Withthis,shebouncedacrosstotheoppositepavement。Theolddisgrace,whohadbeendeferentiallybowingapaceortwooffforLittleDorrithadlethisarmgoinherwonder,whenFannybegan,andwhohadbeenhustledandcursedbyimpatientpassengersforstoppingtheway,rejoinedhiscompanion,rathergiddy,andsaid,’Ihopenothing’swrongwithyourhonouredfather,Miss?Ihopethere’snothingthematterinthehonouredfamily?’
’No,no,’returnedLittleDorrit。’No,thankyou。Givemeyourarmagain,MrNandy。Weshallsoonbetherenow。’
Soshetalkedtohimasshehadtalkedbefore,andtheycametotheLodgeandfoundMrChiveryonthelock,andwentin。Now,ithappenedthattheFatheroftheMarshalseawassaunteringtowardstheLodgeatthemomentwhentheywerecomingoutofit,enteringtheprisonarminarm。Asthespectacleoftheirapproachmethisview,hedisplayedtheutmostagitationanddespondencyofmind;
and——altogetherregardlessofOldNandy,who,makinghisreverence,stoodwithhishatinhishand,ashealwaysdidinthatgraciouspresence——turnedabout,andhurriedinathisowndoorwayandupthestaircase。
Leavingtheoldunfortunate,whominanevilhourshehadtakenunderherprotection,withahurriedpromisetoreturntohimdirectly,LittleDorrithastenedafterherfather,and,onthestaircase,foundFannyfollowingher,andflouncingupwithoffendeddignity。Thethreecameintotheroomalmosttogether;
andtheFathersatdowninhischair,buriedhisfaceinhishands,andutteredagroan。
’Ofcourse,’saidFanny。’Veryproper。Poor,afflictedPa!Now,Ihopeyoubelieveme,Miss?’
’Whatisit,father?’criedLittleDorrit,bendingoverhim。’HaveImadeyouunhappy,father?NotI,Ihope!’
’Youhope,indeed!Idaresay!Oh,you’——Fannypausedforasufficientlystrongexpression——’youCommon-mindedlittleAmy!Youcompleteprison-child!’
Hestoppedtheseangryreproacheswithawaveofhishand,andsobbedout,raisinghisfaceandshakinghismelancholyheadathisyoungerdaughter,’Amy,Iknowthatyouareinnocentinintention。
Butyouhavecutmetothesoul。’
’Innocentinintention!’theimplacableFannystruckin。’Stuffinintention!Lowinintention!Loweringofthefamilyinintention!’
’Father!’criedLittleDorrit,paleandtrembling。’Iamverysorry。Prayforgiveme。Tellmehowitis,thatImaynotdoitagain!’
’Howitis,youprevaricatinglittlepieceofgoods!’criedFanny。
’Youknowhowitis。Ihavetoldyoualready,sodon’tflyinthefaceofProvidencebyattemptingtodenyit!’
’Hush!Amy,’saidthefather,passinghispocket-handkerchiefseveraltimesacrosshisface,andthengraspingitconvulsivelyinthehandthatdroppedacrosshisknee,’IhavedonewhatIcouldtokeepyouselecthere;IhavedonewhatIcouldtoretainyouapositionhere。Imayhavesucceeded;Imaynot。Youmayknowit;
youmaynot。Igivenoopinion。Ihaveenduredeverythingherebuthumiliation。ThatIhavehappilybeenspared——untilthisday。’
Herehisconvulsivegraspuncloseditself,andheputhispocket-
handkerchieftohiseyesagain。LittleDorrit,onthegroundbesidehim,withherimploringhanduponhisarm,watchedhimremorsefully。Comingoutofhisfitofgrief,heclenchedhispocket-handkerchiefoncemore。
’HumiliationIhavehappilybeenspareduntilthisday。Throughallmytroublestherehasbeenthat——Spiritinmyself,andthat——
thatsubmissiontoit,ifImayusetheterm,inthoseaboutme,whichhassparedme——ha——humiliation。Butthisday,thisminute,Ihavekeenlyfeltit。’
’Ofcourse!Howcoulditbeotherwise?’exclaimedtheirrepressibleFanny。’CareeringandprancingaboutwithaPauper!’
air-gunagain。
’But,dearfather,’criedLittleDorrit,’Idon’tjustifymyselfforhavingwoundedyourdearheart——no!HeavenknowsIdon’t!’
Sheclaspedherhandsinquiteanagonyofdistress。’Idonothingbutbegandprayyoutobecomfortedandoverlookit。ButifIhadnotknownthatyouwerekindtotheoldmanyourself,andtookmuchnoticeofhim,andwerealwaysgladtoseehim,Iwouldnothavecomeherewithhim,father,Iwouldnot,indeed。WhatIhavebeensounhappyastodo,Ihavedoneinmistake。Iwouldnotwilfullybringateartoyoureyes,dearlove!’saidLittleDorrit,herheartwell-nighbroken,’foranythingtheworldcouldgiveme,oranythingitcouldtakeaway。’
Fanny,withapartlyangryandpartlyrepentantsob,begantocryherself,andtosay——asthisyoungladyalwayssaidwhenshewashalfinpassionandhalfoutofit,halfspitefulwithherselfandhalfspitefulwitheverybodyelse——thatshewishedsheweredead。
TheFatheroftheMarshalseainthemeantimetookhisyoungerdaughtertohisbreast,andpattedherhead。
’There,there!Saynomore,Amy,saynomore,mychild。IwillforgetitassoonasIcan。I,’withhystericalcheerfulness,’I——
shallsoonbeabletodismissit。Itisperfectlytrue,mydear,thatIamalwaysgladtoseemyoldpensioner——assuch,assuch——
andthatIdo——ha——extendasmuchprotectionandkindnesstothe——
hum——thebruisedreed——ItrustImaysocallhimwithoutimpropriety——asinmycircumstances,Ican。Itisquitetruethatthisisthecase,mydearchild。Atthesametime,Ipreserveindoingthis,ifImay——ha——ifImayusetheexpression——Spirit。
BecomingSpirit。Andtherearesomethingswhichare,’hestoppedtosob,’irreconcilablewiththat,andwoundthat——wounditdeeply。
ItisnotthatIhaveseenmygoodAmyattentive,and——ha——
condescendingtomyoldpensioner——itisnotthatthathurtsme。
Itis,ifIamtoclosethepainfulsubjectbybeingexplicit,thatIhaveseenmychild,myownchild,myowndaughter,comingintothisCollegeoutofthepublicstreets——smiling!smiling!——arminarmwith——OmyGod,alivery!’
Thisreferencetothecoatofnocutandnotime,theunfortunategentlemangaspedforth,inascarcelyaudiblevoice,andwithhisclenchedpocket-handkerchiefraisedintheair。Hisexcitedfeelingsmighthavefoundsomefurtherpainfulutterance,butforaknockatthedoor,whichhadbeenalreadytwicerepeated,andtowhichFannystillwishingherselfdead,andindeednowgoingsofarastoadd,buriedcried’Comein!’
’Ah,YoungJohn!’saidtheFather,inanalteredandcalmedvoice。
’Whatisit,YoungJohn?’
’Aletterforyou,sir,beingleftintheLodgejustthisminute,andamessagewithit,Ithought,happeningtobetheremyself,sir,Iwouldbringittoyourroom。’Thespeaker’sattentionwasmuchdistractedbythepiteousspectacleofLittleDorritatherfather’sfeet,withherheadturnedaway。
’Indeed,John?Thankyou。’
’TheletterisfromMrClennam,sir——it’stheanswer——andthemessagewas,sir,thatMrClennamalsosenthiscompliments,andwordthathewoulddohimselfthepleasureofcallingthisafternoon,hopingtoseeyou,andlikewise,’attentionmoredistractedthanbefore,’MissAmy。’
’Oh!’AstheFatherglancedintothelettertherewasabank-noteinit,hereddenedalittle,andpattedAmyontheheadafresh。
’Thankyou,YoungJohn。Quiteright。Muchobligedtoyouforyourattention。Noonewaiting?’
’No,sir,noonewaiting。’
’Thankyou,John。Howisyourmother,YoungJohn?’
’Thankyou,sir,she’snotquiteaswellaswecouldwish——infact,wenoneofusare,exceptfather——butshe’sprettywell,sir。’
’Saywesentourremembrances,willyou?Saykindremembrances,ifyouplease,YoungJohn。’
’Thankyou,sir,Iwill。’AndMrChiveryjuniorwenthisway,havingspontaneouslycomposedonthespotanentirelynewepitaphforhimself,totheeffectthatHerelaythebodyofJohnChivery,Who,Havingatsuchadate,Beheldtheidolofhislife,Ingriefandtears,Andfeelingunabletobeartheharrowingspectacle,Immediatelyrepairedtotheabodeofhisinconsolableparents,Andterminatedhisexistencebyhisownrashact。
’There,there,Amy!’saidtheFather,whenYoungJohnhadclosedthedoor,’letussaynomoreaboutit。’Thelastfewminuteshadimprovedhisspiritsremarkably,andhewasquitelightsome。
’Whereismyoldpensionerallthiswhile?Wemustnotleavehimbyhimselfanylonger,orhewillbegintosupposeheisnotwelcome,andthatwouldpainme。Willyoufetchhim,mychild,orshallI?’
’Ifyouwouldn’tmind,father,’saidLittleDorrit,tryingtobringhersobbingtoaclose。
’CertainlyIwillgo,mydear。Iforgot;youreyesareratherred。
There!Cheerup,Amy。Don’tbeuneasyaboutme。Iamquitemyselfagain,mylove,quitemyself。Gotoyourroom,Amy,andmakeyourselflookcomfortableandpleasanttoreceiveMrClennam。’
’Iwouldratherstayinmyownroom,Father,’returnedLittleDorrit,findingitmoredifficultthanbeforetoregainhercomposure。’IwouldfarrathernotseeMrClennam。’
’Oh,fie,fie,mydear,that’sfolly。MrClennamisaverygentlemanlyman——verygentlemanly。Alittlereservedattimes;butIwillsayextremelygentlemanly。Icouldn’tthinkofyournotbeingheretoreceiveMrClennam,mydear,especiallythisafternoon。Sogoandfreshenyourselfup,Amy;goandfreshenyourselfup,likeagoodgirl。’
Thusdirected,LittleDorritdutifullyroseandobeyed:onlypausingforamomentasshewentoutoftheroom,togivehersisterakissofreconciliation。Uponwhich,thatyounglady,feelingmuchharassedinhermind,andhavingforthetimewornoutthewishwithwhichshegenerallyrelievedit,conceivedandexecutedthebrilliantideaofwishingOldNandydead,ratherthanthatheshouldcomebotheringtherelikeadisgusting,tiresome,wickedwretch,andmakingmischiefbetweentwosisters。
TheFatheroftheMarshalsea,evenhummingatune,andwearinghisblackvelvetcapalittleononeside,somuchimprovedwerehisspirits,wentdownintotheyard,andfoundhisoldpensionerstandingtherehatinhandjustwithinthegate,ashehadstoodallthistime。’Come,Nandy!’saidhe,withgreatsuavity。’Comeup-stairs,Nandy;youknowtheway;whydon’tyoucomeup-stairs?’
Hewentthelength,onthisoccasion,ofgivinghimhishandandsaying,’Howareyou,Nandy?Areyouprettywell?’Towhichthatvocalistreturned,’Ithankyou,honouredsir,Iamallthebetterforseeingyourhonour。’Astheywentalongtheyard,theFatheroftheMarshalseapresentedhimtoaCollegianofrecentdate。’Anoldacquaintanceofmine,sir,anoldpensioner。’Andthensaid,’Becovered,mygoodNandy;putyourhaton,’withgreatconsideration。
Hispatronagedidnotstophere;forhechargedMaggytogettheteaready,andinstructedhertobuycertaintea-cakes,freshbutter,eggs,coldham,andshrimps:topurchasewhichcollationhegaveherabank-notefortenpounds,layingstrictinjunctionsonhertobecarefulofthechange。Thesepreparationswereinanadvancedstageofprogress,andhisdaughterAmyhadcomebackwithherwork,whenClennampresentedhimself;whomhemostgraciouslyreceived,andbesoughttojointheirmeal。
’Amy,mylove,youknowMrClennamevenbetterthanIhavethehappinessofdoing。Fanny,mydear,youareacquaintedwithMrClennam。’Fannyacknowledgedhimhaughtily;thepositionshetacitlytookupinallsuchcasesbeingthattherewasavastconspiracytoinsultthefamilybynotunderstandingit,orsufficientlydeferringtoit,andherewasoneoftheconspirators。
’This,MrClennam,youmustknow,isanoldpensionerofmine,OldNandy,averyfaithfuloldman。’Healwaysspokeofhimasanobjectofgreatantiquity,buthewastwoorthreeyearsyoungerthanhimself。’Letmesee。YouknowPlornish,Ithink?IthinkmydaughterAmyhasmentionedtomethatyouknowpoorPlornish?’
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