"Theseareourancestors,andtheirhistoryisourhistory。Rememberthatassurelyasweonedayswungdownoutofthetreesandwalkedupright,justassurely,onafarearlierday,didwecrawlupoutoftheseaandachieveourfirstadventureonland。"
CHAPTERI
Pictures!Pictures!Pictures!Often,beforeIlearned,didIwonderwhencecamethemultitudesofpicturesthatthrongedmydreams;fortheywerepicturesthelikeofwhichIhadneverseeninrealwake-a-daylife。
Theytormentedmychildhood,makingofmydreamsaprocessionofnightmaresandalittlelaterconvincingmethatIwasdifferentfrommykind,acreatureunnaturalandaccursed。
InmydaysonlydidIattainanymeasureofhappiness。
Mynightsmarkedthereignoffear——andsuchfear!I
makeboldtostatethatnomanofallthemenwhowalktheearthwithmeeversufferfearoflikekindanddegree。Formyfearisthefearoflongago,thefearthatwasrampantintheYoungerWorld,andintheyouthoftheYoungerWorld。Inshort,thefearthatreignedsupremeinthatperiodknownastheMid-Pleistocene。
WhatdoImean?IseeexplanationisnecessarybeforeI
cantellyouofthesubstanceofmydreams。Otherwise,littlecouldyouknowofthemeaningofthethingsI
knowsowell。AsIwritethis,allthebeingsandhappeningsofthatotherworldriseupbeforemeinvastphantasmagoria,andIknowthattoyoutheywouldberhymelessandreasonless。
WhattoyouthefriendshipofLop-Ear,thewarmlureoftheSwiftOne,thelustandtheatavismofRed-Eye?A
screamingincoherenceandnomore。Andascreamingincoherence,likewise,thedoingsoftheFirePeopleandtheTreePeople,andthegibberingcouncilsofthehorde。Foryouknownotthepeaceofthecoolcavesinthecliffs,thecircusofthedrinking-placesattheendoftheday。Youhaveneverfeltthebiteofthemorningwindinthetree-tops,noristhetasteofyoungbarksweetinyourmouth。
Itwouldbebetter,Idaresay,foryoutomakeyourapproach,asImademine,throughmychildhood。AsaboyIwasverylikeotherboys——inmywakinghours。ItwasinmysleepthatIwasdifferent。Frommyearliestrecollectionmysleepwasaperiodofterror。Rarelyweremydreamstincturedwithhappiness。Asarule,theywerestuffedwithfear——andwithafearsostrangeandalienthatithadnoponderablequality。NofearthatIexperiencedinmywakingliferesembledthefearthatpossessedmeinmysleep。Itwasofaqualityandkindthattranscendedallmyexperiences。
Forinstance,Iwasacityboy,acitychild,rather,towhomthecountrywasanunexploreddomain。YetI
neverdreamedofcities;nordidahouseeveroccurinanyofmydreams。Nor,forthatmatter,didanyofmyhumankindeverbreakthroughthewallofmysleep。I,whohadseentreesonlyinparksandillustratedbooks,wanderedinmysleepthroughinterminableforests。Andfurther,thesedreamtreeswerenotamerebluronmyvision。Theyweresharpanddistinct。Iwasontermsofpractisedintimacywiththem。Isaweverybranchandtwig;Isawandkneweverydifferentleaf。
WelldoIrememberthefirsttimeinmywakinglifethatIsawanoaktree。AsIlookedattheleavesandbranchesandgnarls,itcametomewithdistressingvividnessthatIhadseenthatsamekindoftreemanyandcountlesstimesnmysleep。SoIwasnotsurprised,stilllateroninmylife,torecognizeinstantly,thefirsttimeIsawthem,treessuchasthespruce,theyew,thebirch,andthelaurel。Ihadseenthemallbefore,andwasseeingthemeventhen,everynight,inmysleep。
This,asyouhavealreadydiscerned,violatesthefirstlawofdreaming,namely,thatinone’sdreamsoneseesonlywhathehasseeninhiswakinglife,orcombinationsofthethingshehasseeninhiswakinglife。Butallmydreamsviolatedthislaw。InmydreamsIneversawANYTHINGofwhichIhadknowledgeinmywakinglife。Mydreamlifeandmywakinglifewerelivesapart,withnotonethingincommonsavemyself。
Iwastheconnectinglinkthatsomehowlivedbothlives。
EarlyinmychildhoodIlearnedthatnutscamefromthegrocer,berriesfromthefruitman;butbeforeeverthatknowledgewasmine,inmydreamsIpickednutsfromtrees,orgatheredthemandatethemfromthegroundunderneathtrees,andinthesamewayIateberriesfromvinesandbushes。Thiswasbeyondanyexperienceofmine。
IshallneverforgetthefirsttimeIsawblueberriesservedonthetable。Ihadneverseenblueberriesbefore,andyet,atthesightofthem,thereleapedupinmymindmemoriesofdreamswhereinIhadwanderedthroughswampylandeatingmyfillofthem。Mymothersetbeforemeadishoftheberries。Ifilledmyspoon,butbeforeIraisedittomymouthIknewjusthowtheywouldtaste。NorwasIdisappointed。ItwasthesametangthatIhadtastedathousandtimesinmysleep。
Snakes?LongbeforeIhadheardoftheexistenceofsnakes,Iwastormentedbytheminmysleep。Theylurkedformeintheforestglades;leapedup,striking,undermyfeet;squirmedoffthroughthedrygrassoracrossnakedpatchesofrock;orpursuedmeintothetree-tops,encirclingthetrunkswiththeirgreatshiningbodies,drivingmehigherandhigherorfartherandfartheroutonswayingandcracklingbranches,thegroundadizzydistancebeneathme。
Snakes!——withtheirforkedtongues,theirbeadyeyesandglitteringscales,theirhissingandtheirrattling——didInotalreadyknowthemfartoowellonthatdayofmyfirstcircuswhenIsawthesnake-charmerliftthemup?
Theywereoldfriendsofmine,enemiesrather,thatpeopledmynightswithfear。
Ah,thoseendlessforests,andtheirhorror-hauntedgloom!ForwhateternitieshaveIwanderedthroughthem,atimid,huntedcreature,startingattheleastsound,frightenedofmyownshadow,keyed-up,everalertandvigilant,readyontheinstanttodashawayinmadflightformylife。ForIwasthepreyofallmanneroffiercelifethatdweltintheforest,anditwasinecstasiesoffearthatIfledbeforethehuntingmonsters。
WhenIwasfiveyearsoldIwenttomyfirstcircus。I
camehomefromitsick——butnotfrompeanutsandpinklemonade。Letmetellyou。Asweenteredtheanimaltent,ahoarseroaringshooktheair。Itoremyhandloosefrommyfather’sanddashedwildlybackthroughtheentrance。Icollidedwithpeople,felldown;andallthetimeIwasscreamingwithterror。Myfathercaughtmeandsoothedme。Hepointedtothecrowdofpeople,allcarelessoftheroaring,andcheeredmewithassurancesofsafety。
Nevertheless,itwasinfearandtrembling,andwithmuchencouragementonhispart,thatIatlastapproachedthelion’scage。Ah,Iknewhimontheinstant。Thebeast!Theterribleone!Andonmyinnervisionflashedthememoriesofmydreams,——themiddaysunshiningontallgrass,thewildbullgrazingquietly,thesuddenpartingofthegrassbeforetheswiftrushofthetawnyone,hisleaptothebull’sback,thecrashingandthebellowing,andthecrunchcrunchofbones;oragain,thecoolquietofthewater-hole,thewildhorseuptohiskneesanddrinkingsoftly,andthenthetawnyone——alwaysthetawnyone!——
theleap,thescreamingandthesplashingofthehorse,andthecrunchcrunchofbones;andyetagain,thesombretwilightandthesadsilenceoftheendofday,andthenthegreatfull-throatedroar,sudden,likeatrumpofdoom,andswiftuponittheinsaneshriekingandchatteringamongthetrees,andI,too,amtremblingwithfearandamoneofthemanyshriekingandchatteringamongthetrees。
Atthesightofhim,helpless,withinthebarsofhiscage,Ibecameenraged。Igrittedmyteethathim,dancedupanddown,screaminganincoherentmockeryandmakinganticfaces。Heresponded,rushingagainstthebarsandroaringbackatmehisimpotentwrath。Ah,heknewme,too,andthesoundsImadewerethesoundsofoldtimeandintelligibletohim。
Myparentswerefrightened。"Thechildisill,"saidmymother。"Heishysterical,"saidmyfather。Inevertoldthem,andtheyneverknew。AlreadyhadI
developedreticenceconcerningthisqualityofmine,thissemi-disassociationofpersonalityasIthinkIamjustifiedincallingit。
Isawthesnake-charmer,andnomoreofthecircusdidIseethatnight。Iwastakenhome,nervousandoverwrought,sickwiththeinvasionofmyreallifebythatotherlifeofmydreams。
Ihavementionedmyreticence。OnlyoncedidIconfidethestrangenessofitalltoanother。Hewasaboy——mychum;andwewereeightyearsold。FrommydreamsI
reconstructedforhimpicturesofthatvanishedworldinwhichIdobelieveIoncelived。Itoldhimoftheterrorsofthatearlytime,ofLop-Earandthepranksweplayed,ofthegibberingcouncils,andoftheFirePeopleandtheirsquattingplaces。
Helaughedatme,andjeered,andtoldmetalesofghostsandofthedeadthatwalkatnight。Butmostlydidhelaughatmyfeeblefancy。Itoldhimmore,andhelaughedtheharder。Isworeinallearnestnessthatthesethingswereso,andhebegantolookuponmequeerly。Also,hegaveamazinggarblingsofmytalestoourplaymates,untilallbegantolookuponmequeerly。
Itwasabitterexperience,butIlearnedmylesson。I
wasdifferentfrommykind。Iwasabnormalwithsomethingtheycouldnotunderstand,andthetellingofwhichwouldcauseonlymisunderstanding。Whenthestoriesofghostsandgoblinswentaround,Ikeptquiet。Ismiledgrimlytomyself。Ithoughtofmynightsoffear,andknewthatmineweretherealthings——realaslifeitself,notattenuatedvaporsandsurmisedshadows。
Formenoterrorsresidedinthethoughtofbugaboosandwickedogres。Thefallthroughleafybranchesandthedizzyheights;thesnakesthatstruckatmeasI
dodgedandleapedawayinchatteringflight;thewilddogsthathuntedmeacrosstheopenspacestothetimber——thesewereterrorsconcreteandactual,happeningsandnotimaginings,thingsofthelivingfleshandofsweatandblood。OgresandbugaboosandI
hadbeenhappybed-fellows,comparedwiththeseterrorsthatmadetheirbedwithmethroughoutmychildhood,andthatstillbedwithme,now,asIwritethis,fullofyears。
CHAPTERII
IhavesaidthatinmydreamsIneversawahumanbeing。OfthisfactIbecameawareveryearly,andfeltpoignantlythelackofmyownkind。Asaverylittlechild,even,Ihadafeeling,inthemidstofthehorrorofmydreaming,thatifIcouldfindbutoneman,onlyonehuman,Ishouldbesavedfrommydreaming,thatIshouldbesurroundednomorebyhauntingterrors。Thisthoughtobsessedmeeverynightofmylifeforyears——ifonlyIcouldfindthatonehumanandbesaved!
ImustiteratethatIhadthisthoughtinthemidstofmydreaming,andItakeitasanevidenceofthemergingofmytwopersonalities,asevidenceofapointofcontactbetweenthetwodisassociatedpartsofme。
Mydreampersonalitylivedinthelongago,beforeeverman,asweknowhim,cametobe;andmyotherandwake-a-daypersonalityprojecteditself,totheextentoftheknowledgeofman’sexistence,intothesubstanceofmydreams。
Perhapsthepsychologistsofthebookwillfindfaultwithmywayofusingthephrase,"disassociationofpersonality。"Iknowtheiruseofit,yetamcompelledtouseitinmyownwayindefaultofabetterphrase。
ItakeshelterbehindtheinadequacyoftheEnglishlanguage。Andnowtotheexplanationofmyuse,ormisuse,ofthephrase。
ItwasnottillIwasayoungman,atcollege,thatI
gotanyclewtothesignificanceofmydreams,andtothecauseofthem。Uptothattimetheyhadbeenmeaninglessandwithoutapparentcausation。ButatcollegeIdiscoveredevolutionandpsychology,andlearnedtheexplanationofvariousstrangementalstatesandexperiences。Forinstance,therewasthefalling-through-spacedream——thecommonestdreamexperience,onepracticallyknown,byfirst-handexperience,toallmen。
This,myprofessortoldme,wasaracialmemory。Itdatedbacktoourremoteancestorswholivedintrees。
Withthem,beingtree-dwellers,theliabilityoffallingwasanever-presentmenace。Manylosttheirlivesthatway;allofthemexperiencedterriblefalls,savingthemselvesbyclutchingbranchesastheyfelltowardtheground。
Nowaterriblefall,avertedinsuchfashion,wasproductiveofshock。Suchshockwasproductiveofmolecularchangesinthecerebralcells。Thesemolecularchangesweretransmittedtothecerebralcellsofprogeny,became,inshort,racialmemories。
Thus,whenyouandI,asleepordozingofftosleep,fallthroughspaceandawaketosickeningconsciousnessjustbeforewestrike,wearemerelyrememberingwhathappenedtoourarborealancestors,andwhichhasbeenstampedbycerebralchangesintotheheredityoftherace。
Thereisnothingstrangeinthis,anymorethanthereisanythingstrangeinaninstinct。Aninstinctismerelyahabitthatisstampedintothestuffofourheredity,thatisall。Itwillbenoted,inpassing,thatinthisfallingdreamwhichissofamiliartoyouandmeandallofus,weneverstrikebottom。Tostrikebottomwouldbedestruction。Thoseofourarborealancestorswhostruckbottomdiedforthwith。
True,theshockoftheirfallwascommunicatedtothecerebralcells,buttheydiedimmediately,beforetheycouldhaveprogeny。YouandIaredescendedfromthosethatdidnotstrikebottom;thatiswhyyouandI,inourdreams,neverstrikebottom。
Andnowwecometodisassociationofpersonality。Weneverhavethissenseoffallingwhenwearewideawake。Ourwake-a-daypersonalityhasnoexperienceofit。Then——andheretheargumentisirresistible——itmustbeanotheranddistinctpersonalitythatfallswhenweareasleep,andthathashadexperienceofsuchfalling——thathas,inshort,amemoryofpast-dayraceexperiences,justasourwake-a-daypersonalityhasamemoryofourwake-a-dayexperiences。
ItwasatthisstageinmyreasoningthatIbegantoseethelight。Andquicklythelightburstuponmewithdazzlingbrightness,illuminatingandexplainingallthathadbeenweirdanduncannyandunnaturallyimpossibleinmydreamexperiences。Inmysleepitwasnotmywake-a-daypersonalitythattookchargeofme;
itwasanotheranddistinctpersonality,possessinganewandtotallydifferentfundofexperiences,and,tothepointofmydreaming,possessingmemoriesofthosetotallydifferentexperiences。
Whatwasthispersonality?Whenhadititselflivedawake-a-daylifeonthisplanetinordertocollectthisfundofstrangeexperiences?Thesewerequestionsthatmydreamsthemselvesanswered。Helivedinthelongago,whentheworldwasyoung,inthatperiodthatwecalltheMid-Pleistocene。Hefellfromthetreesbutdidnotstrikebottom。Hegibberedwithfearattheroaringofthelions。Hewaspursuedbybeastsofprey,struckatbydeadlysnakes。Hechatteredwithhiskindincouncil,andhereceivedroughusageatthehandsoftheFirePeopleinthedaythathefledbeforethem。
But,Ihearyouobjecting,whyisitthattheseracialmemoriesarenotoursaswell,seeingthatwehaveavagueother-personalitythatfallsthroughspacewhilewesleep?
AndImayanswerwithanotherquestion。Whyisatwo-headedcalf?Andmyownanswertothisisthatitisafreak。AndsoIansweryourquestion。Ihavethisother-personalityandthesecompleteracialmemoriesbecauseIamafreak。
Butletmebemoreexplicit。
Thecommonestracememorywehaveisthefalling-through-spacedream。Thisother-personalityisveryvague。Abouttheonlymemoryithasisthatoffalling。Butmanyofushavesharper,moredistinctother-personalities。Manyofushavetheflyingdream,thepursuing-monsterdream,colordreams,suffocationdreams,andthereptileandvermindreams。Inshort,whilethisother-personalityisvestigialinallofus,insomeofusitisalmostobliterated,whileinothersofusitismorepronounced。Someofushavestrongerandcompleterracememoriesthanothers。
Itisallaquestionofvaryingdegreeofpossessionoftheother-personality。Inmyself,thedegreeofpossessionisenormous。Myother-personalityisalmostequalinpowerwithmyownpersonality。AndinthismatterIam,asIsaid,afreak——afreakofheredity。
Idobelievethatitisthepossessionofthisother-personality——butnotsostrongaoneasmine——thathasinsomefewothersgivenrisetobeliefinpersonalreincarnationexperiences。Itisveryplausibletosuchpeople,amostconvincinghypothesis。
Whentheyhavevisionsofscenestheyhaveneverseenintheflesh,memoriesofactsandeventsdatingbackintime,thesimplestexplanationisthattheyhavelivedbefore。
Buttheymakethemistakeofignoringtheirownduality。Theydonotrecognizetheirother-personality。Theythinkitistheirownpersonality,thattheyhaveonlyonepersonality;andfromsuchapremisetheycanconcludeonlythattheyhavelivedpreviouslives。
Buttheyarewrong。Itisnotreincarnation。IhavevisionsofmyselfroamingthroughtheforestsoftheYoungerWorld;andyetitisnotmyselfthatIseebutonethatisonlyremotelyapartofme,asmyfatherandmygrandfatherarepartsofmelessremote。Thisother-selfofmineisanancestor,aprogenitorofmyprogenitorsintheearlylineofmyrace,himselftheprogenyofalinethatlongbeforehistimedevelopedfingersandtoesandclimbedupintothetrees。
Imustagain,attheriskofboring,repeatthatIam,inthisonething,tobeconsideredafreak。NotalonedoIpossessracialmemorytoanenormousextent,butI
possessthememoriesofoneparticularandfar-removedprogenitor。Andyet,whilethisismostunusual,thereisnothingover-remarkableaboutit。
Followmyreasoning。Aninstinctisaracialmemory。
Verygood。ThenyouandIandallofusreceivethesememoriesfromourfathersandmothers,astheyreceivedthemfromtheirfathersandmothers。Thereforetheremustbeamediumwherebythesememoriesaretransmittedfromgenerationtogeneration。ThismediumiswhatWeismanntermsthe"germplasm。"Itcarriesthememoriesofthewholeevolutionoftherace。Thesememoriesaredimandconfused,andmanyofthemarelost。Butsomestrainsofgermplasmcarryanexcessivefreightageofmemories——are,tobescientific,moreatavisticthanotherstrains;andsuchastrainismine。Iamafreakofheredity,anatavisticnightmare——callmewhatyouwill;buthereIam,realandalive,eatingthreeheartymealsaday,andwhatareyougoingtodoaboutit?
Andnow,beforeItakeupmytale,IwanttoanticipatethedoubtingThomasesofpsychology,whoarepronetoscoff,andwhowouldotherwisesurelysaythatthecoherenceofmydreamsisduetooverstudyandthesubconsciousprojectionofmyknowledgeofevolutionintomydreams。Inthefirstplace,Ihaveneverbeenazealousstudent。Igraduatedlastofmyclass。I
caredmoreforathletics,and——thereisnoreasonI
shouldnotconfessit——moreforbilliards。
Further,IhadnoknowledgeofevolutionuntilIwasatcollege,whereasinmychildhoodandyouthIhadalreadylivedinmydreamsallthedetailsofthatother,long-agolife。Iwillsay,however,thatthesedetailsweremixedandincoherentuntilIcametoknowthescienceofevolution。Evolutionwasthekey。Itgavetheexplanation,gavesanitytothepranksofthisatavisticbrainofminethat,modernandnormal,harkedbacktoapastsoremoteastobecontemporaneouswiththerawbeginningsofmankind。
ForinthispastIknowof,man,asweto-dayknowhim,didnotexist。ItwasintheperiodofhisbecomingthatImusthavelivedandhadmybeing。
CHAPTERIII
Thecommonestdreamofmyearlychildhoodwassomethinglikethis:ItseemedthatIwasverysmallandthatI
laycurledupinasortofnestoftwigsandboughs。
SometimesIwaslyingonmyback。InthispositionitseemedthatIspentmanyhours,watchingtheplayofsunlightonthefoliageandthestirringoftheleavesbythewind。Oftenthenestitselfmovedbackandforthwhenthewindwasstrong。
Butalways,whilesolyinginthenest,Iwasmasteredasoftremendousspacebeneathme。Ineversawit,I
neverpeeredovertheedgeofthenesttosee;butI
KNEWandfearedthatspacethatlurkedjustbeneathmeandthateverthreatenedmelikeamawofsomeall-devouringmonster。
Thisdream,inwhichIwasquiescentandwhichwasmorelikeaconditionthananexperienceofaction,I
dreamedveryofteninmyearlychildhood。Butsuddenly,therewouldrushintotheverymidstofitstrangeformsandferocioushappenings,thethunderandcrashingofstorm,orunfamiliarlandscapessuchasinmywake-a-daylifeIhadneverseen。Theresultwasconfusionandnightmare。Icouldcomprehendnothingofit。Therewasnologicofsequence。
Yousee,Ididnotdreamconsecutively。OnemomentI
wasaweebabeoftheYoungerWorldlyinginmytreenest;thenextmomentIwasagrownmanoftheYoungerWorldlockedincombatwiththehideousRed-Eye;andthenextmomentIwascreepingcarefullydowntothewater-holeintheheatoftheday。Events,yearsapartintheiroccurrenceintheYoungerWorld,occurredwithmewithinthespaceofseveralminutes,orseconds。
Itwasallajumble,butthisjumbleIshallnotinflictuponyou。ItwasnotuntilIwasayoungmanandhaddreamedmanythousandtimes,thateverythingstraightenedoutandbecameclearandplain。ThenitwasthatIgottheclewoftime,andwasabletopiecetogethereventsandactionsintheirproperorder。
ThuswasIabletoreconstructthevanishedYoungerWorldasitwasatthetimeIlivedinit——oratthetimemyother-selflivedinit。Thedistinctiondoesnotmatter;forI,too,themodernman,havegonebackandlivedthatearlylifeinthecompanyofmyother-self。
Foryourconvenience,sincethisistobenosociologicalscreed,Ishallframetogetherthedifferenteventsintoacomprehensivestory。Forthereisacertainthreadofcontinuityandhappeningthatrunsthroughallthedreams。ThereismyfriendshipwithLop-Ear,forinstance。Also,thereistheenmityofRed-Eye,andtheloveoftheSwiftOne。Takingitallinall,afairlycoherentandinterestingstoryI
amsureyouwillagree。
Idonotremembermuchofmymother。PossiblytheearliestrecollectionIhaveofher——andcertainlythesharpest——isthefollowing:ItseemedIwaslyingontheground。Iwassomewhatolderthanduringthenestdays,butstillhelpless。Irolledaboutinthedryleaves,playingwiththemandmakingcrooning,raspingnoisesinmythroat。ThesunshonewarmlyandIwashappy,andcomfortable。Iwasinalittleopenspace。
Aroundme,onallsides,werebushesandfern-likegrowths,andoverheadandallaboutwerethetrunksandbranchesofforesttrees。
SuddenlyIheardasound。Isatuprightandlistened。
Imadenomovement。Thelittlenoisesdieddowninmythroat,andIsatasonepetrified。Thesounddrewcloser。Itwaslikethegruntofapig。ThenIbegantohearthesoundscausedbythemovingofabodythroughthebrush。NextIsawthefernsagitatedbythepassageofthebody。Thenthefernsparted,andI
sawgleamingeyes,alongsnout,andwhitetusks。
Itwasawildboar。Hepeeredatmecuriously。Hegruntedonceortwiceandshiftedhisweightfromoneforelegtotheother,atthesametimemovinghisheadfromsidetosideandswayingtheferns。StillIsatasonepetrified,myeyesunblinkingasIstaredathim,feareatingatmyheart。
Itseemedthatthismovelessnessandsilenceonmypartwaswhatwasexpectedofme。Iwasnottocryoutinthefaceoffear。Itwasadictateofinstinct。AndsoIsatthereandwaitedforIknewnotwhat。Theboarthrustthefernsasideandsteppedintotheopen。
Thecuriositywentoutofhiseyes,andtheygleamedcruelly。Hetossedhisheadatmethreateninglyandadvancedastep。Thishedidagain,andyetagain。
ThenIscreamed……orshrieked——Icannotdescribeit,butitwasashrillandterriblecry。Anditseemsthatit,too,atthisstageoftheproceedings,wasthethingexpectedofme。Fromnotfarawaycameanansweringcry。Mysoundsseemedmomentarilytodisconcerttheboar,andwhilehehaltedandshiftedhisweightwithindecision,anapparitionburstuponus。
Shewaslikealargeorangutan,mymother,orlikeachimpanzee,andyet,insharpanddefiniteways,quitedifferent。Shewasheavierofbuildthanthey,andhadlesshair。Herarmswerenotsolong,andherlegswerestouter。Sheworenoclothes——onlyhernaturalhair。AndIcantellyoushewasafurywhenshewasexcited。
Andlikeafuryshedasheduponthescene。Shewasgrittingherteeth,makingfrightfulgrimaces,snarling,utteringsharpandcontinuouscriesthatsoundedlike"kh-ah!kh-ah!"Sosuddenandformidablewasherappearancethattheboarinvoluntarilybunchedhimselftogetheronthedefensiveandbristledassheswervedtowardhim。Thensheswervedtowardme。Shehadquitetakenthebreathoutofhim。Iknewjustwhattodointhatmomentoftimeshehadgained。I
leapedtomeether,catchingheraboutthewaistandholdingonhandandfoot——yes,bymyfeet;Icouldholdonbythemasreadilyasbymyhands。Icouldfeelinmytensegripthepullofthehairasherskinandhermusclesmovedbeneathwithherefforts。
AsIsay,Ileapedtomeether,andontheinstantsheleapedstraightupintotheair,catchinganoverhangingbranchwithherhands。Thenextinstant,withclashingtusks,theboardrovepastunderneath。
Hehadrecoveredfromhissurpriseandsprungforward,emittingasquealthatwasalmostatrumpeting。Atanyrateitwasacall,foritwasfollowedbytherushingofbodiesthroughthefernsandbrushfromalldirections。
Fromeverysidewildhogsdashedintotheopenspace——ascoreofthem。Butmymotherswungoverthetopofathicklimb,adozenfeetfromtheground,and,stillholdingontoher,weperchedthereinsafety。Shewasveryexcited。Shechatteredandscreamed,andscoldeddownatthebristling,tooth-gnashingcirclethathadgatheredbeneath。I,too,trembling,peereddownattheangrybeastsanddidmybesttoimitatemymother’scries。
Fromthedistancecamesimilarcries,onlypitcheddeeper,intoasortofroaringbass。Thesegrewmomentarilylouder,andsoonIsawhimapproaching,myfather——atleast,byalltheevidenceofthetimes,I
amdriventoconcludethathewasmyfather。
Hewasnotanextremelyprepossessingfather,asfathersgo。Heseemedhalfman,andhalfape,andyetnotape,andnotyetman。Ifailtodescribehim。
Thereisnothinglikehimto-dayontheearth,undertheearth,norintheearth。Hewasalargemaninhisday,andhemusthaveweighedallofahundredandthirtypounds。Hisfacewasbroadandflat,andtheeyebrowsover-hungtheeyes。Theeyesthemselvesweresmall,deep-set,andclosetogether。Hehadpracticallynonoseatall。Itwassquatandbroad,apparentlywith-outanybridge,whilethenostrilswereliketwoholesintheface,openingoutwardinsteadofdown。
Theforeheadslantedbackfromtheeyes,andthehairbeganrightattheeyesandranupoverthehead。Theheaditselfwaspreposterouslysmallandwassupportedonanequallypreposterous,thick,shortneck。
Therewasanelementaleconomyabouthisbody——aswasthereaboutallourbodies。Thechestwasdeep,itistrue,cavernouslydeep;buttherewerenofull-swellingmuscles,nowide-spreadingshoulders,noclean-limbedstraightness,nogeneroussymmetryofoutline。Itrepresentedstrength,thatbodyofmyfather’s,strengthwithoutbeauty;ferocious,primordialstrength,madetoclutchandgripeandrendanddestroy。
Hishipswerethin;andthelegs,leanandhairy,werecrookedandstringy-muscled。Infact,myfather’slegsweremorelikearms。Theyweretwistedandgnarly,andwithscarcelythesemblanceofthefullmeatycalfsuchasgracesyourlegandmine。Irememberhecouldnotwalkontheflatofhisfoot。Thiswasbecauseitwasaprehensilefoot,morelikeahandthanafoot。Thegreattoe,insteadofbeinginlinewiththeothertoes,opposedthem,likeathumb,anditsoppositiontotheothertoeswaswhatenabledhimtogetagripwithhisfoot。Thiswaswhyhecouldnotwalkontheflatofhisfoot。
Buthisappearancewasnomoreunusualthanthemannerofhiscoming,theretomymotherandmeasweperchedabovetheangrywildpigs。Hecamethroughthetrees,leapingfromlimbtolimbandfromtreetotree;andhecameswiftly。Icanseehimnow,inmywake-a-daylife,asIwritethis,swingingalongthroughthetrees,afour-handed,hairycreature,howlingwithrage,pausingnowandagaintobeathischestwithhisclenchedfist,leapingten-and-fifteen-footgaps,catchingabranchwithonehandandswingingonacrossanothergaptocatchwithhisotherhandandgoon,neverhesitating,neveratalossastohowtoproceedonhisarborealway。
AndasIwatchedhimIfeltinmyownbeing,inmyverymusclesthemselves,thesurgeandthrillofdesiretogoleapingfromboughtobough;andIfeltalsotheguaranteeofthelatentpowerinthatbeingandinthosemusclesofmine。Andwhynot?Littleboyswatchtheirfathersswingaxesandfelltrees,andfeelinthemselvesthatsomedaythey,too,willswingaxesandfelltrees。Andsowithme。Thelifethatwasinmewasconstitutedtodowhatmyfatherdid,anditwhisperedtomesecretlyandambitiouslyofaerialpathsandforestflights。
Atlastmyfatherjoinedus。Hewasextremelyangry。
Iremembertheout-thrustofhisprotrudingunderlipasheglareddownatthewildpigs。Hesnarledsomethinglikeadog,andIrememberthathiseye-teethwerelarge,likefangs,andthattheyimpressedmetremendously。
Hisconductservedonlythemoretoinfuriatethepigs。
Hebrokeofftwigsandsmallbranchesandflungthemdownuponourenemies。Heevenhungbyonehand,tantalizinglyjustbeyondreach,andmockedthemastheygnashedtheirtuskswithimpotentrage。Notcontentwiththis,hebrokeoffastoutbranch,and,holdingonwithonehandandfoot,jabbedtheinfuriatedbeastsinthesidesandwhackedthemacrosstheirnoses。Needlesstostate,mymotherandIenjoyedthesport。
Butonetiresofallgoodthings,andintheend,myfather,chucklingmaliciouslythewhile,ledthewayacrossthetrees。Nowitwasthatmyambitionsebbedaway,andIbecametimid,holdingtightlytomymotherassheclimbedandswungthroughspace。Irememberwhenthebranchbrokewithherweight。Shehadmadeawideleap,andwiththesnapofthewoodIwasoverwhelmedwiththesickeningconsciousnessoffallingthroughspace,thepairofus。Theforestandthesunshineontherustlingleavesvanishedfrommyeyes。
Ihadafadingglimpseofmyfatherabruptlyarrestinghisprogresstolook,andthenallwasblackness。
ThenextmomentIwasawake,inmysheetedbed,sweating,trembling,nauseated。Thewindowwasup,andacoolairwasblowingthroughtheroom。Thenight-lampwasburningcalmly。AndbecauseofthisI
takeitthatthewildpigsdidnotgetus,thatweneverfetchedbottom;elseIshouldnotbeherenow,athousandcenturiesafter,toremembertheevent。
Andnowputyourselfinmyplaceforamoment。Walkwithmeabitinmytenderchildhood,bedwithmeanightandimagineyourselfdreamingsuchincomprehensiblehorrors。RememberIwasaninexperiencedchild。Ihadneverseenawildboarinmylife。ForthatmatterIhadneverseenadomesticatedpig。ThenearestapproachtoonethatI
hadseenwasbreakfastbaconsizzlinginitsfat。Andyethere,realaslife,wildboarsdashedthroughmydreams,andI,withfantasticparents,swungthroughtheloftytree-spaces。
DoyouwonderthatIwasfrightenedandoppressedbymynightmare-riddennights?Iwasaccursed。And,worstofall,Iwasafraidtotell。Idonotknowwhy,exceptthatIhadafeelingofguilt,thoughIknewnobetterofwhatIwasguilty。Soitwas,throughlongyears,thatIsufferedinsilence,untilIcametoman’sestateandlearnedthewhyandwhereforeofmydreams。
CHAPTERIV
Thereisonepuzzlingthingabouttheseprehistoricmemoriesofmine。Itisthevaguenessofthetimeelement。Ilonotalwaysknowtheorderofevents;——orcanItell,betweensomeevents,whetherone,two,orfourorfiveyearshaveelapsed。Icanonlyroughlytellthepassageoftimebyjudgingthechangesintheappearanceandpursuitsofmyfellows。
Also,Icanapplythelogicofeventstothevarioushappenings。Forinstance,thereisnodoubtwhateverthatmymotherandIweretreedbythewildpigsandfledandfellinthedaysbeforeImadetheacquaintanceofLop-Ear,whobecamewhatImaycallmyboyhoodchum。AnditisjustasconclusivethatbetweenthesetwoperiodsImusthaveleftmymother。
IhavenomemoryofmyfatherthantheoneIhavegiven。Never,intheyearsthatfollowed,didhereappear。Andfrommyknowledgeofthetimes,theonlyexplanationpossibleliesinthatheperishedshortlyaftertheadventurewiththewildpigs。Thatitmusthavebeenanuntimelyend,thereisnodiscussion。Hewasinfullvigor,andonlysuddenandviolentdeathcouldhavetakenhimoff。ButIknownotthemannerofhisgoing——whetherhewasdrownedintheriver,orwasswallowedbyasnake,orwentintothestomachofoldSaber-Tooth,thetiger,isbeyondmyknowledge。
ForknowthatIrememberonlythethingsIsawmyself,withmyowneyes,inthoseprehistoricdays。Ifmymotherknewmyfather’send,shenevertoldme。ForthatmatterIdoubtifshehadavocabularyadequatetoconveysuchinformation。Perhaps,alltold,theFolkinthatdayhadavocabularyofthirtyorfortysounds。
IcallthemSOUNDS,ratherthanWORDS,becausesoundstheywereprimarily。Theyhadnofixedvalues,tobealteredbyadjectivesandadverbs。Theselatterweretoolsofspeechnotyetinvented。Insteadofqualifyingnounsorverbsbytheuseofadjectivesandadverbs,wequalifiedsoundsbyintonation,bychangesinquantityandpitch,byretardingandbyaccelerating。Thelengthoftimeemployedintheutteranceofaparticularsoundshadeditsmeaning。
Wehadnoconjugation。Onejudgedthetensebythecontext。Wetalkedonlyconcretethingsbecausewethoughtonlyconcretethings。Also,wedependedlargelyonpantomime。Thesimplestabstractionwaspracticallybeyondourthinking;andwhenonedidhappentothinkone,hewashardputtocommunicateittohisfellows。Therewerenosoundsforit。Hewaspressingbeyondthelimitsofhisvocabulary。Ifheinventedsoundsforit,hisfellowsdidnotunderstandthesounds。Thenitwasthathefellbackonpantomime,illustratingthethoughtwhereverpossibleandatthesametimerepeatingthenewsoundoverandoveragain。
Thuslanguagegrew。Bythefewsoundswepossessedwewereenabledtothinkashortdistancebeyondthosesounds;thencametheneedfornewsoundswherewithtoexpressthenewthought。Sometimes,however,wethoughttoolongadistanceinadvanceofoursounds,managedtoachieveabstractions(dimonesIgrant),whichwefailedutterlytomakeknowntootherfolk。Afterall,languagedidnotgrowfastinthatday。
Oh,believeme,wewereamazinglysimple。Butwedidknowalotthatisnotknownto-day。Wecouldtwitchourears,prickthemupandflattenthemdownatwill。
Andwecouldscratchbetweenourshoulderswithease。
Wecouldthrowstoneswithourfeet。Ihavedoneitmanyatime。Andforthatmatter,Icouldkeepmykneesstraight,bendforwardfromthehips,andtouch,notthetipsofmyfingers,butthepointsofmyelbows,totheground。Andasforbird-nesting——well,Ionlywishthetwentieth-centuryboycouldseeus。
Butwemadenocollectionsofeggs。Weatethem。
Iremember——butIout-runmystory。FirstletmetellofLop-Earandourfriendship。Veryearlyinmylife,Iseparatedfrommymother。Possiblythiswasbecause,afterthedeathofmyfather,shetooktoherselfasecondhusband。Ihavefewrecollectionsofhim,andtheyarenotofthebest。Hewasalightfellow。
Therewasnosoliditytohim。Hewastoovoluble。HisinfernalchatteringworriesmeevennowasIthinkofit。Hismindwastooinconsequentialtopermithimtopossesspurpose。Monkeysintheircagesalwaysremindmeofhim。Hewasmonkeyish。ThatisthebestdescriptionIcangiveofhim。
Hehatedmefromthefirst。AndIquicklylearnedtobeafraidofhimandhismaliciouspranks。WheneverhecameinsightIcreptclosetomymotherandclungtoher。ButIwasgrowingolderallthetime,anditwasinevitablethatIshouldfromtimetotimestrayfromher,andstrayfartherandfarther。AndtheseweretheopportunitiesthattheChattererwaitedfor。(Imayaswellexplainthatweborenonamesinthosedays;werenotknownbyanyname。ForthesakeofconvenienceI
havemyselfgivennamestothevariousFolkIwasmorecloselyincontactwith,andthe"Chatterer"isthemostfittingdescriptionIcanfindforthatpreciousstepfatherofmine。Asforme,Ihavenamedmyself"Big-Tooth。"Myeye-teethwerepronouncedlylarge。)
ButtoreturntotheChatterer。Hepersistentlyterrorizedme。Hewasalwayspinchingmeandcuffingme,andonoccasionhewasnotabovebitingme。Oftenmymotherinterfered,andthewayshemadehisfurflywasajoytosee。Buttheresultofallthiswasabeautifulandunendingfamilyquarrel,inwhichIwastheboneofcontention。
No,myhome-lifewasnothappy。IsmiletomyselfasI
writethephrase。Home-life!Home!Ihadnohomeinthemodernsenseoftheterm。Myhomewasanassociation,notahabitation。Ilivedinmymother’scare,notinahouse。Andmymotherlivedanywhere,solongaswhennightcameshewasabovetheground。
Mymotherwasold-fashioned。Shestillclungtohertrees。Itistrue,themoreprogressivemembersofourhordelivedinthecavesabovetheriver。Butmymotherwassuspiciousandunprogressive。Thetreesweregoodenoughforher。Ofcourse,wehadoneparticulartreeinwhichweusuallyroosted,thoughweoftenroostedinothertreeswhennightfallcaughtus。Inaconvenientforkwasasortofrudeplatformoftwigsandbranchesandcreepingthings。Itwasmorelikeahugebird-nestthananythingelse,thoughitwasathousandtimescruderintheweavingthananybird-nest。ButithadonefeaturethatIhaveneverseenattachedtoanybird-nest,namely,aroof。
Oh,notaroofsuchasmodernmanmakes!Noraroofsuchasismadebythelowestaboriginesofto-day。Itwasinfinitelymoreclumsythantheclumsiesthandiworkofman——ofmanasweknowhim。Itwasputtogetherinacasual,helter-skeltersortofway。Abovetheforkofthetreewhereonwerestedwasapileofdeadbranchesandbrush。FourorfiveadjacentforksheldwhatImaytermthevariousridge-poles。Theseweremerelystoutsticksaninchorsoindiameter。Onthemrestedthebrushandbranches。Theseseemedtohavebeentossedonalmostaimlessly。Therewasnoattemptatthatching。
AndImustconfessthattheroofleakedmiserablyinaheavyrain。
ButtheChatterer。Hemadehome-lifeaburdenforbothmymotherandme——andbyhome-lifeImean,nottheleakynestinthetree,butthegroup-lifeofthethreeofus。Hewasmostmaliciousinhispersecutionofme。
Thatwastheonepurposetowhichheheldsteadfastlyforlongerthanfiveminutes。Also,astimewentby,mymotherwaslesseagerinherdefenceofme。I
think,whatofthecontinuousrowsraisedbytheChatterer,thatImusthavebecomeanuisancetoher。
Atanyrate,thesituationwentfrombadtoworsesorapidlythatIshouldsoon,ofmyownvolition,havelefthome。Butthesatisfactionofperformingsoindependentanactwasdeniedme。BeforeIwasreadytogo,Iwasthrownout。AndImeanthisliterally。
TheopportunitycametotheChattereronedaywhenI
wasaloneinthenest。MymotherandtheChattererhadgoneawaytogethertowardtheblueberryswamp。Hemusthaveplannedthewholething,forIheardhimreturningalonethroughtheforest,roaringwithself-inducedrageashecame。Likeallthemenofourhorde,whentheywereangryorweretryingtomakethemselvesangry,hestoppednowandagaintohammeronhischestwithhisfist。
Irealizedthehelplessnessofmysituation,andcrouchedtremblinginthenest。TheChatterercamedirectlytothetree——Irememberitwasanoaktree——andbegantoclimbup。Andheneverceasedforamomentfromhisinfernalrow。AsIhavesaid,ourlanguagewasextremelymeagre,andhemusthavestraineditbythevarietyofwaysinwhichheinformedmeofhisundyinghatredofmeandofhisintentionthereandthentohaveitoutwithme。
Asheclimbedtothefork,Ifledoutthegreathorizontallimb。Hefollowedme,andoutIwent,fartherandfarther。AtlastIwasoutamongstthesmalltwigsandleaves。TheChattererwaseveracoward,andgreateralwaysthananyangerheeverworkedupwashiscaution。Hewasafraidtofollowmeoutamongsttheleavesandtwigs。Forthatmatter,hisgreaterweightwouldhavecrashedhimthroughthefoliagebeforehecouldhavegottome。
Butitwasnotnecessaryforhimtoreachme,andwellheknewit,thescoundrel!Withamalevolentexpressiononhisface,hisbeadyeyesgleamingwithcruelintelligence,hebeganteetering。Teetering!——andwithmeoutontheveryedgeofthebough,clutchingatthetwigsthatbrokecontinuallywithmyweight。Twentyfeetbeneathmewastheearth。
Wildlyandmore——wildlyheteetered,grinningatmehisgloatinghatred。Thencametheend。Allfourholdsbrokeatthesametime,andIfell,back-downward,lookingupathim,myhandsandfeetstillclutchingthebrokentwigs。Luckily,therewerenowildpigsunderme,andmyfallwasbrokenbythetoughandspringybushes。
Usually,myfallsdestroymydreams,thenervousshockbeingsufficienttobridgethethousandcenturiesinaninstantandhurlmewideawakeintomylittlebed,where,perchance,Iliesweatingandtremblingandhearthecuckooclockcallingthehourinthehall。ButthisdreamofmyleavinghomeIhavehadmanytimes,andneveryethaveIbeenawakenedbyit。AlwaysdoI
crash,shrieking,downthroughthebrushandfetchupwithabumpontheground。
Scratchedandbruisedandwhimpering,IlaywhereIhadfallen。Peeringupthroughthebushes,IcouldseetheChatterer。Hehadsetupademoniacalchantofjoyandwaskeepingtimetoitwithhisteetering。Iquicklyhushedmywhimpering。Iwasnolongerinthesafetyofthetrees,andIknewthedangerIranofbringinguponmyselfthehuntinganimalsbytooaudibleanexpressionofmygrief。
Iremember,asmysobsdieddown,thatIbecameinterestedinwatchingthestrangelight-effectsproducedbypartiallyopeningandclosingmytear-weteyelids。ThenIbegantoinvestigate,andfoundthatI
wasnotsoverybadlydamagedbymyfall。Ihadlostsomehairandhide,hereandthere;thesharpandjaggedendofabrokenbranchhadthrustfullyaninchintomyforearm;andmyrighthip,whichhadbornethebruntofmycontactwiththeground,wasachingintolerably。Butthese,afterall,wereonlypettyhurts。Noboneswerebroken,andinthosedaysthefleshofmanhadfinerhealingqualitiesthanithasto-day。Yetitwasaseverefall,forIlimpedwithmyinjuredhipforfullyaweekafterward。
Next,asIlayinthebushes,therecameuponmeafeelingofdesolation,aconsciousnessthatIwashomeless。ImadeupmymindnevertoreturntomymotherandtheChatterer。Iwouldgofarawaythroughtheterribleforest,andfindsometreeformyselfinwhichtoroost。Asforfood,Iknewwheretofindit。
ForthelastyearatleastIhadnotbeenbeholdentomymotherforfood。Allshehadfurnishedmewasprotectionandguidance。
Icrawledsoftlyoutthroughthebushes。OnceIlookedbackandsawtheChattererstillchantingandteetering。Itwasnotapleasantsight。Iknewprettywellhowtobecautious,andIwasexceedinglycarefulonthismyfirstjourneyintheworld。
IgavenothoughtastowhereIwasgoing。Ihadbutonepurpose,andthatwastogoawaybeyondthereachoftheChatterer。Iclimbedintothetreesandwanderedonamongstthemforhours,passingfromtreetotreeandnevertouchingtheground。ButIdidnotgoinanyparticulardirection,nordidItravelsteadily。Itwasmynature,asitwasthenatureofallmyfolk,tobeinconsequential。Besides,Iwasamerechild,andIstoppedagreatdealtoplaybytheway。
Theeventsthatbefellmeonmyleavinghomeareveryvagueinmymind。Mydreamsdonotcoverthem。Muchhasmyother-selfforgotten,andparticularlyatthisveryperiod。NorhaveIbeenabletoframeupthevariousdreamssoastobridgethegapbetweenmyleavingthehome-treeandmyarrivalatthecaves。
IrememberthatseveraltimesIcametoopenspaces。
TheseIcrossedingreattrepidation,descendingtothegroundandrunningatthetopofmyspeed。Irememberthatthereweredaysofrainanddaysofsunshine,sothatImusthavewanderedaloneforquiteatime。I
especiallydreamofmymiseryintherain,andofmysufferingsfromhungerandhowIappeasedit。Oneverystrongimpressionisofhuntinglittlelizardsontherockytopofanopenknoll。Theyranundertherocks,andmostofthemescaped;butoccasionallyIturnedoverastoneandcaughtone。Iwasfrightenedawayfromthisknollbysnakes。Theydidnotpursueme。
Theyweremerelybaskingonflatrocksinthesun。ButsuchwasmyinheritedfearofthemthatIfledasfastasiftheyhadbeenafterme。
ThenIgnawedbitterbarkfromyoungtrees。Iremembervaguelytheeatingofmanygreennuts,withsoftshellsandmilkykernels。AndIremembermostdistinctlysufferingfromastomach-ache。Itmayhavebeencausedbythegreennuts,andmaybebythelizards。Idonotknow。ButIdoknowthatIwasfortunateinnotbeingdevouredduringtheseveralhoursIwasknotteduponthegroundwiththecolic。
CHAPTERV
Myvisionofthescenecameabruptly,asIemergedfromtheforest。Ifoundmyselfontheedgeofalargeclearspace。Ononesideofthisspaceroseuphighbluffs。Ontheothersidewastheriver。Theearthbankransteeplydowntothewater,buthereandthere,inseveralplaces,whereatsometimeslidesofearthhadoccurred,therewererun-ways。Thesewerethedrinking-placesoftheFolkthatlivedinthecaves。
Andthiswasthemainabiding-placeoftheFolkthatI
hadchancedupon。Thiswas,Imaysay,bystretchingtheword,thevillage。MymotherandtheChattererandI,andafewothersimplebodies,werewhatmightbetermedsuburbanresidents。Wewerepartofthehorde,thoughwelivedadistanceawayfromit。Itwasonlyashortdistance,thoughithadtakenme,whatofmywandering,allofaweektoarrive。HadIcomedirectly,Icouldhavecoveredthetripinanhour。
Buttoreturn。FromtheedgeoftheforestIsawthecavesinthebluff,theopenspace,andtherun-waystothedrinking-places。AndintheopenspaceIsawmanyoftheFolk。Ihadbeenstraying,aloneandachild,foraweek。DuringthattimeIhadseennotoneofmykind。Ihadlivedinterroranddesolation。Andnow,atthesightofmykind,Iwasovercomewithgladness,andIranwildlytowardthem。
Thenitwasthatastrangethinghappened。SomeoneoftheFolksawmeandutteredawarningcry。Ontheinstant,cryingoutwithfearandpanic,theFolkfledaway。Leapingandscramblingovertherocks,theyplungedintothemouthsofthecavesanddisappeared……allbutone,alittlebaby,thathadbeendroppedintheexcitementclosetothebaseofthebluff。Hewaswailingdolefully。Hismotherdashedout;hesprangtomeetherandheldontightlyasshescrambledbackintothecave。
Iwasallalone。Thepopulousopenspacehadofasuddenbecomedeserted。Isatdownforlornlyandwhimpered。Icouldnotunderstand。WhyhadtheFolkrunawayfromme?Inlatertime,whenIcametoknowtheirways,Iwastolearn。WhentheysawmedashingoutoftheforestattopspeedtheyconcludedthatI
wasbeingpursuedbysomehuntinganimal。BymyunceremoniousapproachIhadstampededthem。
AsIsatandwatchedthecave-mouthsIbecameawarethattheFolkwerewatchingme。Soontheywerethrustingtheirheadsout。Alittlelatertheywerecallingbackandforthtooneanother。Inthehurryandconfusionithadhappenedthatallhadnotgainedtheirowncaves。Someoftheyoungoneshadsoughtrefugeinothercaves。Themothersdidnotcallforthembyname,becausethatwasaninventionwehadnotyetmade。Allwerenameless。Themothersutteredquerulous,anxiouscries,whichwererecognizedbytheyoungones。Thus,hadmymotherbeentherecallingtome,Ishouldhaverecognizedhervoiceamongstthevoicesofathousandmothers,andinthesamewaywouldshehaverecognizedmineamongstathousand。
Thiscallingbackandforthcontinuedforsometime,buttheyweretoocautioustocomeoutoftheircavesanddescendtotheground。Finallyonedidcome。Hewasdestinedtoplayalargepartinmylife,andforthatmatterhealreadyplayedalargepartinthelivesofallthemembersofthehorde。HeitwaswhomI
shallcallRed-Eyeinthepagesofthishistory——socalledbecauseofhisinflamedeyes,thelidsbeingalwaysred,and,bythepeculiareffecttheyproduced,seemingtoadvertisetheterriblesavageryofhim。Thecolorofhissoulwasred。
Hewasamonsterinallways。Physicallyhewasagiant。Hemusthaveweighedonehundredandseventypounds。HewasthelargestoneofourkindIeversaw。
NordidIeverseeoneoftheFirePeoplesolargeashe,noroneoftheTreePeople。Sometimes,wheninthenewspapersIhappenupondescriptionsofourmodernbruisersandprizefighters,Iwonderwhatchancethebestofthemwouldhavehadagainsthim。
Iamafraidnotmuchofachance。Withonegripofhisironfingersandapull,hecouldhavepluckedamuscle,sayabiceps,bytheroots,clearoutoftheirbodies。Aback-handed,looseblowofhisfistcouldhavesmashedtheirskullslikeegg-shells。Withasweepofhiswickedfeet(orhind-hands)hecouldhavedisembowelledthem。Atwistcouldhavebrokentheirnecks,andIknowthatwithasinglecrunchofhisjawshecouldhavepierced,atthesamemoment,thegreatveinofthethroatinfrontandthespinalmarrowattheback。
Hecouldspringtwentyfeethorizontallyfromasittingposition。Hewasabominablyhairy。Itwasamatterofpridewithustobenotveryhairy。Buthewascoveredwithhairallover,ontheinsideofthearmsaswellastheoutside,andeventheearsthemselves。Theonlyplacesonhimwherethehairdidnotgrowwerethesolesofhishandsandfeetandbeneathhiseyes。Hewasfrightfullyugly,hisferociousgrinningmouthandhugedown-hangingunder-lipbeingbutinharmonywithhisterribleeyes。
ThiswasRed-Eye。Andrightgingerlyhecreptoutorhiscaveanddescendedtotheground。Ignoringme,heproceededtoreconnoitre。Hebentforwardfromthehipsashewalked;andsofarforwarddidhebend,andsolongwerehisarms,thatwitheverystephetouchedtheknucklesofhishandstothegroundoneithersideofhim。Hewasawkwardinthesemi-erectpositionofwalkingthatheassumed,andhereallytouchedhisknucklestothegroundinordertobalancehimself。
Butoh,Itellyouhecouldrunonall-fours!Nowthiswassomethingatwhichwewereparticularlyawkward。
Furthermore,itwasarareindividualamonguswhobalancedhimselfwithhisknuckleswhenwalking。Suchanindividualwasanatavism,andRed-Eyewasanevengreateratavism。
Thatiswhathewas——anatavism。Wewereintheprocessofchangingourtree-lifetolifeontheground。Formanygenerationswehadbeengoingthroughthischange,andourbodiesandcarriagehadlikewisechanged。ButRed-Eyehadrevertedtothemoreprimitivetree-dwellingtype。Perforce,becausehewasborninourhordehestayedwithus;butinactualityhewasanatavismandhisplacewaselsewhere。
Verycircumspectandveryalert,hemovedhereandthereabouttheopenspace,peeringthroughthevistasamongthetreesandtryingtocatchaglimpseofthehuntinganimalthatallsuspectedhadpursuedme。Andwhilehedidthis,takingnonoticeofme,theFolkcrowdedatthecave-mouthsandwatched。
Atlastheevidentlydecidedthattherewasnodangerlurkingabout。Hewasreturningfromtheheadoftherun-way,fromwherehehadtakenapeepdownatthedrinking-place。Hiscoursebroughthimnear,butstillhedidnotnoticeme。Heproceededcasuallyonhiswayuntilabreastofme,andthen,withoutwarningandwithincredibleswiftness,hesmotemeabuffetonthehead。
IwasknockedbackwardfullyadozenfeetbeforeI
fetchedupagainsttheground,andIremember,half-stunned,evenastheblowwasstruck,hearingthewilduproarofcluckingandshriekinglaughterthatarosefromthecaves。Itwasagreatjoke——atleastinthatday;andrightheartilytheFolkappreciatedit。
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