IaskedtheLord:"Sire,isthistrueWhichhostsoftheologianshold,ThatwhenwecreaturescensureyouForshapinggriefsandailsuntold(Deemingthempunishmentsundue)
Yourage,asMoseswroteofold?
Whenweexclaim:’BeneficentHeisnot,forheorderspain,Or,ifso,notomnipotent:
Toamerechildthethingisplain!’
ThosewhoprofesstorepresentYou,cryout:’Impiousandprofane!’"
He:"Savemefrommyfriends,whodeemThatIcarewhatmycreaturessay!
Mouthasyoulist:sneer,rail,blaspheme,Omanikin,thelivelongday,Notonegrief-groanorpleasure-gleamWillyouincreaseortakeaway。
"Whythingsarethus,whosoderides,Maywellremainmysecretstill……
Afourthdimension,saytheguides,Tomatterisconceivable。
ThinksomesuchmysteryresidesWithintheethicofmywill。"
BYTHEBARROWS
NotfarfromMellstock——sotraditionsaith-
Wherebarrows,bulgingastheybosomswereOfMultimammiastretchedsupinelythere,Catchnightandnoonthetempest’swantonbreath,Abattle,desperatedoubtlessuntodeath,Wasonetimefought。Theoutlook,loneandbare,Thetoweringhawkandpassingravenshare,Andalltheuplandroundiscalled"TheHe’th。"
Hereonceawoman,inourmodernage,Foughtsinglehandedlytoshieldachild-
Onenotherown——fromaman’ssenselessrage。
Andtomymindnopatriots’bonestherepiledSoconsecratethesilenceasherdeedOfstoicanddevotedself-unheed。
AWIFEANDANOTHER
"Warends,andhe’sreturningEarly;yea,Theeveningnextto-morrow’s!"-
——ThisIsayToher,whomIsuspiciouslysurvey,Holdingmyhusband’sletterToherview-
Sheglancedatitbutlightly,AndIknewThatonefromhimthatdayhadreachedhertoo。
Therewasnotimeforscruple;
SecretlyIfilchedhermissive,connedit,LearntthatheWouldlodgewithhererehecamehometome。
Toreachtheportbeforeher,And,unscanned,TherewaittointerceptthemSoonIplanned:
That,inherstead,_I_mightbeforehimstand。
Sopurposed,soeffected;
AttheinnAssigned,Ifoundherhidden:-
OthatsinShouldbearwhatsheborewhenIenteredin!
HerheavylidsgrewladenWithdespairs,HerlipsmadesoundlessmovementsUnawares,WhileIpeeredatthechamberhiredastheirs。
Andasbesideitsdoorway,Deadlyhued,Oneinside,onewithoutsideWetwostood,Hecame——myhusband——assheknewhewould。
NopleasurabletriumphWasthatsight!
TheghastlydisappointmentBrokethemquite。
Whatlovewastheirs,tomovethemwithsuchmight!
"Madam,forgiveme!"saidshe,Sorrowbent,"Achild——Isoonshallbearhim……
Yes——ImeantTotellyou——thathewonmeerehewent。"
Then,asitwere,withinmeSomethingsnapped,Asifmysoulhadlargened:
Conscience-capped,Isawmyselfthesnarer——themthetrapped。
"Myhatedies,andIpromise,Grace-beguiled,"
Isaid,"tocareforyou,beReconciled;
Andcherish,andtakeinterestinthechild。"
WithoutmorewordsIpressedhimThroughthedoorWithinwhichshestood,powerlessTosaymore,Andcloseditonthem,anddownstairwardbore。
"Hejoinshiswife——mysister,"
I,below,Remarkedingoing——lightly-
EvenasthoughAllhadcomeright,andwehadarrangeditso……
AsI,myroadretracing,Leftthemfree,ThenightaloneembracingChildlessme,IheldIhadnotstirredGodwrothfully。
THEROMANROAD
TheRomanRoadrunsstraightandbareAsthepaleparting-lineinhairAcrosstheheath。AndthoughtfulmenContrastitsdaysofNowandThen,Anddelve,andmeasure,andcompare;
VisioningonthevacantairHelmedlegionaries,whoproudlyrearTheEagle,astheypaceagainTheRomanRoad。
Butnotallbrass-helmedlegionnaireHauntsitforme。UprisesthereAmother’sformuponmyken,Guidingmyinfantsteps,aswhenWewalkedthatancientthoroughfare,TheRomanRoad。
THEVAMPIRINEFAIR
GilberthadsailedtoIndia’sshore,AndIwasallalone:
MylordcameinatmyopendoorAndsaid,"Ofairestone!"
Heleantupontheslantbureau,Andsighed,"Iamsickforthee!"
"Mylord,"saidI,"prayspeaknotso,SinceweddedwifeIbe。"
Leaningupontheslantbureau,Bitterhisnextwordscame:
"SomuchIknow;andlikewiseknowMyloveburnsonthesame!
"Butsinceyouthrustmyloveaway,Andsinceitknowsnocure,ImustliveoutasbestImayTheachethatIendure。"
WhenMichaelmasbrownedthenetherCoomb,AndWingreenHillabove,Andmadethehollyhocksragsofbloom,Mylordgrewilloflove。
Mylordgrewillwithloveforme;
Gilbertwasfarfromport;
And——soitwas——thattimedidseeMehousedatManorCourt。
AboutthebowersofManorCourtTheprimrosepusheditsheadWhen,onadayatlast,reportArrivedofhimIhadwed。
"Gilbert,mylord,ishomewardbound,Hissloopisdrawingnear,WhatshallIdowhenIamfoundNotinhishousebuthere?"
"OIwillhealtheinjuriesI’vedonetohimandthee。
I’llgivehimmeanstoliveateaseAfarfromShastonb’ry。"
WhenGilbertcamewebothtookthought:
"Sincecomfortandgoodcheer,"
Saidhe,"Soreadilyarebought,He’swelcometothee,Dear。"
SowhenmylordflungliberallyHisgoldinGilbert’shands,IcoaxedandgotmybrothersthreeMadestewardsofhislands。
AndthenIcoaxedhimtoinstallMyotherkithandkin,WithaimtobenefitthemallBeforehisloveranthin。
AndnextIcravedtobepossessedOfplateandjewelsrare。
Hegroaned:"Yougiveme,Love,norest,Takeallthelawwillspare!"
AndsoincourseofyearsmywealthBecameagoodlyhoard,Mystewardbrethren,too,bystealthHadeachafortunestored。
Thereafterinthegloomhe’dwalk,AndbyandbybeganTosayaloudinabsenttalk,"Iamaruinedman!-
"Ihardlycouldhavethought,"hesaid,"WhenfirstIlookedonthee,Thatonesosoft,sorosyred,Couldthushavebeggaredme!"
Seeinghisfairestatesinpawn,Andhiminsuchdecline,IknewthathisdomainhadgoneToliftupmeandmine。
NextmonthuponaSundaymornAgunshotsoundednigh:
ByhisownhandmylordlybornHaddoomedhimselftodie。
"Live,mydearlord,andmuchofthineShallberestoredtothee!"
Hesmiled,andsaid’twixtwordandsign,"Alas——thatcannotbe!"
AndwhileIsearchedhiscabinetForletters,keys,orwill,’TwastouchingthathisgazewassetWithloveuponmestill。
AndwhenIburnteachdocumentBeforehisdyingeyes,’TwassweetthathedidnotresentMyfearofcompromise。
Thesteeple-cockgleamedgoldenwhenIwatchedhisspiritgo:
AndIbecamerepentantthenThatIhadwreckedhimso。
Threeweeksatleasthadcomeandgone,Withmanyasaddenedword,BeforeIwrotetoGilbertonThestrokethatsohadstirred。
Andhavingwornamournfulgown,Ijoined,indecentwhile,MyhusbandatadashingtownToliveindashingstyle。
YetthoughInowenjoymyfling,Anddineanddanceanddrive,I’dgivemyprettiestemeraldringToseemylordalive。
Andwhenthemeetonhunting-daysIsnearhischurchyardhome,IleavemybanteringbeauxtoplaceAfloweruponhistomb;
Andsometimessay:"PerhapstoolateThesaintsinHeavendeploreThattendertimewhen,movedbyFate,Hedarkedmycottagedoor。"
THEREMINDER
I
WhileIwatchtheChristmasblazePainttheroomwithruddyrays,SomethingmakesmyvisionglideTothefrostysceneoutside。
There,toreacharottingberry,Toilsathrush,——constrainedtoveryDregsoffoodbysharpdistress,Takingsuchwiththankfulness。
Why,Ostarvingbird,whenI
Oneday’sjoywouldjustify,Andputmiseryoutofview,Doyoumakemenoticeyou!
THERAMBLER
Idonotseethehillsaround,Normarkthetintsthecopseswear;
IdonotnotethegrassygroundAndconstellateddaisiesthere。
IhearnotthecontraltonoteOfcuckooshidoneitherhand,Thewhirrthatshakesthenighthawk’sthroatWheneve’sbrownawninghoodstheland。
Somesayeachsongster,tree,andmead-
Alleloquentoflovedivine-
Receivestheirconstantcarefulheed:
Suchkeenappraisementisnotmine。
ThetonesaroundmethatIhear,Theaspects,meanings,shapesIsee,Arethosefarbackonesmissedwhennear,Andnowperceivedtoolatebyme!
NIGHTINTHEOLDHOME
Whenthewastingembersreddenthechimney-breast,AndLife’sbarepathwayloomslikeadeserttracktome,Andfromhallandparlourthelivinghavegonetotheirrest,Myperishedpeoplewhohousedthemherecomebacktome。
Theycomeandseatthemaroundintheirmouldyplaces,Nowandthenbendingtowardsmeaglanceofwistfulness,Astrangeupbraidingsmileuponalltheirfaces,Andinthebearingofeachapassivetristfulness。
"Doyouupholdme,lingeringandlanguishinghere,Apalelateplantofyouroncestrongstock?"Isaytothem;
"AthinkerofcrookedthoughtsuponLifeinthesere,AndonThatwhichconsignsmentonightaftershowingthedaytothem?"
"——OletbetheWherefore!Wefeveredouryearsnotthus:
TakeofLifewhatitgrants,withoutquestion!"theyanswermeseemingly。
"Enjoy,suffer,wait:spreadthetableherefreelylikeus,And,satisfied,placid,unfretting,watchTimeawaybeamingly!"
AFTERTHELASTBREATH
(J。H。1813-1904)
There’snomoretobedone,orfeared,orhoped;
Nonenowneedwatch,speaklow,andlist,andtire;
Noirksomecreaseoutsmoothed,nopillowslopedDoessherequire。
Blanklywegaze。Wearefreetogoorstay;
Ourmorrow’sanxiousplanshavemissedtheiraim;
Whetherweleaveto-nightorwaittilldayCountsasthesame。
TheletteredvesselsofmedicamentsSeemaskingwhereforewehavesetthemhere;
EachpalliativeitssillyfacepresentsAsuselessgear。
Andyetwefeelthatsomethingsavourswell;
Wenoteanumbreliefwithheldbefore;
Ourwell-belovedisprisonerinthecellOfTimenomore。
WeseebylittlesnowthedeftachievementWherebyshehasescapedtheWrongersall,InviewofwhichourmomentarybereavementOutshapesbutsmall。
1904。
INCHILDBED
InthemiddleofthenightMother’sspiritcameandspoketome,Lookingwearifulandwhite-
As’twereuntimelynewsshebroketome。
"Omydaughter,joyedareyouToowntheweetlesschildyoumotherthere;
’Menmaysearchthewideworldthrough,’
Youthink,’norfindsofairanotherthere!’
"Dear,thismidnighttimeunwombsThousandsjustasrareandbeautiful;
ThousandswhomHighHeavenforedoomsTobeasbright,asgood,asdutiful。
"SourceofecstatichopesandfearsAndinnocentmaternalvanity,YourfondexploitbutshapesfortearsNewthoroughfaresinsadhumanity。
"Yetasyoudream,sodreamtI
WhenLifestretchedforthitsmorningraytome;
Otherviewsforbyandby!"……
Suchstrangethingsdidmothersaytome。
THEPINEPLANTERS
(MARTYSOUTH’SREVERIE)
I
WeworkheretogetherInblastandbreeze;
Hefillstheearthin,Iholdthetrees。
HedoesnotnoticeThatwhatIdoKeepsmefrommovingAndchillsmethrough。
HehasseenonefairerIfeelbyhiseye,WhichskimsmeasthoughIwerenotby。
AndsinceshepassedhereHescarcehasknownButthatthewoodlandHoldshimalone。
IhaveworkedherewithhimSincemorningshine,HebusywithhisthoughtsAndIwithmine。
Ihavehelpedhimsomany,Somanydays,ButneverwinanySmallwordofpraise!
ShallInotsightohimThatIworkonGladtobenightohimThoughhopeisgone?
Nay,thoughheneverKnewlovelikemine,I’llbeariteverAndmakenosign!
II
FromthebundleathandhereItakeeachtree,Andsetittostand,hereAlwaystobe;
When,inasecond,AsiffromfearOfLifeunreckonedBeginninghere,ItstartsasighingThroughdayandnight,Thoughwhiletherelying’Twasvoicelessquite。
Itwillsighinthemorning,Willsighatnoon,Atthewinter’swarning,InwaftsofJune;
GrievingthatneverKindFatedecreedItshouldforeverRemainaseed,AndshunthewelterOfthingswithout,UnneedingshelterFromstormanddrought。
Thus,allunknowingForwhomorwhatWesetitgrowingInthisbleakspot,ItstillwillgrievehereThroughoutitstime,Unabletoleavehere,Orchangeitsclime;
OrtellthestoryOfusto-dayWhen,haltandhoary,Wepassaway。
THEDEAR
IploddedtoFairmileHill-top,whereAmaidenonefainwouldguardFromeveryhazardandeverycareAdvancedontheroadsidesward。
IwonderedhowsucceedingsunsWouldshapeherwayfarings,AndwishedsomePowermighttakesuchonesUnderItswardingwings。
ThebusybreezecameupthehillAndsmartenedhercheektored,Andfrizzledherhairtoahaze。Withawill"Good-morning,myDear!"Isaid。
Sheglancedfrommetothefar-offgray,And,withproudseverity,"Good-morningtoyou——thoughImaysayIamnotYOURDear,"quothshe:
"ForIamtheDearofonenothere-
Onefarfromhisnativeland!"-
Andshepassedmeby;andIdidnottryTomakeherunderstand。
1901
ONEWEKNEW
(M。H。1772-1857)
Shetoldhowtheyusedtoformforthecountrydances-
"TheTriumph,""TheNew-riggedShip"-
Tothelightofthegutteringwaxinthepanelledmanses,Andincotstotheblinkofadip。
Shespokeofthewild"poussetting"and"allemanding"
Oncarpet,onoak,andonsod;
Andthetwolongrowsofladiesandgentlemenstanding,Andthefiguresthecouplestrod。
Sheshowedusthespotwherethemaypolewasyearlyplanted,AndwherethebandsmenstoodWhilebreechedandkerchiefedpartnerswhirled,andpantedTochooseeachotherforgood。
Shetoldofthatfar-backdaywhentheylearntastoundedOfthedeathoftheKingofFrance:
OftheTerror;andthenofBonaparte’sunboundedAmbitionandarrogance。
OfhowhisthreatswokewarlikepreparationsAlongthesouthernstrand,AndhoweachnightbroughttremorsandtrepidationsLestmorningshouldseehimland。
ShesaidshehadoftenheardthegibbetcreakingAsitswayedinthelightningflash,Hadcaughtfromtheneighbouringtownasmallchild’sshriekingAtthecart-tailunderthelash……
Withcap-framedfaceandlonggazeintotheembers-
Weseatedaroundherknees-
Shewoulddwellonsuchdeadthemes,notasonewhoremembers,Butratherasonewhosees。
SheseemedoneleftbehindofabandgonedistantSofarthatnotonguecouldhail:
Pastthingsretoldweretoherasthingsexistent,Thingspresentbutasatale。
May20,1902。
SHEHEARSTHESTORM
Therewasatimeinformeryears-
Whilemyroof-treewashis-
WhenIshouldhavebeendistressedbyfearsAtsuchanightasthis!
Ishouldhavemurmuredanxiously,"Theprickingrainstrikescold;
Hisroadisbareofhedgeortree,Andheisgettingold。"
Butnowthefitfulchimney-roar,ThedroneofThorncombetrees,TheFroominflooduponthemoor,ThemudofMellstockLeaze,Thecandleslantingsootywick’d,Thethudsuponthethatch,Theeaves-dropsonthewindowflicked,Theclackinggarden-hatch,Andwhattheymeantowayfarers,Iscarcelyheedormind;
Hehaswonthatstorm-tightroofofhersWhichEarthgrantsallherkind。
AWETNIGHT
Ipacealong,therain-shaftsriddlingme,Mileaftermileoutbythemoorlandway,Andupthehill,andthroughtheewe-leazegrayIntothelane,androundthecornertree;
Where,asmyclothingclamsme,mire-bestarred,Andtheenfeebledlightdiesoutofday,Leavingtheliquidshadestoreign,Isay,"Thisisahardshiptobecalendared!"
Yetsiresofminenowperishedandforgot,Whenworsebeset,ereroadswereshapenhere,Andnightandstormwerefoesindeedtofear,TimesnumberlesshavetrudgedacrossthisspotInsturdymutenessontheirstrenuouslot,Andtakingallsuchtoilsastriflesmere。
BEFORELIFEANDAFTER
Atimetherewas——asonemayguessAndas,indeed,earth’stestimoniestell-
Beforethebirthofconsciousness,Whenallwentwell。
Nonesufferedsickness,love,orloss,Noneknewregret,starvedhope,orheart-burnings;
NonecaredwhatevercrashorcrossBroughtwracktothings。
Ifsomethingceased,notonguebewailed,Ifsomethingwincedandwaned,noheartwaswrung;
Ifbrightnessdimmed,anddarkprevailed,Nosensewasstung。
Butthediseaseoffeelinggermed,Andprimalrightnesstookthetinctofwrong;
ErenescienceshallbereaffirmedHowlong,howlong?
NEWYEAR’SEVE
"Ihavefinishedanotheryear,"saidGod,"Ingrey,green,white,andbrown;
Ihavestrewntheleafuponthesod,Sealedupthewormwithintheclod,Andletthelastsundown。"
"Andwhat’sthegoodofit?"Isaid。
"WhatreasonsmadeyoucallFromformlessvoidthisearthwetread,Whennine-and-ninetycanbereadWhynoughtshouldbeatall?
"Yea,Sire;whyshapedyouus,’whoinThistabernaclegroan’-
Ifeverajoybefoundherein,SuchjoynomanhadwishedtowinIfhehadneverknown!"
Thenhe:"Mylabours——logicless-
Youmayexplain;notI:
Sense-sealedIhavewrought,withoutaguessThatIevolvedaConsciousnessToaskforreasonswhy。
"StrangethatephemeralcreatureswhoBymyownorderingare,Shouldseetheshortnessofmyview,UseethictestsIneverknew,Ormadeprovisionfor!"
Hesanktoraptnessasofyore,AndopeningNewYear’sDayWoveitbyroteastheretofore,AndwentonworkingevermoreInhisunweetingway。
1906。
GOD’SEDUCATION
IsawhimstealthelightawayThathauntedinhereye:
ItwentsogentlynonecouldsayMorethanthatitwasthereonedayAndmissingby-and-by。
Iwatchedherlonger,andhestoleHerlilytinctsandrose;
AllheryoungsprightlinessofsoulNextfellbeneathhiscoldcontrol,Anddisappearedlikethose。
Iasked:"Whydoyouserveherso?
Doyou,forsomegladday,Hoardthesehersweets——?"Hesaid,"Ono,Theycharmnotme;IbidTimethrowThemcarelesslyaway。"
SaidI:"Wecallthatcruelty-
We,yourpoormortalkind。"
Hemused。"Thethoughtisnewtome。
Forsooth,thoughImen’smasterbe,Theirsistheteachingmind!"
TOSINCERITY
Osweetsincerity!-
WheremodernmethodsbeWhatscopeforthineandthee?
Lifemaybesadpastsaying,Itsgreensforevergraying,Itsfaithstodustdecaying;
Andyouthmayhaveforeknownit,Andriperseasonsshownit,Butcustomcries:"Disownit:
"Sayyerejoice,thoughgrieving,Believe,whileunbelieving,Behold,withoutperceiving!"-
Yet,wouldmenlookattruethings,Andunilludedviewthings,Andcounttobearunduethings,Therealmightmendtheseeming,Factsbettertheirforedeeming,AndLifeitsdisesteeming。
February1899。
PANTHERA
(Forotherformsofthislegend——firstmetwithinthesecondcentury——seeOrigencontraCelsum;theTalmud;SepherToldothJeschu;quotedfragmentsoflostApocryphalgospels;Strauss,Haeckel;etc。)
Yea,asIsithere,crutched,andcricked,andbent,IthinkofPanthera,whounderwentMuchfrominsidiousachesinhisdecline;
Buthisacheswerenotradicallikemine;
Theywerethetwingesofoldwounds——thefeelOfthehandhehadlost,shornbybarbariansteel,Whichcameback,sohesaid,atachangeintheair,Fingersandall,asifitstillwerethere。
Mypainsareotherwise:upclosingcrampsAndstiffenedtendonsfromthiscountry’sdamps,WherePantherawasnevercommandant-
TheFatessenthimbywayoftheLevant。
Hehadbeenblitheinhisyoungmanhood’stime,Andascenturioncarriedwellhisprime。
InEthiop,Araby,climesfairandfell,Hehadseenserviceandhadbornehimwell。
Noughtshookhimthen:hewassereneasbrave;
Yetlaterknewsomeshocks,andwouldgrowgraveWhenponderingthem;shockslessofcorporalkindThanphantom-like,thatdisarrangedhismind;
Anditwasinthewayofwarningme(Bymuchhisjunior)againstlevityThatherecountedthem;andoneinchiefPantheralovedtosetinboldrelief。
ThiswasatragedyofhisEasterndays,Personalintouch——thoughIhavesometimesthoughtThattouchapossibledelusion——wroughtOfhalf-convictioncarriedtoacraze-
Hismindatlastbeingstressedbyailsandage:-
YethisgoodfaiththereonIwellcouldwage。
IhadsaiditlonghadbeenawishwithmeThatImightleaveascion——somesmalltreeAschannelformysap,ifnotmyname-
Ay,offspringevenofnolegitimateclaim,InwhoseadvanceIsecretlycouldjoy。
Thereathewarned。
"Cancelsuchwishes,boy!
Asonmaybeacomfortoracurse,Aseer,adoer,acoward,afool;yea,worse-
Acriminal……ThatIcouldtestify!"
"Pantherahasnoguiltyson!"criedI
Allunbelieving。"Friend,youdonotknow,"
Hedarklydropt:"True,I’venonenowtoshow,ForTHELAWTOOKHIM。Ay,insooth,Joveshapeditso!"
"Thisnoonisnotunlike,"heagainbegan,"Thenoontheseprickingmemoriesprintonme-
Yea,thatday,whenthesungrewcopper-red,AndIservedinJudaea……’TwasadateOfrestforarms。ThePaxRomanaruled,Tothechagrinoffrontierlegionaries!
Palestinewasannexed——thoughsullenyet,-
I,beinginagesometwo-scoreyearsandtenAndhavingthegarrisoninJerusalemPartinmyhandsasactingofficerUndertheGovernor。AtedioustimeIfoundit,ofroutine,amidafolkRestless,contentless,andirascible-
Quellingsomeriot,sentryingcourtandhall,Sendingmenforthonpublicmeeting-daysTomaintainorder,weremydutiesthere。
"Thencameamorninspring,andthecheerfulsunWhitenedthecityandthehillsaround,Andeverymountain-roadthatclamberedthem,Tincturingthegreynessoftheoliveswarm,Andtherankcactiroundthevalley’ssides。
Thedaywasonewhereondeath-penaltiesWereputinforce,andhereandthereweresetThesoldieryfororder,asIsaid,Sinceoneofthecondemnedhadraisedsomeheat,Andcrowdssurgedpassionatelytoseehimslain。
I,mountedonaCappadocianhorse,Withsomehalf-companyofauxiliaries,HadcaptainedtheprocessionthroughthestreetsWhenitcamestreamingfromthejudgment-hallAftertheverdictsoftheGovernor。
ItdrewtothegreatgateofthenorthernwayThatbearstowardsDamascus;andtoaknollUponthecommon,justbeyondthewalls-
WhencecouldbesweptawidehorizonroundOverthehousetopstotheremotestheights。
Herewasthepublicexecution-groundForcitycrimes,calledthenanddoubtlessnowGolgotha,Kranion,orCalvaria。
"Theusualdoomsweredulymetedout;
Somethreeorfourwerestript,transfixed,andnailed,Andnogreatstiroccurred。AdayofwontItwastome,sofar,andwouldhaveslidCleanfrommymemoryatitssqualidcloseButforanincidentthatfollowedthese。
"Amongthetag-ragrabbleofeithersexThathungaroundthewretchesastheywrithed,Tillthrustbackbyourspears,oneheldmyeye-
Aweepingwoman,whosestrainedcountenance,Sharpenedagainstaloominglividcloud,Wasmockedbythecruderaysofafternoon-
ThemotherofoneofthosewhosufferedthereIhadheardhercalledwhenspokenroughlytoBymyrangedmenforpressingforwardso。
ItstoleuponmeherswasafaceIknew;
Yetwhen,orhow,Ihadknownit,forawhileEludedme。Andthenatonceitcame。
"SomethirtyyearsormorebeforethatnoonIwassub-captainofacompanyDrawnfromthelegionofCalabria,ThatmarchedupfromJudaeanorthtoTyre。
WehadpiercedtheoldflatcountryofJezreel,ThegreatEsdraelonPlainandfighting-floorOfJewwithCanaanite,andwiththehostOfPharaoh-Necho,kingofEgypt,metWhilecrossingtheretostriketheAssyrianpride。
WeleftbehindGilboa;passedbyNain;
TillbulgingTaborrose,embossedtothetopWitharbute,terabinth,andlocustgrowths。
"Encumberingmeweresundrysick,sofallenThroughdrinkingfromaswampbesidetheway;
Butwepressedon,till,bearingoveraridge,Wediptintoaworldofpleasantness-
Avale,thefairestIhadgazedupon-
WhichlappedavillageonitsfurthestslopesCalledNazareth,brimmedroundbyuplandsnigh。
Inthemidstthereofafountainbubbled,where,Lime-dryfrommarching,ourgladhaltwemadeTorestoursickones,andrefreshusall。
"Hereadayonward,towardstheeventide,OurmenwerepipingtoaPyrrhicdanceTrodbytheircomrades,whentheyoungwomencameTofilltheirpitchers,astheircustomwas。
Iprofferedhelptoone——aslimgirl,coyEvenasafawn,meek,andasinnocent。
Herlongbluegown,thestringofsilvercoinsThathungdownbyherbandedbeautifulhair,Symboledinfullimmaculatemodesty。
"Well,Iwasyoung,andhot,andreadilystirredToquickdesire。’TwastedioustimingoutTheconvalescenceofthesoldiery;
AndIbeguiledthelongandemptydaysByblissfulyieldancetohersweetallure,Whohadnoarts,butwhatout-artedall,Thetremuloustendercharmoftrustfulness。
Wemet,andmet,andunderthewinkingstarsThatpassedwhichpeoplesearth——trueunion,yea,Tothepureeyeofhersimplicity。
"Meanwhilethesickfoundhealth;andweprickedon。
Imadehernorashpromiseofreturn,Assomedouse;Iwassincereinthat;
Isaidwesunderednevertomeetagain-
AndyetIspokeuntruthunknowingly!-
Formeetagainwedid。Now,guessyouaught?
TheweepingmotheronCalvariaWassheIhadknown——albeitthattimeandtearsHadwastedrudelyheronceflowerlikeform,Andhersofteyes,nowswollenwithsorrowing。
"ThoughIbetrayedsomequalms,shemarkedmenot;
AndIwasscarceofmoodtocomradeherAndclosethesilenceofsowideatimeToclaimamalefactorasmyson-
(ForsoIguessedhim)。AndinquirymadeBroughtrumourhowatNazarethlongbeforeAnoldmanweddedherforpity’ssakeOnfindingshehadgrownpregnant,noneknewhow,Caredforherchild,andlovedhertillhedied。
"Well;thereitended;savethatthenIlearntThathe——themanwhoseardentbloodwasmine-
HadwakedseditionlongamongtheJews,Andhurledinsultingparlanceattheirgod,Whosetemplebulkedupontheadjoininghill,Vowingthathewouldrazeit,thathimselfWasgodasgreatashewhomtheyadored,Andbydescent,moreover,wastheirking;
Withsundryotherincitementstomisrule。
"Theimpalementsdone,anddonethesoldiers’gameOfrafflingfortheclothes,alegionary,Longinus,piercedtheyoungmanwithhislanceAtsignsfromme,movedbyhisagoniesThroughnaysayingthedrugtheyhadofferedhim。
Itbroughttheend。AndwhenhehadbreathedhislastThewomanwent。Isawherneveragain……
Nowglaresmymoodymeaningonyou,friend?-
ThatwhenyoutalkofoffspringassheerjoySotrustingly,youblinkcontingencies。
ForsFortuna!HewhogoesfatheringGivesfrightfulhostagestohazardry!"
ThusPanthera’stale。’Twasoneheseldomtold,Butyetitgotabroad。Hewouldunfold,Atothertimes,astoryoflessgloom,Thoughhiswasnotaheartwherejestshadroom。
HewouldregretdiscoveryofthetruthWasmadetoolatetoinfluencetoruthTheProcuratorwhohadcondemnedhisson——
Orratherhimsodeemed。FortherewasnoneToprovethatPantheraerrednot:andindeed,WhenvaguenessofidentityIwouldplead,Pantherhimselfwouldsometimesownasmuch-
Yetlothly。But,assumingfactwassuch,ThatthesaidwomandidnotrecognizeHerlover’sface,ismatterforsurprise。
However,there’shistale,fantasyorotherwise。
ThereaftershonenotmenofPanthera’skind:
Theindolentheadsathomewereill-inclinedTopresscampaigningthatwouldhoistthestarOftheirlieutenantsvalorousafar。
Jealousieskepthimirkedabroad,controlledAndstintedbyanEmpirenomorebold。
Yetinsomeactionssouthwardhehadshare-
InMauretaniaandNumidia;thereWitheagleeye,andswordandsteedandspur,Quellinguprisingspromptly。SomesmallstirInParthianextengagedhim,untilmaimed,AsIhavesaid;andcynicTimeproclaimedHisnoblespiritbroken。WhatawasteOfsuchaRoman!——oneinyouth-timegracedWithindescribablecharm,soIhaveheard,Yea,magnetismimpossibletowordWhenfalteringasIsawhim。Whatafame,OSonofSaturn,hadadornedhisname,MighttheThreesohaveurgedThee!——HourbyhourHisowndisordershamperedPanthera’spowerTobrooduponthefateofthosehehadknown,Evenofthatonehealwayscalledhisown-
Eitherinmorbiddreamormemory……
Hediedatnogreatage,untroublously,Anexitrareforardentsoldierssuchashe。
THEUNBORN
Iroseatnight,andvisitedTheCaveoftheUnborn:
AndcrowdingshapessurroundedmeFortidingsofthelifetobe,WholonghadprayedthesilentHeadTohasteitsadventmorn。
Theireyeswerelitwithartlesstrust,Hopethrilledtheireverytone;
"Ascenetheloveliest,isitnot?
Apuredelight,abeauty-spotWhereallisgentle,trueandjust,Anddarknessisunknown?"
Myheartwasanguishedfortheirsake,Icouldnotframeaword;
Andtheydescriedmysunkenface,Andseemedtoreadtherein,andtraceThenewsthatpitywouldnotbreak,Nortruthleaveunaverred。
AndasIsilentlyretiredIturnedandwatchedthemstill,Andtheycamehelter-skelterout,DrivenforwardlikearabbleroutIntotheworldtheyhadsodesiredBytheall-immanentWill。
1905。
THEMANHEKILLED
"HadheandIbutmetBysomeoldancientinn,WeshouldhavesatusdowntowetRightmanyanipperkin!
"Butrangedasinfantry,Andstaringfacetoface,Ishotathimasheatme,Andkilledhiminhisplace。
"Ishothimdeadbecause-
Becausehewasmyfoe,Justso:myfoeofcoursehewas;
That’sclearenough;although"Hethoughthe’d’list,perhaps,Off-handlike——justasI-
Wasoutofwork——hadsoldhistraps-
Nootherreasonwhy。
"Yes;quaintandcuriouswaris!
YoushootafellowdownYou’dtreatifmetwhereanybaris,Orhelptohalf-a-crown。"
1902。
GEOGRAPHICALKNOWLEDGE
(AMEMORYOFCHRISTIANAC-)
WhereBlackmoorwas,theroadthatledToBath,shecouldnotshow,NorpointtheskythatoverspreadTownstenmilesofforso。
ButthatCalcuttastoodthisway,CapeHorntherefiguredfell,ThatherewasBoston,hereBombay,Shecoulddeclarefullwell。
LessknowntoherthetrackathwartFroomMeadorYell’hamWoodThanhowtomakesomeAustralportInseasofsurlymood。
ShesawtheglintofGuinea’sshoreBehindtheplum-treenigh,HeardoldunrulyBiscay’sroarIntheweir’spurlhardby……
"Myson’sasailor,andheknowsAllseasandmanylands,Andwhenhe’shomehepointsandshowsEachcountrywhereitstands。
"He’snowjustthere——byGib’shighrock-
Andwhenhegets,yousee,ToPortsmouthhere,behindtheclock,Thenhe’llcomebacktome!"
ONERALPHBLOSSOMSOLILOQUIZES
("Itbeingdeposedthatvijwomenwhoweremaydsbeforeheknewthemhavebeenbroughtuponthetowne[rates?]bythefornicacionsofoneRalphBlossom,MrMajorinquiredwhyheshouldnotcontributexivpenceweeklytowardtheirmayntenance。ButitbeingshewnthatthesaydR。B。wasdyingofapurplefeaver,noorderwasmade。"——BudmouthBoroughMinutes:16——。)
WhenIaminhellorsomesuchplace,A-groaningovermysorrycase,WhatwillthosesevenwomensaytomeWho,whenIcoaxedthem,answered"Aye"tome?
"Ididnotunderstandyoursign!"
WillbethewordsofCaroline;
WhileJanewillcry,"IfI’dhadproofofyou,Ishouldhavelearnttoholdaloofofyou!"
"Iwon’treproach:itwastobe!"
WilldrylymurmurCicely;
AndRosa:"Ifeelnohostility,ForImustownIlentfacility。"
Lizzysays:"Sharpwasmyregret,Andsometimesitisnow!ButyetIjoythat,thoughitbroughtnotoriousness,IknewLoveonceandallitsgloriousness!"
SaysPatience:"Whyareweapart?
Smallharmdidyou,mypoorSweetHeart!
Amanchildborn,nowtallandbeautiful,Wasworththeacheofdaysundutiful。"
AndAnnecries:"Othetimewasfair,Sowhereforeshouldyouburndownthere?
Thereisadeedunderthesun,myLove,Andthatwasours。What’sdoneisdone,myLove。
ThesetrumpetshereinHeavenaredumbtomeWithyouaway。Dear,come,Ocometome!"
THENOBLELADY’STALE
(circa1790)
I
"Wemovedwithpensivepaces,Iandhe,AndbentourfadedfacesWistfully,Forsomethingtroubledhim,andtroubledme。
"ThelanthornfeeblylightenedOurgreyhall,WhereancientbrandshadbrightenedHearthandwall,Andshapeslongvanishedwhithervanishall。
"’Owhy,Love,nightly,daily,’
Ihadsaid,’Dostsigh,andsmilesopalely,AsifshedWereallLife’sblossoms,allitsdearthingsdead?’
"’Sincesilencesetstheegrieving,’
Hereplied,’AndIabhordeceivingOnesotried,Why,Love,I’llspeak,eretimeustwaindivide。’
"Heheldme,Iremember,JustaswhenOurlifewasJune——(SeptemberItwasthen);
Andwewalkedon,untilhespokeagain。
"’Susie,anIrishmummer,Loud-acclaimedThroughthegayLondonsummer,WasI;namedAmasterinmyart,whowouldbefamed。
"’Butlo,therebeamedbeforemeLadySu;
God’saltar-vowshesworemeWhennoneknew,AndforhersakeIbadethesockadieu。
"’MyLordyourfather’spardonThusIwon:
HelethisheartunhardenTowardshisson,Andhonourablycondonedwhatwehaddone;
"’Butsaid——recallyou,dearest?-
AsforSu,I’dseeher——ay,thoughnearestMeunto-
Soonerentombedthaninastagepurlieu!
"’Justso。——Andherehehousedus,Inthisnook,WhereLovelikebalmhasdrowsedus:
Robin,rook,Ourchieffamiliars,nexttostringandbook。
"’Ourdayshere,peace-enshrouded,FollowedstrangeTheoldstage-joyance,crowded,Richinrange;
Butneverdidmysouldesireachange,"’Tillnow,whenfaruncertainLipsofyoreCall,callmetothecurtain,Thereoncemore,ButONCE,totreadtheboardsItrodbefore。
"’Anight——thelastandsingleEreIdie-
Tofacethelights,tomingleAsdidI
Onceinthegame,andriveteveryeye!’
"’Tosomethingdrear,distressingAstheknellOfallhopesworthpossessing!’……
——WhatbefellSeemedlinkedwithme,buthowIcouldnottell。
"Hourspassed;tillIimploredhim,AsheknewHowfaithandfranknesstowardhimRuledmethrough,TosaywhatillIhaddone,andcouldundo。
"’FAITH——FRANKNESS。Ah!Heavensavesuch!’
Murmuredhe,’Theyareweddedwealth!_I_gavesuchLiberally,Butyou,Dear,not。Foryoususpectedme。’
"IwasaboutbeseechingInhurthasteMoremeaning,whenhe,reachingTomywaist,Ledmetopacethehallasoncewepaced。
"’InevermeanttodrawyouToownall,’
Declaredhe。’But——ISAWyou-
Bythewall,Half-hid。AndthatwaswhyIfailedwithal!’
"’Where?when?’saidI——’Why,nighme,AttheplayThatnight。Thatyoushouldspyme,Doubtmyfay,Andfollow,furtive,tookmyheartaway!’
"ThatIhadneverbeenthere,ButhadgoneTomylockedroom——unseenthere,Curtainsdrawn,Longdaysabiding——toldI,wonder-wan。
"’Nay,’twasyourformandvesture,Cloakandgown,Yourhoodedfeatures——gestureHalfinfrown,Thatfacedme,pale,’heurged,’thatnightintown。
"’Andwhen,outside,IhandedToherchair(AscourtesydemandedOfmethere)
Theleadinglady,youpeepedfromthestair。
"StraightpleadedI:’Forsooth,Love,HadIgone,Imusthavebeenintruth,Love,MadtodonSuchwell-knownraiment。’Buthestillwenton"ThathewasnotmistakenNormisled-
Ifeltlikeoneforsaken,Wishedmedead,Thathecouldthinkthusofthewifehehadwed!
"HisgoingseemedtowastehimLikeacurse,Towreckwhatoncehadgracedhim;
And,averseTomyapproach,hemused,andmoped,andworse。
"Till,whatnowordseffectedThoughtachieved:
ITWASMYWRAITH——projected,Heconceived,Thither,bymytensebrainathomeaggrieved。
"ThereonhiscredencecentredTillhedied;
And,nomoretempted,enteredSanctified,Thelittlevaultwithroomforonebeside。"
III
Thusfarthelady’sstory-
Nowshe,too,ReclineswithinthathoaryLastdarkmewInMellstockQuirewithhimshelovedsotrue。
Ayellowingmarble,placedthereTablet-wise,AndtwojoinedheartsenchasedthereMeettheeyes;
Andreadingtheirtwinnameswemoralize:
Didshe,wewonder,followJealously?
Andwerethoseprotestshollow?-
OrsawheSomesemblantdame?Orcanwraithsreallybe?
Wereitshewent,herhonour,Allmayhold,PressedtruthatlastuponherTillshetold-
(Himonly——othersastheselinesunfold。)
Riddledeath-sealedforever,Letitrest!……
One’sheartcouldblameherneverIfoneguessedThatgoshedid。Sheknewheractorbest。
UNREALIZED
Downcomesthewinterrain-
Spoilsmyhatandbow-
Runsintothepollofme;
Butmotherwon’tknow。
We’vebeenoutandcaughtacold,Knee-deepinsnow;
SuchaluckythingitisThatmotherwon’tknow!
Rosylostherselflastnight-
Couldn’ttellwheretogo。
Yes——itratherfrightenedher,Butmotherdidn’tknow。
SomebodymadeWillydrunkAttheChristmasshow:
O’twasfun!It’swellforhimThatmotherwon’tknow!
Howsoeverwildweare,Lateatschoolorslow,Motherwon’tbecrosswithus,Motherwon’tknow。
Howwecriedthedayshedied!
Neighbourswhisperinglow……
Butwenowdowhatwewill-
Motherwon’tknow。
WAGTAILANDBABY
Ababywatchedaford,wheretoAwagtailcamefordrinking;
Ablaringbullwentwadingthrough,Thewagtailshowednoshrinking。
Astallionsplashedhiswayacross,Thebirdienearlysinking;
Hegavehisplumesatwitchandtoss,Andheldhisownunblinking。
NextsawthebabyroundthespotAmongrelslowlyslinking;
Thewagtailgazed,butfalterednotIndipandsipandprinking。
Aperfectgentlemanthenneared;
Thewagtail,inawinking,Withterrorroseanddisappeared;
Thebabyfella-thinking。
ABERDEEN
(April:1905)
"Andwisdomandknowledgeshallbethestabilityofthytimes。"——Isaiahxxxiii。6。
Ilookedandthought,"AllistoograyandcoldTowakemyplace-enthusiasmsofold!"
Tillavoicepassed:"BehindthatgranitemienLurkstheimposingbeautyofaQueen。"
Ilookedanew;andsawtheradiantformOfHerwhosoothesinstress,whosteersinstorm,OnthegraveinfluenceofwhoseeyessublimeMencountforthestabilityofthetime。
GEORGEMEREDITH
1828-1909
Fortyyearsback,whenmuchhadplaceThatsincehasperishedoutofmind,Iheardthatvoiceandsawthatface。
HespokeasoneafootwillwindAmorninghorneremenawake;
Hisnotewastrenchant,turningkind。
HewasofthosewhosewitcanshakeAndriddletotheverycoreThecounterfeitsthatTimewillbreak……
Oflate,whenwetwometoncemore,TheluminouscountenanceandrareShonejustasfortyyearsbefore。
Sothat,whennowalltonguesdeclareHisshapeunseenbyhisgreenhill,Iscarcebelievehesitsnotthere。
Nomatter。FurtherandfurtherstillThroughtheworld’svaporousvitiateairHiswordswingon——aslivewordswill。
May1909。
YELL’HAM-WOOD’SSTORY
Coomb-FirtreessaythatLifeisamoan,AndClyffe-hillClumpsays"Yea!"
ButYell’hamsaysathingofitsown:
It’snot"Gray,grayIsLifealway!"
ThatYell’hamsays,NorthatLifeisforendsunknown。
ItsaysthatLifewouldsignifyAthwartedpurposing:
Thatwecometolive,andarecalledtodie,Yes,that’sthethingInfall,inspring,ThatYell’hamsays:-
"Lifeoffers——todeny!"
1902。
AYOUNGMAN’SEPIGRAMONEXISTENCE
Asenselessschool,wherewemustgiveOurlivesthatwemaylearntolive!
AdoltishewhomemorizesLessonsthatleavenotimeforprizes。
16W。P。V。,1866。