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第46章

  “ThinkILLofyou?“criedOldGrannis,“thinkILLofyou?Why,youdon’tknow——youhavenoidea——alltheseyears——livingsoclosetoyou,I——I——“hepausedsuddenly。
  Itseemedtohimasifthebeatingofhisheartwaschokinghim。
  “Ithoughtyouwerebindingyourbooksto-night,“saidMissBaker,suddenly,“andyoulookedtired。IthoughtyoulookedtiredwhenIlastsawyou,andacupoftea,youknow,it——that——thatdoesyousomuchgoodwhenyou’retired。Butyouweren’tbindingbooks。“
  “No,no,“returnedOldGrannis,drawingupachairandsittingdown。“No,I——thefactis,I’vesoldmyapparatus;
  afirmofbooksellershasboughttherightsofit。“
  “Andaren’tyougoingtobindbooksanymore?“exclaimedthelittledressmaker,ashadeofdisappointmentinhermanner。
  “Ithoughtyoualwaysdidaboutfouro’clock。IusedtohearyouwhenIwasmakingtea。“
  IthardlyseemedpossibletoMissBakerthatshewasactuallytalkingtoOldGrannis,thatthetwowerereallychattingtogether,facetoface,andwithoutthedreadfulembarrassmentthatusedtooverwhelmthembothwhentheymetonthestairs。Shehadoftendreamedofthis,buthadalwaysputitofftosomefar-distantday。Itwastocomegradually,littlebylittle,insteadof,asnow,abruptlyandwithnopreparation。Thatsheshouldpermitherselftheindiscretionofactuallyintrudingherselfintohisroomhadneversomuchasoccurredtoher。Yethereshewas,IN
  HISROOM,andtheyweretalkingtogether,andlittlebylittleherembarrassmentwaswearingaway。
  “Yes,yes,Ialwaysheardyouwhenyouweremakingtea,“
  returnedtheoldEnglishman;“Iheardtheteathings。ThenIusedtodrawmychairandmywork-tableclosetothewallonmyside,andsitthereandworkwhileyoudrankyourteajustontheotherside;andIusedtofeelveryneartoyouthen。Iusedtopassthewholeeveningthatway。“
  “And,yes——yes——Ididtoo,“sheanswered。“Iusedtomaketeajustatthattimeandsitthereforawholehour。“
  “Anddidn’tyousitclosetothepartitiononyourside?
  SometimesIwassureofit。IcouldevenfancythatIcouldhearyourdressbrushingagainstthewall-paperclosebesideme。Didn’tyousitclosetothepartition?“
  “I——Idon’tknowwhereIsat。“
  OldGrannisshylyputouthishandandtookhersasitlayuponherlap。
  “Didn’tyousitclosetothepartitiononyourside?“heinsisted。
  “No——Idon’tknow——perhaps——sometimes。Oh,yes,“sheexclaimed,withalittlegasp,“Oh,yes,Ioftendid。“
  ThenOldGrannisputhisarmabouther,andkissedherfadedcheek,thatflushedtopinkupontheinstant。
  Afterthattheyspokebutlittle。Thedaylapsedslowlyintotwilight,andthetwooldpeoplesatthereinthegrayevening,quietly,quietly,theirhandsineachother’shands,“keepingcompany,“butnowwithnothingtoseparatethem。Ithadcomeatlast。Afteralltheseyearstheyweretogether;theyunderstoodeachother。TheystoodatlengthinalittleElysiumoftheirowncreating。Theywalkedhandinhandinadeliciousgardenwhereitwasalwaysautumn。Farfromtheworldandtogethertheyentereduponthelongretardedromanceoftheircommonplaceanduneventfullives。
  CHAPTER18
  ThatsamenightMcTeaguewasawakenedbyashrillscream,andwoketofindTrina’sarmsaroundhisneck。Shewastremblingsothatthebed-springscreaked。
  “Huh?“criedthedentist,sittingupinbed,raisinghisclinchedfists。“Huh?What?What?Whatisit?Whatisit?“
  “Oh,Mac,“gaspedhiswife,“Ihadsuchanawfuldream。I
  dreamedaboutMaria。Ithoughtshewaschasingme,andI
  couldn’trun,andherthroatwas——Oh,shewasallcoveredwithblood。Oh-h,Iamsofrightened!“
  Trinahadborneupverywellforthefirstdayorsoaftertheaffair,andhadgivenhertestimonytothecoronerwithfargreatercalmnessthanHeise。Itwasonlyaweeklaterthatthehorrorofthethingcameuponheragain。Shewassonervousthatshehardlydaredtobealoneinthedaytime,andalmosteverynightwokewithacryofterror,tremblingwiththerecollectionofsomedreadfulnightmare。Thedentistwasirritatedbeyondallexpressionbyhernervousness,andespeciallywasheexasperatedwhenhercrieswokehimsuddenlyinthemiddleofthenight。Hewouldsitupinbed,rollinghiseyeswildly,throwingouthishugefists——atwhat,hedidnotknow——exclaiming,“Whatwhat——“bewilderedandhopelesslyconfused。ThenwhenherealizedthatitwasonlyTrina,hisangerkindledabruptly。
  “Oh,youandyourdreams!Yougotosleep,orI’llgiveyouadressingdown。“Sometimeshewouldhitheragreatthwackwithhisopenpalm,orcatchherhandandbitethetipsofherfingers。Trinawouldlieawakeforhoursafterward,cryingsoftlytoherself。Then,byandby,“Mac,“shewouldsaytimidly。
  “Huh?“
  “Mac,doyouloveme?“
  “Huh?What?Gotosleep。“
  “Don’tyoulovemeanymore,Mac?“
  “Oh,gotosleep。Don’tbotherme。“
  “Well,doyouLOVEme,Mac?“
  “Iguessso。“
  “Oh,Mac,I’veonlyyounow,andifyoudon’tloveme,whatisgoingtobecomeofme?“
  “Shutup,an’letmegotosleep。“
  “Well,justtellmethatyouloveme。“
  Thedentistwouldturnabruptlyawayfromher,buryinghisbigblondheadinthepillow,andcoveringuphisearswiththeblankets。ThenTrinawouldsobherselftosleep。
  Thedentisthadlongsincegivenuplookingforajob。
  BetweenbreakfastandsuppertimeTrinasawbutlittleofhim。Oncethemorningmealover,McTeaguebestirredhimself,putonhiscap——hehadgivenupwearingevenahatsincehiswifehadmadehimsellhissilkhat——andwentout。
  Hehadfallenintothehabitoftakinglongandsolitarywalksbeyondthesuburbsofthecity。SometimesitwastotheCliffHouse,occasionallytotheParkwherehewouldsitonthesun-warmedbenches,smokinghispipeandreadingraggedendsofoldnewspapers,butmoreoftenitwastothePresidioReservation。McTeaguewouldwalkouttotheendoftheUnionStreetcarline,enteringtheReservationattheterminus,thenhewouldworkdowntotheshoreofthebay,followtheshorelinetotheOldFortattheGoldenGate,and,turningthePointhere,comeoutsuddenlyuponthefullsweepofthePacific。Thenhewouldfollowthebeachdowntoacertainpointofrocksthatheknew。Herehewouldturninland,climbingthebluffstoarollinggrassydownsownwithblueirisandayellowflowerthathedidnotknowthenameof。Onthefarsideofthisdownwasabroad,well-keptroad。McTeaguewouldkeeptothisroaduntilhereachedthecityagainbythewayoftheSacramentoStreetcarline。Thedentistlovedthesewalks。Helikedtobealone。Helikedthesolitudeofthetremendous,tumblingocean;thefresh,windydowns;helikedtofeelthegustyTradesflogginghisface,andhewouldremainforhourswatchingtherollandplungeofthebreakerswiththesilent,unreasonedenjoymentofachild。Allatoncehedevelopedapassionforfishing。Hewouldsitalldaynearlymotionlessuponapointofrocks,hisfish-linebetweenhisfingers,happyifhecaughtthreeperchintwelvehours。Atnoonhewouldretiretoabitoflevelturfaroundanangleoftheshoreandcookhisfish,eatingthemwithoutsaltorknifeorfork。Hethrustapointedstickdownthemouthoftheperch,andturneditslowlyovertheblaze。Whenthegreasestoppeddripping,heknewthatitwasdone,andwoulddevouritslowlyandwithtremendousrelish,pickingthebonesclean,eatingeventhehead。HerememberedhowoftenheusedtodothissortofthingwhenhewasaboyinthemountainsofPlacerCounty,beforehebecameacar-boyatthemine。Thedentistenjoyedhimselfhugelyduringthesedays。Theinstinctsoftheold-timeminerwerereturning。InthestressofhismisfortuneMcTeaguewaslapsingbacktohisearlyestate。
  Oneeveningashereachedhomeaftersuchatramp,hewassurprisedtofindTrinastandinginfrontofwhathadbeenZerkow’shouse,lookingatitthoughtfully,herfingeronherlips。
  “Whatyoudoinghere’?“growledthedentistashecameup。
  Therewasa“Rooms-to-let“signonthestreetdoorofthehouse。
  “Nowwe’vefoundaplacetomoveto,“exclaimedTrina。
  “What?“criedMcTeague。“There,inthatdirtyhouse,whereyoufoundMaria?“
  “Ican’taffordthatroomintheflatanymore,nowthatyoucan’tgetanyworktodo。“
  “Butthere’swhereZerkowkilledMaria——theveryhouse——an’youwakeupan’squealinthenightjustthinkingofit。“
  “Iknow。Iknowitwillbebadatfirst,butI’llgetusedtoit,an’it’sjusthalfagainascheapaswherewearenow。Iwaslookingataroom;wecanhaveitdirtcheap。
  It’sabackroomoverthekitchen。AGermanfamilyaregoingtotakethefrontpartofthehouseandsublettherest。I’mgoingtotakeit。It’llbemoneyinmypocket。“
  “Butitwon’tbeanyinmine,“vociferatedthedentist,angrily。“I’llhavetoliveinthatdirtyratholejustso’syoucansavemoney。Iain’tanythebetteroffforit。“
  “Findworktodo,andthenwe’lltalk,“declaredTrina。
  “I’Mgoingtosaveupsomemoneyagainstarainyday;andifIcansavemorebylivinghereI’mgoingtodoit,evenifitisthehouseMariawaskilledin。Idon’tcare。“