“ThinkILLofyou?“criedOldGrannis,“thinkILLofyou?Why,youdon’tknow——youhavenoidea——alltheseyears——livingsoclosetoyou,I——I——“hepausedsuddenly。
Itseemedtohimasifthebeatingofhisheartwaschokinghim。
“Ithoughtyouwerebindingyourbooksto-night,“saidMissBaker,suddenly,“andyoulookedtired。IthoughtyoulookedtiredwhenIlastsawyou,andacupoftea,youknow,it——that——thatdoesyousomuchgoodwhenyou’retired。Butyouweren’tbindingbooks。“
“No,no,“returnedOldGrannis,drawingupachairandsittingdown。“No,I——thefactis,I’vesoldmyapparatus;
afirmofbooksellershasboughttherightsofit。“
“Andaren’tyougoingtobindbooksanymore?“exclaimedthelittledressmaker,ashadeofdisappointmentinhermanner。
“Ithoughtyoualwaysdidaboutfouro’clock。IusedtohearyouwhenIwasmakingtea。“
IthardlyseemedpossibletoMissBakerthatshewasactuallytalkingtoOldGrannis,thatthetwowerereallychattingtogether,facetoface,andwithoutthedreadfulembarrassmentthatusedtooverwhelmthembothwhentheymetonthestairs。Shehadoftendreamedofthis,buthadalwaysputitofftosomefar-distantday。Itwastocomegradually,littlebylittle,insteadof,asnow,abruptlyandwithnopreparation。Thatsheshouldpermitherselftheindiscretionofactuallyintrudingherselfintohisroomhadneversomuchasoccurredtoher。Yethereshewas,IN
HISROOM,andtheyweretalkingtogether,andlittlebylittleherembarrassmentwaswearingaway。
“Yes,yes,Ialwaysheardyouwhenyouweremakingtea,“
returnedtheoldEnglishman;“Iheardtheteathings。ThenIusedtodrawmychairandmywork-tableclosetothewallonmyside,andsitthereandworkwhileyoudrankyourteajustontheotherside;andIusedtofeelveryneartoyouthen。Iusedtopassthewholeeveningthatway。“
“And,yes——yes——Ididtoo,“sheanswered。“Iusedtomaketeajustatthattimeandsitthereforawholehour。“
“Anddidn’tyousitclosetothepartitiononyourside?
SometimesIwassureofit。IcouldevenfancythatIcouldhearyourdressbrushingagainstthewall-paperclosebesideme。Didn’tyousitclosetothepartition?“
“I——Idon’tknowwhereIsat。“
OldGrannisshylyputouthishandandtookhersasitlayuponherlap。
“Didn’tyousitclosetothepartitiononyourside?“heinsisted。
“No——Idon’tknow——perhaps——sometimes。Oh,yes,“sheexclaimed,withalittlegasp,“Oh,yes,Ioftendid。“
ThenOldGrannisputhisarmabouther,andkissedherfadedcheek,thatflushedtopinkupontheinstant。
Afterthattheyspokebutlittle。Thedaylapsedslowlyintotwilight,andthetwooldpeoplesatthereinthegrayevening,quietly,quietly,theirhandsineachother’shands,“keepingcompany,“butnowwithnothingtoseparatethem。Ithadcomeatlast。Afteralltheseyearstheyweretogether;theyunderstoodeachother。TheystoodatlengthinalittleElysiumoftheirowncreating。Theywalkedhandinhandinadeliciousgardenwhereitwasalwaysautumn。Farfromtheworldandtogethertheyentereduponthelongretardedromanceoftheircommonplaceanduneventfullives。
CHAPTER18
ThatsamenightMcTeaguewasawakenedbyashrillscream,andwoketofindTrina’sarmsaroundhisneck。Shewastremblingsothatthebed-springscreaked。
“Huh?“criedthedentist,sittingupinbed,raisinghisclinchedfists。“Huh?What?What?Whatisit?Whatisit?“
“Oh,Mac,“gaspedhiswife,“Ihadsuchanawfuldream。I
dreamedaboutMaria。Ithoughtshewaschasingme,andI
couldn’trun,andherthroatwas——Oh,shewasallcoveredwithblood。Oh-h,Iamsofrightened!“
Trinahadborneupverywellforthefirstdayorsoaftertheaffair,andhadgivenhertestimonytothecoronerwithfargreatercalmnessthanHeise。Itwasonlyaweeklaterthatthehorrorofthethingcameuponheragain。Shewassonervousthatshehardlydaredtobealoneinthedaytime,andalmosteverynightwokewithacryofterror,tremblingwiththerecollectionofsomedreadfulnightmare。Thedentistwasirritatedbeyondallexpressionbyhernervousness,andespeciallywasheexasperatedwhenhercrieswokehimsuddenlyinthemiddleofthenight。Hewouldsitupinbed,rollinghiseyeswildly,throwingouthishugefists——atwhat,hedidnotknow——exclaiming,“Whatwhat——“bewilderedandhopelesslyconfused。ThenwhenherealizedthatitwasonlyTrina,hisangerkindledabruptly。
“Oh,youandyourdreams!Yougotosleep,orI’llgiveyouadressingdown。“Sometimeshewouldhitheragreatthwackwithhisopenpalm,orcatchherhandandbitethetipsofherfingers。Trinawouldlieawakeforhoursafterward,cryingsoftlytoherself。Then,byandby,“Mac,“shewouldsaytimidly。
“Huh?“
“Mac,doyouloveme?“
“Huh?What?Gotosleep。“
“Don’tyoulovemeanymore,Mac?“
“Oh,gotosleep。Don’tbotherme。“
“Well,doyouLOVEme,Mac?“
“Iguessso。“
“Oh,Mac,I’veonlyyounow,andifyoudon’tloveme,whatisgoingtobecomeofme?“
“Shutup,an’letmegotosleep。“
“Well,justtellmethatyouloveme。“
Thedentistwouldturnabruptlyawayfromher,buryinghisbigblondheadinthepillow,andcoveringuphisearswiththeblankets。ThenTrinawouldsobherselftosleep。
Thedentisthadlongsincegivenuplookingforajob。
BetweenbreakfastandsuppertimeTrinasawbutlittleofhim。Oncethemorningmealover,McTeaguebestirredhimself,putonhiscap——hehadgivenupwearingevenahatsincehiswifehadmadehimsellhissilkhat——andwentout。
Hehadfallenintothehabitoftakinglongandsolitarywalksbeyondthesuburbsofthecity。SometimesitwastotheCliffHouse,occasionallytotheParkwherehewouldsitonthesun-warmedbenches,smokinghispipeandreadingraggedendsofoldnewspapers,butmoreoftenitwastothePresidioReservation。McTeaguewouldwalkouttotheendoftheUnionStreetcarline,enteringtheReservationattheterminus,thenhewouldworkdowntotheshoreofthebay,followtheshorelinetotheOldFortattheGoldenGate,and,turningthePointhere,comeoutsuddenlyuponthefullsweepofthePacific。Thenhewouldfollowthebeachdowntoacertainpointofrocksthatheknew。Herehewouldturninland,climbingthebluffstoarollinggrassydownsownwithblueirisandayellowflowerthathedidnotknowthenameof。Onthefarsideofthisdownwasabroad,well-keptroad。McTeaguewouldkeeptothisroaduntilhereachedthecityagainbythewayoftheSacramentoStreetcarline。Thedentistlovedthesewalks。Helikedtobealone。Helikedthesolitudeofthetremendous,tumblingocean;thefresh,windydowns;helikedtofeelthegustyTradesflogginghisface,andhewouldremainforhourswatchingtherollandplungeofthebreakerswiththesilent,unreasonedenjoymentofachild。Allatoncehedevelopedapassionforfishing。Hewouldsitalldaynearlymotionlessuponapointofrocks,hisfish-linebetweenhisfingers,happyifhecaughtthreeperchintwelvehours。Atnoonhewouldretiretoabitoflevelturfaroundanangleoftheshoreandcookhisfish,eatingthemwithoutsaltorknifeorfork。Hethrustapointedstickdownthemouthoftheperch,andturneditslowlyovertheblaze。Whenthegreasestoppeddripping,heknewthatitwasdone,andwoulddevouritslowlyandwithtremendousrelish,pickingthebonesclean,eatingeventhehead。HerememberedhowoftenheusedtodothissortofthingwhenhewasaboyinthemountainsofPlacerCounty,beforehebecameacar-boyatthemine。Thedentistenjoyedhimselfhugelyduringthesedays。Theinstinctsoftheold-timeminerwerereturning。InthestressofhismisfortuneMcTeaguewaslapsingbacktohisearlyestate。
Oneeveningashereachedhomeaftersuchatramp,hewassurprisedtofindTrinastandinginfrontofwhathadbeenZerkow’shouse,lookingatitthoughtfully,herfingeronherlips。
“Whatyoudoinghere’?“growledthedentistashecameup。
Therewasa“Rooms-to-let“signonthestreetdoorofthehouse。
“Nowwe’vefoundaplacetomoveto,“exclaimedTrina。
“What?“criedMcTeague。“There,inthatdirtyhouse,whereyoufoundMaria?“
“Ican’taffordthatroomintheflatanymore,nowthatyoucan’tgetanyworktodo。“
“Butthere’swhereZerkowkilledMaria——theveryhouse——an’youwakeupan’squealinthenightjustthinkingofit。“
“Iknow。Iknowitwillbebadatfirst,butI’llgetusedtoit,an’it’sjusthalfagainascheapaswherewearenow。Iwaslookingataroom;wecanhaveitdirtcheap。
It’sabackroomoverthekitchen。AGermanfamilyaregoingtotakethefrontpartofthehouseandsublettherest。I’mgoingtotakeit。It’llbemoneyinmypocket。“
“Butitwon’tbeanyinmine,“vociferatedthedentist,angrily。“I’llhavetoliveinthatdirtyratholejustso’syoucansavemoney。Iain’tanythebetteroffforit。“
“Findworktodo,andthenwe’lltalk,“declaredTrina。
“I’Mgoingtosaveupsomemoneyagainstarainyday;andifIcansavemorebylivinghereI’mgoingtodoit,evenifitisthehouseMariawaskilledin。Idon’tcare。“
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