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第2章

  part1-2
  ChapterII
  HESHOOKhandswithme:"Well,thereyouare,onyourown,appointedofficiallyundermyre-
  sponsibility。"
  Hewasactuallywalkingwithmetothedoor。
  Whatadistanceoffitseemed!Imovedlikeamaninbonds。Butwereacheditatlast。Iopeneditwiththesensationofdealingwithmeredream-
  stuff,andthenatthelastmomentthefellowshipofseamenasserteditself,strongerthanthediffer-
  enceofageandstation。ItasserteditselfinCaptainEllis’voice。
  "Good-bye——andgoodlucktoyou,"hesaidsoheartilythatIcouldonlygivehimagratefulglance。ThenIturnedandwentout,nevertoseehimagaininmylife。IhadnotmadethreestepsintotheouterofficewhenIheardbehindmybackagruff,loud,authoritativevoice,thevoiceofourdeputy-Neptune。
  ItwasaddressingtheheadShipping-Masterwho,havingletmein,had,apparently,remainedhoveringinthemiddledistanceeversince"Mr。R。,lettheharbourlaunchhavesteamuptotakethecaptainhereonboardtheMelitaathalf-
  pastnineto-night。"
  IwasamazedatthestartledalacrityofR’s"Yes,sir。"Heranbeforemeoutonthelanding。
  MynewdignitysatyetsolightlyonmethatIwasnotawarethatitwasI,theCaptain,theobjectofthislastgraciousness。Itseemedasifallofasud-
  denapairofwingshadgrownonmyshoulders。I
  merelyskimmedalongthepolishedfloor。
  ButR。wasimpressed。
  "Isay!"heexclaimedonthelanding,whiletheMalaycrewofthesteam-launchstandingbylookedstonilyatthemanforwhomtheyweregoingtobekeptondutysolate,awayfromtheirgambling,fromtheirgirls,ortheirpuredomesticjoys。"I
  say!Hisownlaunch。Whathaveyoudonetohim?"
  Hisstarewasfullofrespectfulcuriosity。Iwasquiteconfounded。
  "Wasitforme?Ihadn’ttheslightestnotion,"
  Istammeredout。
  Henoddedmanytimes。"Yes。AndthelastpersonwhohaditbeforeyouwasaDuke。So,there!"
  Ithinkheexpectedmetofaintonthespot。
  ButIwasintoomuchofahurryforemotionaldisplays。Myfeelingswerealreadyinsuchawhirlthatthisstaggeringinformationdidnotseemtomaketheslightestdifference。Itmerelyfellintotheseethingcauldronofmybrain,andIcarrieditoffwithmeafterashortbuteffusivepassageofleave-takingwithR。
  Thefavourofthegreatthrowsanaureoleroundthefortunateobjectofitsselection。Thatex-
  cellentmanenquiredwhetherhecoulddoanythingforme。Hehadknownmeonlybysight,andhewaswellawarehewouldneverseemeagain;Iwas,incommonwiththeotherseamenoftheport,merelyasubjectforofficialwriting,fillingupofformswithalltheartificialsuperiorityofamanofpenandinktothemenwhograpplewithrealitiesoutsidetheconsecratedwallsofofficialbuildings。
  Whatghostswemusthavebeentohim!Meresymbolstojugglewithinbooksandheavyregisters,withoutbrainsandmusclesandper-
  plexities;somethinghardlyusefulanddecidedlyinferior。
  Andhe——theofficehoursbeingover——wantedtoknowifhecouldbeofanyusetome!
  Iought——properlyspeaking——Ioughttohavebeenmovedtotears。ButIdidnoteventhinkofit。
  Itwasmerelyanothermiraculousmanifestationofthatdayofmiracles。Ipartedfromhimasifhewereameresymbol。Ifloateddownthestaircase。
  Ifloatedoutoftheofficialandimposingportal。I
  wentonfloatingalong。
  Iusethatwordratherthantheword"flew,"be-
  causeIhaveadistinctimpressionthat,thoughup-
  liftedbymyarousedyouth,mymovementsweredeliberateenough。Tothatmixedwhite,brown,andyellowportionofmankind,outabroadontheirownaffairs,Ipresentedtheappearanceofamanwalkingrathersedately。Andnothinginthewayofabstractioncouldhaveequalledmydeepde-
  tachmentfromtheformsandcoloursofthisworld。
  Itwas,asitwere,final。
  Andyet,suddenly,IrecognizedHamilton。I
  recognizedhimwithouteffort,withoutashock,withoutastart。Therehewas,strollingtowardtheHarbourOfficewithhisstiff,arrogantdignity。
  Hisredfacemadehimnoticeableatadistance。Itflamed,overthere,ontheshadysideofthestreet。
  Hehadperceivedme,too。Something(uncon-
  sciousexuberanceofspiritsperhaps)movedmetowavemyhandtohimelaborately。ThislapsefromgoodtastehappenedbeforeIwasawarethatIwascapableofit。
  Theimpactofmyimpudencestoppedhimshort,muchasabulletmighthavedone。Iverilybelievehestaggered,thoughasfarasIcouldseehedidn’tactuallyfall。Ihadgonepastinamomentanddidnotturnmyhead。Ihadforgottenhisexistence。
  Thenexttenminutesmighthavebeentensecondsortencenturiesforallmyconsciousnesshadtodowithit。Peoplemighthavebeenfallingdeadaroundme,housescrumbling,gunsfiring,Iwouldn’thaveknown。Iwasthinking:"ByJove!Ihavegotit。"ITbeingthecommand。Ithadcomeaboutinawayutterlyunforeseeninmymodestday-dreams。
  Iperceivedthatmyimaginationhadbeenrun-
  ninginconventionalchannelsandthatmyhopeshadalwaysbeendrabstuff。Ihadenvisagedacommandasaresultofaslowcourseofpromotionintheemployofsomehighlyrespectablefirm。
  Therewardoffaithfulservice。Well,faithfulservicewasallright。Onewouldnaturallygivethatforone’sownsake,forthesakeoftheship,fortheloveofthelifeofone’schoice;notforthesakeofthereward。
  Thereissomethingdistastefulinthenotionofareward。
  AndnowhereIhadmycommand,absolutelyinmypocket,inawayundeniableindeed,butmostunexpected;beyondmyimaginings,outsideallreasonableexpectations,andevennotwithstandingtheexistenceofsomesortofobscureintriguetokeepitawayfromme。Itistruethattheintriguewasfeeble,butithelpedthefeelingofwonder——asifIhadbeenspeciallydestinedforthatshipIdidnotknow,bysomepowerhigherthantheprosaicagenciesofthecommercialworld。
  Astrangesenseofexultationbegantocreepintome。IfIhadworkedforthatcommandtenyearsormoretherewouldhavebeennothingofthekind。
  Iwasalittlefrightened。
  "Letusbecalm,"Isaidtomyself。
  OutsidethedooroftheOfficers’HomethewretchedStewardseemedtobewaitingforme。
  Therewasabroadflightofafewsteps,andherantoandfroonthetopofitasifchainedthere。A
  distressedcur。Helookedasthoughhisthroatweretoodryforhimtobark。
  IregrettosayIstoppedbeforegoingin。Therehadbeenarevolutioninmymoralnature。Hewaitedopen-mouthed,breathless,whileIlookedathimforhalfaminute。
  "Andyouthoughtyoucouldkeepmeoutofit,"
  Isaidscathingly。
  "Yousaidyouweregoinghome,"hesqueakedmiserably。"Yousaidso。Yousaidso。"
  "IwonderwhatCaptainElliswillhavetosaytothatexcuse,"Iutteredslowlywithasinistermeaning。
  Hislowerjawhadbeentremblingallthetimeandhisvoicewaslikethebleatingofasickgoat。"Youhavegivenmeaway?Youhavedoneforme?"
  Neitherhisdistressnoryetthesheerabsurdityofitwasabletodisarmme。Itwasthefirstin-
  stanceofharmbeingattemptedtobedonetome——atanyrate,thefirstIhadeverfoundout。AndIwasstillyoungenough,stilltoomuchonthissideoftheshadowline,nottobesurprisedandindig-
  nantatsuchthings。
  Igazedathiminflexibly。Letthebeggarsuffer。
  HeslappedhisforeheadandIpassedin,pursued,intothediningroom,byhisscreech:"Ialwayssaidyou’dbethedeathofme。"
  Thisclamournotonlyovertookme,butwentaheadasitwereontotheverandahandbroughtoutCaptainGiles。
  Hestoodbeforemeinthedoorwayinallthecommonplacesolidityofhiswisdom。Thegoldchainglitteredonhisbreast。Heclutchedasmoulderingpipe。
  Iextendedmyhandtohimwarmlyandheseemedsurprised,butdidrespondheartilyenoughintheend,withafaintsmileofsuperiorknowledgewhichcutmythanksshortasifwithaknife。I
  don’tthinkthatmorethanonewordcameout。
  Andevenforthatone,judgingbythetemperatureofmyface,Ihadblushedasifforabadaction。
  Assumingadetachedtone,Iwonderedhowonearthhehadmanagedtospotthelittleunderhandgamethathadbeengoingon。
  Hemurmuredcomplacentlythattherewerebutfewthingsdoneinthetownthathecouldnotseetheinsideof。Andastothishouse,hehadbeenusingitoffandonfornearlytenyears。Nothingthatwentoninitcouldescapehisgreatexperience。
  Ithadbeennotroubletohim。Notroubleatall。
  Theninhisquiet,thicktonehewantedtoknowifIhadcomplainedformallyoftheSteward’saction。
  IsaidthatIhadn’t——though,indeed,itwasnotforwantofopportunity。CaptainEllishadgoneformebald-headedinamostridiculousfashionforbeingoutofthewaywhenwanted。
  "Funnyoldgentleman,"interjectedCaptainGiles。"Whatdidyousaytothat?"
  "IsaidsimplythatIcamealongtheverymo-
  mentIheardofhismessage。Nothingmore。I
  didn’twanttohurttheSteward。Iwouldscorntoharmsuchanobject。No。Imadenocom-
  plaint,butIbelievehethinksI’vedoneso。Lethimthink。He’sgotafrighthewon’tforgetinahurry,forCaptainElliswouldkickhimoutintothemiddleofAsia……"
  "Waitamoment,"saidCaptainGiles,leavingmesuddenly。Isatdownfeelingverytired,mostlyinmyhead。BeforeIcouldstartatrainofthoughthestoodagainbeforeme,murmuringtheexcusethathehadtogoandputthefellow’smindatease。
  Ilookedupwithsurprise。ButinrealityIwasindifferent。HeexplainedthathehadfoundtheStewardlyingfacedownwardonthehorsehairsofa。
  Hewasallrightnow。
  "Hewouldnothavediedoffright,"Isaidcon-
  temptuously。
  "No。Buthemighthavetakenanoverdoseoutofoneofthemlittlebottleshekeepsinhisroom,"
  CaptainGilesarguedseriously。"Theconfoundedfoolhastriedtopoisonhimselfonce——afewyearsago。"
  "Really,"Isaidwithoutemotion。"Hedoesn’tseemveryfittolive,anyhow。"
  "Astothat,itmaybesaidofagoodmany。"
  "Don’texaggeratelikethis!"Iprotested,laughingirritably。"ButIwonderwhatthispartoftheworldwoulddoifyouweretoleaveofflook-
  ingafterit,CaptainGiles?HereyouhavegotmeacommandandsavedtheSteward’slifeinoneafternoon。ThoughwhyyoushouldhavetakenallthatinterestineitherofusismorethanIcanunderstand。"
  CaptainGilesremainedsilentforaminute。
  Thengravely:
  "He’snotabadstewardreally。Hecanfindagoodcook,atanyrate。And,what’smore,hecankeephimwhenfound。Irememberthecookswehadherebeforehistime!……"
  Imusthavemadeamovementofimpatience,becauseheinterruptedhimselfwithanapologyforkeepingmeyarningthere,whilenodoubtIneededallmytimetogetready。
  WhatIreallyneededwastobealoneforabit。
  Iseizedthisopeninghastily。Mybedroomwasaquietrefugeinanapparentlyuninhabitedwingofthebuilding。Havingabsolutelynothingtodo(forIhadnotunpackedmythings),Isatdownonthebedandabandonedmyselftotheinfluencesofthehour。Totheunexpectedinfluences……
  AndfirstIwonderedatmystateofmind。WhywasInotmoresurprised?Why?HereIwas,in-
  vestedwithacommandinthetwinklingofaneye,notinthecommoncourseofhumanaffairs,butmoreasifbyenchantment。Ioughttohavebeenlostinastonishment。ButIwasn’t。Iwasverymuchlikepeopleinfairytales。Nothingeverastonishesthem。Whenafullyappointedgalacoachisproducedoutofapumpkintotakehertoaball,Cinderelladoesnotexclaim。Shegetsinquietlyanddrivesawaytoherhighfor-
  tune。
  CaptainEllis(afiercesortoffairy)hadpro-
  ducedacommandoutofadraweralmostasun-
  expectedlyasinafairytale。Butacommandisanabstractidea,anditseemedasortof"lessermarvel"tillitflasheduponmethatitinvolvedtheconcreteexistenceofaship。
  Aship!Myship!Shewasmine,moreabso-
  lutelymineforpossessionandcarethananythingintheworld;anobjectofresponsibilityandde-
  votion。Shewastherewaitingforme,spell-bound,unabletomove,tolive,togetoutintotheworld(tillIcame),likeanenchantedprincess。Hercallhadcometomeasiffromtheclouds。Ihadneversuspectedherexistence。Ididn’tknowhowshelooked,Ihadbarelyheardhername,andyetwewereindissolublyunitedforacertainportionofourfuture,tosinkorswimtogether!
  Asuddenpassionofanxiousimpatiencerushedthroughmyveins,gavemesuchasenseofthein-
  tensityofexistenceasIhaveneverfeltbeforeorsince。IdiscoveredhowmuchofaseamanIwas,inheart,inmind,and,asitwere,physically——amanexclusivelyofseaandships;theseatheonlyworldthatcounted,andtheships,thetestofman-
  liness,oftemperament,ofcourageandfidelity——
  andoflove。
  Ihadanexquisitemoment。Itwasuniquealso。
  Jumpingupfrommyseat,Ipacedupanddownmyroomforalongtime。ButwhenIcamedown-
  stairsIbehavedwithsufficientcomposure。I
  onlycouldn’teatanythingatdinner。
  Havingdeclaredmyintentionnottodrivebuttowalkdowntothequay,ImustrenderthewretchedStewardjusticethathebestirredhimselftofindmesomecooliesfortheluggage。Theyde-
  parted,carryingallmyworldlypossessions(exceptalittlemoneyIhadinmypocket)slungfromalongpole。CaptainGilesvolunteeredtowalkdownwithme。
  Wefollowedthesombre,shadedalleyacrosstheEsplanade。Itwasmoderatelycoolthereunderthetrees。CaptainGilesremarked,withasuddenlaugh:"Iknowwho’sjollythankfulathavingseenthelastofyou。"
  IguessedthathemeanttheSteward。Thefellowhadbornehimselftomeinasulkilyfrightenedmanneratthelast。Iexpressedmywonderthatheshouldhavetriedtodomeabadturnfornoreasonatall。
  "Don’tyouseethatwhathewantedwastogetridofourfriendHamiltonbydodginghiminfrontofyouforthatjob?Thatwouldhaveremovedhimforgood。See?"
  "Heavens!"Iexclaimed,feelinghumiliatedsomehow。"Canitbepossible?Whatafoolhemustbe!Thatoverbearing,impudentloafer!
  Why!Hecouldn’t……Andyethe’snearlydoneit,Ibelieve;fortheHarbourOfficewasboundtosendsomebody。"
  "Aye。AfoollikeourStewardcanbedangeroussometimes,"declaredCaptainGilessententiously。
  "Justbecauseheisafool,"headded,impartingfurtherinstructioninhiscomplacentlowtones。
  "For,"hecontinuedinthemannerofasetdemon-
  stration,"nosensiblepersonwouldriskbeingkickedoutoftheonlyberthbetweenhimselfandstarvationjusttogetridofasimpleannoyance——
  asmallworry。Wouldhenow?"
  "Well,no,"Iconceded,restrainingadesiretolaughatthatsomethingmysteriouslyearnestindeliveringtheconclusionsofhiswisdomasthoughitweretheproductofprohibitedoperations。"Butthatfellowlooksasifhewererathercrazy。Hemustbe。"
  "Astothat,Ibelieveeverybodyintheworldisalittlemad,"heannouncedquietly。
  "Youmakenoexceptions?"Iinquired,justtohearhismanner。
  "Why!Kentsaysthatevenofyou。"
  "Doeshe?"Iretorted,extremelyembitteredallatonceagainstmyformercaptain。"There’snothingofthatinthewrittencharacterfromhimwhichI’vegotinmypocket。Hashegivenyouanyinstancesofmylunacy?"
  CaptainGilesexplainedinaconciliatingtonethatithadbeenonlyafriendlyremarkinrefer-
  encetomyabruptleavingtheshipfornoapparentreason。
  Imutteredgrumpily:"Oh!leavinghisship,"
  andmendedmypace。Hekeptupbymysideinthedeepgloomoftheavenueasifitwerehiscon-
  scientiousdutytoseemeoutofthecolonyasanundesirablecharacter。Hepantedalittle,whichwasratherpatheticinaway。ButIwasnotmoved。Onthecontrary。Hisdiscomfortgavemeasortofmaliciouspleasure。
  PresentlyIrelented,sloweddown,andsaid:
  "WhatIreallywantedwastogetafreshgrip。
  Ifeltitwastime。Isthatsoverymad?"
  Hemadenoanswer。Wewereissuingfromtheavenue。Onthebridgeoverthecanaladark,ir-
  resolutefigureseemedtobeawaitingsomethingorsomebody。
  ItwasaMalaypoliceman,barefooted,inhisblueuniform。Thesilverbandonhislittleroundcapshonedimlyinthelightofthestreetlamp。Hepeeredinourdirectiontimidly。
  Beforewecouldcomeuptohimheturnedaboutandwalkedinfrontofusinthedirectionofthejetty。Thedistancewassomehundredyards;andthenIfoundmycooliessquattingontheirheels。
  Theyhadkeptthepoleontheirshoulders,andallmyworldlygoods,stilltiedtothepole,wererestingonthegroundbetweenthem。Asfarastheeyecouldreachalongthequaytherewasnotanothersoulabroadexceptthepolicepeon,whosalutedus。
  Itseemshehaddetainedthecooliesassuspiciouscharacters,andhadforbiddenthemthejetty。Butatasignfrommehetookofftheembargowithalacrity。Thetwopatientfellows,risingtogetherwithafaintgrunt,trottedoffalongtheplanks,andIpreparedtotakemyleaveofCaptainGiles,whostoodtherewithanairasthoughhismissionweredrawingtoaclose。Itcouldnotbedeniedthathehaddoneitall。AndwhileIhesitatedaboutanappropriatesentencehemadehimselfheard:
  "Iexpectyou’llhaveyourhandsprettyfulloftangled-upbusiness。"
  Iaskedhimwhatmadehimthinkso;andhean-
  sweredthatitwashisgeneralexperienceoftheworld。Shipalongtimeawayfromherport,ownersinaccessiblebycable,andtheonlymanwhocouldexplainmattersdeadandburied。
  "Andyouyourselfnewtothebusinessinaway,"
  heconcludedinasortofunanswerabletone。
  "Don’tinsist,"Isaid。"Iknowitonlytoowell。
  IonlywishyoucouldimparttomesomesmallportionofyourexperiencebeforeIgo。Asitcan’tbedoneintenminutesIhadbetternotbegintoaskyou。There’sthatharbourlaunchwaitingforme,too。ButIwon’tfeelreallyatpeacetillIhavethatshipofmineoutintheIndianOcean。"
  HeremarkedcasuallythatfromBangkoktotheIndianOceanwasaprettylongstep。Andthismurmur,likeadimflashfromadarklantern,showedmeforamomentthebroadbeltofislandsandreefsbetweenthatunknownship,whichwasmine,andthefreedomofthegreatwatersoftheglobe。
  ButIfeltnoapprehension。IwasfamiliarenoughwiththeArchipelagobythattime。Ex-
  tremepatienceandextremecarewouldseemethroughtheregionofbrokenland,offaintairs,andofdeadwatertowhereIwouldfeelatlastmycommandswingonthegreatswellandlistovertothegreatbreathofregularwinds,thatwouldgiveherthefeelingofalarge,moreintenselife。Theroadwouldbelong。Allroadsarelongthatleadtowardone’sheart’sdesire。Butthisroadmymind’seyecouldseeonachart,professionally,withallitscomplicationsanddifficulties,yetsimpleenoughinaway。Oneisaseamanoroneisnot。
  AndIhadnodoubtofbeingone。
  TheonlypartIwasastrangertowastheGulfofSiam。AndImentionedthistoCaptainGiles。
  NotthatIwasconcernedverymuch。ItbelongedtothesameregionthenatureofwhichIknew,intowhoseverysoulIseemedtohavelookedduringthelastmonthsofthatexistencewithwhichIhadbrokennow,suddenly,asonepartswithsomeen-
  chantingcompany。
  "Thegulf……Ay!Afunnypieceofwater——that,"saidCaptainGiles。
  Funny,inthisconnection,wasavagueword。
  Thewholethingsoundedlikeanopinionutteredbyacautiouspersonmindfulofactionsforslander。
  Ididn’tinquireastothenatureofthatfunni-
  ness。Therewasreallynotime。Butattheverylasthevolunteeredawarning。
  "Whateveryoudokeeptotheeastsideofit。
  Thewestsideisdangerousatthistimeoftheyear。
  Don’tletanythingtemptyouover。You’llfindnothingbuttroublethere。"
  ThoughIcouldhardlyimaginewhatcouldtemptmetoinvolvemyshipamongstthecurrentsandreefsoftheMalayshore,Ithankedhimfortheadvice。
  Hegrippedmyextendedarmwarmly,andtheendofouracquaintancecamesuddenlyinthewords:"Good-night。"
  Thatwasallhesaid:"Good-night。"Nothingmore。Idon’tknowwhatIintendedtosay,butsurprisemademeswallowit,whateveritwas。I
  chokedslightly,andthenexclaimedwithasortofnervoushaste:"Oh!Good-night,CaptainGiles,good-night。"
  Hismovementswerealwaysdeliberate,buthisbackhadrecededsomedistancealongthedesertedquaybeforeIcollectedmyselfenoughtofollowhisexampleandmadeahalfturninthedirectionofthejetty。
  Onlymymovementswerenotdeliberate。I
  hurrieddowntothesteps,andleapedintothelaunch。BeforeIhadfairlylandedinherstern-
  sheetstheslimlittlecraftdartedawayfromthejettywithasuddenswirlofherpropellerandthehard,rapidpuffingoftheexhaustinhervaguelygleamingbrassfunnelamidships。
  Themistychurningathersternwastheonlysoundintheworld。Theshorelayplungedinthesilenceofthedeeperslumber。Iwatchedthetownrecedestillandsoundlessinthehotnight,tilltheabrupthail,"Steam-launch,ahoy!"mademespinroundfaceforward。Wewereclosetoawhiteghostlysteamer。Lightsshoneonherdecks,inherportholes。Andthesamevoiceshoutedfromher:
  "Isthatourpassenger?"
  "Itis,"Iyelled。
  Hercrewhadbeenobviouslyonthejump。I
  couldhearthemrunningabout。Themodernspiritofhastewasloudlyvocalintheordersto"Heaveawayonthecable"——to"Lowertheside-
  ladder,"andinurgentrequeststometo"Comealong,sir!Wehavebeendelayedthreehoursforyou……Ourtimeisseveno’clock,youknow!"
  Isteppedonthedeck。Isaid"No!Idon’tknow。"Thespiritofmodernhurrywasembodiedinathin,long-armed,long-leggedman,withacloselyclippedgraybeard。Hismeagrehandwashotanddry。Hedeclaredfeverishly:
  "IamhangedifIwouldhavewaitedanotherfiveminutesHarbour-MasterornoHarbour-
  Master。"
  "That’syourownbusiness,"Isaid。"Ididn’taskyoutowaitforme。"
  "Ihopeyoudon’texpectanysupper,"heburstout。"Thisisn’taboarding-houseafloat。YouarethefirstpassengerIeverhadinmylifeandIhopetogoodnessyouwillbethelast。"
  Imadenoanswertothishospitablecommuni-
  cation;and,indeed,hedidn’twaitforany,boltingawayontohisbridgetogethisshipunderway。
  Forthethreedayshehadmeonboardhedidnotdepartfromthathalf-hostileattitude。Hisshiphavingbeendelayedthreehoursonmyaccounthecouldn’tforgivemefornotbeingamoredistin-
  guishedperson。Hewasnotexactlyoutspokenaboutit,butthatfeelingofannoyedwonderwaspeepingoutperpetuallyinhistalk。
  Hewasabsurd。
  Hewasalsoamanofmuchexperience,whichhelikedtotrotout;butnogreatercontrastwithCap-
  tainGilescouldhavebeenimagined。HewouldhaveamusedmeifIhadwantedtobeamused。
  ButIdidnotwanttobeamused。Iwaslikealoverlookingforwardtoameeting。Humanhos-
  tilitywasnothingtome。Ithoughtofmyun-
  knownship。Itwasamusementenough,tormentenough,occupationenough。
  Heperceivedmystate,forhiswitsweresuffi-
  cientlysharpforthat,andhepokedslyfunatmypreoccupationinthemannersomenasty,cynicaloldmenassumetowardthedreamsandillusionsofyouth。I,onmyside,refrainedfromquestioninghimastotheappearanceofmyship,thoughI
  knewthatbeinginBangkokeveryfortnightorsohemusthaveknownherbysight。Iwasnotgoingtoexposetheship,myship!tosomeslightingreference。
  HewasthefirstreallyunsympatheticmanIhadevercomeincontactwith。Myeducationwasfarfrombeingfinished,thoughIdidn’tknowit。No!
  Ididn’tknowit。
  AllIknewwasthathedislikedmeandhadsomecontemptformyperson。Why?Apparentlybecausehisshiphadbeendelayedthreehoursonmyaccount。WhowasItohavesuchathingdoneforme?Suchathinghadneverbeendoneforhim。
  Itwasasortofjealousindignation。
  Myexpectation,mingledwithfear,waswroughttoitshighestpitch。Howslowhadbeenthedaysofthepassageandhowsoontheywereover。Onemorning,early,wecrossedthebar,andwhilethesunwasrisingsplendidlyovertheflatspacesofthelandwesteameduptheinnumerablebends,passedundertheshadowofthegreatgiltpagoda,andreachedtheoutskirtsofthetown。
  Thereitwas,spreadlargelyonbothbanks,theOrientalcapitalwhichhadasyetsufferednowhiteconqueror;anexpanseofbrownhousesofbamboo,ofmats,ofleaves,ofavegetable-matterstyleofarchitecture,sprungoutofthebrownsoilonthebanksofthemuddyriver。Itwasamazingtothinkthatinthosemilesofhumanhabitationstherewasnotprobablyhalfadozenpoundsofnails。Someofthosehousesofsticksandgrass,likethenestsofanaquaticrace,clungtothelowshores。Othersseemedtogrowoutofthewater;othersagainfloatedinlonganchoredrowsintheverymiddleofthestream。Hereandthereinthedistance,abovethecrowdedmoboflow,brownroofridges,toweredgreatpilesofmasonry,King’sPalace,temples,gorgeousanddilapidated,crumblingundertheverticalsunlight,tremendous,overpowering,al-
  mostpalpable,whichseemedtoenterone’sbreastwiththebreathofone’snostrilsandsoakintoone’slimbsthrougheveryporeofone’sskin。
  Theridiculousvictimofjealousyhadforsomereasonorothertostophisenginesjustthen。Thesteamerdriftedslowlyupwiththetide。ObliviousofmynewsurroundingsIwalkedthedeck,inanx-
  ious,deadenedabstraction,acomminglingofromanticreveriewithaverypracticalsurveyofmyqualifications。Forthetimewasapproachingformetobeholdmycommandandtoprovemyworthintheultimatetestofmyprofession。
  SuddenlyIheardmyselfcalledbythatimbe-
  cile。Hewasbeckoningmetocomeuponhisbridge。
  Ididn’tcareverymuchforthat,butasitseemedthathehadsomethingparticulartosayI
  wentuptheladder。
  Helaidhishandonmyshoulderandgavemeaslightturn,pointingwithhisotherarmatthesametime。
  "There!That’syourship,Captain,"hesaid。
  Ifeltathumpinmybreast——onlyone,asifmyhearthadthenceasedtobeat。Thereweretenormoreshipsmooredalongthebank,andtheonehemeantwaspartlyhiddenawayfrommysightbyhernextastern。Hesaid:"We’lldriftabreastherinamoment。"
  Whatwashistone?Mocking?Threatening?
  Oronlyindifferent?Icouldnottell。Isuspectedsomemaliceinthisunexpectedmanifestationofinterest。
  Heleftme,andIleanedovertherailofthebridgelookingovertheside。Idarednotraisemyeyes。Yetithadtobedone——and,indeed,Icouldnothavehelpedmyself。IbelieveItrembled。
  Butdirectlymyeyeshadrestedonmyshipallmyfearvanished。Itwentoffswiftly,likeabaddream。Onlythatadreamleavesnoshamebe-
  hindit,andthatIfeltamomentaryshameatmyunworthysuspicions。
  Yes,thereshewas。Herhull,herriggingfilledmyeyewithagreatcontent。Thatfeelingoflife-
  emptinesswhichhadmademesorestlessforthelastfewmonthslostitsbitterplausibility,itsevilinfluence,dissolvedinaflowofjoyousemotion。
  AtfirstglanceIsawthatshewasahigh-classvessel,aharmoniouscreatureinthelinesofherfinebody,intheproportionedtallnessofherspars。
  Whateverherageandherhistory,shehadpre-
  servedthestampofherorigin。Shewasoneofthosecraftthat,invirtueoftheirdesignandcom-
  pletefinish,willneverlookold。Amongsthercom-
  panionsmooredtothebank,andallbiggerthanherself,shelookedlikeacreatureofhighbreed——
  anArabsteedinastringofcart-horses。
  Avoicebehindmesaidinanastyequivocaltone:
  "Ihopeyouaresatisfiedwithher,Captain。"I
  didnoteventurnmyhead。Itwasthemasterofthesteamer,andwhateverhemeant,whateverhethoughtofher,Iknewthat,likesomerarewomen,shewasoneofthosecreatureswhosemereexistenceisenoughtoawakenanunselfishdelight。Onefeelsthatitisgoodtobeintheworldinwhichshehasherbeing。
  Thatillusionoflifeandcharacterwhichcharmsoneinmen’sfinesthandiworkradiatedfromher。
  Anenormousbulkofteak-woodtimberswungoverherhatchway;lifelessmatter,lookingheavierandbiggerthananythingaboardofher。Whentheystartedloweringitthesurgeofthetacklesentaquiverthroughherfromwater-linetothetrucksupthefinenervesofherrigging,asthoughshehadshudderedattheweight。Itseemedcrueltoloadherso……
  Halfanhourlater,puttingmyfootonherdeckforthefirsttime,Ireceivedthefeelingofdeepphysicalsatisfaction。Nothingcouldequalthefullnessofthatmoment,theidealcompletenessofthatemotionalexperiencewhichhadcometomewithoutthepreliminarytoilanddisenchantmentsofanobscurecareer。
  Myrapidglanceranoverher,enveloped,ap-
  propriatedtheformconcretingtheabstractsenti-
  mentofmycommand。Alotofdetailsperceptibletoaseamanstruckmyeye,vividlyinthatinstant。
  Fortherest,Isawherdisengagedfromthematerialconditionsofherbeing。Theshoretowhichshewasmooredwasasifitdidnotexist。Whatweretomeallthecountriesoftheglobe?Inallthepartsoftheworldwashedbynavigablewatersourrelationtoeachotherwouldbethesame——andmoreintimatethantherearewordstoexpressinthelanguage。Apartfromthat,everysceneandepisodewouldbeamerepassingshow。Theverygangofyellowcooliesbusyaboutthemainhatchwaslesssubstantialthanthestuffdreamsaremadeof。ForwhoonearthwoulddreamofChinamen?……
  Iwentaft,ascendedthepoop,where,undertheawning,gleamedthebrassesoftheyacht-likefittings,thepolishedsurfacesoftherails,theglassoftheskylights。Rightafttwoseamen,busycleaningthesteeringgear,withthereflectedripplesoflightrunningplayfullyuptheirbentbacks,wentonwiththeirwork,unawareofmeandoftheal-
  mostaffectionateglanceIthrewattheminpassingtowardthecompanion-wayofthecabin。
  Thedoorsstoodwideopen,theslidewaspushedrightback。Thehalf-turnofthestaircasecutofftheviewofthelobby。Alowhummingascendedfrombelow,butitstoppedabruptlyatthesoundofmydescendingfootsteps。
  part1-3ChapterIII
  THEfirstthingIsawdowntherewastheupperpartofaman’sbodyprojectingbackward,asitwere,fromoneofthedoorsatthefootofthestairs。Hiseyeslookedatmeverywideandstill。Inonehandheheldadinnerplate,intheotheracloth。
  "IamyournewCaptain,"Isaidquietly。
  Inamoment,inthetwinklingofaneye,hehadgotridoftheplateandtheclothandjumpedtoopenthecabindoor。AssoonasIpassedintothesaloonhevanished,butonlytoreappearinstantly,buttoningupajackethehadputonwiththeswiftnessofa"quick-change"artist。
  "Where’sthechiefmate?"Iasked。
  "Inthehold,Ithink,sir。Isawhimgodowntheafter-hatchtenminutesago。"
  "TellhimIamonboard。"
  Themahoganytableundertheskylightshoneinthetwilightlikeadarkpoolofwater。Theside-
  board,surmountedbyawidelooking-glassinanormuluframe,hadamarbletop。Itboreapairofsilver-platedlampsandsomeotherpieces——
  obviouslyaharbourdisplay。Thesaloonitselfwaspanelledintwokindsofwoodintheexcellentsimpletasteprevailingwhentheshipwasbuilt。
  Isatdowninthearmchairattheheadofthetable——thecaptain’schair,withasmalltell-talecompassswungaboveit——amutereminderofun-
  remittingvigilance。
  Asuccessionofmenhadsatinthatchair。Ibe-
  cameawareofthatthoughtsuddenly,vividly,asthougheachhadleftalittleofhimselfbetweenthefourwallsoftheseornatebulkheads;asifasortofcompositesoul,thesoulofcommand,hadwhisperedsuddenlytomineoflongdaysatseaandofanxiousmoments。
  "You,too!"itseemedtosay,"you,too,shalltasteofthatpeaceandthatunrestinasearchingintimacywithyourownself——obscureaswewereandassupremeinthefaceofallthewindsandalltheseas,inanimmensitythatreceivesnoimpress,preservesnomemories,andkeepsnoreckoningoflives。"
  Deepwithinthetarnishedormuluframe,inthehothalf-lightsiftedthroughtheawning,Isawmyownfaceproppedbetweenmyhands。AndI
  staredbackatmyselfwiththeperfectdetachmentofdistance,ratherwithcuriositythanwithanyotherfeeling,exceptofsomesympathyforthislatestrepresentativeofwhatforallintentsandpurposeswasadynasty,continuousnotinbloodindeed,butinitsexperience,initstraining,initsconceptionofduty,andintheblessedsimplicityofitstraditionalpointofviewonlife。
  ItstruckmethatthisquietlystaringmanwhomIwaswatching,bothasifheweremyselfandsome-
  bodyelse,wasnotexactlyalonelyfigure。Hehadhisplaceinalineofmenwhomhedidnotknow,ofwhomhehadneverheard;butwhowerefashionedbythesameinfluences,whosesoulsinrelationtotheirhumblelife’sworkhadnosecretsforhim。
  SuddenlyIperceivedthattherewasanothermaninthesaloon,standingalittleononesideandlook-
  ingintentlyatme。Thechiefmate。Hislong,redmoustachedeterminedthecharacterofhisphysiognomy,whichstruckmeaspugnaciousin(strangetosay)aghastlysortofway。
  Howlonghadhebeentherelookingatme,ap-
  praisingmeinmyunguardedday-dreamingstate?
  Iwouldhavebeenmoredisconcertedif,havingtheclocksetinthetopofthemirror-framerightinfrontofme,Ihadnotnoticedthatitslonghandhadhardlymovedatall。
  Icouldnothavebeeninthatcabinmorethantwominutesaltogether。Saythree……Sohecouldnothavebeenwatchingmemorethanamerefractionofaminute,luckily。Still,Ire-
  grettedtheoccurrence。
  ButIshowednothingofitasIroseleisurely(ithadtobeleisurely)andgreetedhimwithperfectfriendliness。
  Therewassomethingreluctantandatthesametimeattentiveinhisbearing。HisnamewasBurns。Weleftthecabinandwentroundtheshiptogether。Hisfaceinthefulllightofdayap-
  pearedverypale,meagre,evenhaggard。Some-
  howIhadadelicacyastolookingtoooftenathim;
  hiseyes,onthecontrary,remainedfairlygluedonmyface。Theyweregreenishandhadanex-
  pectantexpression。
  Heansweredallmyquestionsreadilyenough,butmyearseemedtocatchatoneofunwillingness。
  Thesecondofficer,withthreeorfourhands,wasbusyforward。ThematementionedhisnameandInoddedtohiminpassing。Hewasveryyoung。
  Hestruckmeasratheracub。
  Whenwereturnedbelow,Isatdownononeendofadeep,semi-circular,or,rather,semi-ovalsettee,upholsteredinredplush。Itextendedrightacrossthewholeafter-endofthecabin。Mr。Burnsmotionedtositdown,droppedintooneoftheswivel-chairsroundthetable,andkepthiseyesonmeaspersistentlyasever,andwiththatstrangeairasifallthisweremake-believeandheexpectedmetogetup,burstintoalaugh,slaphimontheback,andvanishfromthecabin。
  Therewasanoddstressinthesituationwhichbegantomakemeuncomfortable。Itriedtoreactagainstthisvaguefeeling。
  "It’sonlymyinexperience,"Ithought。
  Inthefaceofthatman,severalyears,Ijudged,olderthanmyself,IbecameawareofwhatIhadleftalreadybehindme——myyouth。Andthatwasindeedpoorcomfort。Youthisafinething,amightypower——aslongasonedoesnotthinkofit。IfeltIwasbecomingself-conscious。AlmostagainstmywillIassumedamoodygravity。I
  said:"Iseeyouhavekeptherinverygoodorder,Mr。Burns。"
  DirectlyIhadutteredthesewordsIaskedmy-
  selfangrilywhythedeucedidIwanttosaythat?
  Mr。Burnsinanswerhadonlyblinkedatme。Whatonearthdidhemean?
  Ifellbackonaquestionwhichhadbeeninmythoughtsforalongtime——themostnaturalques-
  tiononthelipsofanyseamanwhateverjoiningaship。Ivoicedit(confoundthisself-consciousness)
  inadegagecheerfultone:"Isupposeshecantravel——what?"
  Nowaquestionlikethismighthavebeenan-
  swerednormally,eitherinaccentsofapologeticsorroworwithavisiblysuppressedpride,ina"I
  don’twanttoboast,butyoushallsee,"sortoftone。Therearesailors,too,whowouldhavebeenroughlyoutspoken:"Lazybrute,"oropenlyde-
  lighted:"She’saflyer。"Twoways,iffourmanners。
  ButMr。Burnsfoundanotherway,awayofhisownwhichhad,atallevents,themeritofsavinghisbreath,ifnoother。
  Againhedidnotsayanything。Heonlyfrowned。Anditwasanangryfrown。Iwaited。
  Nothingmorecame。
  "What’sthematter?……Can’tyoutellafterbeingnearlytwoyearsintheship?"Iad-
  dressedhimsharply。
  Helookedasstartledforamomentasthoughhehaddiscoveredmypresenceonlythatverymo-
  ment。Butthispassedoffalmostatonce。Heputonanairofindifference。ButIsupposehethoughtitbettertosaysomething。Hesaidthatashipneeded,justlikeaman,thechancetoshowthebestshecoulddo,andthatthisshiphadneverhadachancesincehehadbeenonboardofher。Notthathecouldremember。Thelastcaptain……
  Hepaused。
  "Hashebeensoveryunlucky?"Iaskedwithfrankincredulity。Mr。Burnsturnedhiseyesawayfromme。No,thelatecaptainwasnotanunluckyman。Onecouldn’tsaythat。Buthehadnotseemedtowanttomakeuseofhisluck。
  Mr。Burns——manofenigmaticmoods——madethisstatementwithaninanimatefaceandstaringwilfullyattheruddercasing。Thestatementitselfwasobscurelysuggestive。Iaskedquietly:
  "Wheredidhedie?"
  "Inthissaloon。Justwhereyouaresittingnow,"answeredMr。Burns。
  Irepressedasillyimpulsetojumpup;butuponthewholeIwasrelievedtohearthathehadnotdiedinthebedwhichwasnowtobemine。I
  pointedouttothechiefmatethatwhatIreallywantedtoknowwaswherehehadburiedhislatecaptain。
  Mr。Burnssaidthatitwasattheentrancetothegulf。Aroomygrave;asufficientanswer。Butthemate,overcomingvisiblysomethingwithinhim——somethinglikeacuriousreluctancetobelieveinmyadvent(asanirrevocablefact,atanyrate),didnotstopatthat——though,indeed,hemayhavewishedtodoso。
  Asacompromisewithhisfeelings,Ibelieve,headdressedhimselfpersistentlytotherudder-casing,sothattomehehadtheappearanceofamantalkinginsolitude,alittleunconsciously,however。
  Histalewasthatatsevenbellsintheforenoonwatchhehadallhandsmusteredonthequarter-
  deckandtoldthemtheyhadbettergodowntosaygood-byetothecaptain。
  Thosewords,asifgrudgedtoanintrudingper-
  sonage,wereenoughformetoevokevividlythatstrangeceremony:Thebare-footed,bare-headedseamencrowdingshylyintothatcabin,asmallmobpressedagainstthatsideboard,uncomfortableratherthanmoved,shirtsopenonsunburntchests,weather-beatenfaces,andallstaringatthedyingmanwiththesamegraveandexpectantexpression。
  "Washeconscious?"Iasked。
  "Hedidn’tspeak,buthemovedhiseyestolookatthem,"saidthemate。
  Afterwaitingamoment,Mr。Burnsmotionedthecrewtoleavethecabin,buthedetainedthetwoeldestmentostaywiththecaptainwhilehewentondeckwithhissextantto"takethesun。"Itwasgettingtowardnoonandhewasanxioustoobtainagoodobservationforlatitude。Whenhereturnedbelowtoputhissextantawayhefoundthatthetwomenhadretreatedoutintothelobby。
  Throughtheopendoorhehadaviewofthecaptainlyingeasyagainstthepillows。Hehad"passedaway"whileMr。Burnswastakingthisobserva-
  tion。Asnearnoonaspossible。Hehadhardlychangedhisposition。
  Mr。Burnssighed,glancedatmeinquisitively,asmuchastosay,"Aren’tyougoingyet?"andthenturnedhisthoughtsfromhisnewcaptainbacktotheold,who,beingdead,hadnoauthority,wasnotinanybody’sway,andwasmucheasiertodealwith。
  Mr。Burnsdealtwithhimatsomelength。Hewasapeculiarman——ofsixty-fiveabout——irongray,hard-faced,obstinate,anduncommunicative。Heusedtokeeptheshiploafingatseaforinscrutablereasons。Wouldcomeondeckatnightsometimes,takesomesailoffher,Godonlyknowswhyorwherefore,thengobelow,shuthimselfupinhiscabin,andplayontheviolinforhours——tillday-
  breakperhaps。Infact,hespentmostofhistimedayornightplayingtheviolin。Thatwaswhenthefittookhim。Veryloud,too。
  Itcametothis,thatMr。Burnsmusteredhiscourageonedayandremonstratedearnestlywiththecaptain。Neitherhenorthesecondmatecouldgetawinkofsleepintheirwatchesbelowforthenoise……Andhowcouldtheybeex-
  pectedtokeepawakewhileonduty?Hepleaded。
  Theanswerofthatsternmanwasthatifheandthesecondmatedidn’tlikethenoise,theywerewel-
  cometopackuptheirtrapsandwalkovertheside。
  Whenthisalternativewasofferedtheshiphap-
  penedtobe600milesfromthenearestland。
  Mr。Burnsatthispointlookedatmewithanairofcuriosity。Ibegantothinkthatmypredecessorwasaremarkablypeculiaroldman。
  ButIhadtohearstrangerthingsyet。Itcameoutthatthisstern,grim,wind-tanned,rough,sea-
  salted,taciturnsailorofsixty-fivewasnotonlyanartist,butaloveraswell。InHaiphong,whentheygotthereafteracourseofmostunprofitableperegrinations(duringwhichtheshipwasnearlylosttwice),hegothimself,inMr。Burns’ownwords,"mixedup"withsomewoman。Mr。Burnshadhadnopersonalknowledgeofthataffair,butpositiveevidenceofitexistedintheshapeofaphotographtakeninHaiphong。Mr。Burnsfounditinoneofthedrawersinthecaptain’sroom。
  InduecourseI,too,sawthatamazinghumandocument(Ieventhrewitoverboardlater)。
  Therehesat,withhishandsreposingonhisknees,bald,squat,gray,bristly,recallingawildboarsomehow;andbyhissidetoweredanawfulmature,whitefemalewithrapaciousnostrilsandacheaplyill-omenedstareinherenormouseyes。Shewasdisguisedinsomesemi-oriental,vulgar,fancycostume。Sheresembledalow-classmediumoroneofthosewomenwhotellfortunesbycardsforhalfacrown。Andyetshewasstriking。Apro-
  fessionalsorceressfromtheslums。Itwasincom-
  prehensible。Therewassomethingawfulinthethoughtthatshewasthelastreflectionoftheworldofpassionforthefiercesoulwhichseemedtolookatoneoutofthesardonicallysavagefaceofthatoldseaman。However,Inoticedthatshewasholdingsomemusicalinstrument——guitarormandoline——
  inherhand。Perhapsthatwasthesecretofhersortilege。
  ForMr。Burnsthatphotographexplainedwhytheunloadedshiphadkeptswelteringatanchorforthreeweeksinapestilentialhotharbourwith-
  outair。Theylaythereandgasped。Thecap-
  tain,appearingnowandthenonshortvisits,mumbledtoMr。Burnsunlikelytalesaboutsomelettershewaswaitingfor。
  Suddenly,aftervanishingforaweek,hecameonboardinthemiddleofthenightandtooktheshipouttoseawiththefirstbreakofdawn。Daylightshowedhimlookingwildandill。Themeregettingclearofthelandtooktwodays,andsomehoworothertheybumpedslightlyonareef。However,noleakdeveloped,andthecaptain,growling"nomatter,"informedMr。BurnsthathehadmadeuphismindtotaketheshiptoHong-Konganddry-
  dockherthere。
  AtthisMr。Burnswasplungedintodespair。Forindeed,tobeatuptoHong-Kongagainstafiercemonsoon,withashipnotsufficientlyballastedandwithhersupplyofwaternotcompleted,wasanin-
  saneproject。
  Butthecaptaingrowledperemptorily,"Stickheratit,"andMr。Burns,dismayedandenraged,stuckheratit,andkeptheratit,blowingawaysails,strainingthespars,exhaustingthecrew——
  nearlymaddenedbytheabsoluteconvictionthattheattemptwasimpossibleandwasboundtoendinsomecatastrophe。
  Meantimethecaptain,shutupinhiscabinandwedgedinacornerofhissetteeagainstthecrazyboundingoftheship,playedtheviolin——or,atanyrate,madecontinuousnoiseonit。
  Whenheappearedondeckhewouldnotspeakandnotalwaysanswerwhenspokento。Itwasobviousthathewasillinsomemysteriousmanner,andbeginningtobreakup。
  Asthedayswentbythesoundsoftheviolinbe-
  camelessandlessloud,tillatlastonlyafeeblescratchingwouldmeetMr。Burns’earashestoodinthesaloonlisteningoutsidethedoorofthecap-
  tain’sstate-room。
  Oneafternooninperfectdesperationheburstintothatroomandmadesuchascene,tearinghishairandshoutingsuchhorridimprecationsthathecowedthecontemptuousspiritofthesickman。
  Thewater-tankswerelow,theyhadnotgainedfiftymilesinafortnight。ShewouldneverreachHong-
  Kong。
  Itwaslikefightingdesperatelytowarddestruc-
  tionfortheshipandthemen。Thiswasevidentwithoutargument。Mr。Burns,losingallrestraint,puthisfaceclosetohiscaptain’sandfairlyyelled:"You,sir,aregoingoutoftheworld。ButIcan’twaittillyouaredeadbeforeIputthehelmup。Youmustdoityourself。Youmustdoitnow!"
  Themanonthecouchsnarledincontempt。
  "SoIamgoingoutoftheworld——amI?"
  "Yes,sir——youhaven’tmanydaysleftinit,"
  saidMr。Burnscalmingdown。"Onecanseeitbyyourface。"
  "Myface,eh?……Well,putupthehelmandbedamnedtoyou。"
  Burnsflewondeck,gottheshipbeforethewind,thencamedownagaincomposed,butresolute。
  "I’veshapedacourseforPuloCondor,sir,"hesaid。"Whenwemakeit,ifyouarestillwithus,you’lltellmeintowhatportyouwishmetotaketheshipandI’lldoit。"
  Theoldmangavehimalookofsavagespite,andsaidthoseatrociouswordsindeadly,slowtones。
  "IfIhadmywish,neithertheshipnoranyofyouwouldeverreachaport。AndIhopeyouwon’t。"
  Mr。Burnswasprofoundlyshocked。Ibelievehewaspositivelyfrightenedatthetime。Itseems,however,thathemanagedtoproducesuchaneffectivelaughthatitwastheoldman’sturntobefrightened。Heshrankwithinhimselfandturnedhisbackonhim。
  "Andhisheadwasnotgonethen,"Mr。Burnsassuredmeexcitedly。"Hemeanteverywordofit。"
  "Suchwaspracticallythelatecaptain’slastspeech。Noconnectedsentencepassedhislipsafterward。Thatnightheusedthelastofhisstrengthtothrowhisfiddleovertheside。Noonehadactuallyseenhimintheact,butafterhisdeathMr。Burnscouldn’tfindthethinganywhere。
  Theemptycasewasverymuchinevidence,butthefiddlewasclearlynotintheship。Andwhereelsecouldithavegonetobutoverboard?"
  "Threwhisviolinoverboard!"Iexclaimed。
  "Hedid,"criedMr。Burnsexcitedly。"Andit’smybeliefhewouldhavetriedtotaketheshipdownwithhimifithadbeeninhumanpower。Henevermeanthertoseehomeagain。Hewouldn’twritetohisowners,heneverwrotetohisoldwife,either——hewasn’tgoingto。Hehadmadeuphismindtocutadriftfromeverything。That’swhatitwas。Hedidn’tcareforbusiness,orfreights,orformakingapassage——oranything。Hemeanttohavegonewanderingabouttheworldtillhelostherwithallhands。"
  Mr。Burnslookedlikeamanwhohadescapedgreatdanger。Foralittlehewouldhaveex-
  claimed:"Ifithadn’tbeenforme!"Andthetransparentinnocenceofhisindignanteyeswasunderlinedquaintlybythearrogantpairofmoustacheswhichheproceededtotwist,andasifextend,horizontally。
  ImighthavesmiledifIhadnotbeenbusywithmyownsensations,whichwerenotthoseofMr。
  Burns。Iwasalreadythemanincommand。Mysensationscouldnotbelikethoseofanyothermanonboard。InthatcommunityIstood,likeakinginhiscountry,inaclassallbymyself。Imeananhereditaryking,notamereelectedheadofastate。
  IwasbroughttheretorulebyanagencyasremotefromthepeopleandasinscrutablealmosttothemastheGraceofGod。
  Andlikeamemberofadynasty,feelingasemi-
  mysticalbondwiththedead,Iwasprofoundlyshockedbymyimmediatepredecessor。
  Thatmanhadbeeninallessentialsbuthisagejustsuchanothermanasmyself。Yettheendofhislifewasacompleteactoftreason,thebetrayalofatraditionwhichseemedtomeasimperativeasanyguideonearthcouldbe。Itappearedthatevenatseaamancouldbecomethevictimofevilspirits。Ifeltonmyfacethebreathofunknownpowersthatshapeourdestinies。
  NottoletthesilencelasttoolongIaskedMr。
  Burnsifhehadwrittentohiscaptain’swife。Heshookhishead。Hehadwrittentonobody。
  Inamomenthebecamesombre。Heneverthoughtofwriting。IttookhimallhistimetowatchincessantlytheloadingoftheshipbyarascallyChinesestevedore。InthisMr。Burnsgavemethefirstglimpseoftherealchiefmate’ssoulwhichdweltuneasilyinhisbody。
  Hemused,thenhastenedonwithgloomyforce。
  "Yes!Thecaptaindiedasnearnoonaspos-
  sible。Ilookedthroughhispapersintheafternoon。
  IreadtheserviceoverhimatsunsetandthenI
  stucktheship’sheadnorthandbroughtherinhere。I——brought——her——in。"
  Hestruckthetablewithhisfist。
  "Shewouldhardlyhavecomeinbyherself,"I
  observed。"Butwhydidn’tyoumakeforSinga-
  poreinstead?"
  Hiseyeswavered。"Thenearestport,"hemutteredsullenly。
  Ihadframedthequestioninperfectinnocence,buthisanswer(thedifferenceindistancewasin-
  significant)andhismannerofferedmeacluetothesimpletruth。Hetooktheshiptoaportwhereheexpectedtobeconfirmedinhistemporarycom-
  mandfromlackofaqualifiedmastertoputoverhishead。WhereasSingapore,hesurmisedjustly,wouldbefullofqualifiedmen。ButhisnaivereasoningforgottotakeintoaccountthetelegraphcablereposingonthebottomoftheveryGulfupwhichhehadturnedthatshipwhichheimaginedhimselftohavesavedfromdestruction。Hencethebitterflavourofourinterview。Itasteditmoreandmoredistinctly——anditwaslessandlesstomytaste。
  "Lookhere,Mr。Burns,"Ibeganveryfirmly。
  "YoumayaswellunderstandthatIdidnotrunafterthiscommand。Itwaspushedinmyway。
  I’veacceptedit。Iamheretotaketheshiphomefirstofall,andyoumaybesurethatIshallseetoitthateveryoneofyouonboardheredoeshisdutytothatend。ThisisallIhavetosay——forthepresent。"
  Hewasonhisfeetbythistime,butinsteadoftakinghisdismissalheremainedwithtrembling,indignantlips,andlookingatmehardasthough,really,afterthis,therewasnothingformetodoincommondecencybuttovanishfromhisoutragedsight。Likeallverysimpleemotionalstatesthiswasmoving。Ifeltsorryforhim——almostsympa-
  thetic,till(seeingthatIdidnotvanish)hespokeinatoneofforcedrestraint。
  "IfIhadn’tawifeandachildathomeyoumaybesure,sir,Iwouldhaveaskedyoutoletmegotheveryminuteyoucameonboard。"
  Iansweredhimwithamatter-of-coursecalmnessasthoughsomeremotethirdpersonwereinquestion。
  "AndI,Mr。Burns,wouldnothaveletyougo。
  Youhavesignedtheship’sarticlesaschiefofficer,andtilltheyareterminatedatthefinalportofdischargeIshallexpectyoutoattendtoyourdutyandgivemethebenefitofyourexperiencetothebestofyourability。"
  Stonyincredulitylingeredinhiseyes:butitbrokedownbeforemyfriendlyattitude。Withaslightupwardtossofhisarms(Igottoknowthatgesturewellafterward)heboltedoutofthecabin。
  Wemighthavesavedourselvesthatlittlepas-
  sageofharmlesssparring。BeforemanydayshadelapseditwasMr。Burnswhowaspleadingwithmeanxiouslynottoleavehimbehind;whileIcouldonlyreturnhimbutdoubtfulanswers。Thewholethingtookonasomewhattragiccomplexion。
  Andthishorribleproblemwasonlyanextrane-
  ousepisode,amerecomplicationinthegeneralproblemofhowtogetthatship——whichwasminewithherappurtenancesandhermen,withherbodyandherspiritnowslumberinginthatpestilentialriver——howtogetherouttosea。
  Mr。Burns,whilestillactingcaptain,hadhastenedtosignacharter-partywhichinanidealworldwithoutguilewouldhavebeenanexcellentdocument。DirectlyIranmyeyeoveritIfore-
  sawtroubleaheadunlessthepeopleoftheotherpartwerequiteexceptionallyfair-mindedandopentoargument。
  Mr。Burns,towhomIimpartedmyfears,chosetotakegreatumbrageatthem。Helookedatmewiththatusualincredulousstare,andsaidbitterly:
  "Isuppose,sir,youwanttomakeoutI’veactedlikeafool?"
  Itoldhim,withmysystematickindlinesswhichalwaysseemedtoaugmenthissurprise,thatIdidnotwanttomakeoutanything。Iwouldleavethattothefuture。
  And,sureenough,thefuturebroughtinalotoftrouble。ThereweredayswhenIusedtoremem-
  berCaptainGileswithnothingshortofabhor-
  rence。Hisconfoundedacutenesshadletmeinforthisjob;whilehisprophecythatI"wouldhavemyhandsfull"comingtrue,madeitappearasifdoneonpurposetoplayaneviljokeonmyyounginnocence。
  Yes。Ihadmyhandsfullofcomplicationswhichweremostvaluableas"experience。"Peoplehaveagreatopinionoftheadvantagesofexperience。
  Butinthisconnectionexperiencemeansalwayssomethingdisagreeableasopposedtothecharmandinnocenceofillusions。
  ImustsayIwaslosingminerapidly。ButontheseinstructivecomplicationsImustnotenlargemorethantosaythattheycouldallberesumedintheoneword:Delay。
  Amankindwhichhasinventedtheproverb,"Timeismoney,"willunderstandmyvexation。