Whenthemanwantsweight,thewomantakesitup,Andtopplesdownthescales;butthisisfixtAsaretherootsofearthandbaseofall;
Manforthefieldandwomanforthehearth:
Manfortheswordandfortheneedleshe:
Manwiththeheadandwomanwiththeheart:
Mantocommandandwomantoobey;
Allelseconfusion。Lookyou!thegraymareIsilltolivewith,whenherwhinnyshrillsFromtiletoscullery,andhersmallgoodmanShrinksinhisarm—chairwhilethefiresofHellMixwithhishearth:butyou——she’syetacolt——
Take,breakher:stronglygroomedandstraitlycurbedShemightnotrankwiththosedetestableThatletthebantlingscaldathome,andbrawlTheirrightsandwrongslikepotherbsinthestreet。
Theysayshe’scomely;there’sthefairerchance:
~I~likehernonethelessforratingather!
Besides,thewomanwedisnotaswe,Butsufferschangeofframe。AlustybraceOftwinsmayweedherofherfolly。Boy,ThebearingandthetrainingofachildIswoman’swisdom。’
Thusthehardoldking:
Itookmyleave,foritwasnearlynoon:
IporeduponherletterwhichIheld,Andonthelittleclause’takenothislife:’
Imusedonthatwildmorninginthewoods,Andonthe’Follow,follow,thoushaltwin:’
Ithoughtonallthewrathfulkinghadsaid,Andhowthestrangebetrothmentwastoend:
ThenIrememberedthatburntsorcerer’scurseThatoneshouldfightwithshadowsandshouldfall;
Andlikeaflashtheweirdaffectioncame:
King,campandcollegeturnedtohollowshows;
Iseemedtomoveinoldmemorialtilts,Anddoingbattlewithforgottenghosts,Todreammyselftheshadowofadream:
AndereIwokeitwasthepointofnoon,Thelistswereready。EmpanopliedandplumedWeenteredin,andwaited,fiftythereOpposedtofifty,tillthetrumpetblaredAtthebarrierlikeawildhorninalandOfechoes,andamoment,andoncemoreThetrumpet,andagain:atwhichthestormOfgallopinghoofsbareontheridgeofspearsAndridersfronttofront,untiltheyclosedInconflictwiththecrashofshiveringpoints,Andthunder。Yetitseemedadream,IdreamedOffighting。Onhishaunchesrosethesteed,Andintofierysplintersleaptthelance,Andoutofstrickenhelmetssprangthefire。
Partsatlikerocks:partreeledbutkepttheirseats:
Partrolledontheearthandroseagainanddrew:
Partstumbledmixtwithflounderinghorses。DownFromthosetwobulksatArac’sside,anddownFromArac’sarm,asfromagiant’sflail,Thelargeblowsrained,ashereandeverywhereHerodethemellay,lordoftheringinglists,Andalltheplain,——brand,mace,andshaft,andshield——
Shocked,likeaniron—clanginganvilbangedWithhammers;tillIthought,canthisbeheFromGama’sdwarfishloins?ifthisbeso,Themothermakesusmost——andinmydreamIglancedaside,andsawthepalace—frontAlivewithflutteringscarfsandladies’eyes,Andhighest,amongthestatues,statuelike,BetweenacymballedMiriamandaJael,WithPsyche’sbabe,wasIdawatchingus,Asinglebandofgoldaboutherhair,LikeaSaint’sgloryupinheaven:butsheNosaint——inexorable——notenderness——
Toohard,toocruel:yetsheseesmefight,Yea,letherseemefall!andwiththatIdraveAmongthethickestandboredownaPrince,AndCyril,one。Yea,letmemakemydreamAllthatIwould。Butthatlarge—mouldedman,Hisvisageallagrinasatawake,Madeatmethroughthepress,and,staggeringbackWithstrokeonstrokethehorseandhorseman,cameAscomesapillarofelectriccloud,Flayingtheroofsandsuckingupthedrains,AndshadowingdownthechampaigntillitstrikesOnawood,andtakes,andbreaks,andcracks,andsplits,AndtwiststhegrainwithsucharoarthatEarthReels,andtheherdsmencry;foreverythingGamewaybeforehim:onlyFlorian,heThatlovedmecloserthanhisownrighteye,Thrustinbetween;butAracrodehimdown:
AndCyrilseeingit,pushedagainstthePrince,WithPsyche’scolourroundhishelmet,tough,Strong,supple,sinew—corded,aptatarms;
Buttougher,heavier,stronger,hethatsmoteAndthrewhim:lastIspurred;IfeltmyveinsStretchwithfierceheat;amomenthandtohand,Andswordtosword,andhorsetohorsewehung,TillIstruckoutandshouted;thebladeglanced,Ididbutshearafeather,anddreamandtruthFlowedfromme;darknessclosedme;andIfell。
Hometheybroughtherwarriordead:
Shenorswooned,norutteredcry:
Allhermaidens,watching,said,’Shemustweeporshewilldie。’
Thentheypraisedhim,softandlow,Calledhimworthytobeloved,Truestfriendandnoblestfoe;
Yetsheneitherspokenormoved。
Stoleamaidenfromherplace,Lightlytothewarriorstept,Tooktheface—clothfromtheface;
Yetsheneithermovednorwept。
Roseanurseofninetyyears,Sethischilduponherknee——
Likesummertempestcamehertears——
’Sweetmychild,Iliveforthee。’
VI
Mydreamhadneverdiedorlivedagain。
AsinsomemysticmiddlestateIlay;
SeeingIsawnot,hearingnotIheard:
Though,ifIsawnot,yettheytoldmeallSooftenthatIspeakashavingseen。
Forsoitseemed,orsotheysaidtome,Thatallthingsgrewmoretragicandmorestrange;
ThatwhenoursidewasvanquishedandmycauseForeverlost,therewentupagreatcry,ThePrinceisslain。MyfatherheardandranInonthelists,andthereunlacedmycasqueAndgrovelledonmybody,andafterhimCamePsyche,sorrowingforAgla颽。
ButhighuponthepalaceIdastoodWithPsyche’sbabeinarm:thereontheroofsLikethatgreatdameofLapidothshesang。
’Ourenemieshavefallen,havefallen:theseed,Thelittleseedtheylaughedatinthedark,Hasrisenandcleftthesoil,andgrownabulkOfspanlessgirth,thatlaysoneverysideAthousandarmsandrushestotheSun。
’Ourenemieshavefallen,havefallen:theycame;
Theleaveswerewetwithwomen’stears:theyheardAnoiseofsongstheywouldnotunderstand:
Theymarkeditwiththeredcrosstothefall,Andwouldhavestrownit,andarefallenthemselves。
’Ourenemieshavefallen,havefallen:theycame,Thewoodmenwiththeiraxes:lothetree!
Butwewillmakeitfaggotsforthehearth,Andshapeitplankandbeamforroofandfloor,Andboatsandbridgesfortheuseofmen。
’Ourenemieshavefallen,havefallen:theystruck;
Withtheirownblowstheyhurtthemselves,norknewTheredweltanironnatureinthegrain:
Theglitteringaxewasbrokenintheirarms,Theirarmswereshatteredtotheshoulderblade。
’Ourenemieshavefallen,butthisshallgrowAnightofSummerfromtheheat,abreadthOfAutumn,droppingfruitsofpower:androlledWithmusicinthegrowingbreezeofTime,Thetopsshallstrikefromstartostar,thefangsShallmovethestonybasesoftheworld。
’Andnow,Omaids,beholdoursanctuaryIsviolate,ourlawsbroken:fearwenotTobreakthemmoreintheirbehoof,whosearmsChampionedourcauseandwonitwithadayBlanchedinourannals,andperpetualfeast,WhendamesandheroinesofthegoldenyearShallstripahundredhollowsbareofSpring,TorainanAprilofovationroundTheirstatues,bornealoft,thethree:butcome,Wewillbeliberal,sinceourrightsarewon。
Letthemnotlieinthetentswithcoarsemankind,Illnurses;butdescend,andproffertheseThebrethrenofourbloodandcause,thatthereLiebruisedandmaimed,thetenderministriesOffemalehandsandhospitality。’
Shespoke,andwiththebabeyetinherarms,Descending,burstthegreatbronzevalves,andledAhundredmaidsintrainacrossthePark。
Somecowled,andsomebare—headed,ontheycame,Theirfeetinflowers,herloveliest:bythemwentTheenamouredairsighing,andontheircurlsFromthehightreetheblossomwaveringfell,AndoverthemthetremulousislesoflightSlided,theymovingundershade:butBlancheAtdistancefollowed:sotheycame:anonThroughopenfieldintotheliststheywoundTimorously;andastheleaderoftheherdThatholdsastatelyfretworktotheSun,Andfollowedupbyahundredairydoes,Stepswithatenderfoot,lightasonair,Thelovely,lordlycreaturefloatedonTowhereherwoundedbrethrenlay;therestayed;
Kneltononeknee,——thechildonone,——andprestTheirhands,andcalledthemdeardeliverers,Andhappywarriors,andimmortalnames,Andsaid’Youshallnotlieinthetentsbuthere,Andnursedbythoseforwhomyoufought,andservedWithfemalehandsandhospitality。’
Then,whethermovedbythis,orwasitchance,Shepastmyway。UpstartedfrommysideTheoldlion,glaringwithhiswhelplesseye,Silent;butwhenshesawmelyingstark,Dishelmedandmute,andmotionlesslypale,Coldeventoher,shesighed;andwhenshesawThehaggardfather’sfaceandreverendbeardOfgrislytwine,alldabbledwiththebloodOfhisownson,shuddered,atwitchofpainTorturedhermouth,ando’erherforeheadpastAshadow,andherhuechanged,andshesaid:
’Hesavedmylife:mybrotherslewhimforit。’
Nomore:atwhichthekinginbitterscornDrewfrommyneckthepaintingandthetress,Andheldthemup:shesawthem,andadayRosefromthedistanceonhermemory,WhenthegoodQueen,hermother,shorethetressWithkisses,erethedaysofLadyBlanche:
Andthenoncemoreshelookedatmypaleface:
TillunderstandingallthefoolishworkOfFancy,andthebittercloseofall,Herironwillwasbrokeninhermind;
Hernobleheartwasmolteninherbreast;
Shebowed,shesetthechildontheearth;shelaidAfeelingfingeronmybrows,andpresently’OSire,’shesaid,’helives:heisnotdead:
OletmehavehimwithmybrethrenhereInourownpalace:wewilltendonhimLikeoneofthese;ifso,byanymeans,Tolightenthisgreatclogofthanks,thatmakeOurprogressfaltertothewoman’sgoal。’
Shesaid:butatthehappyword’helives’
Myfatherstooped,re—fatheredo’ermywounds。
Sothosetwofoesabovemyfallenlife,WithbrowtobrowlikenightandeveningmixtTheirdarkandgray,whilePsycheeverstoleAlittlenearer,tillthebabethatbyus,Half—laptinglowinggauzeandgoldenbrede,Laylikeanew—fallenmeteoronthegrass,Uncaredfor,spieditsmotherandbeganAblindandbabblinglaughter,andtodanceItsbody,andreachitsfatlinginnocentarmsAndlazylingeringfingers。ShetheappealBrookednot,butclamouringout’Mine——mine——notyours,Itisnotyours,butmine:givemethechild’
Ceasedallontremble:piteouswasthecry:
Sostoodtheunhappymotheropen—mouthed,Andturnedeachfaceherway:wanwashercheekWithhollowwatch,herbloomingmantletorn,Redgriefandmother’shungerinhereye,Anddowndead—heavysankhercurls,andhalfThesacredmother’sbosom,panting,burstThelacestowardherbabe;butshenorcaredNorknewit,clamouringon,tillIdaheard,Lookedup,andrisingslowlyfromme,stoodErectandsilent,strikingwithherglanceThemother,me,thechild;buthethatlayBesideus,Cyril,batteredashewas,Trailedhimselfupononeknee:thenhedrewHerrobetomeethislips,anddownshelookedAtthearmedmansideways,pityingasitseemed,Orself—involved;butwhenshelearnthisface,Rememberinghisill—omenedsong,aroseOncemorethroughallherheight,ando’erhimgrewTallasafigurelengthenedonthesandWhenthetideebbsinsunshine,andhesaid:
’Ofairandstrongandterrible!LionessThatwithyourlonglocksplaytheLion’smane!
ButLoveandNature,thesearetwomoreterribleAndstronger。See,yourfootisonournecks,Wevanquished,youtheVictorofyourwill。
Whatwouldyoumore?Giveherthechild!remainOrbedinyourisolation:heisdead,Orallasdead:henceforthweletyoube:
Winyoutheheartsofwomen;andbewareLest,whereyouseekthecommonloveofthese,ThecommonhatewiththerevolvingwheelShoulddragyoudown,andsomegreatNemesisBreakfromadarkenedfuture,crownedwithfire,Andtreadyououtforever:buthowso’erFixedinyourself,neverinyourownarmsToholdyourown,denynotherstoher,Giveherthechild!Oif,Isay,youkeepOnepulsethatbeatstruewoman,ifyoulovedThebreastthatfedorarmthatdandledyou,Orownoneportofsensenotflinttoprayer,Giveherthechild!orifyouscorntolayit,Yourself,inhandssolatelyclasptwithyours,Orspeaktoher,yourdearest,heronefault,Thetenderness,notyours,thatcouldnotkill,Give~me~it:~I~willgiveither。
Hesaid:
AtfirsthereyewithslowdilationrolledDryflame,shelistening;aftersankandsankAnd,intomournfultwilightmellowing,dweltFullonthechild;shetookit:’Prettybud!
Lilyofthevale!halfopenedbellofthewoods!
Solecomfortofmydarkhour,whenaworldOftraitorousfriendandbrokensystemmadeNopurpleinthedistance,mystery,Pledgeofalovenottobemine,farewell;
Thesemenareharduponusasofold,Wetwomustpart:andyethowfainwasI
Todreamthycauseembracedinmine,tothinkImightbesomethingtothee,whenIfeltThyhelplesswarmthaboutmybarrenbreastInthedeadprime:butmaythymotherproveAstruetotheeasfalse,false,falsetome!
And,ifthouneedsmustneedsbeartheyoke,IwishitGentleasfreedom’——hereshekissedit:then——
’Allgoodgowiththee!takeitSir,’andsoLaidthesoftbabeinhishard—mail鑔hands,Whoturnedhalf—roundtoPsycheasshesprangTomeetit,withaneyethatswuminthanks;
Thenfeltitsoundandwholefromheadtofoot,Andhuggedandneverhuggeditcloseenough,Andinherhungermouthedandmumbledit,Andhidherbosomwithit;afterthatPutonmorecalmandaddedsuppliantly:
’Wetwowerefriends:IgotomineownlandForever:findsomeother:asformeIscarceamfitforyourgreatplans:yetspeaktome,Sayonesoftwordandletmepartforgiven。’
ButIdaspokenot,raptuponthechild。
ThenArac。’Ida——’sdeath!youblametheman;
Youwrongyourselves——thewomanissohardUponthewoman。Come,agracetome!
Iamyourwarrior:IandminehavefoughtYourbattle:kissher;takeherhand,sheweeps:
’Sdeath!Iwouldsoonerfightthriceo’erthanseeit。’
ButIdaspokenot,gazingontheground,Andreddeninginthefurrowsofhischin,Andmovedbeyondhiscustom,Gamasaid:
’I’veheardthatthereisironintheblood,AndIbelieveit。Notoneword?notone?
Whencedrewyouthissteeltemper?notfromme,Notfromyourmother,nowasaintwithsaints。
Shesaidyouhadaheart——Iheardhersayit——
"OurIdahasaheart"——justereshedied——
"ButseethatsomeonwithauthorityBenearherstill"andI——Isoughtforone——
Allpeoplesaidshehadauthority——
TheLadyBlanche:muchprofit!Notoneword;
No!thoughyourfathersues:seehowyoustandStiffasLot’swife,andallthegoodknightsmaimed,Itrustthatthereisnoonehurttodeath,Forourwildwhim:andwasitthenforthis,Wasitforthiswegaveourpalaceup,Wherewewithdrewfromsummerheatsandstate,Andhadourwineandchessbeneaththeplanes,Andmanyapleasanthourwithherthat’sgone,Ereyouwereborntovexus?Isitkind?
SpeaktoherIsay:isthisnotsheofwhom,Whenfirstshecame,allflushedyousaidtomeNowhadyougotafriendofyourownage,Nowcouldyoushareyourthought;nowshouldmenseeTwowomenfasterweldedinoneloveThanpairsofwedlock;sheyouwalkedwith,sheYoutalkedwith,wholenightslong,upinthetower,Ofsineandarc,sphero飀andazimuth,Andrightascension,Heavenknowswhat;andnowAword,butone,onelittlekindlyword,Notonetospareher:outuponyou,flint!
Youlovenorher,norme,norany;nay,Youshameyourmother’sjudgmenttoo。Notone?
Youwillnot?well——nohearthaveyou,orsuchAsfancieslikethevermininanutHavefrettedalltodustandbitterness。’
Sosaidthesmallkingmovedbeyondhiswont。
ButIdastoodnorspoke,drainedofherforceBymanyavaryinginfluenceandsolong。
Downthroughherlimbsadroopinglanguorwept:
Herheadalittlebent;andonhermouthAdoubtfulsmiledweltlikeacloudedmoonInastillwater:thenbrakeoutmysire,Liftedhisgrimheadfrommywounds。’Oyou,Woman,whomwethoughtwomanevennow,Andwerehalffooledtoletyoutendourson,Becausehemighthavewishedit——butwesee,Theaccompliceofyourmadnessunforgiven,Andthinkthatyoumightmixhisdraughtwithdeath,Whenyourskieschangeagain:therougherhandIssafer:ontothetents:takeupthePrince。’
Herose,andwhileeachearwasprickedtoattendAtempest,throughthecloudthatdimmedherbrokeAgenialwarmthandlightoncemore,andshoneThroughglitteringdropsonhersadfriend。
’Comehither。
OPsyche,’shecriedout,’embraceme,come,QuickwhileImelt;makereconcilementsureWithonethatcannotkeephermindanhour:
Cometothehollowheartheyslanderso!
Kissandbefriends,likechildrenbeingchid!
~I~seemnomore:~I~wantforgivenesstoo:
Ishouldhavehadtodowithnonebutmaids,Thathavenolinkswithmen。Ahfalsebutdear,Deartraitor,toomuchloved,why?——why?——Yetsee,BeforethesekingsweembraceyouyetoncemoreWithallforgiveness,alloblivion,Andtrust,notlove,youless。
Andnow,Osire,Grantmeyourson,tonurse,towaituponhim,Likemineownbrother。Formydebttohim,Thisnightmareweightofgratitude,Iknowit;
Tauntmenomore:yourselfandyoursshallhaveFreeadit;wewillscatterallourmaidsTillhappiertimeseachtoherproperhearth:
Whatusetokeepthemhere——now?grantmyprayer。
Help,father,brother,help;speaktotheking:
ThawthismalenaturetosometouchofthatWhichkillsmewithmyself,anddragsmedownFrommyfixtheighttomobmeupwithallThesoftandmilkyrabbleofwomankind,Poorweaklingevenastheyare。’
PassionatetearsFollowed:thekingrepliednot:Cyrilsaid:
’Yourbrother,Lady,——Florian,——askforhimOfyourgreathead——forheiswoundedtoo——
Thatyoumaytenduponhimwiththeprince。’
’Ayso,’saidIdawithabittersmile,’Ourlawsarebroken:lethimentertoo。’
ThenViolet,shethatsangthemournfulsong,Andhadacousintumbledontheplain,Petitionedtooforhim。’Ayso,’shesaid,’Istaggerinthestream:IcannotkeepMyheartaneddyfromthebrawlinghour:
Webreakourlawswithease,butletitbe。’
’Ayso?’saidBlanche:’AmazedamItoherYourHighness:butyourHighnessbreakswitheaseThelawyourHighnessdidnotmake:’twasI。
Ihadbeenweddedwife,Iknewmankind,Andblockedthemout;butthesemencametowooYourHighness——verilyIthinktowin。’
Soshe,andturnedaskanceawintryeye:
ButIdawithavoice,thatlikeabellTolledbyanearthquakeinatremblingtower,Rangruin,answeredfullofgriefandscorn。
’Flingourdoorswide!all,all,notone,butall,Notonlyhe,butbymymother’ssoul,Whatevermanlieswounded,friendorfoe,Shallenter,ifhewill。Letourgirlsflit,Tillthestormdie!buthadyoustoodbyus,TheroarthatbreaksthePharosfromhisbaseHadleftusrock。Shefainwouldstingustoo,Butshallnot。Pass,andminglewithyourlikes。
Webrooknofurtherinsultbutaregone。’
Sheturned;theverynapeofherwhiteneckWasrosedwithindignation:butthePrinceHerbrothercame;thekingherfathercharmedHerwoundedsoulwithwords:nordidmineownRefuseherproffer,lastlygavehishand。
Thenustheyliftedup,deadweights,andbareStraighttothedoors:tothemthedoorsgavewayGroaning,andintheVestalentryshriekedThevirginmarbleunderironheels:
Andontheymovedandgainedthehall,andthereRested:butgreatthecrushwas,andeachbase,Toleftandright,ofthosetallcolumnsdrownedInsilkenfluctuationandtheswarmOffemalewhisperers:atthefurtherendWasIdabythethrone,thetwogreatcatsClosebyher,likesupportersonashield,Bow—backedwithfear:butinthecentrestoodThecommonmenwithrollingeyes;amazedTheyglareduponthewomen,andaghastThewomenstaredatthese,allsilent,saveWhenarmourclashedorjingled,whiletheday,Descending,struckathwartthehall,andshotAflyingsplendouroutofbrassandsteel,Thato’erthestatuesleaptfromheadtohead,NowfiredanangryPallasonthehelm,NowsetawrathfulDian’smoononflame,Andnowandthenanechostartedup,Andshudderingfledfromroomtoroom,anddiedOffrightinfarapartments。
ThenthevoiceOfIdasounded,issuingordinance:
Andmetheyboreupthebroadstairs,andthroughThelong—laidgalleriespastahundreddoorsToonedeepchambershutfromsound,anddueTolanguidlimbsandsickness;leftmeinit;
Andothersotherwheretheylaid;andallThatafternoonasoundaroseofhoofAndchariot,manyamaidenpassinghomeTillhappiertimes;butsomewereleftofthoseHeldsagest,andthegreatlordsoutandin,Fromthosetwohoststhatlaybesidethewalls,Walkedattheirwill,andeverythingwaschanged。
Askmenomore:themoonmaydrawthesea;
ThecloudmaystoopfromheavenandtaketheshapeWithfoldtofold,ofmountainorofcape;
ButOtoofond,whenhaveIansweredthee?
Askmenomore。
Askmenomore:whatanswershouldIgive?
Ilovenothollowcheekorfadedeye:
Yet,Omyfriend,Iwillnothavetheedie!
Askmenomore,lestIshouldbidtheelive;
Askmenomore。
Askmenomore:thyfateandminearesealed:
Istroveagainstthestreamandallinvain:
Letthegreatrivertakemetothemain:
Nomore,dearlove,foratatouchIyield;
Askmenomore。
VII
Sowastheirsanctuaryviolated,Sotheirfaircollegeturnedtohospital;
Atfirstwithallconfusion:byandbySweetorderlivedagainwithotherlaws:
Akindlierinfluencereigned;andeverywhereLowvoiceswiththeministeringhandHungroundthesick:themaidenscame,theytalked,Theysang,theyread:tillshenotfairbeganTogatherlight,andshethatwas,becameHerformerbeautytreble;andtoandfroWithbooks,withflowers,withAngeloffices,Likecreaturesnativeuntograciousact,Andintheirownclearelement,theymoved。
ButsadnessonthesoulofIdafell,Andhatredofherweakness,blentwithshame。
Oldstudiesfailed;seldomshespoke:butoftClombtotheroofs,andgazedaloneforhoursOnthatdisastrousleaguer,swarmsofmenDarkeningherfemalefield:voidwasheruse,AndsheasonethatclimbsapeaktogazeO’erlandandmain,andseesagreatblackcloudDraginwardfromthedeeps,awallofnight,Blotouttheslopeofseafromvergetoshore,Andsucktheblindingsplendourfromthesand,AndquenchinglakebylakeandtarnbytarnExpungetheworld:sofaredshegazingthere;
Soblackenedallherworldinsecret,blankAndwasteitseemedandvain;tilldownshecame,Andfoundfairpeaceoncemoreamongthesick。
Andtwilightdawned;andmornbymornthelarkShotupandshrilledinflickeringgyres,butI
Laysilentinthemuffledcageoflife:
Andtwilightgloomed;andbroader—grownthebowersDrewthegreatnightintothemselves,andHeaven,StarafterStar,aroseandfell;butI,Deeperthanthoseweirddoubtscouldreachme,layQuitesunderedfromthemovingUniverse,Norknewwhateyewasonme,northehandThatnursedme,morethaninfantsintheirsleep。
ButPsychetendedFlorian:withheroft,Melissacame;forBlanchehadgone,butleftHerchildamongus,willingsheshouldkeepCourt—favour:hereandtherethesmallbrighthead,Alightofhealing,glancedaboutthecouch,OrthroughthepartedsilksthetenderfacePeeped,shininginuponthewoundedmanWithblushandsmile,amedicineinthemselvesTowilethelengthfromlanguoroushours,anddrawThestingfrompain;norseemeditstrangethatsoonHeroseupwhole,andthosefaircharitiesJoinedatherside;norstrangerseemedthathearsSogentle,soemployed,shouldcloseinlove,ThanwhentwodewdropsonthepetalsshakeTothesamesweetair,andtrembledeeperdown,Andslipatonceall—fragrantintoone。
LessprosperouslythesecondsuitobtainedAtfirstwithPsyche。NotthoughBlanchehadswornThatafterthatdarknightamongthefieldsSheneedsmustwedhimforherowngoodname;
Notthoughhebuiltuponthebaberestored;
Northoughshelikedhim,yieldedshe,butfearedToincensetheHeadoncemore;tillonadayWhenCyrilpleaded,IdacamebehindSeenbutofPsyche:onherfootshehungAmoment,andsheheard,atwhichherfaceAlittleflushed,andshepaston;buteachAssumedfromthenceahalf—consentinvolvedInstillness,plightedtroth,andwereatpeace。
Noronlythese:LoveinthesacredhallsHeldcarnivalatwill,andflyingstruckWithshowersofrandomsweetonmaidandman。
Nordidherfatherceasetopressmyclaim,Nordidmineown,nowreconciled;noryetDidthosetwin—brothers,risenagainandwhole;
NorArac,satiatewithhisvictory。
ButIlaystill,andwithmeoftshesat:
Thencameachange;forsometimesIwouldcatchHerhandinwilddelirium,gripeithard,Andflingitlikeaviperoff,andshriek’YouarenotIda;’claspitonceagain,AndcallherIda,thoughIknewhernot,Andcallhersweet,asifinirony,Andcallherhardandcoldwhichseemedatruth:
AndstillshefearedthatIshouldlosemymind,AndoftenshebelievedthatIshoulddie:
Tilloutoflongfrustrationofhercare,Andpensivetendanceintheall—wearynoons,Andwatchesinthedead,thedark,whenclocksThrobbedthunderthroughthepalacefloors,orcalledOnflyingTimefromalltheirsilvertongues——
Andoutofmemoriesofherkindlierdays,Andsidelongglancesatmyfather’sgrief,Andatthehappyloversheartinheart——
Andoutofhauntingsofmyspokenlove,Andlonelylisteningstomymuttereddream,Andoftenfeelingofthehelplesshands,Andwordlessbroodingsonthewastedcheek——
Fromallacloserinterestflourishedup,Tendernesstouchbytouch,andlast,tothese,Love,likeanAlpineharebellhungwithtearsBysomecoldmorningglacier;frailatfirstAndfeeble,allunconsciousofitself,Butsuchasgatheredcolourdaybyday。
LastIwokesane,butwell—nighclosetodeathForweakness:itwasevening:silentlightSleptonthepaintedwalls,whereinwerewroughtTwogranddesigns;forononesidearoseThewomenupinwildrevolt,andstormedAttheOppianLaw。Titanicshapes,theycrammedTheforum,andhalf—crushedamongtherestAdwarf—likeCatocowered。OntheothersideHortensiaspokeagainstthetax;behind,Atrainofdames:byaxeandeaglesat,WithalltheirforeheadsdrawninRomanscowls,Andhalfthewolf’s—milkcurdledintheirveins,Thefiercetriumvirs;andbeforethempausedHortensiapleading:angrywasherface。
Isawtheforms:IknewnotwhereIwas:
Theydidbutlooklikehollowshows;normoreSweetIda:palmtopalmshesat:thedewDweltinhereyes,andsofterallhershapeAndrounderseemed:Imoved:Isighed:atouchCameroundmywrist,andtearsuponmyhand:
Thenallforlanguorandself—pityranMinedownmyface,andwithwhatlifeIhad,Andlikeaflowerthatcannotallunfold,Sodrencheditiswithtempest,tothesun,Yet,asitmay,turnstowardhim,IonherFixtmyfainteyes,andutteredwhisperingly:
’Ifyoube,whatIthinkyou,somesweetdream,Iwouldbutaskyoutofulfilyourself:
ButifyoubethatIdawhomIknew,Iaskyounothing:only,ifadream,Sweetdream,beperfect。Ishalldietonight。
StoopdownandseemtokissmeereIdie。’
Icouldnomore,butlaylikeoneintrance,Thathearshisburialtalkedofbyhisfriends,Andcannotspeak,normove,normakeonesign,Butliesanddreadshisdoom。Sheturned;shepaused;
Shestooped;andoutoflanguorleaptacry;
LeaptfieryPassionfromthebrinksofdeath;
AndIbelievedthatinthelivingworldMyspiritclosedwithIda’satthelips;
TillbackIfell,andfromminearmssheroseGlowingallovernobleshame;andallHerfalserselfsliptfromherlikearobe,Andleftherwoman,lovelierinhermoodThaninhermouldthatother,whenshecameFrombarrendeepstoconquerallwithlove;
Anddownthestreamingcrystaldropt;andsheFar—fleetedbythepurpleisland—sides,Naked,adoublelightinairandwave,TomeetherGraces,wheretheydeckedheroutForworshipwithoutend;norendofmine,Stateliest,forthee!butmutesheglidedforth,Norglancedbehindher,andIsankandslept,FilledthroughandthroughwithLove,ahappysleep。
DeepinthenightIwoke:she,nearme,heldAvolumeofthePoetsofherland:
Theretoherself,allinlowtones,sheread。
’Nowsleepsthecrimsonpetal,nowthewhite;
Norwavesthecypressinthepalacewalk;
Norwinksthegoldfinintheporphyryfont:
Thefire—flywakens:wakethouwithme。
Nowdroopsthemilkwhitepeacocklikeaghost,Andlikeaghostsheglimmersontome。
NowliestheEarthallDana?tothestars,Andallthyheartliesopenuntome。
Nowliesthesilentmeteoron,andleavesAshiningfurrow,asthythoughtsinme。
Nowfoldsthelilyallhersweetnessup,Andslipsintothebosomofthelake:
Sofoldthyself,mydearest,thou,andslipIntomybosomandbelostinme。’
Iheardherturnthepage;shefoundasmallSweetIdyl,andoncemore,aslow,sheread:
’Comedown,Omaid,fromyondermountainheight:
Whatpleasurelivesinheight(theshepherdsang)
Inheightandcold,thesplendourofthehills?
ButceasetomovesoneartheHeavens,andceaseToglideasunbeambytheblastedPine,Tositastaruponthesparklingspire;
Andcome,forloveisofthevalley,come,Forloveisofthevalley,comethoudownAndfindhim;bythehappythreshold,he,OrhandinhandwithPlentyinthemaize,Orredwithspirtedpurpleofthevats,Orfoxlikeinthevine;norcarestowalkWithDeathandMorningonthesilverhorns,Norwiltthousnarehiminthewhiteravine,Norfindhimdroptuponthefirthsofice,Thathuddlingslantinfurrow—clovenfallsTorollthetorrentoutofduskydoors:
Butfollow;letthetorrentdancetheedownTofindhiminthevalley;letthewildLean—headedEaglesyelpalone,andleaveThemonstrousledgestheretoslope,andspillTheirthousandwreathsofdanglingwater—smoke,Thatlikeabrokenpurposewasteinair:
Sowastenotthou;butcome;forallthevalesAwaitthee;azurepillarsofthehearthArisetothee;thechildrencall,andI
Thyshepherdpipe,andsweetiseverysound,Sweeterthyvoice,buteverysoundissweet;
Myriadsofrivuletshurryingthroughthelawn,Themoanofdovesinimmemorialelms,Andmurmuringofinnumerablebees。’
Soshelow—toned;whilewithshuteyesIlayListening;thenlooked。Palewastheperfectface;
Thebosomwithlongsighslaboured;andmeekSeemedthefulllips,andmildtheluminouseyes,Andthevoicetrembledandthehand。ShesaidBrokenly,thatsheknewit,shehadfailedInsweethumility;hadfailedinall;
ThatallherlabourwasbutasablockLeftinthequarry;butshestillwereloth,ShestillwerelothtoyieldherselftooneThatwhollyscornedtohelptheirequalrightsAgainstthesonsofmen,andbarbarouslaws。
SheprayedmenottojudgetheircausefromherThatwrongedit,soughtfarlessfortruththanpowerInknowledge:somethingwildwithinherbreast,Agreaterthanallknowledge,beatherdown。
Andshehadnursedmetherefromweektoweek:
Muchhadshelearntinlittletime。InpartItwasillcounselhadmisledthegirlTovextruehearts:yetwasshebutagirl——
’Ahfool,andmademyselfaQueenoffarce!
Whencomesanothersuch?never,Ithink,TilltheSundrop,dead,fromthesigns。’
Hervoicechoked,andherforeheadsankuponherhands,AndhergreatheartthroughallthefaultfulPastWentsorrowinginapauseIdarednotbreak;
TillnoticeofachangeinthedarkworldWaslisptabouttheacacias,andabird,Thatearlywoketofeedherlittleones,Sentfromadewybreastacryforlight:
Shemoved,andatherfeetthevolumefell。
’Blamenotthyselftoomuch,’Isaid,’norblameToomuchthesonsofmenandbarbarouslaws;
Theseweretheroughwaysoftheworldtillnow。
Henceforththouhastahelper,me,thatknowThewoman’scauseisman’s:theyriseorsinkTogether,dwarfedorgodlike,bondorfree:
ForshethatoutofLethescaleswithmanTheshiningstepsofNature,shareswithmanHisnights,hisdays,moveswithhimtoonegoal,Staysallthefairyoungplanetinherhands——
Ifshebesmall,slight—natured,miserable,Howshallmengrow?butworknomorealone!
Ourplaceismuch:asfarasinusliesWetwowillservethembothinaidingher——
WillclearawaytheparasiticformsThatseemtokeepherupbutdragherdown——
WillleaveherspacetoburgeonoutofallWithinher——lethermakeherselfherownTogiveorkeep,toliveandlearnandbeAllthatnotharmsdistinctivewomanhood。
Forwomanisnotundeveloptman,Butdiverse:couldwemakeherastheman,SweetLovewereslain:hisdearestbondisthis,Notliketolike,butlikeindifference。
Yetinthelongyearslikermusttheygrow;
Themanbemoreofwoman,sheofman;
Hegaininsweetnessandinmoralheight,Norlosethewrestlingthewsthatthrowtheworld;
Shementalbreadth,norfailinchildwardcare,Norlosethechildlikeinthelargermind;
Tillatthelastshesetherselftoman,Likeperfectmusicuntonoblewords;
Andsothesetwain,upontheskirtsofTime,Sitsidebyside,full—summedinalltheirpowers,Dispensingharvest,sowingtheTo—be,Self—reverenteachandreverencingeach,Distinctinindividualities,Butlikeeachotherevenasthosewholove。
ThencomesthestatelierEdenbacktomen:
Thenreigntheworld’sgreatbridals,chasteandcalm:
Thenspringsthecrowningraceofhumankind。
Maythesethingsbe!’
Sighingshespoke’IfearTheywillnot。’
’Dear,butletustypethemnowInourownlives,andthisproudwatchwordrestOfequal;seeingeithersexaloneIshalfitself,andintruemarriageliesNorequal,norunequal:eachfulfilsDefectineach,andalwaysthoughtinthought,Purposeinpurpose,willinwill,theygrow,Thesinglepureandperfectanimal,Thetwo—celledheartbeating,withonefullstroke,Life。’
Andagainsighingshespoke:’AdreamThatoncewasmind!whatwomantaughtyouthis?’
’Alone,’Isaid,’fromearlierthanIknow,Immersedinrichforeshadowingsoftheworld,Ilovedthewoman:he,thatdothnot,livesAdrowninglife,besottedinsweetself,Orpinesinsadexperienceworsethandeath,Orkeepshiswingedaffectionscliptwithcrime:
YetwasthereonethroughwhomIlovedher,oneNotlearn鑔,saveingracioushouseholdways,Notperfect,nay,butfulloftenderwants,NoAngel,butadearerbeing,alldiptInAngelinstincts,breathingParadise,InterpreterbetweentheGodsandmen,Wholookedallnativetoherplace,andyetOntiptoeseemedtotouchuponasphereToogrosstotread,andallmalemindsperforceSwayedtoherfromtheirorbitsastheymoved,Andgirdledherwithmusic。HappyheWithsuchamother!faithinwomankindBeatswithhisblood,andtrustinallthingshighComeseasytohim,andthoughhetripandfallHeshallnotblindhissoulwithclay。’
’ButI,’
SaidIda,tremulously,’soallunlike——
Itseemsyoulovetocheatyourselfwithwords:
Thismotherisyourmodel。Ihaveheardofyourstrangedoubts:theywellmightbe:IseemAmockerytomyownself。Never,Prince;
Youcannotloveme。’
’Naybutthee’Isaid’Fromyearlongporingonthypicturedeyes,EreseenIloved,andlovedtheeseen,andsawTheewomanthroughthecrustofironmoodsThatmaskedtheefrommen’sreverenceup,andforcedSweetloveonpranksofsaucyboyhood:now,Givenbacktolife,tolifeindeed,throughthee,IndeedIlove:thenewdaycomes,thelightDearerfornight,asdearerthouforfaultsLivedover:liftthineeyes;mydoubtsaredead,Myhauntingsenseofhollowshows:thechange,Thistruthfulchangeintheehaskilledit。Dear,Lookup,andletthynaturestrikeonmine,Likeyondermorningontheblindhalf—world;
Approachandfearnot;breatheuponmybrows;
InthatfineairItremble,allthepastMeltsmist—likeintothisbrighthour,andthisIsmorntomore,andalltherichto—comeReels,asthegoldenAutumnwoodlandreelsAthwartthesmokeofburningweeds。Forgiveme,Iwastemyheartinsigns:letbe。Mybride,Mywife,mylife。Owewillwalkthisworld,Yokedinallexerciseofnobleend,AndsothroughthosedarkgatesacrossthewildThatnomanknows。IndeedIlovethee:come,Yieldthyselfup:myhopesandthineareone:
Accomplishthoumymanhoodandthyself;
Laythysweethandsinmineandtrusttome。’
CONCLUSION
Soclosedourtale,ofwhichIgiveyouallTherandomschemeaswildlyasitrose:
Thewordsaremostlymine;forwhenweceasedTherecameaminute’spause,andWaltersaid,’Iwishshehadnotyielded!’thentome,’What,ifyoudrestituppoetically?’
Soprayedthemen,thewomen:Igaveassent:
YethowtobindthescatteredschemeofsevenTogetherinonesheaf?Whatstylecouldsuit?
ThemenrequiredthatIshouldgivethroughoutThesortofmock—heroicgigantesque,WithwhichwebanteredlittleLiliafirst:
Thewomen——andperhapstheyfelttheirpower,Forsomethingintheballadswhichtheysang,Orintheirsilentinfluenceastheysat,Hadeverseemedtowrestlewithburlesque,Anddroveus,last,toquiteasolemnclose——
Theyhatedbanter,wishedforsomethingreal,Agallantfight,anobleprincess——whyNotmakehertrue—heroic——true—sublime?
Orall,theysaid,asearnestastheclose?
Whichyetwithsuchaframeworkscarcecouldbe。
Thenrosealittlefeudbetwixtthetwo,Betwixtthemockersandtherealists:
AndI,betwixtthemboth,topleasethemboth,Andyettogivethestoryasitrose,Imovedasinastrangediagonal,Andmaybeneitherpleasedmyselfnorthem。
ButLiliapleasedme,forshetooknopartInourdispute:thesequelofthetaleHadtouchedher;andshesat,shepluckedthegrass,Sheflungitfromher,thinking:last,shefixtAshoweryglanceuponheraunt,andsaid,’You——telluswhatweare’whomighthavetold,Forshewascrammedwiththeoriesoutofbooks,Butthatthereroseashout:thegateswereclosedAtsunset,andthecrowdwereswarmingnow,Totaketheirleave,aboutthegardenrails。
SoIandsomewentouttothese:weclimbedTheslopetoVivian—place,andturningsawThehappyvalleys,halfinlight,andhalfFar—shadowingfromthewest,alandofpeace;
Grayhallsaloneamongtheirmassivegroves;
Trimhamlets;hereandtherearustictowerHalf—lostinbeltsofhopandbreadthsofwheat;
Theshimmeringglimpsesofastream;theseas;
Aredsail,orawhite;andfarbeyond,Imaginedmorethanseen,theskirtsofFrance。
’Lookthere,agarden!’saidmycollegefriend,TheTorymember’selderson,’andthere!
Godblessthenarrowseawhichkeepsheroff,AndkeepsourBritain,wholewithinherself,Anationyet,therulersandtheruled——
Somesenseofduty,somethingofafaith,Somereverenceforthelawsourselveshavemade,Somepatientforcetochangethemwhenwewill,Somecivicmanhoodfirmagainstthecrowd——
Butyonder,whiff!therecomesasuddenheat,Thegravestcitizenseemstolosehishead,Thekingisscared,thesoldierwillnotfight,Thelittleboysbegintoshootandstab,AkingdomtopplesoverwithashriekLikeanoldwoman,anddownrollstheworldInmockheroicsstrangerthanourown;
Revolts,republics,revolutions,mostNograverthanaschoolboys’barringout;
Toocomicfortheseriousthingstheyare,Toosolemnforthecomictouchesinthem,LikeourwildPrincesswithaswiseadreamAssomeoftheirs——Godblessthenarrowseas!
IwishtheywereawholeAtlanticbroad。’
’Havepatience,’Ireplied,’ourselvesarefullOfsocialwrong;andmaybewildestdreamsArebuttheneedfulpreludesofthetruth:
Forme,thegenialday,thehappycrowd,Thesporthalf—science,fillmewithafaith。
ThisfineoldworldofoursisbutachildYetinthego—cart。Patience!GiveittimeTolearnitslimbs:thereisahandthatguides。’
Insuchdiscoursewegainedthegardenrails,AndtherewesawSirWalterwherehestood,Beforeatowerofcrimsonholly—hoaks,Amongsixboys,headunderhead,andlookedNolittlelily—handedBaronethe,Agreatbroad—shoulderedgenialEnglishman,Alordoffatprize—oxenandofsheep,Araiserofhugemelonsandofpine,Apatronofsomethirtycharities,Apamphleteeronguanoandongrain,Aquarter—sessionschairman,ablernone;
Fair—hairedandredderthanawindymorn;
Nowshakinghandswithhim,nowhim,ofthoseThatstoodthenearest——nowaddressedtospeech——
Whospokefewwordsandpithy,suchasclosedWelcome,farewell,andwelcomefortheyearTofollow:ashoutroseagain,andmadeThelonglineoftheapproachingrookeryswerveFromtheelms,andshookthebranchesofthedeerFromslopetoslopethroughdistantferns,andrangBeyondthebournofsunset;O,ashoutMorejoyfulthanthecity—roarthathailsPremierorking!WhyshouldnotthesegreatSirsGiveuptheirparkssomedozentimesayearToletthepeoplebreathe?Sothricetheycried,Ilikewise,andingroupstheystreamedaway。
ButwewentbacktotheAbbey,andsaton,Somuchthegatheringdarknesscharmed:wesatButspokenot,raptinnamelessreverie,Perchanceuponthefutureman:thewallsBlackenedaboutus,batswheeled,andowlswhooped,Andgraduallythepowersofthenight,Thatrangeabovetheregionofthewind,DeepeningthecourtsoftwilightbrokethemupThroughallthesilentspacesoftheworlds,BeyondallthoughtintotheHeavenofHeavens。
LastlittleLilia,risingquietly,DisrobedtheglimmeringstatueofSirRalphFromthoserichsilks,andhomewell—pleasedwewent。
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