首页 >出版文学> THE HAUNTED MAN and the Ghost’s Bargain>第4章
  "Thesechildrenwillbethedeathofmeatlast!"saidMrs。
  Tetterby,afterbanishingtheculprit。"Andthesoonerthebetter,Ithink。"
  "Poorpeople,"saidMr。Tetterby,"oughtnottohavechildrenatall。TheygiveUSnopleasure。"
  HewasatthatmomenttakingupthecupwhichMrs。Tetterbyhadrudelypushedtowardshim,andMrs。Tetterbywasliftingherowncuptoherlips,whentheybothstopped,asiftheyweretransfixed。
  "Here!Mother!Father!"criedJohnny,runningintotheroom。
  "Here’sMrs。Williamcomingdownthestreet!"
  Andifever,sincetheworldbegan,ayoungboytookababyfromacradlewiththecareofanoldnurse,andhushedandsoothedittenderly,andtotteredawaywithitcheerfully,Johnnywasthatboy,andMolochwasthatbaby,astheywentouttogether!
  Mr。Tetterbyputdownhiscup;Mrs。Tetterbyputdownhercup。Mr。
  Tetterbyrubbedhisforehead;Mrs。Tetterbyrubbedhers。Mr。
  Tetterby’sfacebegantosmoothandbrighten;Mrs。Tetterby’sbegantosmoothandbrighten。
  "Why,Lordforgiveme,"saidMr。Tetterbytohimself,"whateviltempershaveIbeengivingwayto?Whathasbeenthematterhere!"
  "HowcouldIevertreathimillagain,afterallIsaidandfeltlastnight!"sobbedMrs。Tetterby,withheraprontohereyes。
  "AmIabrute,"saidMr。Tetterby,"oristhereanygoodinmeatall?Sophia!Mylittlewoman!"
  "’Dolphusdear,"returnedhiswife。
  "I—I’vebeeninastateofmind,"saidMr。Tetterby,"thatI
  can’tabeartothinkof,Sophy。"
  "Oh!It’snothingtowhatI’vebeenin,Dolf,"criedhiswifeinagreatburstofgrief。
  "MySophia,"saidMr。Tetterby,"don’ttakeon。Inevershallforgivemyself。Imusthavenearlybrokeyourheart,Iknow。"
  "No,Dolf,no。Itwasme!Me!"criedMrs。Tetterby。
  "Mylittlewoman,"saidherhusband,"don’t。Youmakemereproachmyselfdreadful,whenyoushowsuchanoblespirit。Sophia,mydear,youdon’tknowwhatIthought。Ishoweditbadenough,nodoubt;butwhatIthought,mylittlewoman!—"
  "Oh,dearDolf,don’t!Don’t!"criedhiswife。
  "Sophia,"saidMr。Tetterby,"Imustrevealit。Icouldn’trestinmyconscienceunlessImentionedit。Mylittlewoman—"
  "Mrs。William’sverynearlyhere!"screamedJohnnyatthedoor。
  "Mylittlewoman,Iwonderedhow,"gaspedMr。Tetterby,supportinghimselfbyhischair,"IwonderedhowIhadeveradmiredyou—I
  forgotthepreciouschildrenyouhavebroughtaboutme,andthoughtyoudidn’tlookasslimasIcouldwish。I—Inevergavearecollection,"saidMr。Tetterby,withsevereself—accusation,"tothecaresyou’vehadasmywife,andalongofmeandmine,whenyoumighthavehadhardlyanywithanotherman,whogotonbetterandwasluckierthanme(anybodymighthavefoundsuchamaneasilyI
  amsure);andIquarrelledwithyouforhavingagedalittleintheroughyearsyouhavelightenedforme。Canyoubelieveit,mylittlewoman?Ihardlycanmyself。"
  Mrs。Tetterby,inawhirlwindoflaughingandcrying,caughthisfacewithinherhands,andhelditthere。
  "Oh,Dolf!"shecried。"Iamsohappythatyouthoughtso;Iamsogratefulthatyouthoughtso!ForIthoughtthatyouwerecommon—
  looking,Dolf;andsoyouare,mydear,andmayyoubethecommonestofallsightsinmyeyes,tillyouclosethemwithyourowngoodhands。Ithoughtthatyouweresmall;andsoyouare,andI’llmakemuchofyoubecauseyouare,andmoreofyoubecauseI
  lovemyhusband。Ithoughtthatyoubegantostoop;andsoyoudo,andyoushallleanonme,andI’lldoallIcantokeepyouup。I
  thoughttherewasnoairaboutyou;butthereis,andit’stheairofhome,andthat’sthepurestandthebestthereis,andGodblesshomeoncemore,andallbelongingtoit,Dolf!"
  "Hurrah!Here’sMrs。William!"criedJohnny。
  Soshewas,andallthechildrenwithher;andsoshecamein,theykissedher,andkissedoneanother,andkissedthebaby,andkissedtheirfatherandmother,andthenranbackandflockedanddancedabouther,troopingonwithherintriumph。
  Mr。andMrs。Tetterbywerenotabitbehind—handinthewarmthoftheirreception。Theywereasmuchattractedtoherasthechildrenwere;theyrantowardsher,kissedherhands,pressedroundher,couldnotreceiveherardentlyorenthusiasticallyenough。Shecameamongthemlikethespiritofallgoodness,affection,gentleconsideration,love,anddomesticity。
  "What!areYOUallsogladtoseeme,too,thisbrightChristmasmorning?"saidMilly,clappingherhandsinapleasantwonder。"Ohdear,howdelightfulthisis!"
  Moreshoutingfromthechildren,morekissing,moretroopingroundher,morehappiness,morelove,morejoy,morehonour,onallsides,thanshecouldbear。
  "Ohdear!"saidMilly,"whatdelicioustearsyoumakemeshed。HowcanIeverhavedeservedthis!WhathaveIdonetobesoloved?"
  "Whocanhelpit!"criedMr。Tetterby。
  "Whocanhelpit!"criedMrs。Tetterby。
  "Whocanhelpit!"echoedthechildren,inajoyfulchorus。Andtheydancedandtroopedaboutheragain,andclungtoher,andlaidtheirrosyfacesagainstherdress,andkissedandfondledit,andcouldnotfondleit,orher,enough。
  "Ineverwassomoved,"saidMilly,dryinghereyes,"asIhavebeenthismorning。Imusttellyou,assoonasIcanspeak。—Mr。
  Redlawcametomeatsunrise,andwithatendernessinhismanner,moreasifIhadbeenhisdarlingdaughterthanmyself,imploredmetogowithhimtowhereWilliam’sbrotherGeorgeislyingill。Wewenttogether,andallthewayalonghewassokind,andsosubdued,andseemedtoputsuchtrustandhopeinme,thatIcouldnothelptryingwithpleasure。Whenwegottothehouse,wemetawomanatthedoor(somebodyhadbruisedandhurther,Iamafraid),whocaughtmebythehand,andblessedmeasIpassed。"
  "Shewasright!"saidMr。Tetterby。Mrs。Tetterbysaidshewasright。Allthechildrencriedoutthatshewasright。
  "Ah,butthere’smorethanthat,"saidMilly。"Whenwegotupstairs,intotheroom,thesickmanwhohadlainforhoursinastatefromwhichnoeffortcouldrousehim,roseupinhisbed,and,burstingintotears,stretchedouthisarmstome,andsaidthathehadledamis—spentlife,butthathewastrulyrepentantnow,inhissorrowforthepast,whichwasallasplaintohimasagreatprospect,fromwhichadenseblackcloudhadclearedaway,andthatheentreatedmetoaskhispooroldfatherforhispardonandhisblessing,andtosayaprayerbesidehisbed。AndwhenI
  didso,Mr。Redlawjoinedinitsofervently,andthensothankedandthankedme,andthankedHeaven,thatmyheartquiteoverflowed,andIcouldhavedonenothingbutsobandcry,ifthesickmanhadnotbeggedmetositdownbyhim,—whichmademequietofcourse。
  AsIsatthere,heheldmyhandinhisuntilhesankinadoze;andeventhen,whenIwithdrewmyhandtoleavehimtocomehere(whichMr。Redlawwasveryearnestindeedinwishingmetodo),hishandfeltformine,sothatsomeoneelsewasobligedtotakemyplaceandmakebelievetogivehimmyhandback。Ohdear,ohdear,"saidMilly,sobbing。"HowthankfulandhowhappyIshouldfeel,anddofeel,forallthis!"
  Whileshewasspeaking,Redlawhadcomein,and,afterpausingforamomenttoobservethegroupofwhichshewasthecentre,hadsilentlyascendedthestairs。Uponthosestairshenowappearedagain;remainingthere,whiletheyoungstudentpassedhim,andcamerunningdown。
  "Kindnurse,gentlest,bestofcreatures,"hesaid,fallingonhiskneetoher,andcatchingatherhand,"forgivemycruelingratitude!"
  "Ohdear,ohdear!"criedMillyinnocently,"here’sanotherofthem!Ohdear,here’ssomebodyelsewholikesme。WhatshallI
  everdo!"
  Theguileless,simplewayinwhichshesaidit,andinwhichsheputherhandsbeforehereyesandweptforveryhappiness,wasastouchingasitwasdelightful。
  "Iwasnotmyself,"hesaid。"Idon’tknowwhatitwas—itwassomeconsequenceofmydisorderperhaps—Iwasmad。ButIamsonolonger。AlmostasIspeak,Iamrestored。Iheardthechildrencryingoutyourname,andtheshadepassedfrommeattheverysoundofit。Oh,don’tweep!DearMilly,ifyoucouldreadmyheart,andonlyknewwithwhataffectionandwhatgratefulhomageitisglowing,youwouldnotletmeseeyouweep。Itissuchdeepreproach。"
  "No,no,"saidMilly,"it’snotthat。It’snotindeed。It’sjoy。
  It’swonderthatyoushouldthinkitnecessarytoaskmetoforgivesolittle,andyetit’spleasurethatyoudo。"
  "Andwillyoucomeagain?andwillyoufinishthelittlecurtain?"
  "No,"saidMilly,dryinghereyes,andshakingherhead。"Youwon’tcareformyneedleworknow。"
  "Isitforgivingme,tosaythat?"
  Shebeckonedhimaside,andwhisperedinhisear。
  "Thereisnewsfromyourhome,Mr。Edmund。"
  "News?How?"
  "Eitheryournotwritingwhenyouwereveryill,orthechangeinyourhandwritingwhenyoubegantobebetter,createdsomesuspicionofthetruth;howeverthatis—butyou’resureyou’llnotbetheworseforanynews,ifit’snotbadnews?"
  "Sure。"
  "Thenthere’ssomeonecome!"saidMilly。
  "Mymother?"askedthestudent,glancingroundinvoluntarilytowardsRedlaw,whohadcomedownfromthestairs。
  "Hush!No,"saidMilly。
  "Itcanbenooneelse。"
  "Indeed?"saidMilly,"areyousure?"
  "Itisnot—"Beforehecouldsaymore,sheputherhanduponhismouth。
  "Yesitis!"saidMilly。"Theyounglady(sheisveryliketheminiature,Mr。Edmund,butsheisprettier)wastoounhappytorestwithoutsatisfyingherdoubts,andcameup,lastnight,withalittleservant—maid。Asyoualwaysdatedyourlettersfromthecollege,shecamethere;andbeforeIsawMr。Redlawthismorning,Isawher。SHElikesmetoo!"saidMilly。"Ohdear,that’sanother!"
  "Thismorning!Whereisshenow?"
  "Why,sheisnow,"saidMilly,advancingherlipstohisear,"inmylittleparlourintheLodge,andwaitingtoseeyou。"
  Hepressedherhand,andwasdartingoff,butshedetainedhim。
  "Mr。Redlawismuchaltered,andhastoldmethismorningthathismemoryisimpaired。Beveryconsideratetohim,Mr。Edmund;heneedsthatfromusall。"
  Theyoungmanassuredher,byalook,thathercautionwasnotill—
  bestowed;andashepassedtheChemistonhiswayout,bentrespectfullyandwithanobviousinterestbeforehim。
  Redlawreturnedthesalutationcourteouslyandevenhumbly,andlookedafterhimashepassedon。Hedroppedhisheaduponhishandtoo,astryingtoreawakensomethinghehadlost。Butitwasgone。
  Theabidingchangethathadcomeuponhimsincetheinfluenceofthemusic,andthePhantom’sreappearance,was,thatnowhetrulyfelthowmuchhehadlost,andcouldcompassionatehisowncondition,andcontrastit,clearly,withthenaturalstateofthosewhowerearoundhim。Inthis,aninterestinthosewhowerearoundhimwasrevived,andameek,submissivesenseofhiscalamitywasbred,resemblingthatwhichsometimesobtainsinage,whenitsmentalpowersareweakened,withoutinsensibilityorsullennessbeingaddedtothelistofitsinfirmities。
  Hewasconsciousthat,asheredeemed,throughMilly,moreandmoreoftheevilhehaddone,andashewasmoreandmorewithher,thischangeripeneditselfwithinhim。Therefore,andbecauseoftheattachmentsheinspiredhimwith(butwithoutotherhope),hefeltthathewasquitedependentonher,andthatshewashisstaffinhisaffliction。
  So,whensheaskedhimwhethertheyshouldgohomenow,towheretheoldmanandherhusbandwere,andhereadilyreplied"yes"—
  beinganxiousinthatregard—heputhisarmthroughhers,andwalkedbesideher;notasifhewerethewiseandlearnedmantowhomthewondersofNaturewereanopenbook,andhersweretheuninstructedmind,butasiftheirtwopositionswerereversed,andheknewnothing,andsheall。
  Hesawthechildrenthrongabouther,andcaressher,asheandshewentawaytogetherthus,outofthehouse;heheardtheringingoftheirlaughter,andtheirmerryvoices;hesawtheirbrightfaces,clusteringaroundhimlikeflowers;hewitnessedtherenewedcontentmentandaffectionoftheirparents;hebreathedthesimpleairoftheirpoorhome,restoredtoitstranquillity;hethoughtoftheunwholesomeblighthehadsheduponit,andmight,butforher,havebeendiffusingthen;andperhapsitisnowonderthathewalkedsubmissivelybesideher,anddrewhergentlebosomnearertohisown。
  WhentheyarrivedattheLodge,theoldmanwassittinginhischairinthechimney—corner,withhiseyesfixedontheground,andhissonwasleaningagainsttheoppositesideofthefire—place,lookingathim。Asshecameinatthedoor,bothstarted,andturnedroundtowardsher,andaradiantchangecameupontheirfaces。
  "Ohdear,dear,dear,theyareallpleasedtoseemeliketherest!"criedMilly,clappingherhandsinanecstasy,andstoppingshort。"Herearetwomore!"
  Pleasedtoseeher!Pleasurewasnowordforit。Sheranintoherhusband’sarms,thrownwideopentoreceiveher,andhewouldhavebeengladtohaveherthere,withherheadlyingonhisshoulder,throughtheshortwinter’sday。Buttheoldmancouldn’tspareher。Hehadarmsforhertoo,andhelockedherinthem。
  "Why,wherehasmyquietMousebeenallthistime?"saidtheoldman。"Shehasbeenalongwhileaway。Ifindthatit’simpossibleformetogetonwithoutMouse。I—where’smysonWilliam?—I
  fancyIhavebeendreaming,William。"
  "That’swhatIsaymyself,father,"returnedhisson。"Ihavebeeninanuglysortofdream,Ithink。—Howareyou,father?Areyouprettywell?"
  "Strongandbrave,myboy,"returnedtheoldman。
  ItwasquiteasighttoseeMr。Williamshakinghandswithhisfather,andpattinghimontheback,andrubbinghimgentlydownwithhishand,asifhecouldnotpossiblydoenoughtoshowaninterestinhim。
  "Whatawonderfulmanyouare,father!—Howareyou,father?Areyoureallyprettyhearty,though?"saidWilliam,shakinghandswithhimagain,andpattinghimagain,andrubbinghimgentlydownagain。
  "Ineverwasfresherorstouterinmylife,myboy。"
  "Whatawonderfulmanyouare,father!Butthat’sexactlywhereitis,"saidMr。William,withenthusiasm。"WhenIthinkofallthatmyfather’sgonethrough,andallthechancesandchanges,andsorrowsandtroubles,thathavehappenedtohiminthecourseofhislonglife,andunderwhichhisheadhasgrowngrey,andyearsuponyearshavegatheredonit,Ifeelasifwecouldn’tdoenoughtohonourtheoldgentleman,andmakehisoldageeasy。—Howareyou,father?Areyoureallyprettywell,though?"
  Mr。Williammightneverhaveleftoffrepeatingthisinquiry,andshakinghandswithhimagain,andpattinghimagain,andrubbinghimdownagain,iftheoldmanhadnotespiedtheChemist,whomuntilnowhehadnotseen。
  "Iaskyourpardon,Mr。Redlaw,"saidPhilip,"butdidn’tknowyouwerehere,sir,orshouldhavemadelessfree。Itremindsme,Mr。
  Redlaw,seeingyouhereonaChristmasmorning,ofthetimewhenyouwasastudentyourself,andworkedsohardthatyouwerebackwardsandforwardsinourLibraryevenatChristmastime。Ha!
  ha!I’moldenoughtorememberthat;andIrememberitrightwell,Ido,thoughIameight—seven。Itwasafteryouleftherethatmypoorwifedied。Youremembermypoorwife,Mr。Redlaw?"
  TheChemistansweredyes。
  "Yes,"saidtheoldman。"Shewasadearcreetur。—IrecollectyoucomehereoneChristmasmorningwithayounglady—Iaskyourpardon,Mr。Redlaw,butIthinkitwasasisteryouwasverymuchattachedto?"
  TheChemistlookedathim,andshookhishead。"Ihadasister,"
  hesaidvacantly。Heknewnomore。
  "OneChristmasmorning,"pursuedtheoldman,"thatyoucomeherewithher—anditbegantosnow,andmywifeinvitedtheladytowalkin,andsitbythefirethatisalwaysaburningonChristmasDayinwhatusedtobe,beforeourtenpoorgentlemencommuted,ourgreatDinnerHall。Iwasthere;andIrecollect,asIwasstirringuptheblazefortheyoungladytowarmherprettyfeetby,shereadthescrolloutloud,thatisunderneaththatpictur,’Lord,keepmymemorygreen!’Sheandmypoorwifefellatalkingaboutit;andit’sastrangethingtothinkof,now,thattheybothsaid(bothbeingsounliketodie)thatitwasagoodprayer,andthatitwasonetheywouldputupveryearnestly,iftheywerecalledawayyoung,withreferencetothosewhoweredearesttothem。’Mybrother,’saystheyounglady—’Myhusband,’saysmypoorwife。—
  ’Lord,keephismemoryofme,green,anddonotletmebeforgotten!’"
  Tearsmorepainful,andmorebitterthanhehadevershedinallhislife,courseddownRedlaw’sface。Philip,fullyoccupiedinrecallinghisstory,hadnotobservedhimuntilnow,norMilly’sanxietythatheshouldnotproceed。
  "Philip!"saidRedlaw,layinghishanduponhisarm,"Iamastrickenman,onwhomthehandofProvidencehasfallenheavily,althoughdeservedly。Youspeaktome,myfriend,ofwhatIcannotfollow;mymemoryisgone。"
  "Mercifulpower!"criedtheoldman。
  "Ihavelostmymemoryofsorrow,wrong,andtrouble,"saidtheChemist,"andwiththatIhavelostallmanwouldremember!"
  ToseeoldPhilip’spityforhim,toseehimwheelhisowngreatchairforhimtorestin,andlookdownuponhimwithasolemnsenseofhisbereavement,wastoknow,insomedegree,howprecioustooldagesuchrecollectionsare。
  Theboycamerunningin,andrantoMilly。
  "Here’stheman,"hesaid,"intheotherroom。Idon’twantHIM。"
  "Whatmandoeshemean?"askedMr。William。
  "Hush!"saidMilly。
  Obedienttoasignfromher,heandhisoldfathersoftlywithdrew。
  Astheywentout,unnoticed,Redlawbeckonedtotheboytocometohim。
  "Ilikethewomanbest,"heanswered,holdingtoherskirts。
  "Youareright,"saidRedlaw,withafaintsmile。"Butyouneedn’tfeartocometome。IamgentlerthanIwas。Ofalltheworld,toyou,poorchild!"
  Theboystillheldbackatfirst,butyieldinglittlebylittletoherurging,heconsentedtoapproach,andeventositdownathisfeet。AsRedlawlaidhishandupontheshoulderofthechild,lookingonhimwithcompassionandafellow—feeling,heputouthisotherhandtoMilly。Shestoopeddownonthatsideofhim,sothatshecouldlookintohisface,andaftersilence,said:
  "Mr。Redlaw,mayIspeaktoyou?"
  "Yes,"heanswered,fixinghiseyesuponher。"Yourvoiceandmusicarethesametome。"
  "MayIaskyousomething?"
  "Whatyouwill。"
  "DoyourememberwhatIsaid,whenIknockedatyourdoorlastnight?Aboutonewhowasyourfriendonce,andwhostoodonthevergeofdestruction?"
  "Yes。Iremember,"hesaid,withsomehesitation。
  "Doyouunderstandit?"
  Hesmoothedtheboy’shair—lookingatherfixedlythewhile,andshookhishead。
  "Thisperson,"saidMilly,inherclear,softvoice,whichhermildeyes,lookingathim,madeclearerandsofter,"Ifoundsoonafterwards。Iwentbacktothehouse,and,withHeaven’shelp,tracedhim。Iwasnottoosoon。AverylittleandIshouldhavebeentoolate。"
  Hetookhishandfromtheboy,andlayingitonthebackofthathandofhers,whosetimidandyetearnesttouchaddressedhimnolessappealinglythanhervoiceandeyes,lookedmoreintentlyonher。
  "HeISthefatherofMr。Edmund,theyounggentlemanwesawjustnow。HisrealnameisLongford。—Yourecollectthename?"
  "Irecollectthename。"
  "Andtheman?"
  "No,nottheman。Didheeverwrongme?"
  "Yes!"
  "Ah!Thenit’shopeless—hopeless。"
  Heshookhishead,andsoftlybeatuponthehandheheld,asthoughmutelyaskinghercommiseration。
  "IdidnotgotoMr。Edmundlastnight,"saidMilly,—"Youwilllistentomejustthesameasifyoudidrememberall?"
  "Toeverysyllableyousay。"
  "Both,becauseIdidnotknow,then,thatthisreallywashisfather,andbecauseIwasfearfuloftheeffectofsuchintelligenceuponhim,afterhisillness,ifitshouldbe。SinceI
  haveknownwhothispersonis,Ihavenotgoneeither;butthatisforanotherreason。Hehaslongbeenseparatedfromhiswifeandson—hasbeenastrangertohishomealmostfromthisson’sinfancy,Ilearnfromhim—andhasabandonedanddesertedwhatheshouldhaveheldmostdear。Inallthattimehehasbeenfallingfromthestateofagentleman,moreandmore,until—"sheroseup,hastily,andgoingoutforamoment,returned,accompaniedbythewreckthatRedlawhadbeheldlastnight。
  "Doyouknowme?"askedtheChemist。
  "Ishouldbeglad,"returnedtheother,"andthatisanunwontedwordformetouse,ifIcouldanswerno。"
  TheChemistlookedattheman,standinginself—abasementanddegradationbeforehim,andwouldhavelookedlonger,inanineffectualstruggleforenlightenment,butthatMillyresumedherlatepositionbyhisside,andattractedhisattentivegazetoherownface。
  "Seehowlowheissunk,howlostheis!"shewhispered,stretchingoutherarmtowardshim,withoutlookingfromtheChemist’sface。
  "Ifyoucouldrememberallthatisconnectedwithhim,doyounotthinkitwouldmoveyourpitytoreflectthatoneyoueverloved(donotletusmindhowlongago,orinwhatbeliefthathehasforfeited),shouldcometothis?"
  "Ihopeitwould,"heanswered。"Ibelieveitwould。"
  Hiseyeswanderedtothefigurestandingnearthedoor,butcamebackspeedilytoher,onwhomhegazedintently,asifhestrovetolearnsomelessonfromeverytoneofhervoice,andeverybeamofhereyes。
  "Ihavenolearning,andyouhavemuch,"saidMilly;"Iamnotusedtothink,andyouarealwaysthinking。MayItellyouwhyitseemstomeagoodthingforus,torememberwrongthathasbeendoneus?"
  "Yes。"
  "Thatwemayforgiveit。"
  "Pardonme,greatHeaven!"saidRedlaw,liftinguphiseyes,"forhavingthrownawaythineownhighattribute!"
  "Andif,"saidMilly,"ifyourmemoryshouldonedayberestored,aswewillhopeandprayitmaybe,woulditnotbeablessingtoyoutorecallatonceawronganditsforgiveness?"
  Helookedatthefigurebythedoor,andfastenedhisattentiveeyesonheragain;arayofclearerlightappearedtohimtoshineintohismind,fromherbrightface。
  "Hecannotgotohisabandonedhome。Hedoesnotseektogothere。
  Heknowsthathecouldonlycarryshameandtroubletothosehehassocruellyneglected;andthatthebestreparationhecanmakethemnow,istoavoidthem。Averylittlemoneycarefullybestowed,wouldremovehimtosomedistantplace,wherehemightliveanddonowrong,andmakesuchatonementasisleftwithinhispowerforthewronghehasdone。Totheunfortunateladywhoishiswife,andtohisson,thiswouldbethebestandkindestboonthattheirbestfriendcouldgivethem—onetoothattheyneedneverknowof;
  andtohim,shatteredinreputation,mind,andbody,itmightbesalvation。"
  Hetookherheadbetweenherhands,andkissedit,andsaid:"Itshallbedone。Itrusttoyoutodoitforme,nowandsecretly;
  andtotellhimthatIwouldforgivehim,ifIweresohappyastoknowforwhat。"
  Assherose,andturnedherbeamingfacetowardsthefallenman,implyingthathermediationhadbeensuccessful,headvancedastep,andwithoutraisinghiseyes,addressedhimselftoRedlaw。
  "Youaresogenerous,"hesaid,"—youeverwere—thatyouwilltrytobanishyourrisingsenseofretributioninthespectaclethatisbeforeyou。Idonottrytobanishitfrommyself,Redlaw。
  Ifyoucan,believeme。"
  TheChemistentreatedMilly,byagesture,tocomenearertohim;
  and,ashelistenedlookedinherface,asiftofindinitthecluetowhatheheard。
  "Iamtoodecayedawretchtomakeprofessions;Irecollectmyowncareertoowell,toarrayanysuchbeforeyou。ButfromthedayonwhichImademyfirststepdownward,indealingfalselybyyou,I
  havegonedownwithacertain,steady,doomedprogression。That,I
  say。"
  Redlaw,keepinghercloseathisside,turnedhisfacetowardsthespeaker,andtherewassorrowinit。Somethinglikemournfulrecognitiontoo。
  "Imighthavebeenanotherman,mylifemighthavebeenanotherlife,ifIhadavoidedthatfirstfatalstep。Idon’tknowthatitwouldhavebeen。Iclaimnothingforthepossibility。Yoursisterisatrest,andbetterthanshecouldhavebeenwithme,ifIhadcontinuedevenwhatyouthoughtme:evenwhatIoncesupposedmyselftobe。"
  Redlawmadeahastymotionwithhishand,asifhewouldhaveputthatsubjectononeside。
  "Ispeak,"theotherwenton,"likeamantakenfromthegrave。I
  shouldhavemademyowngrave,lastnight,haditnotbeenforthisblessedhand。"
  "Ohdear,helikesmetoo!"sobbedMilly,underherbreath。
  "That’sanother!"
  "Icouldnothaveputmyselfinyourway,lastnight,evenforbread。But,to—day,myrecollectionofwhathasbeenissostronglystirred,andispresentedtome,Idon’tknowhow,sovividly,thatIhavedaredtocomeathersuggestion,andtotakeyourbounty,andtothankyouforit,andtobegyou,Redlaw,inyourdyinghour,tobeasmercifultomeinyourthoughts,asyouareinyourdeeds。"
  Heturnedtowardsthedoor,andstoppedamomentonhiswayforth。
  "Ihopemysonmayinterestyou,forhismother’ssake。Ihopehemaydeservetodoso。Unlessmylifeshouldbepreservedalongtime,andIshouldknowthatIhavenotmisusedyouraid,Ishallneverlookuponhimmore。"
  Goingout,heraisedhiseyestoRedlawforthefirsttime。
  Redlaw,whosesteadfastgazewasfixeduponhim,dreamilyheldouthishand。Hereturnedandtouchedit—littlemore—withbothhisown;andbendingdownhishead,wentslowlyout。
  Inthefewmomentsthatelapsed,whileMillysilentlytookhimtothegate,theChemistdroppedintohischair,andcoveredhisfacewithhishands。Seeinghimthus,whenshecameback,accompaniedbyherhusbandandhisfather(whowerebothgreatlyconcernedforhim),sheavoideddisturbinghim,orpermittinghimtobedisturbed;andkneeleddownnearthechairtoputsomewarmclothingontheboy。
  "That’sexactlywhereitis。That’swhatIalwayssay,father!"
  exclaimedheradmiringhusband。"There’samotherlyfeelinginMrs。William’sbreastthatmustandwillhavewent!"
  "Ay,ay,"saidtheoldman;"you’reright。MysonWilliam’sright!"
  "Ithappensallforthebest,Millydear,nodoubt,"saidMr。
  William,tenderly,"thatwehavenochildrenofourown;andyetI
  sometimeswishyouhadonetoloveandcherish。Ourlittledeadchildthatyoubuiltsuchhopesupon,andthatneverbreathedthebreathoflife—ithasmadeyouquiet—like,Milly。"
  "Iamveryhappyintherecollectionofit,Williamdear,"sheanswered。"Ithinkofiteveryday。"
  "Iwasafraidyouthoughtofitagooddeal。"
  "Don’tsay,afraid;itisacomforttome;itspeakstomeinsomanyways。Theinnocentthingthatneverlivedonearth,islikeanangeltome,William。"
  "Youarelikeanangeltofatherandme,"saidMr。William,softly。
  "Iknowthat。"
  "WhenIthinkofallthosehopesIbuiltuponit,andthemanytimesIsatandpicturedtomyselfthelittlesmilingfaceuponmybosomthatneverlaythere,andthesweeteyesturneduptominethatneveropenedtothelight,"saidMilly,"Icanfeelagreatertenderness,Ithink,forallthedisappointedhopesinwhichthereisnoharm。WhenIseeabeautifulchildinitsfondmother’sarms,Iloveitallthebetter,thinkingthatmychildmighthavebeenlikethat,andmighthavemademyheartasproudandhappy。"
  Redlawraisedhishead,andlookedtowardsher。
  "Allthroughlife,itseemsbyme,"shecontinued,"totellmesomething。Forpoorneglectedchildren,mylittlechildpleadsasifitwerealive,andhadavoiceIknew,withwhichtospeaktome。WhenIhearofyouthinsufferingorshame,Ithinkthatmychildmighthavecometothat,perhaps,andthatGodtookitfrommeinHismercy。Eveninageandgreyhair,suchasfather’s,itispresent:sayingthatittoomighthavelivedtobeold,longandlongafteryouandIweregone,andtohaveneededtherespectandloveofyoungerpeople。"
  Herquietvoicewasquieterthanever,asshetookherhusband’sarm,andlaidherheadagainstit。
  "Childrenlovemeso,thatsometimesIhalffancy—it’sasillyfancy,William—theyhavesomewayIdon’tknowof,offeelingformylittlechild,andme,andunderstandingwhytheirloveisprecioustome。IfIhavebeenquietsince,Ihavebeenmorehappy,William,inahundredways。Notleasthappy,dear,inthis—thatevenwhenmylittlechildwasbornanddeadbutafewdays,andIwasweakandsorrowful,andcouldnothelpgrievingalittle,thethoughtarose,thatifItriedtoleadagoodlife,IshouldmeetinHeavenabrightcreature,whowouldcallme,Mother!"
  Redlawfelluponhisknees,withaloudcry。
  "OThou,hesaid,"whothroughtheteachingofpurelove,hastgraciouslyrestoredmetothememorywhichwasthememoryofChristupontheCross,andofallthegoodwhoperishedinHiscause,receivemythanks,andblessher!"
  Then,hefoldedhertohisheart;andMilly,sobbingmorethanever,cried,asshelaughed,"Heiscomebacktohimself!Helikesmeverymuchindeed,too!Oh,dear,dear,dearme,here’sanother!"
  Then,thestudententered,leadingbythehandalovelygirl,whowasafraidtocome。AndRedlawsochangedtowardshim,seeinginhimandhisyouthfulchoice,thesoftenedshadowofthatchasteningpassageinhisownlife,towhich,astoashadytree,thedovesolongimprisonedinhissolitaryarkmightflyforrestandcompany,felluponhisneck,entreatingthemtobehischildren。
  Then,asChristmasisatimeinwhich,ofalltimesintheyear,thememoryofeveryremediablesorrow,wrong,andtroubleintheworldaroundus,shouldbeactivewithus,notlessthanourownexperiences,forallgood,helaidhishandupontheboy,and,silentlycallingHimtowitnesswholaidHishandonchildreninoldtime,rebuking,inthemajestyofHispropheticknowledge,thosewhokeptthemfromHim,vowedtoprotecthim,teachhim,andreclaimhim。
  Then,hegavehisrighthandcheerilytoPhilip,andsaidthattheywouldthatdayholdaChristmasdinnerinwhatusedtobe,beforethetenpoorgentlemencommuted,theirgreatDinnerHall;andthattheywouldbidtoitasmanyofthatSwidgerfamily,who,hissonhadtoldhim,weresonumerousthattheymightjoinhandsandmakearingroundEngland,ascouldbebroughttogetheronsoshortanotice。
  Anditwasthatdaydone。ThereweresomanySwidgersthere,grownupandchildren,thatanattempttostatetheminroundnumbersmightengenderdoubts,inthedistrustful,oftheveracityofthishistory。Thereforetheattemptshallnotbemade。Buttheretheywere,bydozensandscores—andtherewasgoodnewsandgoodhopethere,readyforthem,ofGeorge,whohadbeenvisitedagainbyhisfatherandbrother,andbyMilly,andagainleftinaquietsleep。
  There,presentatthedinner,too,weretheTetterbys,includingyoungAdolphus,whoarrivedinhisprismaticcomforter,ingoodtimeforthebeef。Johnnyandthebabyweretoolate,ofcourse,andcameinallononeside,theoneexhausted,theotherinasupposedstateofdouble—tooth;butthatwascustomary,andnotalarming。
  Itwassadtoseethechildwhohadnonameorlineage,watchingtheotherchildrenastheyplayed,notknowinghowtotalkwiththem,orsportwiththem,andmorestrangetothewaysofchildhoodthanaroughdog。Itwassad,thoughinadifferentway,toseewhataninstinctiveknowledgetheyoungestchildrentherehadofhisbeingdifferentfromalltherest,andhowtheymadetimidapproachestohimwithsoftwordsandtouches,andwithlittlepresents,thathemightnotbeunhappy。ButhekeptbyMilly,andbegantoloveher—thatwasanother,asshesaid!—and,astheyalllikedherdearly,theyweregladofthat,andwhentheysawhimpeepingatthemfrombehindherchair,theywerepleasedthathewassoclosetoit。
  Allthis,theChemist,sittingwiththestudentandhisbridethatwastobe,Philip,andtherest,saw。
  Somepeoplehavesaidsince,thatheonlythoughtwhathasbeenhereinsetdown;others,thathereaditinthefire,onewinternightaboutthetwilighttime;others,thattheGhostwasbuttherepresentationofhisgloomythoughts,andMillytheembodimentofhisbetterwisdom。Isaynothing。
  —Exceptthis。ThatastheywereassembledintheoldHall,bynootherlightthanthatofagreatfire(havingdinedearly),theshadowsoncemorestoleoutoftheirhiding—places,anddancedabouttheroom,showingthechildrenmarvellousshapesandfacesonthewalls,andgraduallychangingwhatwasrealandfamiliarthere,towhatwaswildandmagical。ButthattherewasonethingintheHall,towhichtheeyesofRedlaw,andofMillyandherhusband,andoftheoldman,andofthestudent,andhisbridethatwastobe,wereoftenturned,whichtheshadowsdidnotobscureorchange。
  Deepenedinitsgravitybythefire—light,andgazingfromthedarknessofthepanelledwalllikelife,thesedatefaceintheportrait,withthebeardandruff,lookeddownatthemfromunderitsverdantwreathofholly,astheylookedupatit;and,clearandplainbelow,asifavoicehadutteredthem,werethewords。
  LordkeepmyMemorygreen。