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第62章

  `Ido,Ido!Cleverwoman!Butyoumustbepreparedfortheconsequences。’
  Puttinghisarmroundhershouldershekissedherthereandthen。
  `Don’tdon’t,’shewhispered,laughinggood-humouredly。`Mymanwillhear。’
  Shelethimoutofthehouse,andasshewentbackshesaidtoherself:`Well!Weakwomenmustprovideforarainyday。Andifmypoorfellowupstairsdogooff-asIsupposehewillsoon-it’swelltokeepchancesopen。AndIcan’tpickandchoosenowasIcouldwhenIwasyounger。
  Andonemusttaketheoldifonecan’tgettheyoung。’
  JudetheObscureChapter53VI-xiThelastpagestowhichthechronicleroftheseliveswouldaskthereader’sattentionareconcernedwiththesceneinandoutofJude’sbedroomwhenleafysummercameroundagain。
  Hisfacewasnowsothinthathisoldfriendswouldhardlyhaveknownhim。Itwasafternoon,andArabellawasatthelooking-glasscurlingherhair,whichoperationsheperformedbyheatinganumbrella-stayintheflameofacandleshehadlighted,andusingitupontheflowinglock。
  Whenshehadfinishedthis,practisedadimple,andputonherthings,shecasthereyesrounduponJude。Heseemedtobesleeping,thoughhispositionwasanelevatedone,hismaladypreventinghimlyingdown。
  Arabella,hatted,gloved,andready,satdownandwaited,asifexpectingsomeonetocomeandtakeherplaceasnurse。
  Certainsoundsfromwithoutrevealedthatthetownwasinfestivity,thoughlittleofthefestival,whateveritmighthavebeen,couldbeseenhere。Bellsbegantoring,andthenotescameintotheroomthroughtheopenwindow,andtravelledroundJude’sheadinahum。Theymadeherrestless,andatlastshesaidtoherself:`Whyeverdoesn’tFathercome!’
  ShelookedagainatJude,criticallygaugedhisebbinglife,asshehaddonesomanytimesduringthelatemonths,andglancingathiswatch,whichwashungupbywayoftimepiece,roseimpatiently。Stillheslept,andcomingtoaresolutionsheslippedfromtheroom,closedthedoornoiselessly,anddescendedthestairs。Thehousewasempty。TheattractionwhichmovedArabellatogoabroadhadevidentlydrawnawaytheotherinmateslongbefore。
  Itwasawarm,cloudless,enticingday。Sheshutthefrontdoor,andhastenedroundintoChiefStreet,andwhennearthetheatrecouldhearthenotesoftheorgan,arehearsalforacomingconcertbeinginprogress。
  SheenteredunderthearchwayofOldgateCollege,wheremenwereputtingupawningsroundthequadrangleforaballinthehallthatevening。Peoplewhohadcomeupfromthecountryforthedaywerepicnickingonthegrass,andArabellawalkedalongthegravelpathsandundertheagedlimes。Butfindingthisplaceratherdullshereturnedtothestreets,andwatchedthecarriagesdrawingupfortheconcert,numerousdonsandtheirwives,andundergraduateswithgayfemalecompanions,crowdinguplikewise。Whenthedoorswereclosed,andtheconcertbegan,shemovedon。
  Thepowerfulnotesofthatconcertrolledforththroughtheswingingyellowblindsoftheopenwindows,overthehousetops,andintothestillairofthelanes。TheyreachedsofarastotheroominwhichJudelay;
  anditwasaboutthistimethathiscoughbeganagainandawakenedhim。
  Assoonashecouldspeakhemurmured,hiseyesstillclosed:
  `Alittlewater,please。’
  Nothingbutthedesertedroomreceivedhisappeal,andhecoughedtoexhaustionagain-sayingstillmorefeebly:`Water-somewater-Sue-Arabella!’
  Theroomremainedstillasbefore。Presentlyhegaspedagain:
  `Throat-water-Sue-darling-dropofwater-please-ohplease!’
  Nowatercame,andtheorgannotes,faintasabee’shum,rolledinasbefore。
  Whileheremained,hisfacechanging,shoutsandhurrahscamefromsomewhereinthedirectionoftheriver。
  `Ah-yes!TheRemembrancegames,’hemurmured。`AndIhere。AndSuedefiled!’
  Thehurrahswererepeated,drowningthefaintorgannotes。Jude’sfacechangedmore:hewhisperedslowly,hisparchedlipsscarcelymoving:
  `LetthedayperishwhereinIwasborn,andthenightinwhichitwassaid,thereisAman-childconceived。’
  `Hurrah!’
  `Letthatdaybedarkness;letnotgodregarditfromabove,neitherletthelightshineuponit。Lo,letthatnightbesolitary,letnojoyfulvoicecometherein。’
  `Hurrah!’
  `WhydiedInotfromthewomb?WhydidInotgiveuptheghostwhenIcameoutofthebelly?……FornowshouldIhavelainstillandbeenquiet。Ishouldhaveslept:thenhadIbeenatrest!’
  `Hurrah!’
  `Theretheprisonersresttogether;theyhearnotthevoiceoftheoppressor……thesmallandthegreatarethere;andtheservantisfreefromhismaster。Whereforeislightgiventohimthatisinmisery,andlifeuntothebitterinsoul?’
  MeanwhileArabella,inherjourneytodiscoverwhatwasgoingon,tookashortcutdownanarrowstreetandthroughanobscurenookintothequadofCardinal。Itwasfullofbustle,andbrilliantinthesunlightwithflowersandotherpreparationsforaballherealso。Acarpenternoddedtoher,onewhohadformerlybeenafellow-workmanofJude’s。Acorridorwasincourseoferectionfromtheentrancetothehallstaircase,ofgayredandbuffbunting。Waggon-loadsofboxescontainingbrightplantsinfullbloomwerebeingplacedabout,andthegreatstaircasewascoveredwithredcloth。Shenoddedtooneworkmanandanother,andascendedtothehallonthestrengthoftheiracquaintance,wheretheywereputtingdownanewflooranddecoratingforthedance。
  Thecathedralbellcloseathandwassoundingforfiveo’clockservice。
  `Ishouldnotmindhavingaspintherewithafellow’sarmroundmywaist,’shesaidtooneofthemen。`ButLord,Imustbegettinghomeagain-there’salottodo。Nodancingforme!’
  WhenshereachedhomeshewasmetatthedoorbyStagg,andoneortwootherofJude’sfellowstoneworkers。`Wearejustgoingdowntotheriver,’saidtheformer,`toseetheboat-bumping。Butwe’vecalledroundonourwaytoaskhowyourhusbandis。’
  `He’ssleepingnicely,thankyou,’saidArabella。
  `That’sright。Wellnow,can’tyougiveyourselfhalfanhour’srelaxation,Mrs。Fawley,andcomealongwithus?’Twoulddoyougood。’
  `Ishouldliketogo,’saidshe。`I’veneverseentheboat-racing,andIhearitisgoodfun。’
  `Comealong!’
  `HowIwishIcould!’Shelookedlonginglydownthestreet。
  `Waitaminute,then。I’lljustrunupandseehowheisnow。Fatheriswithhim,Ibelieve;soIcanmostlikelycome。’
  Theywaited,andsheentered。Downstairstheinmateswereabsentasbefore,having,infact,goneinabodytotheriverwheretheprocessionofboatswastopass。Whenshereachedthebedroomshefoundthatherfatherhadnotevennowcome。
  `Whycouldn’thehavebeenhere!’shesaidimpatiently。`Hewantstoseetheboatshimself-that’swhatitis!’
  However,onlookingroundtothebedshebrightened,forshesawthatJudewasapparentlysleeping,thoughhewasnotintheusualhalf-elevatedposturenecessitatedbyhiscough。Hehadslippeddown,andlayflat。A
  secondglancecausedhertostart,andshewenttothebed。Hisfacewasquitewhite,andgraduallybecomingrigid。Shetouchedhisfingers;theywerecold,thoughhisbodywasstillwarm。Shelistenedathischest。Allwasstillwithin。Thebumpingofnearthirtyyearshadceased。
  Afterherfirstappalledsenseofwhathadhappenedthefaintnotesofamilitaryorotherbrassbandfromtheriverreachedherears;
  andinaprovokedtonesheexclaimed,`Tothinkheshoulddiejustnow!
  Whydidhediejustnow!’Thenmeditatinganothermomentortwoshewenttothedoor,softlycloseditasbefore,andagaindescendedthestairs。
  `Heresheis!’saidoneoftheworkmen。`Wewonderedifyouwerecomingafterall。Comealong;wemustbequicktogetagoodplace……
  Well,howishe?Sleepingwellstill?Ofcourse,wedon’twanttodrag’eeawayif-’
  `Ohyes-sleepingquitesound。Hewon’twakeyet,’shesaidhurriedly。
  TheywentwiththecrowddownCardinalStreet,wheretheypresentlyreachedthebridge,andthegaybargesburstupontheirview。Thencetheypassedbyanarrowslitdowntotheriversidepath-nowdusty,hot,andthronged。Almostassoonastheyhadarrivedthegrandprocessionofboatsbegan;theoarssmackingwithaloudkissonthefaceofthestream,astheywereloweredfromtheperpendicular。
  `Oh,Isay-howjolly!I’mgladI’vecome,’saidArabella。`And-itcan’thurtmyhusband-mybeingaway。’
  Ontheoppositesideoftheriver,onthecrowdedbarges,weregorgeousnosegaysoffemininebeauty,fashionablyarrayedingreen,pink,blue,andwhite。Theblueflagoftheboatclubdenotedthecentreofinterest,beneathwhichabandinreduniformgaveoutthenotesshehadalreadyheardinthedeath-chamber。Collegiansofallsorts,incanoeswithladies,watchingkeenlyfor`our’boat,dartedupanddown。WhilesheregardedthelivelyscenesomebodytouchedArabellaintheribs,andlookingroundshesawVilbert。
  `Thatphiltreisoperating,youknow!’hesaidwithaleer。`Shameon’eetowreckaheartso!’
  `Ishan’ttalkofloveto-day。’
  `Whynot?Itisageneralholiday。’
  Shedidnotreply。Vilbert’sarmstoleroundherwaist,whichactcouldbeperformedunobservedinthecrowd。AnarchexpressionoverspreadArabella’sfaceatthefeelofthearm,butshekepthereyesontheriverasifshedidnotknowoftheembrace。
  Thecrowdsurged,pushingArabellaandherfriendssometimesnearlyintotheriver,andshewouldhavelaughedheartilyatthehorse-playthatsucceeded,iftheimprintonhermind’seyeofapale,statuesquecountenanceshehadlatelygazeduponhadnotsoberedheralittle。
  Thefunonthewaterreachedtheacmeofexcitement;therewereimmersions,therewereshouts:theracewaslostandwon,thepinkandblueandyellowladiesretiredfromthebarges,andthepeoplewhohadwatchedbegantomove。
  `Well-it’sbeenawfullygood,’criedArabella。`ButIthinkImustgetbacktomypoorman。Fatheristhere,sofarasIknow;butIhadbettergetback。’
  `What’syourhurry?’
  `Well,Imustgo……Dear,dear,thisisawkward!’
  Atthenarrowgangwaywherethepeopleascendedfromtheriversidepathtothebridgethecrowdwasliterallyjammedintoonehotmass-ArabellaandVilbertwiththerest;andheretheyremainedmotionless,Arabellaexclaiming,`Dear,dear!’moreandmoreimpatiently;forithadjustoccurredtohermindthatifJudewerediscoveredtohavediedaloneaninquestmightbedeemednecessary。
  `Whatafidgetyouare,mylove,’saidthephysician,who,beingpressedcloseagainstherbythethrong,hadnoneedofpersonaleffortforcontact。`Justaswellhavepatience:there’snogettingawayyet!’
  Itwasnearlytenminutesbeforethewedgedmultitudemovedsufficientlytoletthempassthrough。AssoonasshegotupintothestreetArabellahastenedon,forbiddingthephysiciantoaccompanyherfurtherthatday。
  Shedidnotgostraighttoherhouse;buttotheabodeofawomanwhoperformedthelastnecessaryofficesforthepoorerdead;wheresheknocked。
  `Myhusbandhasjustgone,poorsoul,’shesaid。`Canyoucomeandlayhimout?’
  Arabellawaitedafewminutes;andthetwowomenwentalong,elbowingtheirwaythroughthestreamoffashionablepeoplepouringoutofCardinalmeadow,andbeingnearlyknockeddownbythecarriages。
  `Imustcallatthesexton’saboutthebell,too,’saidArabella。
  `Itisjustroundhere,isn’tit?I’llmeetyouatmydoor。’
  Byteno’clockthatnightJudewaslyingonthebedsteadathislodgingcoveredwithasheet,andstraightasanarrow。Throughthepartlyopenedwindowthejoyousthrobofawaltzenteredfromtheball-roomatCardinal。
  Twodayslater,whentheskywasequallycloudless,andtheairequallystill,twopersonsstoodbesideJude’sopencoffininthesamelittlebedroom。OnonesidewasArabella,ontheothertheWidowEdlin。
  TheywerebothlookingatJude’sface,thewornoldeyelidsofMrs。Edlinbeingred。
  `Howbeautifulheis!’saidshe。
  `Yes。He’sa’andsomecorpse,’saidArabella。
  Thewindowwasstillopentoventilatetheroom,anditbeingaboutnoontidetheclearairwasmotionlessandquietwithout。Fromadistancecamevoices;andanapparentnoiseofpersonsstamping。
  `What’sthat?’murmuredtheoldwoman。
  `Oh,that’sthedoctorsinthetheatre,conferringhonorarydegreesontheDukeofHamptonshireandalotmoreillustriousgentsofthatsort。
  It’sRemembranceWeek,youknow。Thecheerscomefromtheyoungmen。’
  `Aye;youngandstrong-lunged!Notlikeourpoorboyhere。’
  Anoccasionalword,asfromsomeonemakingaspeech,floatedfromtheopenwindowsofthetheatreacrosstothisquietcorner,atwhichthereseemedtobeasmileofsomesortuponthemarblefeaturesofJude;
  whiletheold,superseded,DelphineditionsofVirgilandHorace,andthedog-earedGreekTestamentontheneighbouringshelf,andthefewothervolumesofthesortthathehadnotpartedwith,roughenedwithstone-dustwherehehadbeeninthehabitofcatchingthemupforafewminutesbetweenhislabours,seemedtopaletoasicklycastatthesounds。Thebellsstruckoutjoyously;andtheirreverberationstravelledroundthebed-room。
  Arabella’seyesremovedfromJudetoMrs。Edlin。`D’yethinkshewillcome?’sheasked。
  `Icouldnotsay。Shesworenottoseehimagain。’
  `Howisshelooking?’
  `Tiredandmiserable,poorheart。Yearsandyearsolderthanwhenyousawherlast。Quiteastaid,wornwomannow。’Tistheman-shecan’tstomachun,evennow!’
  `IfJudehadbeenalivetoseeher,hewouldhardlyhavecaredforheranymore,perhaps。’
  `That’swhatwedon’tknow……Didn’theeveraskyoutosendforher,sincehecametoseeherinthatstrangeway?’
  `No。Quitethecontrary。Iofferedtosend,andhesaidIwasnottoletherknowhowillhewas。’
  `Didheforgiveher?’
  `NotasIknow。’
  `Well-poorlittlething,’tistobebelievedshe’sfoundforgivenesssomewhere!Shesaidshehadfoundpeace!
  `Shemayswearthatonherkneestotheholycrossuponhernecklacetillshe’shoarse,butitwon’tbetrue!’saidArabella。`She’sneverfoundpeacesinceshelefthisarms,andneverwillagaintillshe’sasheisnow!