Coulditbesomethingofthatnature?Apart,however,fromtheutterimprobabilitythathewouldoffertotalkofiteventohisfutureuncle—
in—law,IhadastrangefeelingthatFalk’sphysiqueunfittedhimforthatsortofdelinquency。AsthepersonofHermann’snieceexhaledtheprofoundphysicalcharmoffeminineform,soherador—
er’sbigframeembodiedtomysensesthehard,straightmasculinitythatwouldconceivablykillbutwouldnotcondescendtocheat。Thethingwasobvious。Imightjustaswellhavesuspectedthegirlofacurvatureofthespine。AndIper—
ceivedthatthesunwasabouttoset。
ThesmokeofFalk’stughoveinsight,farawayatthemouthoftheriver。Itwastimeformetoassumethecharacterofanambassador,andthenegotiationwouldnotbedifficultexceptinthematterofkeepingmycountenance。Itwasalltooextravagantlynonsensical,andIconceivedthatitwouldbebesttocomposeformyselfagravede—
meanour。IpractisedthisinmyboatasIwentalong,butthebashfulnessthatcamesecretlyuponmethemomentIsteppedonthedeckoftheDianaisinexplicable。AssoonaswehadexchangedgreetingsHermannaskedmeeagerlyifIknewwhetherFalkhadfoundhiswhiteparasol。
"He’sgoingtobringittoyouhimselfdirectly,"
Isaidwithgreatsolemnity。"MeantimeIamchargedwithanimportantmessageforwhichhebegsyourfavourableconsideration。Heisinlovewithyourniece……"
"AchSo!"hehissedwithananimositythatmademyassumedgravitychangeintothemostgenuineconcern。Whatmeantthistone?AndI
hurriedon。
"Hewishes,withyourconsentofcourse,toaskhertomarryhimatonce——beforeyouleavehere,thatis。HewouldspeaktotheConsul。"
Hermannsatdownandsmokedviolently。Fiveminutespassedinthatfuriousmeditation,andthen,takingthelongpipeoutofhismouth,heburstintoahotdiatribeagainstFalk——againsthiscupidity,hisstupidity(afellowthatcanhardlybegottosay"yes"or"no"tothesimplestques—
tion)——againsthisoutrageoustreatmentoftheshippinginport(becausehesawtheywereathismercy)——andagainsthismannerofwalking,whichtohis(Hermann’s)mindshowedaconceitpositivelyunbearable。ThedamagetotheoldDianawasnotforgotten,ofcourse,andtherewasnothingofanynaturesaidordonebyFalk(eventothelastofferofrefreshmentinthehotel)thatdidnotseemtohavebeenacauseofoffence。
"Hadthecheek"todraghim(Hermann)intothatcoffee—room;asthoughadrinkfromhimcouldmakeupforforty—sevendollarsandfiftycentsofdamageinthecostofwoodalone——notcountingtwodays’workforthecarpenter。Ofcoursehewouldnotstandinthegirl’sway。HewasgoinghometoGermany。TherewereplentyofpoorgirlswalkingaboutinGermany。
"He’sverymuchinlove,"wasallIfoundtosay。
"Yes,"hecried。"Anditistimetooaftermak—
inghimselfandmetalkedaboutashorethelastvoyageIwashere,andthennowagain;comingonboardeveryeveningunsettlingthegirl’smind,andsayingnothing。Whatsortofconductisthat?"
Theseventhousanddollarsthefellowwasalwaystalkingaboutdidnot,inhisopinion,justifysuchbehaviour。Moreover,nobodyhadseenthem。He(Hermann)seriouslydoubtediftherewereseventhousandcents,andthetug,nodoubt,wasmort—
gageduptothetopofthefunneltothefirmofSiegers。Butletthatpass。Hewouldn’tstandinthegirl’sway。Herheadwassoturnedthatshehadbecomenogoodtothemoflate。Quiteunableeventoputthechildrentobedwithoutheraunt。
Itwasbadforthechildren;theygotunruly;andyesterdayheactuallyhadtogiveGustavathrash—
ing。
Forthat,too,Falkwasmaderesponsibleap—
parently。AndlookingatmyHermann’sheavy,puffy,good—naturedface,Iknewhewouldnotex—
erthimselftillgreatlyexasperated,and,therefore,wouldthrashveryhard,andbeingfatwouldresentthenecessity。HowFalkhadmanagedtoturnthegirl’sheadwasmoredifficulttounderstand。Isup—
posedHermannwouldknow。Andthenhadn’ttherebeenMissVanlo?Itcouldnotbehissilverytongue,orthesubtleseductionofhismanner;hehadnomoreofwhatiscalled"manner"thanananimal——which,however,ontheotherhand,isnever,andcanneverbecalledvulgar。Thereforeitmusthavebeenhisbodilyappearance,exhibitingavirilityofnatureasexaggeratedashisbeard,andresemblingasortofconstantruthlessness。Itwasseenintheverymannerhelolledinthechair。Hemeantnooffence,buthisintercoursewascharac—
terisedbythatsortoffrankdisregardofsuscepti—
bilitiesamanofsevenfootsix,livinginaworldofdwarfs,wouldnaturallyassume,withoutintheleastwishingtobeunkind。Butamongstmenofhisownstature,ornearly,thisfrankuseofhisad—
vantages,insuchmattersastheawfultowagebillsforinstance,causedmuchimpotentgnashingofteeth。Whenattentivelyconsidereditseemedap—
pallingattimes。Hewasastrangebeast。Butmaybewomenlikedit。Seeninthatlighthewaswellworthtaming,andIsupposeeverywomanatthebottomofherheartconsidersherselfasatamerofstrangebeasts。ButHermannarosewithpre—
cipitationtocarrythenewstohiswife。Ihadbarelythetime,ashemadeforthecabindoor,tograbhimbytheseatofhisinexpressibles。I
beggedhimtowaittillFalkinpersonhadspokenwithhim。Thereremainedsomesmallmattertotalkover,asIunderstood。
Hesatdownagainatonce,fullofsuspicion。
"Whatmatter?"hesaidsurlily。"Ihavehadenoughofhisnonsense。There’snomatteratall,asheknowsverywell;thegirlhasnothingintheworld。Shecametousinonethindresswhenmybrotherdied,andIhaveagrowingfamily。"
"Itcan’tbeanythingofthatkind,"Iopined。
"He’sdesperatelyenamouredofyourniece。I
don’tknowwhyhedidnotsaysobefore。Uponmyword,Ibelieveitisbecausehewasafraidtolose,perhaps,thefelicityofsittingnearheronyourquarterdeck。"
Iintimatedmyconvictionthathislovewassogreatastobeinasensecowardly。Theeffectsofagreatpassionareunaccountable。Ithasbeenknowntomakeamantimid。ButHermannlookedatmeasifIhadfoolishlyraved;andthetwilightwasdyingoutrapidly。
"Youdon’tbelieveinpassion,doyou,Her—
mann?"Isaidcheerily。"Thepassionoffearwillmakeacorneredratcourageous。Falk’sinacor—
ner。Hewilltakeheroffyourhandsinonethinfrockjustasshecametoyou。Andaftertenyears’
serviceitisn’tabadbargain,"Iadded。
Farfromtakingoffence,heresumedhisairofcivicvirtue。Thesuddennightcameuponhimwhilehestaredplacidlyalongthedeck,bringingincontactwithhisthicklips,andtakingawayagainafterajetofsmoke,thecurvedmouthpiecefittedtothestemofhispipe。Thenightcameuponhimandburiedinhastehiswhiskers,hisglob—
ulareyes,hispuffypaleface,hisfatkneesandthevastflatslippersonhisfatherlyfeet。Onlyhisshortarmsinrespectablewhiteshirt—sleevesre—
mainedveryvisible,proppedupliketheflippersofasealreposingonthestrand。
"Falkwouldn’tsettleanythingaboutrepairs。
ToldmetofindoutfirsthowmuchwoodIshouldrequireandhewouldsee,"heremarked;andafterhehadspatpeacefullyintheduskweheardoverthewaterthebeatofthetug’sfloats。Thereis,onacalmnight,nothingmoresuggestiveoffierceandheadlonghastethantherapidsoundmadebythepaddle—wheelsofaboatthreshingherwaythroughaquietsea;andtheapproachofFalktowardshisfateseemedtobeurgedbyanimpatientandpas—
sionatedesire。Theenginesmusthavebeendriventotheveryutmostoftheirrevolutions。Weheardthemslowdownatlast,and,vaguely,thewhitehullofthetugappearedmovingagainsttheblackislets,whilstaslowandrhythmicalclappingasofthousandsofhandsroseonallsides。Itceasedallatonce,justbeforeFalkbroughtherup。Asin—
glebrusquesplashwasfollowedbythelongdrawnrumblingofironlinksrunningthroughthehawsepipe。ThenasolemnsilencefellupontheRoad—
stead。
"Hewillsoonbehere,"Imurmured,andafterthatwewaitedforhimwithoutaword。Meantime,raisingmyeyes,IbeheldtheglitterofaloftyskyabovetheDiana’smastheads。Themultitudeofstarsgatheredintoclusters,inrows,inlines,inmasses,ingroups,shonealltogether,unanimously——andthefewisolatedones,blazingbythemselvesinthemidstofdarkpatches,seemedtobeofasu—
periorkindandofaninextinguishablenature。Butlongstridingfootstepswereheardhasteningalongthedeck;thehighbulwarksoftheDianamadeadeeperdarkness。Werosefromourchairsquickly,andFalk,appearingbeforeus,allinwhite,stoodstill。
Nobodyspokeatfirst,asthoughwehadbeencoveredwithconfusion。Hisarrivalwasfiery,buthiswhitebulk,ofindefiniteshapeandwithoutfea—
tures,madehimloomuplikeamanofsnow。
"Thecaptainherehasbeentellingme……"
Hermannbeganinahomelyandamicablevoice;
andFalkhadalow,nervouslaugh。Hiscool,neg—
ligentundertonehadnoinflexions,butthestrengthofapowerfulemotionmadehimrambleinhisspeech。Hehadalwaysdesiredahome。Itwasdifficulttolivealone,thoughhewasnotanswera—
ble。Hewasdomestic;therehadbeendifficulties;
butsincehehadseenHermann’sniecehefoundthatithadbecomeatlastimpossibletolivebyhim—
self。"Imean——impossible,"herepeatedwithnosortofemphasisandonlywiththeslightestofpauses,butthewordfellintomymindwiththeforceofanewidea。
"Ihavenotsaidanythingtoheryet,"Hermannobservedquietly。AndFalkdismissedthisbya"That’sallright。Certainly。Veryproper。"
Therewasanecessityforperfectfrankness——inmarrying,especially。Hermannseemedattentive,butheseizedthefirstopportunitytoaskusintothecabin。"Andby—the—by,Falk,"hesaidinnocent—
ly,aswepassedin,"thetimbercametonolessthanforty—sevendollarsandfiftycents。"
Falk,uncoveringhishead,lingeredinthepas—
sage。"Someothertime,"hesaid;andHermannnudgedmeangrily——Idon’tknowwhy。Thegirlaloneinthecabinsatsewingatsomedistancefromthetable。Falkstoppedshortinthedoorway。
Withoutaword,withoutasign,withouttheslight—
estinclinationofhisbonyhead,bythesilentin—
tensityofhislookalone,heseemedtolayhisher—
culeanframeatherfeet。Herhandssankslowlyonherlap,andraisinghercleareyes,shelethersoft,beamingglanceenfoldhimfromheadtofootlikeaslowandpalecaress。Hewasveryhotwhenhesatdown;she,withbowedhead,wentonwithhersewing;herneckwasverywhiteunderthelightofthelamp;butFalk,hidinghisfaceinthepalmsofhishands,shudderedfaintly。Hedrewthemdown,eventohisbeard,andhisuncoveredeyesas—
tonishedmebytheirtenseandirrationalexpres—
sion——asthoughhehadjustswallowedaheavygulpofalcohol。Itpassedawaywhilehewasbindingustosecrecy。Notthathecared,buthedidnotliketobespokenabout;andIlookedatthegirl’smarvellous,atherwonderful,atherregalhair,plaitedtightintothatoneastonishingandmaidenlytress。Whenevershemovedherwell—
shapedheaditwouldstirstifflytoandfroonherback。Thethincottonsleevefittedtheirreproach—
ableroundnessofherarmlikeaskin;andherverydress,stretchedonherbust,seemedtopalpitatelikealivingtissuewiththestrengthofvitalityani—
matingherbody。Howgoodhercomplexionwas,theoutlineofhersoftcheekandthesmallconvo—
lutedconchofherrosyear!Topullherneedleshekeptthelittlefingerapartfromtheothers;itseemedawasteofpowertoseehersewing——eter—
nallysewing——withthatindustriousandprecisemovementofherarm,goingoneternallyuponalltheoceans,underalltheskies,ininnumerablehar—
bours。AndsuddenlyIheardFalk’svoicedeclarethathecouldnotmarryawomanunlesssheknewofsomethinginhislifethathadhappenedtenyearsago。Itwasanaccident。Anunfortunateac—
cident。Itwouldaffectthedomesticarrangementsoftheirhome,but,oncetold,itneednotbealludedtoagainfortherestoftheirlives。"Ishouldwantmywifetofeelforme,"hesaid。"Ithasmademeunhappy。"Andhowcouldhekeeptheknowledgeofittohimself——heaskedus——perhapsthroughyearsandyearsofcompanionship?Whatsortofcompanionshipwouldthatbe?Hehadthoughtitover。Awifemustknow。Thenwhynotatonce?
HecountedonHermann’skindnessforpresentingtheaffairinthebestpossiblelight。AndHer—
mann’scountenance,mystifiedbefore,becameverysour。Hestoleaninquisitiveglanceatme。I
shookmyheadblankly。Somepeoplethought,Falkwenton,thatsuchanexperiencechangedamanfortherestofhislife。Hecouldn’tsay。Itwashard,awful,andnottobeforgotten,buthedidnotthinkhimselfaworsemanthanbefore。
Onlyhetalkedinhissleepnow,hebelieved……
AtlastIbegantothinkhehadaccidentallykilledsomeone;perhapsafriend——hisownfathermay—
be;whenhewentontosaythatprobablywewereawarehenevertouchedmeat。ThroughouthespokeEnglish,ofcourseofmyaccount。
Heswayedforwardheavily。
Thegirl,withherhandsraisedbeforeherpaleeyes,wasthreadingherneedle。Heglancedather,andhismightytrunkovershadowedthetable,bringingnearertousthebreadthofhisshoulders,thethicknessofhisneck,andthatincongruous,an—
choritehead,burntinthedesert,hollowedandleanasifbyexcessesofvigilsandfasting。Hisbeardflowedimposinglydownwards,outofsight,be—
tweenthetwobrownhandsgrippingtheedgeofthetable,andhispersistentglancemadesombrebythewidedilationsofthepupils,fascinated。
"Imaginetoyourselves,"hesaidinhisordinaryvoice,"thatIhaveeatenman。"
Icouldonlyejaculateafaint"Ah!"ofcom—
pleteenlightenment。ButHermann,dazedbytheexcessiveshock,actuallymurmured,"Himmel!
Whatfor?"
"Itwasmyterriblemisfortunetodoso,"saidFalkinameasuredundertone。Thegirl,uncon—
scious,sewedon。Mrs。Hermannwasabsentinoneofthestate—rooms,sittingupwithLena,whowasfeverish;butHermannsuddenlyputbothhishandsupwithajerk。Theembroideredcalottefell,and,inthetwinklingofaneye,hehadrum—
pledhishairallendsupinamostextravagantmanner。Inthisstatehestrovetospeak;witheveryefforthiseyesseemedtostartfurtheroutoftheirsockets;hisheadlookedlikeamop。Hechoked,gasped,swallowed,andmanagedtoshriekouttheoneword,"Beast!"
FromthatmomenttillFalkwentoutofthecab—
inthegirl,withherhandsfoldedontheworklyinginherlap,nevertookhereyesoffhim。Hisown,intheblindnessofhisheart,dartedalloverthecabin,onlyseekingtoavoidthesightofHermann’sraving。Itwasridiculous,andwasmadealmostterriblebythestillnessofeveryotherpersonpres—
ent。Itwascontemptible,andwasmadeappallingbytheman’sovermasteringhorrorofthisawfulsincerity,comingtohimsuddenly,withtheconfes—
sionofsuchafact。Hewalkedwithgreatstrides;
hegasped。HewantedtoknowfromFalkhowdaredhetocomeandtellhimthis?Didhethinkhimselfaproperpersontobesittinginthiscabinwherehiswifeandchildrenlived?Tellhisniece!
Expectedhimtotellhisniece!Hisownbrother’sdaughter!Shameless!DidIeverheartellofsuchimpudence?——heappealedtome。"Thismanhereoughttohavegoneandhiddenhimselfoutofsightinsteadof……"
"Butit’sagreatmisfortuneforme。Butit’sagreatmisfortuneforme,"Falkwouldejaculatefromtimetotime。
However,Hermannkeptonrunningfrequentlyagainstthecornersofthetable。Atlasthelostaslipper,andcrossinghisarmsonhisbreast,walkedupwithonestockingfootveryclosetoFalk,inor—
dertoaskhimwhetherhedidthinktherewasany—
whereonearthawomanabandonedenoughtomatewithsuchamonster。"Didhe?Didhe?Didhe?"Itriedtorestrainhim。Hetorehimselfoutofmyhands;hefoundhisslipper,and,endeavour—
ingtoputiton,stormedstandingononeleg——
andFalk,withafaceunmovedandavertedeyes,graspedallhismightybeardinonevastpalm。
"Wasitrightthenformetodiemyself?"heaskedthoughtfully。Ilaidmyhandonhisshoul—
der。
"Goaway,"Iwhisperedimperiously,withoutanyclearreasonforthisadvice,exceptthatI
wishedtoputanendtoHermann’sodiousnoise。
"Goaway。"
HelookedsearchinglyforamomentatHermannbeforehemadeamove。Ileftthecabintootoseehimoutoftheship。Buthehungaboutthequar—
ter—deck。
"Itismymisfortune,"hesaidinasteadyvoice。
"Youwerestupidtoblurtitoutinsuchaman—
ner。Afterall,wedon’thearsuchconfidenceseveryday。"
"Whatdoesthemanmean?"hemusedindeepundertones。"Somebodyhadtodie——butwhyme?"
Heremainedstillforatimeinthedark——silent;
almostinvisible。Allatoncehepinnedmyelbowstomysides。Ifeltutterlypowerlessinhisgrip,andhisvoice,whisperinginmyear,vibrated。
"It’sworsethanhunger。Captain,doyouknowwhatthatmeans?AndIcouldkillthen——orbekilled。Iwishthecrowbarhadsmashedmyskulltenyearsago。AndI’vegottolivenow。Withouther。Doyouunderstand?Perhapsmanyyears。
Buthow?Whatcanbedone?IfIhadallowedmyselftolookatheronceIwouldhavecarriedheroffbeforethatmaninmyhands——likethis。"
Ifeltmyselfsnatchedoffthedeck,thensuddenlydropped——andIstaggeredbackwards,feelingbewilderedandbruised。Whataman!Allwasstill;hewasgone。IheardHermann’svoicede—
claiminginthecabin,andIwentin。
Icouldnotatfirstmakeoutasingleword,butMrs。Hermann,who,attractedbythenoise,hadcomeinsometimebefore,withanexpressionofsurpriseandmilddisapproval,depictedbroadlyonherface,wasgivingnowallthesignsofprofound,helplessagitation。Herhusbandshotastringofgutturalwordsather,andinstantlyputtingoutonehandtothebulkheadasiftosaveherselffromfalling,sheclutchedtheloosebosomofherdresswiththeother。Heharanguedthetwowomenex—
traordinarily,withmuchofhisshirthangingoutofhiswaistbelt,stampinghisfoot,turningfromonetotheother,sometimesthrowingbothhisarmsto—
gether,straightupabovehisrumpledhair,andkeepingtheminthatpositionwhileheutteredapassageoflouddenunciation;atothersfoldingthemtightacrosshisbreast——andthenhehissedwithindignation,elevatinghisshouldersandpro—
trudinghishead。Thegirlwascrying。
Shehadnotchangedherattitude。Fromhersteadyeyesthat,followingFalkinhisretreat,hadremainedfixedwistfullyonthecabindoor,thetearsfellrapid,thick,onherhands,ontheworkinherlap,warmandgentlelikeashowerinspring。
Sheweptwithoutgrimacing,withoutnoise——verytouching,veryquiet,withsomethingmoreofpitythanofpaininherface,asoneweepsincompassionratherthaningrief——andHermann,beforeher,declaimed。Icaughtseveraltimestheword"Mensch,"man;andalso"Fressen,"whichlastI
lookedupafterwardsinmydictionary。Itmeans"Devour。"Hermannseemedtoberequestingananswerofsomesortfromher;hiswholebodyswayed。Sheremainedmuteandperfectlystill;
atlasthisagitationgainedher;sheputthepalmsofherhandstogether,herfulllipsparted,nosoundcame。Hisvoicescoldedshrilly,hisarmswentlikeawindmill——suddenlyheshookathickfistather。Sheburstoutintoloudsobs。Heseemedstupefied。
Mrs。Hermannrushedforwardbabblingrap—
dly。Thetwowomenfelloneachother’snecks,and,withanarmroundherniece’swaist,sheledheraway。Herowneyesweresimplystreaming,herfacewasflooded。Sheshookherheadbackatmenegatively,Iwonderwhytothisday。Thegirl’sheaddroppedheavilyonhershoulder。Theydis—
appeared。
ThenHermannsatdownandstaredatthecabinfloor。
"Wedon’tknowallthecircumstances,"Iven—
turedtobreakthesilence。Heretortedtartlythathedidn’twanttoknowofany。Accordingtohisideasnocircumstancescouldexcuseacrime——andcertainlynotsuchacrime。Thiswastheopiniongenerallyreceived。Thedutyofahumanbeingwastostarve。Falkthereforewasabeast,anani—
mal;base,low,vile,despicable,shameless,andde—
ceitful。Hehadbeendeceivinghimsincelastyear。
Hewas,however,inclinedtothinkthatFalkmusthavegonemadquiterecently;fornosaneperson,withoutnecessity,uselessly,fornoearthlyreason,andregardlessofanother’sself—respectandpeaceofmind,wouldowntohavingdevouredhumanflesh。"Whytell?"hecried。"Whowasaskinghim?"ItshowedFalk’sbrutalitybecauseafterallhehadselfishlycausedhim(Hermann)muchpain。Hewouldhavepreferrednottoknowthatsuchanuncleancreaturehadbeeninthehabitofcaressinghischildren。HehopedIwouldsaynoth—
ingofallthisashore,though。Hewouldn’tlikeittogetaboutthathehadbeenintimatewithaneaterofmen——acommoncannibal。Astothescenehehadmade(whichIjudgedquiteunnecessary)
hewasnotgoingtoinconvenienceandrestrainhimselfforafellowthatwentaboutcourtingandupsettinggirls’heads,whileheknewallthetimethatnodecenthousewifelygirlcouldthinkofmar—
ryinghim。Atleasthe(Hermann)couldnotcon—
ceivehowanygirlcould。FancyLena!……No,itwasimpossible。Thethoughtsthatwouldcomeintotheirheadseverytimetheysatdowntoameal。
Horrible!Horrible!
"Youaretoosqueamish,Hermann,"Isaid。
HeseemedtothinkitwaseminentlypropertobesqueamishifthewordmeantdisgustatFalk’scon—
duct;andturninguphiseyessentimentallyhedrewmyattentiontothehorriblefateofthevictims——thevictimsofthatFalk。IsaidthatIknewnothingaboutthem。Heseemedsurprised。Couldnotanybodyimaginewithoutknowing?He——forinstance——felthewouldliketoavengethem。Butwhatif——saidI——therehadnotbeenany?Theymighthavediedasitwere,naturally——ofstarva—
tion。Heshuddered。Buttobeeaten——afterdeath!Tobedevoured!Hegaveanotherdeepshudder,andaskedsuddenly,"Doyouthinkitistrue?"
Hisindignationandhispersonalitytogetherwouldhavebeenenoughtospoiltherealityofthemostauthenticthing。WhenIlookedathimI
doubtedthestory——buttheremembranceofFalk’swords,looks,gestures,investeditnotonlywithanairofrealitybutwiththeabsolutetruthofprimitivepassion。
"Itistruejustasmuchasyouareabletomakeit;andexactlyinthewayyouliketomakeit。Formypart,whenIhearyouclamouringaboutit,I
don’tbelieveitistrueatall。"
AndIlefthimpondering。ThemeninmyboatlyingatthefootofDiana’ssideladdertoldmethatthecaptainofthetughadgoneawayinhisgigsometimeago。
Iletmyfellowspullaneasystroke;becauseoftheheavydewtheclearsparkleofthestarsseemedtofallonmecoldandwetting。Therewasasenseoflurkinggruesomehorrorsomewhereinmymind,anditwasmingledwithclearandgrotesqueimages。Schomberg’sgastronomictittle—tattlewasresponsibleforthese;andIhalfhopedI
shouldneverseeFalkagain。Butthefirstthingmyanchor—watchmantoldmewasthatthecaptainofthetugwasonboard。Hehadsenthisboatawayandwasnowwaitingformeinthecuddy。
Hewaslyingfulllengthonthesternsettee,hisfaceburiedinthecushions。Ihadexpectedtoseeitdiscomposed,contorted,despairing。Itwasnothingofthekind;itwasjustasIhadseenittwentytimes,steadyandglaringfromthebridgeofthetug。Itwasimmovablysetandhungry,dominatedlikethewholemanbythesinglenessofoneinstinct。
Hewantedtolive。Hehadalwayswantedtolive。Sowealldo——butinustheinstinctservesacomplexconception,andinhimthisinstinctexistedalone。Thereisinsuchsimpledevelopmentagi—
ganticforce,andlikethepathosofachild’snaivenduncontrolleddesire。Hewantedthatgirl,andtheutmostthatcanbesaidforhimwasthathewantedthatparticulargirlalone。IthinkIsawthentheobscurebeginning,theseedgerminatinginthesoilofanunconsciousneed,thefirstshootofthattreebearingnowforamaturemankindtheflowerandthefruit,theinfinitegradationinshadesandinflavourofourdiscriminatinglove。
Hewasachild。Hewasasfrankasachildtoo。
Hewashungryforthegirl,terriblyhungry,ashehadbeenterriblyhungryforfood。
Don’tbeshockedifIdeclarethatinmybeliefitwasthesameneed,thesamepain,thesametor—
ture。Weareinhiscaseallowedtocontemplatethefoundationofalltheemotions——thatonejoywhichistolive,andtheonesadnessattherootoftheinnumerabletorments。Itwasmadeplainbythewayhetalked。Hehadneversufferedso。Itwasgnawing,itwasfire;itwasthere,likethis!
Andafterpointingbelowhisbreastbone,hemadeahardwringingmotionwithhishands。AndIas—
sureyouthat,seenasIsawitwithmybodilyeyes,itwasanythingbutlaughable。Andagain,ashewaspresentlytotellme(alludingtoanearlyinci—
dentofthedisastrousvoyagewhensomedamagedmeathadbeenflungoverboard),hesaidthatatimesooncamewhenhisheartached(thatwastheexpressionheused),andhewasreadytotearhishairoutatthethoughtofallthatrottenbeefthrownaway。
Ihadheardallthis;Iwitnessedhisphysicalstruggles,seeingtheworkingoftherackandhear—
ingthetruevoiceofpain。Iwitnesseditallpa—
tiently,becausethemomentIcameintothecuddyhehadcalleduponmetostandbyhim——andthis,itseems,Ihaddiplomaticallypromised。
Hisagitationwasimpressiveandalarminginthelittlecabin,liketheflounderingofagreatwhaledrivenintoashallowcoveinacoast。Hestoodup;heflunghimselfdownheadlong;hetriedtotearthecushionwithhisteeth;andagainhug—
gingitfiercelytohisfacehelethimselffallonthecouch。Thewholeshipseemedtofeeltheshockofhisdespair;andIcontemplatedwithwondertheloftyforehead,thenobletouchoftimeontheun—
coveredtemples,theunchangedhungrycharacteroftheface——sostrangelyasceticandsoincapableofportrayingemotion。
Whatshouldhedo?Hehadlivedbybeingnearher。Hehadsat——intheevening——Iknew?——
allhislife!Shesewed。Herheadwasbent——so。
Herhead——likethis——andherarms。Ah!HadI
seen?Likethis。
Hedroppedonastool,bowedhispowerfulneckwhosenapewasred,andwithhishandsstitchedtheair,ludicrous,sublimelyimbecileandcompre—
hensible。
Andnowhecouldn’thaveher?No!Thatwastoomuch。Afterthinkingtoothat……Whathadhedone?Whatwasmyadvice?Takeherbyforce?No?Mustn’the?Whowastherethentokillhim?ForthefirsttimeIsawoneofhisfea—
turesmove;afightingteeth—baringcurlofthelip……"NotHermann,perhaps。"Helosthimselfinthoughtasthoughhehadfallenoutoftheworld。
Imaynotethattheideaofsuicideapparentlydidnotenterhisheadforasinglemoment。Itoc—
curredtometoask:
"Wherewasitthatthisshipwreckofyourstookplace?"
"Downsouth,"hesaidvaguelywithastart。
"Youarenotdownsouthnow,"Isaid。"Vio—
lencewon’tdo。Theywouldtakeherawayfromyouinnotime。Andwhatwasthenameoftheship?"
"BorgmesterDahl,"hesaid。"Itwasnoship—
wreck。"
Heseemedtobewakingupbydegreesfromthattrance,andwakingupcalmed。
"Notashipwreck?Whatwasit?"
"Breakdown,"heanswered,lookingmorelikehimselfeverymoment。BythisonlyIlearnedthatitwasasteamer。Ihadtillthensupposedtheyhadbeenstarvinginboatsoronaraft——orper—
hapsonabarrenrock。
"Shedidnotsinkthen?"Iaskedinsurprise。
Henodded。"Wesightedthesouthernice,"hepronounceddreamily。
"Andyoualonesurvived?"
Hesatdown。"Yes。Itwasaterriblemisfor—
tuneforme。Everythingwentwrong。Allthemenwentwrong。Isurvived。"
Rememberingthethingsonereadsofitwasdiffi—
culttorealisethetruemeaningofhisanswers。I
oughttohaveseenatonce——butIdidnot;sodiffi—
cultisitforourminds,rememberingsomuch,in—
structedsomuch,informedofsomuch,togetintouchwiththerealactualityatourelbow。Andwithmyheadfullofpreconceivednotionsastohowacaseof"cannibalismandsufferingatsea"
shouldbemanagedIsaid——"Youwerethensoluckyinthedrawingoflots?"
"Drawingoflots?"hesaid。"Whatlots?DoyouthinkIwouldhaveallowedmylifetogoforthedrawingoflots?"
Notifhecouldhelpif,Iperceived,nomatterwhatotherlifewent。
"Itwasagreatmisfortune。Terrible。Awful,"
hesaid。"Manyheadswentwrong,butthebestmenwouldlive。"
"Thetoughest,youmean,"Isaid。Heconsid—
eredtheword。Perhapsitwasstrangetohim,thoughhisEnglishwassogood。
"Yes,"heassertedatlast。"Thebest。Itwaseverybodyforhimselfatlastandtheshipopentoall。"
ThusfromquestiontoquestionIgotthewholestory。IfancyitwastheonlywayIcouldthatnighthavestoodbyhim。Outwardlyatleasthewashimselfagain;thefirstsignofitwasthere—
turnofthatincongruoustrickhehadofdrawingbothhishandsdownhisface——andithaditsmean—
ingnow,withthatslightshudderoftheframeandthepassionateanguishofthesehandsuncoveringahungryimmovableface,thewidepupilsoftheintent,silent,fascinatingeyes。
Itwasanironsteamerofamostrespectableori—
gin。TheburgomasterofFalk’snativetownhadbuilther。Shewasthefirststeamereverlaunchedthere。Theburgomaster’sdaughterhadchristenedher。Countrypeopledroveincartsfrommilesaroundtoseeher。Hetoldmeallthis。Hegottheberthaswhatweshouldcallachiefmate。Heseemedtothinkithadbeenafeatherinhiscap;
and,inhisowncorneroftheworld,thisloveroflifewasofgoodparentage。
Theburgomasterhadadvancedideasintheship—owningline。AtthattimenoteveryonewouldhaveknownenoughtothinkofdespatchingacargosteamertothePacific。Butheloadedherwithpitch—pinedealsandsentherofftohuntforherluck。Wellingtonwastobethefirstport,I
fancy。Itdoesn’tmatter,becauseinlatitude44dsouthandsomewherehalfwaybetweenGoodHopeandNewZealandthetailshaftbrokeandthepro—
pellerdroppedoff。
Theyweresteamingthenwithafreshgaleonthequarterandalltheircanvasset,tohelptheen—
gines。Butbyitselfthesailpowerwasnotenoughtokeepwayonher。Whenthepropellerwenttheshipbroached—toatonce,andthemastsgotwhippedoverboard。
Thedisadvantageofbeingdismastedconsistedinthis,thattheyhadnothingtohoistflagsontomakethemselvesvisibleatadistance。Inthecourseofthefirstfewdaysseveralshipsfailedtosightthem;andthegalewasdriftingthemoutoftheusualtrack。Thevoyagehadbeen,fromthefirst,neitherverysuccessfulnorveryharmonious。
Therehadbeenquarrelsonboard。Thecaptainwasaclever,melancholicman,whohadnounusualgriponhiscrew。Theshiphadbeenamplypro—
visionedforthepassage,but,somehoworother,severalbarrelsofmeatwerefoundspoiledonopen—
ing,andhadbeenthrownoverboardsoonafterleavinghome,asasanitarymeasure。AfterwardsthecrewoftheBorgmesterDahlthoughtofthatrottencarrionwithtearsofregret,covetousnessanddespair。
Shedrovesouth。Tobeginwith,therehadbeenanappearanceoforganisation,butsoonthebondsofdisciplinebecamerelaxed。Asombreidlenesssucceeded。Theylookedwithsulleneyesatthehori—
zon。Thegalesincreased:shelayinthetrough,theseasmadeacleanbreachoverher。Ononefrightfulnight,whentheyexpectedtheirhulktoturnoverwiththemeverymoment,aheavyseabrokeonboard,delugedthestore—roomsandspoiledthebestpartoftheremainingprovisions。Itseemsthehatchhadnotbeenproperlysecured。Thisin—
stanceofneglectischaracteristicofutterdiscour—
agement。Falktriedtoinspiresomeenergyintohiscaptain,butfailed。Fromthattimeheretiredmoreintohimself,alwaystryingtodohisutmostinthesituation。Itgrewworse。Galesucceededgale,withblackmountainsofwaterhurlingthem—
selvesontheBorgmesterDahl。Someofthemenneverlefttheirbunks;manybecamequarrelsome。
Thechiefengineer,anoldman,refusedtospeakatalltoanybody。Othersshutthemselvesupintheirberthstocry。Oncalmdaystheinertsteamerrolledonaleadenseaunderamurkysky,orshowed,insunshine,thesqualorofseawaifs,thedriedwhitesalt,therust,thejaggedbrokenplaces。Thenthegalescameagain。Theykeptbodyandsoultogetheronshortrations。Once,anEnglishship,scuddinginastorm,triedtostandbythem,heaving—topluckilyundertheirlee。Theseassweptherdecks;themeninoilskinsclingingtoherrigginglookedatthem,andtheymadedes—
peratesignsovertheirshatteredbulwarks。Sud—
denlyhermain—topsailwent,yardandall,inater—
rificsquall;shehadtobearupunderbarepoles,anddisappeared。
Othershipshadspokenthembefore,butatfirsttheyhadrefusedtobetakenoff,expectingtheas—
sistanceofsomesteamer。Therewereveryfewsteamersinthoselatitudesthen;andwhentheydesiredtoleavethisdeadanddriftingcarcase,noshipcameinsight。Theyhaddriftedsouthoutofmen’sknowledge。Theyfailedtoattracttheatten—
tionofalonelywhaler,andverysoontheedgeofthepolarice—caprosefromtheseaandclosedthesouthernhorizonlikeawall。Onemorningtheywerealarmedbyfindingthemselvesfloatingamongstdetachedpiecesofice。Butthefearofsinkingpassedawayliketheirvigour,liketheirhopes;theshocksofthefloesknockingagainsttheship’ssidecouldnotrousethemfromtheirapathy:
andtheBorgmesterDahldriftedoutagainun—
harmedintoopenwater。Theyhardlynoticedthechange。
Thefunnelhadgoneoverboardinoneoftheheavyrolls;twooftheirthreeboatshaddisap—
peared,washedawayinbadweather,andthedavitsswungtoandfro,unsecured,withchafedrope’sendswagglingtotheroll。Nothingwasdoneonboard,andFalktoldmehowhehadoftenlistenedtothewaterwashingaboutthedarkengine—roomwheretheengines,stilledforever,weredecayingslowlyintoamassofrust,asthestilledheartde—
cayswithinthelifelessbody。Atfirst,afterthelossofthemotivepower,thetillerhadbeenthor—
oughlysecuredbylashings。Butincourseoftimethesehadrotted,chafed,rusted,partingonebyone:andtherudder,freed,bangedheavilytoandfronightandday,sendingdullshocksthroughthewholeframeofthevessel。Thiswasdangerous。
Nobodycaredenoughtoliftalittlefinger。Hetoldmethatevennowsometimeswakingupatnight,hefanciedhecouldhearthedullvibratingthuds。Thepintlescarriedaway,anditdroppedoffatlast。
Thefinalcatastrophecamewiththesendingoffoftheironeremainingboat。ItwasFalkwhohadmanagedtopreserveherintact,andnowitwasagreedthatsomeofthehandsshouldsailawayintothetrackoftheshippingtoprocureassistance。
Shewasprovisionedwithallthefoodtheycouldspareforthesixwhoweretogo。Theywaitedforafineday。Itwaslongincoming。Atlastonemorningtheyloweredherintothewater。
Directly,inthatdemoralisedcrowd,troublebrokeout。Twomenwhohadnobusinesstherehadjumpedintotheboatunderthepretenceofunhookingthetackles,whilesomesortofsquabblearoseonthedeckamongsttheseweak,totteringspectresofaship’scompany。Thecaptain,whohadbeenfordayslivingsecludedandunapproach—
ableinthechart—room,cametotherail。Heor—
deredthetwomentocomeuponboardandmen—
acedthemwithhisrevolver。Theypretendedtoobey,butsuddenlycuttingtheboat’spainter,gaveashoveagainsttheship’ssideandmadereadytohoistthesail。
"Shoot,sir!Shootthemdown!"criedFalk——
"andIwilljumpoverboardtoregaintheboat。"
Butthecaptain,aftertakingaimwithanirreso—
lutearm,turnedsuddenlyaway。
Ahowlofragearose。Falkdashedintohiscabinforhisownpistol。Whenhereturneditwastoolate。Twomoremenhadleapedintothewater,butthefellowsintheboatbeatthemoffwiththeoars,hoistedtheboat’slugandsailedaway。Theywereneverheardofagain。
Consternationanddespairpossessedtheremain—
ingship’scompany,tilltheapathyofutterhope—
lessnessre—asserteditssway。Thatdayafiremancommittedsuicide,runningupondeckwithhisthroatcutfromeartoear,tothehorrorofallhands。Hewasthrownoverboard。Thecaptainhadlockedhimselfinthechart—room,andFalk,knockingvainlyforadmittance,heardhimrecit—
ingoverandoveragainthenamesofhiswifeandchildren,notasifcallinguponthemorcommend—
ingthemtoGod,butinamechanicalvoicelikeanexerciseofmemory。Nextdaythedoorsofthechart—roomwereswingingopentotherolloftheship,andthecaptainhaddisappeared。Hemustduringthenighthavejumpedintothesea。Falklockedboththedoorsandkeptthekeys。
Theorganisedlifeoftheshiphadcometoanend。Thesolidarityofthemenhadgone。Theybecameindifferenttoeachother。ItwasFalkwhotookinhandthedistributionofsuchfoodasre—
mained。Theyboiledtheirbootsforsouptoekeouttherations,whichonlymadetheirhungermoreintolerable。Sometimeswhispersofhatewereheardpassingbetweenthelanguidskeletonsthatdriftedendlesslytoandfro,northandsouth,eastandwest,uponthatcarcaseofaship。
Andinthisliesthegrotesquehorrorofthissom—
brestory。Thelastextremityofsailors,overtakingasmallboatorafrailcraft,seemseasiertobear,becauseofthedirectdangeroftheseas。Thecon—
finedspace,theclosecontact,theimminentmenaceofthewaves,seemtodrawmentogether,inspiteofmadness,sufferinganddespair。Buttherewasaship——safe,convenient,roomy:ashipwithbeds,bedding,knives,forks,comfortablecabins,glassandchina,andacompletecook’sgalley,pervaded,ruledandpossessedbythepitilessspectreofstar—
vation。Thelampoilhadbeendrunk,thewickscutupforfood,thecandleseaten。Atnightshefloateddarkinallherrecesses,andfulloffears。
OnedayFalkcameuponamangnawingasplinterofpinewood。Suddenlyhethrewthepieceofwoodaway,totteredtotherail,andfellover。Falk,toolatetopreventtheact,sawhimclawtheship’ssidedesperatelybeforehewentdown。Nextdayanothermandidthesamething,afterutteringhor—
ribleimprecations。Butthisonesomehowman—
agedtogetholdofthebrokenrudderchainsandhungonthere,silently。Falksetabouttryingtosavehim,andallthetimetheman,holdingwithbothhands,lookedathimanxiouslywithhissunkeneyes。Then,justasFalkwasreadytoputhishandonhim,themanletgohisholdandsanklikeastone。Falkreflectedonthesesights。Hisheartrevoltedagainstthehorrorofdeath,andhesaidtohimselfthathewouldstruggleforeverypre—
ciousminuteofhislife。
Oneafternoon——asthesurvivorslayaboutontheafterdeck——thecarpenter,atallmanwithablackbeard,spokeofthelastsacrifice。Therewasnothingeatableleftonboard。Nobodysaidawordtothis;butthatcompanyseparatedquickly,theselistlessfeeblespectresslunkoffonebyonetohideinfearofeachother。Falkandthecar—
penterremainedondecktogether。Falklikedthebigcarpenter。Hehadbeenthebestmanofthelot,helpfulandreadyaslongastherewasanythingtodo,thelongesthopeful,andhadpreservedtothelastsomevigouranddecisionofmind。
Theydidnotspeaktoeachother。Henceforthnovoicesweretobeheardconversingsadlyonboardthatship。Afteratimethecarpentertot—
teredawayforward;butlateron,Falkgoingtodrinkatthefresh—waterpump,hadtheinspirationtoturnhishead。Thecarpenterhadstolenuponhimfrombehind,and,summoningallhisstrength,wasaimingwithacrowbarablowatthebackofhisskull。
Dodgingjustintime,Falkmadehisescapeandranintohiscabin。Whilehewasloadinghisre—
volverthere,heheardthesoundofheavyblowsstruckuponthebridge。Thelocksofthechart—
roomdoorswereslight,theyflewopen,andthecar—
penter,possessinghimselfofthecaptain’srevolver,firedashotofdefiance。
Falkwasabouttogoondeckandhaveitoutatonce,whenheremarkedthatoneoftheportsofhiscabincommandedtheapproachestothefresh—
waterpump。Insteadofgoingoutheremainedinandsecuredthedoor。"Thebestmanshallsur—
vive,"hesaidtohimself——andtheother,herea—
soned,mustatsometimeorothercometheretodrink。Thesestarvingmenwoulddrinkoftentocheatthepangsoftheirhunger。Butthecarpen—
tertoomusthavenoticedthepositionoftheport。
Theywerethetwobestmenintheship,andthegamewaswiththem。AlltherestofthedayFalksawnooneandheardnosound。Atnighthestrainedhiseyes。Itwasdark——heheardarustlingnoiseonce,buthewascertainthatnoonecouldhavecomenearthepump。Itwastotheleftofhisdeckport,andhecouldnothavefailedtoseeaman,forthenightwasclearandstarry。Hesawnothing;towardsmorninganotherfaintnoisemadehimsuspicious。Deliberatelyandquietlyheunlockedhisdoor。Hehadnotslept,andhadnotgivenwaytothehorrorofthesituation。Hewantedtolive。
Butduringthenightthecarpenter,withoutatalltryingtoapproachthepump,hadmanagedtocreepquietlyalongthestarboardbulwark,and,unseen,hadcroucheddownrightunderFalk’sdeckport。Whendaylightcameheroseupsuddenly,lookedin,andputtinghisarmthroughtheroundbrassframedopening,firedatFalkwithinafoot。
Hemissed——andFalk,insteadofattemptingtoseizethearmholdingtheweapon,openedhisdoorunexpectedly,andwiththemuzzleofhislongre—
volvernearlytouchingtheother’sside,shothimdead。
Thebestmanhadsurvived。Bothofthemhadatthebeginningjuststrengthenoughtostandontheirfeet,andbothhaddisplayedpitilessresolu—
tion,endurance,cunningandcourage——allthequalitiesofclassicheroism。AtonceFalkthrewoverboardthecaptain’srevolver。Hewasabornmonopolist。Thenafterthereportofthetwoshots,followedbyaprofoundsilence,therecreptoutintothecold,crueldawnofAntarcticregions,fromvarioushiding—places,overthedeckofthatdismantledcorpseofashipfloatingonagreysearuledbyironnecessityandwithaheartofice——
therecreptintoviewonebyone,cautious,slow,ea—
ger,glaring,andunclean,abandofhungryandlividskeletons。Falkfacedthem,thepossessoroftheonlyfire—armonboard,andthesecondbestman——thecarpenter——waslyingdeadbetweenhimandthem。
"Hewaseaten,ofcourse,"Isaid。
Hebenthisheadslowly,shudderedalittle,draw—
inghishandsoverhisface,andsaid,"Ihadneveranyquarrelwiththatman。Buttherewereourlivesbetweenhimandme。"
Whycontinuethestoryofthatship,thatstorybeforewhich,withitsfresh—waterpumplikeaspringofdeath,itsmanwiththeweapon,thesearuledbyironnecessity,itsspectralbandswayedbyterrorandhope,itsmuteandunhearingheaven?——
thefableoftheFlyingDutchmanwithitsconven—
tionofcrimeanditssentimentalretributionfadeslikeagracefulwreath,likeawispofwhitemist。
Whatistheretosaythateveryoneofuscannotguessforhimself?IbelieveFalkbeganbygoingthroughtheship,revolverinhand,toannexallthematches。Thosestarvingwretcheshadplentyofmatches!Hehadnomindtohavetheshipsetonfireunderhisfeet,eitherfromhateorfromdespair。
Helivedintheopen,campingonthebridge,com—
mandingalltheafterdeckandtheonlyapproachtothepump。Helived!Someoftheotherslivedtoo——concealed,anxious,comingoutonebyonefromtheirhiding—placesattheseductivesoundofashot。Andhewasnotselfish。Theyshared,butonlythreeofthemallwerealivewhenawhaler,re—
turningfromhercruisingground,nearlyranoverthewater—loggedhulloftheBorgmesterDahl,which,itseems,intheendhadinsomewaysprungaleakinbothherholds,butbeingloadedwithdealscouldnotsink。
"Theyalldied,"Falksaid。"Thesethreetoo,afterwards。ButIwouldnotdie。Alldied,all!
underthisterriblemisfortune。ButwasItootothrowawaymylife?CouldI?Tellme,captain?
Iwasalonethere,quitealone,justliketheothers。
Eachmanwasalone。WasItogiveupmyre—
volver?Whoto?OrwasItothrowitintothesea?Whatwouldhavebeenthegood?Onlythebestmanwouldsurvive。Itwasagreat,terrible,andcruelmisfortune。"
Hehadsurvived!Isawhimbeforemeasthoughpreservedforawitnesstothemightytruthofanunerringandeternalprinciple。Greatbeadsofperspirationstoodonhisforehead。Andsud—
denlyitstruckthetablewithaheavyblow,ashefellforwardthrowinghishandsout。
"Andthisisworse,"hecried。"Thisisaworsepain!Thisismoreterrible。"
Hemademyheartthumpwiththeprofoundcon—
victionofhiscries。AndafterhehadleftmealoneIcalledupbeforemymentaleyetheimageofthegirlweepingsilently,abundantly,patiently,andasifirresistibly。Ithoughtofhertawnyhair。Ithoughthow,ifunplaited,itwouldhavecoveredherallroundaslowasthehips,likethehairofasiren。Andshehadbewitchedhim。Fancyamanwhowouldguardhisownlifewiththein—
flexibilityofapitilessandimmovablefate,beingbroughttolamentthatonceacrowbarhadmissedhisskull!Thesirenssingandluretodeath,butthisonehadbeenweepingsilentlyasifforthepityofhislife。Shewasthetenderandvoicelesssirenofthisappallingnavigator。Heevidentlywantedtolivehiswholeconceptionoflife。Nothingelsewoulddo。Andshetoowasaservantofthatlifethat,inthemidstofdeath,criesaloudtooursenses。
Shewaseminentlyfittedtointerpretforhimitsfeminineside。Andinherownway,andwithherownprofusionofsensuouscharms,shealsoseemedtoillustratetheeternaltruthofanunerringprin—
ciple。Idon’tknowthoughwhatsortofprincipleHermannillustratedwhenheturnedupearlyonboardmyshipwithamostperplexedair。Itstruckme,however,thathetoowoulddohisbesttosurvive。Heseemedgreatlycalmedonthesub—
jectofFalk,butstillveryfullofit。
"WhatisityousaidIwaslastnight?Youknow,"heaskedaftersomepreliminarytalk。
"Too——too——Idon’tknow。Averyfunnyword。"
"Squeamish?"Isuggested。
"Yes。Whatdoesitmean?"
"Thatyouexaggeratethings——toyourself。
Withoutinquiry,andsoon。"
Heseemedtoturnitoverinhismind。Wewentontalking。ThisFalkwastheplagueofhislife。
Upsettingeverybodylikethis!Mrs。Hermannwasunwellratherthismorning。Hisniecewascryingstill。Therewasnobodytolookafterthechildren。Hestruckhisumbrellaonthedeck。Shewouldbelikethatformonths。Fancycarryingallthewayhome,secondclass,aperfectlyuselessgirlwhoiscryingallthetime。ItwasbadforLenatoo,heobserved;butonwhatgroundsIcouldnotguess。Perhapsofthebadexample。Thatchildwasalreadysorrowingandcryingenoughovertheragdoll。Nicholaswasreallytheleastsentimentalpersonofthefamily。
"Whydoessheweep?"Iasked。
"Frompity,"criedHermann。
Itwasimpossibletomakeoutwomen。Mrs。Her—
mannwastheonlyonehepretendedtounderstand。
Shewasvery,veryupsetanddoubtful。
"Doubtfulaboutwhat?"Iasked。
Heavertedhiseyesanddidnotanswerthis。Itwasimpossibletomakethemout。Forinstance,hisniecewasweepingforFalk。Nowhe(Her—
mann)wouldliketowringhisneck——butthen……
Hesupposedhehadtootenderaheart。"Frank—
ly,"heaskedatlast,"whatdoyouthinkofwhatweheardlastnight,captain?"
"Inallthesetales,"Iobserved,"thereisalwaysagooddealofexaggeration。"
AndnotlettinghimrecoverfromhissurpriseI
assuredhimthatIknewallthedetails。Hebeggedmenottorepeatthem。Hisheartwastootender。
Theymadehimfeelunwell。Then,lookingathisfeetandspeakingveryslowly,hesupposedthatheneednotseemuchofthemaftertheyweremarried。
For,indeed,hecouldnotbearthesightofFalk。
Ontheotherhanditwasridiculoustotakehomeagirlwithherheadturned。Agirlthatweepsallthetimeandisofnohelptoheraunt。
"Nowyouwillbeabletodowithonecabinonlyonyourpassagehome,"Isaid。
"Yes,Ihadthoughtofthat,"hesaidbrightly,almost。"Yes!Himself,hiswife,fourchildren——onecabinmightdo。Whereasifhisniecewent……"
"AndwhatdoesMrs。Hermannsaytoit?"I
inquired。
Mrs。Hermanndidnotknowwhetheramanofthatsortcouldmakeagirlhappy——shehadbeengreatlydeceivedinCaptainFalk。Shehadbeenveryupsetlastnight。
Thosegoodpeopledidnotseemtobeabletore—
tainanimpressionforawholetwelvehours。I
assuredhimonmyownpersonalknowledgethatFalkpossessedinhimselfallthequalitiestomakehisniece’sfutureprosperous。Hesaidhewasgladtohearthis,andthathewouldtellhiswife。Thentheobjectofthevisitcameout。HewishedmetohelphimtoresumerelationswithFalk。Hisniece,hesaid,hadexpressedthehopeIwoulddosoinmykindness。HewasevidentlyanxiousthatIshould,forthoughheseemedtohaveforgottennine—tenthsofhislastnight’sopinionsandthewholeofhisin—
dignation,yetheevidentlyfearedtobesenttotheright—about。"Youtoldmehewasverymuchinlove,"heconcludedslyly,andleeredinasortofbu—
colicway。
"AssoonashehadleftmyshipIcalledFalkonboardbysignal——thetugstilllyingattheanchor—
age。Hetookthenewswithcalmgravity,asthoughhehadallalongexpectedthestarstofightforhimintheircourses。
Isawthemoncemoretogether,andonlyonce——
onthequarter—deckoftheDiana。Hermannsatsmokingwithashirt—sleevedelbowhookedoverthebackofhischair。Mrs。Hermannwassewingalone。AsFalksteppedoverthegangway,Her—
mann’sniece,withaslightswishoftheskirtandaswiftfriendlynodtome,glidedpastmychair。
Theymetinsunshineabreastofthemainmast。
Heheldherhandsandlookeddownatthem,andshelookedupathimwithhercandidandunseeingglance。Itseemedtometheyhadcometogetherasifattracted,drawnandguidedtoeachotherbyamysteriousinfluence。Theywereacompletecouple。Inhergreyfrock,palpitatingwithlife,generousofform,olympianandsimple,shewasin—
deedthesirentofascinatethatdarknavigator,thisruthlessloverofthefivesenses。FromafarI
seemedtofeelthemasculinestrengthwithwhichhegraspedthosehandsshehadextendedtohimwithawomanlyswiftness。Lena,alittlepale,nursingherbelovedlumpofdirtyrags,ranto—
wardsherbigfriend;andtheninthedrowsysi—
lenceofthegoodoldshipMrs。Hermann’svoicerangoutsochangedthatitmademespinroundinmychairtoseewhatwasthematter。
"Lena,comehere!"shescreamed。Andthisgood—naturedmatrongavemeawaveringglance,darkandfulloffearsomedistrust。Thechildranback,surprisedtoherknee。Butthetwo,stand—
ingbeforeeachotherinsunlightwithclaspedhands,hadheardnothing,hadseennothingandnoone。Threefeetawayfromthemintheshadeaseamansatonaspar,verybusysplicingastrop,anddippinghisfingersintoatar—pot,asifutterlyunawareoftheirexistence。
WhenIreturnedincommandofanothership,somefiveyearsafterwards,Mr。andMrs。Falkhadlefttheplace。IshouldnotwonderifSchom—
berg’stonguehadsucceededatlastinscaringFalkawayforgood;and,indubitably,therewasatalestillgoingaboutthetownofacertainFalk,ownerofatug,whohadwonhiswifeatcardsfromthecaptainofanEnglishship。
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