’Brother!’saidtheoldman,conveyingasurprisingenergyintohistremblingvoice,’Iprotestagainstit!Iloveyou;youknowI
loveyoudearly。InthesemanyyearsIhaveneverbeenuntruetoyouinasinglethought。WeakasIam,Iwouldatanytimehavestruckanymanwhospokeillofyou。But,brother,brother,brother,Iprotestagainstit!’
Itwasextraordinarytoseeofwhataburstofearnestnesssuchadecrepitmanwascapable。Hiseyesbecamebright,hisgreyhairroseonhishead,markingsofpurposeonhisbrowandfacewhichhadfadedfromthemforfive-and-twentyyears,startedoutagain,andtherewasanenergyinhishandthatmadeitsactionnervousoncemore。
’MydearFrederick!’exclaimedMrDorritfaintly。’Whatiswrong?
Whatisthematter?’
’Howdareyou,’saidtheoldman,turningroundonFanny,’howdareyoudoit?Haveyounomemory?Haveyounoheart?’
’Uncle?’criedFanny,affrightedandburstingintotears,’whydoyouattackmeinthiscruelmanner?WhathaveIdone?’
’Done?’returnedtheoldman,pointingtohersister’splace,’where’syouraffectionateinvaluablefriend?Where’syourdevotedguardian?Where’syourmorethanmother?Howdareyousetupsuperioritiesagainstallthesecharacterscombinedinyoursister?
Forshame,youfalsegirl,forshame!’
’IloveAmy,’criedMissFanny,sobbingandweeping,’aswellasI
lovemylife——betterthanIlovemylife。Idon’tdeservetobesotreated。IamasgratefultoAmy,andasfondofAmy,asit’spossibleforanyhumanbeingtobe。IwishIwasdead。Ineverwassowickedlywronged。AndonlybecauseIamanxiousforthefamilycredit。’
’Tothewindswiththefamilycredit!’criedtheoldman,withgreatscornandindignation。’Brother,Iprotestagainstpride。
Iprotestagainstingratitude。Iprotestagainstanyoneofusherewhohaveknownwhatwehaveknown,andhaveseenwhatwehaveseen,settingupanypretensionthatputsAmyatamoment’sdisadvantage,ortothecostofamoment’spain。Wemayknowthatit’sabasepretensionbyitshavingthateffect。Itoughttobringajudgmentonus。Brother,IprotestagainstitinthesightofGod!’
Ashishandwentupabovehisheadandcamedownonthetable,itmighthavebeenablacksmith’s。Afterafewmoments’silence,ithadrelaxedintoitsusualweakcondition。Hewentroundtohisbrotherwithhisordinaryshufflingstep,putthehandonhisshoulder,andsaid,inasoftenedvoice,’William,mydear,Ifeltobligedtosayit;forgiveme,forIfeltobligedtosayit!’andthenwent,inhisbowedway,outofthepalacehall,justashemighthavegoneoutoftheMarshalsearoom。
AllthistimeFannyhadbeensobbingandcrying,andstillcontinuedtodoso。Edward,beyondopeninghismouthinamazement,hadnotopenedhislips,andhaddonenothingbutstare。MrDorritalsohadbeenutterlydiscomfited,andquiteunabletoasserthimselfinanyway。Fannywasnowthefirsttospeak。
’Inever,never,neverwassoused!’shesobbed。’Thereneverwasanythingsoharshandunjustifiable,sodisgracefullyviolentandcruel!Dear,kind,quietlittleAmy,too,whatwouldshefeelifshecouldknowthatshehadbeeninnocentlythemeansofexposingmetosuchtreatment!ButI’llnevertellher!No,gooddarling,I’llnevertellher!’
ThishelpedMrDorrittobreakhissilence。
’Mydear,’saidhe,’I——ha——approveofyourresolution。Itwillbe——hahum——muchbetternottospeakofthistoAmy。Itmight——
hum——itmightdistressher。Ha。Nodoubtitwoulddistresshergreatly。Itisconsiderateandrighttoavoiddoingso。Wewill——
ha——keepthistoourselves。’
’ButthecrueltyofUncle!’criedMissFanny。’O,InevercanforgivethewantoncrueltyofUncle!’
’Mydear,’saidMrDorrit,recoveringhistone,thoughheremainedunusuallypale,’Imustrequestyounottosayso。Youmustrememberthatyouruncleis——ha——notwhatheformerlywas。Youmustrememberthatyouruncle’sstaterequires——hum——greatforbearancefromus,greatforbearance。’
’Iamsure,’criedFanny,piteously,’itisonlycharitabletosupposethatthereMustbesomethingwronginhimsomewhere,orhenevercouldhavesoattackedMe,ofallthepeopleintheworld。’
’Fanny,’returnedMrDorritinadeeplyfraternaltone,’youknow,withhisinnumerablegoodpoints,whata——hum——wreckyouruncleis;
an]IentreatyoubythefondnessthatIhaveforhim,andbythefidelitythatyouknowIhavealwaysshownhim,to——ha——todrawyourownconclusions,andtosparemybrotherlyfeelings。’
Thisendedthescene;EdwardDorrit,Esquire,sayingnothingthroughout,butlooking,tothelast,perplexedanddoubtful。MissFannyawakenedmuchaffectionateuneasinessinhersister’smindthatdaybypassingthegreaterpartofitinviolentfitsofembracingher,andinalternatelygivingherbrooches,andwishingherselfdead。
SomethingRightSomewhereTobeinthehaltingstateofMrHenryGowan;tohaveleftoneoftwopowersindisgust;towantthenecessaryqualificationsforfindingpromotionwithanother,andtobeloiteringmoodilyaboutonneutralground,cursingboth;istobeinasituationunwholesomeforthemind,whichtimeisnotlikelytoimprove。Theworstclassofsumworkedintheevery-dayworldiscypheredbythediseasedarithmeticianswhoarealwaysintheruleofSubtractionastothemeritsandsuccessesofothers,andneverinAdditionastotheirown。
Thehabit,too,ofseekingsomesortofrecompenseinthediscontentedboastofbeingdisappointed,isahabitfraughtwithdegeneracy。Acertainidlecarelessnessandrecklessnessofconsistencysooncomesofit。Tobringdeservingthingsdownbysettingundeservingthingsupisoneofitsperverteddelights;andthereisnoplayingfastandloosewiththetruth,inanygame,withoutgrowingtheworseforit。
InhisexpressedopinionsofallperformancesintheArtofpaintingthatwerecompletelydestituteofmerit,Gowanwasthemostliberalfellowonearth。Hewoulddeclaresuchamantohavemorepowerinhislittlefingerprovidedhehadnone,thansuchanotherhadprovidedhehadmuchinhiswholemindandbody。Iftheobjectionweretakenthatthethingcommendedwastrash,hewouldreply,onbehalfofhisart,’Mygoodfellow,whatdoweallturnoutbuttrash?Iturnoutnothingelse,andImakeyouapresentoftheconfession。’
Tomakeavauntofbeingpoorwasanotheroftheincidentsofhisspleneticstate,thoughthismayhavehadthedesigninitofshowingthatheoughttoberich;justashewouldpubliclylaudanddecrytheBarnacles,lestitshouldbeforgottenthathebelongedtothefamily。Howbeit,thesetwosubjectswereveryoftenonhislips;andhemanagedthemsowellthathemighthavepraisedhimselfbythemonthtogether,andnothavemadehimselfouthalfsoimportantamanashedidbyhislightdisparagementofhisclaimsonanybody’sconsideration。
Outofthissameairytalkofhis,italwayssooncametobeunderstood,whereverheandhiswifewent,thathehadmarriedagainstthewishesofhisexaltedrelations,andhadhadmuchadotoprevailonthemtocountenanceher。Henevermadetherepresentation,onthecontraryseemedtolaughtheideatoscorn;
butitdidhappenthat,withallhispainstodepreciatehimself,hewasalwaysinthesuperiorposition。Fromthedaysoftheirhoneymoon,MinnieGowanfeltsensibleofbeingusuallyregardedasthewifeofamanwhohadmadeadescentinmarryingher,butwhosechivalrousloveforherhadcancelledthatinequality。
ToVenicetheyhadbeenaccompaniedbyMonsieurBlandoisofParis,andatVeniceMonsieurBlandoisofPariswasverymuchinthesocietyofGowan。WhentheyhadfirstmetthisgallantgentlemanatGeneva,Gowanhadbeenundecidedwhethertokickhimorencouragehim;andhadremainedforaboutfour-and-twentyhours,sotroubledtosettlethepointtohissatisfaction,thathehadthoughtoftossingupafive-francpieceontheterms,’Tails,kick;heads,encourage,’andabidingbythevoiceoftheoracle。
Itchanced,however,thathiswifeexpressedadisliketotheengagingBlandois,andthatthebalanceoffeelinginthehotelwasagainsthim。Uponit,Gowanresolvedtoencouragehim。
Whythisperversity,ifitwerenotinagenerousfit?——whichitwasnot。WhyshouldGowan,verymuchthesuperiorofBlandoisofParis,andverywellabletopullthatprepossessinggentlemantopiecesandfindoutthestuffhewasmadeof,takeupwithsuchaman?Inthefirstplace,heopposedthefirstseparatewishheobservedinhiswife,becauseherfatherhadpaidhisdebtsanditwasdesirabletotakeanearlyopportunityofassertinghisindependence。Inthesecondplace,heopposedtheprevalentfeeling,becausewithmanycapacitiesofbeingotherwise,hewasanill-conditionedman。HefoundapleasureindeclaringthatacourtierwiththerefinedmannersofBlandoisoughttorisetothegreatestdistinctioninanypolishedcountry。HefoundapleasureinsettingupBlandoisasthetypeofelegance,andmakinghimasatireuponotherswhopiquedthemselvesonpersonalgraces。HeseriouslyprotestedthatthebowofBlandoiswasperfect,thattheaddressofBlandoiswasirresistible,andthatthepicturesqueeaseofBlandoiswouldbecheaplypurchasedifitwerenotagift,andunpurchasableforahundredthousandfrancs。Thatexaggerationinthemannerofthemanwhichhasbeennoticedasappertainingtohimandtoeverysuchman,whateverhisoriginalbreeding,ascertainlyasthesunbelongstothissystem,wasacceptabletoGowanasacaricature,whichhefounditahumorousresourcetohaveathandfortheridiculingofnumbersofpeoplewhonecessarilydidmoreorlessofwhatBlandoisoverdid。Thushehadtakenupwithhim;andthus,negligentlystrengtheningtheseinclinationswithhabit,andidlyderivingsomeamusementfromhistalk,hehadglidedintoawayofhavinghimforacompanion。This,thoughhesupposedhimtolivebyhiswitsatplay-tablesandthelike;thoughhesuspectedhimtobeacoward,whilehehimselfwasdaringandcourageous;
thoughhethoroughlyknewhimtobedislikedbyMinnie;andthoughhecaredsolittleforhim,afterall,thatifhehadgivenheranytangiblepersonalcausetoregardhimwithaversion,hewouldhavehadnocompunctionwhateverinflinginghimoutofthehighestwindowinVeniceintothedeepestwaterofthecity。
LittleDorritwouldhavebeengladtomakehervisittoMrsGowan,alone;butasFanny,whohadnotyetrecoveredfromherUncle’sprotest,thoughitwasfour-and-twentyhoursofage,pressinglyofferedhercompany,thetwosisterssteppedtogetherintooneofthegondolasunderMrDorrit’swindow,and,withthecourierinattendance,weretakeninhighstatetoMrsGowan’slodging。Intruth,theirstatewasrathertoohighforthelodging,whichwas,asFannycomplained,’fearfullyoutoftheway,’andwhichtookthemthroughacomplexityofnarrowstreetsofwater,whichthesameladydisparagedas’mereditches。’
Thehouse,onalittledesertisland,lookedasifithadbrokenawayfromsomewhereelse,andhadfloatedbychanceintoitspresentanchorageincompanywithavinealmostasmuchinwantoftrainingasthepoorwretcheswhowerelyingunderitsleaves。Thefeaturesofthesurroundingpicturewere,achurchwithhoardingandscaffoldingaboutit,whichhadbeenundersuppositiousrepairsolongthatthemeansofrepairlookedahundredyearsold,andhadthemselvesfallenintodecay;aquantityofwashedlinen,spreadtodryinthesun;anumberofhousesatoddswithoneanotherandgrotesquelyoutoftheperpendicular,likerottenpre-
Adamitecheesescutintofantasticshapesandfullofmites;andafeverishbewildermentofwindows,withtheirlattice-blindsallhangingaskew,andsomethingdraggledanddirtydanglingoutofmostofthem。
Onthefirst-floorofthehousewasaBank——asurprisingexperienceforanygentlemanofcommercialpursuitsbringinglawsforallmankindfromaBritishcity——wheretwospareclerks,likedrieddragoons,ingreenvelvetcapsadornedwithgoldentassels,stood,bearded,behindasmallcounterinasmallroom,containingnoothervisibleobjectsthananemptyiron-safewiththedooropen,ajugofwater,andapaperingofgarlandofroses;butwho,onlawfulrequisition,bymerelydippingtheirhandsoutofsight,couldproduceexhaustlessmoundsoffive-francpieces。BelowtheBankwasasuiteofthreeorfourroomswithbarredwindows,whichhadtheappearanceofajailforcriminalrats。AbovetheBankwasMrsGowan’sresidence。
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