Wheredidyougetholdofthat?’shedemanded。
Oh,Ididn’t,’returnedtheman,defensively。
Inevergotholdofitatall。Ineverevensawthecalory——though,forthatmatter,Idon’tthinkIshouldknowoneifIdidseeit!Whatwefearedwas,that,inhuntingthelostcalory,youhadlostyourself,and——’ButBillywouldhearnomore。Withherdisdainfulnoseintheairshewalkedtothepiano。
Come,Mr。Arkwright,’shesaidwithdignity。
Let’strythissong。’
Arkwrightroseatonceandaccompaniedhertothepiano。
TheyhadsungthesongthroughtwicewhenBillybecameuneasilyawarethat,ontheothersideoftheroom,CalderwellandAliceGreggoryweresoftlychucklingoversomethingtheyhadfoundinamagazine。Billyfrowned,andtwitchedthecornersofapileofmusic,withrestlessfingers。
IwonderifAlicehasn’tgotsomequartetsheresomewhere,’shemurmured,herdisapprovingeyesstillbentontheabsorbedcoupleacrosstheroom。
Arkwrightwassilent。Billy,throwingahurriedglanceintohisface,thoughtshedetectedasombershadowinhiseyes。Shethought,too,sheknewwhyitwasthere。SopossessedhadBillybeen,duringtheearlywinter,oftheideathatherspecialmissioninlifewastoinaugurateandfosteraloveaffairbetweendisappointedMr。
ArkwrightandlonelyAliceGreggory,thatnowsheforgot,foramoment,thatArkwrighthimselfwasquiteunawareofherefforts。Shethoughtonlythatthepresentshadowonhisfacemustbecausedbythesamethingthatbroughtworrytoherownheart——themanifestdevotionofCalderwelltoAliceGreggoryjustnowacrosstheroom。Instinctively,therefore,astoacoworkerinacommoncause,sheturnedadisturbedfacetothemanatherside。
Itis,indeed,hightimethatIlookedaftersomethingbesideslostcalories,’shesaidsignificantly。Then,attheevidentuncomprehensioninArkwright’sface,sheadded:Hasitbeengoingonlikethis——verylong?’
Arkwrightstill,apparently,didnotunderstand。
Has——whatbeengoingon?’hequestioned。
That——overthere,’answeredBilly,impatiently,scarcelyknowingwhethertobemoreirritatedatthethreatenedmiscarriageofhercherishedplans,oratArkwright’stoher
wilfullyblindinsistenceonhermakinghermeaningmoreplain。Hasitbeengoingonlong——suchutterdevotion?’
AssheaskedthequestionBillyturnedandlookedsquarelyintoArkwright’sface。Shesaw,therefore,thegreatchangethatcametoit,ashermeaningbecamecleartohim。HerfirstfeelingwasoneofshockedrealizationthatArkwrighthad,indeed,beenreallyblind。Hersecond——sheturnedawayhereyeshurriedlyfromwhatshethoughtshesawintheman’scountenance。
Withanassumedlygaylittlecryshesprangtoherfeet。
Come,come,whatareyoutwochildrenchucklingover?’shedemanded,crossingtheroomabruptly。Didn’tyouhearmesayI
wantedyoutocomeandsingaquartet?’
BillyblamedherselfverymuchforwhatshecalledherstupidityinsobaldlysummoningArkwright’sattentiontoCalderwell’sdevotiontoAliceGreggory。Shedeclaredthatsheoughttohaveknownbetter,andsheaskedherselfifthiswerethewayshewasfurtheringmatters’
betweenAliceGreggoryandArkwright。
Billywasreallyseriouslydisturbed。ShehadneverquiteforgivenherselfforbeingsoblindtoArkwright’sfeelingforherselfduringthosedayswhenhehadnotknownofherengagementtoBertram。Shehadneverforgotten,either,thepainfulscenewhenhehadhopefullytoldofhislove,onlytobemetwithherownshockedrepudiation。Forlongweeksafterthat,hisfacehadhauntedher。Shehadwished,oh,soardently,thatshecoulddosomethinginsomewaytobringhimhappiness。When,therefore,ithadcometoherknowledgeafterwardthathewasfrequentlywithhisoldfriend,AliceGreggory,shehadbeensoglad。Itwasveryeasythentofanhopeintoconvictionthathere,inthisoldfriend,hehadfoundsweetbalmforhiswoundedheart;andshedeterminedatoncetodoallthatshecoulddotohelp。Soveryglowing,indeed,washereagernessinthematter,thatitlookedsuspiciouslyasifshethought,couldshebutbringthisthingabout,thatoldscoresagainstherselfwouldbeerased。
Billytoldherself,virtuously,however,thatnotonlyforArkwrightdidshedesirethismarriagetotakeplace,butforAliceGreggory。IntheverynatureofthingsAlicewouldonedaybeleftalone。Shewaspoor,andnotverystrong。
Shesorelyneededtheshieldingloveandcareofagoodhusband。Whatmorenaturalthanthatherold-timefriendandalmost-sweetheart,M。J。
Arkwright,shouldbethatgoodhusband?
ThatreallyitwasmoreArkwrightandlessAlicethatwasbeingconsidered,however,wasprovedwhenthedevotionofCalderwellbegantobefirstsuspected,thenknownforafact。Billy’sdistressatthisturnofaffairsindicatedveryplainlythatitwasnotjustahusband,butacertainoneparticularhusbandthatshedesiredforAliceGreggory。Allthemoredisturbedwasshe,therefore,whento-day,seeingherthreefriendstogetheragainforthefirsttimeforsomeweeks,shediscoveredincreasedevidencethatherworstfearsweretoberea"m.kanbaapp点com"lized。ItwastobeAliceandCalderwell,notAliceandArkwright。
Arkwrightwasagaintobedisappointedinhisdearesthopes。
Tellingherselfindignantlythatitcouldnotbe,it_should_notbe,Billydeterminedtoremainafterthemenhadgone,andspeaktoAlice。Justwhatshewouldsayshedidnotknow。Evenwhatshecouldsay,shewasnotsure。Butcertainlytheremustbesomething,somelittlethingthatshecouldsay,whichwouldopenAlice’seyestowhatshewasdoing,andwhatsheoughttodo。
Itwasinthisframeofmind,therefore,thatBilly,afterArkwrightandCalderwellhadgone,spoketoAlice。Shebeganwarily,withassumednonchalance。
IbelieveMr。ArkwrightsingsbettereverytimeIhearhim。’
Therewasnoanswer。Alicewassortingmusicatthepiano。
Don’tyouthinkso?’Billyraisedhervoicealittle。
Aliceturnedalmostwithastart。
What’sthat?Oh,yes。Well,Idon’tknow;
maybeIdo。’
Youwould——ifyoudidn’thearhimanyoftenerthanIdo,’laughedBilly。Butthen,ofcourseyoudohearhimoftener。’
I?Oh,no,indeed。Notsoverymuchoftener。’Alicehadturnedbacktohermusic。
Therewasaslightembarrassmentinhermanner。
Iwonder——where——thatnewsong——is,’shemurmured。
Billy,whoknewverywellwherethesonglay,wasnottobediverted。
Nonsense!AsifMr。Arkwrightwasn’talwaystellinghowAlicelikedthissong,anddidn’tlikethatone,andthoughttheotherthebestyet!
Idon’tbelievehesingsathingthathedoesn’tfirstsingtoyou。Forthatmatter,Ifancyheasksyouropinionofeverything,anyway。’
Why,Billy,hedoesn’t!’exclaimedAlice,adeepredflamingintohercheeks。Youknowhedoesn’t。’
Billylaughedgleefully。Shehadnotbeenslowtonotethecolorinherfriend’sface,ortoascribetoittheonemeaningshewishedtoascribetoit。
Sosure,indeed,wasshenowthatherfearshadbeengroundless,thatsheflungcautiontothewinds。
Ho!MydearAlice,youcan’texpectusalltobeblind,’sheteased。Besides,weallthinkit’ssuchalovelyarrangementthatwe’rejustgladtoseeit。He’ssuchafinefellow,andwelikehimsomuch!Wecouldn’taskforabetterhusbandforyouthanMr。Arkwright,and——’FromsheeramazementatthesuddenwhitehorrorinAliceGreggory’sface,Billystoppedshort。
Why,Alice!’shefalteredthen。
WithavisibleeffortAliceforcedhertremblinglipstospeak。
Myhusband——_Mr。Arkwright!_Why,Billy,youcouldn’thaveseen——youhaven’tseen——
there’snothingyou_could_see!Heisn’t——hewasn’t——hecan’tbe!We——we’renothingbutfriends,Billy,justgoodfriends!’
Billy,thoughdismayed,wasstillnotquiteconvinced。
Friends!Nonsense!When——’
ButAliceinterruptedfeverishly。Alice,inanagonyoffearlestthetruestateofaffairsshouldbesuspected,washidingbehindabulwarkofpride。
Now,Billy,please!Saynomore。You’requitewrong,entirely。You’llnever,neverhearofmymarryingMr。Arkwright。AsIsaidbefore,we’refriends——thebestoffriends;thatisall。
Wecouldn’tbeanythingelse,possibly!’
Billy,plainlydiscomfited,fellback;butshethrewasharpglanceintoherfriend’sflushedcountenance。
Youmean——becauseof——HughCalderwell?’
shedemanded。Then,forthesecondtimethatafternoonthrowingdiscretiontothewinds,shewentonplaintively:Youwon’tlisten,ofcourse。Girlsinloveneverdo。Hughisallright,andIlikehim;butthere’smorerealsolidworthinMr。Arkwright’slittlefingerthanthereisinHugh’swholeself。And——’ButamerrypealoflaughterfromAliceGreggoryinterrupted。
And,pray,doyouthinkI’minlovewithHughCalderwell?’shedemanded。Therewasacuriousnoteofsomethingverylikereliefinhervoice。
Well,Ididn’tknow,’beganBilly,uncertainly。
ThenI’lltellyounow,’smiledAlice。I’mnot。Furthermore,perhapsit’sjustaswellthatyoushouldknowrightnowthatIdon’tintendtomarry——ever。’
Oh,Alice!’
No。’Therewasdetermination,andtherewasstillthatcuriousnoteofreliefinthegirl’svoice。Itwasasif,somewhere,agreatdangerhadbeenavoided。Ihavemymusic。Thatisenough。I’mnotintendingtomarry。’
Oh,butAlice,whileIwillownupI’mgladitisn’tHughCalderwell,there_is_Mr。Arkwright,andIdidhope——’ButAliceshookherheadandturnedresolutelyaway。Atthatmoment,too,AuntHannahcameinfromthestreet,soBillycouldsaynomore。
AuntHannahdroppedherselfalittlewearilyintoachair。
I’vejustcomefromMarie’s,’shesaid。
Howisshe?’askedBilly。
AuntHannahsmiled,andraisedhereyebrows。
Well,justnowshe’squiteexercisedoveranotherrattle——fromhercousinoutWest,thistime。Therewerefourlittlesilverbellsonit,andshehasn’tgotanyjanitor’swifenowtogiveitto。’
Billylaughedsoftly,butAuntHannahhadmoretosay。
Youknowsheisn’tgoingtoallowanytoysbutTeddybearsandwoollylambs,ofwhich,I
believe,shehasalreadyboughtquiteanassortment。
Shesaystheydon’trattleorsqueak。I
declare,whenIseethewoolenpadsandrubberhushersthatthatchildhasputeverywherealloverthehouse,Idon’tknowwhethertolaughorcry。Andshe’ssoworried!ItseemsCyrilmustneedstakejustthistimetostartcomposinganewoperaorsymphony,orsomething;andneverbeforehassheallowedhimtobeinterruptedbyanythingonsuchanoccasion。Butwhathe’lldowhenthebabycomesshesaysshedoesn’tknow,forshesaysshecan’t——shejustcan’tkeepitfrombotheringhimsome,she’safraid。Asifanyoperaorsymphonythateverlivedwasofmoreconsequencethanaman’sownchild!’
finishedAuntHannah,withanindignantsniff,asshereachedforhershawl。
CHAPTERXIX
ATOUGHNUTTOCRACKFORCYRIL
ItwasearlyintheforenoonofthefirstdayofJulythatElizatoldhermistressthatMrs。
Stetsonwasaskingforheratthetelephone。Eliza’sfacewasnotalittletroubled。
I’mafraid,maybe,itisn’tgoodnews,’shestammered,ashermistresshurriedlyarose。
She’satMr。CyrilHenshaw’s——Mrs。Stetsonis——andsheseemedsoterriblyupsetaboutsomethingthattherewasnomakingrealsenseoutofwhatshesaid。Butsheaskedforyou,andsaidtohaveyoucomequick。’
Billy,herownfacepaling,wasalreadyatthetelephone。
Yes,AuntHannah。Whatisit?’
Oh,mygriefandconscience,Billy,ifyou_can_,comeuphere,please。Youmustcome!
_Can’t_youcome?’
Why,yes,ofcourse。But——but——_Marie!_
The——the_baby!_’
Afaintgroancameacrossthewires。
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