Hewalkeddowntotheveryedgeofthestream;itrandeepandfastjusthere,underahighbankandarowofoldwillows。
Smuggsatdownonthebank,wetthoughthegrasswas,andclaspedhishandsoverhisknees。Icroucheddownalittlewaybehindhim,readyandalert。Iamagoodswimmer,andIdidnotdoubtmypowertopullhimout,evenifIwerenotintimetopreventhimjumpingin。Isawhimrise,lookoverthebrink,andsitdownagain。IalmostthoughtIsawhimshiver。Andpresently,throughthestillnessofthesummernight,camethestrangest,saddestsound;catchingmyearasitdriftedacrossthemeadow。
Smuggwassobbing,andhissobs——neverloud——roseandfellwiththesubduedstressofintolerablepain。
Suddenlyheleapedup,criedaloud,andflunghishandsabovehishead。Ithoughthewasgonethistime;buthestopped,poised,asitseemed,overthewater,andIheardhimcry,"Ican’t,I
can’t!"andhesankdownallinaheaponthebank,andfellagaintosobbing。Ihopenevertoseeaman——ifyoucancallSmuggaman——likethatagain。
Hesatwherehewas,andIwhereIwas,tillthemoonpaledandadistanthintofdaydiscoveredus。Thenherose,brushedhimselfwithhishands,andslunkquicklyfromthebank。Hadhelookedanywherebutontheground,hemusthaveseenme;asitwas,I
onlynarrowlyavoidedhim,andfellagainintomyplacebehindhim。AllthewaybacktoourgardenIfollowedhim。Ashepassedthroughthegate,Iquickenedmypace,overtookhim,andlaidmyhandonhisarm。Theman’sfacegavemewhatIremembermyoldnurseusedtocall"quiteaturn。"
"You’reanaverageidiot,aren’tyou?"saidI。"Oh,yes;I’vebeensquattinginthewetbythatinfernalriver,too。Yououghttogetthreemonths,byrights。"
Helookedatmeinadazedsortofway。
"Idaren’t,"hesaid。"Iwantedto,butIdaren’t。"
Thereisreallynothingmore。Wewenttothewedding,leavingSmugginbed;andintheeveningwe,leavingSmuggstillinbed(ItoldMarytokeepaneyeonhim),andcarryingadozenofthegrocer’sbestport,wentuptodanceatDill’sfarm。JoewaspolishedtillIcouldalmostseemyselfinhischeek,andPyrrhalookedmorecharmingthanever。SheandJoeweretoleaveusearly,togotoJoe’sownhouseinthevillage,butImanagedtogetonedancewithher。Indeed,Ibelieveshewantedawordwithme。
"Well,all’swellthatendswell,isn’tit?"Ibegan。"Nomorescoldings!NotfromMrs。Dill,anyhow。"
"Youcan’tletthatalone,sir,"saidPyrrha。
Ichuckledgently。
"Oh,I’llneverrefertoitagain,"saidI。"Thisisafineweddingofyours,Betsy。"
"It’sgoodofyouandtheothergentlementocome,sir。"
"Wehadtoseethelastofyou,"andIsighedveryostentatiously。
Pyrrhalaughed。Shedidnotbelieveinit,andsheknewthatI
knewshedidnot,butthelittlecomplimentpleasedher,allthesame。
"Smugg,"Ipursued,"isillinbed。Butperhapshewouldn’thavecome,anyhow。"
"Ifyouplease,sir————"Pyrrhabegan;butshestopped。
"Yes,Betsy?Whatisit?"
"Wouldyoutakeamessageforme,sir?"
"Ifit’saproperone,Betsy,foramarriedladytosend。"
Shelaughedalittle,andsaid:
"Oh,it’snoharm,sir。I’mafraidheaint——he’sratherdown,sir。"
"Who?"
"Why,thatSmugg,sir。"
"Oh,thatSmugg!Why,yes;alittledown,Betsy,Ifear。"
"YoumighttellhimasIbearnomalice,sir——asI’mnotangry——
withhim,Imean。"
"Certainly,"saidI。"Itwillprobablydohimgood。"
"Hegotmeintotrouble;butthere,Icanmakeallowances;andit’sallrightnow,sir。"
"Infactyouforgivehim?"
"Ithinkyoumighttellhimso,sir,"saidBetsy。
"But,"saidI,"areyouawarethathewasanother’sallthetime?"
"What,sir?"
"Oh,yes!engagedtobemarried。"
"Well,Inever!Him!What,allthewhilehe————"
"Precisely。"
"Well,thatbeatseverything。Oh,ifI’dknownthat!"
"I’llgivehimyourmessage。"
"No,sir,notnow,Ithankyou。Thevillain!"
"Youareright,"saidI。"Ithinkyourmotheroughttohave——
scoldedhim,too。"
"Nowyoupromised,sir————"butJoecameup,andIescaped。
IV。
AREPENTANTSINNER。
Itwas,Ibelieve,mainlyasacomplimenttomethatMissAudreyListonwasaskedtoPoltons。MissListonandIwereverygoodfriends,andmycousinDoraPoltonthought,assheinformedme,thatitwouldbeniceformetohavesomeoneIcouldtalktoabout"booksandsoon。"Ididnotcomplain。MissListonwasapleasantyoungwomanofsix—and—twenty;Ilikedherverymuchexceptonpaper,andIwasawarethatshemadeitapointofdutytoreadsomethingatleastofwhatIwrote。Shewasinthehabitofdescribingherselfasan"authoressinasmallway。"Ifitwerepointedoutthatsixthree—volumenovelsinthreeyears(thetermofherliteraryactivity,atthetimeofwhichI
write)couldhardlybecalled"asmallway,"shewouldsmilemodestlyandsaythatitwasnotreallymuch;andifsheweretoldthattheEnglishlanguageembracednosuchwordas"authoress,"shewouldsmileagainandsaythatitoughtto;apositiontowardthebugbearofcorrectnesswithwhich,Iconfess,Isympathizeinsomedegree。Shewasverydiligent;sheworkedfromtentooneeverydaywhileshewasatPoltons;howmuchshewroteisbetweenherandherconscience。
TherewasanotherimpeachmentwhichMissListonwashardlyatthetroubletodeny。"Takemycharactersfromlife?"shewouldexclaim。"Surelyeveryartist"(MissListonoftenreferredtoherselfasanartist)"must?"Andshewouldproceedtomaintain——whatisperhapstruesometimes——thatpeopleratherlikedbeingputintobooks,justastheylikebeingphotographed,forallthattheygrumbleandpretendtobeafflictedwheneitherprocessisleviedagainstthem。IndiscussingthismatterwithMissListonIfeltmyselfondelicateground,foritwasnotoriousthatIfiguredinherfirstbookintheguiseofamisogynisticgenius;thefactthatshelengthened(andthickened)
myhair,converteditfromanindeterminatebrowntoaduskyblack,gavemeadroopingmustache,andinvestedmyveryordinaryworkadayeyeswithastrangemagneticattraction,availednothing;Iwasatoncerecognized;and,Imayremarkinpassing,anuncommonlydisagreeablefellowshemademe。ThusIhadpassedthroughthefire。IfelttolerablysurethatIpresentednootheraspectofinterest,realorsupposed,andIwasquitecontentthatMissListonshouldservealltherestofheracquaintanceasshehadservedme。Ireckonedtheywouldlasther,atthepresentrateofproduction,aboutfiveyears。
FatewaskindtoMissListon,andprovidedherwithmostsuitablepatternsforhernextpieceofworkatPoltonsitself。Therewereayoungmanandayoungwomanstayinginthehouse——SirGilbertChillingtonandMissPamelaMyles。ThemomentMissListonwasapprizedofapossibleromance,shebeganthestudyoftheprotagonists。Shewaslookingout,shetoldme,forsomenewtypes(ifitwereanyconsolation——andthereisasortofdignityaboutit——tobecalledatype,MissListon’svictimswerealwayswelcometosomuch),andshehadfoundtheminChillingtonandPamela。Theformerappearedtomydulleyetooffernosalientnovelty;hewastall,broad,handsome,andhepossessedamannerofenviableplacidity。Pamela,Iallowed,wasexactlytheheroineMissListonloved——haughty,capricious,difficile,butsoundandtrueatheart(IwasmentallyskimmingVolumeI)。MissListonagreedwithmeinmyconceptionofPamela,butdeclaredthatIdidnotdojusticetotheartisticpossibilitieslatentinChillington;hehadacuriousattractionwhichitwouldtaxherskill(soshegravelyinformedme)totheutmosttoreproduce。
SheproposedthatIalsoshouldmakeastudyofhim,andattributedmyhurriedrefusaltoashrinkingfromthedifficultiesofthetask。
"Ofcourse,"sheobserved,lookingatouryoungfriends,whoweretalkingnonsenseattheothersideofthelawn,"theymusthaveamisunderstanding。"
"Why,ofcourse,"saidI,lightingmypipe。"Whatshouldyousaytoanotherman?"
"Oranotherwoman?"saidMissListon。
"Itcomestothesamething,"saidI。(AboutavolumeandahalfImeant。)
"Butit’smoreinteresting。Doyouthinkshe’dbetterbeamarriedwoman?"AndMissListonlookedatmeinquiringly。
"Theageprefersthemmarried,"Iremarked。
ThisconversationhappenedontheseconddayofMissListon’svisit,andshelostnotimeinbeginningtostudyhersubjects。
Pamela,shesaid,shefoundprettyplainsailing,butChillingtoncontinuedtopuzzleher。Again,shecouldnotmakeuphermindwhethertohaveahappyoratragicending。Intheinterestsofatenderheartedpublic,Ipleadedformarriagebells。
"Yes,Ithinkso,"saidMissListon,butshesighed,andIthinkshehadanideaortwoforaheart—brokenseparation,followedbymutual,lifelong,hopelessdevotion。
ThecomplexityofyoungSirGilbertdidnot,inMissListon’sopinion,appearlessonfurtheracquaintance;andindeed,Imustadmitthatshewasnotaltogetherwronginconsideringhimworthyofattention。AsIcametoknowhimbetter,Idiscernedinhimasmotheredself—appreciation,whichcametolightinresponsetotheleasttributeofinterestoradmiration,butwasyetfarremotefromtheaggressivenessofacommonplacevanity。InamomentofindiscretionIhadchaffedhim——hewasverygood—
natured——ontherisksheranatMissListon’shands;hewasnotdisgusted,butneitherdidheplumehimselforspreadhisfeathers。Hereceivedthesuggestionwithoutsurprise,andwithoutanyattemptatdisclaimingfitnessforthepurpose;buthereceiveditasamatterwhichentailedaresponsibilityonhim。Idetectedtheconvictionthat,iftheportraitwastobepainted,itwasduetotheworldthatitshouldbewellpainted;
thesubjectmustgivetheartistfullopportunities。
"Whatdoessheknowaboutme?"heasked,inmeditativetones。
"She’sveryquick;she’llsoonpickupasmuchasshewants,"I
assuredhim。
"She’llprobablygoallwrong,"hesaidsomberly;andofcourseI
couldnottellhimthatitwasofnoconsequenceifshedid。Hewouldnothavebelievedme,andwouldhavedonepreciselywhatheproceededtodo,andthatwastoaffordMissListoneverychanceofappraisinghischaracterandplumbingthedepthsofhissoul。
ImaysayatoncethatIdidnotregretthiscourseofaction;
fortheeffectofitwastoallowmeachanceoftalkingtoPamelaMyles,andPamelawasexactlythesortofgirltobeguilethelong,pleasantmorninghoursofaholidayinthecountry。NoonehadtoldPamelathatshewasgoingtobeputinabook,andI
don’tthinkitwouldhavemadeanydifferencehadshebeentold。
Pamela’sattitudetowardbookswasoneofhealthyscorn,confidentlybasedonadmittedignorance。Soweneverspokeofthem,andmycousinDoracondoledwithmemorethanonceonthewayinwhichMissListon,falsetotheimpliedtermsofherinvitation,desertedmeinfavorofSirGilbert,andleftmetothemerciesofafrivolousgirl。PamelaappearedtobeaslittleaggrievedasIwas。IimaginedthatshesupposedthatChillingtonwouldaskhertomarryhimsomeday,beforeverylong,andIwassureshewouldaccepthim;butitwasquiteplainthat,ifMissListonpersistedinmakingPamelaherheroine,shewouldhavetosupplyfromherownresourcesalargesupplementofpassion。Pamelawasfartoodeficientinthecommoditytobemadeanythingofwithoutsuchre—enforcement,evenbyanartmoreadeptatmakingmuchoutofnothingthanMissListon’sstraightforwardmethodcouldclaimtobe。
Aweekpassed,andthen,oneFridaymorning,anewlightburstonme。MissListoncameintothegardenateleveno’clockandsatdownbymeonthelawn。ChillingtonandPamelahadgoneridingwiththesquire,Dorawasvisitingthepoor。Wewerealone。TheappearanceofMissListonatthishour(usuallysacredtotheuseofthepen),nolessthanherpuzzledlook,toldmethatanobstructionhadoccurredinthenovel。Presentlysheletmeknowwhatitwas。
"I’mthinkingofalteringtheschemeofmystory,Mr。Wynne,"
saidshe。"Haveyouevernoticedhowsometimesamanthinkshe’sinlovewhenheisn’treally?"
"Suchacasesometimesoccurs,"Iacknowledged。
"Yes,andhedoesn’tfindouthismistake————"
"Tillthey’remarried?"
"Sometimes,yes,"shesaid,ratherasthoughsheweremakinganunwillingadmission。"Butsometimesheseesitbefore——whenhemeetssomebodyelse。"
"Verytrue,"saidI,withagravenod。
"Thefalsecan’tstandagainstthereal,"pursuedMissListon;
andthenshefellintomeditativesilence。Istoleaglanceatherface;shewassmiling。Wasitinthepleasureofliterarycreation——anartisticecstasy?Ishouldhavelikedtoansweryes,butIdoubteditverymuch。WithoutpretendingtoMissListon’spowers,Ihavethelittlesubtletythatisneedfultoshowmethatmorethanonekindofsmilemaybeseenonthehumanface,andthatthereisoneverydifferentfromothers;and,finally,thatthatoneisnotevoked,asarule,merelybytheevolutionofthetroublesomeencumbranceinprettywritingvulgarlycalleda"plot。"
"If,"pursuedMissListon,"someonecomeswhocanappreciatehimanddrawoutwhatisbestinhim————"
"That’sallverywell,"saidI,"butwhatofthefirstgirl?"
"Oh,she’s——shecanbemadeshallow,youknow;andIcanputinamanforher。Peopleneedn’tbemuchinterestedinher。"
"Yes,youcouldmanageitthatway,"saidI,thinkinghowPamela——Itookthelibertyofusinghernamefortheshallowgirl——wouldlikesuchtreatment。
"Shewillreallybevaluablemainlyasafoil,"observedMissListon;andsheaddedgenerously,"Ishallmakehernice,youknow,butshallow——notworthyofhim。"
"Andwhatareyougoingtomaketheothergirllike?"Iasked。
MissListonstartedslightly;alsoshecoloredveryslightly,andsheanswered,lookingawayfrommeacrossthelawn:
"Ihaven’tquitemadeupmymindyet,Mr。Wynne。"
Withthesuspicionwhichthisconversationarousedfreshinmymind,itwascurioustohearPamelalaugh,asshesaidtomeontheafternoonofthesameday:
"Aren’tSirGilbertandAudreyListonfunny?Itellyouwhat,Mr。Wynne,Ibelievethey’rewritinganoveltogether。"
"PerhapsChillington’sgivingherthematerialsforone,"I
suggested。
"Ishouldn’tthink,"observedPamelainherdispassionateway,"thatanythingveryinterestinghadeverhappenedtohim。"
"Ithoughtyoulikedhim,"Iremarkedhumbly。
"SoIdo。What’sthatgottodowithit?"askedPamela。
ItwasbeyondquestionthatChillingtonenjoyedMissListon’ssociety;theinterestsheshowedinhimwasincensetohisnostrils。Iusedtooverhearfragmentsofhisideasabouthimselfwhichhewasrevealinginanswertohertactfulinquiries。ButneitherwasitdoubtfulthathehadbynomeanslosthisrelishforPamela’slightertalk;infact,heseemedtoturntoherwithsomerelief——perhapsitisrefreshingtoescapefromself—analysis,evenwhentheprocessisconductedinthepleasantestpossiblemanner——andthehourswhichMissListongavetoworkweredevotedbyChillingtontomaintaininghiscordialrelationswiththeladywhosecomfortableandnotover—
tragicaldisposalwastaxingMissListon’sskill。Forshehaddefinitelydecidedallherplot——shetoldmesoafewdayslater。
Itwasallplannedout;nay,thesceneinwhichthetruthastohisownfeelingsburstsonSirGilbert(Iforgetatthemomentwhatnamethenovelgavehim)was,Iunderstood,actuallywritten;theshallowgirlwastoexperiencenothingworsethanawoundtohervanity,andwastoturn,withasmuchalacrityasdecencyallowed,tothesubstitutewhomMissListonhadnowprovided。Allthiswaspouredintomysympatheticear,andIsaysympatheticinallsincerity;for,althoughImayoccasionallytreatMissListon’sliteraryeffortswithlessthanproperrespect,sheherselfwasmyfriend,andtheconvictionunderwhichshewasnowlivingwould,Iknew,unlessitwerejustified,bringherintomuchofthatunhappinessinwhichonegenerallyfoundherheroineplungedabouttheendofVolumeII。
Theheroinegenerallygotoutallright,andtheknowledgethatshewouldenabledthereadertopreservecheerfulness。ButwouldpoorlittleMissListongetout?Iwasnonetoosureofit。
Suddenlyachangecameinthestateofaffairs。Pamelaproducedit。ItmusthavestruckherthattheincreasingintimacyofMissListonandChillingtonmightbecomesomethingotherthan"funny。"
Toputitbrieflyandmetaphorically,shewhistledherdogbacktoherheels。Iamnotskilledinunderstandingordescribingtheartificesofladies;butevenIsawthetransformationinPamela。Sheputforthherstrengthandputonherprettiestgowns;sherefusedtotakeherplaceinthesea—sawofsocietywhichChillingtonhadrecentlyestablishedforhispleasure。IfhespentanhourwithMissListon,Pamelawouldhavenothingofhimforaday;shemethisattentionswithscornunlesstheywereundivided。Chillingtonseemedatfirstpuzzled;IbelievethatheneverregardedhistalkswithMissListoninotherthanabusinesspointofview,butdirectlyheunderstoodthatPamelaclaimedhim,andthatshewasprepared,incasehedidnotobeyhercall,toestablishagrievanceagainsthim,helostnotimeinmanifestinghisobedience。Awholedaypassedinwhich,tomycertainknowledge,hewasnotaloneamomentwithMissListon,anddidnot,saveatthefamilymeals,exchangeawordwithher。
AshewalkedoffwithPamela,MissListon’seyesfollowedhiminwistfullonging;shestoleawayupstairsanddidnotcomedowntillfiveo’clock。Then,findingmestrollingaboutwithacigarette,shejoinedme。
"Well,howgoesthebook?"Iasked。
"Ihaven’tdonemuchtoitjustlately,"sheanswered,inalowvoice。"I——it’s——Idon’tquiteknowwhattodowithit。"
"Ithoughtyou’dsettled?"
"SoIhad,but——oh,don’tlet’stalkaboutit,Mr。Wynne!"
Butamomentlatershewentontalkingaboutit。
"Idon’tknowwhyIshouldmakeitendhappily,"shesaid。"I’msurelifeisn’talwayshappy,isit?"
"Certainlynot,"Ianswered。"Youmeanyourmanmightsticktotheshallowgirlafterall?"
"Yes,"Ijustheardherwhisper。
"Andbemiserableafterward?"Ipursued。
"Idon’tknow,"saidMissListon。"Perhapshewouldn’t。"
"Thenyoumustmakehimshallowhimself。"
"Ican’tdothat,"shesaidquickly。"Oh,howdifficultitis!"
Shemayhavemeantmerelytheartofwriting——whenIcordiallyagreewith——butIthinkshemeantalsothewayoftheworld——
whichdoesnotmakemewithdrawmyassent。Ileftherwalkingupanddowninfrontofthedrawing—roomwindows,aratherforlornlittlefigure,thrownintodistinctnessbythecoldraysofthesettingsun。
Allwasnotoveryet。ThateveningChillingtonbrokeaway。Ledbyvanity,orinterest,orfriendliness,Iknownotwhich——tiredmaybeofpayingcourt(theattitudeinwhichPamelakepthim),andthinkingitwouldbepleasanttoplaytheotherpartforawhile——afterdinnerhewentstraighttoMissListon,talkedtoherwhilewehadcoffeeontheterrace,andthenwalkedaboutwithher。Pamelasatbyme;shewasverysilent;shedidnotappeartobeangry,butherhandsomemouthworearesoluteexpression。ChillingtonandMissListonwanderedonintotheshrubbery,anddidnotcomeintosightagainfornearlyhalfanhour。
"Ithinkit’scold,"saidPamela,inhercool,quiettones。"Andit’salso,Mr。Wynne,ratherslow。Ishallgotobed。"
IthoughtitalittleimpertinentofPamelatoattributethe"slowness"(whichhadundoubtedlyexisted)tome,soItookmyrevengebysayingwithanassumptionofinnocencepurposelyandobviouslyunreal:
"Oh,butwon’tyouwaitandbidMissListonandChillingtongoodnight?"
Pamelalookedatmeforamoment。Imadeboldtosmile。
Pamela’sfacebrokeslowlyintoanansweringsmile。
"Idon’tknowwhatyoumean,Mr。Wynne,"saidshe。
"No?"saidI。
"No,"saidPamela,andsheturnedaway。Butbeforeshewentshelookedoverhershoulder,andstillsmiling,said,"WishMissListongood—nightforme,Mr。Wynne。AnythingIhavetosaytoSirGilbertwillwaitverywelltillto—morrow。"
Shehadhardlygoneinwhenthewandererscameoutoftheshrubberyandrejoinedme。Chillingtonworehisusualpassivelook,butMissListon’sfacewashappyandradiant。Chillingtonpassedonintothedrawingroom。MissListonlingeredamomentbyme。
"Why,youlook,"saidI,"asifyou’dinventedthefinestsceneeverwritten。"
Shedidnotanswermedirectly,butstoodlookingupatthestars。Thenshesaid,inadreamytone:
"IthinkIshallsticktomyoldideainthebook。"
Asshespoke,Chillingtoncameout。EveninthedimlightIsawafrownonhisface。
"Isay,Wynne,"saidhe,"where’sMissMyles?"
"She’sgonetobed,"Ianswered。"Shetoldmetowishyougoodnightforher,MissListon。Nomessageforyou,Chillington。"
MissListon’seyeswereonhim。Hetooknonoticeofher;hestoodfrowningforaninstant,then,withsomemutteredejaculation,hestrodebackintothehouse。Weheardhisheavytreadacrossthedrawingroom;weheardthedoorslammedbehindhim,andIfoundmyselflookingonMissListon’salteredface。
"Whatdoeshewantherfor,Iwonder!"shesaid,inanagitationthatmademypresence,mythoughts,mysuspicions,nothingtoher。"Hesaidnothingtomeaboutwantingtospeaktoherto—
night。"Andshewalkedslowlyintothehouse,hereyesontheground,andallthelightgonefromherface,andthejoydeadinit。WhereuponI,leftalone,begantorailatthegodsthatadear,sillylittlesoullikeMissListonshouldbotherherpoor,sillylittleheadaboutahulkingfool;inwhichreflectionsI
did,ofcourse,immenseinjusticenotonlytoaneminentauthor,butalsotoaperfectlyhonorable,thoughsomewhatdenseanddecidedlyconceited,gentleman。
ThenextmorningSirGilbertChillingtonatedirt——thereisnootherwayofexpressingit——ingreatquantitiesandwithinfinitehumility。
MyadmirablefriendMissPamelawassevere。Isawhimwalksixyardsbehindherforthelengthoftheterrace:notalooknoraturnofherheadgavehimleavetojoinher。MissListonhadgoneupstairs,andIwatchedthescenefromthewindowofthesmokingroom。Atlast,attheendofthelongwalk,justwherethelaurel—bushesmarkthebeginningoftheshrubberies——onthethresholdofthesceneofhiscrime——Pamelaturnedroundsuddenlyandfacedtherepentantsinner。Themostinterestingthingsinlifearethosewhich,perhapsbytheinevitablenatureofthecase,onedoesnothear;andIdidnothearthescenewhichfollowed。Forawhiletheystoodtalking——rather,hetalkedandshelistened。Thensheturnedagainandwalkedslowlyintotheshrubbery。Chillingtonfollowed。Itwastheendofachapter,andIlaiddownthebook。
HowandfromwhomMissListonheardthenewswhichChillingtonhimselftoldme,withoutaglimmerofshameoratouchofembarrassment,sometwohourslater,Idonotknow;buthearitshedidbeforeluncheon;forshecamedown,readyarmedwiththeneatestlittlespeechesforboththehappylovers。
IdidnotexpectPamelatoshowanouncemorefeelingthanthestrictestcanonsofproprietydemanded,andshefulfilledmyexpectationstotheletter;butIhadhoped,Iconfess,thatChillingtonwouldhavedisplayedsomelittleconsciousness。Hedidnot;anditismybeliefthat,throughouttheeventswhichI
haverecorded,heretained,andthathestillretains,theconvictionthatMissListon’sinterestinhimwaspurelyliteraryandartistic,andthatshedevotedherselftohissocietysimplybecauseheofferedaninterestingproblemandaninspiringtheme。
Aningeniouscharitymayfindinthatattitudeevidenceofmodesty;tomythinking,itarguesamoresubtleandmagnificentconceitthanifhehadfathomedthetruth,asmanyhumblermeninhisplacewouldhavedone。
OnthedayaftertheengagementwasaccomplishedMissListonleftustoreturntoLondon。Shecameoutinherhatandjacketandsatdownbyme;thecarriagewastoberoundintenminutes。
Sheputonherglovesslowlyandbuttonedthemcarefully。Thisdone,shesaid:
"Bytheway,Mr。Wynne,I’veadoptedyoursuggestion。Themandoesn’tfindout。"
"Thenyou’vemadehimafool?"Iaskedbluntly。
"No,"sheanswered。"I——Ithinkitmighthappenthoughhewasn’tafool。"
Shesatwithherhandsinherlapforamomentortwo,thenshewenton,inalowervoice:
"I’mgoingtomakehimfindoutafterward。"
Ifeltherglanceonme,butIlookedstraightinfrontofme。
"What,afterhe’smarriedtheshallowgirl?"
"Yes,"saidMissListon。
"Rathertoolate,isn’tit?Atleast,ifyoumeanthereistobeahappyending。"
MissListonenlacedherfingers。
"Ihaven’tdecidedabouttheendingyet,"saidshe。
"Ifyou’reintenttobetragical——whichisthefashion——you’lldoasyoustand,"saidI。
"Yes,"sheansweredslowly,"ifI’mtragical,IshalldoasI
stand。"
Therewasanotherpause,andratheralongone;thewheelsofthecarriagewereaudibleonthegravelofthefrontdrive。MissListonstoodup。Iroseandheldoutmyhand。
"Ofcourse,"saidMissListon,stillintentonhernovel,"I
could————"Shestoppedagain,andlookedapprehensivelyatme。
Myface,Ibelieve,expressednothingmorethanpoliteattentionandfriendlyinterest。
"Ofcourse,"shebeganagain,"theshallowgirl——hiswife——
might——mightdie,Mr。Wynne。"
"Innovels,"saidIwithasmile,"whilethere’sdeath,there’shope。"
"Yes,innovels,"sheanswered,givingmeherhand。
Thepoorlittlewomanwasveryunhappy。Unwisely,Idaresay,I
pressedherhand。Itwasenough,thetearsleapedtohereyes;shegavemygreatfistahurriedsqueeze——Ihaveseldombeenmoretouchedbyanythanks,howeverwarmoreloquent——andhurriedaway。
V。
’TWIXTWILLANDWILLNOT。
Imustconfessatoncethatatfirst,atleast,Iverymuchadmiredthecurate。Iamnotreferringtomyadmirationofhisfinefigure——sixfeethighandstraightasanarrow——norofhishandsome,open,ingenuouscountenance,orhiscandidblueeye,orhisthickcurlyhair。No;whatwonmyheartfromanearlyperiodofmyvisittomycousins,thePoltons,ofPoltonsPark,wasthefervent,undisguised,unashamed,confident,andaltogethermatter—of—coursemannerinwhichhemadelovetoMissBeatriceQueenborough,onlydaughterandheiressofthewealthyshipowner,SirWagstaffQueenborough,Bart。,andEleanor,hiswife。Itwaspurelythemannerofthecurate’sadvancesthattookmyfancy;inthemerefactofthemtherewasnothingremarkable。Forallthemeninthehouse(andagoodmanyoutside)madecovert,stealthy,andindirectstepsinthesamedirection;forTrix(asherfriendscalledher)was,ifnotwise,atleastprettyandwitty,displayingtothematerialeyeacharmingfigure,andtothementaladelicateheartlessness——bothattributeswhichchallengeaself—respectingman’sbestefforts。
Butthencamethefatalobstacle。Fromheiressesinreasonagentlemanneedneithershrinknorlethimselfbedriven;butwhenitcomestosomethingliketwentythousandayear——thereportedamountofTrix’sdot——hedistrustshisownmotivesalmostasmuchasthelady’srelativesdistrustthemforhim。Weallfeltthis——Stanton,Rippleby,andI;and,althoughIwillnotswearthatwespokenotenderwordsandgavenomeaningglances,yetwereducedsuchconcessionstonaturalweaknesstoaminimum,notonlywhenLadyQueenboroughwasby,butatalltimes。Tosaytruth,wehadnodesiretoseeourscalpsaffixedtoMissTrix’sprettybelt,nortohaveourheartsbroken(likethatoftheyoungmaninthepoem)beforeshewenttoHomburgintheautumn。
Withthecurateitwasotherwise。He——JackIves,bytheway,washisname——appearedtorush,notonlyuponhisfate,butinthefaceofallpossibilityandofLadyQueenborough。Mycousinandhostess,DoraPolton,wasverymuchdistressedabouthim。Shesaidthathewassuchaniceyoungfellow,andthatitwasagreatpitytoseehimpreparingsuchunhappinessforhimself。
Nay,IhappentoknowthatshespokeveryseriouslytoTrix,pointingoutthewickednessoftriflingwithhim;whereuponTrix,whomaintainedabowingacquaintancewithherconscience,avoidedhimforawholeafternoonandendangeredallAlgyStanton’sprudentresolutionsbytakinghimoutintheCanadiancanoe。
Thisdemonstrationinnowayperturbedthecurate。Heobservedthat,astherewasnothingbettertodo,wemightaswellplaybilliards,andproceededtodefeatmeinthreegamesofahundredup(no,itisquiteimmaterialwhetherweplayedforanythingornot),afterwhichhetoldDorathatthevicarwastakingtheeveningservice——ithappenedtobethedaywhentherewasoneattheparishchurch——apieceofinformationonlyrelevantinsofarasitsuggestedthatMr。Ivescouldacceptaninvitationtodinnerifonewereprofferedhim。Dora,veryweakly,rosetothebait。JackIves,airilyremarkingthattherewasnouseinceremonyamongfriends,seizedtheplacenexttoTrixatdinner(hermotherwasjustopposite)andwalkedontheterraceafterdinnerwithherinthemoonlight。Whentheladiesretiredhecameintothesmokingroom,drankawhiskyandsoda,saidthatMissQueenboroughwasreallyaverycharmingcompanion,andapologizedforleavingusearly,onthegroundthathissermonwasstillunwritten。Mygoodcousin,thesquire,suggestedrathergrimlythatadiscourseonthevanityofhumanwishesmightbeappropriate。
"Ishallpreach,"saidMr。Ivesthoughtfully,"ontheopportunitiesofwealth。"
Thisresolutionhecarriedoutonthenextdaybutone,thatbeingaSunday。IhadthepleasureofsittingnexttoMissTrix,andIwatchedherwithsomeinterestasMr。Ivesdevelopedhistheme。Iwillnottrytoreproducethesermon,whichwouldhaveseemedbynomeansabadonehadanyofourpartybeenabletoignorethepersonalapplicationwhichwereadintoit;foritsmainburdenwasnootherthanthis——thatwealthshouldbeusedbythosewhowerefortunateenoughtopossessit(hereTrixlookeddownandfidgetedwithherPrayer—book)asameansofpromotinggreaterunionbetweenthemselvesandthelessrichlyendowed,andnot——as,alas!hadtoooftenbeenthecase——asthoughitwereanewbarriersetupbetweenthemandtheirfellow—creatures(hereMissTrixblushedslightly,andhadrecoursetohersmelling—bottle)。"You,"saidthecurate,waxingrhetoricalasheaddressedanimaginary,butbloated,capitalist,"havenomorerighttoyourmoneythanIhave。Itisintrustedtoyoutobesharedwithme。"AtthispointIheardLadyQueenboroughsniffandAlgyStantonsnigger。IstoleaglanceatTrixanddetectedaslightwaverintheadmirablelinesofhermouth。
"Averygoodsermon,didn’tyouthink?"Isaidtoher,aswewalkedhome。
"Oh,very!"shereplieddemurely。
"Ah,ifwefollowedallweheardinchurch!"Isighed。
MissTrixwalkedinsilenceforafewyards。Bydintofneverbecominganythingelse,wehadbecomeverygoodfriends;andpresentlysheremarked,quiteconfidentially:
"He’sverysilly,isn’the?"
"Thenyououghttosnubhim,"Isaidseverely。
"SoIdo——sometimes。He’sratheramusing,though。"
"Ofcourse,ifyou’repreparedtomakethesacrificeinvolved————"
"Oh,whatnonsense!"
"Thenyou’venobusinesstoamuseyourselfwithhim。"
"Dear,dear!howmoralyouare!"saidTrix。
Thenextdevelopmentinthesituationwasthis:MycousinDorareceivedaletterfromtheMarquisofNewhaven,withwhomshewasacquainted,prayinghertoallowhimtorundowntoPoltonsforafewdays;heremindedherthatshehadoncegivenhimageneralinvitation;ifitwouldnotbeinconvenient——andsoforth。Themeaningofthiscommunicationdidnot,ofcourse,escapemycousin,whohadwitnessedthewriter’sattentionstoTrixintheprecedingseason,nordiditescapetherestofus(whohadtalkedoverthesaidattentionsattheclub)whenshetoldusaboutit,andannouncedthatLordNewhavenwouldarriveinthemiddleofthenextday。Trixaffecteddenseunconsciousness;hermotherallowedherselfamysterioussmile——which,however,speedilyvanishedwhenthecurate(hewastakinglunchwithus)
observedinacheerfultone:
"Newhaven!Oh,IrememberthechapattheHouse——plowedtwiceinSmalls——stumpyfellow,isn’the?Notabadchap,though,youknow,barringhislooks。I’mgladhe’scoming。"
"Youwon’tbesoon,youngman,"LadyQueenborough’sangryeyeseemedtosay。
"Irememberhim,"pursuedJack;"awfullysmittenwithatobacconist’sdaughterintheCorn——oh,it’sallRIGHT,LadyQueenborough——shewouldn’tlookathim。"
ThisquasiapologywascalledforthbythefactofLadyQueenboroughpushingbackherchairandmakingforthedoor。Itdidnotatallappeasehertohearofthescornofthetobacconist’sdaughter。SheglancedsternlyatJackanddisappeared。HeturnedtoTrixandremindedher——withoutdiffidenceandcorampopulo,ashishabitwas——thatshehadpromisedhimastrollinthewestwood。
WhathappenedonthatstrollIdonotknow;butmeetingMissTrixonthestairslaterintheafternoon,Iventuredtoremark:
"Ihopeyoubrokeittohimgently,MissQueenborough?"
"Idon’tknowwhatyoumean,"repliedTrixhaughtily。
"Youwereoutnearlytwohours,"saidI。
"Werewe?"askedTrix,withastart。"Goodgracious!Wherewasmamma,Mr。Wynne?"
"Onthelawn——watchinhand。"
MissTrixwentslowlyupstairs,andthereisnottheleastdoubtthatsomethingseriouspassedbetweenherandhermother,forbothofthemwereinthemostatrociousofhumorsthatevening。
Fortunately,thecuratewasnotthere;hehadaBibleclass。
ThenextdayLordNewhavenarrived。IfoundhimonthelawnwhenIstrolledup,afteraspellofletter—writing,aboutfouro’clock。Lawntenniswastheorderoftheday,andwewereallinflannels。
"Oh,here’sMark!"criedDora,seeingme。"Now,Mark,youandMr。IveshadbetterplayagainstTrixandLordNewhaven。That’llmakeaverygoodset。"
"No,no,Mrs。Polton,"saidJackIves。"Theywouldn’thaveachance。Lookhere,I’llplaywithMissQueenboroughagainstLordNewhavenandWynne。"
Newhaven——whoseappearance,bytheway,thoughhardlydistinguished,wasnotquitesounornamentalasthecuratehadledustoexpect——lookedslightlydispleased,butJackgavehimnotimeforremonstrance。HewhiskedTrixoffandbegantoserveallinamoment。IhadavisionofLadyQueenboroughapproachingfromthehousewithfaceaghast。Thesetwenton;and,owingentirelytoNewhaven’sabsurdchivalryinsendingalltheballstoJackIvesinsteadoffollowingthewell—knownmaximto"poundawayatthelady,"theybeatus。Jackwipedhisbrow,strolleduptotheteatablewithTrix,andremarkedinexultanttones:
"Wemakeaperfectcouple,MissQueenborough;weoughtnevertobeseparated。"
Doradidnotaskthecuratetodinnerthatnight,buthedroppedinaboutnineo’clocktoaskheropinionastothehymnsonSunday;andfindingMissTrixandNewhaveninthesmalldrawingroom,hesatdownandtalkedtothem。ThiswastoomuchforTrix;shehadtreatedhimverykindlyandhadallowedhimtoamuseher;butitwasimpossibletoputupwithpresumptionofthatkind。DifficultasitwastodiscourageMr。Ives,shedidit,andhewentawaywithadisconsolate,puzzledexpression。Atthelastmoment,however,Trixsofarrelentedastoexpressahopethathewascomingtotennisto—morrow,atwhichhebrightenedupalittle。Idonotwishtobeuncharitable——leastofalltoacharmingyounglady———butmyopinionisthatMissTrixdidnotwishtosetthecuratealtogetheradrift。I
think,however,thatLadyQueenboroughmusthavespokenagain,forwhenJackdidcometotennis,Trixtreatedhimwithmostfreezingcivilityandahardlydisguiseddisdain,anddevotedherselftoLordNewhavenwithasmuchassiduityashermothercouldwish。Wemen,overourpipes,expressedtheopinionthatJackIves’littlehourofsunshinewaspast,andthatnothingwaslefttousbuttolookonattheprosperous,uneventfulcourseofLordNewhaven’swooing。Trixhadhadherfun(soAlgyStantonbluntlyphrasedit)andwouldnowsettledowntobusiness。
"Ibelieve,though,"headded,"thatshelikesthecurateabit,youknow。"
Duringthewholeofthenextday——Wednesday——JackIveskeptaway;
hehad,apparently,acceptedtheinevitable,andwashealinghiswoundedheartbyastrictattentiontohisparochialduties。
Newhavenremarkedonhisabsencewithanairofrelief,andMissTrixtreateditasamatterofnoimportance;LadyQueenboroughwasallsmiles;andDoraPoltonrestrictedherselftoexclaiming,asIsatbyherattea,inalowtoneandaproposofnothinginparticular,"Oh,well——poorMr。Ives!"
ButonThursdaythereoccurredanevent,thesignificanceofwhichpassedatthemomentunperceived,butwhichhad,infact,mostimportantresults。ThiswasnootherthanthearrivaloflittleMrs。Wentworth,anintimatefriendofDora’s。Mrs。
Wentworthhadbeenleftawidowearlyinlife;shepossessedacomfortablecompetence;shewasnothandsome,butshewasvivacious,amusing,and,aboveall,sympathetic。ShesympathizedatoncewithLadyQueenboroughinhermaternalanxieties,withTrixonhercharmingromance,withNewhavenonhissweetdevotedness,withtherestofusinourobviousdesolation——and,afteraconfidentialchatwithDora,shesympathizedmoststronglywithpoorMr。Ivesonhisunfortunateattachment。
Nothingwouldsatisfyher,soDoratoldme,excepttheopportunityofplyingMr。Iveswithhersoothingbalm;andDorawasabouttositdownandwritehimanote,whenhestrolledinthroughthedrawingroomwindow,andannouncedthathiscook’smotherwasill,andthatheshouldbeverymuchobligedifMrs。
Poltonwouldgivehimsomedinnerthatevening。TrixandNewhavenhappenedtoenterbythedooratthesamemoment,andJackdarteduptothem,andshookhandswiththegreatesteffusion。Hehadevidentlyburiedallunkindness——andwithit,wehoped,hismistakenfolly。Howeverthatmightbe,hemadenoefforttoengrossTrix,buttookhisseatmostdocilelybyhishostess——andshe,ofcourse,introducedhimtoMrs。Wentworth。
Hisbehaviorwas,infact,soexemplarythatevenLadyQueenboroughrelaxedherseverity,andcondescendedtocross—
examinehimonthemoralsandmannersoftheoldwomenoftheparish。"Oh,thevicarlooksafterthem,"saidJack;andheturnedtoMrs。Wentworthagain。
TherecanbenodoubtthatMrs。Wentworthhadaremarkablepowerofsympathy。Itookherintodinner,andshewasdeepinthesubjectofmy"nobleandinspiringart"beforethesoupwasoffthetable。Indeed,I’msurethatmylife’sambitionswouldhavebeenanopenbooktoherbythetimethatthejointarrived,hadnotJackIves,whowassittingonthelady’sotherside,cutintotheconversationjustasMrs。WentworthwascomparingmyearlystruggleswiththoseofMr。Carlyle。AfterthisinterventionofJack’sIhadnotachance。Iatemydinnerwithoutthesauceofsympathy,substitutingforitacertainamusementwhichI
derivedfromstudyingthefaceofMissTrixQueenborough,whowasplacedontheoppositesideofthetable。AndifTrixdidlooknowandagainatMrs。WentworthandJackIves,Icannotsaythatherconductwasunnatural。Totellthetruth,Jackwassoobviouslydelightedwithhisnewfriendthatitwasquitepleasant——and,asIsay,underthecircumstances,ratheramusing——towatchthem。WefeltthatthesquirewasjustifiedinhavingahitatJackwhenJacksaid,inthesmokingroom,thathefoundhimselfratheratalossforasubjectforhisnextsermon。
"Whatdoyousay,"suggestedmycousin,puffingathispipe,"totakingconstancyasyourtext?"
Jackconsideredtheideaforamoment,butthenheshookhishead。
"No。Ithink,"hesaidreflectively,"thatIshallpreachonthepowerofsympathy。"
Thatsermonaffordedme——Imustconfessit,attheriskofseemingfrivolous——verygreatentertainment。AgainIsecuredaplacebyMissTrix——onherleft,Newhavenbeingonherright,andherfacewasworthstudywhenJackIvesgaveusamosteloquentdescriptionofthewonderfulgiftinquestion。Itwas,hesaid,theessenceandthecrownoftruewomanliness,anditshoweditself——well,toputitquiteplainly,itshoweditself,accordingtoJackIves,inexactlythatsortofmannerandbearingwhichsohonorablyandgracefullydistinguishedMrs。
Wentworth。Theladywasnot,ofcourse,named,butshewasclearlyindicated。"Yourgift,yourpreciousgift,"criedthecurate,apostrophizingtheimpersonationofsympathy,"isgiventoyou,notforyourprofit,butformine。Itisyours,butitisatrusttobeusedforme。Itisyours,infact,tosharewithme。"Atthisclimax,whichmusthavestruckuponherearwithacertainfamiliarity,MissTrixQueenborough,notwithstandingtheplaceandoccasion,tossedherprettyheadandwhisperedtome,"Whathorridstuff!"
IntheensuingweekJackIveswasourconstantcompanion;thecontinuedillnessofhisservant’smotherlefthimstranded,andDora’skindheartatonceofferedhimthehospitalityofherroof。FormypartIwasglad,forthelittledramawhichnowbeganwasnotwithoutitsinterest。ItwasapleasantchangetoseeJackgeniallypolitetoTrixQueenborough,butquiteindifferenttoherpresenceorabsence,andcontenttoallowhertotakeNewhavenforherpartnerattennisasoftenasshepleased。Hehimselfwasoftenanabsenteefromourgames。Mrs。
Wentworthdidnotplay,andJackwouldsitunderthetreeswithher,ortakeheroutinthecanoe。WhatTrixthoughtIdidnotknow,butitisafactthatshetreatedpoorNewhavenlikedirtbeneathherfeet,andthatLadyQueenborough’sfacebegantoloseitstransientlypleasantexpression。Ihadavagueideathataretributionwasworkingitselfout,anddisposedmyselftoseetheprocesswithallthecomplacencyinducedbythespectacleofothersreceivingpunishmentfortheirsins。
Alittlescenewhichoccurredafterlunchonedaywassignificant。Iwassittingontheterrace,readybootedandbreeched,waitingformyhorsetobebroughtround。Trixcameoutandsatdownbyme。
"Where’sNewhaven?"Iasked。
"Oh,Idon’talwayswantLordNewhaven!"sheexclaimedpetulantly。"Isenthimoffforawalk——I’mgoingoutintheCanadiancanoewithMr。Ives。"
"Oh,youare,areyou?"saidI,smiling。AsIspoke,JackIvesranuptous。
"Isay,MissQueenborough,"hecried,"I’vejustgotyourmessagesayingyou’dletmetakeyouonthelake。"
"Isitagreatbore?"askedTrix,withaglance——aglancethatmeantmischief。
"Ishouldlikeitawfully,ofcourse,"saidJack;"butthefactisI’vepromisedtotakeMrs。Wentworth——beforeIgotyourmessage,youknow。"
Trixdrewherselfup。
"Ofcourse,ifMrs。Wentworth————"shebegan。
"I’mverysorry,"saidJack。
ThenMissQueenborough,forgetting——asIhope——orchoosingtodisregardmypresence,leanedforwardandasked,inhermostcoaxingtones:
"Don’tyoueverforgetapromise,Mr。Ives?"
Jacklookedather。Isupposeherdaintyprettinessstruckhimafresh,forhewaveredandhesitated。
"She’sgoneupstairs,"pursuedthetempter,"andweshallbesafeawaybeforeshecomesdownagain。"
Jackshuffledwithonefootonthegravel。
"Itellyouwhat,"hesaid;"I’llaskherifshemindsmetakingyouforalittlewhilebeforeI————"
Ibelievehereallythoughtthathehadhituponacompromisesatisfactorytoallparties。Ifso,hewasspeedilyundeceived。
Trixflushedredandansweredangrily:
"Praydon’ttrouble。Idon’twanttogo。"
"Perhapsafterwardyoumight,"suggestedthecurate,butnowrathertimidly。
"I’mgoingoutwithLordNewhaven,"saidshe。Andsheadded,inanaccessofuncontrollableannoyance。"Go,pleasego。I——I
don’twantyou。"
Jacksheeredoff,withalookofpuzzledshamefacedness。Hedisappearedintothehouse。NothingpassedbetweenMissTrixandmyself。AmomentlaterNewhavencameout。
"Why,MissQueenborough,"saidhe,inapparentsurprise,"IvesisgoingwithMrs。Wentworthinthecanoe!"
InaninstantIsawwhatshehaddone。InrashpresumptionshehadtoldNewhaventhatshewasgoingwiththecurate——andnowthecuratehadrefusedtotakeher——andIveshadmethiminsearchofMrs。Wentworth。Whatcouldshedo?Well,sherose——orfell——totheoccasion。Inthecoldestofvoicesshesaid;
"Ithoughtyou’dgoneforyourwalk。"
"Iwasjuststarting,"heansweredapologetically,"whenImetIves。But,asyouweren’tgoingwithhim————"Hepaused,aninquiringlookinhiseyes。Hewasevidentlyaskinghimselfwhyshehadnotgonewiththecurate。
"I’dratherbeleftalone,ifyoudon’tmind,"saidshe。Andthen,flushingredagain,sheadded。"IchangedmymindandrefusedtogowithMr。Ives。SohewentofftogetMrs。
Wentworthinstead。"
Istarted。Newhavenlookedatherforaninstant,andthenturnedonhisheel。Sheturnedtome,quickaslightning,andwithherfaceallaflame。
"Ifyoutell,I’llneverspeaktoyouagain,"shewhispered。
Afterthistherewassilenceforsomeminutes。
"Well?"shesaid,withoutlookingatme。
"Ihavenoremarktooffer,MissQueenborough,"Ireturned。
"Isupposethatwasalie,wasn’tit?"sheaskeddefiantly。
"It’snotmybusinesstosaywhatitwas,"wasmydiscreetanswer。
"Iknowwhatyou’rethinking。"
"Iwasthinking,"saidI,"whichIwouldratherbe——themanyouwillmarry,orthemanyouwouldlike————"
"Howdareyou!It’snottrue。OhMr。Wynne,indeedit’snottrue!"
WhetheritweretrueornotIdidnotknow。Butifithadbeen,MissTrixQueenboroughmighthavebeenexpectedtoactverymuchinthewayinwhichsheproceededtoact:thatistosay,tobeextravagantlyattentivetoLordNewhavenwhenJackIveswaspresent,andmarkedlyneglectfulofhiminthecurate’sabsence。
ItalsofittedinverywellwiththetheorywhichIhadventuredtohintthatherbearingtowardMrs。Wentworthwasdistinguishedbyastatelycivility,andherremarksaboutthatladybyasuperfluityoflaudation;forifthesebenottwodistinguishingmarksofrivalryinthewell—bred,Imustgobacktomyfavoritebooksandlearnfromthem——morefolly。AndifTrix’smannerswereallthattheyshouldbe,praisenolesshighmustbeaccordedtoMrs。Wentworth’s;sheattainedanaltitudeofadmirableunconsciousnessandconductedherflirtation(thepovertyoflanguageforcesmetotheword,butitisover—
flippant)withthecurateinastaid,quasi—maternalway。Shecalledhimadelightfulboy,andsaidthatshewasintenselyinterestedinallhisaimsandhopes。
"Whatdoesshewant?"IaskedDoradespairingly。"Shecan’twanttomarryhim。"IwasreferringtoTrixQueenborough,nottoMrs。
Wentworth。
"Goodgracious,no!"answeredDora,irritably。"It’ssimplejealousy。Shewon’tletthepoorboyalonetillhe’sinlovewithheragain。It’sahorribleshame!"
"Oh,well,hehasgreatrecuperativepower,"saidI。
"She’dbetterbecareful,though。It’saverydangerousgame。
HowdoyousupposeLordNewhavenlikesit?"
AccidentgavemethatverydayahinthowlittleLordNewhavenlikedit,andaglimpseoftheriskMissTrixwasrunning。
Enteringthelibrarysuddenly,IheardNewhaven’svoiceraisedabovehisordinarytones。
"Iwon’tstandit!"hewasdeclaring。"Ineverknowhowshe’lltreatmefromoneminutetothenext。"
Myentrance,ofcourse,stoppedtheconversationveryabruptly。Newhavenhadcometoastandinthemiddleoftheroom,andLadyQueenboroughsatonthesofa,aformidablefrownonherbrow。Withdrawingmyselfasrapidlyaspossible,IarguedtheprobabilityofaseverelectureforMissTrix,endinginacommandtotryhernoblesuitor’spatiencenolonger。Ihopeallthishappened,forI,notseeingwhyMrs。Wentworthshouldmonopolizethegraceofsympathy,tookthelibertyofextendingminetoNewhaven。HewascertainlyinlovewithTrix,notwithhermoney,andthetreatmentheunderwentmusthavebeenastryingtohisfeelingsasitwasgallingtohispride。
Mysympathywasnotpremature,forMissTrix’sfascinations,whichwereindubitablygreat,begantohavetheireffect。Thesceneaboutthecanoewasre—enacted,butwithadifferentdenouement。Thistimethepromisewasforgotten,andthewidowforsaken。ThenMrs。Wentworthputonherarmor。Wehad,infact,reachedthisveryabsurdsituation,thatthesetwoladieswerecontendingforthefavorsof,orthedominationover,suchanobscure,poverty—stricken,hopelesslyineligiblepersonasthecurateofPoltonsundoubtedlywas。Thepositionseemedtomethen,andstillseems,toindicatesomeremarkablequalitiesinthatyoungman。
AtlastNewhavenmadeamove。Atbreakfast,onWednesdaymorning,heannouncedthat,reluctantasheshouldbetoleavePoltonsPark,hewasdueathisaunt’splace,inKent,onSaturdayevening,andmust,therefore,makehisarrangementstoleavebynoononthatday。Thesignificancewasapparent。Hadhecomedowntobreakfastwith"NoworNever!"stampedinfierylettersacrosshisbrow,itwouldhavebeenmoreobtrusive,indeed,butnotawhitplainer。Wealllookeddownatourplates,exceptJackIves。Heflungoneglance(Isawitoutofthecornerofmylefteye)atNewhaven,anotheratTrix;thenheremarkedkindly:
"Weshallbeuncommonlysorrytoloseyou,Newhaven。"
Eventsbegantohappennow,andIwilltellthemaswellasIamable,supplementingmyownknowledgebywhatIlearnedafterwardfromDora——shehavinglearneditfromtheactorsinthescene。
InspiteofthesolemnwarningconveyedinNewhaven’sintimation,Trix,greatlydaring,wentoffimmediatelyafterlunchforwhatshedescribedas"alongramble"withMr。Ives。Therewas,indeed,theexcuseofanoldwomanattheendoftheramble,andTrixprovidedJackwithasmallbasketofcomfortsfortheusefuloldbody;buttheramblewas,wefelt,thething,andIwasmuchannoyedatnotbeingabletoaccompanythewalkersinthecloakofdarknessorotherinvisiblecontrivance。Therambleconsumedthreehours——fullmeasure。Indeed,itwashalf—pastsixbeforeTrix,alone,walkedupthedrive。Newhaven,asolitaryfigure,pacedupanddowntheterracefrontingthedrive。Trixcameon,herheadthrownbackandasteadysmileonherlips。ShesawNewhaven;hestoodlookingatherforamomentwithwhatsheafterwarddescribedasanindescribablesmileonhisface,butnot,asDoraunderstoodfromher,byanymeansapleasantone。
Yet,ifnotpleasant,thereisnottheleastdoubtintheworldthatitwashighlysignificant,forshecriedoutnervously:
"Whyareyoulookingatmelikethat?What’sthematter?"
Newhaven,stillsayingnothing,turnedhisbackonher,andmadeasifhewouldwalkintothehouseandleaveherthere,ignored,discarded,donewith。She,realizingthecrisiswhichhadcome,forgettingeverythingexcepttheimminentdangeroflosinghimonceforall,withouttimeforlongexplanationoranyround—
aboutseductions,ranforward,layingherhandonhisarmandblurtingout:
"ButI’verefusedhim。"
IdonotknowwhatNewhaventhinksnow,butIsometimesdoubtwhetherhewouldnothavebeenwisertoshakeoffthedetaininghand,andpursuehislonelyway,firstintothehouse,andultimatelytohisaunt’s。But(tosaynothingofthetwentythousandayear,which,afterall,andbeyouasromanticasyoumaypleasetobe,isnotathingtobesneezedat)Trix’sface,itsmingledeagernessandshame,itsflushedcheeksandshiningeyes,thepiquancyofitsunwontedhumility,overcamehim。Hestoppeddead。
"I——Iwasobligedtogivehiman——anopportunity,"saidMissTrix,havingthegracetostumblealittleinherspeech。"And——
andit’sallyourfault。"
Thewarwasthus,byhappyaudacity,carriedintoNewhaven’sownquarters。
"Myfault!"heexclaimed。"Myfaultthatyouwalkalldaywiththatcurate!"
ThenMissTrix——andletnoirrelevantconsiderationsmartheappreciationoffineacting——droppedhereyesandmurmuredsoftly:
"I——IwassoterriblyafraidofseemingtoexpectYOU。"
Wherewithshe(andnothe)ranawaylightlyupthestairs,turningjustoneglancedownwardasshereachedthelanding。
Newhavenwaslookingupfrombelowwithan"enchanted"smile——thewordisTrix’sown;Ishouldprobablyhaveusedadifferentone。
WasthenthecurateofPoltonsutterlydefeated——broughttohisknees,onlytobespurned?Itseemedso;andhecamedowntodinnerthatnightwithasubduedandmelancholyexpression。
Trix,ontheotherhand,wasbrilliantandtalkativetothelastdegree,andthegayetyspreadfromherallaroundthetable,leavinguntouchedonlytherejectedloverandMrs。Wentworth;forthelastnamedlady,truetoherdistinguishingquality,hadbeguntotalktopoorJackIvesinlow,soothingtones。
AfterdinnerTrixwasnotvisible;butthedoorofthelittleboudoirbeyondstoodhalf—open,andverysoonNewhavenedgedhiswaythrough。AlmostatthesamemomentJackIvesandMrs。
Wentworthpassedoutofthewindowandbegantowalkupanddownthegravel。Nobodybutmyselfappearedtonoticetheseremarkableoccurrences,butIwatchedthemwithkeeninterest。
Halfanhourpassed,andthentheresmoteonmywatchfulearthesoundofalowlaughfromtheboudoir。Itwasfollowedalmostimmediatelybyastrangersoundfromthegravelwalk。Then,allinamoment,twothingshappened。Theboudoirdooropened,andTrix,followedbyNewhaven,camein,smiling;fromthewindowenteredJackIvesandMrs。Wentworth。Myeyeswereonthecurate。Hegaveonesudden,comprehendingglancetowardtheothercouple;thenhetookthewidow’shand,ledheruptoDora,andsaid,inlowyetpenetratingtones。
"Willyouwishusjoy,Mrs。Polton?"
Thesquire,Rippleby,andAlgyStantonwereroundtheminaninstant。Ikeptmyplace,watchingnowthefaceofTrixQueenborough。Sheturnedfirstflamingred,thenverypale。I
sawherturntoNewhavenandspeakoneortwourgent,imperativewordstohim。Then,drawingherselfuptoherfullheight,shecrossedtheroomtowherethegroupwasassembledroundMrs。
WentworthandJackIves。
"What’sthematter?Whatareyousaying?"sheasked。
Mrs。Wentworth’seyesweremodestlycastdown,butasmileplayedroundhermouth。Noonespokeforamoment。ThenJackIvessaid:
"Mrs。Wentworthhaspromisedtobemywife,MissQueenborough。"
Foramoment,hardlyperceptible,Trixhesitated;then,withthemostwinning,touching,sweetestsmileintheworld,shesaid:
"Soyoutookmyadvice,andourafternoonwalkwasnotwasted,afterall?"
Mrs。Poltonisnotusedtothesefineflightsofdiplomacy;shehadheardbeforedinnersomethingofwhathadactuallyhappenedintheafternoon;andthesimplewomanpositivelyjumped。JackIvesmetTrix’sscornfuleyesfullandsquare。
"Notatallwasted,"saidhe,withasmile。"Notonlyhasitshownmewheremytruehappinesslies,butithasalsogivenmeajusterideaofthevalueandsincerityofyourregardforme,MissQueenborough。"
"Itisasreal,Mr。Ives,asitissincere,"saidshe。
"Itislikeyourself,MissQueenborough,"saidhe,withalittlebow;andheturnedfromherandbegantotalktohisfiancee。
TrixQueenboroughmovedslowlytowardwhereIsat。Newhavenwaswatchingherfromwherehestoodaloneontheothersideoftheroom。
"Andhaveyounonewsforus?"Iaskedinlowtones。
"Thankyou,"shesaidhaughtily;"Idon’tcarethatmineshouldbeapendenttothegreattidingsaboutthelittlewidowandcurate。"
Afteramoment’spauseshewenton:
"Helostnotime,didhe?Hewaswisetosecureherbeforewhathappenedthisafternooncouldleakout。Nobodycantellhernow。"
"Thisafternoon?"
"Heaskedmetomarryhimthisafternoon。"
"Andyourefused?"
"Yes。"
"Well,hisbehaviorisinoutrageouslybadtaste,but————"
Shelaidahandonmyarm,andsaidincalm,leveltones。
"IrefusedhimbecauseIdarednothavehim;butItoldhimI
caredforhim,andhesaidhelovedme。AndIlethimkissme。
Good—night,Mr。Wynne。"
Isatstillandsilent。Newhavencameacrosstous。Trixputupherhandandcaughthimbythesleeve。
"Fred,"shesaid,"mydear,honestoldFred;youloveme,don’tyou?"
Newhaven,muchembarrassedandsurprised,lookedatmeinalarm。
Butherhandwasinhisnow,andhereyesimploringhim。
"IshouldratherthinkIdid,mydear,"saidhe。
IreallyhopethatLordandLadyNewhavenwillnotbeveryunhappy,whileMrs。Ivesquiteworshipsherhusband,andisconvincedthatsheeclipsedthebrilliantandwealthyMissQueenborough。
Perhapsshedid——perhapsnot。
Thereare,asIhavesaid,greatqualitiesinthecurateofPoltons,butIhavenotquitemadeupmymindpreciselywhattheyare。Iought,however,tosaythatDoratakesamorefavorableviewofhimandalesslenientviewofTrixthanI。
Thatisperhapsnatural。Besides,Doradoesnotknowtheprecisemannerinwhichthecuratewasrefused。Bytheway,hepreachednextSundayonthetext,"Thechildrenofthisworldarewiserintheirgenerationthanthechildrenoflight。"
VI。
WHICHSHALLITBE?
Itwasacharminglymildandbalmyday。Thesunshonebeyondtheorchard,andtheshadewascoolinside。Alightbreezestirredtheboughsoftheoldappletreeunderwhichthephilosophersat。
Noneofthesethingsdidthephilosophernotice,unlessitmightbewhenthewindblewabouttheleavesofthelargevolumeonhisknees,andhehadtofindhisplaceagain。Thenhewouldexclaimagainstthewind,shuffletheleavestillhegottherightpage,andsettletohisreading。Thebookwasatreatiseonontology;
itwaswrittenbyanotherphilosopher,afriendofthisphilosopher’s;itbristledwithfallacies,andthisphilosopherwasdiscoveringthemall,andnotingthemontheflyleafattheend。Hewasnotgoingtoreviewthebook(assomemighthavethoughtfromhisbehavior),oreventoansweritinaworkofhisown。Itwasjustthathefoundapleasureinstrippinganypoorfallacynakedandcrucifyingit。
Presentlyagirlinawhitefrockcameintotheorchard。Shepickedupanapple,bitit,andfounditripe。Holdingitinherhandshewalkeduptowherethephilosophersat,andlookedathim。Hedidnotstir。Shetookabiteoutoftheapple,munchedit,andswallowedit。Thephilosophercrucifiedafallacyontheflyleaf。Thegirlflungtheappleaway。
"Mr。Jerningham,"saidshe,"areyouverybusy?"
Thephilosopher,pencilinhand,lookedup。
"No,MissMay,"saidhe,"notvery。"
"BecauseIwantyouropinion。"
"Inonemoment,"saidthephilosopherapologetically。
Heturnedbacktotheflyleafandbegantonailthelastfallacyalittletightertothecross。Thegirlregardedhim,firstwithamusedimpatience,thenwithavexedfrown,finallywithawistfulregret。Hewassoveryoldforhisage,shethought;hecouldnotbemuchbeyondthirty;hishairwasthickandfullofwaves,hiseyesbrightandclear,hiscomplexionnotyetdivestedofallyouth’srelics。
"Now,MissMay,Iamatyourservice,"saidthephilosopher,withalingeringlookathisimpaledfallacy。Andheclosedthebook,keepingit,however,onhisknee。
Thegirlsatdownjustoppositetohim。
"It’saveryimportantthingIwanttoaskyou,"shebegan,tuggingatatuftofgrass,"andit’svery——difficult,andyoumustn’ttellanyoneIaskedyou;atleast,I’dratheryoudidn’t。"
"Ishallnotspeakofit;indeed,Ishallprobablynotrememberit,"saidthephilosopher。
"Andyoumustn’tlookatme,please,whileI’maskingyou。"
"Idon’tthinkIwaslookingatyou,butifIwasIbegyourpardon,"saidthephilosopherapologetically。
Shepulledthetuftofgrassrightoutofthegroundandflungitfromherwithallherforce。
"Supposeaman————"shebegan。"No,that’snotright。"
"Youcantakeanyhypothesisyouplease,"observedthephilosopher,"butyoumustverifyitafterward,ofcourse。"
"Oh,doletmegoon。Supposeagirl,Mr。Jerningham——Iwishyouwouldn’tnod。"
"ItwasonlytoshowthatIfollowedyou。"
"Oh,ofcourseyou`followme,’asyoucallit。Supposeagirlhadtwolovers——you’renoddingagain——or,Ioughttosay,supposethereweretwomenwhomightbeinlovewithagirl。"
"Onlytwo?"askedthephilosopher。"Yousee,anynumberofmenMIGHTbeinlovewith————"
"Oh,wecanleavetherestout,"saidMissMay,withasuddendimple;"theydon’tmatter。"
"Verywell,"saidthephilosopher。"Iftheyareirrelevant,wewillputthemaside。"
"Suppose,then,thatoneofthesemenwas——oh,AWFULLYinlovewiththegirl——and——andproposed,youknow————"
"Amoment!"saidthephilosopher,openinganotebook。"Letmetakedownhisproposition。Whatwasit?"
"Why,proposedtoher——askedhertomarryhim,"saidthegirl,withastare。
"Dearme!Howstupidofme!Iforgotthatspecialuseoftheword。Yes?"
"Thegirllikeshimprettywell,andherpeopleapproveofhimandallthat,youknow。"
"Thatsimplifiestheproblem,"saidthephilosopher,noddingagain。
"Butshe’snotin——inlovewithhim,youknow。Shedoesn’tREALLYcareforhim——MUCH。Doyouunderstand?"
"Perfectly。Itisamostnaturalstateofmind。"
"Well,then,supposethatthere’sanotherman——whatareyouwriting?"
"Ionlyputdown(B。)——likethat,"pleadedthephilosopher,meeklyexhibitinghisnotebook。
Shelookedathiminasortofhelplessexasperation,withjustasmilesomewhereinthebackgroundofit。
"Oh,youreallyare————"sheexclaimed。"Butletmegoon。Theothermanisafriendofthegirl’s;he’sveryclever——oh,fearfullyclever;andhe’sratherhandsome。Youneedn’tputthatdown。"
"Itiscertainlynotverymaterial,"admittedthephilosopher,andhecrossedout"handsome。""Clever"heleft。
"Andthegirlismostawfully——sheadmireshimtremendously;shethinkshimjustthegreatestmanthateverlived,youknow。Andshe——she————"Thegirlpaused。
"I’mfollowing,"saidthephilosopher,withpencilpoised。
"She’dthinkitbetterthanthewholeworldif——ifshecouldbeanythingtohim,youknow。"
"Youmeanbecomehiswife?"
"Well,ofcourseIdo——atleastsupposeIdo。"
"Youspokerathervaguely,youknow。"
Thegirlcastoneglanceatthephilosopherasshereplied:
"Well,yes。Ididmean,becomehiswife。"
"Yes。Well?"
"But,"continuedthegirl,startingonanothertuftofgrass,"hedoesn’tthinkmuchaboutthosethings。Helikesher。Ithinkhelikesher————"
"Well,doesn’tdislikeher?"suggestedthephilosopher。"Shallwecallhimindifferent?"
"Idon’tknow。Yes,ratherindifferent。Idon’tthinkhethinksaboutit,youknow。Butshe——she’spretty。Youneedn’tputthatdown。"
"Iwasnotabouttodoso,"observedthephilosopher。
"Shethinkslifewithhimwouldbejustheaven;and——andshethinksshewouldmakehimawfullyhappy。Shewould——wouldbesoproudofhim,yousee。"
"Isee。Yes!"
"And——Idon’tknowhowtoputit,quite——shethinksthat,ifheeverthoughtaboutitall,hemightcareforher;becausehedoesn’tcareforanybodyelse;andshe’spretty————"
"Yousaidthatbefore。"
"Oh,dear!IdaresayIdid。Andmostmencareforsomebody,don’tthey?Somegirl,Imean。"
"Mostmen,nodoubt,"concededthephilosopher。
"Well,then,whatoughtshetodo?It’snotarealthing,youknow,Mr。Jerningham。It’sin——inanovelIwasreading。"Shesaidthishastily,andblushedasshespoke。
"Dearme!Andit’squiteaninterestingcase!Yes,Isee。Thequestionis,Willsheactmostwiselyinacceptingtheofferofthemanwholovesherexceedingly,butforwhomsheentertainsonlyamoderateaffection————"
"Yes。Justaliking。He’sjustafriend。"
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