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第44章

  Buthedid,ohblessyou,yes,hundredsoftimes,andsodidMeg,bothdeclaringthatitwasthesweetestjellytheyevermade,forfamilypeacewaspreservedinthatlittlefamilyjar。
  Afterthis,MeghadMr。Scotttodinnerbyspecialinvitation,andservedhimupapleasantfeastwithoutacookedwifeforthefirstcourse,onwhichoccasionshewassogayandgracious,andmadeeverythinggooffsocharmingly,thatMr。ScotttoldJohnhewasaluckyfellow,andshookhisheadoverthehardshipsofbachelorhoodallthewayhome。
  Intheautumn,newtrialsandexperiencescametoMeg。SallieMoffatrenewedherfriendship,wasalwaysrunningoutforadishofgossipatthelittlehouse,orinviting`thatpoordear’tocomeinandspendthedayatthebighouse。Itwaspleasant,forindullweatherMegoftenfeltlonely。Allwerebusyathome,Johnabsenttillnight,andnothingtodobutsew,orread,orpotterabout。
  SoitnaturallyfelloutthatMeggotintothewayofgaddingandgossipingwithherfriend。SeeingSallie’sprettythingsmadeherlongforsuch,andpityherselfbecauseshehadnotgotthem。Salliewasverykind,andoftenofferedherthecovetedtrifles,butMegdeclinedthem,knowingthatJohnwouldn’tlikeit,andthenthisfoolishlittlewomanwentanddidwhatJohndislikedevenworse。
  Sheknewherhusband’sincome,andshelovedtofeelthathetrustedher,notonlywithhishappiness,butwhatsomemenseemtovaluemore——hismoney。Sheknewwhereitwas,wasfreetotakewhatsheliked,andallheaskedwasthatsheshouldkeepaccountofeverypenny,paybillsonceamonth,andrememberthatshewasapoorman’swife。Tillnowshehaddonewell,beenprudentandexact,keptherlittleaccountbooksneatly,andshowedthemtohimmonthlywithoutfear。ButthatautumntheserpentgotintoMeg’sparadise,andtemptedherlikemanyamodernEve,notwithapples,butwithdress。Megdidn’tliketobepitiedandmadetofeelpoor。Itirritatedher,butshewasashamedtoconfessit,andnowandthenshetriedtoconsoleherselfbybuyingsomethingpretty,sothatSallieneedn’tthinkshehadtoeconomize。Shealwaysfeltwickedafterit,fortheprettythingswereseldomnecessaries,butthentheycostsolittle,itwasn’tworthworryingabout,sothetriflesincreasedunconsciously,andintheshoppingexcursionsshewasnolongerapassivelooker-on。
  Butthetriflescostmorethanonewouldimagine,andwhenshecastupheraccountsattheendofthemonththesumtotalratherscaredher。Johnwasbusythatmonthandleftthebillstoher,thenextmonthhewasabsent,butthethirdhehadagrandquarterlysettlingup,andMegneverforgotit。Afewdaysbeforeshehaddoneadreadfulthing,anditweigheduponherconscience。Salliehadbeenbuyingsilks,andMeglongedforanewone,justahandsomelightoneforparties,herblacksilkwassocommon,andthinthingsforeveningwearwereonlyproperforgirls。AuntMarchusuallygavethesistersapresentoftwenty-fivedollarsapieceatNewYear’s。
  Thatwasonlyamonthtowait,andherewasalovelyvioletsilkgoingatabargain,andshehadthemoney,ifsheonlydaredtotakeit。
  Johnalwayssaidwhatwashiswashers,butwouldhethinkitrighttospendnotonlytheprospectivefive-and-twenty,butanotherfive-and-twentyoutofthehouseholdfund?Thatwasthequestion。
  Salliehadurgedhertodoit,hadofferedtolendthemoney,andwiththebestintentionsinlifehadtemptedMegbeyondherstrength。
  Inanevilmomenttheshopmanheldupthelovely,shimmeringfolds,andsaid,“Abargain,Iassure,you,ma’am。“Sheanswered,“I’lltakeit,“anditwascutoffandpaidfor,andSalliehadexulted,andshehadlaughedasifitwereathingofnoconsequence,anddrivenaway,feelingasifshehadstolensomething,andthepolicewereafterher。
  Whenshegothome,shetriedtoassuagethepangsofremorsebyspreadingforththelovelysilk,butitlookedlesssilverynow,didn’tbecomeher,afterall,andthewords`fiftydollars’seemedstampedlikeapatterndowneachbreadth。Sheputitaway,butithauntedher,notdelightfullyasanewdressshould,butdreadfullyliketheghostofafollythatwasnoteasilylaid。WhenJohngotouthisbooksthatnight,Meg’sheartsank,andforthefirsttimeinhermarriedlife,shewasafraidofherhusband。Thekind,browneyeslookedasiftheycouldbestern,andthoughhewasunusuallymerry,shefanciedhehadfoundherout,butdidn’tmeantoletherknowit。Thehousebillswereallpaid,thebooksallinorder。
  Johnhadpraisedher,andwasundoingtheoldpocketbookwhichtheycalledthe`bank’,whenMeg,knowingthatitwasquiteempty,stoppedhishand,sayingnervously……
  “Youhaven’tseenmyprivateexpensebookyet。“
  Johnneveraskedtoseeit,butshealwaysinsistedonhisdoingso,andusedtoenjoyhismasculineamazementatthequeerthingswomenwanted,andmadehimguesswhatpipingwas,demandfiercelythemeaningofahug-me-tight,orwonderhowalittlethingcomposedofthreerosebuds,abitofvelvet,andapairofstrings,couldpossiblybeabonnet,andcostsixdollars。Thatnighthelookedasifhewouldlikethefunofquizzingherfiguresandpretendingtobehorrifiedatherextravagance,asheoftendid,beingparticularlyproudofhisprudentwife。
  Thelittlebookwasbroughtslowlyoutandlaiddownbeforehim。
  Meggotbehindhischairunderpretenseofsmoothingthewrinklesoutofhistiredforehead,andstandingthere,shesaid,withherpanicincreasingwitheveryword……
  “John,dear,I’mashamedtoshowyoumybook,forI’vereallybeendreadfullyextravagantlately。IgoaboutsomuchImusthavethings,youknow,andSallieadvisedmygettingit,soIdid,andmyNewYear’smoneywillpartlypayforit,butIwassorryafterIhaddoneit,forIknewyou’dthinkitwronginme。“
  Johnlaughed,anddrewherroundbesidehim,sayinggoodhumoredly,“Don’tgoandhide。Iwon’tbeatyouifyouhavegotapairofkillingboots。I’mratherproudofmywife’sfeet,anddon’tmindifshedoespayeightorninedollarsforherboots,iftheyaregoodones。“
  Thathadbeenoneofherlast`trifles’,andJohn’seyehadfallenonitashespoke。“Oh,whatwillhesaywhenhecomestothatawfulfiftydollars!“thoughtMeg,withashiver。
  “It’sworsethanboots,it’sasilkdress,“shesaid,withthecalmnessofdesperation,forshewantedtheworstover。
  “Well,dear,whatisthe`dem’dtotal’,asMr。Mantalinisays?“
  Thatdidn’tsoundlikeJohn,andsheknewhewaslookingupatherwiththestraightforwardlookthatshehadalwaysbeenreadytomeetandanswerwithoneasfranktillnow。Sheturnedthepageandherheadatthesametime,pointingtothesumwhichwouldhavebeenbadenoughwithoutthefifty,butwhichwasappallingtoherwiththatadded。Foraminutetheroomwasverystill,thenJohnsaidslowly——butshecouldfeelitcosthimanefforttoexpressnodispleasure……
  “Well,Idon’tknowthatfiftyismuchforadress,withallthefurbelowsandnotionsyouhavetohavetofinishitoffthesedays。“
  “Itisn’tmadeortrimmed,“sighedMeg,faintly,forasuddenrecollectionofthecoststilltobeincurredquiteoverwhelmedher。
  “Twenty-fiveyardsofsilkseemsagooddealtocoveronesmallwoman,butI’venodoubtmywifewilllookasfineasNedMoffat’swhenshegetsiton,“saidJohndryly。
  “Iknowyouareangry,John,butIcan’thelpit。Idon’tmeantowasteyourmoney,andIdidn’tthinkthoselittlethingswouldcountupso。Ican’tresistthemwhenIseeSalliebuyingallshewants,andpityingmebecauseIdon’t。Itrytobecontented,butitishard,andI’mtiredofbeingpoor。“
  Thelastwordswerespokensolowshethoughthedidnothearthem,buthedid,andtheywoundedhimdeeply,forhehaddeniedhimselfmanypleasuresforMeg’ssake。Shecouldhavebittenhertongueouttheminuteshehadsaidit,forJohnpushedthebooksawayandgotup,sayingwithalittlequiverinhisvoice,“Iwasafraidofthis。Idomybest,Meg。“Ifhehadscoldedher,orevenshakenher,itwouldnothavebrokenherheartlikethosefewwords。Sherantohimandheldhimclose,crying,withrepentanttears,“Oh,John,mydear,kind,hard-workingboy。Ididn’tmeanit!Itwassowicked,sountrueandungrateful,howcouldIsayit!
  Oh,howcouldIsayit!“
  Hewasverykind,forgaveherreadily,anddidnotutteronereproach,butMegknewthatshehaddoneandsaidathingwhichwouldnotbeforgottensoon,althoughhemightneveralludetoitagain。Shehadpromisedtolovehimforbetterorworse,andthenshe,hiswife,hadreproachedhimwithhispoverty,afterspendinghisearningsrecklessly。Itwasdreadful,andtheworstofitwasJohnwentonsoquietlyafterward,justasifnothinghadhappened,exceptthathestayedintownlater,andworkedatnightwhenshehadgonetocryherselftosleep。AweekorremorsenearlymadeMegsick,andthediscoverythatJohnhadcountermandedtheorderforhisnewgreatcoatreducedhertoastateofdespairwhichwaspathetictobehold。Hehadsimplysaid,inanswertohersurprisedinquiriesastothechange,“Ican’taffordit,mydear。“
  Megsaidnomore,butafewminutesafterhefoundherinthehallwithherfaceburiedintheoldgreatcoat,cryingasifherheartwouldbreak。
  Theyhadalongtalkthatnight,andMeglearnedtoloveherhusbandbetterforhispoverty,becauseitseemedtohavemadeamanofhim,givenhimthestrengthandcouragetofighthisownway,andtaughthimatenderpatiencewithwhichtobearandcomfortthenaturallongingsandfailuresofthoseheloved。
  Nextdaysheputherprideinherpocket,wenttoSallie,toldthetruth,andaskedhertobuythesilkasafavor。Thegood-
  naturedMrs。Moffatwillinglydidso,andhadthedelicacynottomakeherapresentofitimmediatelyafterward。ThenMegorderedhomethegreatcoat,andwhenJohnarrived,sheputiton,andaskedhimhowhelikedhernewsilkgown。Onecanimaginewhatanswerhemade,howhereceivedhispresent,andwhatablissfulstateofthingsensued。Johncamehomeearly,Meggaddednomore,andthatgreatcoatwasputoninthemorningbyaveryhappyhusband,andtakenoffatnightbyamostdevotedlittlewife。Sotheyearrolledround,andatmidsummertherecametoMeganewexperience,thedeepestandtenderestofawoman’slife。
  LauriecamesneakingintothekitchenoftheDovecoteoneSaturday,withanexcitedface,andwasreceivedwiththeclashofcymbals,forHannahclappedherhandswithasaucepaninoneandthecoverintheother。
  “How’sthelittlemamma?Whereiseverybody?Whydidn’tyoutellmebeforeIcamehome?“beganLaurieinaloudwhisper。
  “Happyasaqueen,thedear!Everysoulof`emisupstairsaworshipin’。Wedidn’twantnohurrycanesround。Nowyougointotheparlor,andI’llsend`emdowntoyou,“withwhichsomewhatinvolvedreplyHannahvanished,chucklingecstatically。
  PresentlyJoappeared,proudlybearingaflannelbundlelaidforthuponalargepillow。Jo’sfacewasverysober,buthereyestwinkled,andtherewasanoddsoundinhervoiceofrepressedemotionofsomesort。
  “Shutyoureyesandholdoutyourarms,“shesaidinvitingly。
  Lauriebackedprecipitatelyintoacorner,andputhishandsbehindhimwithanimploringgesture。“No,thankyou。I’drathernot。Ishalldropitorsmashit,assureasfate。“
  “Thenyoushan’tseeyournevvy,“saidJodecidedly,turningasiftogo。
  “Iwill,Iwill!Onlyyoumustberesponsiblefordamages。“
  Andobeyingorders,Laurieheroicallyshuthiseyeswhilesomethingwasputintohisarms。ApealoflaughterfromJo,Amy,Mrs。March,Hannah,andJohncausedhimtoopenthemthenextminute,tofindhimselfinvestedwithtwobabiesinsteadofone。
  Nowondertheylaughed,fortheexpressionofhisfacewasdrollenoughtoconvulseaQuaker,ashestoodandstaredwildlyfromtheunconsciousinnocentstothehilariousspectatorswithsuchdismaythatJosatdownonthefloorandscreamed。
  “Twins,byJupiter!“wasallhesaidforaminute,thenturningtothewomenwithanappealinglookthatwascomicallypiteous,headded,“Take`emquick,somebody!I’mgoingtolaugh,andIshalldrop`em。“
  Jorescuedhisbabies,andmarchedupanddown,withoneoneachare,asifalreadyinitiatedintothemysteriesofbabytending,whileLaurielaughedtillthetearsrandownhischeeks。
  “It’sthebestjokeoftheseason,isn’tit?Iwouldn’thavetoldyou,forIsetmyheartonsurprisingyou,andIflattermyselfI’vedoneit,“saidJo,whenshegotherbreath。
  “Ineverwasmorestaggeredinmylife。Isn’titfun?Aretheyboys?
  Whatareyougoingtonamethem?Let’shaveanotherlook。
  Holdmeup,Jo,foruponmylifeit’sonetoomanyforme,“returnedLaurie,regardingtheinfantswiththeairofabig,benevolentNewfoundlandlookingatapairofinfantilekittens。
  “Boyandgirl。Aren’ttheybeauties?“saidtheproudpapa,beaminguponthelittleredsquirmersasiftheywereunfledgedangels。
  “MostremarkablechildrenIeversaw。Whichiswhich?“andLauriebentlikeawell-sweeptoexaminetheprodigies。
  “Amyputablueribbonontheboyandapinkonthegirl,Frenchfashion,soyoucanalwaystell。Besides,onehasblueeyesandonebrown。Kissthem,UncleTeddy,“saidwickedJo。
  “I’mafraidtheymightn’tlikeit,“beganLaurie,withunusualtimidityinsuchmatters。
  “Ofcoursetheywill,theyareusedtoitnow。Doitthisminute,sir!“commandedJo,fearinghemightproposeaproxy。
  Lauriescreweduphisfaceandobeyedwithagingerlypeckateachlittlecheekthatproducedanotherlaugh,andmadethebabiessqueal。
  “There,Iknewtheydidn’tlikeit!That’stheboy,seehimkick,hehitsoutwithhisfistslikeagoodone。Nowthen,youngBrooke,pitchintoamanofyourownsize,willyou?“criedLaurie,delightedwithapokeinthefacefromatinyfist,flappingaimlesslyabout。
  “He’stobenamedJohnLaurence,andthegirlMargaret,aftermotherandgrandmother。WeshallcallherDaisey,soasnottohavetwoMegs,andIsupposethemanniewillbeJack,unlesswefindabettername,“saidAmy,withaunt-likeinterest。
  “NamehimDemijohn,andcallhimDemiforshort,“saidLaurie“DaisyandDemi,justthething!IknewTeddywoulddoit,“
  criedJoclappingherhands。
  Teddycertainlyhaddoneitthattime,forthebabieswere`Daisy’and`Demi’totheendofthechapter。
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  “Come,Jo,it’stime。“
  “Forwhat?“