anditwaswithasenseoffutilitythathethrewintohisbasketuponhistoolsandothernecessariestheunreadbookhehadbroughtwithhim。
Hekepthisimpassioneddoingsasecretalmostfromhimself。Arabella,onthecontrary,madethempublicamongallherfriendsandacquaintance。
Retracingbythelightofdawntheroadhehadfollowedafewhoursearlierundercoverofdarkness,withhissweetheartbyhisside,hereachedthebottomofthehill,wherehewalkedslowly,andstoodstill。
Hewasonthespotwherehehadgivenherthefirstkiss。Asthesunhadonlyjustrisenitwaspossiblethatnobodyhadpassedtheresince。Judelookedonthegroundandsighed。Helookedclosely,andcouldjustdiscerninthedampdusttheimprintsoftheirfeetastheyhadstoodlockedineachother’sarms。Shewasnottherenow,and`theembroideryofimaginationuponthestuffofnature’sodepictedherpastpresencethatavoidwasinhisheartwhichnothingcouldfill。Apollardwillowstoodclosetotheplace,andthatwillowwasdifferentfromallotherwillowsintheworld。Utterannihilationofthesixdayswhichmustelapsebeforehecouldseeheragainashehadpromisedwouldhavebeenhisintensestwishifhehadhadonlytheweektolive。
AnhourandahalflaterArabellacamealongthesamewaywithhertwocompanionsoftheSaturday。Shepassedunheedinglythesceneofthekiss,andthewillowthatmarkedit,thoughchatteringfreelyonthesubjecttotheothertwo。
`Andwhatdidhetell’eenext?’
`Thenhesaid-`Andsherelatedalmostwordforwordsomeofhistenderestspeeches。IfJudehadbeenbehindthefencehewouldhavefeltnotalittlesurprisedatlearninghowveryfewofhissayingsanddoingsonthepreviouseveningwereprivate。
`You’vegothimtocarefor’eeabit,’nationifyouhan’t!’
murmuredAnnyjudicially。`It’swelltobeyou!’
InafewmomentsArabellarepliedinacuriouslylow,hungrytoneoflatentsensuousness:`I’vegothimtocareforme:yes!ButIwanthimtomorethancareforme;Iwanthimtohaveme-tomarryme!Imusthavehim。Ican’tdowithouthim。He’sthesortofmanIlongfor。IshallgomadifIcan’tgivemyselftohimaltogether!IfeltIshouldwhenIfirstsawhim!’
`Asheisaromancing,straightfor’ard,honestchap,he’stobehad,andasahusband,ifyousetaboutcatchinghimintherightway。’
Arabellaremainedthinkingawhile。`Whatmedbetherightway?’
sheasked。
`Ohyoudon’tknow-youdon’t!’saidSarah,thethirdgirl。
`OnmywordIdon’t!-Nofurther,thatis,thanbyplaincourting,andtakingcarehedon’tgotoofar!’
Thethirdgirllookedatthesecond。`Shedon’tknow!’
`’Tisclearshedon’t!’saidAnny。
`Andhavinglivedinatown,too,asonemaysay!Well,wecanteach’eesom’atthen,aswellasyouus。’
`Yes。Andhowdoyoumean-asurewaytogainaman?Takemeforaninnocent,andhavedonewi’it!’
`Asahusband。’
`Asahusband。’
`Acountrymanthat’shonourableandserious-mindedsuchashe;
GodforbidthatIshouldsayasojer,orsailor,orcommercialgentfromthetowns,oranyofthemthatbeslipperywithpoorwomen!I’ddonofriendthatharm!’
`Well,suchashe,ofcourse!’
Arabella’scompanionslookedateachother,andturninguptheireyesindrollerybegansmirking。ThenonewentupclosetoArabella,and,althoughnobodywasnear,impartedsomeinformationinalowtone,theotherobservingcuriouslytheeffectuponArabella。
`Ah!’saidthelast-namedslowly。`IownIdidn’tthinkofthatway!……Butsupposeheisn’thonourable?Awomanhadbetternothavetriedit!’
`Nothingventurenothinghave!Besides,youmakesurethathe’shonourablebeforeyoubegin。You’dbesafeenoughwithyours。IwishI
hadthechance!Lotsofgirlsdoit;ordoyouthinkthey’dgetmarriedatall?’
Arabellapursuedherwayinsilentthought。`I’lltryit!’shewhispered;butnottothem。
FootnoteIntheprintedbookthisisGreek:eta,kappa,alpha,iota,nu,eta,delta,iota,alpha,theta,eta,kappa,etaJudetheObscureChapter08I-viiiOneweek’sendJudewasasusualwalkingouttohisaunt’satMarygreenfromhislodginginAlfredston,awalkwhichnowhadlargeattractionsforhimquiteotherthanhisdesiretoseehisagedandmoroserelative。
Hedivergedtotherightbeforeascendingthehillwiththesinglepurposeofgaining,onhisway,aglimpseofArabellathatshouldnotcomeintothereckoningofregularappointments。Beforequitereachingthehomesteadhisalerteyeperceivedthetopofherheadmovingquicklyhitherandthitheroverthegardenhedge。Enteringthegatehefoundthatthreeyoungunfattenedpigshadescapedfromtheirstybyleapingcleanoverthetop,andthatshewasendeavouringunassistedtodrivetheminthroughthedoorwhichshehadsetopen。ThelinesofhercountenancechangedfromtherigidityofbusinesstothesoftnessoflovewhenshesawJude,andshebenthereyeslanguishinglyuponhim。Theanimalstookavantageofthepausebydoublingandboltingoutoftheway。
`Theywereonlyputinthismorning!’shecried,stimulatedtopursueinspiteofherlover’spresence。TheyweredrovefromSpaddleholtFarmonlyyesterday,whereFatherbought’ematastiffpriceenough。Theyarewantingtogethomeagain,thestupidtoads!Willyoushutthegardengate,dear,andhelpmetoget’emin。Therearenomenfolkathome,onlyMother,andthey’llbelostifwedon’tmind。’
Hesethimselftoassist,anddodgedthiswayandthatoverthepotatorowsandthecabbages。Everynowandthentheyrantogether,whenhecaughtherforamomentankissedher。Thefirstpigwasgotbackpromptly;
thesecondwithsomedifficulty;thethirdalong-leggedcreature,wasmoreobstinateandagile。Heplungedthroughaholeinthegardenhedge,andintothelane。
`He’llbelostifIdon’tfollow’n!’saidshe。`Comealongwithme!’
Sherushedinfullpursuitoutofthegarden,Judealongsideher,barelycontrivingtokeepthefugitiveinsight。Occasionallytheywouldshouttosomeboytostoptheanimal,buthealwayswriggledpastandranonasbefore。
`Letmetakeyourhand,darling,’saidJude。`Youaregettingoutofbreath。’Shegavehimhernowhothandwithapparentwillingness,andtheytrottedalongtogether。
`Thiscomesofdriving’emhome,’sheremarked。`Theyalwaysknowthewaybackifyoudothat。Theyoughttohavebeencartedover。’
Bythistimethepighadreachedanunfastenedgateadmittingtotheopendown,acrosswhichhespedwithalltheagilityhislittlelegsafforded。Assoonasthepursuershadenteredandascendedtothetopofthehighgrounditbecameapparentthattheywouldhavetorunallthewaytothefarmer’siftheywishedtogetathim。Fromthissummithecouldbeseenasaminutespeck,followinganunerringlinetowardshisoldhome。
`Itisnogood!’criedArabella。`He’llbetherelongbeforewegetthere。Itdon’tmatternowweknowhe’snotlostorstolenontheway。
They’llseeitisours,andsendunback。Ohdear,howhotIbe!’
WithoutrelinquishingherholdofJude’shandsheswervedasideandflungherselfdownonthesodunderastuntedthorn,precipitatelypullingJudeontohiskneesatthesametime。
`Oh,Iaskpardon-Inearlythrewyoudown,didn’tI!ButIamsotired!’
Shelaysupine,andstraightasanarrow,ontheslopingsodofthishill-top,gazingupintothebluemilesofsky,andstillretainingherwarmholdofJude’shand。Hereclinedonhiselbownearher。
`We’verunallthiswayfornothing,’shewenton,herformheavingandfallinginquickpants,herfaceflushed,herfullredlipsparted,andafinedewofperspirationonherskin。`Well-whydon’tyouspeak,deary?’
`I’mblowntoo。Itwasalluphill。’
Theywereinabsolutesolitude-themostapparentofallsolitudes,thatofemptysurroundingspace。Nobodycouldbenearerthanamiletothemwithouttheirseeinghim。Theywere,infact,ononeofthesummitsofthecounty,andthedistantlandscapearoundChristminstercouldbediscernedfromwheretheylay。ButJudedidnotthinkofthatthen。
`Oh,Icanseesuchaprettythingupthistree,’saidArabella。
`Asortofa-caterpillar,ofthemostloveliestgreenandyellowyouevercameacross!’
`Where?’saidJude,sittingup。
`Youcan’tseehimthere-youmustcomehere,’saidshe。
Hebentnearerandputhisheadinfrontofhers。`No-Ican’tseeit,’hesaid。
`Why,onthelimbtherewhereitbranchesoff-closetothemovingleaf-there!’Shegentlypulledhimdownbesideher。
`Idon’tseeit,’herepeated,thebackofhisheadagainsthercheek。`ButIcan,perhaps,standingup。’Hestoodaccordingly,placinghimselfinthedirectlineofhergaze。
`Howstupidyouare!’shesaidcrossly,turningawayherface。
`Idon’tcaretoseeit,dear:whyshouldI?’herepliedlookingdownuponher。`Getup,Abby。’
`Why?’
`Iwantyoutoletmekissyou。I’vebeenwaitingtoeversolong!’
Sherolledroundherface,remainedamomentlookingdeedilyaslantathim;thenwithaslightcurlofthelipsprangtoherfeet,andexclaimingabruptly`Imustmizzle!’walkedoffquicklyhomeward。Judefollowedandrejoinedher。
`Justone!’hecoaxed`Shan’t!’shesaidHe,surprised:`What’sthematter?’
Shekepthertwolipsresentfullytogether,andJudefollowedherlikeapetlambtillsheslackenedherpaceandwalkedbesidehim,talkingcalmlyonindifferentsubjects,andalwayscheckinghimifhetriedtotakeherhandorclaspherwaist。Thustheydescendedtotheprecinctsofherfather’shomestead,andArabellawentin,noddinggood-byetohimwithasupercilious,affrontedair。
`IexpectItooktoomuchlibertywithher,somehow,’Judesaidtohimself,ashewithdrewwithasighandwentontoMarygreen。
OnSundaymorningtheinteriorofArabella’shomewas,asusual,thesceneofagrandweeklycooking,thepreparationofthespecialSundaydinner。Herfatherwasshavingbeforealittleglasshungonthemullionofthewindow,andhermotherandArabellaherselfwereshellingbeanshardby。Aneighbourpassedonherwayhomefrommorningserviceatthenearestchurch,andseeingDonnengagedatthewindowwiththerazor,noddedandcamein。
SheatoncespokeplayfullytoArabella:`Izeed’eerunningwith’un-hee-hee!Ihope’tiscomingtosomething?’
Arabellamerelythrewalookofconsciousnessintoherfacewithoutraisinghereyes。
`He’sforChristminster,Ihear,assoonashecangetthere。’
`Haveyouheardthatlately-quitelately?’askedArabellawithajealous,tigerishindrawingofbreath。
`Ohno!Butithasbeenknownalongtimethatitishisplan。
He’son’ywaitinghereforanopening。Ahwell:hemustwalkaboutwithsomebody,Is’pose。Youngmendon’tmeanmuchnow-a-days。’Tisasiphereandasiptherewith’em。’Twasdifferentinmytime。’
WhenthegossiphaddepartedArabellasaidsuddenlytohermother:
`IwantyouandFathertogoandinquirehowtheEdlinsbe,thiseveningaftertea。Orno-there’seveningserviceatFensworth-youcanwalktothat。’
`Oh?What’supto-night,then?’
`Nothing。OnlyIwantthehousetomyself。He’sshy;andIcan’tgetuntocomeinwhenyouarehere。IshalllethimslipthroughmyfingersifIdon’tmind,muchasIcarefor’n!’
`Ifitisfinewemedaswellgo,sinceyouwish。’
IntheafternoonArabellametandwalkedwithJude,whohadnowforweeksceasedtolookintoabookofGreek,Latin,oranyothertongue。
Theywandereduptheslopestilltheyreachedthegreentrackalongtheridge,whichtheyfollowedtothecircularBritishearth-bankadjoining,Judethinkingofthegreatageofthetrackway,andofthedroverswhohadfrequentedit,probablybeforetheRomansknewthecountry。Upfromthelevellandsbelowthemfloatedthechimeofchurchbells。Presentlytheywerereducedtoonenote,whichquickened,andstopped。
`Nowwe’llgoback,’saidArabella,whohadattendedtothesounds。
Judeassented。Solongashewasnearherhemindedlittlewherehewas。Whentheyarrivedatherhousehesaidlingeringly:`Iwon’tcomein。Whyareyouinsuchahurrytogointo-night?Itisnotneardark。’
`Waitamoment,’saidshe。Shetriedthehandleofthedoorandfounditlocked。
`Ah-theyaregonetochurch,’sheadded。Andsearchingbehindthescrapershefoundthekeyandunlockedthedoor。`Now,you’llcomeinamoment?’sheaskedlightly。`Weshallbeallalone。’
`Certainly,’saidJudewithalacrity,thecasebeingunexpectedlyaltered。
Indoorstheywent。Didhewantanytea?No,itwastoolate:hewouldrathersitandtalktoher。Shetookoffherjacketandhat,andtheysatdown-naturallyenoughclosetogether。
`Don’ttouchme,please,’shesaidsoftly。`Iampartegg-shell。
OrperhapsIhadbetterputitinasafeplace。’Shebeganunfasteningthecollarofhergown。
`Whatisit?’saidherlover。
`Anegg-acochin’segg。Iamhatchingaveryraresort。Icarryitabouteverywherewithme,anditwillgethatchedinlessthanthreeweeks。’
`Wheredoyoucarryit?’
`Justhere。’Sheputherhandintoherbosomanddrewouttheegg,whichwaswrappedinwool,outsideitbeingapieceofpig’sbladder,incaseofaccidents。Havingexhibitedittohimsheputitback,`Nowmindyoudon’tcomenearme。Idon’twanttogetitbroke,andhavetobeginanother。’
`Whydoyoudosuchastrangething?’
`It’sanoldcustom。Isupposeitisnaturalforawomantowanttobringlivethingsintotheworld。’
`Itisveryawkwardformejustnow,’hesaid,laughing。
`Itservesyouright。There-that’sallyoucanhaveofme’
Shehadturnedroundherchair,and,reachingoverthebackofit,presentedhercheektohimgingerly。
`That’sveryshabbyofyou!’
`YoushouldhavecatchedmeaminuteagowhenIhadputtheeggdown!There!’shesaiddefiantly,`Iamwithoutitnow!’Shehadquicklywithdrawntheeggasecondtime;butbeforehecouldquitereachhershehadputitbackasquickly,laughingwiththeexcitementofherstrategy。
Thentherewasalittlestruggle,Judemakingaplungeforitandcapturingittriumphantly。Herfaceflushed;andbecomingsuddenlyconsciousheflushedalso。
Theylookedateachother,panting;tillheroseandsaid:`Onekiss,nowIcandoitwithoutdamagetoproperty;andI’llgo!’
Butshehadjumpeduptoo。`Youmustfindmefirst!’shecried。
Herloverfollowedherasshewithdrew。Itwasnowdarkinsidetheroom,andthewindowbeingsmallhecouldnotdiscoverforalongtimewhathadbecomeofher,tillalaughrevealedhertohaverushedupthestairs,whitherJuderushedatherheels。
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