?"
RuthorderedthedesiredbreakfastandMr。
Rawdontookouthiswatch——"Iamafraidyouhavedelayedustoolongthismorning,Ethel。"
"AmItobethescapegoat?Now,Idonotbelieveanyonewantedtogotochurch。Ruthhadherbook,you,thenewspapers。Itiswarmandpleasanthere,itiscoldandwindyoutside。
Iknowwhatconfessionwouldbemade,ifhonestywerethefashion。"
"Well,mylittlegirl,honestyisthefashioninthishouse。Ibelieveingoingtochurch。
ReligionistheMotherofDuty,andweshouldallmakeasadmessoflifewithoutduty。Isnotthatso,Ruth?"
"Truthitself,Edward;butreligionisnotgoingtochurchandlisteningtosermons。
ThosewhobuilttheoldcathedralsofEuropehadnoideathatsittingincomfortablepewsandlisteningtosomemantalkingwasworshipingGod。ThosegreatnaveswereintendedformenandwomentostandorkneelinbeforeGod。Andtherewerenohighorlowstandingorkneelingplaces;allwereonalevelbeforeHim。ItisourmodernProtestantismwhichhasbroughtinlazylollingincushionedpews;andthegallery,whichmakesachurchaslikeaplayhouseaspossible!"
"Whatareyouaimingat,Ruth?"
"Ionlymeanttosay,IwouldlikegoingtochurchmuchbetterifwewentsolelytopraiseGod,andentreatHismercy。Idonotcaretohearsermons。"
"MydearRuth,sermonsarealargefactinoursocialeconomy。Whenamillionortwoarepreachedeveryyear,theyhaveastrongclaimonourattention。Touseatradephrase,sermonsarefirm,andIbelieveamoderatetaxonthemwouldyieldanastonishingincome。"
"Seehowyoutalkofthem,Edward;asiftheywereacommercialcommodity。Ifyourespectedthem————"
"Ido。Igrantthemasteadypneumaticpressureintheregionofmorals,andevenfaith。Picturetoyourself,Ruth,NewYorkwithoutsermons。Thedearoldcitywouldbelikeashipwithoutballast,heelingoverwitheverywind,andlettinginthewatersofimmoralityandscepticism。RemovethispulpitbalancejustforoneweekfromNewYorkCity,andwhereshouldwebe?"
"Wellthen,"saidEthel,"theclergyoughttogiveNewYorkafirst-ratearticleinsermons,eitherofhomeorforeignmanufacture。
NewYorkexpectstheverybestofeverything;
andwhenshegetsit,sheopensherheartandherpocketbookenjoysit,andpaysforit。"
"Thatisthetruth,Ethel。IwasthinkingofyourgrandmotherRawdon。Youhaveyourhaton——areyougoingtoseeher?"
"IamgoingtoseeDoraDenning。Ihadanurgentnotefromherlastnight。Shesaysshehas`extraordinarynews’andbegsmeto`cometoherimmediately。’Icannotimaginewhathernewsis。IsawherFridayafternoon。"
"Shehasanewpoodle,oranewlover,oranewwayofcrimpingherhair,"suggestedRuthBayardscornfully。"Sheimposesonyou,Ethel;whydoyousubmittoherselfishness?"
"IsupposebecauseIhavebecomeusedtoit。FouryearsagoIbegantotakeherpart,whenthegirlsteasedandtormentedherintheschoolroom,andIhavebig-sisteredhereversince。Isupposewegettolovethosewhomakeuskindandgiveustrouble。Doraisnotperfect,butIlikeherbetterthananyfriendIhave。Andshemustlikeme,forsheasksmyadviceabouteverythinginherlife。"
"Doesshetakeit?"
"Yes——generally。SometimesIhavetomakehertakeit。"
"Shehasamother。Whydoesshenotgotoher?"
"Mrs。Denningknowsnothingaboutcertainsubjects。IamDora’ssocialgodmother,andshemustdressandbehaveasItellhertodo。PoorMrs。Denning!Iamsosorryforher——anothercupofcoffee,Ruth——itisnotverystrong。"
"WhyshouldyoubesorryforMrs。Denning,Herhusbandisenormouslyrich——shelivesinapalace,andhasacrowdofmenandwomenservantstowaituponher——carriages,horses,motorcars,whatnot,athercommand。"
"Yetreally,Ruth,sheisamostunhappywoman。InthatlittleWesterntownfromwhichtheycame,shewaseverybody。Sheranthechurches,andwaschairwomaninalltheclubs,andPresidentoftheTemperanceUnion,andmanagerofeveryreligious,social,andpoliticalfestival;andherdayswerefulltothebrimofjustthethingsshelikedtodo。
Herdresstherewasconsideredmagnificent;
peoplebeggedherforpatterns,andregardedherastheveryglassoffashion。ServantsthoughtitagreatprivilegetobeemployedontheDenningplace,andsheorderedherhouseandmanagedherhalf-scoreofmenandmaidswithpleasantautocracy。NOW!Well,Iwilltellyouhowitis,NOW。Shesitsalldayinhersplendidrooms,orridesoutinhercarorcarriage,andnooneknowsher,andofcoursenoonespeakstoher。Mr。DenninghashisWallStreetfriends————"
"Andenemies,"interruptedJudgeRawdon。
"Andenemies!Youareright,father。
Butheenjoysoneasmuchastheother——thatis,hewouldaswillinglyfighthisenemiesasfeasthisfriends。HesaysabigdayinWallStreetmakeshimalivefromheadtofoot。
Hereallylookshappy。BryceDenninghasgotintotwoclubs,andhismoneypasseshim,forheplays,andiswillingtoloveprudently。
ButnoonecaresaboutMrs。Denning。Sheisquiteold——forty-five,Idaresay;andsheisstout,anddoesnotwearthecolorsandstylesheoughttowear——noneofherthingshavetheright`look,’andofcourseIcannotadviseamatron。Then,herfineEnglishservantstakeherhouseoutofherhands。Sheisafraidofthem。Thebutlersuavelytriestoinformher;thehousekeeperremovedthewhitecrotchetedscarfsandthingsfromthegildedchairs,andIamsureMrs。Denninghadaheartacheabouttheirloss;butshesawthattheyhadalsovanishedfromDora’sparlor,soshetookthehint,andacceptedthelesson。
Really,herhumilityandisolationarepitiful。
Iamgoingtoaskgrandmothertogoandseeher。Grandmothermighttakehertochurch,andgetDr。SimpsonandMrs。Simpsontointroduceher。Hermoneyandadaptabilitywoulddotherest。There,Ihavehadagoodbreakfast,thoughIwaslate。Itisnotalwaystheearlybirdthatgetschickenandmushrooms。
NowIwillgoandseewhatDorawants"——andliftingherfurswithasmile,anda"Goodmorning!"equallycharming,shedisappeared。
"Didyounoticehervoice,Ruth?"askedJudgeRawdon。Whatatonethereisinher`goodmorning!’"
"Thereisatoneineveryone’sgoodmorning,Edward。Ithinkpeople’ssalutationssettomusicwouldrevealtheirinmostcharacter。
Ethel’sgoodmorningsaysinDmajor`Howgoodistheday!’andhergoodnightdropsintotheminorthird,andsayspensively`Howsweetisthenight!’"
"Nay,Ruth,Idon’tunderstandallthat;
butIdounderstandthevoice。Itgoesstraighttomyheart。"
"Andtomyheartalso,Edward。Ithinktoothereisameasuredmusic,acentraltimeandtune,ineverylife。Quick,melodiousnatureslikeEthel’sneverwanderfarfromtheirkeynote,andarethereforejoyouslyset;whileslow,irresolutepeopledeviatefar,andonlycomebackafterpainfuldissonancesandfrequentchanges。"
"Youaregenerallyright,Ruth,evenwhereIcannotfollowyou。IhopeEthelwillbehomefordinner。IlikemySundaydinnerwithbothofyou,andImaybringmymotherbackwithme。"
Thenhesaid"Goodmorning"withanintentionalcheerfulness,andRuthwasleftalonewithherbook。Shegaveamoment’sthoughttothevalueofgoodexample,andthenwithasighofcontentlethereyesrestonthewordsEthel’spresencehadforawhilesilenced:
"Iamfilledwithasenseofsweetnessandwonderthatsuch,littlethingscanmakeamortalsoexceedinglyrich。ButIconfessthatthechiefestofallmydelightsisstillthereligious。"(TheodoreParker。)Shereadthewordsagain,thenclosedhereyesandletthehoneyofsomesacredmemorysatisfyhersoul。
Andinthosefewminutesofreverie,RuthBayardrevealedthekeynoteofherbeing。
Wanderingsfromit,causedbytheexigenciesanddutiesoflife,frequentlyoccurred;butshequicklyreturnedtoitscentralandcontrollingharmony;andherserenityandpoisewerethereforeasnaturalaswasherniece’sjoyousnessandhope。Norwasherreligiouscharactertheresultoftemperament,orofasecludedlife。RuthBayardwasawomanofthoughtandculture,andwiseinthewaysoftheworld,butnotworldly。Herpersonalitywasveryattractive,shehadagoodform,anagreeableface,speakinggrayeyes,andbrownhair,softandnaturallywavy。ShewasadistantcousinofEthel’smother,buthadbeenbroughtupwithherinthesamehousehold,andalwaysregardedherasasister,andEthelneverrememberedthatshewasonlyherauntbyadoption。Tenyearsolderthanherniece,shehadmotheredherwithawiseandlovingpatience,andherthoughtsneverwanderedlongorfarfromthegirl。
Consequently,shesoonfoundherselfwonderingwhatreasontherecouldbeforDoraDenning’surgency。
InthemeantimeEthelhadreachedherfriend’sresidenceanewbuildingofunusualsizeandveryornatearchitecture。LiveriedfootmenandwaitingwomenbowedherwithmuteattentiontoMissDenning’ssuite,anabsolutelyprivatearrangementoffiverooms,marvelouslyfurnishedfortheyounglady’scomfortanddelight。Thewindowsofherparloroverlookedthepark,andshewasstandingatoneofthemasEthelenteredtheroom。Inapassionofwelcominggladnesssheturnedtoher,exclaiming:"Ihavebeenwatchingforyouhoursandhours,Ethel。I
havethemostwonderfulthingtotellyou。I
amsohappy!Sohappy!NoonewaseverashappyasIam。"
ThenEtheltookbothherhands,and,astheystoodtogether,shelookedintentlyatherfriend。Somenewcharmtransfiguredherface;forherdark,gazelleeyeswerenotmorelambentthanhercheeks,thoughinadifferentway;whileherblackhairinitspicturesquelyarrangeddisorderseemedinstinctwithlife,andhardlytoberestrained。Shewasconstantlypushingitback,caressingorarrangingit;andherwhite,slenderfingers,sparklingwithjewels,movedamongthecrimpedandwavylocks,asiftherewasanintelligentsympathybetweenthem。
"Howbeautifulyouareto-day,Dora!
Whohasworkedwondersonyou?"
"BasilStanhope。Helovesme!Helovesme!Hetoldmesolastnight——inthesweetestwordsthatwereeveruttered。Ishallneverforgetoneofthem——never,aslongasIlive!
Letussitdown。Iwanttotellyoueverything。"
"Iamastonished,Dora!"
"Sowasmother,andfather,andBryce。
Noonesuspectedouraffection。Motherusedtogrumbleaboutmygoing`atallhours’toSt。Jude’schurch;butthatwasbecauseSt。
Jude’sissoveryHighChurch,andmotherisaMethodistEpiscopal。Itwasthemorningandeveningprayerssheobjectedto。Noonehadanysuspicionoftheclergyman。Oh,Ethel,heissohandsome!Sogood!Soclever!Ithinkeverywomaninthechurchisinlovewithhim。"
"Thenifheisagoodman,hemustbeveryunhappy。"
"Ofcourseheisquiteignorantoftheiradmiration,andthereforequiteinnocent。I
amtheonlywomanheloves,andheneverevenremembersmewhenheisinthesacredoffice。Ifyoucouldseehimcomeoutofthevestryinhiswhitesurplice,withhisraptfaceandpropheticeyes。Somystical!Sobeautiful!
YouwouldnotwonderthatIworshiphim。"
"ButIdonotunderstand——howdidyoumeethimsocially?"
"ImethimatMrs。Taylor’sfirst。ThenhespoketomeonemorningasIcameoutofchurch,andthenextmorninghewalkedthroughtheparkwithme。Andafterthat——
allwaseasyenough。"
"Isee。Whatdoesyourfatherandmotherthink——orrather,whatdotheysay?"
"Fatheralwayssayswhathethinks,andmotherthinksandsayswhatIdo。Thisconditionsimplifiedmattersverymuch。Basilwrotetofather,andyesterdayafterdinnerhehadaninterviewwithhim。Iexpectedit,andwasquitepreparedforanyclimaxthatmightcome。Iworemyloveliestwhitefrock,andhadliliesofthevalleyinmyhairandonmybreast;andfathercalledme`hislittleangel’
andpiouslywondered`howIcouldbehisdaughter。’AlldinnertimeItriedtobeangelic,andafterdinnerIsang`LittleBoyBlue’andsomeofthesongsheloves;andI
felt,whenBasil’scardcamein,thatIhadpreparedtheproperatmospherefortheinterview。"
"Youarereallyveryclever,Dora。"
"Itriedtocontinuesingingandplaying,butIcouldnot;thenotesallrantogether,thewordswerelost。Iwenttomother’ssideandputmyhandinhers,andshesaidsoftly:`I
canhearyourfatherstormingalittle,buthewillsettledownthequickerforit。IdaresayhewillbringMr。Stanhopeinherebeforelong。"
"Didhe?"
"No。ThatwasBryce’sfault。HowBrycehappenedtobeinthehouseatthathour,I
cannotimagine;butitseemstobenaturalforhimtodropintoanyinterviewwherehecanmaketrouble。However,itturnedoutallforthebest,forwhenmotherheardBryce’svoiceabovealltheothersounds,shesaid,`ComeDora,weshallhavetointerferenow。’ThenIwasdelighted。Iwasangelicallydressed,andIfeltequaltotheinterview。"
"Doyoureallymeanthatyoujoinedthethreequarrelingmen?"
"Ofcourse。Motherwasquitecalm——calmenoughtofreezeatempest——butshegavefatheralookhecomprehended。ThensheshookhandswithBasil,andwouldhavemadesomeremarktoBryce,butwithhisusualimpertinencehetooktheinitiative,andtoldhe:
veryauthoritativelyto`retireandtakemewithher’——callingmethat`demurelittleflirt’inatonethatwasveryoffensive。Youshouldhaveseenfatherblazeintoangerathiswords。HetoldBrycetorememberthat`Mr。
BenDenningownedthehouse,andthatBrycehadfourorfiveroomsinitbyhiscourtesy。’
Hesaidalsothatthe`ladiespresentwereMr。BenDenning’swifeanddaughter,andthatitwasimpertinentinhimtoorderthemoutofhisparlor,wheretheywerealwayswelcome。’Brycewaswhitewithpassion,butheansweredinhisaffectedway——`Sir,thatslygirlwithherpretendedpietyandhersneakofaloverismysister,andIshallnotpermithertodisgracemyfamilywithoutmakingaprotest。’"
"Andthen?"
"Ibegantocry,andIputmyarmsaroundfather’sneckandsaidhemustdefendme;
thatIwasnot`sly,’andBasilwasnot`asneak,’andfatherkissedme,andsaidhewouldsettlewithanyman,andeveryman,whopresumedtocallmeeitherslyoraflirt。"
"IthinkMr。Denningactedbeautifully。
WhatdidBrycesay?"
"HeturnedtoBasil,andsaid:`Mr。Stanhope,ifyouarenotacad,youwillleavethehouse。Youhavenorighttointrudeyourselfintofamilyaffairsandfamilyquarrels。’
Basilhadseatedmother,andwasstandingwithonehandonthebackofherchair,andhedidnotanswerBryce——therewasnoneed,fatheransweredquickenough。HesaidMr。
Stanhopehadaskedtobecomeoneofthefamily,andforhisparthewouldwelcomehimfreely;andthenheaskedmotherifshewasofhismind,andmothersmiledandreachedherhandbackwardtoBasil。Thenfatherkissedmeagain,andsomehowBasil’sarmwasroundme,andIknowIlookedlovely——
almostlikeabride!Oh,Ethel,itwasjustheavenly!"
"Iamsureitwas。DidBryceleavetheroomthen?"
"Yes;hewentoutinapassion,declaringhewouldnevernoticemeagain。ThismorningatbreakfastIsaidIwassorryBrycefeltsohurt,butfatherwassureBrycewouldfindplentyofconsolationinthefactthathisdisapprovalofmychoicewouldexcusehimfromgivingmeaweddingpresent。YouknowBryceisameanlittlemiser!"
"Onthecontrary,Ithoughthewasvery;
luxuriousandextravagant。"
"WhereBryceisconcerned,yes;towardeveryoneelsehisconductistoomeantoconsider。Why,fathermakeshimanallowanceof$20,000ayearandheemptiesfather’scigarboxeswheneverhecandosowithout————"
"LetustalkaboutMr。Stanhopeheisfarmoreinteresting。Whenareyougoingtomarryhim?"
"IntheSpring。FatherisgoingtogivemesomemoneyandIhavethefortuneGrandmotherCahillleftme。Ithasbeenwellinvested,andfathertoldmethismorningI
wasafairlyrichlittlewoman。Basilhassomeprivatefortune,alsohisstipend——weshalldoverywell。Basil’sfamilyisoneofthefinestamongtheoldBostonaristocrats,andheiscloselyconnectedwiththeEnglishStanhopes,whorankwiththegreatestofthenobility。"
"IwishAmericanswouldlearntorelyontheirownnobility。IamtiredoftheireverlastingattemptstograftonsomeEnglishnoblefamily。Nomatterhowgreatorcleveramanmaybe,youaresuretoreadofhisdescentfromsomeScottishchieforEnglishearl。"
"Theycan’thelptheirdescent,Ethel。"
"Theyneednotpinalltheyhavedoneontoit。Oftenfatherfretsmeinthesameway。
Ifhewinsadifficultcase,hedoesitnaturally,becauseheisaRawdon。Heishandsome,gentlemanly,honorable,evenaperfecthorseman,allbecause,beingaRawdon,hewasbynatureandinheritancecompelledtosuchperfection。
Itisveryprovoking,Dora,andifI
wereyouIwouldnotallowBasiltobeginasongabout`theEnglishStanhopes。’AuntRuthandIgetverytiredoftenoftheEnglishRawdons,andarereallythankfulfortheseparatingAtlantic。"
"Idon’tthinkIshallfeelinthatway,Ethel。Ilikethenobility;sodoesfather,hesaystheDenningsareafineoldfamily。"
"WhytalkofgenealogieswhenthereissuchamanasBasilStanhopetoconsider?
LetusgranthimperfectionandagreethatheistomarryyouintheSpring;wellthen,thereistheceremony,andtheweddinggarments!
Ofcourseitistobeachurchwedding?"
"WeshallbemarriedinBasil’sownchurch。Icanhardlyeatorsleepforthinkingofthejoyandthetriumphofit!Therewillbewomentherereadytoeattheirheartswithenvy——Ibelieveindeed,Ethel,thateverywomaninthechurchisinlovewithBasil。"
"Youhavesaidthatbefore,andIamsureyouarewrong。Agreatmanyofthemaremarriedandareinlovewiththeirownhusbands;
andthekindofgirlswhogotoSt。
Jude’sarenotthekindwhomarryclergymen。
Mr。Stanhope’swholeincomewouldhardlybuytheirglovesandparasols。"
"Idon’tthinkyouarepleasedthatIamgoingtomarry。YoumustnotbejealousofBasil。Ishallloveyoujustthesame。"
"Undernoconditions,Dora,wouldIallowjealousytotroublemylife。Allthesame,youwillnotlovemeafteryourmarriageasyouhavelovedmeinthepast。Ishallnotexpectit。"
Passionatedenialsofthisassertion,reminiscencesofthepast,assurancesforthefuturefollowed,andEthelacceptedthemwithoutdisputeandwithoutfaith。ButsheunderstoodthatthemerecircumstanceofherengagementwasallthatDoracouldmanageatpresent;andthatthedetailsofthemarriagemergedthemselvesconstantlyinthewonderfulfactthatBasilStanhopelovedher,andthatsometime,notfaroff,shewasgoingtobehiswife。Thisjoyfulcertaintyfilledherheartandhercomprehension,andshehadanaturalreluctancetosubjectittothedetailsofthesocialandreligiousceremoniesnecessary,Suchthingspermittedotherstoparticipateinherjoy,andsheresentedtheidea。ForatimeshewishedtokeepherloverinaworldwherenootherthoughtmighttroublethethoughtofDora。
Ethelunderstoodherfriend’smood,andwasratherrelievedwhenhercarriagearrived。
ShefeltthatherpresencewaspreventingDora’sabsolutesurrenderofherselftothoughtsofherlover,andallthewayhomeshemarveledatthegirl’sinfatuation,andwonderedifitwouldbepossibleforhertofallintosuchadotageofloveforanyman。Sheansweredthisquerypositively——
"No,ifIshouldlosemyheart,Ishallnotthereforelosemyhead"——andthen,beforeshecouldfinishassuringherselfofherdeterminatewisdom,somemockinglinesshehadoftenquotedtolove-sickgirlswentlaughingthroughhermemory——
"OWoman!Woman!Oourfrail,frailsex!
Nowondertragediesaremadefromus!
Alwaysthesame——nothingbutlovesandcradles。"
ShefoundRuthBayarddressedfordinner,butherfatherwasnotpresent。Thatwassatisfactory,forhewasalwaysalittleimpatientwhenthetalkwasofloversandweddings;andjustthenthistopicwasuppermostinEthel’smind。
"Ruth,"shesaid,"Doraisengaged,"
andtheninafewsentencesshetoldthelittleromanceDorahadlivedforthepastyear,anditshappyculmination。"Settingmoneyaside,Ithinkhewillmakeaverysuitablehusband。Whatdoyouthink,Ruth?"
"FromwhatIknowofMr。Stanhope,I
shoulddoubtit。Iamsurehewillputhisdutiesbeforeeveryearthlything,andIamsureDorawillobjecttothat。ThenIwonderifDoraismadeonapatternlargeenoughtobethemoneyedpartnerinmatrimony。I
shouldthinkMr。Stanhopewasaproudman。"
"DorasaysheisconnectedwiththeEnglishnoblefamilyofStanhopes。"
"WeshallcertainlyhavealltheconnectionsoftheEnglishnobilityinAmericaverysoonnow——butwhydoeshemarryDora?Isithermoney?"
"Ithinknot。IhaveheardfromvarioussourcessomefinethingsofBasilStanhope。
TherearemanyrichergirlsthanDorainSt。
Jude’s。Idaresaysomeoneofthemwouldhavemarriedhim。"
"Youaremistaken。DoyouthinkMargeryStarey,JaneLewes,oranyofthegirlsoftheirorderwouldmarryamanwithafewthousandsayear?Andtomarryforloveisbeyondthefrontiersofsuchwomen’sintelligence。
Intheircreedahusbandisabanker,notamantobelovedandcaredfor。YouknowhowmuchofabankerMr。Stanhopecouldbe。"
"BryceDenningisveryangryatwhatheevidentlyconsidershissister’smesalliance。"
"IfMr。StanhopeisconnectedwiththeEnglishStanhopes,themesalliancemustbelaidtohischarge。"
"IndeedtheDenningshavesomepretensestogoodlineage,andBrycespokeofhissister`disgracinghisfamilybyhercontemplatedmarriage。’"
"Hisfamily!MydearEthel,hisgrandfatherwasamanufactureroftintacks。AndnowthatwehavegotasfarawayastheDenning’sgrandfather,supposewedropthesubject。"
"Content;IamalittletiredoftheclanDenning——thatistheiroriginalnameDorasays。Iwillgonowanddressfordinner。"
ThenRuthroseandlookedinquisitivelyaroundtheroom。Itwasasshewishedittobe——theveryexpressionofelegantcomfort——warmandlight,andholdingthescentofroses:aplaceofdeep,largechairswithnooddsandendstoworryabout,aroomtoloungeandchatin,andwherethelasttouchofperfecthomefreedomwasgivenbyabigmastiffwho,havingheardthedoor-bellring,strolledintoseewhohadcalled。
CHAPTERII
DURINGdinnerbothRuthandEthelwereawareofsomesub-interestintheJudge’smanner;hisabsent-mindednesswasunusual,andonceRuthsawafaintsmilethatnothingevidentcouldhaveinduced。Unconsciouslyalsohesetatoneofconstraintandhurry;
themealwasnotloiteredover,theconversationflagged,andallrosefromthetablewithasenseofrelief;perhaps,indeed,withafeelingofexpectation。
Theyenteredtheparlortogether,andthemastiffrosetomeetthem,askingpermissiontoremainwiththelittlecoaxingpushofhisnosewhichbroughtthereadyanswer:
"Certainly,Sultan。Makeyourselfcomfortable。"
Thentheygroupedthemselvesroundthefire,andtheJudgelithiscigarandlookedatEthelinawaythatinstantlybroughtcuriositytothequestion:
"Youhaveasecret,father,"shesaid。
"Isitaboutgrandmother?"
"Itisnewsratherthanasecret,Ethel。
Andgrandmotherhasagooddealtodowithit,foritisaboutherfamily——theMostyns。"
"Oh!"
ThetoneofEthel’s"Oh!"wasnotencouraging,andRuth’slookofinterestheldinabeyancewasjustaschilling。Butsomethinglikethisattitudehadbeenexpected,andJudgeRawdonwasnotdiscouragedbyit;heknewthatyouthiscapableofgreatandsuddenchanges,andthatitsabilitytofindreasonablemotivesforthemisunlimited,sohecalmlycontinued:
"Youareawarethatyourgrandmother’snamebeforemarriagewasRachelMostyn?"
"Ihaveseenitathousandtimesatthebottomofhersampler,father,theonethatisframedandhanginginhermorningroom——
RachelMostyn,November,AnnoDomini,1827。"
"Verywell。ShemarriedGeorgeRawdon,andtheycametoNewYorkin1834。
TheyhadaprettyhouseontheBowlingGreenandlivedveryhappilythere。Iwasbornin1850,theyoungestoftheirchildren。
YouknowthatIsignmynameEdwardM。
Rawdon;itisreallyEdwardMostynRawdon。"
Hepaused,andRuthsaid,"IsupposeMrs。Rawdonhashadsomenewsfromheroldhome?"
"Shehadaletterlastnight,andIshallprobablyreceiveoneto-morrow。FrederickMostyn,hergrand-nephew,iscomingtoNewYork,andSquireRawdon,ofRawdonManor,writestorecommendtheyoungmantoourhospitality。"
"Butyousurelydonotintendtoinvitehimhere,Edward。Ithinkthatwouldnotdo。"
"HeisgoingtotheHollandHouse。Butheisourkinsman,andthereforewemustbehospitable。"
"Ihavebeentryingtocountthekinship。
Itisoutofmyreckoning,"saidEthel。"I
hopeatleastheisniceandpresentable。"
"TheMostynsareahandsomefamily。
Lookatyourgrandmother。AndSquireRawdonspeaksverywellofMr。Mostyn。
Hehastakentherightsideinpolitics,andislikelytomakehismark。Theywerealwaysgreatsportsmen,andIdaresaythisrepresentativeofthefamilyisagood-lookingfellow,well-mannered,andperfectlydressed。"
Ethellaughed。"IfhisclothesfithimhewillbeanEnglishwonder。IhaveseenlotsofEnglishmen;theyareallfrightsastotrousersandvests。TherewasLordWycomb,hisbroadclothsandsatinsandlinenweremarvelsinquality,butthemake!Thegirlshatedtobeseenwalkingwithhim,andhewouldwalk——`goodfortheconstitution,’
washisexplanationforallhispeculiarities。
TheCaylerswerewearytodeathofthem。"
"Andyet,"saidRuth,"theysangsongsoftriumphwhenLouCaylermarriedhim。"
"Thatwasadifferentthing。Louwouldmakehimget`fits’andstopwearingsloppy,baggyarrangements。AndIdonotsupposetheEnglishlordhasnowasinglepeculiarityleft,unlessitbehisconstitutionalwalk——
that,ofcourse。IhaveheardEnglishbabiesgetoutoftheircradlestotakeaconstitutional。"
DuringthistiradeRuthhadbeenthinking。
"Edward,"sheasked,"whydoesSquireRawdonintroduceMr。Mostyn?
Theirrelationshipcannotbeworthcounting。"
"Thereyouarewrong,Ruth。"Hespokewithalittleexcitement。"Englishmenneverdenymatrimonialrelationships,iftheyareworthyones。MostynandRawdonareboundtogetherbymanyagoldweddingring;wereckonsuchtiesrelationships。SquireRaw-
donlosthissonandhistwograndsonsayearago。Perhapsthisyoungmanmayeventuallystandintheirplace。TheSquireisnearlyeightyyearsold;heisthelastoftheEnglishRawdons——atleastofourbranchofit。"
"YousupposethisMr。MostynmaybecomeSquireofRawdonManor?"
"Hemay,Ruth,butitisnotcertain。
ThereisalargemortgageontheManor。"
"Oh!"
Bothgirlsmadetheejaculationatthesamemoment,andinbothvoicestherewasthesamecurioustoneofspeculation。Itwasacryaftertruthapprehended,butnotrealized。
Mr。Rawdonremainedsilent;hewasdebatingwithhimselftheadvisabilityoffurtherconfidence,buthecamequicklytotheconclusionthatenoughhadbeentoldforthepresent。TurningtoEthel,hesaid:"Isupposegirlshaveacodeofhonorabouttheirsecrets。IsDoraDenning’s`extraordinarynews’shutupinit?"
"Oh,no,father。Sheisgoingtobemarried。
Thatisall。"
"Thatisenough。Whoistheman?"
"ReverendMr。Stanhope。"
"Nonsense!"
"Positively。"
"Ineverheardanythingmoreridiculous。
Thatsaintlyyoungpriest!Why,Dorawillbetiredtodeathofhiminamonth。Andhe?
Poorfellow!"
"Whypoorfellow?Heisverymuchinlovewithher。"
"Itishardtounderstand。St。Jerome’slove`palewithmidnightprayer’wouldbemorebelievablethanthebutterflyDora。
Goodness,gracious!Theideaofthatmanbeinginlove!Itpullshimdownabit。I
thoughtheneverlookedatawoman。"
"Doyouknowhim,father?"
"Asmanypeopleknowhim——bygoodreport。
Iknowthatheisaclergymanwhobelieveswhathepreaches。IknowaWallStreetbrokerwholeftSt。Jude’schurchbecauseMr。Stanhope’ssermonsonSundayputsuchafineedgeonhisconsciencethatMondaysweredangerousdaysforhimtodobusinesson。AndwhateverWallStreetfinanciersthinkoftheBiblepersonally,theydolikeamanwhostickstohiscolors,andwhoholdsintactthetruthcommittedtohim。Stanhopedoesthisemphatically;andheissowelltrustedthatifhewantedtobuildanewchurchhecouldgetallthemoneynecessary,fromWallStreetmeninanhour。Andheisgoingtomarry!GoingtomarryDoraDenning!Itis`extraordinarynews,’indeed!"
Ethelwasalittleoffendedatsuchunusualsurprise。"Ithinkyoudon’tquiteunderstandDora,"shesaid。"ItwillbeMr。Stanhope’sfaultifsheisnotledintherightway;
forifheonlylovesandpetsherenoughhemaydoallhewisheswithher。Iknow,I
havebothcoaxedandorderedherforfouryears——sometimesonewayisbest,andsometimestheother。"
"Howisamantotellwhichwaytotake?
Whatdoherparentsthinkofthemarriage?"
"Theyarepleasedwithit。"
"Pleasedwithit!ThenIhavenothingmoretosay,exceptthatIhopetheywillnotappealtomeonanyquestionofdivorcethatmayarisefromsuchanunlikelymarriage。"
"Theyareonlyloversyet,Edward,"saidRuth。"Itisnotfair,orkind,toeventhinkofdivorce。"
"MydearRuth,thefashionablegirloftodayacceptsmarriagewiththeprovisionofdivorce。"
"Doraishardlyoneofthatset。"
"Ihopeshemaykeepoutofit,butmarriagewillgivehermanyopportunities。Well,Iamsorryfortheyoungpriest。Heisn’tfittomanageawomanlikeDoraDenning。
Iamafraidhewillgettheworstofit。"
"Ithinkyouareveryunkind,father。
Doraismyfriend,andIknowher。Sheisagirlofintensefeelingsandveryaffectionate。
AndshehasdissolvedallherlifeandmindinMr。Stanhope’slifeandmind,justasalumpofsugarisdissolvedinwater。"
Ruthlaughed。"Canyounotfindamorepoeticsimile,Ethel?"
"Itwilldo。Thisisanageofmatter;amaterialsymbolistheproperthing。"
"IamgladtohearshehasdissolvedhermindinStanhope’s,"saidJudgeRawdon。
"Dora’sintellectinitselfischildish。Whatdidthemanseeinherthatheshoulddesireher?"
"Father,younevercantellhowmuchbrainsmenlikewiththeirbeauty。Verylittlewilldogenerally。AndDorahasbeauty——greatbeauty;noonecandenythat。I
thinkDoraisgivingupagreatdeal。Toher,atleast,marriageisastateofpassingfromperfectfreedomintothecomparativeconditionofaslave,givingupherownwayconstantlyforsomeoneelse’sway。"
"Well,Ethel,theremedyisinthelady’shands。Sheisnotforcedtomarry,andtheslaverythatisvoluntaryisnohardship。
Now,mydear,Ihaveacasetolookover,andyoumustexcusemeto-night。To-morrowweshallknowmoreconcerningMr。Mostyn,anditiseasiertotalkaboutcertaintiesthanprobabilities。"
ButifconversationceasedaboutMr。Mostyn,thoughtdidnot;for,acoupleofhoursafterwards,Etheltappedatheraunt’sdoorandsaid,"Justamoment,Ruth。"
"Yes,dear,whatisit?"
"DidyounoticewhatfathersaidaboutthemortgageonRawdonManor"’
"Yes。"
"Heseemedtoknowallaboutit。"
"Ithinkhedoesknowallaboutit。"
"Doyouthinkheholdsit?"
"Hemaydoso——itisnotunlikely。"
"Oh!ThenMr。FredMostyn,ifheistoinheritRawdon,wouldlikethemortgageremoved?"
"Ofcoursehewould。"
"Andthewaytoremoveitwouldbetomarrythedaughteroftheholderofthemortgage?"
"Itwouldbeoneway。"
"Soheiscomingtolookmeover。Iamamatrimonialpossibility。Howdoyoulikethatidea,AuntRuth?"
"Idonotentertainitforamoment。
Mr。Mostynmaynotevenknowofthemortgage。
Whenmenmortgagetheirestatestheydonotmakeconfidencesaboutthematter,ortalkitoverwiththeirfriends。Theyalwaysconcealandhidethetransaction。Ifyourfatherholdsthemortgage,IfeelsurethatnoonebuthimselfandSquireRawdonknowanythingaboutit。Don’tlookatthewrongsideofevents,Ethel;becontentwiththerightsideoflife’stapestry。Whyareyounotasleep?Whatareyouworryingabout?"
"Nothing,onlyIhavenotheardallI
wantedtohear。"
"Andperhapsthatisgoodforyou。"
"Ishallgoandseegrandmotherfirstthinginthemorning。"
"IwouldnotifIwereyou。Youcannotmakeanyexcuseshewillnotseethrough。
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