Thoughhiseyestooknoteofmanyelementsofthecrowdthroughwhichhepassed,theydidsomorosely。Hefoundtrivialallthatwasmeanttocharmhim,anddidnotanswertheglanceswhichinvitedhimtobebold。Heknewthathewouldhavetospeakagreatdeal,toinventandtoamuse,andhisbrainandthroatweretoodryforsuchatask。TheproblemofhowhecouldpassthehourstillhemetCorleyagaintroubledhimalittle。Hecouldthinkofnowayofpassingthembuttokeeponwalking。HeturnedtotheleftwhenhecametothecornerofRutlandSquare,andfeltmoreateaseinthedarkquietstreet,thesombrelookofwhichsuitedhismood。Hepausedatlastbeforethewindowofapoor-lookingshopoverwhichthewordsRefreshmentBarwereprintedinwhiteletters。Ontheglassofthewindowweretwoflyinginscriptions:GingerBeerandGingerAle。ACuthamwasexposedonagreatbluedish,whilenearitonaplatelayasegmentofverylightplum-pudding。Heeyedthisfoodearnestlyforsometime,andthen,afterglancingwarilyupanddownthestreet,wentintotheshopquickly。
Hewashungry,for,exceptsomebiscuitswhichhehadaskedtwogrudgingcuratestobringhim,hehadeatennothingsincebreakfast-time。Hesatdownatanuncoveredwoodentableoppositetwowork-girlsandamechanic。
Aslatternlygirlwaitedonhim。
`Howmuchisaplateofpeas?’heasked。
`Threehalfpence,sir,’saidthegirl。
`Bringmeaplateofpeas,’hesaid,`andabottleofgingerbeer。’
Hespokeroughlyinordertobeliehisairofgentility,forhisentryhadbeenfollowedbyapauseoftalk。Hisfacewasheated。Toappearnaturalhepushedhiscapbackonhisheadandplantedhiselbowsonthetable。
Themechanicandthetwowork-girlsexaminedhimpointbypointbeforeresumingtheirconversationinasubduedvoice。Thegirlbroughthimaplateofgrocer’shotpeas,seasonedwithpepperandvinegar,afork,andhisgingerbeer。Heatehisfoodgreedilyandfounditsogoodthathemadeanoteoftheshopmentally。WhenhehadeatenallthepeashesippedhisgingerbeerandsatforsometimethinkingofCorley’sadventure。Inhisimaginationhebeheldthepairofloverswalkingalongsomedarkroad;
heheardCorley’svoiceindeepenergeticgallantries,andsawagaintheleeroftheyoungwoman’smouth。Thisvisionmadehimfeelkeenlyhisownpovertyofpurseandspirit。Hewastiredofknockingabout,ofpullingthedevilbythetail,ofshiftsandintrigues。Hewouldbethirty-oneinNovember。Wouldhenevergetagoodjob?Wouldheneverhaveahomeofhisown?Hethoughthowpleasantitwouldbetohaveawarmfiretositbyandagooddinnertositdownto。Hehadwalkedthestreetslongenoughwithfriendsandwithgirls。Heknewwhatthosefriendswereworth:
heknewthegirlstoo。Experiencehadembitteredhisheartagainsttheworld。Butallhopehadnotlefthim。Hefeltbetterafterhavingeatenthanhehadfeltbefore,lesswearyofhislife,lessvanquishedinspirit。
Hemightyetbeabletosettledowninsomesnugcornerandlivehappilyifhecouldonlycomeacrosssomegoodsimple-mindedgirlwithalittleoftheready。
Hepaidtwopencehalfpennytotheslatternlygirl,andwentoutoftheshoptobeginhiswanderingagain。HewentintoCapelStreetandwalkedalongtowardstheCityHall。ThenheturnedintoDameStreet。AtthecornerofGeorge’sStreethemettwofriendsofhis,andstoppedtoconversewiththem。Hewasgladthathecouldrestfromallhiswalking。HisfriendsaskedhimhadheseenCorley,andwhatwasthelatest。HerepliedthathehadspentthedaywithCorley。Hisfriendstalkedverylittle。Theylookedvacantlyaftersomefiguresinthecrowd,andsometimesmadeacriticalremark。OnesaidthathehadseenMacanhourbeforeinWestmorelandStreet。
AtthisLenehansaidthathehadbeenwithMacthenightbeforeinEgan’s。
TheyoungmanwhohadseenMacinWestmorelandStreetaskedwasittruethatMachadwonabitoverabilliardsmatch。Lenehandidnotknow:hesaidthatHolohanhadstoodthemdrinksinEgan’s。
HelefthisfriendsataquartertotenandwentupGeorge’sStreet。
HeturnedtotheleftattheCityMarketsandwalkedonintoGraftonStreet。
Thecrowdofgirlsandyoungmenhadthinned,andonhiswayupthestreetheheardmanygroupsandcouplesbiddingoneanothergoodnight。HewentasfarastheclockoftheCollegeofSurgeons:itwasonthestrokeoften。HesetoffbrisklyalongthenorthernsideoftheGreen,hurryingforfearCorleyshouldreturntoosoon。WhenhereachedthecornerofMerrionStreethetookhisstandintheshadowofalamp,andbroughtoutoneofthecigaretteswhichhehadreservedandlitit。Heleanedagainstthelamp-postandkepthisgazefixedonthepartfromwhichheexpectedtoseeCorleyandtheyoungwomanreturn。
Hismindbecameactiveagain。HewonderedhadCorleymanageditsuccessfully。
Hewonderedifhehadaskedheryetorifhewouldleaveittothelast。
Hesufferedallthepangsandthrillsofhisfriend’ssituationaswellasthoseofhisown。ButthememoryofCorley’sslowlyrevolvingheadcalmedhimsomewhat:hewassureCorleywouldpullitoffallright。AllatoncetheideastruckhimthatperhapsCorleyhadseenherhomebyanotherway,andgivenhimtheslip。Hiseyessearchedthestreet:therewasnosignofthem。YetitwassurelyhalfanhoursincehehadseentheclockoftheCollegeofSurgeons。WouldCorleydoathinglikethat?HelithisFastcigaretteandbegantosmokeitnervously。Hestrainedhiseyesaseachtramstoppedatthefarcornerofthesquare。Theymusthavegonehomebyanotherway。Thepaperofhiscigarettebrokeandheflungitintotheroadwithacurse。
Suddenlyhesawthemcomingtowardshim。Hestartedwithdelight,andkeepingclosetohislamp-posttriedtoreadtheresultintheirwalk。
Theywerewalkingquickly,theyoungwomantakingquickshortsteps,whileCorleykeptbesideherwithhislongstride。Theydidnotseemtobespeaking。
Anintimationoftheresultprickedhimlikethepointofasharpinstrument。
HeknewCorleywouldfail;heknewitwasnogo。
TheyturneddownBaggotStreet,andhefollowedthematonce,takingtheotherfootpath。Whentheystoppedhestoppedtoo。Theytalkedforafewmoments,andthentheyoungwomanwentdownthestepsintotheareaofahouse。Corleyremainedstandingattheedgeofthepath,alittledistancefromthefrontsteps。Someminutespassed。Thenthehall-doorwasopenedslowlyandcautiously。Awomancamerunningdownthefrontstepsandcoughed。Corleyturnedandwenttowardsher。Hisbroadfigurehidhersfromviewforafewsecondsandthenshereappeared,runningupthesteps。
Thedoorclosedonher,andCorleybegantowalkswiftlytowardsStephen’sGreen。
Lenehanhurriedoninthesamedirection。Somedropsoflightrainfell。
Hetookthemasawarning,andglancingbacktowardsthehousewhichtheyoungwomanhadenteredtoseethathewasnotobserved,heraneagerlyacrosstheroad。Anxietyandhisswiftrunmadehimpant。Hecalledout:
`Hallo,Corley!’
Corleyturnedhisheadtoseewhohadcalledhim,andthencontinuedwalkingasbefore。Lenehanranafterhim,settlingthewaterproofonhisshoulderswithonehand。
`Hallo,Corley!’hecriedagain。
Hecamelevelwithhisfriendandlookedkeenlyinhisface。Hecouldseenothingthere。
`Well?’hesaid。`Diditcomeoff?’
TheyhadreachedthecornerofElyPlace。Stillwithoutanswering,Corleyswervedtotheleftandwentupthesidestreet。Hisfeatureswerecomposedinsterncalm。Lenehankeptupwithhisfriend,breathinguneasily。Hewasbaffled,andanoteofmenacepiercedthroughhisvoice。
`Can’tyoutellus?’hesaid。`Didyoutryher?’
Corleyhaltedatthefirstlampandstaredgrimlybeforehim。Thenwithagravegestureheextendedahandtowardsthelightand,smiling,openeditslowlytothegazeofhisdisciple。Asmallgoldcoinshoneinthepalm。
TheBoardingHouse
MrsMooneywasabutcher’sdaughter。Shewasawomanwhowasquiteabletokeepthingstoherself:adeterminedwoman。Shehadmarriedherfather’sforeman,andopenedabutcher’sshopnearSpringGardens。Butassoonashisfather-in-lawwasdeadMrMooneybegantogotothedevil。Hedrank,plunderedthetill,ranheadlongintodebt。Itwasnousemakinghimtakethepledge:hewassuretobreakoutagainafewdaysafter。Byfightinghiswifeinthepresenceofcustomersandbybuyingbadmeatheruinedhisbusiness。Onenighthewentforhiswifewiththecleaver,andshehadtosleepinaneighbour’shouse。
Afterthattheylivedapart。Shewenttothepriestandgotaseparationfromhim,withcareofthechildren。Shewouldgivehimneithermoneynorfoodnorhouse-room;andsohewasobligedtoenlisthimselfasasheriff’sman。Hewasashabbystoopedlittledrunkardwithawhitefaceandawhitemoustacheandwhiteeyebrows,pencilledabovehislittleeyes,whichwerepink-veinedandraw;andalldaylonghesatinthebailiff’sroom,waitingtobeputonajob。MrsMooney,whohadtakenwhatremainedofhermoneyoutofthebutcherbusinessandsetupaboardinghouseinHardwickeStreet,wasabigimposingwoman。HerhousehadafloatingpopulationmadeupoftouristsfromLiverpoolandtheIsleofManand,occasionally,artistesfromthemusichalls。Itsresidentpopulationwasmadeupofclerksfromthecity。Shegovernedthehousecunninglyandfirmly,knewwhentogivecredit,whentobesternandwhentoletthingspass。AlltheresidentyoungmenspokeofherasTheMadam。
MrsMooney’syoungmenpaidfifteenshillingsaweekforboardandlodgings(beerorstoutatdinnerexcluded)。Theysharedincommontastesandoccupationsandforthisreasontheywereverychummywithoneanother。Theydiscussedwithoneanotherthechancesoffavouritesandoutsiders。JackMooney,theMadam’sson,whowasclerktoacommissionagentinFleetStreet,hadthereputationofbeingahardcase。Hewasfondofusingsoldiers’obscenities:
usuallyhecamehomeinthesmallhours。Whenhemethisfriendshehadalwaysagoodonetotellthem,andhewasalwayssuretobeontoagoodthing-thatistosay,alikelyhorseoralikelyartiste。Hewasalsohandywiththemitsandsangcomicsongs。OnSundaynightstherewouldoftenbeareunioninMrsMooney’sfrontdrawing-room。Themusic-hallartisteswouldoblige;andSheridanplayedwaltzesandpolkasandvampedaccompaniments。
PollyMooney,theMadam’sdaughter,wouldalsosing。Shesang:I’ma……naughtygirlYouneedn’tsham:
YouknowIam。Pollywasaslimgirlofnineteen;shehadlightsofthairandasmallfullmouth。Hereyes,whichweregreywithashadeofgreenthroughthem,hadahabitofglancingupwardswhenshespokewithanyone,whichmadeherlooklikealittleperversemadonna。MrsMooneyhadfirstsentherdaughtertobeatypistinacorn-factor’soffice,butasadisreputablesheriff’smanusedtocomeeveryotherdaytotheoffice,askingtobeallowedtosayawordtohisdaughter,shehadtakenherdaughterhomeagainandsethertodohousework。AsPollywasverylively,theintentionwastogivehertherunoftheyoungmen。Besides,youngmenliketofeelthatthereisayoungwomannotveryfaraway。Polly,ofcourse,flirtedwiththeyoungmen,butMrsMooney,whowasashrewdjudge,knewthattheyoungmenwereonlypassingthetimeaway:noneofthemmeantbusiness。
Thingswentonsoforalongtime,andMrsMooneybegantothinkofsendingPollybacktotypewriting,whenshenoticedthatsomethingwasgoingonbetweenPollyandoneoftheyoungmen。Shewatchedthepairandkeptherowncounsel。
Pollyknewthatshewasbeingwatched,butstillhermother’spersistentsilencecouldnotbemisunderstood。Therehadbeennoopencomplicitybetweenmotheranddaughter,noopenunderstanding,butthoughpeopleinthehousebegantotalkoftheaffair,stillMrsMooneydidnotintervene。Pollybegantogrowalittlestrangeinhermanner,andtheyoungmanwasevidentlyperturbed。Atlast,whenshejudgedittobetherightmoment,MrsMooneyintervened。Shedealtwithmoralproblemsasacleaverdealswithmeat:
andinthiscaseshehadmadeuphermind。
ItwasabrightSundaymorningofearlysummer,promisingheat,butwithafreshbreezeblowing。Allthewindowsoftheboardinghousewereopenandthelacecurtainsballoonedgentlytowardsthestreetbeneaththeraisedsashes。ThebelfryofGeorge’sChurchsentoutconstantpeals,andworshippers,singlyoringroups,traversedthelittlecircusbeforethechurch,revealingtheirpurposebytheirself-containeddemeanournolessthanbythelittlevolumesintheirglovedhands。Breakfastwasoverintheboardinghouse,andthetableofthebreakfast-roomwascoveredwithplatesonwhichlayyellowstreaksofeggswithmorselsofbacon-fatandbacon-rind。MrsMooneysatinthestrawarm-chairandwatchedtheservantMaryremovethebreakfastthings。ShemadeMarycollectthecrustsandpiecesofbrokenbreadtohelptomakeTuesday’sbread-pudding。Whenthetablewascleared,thebrokenbreadcollected,thesugarandbuttersafeunderlockandkey,shebegantoreconstructtheinterviewwhichshehadhadthenightbeforewithPolly。Thingswereasshehadsuspected:shehadbeenfrankinherquestionsandPollyhadbeenfrankinheranswers。
Bothhadbeensomewhatewkward,ofcourse。Shehadbeenmadeawkwardbyhernotwishingtoreceivethenewsintoocavalierafashionortoseemtohaveconnived,andPollyhadbeenmadeawkwardnotmerelybecauseallusionsofthatkindalwaysmadeherawkward,butalsobecauseshedidnotwishittobethoughtthatinherwiseinnocenceshehaddivinedtheintentionbehindhermother’stolerance。
MrsMooneyglancedinstinctivelyatthelittlegiltclockonthemantelpieceassoonasshehadbecomeawarethroughherreveriethatthebellsofGeorge’sChurchhadstoppedringing。Itwasseventeenminutespasteleven:shewouldhavelotsoftimetohavethematteroutwithMrDoranandthencatchshorttwelveatMarlboroughStreet。Shewassureshewouldwin。Tobeginwith,shehadalltheweightofsocialopiniononherside:shewasanoutragedmother。Shehadallowedhimtolivebeneathherroof,assumingthathewasamanofhonour,andhehadsimplyabusedherhospitality。Hewasthirty-fourorthirty-fiveyearsofage,sothatyouthcouldnotbepleadedashisexcuse;norcouldignorancebehisexcuse,sincehewasamanwhohadseensomethingoftheworld。HehadsimplytakenadvantageofPolly’syouthandinexperience:thatwasevident。Thequestionwas:Whatreparationwouldhemake?
Theremustbereparationmadeinsuchacase。Itisallverywellfortheman:hecangohiswaysasifnothinghadhappened,havinghadhismomentofpleasure,butthegirlhastobearthebrunt。Somemotherswouldbecontenttopatchupsuchanaffairforasumofmoney:shehadknowncasesofit。Butshewouldnotdoso。Forheronlyonereparationcouldmakeupforthelossofherdaughter’shonour:marriage。
ShecountedallhercardsagainbeforesendingMaryuptoMrDoran’sroomtosaythatshewishedtospeakwithhim。Shefeltsureshewouldwin。Hewasaseriousyoungman,notrakishorloud-voicedliketheothers。
IfithadbeenMrSheridanorMrMeadeorBantamLyons,hertaskwouldhavebeenmuchharder。Shedidnotthinkhewouldfacepublicity。Allthelodgersinthehouseknewsomethingoftheaffair;detailshadbeeninventedbysome。Besides,hehadbeenemployedforthirteenyearsinagreatCatholicwine-merchant’soffice,andpublicitywouldmeanforhim,perhaps,thelossofhisjob。Whereasifheagreedallmightbewell。Sheknewhehadagoodscrewforonething,andshesuspectedhehadabitofstuffputby。
Nearlythehalf-hour!Shestoodupandsurveyedherselfinthepier-glass。
Thedecisiveexpressionofhergreatfloridfacesatisfiedher,andshethoughtofsomemotherssheknewwhocouldnotgettheirdaughtersofftheirhands。
MrDoranwasveryanxiousindeedthisSundaymorning。Hehadmadetwoattemptstoshave,buthishandhadbeensounsteadythathehadbeenobligedtodesist。Threedays’reddishbeardfringedhisjaws,andeverytwoorthreeminutesamistgatheredonhisglassessothathehadtotakethemoffandpolishthemwithhispocket-handkerchief。Therecollectionofhisconfessionofthenightbeforewasacauseofacutepaintohim;thepriesthaddrawnouteveryridiculousdetailoftheaffair,andintheendhadsomagnifiedhissinthathewasalmostthankfulatbeingaffordedaloopholeofreparation。Theharmwasdone。Whatcouldhedonowbutmarryherorrunaway?Hecouldnotbrazenitout。Theaffairwouldbesuretobetalkedof,andhisemployerwouldbecertaintohearofit。Dublinissuchasmallcity:everyoneknowseveryoneelse’sbusiness。HefelthisheartleapwarmlyinhisthroatasheheardinhisexcitedimaginationoldMrLeonardcallingoutinhisraspingvoice:`SendMrDoranhere,please。’
Allhislongyearsofservicegonefornothing!Allhisindustryanddiligencethrownaway!Asayoungmanhehadsownhiswildoats,ofcourse;
hehadboastedofhisfree-thinkinganddeniedtheexistenceofGodtohiscompanionsinpublic-houses。Butthatwasallpassedanddonewith……
nearly。HestillboughtacopyofReynoldsNewspapereveryweek,butheattendedtohisreligiousduties,andfornine-tenthsoftheyearlivedaregularlife。Hehadmoneyenoughtosettledownon;itwasnotthat。Butthefamilywouldlookdownonher。Firstofalltherewasherdisreputablefather,andthenhermother’sboardinghousewasbeginningtogetacertainfame。Hehadanotionthathewasbeinghad。Hecouldimaginehisfriendstalkingoftheaffairandlaughing。Shewasalittlevulgar;sometimesshesaid`Iseen’and`IfIhad’veknown。’Butwhatwouldgrammarmatterifhereallylovedher?Hecouldnotmakeuphismindwhethertolikeherordespiseherforwhatshehaddone。Ofcoursehehaddoneittoo。Hisinstincturgedhimtoremainfree,nottomarry。
Onceyouaremarriedyouaredonefor,itsaid。
Whilehewassittinghelplesslyonthesideofthebedinshirtandtrousers,shetappedlightlyathisdoorandentered。Shetoldhimall,thatshehadmadeacleanbreastofittohermotherandthathermotherwouldspeakwithhimthatmorning。Shecriedandthrewherarmsroundhisneck,saying:
`OBob!Bob!WhatamItodo?WhatamItodoatall?’
Shewouldputanendtoherself,shesaid。
Hecomfortedherfeebly,tellinghernottocry,thatitwouldbeallright,neverfear。Hefeltagainsthisshirttheagitationofherbosom。
Itwasnotaltogetherhisfaultthatithadhappened。Herememberedwell,withthecuriouspatientmemoryofthecelibate,thefirstcasualcaressesherdress,herbreath,herfingershadgivenhim。Thenlateonenightashewasundressingforbedshehadtappedathisdoor,timidly。
Shewantedtorelighthercandleathis,forhershadbeenblownoutbyagust。Itwasherbathnight。Sheworealooseopencombing-jacketofprintedflannel。Herwhiteinstepshoneintheopeningofherfurryslippersandthebloodglowedwarmlybehindherperfumedskin。Fromherhandsandwriststooasshelitandsteadiedhercandleafaintperfumearose。
Onnightswhenhecameinverylateitwasshewhowarmeduphisdinner。
Hescarcelyknewwhathewaseating,feelingherbesidehimalone,atnight,inthesleepinghouse。Andherthoughtfulness!Ifthenightwasanywaycoldorwetorwindytherewassuretobealittletumblerofpunchreadyforhim。Perhapstheycouldbehappytogether……
Theyusedtogoupstairstogetherontiptoe,eachwithacandle,andonthethirdlandingexchangereluctantgoodnights。Theyusedtokiss。
Herememberedwellhereyes,thetouchofherhandandhisdelirium……
Butdeliriumpasses。Heechoedherphrase,applyingittohimself:`WhatamItodo?’Theinstinctofthecelibatewarnedhimtoholdback。
Butthesinwasthere;evenhissenseofhonourtoldhimthatreparationmustbemadeforsuchasin。
WhilehewassittingwithheronthesideofthebedMarycametothedoorandsaidthatthemissuswantedtoseehimintheparlour。Hestooduptoputonhiscoatandwaistcoat,morehelplessthanever。Whenhewasdressedhewentovertohertocomforther。Itwouldbeallright,neverfear。Helefthercryingonthebedandmoaningsoftly:`0myGod!’
Goingdownthestairshisglassesbecamesodimmedwithmoisturethathehadtotakethemoffandpolishthem。Helongedtoascendthroughtheroofandflyawaytoanothercountrywherehewouldneverhearagainofhistrouble,andyetaforcepushedhimdownstairsstepbystep。TheimplacablefacesofhisemployerandoftheMadamstareduponhisdiscomfiture。OnthelastflightofstairshepassedJackMooney,whowascomingupfromthepantrynursingtwobottlesofBass。Theysalutedcoldly;andthelover’seyesrestedforasecondortwoonathickbulldogfaceandapairofthickshortarms。WhenhereachedthefootofthestaircaseheglancedupandsawJackregardinghimfromthedoorofthereturn-room。
Suddenlyherememberedthenightwhenoneofthemusic-hallartistes,alittleblondLondoner,hadmadearatherfreeallusiontoPolly。ThereunionhadbeenalmostbrokenuponaccountofJack’sviolence。Everyonetriedtoquiethim。Themusic-hallartiste,alittlepalerthanusual,keptsmilingandsayingthattherewasnoharmmeant;butJackkeptshoutingathimthatifanyfellowtriedthatsortofagameonwithhissisterhe’dbloodywellputhisteethdownhisthroat:sohewould。
Pollysatforalittletimeonthesideofthebed,crying。Thenshedriedhereyesandwentovertothelooking-glass。Shedippedtheendofthetowelinthewater-jugandrefreshedhereyeswiththecoolwater。
Shelookedatherselfinprofileandreadjustedahairpinaboveherear。
Thenshewentbacktothebedagainandsatatthefoot。Sheregardedthepillowsforalongtime,andthesightofthemawakenedinhermindsecret,amiablememories。Sherestedthenapeofherneckagainstthecoolironbedrailandfellintoareverie。Therewasnolongeranyperturbationvisibleonherface。
Shewaitedonpatiently,almostcheerfully,withoutalarm,hermemoriesgraduallygivingplacetohopesandvisionsofthefuture。Herhopesandvisionsweresointricatethatshenolongersawthewhitepillowsonwhichhergazewasfixed,orrememberedthatshewaswaitingforanything。
Atlastsheheardhermothercalling。Shestartedtoherfeetandrantothebanisters。
`Polly!Polly!’
`Yes,mamma?’
`Comedown,dear。MrDoranwantstospeaktoyou。’
Thensherememberedwhatshehadbeenwaitingfor。
ALittleCloud
EightyearsbeforehehadseenhisfriendoffattheNorthWallandwishedhimGod-speed。Gallaherhadgoton。Youcouldtellthatatoncebyhistravelledair,hiswell-cuttweedsuit,andfearlessaccent。Fewfellowshadtalentslikehis,andfewerstillcouldremainunspoiledbysuchsuccess。
Gallaher’sheartwasintherightplaceandhehaddeservedtowin。Itwassomethingtohaveafriendlikethat。
LittleChandler’sthoughtseversincelunch-timehadbeenofhismeetingwithGallaher,ofGallaher’sinvitation,andofthegreatcityLondonwhereGallaherlived。HewascalledLittleChandlerbecause,thoughhewasbutslightlyundertheaveragestature,hegaveonetheideaofbeingalittleman。Hishandswerewhiteandsmall,hisframewasfragile,hisvoicewasquietandhismannerswererefined。Hetookthegreatestcareofhisfairsilkenhairandmoustache,andusedperfumediscreetlyonhishandkerchief。
Thehalf-moonsofhisnailswereperfect,andwhenhesmiledyoucaughtaglimpseofarowofchildishwhiteteeth。
AchesatathisdeskintheKing’sInnshethoughtwhatchangesthoseeightyearshadbrought。ThefriendwhomhehadknownunderashabbyandnecessitousguisehadbecomeabrilliantfigureontheLondonPress。Heturnedoftenfromhistiresomewritingtogazeoutoftheofficewindow。
Theglowofalateautumnsunsetcoveredthegrassplotsandwalks。Itcastashowerofkindlygoldendustontheuntidynursesanddecrepitoldmenwhodrowsedonthebenches;itflickereduponallthemovingfigures-onthechildrenwhoranscreamingalongthegravelpathsandoneveryonewhopassedthroughthegardens。Hewatchedthesceneandthoughtoflife;
and(asalwayshappenedwhenhethoughtoflife)hebecamesad。Agentlemelancholytookpossessionofhim。Hefelthowuselessitwastostruggleagainstfortune,thisbeingtheburdenofwisdomwhichtheageshadbequeathedtohim。
Herememberedthebooksofpoetryuponhisshelvesathome。Hehadboughttheminhisbachelordaysandmanyanevening,ashesatinthelittleroomoffthehall,hehadbeentemptedtotakeonedownfromthebookshelfandreadoutsomethingtohiswife。Butshynesshadalwaysheldhimback;
andsothebookshadremainedontheirshelves。Attimesherepeatedlinestohimselfandthisconsoledhim。
Whenhishourhadstruckhestoodupandtookleaveofhisdeskandofhisfellow-clerkspunctiliously。HeemergedfromunderthefeudalarchoftheKing’sInns,aneatmodestfigure,andwalkedswiftlydownHenriettaStreet。Thegoldensunsetwaswaningandtheairhadgrownsharp。Ahordeofgrimychildrenpopulatedthestreet。Theystoodorranintheroadway,orcrawledupthestepsbeforethegapingdoors,orsquattedlikemiceuponthethresholds。LittleChandlergavethemnothought。Hepickedhiswaydeftlythroughallthatminutevermin-likelifeandundertheshadowofthegauntspectralmansionsinwhichtheoldnobilityofDublinhadroistered。Nomemoryofthepasttouchedhim,forhismindwasfullofapresentjoy。
HehadneverbeeninCorless’s,butheknewthevalueofthename。Heknewthatpeoplewentthereafterthetheatretoeatoystersanddrinkliqueurs;andhehadheardthatthewaiterstherespokeFrenchandGerman。
Walkingswiftlybyatnighthehadseencabsdrawnupbeforethedoorandrichly-dressedladies,escortedbycavaliers,alightandenterquickly。
Theyworenoisydressesandmanywraps。Theirfaceswerepowderedandtheycaughtuptheirdresses,whentheytouchedearth,likealarmedAtalantas。
Hehadalwayspassedwithoutturninghisheadtolook。Itwashishabittowalkswiftlyinthestreetevenbyday,andwheneverhefoundhimselfinthecitylateatnighthehurriedonhiswayapprehensivelyandexcitedly。
Sometimes,however,hecourtedthecausesofhisfear。Hechosethedarkestandnarroweststreetsand,ashewalkedboldlyforward,thesilencethatwasspreadabouthisfootstepstroubledhim;thewandering,silentfigurestroubledhim;andattimesasoundoflowfugitivelaughtermadehimtremblelikealeaf。
HeturnedtotherighttowardsCapelStreet。IgnatiusGallaherontheLondonPress!Whowouldhavethoughtitpossibleeightyearsbefore?Still,nowthathereviewedthepast,LittleChandlercouldremembermanysignsoffuturegreatnessinhisfriend。PeopleusedtosaythatIgnatiusGallaherwaswild。Ofcourse,hedidmixwitharakishsetoffellowsatthattime;
drankfreelyandborrowedmoneyonallsides。Intheendhehadgotmixedupinsomeshadyaffair,somemoneytransaction:atleast,thatwasoneversionofhisflight。Butnobodydeniedhimtalent。Therewasalwaysacertain……somethinginIgnatiusGallaherthatimpressedyouinspiteofyourself。Evenwhenhewasoutatelbowsandathiswits’endformoneyhekeptupaboldface。LittleChandlerremembered(andtheremembrancebroughtaslightflushofpridetohischeek)oneofIgnatiusGallaher’ssayingswhenhewasinatightcorner:
`Half-timenow,boys,’heusedtosaylight-heartedly。`Where’smyconsideringcap?’
ThatwasIgnatiusGallaherallout;and,damnit,youcouldn’tbutadmirehimforit。
LittleChandlerquickenedhispace。Forthefirsttimeinhislifehefelthimselfsuperiortothepeoplehepassed。ForthefirsttimehissoulrevoltedagainstthedullineleganceofCapelStreet。Therewasnodoubtaboutit:ifyouwantedtosucceedyouhadtogoaway。YoucoulddonothinginDublin。AshecrossedGrattanBridgehelookeddowntherivertowardsthelowerquaysandpitiedthepoorstuntedhouses。Theyseemedtohimabandoftramps,huddledtogetheralongtheriver-banks,theiroldcoatscoveredwithdustandsoot,stupefiedbythepanoramaofsunsetandwaitingforthefirstchillofnighttobidthemarise,shakethemselvesandbegone。
Hewonderedwhetherhecouldwriteapoemtoexpresshisidea。PerhapsGallahermightbeabletogetitintosomeLondonpaperforhim。Couldhewritesomethingoriginal?Hewasnotsurewhatideahewishedtoexpress,butthethoughtthatapoeticmomenthadtouchedhimtooklifewithinhimlikeaninfanthope。Hesteppedonwardbravely。
EverystepbroughthimnearertoLondon,fartherfromhisownsoberinartisticlife。Alightbegantotrembleonthehorizonofhismind。Hewasnotsoold-thirty-two。Histemperamentmightbesaidtobejustatthepointofmaturity。Thereweresomanydifferentmoodsandimpressionsthathewishedtoexpressinverse。Hefeltthemwithinhim。Hetriedtoweighhissoultoseeifitwasapoet’ssoul。Melancholywasthedominantnoteofhistemperament,hethought,butitwasamelancholytemperedbyrecurrencesoffaithandresignationandsimplejoy。Ifhecouldgiveexpressiontoitinabookofpoemsperhapsmenwouldlisten。Hewouldneverbepopular:
hesawthat。Hecouldnotswaythecrowd,buthemightappealtoalittlecircleofkindredminds。TheEnglishcritics,perhaps,wouldrecognizehimasoneoftheCelticschoolbyreasonofthemelancholytoneofhispoems;besidesthat,hewouldputinallusions。Hebegantoinventsentencesandphrasesfromthenoticewhichhisbookwouldget。`MrChandlerhasthegiftofeasyandgracefulverse’……`Awistfulsadnesspervadesthesepoems’……`TheCelticnote’。ItwasapityhisnamewasnotmoreIrish-looking。
Perhapsitwouldbebettertoinserthismother’snamebeforethesurname:
ThomasMaloneChandler;orbetterstill:T。MaloneChandler。HewouldspeaktoGallaheraboutit。
Hepursuedhisreveriesoardentlythathepassedhisstreetandhadtoturnback。AshecamenearCorless’shisformeragitationbegantoovermasterhimandhehaltedbeforethedoorinindecision。Finallyheopenedthedoorandentered。
Thelightandnoiseofthebarheldhimatthedoorwayforafewmoments。
Helookedabouthim,buthissightwasconfusedbytheshiningofmanyredandgreenwine-glasses。Thebarseemedtohimtobefullofpeopleandhefeltthatthepeoplewereobservinghimcuriously。Heglancedquicklytorightandleft(frowningslightlytomakehiserrandappearserious),butwhenhissightclearedalittlehesawthatnobodyhadturnedtolookathim:andthere,Sureenough,wasIgnatiusGallaherleaningwithhisbackagainstthecounterandhisfeetplantedfarapart。
`Hallo,Tommy,oldhero,hereyouare!Whatisittobe?Whatwillyouhave?I’mtakingwhisky:betterstuffthanwegetacrossthewater。Soda?
Lithia?Nomineral?I’mthesame。Spoilstheflavour……Here,garç;on,bringustwohalvesofmaltwhisky,likeagoodfellow……Well,andhowhaveyoubeenpullingalongsinceIsawyoulast?DearGod,howoldwe’regetting!Doyouseeanysignsofageinginme-eh,what?Alittlegreyandthinonthetop-what?’
IgnatiusGallahertookoffhishatanddisplayedalargeclosely-croppedhead。Hisfacewasheavy,pale,andclean-shaven。Hiseyes,whichwereofbluishslate-colour,relievedhisunhealthypallorandshoneoutplainlyabovethevividorangetiehewore。Betweentheserivalfeaturesthelipsappearedverylongandshapelessandcolourless。Hebenthisheadandfeltwithtwosympatheticfingersthethinhairatthecrown。LittleChandlershookhisheadasadenial。IgnatiusGallaherputonhishatagain。
`Itpullsyoudown,’hesaid。`Presslife。Alwayshurryandscurry,lookingforcopyandsometimesnotfindingit:andthen,alwaystohavesomethingnewinyourstuff。Damnproofsandprinters,Isay,forafewdays。I’mdeucedglad,Icantellyou,togetbacktotheoldcountry。
Doesafellowgood,abitofaholiday。IfeelatonbettersinceIlandedagainindear,dirtyDublin……Hereyouare,Tommy。Water?Saywhen。’
LittleChandlerallowedhiswhiskytobeverymuchdiluted。
`Youdon’tknowwhat’sgoodforyou,myboy,’saidIgnatiusGallaher。
`Idrinkmineneat。’
`Idrinkverylittleasarule,’saidLittleChandlermodestly。`Anoddhalf-oneorsowhenImeetanyoftheoldcrowd:that’sall。’
`Ahwell,’saidIgnatiusGallahercheerfully,`here’stousandtooldtimesandoldacquaintance。’
Theyclinkedglassesanddrankthetoast。
`Imetsomeoftheoldgangtoday,’saidIgnatiusGallaher。`O’Haraseemstobeinabadway。What’shedoing?’
`Nothing,’saidLittleChandler。`He’sgonetothedogs。’
`ButHoganhasagoodsit,hasn’the?’
`Yes,be’sintheLandCommission。’
`ImethimonenightinLondonandheseemedtobeveryflush……PoorO’Hara!Booze,Isuppose?’
`Otherthings,too,’saidLittleChandlershortly。
IgnatiusGallaherlaughed。
`Tommy,’hesaid,`Iseeyouhaven’tchangedanatom。You’retheverysameseriouspersonthatusedtolecturemeonSundaymorningswhenIhadasoreheadandafuronmytongue。You’dwanttoknockaboutabitintheworld。Haveyouneverbeenanywhereevenforatrip?’
`I’vebeentotheIsleofMan,’saidLittleChandler。
IgnatiusGallaherlaughed。
`TheIsleofMan!’hesaid。`GotoLondonorParis:Paris,forchoice。
That’ddoyougood。’
`HaveyouseenParis?’
`IshouldthinkIhave!I’veknockedabouttherealittle。’
`Andisitreallysobeautifulastheysay?’askedLittleChandler。
HesippedalittleofhisdrinkwhileIgnatiusGallaherfinishedhisboldly。
`Beautiful?’saidIgnatiusGallaher,pausingonthewordandontheflavourofhisdrink。`It’snotsobeautiful,youknow。Ofcourseitisbeautiful……Butit’sthelifeofParis;that’sthething。Ah,there’snocitylikeParisforgaiety,movement,excitement……’
LittleChandlerfinishedhiswhiskyand,aftersometrouble,succeededincatchingthebarman’seye。Heorderedthesameagain。
`I’vebeentotheMoulinRouge,’IgnatiusGallahercontinuedwhenthebarmanhadremovedtheirglasses,`andI’vebeentoalltheBohemiancafé;s。
Hotstuff!Notforapiouschaplikeyou,Tommy。’
LittleChandlersaidnothinguntilthebarmanreturnedwithtwoglasses:
thenhetouchedhisfriend’sglasslightlyandreciprocatedtheformertoast。Hewasbeginningtofeelsomewhatdisillusioned。Gallaher’saccentandwayofexpressinghimselfdidnotpleasehim。Therewassomethingvulgarinhisfriendwhichliehadnotobservedbefore。ButperhapsitwasonlytheresultoflivinginLondonamidthebustleandcompetitionofthePress。
Theoldpersonalcharmwasstillthereunderthisnewgaudymanner。And,afterall,Gallaherhadlived,hehadseentheworld。LittleChandlerlookedathisfriendenviously。
`EverythinginParisisgay,’saidIgnatiusGallaher。`Theybelieveinenjoyinglife-anddon’tyouthinkthey’reright?IfyouwanttoenjoyyourselfproperlyyoumustgotoParis。And,mindyou,they’veagreatfeelingfortheIrishthere。WhentheyheardIwasfromIrelandtheywerereadytoeatme,man。’
LittleChandlertookfourorfivesipsfromhisglass。
`Tellme,’hesaid,`isittruethatParisisso……immoralastheysay?’
IgnatiusGallahermadeacatholicgesturewithhisrightarm。
`Everyplaceisimmoral,’hesaid。`OfcourseyoudofindspicybitsinParis。Gotooneofthestudents’balls,forinstance。That’slively,ifyoulike,whenthecocottesbegintoletthemselvesloose。Youknowwhattheyare,Isuppose?’
`I’veheardofthem,’saidLittleChandler。
IgnatiusGallaherdrankoffhiswhiskyandshookhishead。
`Ah,’hesaid,`youmaysaywhatyoulike。There’snowomanliketheParisienne-forstyle,forgo。’
`Thenitisanimmoralcity,’saidLittleChandler,withtimidinsistence-`Imean,comparedwithLondonorDublin?’
`London!’saidIgnatiusGallaher。`It’ssixofoneandhalfadozenoftheother。YouaskHogan,myboy。IshowedhimabitaboutLondonwhenhewasoverthere。He’dopenyoureye……Isay,Tommy,don’tmakepunchofthatwhisky:liquorup。’
`No,really。’
`O,comeon,anotheronewon’tdoyouanyharm。Whatisit?Thesameagain,Isuppose?’
`Well……allright。’
`Franç;ois,thesameagain……Willyousmoke,Tommy?’
IgnatiusGallaherproducedhiscigar-case。Thetwofriendslittheircigarsandpuffedattheminsilenceuntiltheirdrinkswereserved。
`I’lltellyoumyopinion,’saidIgnatiusGallaher,emergingaftersometimefromthecloudsofsmokeinwhichhehadtakenrefuge,`it’sarumworld。Talkofimmorality!I’veheardofcases-whatamIsaying?-I’veknownthem:casesof……immorality……’
IgnatiusGallaherpuffedthoughtfullyathiscigarandthen,inacalmhistorian’stone,heproceededtosketchforhisfriendsomepicturesofthecorruptionwhichwasrifeabroad。HesummarizedthevicesofmanycapitalsandseemedinclinedtoawardthepalmtoBerlin。Somethingshecouldnotvouchfor(hisfriendshadtoldhim),butofothershehadhadpersonalexperience。Hesparedneitherranknorcaste。HerevealedmanyofthesecretsofreligioushousesontheContinentanddescribedsomeofthepracticeswhichwerefashionableinhighsociety,andendedbytelling,withdetails,astoryaboutanEnglishduchess-astorywhichheknewtobetrue。Littlechandlerwasastonished。
`Ah,well,’saidIgnatiusGallaher,`hereweareinoldjog-alongDublinwherenothingisknownofsuchthings。’
`Howdullyoumustfindit,’saidLittleChandler,`afteralltheotherplacesyou’veseen!’
`Well,’saidIgnatiusGallaher,`it’sarelaxationtocomeoverhere,youknow。And,afterall,it’stheoldcountry,astheysay,isn’tit?
Youcan’thelphavingacertainfeelingforit。That’shumannature……
Buttellmesomethingaboutyourself。Hogantoldmeyouhad……tastedthejoysofconnubialbliss。Twoyearsago,wasn’tit?’
LittleChandlerblushedandsmiled。
`Yes,’hesaid。`IwasmarriedlastMaytwelvemonths。’
`Ihopeit’snottoolateinthedaytooffermybestwishes,’saidIgnatiusGallaher。`Ididn’tknowyouraddressorI’dhavedonesoatthetime。’
Heextendedhishand,whichLittleChandlertook。
`Well,Tommy,’hesaid,`Iwishyouandyourseveryjoyinlife,oldchap,andtonsofmoney,andmayyouneverdietillIshootyou。Andthat’sthewishofasincerefriend,anoldfriend。Youknowthat?’
`Iknowthat,’saidLittleChandler。
`Anyyoungsters?’saidIgnatiusGallaher。
LittleChandlerblushedagain。
`Wehaveonechild,’hesaid。
`Sonordaughter?’
`Alittleboy。’
IgnatiusGallaherslappedhisfriendsonorouslyontheback。
`Bravo,’hesaid,`Iwouldn’tdoubtyou,Tommy。’
LittleChandlersmiled,lookedconfusedlyathisglassandbithislowerlipwiththreechildishlywhitefrontteeth。
`Ihopeyou’llspendaneveningwithus,’hesaid,`beforeyougoback。
Mywifewillbedelightedtomeetyou。Wecanhavealittlemusicand——’
`Thanksawfully,oldchap,’saidIgnatiusGallaher,`I’msorrywedidn’tmeetearlier。ButImustleavetomorrownight。’
`Tonight,perhaps……?`
`I’mawfullysorry,oldman。YouseeI’moverherewithanotherfellow,cleveryoungchapheistoo,andwearrangedtogotoalittlecard-party。
Onlyforthat……’
`O,inthatcase……’
`Butwhoknows?’saidIgnatiusGallaherconsiderately。`NextyearI
maytakealittleskipoverherenowthatI’vebrokentheice。It’sonlyapleasuredeferred。’
`Verywell,’saidLittleChandler,`thenexttimeyoucomewemusthaveaneveningtogether。That’sagreednow,isn’tit?’
`Yes,that’sagreed,’saidIgnatiusGallaher。`NextyearifIcome,paroled’honneur。’
`Andtoclinchthebargain,’saidLittleChandler,`we’lljusthaveonemorenow。’
IgnatiusGallahertookoutalargegoldwatchandlookedatit。
`Isittobethelast?’heSaid。`Because,youknow,Ihaveana。p。’
`O,yes,positively,’saidLittleChandler。
`Verywell,then,’saidIgnatiusGallaher,`letushaveanotheroneasadeocandoirus-that’sgoodvernacularforasmallwhisky,Ibelieve。’
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