Iamanxiouslyawaitingtheresults。Iamhopingthattheboysandgirlswhocomeoutincase-lotsfromthesehugeschoolplantswillnotberowsoflithographedcansontheshelvesoflife。Iamhopingtheywillnotbeshornoftheirindividuality,butwillhaveitstimulatedandunfettered。Iamanxiousthattheybenotveneeredbutinspired,notdenaturedbutdiscovered。
Allthisschoolmachineryisonlymachinery。Backofitmustbemen——greatmen。Iamanxiousthatthemodernschoolhavethemodernequipmentdemandedtoservethepresentage。ButIammoreanxiousthateachstudentcomeinvitaltouchwithgreatmen。Wegetlifefromlife,notfromlaboratories,andwehavelifemoreabundantlyasourlivestouchgreaterlives。
Aschoolisvastlymorethanmachinery,methods,microscopesandmillions。
Manyasmallschoolstrugglingtolivethinksthatallitneedsisendowment,whenthefactisthatitsstruggleforexistenceandthespiritofitsteachersareitsgreatestendowment。Andsometimeswhenthemoneyendowmentcomesthespiritualendowmentgoesinfattydegeneration。Someschoolsseemtohavebeenvisitedbycalamitiesinthefinancialprosperitythathasengulfedthem。
Canwekeepmenbeforemillions,andkeepouridealsuntaintedbyfoundations?Thatisthequestiontheageisasking。
YouandIareverymuchinterestedintheanswer。
ChapterVII
TheSalvationofa"Sucker"
TheFiddleandtheTuningHOWlongittakestolearnthings!IthinkIwasthirty-fouryearslearningonesentence,"Youcan’tgetsomethingfornothing。"I
havenotyetlearnedit。EveryfewdaysIstumbleoveritsomewhere。
Forthatsentenceuttersoneofthefundamentalsoflifethatunderlieseveryfieldofactivity。
Whatisknowing?
Onedayamanufacturertookmethruhisfactorywherehemakesfiddles。Notviolins——fiddles。
Aviolinisonlyafiddlewithacollegeeducation。
IhavehadthefeelingeversincethatyouandIcomeintothisworldlikethefiddlecomesfromthefactory。Wehaveabodyandaneck。Thatisaboutallthereiseithertousortothefiddle。Weareempty。Wehavenostrings。Wehavenobow——yet!
Whenthehumanfiddlesareaboutsixyearsoldtheygointotheprimaryschoolsandupthruthegrammargrades,andgetthefirststring——thelittleEstring。Thetroubleissomanyofthesehumanfiddlesthinktheyareanorchestrarightaway。Theywanttoquitschoolandgofiddlingthrulifeonthisonestring!
Wemustshowtheselittlefiddlestheymustgobackintoschoolandgoupthruallthedepartmentsandinstitutionsnecessarytogivethemthefullcomplementofstringsfortheirlifesymphonies。
Afterallthistherecomesthecommencement,andtheviolincomesforthwiththeE,A,DandGstringsallinplace。Educatednow?
Whyisaviolin?Towearstrings?Gussiegotthatfarandgavealotofdiscord。Theviolinistogivemusic。
Sothereismuchyettodoaftergettingthestrings。Allthebookandcollegecandoistogivethestrings——thetools。Afterthattheviolinmustgointothegreattuningschooloflife。Herethepegsareturnedandthestringsareputintune。Themusicistheknowing。Learningistuning。
Youdonotknowwhatyouhavememorized,youknowwhatyouhavevitalized,whatyouhavewritteninthebookofexperience。
Gussiesays,"Ihavereaditinabook。"BillWhackemsays,"I
know!"
ReadingandKnowingAllofusareChristopherColumbuses,discoveringthesamenew-oldcontinentsofTruth。Thatisthetruehappinessoflife——discoveringTruth。Wereadthingsinabookandhaveahazyideaofthem。Wehearthepreacheruttertruthsandwesaywithlittlefeeling,"Yes,thatisso。"Wehearthegreattruthsoflifeoverandoverandwearenotexcited。Truthneverexcites——itisfalsehoodthatexcites——untilwediscoveritinourlives。Untilweseeitwithourowneyes。Thenthereisathrill。Thentheoldtruthbecomesanewblessing。Thentheoldest,driestplatitudecrystallizesintoaflashingjeweltodelightandenrichourconsciousness。Thisjoyofdiscoveryisthejoyofliving。
Thereissuchadifferencebetweenreadingathingandknowingathing。Wecouldreadathousanddescriptionsofthesunandnotknowthesunasinoneglimpseofitwithourowneyes。
Iusedtostandintherowofblessedlittlerascalsinthe"deestrick"schoolandreadfromMcGuffey’scelebratedliterature,"If——I-p-p-play——with——the——f-f-f-i-i-i-i-r-r-e——I——will——g-e-e-et——my-y-y-y-y——f-f-f-f——ingers——bur-r-r-rned——period!"
Ididnotlearnit。IwishIhadlearnedbyreadingitthatifI
playwiththefireIwillgetmyfingersburned。Ihadtoslapmyhandsuponhotstovesandcoffee-pots,andhadtogetmanykindsofblistersinordertolearnit。
ThenIhadtogoaroundshowingtheblisters,boringmyfriendsandtakingupacollectionofsympathy。"Lookatmybadluck!"Fool!
Thisisnotalecture。Itisaconfession!ItseemstomeifyouintheaudienceknewhowlittleIknow,youwouldn’tstay。
"YouCan’tGetSomethingforNothing"
Yes,Iwasthirty-fouryearslearningthatonesentence。"Youcan’tgetsomethingfornothing。"Thatis,gettingitinpartialtune。IttookmesolongbecauseIwasnaturallybright。Ittakesthatkindlongerthanahumanbeing。Theyaresosmartyoucannotteachthemwithafewbumps。Theyhavetobepulverized。
ThatsentencetakesmebacktothedayswhenIwasa"hiredman"onthefarm。YoumightnotthinkIhadeverbeena"hiredman"onthefarmattendollarsamonthand"washed,mendedandfound。"Youseemehereonthisplatforminmygracefulandculturedmanner,andyoumightnotbelievethatIhadevertrainedanorphancalftodrinkfromacopperkettle。ButIhavefedhimthefingersofthishandmanyatime。YoumightnotthinkthatIhadeverdrivenayokeofoxenandhadsaidthewords。ButIhave!
IrememberthefirstcountyfairIeverattended。Fellowsufferers,youmayrememberthatatthecountyfairallthepeoplesortouttotheirowndepartments。Somepeoplegotothecannedfruitdepartment。Somegotothefancyworkdepartment。Somegototheswinedepartment。Everybodygoestohisowndepartment。Eventhe"suckers"!Didyouevernoticewheretheygo?ThatiswhereI
went——tothe"trimmingdepartment。"
Iwasinthe"trimmingdepartment"infiveminutes。Nobodytoldmewhereitwas。Ididn’tneedtobetold。Igravitatedthere。Thebarrelalwaysshakesallofonesizetooneplace。Younoticethat——inacityallofonesizegettogether。
Rightattheentrancetothe"localMidway"Imetagentleman。I
knowhewasagentlemanbecausehesaidhewasagentleman。Hehadalittlelighttablehecouldmovequickly。Whenevertheclimatebecametoosultryhewouldmovetogreenerpastures。Onthattablewerethreelittleshellsinarow,andtherewasalittlepeaunderthemiddleshell。Isawitthere,beingnaturallybright。Iwastheonlynaturallybrightpersonaroundthetable,hencetheonlyonewhoknewunderwhichshellthelittleroundpeawashidden。
Eventhegentlemanrunningthegamewasfooled。Hethoughtitwasundertheendshellandbetmemoneyitwasundertheendshell。
Yousee,thiswasnotgambling,thiswasasurething。(Itwas!)
Ihadsavedupmymoneyforweekstoattendthefair。Ibetitallonthatmiddleshell。Ifeltbad。Itseemedlikerobbingfather。
Andheseemedlikearealniceoldgentleman,andmaybehehadafamilytokeep。ButIwouldteachhimalessonnotto"monkey"withpeoplelikeme,naturallybright。
ButIneedn’thavefeltbad。Ididnotrobfather。FathercleanedmeoutofallIhadinaboutfiveseconds。
Iwentovertotheothersideofthefairgroundsandsatdown。ThatwasallIhadtodonow——justgo,sitdown。Icouldn’tseethemermaidnoworgetintothegrandstand。
SadlyIthoughtitallover,butIdidnotgettherightanswer。
Isaidthethingeveryfooldoessaywhenhegetsbumpedandfailstolearnthelessonfromthebump。Isaid,"NexttimeIshallbemorecareful。"
Whenanybodysaysthatheisdueforareturndate。
IBoughttheSoapLearn?No!WithinamonthIwasonthestreetaSaturdaynightwhenanothergentlemandroveintotown。Hestoppedonthepublicsquareandstoodupinhisbuggy。"Lettheprominentcitizensgatheraroundme,forIamgoingtogiveawaydollars。"
Immediatelyalltheprominent"suckers"crowdedaroundthebuggy。
"Gentlemen,Iamintroducingthisnewmedicinalsoapthatcuresalldiseaseshumanityisheirto。Nowjusttointroduceandadvertise,IamputtingthesecakesofWonderSoapinmyhat。YouseeIamwrappingaten-dollarbillaroundonecakeandthrowingitintothehat。Nowwhowillgivemefivedollarsfortheprivilegeoftakingacakeofthiswonderfulsoapfrommyhat——anycakeyouwant,gentlemen!"
Andrightontopofthepilewasthecakewiththetenwrappedaroundit!Ijumpedovertheresttoshovemyfive(twoweeks’farmwork)inhishandsandgrabthatbillcake。Butthebilldisappeared。Ineverknewwhereitwent。Themanwhippeduphishorseandalsodisappeared。Ineverknewwherehewent。
My"FoolDrawer"
IgrewolderandpeoplebegantonoticethatIwasnaturallybrightandthereforegoodpicking。Theybegantoletmeinonthegroundfloor。Didanybodyeverletyouinonthegroundfloor?Inevercouldstick。WheneveranybodyletmeinonthegroundflooritseemedlikeIwouldalwaysslideonthruandlandinthecellar。
IusedtohaveadrawerinmydeskIcalledmy"fooldrawer。"I
keptmyinvestmentsinit。Imean,theinvestmentsIdidnothavetolockup。Yougetthepathosofthat——theinvestmentsnobodywantedtosteal。AndwheneverIwouldgetundulyinflatedIwouldopenthatdrawerand"viewtheremains。"
IhadinthatdrawerthedeedtomyOklahomacorner-lots。Thoselotsweregoingtodoublenextweek。ButtheydidnotdoubleI
doubled。TheystillexistontheblueprintandtheOklahomametropolisonpaperisyetawideplaceintheroad。
Ihadinthatdrawermydeedtomyrubberplantation。DidyoueverhearofarubberplantationinCentralAmerica?Thatwasmine。
Ihadtheremyoilpropositions。Whatadifference,Ihavelearned,betweenanoilpropositionandanoilwell!Thelearninghasbeenveryexpensive。
IusedtowonderhowIevercouldspendmyincome。Idonotwondernow。
IwonderhowIwillmakeit。
Ihadinthatdrawermy"Everglade"farm。Didyoueverhearofthe"Everglades"?Ihaveanalligatorranchthere。Itisbelowthefrost-line,alsobelowthewater-line。Iwillsellitbythegallon。
Ihadalsoabaleofminingstock。Ihadstockingoldminesandsilvermines。NobodyknowshowmuchminingstockIhaveowned。
NobodycouldknowwhileIkeptthatdrawershut。AsIlookedovermygoldandsilverminestock,Ioftennoticedthatitwasprintedingreen。Iusedtowonderwhytheyprinteditingreen——wonderiftheywantedittoharmonizewithme!AndIwouldrealizeIhadsomuchtolivefor——thedividends。IhavebeensonearthedividendsIcouldsmellthem。Onlyonemoreassessment,thenwewillcutthemelon!Ihaveheardthatallmylifeandnevergotapieceoftherind。
Getting"Selected"
Whygofarther?Iamnothalfdoneconfessing。Eachbumponlyincreasedmyfaiththatthenextshipwouldbemine。Good,honest,retiredministerswouldcomeperiodicallyandsellmestockinsomenewenterprisethathadmillionsinit——initsprospectus。IwouldbuybecauseIknewtheministerwashonestandbelievedinit。Hewassellingitonhisreputation。Favoritedodgeofthepromotertogettheministerstosellhisshares。
IwasalsogreatlyinterestedincompanieswhereIputinonedollarandgotbackadollarortwoofbondsandadollarortwoofstock。Thatwasdoublingandtreblingmymoneyovernight。Anoldbankeroncesaidtome,"Whydon’tyouinvestinsomethingthatwillpayyoufiveorsixpercent。andgetit?"
Ipitiedhislackofvision。Bankersweresuch"tightwads。"Theyhadnoimagination!Nothinginterestedmethatdidnotofferfiftyorahundredpercent。——then。Givemethefivepercent。now!
BythetimeIwasthirty-fourIwasarichmaninworthlesspaper。
ItwouldhavebeenbetterformeifIhadthrownaboutallmysavingsintothebottomofthesea。
ThenIgotaconfidentialletterfromafriendofourfamilyIhadnevermet。HisnamewasThomasA。Cleage,andhewasintheRialtoBuilding,St。Louis,Missouri。Hewrotemeinextremeconfidence,"Youhavebeenselected。"
Wereyoueverselected?Ifyouwere,thenyouknowthethrillthatrentmymanlybosomasIreadthatletterfromthismanwhosaidhewasafriendofourfamily。"Youhavebeenselectedbecauseyouareaprominentcitizenandhavealargeinfluenceinyourcommunity。
Youareanaturalleaderandeverybodylooksuptoyou。"
Heknewme!Hewastheonlymanwhodidknowme。SoItookthecorkclearunder。
"Becauseofyourtremendousinfluenceyouhavebeenselectedtogoinwithusintheinnercircleandgetathousandpercent。
dividends。"
Didyougetthat?Ihopeyoudid。Ididnot!ButItookanighttrainforSt。Louis。IwasafraidsomebodymightbeatmethereifIwaitedtillnextday。IsatupallnightinadaycoachtosavemoneyforTom,thefriendofourfamily。ButIseenowIneednothavehurriedso。Theywouldhavewaitedamonthwiththesheep-shearsready。Lambie,lambie,lambie,cometoSt。Louis!
Idon’tgetanysympathyfromthiscrowd。Youlaughatme。Yourespectnotmyfeelings。IamnotgoingtotellyouathingthathappenedinSt。Louis。Itisnoneofyourbusiness!
O,IamsogladIwenttoSt。Louis。Beingnaturallybright,I
couldnotlearnitathome,backinOhio。IhadtogocleardowntoSt。LouistoTomCleage’sbucket-shopandpayhimelevenhundreddollarstocornerthewheatmarketoftheworld。ThatisallIpaidhim。Icouldnotborrowanymore。Ijoinedwhathecalleda"pool。"
Ithinkitmusthavebeenapool,forIknowIfellinandgotsoaked!
Thatbumpsetmetothinking。Myfeverbegantoreduce。Igotthethirty-thirddegreeinfinancialsuckerdomforonlyelevenhundreddollars。
IhavealwaysregardedTomasoneofmygreatschoolteachers。I
havealwaysregardedtheelevenhundredasthefinestinvestmentI
hadmadeuptothattime,forIgotthemostoutofit。Idonotfeelhardtowardgoldbrickmenand"bluesky"venders。Isometimesfeelthatweshouldendowthem。Howelsecanwesaveasucker?Youcannottellhimanything,becauseheisnaturallybrightandknowsbetter。Yousimplyhavetotrimhimtillhebleeds。
IAmCuredItisworthelevenhundreddollarseverydaytoknowthatonesentence,Youcannotgetsomethingfornothing。Lifejustbeginstogetjuicywhenyouknowit。TodaywhenIopenanewspaperandseeabigad,"GraspaFortuneNow!"Iwillnotdoit!Istopmysubscriptiontothatpaper。Isimplywillnottakeapaperwiththatadinit,forIhavegraduatedfromthatclass。
Iwillnotgraspafortunenow。Tryme,Idareyou!Bringafortunerightuponthisplatformandputitdownthereonthefloor。Iwillnotgraspit。Comeaway,itisacoffee-pot!
TodaywhensomebodyoffersmemuchmorethanthelegalrateofinterestIknowheisnofriendofourfamily。
Ifheoffersmeahundredpercent。Icallforthepolice!
TodaywhenIgetaconfidentialletterthatstartsout,"Youhavebeenselected——"Ineverreadfartherthantheword"selected。"
Meetingisadjourned。Iselectthewaste-basket。Here,getintherejustasquickasyoucan。Iwasselected!
O,Absalom,Absalom,myson,myson!Learnitearlyinlife。Thelawofcompensationisneversuspended。Youonlyownwhatyouearn。
Youcan’tgetsomethingfornothing。Ifyoudonotlearnit,youwillhavetobe"selected。"Thereisnootherwayforyou,becauseyouarenaturallybright。Whenyougetaletter,"Youhavebeenselectedtoreceiveathousandpercent。dividends,"itmeansyouhavebeenselectedtoreceivethisbunchofblistersbecauseyoulooklikethebiggestsuckeronthelocallandscape。
Theothernightinalittletownofperhapsathousand,abankertookmeupintohisofficeafterthelectureinwhichIhadrelatedsomeoftheaboveexperiences。"Theaudiencelaughedwithyouandthoughtitveryfunny,"saidhe。"Icouldn’tlaugh。Itwastoopathetic。Itwasapictureofwhatisgoingoninourownlittlecommunityyearafteryear。IwishyoucouldseewhatIhavetosee。
Iwishyoucouldseethethousandsofhard-earneddollarsthatgooutofourcommunityeveryyearintojustsuchwildcatenterprisesasyoudescribed。Thesaddestpartofitisthatthemoneynearlyalwaysgoesoutofthepocketsofthepeoplewhocanleastaffordtoloseit。"
Absalom,wakeup!Thisisbargainnightforyou。Ipaidelevenhundreddollarstotellyouthisonething,andyougetitforadollarortwo。Thisisnocheaplecture。Itcostblood。
Learnthatthegamblerneverownshiswinnings。Themanwhoaccumulatesbysharppracticesorbyundueprofitsneverownsit。
Eventheyoungpersonwhohaslargefortunegivenhimdoesnotownit。Weonlyownwhatwehaverendereddefiniteservicetobound。
Theowningisintheunderstandingofvalues。
Thisistruephysically,mentally,morally。Youonlyownwhatyouhaveearnedandstoredinyourlife,notmerelyinyourpocket,stomachormind。
Ioftenthinkifittakesmethirty-fouryearstobegintolearnonesentence,Iseetheneedofaneternity。
Tomethatisoneofthegreatargumentsforeternallife——howslowlyIlearn,andhowmuchthereistolearn。Itwilltakeaneternity!
ThoseCommencementOrationsTheyoungpersonsays,"BynextJuneIshallhavefinishedmyeducation。"
Blessthemall!Theywillhaveputanotherstringontheirfiddle。
Afterthey"finish"theyhaveacommencement,notanend-ment,astheythink。Thisisnottosneer,buttocheer。Isn’titgloriousthatlifeisoneinfinitesuccessionofcommencementsandpromotions!
Ilovetoattendcommencements。Thestageissobeautifullydecoratedandthejoyofyouthiseverywhere。Thereisarowofgeraniumsalongthefrontofthestageandabigoleanderontheside。Thereisalong-whiskeredruginthemiddle。Thegraduatessitinasemicircleuponthestageintheirnewpatentleather。I
knowhowithurts。Itisthefirsttimetheyhavewornit。
Thentheymaketheirorations。EverytimeIheartheirorationsI
likethembetter,becauseeveryyearIamgettingyounger。DamselNumberOnecomesforthandbegins:
"BeyondtheAlps(sweeparmsforwardtotheleft,leftarmleading)
liethItaly!"(Bringarmsdown,lettingfingersfollowthewrist。
Howembarrassingatacommencementforthefingersnottofollowthewrist!Itisalwaysashocktotheaudiencewhenthewristsweepsdownwardandthefingersremainupintheair。Sobyallmeans,letthefingersfollowthewrist,justastheelocutionteachermarkedonpage69。)
Applause,especiallyfromrelatives。
SweetGirlGraduateNumber2,generallycomessecond。S。G。G。No。
2standsatthesameleadpencilmarkonthefloor,resplendentinafilmycreationcaughtwithsomethingorother。
"We(handsathalf-mastandseparating)arerowing(businessofpropellingaerialboatwithtwofingersofeachhand,headinclined)。Wearenotdrifting(handsslidedownward)。"
Children,wearenotlaughingatyou。Wearelaughingatourselves。
Wearelaughingthehappylaughathowwehavelearnedthesegreattruthsthatyouhavememorized,butnotvitalized。
YougetthemostbeautifulandsublimetruthsfromEmerson’sessays。(HowdidtheyeverhavecommencementsbeforeEmerson?)Butthatisnotknowingthem。Youcannotknowthemuntilyouhavelivedthem。Itisagrandthingtosay,"BeyondtheAlpsliethItaly,"
butyoucanneverreallysaythatuntilyouknowitbystrugglingupoverAlpsofdifficultyandseeingtheItalyofpromiseandvictorybeyond。Itisfinetosay,"Wearerowingandnotdrifting,"
butyoucannotreallysaythatuntilyouhavepulledontheoar。
O,Gussie,getanoar!
MyMaidenSermonDidyoueverhearayoungpreacher,justcaptured,justoutofafactory?
Didyoueverhearhimpreachhis"maidensermon"?Iwishyouhadheardmine。Ihadacall。Atleast,IthoughtIhadacall。IthinknowI
was"short-circuited。"The"brethren"waiteduponmeandtoldmeIhadbeen"selected":Maybethiswasalocalcall,notlongdistance。
Theygavemesixweeksinwhichtoloadthegospelgunandgetreadyformytry-out。Icertainlyloadedittothemuzzle。
ButImadethemistakeIamtryingtowarnyouagainst。InsteadofgoingtotheonebookwhereImighthavegottenasermon——thebookofmyexperience,Iwenttothebooksinmyfather’slibrary。"AsthepoetShakespearehassobeautifullysaid,"andthenItookachunkofShakespeareandnaileditonpagefiveofmysermon。"ListtothepoetTennyson。"Comehere,LordAlfred。SoIsolderedthesefragmentsfromthebookstogetherwithmyownnativegenius。I
workedthatsermonupintothemostbeautifulsplurgesandspasms。
Ibedeckeditwithmetaphorsandsemaphores。Ifilleditwithclimaxes,bothwetanddry。Ihadafinewetclimaxonpagefourteen,whereIhadmadealittlemarkinthemarginwhichmeant"cryhere。"Thiswasthespilling-pointofthewetclimax。Iwastocryonthelefthandsideofthepage。
Icommitteditalltomemory,andthenwenttoaladywhotaughtexpression,togetitexpressed。Youhavetogetitexpressed。
Igotthemostbeautifulgesturesnailedintoalmosteverypage。
Youknowaboutgestures——thesethingsyoumakewithyourarmsintheairasyouspeak。Youcannoticeitonmeyet。
Iamnotsneeringatexpression。Expressionisanobleart。Alllifeisexpression。Butyouhavetogetsomethingtoexpress。HereImademymistake。Igotalotoffinegestures。Igotanexpress-wagonandgotnoloadforit。Soitrattled。Igotanecktie,butfailedtogetanymantohangitupon。Igotupbeforeamirrorforsixweeks,daybyday,andsaidthesermontotheglass。Itgotsoitwouldrunitself。Icouldhavegonetosleepandthatsermonwouldnothavehesitated。
Thencamethegrandday。Theboywonderstoodforthandbeforehislargeandenthusiasticconcoursedeliveredthatmaidensermonmoregrandlythanevertoamirror。Everygesturewentoffthebataccordingtotheblueprint。Icriedonpagefourteen!Ineverknewitwasinme。ButIcertainlygotitalloutthatday!
ThenIdidanotherfinething,Isatdown。IwishnowIhaddonethatearlier。IwishnowIhadsatdownbeforeIgotup。Iwasthelastmanoutofthechurch——andIhurried。Buttheybeatmeout——allnineofthem。WhenIwentoutthedoor,theoldsextonsaidashejiggledthekeyinthedoortohurryme,"Don’tfeelbad,bub,I’veheerdworsethanthat。You’reallright,bub,butyoudon’tknownothin’yet。"
Icriedallthewaytotown。Ifhehadplungedadaggerintomehewouldnothavehurtmesomuch。Ithastakensomeyearstolearnthattheoldmanwasright。Ihadwonderfultruthinthatsermon。
Nosermoneverhadgreatertruth,butIhadnotlivedit。TheoldmanmeantIdidnotknowmyownsermon。
So,children,whenyouprepareyourcommencementoration,writeaboutwhatyouknowbest,whatyouhavelived。Ifyouknowmoreaboutpeelingpotatoesthanaboutanythingelse,writeabout"PeelingPotatoes,"andyouaremostlikelytoheartheapplausepealfromthatpartofyouraudienceunrelatedtoyou。
Outofeverythousandbookspublished,perhapsninehundredofthemdonotsellenoughtopaythecostofprintingthem。Asyoustudythebooksthatdolive,younotethattheyarethebooksthathavebeenlived。Perhapsthebooksthatfailhavejustasmuchoftruthinthemandtheymayevenbebetterwritten,yettheylackthevitalimpulse。Theycomeoutoftheauthor’shead。Thebooksthatlivemustcomeoutofhisheart。Theyarehisownlife。Theycomesurgingandpulsatingfromthebookofhisexperience。
Thebestpartofourschoolingcomesnotfromthebooks,butfromthemenbehindthebooks。
Westudyagriculturefrombooks。Thatdoesnotmakeusanagriculturist。Wemusttakeahoeandgooutandagricult。Thatistheknowinginthedoing。
YouMustLiveYourSong"Therewasneverapicturepainted,Therewasneverapoemsung,Butthesouloftheartistfainted,Andthepoet’sheartwaswrung。"
Somanyyoungpeoplethinkbecausetheyhaveagoodvoiceandtheyhavecultivatedit,theyaresingers。Allthiscultivationandirritationandirrigationandgarglingofthethroataremerelysymptomsofasinger——merelyneckties。Singerslookbetterwithneckties。
Theythinkthesongcomesfromthediaphragm。Butitcomesfromtheheart,chaperonedbythediaphragm。Youcannotsingasongyouhavenotlived。
Jessiewassingingtheotherdayatachautauqua。Shehasabeautifulvoice,andshehasbeenawayto"Ber-leen"tohaveitattendedto。Shesangthatafternooninthetent,"TheLastRoseofSummer。"Shesangitwitheverynotesowellplaced,withthesweetestlittletrillsandtendrils,withthesmileexactlylikeherteacherhadtaughther。Jessieexhibitedallthemachineryandtrimmingsforthesong,butshehadnosteam,nosong。Shesangthenotes。Shemightaswellhavesung,"Pop,GoestheWeasel。"
TheaudiencepolitelyenduredJessie。Thatnightawomansanginthesametent"TheLastRoseofSummer。"ShehadneverbeentoBerlin,butshehadlivedthatsong。Shedidn’tdressthenoteshalfsobeautifullyasJessiedid,butshesangitwiththetremendousfeelingitdemands。Theaudiencewentwild。ItwasacaseofGussieandBillWhackem。
AllthiswasgallandwormwoodtoJessie。"Child,"Isaidtoher,"thisisthebestsinginglessonyouhaveeverhad。Yourstudyisallrightandyouhaveabettervoicethanthatwoman,butyoucannotsing"TheLastRoseofSummer"yet,foryoudonotknowverymuchaboutthefirstroseofsummer。Andreally,Ihopeyou’llneverknowtheacheanddisappointmentyoumustknowbeforeyoucansingthatsong,foritisthesobofabroken-heartedwoman。Learntosingthesongsyouhavelived。"
Whydosingerstrytoexecutesongsbeyondthehorizonoftheirlives?Thatiswhythey"execute"them。
TheSuccessofaSong-WriterTheguestofhonoratadinnerinaChicagoclubwasawomanwhoisoneofthewidelyknownsong-writersofthisland。AsIhadthegoodfortunetobesittingattablewithherIwantedtoaskher,"Howdidyougetyoursongsknown?Howdidyouknowwhatkindofsongsthepeoplewanttosing?"
ButinthehourshetalkedwithherfriendsaroundthetableI
foundtheanswertoeveryquestion。"Isn’titgoodtobehere?
Isn’titgreattohavefriendsandafinehomeandmoney?"shesaid。"Ihavehadsuchastruggleinmylife。Ihavelivedononemealadayanddidn’tknowwherethenextmealwascomingfrom。I
knowwhatitistobeleftaloneintheworlduponmyownresources。Ihavehadyearsofstruggle。Ihavebeensickanddiscouragedanddownandout。Itwasinmylittleback-room,theonlyhomeIhad,thatIbegantowritesongs。Iwrotethemformyownrelief。Iwaswritingmyownlife,justwhatwasinmyownheartandwhatthestruggleswereteachingme。Nooneismoresurprisedandgratefulthattheworldseemstolovemysongsandasksformoreofthem。"
ThewomanwasCarrieJacobs-Bond,whowrote"ThePerfectDay,"
"JustaWearyin’forYou,""HisLullaby"andmanymoreofthosesimplelittlesongssofullofthepathosandphilosophyoflifethattheytugatyourheartandmoistenyoureyes。
Anybodycouldwritethosesongs——justafewsimplewordsandnotes。
No。Booksoftheoryandharmonyandexpressiononlyteachushowtowritethewordsandwheretoplacethenotes。Thesearenotthesong,butonlytheskeletonintowhichourownlifemustbreathethelifeofthesong。
Thewomanwhosattherecladinblack,withhersweet,expressivefacecrownedwithsilveryhair,hadlearnedtowritehersongsintheUniversityofHardKnocks。Sheherebecamethesongphilosophersheistoday。Herdefeatswerehervictories。IfCarrieJacobs-Bondhadneverstruggledwithdiscouragement,sickness,povertyandloneliness,sheneverwouldhavebeenabletowritethesongsthatappealtothemultitudeswhohavethesamebattles。
Thepopularsongisthesongthatbestvoiceswhatisinthepopularheart。Andwhilewehaveacontinualinundationofpopularsongsthataretrashyandvoicethetawdriesthumanimpulses,yetitisatributetothegoodelementsinhumanitythatthewholesome,upliftingsentimentsinCarrieJacobs-Bond’ssongscontinuetoholdtheirpopularity。
TheoryandPracticeMyfriends,IamnotarguingthatyouandImustdrinkthedregsofdefeat,orthatourlivesmustfillupwithpovertyorsorrow,orbecomewrecks。ButIaminsistinguponwhatIseewrittenallaroundmeintheaffairsofeverydaylife,thatnoneofuswilleverknowrealsuccessinanylineofhumanendeavoruntilthatsuccessflowsfromthefullnessofourexperiencejustasthesongscamefromthelifeofCarrieJacobs-Bond。
Theworldisfulloftheorists,dreamers,uplifters,reformers,whohaveworthyvisionsbutarenotabletotranslatethemintopracticalrealities。Theygoaroundwiththeirheadsintheclouds,lookingupward,andhalfthetimetheirfeetareintheflower-bedsortramplingupontheirfellowmentheydreamofhelping。Theirideasmustbeforgedintousefulnessavailableforthisdayupontheanvilofexperience。
Manyofthemostbrillianttheoristshavebeenthegreatestfailuresinpractice。
Thereareathousandwhocantellyouwhatisthematterwiththingstoonepersonwhocangiveyouapracticalwaytofixthem。
Iusedtohaverespectamountingtoreverenceforgreatreadersandbookmen。Iusedtoknowamanwhocouldtellinwhatbookalmostanythingyoucouldthinkofwasdiscussed,andperhapsthepage。Hewasawalkinglibraryindex。Ithoughthimamostwonderfulman。
Indeed,inmychildhoodIthoughthewasthegreatestmanintheworld。
Hewasaremarkableman——agreatreaderandwithamemorythatretaineditall。Thatmancouldrecitechaptersandvolumes。
Hecouldgiveyoualmostanydate。Hecouldfinishalmostanyquotation。
Hisconversationwaslargelymadeupofclassicalquotations。
ButhewasoneofthemosthelplessmenIhaveeverseeninpracticallife。Heseemedtobeunabletothinkandreasonforhimself。HecouldquoteapageofJohnLocke,butsomehowthepagedidn’tsupplytheonesentenceneededfortheoccasion。Themanwasamisfitonearth。Hewasliabletoputthegravyinhiscoffeeandthegasolineinthefire。Heseemednevertohavedigestedanyofthethingsinhismemory。SinceIhavegrownupIalwaysthinkofthatmanasanintellectualcoldstorageplant。
ThegreatestbookisthetextbookoftheUniversityofHardKnocks,theBookofHumanExperiencethe"sermonsinstones"andthe"booksinrunningbrooks。"Mostfortunateishewhohaslearnedtoreadunderstandinglyfromit。
Notethesweeping,positivestatementsoftheyoungperson。
Notethecautious,specificstatementsofthepersonwhohaslivedlonginthisworld。
Oureducationisourprogressfromthesweeping,positive,wholesalestatementswehavenotproved,tothecautious,specificstatementswehaveproved。
TuningtheStringsofLifeManyaudiencesaregatheredintothisoneaudience。Eachpersonhereisadifferentaudience,readingadifferentpageintheBookofHumanExperience。Eachhasadifferentfighttomakeandadifferentburdentocarry。Eachoneofushasmoretroublethananybodyelse!
Iknowtherearechaptersofheroisminthelivesofyouolderones。Youhavecriedyourselvestosleep,someofyou,andwalkedthefloorwhenyoucouldnotsleep。Youhavelearnedthat"beyondtheAlpsliethItaly。"
Agoodmanyofyouwerebumpedtodayoryesterday,ormaybeyearsago,andthewoundhasnothealed。Youthinkitneverwillheal。
Youcameherethinkingthatperhapsyouwouldforgetyourtroubleforalittlewhile。Iknowtherearepeopleinthisaudienceinpain。
Neverdothismanygatherbutwhattherearesomewithachinghearts。
AndyouyoungpeopleherewithliveslikeJunemornings,arenotmuchinterestedinthislecture。Youarepoliteandattentivebecausethisisapoliteandattentiveneighborhood。Butdowninyourheartsyouareasking,"Whatisthisallabout?Whatisthatmantalkingabout?Ihaven’thadthesethingsandI’mnotgoingtohavethem,either!"
Maybesomeofyouarenaturallybright!
Youaregoingtobebumped。Youaregoingtocryyourselvestosleep。Youaregoingtowalkthefloorwhenyoucannotsleep。Someofyouaregoingtoknowthekeensorrowofhavingtheoneyoutrustmostbetrayyou。Maybe,betrayyouwithakiss。YouwillgothroughyourGethsemane。Youwillseeyourdearestplanswrecked。
Youwillseeallthatseemstomakelifelivablelostoutofyourhorizon。Youwillsay,"God,letmedie。Ihavenothingmoretolivefor。"
Forallliveshaveaboutthesameelements。Yourlifeisgoingtobeaboutlikeotherlives。
Andyouaregoingtolearnthewonderfullessonthrutheyears,thebumpsandthetears,thatallthesethingssomehowarenecessarytopromoteoureducation。
Thesebumpsandhardknocksdonotbreakthefiddle——theyturnthepegs。
ThesebumpsandtragediesandWaterloosdrawthestringsofthesoultighterandtighter,nearerandnearertoGod’sgreatconcertpitch,wherethediscordsfadefromourlivesandwherethemusicdivineandharmoniescelestialcomefromthesameoldstringsthathadbeensendingforththenoiseanddiscord。
Thusweknowthatoureducationisprogressing,astheevilandunworthygooutofourlivesandaspeace,harmony,happiness,loveandunderstandingcomeintoourlives。
Thatisgettingintune。
Thatisgrowingup。
ChapterVIII
LookingBackwardMemoriesofthePriceWePayWHATapricewepayforwhatweknow!IlaughasIlookbackward——andweepandrejoice。
Iwasnotbornwithasilverspooninmymouth,althoitisquiteevidentthatIcouldhavehandledaprettygood-sizedspoon。Butfatherbeingacountrypreacher,wehadtinspoons。Weneverhadtotiearedstringaroundourspoonswhenweloanedthemfortheladies’aidsocietyoystersupper。Wealwaysgotourspoonsback。
Nobodyevertradedwithusbymistake。
Doyourememberthefirstmoneyyoueverearned?Ido。Iwalkedseveralmilesintothecountrythoseoldreaperdaysandgatheredsheaves。ThatnightIwasproudwhenthatfarmerpattedmeontheheadandsaid,"Youarethebestboytowork,Ieversaw。"Thenthecheerfuloldmiserputanickelinmyblisteredhand。ThatnickellookedbiggerthananymoneyIhavesincehandled。
That"LastDayofSchool"
YetIwasyearslearningitismucheasiertomakemoneythantohandleit,hencethetalethatfollows。
Iwassixteenyearsoldandaschoolteacher。Sweetsixteen——whichmeansgreensixteen。Butrememberagain,onlygreenthingsgrow。
Thereishopeforgreenthings。Iwassotallandawkwardthen——I
haven’tchangedmuchsince。Ikeptstillaboutmyage。Iwasseveraldollarsthelowestbidder。Theysaidoutthatway,"Anybodycanteachkids。"ThatiswhyIwasateacher。
Ihadneverstudiedpedagogy,butIhadwhittledoutthreerulesthatIthoughtwouldmakeitgo。Myfirstrulewas,Make’emstudy。
Mysecond,Make,emrecite。Thatis,fill’emupandthenempty’em。
Mythirdandmostimportantrulewas,Getyourmoney!
Iwalkedthirteenmilesaday,sixandahalfmileseachway,mostofthetime,tosavemoney。IthinkIhadallteachingmethodsinuse。
WiththesmallfryIusedasmallpaddletowintheirconfidenceandarousetheirenthusiasmforaneducation。WiththepupilslargerandmoremuscularthantheirteacherIusedloveandmoralsuasion。
Weendedtheschoolwithan"exhibition。"Didyoueverattendtheoldback-country"lastdayofschoolexhibition"?Thepeoplethatdaycamefromalloverthetownship。Theyweresogladourschoolwasclosingtheyallturnedouttomakeitasuccess。Theybroughtgreatbasketsofprovenderandwehadafeast。Wecoveredtheschooldeskswithboards,andthencoveredtheboardswithpilesoffriedchicken,doughnutsandfortykindsofpie。
Thenwehada"doings。"Everybodydidastunt。Weexecutedalotofliteraturethatday。ExecuteisthewordthattellswhathappenedtoliteratureinDistrictNo。1,JacksonTownship,thatday。Icanshutmyeyesandseeityet。Icanseemypupilscomingforwardtospeaktheir"pieces。"Ihardlyknewthemandtheyhardlyknewme,forwewere"dressedup。"Manyaheadshowedfatherhadmoweditwiththesheepshears。Motherhadbeenbusywiththewash-rag——clearbackoftheears!Andintothem!Somanyofthemworecollarsthatstuckoutallstiffliketheyhadpushedtheirheadsonthrutheirbigstrawhats。
Icanseethemspeakingtheir"pieces。"Icansee"TheSoldieroftheLegionlaydyinginAlgiers。"Wehadhimdieagainthatday,andhehadalingeringendasweexecutedhim。Icansee"Theboystoodontheburningdeck,whenceallbuthehadfled。"Icansee"Mary’slittlelamb"comeslippingoverthestage。Iseethetow-headedpatriotin"Givemelibertyorgivemedeath。"IfeelnowthatifPatrickHenryhadbeenpresent,hewouldhavesaid,"Givemedeath。"
Therecameabreathlesshushas"teacher"cameforwardasthelastactonthebilltosayfarewell。Itwascustomarytocry。Iwantedtoyell。TomorrowIwouldgetmymoney!IhadaspeechIhadbeensayingoverandoveruntilitwouldsayitself。ButsomehowwhenI
gotupbeforethat"lastdayofschool"audienceandopenedmymouth,itwasagreatopening,butnothingcameout。Itcameoutofmyeyes。TearsrolleddownmycheeksuntilIcouldhearthemspatteronmysix-dollarsuit。
Andmypupilsweptastheirdearteachersaidfarewell。Parentswept。Itwasatearytime。Ionlysaid,"Weepnotforme,dearfriends。Iamgoingaway,butIamcomingback。"Ithoughttocheerthemup,buttheyweptthemore。
NextdayIdrewmymoney。Ihaditallinonejoyouswad——$240。I
wasgoinghomewithheadhighandaircastlesevenhigher。ButI
nevergothomewiththemoney。Talkaboutthefoolandhismoneyandyougetverypersonal。
ForonthewayhomeImetDeaconK,andheborroweditall。DeaconK
was"suchagoodman"anda"pillarofthechurch。"Iusedtowonder,tho,whyhedidn’ttakeapillowtochurch。Itookhisnotefor$240,"dueatcorncutting,"aswetermedthatannualfall-timepayingupseason。Ireallythoughtanotewasnotnecessary,suchwasmyconfidenceinthedeacon。
ForyearsIkeptafaded,tear-spattered,yellownotefor$240,"dueatcorncutting,"asasouvenirofmyfirstschoolteaching。
DeaconKhasgonefromearth。Hehasgonetohiseternalreward。I
scarcelyknowwhethertolookupordownasIsaythat。Heneverleftanyforwardingaddress。
Iwaspaidthousandsinexperienceforthatfirstschoolteaching,butIpaidallthemoneyIgotfromit——twohundredandfortythirteen-mile-a-daydollarstolearnonethingIcouldnotlearnfromthebooks,thatittakeslesswisdomtomakemoney,thanitdoestointelligentlyhandleitafterwards。IncidentallyIlearneditmaybesafertodobusinesswithafirst-classsinnerthanwithasecond-classsaint。
Whichisnoslapatthechurch,butatitsworstenemies,thefoesofitsownhousehold。
CallingtheClass-RollAlyceumbureauoncesentmebacktomyhometowntolecture。I
imaginemostlecturershaveahardtimelecturinginthehometown。
Theirschoolmatesandplaymatesareapttobedownthereinthefrontrowswiththeirfamilies,andmaybealltheoldscoreshavenotyetbeensettled。Theboyhefoughtwithmaybedownthere。
Perhapsthegirlwhogavehimthe"mitten"isthere。
Andhehasgottenhislectureoutofthathometown。Theheroesandvillainslivetherewithinstrikingdistance。Perhapstheyhavecometohearhim。"Isnotthisthecarpenter’sson?"Perhapsthisiswhysomelecturersandauthorsarenotsopopularinthehometownuntilseveralgenerationspass。
Iwentbacktothesamehalltospeak,andstooduponthesameplatformwheretwenty-oneyearsbeforeIhadstoodtodelivermygraduatingoration,wheninimpassionedandwellmodulatedtonesIhadexclaimed,"GreeceisgoneandRomeisnomore,butfe-e-e-e-earnot,forIwillsa-a-a-a-aveyou!"orwordstothateffect。
ThenIwentbacktothelittlehotelandsatupaloneinmyroomhalfthenightlivingitover。TimewaswhenIthoughtanybodywhocouldliveinthathotelwasasuperiororderofbeing。ButthetimehadcomewhenIknewthepersonwhocouldgoonlivinginanyhotelhasasuperiororderofvitality。
Iheldthanksgivingservicesthatnight。Icouldseebetter。Ihadapictureoftheschoolinthattownthathadbeentakentwenty-oneyearsbefore,justbeforecommencement。Ihadnotseenthepicturethesetwenty-oneyears,forIcouldnotthenaffordtobuyone。Thepricewasaquarter。
Igotatruerperspectiveoflifethatnight。Didyoueversitalonewithapictureofyourclassmatestakentwenty-oneyearsbefore?Itisamemorableexperience。
Aclassofbrilliantandgiftedyoungpeoplewentouttotakechargeoftheworld。Theyweresogladtheworldhadwaitedsolongonthem。Theyweresowillingtotakechargeoftheworld。Theyweregoingtobepresidentsandsenatorsandauthorsandauthoressesandscientistsandscientist-essesandgeniusesandgenius-essesandthingslikethat。
Therewasoneboyintheclasswhowasnotnaturallybright。Itwasnottheoneyoumaybethinkingof!No,itwasJimLambert。Hehadnobrilliantcareerinview。Hewasdullandseemedtolackintellect。Hewas"conditioned"intotheseniorclass。WeallfeltalittlesorryforJim。
Ascommencementdayapproached,thecommitteeoftheclassappointedforthatpurposetookJimbackoftheschoolhouseandbrokethenewstohimthattheyweregoingtolethimgraduate,buttheywerenotgoingtolethimspeak,becausehecouldn’tmakeaspeechthatwoulddocredittosuchabrilliantclass。TheyhidJimonthestagebackoftheoleandercommencementnight。
Shakethebarrel!
Thegirlwhowastobecometheauthoressbecamethehelloessinthehometelephoneexchange,andhadbecomeabsolutelyindispensabletothecommunity。Thegirlwhowastobecomethepoetessbecamethegoddessatthegeneraldeliverywindowandsuperintendentofthestamp-lickingdepartmentofthehomepostoffice。TheboywhowasgoingtoConfesswasraisingthebestcorninthecounty,andhiswifewasspeakerofthehouse。
MostofthemweredoingverywellevenJimLambert。JimhadbecometheheadofoneofthebigmanufacturingplantsoftheSouth,withalotofmenworkingforhim。Thecommitteethattookhimoutbehindtheschoolhousetoinformhimhecouldnotspeakatcommencement,wouldnowhavetowaitinlinebeforeafrosteddoormarked,"Mr。Lambert,Private。"Theywouldhavetosenduptheircards,andthewatchdogwhoguardsthedoorwouldtellthem,"Cutitshort,he’sbusy!"beforetheycouldbreakanynewstohimtoday。
TheyhungapictureofMr。Lambertinthehighschoolatthelastalumnimeeting。Theyhungitonthewallnearwheretheoleanderstoodthatnight。
Dullboyorgirl——youwithyoureyestear-dimmedsometimesbecauseyoudonotseemtolearnlikesomeinyourclassescanyounotgetabitofcheerfromthestoryofJim?
Hourspass,andstillasIsatinthathotelroomIwaslostinthatschoolpictureandthetwenty-oneyears。Therewerefifty-fouryoungpeopleinthatpicture。Theyhadbeenshakentheseyearsinthebarrel,andnowasIcalledtherollonthem,mostofthemthatIexpectedtogouphadshakendownandsomethatIexpectedtostaydownhadshakenup。
Outofthatfifty-four,onehadgonetoapulpit,onehadgonetoCongressandonehadgonetothepenitentiary。Somehadgonetobrilliantsuccessandsomehadgonedowntosadfailure。Somehadfoundhappinessandsomehadfoundunhappiness。Itseemedasthoalmosteverynoteonthekeyboardofhumanpossibilityhadbeenstruckbytheoneschooloffifty-four。
Whenthatpicturewastakentheoldestwasnotmorethaneighteen,yetmostofthemseemedalreadytohavedecidedtheirdestinies。
Thetwenty-oneyearsthatfollowedhadnotchangedtheircourses。
TheonlychangeshadcomewhereGodhadcomeintoalifetoupliftit,orwhereMammonhadenteredtopullitdown。AndIsawbetterthatthefoolishdreamsofsuccessfadedbeforethenaturalunfoldingoftalents,whichistherealsuccess。Isawbetterthat"theboyisfathertotheman。"
Theboywhoskimmedoverhisworkinschoolwasskimmingoverhisworkasaman。Theboywhowenttothebottomofthingsinschoolwasgoingtothebottomofthingsinmanhood。Whichhadhelpedhimtogotothetopofthings!
JimLamberthadmerelyfollowedthecalloftalentsunseeninhimtwenty-oneyearsbefore。
Thelazyboybecamea"tired"man。Theindustriousboybecameanindustriousman。Thesportyboybecameasportyman。Thedomineeringegotistboybecamethedomineeringegotistman。
Theboywhotradedkniveswithmeandbeatme——howIusedtoenvyhim!Whywasithecouldalwaysgetthebetterofme?Well,hewentontradingknivesandgettingthebetterofpeople。Now,twenty-oneyearsafterwards,hewasdoingtimeinthestatepenitentiaryforforgery。Hewasnowcalledabadman,whentwenty-oneyearsagowhenhedidthesamethingsonasmallerscaletheycalledhimsmartandbright。
The"perfectlylovely"boywhodidn’tmixwiththeotherboys,whodidn’twhisper,whonevergotintotrouble,whoalwayshadhishaircombed,andsaid,"Ifyouplease,"usedtohurtme。Hewastheteacher’smodelboy。Allthemothersofthecommunityusedtosaytotheirownreprobateoffspring,"Whycan’tyoubelikeHarry?
He’llbePresidentoftheUnitedStatessomeday,andyou’llbeinjail。"ButModelHarrysataroundallhislifebeingamodel。I
believeMr。Websterdefinesamodelasasmallimitationoftherealthing。Harrycertainlywasasuccessfulmodel。Hebecameaseedy,sleepy,helplessrelicatforty。Hewas"perfectlylovely"
becausehehadn’ttheenergytobeanythingelse。Itwastheboyswhohadthehustleandtheenergy,whooccasionallyneededbumping——andwhogotit——whoreallygrew。
Ihavesaidlittleaboutthegirlsoftheschool。Factwas,atthatageIdidn’tpaymuchattentiontothem。Iregardedthemasintheway。ButInaturallythoughtofClarice,oursocialpetoftheclass——ourrealprettygirlwhowonthevaseinthehomepaperbeautycontest。Claricewentrightonremaininginthesocialspotlight,primpingandflirting。Sheoutshonealltherest。Butitseemedlikeshewasallout-shineandnoin-shine。Shemistookpopularityforsuccess。Theboysvotedforher,butdidnotmarryher。Mostofthegirlswhoshonewithlesssociallusterbecamethehappyhomemakersofthecommunity。
ButasIlookedintothefaceofJimLambertinthepicture,myheartwarmedatthesightofanothergreatsuccess——asweet-facedirishlasswhobecamean"oldmaid。"Shehadworkeddaybydayalltheseyearstosupportahomeandcareforherfamily。Shehadkepthergraceandsweetnessthruitall,andtheinfluenceofherwhite,lovingliferadiatedfar。
TheBoyIHadEnviedFrankwastheboyIhadenvied。Hehadeverything——afinehome,alovingfather,plentyofmoney,opportunityandagreatcareerawaitinghim。Andhewasbrightandlovableandtalented。
EverybodysaidFrankwouldmakehismarkintheworldandmakethetownproudofhim。
Iwasthejanitoroftheschoolhouse。Someofmyclassmateswillneverknowhowtheirthoughtlessjeersandjokeswoundedthesensitive,shabbyboywhosweptthefloors,builtthefiresandcarriedinthecoal。AftercommencementmycareerseemedtoendandthecareersofFrankandtherestofthemseemedtobegin。Theyweregoingofftocollegeandgoingtodosomanywonderfulthings。
ButtheweekaftercommencementIhadtogointoaprintingoffice,rollupmysleevesandgotoworkinthe"devil’scorner"toearnmydailybread。Seemedlikeittooksomuchbread!
ManyatimeasIpluggedatthe"case"IwouldthinkofFrankandwonderwhysomepeoplehadallthegoodthingsandIhadallthehardthings。
Howeasyitistoseeasyoulookbackward。Buthowharditistoseewhenyoulookforward。
Twenty-oneyearsafterwardasIgotoffthetraininthehometown,Iasked,"Whereishe?"Wewentouttothecemetery,whereIstoodatagraveandreadontheheadstone,"Frank。"
Ihadthestoryofatragedy——thetragedyofmodernunpreparedness。
Itwasthestoryoftheboywhohadeveryopportunity,butwhohadallthestruggletakenoutofhislife。Heneverfollowedhiscareer,neverdevelopedanystrength。Hedisappointedhopes,spentafortune,brokehisfather’sheart,shockedthecommunity,andfinallyendedhiswastedlifewithabulletfiredbyhisownhand。
WhyBenHurWonItrevivedthememoryofthestoryofBenHur。
Doyourememberit?TheJewishboyistornfromhishomeindisgrace。Heishaledintocourtandtriedforacrimehenevercommitted。BenHurdidnotgetafairtrial。Nobodycangetafairtrialatthehandsofthisworld。ThatiswhythegreatJudgehassaid,judgenot,foryouhavenotthefullevidenceinthecase。I
alonehavethat。
Thentheycondemnhim。Theyleadhimawaytothegalleys。Theychainhimtothebenchandtotheoar。Therefollowthedaysandlongyearswhenhepullsontheoarunderthelash。Dayafterdayhepullsontheoar。Dayafterdayhewrithesunderthestingofthelash。Yearsofthecruelinjusticepass。BenHuristhehelplessvictimofamockingfate。
Thatseemstobeyourlifeandmylife。Inthekitchenortheoffice,orwhereverweworkweseemsooftenlikeslavesboundtotheoarandpullingunderthestingofthelashofnecessity。Lifeseemsonefuturelessroundofdrudgery。Wewonderwhy。Weoftenlookacrossthestreetandseesomebodywholivesahappierlife。
Thatoneischainedtonooar。Seewhatafinetimetheyallhave。
Whymustwepullontheoar?
Howblindweare!Wecanonlyseeourownoar。Wecannotseethatthey,too,pullontheoarandfeelthelash。Mostlikelytheyarelookingbackatusandenvyingus。Forwhileweenvyothers,othersareenvyingus。
ButlookatthechariotraceinAntioch。Seethethousandsinthecircus。SeeMessala,thehaughtyRoman,andsee!BenHurfromthegalleysintheotherchariotpittedagainsthim。Downthecoursedashthesetwinthunderbolts。Thethousandsholdtheirbreath。"Whowillwin?""Themanwiththestrongerforearms,"theywhisper。
Therecomesthecrucialmomentintherace。Seethemanwiththestrongerforearms。TheyarebandsofsteelthatswellintheforearmsofBenHur。TheyswingthoseflyingArabiansintotheinnerring。BenHurwinstherace!WheregottheJewthosehugeforearms?Fromthegalleys!
HadBenHurneverpulledontheoar,henevercouldhavewonthechariotrace。
SoonerorlateryouandIaretolearnthatProvidencemakesnomistakesinthebookkeeping。Aswepullontheoar,sooftenlashedbygrimnecessity,everyhonesteffortislaidupatcompoundinterestinthebankaccountofstrength。Soonerorlaterthetimecomeswhenweneedeveryounce。Soonerorlaterourchariotraceison——whenwewinthevictory,strikethedecidingblow,standwhilethosearoundusfall——anditiswonwiththeforearmsearnedinthegalleysoflifebypullingontheoar。
ThatiswhyIthankedGodasIstoodatthegraveofmyclassmate。
IthankedGodforparentswhobelievedinthegospelofstruggle,andforthecircumstancesthatcompelledit。
Iamnotanexampleofsuccess。
ButIamaverygratefulpupilinthefirstreaderclassofTheUniversityofHardKnocks。
ChapterIX
GoOnSouth!
TheBookintheRunningBrookTHEREisalittlesilverysheetofwaterinMinnesotacalledLakeItasca。
Thereisaplacewherealittlestreamleapsoutfromthelake。
"Ole!"youwillexclaim,"thelakeisleaking。Whatisthenameofthislittlecreek?"
"Creek!Itbanenocreek。ItbaneMississippiriver。"
SoeventheFatherofWatershastobeginasacreek。Weareatthecradlewherethebabyriverleapsforth。Weallstartaboutalike。
ItwabblesaroundthruthewoodsofMinnesota。Itdoesn’tknowwhereitisgoing,butitis"ontheway。"
Itkeepswabblingaround,nevergivingupandquitting,anditgetstotheplacewhereallofusgetsoonerorlater。TheplacewherePaulcameontheroadtoDamascus。Theplaceofthe"heavenlyvision。"
Itistheplacewheregravitysays,"LittleMississippi,doyouwanttogrow?Thenyouwillhavetogosouth。"
ThelittleMississippistartssouth。Hesaystothepeople,"Goodbye,folks,Iamgoingsouth。"ThefolksatItascavillesay,"Why,Mississippi,youarefoolish。Youhain’tgotwaterenoughtogetoutofthecounty。"Thatisafact,butheisnottryingtogetoutofthecounty。TheMississippiisonlytryingtogosouth。
TheMississippiknowsnothingabouttheGulfofMexico。Hedoesnotknowthathehastogohundredsofmilessouth。Heisonlytryingtogosouth。Hehasnotmuchwater,buthedoesnotwaitforarelativetodieandbequeathhimsomewater。Thatisabeautifulthought!Hehaswaterenoughtostartsouth,andhedoesthat。
Hegoesafootsouth,thenanotherfootsouth。Hegoesamilesouth。Hepicksupalittlestreamandhehassomemorewater。Hegoesonsouth。Hepicksupanotherstreamandgrowssomemore。Daybydayhepicksupstreamlets,brooklets,rivulets。Businessispickingup!Hegrowsasheflows。Poetry!
Myfriends,hereisoneofthebestpicturesIcanfindinnatureofwhatitseemstomeourlivesshouldbe。Ihearagreatmanyorations,especiallyinhighschoolcommencements,entitled,"TheValueofaGoalinLife。"Butthedirectionisvastlymoreimportantthanthegoal。Findthewayyourlifeshouldgo,andthengoandkeepongoingandyou’llreachathousandgoals。
Wedonothavetofigureouthowfarwehavetogo,norhowmanysupplieswewillneedalongtheway。Allwehavetodoistostartandwewillfindtheresourcesallalongtheway。Wewillgrowasweflow。Allofuscanstart!Andthengoonsouth!
Successisnottomorrowornextyear。Successisnow。Successisnotattheendofthejourney,forthereisnoend。Successiseverydayinflowingandgrowing。TheMississippiisasuccessinMinnesotaaswellasonsouth。
YouandIsoonerorlaterhearthecall,"Goonsouth。"Ifwehaven’theardit,letuskeepoureartothereceiverandliveamorenaturallife,sothatwecanhearthecall。Weareallcalled。
Itisadivinecall——thecallofourunfoldingtalentstobeused。
Remember,theMississippigoessouth。Ifhehadgoneanyotherdirectionhewouldneverhavebeenheardof。
ThreewonderfulthingsdevelopastheMississippigoesonsouth。