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  "Iamgladyouhavebroughtmehere,"shesaid;"Ishallnevergrumblenowatnotbeingabletoaffordafortnightinthecountry。Thisisbetterthananythingelse。"
  "Ithasalwaysbeenmysummerholidaytocomehere,"hesaid。"WhenI
  firstcameIwaslikeyou,youngandhopeful,andIhadwonderfulvisionsofwhatIintendedtodoandtobe。HereitwasImadeavowthatIwouldbecomeagreatpainter,andwinformyselfarestingplaceinthisveryabbey。Thereishumourinthesituation,istherenot?"
  "Idon’tliketohearyousaythat,"sheanswered。"Itisnotalwayspossibleforustofulfilallourambitions。Still,itisbettertohavehadthem,andfailedofthem,thannottohavehadthematall。"
  "Possibly,"hereplied,coldly。Thenheadded,"Iwishyouwouldtellmeaboutyourself。Youhavealwaysinterestedme。"
  "Ihavenothingtotellyouaboutmyself,"sheanswered,frankly。"I
  amaloneintheworld,withoutfriendsandwithoutrelations。TheverynameIuseisnotarealname。Iwasafoundling。AttimesIamsorryIdonotbelongtoanyone,andatothertimesIamglad。YouknowI
  amfondofbooksandofart,somylifeisnotaltogetherempty;andI
  findmypleasureinhardwork。WhenIsawyouatthegalleryIwishedtoknowyou,andIaskedoneofthestudentswhoyouwere。Hetoldmeyouwereamisanthrope。ThenIdidnotcaresomuchaboutknowingyou,untilonedayyouspoketomeaboutmypainting,andthatwasthebeginningofourfriendship。"
  "Fortyyearsago,"hesaid,sadly,"thefriendofmyboyhooddeceivedme。Ihadnotthoughtitpossiblethathecouldbefalsetome。Hescreenedhimselfbehindme,andbecameprosperousandrespectedattheexpenseofmyhonour。IvowedIwouldneveragainmakeafriend。Afewyearslater,whenIwasbeginningtoholdupmyhead,thewomanwhomI
  loveddeceivedme。ThenIputfrommeallaffectionandalllove。
  Greaternaturesthanminearebetterabletobearthesetroubles,butmyheartcontractedandwitheredup。"
  Hepausedforamoment,manyrecollectionsoverpoweringhim。Thenhewentontellingherthehistoryofhislife,unfoldingtoherthestoryofhishopesandambitions,describingtohertheveryhomewherehewasborn,andthedark-eyedsisterwhomhehadloved,andwithwhomhehadplayedoverthedaisiedfields,andthroughthecarpetedwoods,andallamongtherichlytintedbracken。Onedayhewastoldshewasdead,andthathemustneverspeakhername;buthespokeitallthedayandallthenight,——Beryl,nothingbutBeryl,——
  andhelookedforherinthefieldsandinthewoodsandamongthebracken。Itseemedasifhehadunlockedthecasketofhisheart,closedforsomanyyears,andasifallthememoriesofthepastandallthesecretsofhislifewererushingout,gladtobefreeoncemore,andgratefulfortheopenairofsympathy。
  "Berylwasasswiftasadeer!"heexclaimed。"Youwouldhavelaughedtoseeheronthemoor。Ah,itwashardtogiveupallthethoughtsofmeetingheragain。TheytoldmeIshouldseeherinheaven,butIdidnotcareaboutheaven。IwantedBerylonearth,asIknewher,amerrylaughingsister。Ithinkyouareright:wedon’tforget;webecomeresignedinadead,dullkindofway。"
  Suddenlyhesaid,"Idon’tknowwhyIhavetoldyouallthis。Andyetithasbeensuchapleasuretome。YouaretheonlypersontowhomI
  couldhavespokenaboutmyself,fornooneelsebutyouwouldhavecared。"
  "Don’tyouthink,"shesaidgently,"thatyoumadeamistakeinlettingyourexperiencesembitteryou?Becauseyouhadbeenunluckyinoneortwoinstancesitdidnotfollowthatalltheworldwasagainstyou。Perhapsyouunconsciouslyputyourselfagainstalltheworld,andthereforesaweveryoneinanunfavourablelight。Itseemssoeasytodothat。Troublecomestomostpeople,doesn’tit?Andyourphilosophyshouldhavetaughtyoutomakethebestofit。Atleast,thatismynotionofthevalueofphilosophy。"
  Shespokehesitatingly,asthoughshegaveutterancetothesewordsagainstherwill。
  "Iamsureyouareright,child,"hesaid,eagerly。
  Heputhishandstohiseyes,buthecouldnotkeepbackthetears。
  "Ihavebeensuchalonelyoldman,"hesobbed;"noonecantellwhatalonely,lovelesslifeminehasbeen。IfIwerenotsooldandsotiredIshouldliketobeginalloveragain。"
  Hesobbedformanyminutes,andshedidnotknowwhattosaytohimofcomfort;butshetookhishandwithinherown,andgentlycaressedit,asonemightdotoalittlechildinpain。Helookedupandsmiledthroughhistears。
  "Youhavebeenverygoodtome,"hesaid,"andIdaresayyouhavethoughtmeungrateful。Youmendedmycoatformeonemorning,andnotadayhaspassedbutthatIhavelookedatthatdarnandthoughtofyou。Ilikedtorememberthatyouhaddoneitforme。Butyouhavedonefarmorethanthisforme:youhaveputsomesweetnessintomylife。Whateverbecomesofmehereafter,Ishallneverbeabletothinkofmylifeonearthasanythingbutbeautiful,becauseyouthoughtkindlyofmeandactedkindlyforme。Theothernight,whenthisterriblepaincameoverme,Iwishedyouwerenearme;Iwishedtohearyourvoice。Thereisverybeautifulmusicinyourvoice。"
  "Iwouldhavecometoyougladly,"shesaid,smilingquietlyathim。
  "Youmustmakeapromisethatwhenyoufeelillagainyouwillsendforme。ThenyouwillseewhatasplendidnurseIam,andhowsoonyouwillbecomestrongandwellundermycare,strongenoughtopaintmanymorepictures,eachonebetterthanthelast。Nowwillyoupromise?"
  "Yes,"hesaid,andheraisedherhandreverentlytohislips。
  "Youarenotangrywithmefordoingthat?"heasked,suddenly。"I
  shouldnotliketovexyou。"
  "Iamnotvexed,"sheanswered,kindly。
  "ThenperhapsImaykissitoncemore?"heasked。
  "Yes,"sheanswered;andagainheraisedherhandtohislips。
  "Thankyou,"hesaidquietly;"thatwaskindofyou。Doyouseethatbrokensun-rayyonder?Isitnotgolden?Ifinditverypleasanttosithere;andIamquitehappy,andalmostfreefrompain。LatelyI
  havebeentroubledwithadullthuddingpainnearmyheart;butnowI
  feelsostrongthatIbelieveIshallfinishthatAndreadelSartoafterall。"
  "Ofcourseyouwill,"sheanswered,cheerily,"andIshallhavetoconfessthatyoursisbetterthanmine!Iamquitewillingtoyieldthepalmtoyou。"
  "Imustaltertheexpressionofthemouth,"hereplied。"Thatisthepartwhichhasworriedme。Idon’tthinkItoldyouthatIhavehadacommissiontocopyRembrandt’s’OldJew。’Imustsettoworkonthatnextweek。"
  "Butyouhavegivenmeyourpaletteandbrushes!"shelaughed。
  "Youmustbegenerousenoughtolendthemtome,"hesaid,smiling。
  "Bytheway,Iintendtogiveyoumybooks,allofthem。SomedayI
  mustshowthemtoyou。Iespeciallyvaluemyphilosophicalbooks;theyhavebeenmyfaithfulcompanionsthroughmanyyears。IbelieveyoudonotreadGreek。Thatisapity,becauseyouwouldsurelyenjoyAristotle。IthinkImustteachyouGreek;itwouldbeanagreeablelegacytoleaveyouwhenIpassawayintotheGreatSilence。"
  "Ishouldliketolearn,"shesaid,wonderingtohearhimspeaksounreservedly。Itseemedasifsomevastbarrierhadbeenrolledaside,andasifsheweregettingtoknowhimbetter,havingbeenallowedtoglanceintohispastlife,tosympathisewithhispastmistakes,andwiththefailureofhisambitions,andwiththedeadeningofhisheart。
  "YoumustreadAEschylus,"hecontinued,enthusiastically;"and,ifI
  mistakenot,theAgamemnonwillbeanepochinyourlife。Youwillfindthatallthesestudieswillservetoennobleyourart,andyouwillbeabletoputmindintoyourwork,andnotmerelyformandcolour。Doyouknow,IfeelsowellthatIbelieveIshallnotonlylivetofinishAndreadelSarto,butalsotosmokeanotherpipe?"
  "Youhavebeentoorashto-day,"shelaughed,"givingawayyourpipeandpouch,yourpaletteandbrushes,inthisrecklessmanner!Imustgetyouanewpipeto-morrow。IwonderyoudidnotpartwithyourvenerableLucretius。"
  "Thatremindsme,"hesaid,fumblinginhispocket;"IthinkIhavedroppedmyLucretius。IfancyIleftitsomewhereinthePoets’
  Corner。Itwouldgrievemetolosethatbook。"
  "Letmegoandlookforit,"shesaid,andsheadvancedafewsteps,andthencamebacktohim。
  "Youhavebeensayingmanykindwordstome,"shesaid,assheputherhandonhisarm,"andIhavenottoldyouthatIvalueyourfriendship,andamgratefultoyouforlettingmebemorethanamerestrangertoyou。Ihavebeenverylonelyinmylife,forIamnotonetomakefriendseasily,andithasbeenagreatprivilegetometotalkwithyou。Iwantyoutoknowthis:forifIhavebeenanythingtoyou,youhavebeenagreatdealtome。Ihavenevermetwithmuchsympathyfromthoseofmyownage:Ihavefoundthemnarrowandunyielding,andtheyfoundmedullanduninteresting。Theyhadpassedthroughfewexperiencesandknewnothingaboutfailureorsuccess,andsomeofthemdidnotevenunderstandtheearnestnessofendeavour,andlaughedatmewhenIspokeofahighideal。SoIwithdrewintomyself,andshouldprobablyhavegrownstillmoreisolatedthanIwasbefore,butthatImetyou,and,astimewenton,webecamefriends。Ishallalwaysrememberyourteaching,andIwilltrytokeeptoahighidealoflifeandartandendeavour,andIwillnotletdespaircreepintomyheart,andIwillnotlosemyfaithinhumanity。"
  Asshespokealingeringrayofsunshinelitupherfaceandgentlycaressedhersoftbrownhair;slightthoughherform,sombreherclothes,andunlovelyherfeatures,sheseemedagraciouspresencebecauseofherearnestness。
  "Now,"shesaid,cheerily,"youresthereuntilIcomebackwithyourLucretius,andthenIthinkImustbegettingonmywayhome。ButyoumustfixatimeforourfirstGreeklesson,forwemustbeginto-morrow。"
  Whenshehadgonehewalkedinthecloisters,holdinghishatinhishandandhisstickunderhisarm。Therewasaquietsmileonhisface,whichwascalledforthbypleasantthoughtsinhismind,andhedidnotlookquitesoshrunkenandshrivelledasusual。Hiseyeswerefixedontheground,butheraisedthem,andobservedawhitecatcreepingtowardhim。Itcameandrubbeditselfagainsthisfoot,and,purringwithallitsmight,seemeddeterminedtowinsomekindofnoticefromhim。Theoldmanstoopeddowntostrokeit,andwasjusttouchingitssleekcoatwhenhesuddenlywithdrewhishandandgroaneddeeply。Hestruggledtotherecess,andsankback。Thestickfellonthestonewithaclatter,andthebatteredhatrolleddownbesideit,andthewhitecatfledawayinterror;butrealisingthattherewasnocauseforalarm,itcamebackandcrouchednearthesilentfigureoftheoldman,watchinghimintently。Thenitstretchedoutitspawandplayedwithhishand,doingitsutmosttocoaxhimintoalittlefun;
  buthewouldnotbecoaxed,andthecatlostallpatiencewithhim,andlefthimtohimself。
  MeanwhileHelenStanleywaslookingforthelostLucretiusinthePoets’Corner。ShefounditlayingnearChaucer’stomb,andwasjustgoingtotakeittoherfriendwhenshesawtheworkmantowhomtheyhadspokeninTrafalgarSquare。Herecognisedheratonce,andcametowardher。
  "I’vebeenhavingaquiethalf-hourhere,"hesaid。"Itdoesmeasightofgoodtositintheabbey。"
  "Youshouldgointothecloisters,"shesaid,kindly。"Ihavebeensittingtherewithmyfriend。Hewillbeinterestedtohearthatyoulovethisbeautifulabbey。"
  "Ishouldliketoseehimagain,"saidtheworkman。"Hehadakindwayabouthim,andthatpipehegavemeisanuncommongoodone。Still,I
  amsorryIsmashedthelittleclaypipe。I’dgrownusedtoit。I’dsmokediteversincemylittlegirldiedandleftmealoneintheworld。Iusedtobringmylittlegirlhere,andnowIcomealone。Butitisn’tthesamething。"
  "No,itcouldnotbethesamething,"saidHelen,gently。"Butyoufindsomecomforthere?"
  "Somelittlecomfort,"heanswered。"Onecan’texpectmuch。"
  Theywenttogetherintothecloisters,andastheycameneartherecesswheretheoldmanrestedHelensaid:
  "Why,hehasfallenasleep!Hemusthavebeenverytired。Andhehasdroppedhishatandstick。Thankyou。Ifyouwillputthemdownthere,Iwillwatchbyhissideuntilhewakesup。Idon’tsupposehewillsleepforlong。"
  Theworkmanstoopeddowntopickupthehatandstick,andglancedatthesleeper。Somethinginthesleeper’scountenancearrestedhisattention。Heturnedtothegirl,andsawthatshewaswatchinghim。
  "Whatisit?"sheaskedanxiously。"Whatisthematterwithyou?"
  Hetriedtospeak,buthisvoicefailedhim,andallhecoulddowastopointwithtremblinghandtotheoldman。
  Helenlooked,andaloudcrybrokefromherlips。Theoldmanwasdead。
  THEOMNIBUS
  BY
  QUILLER-COUCH
  Allthatfollowswasspokeninasmalltavern,astone’sthrowfromCheapside,thedaybeforeIleftLondon。Itwasspokeninadullvoice,acrossagreasytable-cloth,andamidanatmospheresothickwiththereekofcookingthatonelongedtochangeitforthetorridstreetagain,tobroilinanamplerfurnace。OldTomPickfordspokeit,whohasbeenaclerkforfifty-twoyearsinTweedy’sEastIndiawarehouse,andinallthattimehasneverbeenoutofLondon,butwhenhetakesaholidayspendsitinhangingaboutTweedy’s,andobservingthatunlovelyplaceofbusinessfromtheoutside。Thedust,ifnottheiron,ofTweedy’shasenteredintohissoul;andTweedy’syoungmenknowhimas"theMastodon。"Heisathin,baldseptuagenarian,withslopingshoulders,andahabitofregardingthepavementwhenhewalks,sothatheseemstosteerhiswaybyinstinctratherthansight。Ingeneralhekeepssilencewhileeatinghischop;andonthisoccasiontherewassomethingunnaturalinhisutterance,adivorceofmannerbetweenthespeakerandhiswords,suchasonewouldexpectinasibyldisclaimingunderstressofthegod。Ifanciedithadsomethingtodowithablacknecktiethatheworeinsteadofthebluebird’s-eyecravatfamiliartoTweedy’s,andwithhisextraordinaryconductinrefusingto-daythechopthatthewaiterbrought,andlimitinghislunchtocheeseandlettuce。
  Havingpulledthelettucetopieces,hepushedhimselfbackalittlefromthetable,lookedoverhisspectaclesatme,thenatthetable-
  cloth,andbeganinadreamyvoice:
  "OldGabrielisdead。Iheardthenewsattheofficethismorning,andwentoutandboughtablacktie。IamtheoldestmaninTweedy’snow——
  olderbysixyearsthanSamCollins,whocomesnext;sothereisnomistakeaboutit。Samislookingfortheplace;Isawitinhiseyewhenhetoldme,andIexpecthe’llgetit。ButI’mtheoldestclerkinTweedy’s。OnlyGodAlmightycanalterthat,andit’sverysatisfactorytome。Idon’tcareaboutthemoney。SamCollinswillbestuckupoverit,likeenough;buthe’llneverwriteahandlikeGabriel’s,notifhelivestobeahundred;andheknowsit,andknowsI’llbetheretoremindhimofit。Gabriel’swasabeautifulfist——sosmall,too,ifhechose。Why,once,inhissparehours,hewroteoutallthePsalms,withtheheadings,ononesideofafoliosheet,andhaditframedandhungupinhisparlour,outatShepherd’sBush。Hediedinthenight——ohyes,quiteeasily。Hewasdownattheofficeallyesterday,andspoketomeasbriskasabird。Theyfoundhimdeadinhisbedthismorning。
  "Iseemcutupaboutit?Well,notexactly。Ah,younoticedthatI
  refusedmychopto-day。Blessyoursoul,that’snotonGabriel’saccount。Iamwelloninyears,andIsupposeitwouldbenaturalofmetopityoldmen,andexpectpity。ButIcan’t;no,/it’sonlytheyoungthatIpity/。Ifyou/must/know,Ididn’ttakethechopto-daybecauseIhaven’tthemoneyinmypockettopayforit。Yousee,therewasthisblacktiethatIgaveeighteenpencefor;butsomethingelsehappenedthismorningthatI’lltellyouabout。
  "Icamedownina’bus,asusual。Yourememberwhatmuggyweatheritwasuptoteno’clock——thoughyouwouldn’tthinkit,tofeeltheheatnow。Well,the’buswaspacked,insideandout。Atleast,therewasjustroomforonemoreinsidewhenwepulledupbyCharingCross,andtherehegotin——aboywithastickandabundleinabluehandkerchief。
  "Hewasn’tmorethanthirteen;boundforthedocks,youcouldtellataglance;andbythewayhelookedaboutyoucouldtellaseasilythatinsteppingoutsideCharingCrossstationhe’dsetfootonLondonstonesforthefirsttime。Godknowshowitstruckhim——theslushanddrizzle,theuglyshop-fronts,thehorsesslippinginthebrownmud,thecrowdonthepavementpushinghimthissideandthat。Thepoorlittlechapwasstandinginthemiddleofitwithdazedeyes,likeahare’s,whenthe’buspulledup。Hiseyelidswerepinkandswollen;
  buthewasn’tcrying,thoughhewantedto。Instead,hegaveagulpashecameonboardwithstickandbundle,andtriedtolookbraveasalion。
  "I’dhavegivenworldstospeaktohim,butIcouldn’t。Onmyword,sir,Ishouldhavecried。Itwasn’tsomuchthelittlechap’slook。
  Buttotheknotofhisbundletherewastiedabunchofcottageflowers,——sweet-williams,boy’s-love,andaroseortwo,——andthesightandsmelloftheminthatstuffyomnibuswereliketearsonthirstyeyelids。It’stheyoungthatIpity,sir。ForGabriel,inhisbedupatShepherd’sBush,there’snomoretobesaid,asfarasIcansee;andasforme,I’mtheoldestclerkinTweedy’s,whichisverysatisfactory。It’stheyoungfaces,settowardtheroadalongwhichwehavetravelled,thattroubleme。Sometimes,sir,Ilieawakeinmylodgingsandlisten,andthewholeofthisLondonseemsfilledwiththesoundofchildren’sfeetrunning,andIcansobaloud。Youmaysaythatitisonlyselfishness,andwhatIreallypityismyownboyhood。
  Idaresayyou’reright。It’scertainthat,asIkeptglancingattheboyandhisseakitandhisbunchofflowers,mymindwentbacktotheJanuarymorning,sixty-fiveyearsback,whenthecoachtookmeoffforthefirsttimefromthevillagewhereIwasborntoaLondoncharity-
  school。Iwasworseoffthantheboyintheomnibus,forIhadjustlostfatherandmother。Yetitwasthesticksandstonesandflower-
  bedsthatImostlythoughtof。Iwentroundandsaidgood-byetothelilacs,andtoldthemtobeinflowerbythetimeIcameback。Isaidtotherose-bush,’YoumustbeashighasmywindownextMay;youknowyouonlymisseditbythreeincheslastsummer。’ThenIwenttothecow-house,andkissedthecows,onebyone。Theyweretobesoldbyauctiontheverynextweek,butIguessednothingofit,andorderedthemnottoforgetme。AndlastIlookedattheswallows’nestsunderthethatch,——thelastyear’snests,——andtoldmyselfthattheywouldbefilledagainwhenIreturned。Irememberedthis,andhowI
  stretchedoutmyhandstotheplacefromthecoach-top;andhowatReading,wherewestopped,IspentthetwoshillingsthatIpossessedinacocoanutandabrightclasp-knife;andhow,whenIopenedit,thenutwassour;andhowIcriedmyselftosleep,andwokeinLondon。
  "TheyoungmeninTweedy’s,thoughtheyrespectmylongstandingthere,makefunofmeattimesbecauseInevertakeaholidayinthecountry。Why,sir,/Idarenot/。Ishouldwanderbacktomyoldvillage,and——Well,Iknowhowitwouldbethen。Ishouldfinditsmallerandmeaner;Ishouldsearchaboutfortheflowersandnests,andlistenforthemusicthatIknewsixty-fiveyearsago,andremember;andtheywouldnotbediscoverable。Alsoeveryfacewouldstareatme,forallthefacesIknowaredead。ThenIshouldthinkI
  hadmissedmywayandcometothewrongplace;or(worse)thatnosuchspoteverexisted,andIhavebeencheatingmyselfalltheseyears;
  that,infact,Iwasmadallthewhile,andhavenostablereasonforexisting——I,theoldestclerkinTweedy’s!Tobesure,therewouldbemyparents’headstonesinthechurchyard。Butwhatarethey,ifthechurchyarditselfischanged?
  "Asitis,withthreehundredpoundsperannum,andenoughlaidbytokeephim,ifIfail,anoldbachelorhasnoreasontogrumble。Butthesightofthatlittlechap’snosegay,andthethoughtofthemotherwhotieditthere,mademyheartswellasIfancytheearthmustswellwhenrainiscoming。Hiseyesfilledonce,andhebrushedthemunderthepretenceofpullinghiscapforward,andstoleaglanceroundtoseeifanyonehadnoticedhim。Theotherpassengerswerebusywiththeirownthoughts,andIpretendedtostareoutofthewindowopposite;buttherewasthedrop,sureenough,onhishandashelaiditonhislapagain。
  "Hewasboundforthedocks,andthencefortheopensea,andI,thatwasboundforTweedy’sonly,hadtogetoutatthetopofCheapside。I
  knowthe’busconductor,——averyhonestman,——and,ingettingout,I
  slippedhalfacrownintohishandtogivetotheboy,withmyblessing,athisjourney’send。WhenIpicturehisface,sir,IwishI
  hadmadeitfiveshillings,andgonewithoutanewtieanddinneraltogether。"
  THEHIREDBABY
  BY
  MARIECORELLI
  Adark,desolateDecembernight,anightthatclungtothemetropolislikeawetblackshroud,anightinwhichtheheavy,low-hangingvapoursmeltedeverynowandthenintoaslow,reluctantrain,coldasicicle-dropsinarockcavern。Peoplepassedandrepassedinthestreetslikeghostsinabaddream;thetwinklinggas-lightshowedthematonemomentrisingoutofthefog,andthendisappearingfromviewasthoughsuddenlyengulfedinavaporousebonsea。Withmuffled,angryshrieks,themetropolitantrainsdepositedtheirshoalsofshivering,coughingtravelersattheseveralstations,wheresleepyofficials,renderedviciousbytheweather,snatchedtheticketsfromtheirhandswithoffensivehasteandroughness。Omnibusconductorsgrewill-temperedandabusivewithoutanyseeminglyadequatereason;
  shopkeepersbecameflippant,disobliging,andcarelessofcustom;
  cabmenshoutedderisiveordenunciatorylanguageaftertheirrapidlyretreatingfares;inshort,everybodywasinadiscontented,almostspitefulhumour,withtheexceptionofthosefewaggressivelycheerfulpersonswhoareinthehabitofalwaysmakingthebestofeverything,evenbadweather。DownthelongwidevistaoftheCromwellRoad,Kensington,thefoghaditallitsownway;itsweptonsteadily,likethicksmokefromahugefire,chokingthethroatsandblindingtheeyesoffoot-passengers,stealingthroughthecranniesofthehouses,andchillingthebloodofeventhoseluxuriousindividualswho,seatedinelegantdrawing-roomsbeforeblazingfires,easilyforgotthatthereweresuchbitterthingsascoldandpovertyinthatoutsideworldagainstwhichtheyhadbarredtheirwindows。Atonehouseinparticular——ahousewithgaudyglassdoorsandsomewhatspoiledyellowsilkcurtainsatthewindows,ahousethatplainlysaidtoitself,"Doneupforshow!"toallwhocaredtoexamineitsexterior——therestoodaclosedbrougham,drawnbyaprancingpairoffathorses。A
  coachmanofdistinguishedappearancesatonthebox;afootmanofirreproachablefigurestoodwaitingonthepavement,hisyellow-glovedhandrestingelegantlyonthepolishedsilverknobofthecarriagedoor。Boththesegentlemenwereresoluteandinflexibleofface;theylookedasiftheyhaddeterminedonsomegreatdeedthatshouldmovetheworldtowildapplause;but,truthtotell,theyhadonlyjustfinishedahighlysatisfactory"meat-tea,"andbeforethisgravesilencehadfallenuponthem,theyhadbeendiscussingtheadvisabilityofbroiledsteakandonionsforsupper。Thecoachmanhadinclinedtoplainmutton-chopsasbeingeasierofdigestion;thefootmanhadearnestlyasseveratedhisbeliefinthesuperiorsucculenceandsweetnessofthesteakandonions,andintheendhehadgainedhispoint。Thisweightyquestionbeingsettled,theyhadgraduallygrownreflectiveonthepast,present,andfuturejoysofeatingatsomeoneelse’sexpense,andinthisblandandpleasingstateofmeditationtheywerestillabsorbed。Thehorseswereimpatient,andpawedthemuddygroundwithmanyatossoftheirlongmanesandtails,thesteamfromtheirglossycoatsminglingwiththeever-thickeningdensityofthefog。Onthewhitestonestepsoftheresidencebeforewhichtheywaitedwasanalmostinvisiblebundle,apparentlyshapelessandimmovable。Neitherofthetwogorgeouspersonagesinliveryobservedit;itwastoofarbackinadimcorner,toounobtrusive,forthecasualregardoftheirloftyeyes。Suddenlytheglassdoorsbeforementionedwerethrownapartwithaclatteringnoise,awarmthandradiancefromtheentrance-hallthusdisplayedstreamedintothefoggystreet,andatthesameinstantthefootman,stillwithgraveandimperturbablecountenance,openedthebrougham。
  Anelderlylady,richlydressed,withdiamondssparklinginhergrayhair,camerustlingdownthesteps,bringingwithherfaintodoursofpatchoulyandviolet-powder。Shewasfollowedbyagirlofdoll-likeprettiness,withasnubnoseandpetulantlittlemouth,whohelduphersatin-and-laceskirtswithasortoffastidiousdisdain,asthoughshescornedtosetfootonearththatwasnotcarpetedwiththebestvelvetpile。Astheyapproachedtheircarriagetheinertdarkbundle,crouchedinthecorner,startedintolife——awoman,withwildhairandwildereyes,whosepalelipsquiveredwithsuppressedweepingasherpiteousvoicebrokeintosuddenclamour:
  "Oh,lady!"shecried,"fortheloveofGod,atrifle!Oh,lady,lady!"
  Butthe"lady,"withacontemptuoussniffandashakeofherscentedgarments,passedherbeforeshecouldcontinueherappeal,andsheturnedwithasortoffainthopetothesofterfaceofthegirl。
  "Oh,mydear,dohavepity!Justthesmallestlittlething,andGodwillblessyou!Youarerichandhappy——andIamstarving!Onlyapenny!Forthebaby——thepoorlittlebaby!"Andshemadeasthoughshewouldopenhertatteredshawlandrevealsometreasurehiddentherein,butshrunkback,repelledbythecold,mercilessgazethatfelluponherfromthoseeyes,inwhichyouthdweltwithouttenderness。
  "Youhavenobusinessonourdoorstep,"saidthegirl,harshly。"Goawaydirectly,orIshalltellmyservanttocallapoliceman。"
  Then,assheenteredthebroughamafterhermother,sheaddressedtherespectablefootmanangrily,givinghimthebenefitofastrongnasalintonation。
  "Howard,whydoyouletsuchdirtybeggarscomenearthecarriage?
  Whatareyoupaidfor,Ishouldliketoknow?Itisperfectlydisgracefultothehouse!"
  "Verysorry,miss!"saidthefootman,gravely。"Ididn’tseethe——thepersonbefore。"Thenshuttingthebroughamdoor,heturnedwithadignifiedairtotheunfortunatecreature,whostilllingerednear,and,withasweepinggestureofhisgold-embroideredcoat-sleeve,saidmajestically:
  "Doyou’ear?Behoff!"
  Then,havingthusperformedhisduty,hemountedtheboxbesidehisfriendthecoachman,andtheequipagerattledquicklyaway,itsgleaminglightssoonlostinthesmoke-ladenvapoursthatdroopeddownwardlikefuneralhangingsfromtheinvisibleskytothescarcelyvisibleground。Lefttoherself,thewomanwhohadvainlysoughtcharityfromthoseinwhomnocharityexisted,lookedupdespairingly,asonedistraught,andseemedasthoughshewouldhavegivenventtosomefierceexclamation,whenafeeblewailcamepitifullyforthfromtheshelteringfoldsofhershawl。Sherestrainedherselfinstantly,andwalkedonatarapidpace,scarcelyheedingwhithershewent,tillshereachedtheCatholicchurchknownasthe"Oratory。"Itsunfinishedfacadeloomeddarklyoutofthefog;therewasnothingpicturesqueorinvitingaboutit,yettherewerepeoplepassingsoftlyinandout,andthroughtheswingingtoandfrooftheredbaize-covereddoorstherecameacomfortingwarmglimmeroflight。Thewomanpaused,hesitated,andthen,havingapparentlymadeuphermind,ascendedthebroadsteps,lookedin,andfinallyentered。Theplacewasstrangetoher;sheknewnothingofitsreligiousmeaning,anditscold,uncompletedappearanceoppressedher。Therewereonlysomehalf-dozenpersonsscatteredabout,likeblackspecks,initsvastwhiteinterior,andthefoghungheavilyinthevaulteddomeanddarklittlechapels。Onecorneraloneblazedwithbrilliancyandcolour;thiswasthealtaroftheVirgin。Towarditthetiredvagrantmadeherway,andonreachingitsankonthenearestchairasthoughexhausted。Shedidnotraisehereyestothemarblesplendoursoftheshrine——oneofthemasterpiecesofoldItalianart;shehadbeenmerelyattractedtothespotbytheglitterofthelampsandcandles,andtooknothoughtastothereasonoftheirbeinglighted,thoughshewassensibleofacertaincomfortinthesoftlustreshedaroundher。Sheseemedstillyoung;herface,renderedhaggardbylongandbitterprivation,showedtracesofpastbeauty,andhereyes,fulloffeverishtrouble,werelarge,dark,andstilllustrous。Hermouthalone——thatsensitivebetrayerofthelife’sgoodandbadactions——revealedthatallhadnotbeenwellwithher;itslineswerehardandvicious,andtheresentfulcurveoftheupperlipspokeoffoolishpride,notunmixedwithrecklesssensuality。Shesatforamomentortwomotionless;then,withexceedingcareandtenderness,shebegantounfoldherthin,tornshawlbygentledegrees,lookingdownwithanxioussolicitudeattheobjectconcealedwithin。Onlyababy——andwithalababysotinyandwhiteandfrailthatitseemedasthoughitmustmeltlikeasnowflakebeneaththelightesttouch。Asitswrappingswerelooseneditopenedapairoflarge,solemnblueeyes,andgazedatthewoman’sfacewithastrange,pitifulwistfulness。Itlayquiet,withoutmoan,apinched,paleminiatureofsufferinghumanity——aninfantwithsorrow’smarkpainfullyimpresseduponitsdrawn,smallfeatures。Presentlyitstretchedforthapunyhandandfeeblycaresseditsprotectress,andthis,too,withthefaintestglimmerofasmile。Thewomanrespondedtoitsaffectionwithasortofrapture;shecaughtitfondlytoherbreastandcovereditwithkisses,rockingittoandfrowithbrokenwordsofendearment。"Mylittledarling!"shewhispered,softly。"Mylittlepet!Yes,yes,Iknow!Sotired,socoldandhungry!Nevermind,baby,nevermind!Wewillrestherealittle;thenwewillsingasongpresently,andgetsomemoneytotakeushome。Sleepawhilelonger,deary!There!nowwearewarmandcoseyagain。"
  Sosaying,sherearrangedhershawlincloserandtighterfolds,soastoprotectthechildmorethoroughly。Whileshewasengagedinthisoperationaladyindeepmourningpassedclosebyher,and,advancingtotheverystepsofthealtar,kneltdown,hidingherfacewithherclaspedhands。Thetiredwayfarer’sattentionwasattractedbythis;
  shegazedwithasortofdullwonderatthekneelingfigurerobedinrichrustlingsilkandcrape,andgraduallyhereyeswanderedupward,upward,tilltheyrestedonthegravelysweetandserenelysmilingmarbleimageoftheVirginandChild。Shelookedandlookedagain——
  surprised——incredulous;thensuddenlyrosetoherfeetandmadeherwaytothealtarrailing。Thereshepaused,staringvaguelyatabasketofflowers,whiteandodorous,thathadbeenlefttherebysomereverentworshipper。Sheglanceddoubtfullyattheswingingsilverlamps,thetwinklingcandles;shewasconscious,too,ofasubtle,strangefragranceintheair,asthoughabasketfullofspringvioletsanddaffodilshadjustbeencarriedby;then,asherwanderinggazecamebacktothesolitarywomaninblack,whostillkneltmotionlessnearher,asortofchokingsensationcameintoherthroatandastingingmoisturestruggledinhereyes。Shestrovetoturnthishystericalsensationtoalowlaughofdisdain。
  "Lord,Lord!"shemutteredbeneathherbreath,"whatsortofplaceisthis,wheretheypraytoawomanandababy?"
  Atthatmomentthewomaninblackrose;shewasyoung,withaproud,fair,butwearyface。Hereyeslightedonhersoiledandpoverty-
  strickensister,andshepausedwithapityinglook。Thestreetwanderermadeuseoftheopportunitythusoffered,andinanurgentwhisperimploredcharity。Theladydrewoutapurse,thenhesitated,lookingwistfullyatthebundleintheshawl。
  "Youhaveachildthere?"sheasked,ingentleaccents。"MayIseeit?"
  "Yes,lady,"andthewrapperwasturneddownsufficientlytodisclosethetinywhiteface,nowmoreinfinitelytouchingthaneverinthepathosofsleep。
  "Ilostmylittleoneaweekago,"saidthelady,simply,asshelookedatit。"HewasallIhad。"Hervoicetrembled;sheopenedherpurse,andplacedahalf-crowninthehandofherastonishedsupplicant。"YouarehappierthanIam;perhapsyouwillprayforme。
  Iamverylonely!"
  Thendroppingherlongcrapeveilsothatitcompletelyhidherfeatures,shebentherheadandmovedsoftlyaway。Thewomanwatchedhertillhergracefulfigurewascompletelylostinthegloomofthegreatchurch,andthenturnedagainvaguelytothealtar。
  "Prayforher!"shethought。"I!AsifIcouldpray!"Andshesmiledbitterly。Againshelookedatthestatueintheshrine;ithadnomeaningatallforher。ShehadneverheardofChristianitysavethroughthemediumofatract,whoseconsolingtitlehadbeen"Stop!
  YouareGoingtoHell!"Religionofeverysortwasmockedatbythoseamongwhomherlotwascast,thenameofChristwasonlyusedasaconveniencetoswearby,andthereforethismysterious,smiling,gentlyinvitingmarblefigurewasincomprehensibletohermind。
  "AsifIcouldpray!"sherepeated,withasortofderision。Thenshelookedatthebroadsilvercoininherhandandthesleepingbabyinherarms。Withasuddenimpulseshedroppedonherknees。
  "Whoeveryouare,"shemuttered,addressingthestatueaboveher,"itseemsyou’vegotachildofyourown;perhapsyou’llhelpmetotakecareofthisone。Itisn’tmine;Iwishitwas!Anyway,Iloveitmorethanitsownmotherdoes。Idaresayyouwon’tlistentothelikesofme,butiftherewasGodanywhereaboutI’daskHimtoblessthatgoodsoulthat’slostherbaby。Iblessherwithallmyheart,butmyblessingain’tgoodformuch。Ah!"andshesurveyedanewtheVirgin’sserenewhitecountenance,"youjustlookasifyouunderstoodme;butIdon’tbelieveyoudo。Nevermind,I’vesaidallIwantedtosaythistime。"
  Herstrangepetition,orratherdiscourse,concluded,sheroseandwalkedaway。Thegreatdoorsofthechurchswungheavilybehindherasshesteppedoutandstoodoncemoreinthemuddystreet。Itwasrainingsteadily——afine,cold,penetratingrain。Butthecoinsheheldwasatalismanagainstouterdiscomforts,andshecontinuedtowalkontillshecametoaclean-lookingdairy,whereforacoupleofpenceshewasabletoreplenishtheinfant’slongagoemptiedfeedingbottle;butshepurchasednothingforherself。Shehadstarvedallday,andwasnowtoofainttoeat。Soonsheenteredanomnibus,andwasdriventoCharingCross,andalightingatthegreatstation,brilliantwithitselectriclight,shepacedupanddownoutsideit,accostingseveralofthepassers-byandimploringtheirpity。Onemangaveherapenny;another,youngandhandsome,withaflushed,intemperateface,andalookofhisfast-fadingboyhoodstillabouthim,puthishandinhispocketanddrewoutalltheloosecoppersitcontained,amountingtothreepenniesandanoddfarthing,and,droppingthemintoheroutstretchedpalm,said,halfgaily,halfboldly:"Yououghttodobetterthanthatwiththosebigeyesofyours!"Shedrewbackandshuddered;hebrokeintoacoarselaugh,andwenthisway。Standingwherehehadlefther,sheseemedforatimelostinwretchedreflections;thefretful,wailingcryofthechildshecarriedrousedher,andhushingitsoftly,shemurmured,"Yes,yes,darling,itistoowetandcoldforyou;wehadbettergo。"Andactingsuddenlyonherresolve,shehailedanotheromnibus,thistimeboundforTottenhamCourtRoad,andwas,aftersomedrearyjolting,setdownatherfinaldestination——adirtyalleyintheworstpartofSevenDials。Enteringit,shewashailedwithashoutofderisivelaughterfromsomerough-lookingmenandwomen,whowerestandinggroupedroundalowgin-shopatthecorner。
  "Here’sLiz!"criedone。"Here’sLizandthebloomin’kid!"
  "Now,oldgel,forkout!Howmuch’aveyougot,Liz?Treatustoadropallround!"
  Lizwakedpastthemsteadily;theconspicuouscurveofherupperlipcameintofullplay,andhereyesflasheddisdainfully,butshesaidnothing。Hersilenceexasperatedatangle-haired,cat-facedgirlofseventeenyears,who,morethanhalfdrunk,satontheground,claspingherkneeswithbotharmsandrockingherselflazilytoandfro。
  "MotherMawks!"criedshe,"MotherMawks!You’rewanted!Here’sLizcomebackwithyourbabby!"
  Asifherwordshadbeenapowerfulincantationtosummonforthanevilspirit,adoorinoneofthemiserablehouseswasthrownopen,andastoutwoman,nearlynakedtothewaist,withaswollen,blotched,andmosthideouscountenance,rushedoutfuriously,anddartingatLiz,shookherviolentlybythearm。
  "Where’smyshullin’?"sheyelled,"where’smygin?Outwithit!Outwithmyshullin’an’fourpence!Noneofyersneakin’wayswithme;abargain’sabargainalltheworldover!Yer’remakingafortin’withmybabby——yerknowy’are;paysyeragooddealbetterthanyeroldtrade!Don’tsayitdon’t——yerknowitdo。Yer’llnotfindsuchasicklykidanywheres,an’it’sthesicklykidswotpaysan’movesthe’artsofthekyindladiesan’goodgentlemen"——thiswithanimitativewhinethatexcitedthelaughterandapplauseofherhearers。"Yer’vegotitcheap,Ikintellyer,an’ifyerdon’tpayupreg’lar,there’sothersthat’lltakethechance,an’thankfultoo!"
  Shestoppedforlackofbreath,andLizspokequietly:
  "It’sallright,MotherMawks,"shesaid,withanattemptatasmile;
  "here’syourshilling,here’sthefourpenniesforthegin。Idon’toweyouanythingforthechildnow。"Shestoppedandhesitated,lookingdowntenderlyatthefrailcreatureinherarms;thenadded,almostpleadingly,"It’sasleepnow。MayItakeitwithmeto-night?"
  MotherMawks,whohadbeentestingthecoinsLizhadgivenherbybitingthemferociouslywithherlargeyellowteeth,brokeintoaloudlaugh。
  "Takeitwithyer!Ilikethat!Wotimperence!Takeitwithyer!"
  Then,withherhugeredarmsakimbo,sheadded,withagrin,"Tellyerwot,ifyerlikestopayme’arfacrown,yercan’aveittocuddle,an’welcome!"
  Anothershoutofapprovingmerrimentburstfromthedrink-soddenspectatorsofthelittlescene,andthegirlcrouchedonthegroundremovedherencirclinghandsfromherkneestoclapthemloudly,assheexclaimed:
  "Welldone,MotherMawks!Onedoesn’tletoutkidsatnightfornothing!’Toughttobemoreexpensivethandaytime!"
  ThefaceofLizhadgrownwhiteandrigid。
  "YouknowIcan’tgiveyouthatmoney,"shesaid,slowly。"Ihavenottastedbitordropallday。Imustlive,thoughitdoesn’tseemworthwhile。Thechild"——andhervoicesoftenedinvoluntarily——"isfastasleep;it’sapitytowakeit,that’sall。Itwillcryandfretallnight,and——andIwillmakeitwarmandcomfortableifyou’dletme。"
  Sheraisedhereyeshopefullyandanxiously。"Willyou?"
  MotherMawkswasevidentlyaladyofanexcitabledisposition。Thesimplerequestseemedtodrivehernearlyfrantic。Sheraisedhervoicetoanabsolutescream,thrustingherdirtyhandsthroughherstilldirtierhairastheproperaccompanyinggesturetohervituperativeoratory。
  "WillI!WillI!"shescreeched。"WillIletoutmyhownbabbyforthenightfornuthin’?WillI?No,Iwon’t!I’llseeyerblowedintothemiddleofnextweekfust!Lor’’a’mussey!’ow’ighan’mightywearegittin’,tobesure!Thebabby’llbequietwithyou,MissLiz,willit,hindeed!An’itwillcryan’fretwithitshownmother,willit,hindeed!"AndateverysentencesheapproachedLizmorenearly,increasinginfuryassheadvanced。"Yerlowhussy!D’yethinkI’dletye’avemybabbyforahourunlessyerpaidfor’it?Asitis,yerpaysfartoolittle。I’manhonestwomanasworksformylivin’an’
  wotdrinksreasonable,betterthanyoubyalongsight,withyerstuck-upairs!Aprettydrabyouare!Gi’methebabby;ye’a’n’tnobusinesstokeepitaminitlonger。"AndshemadeagrabatLiz’sshelteringshawl。
  "Oh,don’thurtit!"pleadedLiz,tremblingly。"Suchalittlething——
  don’thurtit!"
  MotherMawksstaredsowildlythatherblood-shoteyesseemedprotrudingfromherhead。
  "’Urtit!Hain’tIarighttodowotIlikeswithmyhownbabby?’Urtit!Well,Inever!Look’ere!"——andsheturnedroundontheassembledneighbours——"hain’tsheareg’larone?Shedon’tcareforthelaw,notshe!She’skeepin’backachildfromitshownmother!"Andwiththatshemadeafierceattackontheshawl,andsucceededindraggingtheinfantfromLiz’sreluctantarms。Wakenedthusroughlyfromitsslumbers,thepoormitesetupafeeblewailing;itsmother,enragedatthesound,shookitviolentlytillitgaspedforbreath。
  "Dratthelittlebeast!"shecried。"Whydon’titchokean’’avedonewithit!"
  And,withoutheedingtheterrifiedremonstrancesofLiz,sheflungthechildroughly,asthoughitwereaball,throughtheopendoorofherlodgings,whereitfellonaheapofdirtyclothes,andlaymotionless;itswailinghadceased。
  "Oh,baby,baby!"exclaimedLiz,inaccentsofpoignantdistress。"Oh,youhavekilledit,Iamsure!Oh,youarecruel,cruel!Oh,baby,baby!"
  Andshebrokeintoatempestuouspassionofsobsandtears。Thebystanderslookedoninunmovedsilence。MotherMawksgatheredhertorngarmentsroundherwithagestureofdefiance,andsniffedtheairasthoughshesaid,"Anyonewhowantstomeddlewithmewillgettheworstofit。"Therewasabriefpause;suddenlyamanstaggeredoutofthegin-shop,smearingthebackofhishandacrosshismouthashecame——amassivelybuilt,ill-favouredbrute,withashockofuncombedredhairandsmallferret-likeeyes。HestaredstupidlyattheweepingLiz,thenatMotherMawks,finallyfromonetotheotheroftheloaferswhostoodby。"Wot’stherow?"hedemanded,quickly。
  "Wot’sup?’Aveitoutfair!JoeMawks’llstandbyandseefairgame。
  Fireaway,myhearties!fire,fireaway!"And,withachucklingidiotlaugh,hedivedintothepocketofhistorncorduroytrousersandproducedapipe。Fillingthisleisurelyfromagreasypouch,withsuchunsteadyfingersthatthetobaccodroppedalloverhim,helightedit,repeating,withincreasedthicknessofutterance,"Wot’stherow!’Aveitoutfair!"
  "It’saboutyourbabby,Joe!"criedthegirlbeforementioned,jumpingupfromherseatonthegroundwithsuchforcethatherhaircametumblingallaboutherinadark,dankmist,throughwhichherthin,eagerfacespitefullypeered。"Lizhasgonecrazy!Shewantsyourbabbytocuddle!"Andshescreamedwithsuddenlaughter。"Eh,eh,fancy!Wantsababbytocuddle!"
  ThestupefiedJoeblinkeddrowsilyandsuckedthestemofhispipewithapparentrelish。Them,asifhehadbeenengagedindeepmeditationonthesubject,heremovedhissmokyconsolerfromhismouth,andsaid,"W’ynot?Wantsababbytocuddle?Allright!Let’er’aveit——w’ynot?"
  AtthesewordsLizlookeduphopefullythroughhertears,butMotherMawksdartedforwardinravingindignation。
  "Yergreatdrunkenfool!"sheyelledtoherbesottedspouse,"aren’tyerashamedofyerself?Wot!letoutbabbyforawholenightfornuthin’?It’sluckyI’vemywitsaboutme,an’IsayLizsha’n’t’aveit!There,now!"
  Themanlookedather,andadoggedresolutiondarkenedhisrepulsivecountenance。Heraisedhisbigfist,clinchedit,andhitstraightout,givinghisinfuriatedwifeablackeyeinmuchlessthanaminute。"An’Isaysheshall’aveit。Whereareyenow?"
  InanswertothequeryMotherMawksmighthavesaidthatshewas"allthere,"forshereturnedherhusband’sblowwithinterestandforce,andinacoupleofsecondsthehappypairwereengagedina"stand-up"
  fight,totheintenseadmirationandexcitementofalltheinhabitantsofthelittlealley。Everyoneintheplacethrongedtowatchthecombatants,andtoheartheblasphemousoathsandcurseswithwhichthebattlewasaccompanied。
  Inthemidstoftheaffrayawizened,bentoldman,whohadbeensittingathisdoorsortingragsinabasket,andapparentlytakingnoheedoftheclamouraroundhim,madeasigntoLiz。
  "Takethekidnow,"hewhispered。"Nobody’llnotice。I’llseetheydon’tcryarterye。"
  Lizthankedhimmutelybyalook,andrushingtothehousewherethechildstilllay,seeminglyinanimate,ontheflooramongthesoiledclothes,shecaughtitupeagerly,andhurriedawaytoherownpoorgarretinatumble-downtenementatthefarthestendofthealley。Theinfanthadbeenstunnedbyitsfall,butunderhertendercare,androckedinthewarmthofhercaressingarms,itsoonrecovered,thoughwhenitsblueeyesopenedtheywerefullofabewilderedpain,suchasmaybeseenintheeyesofashotbird。
  "Mypet!mypoorlittledarling!"shemurmuredoverandoveragain,kissingitsweewhitefaceandsofthands;IwishIwasyourmother——
  LordknowsIdo!Asitis,you’reallI’vegottocarefor。Andyoudoloveme,baby,don’tyou?justalittle,littlebit!"Andassherenewedherfondlingembraces,thetiny,sad-visagedcreatureutteredalow,crooningsoundofbabysatisfactioninresponsetoherendearments——asoundmoresweettoherearsthanthemostexquisitemusic,andwhichbroughtasmiletohermouthandapathostoherdarkeyes,renderingherfaceforthemomentalmostbeautiful。Holdingthechildcloselytoherbreast,shelookedcautiouslyoutofhernarrowwindow,andperceivedthattheconnubialfightwasover。Fromtheshoutsoflaughterandplauditsthatreachedherears,JoeMawkshadevidentlywontheday;hiswifehaddisappearedfromthefield。Shesawthelittlecrowddispersing,mostofthosewhocomposeditenteredthegin-shop,andverysoonthealleywascomparativelyquietanddeserted。By-and-byesheheardhernamecalledinalowvoice:"Liz!
  Liz!"
  ShelookeddownandsawtheoldmanwhohadpromisedherhisprotectionincaseMotherMawksshouldpersecuteher。"Isthatyou,Jim?Comeupstairs;it’sbetterthantalkingoutthere。"Heobeyed,andstoodbeforeherinthewretchedroom,lookingcuriouslybothatherandthebaby。Awiry,wolfish-facedbeingwasJimDuds,ashewasfamiliarlycalled,thoughhisownnamewasthearistocraticandsingularlyinappropriateoneofJamesDouglas。Hewasmorelikeananimalthanahumancreature,withhisstragglinggrayhair,bushybeard,andsharpteethprotrudinglikefangsfrombeneathhisupperlip。Hisprofessionwasthatofanareathief,andheconsidereditasufficientlyrespectablecalling。
  "MotherMawkshasgotitthistime,"hesaid,withagrinwhichwasmorelikeasnarl。"Joe’sbloodwasup,andhepoundedhernighintoajelly。She’llleaveyequietnow;solongasyepaythehirereg’larye’llhaveJoeonyerside。Ifsobeasthere’sabadday,ye’dbetternotcomehomeatall。"
  "Iknow,"saidLiz;"butshe’salwayshadthemoneyforthechild,andsurelyitwasn’tmuchtoaskhertoletmekeepitwarmonsuchacoldnightasthis。"
  JimDudslookedmeditative。"Wotmakesyercareforthatbabbysomuch?"heasked。"’Tain’tyourn。"
  Lizsighed。
  "No,"shesaid,sadly。"That’strue。Butitseemssomethingtoholdonto,like。Seewhatmylifehasbeen!"Shestopped,andawaveofcolourflushedherpallidfeatures。"Fromalittlegirl,nothingbutthestreets——thelong,cruelstreets!andIjustabitofdirtonthepavement——nomore;flunghere,flungthere,andatlastsweptintothegutter。Alldark——alluseless!"Shelaughedalittle。"Fancy,Jim!
  I’veneverseenthecountry!"
  "NorI,"saidJim,bitingapieceofstrawreflectively。"Itmustbepowerfulfine,withnaughtbutgreentreesan’posiesa-blowin’an’agrowin’everywheres。Thereain’tmanykitchingareasthere,though,I’mtold。"
  Lizwenton,scarcelyheedinghim:"Thebabyseemstomelikewhatthecountrymustbe——allharmlessandsweetandquiet;whenIholditso,myheartgetspeacefulsomehow——Idon’tknowwhy。"
  AgainJimlookedspeculative。Hewavedhisbittenstrawexpressively。
  "Ye’vehad’sperience,Liz。Hain’tyemetnomanlikewotyecouldcarefur?"
  Liztrembled,andhereyesgrewwild……
  "Men!"shecried,withbitterestscorn——"nomenhavecomemyway,onlybrutes!"
  Jimstared,butwassilent;hehadnofitanswerready。PresentlyLizspokeagain,moresoftly:
  "Jim,doyouknowIwentintoagreatchurchto-day?"
  "Worseluck!"saidJim,sententiously。"Churchain’tnousenohowasfarasIcansee。"
  "Therewasafigurethere,Jim,"wentonLiz,earnestly,"ofaWomanholdingupaBaby,andpeoplekneltdownbeforeit。Whatdoyous’poseitwas?"
  "Can’tsay!"repliedthepuzzledJim。"Areyesure’twasachurch?
  Mostlike’twasamooseum。"
  "No,no!"saidLiz。"’Twasachurchforcertain;therewerefolksprayinginit。"
  "Ah,well,"growledJim,gruffly,"muchgooditmaydo’em!I’mnotoftheprayin’sort。Awomanan’ababby,didyesay?Don’tyegetsuchcrankynotionsintoyerhead,Liz!Womenan’babbiesarecommonenough——toocommon,byalongchalk;an’asforprayin’to’em——"Jim’suttercontemptandincredulityweretoogreatforfurtherexpression,andheturnedaway,wishingheracurt"Good-night!"
  "Good-night!"saidLiz,softly;andlongafterhehadlefthershestillsatsilent,thinking,thinking,withthebabyasleepinherarms,listeningtotherainasitdripped,drippedheavily,likeclodsfallingonacoffinlid。Shewasnotagoodwoman——farfromit。Herverymotiveinhiringtheinfantatsomuchadaywasentirelyinexcusable;itwassimplytogainmoneyuponfalsepretences——byexcitingmorepitythanwouldotherwisehavebeenbestowedonherhadshebeggedforherselfalone,withoutachildinherarms。Atfirstshehadcarriedthebabyabouttoserveasameretrickofhertrade,butthewarmfeelofitslittlehelplessbodyagainstherbosomdayafterdayhadsoftenedherhearttowarditsinnocenceandpitifulweakness,andatlastshehadgrowntoloveitwithastrange,intensepassion——somuchthatshewouldwillinglyhavesacrificedherlifeforitssake。Sheknewthatitsownparentscarednothingforit,exceptforthemoneyitbroughtthemthroughherhands;andoftenwildplanswouldforminherpoortiredbrain——plansofrunningawaywithitaltogetherfromtheroaring,devouringcity,tosomesweet,humblecountryvillage,theretoobtainworkanddevoteherselftomakingthislittlechildhappy。PoorLiz!Poor,bewildered,heart-brokenLiz!
  IgnorantLondonheathenasshewas,therewasonefragrantflowerblossominginthedesertofhersoiledandwastedexistence——theflowerofapureandguilelessloveforoneofthose"littleones,"ofwhomithathbeensaidbyanall-pityingDivinityunknowntoher,"SufferthemtocomeuntoMe,andforbidthemnot:forofsuchisthekingdomofheaven。"
  Thedrearywinterdayscreptonapace,and,astheydrewnearChristmas,dwellersinthestreetsleadingofftheStrandgrewaccustomedofnightstoheartheplaintivevoiceofawoman,singinginapeculiarlythrillingandpatheticmannersomeoftheoldsongsandballadsfamiliaranddeartotheheartofeveryEnglishman——"TheBanksofAllanWater,""TheBailiff’sDaughter,""SallyinourAlley,"
  "TheLastRoseofSummer。"Allthesewell-loveddittiesshesangoneaftertheother,and,thoughhernoteswereneitherfreshnorpowerful,theyweretrueandoftentender,moreparticularlyinthehackneyed,butstillcaptivating,melodyof"Home,SweetHome。"
  Windowswereopened,andpenniesfreelyshoweredonthestreetvocalist,whowasaccompaniedinallherwanderingsbyafragileinfant,whichsheseemedtocarrywithespecialcareandtenderness。
  Sometimes,too,inthebleakafternoons,shewouldbeseenwendingherwaythroughmudandmire,settingherwearyfaceagainstthebittereastwind,andpatientlysingingon;andmotherlywomen,comingfromthegayshopsandstores,wheretheyhadbeenpurchasingChristmastoysfortheirownchildren,wouldoftenstoptolookatthebaby’spinched,whitefeatureswithpity,andwouldsay,whilegivingtheirsparepennies,"Poorlittlething!Isitnotveryill?"AndLiz,herheartfreezingwithsuddenterror,wouldexclaim,hurriedly,"Oh,no,no!Itisalwayspale;itisjustalittlebitweak,that’sall!"Andthekindlyquestioners,touchedbythelargedespairofherdarkeyes,wouldpassonandsaynomore。AndChristmascame——thebirthdayoftheChildChrist——afeastthesacredmeaningofwhichwasunknowntoLiz;
  sheonlyrecognizeditasasortoflargeandsomewhatdullbank-
  holiday,whenallLondondevoteditselftochurch-goingandtheeatingofroastbeefandplum-pudding。Thewholethingwasincomprehensibletohermind,butevenhersadcountenancewasbrighterthanusualonChristmaseve,andshefeltalmostgay,forhadshenot,bymeansofalittleextrastarvationonherownpart,beenabletobuyawondrousgold-and-crimsonworstedbirdsuspendedfromanelasticstring,abirdwhichbobbedupanddowntocommandinthemostlivelyandartisticmanner?Andhadnotherhiredbabyactuallylaughedattheclumsytoy——laughedanelfishandweirdlaugh,thefirstithadeverindulgedin?AndLizhadlaughedtoo,forpuregladnessinthechild’smirth,andtheworstedbirdbecameasortofuncouthcharmtomakethembothmerry。
  ButafterChristmashadcomeandgone,andthemelancholydays,thelastbeatingofthefailingpulseoftheOldYear,throbbedslowlyandheavilyaway,thebabytookuponitswanvisageastrangeexpression——
  thesolemnexpressionofworn-outandsufferingage。Itsblueeyesgrewmoresolemnlyspeculativeanddreamy,andafterawhileitseemedtolosealltasteforthepettythingsofthisworldandthelowdesiresofmerehumanity。ItlayveryquietinLiz’sarms;itnevercried,andwasnolongerfretful,anditseemedtolistenwithasortofmildapprovaltothetonesofhervoiceastheyrangoutinthedrearystreets,throughwhich,bydayandnight,shepatientlywandered。By-and-bytheworstedbird,too,felloutoffavour;itjumpedandglitteredinvain;thebabysurveyeditwithanunmovedairofsuperiorwisdom,justasifithadsuddenlyfoundoutwhatrealbirdswerelike,andwasnottobedeceivedintoacceptingsopooranimitationofnature。Lizgrewuneasy,butshehadnooneinwhomtoconfideherfears。ShehadbeenveryregularinherpaymentstoMotherMawks,andthatiratelady,keptinorderbyherbull-dogofahusband,hadbeenoflateverycontentedtoletherhavethechildwithoutfurtherinterference。Lizknewwellenoughthatnooneinthemiserablealleywhereshedweltwouldcarewhetherthebabywereillornot。Theywouldtellher,"Themoresicklythebetterforyourtrade。"Besides,shewasjealous;shecouldnotenduretheideaofanyonetendingitortouchingitbutherself。Childrenwereoftenailing,shethought,andiflefttothemselveswithoutdoctor’sstufftheyrecoveredsometimesmorequicklythantheyhadsickened。Thussoothingherinwardtremorsasbestshemight,shetookmorecarethaneverofherfrailcharge,stintingherselfthanshemightnourishit,thoughthebabyseemedtocarelessandlessformundanenecessities,andonlysubmittedtobefed,asitwere,underpatientandsilentprotest。
  AndsothesandsinTime’shour-glassranslowlybutsurelyaway,anditwasNew-Year’seve。Lizhadwanderedaboutallday,singingherlittlerepertoireofballadsintheteethofacruel,snow-ladenwind——socruelthatpeopleotherwisecharitablydisposedhadshutclosetheirdoorsandwindows,andhadnotevenheardhervoice。ThusthelastspanoftheOldYearhadprovedmostunprofitableanddreary;shehadgainednomorethansixpence;howcouldshereturnwithonlythathumbleamounttofaceMotherMawksandhervituperativefury?Herthroatached;shewasverytired,and,asthenightdarkenedfrompaletodeepandstarlessshadows,shestrolledmechanicallyfromtheStrandtotheEmbankment,andafterwalkingsomelittledistanceshesatdowninacornerclosetoCleopatra’sNeedle——thatmockingobeliskthathaslookeduponthedecayofempires,itselfimpassive,andthatstillappearstosay,"Passon,yepunygenerations!I,amerecarvenblockofstone,shalloutliveyouall!"Forthefirsttimeinallherexperiencethechildinherarmsseemedaheavyburden。Sheputasidehershawlandsurveyedittenderly;itwasfastasleep,asmall,peacefulsmileonitsthin,quietface。Thoroughlywornoutherself,sheleanedherheadagainstthedampstonewallbehindher,andclaspingtheinfanttightlytoherbreast,shealsoslept——theheavy,dreamlesssleepofutterfatigueandphysicalexhaustion。Thesolemnnightmovedon,anightofblackvapours;thepageantoftheOldYear’sdeathbedwasunbrightenedbysomuchasasinglestar。Noneofthehurryingpassers-byperceivedthewearywomanwhereshesleptinthatobscurecorner,andforalongwhilesherestedthereundisturbed。Suddenlyavividglareoflightdazzledhereyes;shestartedtoherfeethalfasleep,butstillinstinctivelyretainingtheinfantinhercloseembrace。Adarkform,buttonedtothethroatandholdingabrilliantbull’s-eyelantern,stoodbeforeher。
  "Comenow,"saidthispersonage,"thiswon’tdo!Moveon!"
  Lizsmiledfaintlyandapologetically。
  "Allright!"sheanswered,strivingtospeakcheerfully,andraisinghereyestothepoliceman’sgood-naturedcountenance。"Ididn’tmeantofallasleephere。Idon’tknowhowIcametodoit。Imustgohome,ofcourse。"
  "Ofcourse,"saidthepoliceman,somewhatmollifiedbyherevidenthumility,andtouchedinspiteofhimselfbythepathosofhereyes。
  Thenturninghislampmorefullyuponher,hecontinued,"Isthatababyyou’vegotthere?"
  "Yes,"saidLiz,halfproudly,halftenderly。"Poorlittledear!it’sbeenailingsadly——butIthinkit’sbetternowthanitwas。"
  And,encouragedbyhisfriendlytone,sheopenedthefoldsofhershawltoshowhimheronetreasure。Thebulls-eyecameintostillcloserrequisitionasthekindlyguardianofthepeacepeeredinquiringlyatthetinybundle。Hehadscarcelylookedwhenhestartedbackwithanexclamation:
  "Godblessmysoul!"hecried,"it’sdead!"
  "Dead!"shriekedLiz;"oh,no,no!Notdead!Don’tsayso,oh,don’t,don’tsayso!Oh,youcan’tmeanit!Oh,forGod’slove,sayyoudidn’tmeanit!Itcan’tbedead,notreallydead!——no,no,indeed!
  Oh,baby,baby!Youarenotdead,mypetmyangel,notdead,ohno!"
  Andbreathless,franticwithfear,shefeltthelittlething’shandsandfeetandface,kisseditwildly,andcalleditbyathousandendearingnames,invain——invain!Itstinybodywasalreadystiffandrigid;ithadbeenacorpsemorethantwohours。
  Thepolicemancoughed,andbrushedhisthickgauntletgloveacrosshiseyes。Hewasanemissaryofthelaw,buthehadaheart。Hethoughtofhisbright-eyedwifeathome,andofthesoft-cheeked,cuddlinglittlecreaturethatclungtoherbosomandcrowedwithrapturewheneverhecamenear。
  "Lookhere,"hesaid,verygently,layingonehandonthewoman’sshoulderasshecrouchedshiveringagainstthewall,andstaringpiteouslyatthemotionlesswaxenforminherarms;"it’snousefrettingaboutit。"Hepaused;therewasanuncomfortablelumpinhisthroat,andhehadtocoughagaintogetitdown。"Thepoorlittlecreature’sgone——there’snohelpforit。Thenextworld’sabetterplacethanthis,youknow!There,there,don’ttakeonsoaboutit"——
  thisasLizshudderedandsighed;asighofsuchcompletedespairthatitwentstraighttohishonestsoul,andshowedhimhowfutilewerehiseffortsatconsolation。Buthehadhisdutytoattendto,andhewentoninfirmertones:"Now,likeagoodwoman,youjustmoveofffromhereandgohome。IfIleaveyouherebyyourselfabit,willyoupromisemetogostraighthome?Imustn’tfindyouherewhenIcomebackonthisbeat,d’yeunderstand?"Liznodded。"That’sright!"heresumed,cheerily。"I’llgiveyoujusttenminutes;youjustgostraighthome。"
  Andwitha"Good-night,"utteredinaccentsmeanttobecomforting,heturnedawayandpacedon,hismeasuredtreadechoingonthesilenceatfirstloudly,thenfainterandfainter,tillitaltogetherdiedaway,ashisbulkyfiguredisappearedinthedistance。Lefttoherself,Lizrosefromhercrouchingposture;rockingthedeadchildinherarms,shesmiled。
  "Gostraighthome!"shemurmured,halfaloud。"Home,sweethome!Yes,baby;yes,mydarling,wewillgohometogether!"
  Andcreepingcautiouslyalongintheshadows,shereachedaflightofthebroadstonestepsleadingdowntotheriver。Shedescendedthem,onebyone;theblackwaterlappedagainstthemheavily,heavily;thetidewasfullup。Shepaused;asonorous,deep-tonedironvoicerangthroughtheairwithreverberating,solemnmelody。ItwasthegreatbellofSt。Paul’stollingmidnight——theOldYearwasdead。
  "Straighthome!"sherepeated,withabeautiful,expectantlookinherwild,wearyeyes。"Mylittledarling!Yes,wearebothtired;wewillgohome!Home,sweethome!Wewillgo!"
  Kissingthecoldfaceofthebabycorpsesheheld,shethrewherselfforward;therefollowedasullen,deepsplash——aslightstruggle——andallwasover!Thewaterlappedagainstthestepsheavily,heavily,asbefore;thepolicemanpassedoncemore,andsawtohissatisfactionthatthecoastwasclear;throughthedarkveiloftheskyonestarlookedoutandtwinkledforabriefinstant,thendisappearedagain。A
  clashandclamourofbellsstartledthebroodingnight,hereandthereawindowwasopened,andfiguresappearedinbalconiestolisten。TheywereringingintheNewYear——thefestivalofhope,thebirthdayoftheworld!ButwhatwereNewYearstoher,who,withwhite,upturnedface,andarmsthatembracedaninfantinthetenaciousgripofdeath,wentdrifting,driftingsolemnlydownthedarkriver,unseen,unpitiedbyallthosewhoawoketonewhopesandaspirationsonthatfirstmorningofanotherlife-probation!Lizhadgone;gonetomakeherpeacewithGod——perhapsthroughtheaidofher"hired"baby,thelittlesinlesssoulshehadsofondlycherished;gonetothatsweetest"home"wedreamofandprayfor,wherethelostandbewilderedwanderersofthisearthshallfindtruewelcomeandrestfromgriefandexile;gonetothatfair,farglory-worldwherereignsthedivineMaster,whosewordsstillringabovethetumultofages:"Seethatyedespisenotoneoftheselittleones;forIsayuntoyou,thattheirangelsdoalwaysbeholdthefaceofMyFatherwhoisinheaven。"