Iwasmadeacquaintedwithhiswifenotlessthanwithhimself。Theywerewellmatched,beingequallymeanandcruel。Iwasnow,forthefirsttimeduringaspaceofmorethansevenyears,madetofeelthepainfulgnawingsofhunger——asomethingwhichI
hadnotexperiencedbeforesinceIleftColonelLloyd’splantation。Itwenthardenoughwithmethen,whenIcouldlookbacktonoperiodatwhichIhadenjoyedasufficiency。ItwastenfoldharderafterlivinginMasterHugh’sfamily,whereIhadalwayshadenoughtoeat,andofthatwhichwasgood。IhavesaidMasterThomaswasameanman。
Hewasso。Nottogiveaslaveenoughtoeat,isregardedasthemostaggravateddevelopmentofmeannessevenamongslaveholders。Theruleis,nomatterhowcoarsethefood,onlylettherebeenoughofit。Thisisthetheory;andinthepartofMarylandfromwhichIcame,itisthegeneralpractice,——thoughtherearemanyexceptions。MasterThomasgaveusenoughofneithercoarsenorfinefood。Therewerefourslavesofusinthekitchen——mysisterEliza,myauntPriscilla,Henny,andmyself;andwewereal-
lowedlessthanahalfofabushelofcorn-mealperweek,andverylittleelse,eitherintheshapeofmeatorvegetables。Itwasnotenoughforustosubsistupon。Wewerethereforereducedtothewretchednecessityoflivingattheexpenseofourneighbors。Thiswedidbybeggingandstealing,whichevercamehandyinthetimeofneed,theonebeingconsideredaslegitimateastheother。Agreatmanytimeshavewepoorcreaturesbeennearlyperishingwithhunger,whenfoodinabundancelaymoulderinginthesafeandsmoke-house,andourpiousmistresswasawareofthefact;andyetthatmistressandherhusbandwouldkneeleverymorn-
ing,andpraythatGodwouldblesstheminbasketandstore!
Badasallslaveholdersare,weseldommeetonedestituteofeveryelementofcharactercommandingrespect。Mymasterwasoneofthisraresort。Idonotknowofonesinglenobleacteverperformedbyhim。Theleadingtraitinhischaracterwasmean-
ness;andiftherewereanyotherelementinhisnature,itwasmadesubjecttothis。Hewasmean;
and,likemostothermeanmen,helackedtheabilitytoconcealhismeanness。CaptainAuldwasnotbornaslaveholder。Hehadbeenapoorman,masteronlyofaBaycraft。Hecameintopossessionofallhisslavesbymarriage;andofallmen,adoptedslave-
holdersaretheworst。Hewascruel,butcowardly。
Hecommandedwithoutfirmness。Intheenforce-
mentofhisrules,hewasattimesrigid,andattimeslax。Attimes,hespoketohisslaveswiththefirmnessofNapoleonandthefuryofademon;atothertimes,hemightwellbemistakenforaninquirerwhohadlosthisway。Hedidnothingofhimself。Hemighthavepassedforalion,butforhisears。Inallthingsnoblewhichheattempted,hisownmeannessshonemostconspicuous。Hisairs,words,andactions,weretheairs,words,andactionsofbornslave-
holders,and,beingassumed,wereawkwardenough。
Hewasnotevenagoodimitator。Hepossessedallthedispositiontodeceive,butwantedthepower。
Havingnoresourceswithinhimself,hewascom-
pelledtobethecopyistofmany,andbeingsuch,hewasforeverthevictimofinconsistency;andofcon-
sequencehewasanobjectofcontempt,andwasheldassuchevenbyhisslaves。Theluxuryofhavingslavesofhisowntowaituponhimwassomethingnewandunpreparedfor。Hewasaslaveholderwith-
outtheabilitytoholdslaves。Hefoundhimselfin-
capableofmanaginghisslaveseitherbyforce,fear,orfraud。Weseldomcalledhim"master;"wegen-
erallycalledhim"CaptainAuld,"andwerehardlydisposedtotitlehimatall。Idoubtnotthatourconducthadmuchtodowithmakinghimappearawkward,andofconsequencefretful。Ourwantofreverenceforhimmusthaveperplexedhimgreatly。
Hewishedtohaveuscallhimmaster,butlackedthefirmnessnecessarytocommandustodoso。Hiswifeusedtoinsistuponourcallinghimso,buttonopurpose。InAugust,1832,mymasterattendedaMethodistcamp-meetingheldintheBay-side,Tal-
botcounty,andthereexperiencedreligion。Iin-
dulgedafainthopethathisconversionwouldleadhimtoemancipatehisslaves,andthat,ifhedidnotdothis,itwould,atanyrate,makehimmorekindandhumane。Iwasdisappointedinboththesere-
spects。Itneithermadehimtobehumanetohisslaves,nortoemancipatethem。Ifithadanyeffectonhischaracter,itmadehimmorecruelandhatefulinallhisways;forIbelievehimtohavebeenamuchworsemanafterhisconversionthanbefore。Priortohisconversion,herelieduponhisowndepravitytoshieldandsustainhiminhissavagebarbarity;
butafterhisconversion,hefoundreligioussanctionandsupportforhisslaveholdingcruelty。Hemadethegreatestpretensionstopiety。Hishousewasthehouseofprayer。Heprayedmorning,noon,andnight。Heverysoondistinguishedhimselfamonghisbrethren,andwassoonmadeaclass-leaderandexhorter。Hisactivityinrevivalswasgreat,andheprovedhimselfaninstrumentinthehandsofthechurchinconvertingmanysouls。Hishousewasthepreachers’home。Theyusedtotakegreatpleasureincomingtheretoputup;forwhilehestarvedus,hestuffedthem。Wehavehadthreeorfourpreachersthereatatime。ThenamesofthosewhousedtocomemostfrequentlywhileIlivedthere,wereMr。
Storks,Mr。Ewery,Mr。Humphry,andMr。Hickey。
IhavealsoseenMr。GeorgeCookmanatourhouse。
WeslaveslovedMr。Cookman。Webelievedhimtobeagoodman。Wethoughthiminstrumentalinget-
tingMr。SamuelHarrison,averyrichslaveholder,toemancipatehisslaves;andbysomemeansgottheimpressionthathewaslaboringtoeffecttheemanci-
pationofalltheslaves。Whenhewasatourhouse,weweresuretobecalledintoprayers。Whentheotherswerethere,weweresometimescalledinandsometimesnot。Mr。Cookmantookmorenoticeofusthaneitheroftheotherministers。Hecouldnotcomeamonguswithoutbetrayinghissympathyforus,and,stupidaswewere,wehadthesagacitytoseeit。
WhileIlivedwithmymasterinSt。Michael’s,therewasawhiteyoungman,aMr。Wilson,whoproposedtokeepaSabbathschoolfortheinstructionofsuchslavesasmightbedisposedtolearntoreadtheNewTestament。Wemetbutthreetimes,whenMr。WestandMr。Fairbanks,bothclass-leaders,withmanyothers,cameuponuswithsticksandothermissiles,droveusoff,andforbadeustomeetagain。ThusendedourlittleSabbathschoolinthepioustownofSt。Michael’s。
Ihavesaidmymasterfoundreligioussanctionforhiscruelty。Asanexample,Iwillstateoneofmanyfactsgoingtoprovethecharge。Ihaveseenhimtieupalameyoungwoman,andwhipherwithaheavycowskinuponhernakedshoulders,causingthewarmredbloodtodrip;and,injustificationofthebloodydeed,hewouldquotethispassageofScripture——"Hethatknowethhismaster’swill,anddoethitnot,shallbebeatenwithmanystripes。"
Masterwouldkeepthislaceratedyoungwomantiedupinthishorridsituationfourorfivehoursatatime。Ihaveknownhimtotieherupearlyinthemorning,andwhipherbeforebreakfast;leaveher,gotohisstore,returnatdinner,andwhipheragain,cuttingherintheplacesalreadymaderawwithhiscruellash。Thesecretofmaster’scrueltytoward"Henny"isfoundinthefactofherbeingalmosthelpless。Whenquiteachild,shefellintothefire,andburnedherselfhorribly。Herhandsweresoburntthatshenevergottheuseofthem。Shecoulddoverylittlebutbearheavyburdens。Shewastomasterabillofexpense;andashewasameanman,shewasaconstantoffencetohim。Heseemeddesirousofgettingthepoorgirloutofexistence。
Hegaveherawayoncetohissister;but,beingapoorgift,shewasnotdisposedtokeepher。Finally,mybenevolentmaster,tousehisownwords,"setheradrifttotakecareofherself。"Herewasare-
cently-convertedman,holdingonuponthemother,andatthesametimeturningoutherhelplesschild,tostarveanddie!MasterThomaswasoneofthemanypiousslaveholderswhoholdslavesfortheverycharitablepurposeoftakingcareofthem。
Mymasterandmyselfhadquiteanumberofdifferences。Hefoundmeunsuitabletohispurpose。
Mycitylife,hesaid,hadhadaveryperniciouseffectuponme。Ithadalmostruinedmeforeverygoodpurpose,andfittedmeforeverythingwhichwasbad。Oneofmygreatestfaultswasthatoflettinghishorserunaway,andgodowntohisfather-in-
law’sfarm,whichwasaboutfivemilesfromSt。
Michael’s。Iwouldthenhavetogoafterit。Myreasonforthiskindofcarelessness,orcarefulness,was,thatIcouldalwaysgetsomethingtoeatwhenIwentthere。MasterWilliamHamilton,mymaster’sfather-in-law,alwaysgavehisslavesenoughtoeat。
Ineverlefttherehungry,nomatterhowgreattheneedofmyspeedyreturn。MasterThomasatlengthsaidhewouldstanditnolonger。Ihadlivedwithhimninemonths,duringwhichtimehehadgivenmeanumberofseverewhippings,alltonogoodpurpose。Heresolvedtoputmeout,ashesaid,tobebroken;and,forthispurpose,heletmeforoneyeartoamannamedEdwardCovey。Mr。Coveywasapoorman,afarm-renter。Herentedtheplaceuponwhichhelived,asalsothehandswithwhichhetilledit。Mr。Coveyhadacquiredaveryhighreputationforbreakingyoungslaves,andthisrepu-
tationwasofimmensevaluetohim。Itenabledhimtogethisfarmtilledwithmuchlessexpensetohimselfthanhecouldhavehaditdonewithoutsuchareputation。SomeslaveholdersthoughtitnotmuchlosstoallowMr。Coveytohavetheirslavesoneyear,forthesakeofthetrainingtowhichtheyweresubjected,withoutanyothercompensation。
Hecouldhireyounghelpwithgreatease,incon-
sequenceofthisreputation。AddedtothenaturalgoodqualitiesofMr。Covey,hewasaprofessorofreligion——apioussoul——amemberandaclass-leaderintheMethodistchurch。Allofthisaddedweighttohisreputationasa"nigger-breaker。"Iwasawareofallthefacts,havingbeenmadeacquaintedwiththembyayoungmanwhohadlivedthere。Inever-
thelessmadethechangegladly;forIwassureofgettingenoughtoeat,whichisnotthesmallestconsiderationtoahungryman。
CHAPTERX
IhadleftMasterThomas’shouse,andwenttolivewithMr。Covey,onthe1stofJanuary,1833。Iwasnow,forthefirsttimeinmylife,afieldhand。Inmynewemployment,Ifoundmyselfevenmoreawkwardthanacountryboyappearedtobeinalargecity。IhadbeenatmynewhomebutoneweekbeforeMr。Coveygavemeaveryseverewhip-
ping,cuttingmyback,causingthebloodtorun,andraisingridgesonmyfleshaslargeasmylittlefinger。
Thedetailsofthisaffairareasfollows:Mr。Coveysentme,veryearlyinthemorningofoneofourcoldestdaysinthemonthofJanuary,tothewoods,togetaloadofwood。Hegavemeateamofun-
brokenoxen。Hetoldmewhichwasthein-handox,andwhichtheoff-handone。Hethentiedtheendofalargeropearoundthehornsofthein-handox,andgavemetheotherendofit,andtoldme,iftheoxenstartedtorun,thatImustholdonupontherope。Ihadneverdrivenoxenbefore,andofcourseIwasveryawkward。I,however,succeededingettingtotheedgeofthewoodswithlittlediffi-
culty;butIhadgotaveryfewrodsintothewoods,whentheoxentookfright,andstartedfulltilt,carry-
ingthecartagainsttrees,andoverstumps,inthemostfrightfulmanner。Iexpectedeverymomentthatmybrainswouldbedashedoutagainstthetrees。Afterrunningthusforaconsiderabledis-
tance,theyfinallyupsetthecart,dashingitwithgreatforceagainstatree,andthrewthemselvesintoadensethicket。HowIescapeddeath,Idonotknow。ThereIwas,entirelyalone,inathickwood,inaplacenewtome。Mycartwasupsetandshat-
tered,myoxenwereentangledamongtheyoungtrees,andtherewasnonetohelpme。Afteralongspellofeffort,Isucceededingettingmycartrighted,myoxendisentangled,andagainyokedtothecart。
InowproceededwithmyteamtotheplacewhereIhad,thedaybefore,beenchoppingwood,andloadedmycartprettyheavily,thinkinginthiswaytotamemyoxen。Ithenproceededonmywayhome。Ihadnowconsumedonehalfoftheday。I
gotoutofthewoodssafely,andnowfeltoutofdanger。Istoppedmyoxentoopenthewoodsgate;
andjustasIdidso,beforeIcouldgetholdofmyox-rope,theoxenagainstarted,rushedthroughthegate,catchingitbetweenthewheelandthebodyofthecart,tearingittopieces,andcomingwithinafewinchesofcrushingmeagainstthegate-post。Thustwice,inoneshortday,Iescapeddeathbythemerestchance。Onmyreturn,ItoldMr。Coveywhathadhappened,andhowithappened。Heor-
deredmetoreturntothewoodsagainimmediately。
Ididso,andhefollowedonafterme。JustasIgotintothewoods,hecameupandtoldmetostopmycart,andthathewouldteachmehowtotrifleawaymytime,andbreakgates。Hethenwenttoalargegum-tree,andwithhisaxecutthreelargeswitches,and,aftertrimmingthemupneatlywithhispocket-
knife,heorderedmetotakeoffmyclothes。Imadehimnoanswer,butstoodwithmyclotheson。Herepeatedhisorder。Istillmadehimnoanswer,nordidImovetostripmyself。Uponthisherushedatmewiththefiercenessofatiger,toreoffmyclothes,andlashedmetillhehadwornouthisswitches,cuttingmesosavagelyastoleavethemarksvisibleforalongtimeafter。Thiswhippingwasthefirstofanumberjustlikeit,andforsimilarof-
fences。
IlivedwithMr。Coveyoneyear。Duringthefirstsixmonths,ofthatyear,scarceaweekpassedwith-
outhiswhippingme。Iwasseldomfreefromasoreback。Myawkwardnesswasalmostalwayshisex-
cuseforwhippingme。Wewereworkedfullyuptothepointofendurance。Longbeforedaywewereup,ourhorsesfed,andbythefirstapproachofdaywewereofftothefieldwithourhoesandplough-
ingteams。Mr。Coveygaveusenoughtoeat,butscarcetimetoeatit。Wewereoftenlessthanfiveminutestakingourmeals。Wewereofteninthefieldfromthefirstapproachofdaytillitslastlingeringrayhadleftus;andatsaving-foddertime,midnightoftencaughtusinthefieldbindingblades。
Coveywouldbeoutwithus。Thewayheusedtostandit,wasthis。Hewouldspendthemostofhisafternoonsinbed。Hewouldthencomeoutfreshintheevening,readytourgeusonwithhiswords,example,andfrequentlywiththewhip。Mr。Coveywasoneofthefewslaveholderswhocouldanddidworkwithhishands。Hewasahard-workingman。
Heknewbyhimselfjustwhatamanoraboycoulddo。Therewasnodeceivinghim。Hisworkwentoninhisabsencealmostaswellasinhispresence;andhehadthefacultyofmakingusfeelthathewaseverpresentwithus。Thishedidbysurprisingus。
Heseldomapproachedthespotwherewewereatworkopenly,ifhecoulddoitsecretly。Healwaysaimedattakingusbysurprise。Suchwashiscunning,thatweusedtocallhim,amongourselves,"thesnake。"Whenwewereatworkinthecornfield,hewouldsometimescrawlonhishandsandkneestoavoiddetection,andallatoncehewouldrisenearlyinourmidst,andscreamout,"Ha,ha!
Come,come!Dashon,dashon!"Thisbeinghismodeofattack,itwasneversafetostopasingleminute。Hiscomingswerelikeathiefinthenight。
Heappearedtousasbeingeverathand。Hewasundereverytree,behindeverystump,ineverybush,andateverywindow,ontheplantation。Hewouldsometimesmounthishorse,asifboundtoSt。Mi-
chael’s,adistanceofsevenmiles,andinhalfanhourafterwardsyouwouldseehimcoiledupinthecornerofthewood-fence,watchingeverymotionoftheslaves。Hewould,forthispurpose,leavehishorsetiedupinthewoods。Again,hewouldsome-
timeswalkuptous,andgiveusordersasthoughhewasuponthepointofstartingonalongjourney,turnhisbackuponus,andmakeasthoughhewasgoingtothehousetogetready;and,beforehewouldgethalfwaythither,hewouldturnshortandcrawlintoafence-corner,orbehindsometree,andtherewatchustillthegoingdownofthesun。
Mr。Covey’sFORTEconsistedinhispowertode-
ceive。Hislifewasdevotedtoplanningandperpe-
tratingthegrossestdeceptions。Everythinghepos-
sessedintheshapeoflearningorreligion,hemadeconformtohisdispositiontodeceive。HeseemedtothinkhimselfequaltodeceivingtheAlmighty。
Hewouldmakeashortprayerinthemorning,andalongprayeratnight;and,strangeasitmayseem,fewmenwouldattimesappearmoredevotionalthanhe。Theexercisesofhisfamilydevotionswerealwayscommencedwithsinging;and,ashewasaverypoorsingerhimself,thedutyofraisingthehymngenerallycameuponme。Hewouldreadhishymn,andnodatmetocommence。Iwouldattimesdoso;atothers,Iwouldnot。Mynon-com-
pliancewouldalmostalwaysproducemuchconfu-
sion。Toshowhimselfindependentofme,hewouldstartandstaggerthroughwithhishymninthemostdiscordantmanner。Inthisstateofmind,heprayedwithmorethanordinaryspirit。Poorman!suchwashisdisposition,andsuccessatdeceiving,Idoverilybelievethathesometimesdeceivedhimselfintothesolemnbelief,thathewasasincereworshipperofthemosthighGod;andthis,too,atatimewhenhemaybesaidtohavebeenguiltyofcompellinghiswomanslavetocommitthesinofadultery。Thefactsinthecasearethese:Mr。Coveywasapoorman;hewasjustcommencinginlife;hewasonlyabletobuyoneslave;and,shockingasisthefact,heboughther,ashesaid,forABREEDER。ThiswomanwasnamedCaroline。Mr。CoveyboughtherfromMr。ThomasLowe,aboutsixmilesfromSt。Mi-
chael’s。Shewasalarge,able-bodiedwoman,abouttwentyyearsold。Shehadalreadygivenbirthtoonechild,whichprovedhertobejustwhathewanted。
Afterbuyingher,hehiredamarriedmanofMr。
SamuelHarrison,tolivewithhimoneyear;andhimheusedtofastenupwithhereverynight!There-
sultwas,that,attheendoftheyear,themiserablewomangavebirthtotwins。AtthisresultMr。Coveyseemedtobehighlypleased,bothwiththemanandthewretchedwoman。Suchwashisjoy,andthatofhiswife,thatnothingtheycoulddoforCarolineduringherconfinementwastoogood,ortoohard,tobedone。Thechildrenwereregardedasbeingquiteanadditiontohiswealth。
Ifatanyonetimeofmylifemorethananother,Iwasmadetodrinkthebitterestdregsofslavery,thattimewasduringthefirstsixmonthsofmystaywithMr。Covey。Wewereworkedinallweathers。
Itwasnevertoohotortoocold;itcouldneverrain,blow,hail,orsnow,toohardforustoworkinthefield。Work,work,work,wasscarcelymoretheorderofthedaythanofthenight。Thelongestdaysweretooshortforhim,andtheshortestnightstoolongforhim。IwassomewhatunmanageablewhenIfirstwentthere,butafewmonthsofthisdisciplinetamedme。Mr。Coveysucceededinbreakingme。I
wasbrokeninbody,soul,andspirit。Mynaturalelasticitywascrushed,myintellectlanguished,thedispositiontoreaddeparted,thecheerfulsparkthatlingeredaboutmyeyedied;thedarknightofslaveryclosedinuponme;andbeholdamantransformedintoabrute!
Sundaywasmyonlyleisuretime。Ispentthisinasortofbeast-likestupor,betweensleepandwake,undersomelargetree。AttimesIwouldriseup,aflashofenergeticfreedomwoulddartthroughmysoul,accompaniedwithafaintbeamofhope,thatflickeredforamoment,andthenvanished。Isankdownagain,mourningovermywretchedcondition。
Iwassometimespromptedtotakemylife,andthatofCovey,butwaspreventedbyacombinationofhopeandfear。Mysufferingsonthisplantationseemnowlikeadreamratherthanasternreality。
OurhousestoodwithinafewrodsoftheChesa-
peakeBay,whosebroadbosomwaseverwhitewithsailsfromeveryquarterofthehabitableglobe。
Thosebeautifulvessels,robedinpurestwhite,sodelightfultotheeyeoffreemen,weretomesomanyshroudedghosts,toterrifyandtormentmewiththoughtsofmywretchedcondition。Ihaveof-
ten,inthedeepstillnessofasummer’sSabbath,stoodallaloneupontheloftybanksofthatnoblebay,andtraced,withsaddenedheartandtearfuleye,thecountlessnumberofsailsmovingofftothemightyocean。Thesightofthesealwaysaffectedmepowerfully。Mythoughtswouldcompelutter-
ance;andthere,withnoaudiencebuttheAlmighty,Iwouldpouroutmysoul’scomplaint,inmyrudeway,withanapostrophetothemovingmultitudeofships:——
"Youareloosedfromyourmoorings,andarefree;
Iamfastinmychains,andamaslave!Youmovemerrilybeforethegentlegale,andIsadlybeforethebloodywhip!Youarefreedom’sswift-wingedangels,thatflyroundtheworld;Iamconfinedinbandsofiron!OthatIwerefree!O,thatIwereononeofyourgallantdecks,andunderyourpro-
tectingwing!Alas!betwixtmeandyou,theturbidwatersroll。Goon,goon。OthatIcouldalsogo!
CouldIbutswim!IfIcouldfly!O,whywasIbornaman,ofwhomtomakeabrute!Thegladshipisgone;shehidesinthedimdistance。Iamleftinthehottesthellofunendingslavery。OGod,saveme!God,deliverme!Letmebefree!IsthereanyGod?WhyamIaslave?Iwillrunaway。Iwillnotstandit。Getcaught,orgetclear,I’lltryit。Ihadaswelldiewithagueasthefever。Ihaveonlyonelifetolose。Ihadaswellbekilledrunningasdiestanding。Onlythinkofit;onehundredmilesstraightnorth,andIamfree!Tryit?Yes!Godhelpingme,Iwill。ItcannotbethatIshallliveanddieaslave。Iwilltaketothewater。Thisverybayshallyetbearmeintofreedom。Thesteam-
boatssteeredinanorth-eastcoursefromNorthPoint。Iwilldothesame;andwhenIgettotheheadofthebay,Iwillturnmycanoeadrift,andwalkstraightthroughDelawareintoPennsylvania。
WhenIgetthere,Ishallnotberequiredtohaveapass;Icantravelwithoutbeingdisturbed。Letbutthefirstopportunityoffer,and,comewhatwill,I
amoff。Meanwhile,Iwilltrytobearupundertheyoke。Iamnottheonlyslaveintheworld。WhyshouldIfret?Icanbearasmuchasanyofthem。
Besides,Iambutaboy,andallboysareboundtosomeone。ItmaybethatmymiseryinslaverywillonlyincreasemyhappinesswhenIgetfree。Thereisabetterdaycoming。"
ThusIusedtothink,andthusIusedtospeaktomyself;goadedalmosttomadnessatonemo-
ment,andatthenextreconcilingmyselftomywretchedlot。
Ihavealreadyintimatedthatmyconditionwasmuchworse,duringthefirstsixmonthsofmystayatMr。Covey’s,thaninthelastsix。Thecircum-
stancesleadingtothechangeinMr。Covey’scoursetowardmeformanepochinmyhumblehistory。
Youhaveseenhowamanwasmadeaslave;youshallseehowaslavewasmadeaman。OnoneofthehottestdaysofthemonthofAugust,1833,BillSmith,WilliamHughes,aslavenamedEli,andmyself,wereengagedinfanningwheat。Hugheswasclearingthefannedwheatfrombeforethefan。Eliwasturning,Smithwasfeeding,andIwascarryingwheattothefan。Theworkwassimple,requiringstrengthratherthanintellect;yet,tooneentirelyunusedtosuchwork,itcameveryhard。Aboutthreeo’clockofthatday,Ibrokedown;mystrengthfailedme;Iwasseizedwithaviolentachingofthehead,attendedwithextremedizziness;Itrembledineverylimb。Findingwhatwascoming,Inervedmyselfup,feelingitwouldneverdotostopwork。IstoodaslongasIcouldstaggertothehopperwithgrain。
WhenIcouldstandnolonger,Ifell,andfeltasifhelddownbyanimmenseweight。Thefanofcoursestopped;everyonehadhisownworktodo;
andnoonecoulddotheworkoftheother,andhavehisowngoonatthesametime。
Mr。Coveywasatthehouse,aboutonehundredyardsfromthetreading-yardwherewewerefanning。
Onhearingthefanstop,heleftimmediately,andcametothespotwherewewere。Hehastilyin-
quiredwhatthematterwas。BillansweredthatI
wassick,andtherewasnoonetobringwheattothefan。Ihadbythistimecrawledawayunderthesideofthepostandrail-fencebywhichtheyardwasenclosed,hopingtofindreliefbygettingoutofthesun。HethenaskedwhereIwas。Hewastoldbyoneofthehands。Hecametothespot,and,afterlookingatmeawhile,askedmewhatwasthematter。ItoldhimaswellasIcould,forIscarcehadstrengthtospeak。Hethengavemeasavagekickintheside,andtoldmetogetup。Itriedtodoso,butfellbackintheattempt。Hegavemeanotherkick,andagaintoldmetorise。Iagaintried,andsucceededingainingmyfeet;but,stoop-
ingtogetthetubwithwhichIwasfeedingthefan,Iagainstaggeredandfell。Whiledowninthissituation,Mr。CoveytookupthehickoryslatwithwhichHugheshadbeenstrikingoffthehalf-bushelmeasure,andwithitgavemeaheavyblowuponthehead,makingalargewound,andthebloodranfreely;andwiththisagaintoldmetogetup。Imadenoefforttocomply,havingnowmadeupmymindtolethimdohisworst。Inashorttimeafterre-
ceivingthisblow,myheadgrewbetter。Mr。Coveyhadnowleftmetomyfate。AtthismomentIre-
solved,forthefirsttime,togotomymaster,enteracomplaint,andaskhisprotection。Inordertodothis,Imustthatafternoonwalksevenmiles;andthis,underthecircumstances,wastrulyasevereundertaking。Iwasexceedinglyfeeble;madesoasmuchbythekicksandblowswhichIreceived,asbytheseverefitofsicknesstowhichIhadbeensubjected。I,however,watchedmychance,whileCoveywaslookinginanoppositedirection,andstartedforSt。Michael’s。Isucceededingettingaconsiderabledistanceonmywaytothewoods,whenCoveydiscoveredme,andcalledaftermetocomeback,threateningwhathewoulddoifIdidnotcome。Idisregardedbothhiscallsandhisthreats,andmademywaytothewoodsasfastasmyfeeblestatewouldallow;andthinkingImightbeover-
hauledbyhimifIkepttheroad,Iwalkedthroughthewoods,keepingfarenoughfromtheroadtoavoiddetection,andnearenoughtopreventlosingmyway。Ihadnotgonefarbeforemylittlestrengthagainfailedme。Icouldgonofarther。Ifelldown,andlayforaconsiderabletime。Thebloodwasyetoozingfromthewoundonmyhead。ForatimeI
thoughtIshouldbleedtodeath;andthinknowthatIshouldhavedoneso,butthatthebloodsomattedmyhairastostopthewound。Afterlyingthereaboutthreequartersofanhour,Inervedmyselfupagain,andstartedonmyway,throughbogsandbriers,barefootedandbareheaded,tearingmyfeetsometimesatnearlyeverystep;andafterajourneyofaboutsevenmiles,occupyingsomefivehourstoperformit,Iarrivedatmaster’sstore。Ithenpre-
sentedanappearanceenoughtoaffectanybutaheartofiron。Fromthecrownofmyheadtomyfeet,Iwascoveredwithblood。Myhairwasallclottedwithdustandblood;myshirtwasstiffwithblood。IsupposeIlookedlikeamanwhohades-
capedadenofwildbeasts,andbarelyescapedthem。
InthisstateIappearedbeforemymaster,humblyentreatinghimtointerposehisauthorityformyprotection。ItoldhimallthecircumstancesaswellasIcould,anditseemed,asIspoke,attimestoaffecthim。Hewouldthenwalkthefloor,andseektojustifyCoveybysayingheexpectedIdeservedit。HeaskedmewhatIwanted。Itoldhim,toletmegetanewhome;thatassureasIlivedwithMr。
Coveyagain,Ishouldlivewithbuttodiewithhim;thatCoveywouldsurelykillme;hewasinafairwayforit。MasterThomasridiculedtheideathattherewasanydangerofMr。Covey’skillingme,andsaidthatheknewMr。Covey;thathewasagoodman,andthathecouldnotthinkoftakingmefromhim;that,shouldhedoso,hewouldlosethewholeyear’swages;thatIbelongedtoMr。Coveyforoneyear,andthatImustgobacktohim,comewhatmight;andthatImustnottroublehimwithanymorestories,orthathewouldhimselfGETHOLD
OFME。Afterthreateningmethus,hegavemeaverylargedoseofsalts,tellingmethatImightremaininSt。Michael’sthatnight,(itbeingquitelate,)
butthatImustbeoffbacktoMr。Covey’searlyinthemorning;andthatifIdidnot,hewould~getholdofme,~whichmeantthathewouldwhipme。Iremainedallnight,and,accordingtohisor-
ders,IstartedofftoCovey’sinthemorning,(Sat-
urdaymorning,)weariedinbodyandbrokeninspirit。Igotnosupperthatnight,orbreakfastthatmorning。IreachedCovey’saboutnineo’clock;andjustasIwasgettingoverthefencethatdividedMrs。Kemp’sfieldsfromours,outranCoveywithhiscowskin,togivemeanotherwhipping。Beforehecouldreachme,Isucceededingettingtothecornfield;andasthecornwasveryhigh,itaffordedmethemeansofhiding。Heseemedveryangry,andsearchedformealongtime。Mybehaviorwasal-
togetherunaccountable。Hefinallygaveupthechase,thinking,Isuppose,thatImustcomehomeforsomethingtoeat;hewouldgivehimselfnofur-
thertroubleinlookingforme。Ispentthatdaymostlyinthewoods,havingthealternativebeforeme,——togohomeandbewhippedtodeath,orstayinthewoodsandbestarvedtodeath。Thatnight,IfellinwithSandyJenkins,aslavewithwhomIwassomewhatacquainted。SandyhadafreewifewholivedaboutfourmilesfromMr。Covey’s;anditbeingSaturday,hewasonhiswaytoseeher。I
toldhimmycircumstances,andheverykindlyin-
vitedmetogohomewithhim。Iwenthomewithhim,andtalkedthiswholematterover,andgothisadviceastowhatcourseitwasbestformetopursue。
IfoundSandyanoldadviser。Hetoldme,withgreatsolemnity,ImustgobacktoCovey;butthatbeforeIwent,Imustgowithhimintoanotherpartofthewoods,wheretherewasacertain~root,~
which,ifIwouldtakesomeofitwithme,carryingit~alwaysonmyrightside,~wouldrenderitimpos-
sibleforMr。Covey,oranyotherwhiteman,towhipme。Hesaidhehadcarrieditforyears;andsincehehaddoneso,hehadneverreceivedablow,andneverexpectedtowhilehecarriedit。Iatfirstrejectedtheidea,thatthesimplecarryingofarootinmypocketwouldhaveanysucheffectashehadsaid,andwasnotdisposedtotakeit;butSandyimpressedthenecessitywithmuchearnestness,tell-
ingmeitcoulddonoharm,ifitdidnogood。Topleasehim,Iatlengthtooktheroot,and,ac-
cordingtohisdirection,carriedituponmyrightside。ThiswasSundaymorning。Iimmediatelystartedforhome;anduponenteringtheyardgate,outcameMr。Coveyonhiswaytomeeting。Hespoketomeverykindly,bademedrivethepigsfromalotnearby,andpassedontowardsthechurch。Now,thissingularconductofMr。Coveyreallymademebegintothinkthattherewassome-
thingintheROOTwhichSandyhadgivenme;andhaditbeenonanyotherdaythanSunday,Icouldhaveattributedtheconducttonoothercausethantheinfluenceofthatroot;andasitwas,Iwashalfinclinedtothinkthe~root~tobesomethingmorethanIatfirsthadtakenittobe。AllwentwelltillMondaymorning。Onthismorning,thevirtueoftheROOTwasfullytested。Longbeforedaylight,I
wascalledtogoandrub,curry,andfeed,thehorses。
Iobeyed,andwasgladtoobey。Butwhilstthusengaged,whilstintheactofthrowingdownsomebladesfromtheloft,Mr。Coveyenteredthestablewithalongrope;andjustasIwashalfoutoftheloft,hecaughtholdofmylegs,andwasabouttyingme。AssoonasIfoundwhathewasupto,Igaveasuddenspring,andasIdidso,heholdingtomylegs,Iwasbroughtsprawlingonthestablefloor。
Mr。Coveyseemednowtothinkhehadme,andcoulddowhathepleased;butatthismoment——
fromwhencecamethespiritIdon’tknow——Ire-
solvedtofight;and,suitingmyactiontothereso-
lution,IseizedCoveyhardbythethroat;andasI
didso,Irose。Heheldontome,andItohim。MyresistancewassoentirelyunexpectedthatCoveyseemedtakenallaback。Hetrembledlikealeaf。
Thisgavemeassurance,andIheldhimuneasy,causingthebloodtorunwhereItouchedhimwiththeendsofmyfingers。Mr。CoveysooncalledouttoHughesforhelp。Hughescame,and,whileCoveyheldme,attemptedtotiemyrighthand。Whilehewasintheactofdoingso,Iwatchedmychance,andgavehimaheavykickcloseundertheribs。
ThiskickfairlysickenedHughes,sothatheleftmeinthehandsofMr。Covey。ThiskickhadtheeffectofnotonlyweakeningHughes,butCoveyalso。
WhenhesawHughesbendingoverwithpain,hiscouragequailed。HeaskedmeifImeanttopersistinmyresistance。ItoldhimIdid,comewhatmight;thathehadusedmelikeabruteforsixmonths,andthatIwasdeterminedtobeusedsonolonger。Withthat,hestrovetodragmetoastickthatwaslyingjustoutofthestabledoor。Hemeanttoknockmedown。Butjustashewasleaningovertogetthestick,Iseizedhimwithbothhandsbyhiscollar,andbroughthimbyasuddensnatchtotheground。Bythistime,Billcame。Coveycalleduponhimforassistance。Billwantedtoknowwhathecoulddo。Coveysaid,"Takeholdofhim,takeholdofhim!"Billsaidhismasterhiredhimouttowork,andnottohelptowhipme;soheleftCoveyandmyselftofightourownbattleout。Wewereatitfornearlytwohours。Coveyatlengthletmego,puffingandblowingatagreatrate,sayingthatifIhadnotresisted,hewouldnothavewhippedmehalfsomuch。Thetruthwas,thathehadnotwhippedmeatall。Iconsideredhimasgettingen-
tirelytheworstendofthebargain;forhehaddrawnnobloodfromme,butIhadfromhim。Thewholesixmonthsafterwards,thatIspentwithMr。Covey,heneverlaidtheweightofhisfingeruponmeinanger。Hewouldoccasionallysay,hedidn’twanttogetholdofmeagain。"No,"thoughtI,"youneednot;foryouwillcomeoffworsethanyoudidbefore。"
ThisbattlewithMr。Coveywastheturning-
pointinmycareerasaslave。Itrekindledthefewexpiringembersoffreedom,andrevivedwithinmeasenseofmyownmanhood。Itrecalledthede-
partedself-confidence,andinspiredmeagainwithadeterminationtobefree。Thegratificationaf-
fordedbythetriumphwasafullcompensationforwhateverelsemightfollow,evendeathitself。HeonlycanunderstandthedeepsatisfactionwhichI
experienced,whohashimselfrepelledbyforcethebloodyarmofslavery。IfeltasIneverfeltbefore。
Itwasagloriousresurrection,fromthetombofslavery,totheheavenoffreedom。Mylong-crushedspiritrose,cowardicedeparted,bolddefiancetookitsplace;andInowresolvedthat,howeverlongI
mightremainaslaveinform,thedayhadpassedforeverwhenIcouldbeaslaveinfact。Ididnothesitatetoletitbeknownofme,thatthewhitemanwhoexpectedtosucceedinwhipping,mustalsosucceedinkillingme。
FromthistimeIwasneveragainwhatmightbecalledfairlywhipped,thoughIremainedaslavefouryearsafterwards。Ihadseveralfights,butwasneverwhipped。
ItwasforalongtimeamatterofsurprisetomewhyMr。Coveydidnotimmediatelyhavemetakenbytheconstabletothewhipping-post,andthereregularlywhippedforthecrimeofraisingmyhandagainstawhitemanindefenceofmyself。AndtheonlyexplanationIcannowthinkofdoesnotentirelysatisfyme;butsuchasitis,Iwillgiveit。Mr。Coveyenjoyedthemostunboundedreputationforbeingafirst-rateoverseerandnegro-breaker。Itwasofcon-
siderableimportancetohim。Thatreputationwasatstake;andhadhesentme——aboyaboutsixteenyearsold——tothepublicwhipping-post,hisreputationwouldhavebeenlost;so,tosavehisreputation,hesufferedmetogounpunished。
MytermofactualservicetoMr。EdwardCoveyendedonChristmasday,1833。ThedaysbetweenChristmasandNewYear’sdayareallowedasholi-
days;and,accordingly,wewerenotrequiredtoper-
formanylabor,morethantofeedandtakecareofthestock。Thistimeweregardedasourown,bythegraceofourmasters;andwethereforeusedorabuseditnearlyaswepleased。Thoseofuswhohadfamiliesatadistance,weregenerallyallowedtospendthewholesixdaysintheirsociety。Thistime,however,wasspentinvariousways。Thestaid,sober,thinkingandindustriousonesofournumberwouldemploythemselvesinmakingcorn-brooms,mats,horse-collars,andbaskets;andanotherclassofuswouldspendthetimeinhuntingopossums,hares,andcoons。Butbyfarthelargerpartengagedinsuchsportsandmerrimentsasplayingball,wres-
tling,runningfoot-races,fiddling,dancing,anddrinkingwhisky;andthislattermodeofspendingthetimewasbyfarthemostagreeabletothefeel-
ingsofourmasters。Aslavewhowouldworkduringtheholidayswasconsideredbyourmastersasscarcelydeservingthem。Hewasregardedasonewhorejectedthefavorofhismaster。ItwasdeemedadisgracenottogetdrunkatChristmas;andhewasregardedaslazyindeed,whohadnotprovidedhimselfwiththenecessarymeans,duringtheyear,togetwhiskyenoughtolasthimthroughChristmas。
FromwhatIknowoftheeffectoftheseholidaysupontheslave,Ibelievethemtobeamongthemosteffectivemeansinthehandsoftheslaveholderinkeepingdownthespiritofinsurrection。Weretheslaveholdersatoncetoabandonthispractice,Ihavenottheslightestdoubtitwouldleadtoanimmediateinsurrectionamongtheslaves。Theseholidaysserveasconductors,orsafety-valves,tocarryofftherebelliousspiritofenslavedhumanity。Butforthese,theslavewouldbeforceduptothewild-
estdesperation;andwoebetidetheslaveholder,thedayheventurestoremoveorhindertheoperationofthoseconductors!Iwarnhimthat,insuchanevent,aspiritwillgoforthintheirmidst,moretobedreadedthanthemostappallingearthquake。
Theholidaysarepartandparcelofthegrossfraud,wrong,andinhumanityofslavery。Theyareprofessedlyacustomestablishedbythebenevolenceoftheslaveholders;butIundertaketosay,itistheresultofselfishness,andoneofthegrossestfraudscommitteduponthedown-troddenslave。Theydonotgivetheslavesthistimebecausetheywouldnotliketohavetheirworkduringitscontinuance,butbecausetheyknowitwouldbeunsafetodeprivethemofit。Thiswillbeseenbythefact,thattheslaveholdersliketohavetheirslavesspendthosedaysjustinsuchamannerastomakethemasgladoftheirendingasoftheirbeginning。Theirobjectseemstobe,todisgusttheirslaveswithfreedom,byplungingthemintothelowestdepthsofdissipa-
tion。Forinstance,theslaveholdersnotonlyliketoseetheslavedrinkofhisownaccord,butwilladoptvariousplanstomakehimdrunk。Oneplanis,tomakebetsontheirslaves,astowhocandrinkthemostwhiskywithoutgettingdrunk;andinthiswaytheysucceedingettingwholemultitudestodrinktoexcess。Thus,whentheslaveasksforvirtuousfreedom,thecunningslaveholder,knowinghisig-
norance,cheatshimwithadoseofviciousdissi-
pation,artfullylabelledwiththenameofliberty。
Themostofususedtodrinkitdown,andtheresultwasjustwhatmightbesupposed;manyofuswereledtothinkthattherewaslittletochoosebetweenlibertyandslavery。Wefelt,andveryprop-
erlytoo,thatwehadalmostaswellbeslavestomanastorum。So,whentheholidaysended,westaggeredupfromthefilthofourwallowing,tookalongbreath,andmarchedtothefield,——feeling,uponthewhole,rathergladtogo,fromwhatourmasterhaddeceivedusintoabeliefwasfreedom,backtothearmsofslavery。
Ihavesaidthatthismodeoftreatmentisapartofthewholesystemoffraudandinhumanityofslavery。Itisso。Themodehereadoptedtodisgusttheslavewithfreedom,byallowinghimtoseeonlytheabuseofit,iscarriedoutinotherthings。Forinstance,aslavelovesmolasses;hestealssome。
Hismaster,inmanycases,goesofftotown,andbuysalargequantity;hereturns,takeshiswhip,andcommandstheslavetoeatthemolasses,untilthepoorfellowismadesickattheverymentionofit。Thesamemodeissometimesadoptedtomaketheslavesrefrainfromaskingformorefoodthantheirregularallowance。Aslaverunsthroughhisallowance,andappliesformore。Hismasterisen-
ragedathim;but,notwillingtosendhimoffwith-
outfood,giveshimmorethanisnecessary,andcom-
pelshimtoeatitwithinagiventime。Then,ifhecomplainsthathecannoteatit,heissaidtobesatisfiedneitherfullnorfasting,andiswhippedforbeinghardtoplease!Ihaveanabundanceofsuchillustrationsofthesameprinciple,drawnfrommyownobservation,butthinkthecasesIhavecitedsufficient。Thepracticeisaverycommonone。
OnthefirstofJanuary,1834,IleftMr。Covey,andwenttolivewithMr。WilliamFreeland,wholivedaboutthreemilesfromSt。Michael’s。IsoonfoundMr。FreelandaverydifferentmanfromMr。
Covey。Thoughnotrich,hewaswhatwouldbecalledaneducatedsoutherngentleman。Mr。Covey,asIhaveshown,wasawell-trainednegro-breakerandslave-driver。Theformer(slaveholderthoughhewas)seemedtopossesssomeregardforhonor,somereverenceforjustice,andsomerespectforhumanity。Thelatterseemedtotallyinsensibletoallsuchsentiments。Mr。Freelandhadmanyofthefaultspeculiartoslaveholders,suchasbeingverypassionateandfretful;butImustdohimthejusticetosay,thathewasexceedinglyfreefromthosedegradingvicestowhichMr。Coveywascon-
stantlyaddicted。Theonewasopenandfrank,andwealwaysknewwheretofindhim。Theotherwasamostartfuldeceiver,andcouldbeunderstoodonlybysuchaswereskilfulenoughtodetecthiscun-
ningly-devisedfrauds。AnotheradvantageIgainedinmynewmasterwas,hemadenopretensionsto,orprofessionof,religion;andthis,inmyopinion,wastrulyagreatadvantage。Iassertmostunhesi-
tatingly,thatthereligionofthesouthisamerecoveringforthemosthorridcrimes,——ajustifierofthemostappallingbarbarity,——asanctifierofthemosthatefulfrauds,——andadarkshelterunder,whichthedarkest,foulest,grossest,andmostinfer-
naldeedsofslaveholdersfindthestrongestprotec-
tion。WereItobeagainreducedtothechainsofslavery,nexttothatenslavement,Ishouldregardbeingtheslaveofareligiousmasterthegreatestcalamitythatcouldbefallme。ForofallslaveholderswithwhomIhaveevermet,religiousslaveholdersaretheworst。Ihaveeverfoundthemthemeanestandbasest,themostcruelandcowardly,ofalloth-
ers。Itwasmyunhappylotnotonlytobelongtoareligiousslaveholder,buttoliveinacommunityofsuchreligionists。VerynearMr。FreelandlivedtheRev。DanielWeeden,andinthesameneighborhoodlivedtheRev。RigbyHopkins。TheseweremembersandministersintheReformedMethodistChurch。
Mr。Weedenowned,amongothers,awomanslave,whosenameIhaveforgotten。Thiswoman’sback,forweeks,waskeptliterallyraw,madesobythelashofthismerciless,~religious~wretch。Heusedtohirehands。Hismaximwas,Behavewellorbehaveill,itisthedutyofamasteroccasionallytowhipaslave,toremindhimofhismaster’sauthority。
Suchwashistheory,andsuchhispractice。
Mr。HopkinswasevenworsethanMr。Weeden。
Hischiefboastwashisabilitytomanageslaves。
Thepeculiarfeatureofhisgovernmentwasthatofwhippingslavesinadvanceofdeservingit。HealwaysmanagedtohaveoneormoreofhisslavestowhipeveryMondaymorning。Hedidthistoalarmtheirfears,andstriketerrorintothosewhoescaped。
Hisplanwastowhipforthesmallestoffences,topreventthecommissionoflargeones。Mr。Hopkinscouldalwaysfindsomeexcuseforwhippingaslave。
Itwouldastonishone,unaccustomedtoaslave-
holdinglife,toseewithwhatwonderfuleaseaslave-
holdercanfindthings,ofwhichtomakeoccasiontowhipaslave。Amerelook,word,ormotion,——amistake,accident,orwantofpower,——areallmattersforwhichaslavemaybewhippedatanytime。Doesaslavelookdissatisfied?Itissaid,hehasthedevilinhim,anditmustbewhippedout。Doeshespeakloudlywhenspokentobyhismaster?Thenheisgettinghigh-minded,andshouldbetakendownabutton-holelower。Doesheforgettopulloffhishatattheapproachofawhiteperson?Thenheiswantinginreverence,andshouldbewhippedforit。Doesheeverventuretovindicatehisconduct,whencensuredforit?Thenheisguiltyofimpu-
dence,——oneofthegreatestcrimesofwhichaslavecanbeguilty。Doesheeverventuretosuggestadifferentmodeofdoingthingsfromthatpointedoutbyhismaster?Heisindeedpresumptuous,andgettingabovehimself;andnothinglessthanaflog-
gingwilldoforhim。Doeshe,whileploughing,breakaplough,——or,whilehoeing,breakahoe?Itisowingtohiscarelessness,andforitaslavemustalwaysbewhipped。Mr。Hopkinscouldalwaysfindsomethingofthissorttojustifytheuseofthelash,andheseldomfailedtoembracesuchopportunities。
Therewasnotamaninthewholecounty,withwhomtheslaveswhohadthegettingtheirownhome,wouldnotprefertolive,ratherthanwiththisRev。Mr。Hopkins。Andyettherewasnotamananywhereround,whomadehigherprofessionsofreligion,orwasmoreactiveinrevivals,——moreattentivetotheclass,love-feast,prayerandpreach-
ingmeetings,ormoredevotionalinhisfamily,——
thatprayedearlier,later,louder,andlonger,——thanthissamereverendslave-driver,RigbyHopkins。
ButtoreturntoMr。Freeland,andtomyexperi-
encewhileinhisemployment。He,likeMr。Covey,gaveusenoughtoeat;but,unlikeMr。Covey,healsogaveussufficienttimetotakeourmeals。Heworkedushard,butalwaysbetweensunriseandsunset。Herequiredagooddealofworktobedone,butgaveusgoodtoolswithwhichtowork。Hisfarmwaslarge,butheemployedhandsenoughtoworkit,andwithease,comparedwithmanyofhisneighbors。Mytreatment,whileinhisemploy-
ment,washeavenly,comparedwithwhatIexperi-
encedatthehandsofMr。EdwardCovey。
Mr。Freelandwashimselftheownerofbuttwoslaves。TheirnameswereHenryHarrisandJohnHarris。Therestofhishandshehired。Thesecon-
sistedofmyself,SandyJenkins,*andHandyCald-
well。HenryandJohnwerequiteintelligent,andinaverylittlewhileafterIwentthere,Isucceededincreatinginthemastrongdesiretolearnhowtoread。Thisdesiresoonsprangupintheothersalso。
Theyverysoonmusteredupsomeoldspelling-books,andnothingwoulddobutthatImustkeepaSab-
bathschool。Iagreedtodoso,andaccordinglydevotedmySundaystoteachingthesemylovedfel-
low-slaveshowtoread。NeitherofthemknewhisletterswhenIwentthere。Someoftheslavesoftheneighboringfarmsfoundwhatwasgoingon,andalsoavailedthemselvesofthislittleopportunitytolearntoread。Itwasunderstood,amongallwhocame,thattheremustbeaslittledisplayaboutitaspossible。ItwasnecessarytokeepourreligiousmastersatSt。Michael’sunacquaintedwiththefact,that,insteadofspendingtheSabbathinwrestling,boxing,anddrinkingwhisky,weweretryingtolearnhowtoreadthewillofGod;fortheyhadmuch*ThisisthesamemanwhogavemetherootstopreventmybeingwhippedbyMr。Covey。Hewas"acleversoul。"
WeusedfrequentlytotalkaboutthefightwithCovey,andasoftenaswedidso,hewouldclaimmysuccessastheresultoftherootswhichhegaveme。Thissuperstitionisverycommonamongthemoreignorantslaves。Aslaveseldomdiesbutthathisdeathisattributedtotrickery。
ratherseeusengagedinthosedegradingsports,thantoseeusbehavinglikeintellectual,moral,andac-
countablebeings。MybloodboilsasIthinkofthebloodymannerinwhichMessrs。WrightFairbanksandGarrisonWest,bothclass-leaders,inconnectionwithmanyothers,rushedinuponuswithsticksandstones,andbrokeupourvirtuouslittleSab-
bathschool,atSt。Michael’s——allcallingthemselvesChristians!humblefollowersoftheLordJesusChrist!ButIamagaindigressing。
IheldmySabbathschoolatthehouseofafreecoloredman,whosenameIdeemitimprudenttomention;forshoulditbeknown,itmightembar-
rasshimgreatly,thoughthecrimeofholdingtheschoolwascommittedtenyearsago。Ihadatonetimeoverfortyscholars,andthoseoftherightsort,ardentlydesiringtolearn。Theywereofallages,thoughmostlymenandwomen。IlookbacktothoseSundayswithanamountofpleasurenottobeex-
pressed。Theyweregreatdaystomysoul。Theworkofinstructingmydearfellow-slaveswasthesweetestengagementwithwhichIwaseverblessed。Welovedeachother,andtoleavethematthecloseoftheSabbathwasaseverecrossindeed。WhenIthinkthattheseprecioussoulsareto-dayshutupintheprison-houseofslavery,myfeelingsovercomeme,andIamalmostreadytoask,"DoesarighteousGodgoverntheuniverse?andforwhatdoesheholdthethundersinhisrighthand,ifnottosmitetheoppressor,anddeliverthespoiledoutofthehandofthespoiler?"ThesedearsoulscamenottoSab-
bathschoolbecauseitwaspopulartodoso,nordidIteachthembecauseitwasreputabletobethusengaged。Everymomenttheyspentinthatschool,theywereliabletobetakenup,andgiventhirty-
ninelashes。Theycamebecausetheywishedtolearn。Theirmindshadbeenstarvedbytheircruelmasters。Theyhadbeenshutupinmentaldarkness。
Itaughtthem,becauseitwasthedelightofmysoultobedoingsomethingthatlookedlikebetter-
ingtheconditionofmyrace。IkeptupmyschoolnearlythewholeyearIlivedwithMr。Freeland;
and,besidemySabbathschool,Idevotedthreeeve-
ningsintheweek,duringthewinter,toteachingtheslavesathome。AndIhavethehappinesstoknow,thatseveralofthosewhocametoSabbathschoollearnedhowtoread;andthatone,atleast,isnowfreethroughmyagency。
Theyearpassedoffsmoothly。Itseemedonlyabouthalfaslongastheyearwhichprecededit。
Iwentthroughitwithoutreceivingasingleblow。
IwillgiveMr。FreelandthecreditofbeingthebestmasterIeverhad,~tillIbecamemyownmas-
ter。~FortheeasewithwhichIpassedtheyear,I
was,however,somewhatindebtedtothesocietyofmyfellow-slaves。Theywerenoblesouls;theynotonlypossessedlovinghearts,butbraveones。Wewerelinkedandinterlinkedwitheachother。IlovedthemwithalovestrongerthananythingIhaveexperiencedsince。Itissometimessaidthatweslavesdonotloveandconfideineachother。Inanswertothisassertion,Icansay,Ineverlovedanyorconfidedinanypeoplemorethanmyfellow-
slaves,andespeciallythosewithwhomIlivedatMr。Freeland’s。Ibelievewewouldhavediedforeachother。Weneverundertooktodoanything,ofanyimportance,withoutamutualconsultation。
Wenevermovedseparately。Wewereone;andasmuchsobyourtempersanddispositions,asbythemutualhardshipstowhichwewerenecessarilysub-
jectedbyourconditionasslaves。
Atthecloseoftheyear1834,Mr。Freelandagainhiredmeofmymaster,fortheyear1835。But,bythistime,Ibegantowanttolive~uponfreeland~
aswellas~withfreeland;~andIwasnolongercon-
tent,therefore,tolivewithhimoranyotherslave-
holder。Ibegan,withthecommencementoftheyear,topreparemyselfforafinalstruggle,whichshoulddecidemyfateonewayortheother。Mytendencywasupward。Iwasfastapproachingman-
hood,andyearafteryearhadpassed,andIwasstillaslave。Thesethoughtsrousedme——Imustdosomething。Ithereforeresolvedthat1835shouldnotpasswithoutwitnessinganattempt,onmypart,tosecuremyliberty。ButIwasnotwillingtocherishthisdeterminationalone。Myfellow-slavesweredeartome。Iwasanxioustohavethemparticipatewithmeinthis,mylife-givingdetermination。Itherefore,thoughwithgreatprudence,commencedearlytoascertaintheirviewsandfeelingsinregardtotheircondition,andtoimbuetheirmindswiththoughtsoffreedom。Ibentmyselftodevisingwaysandmeansforourescape,andmeanwhilestrove,onallfittingoccasions,toimpressthemwiththegrossfraudandinhumanityofslavery。IwentfirsttoHenry,nexttoJohn,thentotheothers。Ifound,inthemall,warmheartsandnoblespirits。Theywerereadytohear,andreadytoactwhenafeasibleplanshouldbeproposed。ThiswaswhatIwanted。
Italkedtothemofourwantofmanhood,ifwesubmittedtoourenslavementwithoutatleastonenobleefforttobefree。Wemetoften,andconsultedfrequently,andtoldourhopesandfears,recountedthedifficulties,realandimagined,whichweshouldbecalledontomeet。Attimeswewerealmostdis-
posedtogiveup,andtrytocontentourselveswithourwretchedlot;atothers,wewerefirmandun-
bendinginourdeterminationtogo。Wheneverwesuggestedanyplan,therewasshrinking——theoddswerefearful。Ourpathwasbesetwiththegreatestobstacles;andifwesucceededingainingtheendofit,ourrighttobefreewasyetquestionable——wewereyetliabletobereturnedtobondage。Wecouldseenospot,thissideoftheocean,wherewecouldbefree。WeknewnothingaboutCanada。OurknowledgeofthenorthdidnotextendfartherthanNewYork;andtogothere,andbeforeverharassedwiththefrightfulliabilityofbeingreturnedtoslavery——withthecertaintyofbeingtreatedtenfoldworsethanbefore——thethoughtwastrulyahorribleone,andonewhichitwasnoteasytoovercome。
Thecasesometimesstoodthus:Ateverygatethroughwhichweweretopass,wesawawatchman——ateveryferryaguard——oneverybridgeasentinel——
andineverywoodapatrol。Wewerehemmedinuponeveryside。Herewerethedifficulties,realorimagined——thegoodtobesought,andtheeviltobeshunned。Ontheonehand,therestoodslavery,asternreality,glaringfrightfullyuponus,——itsrobesalreadycrimsonedwiththebloodofmillions,andevennowfeastingitselfgreedilyuponourownflesh。
Ontheotherhand,awaybackinthedimdistance,undertheflickeringlightofthenorthstar,behindsomecraggyhillorsnow-coveredmountain,stoodadoubtfulfreedom——halffrozen——beckoningustocomeandshareitshospitality。Thisinitselfwassometimesenoughtostaggerus;butwhenweper-
mittedourselvestosurveytheroad,wewerefre-
quentlyappalled。Uponeithersidewesawgrimdeath,assumingthemosthorridshapes。Nowitwasstarvation,causingustoeatourownflesh;——nowwewerecontendingwiththewaves,andweredrowned;
——nowwewereovertaken,andtorntopiecesbythefangsoftheterriblebloodhound。Wewerestungbyscorpions,chasedbywildbeasts,bittenbysnakes,andfinally,afterhavingnearlyreachedthedesiredspot,——afterswimmingrivers,encounteringwildbeasts,sleepinginthewoods,sufferinghungerandnakedness,——wewereovertakenbyourpursuers,and,inourresistance,wewereshotdeaduponthespot!
Isay,thispicturesometimesappalledus,andmadeus"ratherbearthoseillswehad,Thanflytoothers,thatweknewnotof。"
Incomingtoafixeddeterminationtorunaway,wedidmorethanPatrickHenry,whenheresolveduponlibertyordeath。Withusitwasadoubtfullibertyatmost,andalmostcertaindeathifwefailed。
Formypart,Ishouldpreferdeathtohopelessbond-
age。
Sandy,oneofournumber,gaveupthenotion,butstillencouragedus。OurcompanythenconsistedofHenryHarris,JohnHarris,HenryBailey,CharlesRoberts,andmyself。HenryBaileywasmyuncle,andbelongedtomymaster。Charlesmarriedmyaunt:hebelongedtomymaster’sfather-in-law,Mr。
WilliamHamilton。