“Now,Jeremy,wipeyourmouth,“saidAuntAmy。
Heobeyedatonce。
III
Teaover,theyalltroopedoutintothegardenagain。Theeveninglightnowpainteduponthelittlegreenlawnstrangetremblingshadowsofpurpleandgrey;theoldredgardenwallseemedtohavecreptforwards,asthoughitwouldprotectthehouseandthegardenfromthenight;andaskyofthefaintestblueseemed,withgentleapproval,toblessthequiettownfadingintoduskbeneathit。Overthecentreofthelawnthesunwasstillshining,andthereitwaswarmandlight。Butfromeverysidetheshadowsstealthilycreptforward。Agroupofchildrenplayedagainstthegoldencolour,theirwhitedressespatternsthatformedfiguresandbrokeandformedagain。TheCathedralbellwasringingforevensong,anditsnotesstoleaboutthegarden,andinandoutamongstthechildren,asthoughsomeguardianspiritwatchingovertheirsafetycountedtheirnumbers。
Jeremy,feelingratherneglectedandmiserable,stoodintheshadowneartheoakonthefarthersideofthelawn。Hedidnotwanttoplaywiththoselittlegirls,andyethewashurtbecausehehadnotbeenasked。Thepartyhadbeenamostmiserablefailure,andayearagoitwouldhavebeensuchasuccess。Hedidnotknowthathewasstandingnow,inthemiddleofhiseighthyear,atthepartingoftheways;thatonlyyesterdayhehadbeenababy,andthathewouldneverbeababyagain。Hedidnotfeelhisindependence——hefeltonlyinclinedtotearsandalonging,thathewouldnever,neverconfess,eventohimself,thatsomeoneshouldcomeandcomforthim!
Nevertheless,evenatthisverymoment,althoughhedidnotknowit,he,afree,independentman,wasfacingtheworldforthefirsttimeonhisownlegs。Hismothermighthaverealisedithadshebeenthere——butshewasnot。Mary,however,wasthere,andintheverymiddleofhergame,searchingforhim,asshewasalwaysdoing,shefoundhimdesolateundertheshadowoftheoak。Sheslippedaway,and,cominguptohimwiththeshynessandfearthatshealwayshadwhensheapproachedhim,becauseshelovedhimsomuchandhecouldsoeasilyhurther,said:
“Aren’tyoucomingtoplay,Jeremy?“
“Idon’tcare,“heansweredgruffly。
“Itisn’tanyfunwithoutyou。“Shepaused,andadded:“WouldyoumindifIstayedheretoo?“
“I’dratheryouplayed,“hesaid;andyethewascomfortedbyher,determined,ashewas,thatsheshouldneverknowit!
“I’dratherstay,“shesaid,andthengazed,withthatmelancholystarethroughherlargespectaclesthatalwaysirritatedJeremy,outacrossthegarden。
“I’mallright,“hesaidagain;“onlymystockingtickles,andI
can’tgetatit——it’sthebackofmyleg。Isay,Mary,don’tyouhatetheDean’sErnest?“
“Yes,Ido,“sheansweredfervently,althoughshehadnotthoughtabouthimatall——enoughforherthatJeremyshouldhatehim!Thenshegasped:“Herehecomes——“
HewaswalkingtowardsthemwithaswaggerofhislongyellowneckandhisthinleggybodythatJeremyfoundespeciallyoffensive。
Jeremy“bristled,“andMarywasconsciousofthatbristling。
“Hallo!“saidErnest。
“Hallo!“saidJeremy。
“Whatrotthesesillygamesare!“saidErnest。“Whycan’ttheyhavesomethingdecent,likecricket?“
Jeremyhadneverplayedcricket,sohesaidnothing。“Atourschool,“saidErnest,“we’reverygoodatcricket。Wewinallourmatchesalways——“
“Idon’tcareaboutyourschool,“saidJeremy,breathingthroughhisnose。
TheDean’sErnestwasobviouslysurprisedbythis;hehadnotexpectedit。Hispaleneckbegantoflush。
“Lookhere,youngCole,“hesaid,“noneofyourcheek。“
ThiswasanewdialecttoJeremy,whohadnofriendswhowenttoschool。Allhesaid,however,breathingmorefiercelythanbefore,was:“Idon’tcare——“
“Oh,don’tyou?“saidErnest。“Now,lookhere——“Thenhepaused,apparentlyuncertain,foramoment,ofhiscourage。ThesightofMary’stimorousanxiety,however,reassuredhim,andhecontinued:
“It’sallrightforyou,thissortofthing。Yououghttobeinthenurserywithyouroldpodge-facednurse。Kidslikeyououghtn’ttobeallowedoutoftheirprams。“
“Idon’tcare,“saidJeremyagain,seeinginfrontofhimthewholefamilyoftheReverendDean。“Yourschoolisn’tmuchanyway,I
expect,andI’mgoingtoschoolinSeptember,andI’llwearjustthesamethingsasyoudoand——“
HewantedtocommentupontheplainfeaturesofErnest’ssisters,buthisgentlemanlycourtesyrestrainedhim。Hepausedforbreath,andErnestseizedhisadvantage。
“Youhavetohaveanoldaunttolookafteryouanyway——anuglyoldaunt。Iwouldn’thaveanoldauntalwayshangingoverme——’Now,Jeremydear——’’Blowyournose,Jeremydear——’’Wipeyourfeet,Jeremydear。’Lookatthethingsshewearsandthewayshewalks。IfIdidhavetohaveanauntalwaysI’dhaveadecentone,notanoldclothesbag。“
WhathappenedtoJeremyatthemoment?DidherecollectthatonlyafewhoursbeforehehadbeenhatingAuntAmywithafinefrenzyofhatred?Fornearlyaweekhehadbeenchafingunderherrestraint,combatinghercommands,defyingherorders。HehadbeenseeingheraseverythingthattheDean’sErnesthadbutnowbeencallingher。
Nowheonlysawherassomeonetobedefended,someonewhowashis,someoneevenwhodependedonhimforsupport。HewouldhavechallengedawholeworldofDeansinherdefence。
Hesaidsomething,butnoonecouldhearhiswords;thenhespranguponthestartledErnest。
Itwasnotaverydistinguishedcombat;itwasJeremy’sfirstbattle,andheknewatthattimenothingofthescienceoffighting。
TheDean’sErnest,inspiteofhistermatschool,alsoknewnothing——andtheDean’sErnestwasacoward……
Itlastedbutashortwhile,forMary,afterthefirstpauseofhorrifiedamazementawareonlythatErnestwastwiceasbigasherJeremy,rantoappealtoauthority。Jeremyhimselfwasawareneitheroftimenorprudence。HerealisedimmediatelythatErnestwasacoward,andthisrealisationfilledhimwithjoyandhappiness。HehadseizedErnestbyhislongyellowneck,and,withhisotherhand,hestruckateyesandcheeksandnose。Hedidnotsecuremuchpurchaseforhisblowsbecausetheirbodieswereverycloseagainstoneanother,buthefeltthesoftfleshyieldandsuddenlysomethingwetagainsthishandwhichmust,heknew,beblood。Andallthetimehewasthinkingtohimself:“I’llteachhimtosaythingsaboutAuntAmy!AuntAmy’smine!I’llteachhim!Heshan’ttouchAuntAmy!Heshan’ttouchAuntAmy!……“
Ernestmeanwhilekickedandkickedhard;healsotriedtobiteJeremy’shandandalsotopullhishair。Buthisownterrorhandicappedhim;everyinchofhisbodywasalarmed,andthatalarmpreventedthefreedomofhislimbs。Thenwhenhefeltthebloodfromhisnosetrickleontohischeekhisresistancewasatanend;panicfloodedoverhimlikewater。Hebrokeawayandflunghimselfhowlingontotheground,kickinghislegsandscreaming:
“Itisn’tfair!He’sbittenme!Takehimaway!Takehimaway!“
Jeremyhimselfwasnobeautifulsight。Hishairwaswild,hiswhitenavycollarcrumpledandsoiled,thebuttonsofhistunictorn,hisstockingdown,andhislegsalreadydisplayingpurplebruises。Buthedidnotcare;hewaswellnow;hewasnolongerunhappy。
HehadbeatenErnestandhewasaman;hehadrisenvictoriousfromhisfirstfight,andAuthoritymightstormasitpleased。Authoritysoonarrived,andtherewere,ofcourse,manycriesandexclamations。Ernestwasledawaystillhowling;Jeremy,stubborn,obstinate,andsilent,wasalsoledaway……Adisgracefulincident。
AuntAmy,ofcourse,wasdisgusted。Couldn’tleavetheboyaloneoneminutebuthemustmisbehavehimself,upsettheparty,bethelittleruffianthathealwayswas。Shehadalwayssaidthathismotherspoiledhim,andherewerethefruitsofthatfoolishness。HowcouldsheeversayenoughtoMissMaddison?Herdelightfulpartycompletelyruined!……Shocking!……Shocking!……Tooterrible!……AndErnest,suchaquiet,well-behavedlittleboyasarule。ItmusthavebeenJeremywho……
WhiletheywerewaitinginthedecentduskofMissMaddison’ssitting-roomforacleanedandchastenedJeremy,Marytouchedheraunt’sarmandwhisperedinhernervousvoice:
“AuntAmy——JeremyhitErnestbecausehesaidrudethingsaboutyou。“
“Aboutme!Nonsense,child。“
“No,butitwas,really。Ernestsaidhorridthingsaboutyou,andthenJeremyhithim。“
“Aboutme?Whatthings?“
“Thatyouwereugly,“eagerlycontinuedMary——neveratactfulchild,andintentnowonlyuponJeremy’sreputation——“andworeuglyclothesandhorridthings。Hedidreally。Ihearditall。“
AuntAmywasdeeplymoved。Herconceit,herabnormalall-embracingconceitwaswounded——yes,evenbysoinsignificantacreatureastheDean’sErnest;butshewasalsounexpectedlytouched。Shewouldhavegreatlypreferrednottobetouched,butthereitwas,shecouldnothelpherself。Shedidnotknowthat,inallherlifebefore,anyonehadeverfoughtforher,andthatnowofallchampionsintheworldfateshouldhavechosenJeremy,whowas,shehadsupposed,herenemy——neverherdefender!
AndthathorridchildoftheDean——shehadalwaysdislikedhim,withhislongyellowneckandwateryeyes!Howdaredhesaysuchthingsabouther!Hehadalwaysbeenrudetoher。Sherememberedonce——
Jeremyarrived,washed,brushed,andobstinate。Hewould,ofcourse,bescoldedtowithinaninchofhislife,andhedidnotcare。HehadseentheDean’sErnesthowlingandkickingontheground;hehadsoiledhisstrawhatforhim,dirtiedhisstiffwhitecollarforhim,andmadehisnosebleed。Heglaredathisauntoneeyewasrapidlydisappearingbeneathabluebruise,andhewasproud,triumphant,andverytired。
Farewellsweremade——againmanyapologies——“Nothing,Iassureyou,nothing。Boyswillbeboys,Iknow,“fromMissMaddison。
Thentheywereseatedinthejingle,JeremynexttoAuntAmy,awaitinghisscolding。Itdidnotcome。AuntAmytried;sheknewwhatsheshouldsay。Sheshouldbeveryangry,disgusted,ashamed。
Shecouldnotbeanyofthesethings。Thathorridboyhadinsultedher。Shewastouchedandproudasshehadneverbeentouchedandproudinherlifebefore。
Jeremywaited,andthenasnothingcamehiswearinessgrewuponhim。
Astheoldfatponyjoggedalong,astheeveningcoloursofstreetandskydancedbeforehim,sleepcamenearerandnearer。
Henodded,recovered,noddedandnoddedagain。HisbodypressedclosertoAuntAmy’s,leanedagainsther。Hisheadresteduponhershoulder。
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