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第5章

  Heturnedtohiswork,asifseekingarefugeinit。Butashedrewneartoheragain,thecharmofherinnocenceandhelplessnesscameoverhimafresh。Itwasafinalprotestagainsthisresolution。Suddenlyheleanedoverandkissedher,grossly,fullonthemouth。Thethingwasdonebeforeheknewit。Terrifiedathisweaknessattheverymomenthebelievedhimselfstrong,hethrewhimselfoncemoreintohisworkwithdesperateenergy。Bythetimehewasfasteningthesheetofrubberuponthetooth,hehadhimselfoncemoreinhand。Hewasdisturbed,stilltrembling,stillvibratingwiththethroesofthecrisis,buthewasthemaster;theanimalwasdowned,wascowedforthistime,atleast。
  Butforallthat,thebrutewasthere。Longdormant,itwasnowatlastalive,awake。Fromnowonhewouldfeelitspresencecontinually;wouldfeelittuggingatitschain,watchingitsopportunity。Ah,thepityofit!Whycouldhenotalwaysloveherpurely,cleanly?Whatwasthisperverse,viciousthingthatlivedwithinhim,knittedtohisflesh?
  Belowthefinefabricofallthatwasgoodinhimranthefoulstreamofhereditaryevil,likeasewer。Thevicesandsinsofhisfatherandofhisfather’sfather,tothethirdandfourthandfivehundredthgeneration,taintedhim。
  Theevilofanentireraceflowedinhisveins。Whyshoulditbe?Hedidnotdesireit。Washetoblame?
  ButMcTeaguecouldnotunderstandthisthing。Ithadfacedhim,assoonerorlateritfaceseverychildofman;butitssignificancewasnotforhim。Toreasonwithitwasbeyondhim。Hecouldonlyopposetoitaninstinctivestubbornresistance,blind,inert。
  McTeaguewentonwithhiswork。Ashewasrappinginthelittleblocksandcylinderswiththemallet,Trinaslowlycamebacktoherselfwithalongsigh。Shestillfeltalittleconfused,andlayquietinthechair。Therewasalongsilence,brokenonlybytheuneventappingofthehardwoodmallet。Byandbyshesaid,“Ineverfeltathing,“andthenshesmiledathimveryprettilybeneaththerubberdam。McTeagueturnedtohersuddenly,hismalletinonehand,hispliersholdingapelletofsponge-goldintheother。Allatoncehesaid,withtheunreasonedsimplicityanddirectnessofachild:“Listenhere,MissTrina,Ilikeyoubetterthananyoneelse;what’sthematterwithusgettingmarried?“
  Trinasatupinthechairquickly,andthendrewbackfromhim,frightenedandbewildered。
  “Willyou?Willyou?“saidMcTeague。“Say,MissTrina,willyou?“
  “Whatisit?Whatdoyoumean?“shecried,confusedly,herwordsmuffledbeneaththerubber。
  “Willyou?“repeatedMcTeague。
  “No,no,“sheexclaimed,refusingwithoutknowingwhy,suddenlyseizedwithafearofhim,theintuitivefemininefearofthemale。McTeaguecouldonlyrepeatthesamethingoverandoveragain。Trina,moreandmorefrightenedathishugehands——thehandsoftheold-timecar-boy——hisimmensesquare-cutheadandhisenormousbrutestrength,criedout:
  “No,no,“behindtherubberdam,shakingherheadviolently,holdingoutherhands,andshrinkingdownbeforehimintheoperatingchair。McTeaguecamenearertoher,repeatingthesamequestion。“No,no,“shecried,terrified。Then,assheexclaimed,“Oh,Iamsick,“wassuddenlytakenwithafitofvomiting。Itwasthenotunusualaftereffectoftheether,aidednowbyherexcitementandnervousness。
  McTeaguewaschecked。Hepouredsomebromideofpotassiumintoagraduatedglassandheldittoherlips。
  “Here,swallowthis,“hesaid。
  CHAPTER3
  OnceeverytwomonthsMariaMacapasettheentireflatincommotion。Sheroamedthebuildingfromgarrettocellar,searchingeachcorner,ferretingthrougheveryoldboxandtrunkandbarrel,gropingaboutonthetopshelvesofclosets,peeringintorag-bags,exasperatingthelodgerswithherpersistenceandimportunity。Shewascollectingjunks,bitsofiron,stonejugs,glassbottles,oldsacks,andcast-offgarments。Itwasoneofherperquisites。ShesoldthejunktoZerkow,therags-bottles-sacksman,wholivedinafilthydeninthealleyjustbackoftheflat,andwhosometimespaidherasmuchasthreecentsapound。
  Thestonejugs,however,wereworthanickel。ThemoneythatZerkowpaidher,Mariaspentonshirtwaistsanddottedblueneckties,tryingtodresslikethegirlswhotendedthesoda-waterfountaininthecandystoreonthecorner。Shewassickwithenvyoftheseyoungwomen。Theywereintheworld,theywereelegant,theyweredebonair,theyhadtheir“youngmen。“
  OnthisoccasionshepresentedherselfatthedoorofOldGrannis’sroomlateintheafternoon。Hisdoorstoodalittleopen。ThatofMissBakerwasajarafewinches。Thetwooldpeoplewere“keepingcompany“aftertheirfashion。
  “Gotanyjunk,MisterGrannis?“inquiredMaria,standinginthedoor,averydirty,half-filledpillowcaseoveronearm。
  “No,nothing——nothingthatIcanthinkof,Maria,“repliedOldGrannis,terriblyvexedattheinterruption,yetnotwishingtobeunkind。“NothingIthinkof。Yet,however——
  perhaps——ifyouwishtolook。“
  Hesatinthemiddleoftheroombeforeasmallpinetable。
  Hislittlebindingapparatuswasbeforehim。Inhisfingerswasahugeupholsterer’sneedlethreadedwithtwine,abrad-
  awllayathiselbow,onthefloorbesidehimwasagreatpileofpamphlets,thepagesuncut。OldGrannisboughtthe“Nation“andthe“BreederandSportsman。“Inthelatterheoccasionallyfoundarticlesondogswhichinterestedhim。
  Theformerheseldomread。Hecouldnotaffordtosubscriberegularlytoeitherofthepublications,butpurchasedtheirbacknumbersbythescore,almostsolelyforthepleasurehetookinbindingthem。
  “Whatyoualussewingupthembooksfor,MisterGrannis?“
  askedMaria,asshebeganrummagingaboutinOldGrannis’sclosetshelves。“There’sjusthundredsof’eminhereonyershelves;theyain’tnogoodtoyou。“
  “Well,well,“answeredOldGrannis,timidly,rubbinghischin,“I——I’msureIcan’tquitesay;alittlehabit,youknow;adiversion,a——a——itoccupiesone,youknow。Idon’tsmoke;ittakestheplaceofapipe,perhaps。“
  “Here’sthisoldyellowpitcher,“saidMaria,comingoutoftheclosetwithitinherhand。“Thehandle’scracked;youdon’twantit;bettergivemeit。“
  OldGrannisdidwantthepitcher;true,heneveruseditnow,buthehadkeptitalongtime,andsomehowheheldtoitasoldpeopleholdtotrivial,worthlessthingsthattheyhavehadformanyyears。
  “Oh,thatpitcher——well,Maria,I——Idon’tknow。I’mafraid——yousee,thatpitcher——“
  “Ah,go’long,“interruptedMariaMacapa,“what’sthegoodofit?“
  “Ifyouinsist,Maria,butIwouldmuchrather——“herubbedhischin,perplexedandannoyed,hatingtorefuse,andwishingthatMariaweregone。
  “Why,what’sthegoodofit?“persistedMaria。Hecouldgivenosufficientanswer。“That’sallright,“sheasserted,carryingthepitcherout。
  “Ah——Maria——Isay,you——youmightleavethedoor——ah,don’tquiteshutit——it’sabitcloseinhereattimes。“Mariagrinned,andswungthedoorwide。OldGranniswashorriblyembarrassed;positively,Mariawasbecomingunbearable。
  “Gotanyjunk?“criedMariaatMissBaker’sdoor。Thelittleoldladywassittingclosetothewallinherrocking-chair;herhandsrestingidlyinherlap。
  “Now,Maria,“shesaidplaintively,“youarealwaysafterjunk;youknowIneverhaveanythinglaying’roundlikethat。“
  Itwastrue。Theretireddressmaker’stinyroomwasamarvelofneatness,fromthelittleredtable,withitsthreeGorhamspoonslaidinexactparallels,tothedecorousgeraniumsandmignonettesgrowinginthestarchboxatthewindow,underneaththefishglobewithitsonevenerablegoldfish。ThatdayMissBakerhadbeendoingabitofwashing;twopockethandkerchiefs,stillmoist,adheredtothewindowpanes,dryinginthesun。
  “Oh,Iguessyougotsomethingyoudon’twant,“Mariawenton,peeringintothecornersoftheroom。“Look-a-herewhatMisterGrannisgi’me,“andsheheldouttheyellowpitcher。
  InstantlyMissBakerwasinaquiverofconfusion。Everywordspokenaloudcouldbeperfectlyheardinthenextroom。
  WhatastupiddrabwasthisMaria!Couldanythingbemoretryingthanthisposition?
  “Ain’tthatright,MisterGrannis?“calledMaria;“didn’tyougi’methispitcher?“OldGrannisaffectednottohear;
  perspirationstoodonhisforehead;histimidityovercamehimasifhewereaten-year-oldschoolboy。Hehalfrosefromhischair,hisfingersdancingnervouslyuponhischin。
  MariaopenedMissBaker’sclosetunconcernedly。“What’sthematterwiththeseoldshoes?“sheexclaimed,turningaboutwithapairofhalf-wornsilkgaitersinherhand。Theywerebynomeansoldenoughtothrowaway,butMissBakerwasalmostbesideherself。Therewasnotellingwhatmighthappennext。HeronlythoughtwastoberidofMaria。
  “Yes,yes,anything。Youcanhavethem;butgo,go。There’snothingelse,notathing。“
  Mariawentoutintothehall,leavingMissBaker’sdoorwideopen,asifmaliciously。Shehadleftthedirtypillow-caseonthefloorinthehall,andshestoodoutside,betweenthetwoopendoors,stowingawaytheoldpitcherandthehalf-
  wornsilkshoes。Shemaderemarksatthetopofhervoice,callingnowtoMissBaker,nowtoOldGrannis。Inawayshebroughtthetwooldpeoplefacetoface。Eachtimetheywereforcedtoanswerherquestionsitwasasiftheyweretalkingdirectlytoeachother。
  “Theseherearefirst-rateshoes,MissBaker。Lookhere,MisterGrannis,getontotheshoesMissBakergi’me。Youain’tgotapairyoudon’twant,haveyou?Youtwopeoplehavelessjunkthananyoneelseintheflat。Howdoyoumanage,MisterGrannis?Youoldbachelorsarejustlikeoldmaids,justasneataspins。Youtwoarejustalike——youandMisterGrannis——ain’tyou,MissBaker?“