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第3章

  AtmidnightVaninkareturnedwithherfather。Ahiddenfeverhadbeenconsumingheralltheevening:neverhadshelookedsolovely,andshehadbeenoverwhelmedbythehomageofthemostdistinguishednoblesandcourtiers。Whenshereturned,shefoundAnnouschkainthevestibulewaitingtotakehercloak。Asshegaveittoher,Vaninkasentheroneofthosequestioningglancesthatseemtoexpresssomuch。"Itisdone,"saidthegirlinalowvoice。Vaninkabreathedasighofrelief,asifamountainhadbeenremovedfromherbreast。
  Greataswasherself-control,shecouldnolongerbearherfather’spresence,andexcusedherselffromremainingtosupperwithhim,onthepleaofthefatiguesoftheevening。Vaninkawasnosoonerinherroom,withthedooronceclosed,thanshetoretheflowersfromherhair,thenecklacefromherthroat,cutwithscissorsthecorsetswhichsuffocatedher,andthen,throwingherselfonherbed,shegavewaytohergrief。AnnouschkathankedGodforthisoutburst;hermistress’scalmnesshadfrightenedhermorethanherdespair。Thefirstcrisisover,Vaninkawasabletopray。Shespentanhouronherknees,then,yieldingtotheentreatiesofherfaithfulattendant,wenttobed。Annouschkasatdownatthefootofthebed。
  Neitherslept,butwhendaycamethetearswhichVaninkahadshedhadcalmedher。
  Annouschkawasinstructedtorewardherbrother。Toolargeasumgiventoaslaveatoncemighthavearousedsuspicion,thereforeAnnouschkacontentedherselfwithtellingIvanthatwhenhehadneedofmoneyhehadonlytoaskherforit。
  Gregory,profitingbyhislibertyandwishingtomakeuseofhisthousandroubles,boughtalittletavernontheoutskirtsofthetown,where,thankstohisaddressandtotheacquaintanceshehadamongtheservantsinthegreathouseholdsofSt。Petersburg,hebegantodevelopanexcellentbusiness,sothatinashorttimetheRedHouse(whichwasthenameandcolourofGregory’sestablishment)
  hadagreatreputation。Anothermantookoverhisdutiesaboutthepersonofthegeneral,andbutforFoedor’sabsenceeverythingreturnedtoitsusualroutineinthehouseofCountTchermayloff。
  Twomonthswentbyinthisway,withoutanybodyhavingtheleastsuspicionofwhathadhappened,whenonemorningbeforetheusualbreakfast-hourthegeneralbeggedhisdaughtertocomedowntohisroom。Vaninkatrembledwithfear,forsincethatfatalnighteverythingterrifiedher。Sheobeyedherfather,andcollectingallherstrength,madeherwaytohischamber,Thecountwasalone,butatthefirstglanceVaninkasawshehadnothingtofearfromthisinterview:thegeneralwaswaitingforherwiththatpaternalsmilewhichwastheusualexpressionofhiscountenancewheninhisdaughter’spresence。
  Sheapproached,therefore,withherusualcalmness,and,stoopingdowntowardsthegeneral,gavehimherforeheadtokiss。
  Hemotionedtohertositdown,andgaveheranopenletter。Vaninkalookedathimforamomentinsurprise,thenturnedhereyestotheletter。
  Itcontainedthenewsofthedeathofthemantowhomherhandhadbeenpromised:hehadbeenkilledinaduel。
  Thegeneralwatchedtheeffectoftheletteronhisdaughter’sface,andgreataswasVaninka’sself-control,somanydifferentthoughts,suchbitterregret,suchpoignantremorseassailedherwhenshelearntthatshewasnowfreeagain,thatshecouldnotentirelyconcealheremotion。Thegeneralnoticedit,andattributedittothelovewhichhehadforalongtimesuspectedhisdaughterfeltfortheyoungaide-de-camp。
  "Well,"hesaid,smiling,"Iseeitisallforthebest。"
  "Howisthat,father?"askedVaninka。
  "Doubtless,"saidthegeneral。"DidnotFoedorleavebecausehelovedyou?"
  "Yes,"murmuredtheyounggirl。
  "Well,nowhemayreturn,"saidthegeneral。
  Vaninkaremainedsilent,hereyesfixed,herlipstrembling。
  "Return!"shesaid,afteramoment’ssilence。
  "Yes,certainlyreturn。Weshallbemostunfortunate,"continuedthegeneral,smiling,"ifwecannotfindsomeoneinthehousewhoknowswhereheis。Come,Vaninka,tellmetheplaceofhisexile,andI
  willundertaketherest。"
  "NobodyknowswhereFoedoris,"murmuredVaninkainahollowvoice;
  "nobodybutGod,nobody!"
  "What!"saidthegeneral,"hehassentyounonewssincethedayheleft?"
  Vaninkashookherheadindenial。Shewassoheart-brokenthatshecouldnotspeak。
  Thegeneralinhisturnbecamegloomy。"Doyoufearsomemisfortune,then?"saidhe。
  "IfearthatIshallneverbehappyagainonearth,"criedVaninka,givingwayunderthepressureofhergrief;thenshecontinuedatonce,"Letmeretire,father;IamashamedofwhatIhavesaid。"
  Thegeneral,whosawnothinginthisexclamationbeyondregretforhavingallowedtheconfessionofherlovetoescapeher,kissedhisdaughteronthebrowandallowedhertoretire。Hehopedthat,inspiteofthemournfulwayinwhichVaninkahadspokenofFoedor,thatitwouldbepossibletofindhim。ThesamedayhewenttotheemperorandtoldhimoftheloveofFoedorforhisdaughter,andrequested,sincedeathhadfreedherfromherfirstengagement,thathemightdisposeofherhand。Theemperorconsented,andthegeneralthensolicitedafurtherfavour。Paulwasinoneofhiskindlymoods,andshowedhimselfdisposedtograntit。ThegeneraltoldhimthatFoedorhaddisappearedfortwomonths;thateveryone,evenhisdaughter,wasignorantofhiswhereabouts,andbeggedhimtohaveinquiriesmade。Theemperorimmediatelysentforthechiefofpolice,andgavehimthenecessaryorders。
  Sixweekswentbywithoutanyresult。Vaninka,sincethedaywhenthelettercame,wassadderandmoremelancholythanever。Vainlyfromtimetotimethegeneraltriedtomakehermorehopeful。
  Vaninkaonlyshookherheadandwithdrew。Thegeneralceasedtospeak,ofFoedor。
  Butitwasnotthesameamongthehousehold。Theyoungaide-de-camphadbeenpopularwiththeservants,and,withtheexceptionofGregory,therewasnotasoulwhowishedhimharm,sothat,whenitbecameknownthathehadnotbeensentonamission,buthaddisappeared,thematterbecametheconstantsubjectofconversationintheantechamber,thekitchen,andthestables。Therewasanotherplacewherepeoplebusiedthemselvesaboutitagreatdeal——thiswastheRedHouse。
  >FromthedaywhenheheardofFoedor’smysteriousdepartureGregoryhadhissuspicions。HewassurethathehadseenFoedorenterVaninka’sroom,andunlesshehadgoneoutwhilehewasgoingtoseekthegeneral,hedidnotunderstandwhythelatterhadnotfoundhiminhisdaughter’sroom。Anotherthingoccupiedhismind,whichitseemedtohimmightperhapshavesomeconnectionwiththisevent——theamountofmoneyIvanhadbeenspendingsincethattime,averyextraordinaryamountforaslave。Thisslave,however,wasthebrotherofVaninka’scherishedfoster-sister,sothat,withoutbeingsure,Gregoryalreadysuspectedthesourcefromwhencethismoneycame。Anotherthingconfirmedhiminhissuspicions,whichwasthatIvan,whohadnotonlyremainedhismostfaithfulfriend,buthadbecomeoneofhisbestcustomers,neverspokeofFoedor,heldhistongueifhewerementionedinhispresence,andtoallquestions,howeverpressingtheywere,madebutoneanswer:"Letusspeakofsomethingelse。"
  InthemeantimetheFeastofKingsarrived。ThisisagreatdayinSt。Petersburg,foritisalsothedayforblessingthewaters。
  AsVaninkahadbeenpresentattheceremony,andwasfatiguedafterstandingfortwohoursontheNeva,thegeneraldidnotgooutthatevening,andgaveIvanleavetodoso。IvanprofitedbythepermissiontogototheRedHouse。
  Therewasanumerouscompanythere,andIvanwaswelcomed;foritwasknownthathegenerallycamewithfullpockets。Thistimehedidnotbeliehisreputation,andhadscarcelyarrivedbeforehemadethesorok-kopecksring,tothegreatenvyofhiscompanions。
  AtthiswarningsoundGregoryhastenedupwithallpossibledeference,abottleofbrandyineachhand;forheknewthatwhenIvansummonedhimhegainedintwoways,asinnkeeperandasbooncompanion。Ivandidnotdisappointthesehopes,andGregorywasinvitedtoshareintheentertainment。Theconversationturnedonslavery,andsomeoftheunhappymen,whohadonlyfourdaysintheyearofrespitefromtheireternallabour,talkedloudlyofthehappinessGregoryhadenjoyedsincehehadobtainedhisfreedom。
  "Bah!"saidIvan,onwhomthebrandyhadbeguntotakeeffect,"therearesomeslaveswhoarefreerthantheirmasters。"
  "Whatdoyoumean?"saidGregory,pouringhimoutanotherglassofbrandy。
  "Imeanttosayhappier,"saidIvanquickly。
  "Itisdifficulttoprovethat,"saidGregorydoubtingly。
  "Whydifficult?Ourmasters,themomenttheyareborn,areputintothehandsoftwoorthreepedants,oneFrench,anotherGerman,andathirdEnglish,andwhethertheylikethemornot,theymustbecontentwiththeirsocietytilltheyareseventeen,andwhethertheywishtoornot,mustlearnthreebarbarouslanguages,attheexpenseofournobleRussiantongue,whichtheyhavesometimescompletelyforgottenbythetimetheothersareacquired。Again,ifoneofthemwishesforsomecareer,hemustbecomeasoldier:ifheisasublieutenant,heistheslaveofthelieutenant;ifheisalieutenant,heistheslaveofthecaptain,andthecaptainofthemajor,andsoonuptotheemperor,whoisnobody’sslave,butwhoonefinedayissurprisedatthetable,whilewalking,orinhisbed,andispoisoned,stabbed,orstrangled。Ifhechoosesacivilcareer,itismuchthesame。Hemarriesawife,anddoesnotloveher;childrencometohimheknowsnothow,whomhehastoprovidefor;hemuststruggleincessantlytoprovideforhisfamilyifheispoor,andifheisrichtopreventhimselfbeingrobbedbyhisstewardandcheatedbyhistenants。Isthislife?Whilewe,gentlemen,weareborn,andthatistheonlypainwecostourmothers——alltherestisthemaster’sconcern。Heprovidesforus,hechoosesourcalling,alwayseasyenoughtolearnifwearenotquiteidiots。Areweill?Hisdoctorattendsusgratis;itisalosstohimifwedie。Arewewell?Wehaveourfourcertainmealsaday,andagoodstovetosleepnearatnight。Dowefallinlove?
  Thereisneveranyhindrancetoourmarriage,ifthewomanlovesus;
  themasterhimselfasksustohastenourmarriage,forhewishesustohaveasmanychildrenaspossible。Andwhenthechildrenareborn,hedoesforthemintheirturnallhehasdoneforus。Canyoufindmemanygreatlordsashappyastheirslaves?"
  "Allthisistrue,"saidGregory,pouringhimoutanotherglassofbrandy;"but,afterall,youarenotfree。"
  "Freetodowhat?"askedIvan。
  "Freetogowhereyouwillandwhenyouwill。"
  "Iamasfreeastheair,"repliedIvan。
  "Nonsense!"saidGregory。
  "Freeasair,Itellyou;forIhavegoodmasters,andaboveallagoodmistress,"continuedIvan,withasignificantsmile,"andIhaveonlytoaskanditisdone。"
  "What!ifafterhavinggotdrunkhereto-day,youaskedtocomebackto-morrowtogetdrunkagain?"saidGregory,whoinhischallengetoIvandidnotforgethisowninterests,——"ifyouaskedthat?"
  "Ishouldcomebackagain,"saidIvan。
  "To-morrow?"saidGregory。
  "To-morrow,thedayafter,everydayifIliked……"
  "Thefactis,Ivanisouryounglady’sfavourite,"saidanotherofthecount’sslaveswhowaspresent,profitingbyhiscomradeIvan’sliberality。
  "Itisallthesame,"saidGregory;"forsupposingsuchpermissionweregivenyou,moneywouldsoonrunshort。"
  "Never!"saidIvan,swallowinganotherglassofbrandy,"neverwillIvanwantformoneyaslongasthereisakopeckinmylady’spurse。"
  "Ididnotfindhersoliberal,"saidGregorybitterly。
  "Oh,youforget,myfriend;youknowwellshedoesnotreckonwithherfriends:rememberthestrokesoftheknout。"
  "Ihavenowishtospeakaboutthat,"saidGregory。"Iknowthatsheisgenerouswithblows,buthermoneyisanotherthing。Ihaveneverseenthecolourofthat。"
  "Well,wouldyouliketoseethecolourofmine?"saidIvan,gettingmoreandmoredrunk。"Seehere,herearekopecks,sorok-kopecks,bluenotesworthfiveroubles,rednotesworthtwentyfiveroubles,andto-morrow,ifyoulike,Iwillshowyouwhitenotesworthfiftyroubles。AhealthtomyladyVaninka!"AndIvanheldouthisglassagain,andGregoryfilledittothebrim。
  "Butdoesmoney,"saidGregory,pressingIvanmoreandmore,——"doesmoneymakeupforscorn?"
  "Scorn!"saidIvan,——"scorn!Whoscornsme?Doyou,becauseyouarefree?Finefreedom!Iwouldratherbeawell-fedslavethanafreemandyingofhunger。"
  "Imeanthescornofourmasters,"repliedGregory。
  "Thescornofourmasters!AskAlexis,askDanielthere,ifmyladyscornsme。"
  "Thefactis,"saidthetwoslavesinreply,whobothbelongedtothegeneral’shousehold,"Ivanmustcertainlyhaveacharm;foreveryonetalkstohimasiftoamaster。"
  "BecauseheisAnnouschka’sbrother,"saidGregory,"andAnnouschkaismylady’sfoster-sister。"
  "Thatmaybeso,"saidthetwoslaves。
  "Forthatreasonorforsomeother,"saidIvan;"but,inshort,thatisthecase。"
  "Yes;butifyoursistershoulddie?"saidGregory。"Ah!"
  "Ifmysistershoulddie,thatwouldbeapity,forsheisagoodgirl。Idrinktoherhealth!Butifsheshoulddie,thatwouldmakenodifference。Iamrespectedformyself;theyrespectmebecausetheyfearme。"
  "FearmylordIvan!"saidGregory,withaloudlaugh。"Itfollows,then,thatifmylordIvanweretiredofreceivingorders,andgavetheminhisturn,mylordIvanwouldbeobeyed。"
  "Perhaps,"saidIvan。
  "Hesaid’perhaps,’repeatedGregory,laughinglouderthanever,——"hesaid’perhaps。’Didyouhearhim?"
  "Yes,"saidtheslaves,whohaddrunksomuchthattheycouldonlyanswerinmonosyllables。
  "Well,Inolongersay’perhaps,’Inowsay’forcertain。’"
  "Oh,Ishouldliketoseethat,"saidGregory;"Iwouldgivesomethingtoseethat。"
  "Well,sendawaythesefellows,whoaregettingdrunklikepigs,andfornothing,youwillfind。"
  "Fornothing?"saidGregory。"Youarejesting。DoyouthinkI
  shouldgivethemdrinkfornothing?"
  "Well,weshallsee。Howmuchwouldbetheirscore,foryouratrociousbrandy,iftheydrankfromnowtillmidnight,whenyouareobligedtoshutupyourtavern?"
  "Notlessthantwentyroubles。"
  "Herearethirty;turnthereout,andletusremainbyourselves。"
  "Friends,"saidGregory,takingouthiswatchasiftolookatthetime,"itisjustuponmidnight;youknowthegovernor’sorders,soyoumustgo。"Themen,habituatedlikeallRussianstopassiveobedience,wentwithoutamurmur,andGregoryfoundhimselfalonewithIvanandthetwootherslavesofthegeneral。
  "Well,herewearealone,"saidGregory。"Whatdoyoumeantodo?"
  "Well,whatwouldyousay,"repliedIvan,"ifinspiteofthelatehourandthecold,andinspiteofthefactthatweareonlyslaves,myladyweretoleaveherfather’shouseandcometodrinkourhealths?"
  "Iwouldsaythatyououghttotakeadvantageofit,"saidGregory,shrugginghisshoulders,"andtellhertobringatthesametimeabottleofbrandy。Thereisprobablybetterbrandyinthegeneral’scellarthaninmine。"
  "Thereisbetter,"saidIvan,asifhewasperfectlysureofit,"andmyladyshallbringyouabottleofit。"
  "Youaremad!"saidGregory。
  "Heismad!"repeatedtheothertwoslavesmechanically。
  "Oh,Iammad?"saidIvan。"Well,willyoutakeawager?"
  "Whatwillyouwager?"
  "Twohundredroublesagainstayearoffreedrinkinginyourinn。"
  "Done!"saidGregory。
  "Areyourcomradesincluded?"saidthetwomoujiks。
  "Theyareincluded,"saidIvan,"andinconsiderationofthemwewillreducethetimetosixmonths。Isthatagreed?"
  "Itisagreed,"saidGregory。
  Thetwowhoweremakingthewagershookhands,andtheagreementwasperfected。Then,withanairofconfidence,assumedtoconfoundthewitnessesofthisstrangescene,Ivanwrappedhimselfinthefurcoatwhich,likeacautiousman,hehadspreadonthestove,andwentout。
  Attheendofhalfanhourhereappeared。
  "Well!"criedGregoryandthetwoslavestogether。
  "Sheisfollowing,"saidIvan。
  Thethreetipplerslookedatoneanotherinamazement,butIvanquietlyreturnedtohisplaceinthemiddleofthem,pouredoutanewbumper,andraisinghisglass,cried——
  "Tomylady’shealth!Itistheleastwecandowhensheiskindenoughtocomeandjoinusonsocoldanight,whenthesnowisfallingfast。"
  "Annouschka,"saidavoiceoutside,"knockatthisdoorandaskGregoryifhehasnotsomeofourservantswithhim。"
  Gregoryandthetwootherslaveslookedatoneanother,stupefied:
  theyhadrecognisedVaninka’svoice。AsforIvan,heflunghimselfbackinhischair,balancinghimselfwithmarvellousimpertinence。
  Annouschkaopenedthedoor,andtheycouldsee,asIvanhadsaid,thatthesnowwasfallingheavily。
  "Yes,madam,"saidthegirl;"mybrotheristhere,withDanielandAlexis。"
  Vaninkaentered。
  "Myfriends,"saidshe,withastrangesmile,"Iamtoldthatyouweredrinkingmyhealth,andIhavecometobringyousomethingtodrinkitagain。HereisabottleofoldFrenchbrandywhichIhavechosenforyoufrommyfather’scellar。Holdoutyourglasses。"
  Gregoryandtheslavesobeyedwiththeslownessandhesitationofastonishment,whileIvanheldouthisglasswiththeutmosteffrontery。
  Vaninkafilledthemtothebrimherself,andthen,astheyhesitatedtodrink,"Come,drinktomyhealth,friends,"saidshe。
  "Hurrah!"criedthedrinkers,reassuredbythekindandfamiliartoneoftheirnoblevisitor,astheyemptiedtheirglassesatadraught。
  Vaninkaatoncepouredthemoutanotherglass;thenputtingthebottleonthetable,"Emptythebottle,myfriends,"saidshe,"anddonottroubleaboutme。AnnouschkaandI,withthepermission2668
  ofthemasterofthehouse,willsitnearthestovetillthestormisover。"
  Gregorytriedtoriseandplacestoolsnearthestove,butwhetherhewasquitedrunkorwhethersomenarcotichadbeenmixedwiththebrandy,hefellbackonhisseat,tryingtostammeroutanexcuse。
  "Itisallright,"saidVaninka:"donotdisturbyourselves;drink,myfriends,drink。"
  Therevellersprofitedbythispermission,andeachemptiedtheglassbeforehim。ScarcelyhadGregoryemptiedhisbeforehefellforwardonthetable。
  "Good!"saidVaninkatohermaidinalowvoice:"theopiumistakingeffect。"
  "Whatdoyoumeantodo?"saidAnnouschka。
  "Youwillsoonsee,"wastheanswer。
  Thetwomoujiksfollowedtheexampleofthemasterofthehouse,andfelldownsidebysideontheground。Ivanwasleftstrugglingagainstsleep,andtryingtosingadrinkingsong;butsoonhistonguerefusedtoobeyhim,hiseyesclosedinspiteofhim,andseekingthetunethatescapedhim,andmutteringwordshewasunabletopronounce,hefellfastasleepnearhiscompanions。
  ImmediatelyVaninkarose,fixedthemwithflashingeyes,andcalledthembynameoneafteranother。Therewasnoresponse。
  Thensheclappedherhandsandcriedjoyfully,"Themomenthascome!"
  Goingtothebackoftheroom,shebroughtthenceanarmfulofstraw,placeditinacorneroftheroom,anddidthesameintheothercorners。Shethentookaflamingbrandfromthestoveandsetfireinsuccessiontothefourcornersoftheroom。
  "Whatareyoudoing?"saidAnnouschka,wildwithterror,tryingtostopher。
  "Iamgoingtoburyoursecretintheashesofthishouse,"answeredVaninka。
  "Butmybrother,mypoorbrother!"saidthegirl。
  "Yourbrotherisawretchwhohasbetrayedme,andwearelostifwedonotdestroyhim。"
  "Oh,mybrother,mypoorbrother!"
  "Youcandiewithhimifyoulike,"saidVaninka,accompanyingtheproposalwithasmilewhichshowedshewouldnothavebeensorryifAnnouschkahadcarriedsisterlyaffectiontothatlength。
  "Butlookatthefire,madam——thefire!"
  "Letusgo,then,"saidVaninka;and,draggingouttheheart-brokengirl,shelockedthedoorbehindherandthrewthekeyfarawayintothesnow。
  "InthenameofHeaven,"saidAnnouschka,"letusgohomequickly:I
  cannotgazeuponthisawfulsight!"
  "No,letusstayhere!"saidVaninka,holdingherbackwithagraspofalmostmasculinestrength。"Letusstayuntilthehousefallsinonthem,sothatwemaybecertainthatnotoneofthemescapes。"
  "Oh,myGod!"criedAnnouschka,fallingonherknees,"havemercyuponmypoorbrother,fordeathwillhurryhimunpreparedintoThypresence。"
  "Yes,yes,pray;thatisright,"saidVaninka。"Iwishtodestroytheirbodies,nottheirsouls。"
  Vaninkastoodmotionless,herarmscrossed,brilliantlylitupbytheflames,whileherattendantprayed。Thefiredidnotlastlong:thehousewaswooden,withthecrevicesfilledwithoakum,likeallthoseofRussianpeasants,sothattheflames,creepingoutatthefourcorners,soonmadegreatheadway,and,fannedbythewind,spreadrapidlytoallpartsofthebuilding。Vaninkafollowedtheprogressofthefirewithblazingeyes,fearingtoseesomehalf-burntspectralshaperushoutoftheflames。Atlasttherooffellin,andVaninka,relievedofallfear,thenatlastmadeherwaytothegeneral’shouse,intowhichthetwowomenenteredwithoutbeingseen,thankstothepermissionAnnouschkahadtogooutatanyhourofthedayornight。
  ThenextmorningthesoletopicofconversationinSt。PetersburgwasthefireattheRedHouse。Fourhalf-consumedcorpsesweredugoutfrombeneaththeruins,andasthreeofthegeneral’sslavesweremissing,hehadnodoubtthattheunrecognisablebodieswerethoseofIvan,Daniel,andAlexis:asforthefourth,itwascertainlythatofGregory。
  Thecauseofthefireremainedasecretfromeveryone:thehousewassolitary,andthesnowstormsoviolentthatnobodyhadmetthetwowomenonthedesertedroad。Vaninkawassureofhermaid。HersecretthenhadperishedwithIvan。Butnowremorsetooktheplaceoffear:theyounggirlwhowassopitilessandinflexibleintheexecutionofthedeedquailedatitsremembrance。Itseemedtoherthatbyrevealingthesecretofhercrimetoapriest,shewouldberelievedofherterribleburden。Shethereforesoughtaconfessorrenownedforhisloftycharity,and,underthesealofconfession,toldhimall。Thepriestwashorrifiedbythestory。Divinemercyisboundless,buthumanforgivenesshasitslimits。HerefusedVaninkatheabsolutionsheasked。Thisrefusalwasterrible:itwouldbanishVaninkafromtheHolyTable;thisbanishmentwouldbenoticed,andcouldnotfailtobeattributedtosomeunheard-ofandsecretcrime。Vaninkafellatthefeetofthepriest,andinthenameofherfather,whowouldbedisgracedbyhershame,beggedhimtomitigatetherigourofthissentence。
  Theconfessorreflecteddeeply,thenthoughthehadfoundawaytoobviatesuchconsequences。ItwasthatVaninkashouldapproachtheHolyTablewiththeotheryounggirls;thepriestwouldstopbeforeherasbeforealltheothers,butonlysaytoher,"Prayandweep";
  thecongregation,deceivedbythis,wouldthinkthatshehadreceivedtheSacramentlikehercompanions。ThiswasallthatVaninkacouldobtain。
  Thisconfessiontookplaceaboutseveno’clockintheevening,andthesolitudeofthechurch,addedtothedarknessofnight,hadgivenitastillmoreawfulcharacter。Theconfessorreturnedhome,paleandtrembling。HiswifeElizabethwaswaitingforhimalone。ShehadjustputherlittledaughterArina,whowaseightyearsold,tobedinanadjoiningroom。Whenshesawherhusband,sheutteredacryofterror,sochangedandhaggardwashisappearance。Theconfessortriedtoreassureher,buthistremblingvoiceonlyincreasedheralarm。Sheaskedthecauseofhisagitation;theconfessorrefusedtotellher。Elizabethhadheardtheeveningbeforethathermotherwasill;shethoughtthatherhusbandhadreceivedsomebadnews。ThedaywasMonday,whichisconsideredanunluckydayamongtheRussians,and,goingoutthatday,Elizabethhadmetamaninmourning;theseomensweretoonumerousandtoostrongnottoportendmisfortune。
  Elizabethburstintotears,andcriedout,"Mymotherisdead!"
  Thepriestinvaintriedtoreassureherbytellingherthathisagitationwasnotduetothat。Thepoorwoman,dominatedbyoneidea,madenoresponsetohisprotestationsbutthiseverlastingcry,"Mymotherisdead!"
  Then,tobringhertoreason,theconfessortoldherthathisemotionwasduetotheavowalofacrimewhichhehadjustheardintheconfessional。ButElizabethshookherhead:itwasatrick,shesaid,tohidefromherthesorrowwhichhadfallenuponher。Heragony,insteadofcalming,becamemoreviolent;hertearsceasedtoflow,andwerefollowedbyhysterics。Thepriestthenmadehersweartokeepthesecret,andthesanctityoftheconfessionwasbetrayed。
  LittleArinahadawakenedatElizabeth’scries,andbeingdisturbedandatthesametimecuriousastowhatherparentsweredoing,shegotup,wenttolistenatthedoor,andheardall。
  ThedayfortheCommunioncame;thechurchofSt。Simeonwascrowded。
  Vaninkacametokneelattherailingofthechoir。Behindherwasherfatherandhisaides-de-camp,andbehindthemtheirservants。
  Arinawasalsointhechurchwithhermother。TheinquisitivechildwishedtoseeVaninka,whosenameshehadheardpronouncedthatterriblenight,whenherfatherhadfailedinthefirstandmostsacredofthedutiesimposedonapriest。Whilehermotherwaspraying,sheleftherchairandglidedamongtheworshippers,nearlyasfarastherailing。
  Butwhenshehadarrivedthere,shewasstoppedbythegroupofthegeneral’sservants。ButArinahadnotcomesofartobe,stoppedsoeasily:shetriedtopushbetweenthem,buttheyopposedher;shepersisted,andoneofthempushedherroughlyback。Thechildfell,struckherheadagainstaseat,andgotupbleedingandcrying,"Youareveryproudforaslave。IsitbecauseyoubelongtothegreatladywhoburnttheRedHouse?"
  Thesewords,utteredinaloudvoice,inthemidstofthesilencewhichpreceded,thesacredceremony,wereheardbyeveryone。Theywereansweredbyashriek。Vaninkahadfainted。Thenextdaythegeneral,atthefeetofPaul,recountedtohim,ashissovereignandjudge,thewholeterriblestory,whichVaninka,crushedbyherlongstruggle,hadatlastrevealedtohim,atnight,afterthesceneinthechurch。
  Theemperorremainedforamomentinthoughtattheendofthisstrangeconfession;then,gettingupfromthechairwherehehadbeensittingwhilethemiserablefathertoldhisstory,hewenttoabureau,andwroteonasheetofpaperthefollowingsentence:
  "Thepriesthavingviolatedwhatshouldhavebeeninviolable,thesecretsoftheconfessional,isexiledtoSiberiaanddeprivedofhispriestlyoffice。Hiswifewillfollowhim:sheistobeblamedfornothavingrespectedhischaracterasaministerofthealtar。Thelittlegirlwillnotleaveherparents。
  "Annouschka,theattendant,willalsogotoSiberiafornothavingmadeknowntohermasterhisdaughter’sconduct。
  "Ipreserveallmyesteemforthegeneral,andImournwithhimforthedeadlyblowwhichhasstruckhim。
  "AsforVaninka,Iknowofnopunishmentwhichcanbeinflicteduponher。Ionlyseeinherthedaughterofabravesoldier,whosewholelifehasbeendevotedtotheserviceofhiscountry。Besides,theextraordinarywayinwhichthecrimewasdiscovered,seemstoplacetheculpritbeyondthelimitsofmyseverity。Ileaveherpunishmentinherownhands。IfIunderstandhercharacter,ifanyfeelingofdignityremainstoher,herheartandherremorsewillshowherthepathsheoughttofollow。"
  Paulhandedthepaperopentothegeneral,orderinghimtotakeittoCountPahlen,thegovernorofSt。Petersburg。
  Onthefollowingdaytheemperor’sorderswerecarriedout。
  Vaninkawentintoaconvent,wheretowardstheendofthesameyearshediedofshameandgrief。
  ThegeneralfoundthedeathhesoughtonthefieldofAusterlitz。