Butfartheron,acrosstheyellowwatersofthebay,beyondGoatIsland,laySanFrancisco,abluelineofhills,ruggedwithroofsandspires。FartothewestwardopenedtheGoldenGate,ableakcuttinginthesand-hills,throughwhichonecaughtaglimpseoftheopenPacific。
ThestationatBStreetwassolitary;notrainspassedatthishour;exceptthedistantrag-pickers,notasoulwasinsight。Thewindblewstrong,carryingwithitthemingledsmellofsalt,oftar,ofdeadseaweed,andofbilge。Theskyhunglowandbrown;atlongintervalsafewdropsofrainfell。
NearthestationTrinaandMcTeaguesatontheroadbedofthetracks,attheedgeofthemudbank,makingthemostoutofthelandscape,enjoyingtheopenair,thesaltmarshes,andthesightofthedistantwater。FromtimetotimeMcTeagueplayedhissixmournfulairsuponhisconcertina。
Afterawhiletheybeganwalkingupanddownthetracks,McTeaguetalkingabouthisprofession,Trinalistening,veryinterestedandabsorbed,tryingtounderstand。
“Forpullingtherootsoftheuppermolarsweusethecow-
hornforceps,“continuedthedentist,monotonously。“Wegettheinsidebeakoverthepalatalrootsandthecow-hornbeakoverthebuccalroots——that’stherootsontheoutside,yousee。Thenweclosetheforceps,andthatbreaksrightthroughthealveolus——that’sthepartofthesocketinthejaw,youunderstand。“
Atanothermomenthetoldherofhisoneunsatisfieddesire。
“SomedayI’mgoingtohaveabiggildedtoothoutsidemywindowforasign。Thosebiggoldteetharebeautiful,beautiful——onlytheycostsomuch,Ican’taffordonejustnow。“
“Oh,it’sraining,“suddenlyexclaimedTrina,holdingoutherpalm。Theyturnedbackandreachedthestationinadrizzle。Theafternoonwasclosingindarkandrainy。Thetidewascomingback,talkingandlappingformilesalongthemudbank。Faroffacrosstheflats,attheedgeofthetown,anelectriccarwentby,stringingoutalongrowofdiamondsparksontheoverheadwires。
“Say,MissTrina,“saidMcTeague,afterawhile,“what’sthegoodofwaitinganylonger?Whycan’tustwogetmarried?“
Trinastillshookherhead,saying“No“instinctively,inspiteofherself。
“Whynot?“persistedMcTeague。“Don’tyoulikemewellenough?“
“Yes。“
“Thenwhynot?“
“Because。“
“Ah,comeon,“hesaid,butTrinastillshookherhead。
“Ah,comeon,“urgedMcTeague。Hecouldthinkofnothingelsetosay,repeatingthesamephraseoverandoveragaintoallherrefusals。
“Ah,comeon!Ah,comeon!“
Suddenlyhetookherinhisenormousarms,crushingdownherstrugglewithhisimmensestrength。ThenTrinagaveup,allinaninstant,turningherheadtohis。Theykissedeachother,grossly,fullinthemouth。
Aroarandajarringoftheearthsuddenlygrewnearandpassedtheminareekofsteamandhotair。ItwastheOverland,withitsflamingheadlight,onitswayacrossthecontinent。
Thepassageofthetrainstartledthemboth。TrinastruggledtofreeherselffromMcTeague。“Oh,please!
please!“shepleaded,onthepointoftears。McTeaguereleasedher,butinthatmomentaslight,abarelyperceptible,revulsionoffeelinghadtakenplaceinhim。
TheinstantthatTrinagaveup,theinstantsheallowedhimtokissher,hethoughtlessofher。Shewasnotsodesirable,afterall。Butthisreactionwassofaint,sosubtle,sointangible,thatinanothermomenthehaddoubteditsoccurrence。Yetafterwarditreturned。WastherenotsomethinggonefromTrinanow?Washenotdisappointedinherfordoingthatverythingforwhichhehadlonged?WasTrinathesubmissive,thecompliant,theattainablejustthesame,justasdelicateandadorableasTrinatheinaccessible?Perhapshedimlysawthatthismustbeso,thatitbelongedtothechangelessorderofthings——themandesiringthewomanonlyforwhatshewithholds;thewomanworshippingthemanforthatwhichsheyieldsuptohim。
Witheachconcessiongainedtheman’sdesirecools;witheverysurrendermadethewoman’sadorationincreases。Butwhyshoulditbeso?
TrinawrenchedherselffreeanddrewbackfromMcTeague,herlittlechinquivering;herface,eventothelobesofherpaleears,flushedscarlet;hernarrowblueeyesbrimming。
Suddenlysheputherheadbetweenherhandsandbegantosob。
“Say,say,MissTrina,listen——listenhere,MissTrina,“
criedMcTeague,comingforwardastep。
“Oh,don’t!“shegasped,shrinking。“Imustgohome,“shecried,springingtoherfeet。“It’slate。Imust。Imust。
Don’tcomewithme,please。Oh,I’mso——so,“——shecouldnotfindanywords。“Letmegoalone,“shewenton。“Youmay——
youcomeSunday。Good-by。“
“Good-by,“saidMcTeague,hisheadinawhirlatthissudden,unaccountablechange。“Can’tIkissyouagain?“
ButTrinawasfirmnow。Whenitcametohispleading——amerematterofwords——shewasstrongenough。
“No,no,youmustnot!“sheexclaimed,withenergy。Shewasgoneinanotherinstant。Thedentist,stunned,bewildered,gazedstupidlyafterherassheranuptheextensionofB
Streetthroughtherain。
Butsuddenlyagreatjoytookpossessionofhim。Hehadwonher。Trinawastobeforhim,afterall。Anenormoussmiledistendedhisthicklips;hiseyesgrewwide,andflashed;
andhedrewhisbreathquickly,strikinghismallet-likefistuponhisknee,andexclaimingunderhisbreath:
“Igother,byGod!Igother,byGod!“Atthesametimehethoughtbetterofhimself;hisself-respectincreasedenormously。ThemanthatcouldwinTrinaSieppewasamanofextraordinaryability。
Trinaburstinuponhermotherwhilethelatterwassettingamousetrapinthekitchen。
“Oh,mamma!“
“Eh?Trina?Ach,whathashappun?“
Trinatoldherinabreath。
“Sohsoon?“wasMrs。Sieppe’sfirstcomment。“Eh,well,whatyoucryfor,then?“
“Idon’tknow,“wailedTrina,pluckingattheendofherhandkerchief。
“Youloafderyoungedoktor?“
“Idon’tknow。“
“Well,whatforyoukisshim?“
“Idon’tknow。“
“Youdon’know,youdon’know?Wherehafyoursensusgone,Trina?Youkissderdoktor。Youcry,andyoudon’know。
IsutMarcusden?“
“No,it’snotCousinMark。“
“Denutmustbederdoktor。“
Trinamadenoanswer。
“Eh?“
“I——Iguessso。“
“Youloafhim?“
“Idon’tknow。“
Mrs。Sieppesetdownthemousetrapwithsuchviolencethatitsprungwithasharpsnap。
CHAPTER6
No,Trinadidnotknow。“DoIlovehim?DoIlovehim?“A
thousandtimessheputthequestiontoherselfduringthenexttwoorthreedays。Atnightshehardlyslept,butlaybroadawakeforhoursinherlittle,gaylypaintedbed,withitswhitenetting,torturingherselfwithdoubtsandquestions。Attimessherememberedthesceneinthestationwithaveritableagonyofshame,andatothertimesshewasashamedtorecallitwithathrillofjoy。Nothingcouldhavebeenmoresudden,moreunexpected,thanthatsurrenderofherself。ForoverayearshehadthoughtthatMarcuswouldsomedaybeherhusband。Theywouldbemarried,shesupposed,sometimeinthefuture,shedidnotknowexactlywhen;thematterdidnottakedefiniteshapeinhermind。ShelikedCousinMarkverywell。Andthensuddenlythiscross-currenthadsetin;thisblondgianthadappeared,thishuge,stolidfellow,withhisimmense,crudestrength。Shehadnotlovedhimatfirst,thatwascertain。
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