TheSisters
Therewasnohopeforhimthistime:itwasthethirdstroke。NightafternightIhadpassedthehouse(itwasvacationtime)andstudiedthelightedsquareofwindow:andnightafternightIhadfounditlightedinthesameway,faintlyandevenly。Ifhewasdead,Ithought,Iwouldseethereflectionofcandlesonthedarkenedblind,forIknewthattwocandlesmustbesetattheheadofacorpse。Hehadoftensaidtome:`Iamnotlongforthisworld,’andIhadthoughthiswordsidle。NowIknewtheyweretrue。EverynightasIgazedupatthewindowIsaidsoftlytomyselfthewordparalysis。
Ithadalwayssoundedstrangelyinmyears,likethewordgnomonintheEuclidandthewordsimonyintheCatechism。Butnowitsoundedtomelikethenameofsomemaleficentandsinfulbeing。Itfilledmewithfear,andyetIlongedtobenearertoitandtolookuponitsdeadlywork。
OldCotterwassittingatthefire,smoking,whenIcamedownstairstosupper。Whilemyauntwasladlingoutmystirabouthesaid,asifreturningtosomeformerremarkofhis:
`No,Iwouldn’tsayhewasexactly……buttherewassomethingqueer……
therewassomethinguncannyabouthim。I’lltellyoumyopinion……’
Hebegantopuffathispipe,nodoubtarranginghisopinioninhismind。Tiresomeoldfool!Whenweknewhimfirstheusedtoberatherinteresting,talkingoffaintsandworms;butIsoongrewtiredofhimandhisendlessstoriesaboutthedistillery。
`Ihavemyowntheoryaboutit,’hesaid。`Ithinkitwasoneofthose……
peculiarcases……Butit’shardtosay……’
Hebegantopuffagainathispipewithoutgivingushistheory。Myunclesawmestaringandsaidtome:
`Well,soyouroldfriendisgone,you’llbesorrytohear。’
`Who?’saidI。
`FatherFlynn。’
`Ishedead?’
`MrCotterherehasjusttoldus。Hewaspassingbythehouse。’
IknewthatIwasunderobservation,soIcontinuedeatingasifthenewshadnotinterestedme。MyuncleexplainedtooldCotter。
`Theyoungsterandheweregreatfriends。Theoldchaptaughthimagreatdeal,mindyou;andtheysayhehadagreatwishforhim。’
`Godhavemercyonhissoul,’saidmyauntpiously。
OldCotterlookedatmeforawhile。Ifeltthathislittlebeadyblackeyeswereexaminingme,butIwouldnotsatisfyhimbylookingupfrommyplate。Hereturnedtohispipeandfinallyspatrudelyintothegrate。
`Iwouldn’tlikechildrenofmine,’hesaid,`tohavetoomuchtosaytoamanlikethat。’
`Howdoyoumean,MrCotter?’askedmyaunt。
`WhatImeanis,’saidoldCotter,`it’sbadforchildren。Myideais:
letayoungladrunaboutandplaywithyoungladsofhisownageandnotbe……AmIright,Jack?’
`That’smyprinciple,too,’saidmyuncle。`Lethimlearntoboxhiscorner。That’swhatI’malwayssayingtothatRosicrucianthere:takeexercise。
Why,whenIwasanipper,everymorningofmylifeIhadacoldbath,winterandsummer。Andthat’swhatstandstomenow。Educationisallveryfineandlarge……MrCottermighttakeapickofthatlegofmutton,’headdedtomyaunt。
`No,no,notforme,’saidoldCotter。
Myauntbroughtthedishfromthesafeandputitonthetable。
`Butwhydoyouthinkit’snotgoodforchildren,MrCotter?’sheasked。
`It’sbadforchildren,’saidoldCotter,`becausetheirmindsaresoimpressionable。Whenchildrenseethingslikethat,youknow,ithasaneffect……’
IcrammedmymouthwithstiraboutforfearImightgiveutterancetomyanger。Tiresomeoldred-nosedimbecile!
ItwaslatewhenIfellasleep。ThoughIwasangrywitholdCotterforalludingtomeasachild,Ipuzzledmyheadtoextractmeaningfromhisunfinishedsentences。InthedarkofmyroomIimaginedthatIsawagaintheheavygreyfaceoftheparalytic。IdrewtheblanketsovermyheadandtriedtothinkofChristmas。Butthegreyfacestillfollowedme。Itmurmured;andIunderstoodthatitdesiredtoconfesssomething。Ifeltmysoulrecedingintosomepleasantandviciousregion;andthereagainIfounditwaitingforme。ItbegantoconfesstomeinamurmuringvoiceandIwonderedwhyitsmiledcontinuallyandwhythelipsweresomoistwithspittle。ButthenIrememberedthatithaddiedofparalysisandI
feltthatItoowassmilingfeebly,asiftoabsolvethesimoniacofhissin。
ThenextmorningafterbreakfastIwentdowntolookatthelittlehouseinGreatBritainStreet。Itwasanunassumingshop,registeredunderthevaguenameofDrapery。Thedraperyconsistedmainlyofchildren’sbooteesandumbrellas;andonordinarydaysanoticeusedtohanginthewindow,saying:UmbrellasRe-covered。Nonoticewasvisiblenow,fortheshutterswereup。Acrapebouquetwastiedtothedoor-knockerwithribbon。Twopoorwomenandatelegramboywerereadingthecardpinnedonthecrape。Ialsoapproachedandread:1stJuly,1895
TheRev。JamesFlynn(formerlyofStCatherine’sChurch,MeathStreet),agedsixty-fiveyears。
R。I。P。ThereadingofthecardpersuadedmethathewasdeadandIwasdisturbedtofindmyselfatcheck。HadhenotbeendeadIwouldhavegoneintothelittledarkroombehindtheshoptofindhimsittinginhisarm-chairbythefire,nearlysmotheredinhisgreat-coat。PerhapsmyauntwouldhavegivenmeapacketofHighToastforhim,andthispresentwouldhaverousedhimfromhisstupefieddoze。ItwasalwaysIwhoemptiedthepacketintohisblacksnuff-box,forhishandstrembledtoomuchtoallowhimtodothiswithoutspillinghalfthesnuffaboutthefloor。Evenasheraisedhislargetremblinghandtohisnoselittlecloudsofsnuffdribbledthroughhisfingersoverthefrontofhiscoat。Itmayhavebeentheseconstantshowersofsnuffwhichgavehisancientpriestlygarmentstheirgreenfadedlook,fortheredhandkerchief,blackened,asitalwayswas,withthesnuff-stainsofaweek,withwhichhetriedtobrushawaythefallengrains,wasquiteinefficacious。
Iwishedtogoinandlookathim,butIhadnotthecouragetoknock。
Iwalkedawayslowlyalongthesunnysideofthestreet,readingallthetheatricaladvertisementsintheshop-windowsasIwent。IfounditstrangethatneitherInorthedayseemedinamourningmoodandIfeltevenannoyedatdiscoveringinmyselfasensationoffreedomasifIhadbeenfreedfromsomethingbyhisdeath。Iwonderedatthisfor,asmyunclehadsaidthenightbefore,hehadtaughtmeagreatdeal。HehadstudiedintheIrishcollegeinRomeandhehadtaughtmetopronounceLatinproperly。
HehadtoldmestoriesaboutthecatacombsandaboutNapoleonBonaparte,andhehadexplainedtomethemeaningofthedifferentceremoniesoftheMassandofthedifferentvestmentswornbythepriest。Sometimeshehadamusedhimselfbyputtingdifficultquestionstome,askingmewhatoneshoulddoincertaincircumstancesorwhethersuchandsuchsinsweremortalorvenialoronlyimperfections。HisquestionsshowedmehowcomplexandmysteriouswerecertaininstitutionsoftheChurchwhichIhadalwaysregardedasthesimplestacts。ThedutiesofthepriesttowardstheEucharistandtowardsthesecrecyoftheconfessionalseemedsogravetomethatIwonderedhowanybodyhadeverfoundinhimselfthecouragetoundertakethem;andIwasnotsurprisedwhenhetoldmethatthefathersoftheChurchhadwrittenbooksasthickasthePostOfficeDirectoryandascloselyprintedasthelawnoticesinthenewspaper,elucidatingalltheseintricatequestions。OftenwhenIthoughtofthisIcouldmakenoansweroronlyaveryfoolishandhaltingone,uponwhichheusedtosmileandnodhisheadtwiceorthrice。SometimesheusedtoputmethroughtheresponsesoftheMass,whichhehadmademelearnbyheart;and,asIpattered,heusedtosmilepensivelyandnodhishead,nowandthenpushinghugepinchesofsnuffupeachnostrilalternately。Whenhesmiledheusedtouncoverhisbigdiscolouredteethandlethistonguelieuponhislowerlip-ahabitwhichhadmademefeeluneasyinthebeginningofouracquaintancebeforeIknewhimwell。
AsIwalkedalonginthesunIrememberedoldCotter’swordsandtriedtorememberwhathadhappenedafterwardsinthedream。IrememberedthatIhadnoticedlongvelvetcurtainsandaswinginglampofantiquefashion。
IfeltthatIhadbeenveryfaraway,insomelandwherethecustomswerestrange-inPersia,Ithought……ButIcouldnotremembertheendofthedream。
Intheeveningmyaunttookmewithhertovisitthehouseofmourning。
Itwasaftersunset;butthewindow-panesofthehousesthatlookedtothewestreflectedthetawnygoldofagreatbankofclouds。Nanniereceivedusinthehall;and,asitwouldhavebeenunseemlytohaveshoutedather,myauntshookhandswithherforall。Theoldwomanpointedupwardsinterrogativelyand,onmyaunt’snodding,proceededtotoilupthenarrowstaircasebeforeus,herbowedheadbeingscarcelyabovethelevelofthebanister-rail。Atthefirstlandingshestoppedandbeckonedusforwardencouraginglytowardstheopendoorofthedead-room。Myauntwentinandtheoldwoman,seeingthatIhesitatedtoenter,begantobeckontomeagainrepeatedlywithherhand。
Iwentinontiptoe。Theroomthroughthelaceendoftheblindwassuffusedwithduskygoldenlightamidwhichthecandleslookedlikepalethinflames。Hehadbeencoffined。Nanniegavetheleadandwethreekneltdownatthefootofthebed。IpretendedtopraybutIcouldnotgathermythoughtsbecausetheoldwoman’smutteringsdistractedme。Inoticedhowclumsilyherskirtwashookedatthebackandhowtheheelsofherclothbootsweretroddendownalltooneside。Thefancycametomethattheoldpriestwassmilingashelaythereinhiscoffin。
Butno。WhenweroseandwentuptotheheadofthebedIsawthathewasnotsmiling。Therehelay,solemnandcopious,vestedasforthealtar,hislargehandslooselyretainingachalice。Hisfacewasverytruculent,greyandmassive,withblackcavernousnostrilsandcircledbyascantywhitefur。Therewasaheavyodourintheroom-theflowers。
Wecrossedourselvesandcameaway。InthelittleroomdownstairswefoundElizaseatedinhisarm-chairinstate。IgropedmywaytowardsmyusualchairinthecornerwhileNanniewenttothesideboardandbroughtoutadecanterofsherryandsomewine-glasses。Shesettheseonthetableandinvitedustotakealittleglassofwine。Then,athersister’sbidding,shefilledoutthesherryintotheglassesandpassedthemtous。Shepressedmetotakesomecreamcrackersalso,butIdeclinedbecauseIthoughtI
wouldmaketoomuchnoiseeatingthem。Sheseemedtobesomewhatdisappointedatmyrefusalandwentoverquietlytothesofa,whereshesatdownbehindhersister。Noonespoke:weallgazedattheemptyfireplace。
MyauntwaiteduntilElizasighedandthensaid:
`Ah,well,he’sgonetoabetterworld。’
Elizasighedagainandbowedherheadinassent。Myauntfingeredthestemofherwine-glassbeforesippingalittle。
`Didhe……peacefully?’sheasked。
`Oh,quitepeacefully,ma’am,’saidEliza。`Youcouldn’ttellwhenthebreathwentoutofhim。Hehadabeautifuldeath,Godbepraised。’
`Andeverything……?’
`FatherO’RourkewasinwithhimaTuesdayandanointedhimandpreparedhimandall。’
`Heknewthen?’
`Hewasquiteresigned。’
`Helooksquiteresigned,’saidmyaunt。
`That’swhatthewomanwehadintowashhimsaid。Shesaidhejustlookedasifhewasasleep,helookedthatpeacefulandresigned。Noonewouldthinkhe’dmakesuchabeautifulcorpse。’
`Yes,indeed,’saidmyaunt。
Shesippedalittlemorefromherglassandsaid:
`Well,MissFlynn,atanyrateitmustbeagreatcomfortforyoutoknowthatyoudidallyoucouldforhim。Youwerebothverykindtohim,Imustsay。’
Elizasmoothedherdressoverherknees。
`Ah,poorJames!’shesaid。`Godknowswedoneallwecould,aspoorasweare-wewouldn’tseehimwantanythingwhilehewasinit。’
Nanniehadleanedherheadagainstthesofa-pillowandseemedabouttofallasleep。
`There’spoorNannie,’saidEliza,lookingather,`she’sworeout。
Alltheworkwehad,sheandme,gettinginthewomantowashhimandthenlayinghimoutandthenthecoffinandthenarrangingabouttheMassinthechapel。OnlyforFatherO’RourkeIdon’tknowwhatwe’ddoneatall。
Itwashimbroughtusallthemflowersandthemtwocandlesticksoutofthechapel,andwroteoutthenoticefortheFreeman’sGeneralandtookchargeofallthepapersforthecemeteryandpoorJames’sinsurance。’
`Wasn’tthatgoodofhim?’saidmyaunt。
Elizaclosedhereyesandshookherheadslowly。
`Ah,there’snofriendsliketheoldfriends,’shesaid,`whenallissaidanddone,nofriendsthatabodycantrust。’
`Indeed,that’strue,’saidmyaunt。`AndI’msurenowthathe’sgonetohiseternalrewardhewon’tforgetyouandallyourkindnesstohim。’
`Ah,poorJames!’saidEliza。`Hewasnogreattroubletous。Youwouldn’thearhiminthehouseanymorethannow。Still,Iknowhe’sgoneandalltothat。’
`It’swhenit’salloverthatyou’llmisshim,’saidmyaunt。
`Iknowthat,’saidEliza。`Iwon’tbebringinghiminhiscupofbeefteaanymore,noryou,ma’am,sendhimhissnuff。Ah,poorJames!’
Shestopped,asifshewerecommuningwiththepast,andthensaidshrewdly:
`Mindyou,Inoticedtherewassomethingqueercomingoverhimlatterly。
WheneverI’dbringinhissouptohimthere,I’dfindhimwithhisbreviaryfallentothefloor,lyingbackinthechairandhismouthopen。’
Shelaidafingeragainsthernoseandfrowned;thenshecontinued:
`Butstillandallhekeptonsayingthatbeforethesummerwasoverhe’dgooutforadriveonefinedayjusttoseetheoldhouseagainwherewewereallborndowninIrishtown,andtakemeandNanniewithhim。Ifwecouldonlygetoneofthemnew-fangledcarriagesthatmakesnonoisethatFatherO’Rourketoldhimabout,themwiththerheumaticwheels,forthedaycheap-hesaid,atJohnnyRush’soverthewaythereanddriveoutthethreeofustogetherofaSundayevening。Hehadhismindsetonthat……PoorJames!’
`TheLordhavemercyonhissoul!’saidmyaunt。
Elizatookoutherhandkerchiefandwipedhereyeswithit。Thensheputitbackagaininherpocketandgazedintotheemptygrateforsometimewithoutspeaking。
`Hewastooscrupulousalways,’shesaid。`Thedutiesofthepriesthoodwastoomuchforhim。Andthenhislifewas,youmightsay,crossed。’
`Yes,’saidmyaunt。`Hewasadisappointedman。Youcouldseethat。’
Asilencetookpossessionofthelittleroomand,undercoverofit,Iapproachedthetableandtastedmysherryandthenreturnedquietlytomychairinthecorner。Elizaseemedtohavefallenintoadeepreverie。
Wewaitedrespectfullyforhertobreakthesilence:andafteralongpauseshesaidslowly:
`Itwasthatchalicehebroke……Thatwasthebeginningofit。Ofcourse,theysayitwasallright,thatitcontainednothing,Imean。Butstill……
Theysayitwastheboy’sfault。ButpoorJameswassonervous,Godbemercifultohim!’
`Andwasthatit?’saidmyaunt。`Iheardsomething……’。
Elizanodded。
`Thataffectedhismind,’shesaid。`Afterthathebegantomopebyhimself,talkingtonooneandwanderingaboutbyhimself。Soonenighthewaswantedfortogoonacallandtheycouldn’tfindhimanywhere。
Theylookedhighupandlowdown;andstilltheycouldn’tseeasightofhimanywhere。Sothentheclerksuggestedtotrythechapel。Sothentheygotthekeysandopenedthechapel,andtheclerkandFatherO’Rourkeandanotherpriestthatwastherebroughtinalightfortolookforhim……
Andwhatdoyouthinkbuttherehewas,sittingupbyhimselfinthedarkinhisconfession-box,wide-awakeandlaughing-likesoftlytohimself?’
Shestoppedsuddenlyasiftolisten。Itoolistened;buttherewasnosoundinthehouse:andIknewthattheoldpriestwaslyingstillinhiscoffinaswehadseenhim,solemnandtruculentindeath,anidlechaliceonhisbreast。
Elizaresumed:
`Wide-awakeandlaughing-liketohimself……Sothen,ofcourse,whentheysawthat,thatmadethemthinkthattherewassomethinggonewrongwithhim……’
AnEncounter
ItwasJoeDillonwhointroducedtheWildWesttous。HehadalittlelibrarymadeupofoldnumbersofTheUnionJack,Pluck,andTheHalfpennyMarvel。EveryeveningafterschoolwemetinhisbackgardenandarrangedIndianbattles。HeandhisfatyoungbrotherLeo,theidler,heldtheloftofthestablewhilewetriedtocarryitbystorm;orwefoughtapitchedbattleonthegrass。But,howeverwellwefought,weneverwonsiegeorbattleandallourboutsendedwithJoeDillon’swardanceofvictory。Hisparentswenttoeighto’clockmasseverymorninginGardinerStreetandthepeacefulodourofMrsDillonwasprevalentinthehallofthehouse。Butheplayedtoofiercelyforuswhowereyoungerandmoretimid。HelookedlikesomekindofanIndianwhenhecaperedroundthegarden,anoldtea-cosyonhishead,beatingatinwithhisfistandyelling:
`Ya!yaka,yaka,yaka!’
Everyonewasincredulouswhenitwasreportedthathehadavocationforthepriesthood。Neverthelessitwastrue。
Aspiritofunrulinessdiffuseditselfamongusand,underitsinfluence,differencesofcultureandconstitutionwerewaived。Webandedourselvestogether,someboldly,someinjestandsomealmostinfear:andofthenumberoftheselatter,thereluctantIndianswhowereafraidtoseemstudiousorlackinginrobustness,Iwasone。TheadventuresrelatedintheliteratureoftheWildWestwereremotefrommynaturebut,atleast,theyopeneddoorsofescape。IlikedbettersomeAmericandetectivestorieswhichweretraversedfromtimetotimebyunkemptfierceandbeautifulgirls。Thoughtherewasnothingwronginthesestoriesandthoughtheirintentionwassometimesliterary,theywerecirculatedsecretlyatschool。OnedaywhenFatherButlerwashearingthefourpagesofRomanHistory,clumsyLeoDillonwasdiscoveredwithacopyofTheHalfpennyMarvel。
`Thispageorthispage?Thispage?Now,Dillon,up。"Hardlyhadtheday"……Goon!Whatday?"Hardlyhadthedaydawned"……
Haveyoustudiedit?Whathaveyouthereinyourpocket?’
Everyone’sheartpalpitatedasLeoDillonhandedupthepaperandeveryoneassumedaninnocentface。FatherButlerturnedoverthepages,frowning。
`Whatisthisrubbish?’hesaid。`TheApacheChief!IsthiswhatyoureadinsteadofstudyingyourRomanHistory?Letmenotfindanymoreofthiswretchedstuffinthiscollege。Themanwhowroteit,Isuppose,wassomewretchedfellowwhowritesthesethingsforadrink。I’msurprisedatboyslikeyou,educated,readingsuchstuff!Icouldunderstanditifyouwere……NationalSchoolboys。Now,Dillon,Iadviseyoustrongly,getatyourworkor……’
ThisrebukeduringthesoberhoursofschoolpaledmuchofthegloryoftheWildWestforme,andtheconfusedpuffyfaceofLeoDillonawakenedoneofmyconsciences。ButwhentherestraininginfluenceoftheschoolwasatadistanceIbegantohungeragainforwildsensations,fortheescapewhichthesechroniclesofdisorderaloneseemedtoofferme。ThemimicwarfareoftheeveningbecameatlastaswearisometomeastheroutineofschoolinthemorningbecauseIwantedrealadventurestohappentomyself。Butrealadventures,Ireflected,donothappentopeoplewhoremainathome:theymustbesoughtabroad。
ThesummerholidayswerenearathandwhenImadeupmymindtobreakoutofthewearinessofschoollifeforonedayatleast。WithLeoDillonandaboynamedMahonyIplannedaday’smiching。Eachofussavedupsixpence。
WeweretomeetatteninthemorningontheCanalBridge。Mahony’sbigsisterwastowriteanexcuseforhimandLeoDillonwastotellhisbrothertosayhewassick。WearrangedtogoalongtheWharfRoaduntilwecametotheships,thentocrossintheferryboatandwalkouttoseethePigeonHouse。LeoDillonwasafraidwemightmeetFatherButlerorsomeoneoutofthecollege;butMahonyasked,verysensibly,whatwouldFatherButlerbedoingoutatthePigeonHouse。Wewerereassured,andIbroughtthefirststageoftheplottoanendbycollectingsixpencefromtheothertwo,atthesametimeshowingthemmyownsixpence。Whenweweremakingthelastarrangementsontheevewewereallvaguelyexcited。Weshookhands,laughing,andMahonysaid:
`Tilltomorrow,mates。’
ThatnightIsleptbadly。InthemorningIwasfirstcomertothebridge,asIlivednearest。Ihidmybooksinthelonggrassneartheashpitattheendofthegardenwherenobodyevercame,andhurriedalongthecanalbank。ItwasamildsunnymorninginthefirstweekofJune。Isatuponthecopingofthebridge,admiringmyfrailcanvasshoeswhichIhaddiligentlypipeclayedovernightandwatchingthedocilehorsespullingatramloadofbusinesspeopleupthehill。Allthebranchesofthetalltreeswhichlinedthemallweregaywithlittlelightgreenleaves,andthesunlightslantedthroughthemontothewater。Thegranitestoneofthebridgewasbeginningtobewarm,andIbegantopatitwithmyhandsintimetoanairinmyhead。Iwasveryhappy。
WhenIhadbeensittingthereforfiveortenminutesIsawMahony’sgreysuitapproaching。Hecameupthehill,smiling,andclamberedupbesidemeonthebridge。Whilewewerewaitinghebroughtoutthecatapultwhichbulgedfromhisinnerpocketandexplainedsomeimprovementswhichhehadmadeinit。Iaskedhimwhyhehadbroughtit,andhetoldmehehadbroughtittohavesomegaswiththebirds。Mahonyusedslangfreely,andspokeofFatherButlerasOldBunser。Wewaitedonforaquarterofanhourmore,butstilltherewasnosignofLeoDillon。Mahony,atlast,jumpeddownandsaid:
`Comealong。IknewFatty’dfunkit。’
`Andhissixpence……’Isaid。
`That’sforfeit,’saidMahony。`Andsomuchthebetterforus-abobandatannerinsteadofabob。’
WewalkedalongtheNorthStrandRoadtillwecametotheVitriolWorksandthenturnedtotherightalongtheWharfRoad。MahonybegantoplaytheIndianassoonaswewereoutofpublicsight。Hechasedacrowdofraggedgirls,brandishinghisunloadedcatapultand,whentworaggedboysbegan,outofchivalry,toflingstonesatus,heproposedthatweshouldchargethem。Iobjectedthattheboysweretoosmall,andsowewalkedon,theraggedtroopscreamingafterus`Swaddlers!Swaddlers!’
thinkingthatwewereProtestantsbecauseMahony,whowasdark-complexioned,worethesilverbadgeofacricketclubinhiscap。WhenwecametotheSmoothingIronwearrangedasiege;butitwasafailurebecauseyoumusthaveatleastthree。WerevengedourselvesonLeoDillonbysayingwhatafunkhewasandguessinghowmanyhewouldgetatthreeo’clockfromMrRyan。
Wecamethenneartheriver。Wespentalongtimewalkingaboutthenoisystreetsflankedbyhighstonewalls,watchingtheworkingofcranesandenginesandoftenbeingshoutedatforourimmobilitybythedriversofgroaningcarts。Itwasnoonwhenwereachedthequaysand,asallthelabourersseemedtobeeatingtheirlunches,weboughttwobigcurrantbunsandsatdowntoeatthemonsomemetalpipingbesidetheriver。WepleasedourselveswiththespectacleofDublin’scommerce-thebargessignalledfromfarawaybytheircurlsofwoollysmoke,thebrownfishingfleetbeyondRingsend,thebigwhitesailingvesselwhichwasbeingdischargedontheoppositequay。Mahonysaiditwouldberightskittorunawaytoseaononeofthosebigships,andevenI,lookingatthehighmasts,saw,orimagined,thegeographywhichhadbeenscantilydosedtomeatschoolgraduallytakingsubstanceundermyeyes。Schoolandhomeseemedtorecedefromusandtheirinfluencesuponusseemedtowane。
WecrossedtheLiffeyintheferryboat,payingourtolltobetransportedinthecompanyoftwolabourersandalittleJewwithabag。Wewereserioustothepointofsolemnity,butonceduringtheshortvoyageoureyesmetandwelaughed。Whenwelandedwewatchedthedischargingofthegracefulthree-masterwhichwehadobservedfromtheotherquay。SomebystandersaidthatshewasaNorwegianvessel。Iwenttothesternandtriedtodecipherthelegenduponitbut,failingtodoso,Icamebackandexaminedtheforeignsailorstoseehadanyofthemgreeneyes,forIhadsomeconfusednotion……Thesailors’eyeswereblue,andgrey,andevenblack。Theonlysailorwhoseeyescouldhavebeencalledgreenwasatallmanwhoamusedthecrowdonthequaybycallingoutcheerfullyeverytimetheplanksfell:
`Allright!Allright!’
WhenweweretiredofthissightwewanderedslowlyintoRingsend。Thedayhadgrownsultry,andinthewindowsofthegrocers’shopsmustybiscuitslaybleaching。Weboughtsomebiscuitsandchocolate,whichweatesedulouslyaswewanderedthroughthesqualidstreetswherethefamiliesofthefishermenlive。Wecouldfindnodairyandsowewentintoahuckster’sshopandboughtabottleofraspberrylemonadeeach。Refreshedbythis,Mahonychasedacatdownalane,butthecatescapedintoawidefield。Webothfeltrathertired,andwhenwereachedthefieldwemadeatonceforaslopingbank,overtheridgeofwhichwecouldseetheDodder。
ItwastoolateandweweretootiredtocarryoutourprojectofvisitingthePigeonHouse。Wehadtobehomebeforefouroclock,lestouradventureshouldbediscovered。Mahonylookedregretfullyathiscatapult,andI
hadtosuggestgoinghomebytrainbeforeheregainedanycheerfulness。
Thesunwentinbehindsomecloudsandleftustoourjadedthoughtsandthecrumbsofourprovisions。
Therewasnobodybutourselvesinthefield。WhenwehadlainonthebankforsometimewithoutspeakingIsawamanapproachingfromthefarendofthefield。IwatchedhimlazilyasIchewedoneofthosegreenstemsonwhichgirlstellfortunes。Hecamealongbythebankslowly。Hewalkedwithonehanduponhishipandintheotherhandheheldastickwithwhichhetappedtheturflightly。Hewasshabbilydressedinasuitofgreenish-blackandworewhatweusedtocallajerryhatwithahighcrown。Heseemedtobefairlyold,forhismoustachewasashen-grey。Whenhepassedatourfeetheglancedupatusquicklyandthencontinuedhisway。Wefollowedhimwithoureyesandsawthatwhenhehadgoneonforperhapsfiftypacesheturnedaboutandbegantoretracehissteps。Hewalkedtowardsusveryslowly,alwaystappingthegroundwithhisstick,soslowlythatIthoughthewaslookingforsomethinginthegrass。
Hestoppedwhenhecamelevelwithus,andbadeusgood-day。Weansweredhim,andhesatdownbesideusontheslopeslowlyandwithgreatcare。
Hebegantotalkoftheweather,sayingthatitwouldbeaveryhotsummerandaddingthattheseasonshadchangedgreatlysincehewasaboy-alongtimeago。Hesaidthatthehappiesttimeofone’slifewasundoubtedlyone’sschoolboydays,andthathewouldgiveanythingtobeyoungagain。
Whileheexpressedthesesentiments,whichboredusalittle,wekeptsilent。
Thenhebegantotalkofschoolandofbooks。HeaskeduswhetherwehadreadthepoetryofThomasMooreortheworksofSirWalterScottandLordLytton。IpretendedthatIhadreadeverybookhementioned,sothatintheendhesaid:
`Ah,Icanseeyouareabookwormlikemyself。Now,’headded,pointingtoMahony,whowasregardinguswithopeneyes,`heisdifferent;hegoesinforgames。’
HesaidhehadallSirWalterScott’sworksandallLordLytton’sworksathomeandnevertiredofreadingthem。`Ofcourse,’hesaid,`thereweresomeofLordLytton’sworkswhichboyscouldn’tread。’Mahonyaskedwhycouldn’tboysreadthem-aquestionwhichagitatedandpainedmebecauseIwasafraidthemanwouldthinkIwasasstupidasMahony。Theman,however,onlysmiled。Isawthathehadgreatgapsinhismouthbetweenhisyellowteeth。Thenheaskeduswhichofushadthemostsweethearts。Mahonymentionedlightlythathehadthreetotties。ThemanaskedmehowmanyIhad。IansweredthatIhadnone。HedidnotbelievemeandsaidhewassureImusthaveone。Iwassilent。
`Tellus,’saidMahonypertlytotheman,`howmanyhaveyouyourself?’
Themansmiledasbeforeandsaidthatwhenhewasouragehehadlotsofsweethearts。
`Everyboy,’hesaid,`hasalittlesweetheart。’
Hisattitudeonthispointstruckmeasstrangelyliberalinamanofhisage。InmyheartIthoughtthatwhathesaidaboutboysandsweetheartswasreasonable。ButIdislikedthewordsinhismouth,andIwonderedwhyheshiveredonceortwiceasifhefearedsomethingorfeltasuddenchill。
AsheproceededInoticedthathisaccentwasgood。Hebegantospeaktousaboutgirls,sayingwhatnicesofthairtheyhadandhowsofttheirhandswereandhowallgirlswerenotsogoodastheyseemedtobeifoneonlyknew。Therewasnothingheliked,hesaid,somuchaslookingataniceyounggirl,athernicewhitehandsandherbeautifulsofthair。Hegavemetheimpressionthathewasrepeatingsomethingwhichhehadlearnedbyheartorthat,magnetizedbysomewordsofhisownspeech,hismindwasslowlycirclingroundandroundinthesameorbit。Attimeshespokeasifheweresimplyalludingtosomefactthateverybodyknew,andattimesheloweredhisvoiceandspokemysteriously,asifheweretellingussomethingsecretwhichhedidnotwishotherstooverhear。Herepeatedhisphrasesoverandoveragain,varyingthemandsurroundingthemwithhismonotonousvoice。Icontinuedtogazetowardsthefootoftheslope,listeningtohim。
Afteralongwhilehismonologuepaused。Hestoodupslowly,sayingthathehadtoleaveusforaminuteorso,afewminutes,and,withoutchangingthedirectionofmygaze,Isawhimwalkingslowlyawayfromustowardsthenearendofthefield。Weremainedsilentwhenhehadgone。
AfterasilenceofafewminutesIheardMahonyexclaim:
`Isay!Lookwhathe’sdoing!’
AsIneitheranswerednorraisedmyeyes,Mahonyexclaimedagain:
`Isay……He’saqueeroldjosser!’
`Incaseheasksusforournames,’Isaid,`letyoubeMurphyandI’llbeSmith。’
Wesaidnothingfurthertoeachother。IwasstillconsideringwhetherIwouldgoawayornotwhenthemancamebackandsatdownbesideusagain。
HardlyhadhesatdownwhenMahony,catchingsightofthecatwhichhadescapedhim,sprangupandpursuedheracrossthefield。ThemanandI
watchedthechase。ThecatescapedoncemoreandMahonybegantothrowstonesatthewallshehadescaladed。Desistingfromthis,hebegantowanderaboutthefarendofthefield,aimlessly。
Afteranintervalthemanspoketome。Hesaidthatmyfriendwasaveryroughboy,andaskeddidhegetwhippedoftenatschool。IwasgoingtoreplyindignantlythatwewerenotNationalSchoolboystobewhipped,ashecalledit;butIremainedsilent。Hebegantospeakonthesubjectofchastisingboys。Hismind,asifmagnetizedagainbyhisspeech,seemedtocircleslowlyroundandrounditsnewcentre。Hesaidthatwhenboyswerethatkindtheyoughttobewhippedandwellwhipped。Whenaboywasroughandunrulytherewasnothingwoulddohimanygoodbutagoodsoundwhipping。Aslaponthehandoraboxontheearwasnogood:whathewantedwastogetanicewarmwhipping。Iwassurprisedatthissentimentandinvoluntarilyglancedathisface。AsIdidsoImetthegazeofapairofbottle-greeneyespeeringatmefromunderatwitchingforehead。Iturnedmyeyesawayagain。
Themancontinuedhismonologue。Heseemedtohaveforgottenhisrecentliberalism。Hesaidthatifeverhefoundaboytalkingtogirlsorhavingagirlforasweethearthewouldwhiphimandwhiphim;andthatwouldteachhimnottobetalkingtogirls。Andifaboyhadagirlforasweetheartandtoldliesaboutit,thenhewouldgivehimsuchawhippingasnoboyevergotinthisworld。Hesaidthattherewasnothinginthisworldhewouldlikesowellasthat。Hedescribedtomehowhewouldwhipsuchaboy,asifhewereunfoldingsomeelaboratemystery。Hewouldlovethat,hesaid,betterthananythinginthisworld;andhisvoice,asheledmemonotonouslythroughthemystery,grewalmostaffectionateandseemedtopleadwithmethatIshouldunderstandhim。
IwaitedtillhismonologuepausedagainThenIstoodupabruptly。LestIshouldbetraymyagitationIdelayedafewmoments,pretendingtofixmyshoeproperly,andthen,sayingthatIwasobligedtogo,Ibadehimgood-day。Iwentuptheslopecalmlybutmyheartwasbeatingquicklywithfearthathewouldseizemebytheankles。WhenIreachedthetopoftheslopeIturnedroundand,withoutlookingathim,calledloudlyacrossthefield:
`Murphy!’
Myvoicehadanaccentofforcedbraveryinit,andIwasashamedofmypaltrystratagem。IhadtocallthenameagainbeforeMahonysawmeandhallooedinanswer。Howmyheartbeatashecamerunningacrossthefieldtome!Heranasiftobringmeaid。AndIwaspenitent;forinmyheartIhadalwaysdespisedhimalittle。
Araby
NorthRichmondStreet,beingblind,wasaquietstreetexceptatthehourwhentheChristianBrothers’Schoolsettheboysfree。Anuninhabitedhouseoftwostoreysstoodattheblindend,detachedfromitsneighboursinasquareground。Theotherhousesofthestreet,consciousofdecentliveswithinthem,gazedatoneanotherwithbrownimperturbablefaces。
Theformertenantofourhouse,apriest,haddiedinthebackdrawing-room。
Air,mustyfromhavingbeenlongenclosed,hunginalltherooms,andthewasteroombehindthekitchenwaslitteredwitholduselesspapers。AmongtheseIfoundafewpaper-coveredbooks,thepagesofwhichwerecurledanddamp:TheAbbot,byWalterScott,TheDevoutCommunicant,andTheMemoirsofVidocq。Ilikedthelastbestbecauseitsleaveswereyellow。Thewildgardenbehindthehousecontainedacentralapple-treeandafewstragglingbushes,underoneofwhichIfoundthelatetenant’srustybicycle-pump。Hehadbeenaverycharitablepriest;inhiswillhehadleftallhismoneytoinstitutionsandthefurnitureofhishousetohissister。
Whentheshortdaysofwintercame,duskfellbeforewehadwelleatenourdinners。Whenwemetinthestreetthehouseshadgrownsombre。Thespaceofskyaboveuswasthecolourofever-changingvioletandtowardsitthelampsofthestreetliftedtheirfeeblelanterns。Thecoldairstungusandweplayedtillourbodiesglowed。Ourshoutsechoedinthesilentstreet。Thecareerofourplaybroughtusthroughthedarkmuddylanesbehindthehouses,whereweranthegauntletoftheroughtribesfromthecottages,tothebackdoorsofthedarkdrippinggardenswhereodoursarosefromtheashpits,tothedarkodorousstableswhereacoachmansmoothedandcombedthehorseorshookmusicfromthebuckledharness。Whenwereturnedtothestreet,lightfromthekitchenwindowshadfilledtheareas。Ifmyunclewasseenturningthecorner,wehidintheshadowuntilwehadseenhimsafelyhoused。OrifMangan’ssistercameoutonthedoorsteptocallherbrotherintohistea,wewatchedherfromourshadowpeerupanddownthestreet。Wewaitedtoseewhethershewouldremainorgoinand,ifsheremained,weleftourshadowandwalkeduptoMangan’sstepsresignedly。Shewaswaitingforus,herfiguredefinedbythelightfromthehalf-openeddoor。Herbrotheralwaysteasedherbeforeheobeyed,andIstoodbytherailingslookingather。Herdressswungasshemovedherbody,andthesoftropeofherhairtossedfromsidetoside。
EverymorningIlayonthefloorinthefrontparlourwatchingherdoor。
TheblindwaspulleddowntowithinaninchofthesashsothatIcouldnotbeseen。Whenshecameoutonthedoorstepmyheartleaped。Irantothehall,seizedmybooksandfollowedher。Ikeptherbrownfigurealwaysinmyeyeand,whenwecamenearthepointatwhichourwaysdiverged,Iquickenedmypaceandpassedher。Thishappenedmorningaftermorning。
Ihadneverspokentoher,exceptforafewcasualwords,andyethernamewaslikeasummonstoallmyfoolishblood。
Herimageaccompaniedmeeveninplacesthemosthostiletoromance。
OnSaturdayeveningswhenmyauntwentmarketingIhadtogotocarrysomeoftheparcels。Wewalkedthroughtheflaringstreets,jostledbydrunkenmenandbargainingwomen,amidthecursesoflabourers,theshrilllitaniesofshop-boyswhostoodonguardbythebarrelsofpigs’cheeks,thenasalchantingofstreet-singers,whosangacome-all-youaboutO’DonovanRossa,oraballadaboutthetroublesinournativeland。Thesenoisesconvergedinasinglesensationoflifeforme:IimaginedthatIboremychalicesafelythroughathrongoffoes。HernamesprangtomylipsatmomentsinstrangeprayersandpraiseswhichImyselfdidnotunderstand。
Myeyeswereoftenfulloftears(Icouldnottellwhy)andattimesafloodfrommyheartseemedtopouritselfoutintomybosom。Ithoughtlittleofthefuture。IdidnotknowwhetherIwouldeverspeaktoherornotor,ifIspoketoher,howIcouldtellherofmyconfusedadoration。
Butmybodywaslikeaharpandherwordsandgestureswerelikefingersrunninguponthewires。
OneeveningIwentintothebackdrawing-roominwhichthepriesthaddied。Itwasadarkrainyeveningandtherewasnosoundinthehouse。
ThroughoneofthebrokenpanesIheardtherainimpingeupontheearth,thefineincessantneedlesofwaterplayinginthesoddenbeds。Somedistantlamporlightedwindowgleamedbelowme。IwasthankfulthatIcouldseesolittle。Allmysensesseemedtodesiretoveilthemselvesand,feelingthatIwasabouttoslipfromthem,Ipressedthepalmsofmyhandstogetheruntiltheytrembled,murmuring:`Olove!Olove!’manytimes。
Atlastshespoketome。WhensheaddressedthefirstwordstomeI
wassoconfusedthatIdidnotknowwhattoanswer。SheaskedmewasI
goingtoAraby。IforgotwhetherIansweredyesorno。Itwouldbeasplendidbazaar;shesaidshewouldlovetogo。
`Andwhycan’tyou?’Iasked。
Whileshespokesheturnedasilverbraceletroundandroundherwrist。
Shecouldnotgo,shesaid,becausetherewouldbearetreatthatweekinherconvent。Herbrotherandtwootherboyswerefightingfortheircaps,andIwasaloneattherailings。Sheheldoneofthespikes,bowingherheadtowardsme。Thelightfromthelampoppositeourdoorcaughtthewhitecurveofherneck,litupherhairthatrestedthereand,falling,litupthehandupontherailing。Atfelloveronesideofherdressandcaughtthewhiteborderofapetticoat,justvisibleasshestoodatease。
`It’swellforyou,’shesaid。
`IfIgo,’Isaid,`Iwillbringyousomething。’
Whatinnumerablefollieslaidwastemywakingandsleepingthoughtsafterthatevening!Iwishedtoannihilatethetediousinterveningdays。
Ichafedagainsttheworkofschool。AtnightinmybedroomandbydayintheclassroomherimagecamebetweenmeandthepageIstrovetoread。
ThesyllablesofthewordArabywerecalledtomethroughthesilenceinwhichmysoulluxuriatedandcastanEasternenchantmentoverme。I
askedforleavetogotothebazaaronSaturdaynight。Myauntwassurprised,andhopeditwasnotsomeFreemasonaffair。Iansweredfewquestionsinclass。Iwatchedmymaster’sfacepassfromamiabilitytosternness;hehopedIwasnotbeginningtoidle。Icouldnotcallmywanderingthoughtstogether。Ihadhardlyanypatiencewiththeseriousworkoflifewhich,nowthatitstoodbetweenmeandmydesire,seemedtomechild’splay,uglymonotonouschild’splay。
OnSaturdaymorningIremindedmyunclethatIwishedtogotothebazaarintheevening。Hewasfussingatthehallstand,lookingforthehat-brush,andansweredmecurtly:
`Yes,boy,Iknow。’
AshewasinthehallIcouldnotgointothefrontparlourandlieatthewindow。Ifeltthehouseinbadhumourandwalkedslowlytowardstheschool。Theairwaspitilesslyrawandalreadymyheartmisgaveme。
WhenIcamehometodinnermyunclehadnotyetbeenhome。Stillitwasearly。Isatstaringattheclockforsometimeand,whenitstickingbegantoirritateme,Ilefttheroom。Imountedthestaircaseandgainedtheupperpartofthehouse。Thehigh,cold,empty,gloomyroomsliberatedmeandIwentfromroomtoroomsinging。FromthefrontwindowIsawmycompanionsplayingbelowinthestreet。Theircriesreachedmeweakenedandindistinctand,leaningmyforeheadagainstthecoolglass,Ilookedoveratthedarkhousewhereshelived。Imayhavestoodthereforanhour,seeingnothingbutthebrown-cladfigurecastbymyimagination,toucheddiscreetlybythelamplightatthecurvedneck,atthehandupontherailingsandattheborderbelowthedress。
WhenIcamedownstairsagainIfoundMrsMercersittingatthefire。
Shewasanold,garrulouswoman,apawnbroker’swidow,whocollectedusedstampsforsomepiouspurpose。Ihadtoendurethegossipofthetea-table。
Themealwasprolongedbeyondanhourandstillmyuncledidnotcome。
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